Addiction is the scariest topic you've covered. As a clinically depressed former psychonaught, thanks for calling out the dangers of MAOI/SSRI interaction. Serotonin syndrome is no joke.
I was about to look up what the dangerous interaction between them was, but you already said it. I've had mild serotonin syndrome symptoms before. It's truly awful.
i'm happy he bought it up as well!! i'm someone who's gone through serotonin syndrome and it was suuuuuper awful and not something to gloss over and say that it can't be that bad
I once had serotonin syndrome as a result of a medication treatment. like, my docs messed up and almost killed me, while I was in a hospital. can confirm you don't want to even play around with maybe getting it. it sucks if it DOESN'T kill you, and it is very possible it will kill you.
I was taking Prozac for my anxiety and smoked some weed with my friends and got Seratonin Syndrome and it was awful. My heart was racing so fast and it was super hard to breathe
Even in his later vids, he spoke like a sophisticated and kind man. You could tell there was a brilliant guy underneath all those addiction. I feel really bad for him.
Terry is my daughter’s father! There’s so much more than then what this video explains. Terry was very loved and very loving. I was in a relationship with him over 11 years we tornado chased together and everything. He died in July 2023. I miss him.
@@JustSomeKittenwithaGun please refrain from using her name is a minor and separate from Terrys world, I’ve raised her. She knew him on his good days. I wished she never found this video. I’m not sure of her comment on here. I need to find it, but it disturbed her in our real life for a while as it did me. He was so much more than this!
So sad to know he documented so much of his descent into such a dark place, but couldn’t get the help he needed. It’s both heartwarming and sad that he still thought of other people in moments of clarity, and hoping they didn’t follow down his path. Amazing video Eric!!
The way this man practically documented his downfall day after day is something. its as sad as its lesson on the dangers of mental health and drinking.
I get what you mean by failed society. Most people would prefer to watch him spiral for entertainment and then if he snapped, they'll act like they had no idea. 🙃
That part that really spoke to me was how he acknowledged that his old content was more positive, but didn’t get any attention. That really hits close to home, I think everyone can agree. Positivity often goes unappreciated and ignored while negativity gets all the attention, and it can lead some people to do horrible things.
Very true! Unfortunately it's often human nature to be more interested in negative stuff rather than the positive. One thing I do want to mention, that I left out or the videos was that Terry's Booze Review videos didn't actually perform any better than his other content. All of it practically gained no views at all. I think Terry's comment about people caring more about the reviews was just his way of rationalizing continuing his drinking. I just didn't want to go into that detail as much in the video because I didn't want to detract much from his character.
My neighbour and friend growing up had an alcoholic father. It not only devastated his father but his whole family, it makes me extremely sad to think about. Lives destroyed and people with hopes and dreams for the future get dragged into the chaos.
@@nervesinapattern7261 it can take someone who is very functional from an outside perspective to a destructive mess. there is this guy on this website somewhere, where he shows what he has to do when he gets shakes and why his alcoholism sucks and how he used to function before hand. its a demon that most people either forget or ignore.
@@chrism4008 Blaming alcohol is a cop-out, the problem runs much deeper and that is the ACTUAL issue. It's a mixture of mental health and society being the way it is.
IDK if you heard, but a UA-camr named MittenSquad tragically passed away a few days due alcoholism. According to his family, he came home one night blackout drunk and unfortunately he suffocated because of his pillow. He was only 27. He struggled with addiction for the longest time and it sucks he wasn't able to overcome it. This video reminded me of that. Addiction is a bitch.
I know this comment will probably get buried, but I just want to thank you, Eric, for always being one of the most unique and captivating voices on UA-cam. I’ve been watching you since 2015 and don’t plan on stopping
@@ScareTheaterbeen around since you made those deleted Minecraft videos from 2013 and when you made those old gameplay videos of popular indie games at the time like SCP containment breech. Same those videos are gone.
My first introduction to this channel was the no sleeping for a week challenge, but I stayed for the well-researched and well put-together content like this one, much love from Taiwan❤
My ex is an alcoholic, and yes alcoholism is just a symptom of a deeper issue. It was astonishing how alcohol would (over time) completely consume her mind, till eventually everything she had and loved was gone. Its a terrifying disease.
Poor guy . He still had something to say right up to the end . I don't think alcohol was his only problem, and I don't mean other substances . Terry seemed like a good dude , and imo , really stood for something that he believed whole heartedly in (himself , his philosophy, how people should act , views on society .... whatever) and could not yield an inch to his convictions . When he found other people , society , were much more malleable in THEIR positions , the mental strain began . I say this because no matter what he had tried , he came up empty and alone , seemingly with no support , and when at last he came to doubt himself , as he perceived others must , it was too much . I mean , alcohol kills many people , but in that time span it seems driven . Maybe speculation , and I can't write a book here , but this is the feeling I got . R.I.P Terry , your escape was the world's loss . They just didn't know it . They never do . P.S. He kept posting because he thought he was passing something valuable onto his viewers ("his kids") , apparently the only ones he thought still believed in him . Idk , tragic .
It's disturbing how tyler's life started mostly normal, But as time went on, He damaged himself to a large degree by drinking large amounts of alcohol, It's saddning how he didn't get the help that he needed when he was a true danger to himself, Rip Tyler
He was the age around in which schizophrenia most commonly starts presenting itself. Of course his ongoing drinking exacerbated his mental health to a great degree, but drinking doesn't CAUSE schizophrenia. He was likely self-medicating the emerging symptoms.
It's even more disturbing when you think about how Terry is neither the 1st nor will be the last one to end up in such tragic situation & not receive the help they need.
As an addict, I can tell you without a doubt that the reason he started the booze reviews was because he made a deal with himself that the only time he drinks would be for those videos. Eventually he started turning the camera on as an excuse to drink (which it always was) and let the reviews fall to the background. Creating a rule unsuccessfully like this can actually be worse, because you get the feeling of accomplishment by sticking to your rule while continually pushing the boundaries of it, making the rule effectively useless. I am confident in this because of the self awareness he exhibits.
As an addict as well, Not every addict is the same. Most former addicts think you can never return to your old habit, and it's simply not true. I know many former addicts who were able to go back without ever going over board again. I understand they just say it because they can't do it again and I think it's a jealousy thing, which is silly but it drives me bonkers when addicts think they know other addicts. Not everyone can develop self control but some do.
I met a lot of people just like him on the road. I traveled the country hitchhiking and met many, many people, and often guys like him are referred to as "schwilly kids", meaning alcoholics. It's SO heartbreaking. There are so many people like this that just fall through the cracks. They die of mistakes like trying to hop on a freight train while too intoxicated, and get run over, or freeze to death, cirrhosis, any number of sad and painful ways to go. No one reaches out to help. We were all out there so broken, and it takes a lot to get out of that situation. The saddest part is seeing their gifts, but watching them do nothing with them and drink their lives away, because they can't deal with the pain they've experienced and tried their best to run away from. So many of my friends have died this way, and it's such a helpless feeling. Thanks for covering this and bringing awareness.
god this is so sad. terry seemed like such a smart, interesting, nice guy. it’s so heartbreaking how he destroyed himself, especially since it’s all documented. addiction is horrific. i hope he’s found peace now
Let me add some tangential background information about what life is like down here as a Mississippian. A large percentage of people down here start drinking at around 14-16 even under their parent's supervision, because they have the mindset of "you're going to do it anyway, so just do it under my roof so you don't get hurt and don't get a girl pregnant". My grandfather has had a bad alc addiction and no one in my family other than he drinks, although the first sip I ever had was at 19, didn't even finish the can, just wanted to see what it tasted like. Most kids smoke, vape, and drink by 16 and are quitting around 22, if they quit. If you don't drink, you're a loser at college (MSU and Ole Miss). The classism divide he mentions in his first few videos is incredibly true. You're either the son of a farmer, doctor, the ceo of a local company, or a nobody. That goes for white folk and black folk. Racism isn't nearly as bad here as people make it out to be, its mainly a class divide. There are very few "self-made" workers that aren't blue collar and very few who are in the upper middle class (what I would call >100k a year) who didn't get that way through nepotism. Alcohol, weed, and tobacco are definitely holding many people down financially. You either hunt, fish, drink, smoke, watch stupid SEC football, or hunt-fish-drink-smoke-and watch football on your boat all at the same time because (especially in the Delta) there is nothing to do besides eat at fast food restaurants and go to Church on Sunday. The average town here has less than 10k people, hundreds of farm acres, four mexican restaurants, high priced resale stores, a failing hospital, maybe a walmart, several liquor stores, one grocery store, 10 baptist churches, 2 bars, and a bowling alley or movie theatre if you're lucky (you can only pick one or the other). His comments on nudist culture is actually not wrong, I know from my own personal experience that there are nudist/lifestyle/swinger parties that take place behind closed doors in north MS (Southaven, Tupelo, Oxford, surrounding Memphis areas) and especially the casinos on the gulf coast where it seems like almost every third person is in an open relationship (Gulfport, Biloxi, Pascagoula). I was invited to go with a couple I became friends with while I was in college in oxford to some swinger clubs if I brought a friend from my class with me, and I politely declined. It happens all the time in college towns, and many high ranking medical professionals are in on it, it's just something you're not supposed to talk about. I once hooked up with a married woman who didn't tell me until after the fact at Ole Miss because she kept her ring off the whole time, the husband was fine with it and she called him after immediately in front of me to tell him she was coming home. It's like the midwest with the whole "trucker swinger night life" vibe in a lot of towns at night.
Yours is the most eloquent compassionate insight of what LEADS to addiction AND the perils of 'success' and mammon whilst keeping ones soul/integrity intact.
"swinger parties" aka orgies are probably one of the most common TRADITIONAL eurocentric ruling class activities in all of eurocentric culture lol. people think i joke when i talk about well off folks sucking off royals for bags of coke in the weekly royal orgies. but thats literally a thing that regularly happens in europe, and thus, also happens for the well off americans who try their hardest to emulate rich europeans for whatever reason..
As a Clinical Social Worker, Therapist, & someone who’s specialized in the addictions field for years, I want to address the idea you present at the end of the video. There are many programs available in my state, I don’t know about Mississippi, but mandating that someone receives treatment presents a bit of an ethical dilemma. We want to honor an individual’s autonomy. Another con to mandated treatment is that the “success” rate (usually 12 months of sobriety) is extremely low for those who are forced into treatment. It’s a complex issue, and I think education and harm reduction are the best options we have available right now. This man looks like so many of the dual-diagnosis patients I’ve worked with, and it’s a stark reminder of how quickly alcohol can degrade someone’s physical & mental health. I appreciate all your content & I think this video will spread some awareness and knowledge about these issues, thanks!
Thank you for your insight! You're right, this issue is complicated, and my proposed solution at the end was a bit too simplistic. Thank you for the social work that you do!
A forrmer LCSW I can tell you Mississippi has very little in the way of mental health/addiction services. Most people with issues end up in jail waiting months to years for an assessment.
funny how it is unethical to lock uo addicts but the moment a bipolar patient tells you to f*** off, you get power drunk and put them in a 72 hour involuntary hold.
Exactly. For some reason young people think it’s the governments job to step in and make someone get help, never thinking about the fact that the government could then just hold anyone they want against their will using claims of mental illness or danger to society. The last 2 or 3 videos I’ve watched have had personal politics thrown in at the end of the video and it just ruins it.
@@OlDirtyBandit I live in a country with public healthcare and it's really hard still to get someone committed even if they're still a danger to others and themselves
This breaks my heart. My mom was struggling with alcoholism and got sober on and off, but ended up losing her battle with this wretched disease. Seeing it with your own eyes, in real time, hurts. Rest easy Terry.
This guy passed away on my birthday. While I was out having the time of my life, this guy was off somewhere, probably dying a lonely and painful death. That is so fucking tragic and sad to think about. RIP
COVID was a horrible time. I was becoming an alcoholic, lots of my friends where alcoholics, I knew so many people who dropped out of school and became homeless. I am glad I made it through.
@@krsteonMost vaccines have some level of minor side effects. The frequency of tachycardia from a vaccine is also really low, and much more likely to be caused by covid than anything else.
I found him a few months back and went down the rabbit hole of his Community tab on UA-cam. Scrolling back at least a few years, you can see him slowly becoming more detached, paranoid, lonely and full of hatred for the U.S. government. His posts become evermore cryptic and psychotic. I feel for this guy. R.I.P. Thank you for telling his story, Eric. ♥️
Thank you for showing that Terry, really tried hard to make a difference in the world but sadly it just didn't workout for him. This is heartbreaking I truly hope you Terry have found peace now. In your early videos you seemed like such a bright light but the alcohol brought you darkness. I am so truly sorry that life was to much for you our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your friends and family please Terry RIP. If you are having hard time please remember it is never too late to get help even in your darkest hour there is always a light at the end of the tunnel of hope. including you and everyone else you are special in your own way please don't give up there is someone who loves and cares about you even if don't think so.
Terry truly seems like a decent genuine guy. I went through several years of daily drinking and when I began a detox program it changed my life so much. If Terry ever got the help he needed he would have been one hell of an amazing sponsor for someone in need. I sincerely hope he is in a better place with peace in his heart.
Damn, as a person who struggles with alcohol problems, this is very depressing and also a reality check for me. I haven't got ostracized yet, still have family and friends, but I got into a number of debts and lost a really great job couple months ago due to drinking. Right now I'm trying to get a new one and stay sober. The guy was def struggling with personal problems, hence his search for alternate medicine. It really sucks, because the lower you fail, the harder is to get back up and all the anger and anxiety makes you want to have a drinke even more. It's a form of escapism from the harsh reality of life.
I'm struggling too, brother. Whenever I try to quit, I get insomnia and night sweats and it's affecting my work way more than having 5-6 beers before sleep. After this video I swear I will try again now. I will even seek medical help if it gets bad, cause quitting alcohol cold turkey can even be life threatening.
Been there, unfortunately my wake up call was developing pancreatitis. Trust me, it's the worst pain I've ever experienced, and treating it is just as, if not, more dreadful. There's so many reasons to give up the bottle, I just always want to mention the high risk of pancreatitis because no one wants to feel like they've been shot and have to starve it out
@@ProperBanterMateif you're under the age of 50 most doctors won't think about it, but please friend also ask your doctor about your pancreatic health❤️ pancreatitis is a bitch and a half, I don't wish it on anyone
This guy kinda reminds me of one of my friends from high school. He was, and still is, such a sweet and caring person. Unfortunately due to what seemed to be a mental break after losing his two babies to SIDS he became homeless and addicted to meth. For years now he goes around the city ranting that he’s magic and other magical people are stealing his powers. I ran into him a couple weeks ago and he was so upset because he apparently had a girlfriend who believed in all this. Then he lost her to someone who is able to block his magical powers that makes her love him. He honestly looks like he hasn’t had a shower since we graduated high school 14 years ago. Watching someone who was pretty normal self destructive like this is heartbreaking. Just like BoozeTube i won’t be surprised to find out that he passed away any day now
No joke, after my ex girlfriend left me a year ago, I could have gone down a path similar to this. I was so depressed, all I did was drink, I had no aim in life and my ex was on top of the world, she’s even seeing someone new, but thankfully my parents and brother snapped me back into reality and it’s been great having their support, this man is a lesson but also glimpse into a dark future if I continued down the path of addiction.
I think all of us have had moments where it couldve taken off into a very wrong and tough path, no one chooses addiction. Only the very young have theirs still ahead of them, life can sure be sick fever dream at times. Im from the shitty part of city, most of my childhood and school friends have addictions of varying levels, many of them gone. Glad youre ok today, and still here. Btw, be extra aware on the next hiccup - because there is always next one - so it wont turn into indulging. You got this, keep those dark feelings at bay (they cant hurt you unless you let them, they will pass, I promise) and Im sure someone new waits to meet you too, youll see :)
I think it is disturbing and scary, because it's so sad and tragic. It's so.. Real. It's not ghouls or goblins, it's a very real and all too common tragedy
The government programs exist, but you have to fight to get into them, and that includes filing a dizzying array of paperwork, staying on the phone with thoroughly unpleasant people who are sick and tired of dealing with the public, and showing up to mandatory appointments that can be made or canceled at a moment's notice. For a lot of people struggling the hardest, they need someone who is right there at their side, keeping them on-task, calling them to make sure they go to their appointments, and urging them to keep up with the paperwork. Usually this falls to family, so if someone doesn't have family, they're screwed. The job of social workers was created to bridge this gap, but the caseloads just kept increasing until no one got the personalized help they need.
This is sad to see, knowing that a lot of mental illnesses either manifest or escalate roughly in the mid-twenties, which seems to be when he began falling. I wonder what he would've achieved if he had actually gotten help instead of sinking into alcohol.
This actually made me cry. It's crazy to think that ancient humans and Neanderthals took care of their sick and/or wounded, when resources were limited but in this time of abundance, people are ostracized from society, left to die.
Thank you for approaching this in a sensitive, compassionate manner. Too many times people take these type of tragedy lightly. As someone who has suffered the same illness, and circumstance as the subject (mental health issues, substance abuse, and homelessness) I can say that this can be prevented. Mental Health Care/ Health Care in general for all, should be an a benefit to paying taxes and not have our money going to the wars of foreign lands where they DO have universal health care.
this story was rough, poor guy. self destruction and mental illness are two very difficult battles to fight. ❤ thank you for the amazing video and awesome content as always, scaretheater!
I am really grateful for spaces like this on UA-cam and the internet at large. Terry's journey ended tragically, and instead of berating him and saying that he lacked personal responsibility or he did it to himself, or that people hide behind mental health to avoid taking accountability, because they are lazy and don't want to work, etc., we are able to recognize that this person needed help with problems bigger than he could manage himself. I see that sentiment stated far too often by people who are not too far off from this situation themselves. It really is demoralizing to see how fixated and obsessed with the idea of hyper-individualization so many people, especially here in the U.S. are. It has been drilled into their heads and it is functioning as intended. There are some things you can control, but by and large you are a product of the community and people around you, and when the system refuses to help people like this and blame them for their misfortune, it unfortunately is not really surprising that this is the reality very many people around you today find themselves in. Thank you ScareTheater, and rest in peace Terry. You deserved better.
In America, most people only think of themselves. This is just entertainment for those with non addiction issues. It will probably change with all the illegals flooding in.
I had to watch knowing it wasn't going to have a happy ending.. but because of your video, I cried over the death of a man I never (not will I ever) know. Thank you. I hope his soul has found the rest he never could find here, in this world.
When I was 16 I started to travel around because I was homeless. I traveled with a group now well known as the “Rainbow gathering”. Not exactly relevant, but, a lot of people from the group remind me of this man. Particularly from the camp “A-Camp” which is a colorful colloquialism for “alcoholic camp” or something to that effect. They had sordid histories and weren’t exactly bad people, but self destructive. A huge part of who I am today is seeing how they engaged with not only their environment but their peers and themselves. I saw a lot of people pass away or go missing for many reasons in my short period with them. It was rumored that a man fell into Lake Mary in Florida while intoxicated. I don’t really know the validly of that statement, but I have from time to time checked in on the gathering. But I digress. It is sad to see, and I hope this serves as a lesson to the community.
When I was a goth teenager, I used to hang with them in my teens when they came to New England. Most of them were decent people. There were some bad apples but they'd be gone the next year.
I just want to say, there's a lot of "Darker side" channels out there, and a lot of them are really great, but you're will always be one of, if not the best. You always find something new and interesting to cover, but more importantly, and I think it's the most important thing, you ALWAYS approach your subjects with skeptisicm, compassion, and empathy. A lot of other channels would tell this story, and even would tell it respectfully, but few would go to the lengths that you went to, to humanize and sympathize with him. To see the human behind the "wow this is dark" subject. To care and talk about the human who went through this. That and your ability to research things extensively, to make sure you have as many facts of the situation as you can, and to reality check some of the more fantastical things you cover. Youre' skeptical but not cynical and that distinction is so important, especially in this genera of content. That is why I will always watch what you make as soon as I can, and always get excited when I see a new upload from you. Thank you for your work dude, keep it up!
Thank you so much. This comment really means a lot to me. As a creator, I'm always struggling with thoughts that my content isn't good enough, but comments like this really reassure me. I appreciate it.
@@ScareTheater I feel like that voice is always there no matter how good you are, but I'm glad to have helped to allay it, even a bit. Your content is truly great. I'm happy my words meant something to you!
Alcoholism and other drug addiction mixed with potential existing illness or mental conditions truly are a devilish and scary thing that sadly is skyrocketing more and more counting on where you live. Ive seen this kind of thing first hand and in other families many times and its tragic all the same. Im grateful that there are folks in my family that got help but they were so close to ending up in this similar situation. Its really sad how we dont treat these things seriously or if we do help is still out reach for many to do lack of access or money/insurance.
Its really so sad. And the scary part is this could happen to any and all of us. At the end of the day we are human, and humans are capable of succumbing to addiction whether we want to or not. This guy seems genuinely good and sweet underneath, but he certainly needed help and he might not have ever been provided with it or he might not have ever done what was necessary to help himself. We'll never know.
This is only slightly related but thank you for bringing up the dangers of Ayahuasca! While I have never considered taking it I still had no idea that it contained MAOI and as someone who is on a rather high prescription of SSRIs it’s crazy to know that if I would have actually been interested in taking it, I would have been dead without even knowing it. That’s seriously terrifying, so thank you for spreading awareness!
tupelo is in the mississippi delta where my family has been for generations. this behavior is extremely normal in the delta where there is literally nothing to do but work at a gas station or get drunk all day. its a very depressing area.
My ex-wife was a paranoid schizophrenic. Her way of self-medicating was to drink. By the time we separated in 2015, I would have classified her as an alcoholic. I cut contact because she was abusive in pretty much every way you can be. I got word she died of acute liver failure in 2021. At 32 years old. This video really showed me the road she probably went down in her last few years. It’s horrendous. I feel terrible for anyone who has to suffer like this. It destroys your life and everyone around you.
❤ My father and my oldest son (he is 28) are alcoholics. THANK YOU for covering this story. I can't even begin to cover the reasons why alcoholism awareness is so important here, but this video is a good start in educating one's self. We love you ST 🌹
its honestly so scary how simple addiction can just takeover completely anybody you see who succumed to the deepest depth of any substance its always surreal to remember they were once like you and had their own hopes and dreams it takes very little to become addicted may terry rest in piece :(
Soooooo cool you went to Peru and got to experience a genuine ayahuasca experience with a shaman. I have looked into it very superficially, as well as ibogaine, to help with things like cptsd and trauma, but never wanted to cut corners to experience it. I also knew about serotonin syndrome, but did not know about the interactions between ssri's and ayahuasca. Thank you so much for giving your viewers real information and warnings about some of the stuff you're covering.
Heavy stuff. Having been through addiction whilst struggling with mental illness, this cuts deep. How quickly it takes people, even those with a sound mind. You'll do anything long enough to escape the habit of living, until the escape becomes the habit.
I suffered with mental illness and alot of different substance abuse since i was a kid. Ive been thru alot and did alot im not proud of. Im 27 now and im clean since the end of last year. I found my inner strength to get myself on track and do myself some good, not just for me but for my loved ones. I love ur channel and this episode hit my heart deep. Im still at war with myself and some things i will never heal from. Ive been in psych wards all my life and im scared that one day im gonna get caged up forever. No one understands the mental pain we go thru with deep depression. It takes u into hell and back. I feel bad that this man was crying for help and no one listened. Alot of good people get left behind becuz no one wants to go back and get them. Tbh im in tears right now writing this becuz i kno that theres more people like this out there. I just hope that everyone suffering gets the help they need and deserve.
This is so sad. As someone who struggles with mental health and has struggled with alcohol in the past, I feel for this guy. The only reason I'm still here is that I had an extremely supportive family to fall back on. You are absolutely right that our society and government need to form *well-funded* and robust support programs for people like Tyler. Mental health, substance abuse, and housing support in this country are so lacking when you really look into it. No one should have to deal with this stuff alone, and in many cases it is impossible to do so. Some people cant be helped sometimes, but I would argue that not nearly enough is done to help as things stand now. There isn't even anything in place that could've saved him, and that's the problem I see.
I can recognize myself in this guy, it's sad how many of us would rather be in a haze to get through the day than being fully aware and in the present. I do believe this is a product of modern western society where the goal of life is presented as achieving as much as possible as soon as possible, becoming "successful" within a chosen field and how we (unconsciously or not) compare ourselves to others through the access we have to others lives via social media. this is not what was intended fo us, somewhere things went wrong. it's not normal how many people suffer from depression, anxiety and su!cidal thoughts, as well as substance abuse, only by living life. and the numbers are only going up...
My FIL is an alcoholic.My husband used to tell me how awful their life was when he drank and when he came home drunk, saying that he was especially agressive towards his wife and basically neglecting his kids.He is a disheveled man, blurting out random nonsense and overall...doesn't care about anything besides alcohol.The sad thing is that, just like Terry, he was an extremely intelligent and respected man before his downfall
Eric I just bought your new Paranoia long sleeve shirt! I've been watching you for 7 or 8 years and it's by far the least I can do. Can't wait to represent!
Thank you for approaching this is such a respectful manner. I hadn't heard of Terry before this video, but I had a grandfather who suffered from alcohol abuse and have personal connections with others who have struggled with addiction to other substances. It’s so easy for many to just look at the rants and any inappropriate behavior and laugh or criticize someone. Looking at Terry’s videos over time you truly see how quickly and completely addiction can consume someone and take over their lives. I wish there was more support from law enforcement and communities to help individuals. It’s possible that there were resources available to him, but he was not informed of what they were or how to access them. People tend to forget that addiction is a disease and there are often comorbidities that increase someone’s risk of developing an addiction, such as different mental illnesses or chronic illness. As heartbreaking as it is to see Terry’s decent into darkness, it is a true look into the struggles and outcomes of this disease. I think a lot can be learned from his channel and videos when looked at as a whole and hopefully there is good that will come from him documenting his life. He seemed like someone who wanted the best for others and to connect and help inspire and assist people to achieve their true potential and be their best. I think that he will continue to do that as these videos can hopefully help someone identify their own need to address their addiction or for people to understand addiction better and help others struggling. Thank you again for this video. I think it will help by reaching people who should see it. Thank you for sharing Terry’s story in such a manner where we can learn so much and thank you for sharing your own vulnerability in how his story effected you emotionally. I always look forward to your videos and your storytelling. It’s always captivating. 🖤
I could see so clearly how behind the alcohol-induced stupor, he had a large, warm heart, and genuinely wanted nothing but the best for others and the world in general. People don't just start drinking for no reason, it's pretty much always as self-medication for some sort of trauma, stress, duress, etc. I hope he's at peace now. There are millions and millions of others who were like him, and sadly more that will wind up like him. Stay good, everyone.
As someone who has been battling depression and addiction since I was 12 (36 now), I still can’t seem to get things right. I know what this guy was going through, I try to find hope in the next day and take it one day at a time, I still worry that is the next day gonna be my last
Alcohol can certainly cause delusions and odd speech patterns. Its damaging effect on the brain can also cause bad impulse control and weakened social abilities. All this to say, he certainly could have had a mental illness outside of the alcohol, but none of what is shown here is atypical for severe alcoholism. I come from a family with multiple alcoholics, and it is a far worse drug than its given credit for. Its slow action leads people to believe it's safer than other drugs, in reality it is just more insidious. The slow action, and the false comfort it gives is why it can trap people in so easily and thoroughly.
I'm glad you're back. Stories like that start to scare me after hearings thst my other favorite UA-camr died of alcoholism. Said new video will be in a new year, but it will never happen.
Damn i watched the whole thing hoping by the end he'd get help or we get an update where he was looking healthier, or even just we haven't heard from him since, leaving it open, but damn such a sad end. Seemed like a smart and ambitious dude who lost his way. I hope he's at peace now.
This video made me want to finally acknowledge some problems I'm undergoing myself. From entrepreneurship to the drinking. I went from having a dream job to going back to where I started and even harder now that I carry the tittle of a father. Seeing him grow is always a beautiful thing but also a dreadful reminder that I'm running out of time to give him the essentials in life. Thank you, Eric. Please take care and don't fall into this, please.
It’s extremely sad that just the other day there was a UA-cam with over a million subs who was battling his demons who unfortunately lost his battle. His story is one of many reasons why i don’t drink. May both him and Terry Rest In Peace
Great video. Addiction is terrifying. I hope Tyler's soul is at peace. I am almost 6 months alcohol free, and i saw myself dying slowly through my addiction. I hope those suffering with addiction can get help and know their lives are worth it.
My psychologist actually warned me about alcoholism because people with psychotic disorders have a high percentage of abusing it. I feel so sorry for him, you could tell he was trying as hard as he could at the start. He even wrote while homeless, which must've been difficult. It's so sad. My parents are the only reason I'm not currently an alcoholic, although my friends have been helpful too. He was alone and probably felt like no one cared.
Thank you for spreading alcoholism awareness, especially in the wake of a UA-camr (Mitten Squad) recently passing away because of it (presumably, but regardless he was open about his struggles with it). I've seen alcohol really destroy people unchecked. It ruined my father, and my stepfather as well. I absolutely never want to drink in my life because of that. I know people like it. I'm just glad more people are being aware of what alcohol can do to you unchecked and without moderation.
Excellent video, and a very tragic story. I've been dealing with alcoholism since starting to drink at a very young age, and have dealt with mental health issues like paranoid delusions, and you are definitely correct that heavy alcohol use just takes any mental health disorder you have and multiplies it by like a million, while tricking your brain into thinking you're self medicating. Its a vicious cycle. I'm currently over 6 months sober. Could definitely see myself in Terry in some ways. May his soul be in peace. And yes, if we want to make America great again, we need some compassion and to help each other. There should be programs in place to help people struggling with mental health, addiction and homelessness, issues that are often all tied together. Find these people jobs, shelter and and assistance getting clean. Its so sad Terry succumbed to his illnesses, he seemed like a decent man who was full of sadness and self loathing.
It's sad that we really seem to care about mentally disturbed individuals only after they've committed some kind of atrocity. Sorry, Tyler. You deserved better. I hope you've found your peace.
I saw something like this happen to another UA-camr named Wrestlingjesus. Nothing alcohol related but he started making some absolutely bizarre videos before he seemed to disappear permanently. He was a super troll though so it's hard to tell if he was trolling or not...but his last few videos were out of the norm even for his usual content (and dozens of channel closures / reopenings). Happy Holiday!
@@ScareTheater His channel doesn't exist anymore (although people used to download and then re-upload older videos because they knew he'd delete his channel ). The thing is, he opened/closed his channel probably close to---not exaggerating---50 times (sometimes opening/closing them over the span of a few hours) over like 2012-2021ish before he started making gibberish videos kind of like this, calling out his friends, and then just disappeared off UA-cam. I assumed he kept opening-reopening because he hated watching the demise of wrestling but loved it too much to give it up. He might be on FB. Definitely weird to witness just like this man in your video.
Addiction and mental health are a hell of a thing. Have lost plenty of friends over it, and have fought my own battles with them over the years; I easily could ever ended up in the ground with them. Be good to eachother, check on your loved ones
As a recovered alcoholic, this is incredibly sad to watch :(. I also drank to self medicate for mental illness, and I would also be dead if it weren’t for my support system. I almost didn’t get help because of the stigma attached to addiction, and I feel that’s probably also what happened here. I wish there was an organization dedicated to meeting homeless people and asking them if they need help getting back on track. I’m so sick of seeing preventable tragedies like this happen over and over. :’(
Hey Eric, I've been watching you for years and have seen pretty much all of your videos and yet for some reason my favorite has always been the one where you try to stay awake for multiple days or try dumb creepypastas like the Midnight Game. Do you plan to make other videos of that kind ever again?
I've been watching your content forever this video made me love it more you did'nt just make a video talking about him you showed true compassion saying i wish he had got help in time wish there were more people like you in the world
Wow, this video is by far one of the most thoughtfully put together I've seen on UA-cam, so thank you for that. I don't often comment on videos as I watch them on my television through my Firestick, but this one compelled my to open my laptop. I parsed through Terry's videos and witnessed a young man trying to make something of himself living in the state with the highest poverty rate in the U.S. I can't help but wonder what success he might have found if he had the support of family or friends. This could have been any of us considering how our economy has declined over the time period in which he was posting videos. Thank you for creating this and shedding light on an epidemic that I foresee only growing to epidemic proportions in our country. I also agree with your assessment, that he likely had an undiagnosed mental illness that was worsened by alcohol and drug consumption. Keep up the good work my friend, you've gained two subscribers (my personal and my husband's). Oh, and shoutout to Nexpo, which is how I found your channel a couple of days ago. Cheers!
Cases like these are truly heartbreaking. My brother and cousin had this friend, and he was also a seemingly normal, successful man, but then one day he took a trip to the island of Mallorca like many people here do in Germany, and supposedly after that he started to change, developing these strange, mystical, esoteric hippie-type beliefs and now we know he's fully homeless by now similar to Terry. I think none of us here can fully grasp the type of thoughts and mindset one must be in to fall into this sort of situation. Sure, maybe we sometimes have feelings or wishes of just packing our stuff and running away from everything and start anew or as a vagabond, but this is scary. I really hope and wish people in these situations, that they by luck or willpower find a way back into society, friends and family and out of these unbelievable despairing situations 🙏 Also at 10:06 he wears a shirt with the Insignia of the SA (Sturmabteilung), the paramilitary wing of the Nazi party, although of course we cannot know if he knew that and endorsed or just wore it because it looked cool to him or didn't care.
I personally had a struggle with alcohol dependency which spiraled to addiction and it is never too late to ask for help, thank you for helping to destigmatize the conversation of alcoholism and getting help!
I saw this upload and knew I had to come back, so I did, but I’m still not ready for it. My brain breaks in the winter, and it breaks some other times too, but man…. My brain is broken. Really happy you’re back though, been watching you since at least 2016, and have watched you since your return. Thanks.
It’s stuff like this that motivate me to always stay away from alcohol or drugs. It seems like he wanted to help people and even keep them from going down the same path, but the person he couldn’t help was himself. Addiction is a terrifying thing to even watch, and more terrifying to go through. Rest In Peace, Terry, You’re free from your struggles now.
Terry was definitely doing other drugs besides alcohol and ayahuasca, hard drugs. In review 997 he talked about coke, dope, speed, and then proceeded to pull out a shard of meth and crushed and snorted part of it on top of the can he was drinking from. It’s terrible what happened to him, he was a brilliant man who succumbed to terrible circumstances outside of his control, a true tragedy. Rest in peace Terry, you were a real one
Addiction is the scariest topic you've covered. As a clinically depressed former psychonaught, thanks for calling out the dangers of MAOI/SSRI interaction. Serotonin syndrome is no joke.
I was about to look up what the dangerous interaction between them was, but you already said it. I've had mild serotonin syndrome symptoms before. It's truly awful.
i'm happy he bought it up as well!! i'm someone who's gone through serotonin syndrome and it was suuuuuper awful and not something to gloss over and say that it can't be that bad
I once had serotonin syndrome as a result of a medication treatment. like, my docs messed up and almost killed me, while I was in a hospital. can confirm you don't want to even play around with maybe getting it. it sucks if it DOESN'T kill you, and it is very possible it will kill you.
I was taking Prozac for my anxiety and smoked some weed with my friends and got Seratonin Syndrome and it was awful. My heart was racing so fast and it was super hard to breathe
im seriously glad he mentioned it, since lots of people are on ssri meds
He was able to think of others even in his darkest moments. A true kind hearted man. Rest In peace Mr. Terry.
He was so thoughtful he showed us his privates for free we didn’t have to pay like OF
Even in his later vids, he spoke like a sophisticated and kind man. You could tell there was a brilliant guy underneath all those addiction. I feel really bad for him.
@@senny-listen to his words: "I was fucked over" is a constant phrase he says, i wouldn't be surprised if he was screwed over by some rich asshole
Terry is my daughter’s father! There’s so much more than then what this video explains. Terry was very loved and very loving. I was in a relationship with him over 11 years we tornado chased together and everything. He died in July 2023. I miss him.
I'd love to hear more if you're comfortable with talking about it. You can email scaretheater@gmail.com
Part two video when
Is Elaina Rogers your daughter? She made a comment here.
@@JustSomeKittenwithaGun please refrain from using her name is a minor and separate from Terrys world, I’ve raised her. She knew him on his good days. I wished she never found this video. I’m not sure of her comment on here. I need to find it, but it disturbed her in our real life for a while as it did me. He was so much more than this!
@@JustSomeKittenwithaGunhey do you remember what the comment she left was?
So sad to know he documented so much of his descent into such a dark place, but couldn’t get the help he needed. It’s both heartwarming and sad that he still thought of other people in moments of clarity, and hoping they didn’t follow down his path. Amazing video Eric!!
It truly is a depressing story. I hope Terry's story can be a cautionary tale for others. I'm glad you liked the video!
The way this man practically documented his downfall day after day is something. its as sad as its lesson on the dangers of mental health and drinking.
Nickado avocado did the same thing but with food
Not every drunk acts like that. Everyone wants to point at the most extreme cases and act like they apply to everyone.
My dad did the same. 😢
@@willissudweeks1050 bad drunks give drinking a bad name for sure
many such cases
As a recovering alcoholic myself, this struck a very surreal chord with me. This is absolutely a reflection of a failed society. RIP
Congratulations on your recovery! And yeah, I agree that it's really scary to see up close how bad addiction can be for some people.
I get what you mean by failed society. Most people would prefer to watch him spiral for entertainment and then if he snapped, they'll act like they had no idea. 🙃
congrats on your recovery ! And you're right - the truth is nobody cares until its too late
Such a tragic tale, he needed so much help and never got it. I hope he can rest in peace now. God help him and all the rest of us
He's traveling well. And if not, well he's traveling. Much love to everyone who liked you comment, and read it
That part that really spoke to me was how he acknowledged that his old content was more positive, but didn’t get any attention. That really hits close to home, I think everyone can agree. Positivity often goes unappreciated and ignored while negativity gets all the attention, and it can lead some people to do horrible things.
Very true! Unfortunately it's often human nature to be more interested in negative stuff rather than the positive. One thing I do want to mention, that I left out or the videos was that Terry's Booze Review videos didn't actually perform any better than his other content. All of it practically gained no views at all. I think Terry's comment about people caring more about the reviews was just his way of rationalizing continuing his drinking. I just didn't want to go into that detail as much in the video because I didn't want to detract much from his character.
This channel is a perfect example of that. Sad shit gets clicks
That's exactly why news media is the way it is now. All we see is negative stuff in the news because that's what gets attention. It's horrible
Barely any views for booze stuff either though 🤷♂️
Dude seemed pretty intelligent, but just needed something to say that time
Just like now with people on youtube/twitch/kick, doing negative things for attention. People love a train wreck.
Love you brother for spreading alcoholism awareness!! It’s really destructive.
My neighbour and friend growing up had an alcoholic father. It not only devastated his father but his whole family, it makes me extremely sad to think about. Lives destroyed and people with hopes and dreams for the future get dragged into the chaos.
@@nervesinapattern7261 it can take someone who is very functional from an outside perspective to a destructive mess. there is this guy on this website somewhere, where he shows what he has to do when he gets shakes and why his alcoholism sucks and how he used to function before hand. its a demon that most people either forget or ignore.
No no, its the single MOST destructive
@@chrism4008 Blaming alcohol is a cop-out, the problem runs much deeper and that is the ACTUAL issue. It's a mixture of mental health and society being the way it is.
@@ZeeNasteeand alcoholism is like pouring gasoline onto that
IDK if you heard, but a UA-camr named MittenSquad tragically passed away a few days due alcoholism. According to his family, he came home one night blackout drunk and unfortunately he suffocated because of his pillow. He was only 27.
He struggled with addiction for the longest time and it sucks he wasn't able to overcome it.
This video reminded me of that. Addiction is a bitch.
yeah…
I hadn’t heard, I used to watch him a lot until he stopped uploading. I didn’t even know he struggled with addiction. Tragic. 😢
RIP Mitten Squad!
That’s crazy I watch mittensquad and had no idea he had passed
RIP mitten squad, gave us so much entertainment, it's so sad 😔
I know this comment will probably get buried, but I just want to thank you, Eric, for always being one of the most unique and captivating voices on UA-cam. I’ve been watching you since 2015 and don’t plan on stopping
Thank you! I really appreciate that.
@@ScareTheaterbeen around since you made those deleted Minecraft videos from 2013 and when you made those old gameplay videos of popular indie games at the time like SCP containment breech. Same those videos are gone.
I’ve also been watching for yeeeears and I’m so glad he still uploads such cool content :)
I second this notion
My first introduction to this channel was the no sleeping for a week challenge, but I stayed for the well-researched and well put-together content like this one, much love from Taiwan❤
My ex is an alcoholic, and yes alcoholism is just a symptom of a deeper issue. It was astonishing how alcohol would (over time) completely consume her mind, till eventually everything she had and loved was gone. Its a terrifying disease.
I understand this gentleman....totally. Never felt twinges of violence, but everything else, resonates. Trying to move on completely past this.
Yeah...i saw myself go through a long slow decline but i was able to stop and start turning things around.
Same. Weed is my vice instead of alcohol, but i resonate with so much he vents about. Hell, ive vented about the same things before.
@@breannathompson9094 same here.
Poor guy . He still had something to say right up to the end . I don't think alcohol was his only problem, and I don't mean other substances . Terry seemed like a good dude , and imo , really stood for something that he believed whole heartedly in (himself , his philosophy, how people should act , views on society .... whatever) and could not yield an inch to his convictions . When he found other people , society , were much more malleable in THEIR positions , the mental strain began . I say this because no matter what he had tried , he came up empty and alone , seemingly with no support , and when at last he came to doubt himself , as he perceived others must , it was too much . I mean , alcohol kills many people , but in that time span it seems driven . Maybe speculation , and I can't write a book here , but this is the feeling I got .
R.I.P Terry , your escape was the world's loss . They just didn't know it . They never do .
P.S. He kept posting because he thought he was passing something valuable onto his viewers ("his kids") , apparently the only ones he thought still believed in him . Idk , tragic .
@@breannathompson9094i smoke regularly. Twice a day now but i used to do it way more. I dont see how you can really be addicted to it necessarily.
It's disturbing how tyler's life started mostly normal, But as time went on, He damaged himself to a large degree by drinking large amounts of alcohol, It's saddning how he didn't get the help that he needed when he was a true danger to himself, Rip Tyler
Yes I have a friend like that and it's only beer only beERrr
He was the age around in which schizophrenia most commonly starts presenting itself. Of course his ongoing drinking exacerbated his mental health to a great degree, but drinking doesn't CAUSE schizophrenia. He was likely self-medicating the emerging symptoms.
this isn't just alcohol, there's def other psych comorbidity. but it is still very sad
It's even more disturbing when you think about how Terry is neither the 1st nor will be the last one to end up in such tragic situation & not receive the help they need.
As an addict, I can tell you without a doubt that the reason he started the booze reviews was because he made a deal with himself that the only time he drinks would be for those videos. Eventually he started turning the camera on as an excuse to drink (which it always was) and let the reviews fall to the background. Creating a rule unsuccessfully like this can actually be worse, because you get the feeling of accomplishment by sticking to your rule while continually pushing the boundaries of it, making the rule effectively useless. I am confident in this because of the self awareness he exhibits.
As an addict as well, Not every addict is the same.
Most former addicts think you can never return to your old habit, and it's simply not true. I know many former addicts who were able to go back without ever going over board again.
I understand they just say it because they can't do it again and I think it's a jealousy thing, which is silly but it drives me bonkers when addicts think they know other addicts. Not everyone can develop self control but some do.
I met a lot of people just like him on the road. I traveled the country hitchhiking and met many, many people, and often guys like him are referred to as "schwilly kids", meaning alcoholics. It's SO heartbreaking. There are so many people like this that just fall through the cracks.
They die of mistakes like trying to hop on a freight train while too intoxicated, and get run over, or freeze to death, cirrhosis, any number of sad and painful ways to go.
No one reaches out to help. We were all out there so broken, and it takes a lot to get out of that situation. The saddest part is seeing their gifts, but watching them do nothing with them and drink their lives away, because they can't deal with the pain they've experienced and tried their best to run away from.
So many of my friends have died this way, and it's such a helpless feeling. Thanks for covering this and bringing awareness.
god this is so sad. terry seemed like such a smart, interesting, nice guy. it’s so heartbreaking how he destroyed himself, especially since it’s all documented. addiction is horrific. i hope he’s found peace now
He passed away.
@@RedshirtAfficionado yes i know. that’s why i said that i hope he’s found peace
Let me add some tangential background information about what life is like down here as a Mississippian. A large percentage of people down here start drinking at around 14-16 even under their parent's supervision, because they have the mindset of "you're going to do it anyway, so just do it under my roof so you don't get hurt and don't get a girl pregnant". My grandfather has had a bad alc addiction and no one in my family other than he drinks, although the first sip I ever had was at 19, didn't even finish the can, just wanted to see what it tasted like. Most kids smoke, vape, and drink by 16 and are quitting around 22, if they quit. If you don't drink, you're a loser at college (MSU and Ole Miss).
The classism divide he mentions in his first few videos is incredibly true. You're either the son of a farmer, doctor, the ceo of a local company, or a nobody. That goes for white folk and black folk. Racism isn't nearly as bad here as people make it out to be, its mainly a class divide. There are very few "self-made" workers that aren't blue collar and very few who are in the upper middle class (what I would call >100k a year) who didn't get that way through nepotism. Alcohol, weed, and tobacco are definitely holding many people down financially. You either hunt, fish, drink, smoke, watch stupid SEC football, or hunt-fish-drink-smoke-and watch football on your boat all at the same time because (especially in the Delta) there is nothing to do besides eat at fast food restaurants and go to Church on Sunday. The average town here has less than 10k people, hundreds of farm acres, four mexican restaurants, high priced resale stores, a failing hospital, maybe a walmart, several liquor stores, one grocery store, 10 baptist churches, 2 bars, and a bowling alley or movie theatre if you're lucky (you can only pick one or the other).
His comments on nudist culture is actually not wrong, I know from my own personal experience that there are nudist/lifestyle/swinger parties that take place behind closed doors in north MS (Southaven, Tupelo, Oxford, surrounding Memphis areas) and especially the casinos on the gulf coast where it seems like almost every third person is in an open relationship (Gulfport, Biloxi, Pascagoula). I was invited to go with a couple I became friends with while I was in college in oxford to some swinger clubs if I brought a friend from my class with me, and I politely declined. It happens all the time in college towns, and many high ranking medical professionals are in on it, it's just something you're not supposed to talk about. I once hooked up with a married woman who didn't tell me until after the fact at Ole Miss because she kept her ring off the whole time, the husband was fine with it and she called him after immediately in front of me to tell him she was coming home. It's like the midwest with the whole "trucker swinger night life" vibe in a lot of towns at night.
Yours is the most eloquent compassionate insight of what LEADS to addiction AND the perils of 'success' and mammon whilst keeping ones soul/integrity intact.
"swinger parties" aka orgies are probably one of the most common TRADITIONAL eurocentric ruling class activities in all of eurocentric culture lol. people think i joke when i talk about well off folks sucking off royals for bags of coke in the weekly royal orgies. but thats literally a thing that regularly happens in europe, and thus, also happens for the well off americans who try their hardest to emulate rich europeans for whatever reason..
@@crookedfingersgirl7356And you radiate intelligence and beauty. Wow
As a fellow Mississippian, that was a very accurate description!
@@bradpnw1897 aww shucks (that's a decades old pfp and I'm severely disabled from juvenile rheumatoid arthritis...but ty very much for being kind!)
Jesus that was depressing, I didn’t expect him to be dead at the end. I hope he’s found peace
As a Clinical Social Worker, Therapist, & someone who’s specialized in the addictions field for years, I want to address the idea you present at the end of the video. There are many programs available in my state, I don’t know about Mississippi, but mandating that someone receives treatment presents a bit of an ethical dilemma. We want to honor an individual’s autonomy. Another con to mandated treatment is that the “success” rate (usually 12 months of sobriety) is extremely low for those who are forced into treatment. It’s a complex issue, and I think education and harm reduction are the best options we have available right now. This man looks like so many of the dual-diagnosis patients I’ve worked with, and it’s a stark reminder of how quickly alcohol can degrade someone’s physical & mental health.
I appreciate all your content & I think this video will spread some awareness and knowledge about these issues, thanks!
Thank you for your insight! You're right, this issue is complicated, and my proposed solution at the end was a bit too simplistic. Thank you for the social work that you do!
A forrmer LCSW I can tell you Mississippi has very little in the way of mental health/addiction services. Most people with issues end up in jail waiting months to years for an assessment.
funny how it is unethical to lock uo addicts but the moment a bipolar patient tells you to f*** off, you get power drunk and put them in a 72 hour involuntary hold.
Exactly. For some reason young people think it’s the governments job to step in and make someone get help, never thinking about the fact that the government could then just hold anyone they want against their will using claims of mental illness or danger to society.
The last 2 or 3 videos I’ve watched have had personal politics thrown in at the end of the video and it just ruins it.
@@OlDirtyBandit I live in a country with public healthcare and it's really hard still to get someone committed even if they're still a danger to others and themselves
This breaks my heart.
My mom was struggling with alcoholism and got sober on and off, but ended up losing her battle with this wretched disease.
Seeing it with your own eyes, in real time, hurts. Rest easy Terry.
I'm sorry for your loss. That must have been very difficult.
This guy passed away on my birthday.
While I was out having the time of my life, this guy was off somewhere, probably dying a lonely and painful death.
That is so fucking tragic and sad to think about. RIP
To be fair around 150,000 people died on your birthday, but it’s still tragic.
COVID was a horrible time. I was becoming an alcoholic, lots of my friends where alcoholics, I knew so many people who dropped out of school and became homeless. I am glad I made it through.
@population-_-420 lol I was vaccinated
😢I never drank a drop until covid out of boredom..
@population-_-420 avg tachycardia enjoyer
Wasn’t that big of a deal how are you guys so mentally weak lmaooo ohh noo can’t go certain places for a few months
@@krsteonMost vaccines have some level of minor side effects. The frequency of tachycardia from a vaccine is also really low, and much more likely to be caused by covid than anything else.
I found him a few months back and went down the rabbit hole of his Community tab on UA-cam. Scrolling back at least a few years, you can see him slowly becoming more detached, paranoid, lonely and full of hatred for the U.S. government. His posts become evermore cryptic and psychotic. I feel for this guy. R.I.P.
Thank you for telling his story, Eric. ♥️
Thank you for showing that Terry, really tried hard to make a difference in the world but sadly it just didn't workout for him. This is heartbreaking I truly hope you Terry have found peace now. In your early videos you seemed like such a bright light but the alcohol brought you darkness. I am so truly sorry that life was to much for you our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your friends and family please Terry RIP. If you are having hard time please remember it is never too late to get help even in your darkest hour there is always a light at the end of the tunnel of hope. including you and everyone else you are special in your own way please don't give up there is someone who loves and cares about you even if don't think so.
Terry truly seems like a decent genuine guy. I went through several years of daily drinking and when I began a detox program it changed my life so much. If Terry ever got the help he needed he would have been one hell of an amazing sponsor for someone in need. I sincerely hope he is in a better place with peace in his heart.
Damn, as a person who struggles with alcohol problems, this is very depressing and also a reality check for me. I haven't got ostracized yet, still have family and friends, but I got into a number of debts and lost a really great job couple months ago due to drinking. Right now I'm trying to get a new one and stay sober. The guy was def struggling with personal problems, hence his search for alternate medicine.
It really sucks, because the lower you fail, the harder is to get back up and all the anger and anxiety makes you want to have a drinke even more. It's a form of escapism from the harsh reality of life.
ik its hard but if it means anything i believe in you 💖 we are all stronger than we know
I hope you can overcome those issues 🙏 ❤
I'm struggling too, brother. Whenever I try to quit, I get insomnia and night sweats and it's affecting my work way more than having 5-6 beers before sleep. After this video I swear I will try again now. I will even seek medical help if it gets bad, cause quitting alcohol cold turkey can even be life threatening.
Been there, unfortunately my wake up call was developing pancreatitis. Trust me, it's the worst pain I've ever experienced, and treating it is just as, if not, more dreadful. There's so many reasons to give up the bottle, I just always want to mention the high risk of pancreatitis because no one wants to feel like they've been shot and have to starve it out
@@ProperBanterMateif you're under the age of 50 most doctors won't think about it, but please friend also ask your doctor about your pancreatic health❤️ pancreatitis is a bitch and a half, I don't wish it on anyone
Eric always delivers with obscure and disturbing or tragic rabbit holes that I've never seen any other UA-camrs cover. Keep up the amazing work!!
Thank you! It's hard to find original topics nowadays, so I'm always open to taking requests. I'm glad you enjoyed this one
You upload just in time so I have something to watch during lunch. Glad sou have returned to posting regularly, keep up the good work 👍
I hope you enjoy! This was one of the most fascinating topics I came across this year.
right before my math exam😭 study or scare theater 🧐
Every homeless person left to die on the street was once someone’s precious child.
Horseshit, some parents don't give a fuck about their offspring at all, that's why fetal alcohol syndrome and crack addict babies exist
amen. homelessness should not be still occuring in the present
@@fs_000 you can pay the bill
For real. It's heartbreaking
Yes and no sometimes people get kicked out by their own parents and neglected
This guy kinda reminds me of one of my friends from high school. He was, and still is, such a sweet and caring person. Unfortunately due to what seemed to be a mental break after losing his two babies to SIDS he became homeless and addicted to meth. For years now he goes around the city ranting that he’s magic and other magical people are stealing his powers. I ran into him a couple weeks ago and he was so upset because he apparently had a girlfriend who believed in all this. Then he lost her to someone who is able to block his magical powers that makes her love him. He honestly looks like he hasn’t had a shower since we graduated high school 14 years ago. Watching someone who was pretty normal self destructive like this is heartbreaking. Just like BoozeTube i won’t be surprised to find out that he passed away any day now
Bro you gotta try help him somehow
@@gakeeeen
You can't help someone who is that level of broken.
@@thereseemstobeenanerror1219 That's also true... Just pains me to see someone fall into depth of darkness like that...
No joke, after my ex girlfriend left me a year ago, I could have gone down a path similar to this. I was so depressed, all I did was drink, I had no aim in life and my ex was on top of the world, she’s even seeing someone new, but thankfully my parents and brother snapped me back into reality and it’s been great having their support, this man is a lesson but also glimpse into a dark future if I continued down the path of addiction.
Breakups are really rough! I'm glad you're back on track now. Best of luck
I think all of us have had moments where it couldve taken off into a very wrong and tough path, no one chooses addiction. Only the very young have theirs still ahead of them, life can sure be sick fever dream at times. Im from the shitty part of city, most of my childhood and school friends have addictions of varying levels, many of them gone. Glad youre ok today, and still here. Btw, be extra aware on the next hiccup - because there is always next one - so it wont turn into indulging. You got this, keep those dark feelings at bay (they cant hurt you unless you let them, they will pass, I promise) and Im sure someone new waits to meet you too, youll see :)
This wasn't disturbing or scary, just sad and tragic.
That’s disturbing
I think it is disturbing and scary, because it's so sad and tragic. It's so.. Real. It's not ghouls or goblins, it's a very real and all too common tragedy
Addiction can be scary and disturbing 😓
@@CatsNGalaxies Tragedy stops being disturbing after you live through enough of it. Eventually it just feels like a normal day.
The most disturbing part for me personally is how mangy his hair got but I actually like it and wish I could brush it. 🤣
The government programs exist, but you have to fight to get into them, and that includes filing a dizzying array of paperwork, staying on the phone with thoroughly unpleasant people who are sick and tired of dealing with the public, and showing up to mandatory appointments that can be made or canceled at a moment's notice.
For a lot of people struggling the hardest, they need someone who is right there at their side, keeping them on-task, calling them to make sure they go to their appointments, and urging them to keep up with the paperwork. Usually this falls to family, so if someone doesn't have family, they're screwed.
The job of social workers was created to bridge this gap, but the caseloads just kept increasing until no one got the personalized help they need.
"In this video he goes on about how nudism is great... trust me, this will be relevant later" okay well now I'm scared thanks ScareTheater
I love how you sympathized with and humanized terry despite his struggles. great work as always and may he rest in peace ❤
I’ve done a LOT of psychedelics in my day, and how would I recommend homebrewing ayahuasca? *I WOULDNT*
This is sad to see, knowing that a lot of mental illnesses either manifest or escalate roughly in the mid-twenties, which seems to be when he began falling. I wonder what he would've achieved if he had actually gotten help instead of sinking into alcohol.
This actually made me cry. It's crazy to think that ancient humans and Neanderthals took care of their sick and/or wounded, when resources were limited but in this time of abundance, people are ostracized from society, left to die.
Welcome to Capitalism. It fosters greed.
Thank you for approaching this in a sensitive, compassionate manner. Too many times people take these type of tragedy lightly. As someone who has suffered the same illness, and circumstance as the subject (mental health issues, substance abuse, and homelessness) I can say that this can be prevented. Mental Health Care/ Health Care in general for all, should be an a benefit to paying taxes and not have our money going to the wars of foreign lands where they DO have universal health care.
God I love this channel. I listen to these as I go to bed, the relaxation of his voice and story telling feels very therapeutic.
this story was rough, poor guy. self destruction and mental illness are two very difficult battles to fight. ❤ thank you for the amazing video and awesome content as always, scaretheater!
I am really grateful for spaces like this on UA-cam and the internet at large. Terry's journey ended tragically, and instead of berating him and saying that he lacked personal responsibility or he did it to himself, or that people hide behind mental health to avoid taking accountability, because they are lazy and don't want to work, etc., we are able to recognize that this person needed help with problems bigger than he could manage himself. I see that sentiment stated far too often by people who are not too far off from this situation themselves. It really is demoralizing to see how fixated and obsessed with the idea of hyper-individualization so many people, especially here in the U.S. are. It has been drilled into their heads and it is functioning as intended. There are some things you can control, but by and large you are a product of the community and people around you, and when the system refuses to help people like this and blame them for their misfortune, it unfortunately is not really surprising that this is the reality very many people around you today find themselves in. Thank you ScareTheater, and rest in peace Terry. You deserved better.
The fact that his entire break down was so public yet there was no help for him is so sad.
In America, most people only think of themselves. This is just entertainment for those with non addiction issues. It will probably change with all the illegals flooding in.
I had to watch knowing it wasn't going to have a happy ending.. but because of your video, I cried over the death of a man I never (not will I ever) know.
Thank you.
I hope his soul has found the rest he never could find here, in this world.
Poor Terry. Hopefully he's in a better place now.
I’m so glad Scare Theater is posting regularly again! We missed you my friend!😊
When I was 16 I started to travel around because I was homeless. I traveled with a group now well known as the “Rainbow gathering”. Not exactly relevant, but, a lot of people from the group remind me of this man. Particularly from the camp “A-Camp” which is a colorful colloquialism for “alcoholic camp” or something to that effect. They had sordid histories and weren’t exactly bad people, but self destructive. A huge part of who I am today is seeing how they engaged with not only their environment but their peers and themselves. I saw a lot of people pass away or go missing for many reasons in my short period with them. It was rumored that a man fell into Lake Mary in Florida while intoxicated. I don’t really know the validly of that statement, but I have from time to time checked in on the gathering. But I digress. It is sad to see, and I hope this serves as a lesson to the community.
Damn you ever go to the gathering in Ocala? That one has a reputation for being a lot rougher than the other ones. It was a wild time
When I was a goth teenager, I used to hang with them in my teens when they came to New England. Most of them were decent people. There were some bad apples but they'd be gone the next year.
I just want to say, there's a lot of "Darker side" channels out there, and a lot of them are really great, but you're will always be one of, if not the best. You always find something new and interesting to cover, but more importantly, and I think it's the most important thing, you ALWAYS approach your subjects with skeptisicm, compassion, and empathy. A lot of other channels would tell this story, and even would tell it respectfully, but few would go to the lengths that you went to, to humanize and sympathize with him. To see the human behind the "wow this is dark" subject. To care and talk about the human who went through this.
That and your ability to research things extensively, to make sure you have as many facts of the situation as you can, and to reality check some of the more fantastical things you cover.
Youre' skeptical but not cynical and that distinction is so important, especially in this genera of content.
That is why I will always watch what you make as soon as I can, and always get excited when I see a new upload from you.
Thank you for your work dude, keep it up!
Thank you so much. This comment really means a lot to me. As a creator, I'm always struggling with thoughts that my content isn't good enough, but comments like this really reassure me. I appreciate it.
@@ScareTheater I feel like that voice is always there no matter how good you are, but I'm glad to have helped to allay it, even a bit. Your content is truly great. I'm happy my words meant something to you!
Alcoholism and other drug addiction mixed with potential existing illness or mental conditions truly are a devilish and scary thing that sadly is skyrocketing more and more counting on where you live. Ive seen this kind of thing first hand and in other families many times and its tragic all the same. Im grateful that there are folks in my family that got help but they were so close to ending up in this similar situation. Its really sad how we dont treat these things seriously or if we do help is still out reach for many to do lack of access or money/insurance.
Its really so sad.
And the scary part is this could happen to any and all of us. At the end of the day we are human, and humans are capable of succumbing to addiction whether we want to or not.
This guy seems genuinely good and sweet underneath, but he certainly needed help and he might not have ever been provided with it or he might not have ever done what was necessary to help himself.
We'll never know.
This is only slightly related but thank you for bringing up the dangers of Ayahuasca! While I have never considered taking it I still had no idea that it contained MAOI and as someone who is on a rather high prescription of SSRIs it’s crazy to know that if I would have actually been interested in taking it, I would have been dead without even knowing it. That’s seriously terrifying, so thank you for spreading awareness!
tupelo is in the mississippi delta where my family has been for generations. this behavior is extremely normal in the delta where there is literally nothing to do but work at a gas station or get drunk all day. its a very depressing area.
My ex-wife was a paranoid schizophrenic. Her way of self-medicating was to drink. By the time we separated in 2015, I would have classified her as an alcoholic. I cut contact because she was abusive in pretty much every way you can be. I got word she died of acute liver failure in 2021. At 32 years old. This video really showed me the road she probably went down in her last few years. It’s horrendous. I feel terrible for anyone who has to suffer like this. It destroys your life and everyone around you.
Nothing like ScareTheatre to start my morning with
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My father and my oldest son (he is 28) are alcoholics. THANK YOU for covering this story. I can't even begin to cover the reasons why alcoholism awareness is so important here, but this video is a good start in educating one's self.
We love you ST 🌹
its honestly so scary how simple addiction can just takeover completely anybody you see who succumed to the deepest depth of any substance its always surreal to remember they were once like you and had their own hopes and dreams it takes very little to become addicted may terry rest in piece :(
Soooooo cool you went to Peru and got to experience a genuine ayahuasca experience with a shaman. I have looked into it very superficially, as well as ibogaine, to help with things like cptsd and trauma, but never wanted to cut corners to experience it.
I also knew about serotonin syndrome, but did not know about the interactions between ssri's and ayahuasca. Thank you so much for giving your viewers real information and warnings about some of the stuff you're covering.
Heavy stuff. Having been through addiction whilst struggling with mental illness, this cuts deep. How quickly it takes people, even those with a sound mind. You'll do anything long enough to escape the habit of living, until the escape becomes the habit.
I suffered with mental illness and alot of different substance abuse since i was a kid. Ive been thru alot and did alot im not proud of. Im 27 now and im clean since the end of last year. I found my inner strength to get myself on track and do myself some good, not just for me but for my loved ones. I love ur channel and this episode hit my heart deep. Im still at war with myself and some things i will never heal from. Ive been in psych wards all my life and im scared that one day im gonna get caged up forever. No one understands the mental pain we go thru with deep depression. It takes u into hell and back. I feel bad that this man was crying for help and no one listened. Alot of good people get left behind becuz no one wants to go back and get them. Tbh im in tears right now writing this becuz i kno that theres more people like this out there. I just hope that everyone suffering gets the help they need and deserve.
This is so sad. As someone who struggles with mental health and has struggled with alcohol in the past, I feel for this guy. The only reason I'm still here is that I had an extremely supportive family to fall back on. You are absolutely right that our society and government need to form *well-funded* and robust support programs for people like Tyler. Mental health, substance abuse, and housing support in this country are so lacking when you really look into it. No one should have to deal with this stuff alone, and in many cases it is impossible to do so. Some people cant be helped sometimes, but I would argue that not nearly enough is done to help as things stand now. There isn't even anything in place that could've saved him, and that's the problem I see.
I can recognize myself in this guy, it's sad how many of us would rather be in a haze to get through the day than being fully aware and in the present. I do believe this is a product of modern western society where the goal of life is presented as achieving as much as possible as soon as possible, becoming "successful" within a chosen field and how we (unconsciously or not) compare ourselves to others through the access we have to others lives via social media. this is not what was intended fo us, somewhere things went wrong. it's not normal how many people suffer from depression, anxiety and su!cidal thoughts, as well as substance abuse, only by living life. and the numbers are only going up...
also, rest easy Terry
Thank you for the great work you do Eric. You’ve always created excellent videos and I hope you keep up the great work. Take care!
been watching you since middle school, im 22 now, never once was your content not interesting. im glad to see you at 1mil, you deserve it man
I appreciate how kind and compassionate you were feeling towards him. Felt v heartfelt.
My FIL is an alcoholic.My husband used to tell me how awful their life was when he drank and when he came home drunk, saying that he was especially agressive towards his wife and basically neglecting his kids.He is a disheveled man, blurting out random nonsense and overall...doesn't care about anything besides alcohol.The sad thing is that, just like Terry, he was an extremely intelligent and respected man before his downfall
Eric I just bought your new Paranoia long sleeve shirt! I've been watching you for 7 or 8 years and it's by far the least I can do. Can't wait to represent!
Awesome! Thank you!
Thank you for approaching this is such a respectful manner. I hadn't heard of Terry before this video, but I had a grandfather who suffered from alcohol abuse and have personal connections with others who have struggled with addiction to other substances. It’s so easy for many to just look at the rants and any inappropriate behavior and laugh or criticize someone. Looking at Terry’s videos over time you truly see how quickly and completely addiction can consume someone and take over their lives.
I wish there was more support from law enforcement and communities to help individuals. It’s possible that there were resources available to him, but he was not informed of what they were or how to access them.
People tend to forget that addiction is a disease and there are often comorbidities that increase someone’s risk of developing an addiction, such as different mental illnesses or chronic illness.
As heartbreaking as it is to see Terry’s decent into darkness, it is a true look into the struggles and outcomes of this disease. I think a lot can be learned from his channel and videos when looked at as a whole and hopefully there is good that will come from him documenting his life. He seemed like someone who wanted the best for others and to connect and help inspire and assist people to achieve their true potential and be their best. I think that he will continue to do that as these videos can hopefully help someone identify their own need to address their addiction or for people to understand addiction better and help others struggling.
Thank you again for this video. I think it will help by reaching people who should see it. Thank you for sharing Terry’s story in such a manner where we can learn so much and thank you for sharing your own vulnerability in how his story effected you emotionally. I always look forward to your videos and your storytelling. It’s always captivating. 🖤
I could see so clearly how behind the alcohol-induced stupor, he had a large, warm heart, and genuinely wanted nothing but the best for others and the world in general. People don't just start drinking for no reason, it's pretty much always as self-medication for some sort of trauma, stress, duress, etc. I hope he's at peace now. There are millions and millions of others who were like him, and sadly more that will wind up like him. Stay good, everyone.
As someone who has been battling depression and addiction since I was 12 (36 now), I still can’t seem to get things right. I know what this guy was going through, I try to find hope in the next day and take it one day at a time, I still worry that is the next day gonna be my last
Perfect way to start my Christmas break! Thank you Eric!
That was sad. But I´m glad videos like this one are made, so people like him can be remembered in some way.
Alcohol can certainly cause delusions and odd speech patterns. Its damaging effect on the brain can also cause bad impulse control and weakened social abilities. All this to say, he certainly could have had a mental illness outside of the alcohol, but none of what is shown here is atypical for severe alcoholism. I come from a family with multiple alcoholics, and it is a far worse drug than its given credit for. Its slow action leads people to believe it's safer than other drugs, in reality it is just more insidious. The slow action, and the false comfort it gives is why it can trap people in so easily and thoroughly.
I'm glad you're back. Stories like that start to scare me after hearings thst my other favorite UA-camr died of alcoholism.
Said new video will be in a new year, but it will never happen.
Damn i watched the whole thing hoping by the end he'd get help or we get an update where he was looking healthier, or even just we haven't heard from him since, leaving it open, but damn such a sad end. Seemed like a smart and ambitious dude who lost his way. I hope he's at peace now.
This video made me want to finally acknowledge some problems I'm undergoing myself. From entrepreneurship to the drinking. I went from having a dream job to going back to where I started and even harder now that I carry the tittle of a father. Seeing him grow is always a beautiful thing but also a dreadful reminder that I'm running out of time to give him the essentials in life. Thank you, Eric. Please take care and don't fall into this, please.
It’s extremely sad that just the other day there was a UA-cam with over a million subs who was battling his demons who unfortunately lost his battle. His story is one of many reasons why i don’t drink. May both him and Terry Rest In Peace
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@@J.C... goes by the name mitten squad he was a fallout UA-camr and he like to beat them doing challenges that were near impossible
Great video. Addiction is terrifying. I hope Tyler's soul is at peace. I am almost 6 months alcohol free, and i saw myself dying slowly through my addiction. I hope those suffering with addiction can get help and know their lives are worth it.
This is my brother...this is my brother. My mom thanks you for posting the video. Please love your family....when they go...you'll never be the same
Nothing is right...nothing will ever be the same
Sent my heart in shock to see this. Ty for seeing him as his light and not in his dark
My bro terry John Tyler forever my other half
Did Terry hold Nazi or White Supremacist views?
@@institutespencerit’s alright if he did.
My psychologist actually warned me about alcoholism because people with psychotic disorders have a high percentage of abusing it.
I feel so sorry for him, you could tell he was trying as hard as he could at the start. He even wrote while homeless, which must've been difficult. It's so sad.
My parents are the only reason I'm not currently an alcoholic, although my friends have been helpful too. He was alone and probably felt like no one cared.
Thank you for spreading alcoholism awareness, especially in the wake of a UA-camr (Mitten Squad) recently passing away because of it (presumably, but regardless he was open about his struggles with it).
I've seen alcohol really destroy people unchecked. It ruined my father, and my stepfather as well. I absolutely never want to drink in my life because of that.
I know people like it. I'm just glad more people are being aware of what alcohol can do to you unchecked and without moderation.
Thankfully Paul is stil with us
Excellent video, and a very tragic story. I've been dealing with alcoholism since starting to drink at a very young age, and have dealt with mental health issues like paranoid delusions, and you are definitely correct that heavy alcohol use just takes any mental health disorder you have and multiplies it by like a million, while tricking your brain into thinking you're self medicating. Its a vicious cycle. I'm currently over 6 months sober. Could definitely see myself in Terry in some ways. May his soul be in peace. And yes, if we want to make America great again, we need some compassion and to help each other. There should be programs in place to help people struggling with mental health, addiction and homelessness, issues that are often all tied together. Find these people jobs, shelter and and assistance getting clean. Its so sad Terry succumbed to his illnesses, he seemed like a decent man who was full of sadness and self loathing.
Man, he actually seemed intelligent and charismatic in his earlier videos. He could've had a normal life. Addiction is a curse.
It's sad that we really seem to care about mentally disturbed individuals only after they've committed some kind of atrocity. Sorry, Tyler. You deserved better. I hope you've found your peace.
I saw something like this happen to another UA-camr named Wrestlingjesus. Nothing alcohol related but he started making some absolutely bizarre videos before he seemed to disappear permanently. He was a super troll though so it's hard to tell if he was trolling or not...but his last few videos were out of the norm even for his usual content (and dozens of channel closures / reopenings).
Happy Holiday!
It's always puzzling to witness stuff like that happening. I might go have a look at that channel myself! Thanks for the donation, Josh :)
@@ScareTheater His channel doesn't exist anymore (although people used to download and then re-upload older videos because they knew he'd delete his channel ). The thing is, he opened/closed his channel probably close to---not exaggerating---50 times (sometimes opening/closing them over the span of a few hours) over like 2012-2021ish before he started making gibberish videos kind of like this, calling out his friends, and then just disappeared off UA-cam. I assumed he kept opening-reopening because he hated watching the demise of wrestling but loved it too much to give it up. He might be on FB. Definitely weird to witness just like this man in your video.
Addiction and mental health are a hell of a thing. Have lost plenty of friends over it, and have fought my own battles with them over the years; I easily could ever ended up in the ground with them. Be good to eachother, check on your loved ones
As a recovered alcoholic, this is incredibly sad to watch :(. I also drank to self medicate for mental illness, and I would also be dead if it weren’t for my support system. I almost didn’t get help because of the stigma attached to addiction, and I feel that’s probably also what happened here. I wish there was an organization dedicated to meeting homeless people and asking them if they need help getting back on track. I’m so sick of seeing preventable tragedies like this happen over and over. :’(
Damn, his bday is 2 days before mine, mines September 14th 1988. R.I.P man.
Hey Eric, I've been watching you for years and have seen pretty much all of your videos and yet for some reason my favorite has always been the one where you try to stay awake for multiple days or try dumb creepypastas like the Midnight Game. Do you plan to make other videos of that kind ever again?
I've been watching your content forever this video made me love it more you did'nt just make a video talking about him you showed true compassion saying i wish he had got help in time wish there were more people like you in the world
Thank you for making this about my father💙💙
Wow, this video is by far one of the most thoughtfully put together I've seen on UA-cam, so thank you for that. I don't often comment on videos as I watch them on my television through my Firestick, but this one compelled my to open my laptop. I parsed through Terry's videos and witnessed a young man trying to make something of himself living in the state with the highest poverty rate in the U.S. I can't help but wonder what success he might have found if he had the support of family or friends. This could have been any of us considering how our economy has declined over the time period in which he was posting videos. Thank you for creating this and shedding light on an epidemic that I foresee only growing to epidemic proportions in our country. I also agree with your assessment, that he likely had an undiagnosed mental illness that was worsened by alcohol and drug consumption. Keep up the good work my friend, you've gained two subscribers (my personal and my husband's). Oh, and shoutout to Nexpo, which is how I found your channel a couple of days ago. Cheers!
Have you seen his channel’s community posts? They’re also very interesting. Great video, so sad he couldn’t get the help he clearly needed.
Cases like these are truly heartbreaking. My brother and cousin had this friend, and he was also a seemingly normal, successful man, but then one day he took a trip to the island of Mallorca like many people here do in Germany, and supposedly after that he started to change, developing these strange, mystical, esoteric hippie-type beliefs and now we know he's fully homeless by now similar to Terry. I think none of us here can fully grasp the type of thoughts and mindset one must be in to fall into this sort of situation. Sure, maybe we sometimes have feelings or wishes of just packing our stuff and running away from everything and start anew or as a vagabond, but this is scary. I really hope and wish people in these situations, that they by luck or willpower find a way back into society, friends and family and out of these unbelievable despairing situations 🙏
Also at 10:06 he wears a shirt with the Insignia of the SA (Sturmabteilung), the paramilitary wing of the Nazi party, although of course we cannot know if he knew that and endorsed or just wore it because it looked cool to him or didn't care.
Just finished watching. Genuinely tragic story. I was hoping at the end it’d turn out he was getting help, but that just wasn’t the case
I personally had a struggle with alcohol dependency which spiraled to addiction and it is never too late to ask for help, thank you for helping to destigmatize the conversation of alcoholism and getting help!
Sadly if an alcoholic doesn't want to quit they won't. Even with help they need to want it otherwise it'll just keep going.
I saw this upload and knew I had to come back, so I did, but I’m still not ready for it. My brain breaks in the winter, and it breaks some other times too, but man…. My brain is broken. Really happy you’re back though, been watching you since at least 2016, and have watched you since your return. Thanks.
It’s stuff like this that motivate me to always stay away from alcohol or drugs. It seems like he wanted to help people and even keep them from going down the same path, but the person he couldn’t help was himself. Addiction is a terrifying thing to even watch, and more terrifying to go through. Rest In Peace, Terry, You’re free from your struggles now.
Terry was definitely doing other drugs besides alcohol and ayahuasca, hard drugs. In review 997 he talked about coke, dope, speed, and then proceeded to pull out a shard of meth and crushed and snorted part of it on top of the can he was drinking from. It’s terrible what happened to him, he was a brilliant man who succumbed to terrible circumstances outside of his control, a true tragedy. Rest in peace Terry, you were a real one
Well said. I caught that too, big shard to say the least. Rip big guy. you’re missed 🫡