Crushing Grief, Heart Cracking Open, Unraveling, and Rebirth after Relationship Ends
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Crushing Grief, Heart Cracking Open, Unraveling, and Rebirth after Relationship Ends
In this video, I talk about the profound intensity and transformative process that happens when inconsolable grief crushes our sense-of-self, leaving us to question reality and truth as we have known it. This can happen when an important relationship ends.
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Hello Subscribers:
Thank you for checking out my videos and posting such thoughtful comments. It's inspiring to read your self-reflections and insights. I love how we grow from each other's sharing.
One thing I have learned after years of reading comments is that we are not alone. Many of us have the same experiences when it comes to relationships. We are all trying to make sense of attachment trauma and learn better skills of relating.
Great job everyone - keep going and keep learning!
As I'm sure you can understand, I'm not able to respond to all the comments and questions here on UA-cam. I know this can be disappointing sometimes. Please forgive me. It is challenging to find the time for the careful consideration that is needed in order to respond to your heartfelt reflections. Even so, your vulnerability shines through.
I know behind each comment is a real person with real feelings who's hurting or who’s reporting a triumph. I know you are doing the best you can while trying to make sense of life’s suffering. We are all grappling with what it means to be human. I’m sorry that I’m not always able to respond to your comments directly.
That being said, I'm sharing this post to offer you a few resources in an attempt for us to stay connected. Keep in mind that I do read most comments here on UA-cam. Your words are received. I review comments daily, which serves as a way to organize content for future videos.
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I really appreciate your gentle, beautiful, wise and healing presence. You bring so much light and love to this world. I can see you put your heart into your work and you really shine!
This describes exactly how I feel thank you
You’re saving lives man.
Amen to that - I agree!
I genuinely, hand on heart, kept having suicidal thoughts after a long term breakup. I knew that after 12 months of it ending I shouldn't still be feeling this intense intense pain. I was so thankful to discover his videos.
@@RachyNoodleNest same here , he's a saint ,a logical saint ,
I hope you are continuing to prosper and thrive , life is hard but thats the beauty of what it is to be a human,
My eternal gratitude to you Alan. I have watched this video several times and still moves me so deeply, each time to new depths. ❤🌷❤
@@RachyNoodleNest update? I would like to know if you’re feeling better:)?
Alan, I am speechless. This is my favorite of all of your videos. I am honored that you shared your story with us. This was exactly what I needed to hear today. I am cracked wide open and I thank you for the reminder that I am not alone, and that I can compassionately be with myself during this rebirth.
Amazing hey!!! I love Alan speaking from this angle too
My thoughts exactly. What a gift 🌹👍
I feel exactly the same as you Debbie🙏 what a relief 🙏
Alan is amazing. He so full of knowledge and wisdom. Watching his videos are changing my life!
I feel cracked. BUT - I am on my new journey of becoming my NEW me. And learning so much about my NEW NORMAL. I have lived a lifetime of such aloneness and co-depency. I am unraveling slowly. And YES - pulling me apart. So much of me is being cracked open bit by bit. And WOW! - It is very scary for me. So profound for sure!
I have lived my life full of shame and not being felt scene by my Family. I have always felt very irrelevant to my Family. And treated very badly by them. I have ALWAYS been the scape goat. And the black sheep of my family. I have never felt ENOUGH!
My 21 year old son is very narcissistic towards me also and treats me dreadfully. I am going through life changing shifts.
It isn't easy BUT - so very necessary for me to evolve and live my BEST life!
Alan is a true genius too me. I am learning so much!
So much gratitude. 🙏
I had a very similar awakening. It was profound." My existential question was feeling unloved. It was an emotional profound loss of a relat. So, I was walking down a lake path crying uncontrollably.. Almost a daily event. So, one day while sobbing about whether or not I was loved, I prayed: "Please higher power, please SHOW ME A SIGN THAT I AM LOVED.
As I drove home I see an overpass with a huge banner that said: YOU ARE LOVED!
This was so profound to me. When I related it to others they couldnt relate, even though I had pictures. of that banner. Another time I saw the same large banner in the middle of the high desert. It was draped over a tractor: YOU ARE LOVED!
i DEEPLY, TRULY relate to your spiritual and yet surreal experience with the crows.
Thank you for sharing
That is a beautiful and amazing story. It really does help to ask for help & guidance.
Profound! Thank you. What an incredible, dare I say, life changing experience you had. I relate and had similar experience that changed my life, giving renewed FAITH in life.
I miss her so much. She just walked out and never said a word. The last thing she told me was I love you and I'll see you tonight, then she just changed her mind and she Was Gone. It's been been months now, and I feel I am walking in a graveyard . I just don't understand why. I can't sleep. I can't believe I have to go on. Tears just keep pouring out of my eyes. My heart hurts. I am so disappointed in how carelessly she came in and out of my life. All I know is you're the only relief I've had for a while. Thank you.
Clinton Michaels hang in there man...
I hope your re-birth has come in the most profound way!
How are you doing buddy?
Clinton Michaels and I feel confident to say that you are so much better off to not have someone like that in your life!
You are not alone. I pray for your healing and understanding. You will love again. Hang in there OK?
Peace and love to you.
I experience a breakup atm, and I am crushed. I can’t eat, cannot really sleep. I was expecting so much from that relationship and can’t accept that it is over now. My whole being is in panic mode and I just want to heal.
Never thought I have this strong of an attachment trauma.
But I feel every word you say. And feel understood now at least. During the last week I thought no one understood.
Thanks.
How are you now?
how are you doing now that 2 yrs have passed since you wrote this?
I'm in the same place right now, I hope you're doing better♥️
Same here. I feel i was happy just so i can suffer better
Got broken up with a month ago. So heartbroken. Trying to work on myself. Realized I have a lot of unmet emotional need injuries. I always felt that being in a relationship was supposed to be a healing/therapeutic process, wrong. Love is not enough, even when you both try. Tragic. Time to heal.
How are you doing now?
Love IS the key. That leads to everything else. Staying just bc it's someone to poke, hold hands, hug and help w bills is definitely a no no. Has to be for a reason wayote than that. If u can't picture yourself without them, then uay have soemthing. If the thought of soemthing happening to them gut wrenches you and makes u feel sooo down and sad, again u may have soemthing there. BOTH have to be this way.
@@daviedood2503 "Staying just bc it's someone to poke, hold hands, hug and help w bills is definitely a no no." This fear / insecurity has kept me in miserable relationships before. Now I've proved to myself I don't need that to be happy and it's all just additional it's a good feeling. Just need to take my "walls" down as I'm finding it hard to move on.
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
This is amazing. I left my husband in 2017. I fell in love shortly after. I remember at the time describing my feelings for the new person in terms like “my heart cracked open”, “my heart is an ocean”, and I also used the analogy of seeing in color for the first time like in the Wizard of Oz. The person I dated after divorce left me in 2022. I was completely crushed. It was as if every trauma and unresolved grief in my life hit me at the same time. I couldn’t eat, i lost 15 pounds. I couldn’t run, or listen to music. I couldn’t watch TV or movies. I couldn’t do anything because all of it triggered my grief. I had panic attacks where i felt like my chest was being crushed and I couldn’t breathe. I’ve cried every day. EVERY DAY since the day he left. This video FINALLY explained these feelings and tied them all together. I’ve put together the pieces and finally, I understand that is isn’t my ex, this grief is much deeper. I had just attached it to my ex and made it about him, which I thought meant he was ‘the one’. I now know thats not true. He was ‘the one’ that cracked my heart open and allowed me to recognize this grief within myself. Thank you.
Thank you for the meaningful comment and for sharing your experience. Many of us have also been there. Glad this video helped put the pieces together.
It wasn't too long ago when this topic came up in the Community Program, Improve Your Relationships. The conversation was similar to your comment. If you're not familiar with the Community, take the relationship quiz to learn more www.healingattachmenttrauma.com/iyr_quiz_2
It feels amazing that someone on this earth understands what's going on in my reality right now. And can articulate the experience in such a detailed way....Thank you Alan.
“You are consciously participating in your own death”. I just can’t believe that you can verbalize exactly how I feel.
Dear sir, thank you (again) for your insights. I felt aknowledged when you mentioned neglect as abuse. As children we were fed, clothed and went on nice vacations, but the not spoken message was that children were not to be seen or heard. We were ignored.There was no mirroring of our feelings by my mother or father. He was physically and mentally absent, she was mentally absent. My identity from 4 to 12 was the smart kid, because then school was easy, by the age of 13 I no longer knew who or what I was, because in the other school all the children were smart. Not many people realise what ignoring and neglect does to a child, for a long time not even myself, after all, we were fed and clothed and never beaten. I just thought I was crazy and had to get over it. Your stories and explanations help me a lot, thank you again and I too loved the poemsgreetings from Rotterdam, Netherlands
Alan! "tell a wise person or else keep silent". Yes! Yes! no one around me can understand. I will hold this magnificent quote close to my heart
Donlynn M
"Dont throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and attack you."
Shes a narcissist
The suicide, death, rebirth part resonated so much for me. I have been switching between feeling so grateful and awaken and feeling so disconnected and ‘dead’. It has freaked me out at many moments and this gives me some peace. Thank you ❤️
I'm glad to hear this video brought you some sense of peace. Many of us grapple with this. It's so important to keep talking about finding our way through liminal space. Thanks for responding.
You have amazing insight and a gift for communicating the complexity of trauma and the effect it has on our reality. Please keep providing such incredible information. BLESS YOU, Alan!
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice -
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do -
determined to save
the only life you could save. -Mary Oliver , The Journey
How on earth did you get sooooo amazing at expressing life’s experiences!!!! You really are spectacular!!! ❤️🙏🏻
Alan, I too experienced immense heartbreak 4 years ago. 10 months of therapy, many tears later...here I am.
Meditation, sitting in silence, kundalini, close friends helped tremendously. In the end, discovering no one can help me but myself.
Videos like yours has also helped me understand the process and most importantly shining a light on my own behaviour has helped.
Thank-you! 🙏💞
how are you doing now friend
"Giving birth to yourself is life's greatest goal."
That struck me. Sometimes I've been close to leaving the wasteland, but these last couple of days I took a wrong turn and I'm back in. It's all so difficult.
Alan! YOU ARE PART OF MY SYNCHRONICITY !!!! You changed my life! I cried so much.. u understand me so well!!!! Oh dear this is spot on!!!!!!!!! This is it! This is exactly it!!! Uhhhh listening to this is the most amazing moment!!! I am no longer freaking out! Blessings from Madrid!
you do such a good job of expressing and explaining my feelings, it's been the worst year of my life having my grief come alive
How are you feeling now?
Alan you are the ONLY person on this whole internet to understand and perfectly describe what It was like after my break up. I thought I was becoming mentally ill! I’m an anxious and I eventually went back to my dear avoidant man, I could only handle two months of that insane misery. I’m so happy to know it wasn’t just me. I love all your vids, I have learned so much. Thank you.
It's been devastating because i guess i thought she would always be there and someday we would be together. She's definitely not interested in working it out and acts like everything i say or do is annoying. I'm spiraling because i had my hopes set on this time being different. However, it's pretty clear to me now that I would have to get abused, shamed, and forget about validation in order to stay with her. .. which I could never do. I'm heartbroken that i fell for such a monster. Makes me believe i was making her out to be special & kind in my head all this time.
Thanks a lot for this video ‼️ After been cheated, I spent a lot of time crying and wondering what I did wrong... I found out that I wasn’t perfect but I always gave the best of me and that I was really in love with him when he cheated and I didn’t deserved that. But that wasn’t enough... more crying later I found the second and biggest truth: My parents lied to me. They always said that if I do good, NOTHING wrong will going to happen to me. They controlled me with that and I unconsciously believed it until a few months ago. That’s why the cheating “didn’t make sense” because I was a good wife... Now I know than been good is not like a protection charm. Now I know that we have to be good because that’s the best way but good results are not guaranteed. That’s my new reality and it changed me a lot. Now is harder to smile.
I've been in this condition for 5 months
I pray it gets better. I'm really struggling
Thanks Alan I can tell you have been through this yourself since you described it in perfect detail. It helps me understand it better
How are you feeling now 4 years later
You are a living angel. Thank you for everything, Alan!
I was riveted by your insights and the generosity to share it. So apt and simple yet profound
He left me an hour ago.
Thank God that I can listen to you.
I am devestated
How are you today?❤️
It’s going to be ok?
Sending you love and support 💕
Yes!! This was me! crushed, reality was suddenly nothing like I believed it was. I started working on where and why, and discovered issues from my childhood I remember feeling this way. My journey now is very different to what it was. I am starting to feel whole...probably for the first time since I was a young child. I am now in person centered therapy to connect the dots and build up all the bits of me that were lost. Yes it is hard hard work, but so deeply fulfilling. 💖
what is person centered therapy...how do I find?
smallhitch farm I used the therapist directory in the UK...not sure where you are but there may be something like it?
Alison Leggatt I'm also going through a divorce and it's killing me but I'm also going to trauma therapy and it's really making srnse
You are incredible. I recently found your videos and they have sustained me for 2 months now. This one about grief arrived exactly when I needed to hear it and was ready to understand it. Again, you are incredible. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
You. Are. Incredible.
How are you doing now two years later?
This is some of the most powerful content I’ve seen on UA-cam up to this point. Thank you for what you do Alan
Thank you for valuing my content Chris. Good to know the videos and posts are helpful. I am glad you benefit from the effort and time investment it takes to offer quality content. Please consider joining us in the membership community to show your support and/or becoming a sustaining supporter with a donation. Making a contribution supports the continuation of more quality content. FYI/ www.alanrobarge.com/community and/or www.alanrobarge.com/donate
Agree! 🙏
Oh my gosh I totally get this. I am creating my new self. Everything and I mean everything feels different. Do not be stillborn again. Wow wow wow! This has been years in the making. I feel like I'm bursting. The poems were so perfect for this experience.
I understand completely. Alan, we love your openness, your reality and your truth.
I understand completely. Alan, we love your openness, your reality and your truth.
Holy shit... I am so grateful to have stumbled across this video. You have described to a T exactly what has been happening to me since a relationship ended a few days ago. You could not have articulated my experience any better. This gave me hope. Thank you!!
Oh Alan- you had me at Carl Jung...lol. Seriously, I completely agree with the transformative nature of intense suffering. The dislocation you feel is right on path. I love that you touched on spirituality and your nuanced take on 'psychosis'. The world does indeed start speaking to you in symbols. Please don't lose this sensitivity, this intuition in lieu of scientific rationalism...there is a space between them that is so so rich in knowledge and compassion. There needs to be an on going conversation between those two worlds- the feeling and the logic. Being so open to these feelings within you- your clients will definitely feel that, and they will trust you with their stuff. I am so glad there are therapists like you. I really enjoy your work.
And I am been in the middle of terrifying grief for the last year.. Great anecdote, the tree, the crows, the tornado,wind ManSure- yep the Universe spoke to you.
Wow. I was breathless, sobbing, smiling, riveted. Thank you, Universe for bring me to this man’s channel. When the student is ready the teacher arrives, right? Thank you, Alan. Your videos require serious effort and dedication on your part, and I appreciate them more than I can express. You are really doing good in this world.
I thought I would die 2.5 weeks ago. I felt so much, I thought I'd die from feelings. But the simple aid of a friend by my side telling me that I should go into and through the feelings, for the first time I truly, fully went into the pains of dying (psychologically).
My body went transparent, my cells turned inside out, I was atomised and then finally I disappeared.
After falling asleep that night, I woke up the next morning and embraced with my open arms the sensation of not having died, but being more alive than I've ever been. After this, my life has not been the same and will never be - and I'm so grateful for that. I've been stuck, to the point of bordering on psychotic for especially the last three years. Now, my feelings are fleeting, surfing, existing, I just am most of the time.
I'm lost in having found. My hair is on fire, but it is ok - because I'm running at a steady pace into life and it is just making me feel alive, finally.
Sharing with people who don't understand completely feels ok, because my compassion is within me and I'm happy if they just want to listen (which they do).
Amazing video - it is such a profound hour of on point wordsfrom you. Thank you.
Zende. Thank you for your comment and your story.
Hi Alan I can’t thank you enough for this video. My grief is gone. I had the same experience few months ago when I was crushing in grief. Your video saved me. This is the second time. You are my savior. Thank you so so much. Words can’t express my gratitude.
Hi Shanthi. I am glad to hear you're finding benefit from my videos. Thank you for valuing my work. Good for you for participating in your grieving and healing. If you'd like to learn how to engage more or support the continuation of my videos check out the options below:
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Thanks again for letting me know my video was helpful.
This was exactly what my tortured soul needed to hear. Thank you for going first so that you could have the perfect words to give me enough comfort to not feel so alone in the abyss. In this, I found some scraps of peace knowing others have done this too and it helps me in the process of starting to move to the surface again.
Empathy to you Diana. I'm glad you liked the video. If the topic resonated with you, you may be interested in checking out my membership community, Improve Your Relationships. We are a group of kind, supportive learners who want to make sense of our past relationships and learn new skills of better relating. In the community we can talk about emotional availability, secure attachment, boundaries, finding the right kind of partner for us, and learning how to say goodbye when necessary. A new recurring round of our 8-week program begins September 7th. You're invited to join us. www.alanrobarge.com/community
Dear Alan, thank you from the bottom of my broken Heart.
You are bringing light to our Darkness and giving us the hope to feel alive again.
I have been struggling for two years , and thanks to your videos i feel that i found my way out and a chance to have a fresh and healthy start.
God bless you 🙏
Thank you for your kind words and for watching my video. I'm so happy that this has resonated with you and that you are finding value in my work.
Empathy to you for your struggle, but it's great to know that you feel that you have found your way out.
Many of us can relate. Getting support from others who are learning as well is very helpful for many people. That is one of the reasons I created the Improve your Relationships online community. It is not a therapy group, but a skills learning community which many people find very helpful. Again, I am glad that you are doing your healing work and find this material helpful on your journey. Consider joining in the conversation. You are not alone. www.alanrobarge.com/community
Wow, this is exactly what I needed to hear right now. Thank you. I do not have time for bullshit, I have important things to do!
This is insane.
I thought something was so wrong with me...
Others did too...
I had never experienced heartbreak...but you described it perfectly. :-)
Thank you so much for your videos I'm crushed o pieces my emotions are changing rapidly and I thought I needed to be committed
Hayley Hilton I did too...That feeling has passed, Thank God. I hope you feel better now.
I feel the same. Like something is wrong with me.
More people should be watching you. Thank you Alan.
Oh wow, you talk about being ignored? That was my childhood, teen years and it crushed me. I felt invisible and unloved. My relationship with a fearful avoidant has now ended, 11 years of marriage and i feel ripped to pieces. I feel 11 years were wasted waiting for the normal relationship to happen. I didn't stand a chance. I am doing EMDR therapy to work on the deep attachment issues and lack from childhood. True trauma.
It’s going to be ok 🙏🏻
It is so nice when someone shows me care and generosity - I just have to remember to keep the kindness in perspective.
I’m a mother of three daughters. Young teen and two teens....... I was ignored as a child and learning how to mother myself and heal.... I catch myself seeking my girls out and singing to them. Obnoxious songs. Songs remixed with their names in it...... I look for them and ask them how they’re doing.... what they’re doing. What they’re thinking about. Almost like a five year old. I kiss them when they’re at the computer trying their best to ignore me. I try to dance with them..... I basically annoy the mess out of them because I NEVER want them walking around in life thinking their mama didn’t want them around. That still hurts me as a woman and I refuse to have my kids feel that. I would rather them be sick of me loving them , than have them sad because I was never there.
Alan you are describing grief so well. I can't let go of my ex, I'm just so totally addicted to her presence and being. She doesn't even treat me well but I dont care I'm just so desperate to be with her but I can't be and our 25 year marriage is over. I'm so scared of having to accept it that I've been in denial for years. I think it is basically addiction and could be anything. I do believe I'll get through it though but Christ it's tough.
I have felt the same way. Your going to be ok...
It will get better I swear. I never ever thought I could get past this addiction to my ex but by Gods grace I woke up and realized it didn’t hurt and it blew me away.
I couldn’t believe it.
It will happen to you too.
I promise🙏🏻
I’m sorry I hope you’re doing better
I hope you’re doing better!!
Dear Alan, it has now been 4 years since the death of my Mother . In that time i was exiled by former close family who were bribed, manipulated and lied to my eldest covert narcassist sister. I was the family scapegoat all those 60 years , dearly loved my other siblings, neices , great nieces and great nephews. All of whom were taken over to the dark side. It's a very long story. I haved have searched all those years for some healing and understanding and I have now found you. I shall work my way through your teachings. I thank you Alan.
Thank you Alan, this is what Im going through although its stabilising a little now and I'm excepting the waves crashing now, and its so nice to hear you express it, I feel blessed to have been going through this awakening especially as I see the pain and suffering all around me and seeing people numbing it, running from it and denying it consciously or unconsciously feels like i'm powerlessly watching people sleep walking their way through life. sometimes its scary and some days its lonely and some days I do feel crazy, hearing you share your experience gives me hope and energy to continue this journey. Thank you Natalie
You are divine! I've converted to you! I love you.
Your “man sure” story is just gorgeous - from a heart cracking open
Alan, I bow to your ability to articulate this experience. I have gone through exactly this this last year. I kept telling loved ones that the only way I could explain it was that I had been cracked wide open and had been crushed to a million pieces. It is amazing- the grief is unreal and I am so grateful the the deep awareness. I, too, experienced intense symbology and messages from the universe over and over. So grateful for this journey now but there were many many points I didn’t know if I was going to make it through.
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You have validated so many experiences I have had and am having right now. Jaw dropping, deep and insightful. I think you just saved me from utter despair. Thank you so much Alan. Words are not enough! 🙏💖
Yes, the psychic cracking open, so much so that I asked my therapist about schizophrenia. No schizophrenia, just normal human transformation process
200 crow, powerful
Alan I have no words...thank you so much for your eloquent expression of a life changing shifting experience that is so hard to explain to yourself let alone others. I'm not alone. thank you I'm so grateful for you and this video you made .
Profound vision, very symbolic as life mirrors back our internal struggle at the point of deepest connection. The fire has been anger in the beginning but now the fire is my burning heart desiring a transformation of all parts into a cohesive whole, fully integrated propulsion pushing me to where I'm suppose to be, loving place, secure in knowing life is a struggle, be real, be me in this experience that is fluid. I appreciate so much your deep sensitivity and concern for self and others. Thank-you for sending me in the direction of knowledge and acceptance of self. Much love (((💗)))
Alan. This talk is so profound. I just feel every second of it. How you articulate it and how you tell that story... I got goosebumps the whole time. I have a crazy synchronistic series surrounding seagulls and the book Jonathan the seagull as I was in the process of profound grief and was wondering who I was and whether I could be free and be me. Be authentic and whether I was not alone in this world and there were other people like me. I felt so isolated in my search for the truth and in my grief in the family and I was in therapy at that point. Wow. When I was at therapy one day I told my therapist that I was feeling ready to “fly”. And at that exact moment more than 20 birds sailed on the window and we were both very surprised at this thing happening and then they flew. After that day crazy synchronicities around the book Jonathan the seagull started happening, I started to see the book everywhere yet I never read it before but when I read it I just felt so understood and it was my story and it was the most validating thing ever in my life. All of my life made sense. And I also got a confirmation on I’m on the right path and relax dude it will all work out and you will serve the world. All of the sentences spoke to me on a profound level. And then people around me started to mention that book to me and I was speechless because what were the odds. It repeated itself
For 7-8 times. And at that time I was deciding who I was and was thinking of moving to Europe and becoming a psychotherapist myself. And then another crazy set of synchronicities happened around developmental psychology. I was asking the question whether I was fit for developmental psychology because I was so good with children and understanding their needs, I was neglected and had developmental trauma and through my own healing I came to understand children and their emotions so well. I asked the question one day (it always happens after I ask questions. When I get confused I ask questions and it comes from an intense place and then somehow I receive it) that if it was my job to go with developmental psychology. Wow you won’t believe this. But it’s true. I was thinking of that question and then caught a bus. I sat down and my attention were suddenly drawn to a young lady who was sitting on my left side, not very close but a litttle far away. She had a book on her lap but I couldn’t read the title because her bag was sitting on it and hiding the title. But I knew, in that instant that this book was a developmental psychology book, I was sure that it was it and it was my answer. I kept staring at her for a while but also was very curious to see the book. After like 5 minutes the bus stopped and she was getting off. She got up and I saw the book. There it was. Lifelong growth:developmental psychology. I was so shocked like it was beyond what was possible to perceive. So now, that’s my path. Hoping to become someone who can help children and teach parents the importance of emotional attunement. :) and. I love you. So much. Thank you.
Funny I stumbled upon your videos - and especially this one - while being in the process of cracking open. Feels exhilarating to hear someone else describe my experience. Thank you Alan.
Your videos let me know that at least somebody understands what I'm going through as many don't. Grief has many levels and I am in Tartarus. This is about the 4th or 5th time in my life that I've had to wade through this. I hope I make it again. It never gets any easier...harder if anything. Your descriptions are so on point. Thankyou so much 💔
Hope you're doing better now and have moved past it! I'm going through it again now for the fourth or so time in my life as well. This one is tough because it was wrapped up in such a great origin story - meeting on the other side of the world - and a year into healing from a previous relationship. This one has also had a few breakup-makeups now, which I've never experienced before, but I have a gut feeling that this one was the last one -- the other relationships, I took on much of the blame for screwing them up, and the shattering when they ended was commensurate, but even though I knew deep down that this relationship/she wasn't right for me, I tried to make it work harder than I'd ever tried before and tried to show up and put my best foot forward *most* of the time. But even in the face of knowing the relationship wasn't the right one to go long-term, it's still so so so hard to let go and the nervous system is just on fire seeking out when's the call/when's the love/when's the fun filled date to look forward to....
Such profound insight and information in your videos. You are a blessing!
How in the world did you just explain the last year of my life perfectly. If I ever return to therapy,I'm just going to forward this video to the therapist because this is spot on exactly what I am experiencing. The only way I have found to describe it is a spiritual awakening through grief that exposed shadow work
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This is his most vulnerable of videos-feels like a conversation with a wise friend.
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This is phenomenal. Thank you for being who you are. You are here. You are real. And it has all been worth it.
Thank you so much. Alan. This is exactly how I feel after the breakup with the love of my life.
Absolutely. I was very very confused when I went through this . When I look back it's one amazing transformation. At the time I was in despair and couldn't cope with going to bed and not wanting to get up in the morning :-(
Natematics, The reason I created the membership community is because many of us have stories like yours. We see the pattern over time. We keep doing the same thing. We see the suffering. We have to choose to change the pattern. We need a plan of self-directed healing. This is what we talk about in the membership community. You are invited to join us. Here is the info: www.alanrobarge.com/community
"You do not have time for bullshit!" Amen, brother.
Wow! So transparent and profound. This past year of separation in my marriage was like grieving a death. This journey you share about was extremely similar to my own. I’m a person who has truly followed my Christian faith a long time and I’ve never been through a process quite as devastating as this one. My view of my relationship, my view of myself, even my view of my faith has all been laid out in the open in the ocean of my heart. I felt the ocean, too. I remember when it happened. It felt like the space (box) around me pressed out and fell away. It’s been a crazy year. But through it all, Father God has held me. All the crying and mourning (several months) has a purpose. I’m rebuilding the life I want. A much more authentic life where my voice is no longer compromised.
Thank you for this! It’s powerful.
Lisa Messina hi Lisa. I found your words profound as I’ve been left after a ten year relationship. I’m overcome with grief. How do you feel now, a year later? I’m terrified I’m going to be a prisoner of grief, regret and remorse for years to come. Forever like my life was unable to move forward after that fateful year they ended it.
@airindiana Hello, first you need to know that you are not alone and you are greatly loved! Just to clarify, I'm the party that chose the separation. We still share the house and I'm doing my best to partly manage the finances, but we have clear boundary lines about how we relate. It's platonic and civil. I cannot move out as I am financially dependent upon my husband. he is paying for my associates degree at a local community college. It's been a horrible year emotionally, I cannot deny that. Breaking free from his co-dependent orbit has been the courageous feet of my life. Anyway, everyone's path is unique. It has been softened by my family and deep friendships from my church community. They all have been extremely understanding. You will survive! First is to find your support group. You must not allow the pain to isolate you! Keep showing up for your life and your destiny each day. Second, find something of value to focus on! Move beyond distractions (...which help us get our mind off how we feel, but is a temporary survival mechanism) and make solid choices for your life moving forward.
Thirdly, I went to see a personal counselor for about 7 months. As much as I could afford. I needed to gain perspective and empathy. I needed my head on straight for me.
You are a good investment! Self care is crucial! It’s not selfish, you need to survive so you can begin to thrive again. :) God bless you 😊
(I’m careful not to push God onto people as there are varying religious views. But I found peace handing things over to my Heavenly Father. Maybe you could, too.)
Lisa Messina Hi Lisa. Thanks so much for the reply. Interesting our relationship actually ended up going “Co dep” in a way. I only realised this this after having relationship counselling a year ago to try and get answers. My ex didn’t want to come. We didn’t start out like it. And we weren’t fully co dep. the counsellor said basically I ended up with someone who started placing extreme conditions on us (long story) and I started to sacrifice myself by doing “the right thing”. It nearly destroyed me. And then she left! Feel used up. Love her to pieces though. We never faught, no cheating.
Thanks for advice. Some wise words. I’m refindjng my support network by going back to where my family are. I believe in God so have no prob with opening myself to that! I’m not a great example of Christianity as don’t go to church ha. But maybe I will.
Love, love, love!
This is so true for me--all of this. It took me six years, but I have come through the other side profoundly transformed, as you say. All you say resonates deeply with me and I love how you convey it. Thank you for all of your videos.
Watched several of your videos today. The first one on grieving. I had to put down my two dogs this year. Hawk he was 13 and Eboney she was 16. They were brother and sister from a different liter. I got her at 2 months old and him at 5 weeks. I have always been a dog lover. As I was telling a friend the only love we got growing up was from a dog. So relationships have always been difficult for me and family. But since losing both of them this year plus retiring I am going thru some deep emotion pain and slowly transforming emotionally, mentally and spiritually. You hit the nail on the head about being ripped apart. I know I could go out and get another dog and I will eventually. I just feel deep in my soul that I need to heal my past. I love listening to your videos. You are deep and Buddha. I quit drinking and smoking over ten years ago. At that time I went thru some deep emotional transformation. I read the 12 step Buddha by Darren Littlejohn. Very intense and transforming. Focusing on anger and resentment. When you lose your pets and retire it feels like a title wave of the past overcoming you. You seem to know this state of emotions. I just want to thank you for your work. Deep identification.
This is so helpful… no one has verbalized my experience so precisely 😢 I’m glad to hear I was not the only one to experience this but on the other hand I wish I never had to go through it
Glad this video is helpful. Empathy to you. Wishing you self-gentleness.
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I was profoundly affected by this as it's EXACTLY where I am right now. I am in soul healing as result of emotional abuse but didn't know what to make of the mental/emotional wringer that I'm in right now. I was amazed, as you talked, that it's EXACTLY what I'm experiencing!!!! Thank you yet again for your articulate wisdom. Bless you.
I appreciate your nuanced and philosophical approach to problems. Thank u
Yep, you have pretty much describes it...profound grief, sadness, guilt, crushing loss...can’t seem to run or hide from it anywhere..
Empathy to you. Glad this video resonated. Grief is one of the topics we discuss in the online community, Improve Your Relationships. It has a video library with 24/7 access which includes a section of videos on the topic of grief.
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Totally! I've had a similar experience. Thank God for sharing this. I feel less alone in this world.
I have read over 12 books about loss so far through a long journey of torturous complicated grief. It's been a rabbit hole. This video consoled so deeply me in a way I have been searching for desperately. Profound. Thank you.
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Wow, talk about synchronicity! Today is my Wedding Day, and the pain and grief from my family of origin, has literallly cracked me open, but this video has spoke to my soul. I feel like I am still moving through my emotional wasteland, but I can see a way through now. I will listen to this video a few times I know. I’m about to marry a wonderful and supportive man, and I finally feel like I see a way to deal with the anguish and pain of my family of origin. I feel like a phoenix rising.
This beautifully summarizes the purpose of human existence and experience, the journey of both joy and suffering is not in vain. No one you allow into your life has the answer but can only drop reminders of the journey you're on and why. Thank you for this message.
Dear Siren, nothing about this journey is in vain. You are so right about that. Glad this information is helpful to you.
Amazingly profound video . I went through this. I also had a psychic event happen with hawks not crows . The death of my old self took two years of drowning , and I emerged into the most vibrant confident and compassionate version of myself reborn.
I hadnt thought about this until you described your story . Thank you!
I also love and notice the crows.
A poetic reaction to exactly what I've been experiencing the last 2 years through my traumatic loss of my wife and family. I could so much relate to the symbolic searching in nature and in everyday life searching for land searching for safety searching for meaning. Searching for God. Thank you so much Alan for cracking open and showing us a little bit of your soul. Such powerful words of inspiration in relation. Love
I commented before but am moved to comment again - just, thank-you ... am so glad to have found you at this time ... I "know" all this stuff - it is my work - and - something in your delivery and clarity is touching me deeply at a time when I am revisiting this personally and on another level ... sometimes this feels like such hard work I long to fall asleep and back into denial (not really) but really - eugh and woo (I think!) ... anyway, thanks for the company and leadership and inspiration :) Something which has really resonated with me was something you said about misplaced loyalty in the attachment injury - ties in with the "virtue" of crazy tolerance / horrible boundaries / the goodness of unending hope ... lol to the 22 year-old me - just survived major trauma in childbirth which baby and me were lucky to survive - major bleed / 10 pints of blood etc. etc. ... come home to no support and frosty husband ... after two weeks of crying / why won't you hug me he comes out with, I think I may be gay ... me, oh, is that all, I thought you didn't love me - and instantly into caretaking his situation / enabling him - and it felt NORMAL and GOOD and because he was a serviceman at a time when being gay was still a criminal offence, I parked my needs and became his beard for a year during which I suffered and cried everyday when he was mean and I was lonely (until I finally found the courage and resources to leave) ... such a good girl. And second marriage - hello here I am 21 years in and finally, out. Wonderful that I have learned enough to support others and hurrah that all the work means I may finally get to do this next piece for me. Something else which has landed recently is a real wake up around how it has been hard for me to exert my will on my own behalf on account of crushed boundaries in childhood - image of trying to fly with crushed wings / cycle with a bent wheel came to my mind and finally, then, another opening to compassion - it is not my fault and I have done well fluttering along with crushed wings / making my way with the wobbly wheel ... and I forgive my hobby of making sand pies out of crumbs - it helped soothe the pain of those broken wings (and the little girl's broken heart). Right ... and lol to the no time to watch reality TV - you mean that addiction has to go as well?! Thanks Alan - would love to run a workshop with you if you fancy bringing your wisdom to Europe. Am sure there is a big audience.
Thank you so much, Alan, this is totally affirming what I am going through.
This is quite odd - I was just listening to this video after a really shitty day and had a moment of synchronicity.
I recently ended a relationship and I've been experiencing some quite profound grief. Today at work, I've felt a real meaninglessness in my job as a Copywriter at a marketing agency. I then decided to make plans to travel in September, as this has been floating around my mind for a while. So, at the end of my work day, I had to give a presentation, and I let the words 'there's so much bullshit in marketing' slip from my lips, and I'm not sure it went down well. I then spent my cycle home cringing hard. I started watching this video, and halfway through my dad phoned and I asked if I could move home for 2 months whilst I save to go on my travels, and he said yes - of course, and agreed to help me move. I was filled with joy and a sense of meaning, and then I pressed play on the video, and Alan said the words 'you do not have time for bullshit.' It gave me a good laugh. Thanks for these fantastic videos, they're an incredibly valuable resource for people who are suffering.
Thanks Alan, I am 67 my GF broke up with me on New Years day,I have been crushed I had felt I was to old to go through this. 10 months later it still is profound sadness,but maybe I still have a journey to complete.
I love your story. I was cracked open and it was the best thing ever to happen to me despite the extreme suffering.
I am suffering the biggest grief of my life because of the loss of a big love and this is helping so much..
Alan, this is profound, "cracking" good stuff. I think this is now the 15th or 16th vid of yours I've watched. Discovered you about two months ago and shared with a dear friend who, like me, went through this crushing, cracking open, on fire, devastating, crucible of crisis. For us, it was a while back. I'd experienced crushing grief, but I would assuage with a new relationship. Rebounds, right? But in 2016 I lost what I felt was the greatest love of my life. I still feel that way. I've had four great loves, but the ending of this five year long relationship obliterated me beyond recognition. Wish I'd stumbled across you then, and learned about attachment trauma. Funny, my counselor, and my friend's counselors, never mentioned this to us and we never came across it in any of the books we read, including Eckart Tolle, John Gottman, Harville Hendrix, Michael Sinclair, Pema Chodron, Scott Peck, and more. (Maybe it was touched on somewhere, but we both missed it. We were starving and thirsting to death and we missed this food, this water...)
We cried endlessly, hours and hours; in our sleep, at work, non-stop. Dams bursting. She retreated to her bed for days, weeks; we both sought out medication much like someone rushing to the ER to staunch a gushing wound from our femoral artery, we did counseling two, three, four days a week. We would've lived with our therapists. We found ourselves wishing our lives would simply cease. Not suicidal so much, just wishing for the sweet release of death.
But, as you point out, in the darkness there was empathy, tenderness, spirituality, openness, catharsis, and, for me, eventually a full-blown spiritual awakening. It was, and remains, transformational. What a profound gift! It's inspired a book (still in the works, but getting close) about the experience and coming back from this deep, deep loss, sadness and fear.
Great story about the crows - the "Crownado" (or Tornadcrow?) - the tree and the headstone. My awakening started off with something akin; a "phenomenon," if you will, where church bells were pealing and answering me. The timing was uncanny. Of course, like you, I realize these are my interpretations, my reading into things, but that makes it no less compelling for me. Now, both of us have found our purpose, our sense of self, and self-love and greater empathy, clarity, peace of mind, and more. I was already an accepting, unconditional lover, but part of my attachment stuff was to pick partners who were NOT that way, who were/are judging, blaming, self-righteous conditional lovers with checklists and a sense of entitlement. Didn't matter how mature I was, or accepting I was of her, I wasn't good enough for her. Her issues, but there wasn't anything I could do to create that space for her of trust, safety and reinforcement. So, I've had to look at my choices, my decisions, my picking partners to learn those lessons I needed to learn. Now, I'm on that spiritual path. Not ABOVE others, but on a different path.
I have been single now for three years and have no plans to be with anyone any time soon, if ever. It is so liberating, joyful, expansive, empowering, and more. Freedom. Free from being judged, blamed, shamed, measured, stressed out, not accepted, not seen, not truly loved, with no empathy, mercy, generosity, charity, etc. This is not a cop-out. I provide these things to myself because I can and because I care about myself. I didn't expect this from my partners. Not their job to validate me. But my partners expected me to validate them and more.
Now, I don't have to deal with that any more. As we all know, it's extremely rare, hard, challenging, and more, to find another human being who truly loves themselves and can love another unconditionally, with absolute acceptance, forgiveness, non-judging and no "could I do better?, grass-is-greener" musings. So many have their checklists, even when they say they don't. 95%.
My purpose on the planet, which came to me in my awakening on a beautiful, harmonic, warm wave that completely saturated me, is to "be of love, for love, and about love." This is my purpose.
And the way I've decided to do this is by loving everyone and bringing as much love to the world as I can, but not in a romantic setting with any one person. I did that, tried that, for more than 40 years. Yes, perhaps now I'd make a better partner pick, and yes, I'd maybe be better able to weather their leaving, if they do. But I believed that before and I was wrong. Again and again.
Yes, we all know relationships are complicated, tricky, and often illusory. We think we know someone and then, a year, or two, or five, into the relationship, we find out we misjudged again. We are fooled again. Reality. Even when we think we can see their reality and the reality on the table. Even when we know that ego=perception=reality. We can't control, fix, heal, solve another person, nor should we endeavor to do so, or feel it's our job to do so, and when they decide, they decide. Might be a stupid decision, in our opinion, but that just doesn't matter. At all. They leave.
So, I'm done. This is not my destiny. The #1 reason I'm not risking another relationship - and make no mistake, it's the riskiest thing any of us will do in a lifetime - is not because I don't want to be hurt anymore. That's part of it, of course, but the #1 reason for me is because I do not want to deeply hurt another human being, especially one I purported to care so deeply about, should I be the one who chooses to leave that relationship. I never, ever, want to put a loved one through this kind of wounding, even with the growth and awakening that can happen. I choose not to risk that. And the chances of that happening are great.
Well, a novel. Hey, I am, after all, writing a book about all this. This all is, after all, a very complicated, varied topic.
Finally, I totally agree with Goethe, and you, about being circumspect about who we share these experiences with, especially things like spiritual awakenings. One mentor, who is quite spiritual, advised me to not share my story with everyone; in fact, not share it with most people. He mentioned that there is a lot of precedent throughout history of people who are truly touched in these ways being ridiculed, ostracized, and even killed...He didn't have to name names, like Jesus, for instance. I knew what he meant. (Not comparing myself to Jesus at all! I must be clear there. But alluding to that idea of ANYONE who speaks their truths - often deep, common truths - being subject to scorn or dismissal.)
Thanks, Alan, again. You have helped me in many ways. You've also greatly helped my dear friend. I think she's watched, like, 40 of your vids! Maybe more. We share them with each other and with others in our lives. You are helping thousands of people! I hope you're finding love, support, empathy for yourself as well, though I suspect and trust that you are now able to provide so much of all this good stuff for yourself. As we know, we can be alone, but that doesn't mean we're "lonely." Like you said in another vid, Alan, so we'll be single for the rest of our lives: BIG WHOOP! Ha ha. Love it! My friend and I were laughing heartily over that! Even when we provide our own validation, it still feels good to know we're not alone, crazy, or cynical, bitter, etc. Namaste,
David
Thank you for sharing your journey. It is something powerful to reflect upon. He left me for someone else and sometimes I wonder if something is wrong with me for feeling like I don't ever want to do this again. Currently in the depths of my grief. Hoping I get to the awakening part. Appreciate your words.
@@RoseHeartTarot how are you doing?
Whilst I'm grieving at the age of 51 from a break up 8 months ago and series of rejection in relationships...my ex is on her 2nd partner. I prefer to heal and now grow.
Thank you so truly for this message. The resonance and understanding you've provided through this video about this period in our lives is incredibly helpful. Synchronistically I was driving on Lake Shore Drive in Chicago while finding this video ( which is not where I've been for the past 6 years but is where I've found myself today) and currently experiencing this exact transformation. Thank you for putting a name to it all. And thank you for making me feel so much less alone and giving me some peace through the grief. Thank you for this work you do, all of your videos are awesome but this one just blew me away that I just had to leave a comment.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, Alan! I've been trying to make sense of what's going on and this whole video explained it so thoroughly for me! It's been so inconvenient because I'm trying to go through nursing school and at times I have been trying to study I have gotten so restless, and that is exactly what happened when I found this video. I am so grateful for you
I wouldn’t have survived without the knowledge you are giving, Alan.
I needed to hear that, cried throughout, thank you Alan XxX
Thank you so much for all you do to help others, you have a beautiful way of expressing how you felt thereby helping others feel their way thru.
I feel the feeling of others, I always have. Sometimes I cannot identify if these feeling are mine or someone else's. Mostly I feel others negative feelings and I can reflect them back to help people to feel their feelings but not have to be alone with them. This process is physically debilitating for us both, but I bring them thru it forever changed and a sea of relief is released over them.
When I am feeling grief, and I have much to grieve still, my grief/sorrow often gets to the depths of despair, I feel the suffering of the world almost like I can feel the pain of the planet herself. This depth of sorrow and internal agony is wracking too my core and I sob for period of time in an agonizing sorrow for the loss of what could have been and the loss of what is. It is like a cleansing of a dirty wound, you must first open the wound, inspect it for damage and remove any dead material and debris, this sometimes requires a scrub brush which is excruciating but necessary, finally you wash away all the infected material with a cleansing solution, cover with a healing balm and bandage to begin the healing process.
Profound gratitude to you, Alan. You are integral to my healing at this time. Thank you ❤
I’m finding ground in your videos. You’re amazing.
I’m so happy I came across your page. This video explains exactly how I’m feeling .. thank you so much 💗
Listening to you is exhilarating. Thank you for having shaped yourself in the way you have - to be able to share your gift with those that give their time.
Thank you, Alan, this is so well said, so inspiring.
You described what I’ve been going through exactly. It is profound. You and your work are well enormously needed and your blazing a new trail to finally understand this behavior I ha e not been able to figure out why I would tell him it’s over because it’s not good then turn around and experience it as if he abandoned me. It was crazy. He said I was crazy. And it is and I hate that word but Thank God I understand now. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I hope you know how impactful and important and new and profound your work is. I can’t believe I found you. It helps so much to know that it’s really not about the person even though your brain says it is. And the term “trauma brain” is brilliant and enormously helpful and validation f. This experience has brought up all my childhood trauma issues and I’ve been as you have in the depths of hell. U gave me hope and courage today. I am now equipped to carry the message. What a gift for the suffering. You should be recognized published awarded by the APA for blazing this trail. I could go on and on. I
You have helped save me. Bless your soul.
Hi Alan. I don't know you but feel through your postings that I do. Thank you for your generosity of spirit to share such wisdom and insight with the world through this medium. I have learnt so much about attachment damage and the implications and have truly opened to a such a rich understanding of dynamics within relationships and so much about the art of relating from listening to you. Your empirical knowledge is conveyed in such a personal manner that it is easy to relate to and make sense of. You are a gift to humanity through your authentic presence and I am immensely grateful for all you have shared. Thank you.
Alan You have helped me so much and so many more people who needed so desperately to hear these words. You are a great man!
I am so grateful for you. My sister took her own life the day before thanksgiving 2018. She was my best friend. Everything that you have said in this video is happening to me. I have moments when I think I might be going actually insane... such as the dreams blurring with waking life. I feel lucky to have been introduced to the concepts of mindfulness and zen. I also feel lucky to have found your videos during this time. Such important information. Thank you.
this is so what I'm experiencing now. thanks for putting it into words.
I can’t thank you enough! I’ve never felt pain like I’m feeling right now. 🙏 love of my life moved with another man,15 years gone! I’m lost. I’m completely lost. Ty for helping me
Glad this video speaks to you. Empathy to you. Many of us have been there too. One day at a time.