May 31st.... Reviews are back! ...Risen review will be uploaded that day .. ...after that ...the next reviews won't take nearly as long...not even close...got my personal life in order so I can get back to reviews I will slowly get back to responding to your comments...I appreciate them and try to read them all
I will never stop bringing up Arcanum ... I love that game so damn much ... I hope the outer worlds has the same level of character interaction and its world reacting to you character as Arcanum did
Dude, the way you talk in most of your videos is so pure and honest. There are VERY few times I've heard you speak in a ''gangsta'' type of way but that doesn't bother me at all. I guess most of us have some kind of mental error-code these days. I can honestly admit that I sometimes have panic attacks, anxiety and depression episodes. My ''personal problems'' began almost 10 years ago. Only until now I've learned how to ''deal'' with myself. What I've learned through these years is that you have to talk to someone. No matter if it is a family member, friend or a psychiatrist... I've been through all of them. I can also admit that I'm using a small dose of medication to keep my sanity in check. I wish you the best of luck and health Che! PS. It would be awesome if you could cover more ''cut content'' from Fallout 2 ;)
Thank you ...been doing a lot of stuff to not only maintain but be better mentally .....Im doing a lot better from last year that's for sure ...thank you for your concern ...I hope your panic and depression episodes have gone away or at least became less frequent .. wish you the best also!
Wow, quite a story, man. I feel for you. I have anxious thought loops. My relationship to food changed when I dug into nutrition info. Sometimes I fast for a day, sometimes I binge. Now with the new info I know I can "debate" my inner critic more often to make decisions.
Thank ya ...some of my subs been hit with that issue ..hopefully me being away from awhile....They got reset or something and they can get my vids again
Bro your videos have helped me through some tough times over the years. I hope you keep uploading and stay positive in your life. Looking forward to your next video!!
I love hearing you tell your stories. I know some say having the problems you have sound like a good problem to have, but it really doesn't with the way you describe it.
It's strange, I have a few illnesses including the more severe stuff like bipolar and stuff like minor hallucinations and a few episodes of psychosis. I'd actually say that ocd is the most debilitating of all. Lots of people make jokes like "I'm so organized it's like I have ocd lol" and they don't realize how terrible it actually is to have it. Glad to know you overcame it, at least partially.
Hey man, I'm very sorry to hear what happened to you and what you have to deal with, really put into perspective what a privileged life i have been living, i really hope you're alright now and things are getting better, censierley.
Good to hear about you getting better...that said (i feel bad for pointing this out) your usually calming voice kinda sounds off, almost tired ... hope you'll fully recover because it seems like you are 99% there but not 100% . That said: i may not know how you feel/felt .. never been anorexic nor have i ever had serious OCD; that said i left my parents' home when i was just 14, and went on living in squatted places with people 3 times as old as me..thief, scavenger, smuggler and, in the end, heroin junkie - never smoked a cigarette, yet i began using heroin at 17; useless to say, not only to start at such a young age you must have some problems with yourself, but continuing to use it WILL definitely cause more or aggravate the ones you have...i went on for 11 years. Thankfully i found stuff that keeps me in order; caring for my family that now needs me, dedicating myself to the gym, and...RPGs, yes they are that important to me : ) Back to you: More people need to know about Arcanum, Dark sun, Fallout 1&2 etc , and you're one of the best channels out there doing that job...don't take it as something you must do, instead find happiness knowing that it is something worthy that you are good at explaining : ) cheers from Italy!
Thank you for coming out about this! It's always good to hear stories of mental health. Mental health really is an underappreciated aspect in western society.
Well, to me, the true moral of this this story is to never neglect a specialized medical tratment when dealing with mental disorders. They take away the ability to act reasonably, so trying to overcome them by just willpower is a bad idea. Never forget that any mental thing like conciousness, mood, emotions, perception (inluding self-perception) has its physiological basis. If your physiology is fucked up, no matter how hard you clench your teeth to act reasonably, it won't work, you will still do stupid and/or harmful things to yourself or to others. It's like trying to run with a compound fracture in your leg. So to end my rant I would say that, if you have a mental disorder of any kind, apart from talking about it with someone you trust, go ahead and visit a specialized doctor. And yes, never consider your mental disorders to be your personality traits. They are not distinctive features of a person like sexual orientation, attitude to religion, social habits and so on. They are fucking diseases, and they have to be treated.
Good to hear that you're doing better man. Thanks for being honest about what's going on. Mental health stuff can be tough. Hope that you have the right stuff around you to continue to get better. I wish to the best in moving forward.
Missed you Check. Glad you're back. Wanted to thank you. With help of your motivation and mental health videos I've solved my issues, I be been imprisoned in psychiatric ward system and held there, or at home on meds killing me for about 11 years. They tried to turn me into animal and kill me, but I was strong in broken places. It was like a nazi camp, some experience that Victor Frankl was been through during WW2. Now I am writing poetry, sci-fi novels, fairy tales and live my own life, I prison broke from the asylum system. It was like a fucking movie, and someday I'll write a book about it. My views on the old school isometric RPGs are totally similar to yours, I be got a lot of materials on this topic, earlier I had a job in game journalistic and gamedev. Want to visit Obsidian's office one day. Fallout, Planescape torment, KOTOR and Baldur's Gate are my favourite worlds. I wrote a novel about Fallout, it's the world I lived in for a long time, it helped me a lot. My intention is to create a UA-cam and twitch channel similar to yours,to russian spoken audience. Want to make friends with you and talk about everything, we will have a lot to talk through. Want to be in support when needed, see you as the spiritual brother. We are understooded poorly, but when we are together no-one can ruin us. With best regards, Andrew. Where can I contact you on social media? I am from Ukraine, I knew the developers of Stalker series. Be well, brother.
Apologies for the lat response ... Its hard to keep up with all the comments ... I miss some of them ...thats why I try and look back every now and then I would love to read about your experiences .... in a psych ward ..they always scared me ...my local one just seems like a place to keep people rather than help ....Im sorry you had to go through that .. IM glad you are writing and living your own life ... My twitter is @wholesomeseme
Hey. Are you on the Actualized.org forum? I know a runner on there. For my mental health,the greatest thing I did is keep a Journal. Holy shit. It's just made me so much more self-aware.
I have OCD. I know there are different types of it, but i think it is a misunderstood disorder, for me it's not about arranging things and stupid trivial shit like that. I experience intrusive thoughts that are horrible or violent( obsessions) and to defend myself and make them go away I perform repeated mental rituals (thoughts/compulsions). While I do check if I locked the door when I leave the house repeatedly, that is just the tip of the iceberg with OCD for me. I think that people with OCD have a lot of shit going through their heads that no one will ever know about. God forbid a person with Ocd tells someone their thoughts, they would be committed to an asylum, and that's why it's misunderstood I think. Maybe you don't have OCD but a similar anxiety disorder, I remember that you talked about having panic attacks in one of your past videos. Whatever the case your fans are always here no matter how long breaks you take from making videos :)
It's OCD ..it was confirmed to me...the trivial stuff and the obsessivenes over my running and eating and everything else was just one symptom...like you said if I told everyone all my thoughts ppl would think I'm crazy lol...I don't have violent thoughts I get intrusive obsessive thoughts over situations and my self esteem to the point where it can make me shut down for days if I can't fight the thoughts away Frankly I have some more disorders too TBH but some things I like to keep to myself ... I appreciate the support and thank u so much for your comment sharing your experiences
I read in some article that OCD develops as a combination of different disorders such as: social avoidant personality disorder, general anxiety disorder etc., the article refers to them as OCD's ''creepy cousins'' lol. When I said trivial stuff I meant checking if the oven is still on like 5 times not anorexia and eating disorders that is serious. Anyway I believe that hearing or reading about other people's experiences with OCD from time to time makes the intrusive thoughts go away for a little while. Stay strong 💪
@@marko6219 Ah my bad ... I mis read it but thanks for clarifying it ...we will be stronger and better ...this don't kill us ..it gives us more strength
Che, please bro, try doing weightlifting and calinesthetics too, like just running all the time and doing constant cardio will wear you down, but if you do other things like those it will tone you up dood. You will build muslce and feel more confident in your physique and how you look and see results. I know what its like having eating disorders and problems with mood, its really hard coz so much pathological stuff messes with your head. You said you didn't know any other ways to relieve stress well I do weightlifting and I also play music, maybe you have something creative you like to do? And if not, try different physical excercises which will tone you up and keep you focused on good nutrition whilst getting some rest on your feet. At the end of the day if you fuck up or something, don't beat yourself up too much Che, I love you man, hope things start to look up soon, I've been subscribed for years and always come back to see your videos coz I have the exact same taste in games to you
I appreciate the advice John and you watching my channel for a long time ...I am mixing it up and adding some weight lifting and other forms of exercise on top of running ...slowly getting back into it but a doing a lot better than I was before! Have a good day ...
That story was intense, alas I came to it a little late as I don't watch much youtube aside from pulling clips for my channel. Confirms my long held belief that all UA-camrs are mentally ill. JK. Great to have you back and hopefully the winds have shifted for good for you and you'll counter the destructive patterns. You literally weigh about half as much as I do, though I am working on that. Anyway, thank you for an informative video, be well.
Thank you Ivan...Your 2 part Bipolar series inspired me to actually speak about it on here instead of just ignoring it ... I've had my many disorders including PSTD, Bulimia, OCD and Aneroxia used against me for no reason to justify being treated like shit or a lunatic ...even tho I Never hurt anyone .. I dont have a record ..never committed a crime ...so I tried to sweep it under the rug and that never works ... Thank you for your open blunt honesty about everything ..it helps more than you might think ...I hope more people are open about this
I was actually just thinking about your channel the other day. You must be tall if you are considered anorexic at just 129 lbs. When I was in ROTC in college I was 120 lbs from all the PT and very healthy, although they made sure we ate a fuck ton. BTW, that squirrel did nothing wrong leave him alone. Cool that you are back, just before to eat a sandwich from time to time.
I'm close to 6 foot ...well at one point I was 117 points but I got up to 129..but its the way I maintained my weight that was bad... aneorxia doesn't always mean being like 90 pounds... it means ...doing harmful things to maintain a certain weight... although at my rate..I would have been like 100 pounds soon...I'm an on and off aneroexic..I'm able to fight it sometimes and not abuse my body ..but then it comes back...I think least I weighed wad like 113 pounds at my worst but that was years ago I read somewhere that our body holds on and tries to maintain a certain weight at some points ... maybe my body did me a favor and held off until I could try help and get worse...I was 145 pounds last marathon season..very healthy...but I dropped 20 pounds and counting ..wasted away all my muscle....it's crazy haha Yeah you were healthy..I wasn't I was vomiting blood at some point haha ..good that I'm alive to laugh
I really hope you read this as it may help you fill the void in your heart and possibly save you from the sadness you've been experiencing for a while, in order to achieve true happiness you need to spend some time every day seeking the creator and asking his guidance to the straight path regardless of your religious beliefs! I hope you can be sincere with your prayers and search for the truth and hopefully you shall find the real reason why we exist on earth and what you'll have to do to be successful on judgement day!
You might want to see a psychologist, or better yet a psychiatrist, because not only are you suffering from multiple things already. Though, it sounds like you have a serious anxiety condition. Coupled with the OCD I can see why you purge and think you look "fat". There is medication that can help you with things like this, especially undiagnosed anxiety. It sounds like you're having panic attacks very often man. I hope you find some kind of peace and balance in your life. Welcome back, was wondering when you'd upload next.
I used to be anorexic in high school but now I'm a fatass and hardly exercise (which is a problem but it's the opposite of your problem). Being fat has its ups and downs. For one, people don't notice you/check you out. The bad thing about that is you feel lonely/ugly. But it can also be a good thing in that you don't have to be just your body; it gives you a "fuck it" attitude which can be healthy in moderation. Fuck what people think of me, I'm my own person and my personality is strong enough to get me through life. I've taken it to the extreme where I don't give a fuck at all, which is wrong because body image is not just about what other people think of you, it's what you think of yourself and is important health-wise and happiness-wise. So I guess what I'm saying is, and it seems you've already figured this out, that everything should be in moderation. Maybe let yourself go a little, you can still be good-looking at 160-180 pounds if you just put on muscle.
I have the oposite problem, my body burns calories like a motherfucker with the result that I'm very skinny despite the fact I eat more than 2 people combined. For me summer is hell due to the massive body heat production and during winter I can go outside dressed as it was spring. My girlfriend had the oposite, her body is so cold that in the night I feel like I'm hugging a fucking iceberg, even during summer she is cold as a corpse, to the point that I ended up nick naming her "the reptilian ambassador on earth"... ... the abstinence that came after that joke... ... never again. Regardless, you MUST force youself to complete small quests during each day, like for example: eat X amount of food, rest X amount of days, run X amount of miles. Force yourself to make it a rutine so once your mental illiness tries to hit you, you can at least give it the middle finger. But do NOT give yourself up, those problems you have CAN be controled, do not forget what they forced you to do... destroy your body, you know the price, now fight back until you can have a normal, healty life. If I can beat depression (with those beautifful suicide attempts that came along with it), you can beat this or at least, keep it under control without being a burden. P.S: The entire rant at 7:55 ~ 10:10 is why I would MARRY you if the chance is given.
Okay. I know I am late with this BUT I hate your voice, I hate the way you say things, I hate the name Che and its historical association. NN OO WW Despite this I am subscribed to this channel watch and like every review and comment when I have something to say. It is so refreshing to have someone looking for games that aren't trend following pieces of shit, but are actually innovative sprawling with charm and good writing, and has the same level of honest and no nonesense admiration for games that I do. You are doing god's work! Don't ever stop! And welcome back
I appreciate your honesty... I don't take offense to it at all ... I'm glad you can see past the way i talk and still care about what i gotta say ..it means a lot to me ..thanks for sticking around!
May 31st.... Reviews are back! ...Risen review will be uploaded that day .. ...after that ...the next reviews won't take nearly as long...not even close...got my personal life in order so I can get back to reviews
I will slowly get back to responding to your comments...I appreciate them and try to read them all
Welcome back, always.gotta look after your mind
Thank you and I agree..its best to do it now before it gets out of control
Anyone that appreciates Arcanum: of Steamworks and Magick Obscura is a stable genius. You good homie. Welcome back.
I will never stop bringing up Arcanum ... I love that game so damn much ... I hope the outer worlds has the same level of character interaction and its world reacting to you character as Arcanum did
I agree with this 100% :D
Retrospective gaming is the reason I have a world record in arcanum on my channel
You were missed. Thank you for sharing with us. I wish you the best in all things.
Good luck now that you are back man.
Thank you Prime ..good luck on your videos
Prime, you know Che? Epic.
Who doesn’t prime know
Man I was wondering what happened to you!! Welcome back broski!
Thank you Lupercal ..Its good to be back fam
glad you're back in the time you were gone i played kotor 1 and 2 and im forever grateful to you for making those videos
Classics ..glad you enjoyed them Nick
Che, it's great to hear from you again. Sorry to hear about your struggles. Mental health issues can truly be debilitating.
Dude, the way you talk in most of your videos is so pure and honest. There are VERY few times I've heard you speak in a ''gangsta'' type of way but that doesn't bother me at all.
I guess most of us have some kind of mental error-code these days. I can honestly admit that I sometimes have panic attacks, anxiety and depression episodes.
My ''personal problems'' began almost 10 years ago. Only until now I've learned how to ''deal'' with myself. What I've learned through these years is that you have to talk to someone. No matter if it is a family member, friend or a psychiatrist... I've been through all of them. I can also admit that I'm using a small dose of medication to keep my sanity in check.
I wish you the best of luck and health Che!
PS. It would be awesome if you could cover more ''cut content'' from Fallout 2 ;)
Thank you ...been doing a lot of stuff to not only maintain but be better mentally .....Im doing a lot better from last year that's for sure ...thank you for your concern ...I hope your panic and depression episodes have gone away or at least became less frequent .. wish you the best also!
we with ya!
and im with yall
Wow, quite a story, man. I feel for you. I have anxious thought loops. My relationship to food changed when I dug into nutrition info. Sometimes I fast for a day, sometimes I binge. Now with the new info I know I can "debate" my inner critic more often to make decisions.
Missed you Che! Glad you are back :)
Thank you Johnny ..how is your playthrough of Arcanum?
RetrospectiveGaming Very confusing, having some trouble with it and haven't beat it yet. I should keep trying though
Welcome back. I thought UA-cam was honestly screwing with subscriptions again or something.
Thank ya ...some of my subs been hit with that issue ..hopefully me being away from awhile....They got reset or something and they can get my vids again
Bro your videos have helped me through some tough times over the years. I hope you keep uploading and stay positive in your life. Looking forward to your next video!!
That was a tough story, but glad to see you back.
Glad you are back pal
UwU
I love hearing you tell your stories. I know some say having the problems you have sound like a good problem to have, but it really doesn't with the way you describe it.
I’m just glad you’re back
:)
It's strange, I have a few illnesses including the more severe stuff like bipolar and stuff like minor hallucinations and a few episodes of psychosis. I'd actually say that ocd is the most debilitating of all. Lots of people make jokes like "I'm so organized it's like I have ocd lol" and they don't realize how terrible it actually is to have it. Glad to know you overcame it, at least partially.
Hey man, I'm very sorry to hear what happened to you and what you have to deal with, really put into perspective what a privileged life i have been living, i really hope you're alright now and things are getting better, censierley.
I really like ur video man hope ur doing better
that's sad to hear che homie but at least u back baby welcome back my guy!
Thank you.. Hope you enjoyed your trip .. I saw the pics on twitter!
@@RetrospectiveGaming np and thank u che my homie for retweeting then my man it was amazing bro I really appreciated though!
Welcome back my man. One of my favourite UA-camrs
Thank you Zorro!
Good to hear about you getting better...that said (i feel bad for pointing this out) your usually calming voice kinda sounds off, almost tired ... hope you'll fully recover because it seems like you are 99% there but not 100%
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That said: i may not know how you feel/felt .. never been anorexic nor have i ever had serious OCD; that said i left my parents' home when i was just 14, and went on living in squatted places with people 3 times as old as me..thief, scavenger, smuggler and, in the end, heroin junkie - never smoked a cigarette, yet i began using heroin at 17; useless to say, not only to start at such a young age you must have some problems with yourself, but continuing to use it WILL definitely cause more or aggravate the ones you have...i went on for 11 years.
Thankfully i found stuff that keeps me in order; caring for my family that now needs me, dedicating myself to the gym, and...RPGs, yes they are that important to me : )
Back to you: More people need to know about Arcanum, Dark sun, Fallout 1&2 etc , and you're one of the best channels out there doing that job...don't take it as something you must do, instead find happiness knowing that it is something worthy that you are good at explaining : )
cheers from Italy!
so glad your back
im just happy to hear youre okay now. and im happy your friend was able to get you
@@Pembroke898 I Hope you're recovery is going well ...im doing a lot better ....Thank you for the comment!
Ah, notification from you felt good until i saw the title, i hope you are allright now and welcome back!
Thank you .. I appreciate it
This is what happens when you join the SoK
PTSD is 4real.
Yep lol. I was just a viewer, and even I feel mentally ill for enjoying the content back then
Glad to see you upload again
Glad to see you back man
Thank you for coming out about this! It's always good to hear stories of mental health. Mental health really is an underappreciated aspect in western society.
Well, to me, the true moral of this this story is to never neglect a specialized medical tratment when dealing with mental disorders. They take away the ability to act reasonably, so trying to overcome them by just willpower is a bad idea. Never forget that any mental thing like conciousness, mood, emotions, perception (inluding self-perception) has its physiological basis. If your physiology is fucked up, no matter how hard you clench your teeth to act reasonably, it won't work, you will still do stupid and/or harmful things to yourself or to others. It's like trying to run with a compound fracture in your leg.
So to end my rant I would say that, if you have a mental disorder of any kind, apart from talking about it with someone you trust, go ahead and visit a specialized doctor.
And yes, never consider your mental disorders to be your personality traits. They are not distinctive features of a person like sexual orientation, attitude to religion, social habits and so on. They are fucking diseases, and they have to be treated.
*Fall from grace*
God damnit welcome back.
Love me some Planescape Torment ...perfect timing to remember the characters in that game when I named that character !
you should made some creepypastas . Whit that smoothe voice and the supernatural stuff i could listen to it totaly
Welcome back
jack Hanma reviews old games what a time to be alive
It's nice to see you retrospective gaming.
Good to be back James
Dude Ive been subbed for like 2 years. Good to see you back! Do you want to be in a movie Im making about youtube and stuff like that?
Good to hear that you're doing better man. Thanks for being honest about what's going on. Mental health stuff can be tough. Hope that you have the right stuff around you to continue to get better. I wish to the best in moving forward.
Happy to see you back! I know how hard it can be, keep taking care of yourself!
Missed you Check.
Glad you're back.
Wanted to thank you. With help of your motivation and mental health videos I've solved my issues, I be been imprisoned in psychiatric ward system and held there, or at home on meds killing me for about 11 years.
They tried to turn me into animal and kill me, but I was strong in broken places. It was like a nazi camp, some experience that Victor Frankl was been through during WW2.
Now I am writing poetry, sci-fi novels, fairy tales and live my own life, I prison broke from the asylum system. It was like a fucking movie, and someday I'll write a book about it.
My views on the old school isometric RPGs are totally similar to yours, I be got a lot of materials on this topic, earlier I had a job in game journalistic and gamedev.
Want to visit Obsidian's office one day.
Fallout, Planescape torment, KOTOR and Baldur's Gate are my favourite worlds. I wrote a novel about Fallout, it's the world I lived in for a long time, it helped me a lot.
My intention is to create a UA-cam and twitch channel similar to yours,to russian spoken audience.
Want to make friends with you and talk about everything, we will have a lot to talk through. Want to be in support when needed, see you as the spiritual brother.
We are understooded poorly, but when we are together no-one can ruin us.
With best regards, Andrew.
Where can I contact you on social media?
I am from Ukraine, I knew the developers of Stalker series.
Be well, brother.
Apologies for the lat response ... Its hard to keep up with all the comments ... I miss some of them ...thats why I try and look back every now and then
I would love to read about your experiences .... in a psych ward ..they always scared me ...my local one just seems like a place to keep people rather than help ....Im sorry you had to go through that .. IM glad you are writing and living your own life ...
My twitter is @wholesomeseme
8:20 Wew lad.
I feel attacked.
Fite me 1v1 no scope titanfall 2
Wooo youre back boi
Yeaa boiii
glad to hear your not dead
Hey. Are you on the Actualized.org forum? I know a runner on there.
For my mental health,the greatest thing I did is keep a Journal. Holy shit. It's just made me so much more self-aware.
Bookmarked it ..will look into it for sure ... I should keep a journal..ive been told that many times ...but i kept ignoring it
Great vid che, I hope this gives people confidence to face their own demons, welcome back mate 👍
you sound like max payne and thats a compliment.
I’m so glad you’re back and better than ever chie!
Can’t wait to see more from ya my man! Glad you’re back!
Thank you Richard !
I have OCD. I know there are different types of it, but i think it is a misunderstood disorder, for me it's not about arranging things and stupid trivial shit like that. I experience intrusive thoughts that are horrible or violent( obsessions) and to defend myself and make them go away I perform repeated mental rituals (thoughts/compulsions). While I do check if I locked the door when I leave the house repeatedly, that is just the tip of the iceberg with OCD for me. I think that people with OCD have a lot of shit going through their heads that no one will ever know about. God forbid a person with Ocd tells someone their thoughts, they would be committed to an asylum, and that's why it's misunderstood I think. Maybe you don't have OCD but a similar anxiety disorder, I remember that you talked about having panic attacks in one of your past videos. Whatever the case your fans are always here no matter how long breaks you take from making videos :)
It's OCD ..it was confirmed to me...the trivial stuff and the obsessivenes over my running and eating and everything else was just one symptom...like you said if I told everyone all my thoughts ppl would think I'm crazy lol...I don't have violent thoughts
I get intrusive obsessive thoughts over situations and my self esteem to the point where it can make me shut down for days if I can't fight the thoughts away
Frankly I have some more disorders too TBH but some things I like to keep to myself ...
I appreciate the support and thank u so much for your comment sharing your experiences
I read in some article that OCD develops as a combination of different disorders such as: social avoidant personality disorder, general anxiety disorder etc., the article refers to them as OCD's ''creepy cousins'' lol. When I said trivial stuff I meant checking if the oven is still on like 5 times not anorexia and eating disorders that is serious. Anyway I believe that hearing or reading about other people's experiences with OCD from time to time makes the intrusive thoughts go away for a little while. Stay strong 💪
@@marko6219 Ah my bad ... I mis read it but thanks for clarifying it ...we will be stronger and better ...this don't kill us ..it gives us more strength
Hey man, it really means a lot to me that you’ve shared your story. Glad you’re doing better.
Thank you Izaiah!
Thank u for this video i can realte to you and alot
Welcome back. Much love
Che, please bro, try doing weightlifting and calinesthetics too, like just running all the time and doing constant cardio will wear you down, but if you do other things like those it will tone you up dood. You will build muslce and feel more confident in your physique and how you look and see results. I know what its like having eating disorders and problems with mood, its really hard coz so much pathological stuff messes with your head. You said you didn't know any other ways to relieve stress well I do weightlifting and I also play music, maybe you have something creative you like to do? And if not, try different physical excercises which will tone you up and keep you focused on good nutrition whilst getting some rest on your feet. At the end of the day if you fuck up or something, don't beat yourself up too much Che, I love you man, hope things start to look up soon, I've been subscribed for years and always come back to see your videos coz I have the exact same taste in games to you
I appreciate the advice John and you watching my channel for a long time ...I am mixing it up and adding some weight lifting and other forms of exercise on top of running ...slowly getting back into it but a doing a lot better than I was before! Have a good day ...
That story was intense, alas I came to it a little late as I don't watch much youtube aside from pulling clips for my channel. Confirms my long held belief that all UA-camrs are mentally ill. JK. Great to have you back and hopefully the winds have shifted for good for you and you'll counter the destructive patterns. You literally weigh about half as much as I do, though I am working on that. Anyway, thank you for an informative video, be well.
Thank you Ivan...Your 2 part Bipolar series inspired me to actually speak about it on here instead of just ignoring it ... I've had my many disorders including PSTD, Bulimia, OCD and Aneroxia used against me for no reason to justify being treated like shit or a lunatic ...even tho I Never hurt anyone .. I dont have a record ..never committed a crime ...so I tried to sweep it under the rug and that never works ... Thank you for your open blunt honesty about everything ..it helps more than you might think ...I hope more people are open about this
@@RetrospectiveGaming Hey I am glad my video helped I hope you can get a handle on this stuff and continue living and enjoying life.
I'm glad that you are back, will you do risen review?
Yes!
I got risen 1 and 2 plus two worlds 2 , today,
Good to see you back as well.
I was actually just thinking about your channel the other day. You must be tall if you are considered anorexic at just 129 lbs. When I was in ROTC in college I was 120 lbs from all the PT and very healthy, although they made sure we ate a fuck ton. BTW, that squirrel did nothing wrong leave him alone. Cool that you are back, just before to eat a sandwich from time to time.
I'm close to 6 foot ...well at one point I was 117 points but I got up to 129..but its the way I maintained my weight that was bad... aneorxia doesn't always mean being like 90 pounds... it means ...doing harmful things to maintain a certain weight... although at my rate..I would have been like 100 pounds soon...I'm an on and off aneroexic..I'm able to fight it sometimes and not abuse my body ..but then it comes back...I think least I weighed wad like 113 pounds at my worst but that was years ago
I read somewhere that our body holds on and tries to maintain a certain weight at some points ... maybe my body did me a favor and held off until I could try help and get worse...I was 145 pounds last marathon season..very healthy...but I dropped 20 pounds and counting ..wasted away all my muscle....it's crazy haha
Yeah you were healthy..I wasn't I was vomiting blood at some point haha ..good that I'm alive to laugh
Hottest UA-camr overall in my opinion.
I appreciate the compliment thank u!
I really hope you read this as it may help you fill the void in your heart and possibly save you from the sadness you've been experiencing for a while, in order to achieve true happiness you need to spend some time every day seeking the creator and asking his guidance to the straight path regardless of your religious beliefs! I hope you can be sincere with your prayers and search for the truth and hopefully you shall find the real reason why we exist on earth and what you'll have to do to be successful on judgement day!
Good to know you are back and that you took the time to take care of you :) Wish you the best man :)
Thank you :) I really appreciate your response ....I wish you the best aswell
@@RetrospectiveGaming Thank you :)
Glad to have you again chie much love
Thank u!
Welcome back Che!
Thank you!
Real shit
All I heard in this video was BAWWWW, woe is me crap.
You might want to see a psychologist, or better yet a psychiatrist, because not only are you suffering from multiple things already. Though, it sounds like you have a serious anxiety condition. Coupled with the OCD I can see why you purge and think you look "fat". There is medication that can help you with things like this, especially undiagnosed anxiety. It sounds like you're having panic attacks very often man. I hope you find some kind of peace and balance in your life. Welcome back, was wondering when you'd upload next.
8:30 Wow this is like that song animals by talking heads irl. Hope things get better for you man.
I used to be anorexic in high school but now I'm a fatass and hardly exercise (which is a problem but it's the opposite of your problem). Being fat has its ups and downs. For one, people don't notice you/check you out. The bad thing about that is you feel lonely/ugly. But it can also be a good thing in that you don't have to be just your body; it gives you a "fuck it" attitude which can be healthy in moderation. Fuck what people think of me, I'm my own person and my personality is strong enough to get me through life. I've taken it to the extreme where I don't give a fuck at all, which is wrong because body image is not just about what other people think of you, it's what you think of yourself and is important health-wise and happiness-wise. So I guess what I'm saying is, and it seems you've already figured this out, that everything should be in moderation. Maybe let yourself go a little, you can still be good-looking at 160-180 pounds if you just put on muscle.
Early squad is here with you,fam.
I ride or die for my UA-cam fam!
good to see you again. waiting for the review. Like your video
Thank you
3 min in and i am remembering david googins
i like your videos
Uuh, wtf did just happen? Anyway, welcome back!
Craziness.. and thank you!
Great video thanks for this.
Lol!
I missed you ..you are my favorite lulzy account
Welcome back bud!
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UWU
Man I tried running but my joints got so fucked up, switched to climbing instead lol
yoooo welcome back bud. you were absolutely missed
awww yyhhhhhh my mans is BACK IN BLACK!
Try some visual arts, it's therapeutic, relives stress and helps with OCD.
My partner is an artist ... I want to start learning a bit from him
HE’S BACK
hell yeah, big homie
Good to have you back!
Also gimme them timbs 🅱️!
I only got 2 pairs and i need em for winter!
Other than Underail . Did you ever play Atom RPG or Wasteland 2 . Also what is your hopes for Wasteland 3 would you do a video like such topic : )
I plan on reviewing both in the future ...havent played wasteland 2 ..but im happy that Inexile is still around!
Welcome back bro
Thank you fam! I remember your profile pic and name ...Glad to see so many long time subscribers sticking around! and of course new ones too ...
I have the oposite problem, my body burns calories like a motherfucker with the result that I'm very skinny despite the fact I eat more than 2 people combined. For me summer is hell due to the massive body heat production and during winter I can go outside dressed as it was spring. My girlfriend had the oposite, her body is so cold that in the night I feel like I'm hugging a fucking iceberg, even during summer she is cold as a corpse, to the point that I ended up nick naming her "the reptilian ambassador on earth"... ... the abstinence that came after that joke... ... never again.
Regardless, you MUST force youself to complete small quests during each day, like for example: eat X amount of food, rest X amount of days, run X amount of miles. Force yourself to make it a rutine so once your mental illiness tries to hit you, you can at least give it the middle finger. But do NOT give yourself up, those problems you have CAN be controled, do not forget what they forced you to do... destroy your body, you know the price, now fight back until you can have a normal, healty life. If I can beat depression (with those beautifful suicide attempts that came along with it), you can beat this or at least, keep it under control without being a burden.
P.S: The entire rant at 7:55 ~ 10:10 is why I would MARRY you if the chance is given.
Todos somos locos bro. Saludos desde mexico.
Yep....the world is just insane ...greetings from USA (east coast)
We missed you man. WeLcOmE bAcK
I missed yall as well..feels good to be uploading again
Talk about a tangent lol
Jk man
I'm dead inside too
Where the fuck you been
@@RetrospectiveGaming Sorry, didn't see this. Have you got discord or something?
@@kanadetachibana4130 Che#5703
Missed you man, will you be considering still wasteland 2 & 3 as well as cyberpunk 2077?
Wasteland 2 and 3 yes...maybe cyber punk after it comes out...from what i saw ...I just need to see more of the dialogue and choices
It's good have you back bro, did you know Logical Phallusy is back? His new channel name is "Thomas Beckett".
Hell yes ...I'm subbing asap
Okay. I know I am late with this BUT I hate your voice, I hate the way you say things, I hate the name Che and its historical association.
NN OO WW Despite this I am subscribed to this channel watch and like every review and comment when I have something to say. It is so refreshing to have someone looking for games that aren't trend following pieces of shit, but are actually innovative sprawling with charm and good writing, and has the same level of honest and no nonesense admiration for games that I do.
You are doing god's work! Don't ever stop! And welcome back
I appreciate your honesty... I don't take offense to it at all ... I'm glad you can see past the way i talk and still care about what i gotta say ..it means a lot to me ..thanks for sticking around!
so when's the next video dudeski?
I agree, anime girls with red eyes are creepy as shit. Green eyes are the best eyes
Agreed
game?
Tangledeep
Glad you're back, it was lonely on youtube without you.
I really do appreciate that
Aeon of Sands is great!
Che i always forget your a bit crazy then you remind me lol
:)
Hopefully you're doing well, especially considering I don't see you on my Following page on Twitter. Is everything okay?
Hey fucko where you been? I hope you feel better and everything is fine with you.