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Mikaela Ebbesson
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Hej! My name is Mikaela, I am a neurodivergent recovery coach & have a special connection with nature.
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See you soon,
Mikaela 🧡
Subscribe if you relate to my musings ~
See you soon,
Mikaela 🧡
UNMASKING 2: My Spiritual Perception of Autistic & Sensitive People
Part 2 | In my last video, I shared many of the more difficult experiences & challenges I've faced through life as a 'high masking' undiagnosed, Autistic adult. But I wanted to cover something more empowering in today's video; my spiritual view of Autism and sensitive folk. I've never shared this openly, so please let me know your thoughts as I am curious to hear your perspectives & if it resonates ✨
I have always been a spiritual person but rejected that part of myself for a long time, as life got too painful. The thought of opening up my inner world was terrifying.. until one day I woke up and now I can't 'un-know' it.
I find it easier to express myself by writing; about my views, spirituality & healing. So this was a new, slightly nervous but exciting experience, to see if anyone else might just relate?
I hope this resonates and that we can continue to find strength in each other. YOU'VE GOT THIS PAL!! 🌞
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PART 1. I talk about my struggles in childhood, masking, alcohol abuse, toxic relationships, family, low self-esteem, loneliness, how I finally got referred for a diagnosis, a little on the process itself and finally how I am doing today - as well as future plans. Watch it here: ua-cam.com/video/o1SXTDFab7U/v-deo.html
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I have always been a spiritual person but rejected that part of myself for a long time, as life got too painful. The thought of opening up my inner world was terrifying.. until one day I woke up and now I can't 'un-know' it.
I find it easier to express myself by writing; about my views, spirituality & healing. So this was a new, slightly nervous but exciting experience, to see if anyone else might just relate?
I hope this resonates and that we can continue to find strength in each other. YOU'VE GOT THIS PAL!! 🌞
✿ recoverywithme2
✿ www.recoverywith.me (being updated)
✿ hello@recoverywith.me 💌
PART 1. I talk about my struggles in childhood, masking, alcohol abuse, toxic relationships, family, low self-esteem, loneliness, how I finally got referred for a diagnosis, a little on the process itself and finally how I am doing today - as well as future plans. Watch it here: ua-cam.com/video/o1SXTDFab7U/v-deo.html
#INFP #autism #neurodivergent #autistic #ADHD
Related: am I autistic, how do i know im autistic, autism signs, what autism feels like love on the spectrum, adult autism test, autism in adults, autism in women, autism in men, autism spectrum condition, asd, autism spectrum disorder, aspergers, dsm, dsm5, autistic adults, autism mom, autistic mum, autism parent, autism family, autism awareness, autism acceptance, autism at work, autism disclosure, autism therapy, autism meltdown, autistic burnout, autistic behaviour, autism symptoms, autism traits, autistic signs, what autism feels like, stimming, echolalia, anxiety, overwhelm, alien in my own skin, feeling like an alien
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UNMASKING: Before, During & After my Adult Autism Diagnosis #AuDHD
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Part 1| I’m a recovery coach but I’m also a human with a story, lived experience, that I bring into my work. This is the (updated) story of my life before, during and after my official Autism (Autistic Spectrum Condition) diagnosis, through the NHS in London. These are my opinions and my account. I talk about my struggles in childhood, masking, alcohol abuse, relationships, family, low self-est...
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my happy place | SPEND A DAY WITH ME | at home & in nature
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IT HURTS | Am I a Highly Sensitive Person? | #hsp #asd
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GOING OUT | socialising WITHOUT ALCOHOL *shiver
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Quitting drinking & sober sex (yikes!)
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This was amazing, your have articulated a lot of what I have been going through and healed from, and continue to heal from. I am 48 years old and have lived a life not knowing I was autistic, but have experience life through through a spiritual sensitive lens. Bringing autism to my framework has helped so much with my healing even though it is a label. Thank you for being so brave and pioneer for so many of us.
This was the first thing I read upon waking this morning ~ thank you for such a warming message and for sharing your reflections back with me 🧡 Strong and sensitive go hand-in-hand and you are certainly the two. I agree the label is both useful and useless. It encompasses some aspects I can align with but then twists them into weakening definitions and meanings. Not to mention misses out on the most important part that I sense you've already found your way to. We have been long purposely suppressed and with this knowledge, we can choose to rise back up through love. It sounds simple but the greatest things always are. I recommend: The Book of Joy by 14th Dalai Lama, Desmond Tutu, and Douglas Abrams. If you haven't read it, it's quite the JOY!
Lets begin again, again, again. You don't gotta worry about losing friends if you never made any, heyo! See I knew I was smart. It took me hundreds of attempts before I was able to stop alcohol and nicotine. My body helped me out and made them less and less bearable. It's been a year for me and now just feel stuck, but at least I'm not an alcoholic any longer.
Thank you for sharing your experience and thoughts! I can relate a lot. I'm an AuDHD and overall in many ways neurodivergent (INFP-) teenager that is terrified of pretty much every aspect of life. I try to feel proud of myself for still having the will to live, even though it decreases again every few days. Pretty much the only things that make me feel joy or even just emotion at all are distracting myself through some fantasy series or books, music and nature, which I can't always experience the way I want because I often get caught up in stress and dissociation
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You too! 🌞
My Autistic BF uses alcohol too, he said it helps him socialize. I just got diagnosed with Audhd, I can't mask in front of my therapist. It really freaks me out!! it's like he is looking through the mask. I'm having Autistic burnout right now, so yeah de-masking and spending time alone is important.
I hear you! Alcohol is a common short term ‘fix’ for many of us. But at what cost.. what we’re really doing is saying to ourselves that we are not good enough in our natural state. Forcing to socialise in ways that are not natural. But we often think it’s the only way we will experience life, connection and joy. All I ask is that we begin to question this construct, this perception. Be gentle with yourself and allow the process to take the time it takes. Unmasking whilst life is happening all around can be very energy consuming, so give yourself safe space away from too much stimulation where you feel you can be yourself without outside influence. I’ve had to spend a lot of time on my own in order to reset. I let myself do all the things I loved as a child again - nature, climbing trees haha. I don’t have people to do that with but honestly it turns out I really love my own company. I feel like we’ve all been so scared of looking inwards because we’ve rejected ourselves since childhood. So many painful experiences meant it didn’t feel safe. Finding ourselves way back is a very worthwhile journey! Well done on continuing with your therapy even though it feels freaky when the mask slips ~ don’t judge yourself too much, get curious!! So much love to you 🌻
These diagnoses are destroying young minds. Resist. Protest. You are not what they tell you that you are.
My second follow-up video talks about my true view on ‘Autism’. I didn’t include it here as I wanted people to relate and hear each others stories in the comments. Sensitive people are important ~ but we need waking up to that fact. Sometimes the use of labels can help people find each other and relate but it doesn’t mean I agree with the definitions nor meaning behind the diagnosis. I only sought a diagnosis out myself, in order to understand the process behind and to elevate my voice in the conversation. Above all I want to empower people to find their light, the world needs it quite desperately.
THANK YOU!❤
My pleasure ~ thank you too, for sharing the love! 💛
YOU MAKE COMPLETE. SENSE
Happy we can relate to each other, truly! 🥹🙏🏼
I resonated so much with everything you have shared. Thank you for being so open about all of this. Spirituality is a special interest of mine (not diagnosed as autistic, but really relate to the autistic experience, by the way). I wonder, do you have an interest in tarot and other oracle cards? I wonder if you would love a practice like that. I love tarot. It is such a great tool for exploration. Your pattern loving brain may really love it too, if you never considered it before.
Hi! Oh I’m so glad, thank you for hanging out and spending some time 🤗 Yes I’ve absolutely considered it and my mum had both tarot cards and angel cards when I was younger ~ though I don’t remember her using them. We were always an avid crystals and incense kinda household haha. Very homely for me 🥰 I’ve been playing with the idea of getting some cards but none have crossed my path as yet. As soon as I find a place selling them I’ll make sure to get some! 🧚🏼✨
This made me cry so much. I have been feeling so alien. And it all makes sense and I’m overwhelmed and fell lost in the cracks.
I hear you 🫶🏼 I mean this from the heart, watch the follow up for some love. I didn’t include that here because I didn’t want to overwhelm but if you feel like you need it ~ it’s there, from me to you 🌻 🌞
My cat is awesome, his name is Boris. Like Boris the animal in men in black. He is a ginger. He is awesome.
I am OBSESSED ~ and orange is my favourite colour 😀🧡 Boris sounds like an absolute legend and I love him already. Please give him a squish and tell him he’s a good boi from me 🥰❣️
@@recoverywithme I did , he's a drooler and suffers from a skin condition so I have to keep him inside a lot but he loves being outside. Poor buggar. He says hi.
I FEEL your PAIN. ❤❤
Do you hate hair touching your face? Much love babe ❤ and thanks. I use alcohol to fit in.
@@aprilk141 yes it makes me itchy just thinking about it 😂 it’s rare I have it completely down. I used alcohol the same but please remember, there is nothing to fit ‘into’. Most of society don’t know who they are and are all putting on an act. Truly. I learned that living in London for sure. It’s all fake. Real humans are hard to find so give yourself that love first, before trying to fit someone else’s idea of what’s cool. You are coolest when you’re being yourself. If they don’t like it - screw em! Your people are out there. Takes time though 😊
YT suggested your video, didn't expect to listen to the whole thing but it was so authentic... What a wonderful person you are. Thank you for this experience. P.S.: sending the link to a friend with a note "one of us" :)
This was the first thing I read when I woke up this morning ~ how blooming beautiful. Thank you for such a kind gift and sending so much love back to you, friend 🌻✨
Did you go AA xx
@@Nicnac13 I did for a very short time in the first few weeks. As much as I align with some of the concepts, it wasn’t for me in the long term. There are many paths of recovery but one size (in my opinion formed from both experience and research) does not fit all 🌞
Only just found you xxx I have Audhd and self medicated my anxiety and sensory overwhelm since I was 15 xx I have absolutely had enough of drink and really want to quit but have failed so many times 😢
My heart goes out to you, I can imagine some of the challenges you must have faced. You’re a lot stronger than you feel, I promise you that. Well done on continuing to look for answers too ~ it can be exhausting in itself. I’ve been working on something for over a year (I burn out easily so it’s taken a while and there’s so much to fit in there). It’s aimed at helping us sensitive people find our strength and move past our addictive coping mechanisms. Pop me an email hello@recoverywith.me if you think it could be interesting (no pressure). I figure we learn best from each other, the people who have actually lived a life and understand the pain. So much love! 🦋🫶🏼
Never cope with london with autism you do well live un the country had to gi last year ti get diagnosed heds first since 1998
Yes i remember first visiting years ago, before I’d moved there and my gut reaction was ~ I am never coming here unless I really have to, let alone live there! I but I convinced myself that I had to do so in order to be seen as ‘successful’. I was lost and didn’t believe I could exist as my true self. London is exhausting and I don’t think it’s healthy for anyone to be there for too long. Especially not us sensitive people 🙏🏼
The rest going out etc had that from birth but hadnt a clue why until diagnosis 43 years later huh
We are only taught to ‘fit in’ no matter what the cost. No one teaches us to look within for the answers. It’s all a big Hollywood construct. It’s all a lie.
The system IS broken. And I don’t subscribe to that channel either. I don’t have an official diagnosis because I don’t have $5000 US dollars to get it done. I’m almost 50 and I know I’m autistic. My son is autistic. He’s 17. We have sooooooo many same behaviors. How it took me 15 years to get diagnosed is beyond me. Things happen when you need them to happen I guess. Maybe when I have the money I can get the diagnosis.
@@tiffanylbacon you’re a wonderful mum ~ I’m sorry the world is so backwards. I don’t know if you’ll resonate but part 2 to this video is more about our strength and how important sensitive people actually are. Perhaps it will lend some courage. Even though self diagnosis doesn’t lend much external support, it is valid and I see you 🫶🏼
@@recoverywithmethank you 🩷 I’ll watch the second video. An official diagnosis in the states won’t get me anything either because I’m an adult. The states suck for services for neurodivergent folks.
I’m 2 months from being g 50. I was diagnosed with ADHD a year ago. Found out I’m autistic 6 weeks ago. I’m I. The process of figuring out who I am from a lifetime of masking and stuffing all my behavior traits. It’s a relief to know because my life makes so much sense now but I have angst at finding out who I am whiteout masking. How is this going to impact my life? And why does it take so long?! I feel like a walking contradiction. I share many of the same things as you but I have so many different. We are all so unique.
Dis ease / CONSTANT STREAM OF stress is such a huge catalyst for me . The toxins then reside in my body for days afterwards and then the burnout
100% relate. Simplifying life, leaving the city and focusing on what brings me true joy has really helped. I spend a lot more time alone and it feels a lot more balanced. Hopefully you’ll find some similar answers that will help you feel good in your skin 🙏🏼✨
Do you have any pain symptoms
I’m not sure if this question was for me but I do experience a lot of (sometimes chronic) pain. Especially if I have something viral ~ I also experience what i call ‘sister pain’. If I injure my ankle say - I may get pain symptoms somewhere else in my body as well (as a direct result). I also experience a lot of fever type symptoms. At school, even a spot on my face could make me feel as if I had the flu, headache etc. and all my sensitivities flair up. Is that similar to what you experience? I’ve never dared to talk much about it as I don’t know how to communicate it firstly, and was scared of sounding like a hypochondriac.. I realise now it’s very common in our community.
@@recoverywithme yes Ime diagnosed fybromyalgia CFS decdes but only just diagnosed autism ADHD heds are you hypermobile it's muscle pain worst symptom daily some has changed over time people who don't understand use those hypochondriac terms Dr lenz channel is very good are you hypermobile? Do you have SPD the OCD is involved alot I believe. We have a different subconscious brain
Jag fick Aspberger syndrome (Autism) diagnos efter flera perioder av utbrändhet, fick en stroke 2,5 år sedan också. Efter stroken fick jag min diagnos och idag är jag ledsen, arg, besviken att jag gick så långt med maskering att det förstörde mig helt. Jag var också otroligt känslig som liten, min syster spottade på mig, slog mig, kallade mig ful, äcklig mm. Jag insåg nyligen att tt min familj var fylld av narcissism så det fanns inget utrymme för mig. Men idag så vet jag att människor är hemska och försöker finna en samvaro som jag är okej med. Skolan, vården, familjens försummelse av mina behov som aldrig besvarades är hemsk. Ett tips är att medicinera mot ångesten, jag tar Sertralin och det gör underverk för mig och min rastlösa hjärna, jag lan idag säga att jag inte klarar mig utan den. Nog är nog, ångest är ett helvete så kämpa inte emot utan medicinering. Tack för din video, jag kan relatera otroligt mycket. Mvh Nicklas 34 år.
Ive been batteling sugar stuff for 3 weeks now. I feel better but i gained weight and im okay with it. Now im eating healthy and look forward to losing all this weight.
Well done because it isn’t easy ~ one of life’s biggest challenges if anything. So this is amazing! It definitely takes time to balance out but it will. I’ve found early morning walks before the rest of society wakes up has been my favourite way to move my body. The more I listen to it, the more I want to put more love into it and less stuff that does me harm. But small steps, feel proud, so many people don’t ever even get to the ‘I want to make a positive change’ mindset. Let alone actually do it! 🙌🏼🌟
While I don't really consider myself spiritual and I'm not religious, I really appreciate your perspective on connecting again with ourselves and nature. The closest I have come to that spiritual feeling (the awe) is through music and nature. Simple and slower living is what I have been striving for largely out of necessity (autism) and connecting more with my sensitive side / younger me is what I have been missing, and you describe your journey well. Thank you for sharing :)
I love it when we can have varying perspectives but still appreciate each others take. I really respect that ~ thank you so much for this and for spending some time. Sounds to me like you’re onto something really good 😊 I think I was worried i would get lost in the void if I didn’t try to ‘keep up’. Turns out quite the opposite was true! 🌞✨
i love watching clouds ☁️
Same 😊 I’ve only recently found my way back to it, back to nature, in the last few years. Got a bit lost in the city noise 🙌🏼✨
what a banger this video is. holy shit. thank you so much for sharing :)
Awh wicked! Thanks for hanging out! 🌞✨
I have both it makes everything extra challenging
@@Dancestar1981 they’re definitely at odds a lot of the time! Like Bart Simpson and his evil twin.. but which one is which? 😂 (I’m just joking but sometimes it does feel that way).
Love the video, I'm afraid of being seen for sure and have a lot of masking behavior around hiding "childish" traits. Thanks for your work!
@@Broken_robot1986 thanks so much for this! It’s about a year on since this video & I am making it my sole mission to bring my inner child - back out! 😋 Turns out societal ‘rules’ are not my jam. Only play by the rules when I have to! That’s how much purposely spending more time alone (quality time for introspection away from projection) has changed my perspective the last few years. Making ourselves our best friend, and only allowing those people in who mirror that back to us. I’m sure I’ve alienated people from my past as a result but that’s why they’re not in my present. I want to run in the forest - find a cool stick or two 😂 im 35 next month and ageing no longer depresses or scares me. Cos I can still have fun in nature, be childlike, make stuff, even on my own- who knew? Let’s goo! 🧚🏼
Thank you Mikaela 🙏💕
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Thank you for reminding us that we can feel light and free just being yourself, even if we endure hard times. I think we grown-ups keep forgetting how important jumping up and down is ☺️ And great music! Thank you for taking us along your Journey ❤ Thank you for being so amazing and courageous! Lots of Love
Awh yes, you’re so right! I think society has been manipulated that way since school sadly. Luckily many of us are waking up to ourselves again, back to joy and a sense of freedom! So happy you feel the same! And yes The Beaches are such an awesome band!! Thank you for this! 🫶🏼✨
Thank you so much for this, Mikaela. I also have been doing intense self work for the past 4-5 years and am now seeking an autism diagnosis. It was affirming to hear you say that it’s so helpful to do the self work before seeking the diagnosis.
Hi 👋🏼 My absolute pleasure, I’m so glad you found it helpful and felt some connection too. Something very important for us all to feel I think 🌻🥰
I really liked this and found it helpful, thank you. Can you share more about your experience with the different knobs of the spectrum? I'm having trouble finding real life people talking about what these knobs are.
@@peterfox5106 Awh so happy to read this, thank you! @PurpleElla does a much better job at explaining ~ you can check it out here ua-cam.com/users/shortsyXW5JfCxegM?si=V_XJj22FNGbtSIS3
@@recoverywithme excellent resource and with literal knobs for the visual (or kinetic?) minded, thank you 😊 🙏
You are so smart and beautiful. 💖 you have both perfact face and perfect thoughts
@@Sanika-xo hehe that’s very kind of you to say, thanks so much for hanging out with me! 😊🌻
I spent 3 years in a freeze response after finding out i am autistic. honestly, I dont think im unfrozen just slightly thawed. day by day.
@@Green_Expedition_Drgn Thank you for sharing back 😊 i can completely relate. I’ve had to strip life back to the bare basics as I’m exhausted & overwhelmed very easily, you might relate to that too? Hard to not fall into negative thoughts of ‘keeping up’ but I gently remind myself that it’s not my game so I don’t have to constantly try to play by those rules anymore. Be gentle with yourself, it’s been a challenging ride. The follow up video to this is more angled at strength and something I hope might lift you up should you wish 🌞✨
You belong in this world just as much as anyone else. Autism simply means you process information differently including social cues. That is all. Your partners and your true friends will connect with you and accommodate you if you tell them. You may want to look into meditation and yoga to learn to manage ADHD and to manage anxiety. Somatic Experience therapy could help with some things also since I am sure you have been traumatized a lot which is common. In the end your contentment is your happiness. You have to accept yourself. It can only come from within not outside. Once you do that, you will only allow the right partner in. Be blessed. Cheers from Florida.
Thank you, beautiful comment. I didn’t go into my spirituality in this video, as I didn’t want to overload with information and dilute the message. But in my follow up I talk about my deeper perception of sensitive people and share my strength. I align with your words 🌞✨
@@recoverywithme My son might be like you. Very sensitive, very creative and talented playing multiple instruments, very high IQ but very introverted. I suspect spectrum but I don't think he is ready to find out for sure or to accept it. His happiness is more important than a label to me and labels just create a classification, they don't solve anything anyway. Western world is obsessed with labels. We are all different. Some more than others. There are right partners for every one out there where we make true connections.
Me encanta tu forma de hablar, saludos❤🇦🇷
Thank you for such a kind comment 😊
I just love those guys. We have them here, too, in the Salish Sea. Thanks so much for sharing this moment of serenity. 💜
That’s amazing 💓 There’s something quite magic about them isn’t there? ✨I feel such a sense of awe in their presence. There is still so much beauty in the world, I hope we all find our way back to it 🥰
@@recoverywithme , yes, I feel that awe, as well! Thank you again for sharing. 🥰
I just closed my eyes rather tightly after watching this out of awe for your profound message for humanity, but also because the light from the screen was making my eyes sting even though it's not night time and the luminesence is on the lowest setting lol (duh, right?), and you know how sometimes after staring at something the image stays imprinted on your cornea or something because you can still see a vague outline of the corresponding shapes. Anyway, in the middle of the screen there was this shape that recalled a heart.. must have been the way you were sitting in that chair with your legs making a kind of v. Before I figured out what I was even 'looking' at, I saw the heart. How fitting. Thank you for this massive hug, and reminders, I needed all of it, and hope to be able to mirror this out into the world, the highest vibrations that I can muster. Was vibing pretty low before watching your video. Love you Mikaela! 🤎🤎🤎infinte brown earthy chocolate hearts for you 🤎🤎🤎& more thoughts to follow!
Wow your comment is very touching but also very on point and timely! I’ve been listening to @AURORA new album ‘What happened to the heart’ 🫀 As I relate a lot to the message in her music and her interviews about the sad state of the world. What an amazing perception of my video, it’s really warmed me to read this and I love the magic! Thank you so much for taking the time to watch but also to share some insights 🌞✨
Thank you for being brave enough and open enough to share your story. I am self diagnosed with things, mostly because the us healthcare system is terrible. I've been working really hard on myself with help from my wife. Thank you for being who you are. All of you.
Thanks so much for telling a bit of your story too! I was self diagnosed when I put my first 2 autism videos out, because I really was that certain. I spent a long time looking inwards and scanning through my history. After all, we know ourselves best when we finally dare to look within. Since then I’ve been ‘formally’ diagnosed simply to understand the process, to help me in my work. But I value both the same! So happy you have a supportive partner ~ that’s so awesome! Small steps, take it at your own pace. It’s your life to live how you choose 🙌🏼
That is so serene. It actually looks like a place on the bay just near where I live in Australia. 🙏🙏
I’ve never been to Aus but I’ve seen many documentaries 🌞 I’m so lucky that I’m the only person awake at that time ~ it’s my own private moment with nature before the human world wakes up ✨
@@recoverywithmeThat is a one perfect moment in time and I think your little friend was waiting for you.🙏
@@recoverywithme I’ve only a small phone so can’t see clearly. But what was it seal or otter ? ✌️🇬🇧
@markthompson9914 a young seal 😊 It didn’t seem to mind my presence which was so appreciated ✨
@@recoverywithme If u get the chance again call “HERE BILLY BILLY BILLY” and they often come closer. I’ve rescued 3 pups in my time at sea on the trawlers and I had a pet one eyed seal who would wait for me to come up the river. He’d be alongside the mile or so straight cut then wait for me to lay too on the ropes. Then would start barking at me until I gave him his free meal. I used to save the whiting out of each haul and eventually got him to take it from my hand. Then one day he wasn’t there anymore 🤷♂️ But the Billy Billy Billy trick works, it’s an old seal hunters trick they used when seal oil was used to coat the sail against the elements. U will feel a prat, and look one to others 😂 but no kidding it works 👍 Edit; BTW if u curious I fished the Wash and surrounding waters of North Norfolk Coast England 👍✌️
I'm 40 years old, I just got diagnosed with mixed Adhd and I am waiting for a autism assesment. I was such a wonderful loving kids with hypersensitivity. The world pushed me down all my life and even if I'm broken I haven't givin up. I have been bullied all my life cuz I'm deferent. I am still full of love and off drugs for 2 years and I finnally know why I'm so different
My heart goes out to you ~ but you are very much not alone. It’s crazy how we’ve been made to feel so isolated, when reality is that Autism is VERY common. I have some quite strong thoughts on this in my latest ‘Part 2’ to this video. I don’t know if you’ll agree with my perception but if you do, it may help you find even more strength. I’d love to hear your thoughts! 🌞 Proud of you & proud of us all 🌟✨
I can relate with so many of these examples as a guy also on the spectrum. I am so grateful for content creators like you who put yourselves out there shedding light on these things.
I want to also thank you for mirroring this back to me and whoever else reads your comment. This connection feels so important and energising somehow 🪞✨
We have so much in common, that it’s almost scary. I found this to be amazing, thank you ❤
My pleasure, you amazing people on the internet have allowed me to finally feel understood! I’m happy to return the favour as much as I can. So glad we can relate, it’s life changing 🌟
I had to accept that my stomach is not built for milk. I did white knuckle that for YEARS. Not worth it!!!!
Oh I feel this! It causes real mischief in there! Well done on the realisation ~ so many foods contain it! Even things that have no business containing milk. I try to make most of my food myself now just to avoid the bullsh*t 🙌🏼✨
Loved the video, so you may have come across the young lady who teaches Yoga on her canal boat. Such an inspirational story and uplifting watch. Looking forward to your videos on this. Coffee and Cinnamon bagels are the best!
Thanks so much! I haven’t come across her ~ feel free to send a link if you have time. Ive actually made a decision to let go of the barge & move back to Sweden after 27 years in the UK ~ I want to find a little red and white cabin in the forest to refurbish and to document the process. Something really comforting about restoring something old into the new. A reflection of my own journey perhaps haha 🌞
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@@recoverywithme Her name is May. I love boats and sailing. I used to keep a Westerley Centaur on the River Hamble, she is now sold. My next boat will be a Contessa 32 when I’ve saved my pennies!
@justinhambidge8811 ooo very sleek - I love a mid century design both in home decor and boats! It’s a wonderful sense of freedom on the water, i hope the rest of humanity starts giving the sea the respect it deserves 🐬
I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in 16 years but I still think about it sometimes when I'm stressed out. It has such a hold over me, I know if I give in and have one drink all those years of sobriety would be lost.
@@hornady6.5 amazing achievement, you must have learned so much in that time ✨ I too have no space for it in my life, I prefer to feel things, even when it’s not all clear skies. Flowers need watering too 🌸
I'm very grateful I ran across this video and the previous one. Though my life has been significantly easier than yours, I am now, after almost 36 years and six years after my diagnosis, at a point where everything broke down. I think the process of recovery is very slowly starting now, we'll see how that goes. Your story about finding yourself resonates with me strongly. I'm at a point where there doesn't seem to be a "me" to get back to. I obviously exist (at least in a practical sense that I experience something that I call existence), but I don't feel a "little me" that can tell me who I am or what I want. My (very) tentative hypothesis is that this missing "me" is what is causing all my troubles at the moment. What I have never experienced, contrasting to your story, is the feeling of something spiritual. All that I know is my thinking, analysing side. There are obviously emotions that affect me, but they don't feel a part of myself, just something that is always 'around' me, for lack of a better word, that sometimes takes some form of overwhelming control. I've heard many people with autism speak about spirituality and all of them seemed to have a good connection to their emotional side. This makes me wonder if there is some sort of connection between being in touch with your emotions and experiencing spirituality (whatever that might mean to you), at least in people with autism. Kind of a rambling comment, maybe, but I'm writing this as I think it. Hopefully this is of interest to some of the people here.