Transitioning Didn’t Ruin My Future
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- Опубліковано 12 лют 2020
- Hi, I’m Elle. I’m a 20 year old FtMtF detransitioner. In this video I’m talking about what I want my future to look like 6 months from now, a year from now, 5 years from now, and 10 years from now. Hopefully I’ll be able to get my shit together.
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Even though you are a sick little puppy I find myself attracted to you. Since gender doesn't matter these days you should also try dating a guy and having sex with a guy and see if you like that. Instead of trying to be masculine try to connect with it.
elle palmer “hot takes on detransition” smh....
Wishing you happiness, love, and light, Elle 🥰 please don't pay attention to the weirdos in some of these comments, your videos are helping so many people ❤️
I finally put my finger on why I keep enjoying your videos so much. They're pretty simple, like how most of youtube was back like 10 years ago or so. Very old school, talking to the camera and simple editing! It's super refreshing and feels a lot more "real" than some of the overly flashy stuff out there. I hope you keep making videos! This one has a really nice cozy sort of feeling like I'm at a sleepover and listening to a friend share her feelings with me lol
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Lets do it again. How many viewers like Elles' SMILE
She is attractive to
My philosophy is: look toward the future, but don't forget to live in the present, and make it count. Don't worry unduly about yesterday, it's past.
Love this.
Yesterday is important too, it makes you who you are!
@@katarzynagnyp626 of course, but who you are is primarily important because of your today and tomorrow
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I could honestly listen to your voice all day it’s so pleasing
Melati I agree, A great speaker, a comforting sound, a narrater perhaps
Period, always look up. Your past doesn’t define you. Your character is determined by the tasks that benefit you and others around you. Godspeed.
You’re incredibly wise for such a young woman. I think you’re incredibly positive. You’re a light in this corner of UA-cam that’s so desperately needed! I’m excited to watch your journey and see where you go! ♥️
Good luck girl! ❤️❤️ I was going to college just like you at 20. Now I’m 25 with a husband and a baby. Life can sure lead you in a different direction then you thought it would.
I toggled between your first video and this one and your voice has indeed became much lighter..
I hope she can practice so that her voice becomes lighter.
Elle: “Oh my gosh 10 years from now I’m gonna be 30. I’m gonna be so old.”
Me currently about to turn 28: 😳🥺😭
I'm 33. Y'all need to chill on the "old" shit.
Lauren Ciora RIGHT?!
same I’m 21 and
don’t wanna turn older than 25 omg
Lauren Ciora I am 45!
I'm so happy you're sharing your story, it's super eye opening to me and I'm sure a ton of other people too ❤️ I relate to you in a lot of interesting ways. Your videos have totally changed my mind from thinking "if a kid thinks they're trans then they are and you should get to transition as soon as you want to". It never occurred to me that you can be a fierce LGBT advocate but still want to prevent children from doing something to their bodies they may seriously wish they hadn't done in the future. I really bet that if people had enough mental health support in their lives from a young age, and also if people supported "not girly" girls and "not boyish" boys as they were without pushing them any certain way, there would be a lot more happy kids out there and less adults who were failed by a system they couldn't control. Just really wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your insight and I really wish you nothing but love and light. ❤️
You are so optimistic and have some great plans. Don’t be too hard on yourself, though. Everyone does things that they look back and wonder what the hell they were thinking. I love your videos!
I love your positivity Elle! Things will work out, and I love your optimism for the future! You got this.
Your hope is inspiring. I needed a good example of what that looks like.
When I was your age ( lol) I wasn’t very good at planning or setting goals like this - really still not great- I love this about you that you set goals and achieve things! You will do whatever you set your sights on and I can’t wait to watch it all! You are amazing thanks for sharing!
Just reading the title I’m so happy you’re making this video especially for those who regret transitioning and need something positive like this
Each video of your I have watched has been so informative and I have learned something. I'm glad your planning for the future and wish you all the best.
I am a psychology major! It's a great major! I can be kinda of triggering some times so if you choose it as a major make sure you integrate self-care into your routine! Self-care is key!
Stop blaming yourself. Life can be hard, confusing. Your life is ahead of you. ❤️
Please stay strong love! ♥️✨ I really hope everything goes well
I believe in you! Everything will get better I promise, you just have to wait-
There is immense value in the way you share your story with such positivity. Wherever you go, whatever you do, no matter the weather, always bring your smile and sunshine.
I would like to know from people who detransitioned, for ftms, did you think of yourself as a man? Did being called by male pronouns made you feel better and right? And did it hurt when you were referred to as a woman? Did you ever think of yourself as a man in the far future? Did you see yourself being a father in the future?
I would be glad if someone could answer me those questions. I really can't understand how someone could be wrong about their gender identity, to the point of starting to transition, and then realize that it isn't right for them. I would like to understand. Cause I'm sure I am a man, a trans man, and I feel the need to transition since about 7 years ago, and now I'm finally very close to it, but seing these kind of videos makes me afraid I might be wrong, because there are people that were sure too and then found out they were wrong.
People are wrong all the time about lots of things, especially when it comes to themselves. But just because they can be about themselves and just because she was about her doesn't mean that you're wrong about you. And if you are.. then you stop, and do something else. It wasn't a waste, because you aren't a waste.
@@cceres thank you for the words, I really appreciate it. Thinking rationally through this process is very hard, there are so many forces pushing us back, it's easy to fall into a dark area in our imagination...
@oktopustrainer Thank you for the words, they mean a lot to me. Wish the best of luck to you too, wise human!
A big Congratulations on coming such a long way since your journey started
You have a lot of great goals and a bright future ahead of you. I especially like how you mentioned learning a language. That's my passion and I think it would be a great asset for a Jounalism major.
You’re such an inspiration, I love you ❤️
Hi Elle! I really enjoyed this update and it was refreshing hearing you think about the future. As someone going through a transition of sorts myself (non-gender related complete life overhaul after the end of a 20 year relationship and 18 year marriage), your video reminded me of the importance of daydreaming about the future and becoming optimistic about the possibilities. I also found the information about hormones very interesting, as I was previously a female bodybuilder who dabbled with hormones and had some interesting physical changes, many of which are changing in another direction now. I look forward to continuing to follow your journey.
❤ Yes keep your chin up stay positive!!! Cheering you on.
Hey Elle! I'm not sure if you'll read this but you've been so strong and transparent with your journey so far!! I'm loving watching you grow and I really hope you know that you're doing AMAZING!! Keep going lovely xx
Just started watching ur videos n u have the absolute best and honest down to eartj personalities and i love you for it
Subbed to follow your journey 💓 Loved hearing optimism for your future! You got this, Elle.
You are so great! I always look forward to watching your videos :)
It is very nice of you to share your story with us. You are inspiring.
Love you Elle, keep on making videos, this is so important for so many people! ❤️
Sending you virtual hugs and positivity from Germany 😘
I've been following your journey. The m you for your honesty. I know you probably dont think about it like this but: you are brave.
Yes! I love maths for the same reason you shared
Hope everything is going well!
I love your energy
Elle u gat this! Future is bright luv
I did a Psychology degree (UK) and now at age 25 work within Marketing. Psychology opens lots of doors as it can be used in so many contexts. Good luck with it all!
When she says 30 is old.
Me: Cries in 28
Hurray, I can finally qualify for AARP!
30 is old
@@masonridgewell8063 It really isn’t.
You're young asf.
@@punkgrl325 naf i definitely is, especially women afte 30 are no longer attractive and less value.
I really wish I could kick it with you Elle. Your story is very interesting and even through this medium I can feel your energy and vibes! Peace and ❤️
omg how do I still found time to watch your 20 minute videos weekly
Priorities
Not a bad thing
Elle, you look so happy, hope you keep like that, and if not, is okay.. but always try to come back as happy as you are here!!!
Ur skin is so clear! :O I just had to note that
I wish for all the best Elle. You will do fine.
You should document your voice training if it wouldn't bother you! Also I majored in psychology and absolutely adore it- it's a great major or minor with anything else imo. I'm pursuing a psychology research career focused in gender identity development which led me to your channel 💕
Not sure how this ended up in my recommendations, but you have a mesmerizing personality - looks like this is going to be one of the few channels that make yt still worthwile today. Hope you stay with the sciences (whichever catches your interest) as it seems to me you could lecture without losing your audience for a second. And do not worry too much about your voice - you wouldn't have the girlie voice of your 15yo self today even if nothing special had happened.
I’ve been doing dream interpretation for years, for people as far away as Japan. Visions are not daydreams. Visions are not common (I have them sometimes too). Visions are interpreted similar to dreams. The vision you had is amazing and filled with promise.
I think Elle would be a great independent journalist. What a start right here.
You have an amazing outlook
Taking harder classes is a great way to figure out if journalism is what you want to do. I did the same thing. I was majoring in history, took a few upper level classes to see if it was something I wanted to do and absolutely hated it. LOL so I figured out what to do next over the summer and I could not have ended up in a better match for me than anthropology. If I didnt explore the harder classes I would have wasted a shit ton of time and money.
If u like greek maybe latin will be a good idea. Its very interesting to read very old literature.
I loved the video
You'll keep making videos, I DEMAND IT
you probably can change ur voice a lot if u wanted :)! i believe. resonance is super important also, aside from pitch
Please learn German!!! I took it for four years in high school and two years in college! It’s so much easier than you would think, especially for a native English speaker
I agree. My ex boyfriend was learning in high school and he taught me some words and I ended up not really being able to speak it but I could read it which was strange lol.
Krass, hab ich noch nie von jemandem gehört, dessen Muttersprache Englisch ist. Ich bin Deutscher und die meisten verzweifeln an den 4 Fällen (Nom., Akk., Dat., Gen) und können die Adjektive nicht richtig angleichen. Dazu kommen 3 Artikel allein im Nominativ. 🤔 habe noch nie von einem Ausländer gehört, dass Deutsch leicht ist 😄 aber freut mich, dass dir meine Muttersprache gefällt. Grüße aus Köln 🇩🇪
Have you thought about maybe going into publishing or editing books? Could be a fun way to be in the writing world but maybe more stable 😊
Learn German and study abroad in Germany, we would love to have you here ❤️
Just listening to you talk for a few minutes, I’m already “comfortable” with it ... I guess lol idk how to word this. Because seeing a girls face and hearing a deeper voice is obviously going to throw you off a bit. But i don’t even know you and I’m just thinking ooh that’s just their voice. Not really thinking much of it. Until you brought up wanting to maybe try voice training. ... I hope this makes sense lol 😝
You should take some philosophy classes! It sounds like philosophy of aesthetics or philosophy of mind might interest you. Maybe something to talk to the department about.
I am a philosophy graduate student and majored in philosophy in undergrad and loved it, so I have to suggest it. You would do great! You also often learn a bit of Greek through philosophy.
I mistrust journalists because usually they care more about finding information that supports what they already think and encouraging more people to think as they think through selecting the right pieces of a story rather then simply finding new and interesting information and presenting all points of view available.
The more good, honest journalists we have to combat this trend, the better.
Thank you for speaking up
The language you learn should be largely determined by the country/culture you are most interested in visiting/learning about. As a native English speaker who learned both Spanish and German....German is much much harder. But worth it if you are interested in travelling/working/living in a German speaking country.
Good luck!
There's also vocal feminization surgery that many trans girls have had. Search for "Yesnik vocal" and you should find info on it.
Also chemistry is even better than math imo for all the reasons you mentioned- and includes math !
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SPANISH. Also, psychology is a good major. Only thing is you would most likely need to get a masters as well. Journalism is great to do if that is your passion, however, it may be hard to find work. But I would definitely say that if you still are interested but aren’t passionate about it then a minor in journalism would be great. The STEM (Science, Technology, Engineering, Math) field is a good route because that’s really where the money is.
Something I would recommend for you since you’re interested in Psychology is Social Work. Social Work has so many different avenues of work potential. I’m on my last year of college and my major is Criminal Justice but I’m also Minoring in Social Work and I plan to get my masters in Social Work hopefully. But I feel like Criminal Justice and Social Work go really good together, especially for what I plan to do.
I’ve always wanted to do something within the system but in a humanistic kind of way. Social Work allows for that because it’s more Social so like community outreach or working at the micro, mezzo and/or macro level (which is something you would learn about) there’s case management, school social work, therapy, and pretty much anything you could imagine.
A social worker could work in a hospital (in a Social work way of course) so maybe you would be providing resources for families that come to the hospital or crisis intervention for kids/teens/adults/elders or something like that. There are social workers that work in the CJ system (which is pretty much where I see myself). A lot of people think social workers just work in CPS and take kids away but it’s such a broad field. I’d definitely say that you should look into it if you’re interested in anything that I listed or something similar. I have so much advice for college success based on what I’ve learned so far.
If you’re still undecided, it’s good to explore but also narrow down things as you go since you’ll have to declare by the end of your sophomore year. Also, think realistically as well. Unfortunately that’s what it’s come to based on our economy. So make sure that whatever you are contemplating is going to be worth the money you’re paying to be in school. Especially if you have loans, you gotta be able to pay them off.
Also, INTERNSHIPS ARE VERY IMPORTANT because even if you get a bachelors and a masters you will struggle to find work if you have zero experience or not enough. A lot of places want at least one to two years of experience when they’re considering people for a job. It’s good to start now since you are in your first year. Volunteer, find internships and/or work, make connections because that will definitely help you.
Sorry this is long-winded, I just feel the need to share what I’ve learned because I’ve had to learn through trial and error and there’s a lot I wish I had and hadn’t done.
Also, it’s a good time to start building credit if you haven’t already, but BE CAREFUL. You want to keep your credit card balance low so that you can pay the full balance, that’s better for building credit in addition to making sure you always pay on time. If for some reason you can’t pay the full balance, at least make sure you have set aside some money to pay the minimum balance which can vary based on how much of your available credit you’ve used.
Alright good luck! 🍀 I hope everything works out!
I know this is a heavy video, and I respect that, but I just wanted to say that you’re SO pretty. Naturally. Please keep your chin up
Gosh, your a kid, to me. I turned 40 this February.
take german or french 🙈 my college only offers spanish and french 🙄 i like french, that's what I'm taking right now, but i wish they had more options. And I already speak spanish lol
I recommend german and Germany!! I’m an American who moved to Germany a year and a half ago and I love it so much. I love every german city I’ve been to
Tell me more ! I’ve always wanted to visit Germany my grandparents are from there
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I looove your videos and your personality is so lovely! I was wondering though, could you please do a video about your thoughts towards actual trans people? I've seen yours and other women's stories used as trans exclusionary radical feminist talking points, and it's really disheartening that it seems like detransitioners' stories are being used against trans people as if we can't both exist :(
I'm studying diesel mechanics at a community college, it pays well pick a trade college is worthless. I have a degree in criminal justice and biomedical both were a fucking pain in the ass with learning disabilities and ADHD. I plan going back for my amp powerplant once I complete my diesel classes and I'll make better money, I originally was applying to physician assistant school. I have friends who are MDs, Nps and PAs tell me it doesnt pay as well cause of regulations and lawsuits
LOL I'm from Greece, if you are up for the challenge you can learn it, but it's really complex.
Can you trust your self for future decision making on your life?
you're probably not going to like all of your classes and that's just fact. you just have to be convinced enough that they're worth taking in the end beacuse of all the things you'll learn.
Have you been watching videos aimed at MTF for voice training and practising things?
30 seems like a long way off now but you'll be there and past in a flash and it seems to get faster the older you get.
You seem perfectly well adjusted. And you will have a great life. And you are stunningly beautiful. You can easily be a multi-millionaire if you take up modeling
I LOVE YOUR VOICE!
Lol 30 ain’t too bad, I’m about to turn 30 myself in 3 more months. 😋
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No matter what you choose to do in the future, your trans/detrans journey will inform how you help others. I can see you helping others think through decisions -- maybe as a school counselor?
Kangaroo; I agree with you, Teen Counselor
Elle that nose ring looks cute
YESSSS
*GAMING*
I am an adult with three children . I watch your videos because I have BDD. My youngest is 25 and I have some advice, take it or leave it:
1. I majored in journalism and it is a dead end
2. My daughter majored in psychology and got a graduate degree in counseling high school students with an emphasis in LGBT. She had multiple job offers and makes a great salary
3. Change your voice. People outside of the safety of college are very judgemental
3. You would be an excellent counselor and help many people
Wishing you the best life!
I'm ftm and I want to transition but with all these detransition stories I'm really looking into myself and other people a lot before making a choice, any advice?
Auslander ; Think about the long run, how do you see yourself in 10 years, 20 years, etc. If you see yourself as a man, then it would be a good idea to transition is that is what you so desire. I would also recommend seeing a therapist that has a lot of experience with trans people. I’m 16 and almost a year on testosterone and it’s the best decision I ever made. Before testosterone I was very depressed and testosterone really helped improve my mental health drastically.
@@mattesquieu1068 thanks for the reply. I definitely see myself as a dude as far into the future as I can see you know? I'm glad transitioning helped for you, I honestly think it'd help for me but I'm in a shit spot atm lmao
Your so young! Never mind on the single question. :(
Have you ever spoke to Walter Hyer? He’s an amazing guy. I think your future looks bright🌞
Always look to the future, not the past.
Hopefully this isn’t a super uncomfortable question, but what do you usually do to your voice after detransitioning? I’m actually curious about this.
You have a very magnetic smile
Do you take any hormones now to detransition faster? Like birthcontrol?
Hugs
Hey Elle! If you're interested in psychology there's this great paper called the Future of Gender and Sex in Psychology: five challenges to the gender binary, published by American Psychologist I think with a bunch of different authors from different psychology and neurology disciplines. It really changed the way I think about gender in a scientific way, but would love to know your thoughts if you have time to read it.
medschool.ucsd.edu/som/psychiatry/about/Diversity/Documents/Hyde%20et%20al%202019%20gender%20nonbinary.pdf - link for ease of access ('cause I looked it up myself)
So when she transitioned to male did her voice get deeper? Because it’s still deep.
Yes, her voice is deep because she took testosterone. The voice change usually is permanent.
Gaby Hagemann ohh that’s kind of upsetting to hear that it’s irreversible...
There is the possibillity to get voice training. It's also possible to get a voice feminization surgery.
Ignore me if this is painful but I wanna ask you, do you see children in your future? Biological? Step children? Fur children? Job with children? Children of friends? What are you open to?
She says no from the last vid, but she could change her mind in the future
jon good
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Yes - thIs Trans man got pregnant:
(www.nbcnews.com/feature/nbc-out/transgender-fertility-study-sheds-light-testosterone-s-impact-n1182636).
That news article reports that a Trans man ceased testosterone for four months. His Estrogen level normalised sufficient for him to get pregnant.
Okay, YMMV. It is good news for you, Elle, if you decide that you want your own biological child.
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@@sharonannen8859 thanks for your post but my curiosity arises when I notice elle doesn't mention children not even professionally, as in working with children, or friends with children and finally children of her own. I follow her videos and children are never a topic... reproduction is a topic but children are never a topic. She never mentions children. If I I'm wrong please let me know.
Thanks again
jon good
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You are correct and I’ve watched each of Elle’s videos to remember that she herself expressed no plans for children.
I posted that reference and Comment in reply to your question (and others throughout the course of Elle’s videos) about her having biological children. She also did mention in her discussion questioning the prospects of her female reproductive capability after Testosterone. This is one resource reports this person successfully retained the capacity of bearing a child after having been on Testosterone.
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Mmmmmmmmm Peanut Butter Cups but Ferrero Rocher are the BOMB
So proud of Elle for speaking her truth and not letting the Trans Activists silence her!
Yes...sometimes being Trans is the WRONG decision! It is not "Transphobic". It is the truth. Young kids can not make life-altering decisions about their body!
Hey girl heyyy
My dude I am so excited for you to start doing gaming