Therapist Reacts to Toxicity by System of a Down

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  • Опубліковано 14 тра 2024
  • Therapist uses System of a Down's song Toxicity to talk about how people often get stuck in a life that feels dreary, hopeless, and boring, and they will often rage against that but quickly go back to living an unfulfilling life. We can use anger, the rage to help us get out of this situation if we are intentional about directing our anger and giving it a purpose instead of just shooting it out into the world.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 218

  • @leewalker101172
    @leewalker101172 3 місяці тому +86

    He used his anger to become the sun and shine on others... That's such an amazing thought.

  • @ZerofeverOfficial
    @ZerofeverOfficial 3 місяці тому +59

    "hey SoaD, how many time signatures are you gonna use in this one?"
    SoaD: "Yes."

  • @scottclark3761
    @scottclark3761 4 місяці тому +170

    Before i finished my degree, I was angry at my life, my circumstances, and my job. I used that anger as motivation to finish my degree....and it has done nothing but good for me. People think anger is a negative emotion. But energy derives from both the plus and negative. I found it to be a great motivator.

    • @NovaRedHead
      @NovaRedHead 4 місяці тому +2

      Energy is never made nor destroyed. You can not have good without bad.

    • @alvaro6522
      @alvaro6522 4 місяці тому +1

      Interesting reflection!!🤔

    • @gxbrxxl9626
      @gxbrxxl9626 4 місяці тому +5

      Hope one day I can acquire the skill of turning negative energy into fuel, right now it just cripples me.

    • @scottclark3761
      @scottclark3761 4 місяці тому

      @@gxbrxxl9626 The skill was changing my perspective. My job changed due to a new company taking over the contract, and what I was doing was....well....boring. Mind numbingly boring. They took away the parts of the job I actually cared about. And I was angry. I started seeing the anger as an energy. Like all energy, all power, you can use it for many different purposes. All it needs is a channel. Once I grasped that, then it becomes a conscious and intentional choice. You can't go back, either you are choosing a downward spiral or an upward path. And if you choose not to choose, that's still a choice. It's inevitable. That put it within MY power. Put all the accountability on MY shoulders. I might've failed to finish the degree. I didn't know, but, looking over my options, the others were too dark to consider. Once you bring that locus of control inward, you become mighty! Most of the naysayers of the world won't have any purchase....you do not contend, and therefore, cannot be contended with.

    • @truthbombs9408
      @truthbombs9408 4 місяці тому

      Anger is based on fears and pain, and pain is absolutely the biggest motivator. Congratulations on the degree!! I am 3 classes away from having my Masters degree for counseling those with substance abuse disorders and all other disorders, which typically most have coexisting disorders to treat. It’s been a loooong road and at 50 years old and working as well has been tough.

  • @GeorgepiggyGP
    @GeorgepiggyGP 3 місяці тому +22

    I love how therapists like metal, like my therapist like metal too

  • @RogerFlynt966
    @RogerFlynt966 2 місяці тому +26

    Great vid :)....."eating seeds" was used in the 90's as a reference for popping pills. The takeaway i always got from the song was "in between the sacred silence, and sleep....disorder" was a reference to the rise in ADHD diagnosis' and the treatment was to just hand somebody pills.(if you werent asleep, you were in the "sacred silence" aka drugged state. Anything else was disorder) Parents in the 90's didnt want to work with kids deemed "disorderly" because they couldnt focus, so they were given drugs as an overprescribed quick fix.

    • @Recyclops17
      @Recyclops17 Місяць тому +1

      Thank you

    • @Aftermost3590
      @Aftermost3590 22 дні тому +3

      Eating seeds is/could also be a reference to Armenian culture

  • @MrBracey1970
    @MrBracey1970 4 місяці тому +59

    I love this positivity,I’m 53 and have just been diagnosed with depression and anxiety (on tablets just to take the edge off)
    Rock and metal has always been my refuge,in the metal clubs and concerts nobody ever judges and that acceptance has been incredibly important (and even life saving for some.)
    Thankyou so much for being a voice of understanding and reason 😊

    • @ryanwestlands
      @ryanwestlands 4 місяці тому +2

      This 🤘

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  4 місяці тому +10

      From Micro: Thank you so much for sharing this here. Music can definitely be a powerful outlet and refuge. I wholeheartedly relate to what you describe about concerts - this sense of unity is truly magical! When you're at a concert it doesn't matter who you are - it's all about being genuinely together and sharing a significant moment. Nothing gives me more chills than singing and jumping alongside strangers in the same crowd!
      On a more personal note, I hope the process of diagnosis and being on medication is going as smoothly as possible for you. I understand firsthand how heavy and draining that process can be. First and foremost of recognizing we need help, then taking action to actually ask for help, then processing official diagnosis, then making decisions and active steps towards being supported... that's huge! Really wanted to commend you for doing all of this because through each step of the way you are standing for yourself and for your well-being.
      To me personally, accepting to ask for ore professional support was a pivotal and transformative change in my life, but I spent a very long time pushing that possibility away. It felt easier (somehow) to keep going through the same cycles and avoiding the fears that asking for help would generate in me. For some it's easy, for others it's not... so no matter how it was for you: well done ,r eally. You are taking care of yourself and that is genuinely beautiful.
      I hope also that the medications process is going smoothly, just as it can be particularly challenging at first to be supported that way. Thankfully though there is a life ahead without feeling as much the limitations and barriers that depression has instilled in your life. You asbolutely deserve to embrace life fully, and not just in the grey-ish version that clinical depression tends to paint all the time. Medications have been personally a huge crutch in my life, and at the end of the day I was thankful for allowing me to try and see how it goes. At the end of the day we're all unique and there is not one fit for all... but you are *trying*, you are exploring new pathways, and that is worth everything.
      May this be the beginning of a new healing path for you, one that will lead you to more confidence and peace within. I believe in you!

    • @Mike-om4tv
      @Mike-om4tv 3 місяці тому +4

      What a thoughtful response to a viewers comment, you're a real one!​@@HeartSupport

    • @mlauriti
      @mlauriti 3 місяці тому +2

      Just remember, you have the support of a all the metalheads around the world, stay strong, dont give up!!, cheers from Argentina brother!!

  • @FUBAR_87
    @FUBAR_87 3 місяці тому +24

    I remember when this song came out when I was in school. The drums have always been the best part of this song. Good times.

  • @jimmyjarhead954
    @jimmyjarhead954 3 місяці тому +7

    I love when the sounds match the feeling in the lyrics and your scrunchy face tells me you get it. Love it!

  • @WTFuSTPD
    @WTFuSTPD 3 місяці тому +3

    Love your take on these songs, that were there at my and so many others lowest points. You nailed it with everything you have said.
    These songs helped so many of us to be able to express our rage, oppression, anger, sorrow, and all the rest we couldn't express and deal with at those points in our lives.
    These songs helped a lot of us coop until we were finally able to face at least face some of our demons to slowly heal from what we needed to heal from.

  • @ryansecakuku9312
    @ryansecakuku9312 2 місяці тому +1

    its amazing that hearing a couple analysis on songs I loved growing up and realizing that a lot of my problem were muted in my mind due to some of these songs. but hearing you perspective allowed me to further think and internally. search for the answers inside, and how to get them to the surface in order to do some healing.thank you very much for your channel and your time, it truly helps many of us daily.

  • @unclefoot
    @unclefoot 4 місяці тому +36

    You’ve quickly become one of my new favorite reactors!!!
    There’s so many SOAD tracks out there for you to sink your teeth into!!! I’d love to hear your take on “Spiders” or “Hynotize”!!!
    Some of the tracks you’ve reacted to recently (including this one) don’t have any plainly stated emotional commentary, yet you dig through the political/societal commentary and find the emotional red line. And, you take the time to turn that perspective into something actionable. Fuckin awesome.
    Also, I’d LOVE to see your take on the piano version of “Mien Herz Brennt” by Rammstein!! The lyrics are in German but it’s so worth checking out. The video for it expresses a simple, yet profound representation of childhood trauma. It’s beautiful. Keep up the great work!!!
    Cheers

  • @wilsonaparra
    @wilsonaparra 3 місяці тому +7

    I just found this channel, loved it, and loved the music approach you make

  • @vTHE_HiTMANv
    @vTHE_HiTMANv 7 днів тому

    The way you describe things is beautiful, love the reaction 👌

  • @JustanotherJoe-ys2vh
    @JustanotherJoe-ys2vh 4 місяці тому +2

    Here we go! Beautiful song to wake up to. 🙏

  • @chrisgoldston9755
    @chrisgoldston9755 4 місяці тому +1

    Brilliant reaction and analysis…I feel this 😎🤘🔥

  • @jbohler33
    @jbohler33 Місяць тому

    These reactions are by far the most cathartic, and have been like therapy sessions in the sense of how much I’m learning and healing from them. They’re perfect for me to watch while I wait for my next therapy session.

  • @williampeterman5048
    @williampeterman5048 Місяць тому

    Your analysis of the songs are just so good

  • @Chris-jv1zo
    @Chris-jv1zo 4 місяці тому +3

    Love the way you get into the heavy parts by headbanging.

  • @oakleytrecartin6524
    @oakleytrecartin6524 2 місяці тому

    New favourite channel

  • @Joeybagadonuts104
    @Joeybagadonuts104 4 місяці тому +7

    Thanks for your videos I'm getting some free therapy I didn't know I needed I've been a metalhead since 9th grade (84/85) Anthrax Among the living started my journey

  • @paulyeary3688
    @paulyeary3688 3 місяці тому

    Love your analysis.

  • @ravenhixsin8921
    @ravenhixsin8921 4 місяці тому +5

    Yesss one of my favorite songs by SOAD ❤

  • @cactusjuice8277
    @cactusjuice8277 4 місяці тому +3

    Need more of SOAD top song reactions from you 💛

  • @vinnymatos
    @vinnymatos 2 місяці тому

    Miss, you get the SOAD art. I'm loving watching your reacts.

  • @mashini87
    @mashini87 Місяць тому

    I love the no intro in your videos it feels so honest.

  • @SoulFeather111
    @SoulFeather111 2 місяці тому

    Girl I am loving your visage and your real take on these lyrics.

  • @kevgmor
    @kevgmor Місяць тому

    "...I don't know, we'll see!" - you say that often, makes me laugh. I've been enjoying your videos lately. Thank you.

  • @bbbbbb-kq6vf
    @bbbbbb-kq6vf 3 місяці тому +16

    what an awesome take on this song.
    This song is basically about ADHD and how it feels living with it. Anger is mostly the feeling, but it can't be focused.

  • @johntowle6421
    @johntowle6421 4 місяці тому +4

    “Hi REN” is right up your alley. Even if you don’t react to it, give it a chance It’s worth the time

  • @iliesrai9726
    @iliesrai9726 4 місяці тому +2

    I'm from Algeria and I used to listen to soad in the UK early 2000 when I was in the university, best brand

  • @fhermeneses7999
    @fhermeneses7999 Місяць тому

    Great reaction thanks 🎉🎉🎉🎉

  • @jimini1976
    @jimini1976 3 місяці тому +1

    Keep going, We gonna get you to 100k soon 🤘😉

  • @236260
    @236260 3 місяці тому +2

    I'm new to your channel. That's a great take on the song. I will follow.

  • @JR_Writer
    @JR_Writer 4 місяці тому +3

    Gran reaccion me gusta que comparta su perspectiva del significado de la cancion

  • @theoldjedimindtrick
    @theoldjedimindtrick 2 місяці тому +2

    I’m a member of a covers band. You have no idea how euphoric four middle aged guys feel shaking off the day job, kids & life commitments raging this tune in a room in the middle of nowhere.. Just as a break from the mundane. Thanks for these reaction vids.

  • @toddwilson4105
    @toddwilson4105 4 місяці тому +1

    Hello my ne is Todd Wilson,and I am a person in long term sobriety. This very cool.Im also an assistant director of a sober and re-entry house.I also am an intentional peer support specialist working at the local jail.We are moving into a therapeutic community, (TC) and now after this video,you caught my attention. Luving it !Good job,keep up the good work🙏🏽I appreciate you

  • @robertluna8268
    @robertluna8268 4 місяці тому +1

    Always enjoy your interpretations. You should check out “Empty walls” from the lead of S.O.A.D Serj. I would love to hear that interpretation. Thanks for all these!!!

  • @Plastikdoom
    @Plastikdoom 3 місяці тому +6

    Killer song, amazing band, glad Serj got back with them, finally. Old school system, mind blowing and ground breaking in all ways. Mid/late
    80’s kid here

    • @brandonx7215
      @brandonx7215 2 місяці тому

      Trump came between them politically...sad

  • @yodasears
    @yodasears 2 місяці тому +3

    The song is called Toxicity, and it talks about eating seeds is a pastime activity - to me, that's significant - it's not just that life is dreary, but also that our dreary lives are toxic to our environment at large. Our ennui is an immensely destructive force - and it is only when we can conquer that, that we can shine a light for others.

  • @CanadianRightsReviews
    @CanadianRightsReviews 4 місяці тому

    Best interpretation of this song I have seen so far.

  • @darthrealgar
    @darthrealgar 2 місяці тому

    Thanks for doing these, and rock on!
    /
    /

  • @TheCryptidman
    @TheCryptidman 4 місяці тому +6

    Highly suggest checking out "The Virus of Life" by Slipknot; It's one of my favorite songs by them in terms of surface themes, and is quite dark and horror oriented on that front. I'd like to see if you could wring a different interpretation out of it than what's literal in the lyrics.
    Another great one in this vein, so to speak, is "Iowa", a fifteen minute long song that left my jaw on the floor. It's just as bone chilling, but there might be more of an obvious underlying meaning properly present in that one.

  • @SL1MZ
    @SL1MZ 4 місяці тому

    I love these reactions. I love the SOAD reactions. An interesting reaction I'd love to see would be you watching The Sopranos because there's a therapist and dynamic with Tony Soprano I think would be fun to see you react to that. Anyway hope everyone is well.

  • @andreasekman2176
    @andreasekman2176 4 місяці тому +3

    System has a LOT of anger against the "system" and Daaaang!,they play that ....looove it....😊

  • @christinasandidge
    @christinasandidge 3 місяці тому

    Awesome!!!

  • @Cad3ncee
    @Cad3ncee 2 місяці тому +1

    I always took disorder as his rebellion against the monotony of order, of going through the motions of life following a prescribed path feeling empty but feeling helpless against the flow of time so he just pursues disorder for the sake of disorder to break apart the order of his life and try to find himself in the pieces.

  • @joeangiello9784
    @joeangiello9784 2 місяці тому

    Awesome take! Also you’re a pretty gal. Such a great song!!

  • @leoantonio3849
    @leoantonio3849 3 місяці тому

    great reaction

  • @stephenandrew6087
    @stephenandrew6087 4 місяці тому +2

    You got a sub just for your metal angry scowl face. 🤘😂💯

  • @user-fd2rk7ug5y
    @user-fd2rk7ug5y 4 місяці тому

    Awesome sweet one,,, 💫🙏🕊️🇨🇦

  • @SkIzOjImBo
    @SkIzOjImBo 24 дні тому

    I started to know how to really listen to muzik when this album was released I think I was 11 yo. It unlocked my true self.
    It's cool that you get the real hidden message on a first hearing 😮

  • @maktub8669
    @maktub8669 4 місяці тому +1

    PLEASE DO HI REN-REN!!!! Love your reactions & think you will more than appreciate the masterpiece. He brought music as we know it to another level. ❤️

  • @vicyday11
    @vicyday11 4 місяці тому +1

    I love these reactions, if you are looking for inspirational lyrics look to some Killswitch Engage "I am broken too" very much inspried by mental healh/substance abuse and Hatebreed who sound aggressive but their lyrics are just so positive and inspirational. "This is now" is a great intro song.

  • @jbohler33
    @jbohler33 Місяць тому

    My last break up broke my heart and left me with (along with other feelings) a lot of bitterness and anger, but none of it directed towards her. Perhaps it was directed at myself, but either way, I’ve never took control of my life as much now as I have in over a decade. If that’s what it had to take to force me out of this long subconscious acceptance of my meaningless existence, I’m grateful.

  • @obenohnebohne
    @obenohnebohne 3 місяці тому

    5:41 Perfect!

  • @qwertyforwen2342
    @qwertyforwen2342 3 місяці тому +2

    You should check out whitechapels newest 2 albums, they are heavy but combine some beautiful clean singing with harsh vocals to tell a very emotional tale about the trauma from his childhood

  • @johan.ohgren
    @johan.ohgren 4 місяці тому

    The great misconceptions of me by Blackie Lawless is a must see for you!

  • @findingdeemo2411
    @findingdeemo2411 3 місяці тому +2

    this is my favourite song from S.O.A.D so under rated

    • @philly4444
      @philly4444 6 днів тому

      ummm underrated by who?

  • @patrickfoster9622
    @patrickfoster9622 3 місяці тому +1

    If you are digging SOAD, you have to check out "Lonely Day", I would love to see your interpretation of it all, it's beautifully depressing

  • @foximoron499
    @foximoron499 10 днів тому

    Please you have to listen to "Sugar" by this guys, I simply LOVE IT

  • @tomislavkosanovic1104
    @tomislavkosanovic1104 3 місяці тому +1

    Serj has a way to deliver that anger, I'll give him that 🤟. Please do 'Jinjer - Pisces (Live session), I would like to hear your take on that one.

  • @user-jq3bf3ri8z
    @user-jq3bf3ri8z 4 місяці тому +1

    You really, REALLY have to check out Arch Enemy, Reason to Believe! Amazing song for mental health!

  • @andybside
    @andybside 3 місяці тому

    SOAD is definitly one of my top 10 favorite bands. And I am a punker.

  • @someoneyoudontknow342
    @someoneyoudontknow342 3 місяці тому

    Please you have to listen to Question by System. Its one of Serqis best vocal performances

  • @kaylajohnston9287
    @kaylajohnston9287 2 місяці тому

    While watching your analysis I realized this song makes me think of 9/11. Upon further research I found that it came out in September of 2001, so in the exact same month as the attack. I remember feeling really angry and confused during that time. In addition to typical teen angst, we were all living in fear and uncertainty (worried there would be more terrorist attacks and a military draft). It was also only a few years after Columbine so there was always this underlying fear of school shootings. The line “How do you own the world, how do you own disorder?” really resonated at that time. SOAD was a staple on my playlists along with Disturbed, Linkin Park, and Rage Against the Machine. In hindsight it makes a lot of sense.

  • @realifepowerushmusic
    @realifepowerushmusic 3 місяці тому

    LOVE SOAD ✌🏻

  • @claycall1144
    @claycall1144 4 місяці тому

    I always described my emotions to great intense music like this as happy agressiveness. I never felt angry but thats just me. Probably a lot of people too im guessing

  • @clee3133
    @clee3133 3 місяці тому +2

    Impressive review! Maybe reading too much into it, but I've always thought the disorder is something to be able to disrupt the dreary, repetitive monotony. Maybe even implying "order" is maintained by interests that just want to keep us all hooked up to the Matrix, and disorder is what can disrupt that.

  • @lost6872
    @lost6872 Місяць тому

    I would absolutely LOVE to hear you listen to Only by Nine Inch Nails or Everyday is Exactly The Same. Trent Reznor at possibly his most mature.

  • @tomspring213
    @tomspring213 3 місяці тому

    You should check out the band Sylosis and a song from their latest album, (A Sign of Things To Come), called Absent. I think they did an immaculate job of encapsulating what most humans these days are feeling but also making the song hit you like he's either singing about you or to you.
    As a fellow therapist and, (as of today), first time viewer...I really think it will move you in ways you probably haven't been moved in.

  • @Bruhaker
    @Bruhaker 2 місяці тому +1

    5:44 was Black Tongue?? Dare I say I'm impressed, quite the sludgey band

  • @Caexkepesk
    @Caexkepesk 2 місяці тому

    My favorite line of the song is "eating seeds is a pass time activity." I've always taken it as 'they' taught us that we should spend our free time consuming more of their products and lies. They being the stereotypical they of corporation and government. Most of their work is to bring light to major issues swept out of our view to keep the 'norm'

  • @iolioesem7485
    @iolioesem7485 2 місяці тому

    Goddess

  • @ADHDsquirrels
    @ADHDsquirrels Місяць тому

    I challenge you to do every Tool single if not every song.
    I would appreciate it. It's been a very hard 4 months

  • @GeekFurious
    @GeekFurious 4 місяці тому +8

    I absorb the lyrics as being about general toxicity in any form be it small or large. And I think when he says "The toxicity of our city" he means that literally. An entire city run by toxic people who think the world revolves around them, who pass their toxicity onto those who suffer while seeing the world through a narrow perspective (the tire hub reference). And the only escape for the victims of their disorder is passing time eating seeds (cheap food in volume), sleeping... waiting for inevitable sacred silence in death.

    • @geoffreycat1763
      @geoffreycat1763 2 місяці тому

      Imo the "eating seeds" lyric is refering to baseball, "a pasttime activity", refering to many who have an unhealthy or toxic relationship with sports. I agree with everything you said.

  • @jacob23354
    @jacob23354 4 місяці тому +5

    falling in reverse It's a good band to react to, besides good clips, the lyrics are very deep

    • @rico4170
      @rico4170 4 місяці тому

      That would be so awesome!!!

  • @DPRyan-vd5pp
    @DPRyan-vd5pp Місяць тому

    Check out the SOAD guitarists band “Scars on Broadway”

  • @matpitch-id3pp
    @matpitch-id3pp 3 місяці тому

    0:12 the cutest reaction to that part I've ever seen
    0:24 1998
    3:58 you are so right
    5:00 you are genius
    End of the video: we need more humans like you

  • @philly4444
    @philly4444 6 днів тому

    This song is about ADHD. Eating seeds as a pastime activity and many other lyrics are directly related to living with that disorder.

  • @rodeo4786
    @rodeo4786 4 місяці тому

    Wow this makes more sense than vocal coach reaction..

  • @Sovereignlupi
    @Sovereignlupi 2 місяці тому

  • @thomasszumowski4014
    @thomasszumowski4014 4 місяці тому

    I would suggest Pit of Consciousness by jinjer live in Kiev

  • @Orlando2914
    @Orlando2914 2 місяці тому

    You should listen to Lonely Day by System of a Down.

  • @Legato.Bluesummers
    @Legato.Bluesummers 4 місяці тому

    we need to get ya onto some Lamb of God and Gojira.. would love to see ya break down some of their stuff

  • @mogli360
    @mogli360 2 місяці тому

    I think you should check out Type O Negative if you have not already. Especially I don`t wanna be me. That song still helps me a lot

  • @shitfuck3993
    @shitfuck3993 3 місяці тому

    Well I think it's a good time for a Tool reaction! Sober, or Schism are really good choises.

  • @300Gurken
    @300Gurken 4 місяці тому +2

    You should watch Hi Ren by Ren and get down this rabbit hole. or NF if you dare ;)

  • @JasonRayShute
    @JasonRayShute 2 місяці тому

    I used to use this album to help me get through tedious tasks. The lead singer actually remade the whole album with the New Zealand symphony orchestra to encourage young people to listen to more classical music. In my opinion it's better than the original version. System of a down are true musicians.

  • @wallyonfashion
    @wallyonfashion 4 місяці тому

    You need react system of a down lost in Hollywood

  • @lachlanhenry486
    @lachlanhenry486 4 місяці тому

    Nobody sitting on the wall betting on disorder, just desire.

  • @maxeyed4038
    @maxeyed4038 3 місяці тому

    Please do BODY COUNT - Institutionalized

  • @thomaskellyjr6370
    @thomaskellyjr6370 4 місяці тому

    Chop Suey and Aerials!

  • @CJPHS98_GAMES
    @CJPHS98_GAMES 4 місяці тому

    I love your reactions! Thank you for the hard work but please listen to Given Up by Linkin Park. Linkin Park have so many incredible emotional and relatable tracks. My all time favourite band. RIP CHESTER ❤️❤️

  • @alexraiford8103
    @alexraiford8103 4 місяці тому +1

    Oh man a therapist! Please react to Schism by Tool!

  • @pappapandagamer7438
    @pappapandagamer7438 2 місяці тому +1

    Im a gamer, so I relate that feeling to basically life feels like a game I have played for a long time, its familiar, but no longer something I want to play. I am forced to because of my family and friends, but some days the quit button is very tempting...

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  2 місяці тому +1

      From ThriceTheThird: @pappapandagamer7438 Hello gamer. I'm sorry that you are feeling exhausted and down. If you ever want to share more of what you are going through. Please feel free to do so. We care at HeartSupport and want to see you win the game. <3

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  2 місяці тому +1

      From Micro: @pappapandagamer7438 Thank you for sharing this, friend. It's so courageous of you to speak about the battles you lead within but remain unseen to most. Sometimes it's scary to open up about things that makes us feel particularly vulnerable, and it's hard to share it without the fear of freaking out the people we love. What you are going through, the way you feel about your life and perceive it, are so very important to express and hear. Always.
      The way you describe your own experience feels so very relatable to me personally, and reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend when I was having a wave of suicidal thoughts recently. It came down to expressing that if it wasn't for my partner, sister and close friends, I wouldn't be here anymore. As you said so well, it's hard to be in a place of feeling like you've already seen everything that life could offer somehow, and that there is little hope left to see anything better. It feels more like going through the same circles over and over, completing the same goals almost in a mechanic way. To take your gaming analogy, it surely feels like grinding the same quests over and over and having joy being robbed away from you, as the game itself seems to lose its substance. When you are so tired emotionally it feels likethe wonder and curiosity that life can generate seems to be gone. Under these circustances, it's really difficult to identify the right way to feel whole and alive again. You don't see any positive perspective ahead, so there are times when it's hard to not think about quitting altogether. It makes sense to think about it sometimes, even though you know it's not an healthy and even less fair option... because your life matters so very much, even during times when it's hard to see beyond the pain, the tiredness and the overwhelm.
      With your friends and family in the picture, I imagine how this must also feel conflicting at times. Personally, I'm thankful for how much the people I love anchor me without them even knowing it. But at the same times there are moments when the heart feels like it just can't take it anymore, and I would almost wish that I had never met my partner or had good friends. Which is such a vicious cycle in the end that makes you see yourself as ungrateful, if not unworthy. Suicidal thoughts can be so easily intertwined with shame, and that's not a recipe that anyone ever deserves to experience. So when you share about how you feel really like you do here, you actively work against the feelings of shame, loneliness and guilt that dark times may bring. You actively seek *hope* even in the midst of feeling like you have not attained it yet. And man that is SO brave, so strong, so powerful of you.
      For what it's worth from a stranger, I'm so very proud of you. For being here, for being you, for making it through the days when you felt you should press the quit button. For choosing instead to pause when it feels like life is crushing you down. There's a lot of patience required during those times, and I'm so thankful you've been giving yourself *time*, you've been your heart some grace and just the benefit of the doubt that as long as you keep trying, there *is* hope to discover new pathways. Maybe with your loved ones directly supporting you and knowing what you're going through. Maybe with the help of a professional who would offer a safe space and strategize next steps with you. Maybe on your own with tons of love towards yourself and patience during enduring times. No matter how, there are roads ahead waiting to be known, and I wholeheartedly believe in your ability to seek them as well as to walk on them.
      You matter, friend. I see you and I hear you. Hold fast. :heart:

    • @pappapandagamer7438
      @pappapandagamer7438 2 місяці тому

      Thank you :) I appreciate you reaching out to me. I do have a great support system and am very open and honest with my doctor about my depression. I have been looking for a therapist I just need to find one that I can afford and who I can trust. I am currently on medication and fighting the good fight. @@HeartSupport

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  2 місяці тому +1

      From Micro: @pappapandagamer7438 This is great to hear! Well done for all the steps you've been taking. They're certainly not the easiest, but absolutely worth it. You got this, friend. :heart:

  • @xavier1964
    @xavier1964 2 місяці тому +1

    To me, the lyric "Somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep" was always about life. Sacred silence is when you are in the womb, and sleep is death.

  • @Big_Country91
    @Big_Country91 12 днів тому

    During a performance at the 2005 Download Festival, Daron Malakian said that the song was about Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), a condition that causes a person to have trouble concentrating.

    • @philly4444
      @philly4444 6 днів тому

      this is true, I've seen it. I find it interesting over the years reading peoples sure interpretations of what the song is about, and most are wrong (maybe not to them, but to what the song was actually about)

  • @ireallyreallyhategoogle
    @ireallyreallyhategoogle 3 місяці тому

    I suggest you watch Disturbed - Land Of Confusion.

  • @nickj4785
    @nickj4785 3 місяці тому

    shoutout Black Tongue ''blegh''

  • @ScotsmanDougal
    @ScotsmanDougal Місяць тому

    @HeartSupport, this song encapsulates how I have been feeling for the past 4-5 years. I'm 45, never married, no partner, no kids. I feel I have lost at living and to be honest, I'm not sure if I have the inner strength or energy or if I can even be bothered to get myself out of this situation. Every time I have tried to get myself to of the situation, every time I try to lift myself up, someone comes along and rips my feet out from under me.

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  Місяць тому +1

      From sravyasridhar: @ScotsmanDougal Hi friend,
      I want to start off by reminding you that there is no real way to "win" or "lose" in life; it is all very relative and unique to each person. Just because you do not have kids or a partner does not make you any less of a person than someone who has those things. I also want to say I am so proud of you for always trying to lift yourself up. That is all that matters. Keep trying, I believe in you. Make sure not to fall prey to all the pressures of society. You're doing amazing.
      - Star :)

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  Місяць тому +1

      From Jearls: @ScotsmanDougal Hi friend. I understand the feeling of hopelessness and despair can be strong at times. It's important to remember that there is no one path to success. There is no timer, no scoreboard no rulebook and no referee. I am confident that you will find the strength to try new things and find the beauty in life. There are people twice your age that look back at age 45 and wish they could've started then. The best time to start is today. Sending love.
      -SM

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  Місяць тому +1

      From twixremix: @ScotsmanDougal hey friend, that’s so cool that you found a deep connection in the music shared in this video. you are not alone in feeling these societal and personal pressures. something i’ve taken comfort in is that there is no blueprint or checkboxes to identify if someone won or loss at life. it’s understandable how you can feel exhausted by it all when things keep coming along and knocking you down. if these adjustments to your life will bring you happiness and ignite a new spark for life, i believe in you fully. even if you start slow to get to your goals, i know you’ve got this. and no matter the age, i can say with 100% certainty that you are not the only one in this world experiencing same thoughts, fears, and doubts! you deserve to love and be loved, never forget that.
      love,
      twix

    • @HeartSupport
      @HeartSupport  Місяць тому +1

      From Malig3: @ScotsmanDougal Hey!
      Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable with us. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling stuck. I think there is an unrealistic time pressure to know what you want in life at such a young age. I want to remind you to be kind to yourself and know that what is meant for you is heading your way on YOUR timeline. There is no deadline or rush on life. You matter, and you can do anything you put your mind to. Good things tend to come our way when we are not looking and putting all of our energy into ourselves. Show yourself some love! I think finding a new hobby, exploring a new area, meeting new people, and pushing yourself out of your comfort zone are great places to start. There is not better time than right now. You've. got this. We believe in you, and we are here to support you. <3

    • @ScotsmanDougal
      @ScotsmanDougal Місяць тому

      Thanks so much guys, it means a lot. Just take each day as it comes.
      Thanks again ML&R