Recent System Developments!! | What’s Going On With Aether?
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- Опубліковано 24 чер 2019
- Life has been eventful for us, both inside our system and out! Here’s some more details of our system’s inner workings, and some things we’ve been figuring out about our trauma.
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Dumb question but would y'all ever do a knitting tutorial? Your scarfs are really pretty.
What is it like to watch videos made by your alters?
"Oh tumblr" came up as "oat um blur" on the auto generated subtitles. That is actually my brain currently! Xavier, thanks for trusting us with your trauma, it must have been so hard for you guys
I never actually realized the thing you said about letting littles out were dangerous because as a kid, you felt you were in danger..... it makes so much sense. -Atlas
7:03 oh my heck ur right....
Lmao I feel like this is so basic for most ppl and all of us trauma survivors are here just like omg whaaaa u should feel safe as a child? Since when???
Also my question is what was it like when you first discovered your system and how do u deal with it if you think you have alters but it kinda feels like they are trying to keep you in the dark about their existence lmao I’ve been trying to figure stuff out and sometimes I’m literally talking to them and then the next minute they’re shouting and being like ‘why are u making up the fact I exist lol I’m not real stop being stupid’ so I’m kinda confused and feel like it’s definitely not real sometimes and definitely real other times
They (and other systems) have made videos on that - including the statement of denial and refusal being common signs/symptoms(?) of DID. :)
Yay. Xavier has grown into himself. At least from what I can see. That brings me a smile.
Kratom!!!! A pain med that can help!! Is legal in the us
Sounds like this move will be really good for you all... 👍
Congrats on empowering yourself... Very inspiring. I'm so glad you are on a positive path... 🙂
I love Elfen Lied... That was one of my first animes, & made a big impression on me as well...
Did you know that's German for "song of elves"? ;)
I applaud your bravery for sharing! I know from experience how hard it is to get those words out. I personally like to say I'm a sexual assualt SURVIVOR because I will no longer give that person the power to make me their victim. When i started using that wording it was really empowering, maybe it will help y'all too? Thank you for your amazing channel!
I guess we’ve just never really felt connected with saying that we’re a “survivor”, and saying that we’re a victim makes us feel more in touch and okay with being vulnerable, since that’s something we’ve struggled with a lot. Maybe it’s because we keep doing that classic “but our trauma wasn’t THAT bad” thing, and saying survivor just doesn’t feel right. We should look up synonyms and find something even cooler to use 😂😂
-Devon
@@AcrylicAndAether Thank you for the reply! That's a very interesting way to look at things, I never thought about it that way. I love getting others perspectives on things, its so fascinating and we can learn so much from each other! Im not a system but have lived through a lot of trauma, most of mine after the age of 10. I have always been a "stuffer" with my feelings and emotions. That led to a lot of years of drug abuse to try to keep my emotions down. I used to always think of myself as a victim during those years. I've been clean 6 years now & through lots of counseling I've started saying I'm a survivor & it really did shift my mindset on my traumatic experiences. It took me several years & my counselor many sessions to get me to even try using the term survivor lol now it feels natural and empowering for me :)
I would love to hear if you do find a synonym that y'all are comfortable using. Y'all are amazing & i love watching all your videos!!! Much Love!
Thank you for sharing this! There's been a trend noticed by some psychologists between patients with DID and recovering memories of ritual abuse in their early 20s noticed as far back as when DID was referred to as MPD, so you might be able to find a lot of information on that quite easily (i know i did when researching how to help and support the systems i know)
Thank you for being so open and vocal. Your bravery is absolutely inspiring
I'm a 5th year psych major and there are meds that can help you. You will need to talk to your psychiatrist to find out what is best for your system, as not everyone reacts the same or responds the same! I hope they can find something that works soon!
Literally binge watching all your videos, I’m learning!!! 😌
i'm so sorry to hear about you trauma, yet very proud of you guys for being empowered by saying it. you obviously did not feel forced to share it to us and please do not ever feel like so. cheering you guys always!
Oof we have a lot of littles right now. I don’t know if they’re new or if they already existed. Our system is so full of fictives too. 😂 love that.
Love the channel and very proud to be a goblin. Anyway, question time because I am a curious one.
What's it like having a partner systems? What are some of the pros and cons
That was incredibly brave of you to say that and is amazing thank you for that we are sexual assault victims too thank you for doing everything you do here on UA-cam you've helped our system so much 💜
Trigger Warning: that’s some bull because cannabis is literally the only medicine that’s been able to reduce ptsd symptoms and take away completely my horrendous night terrors. I also have chronic pain from a surgery when I was a child and it’s the only thing besides opioids that touch the pain. I’m 18 and have made the decision for now that I’m not going to take opioids (even though they’re prescribed by my Drs) as long as I have the current access I do to medical marijuana. Best of luck to the whole system through your journey to heal.
Built in therapist! That’s awesome that you have that!
Thank you for being honest about what happened. I was born in the seventies and my generation didn't talk about abuse. I have some type of dissociative disorder. But I have not been diagnosed d.i.d. I have flash backs of being raped as a 5 year old. I am a grown woman now. I have never been able to have a healthy relationship with men since then. I just started trauma therapy. Don't know what to expect. I have had therapy in the past. For bipolar. But never really resolved child good issues. Maybe someday I can be brave like y'all are. Good luck on your path of healing.🤗
Hi guys!
Thank you so much for your bravery. Some things you talked about really hit home for me and made me understand myself better and why my brain wired itself the way it did. I don't have DID but I deal with dissociation and dehumanization. I also have a better understanding of my childhood imaginary friends after what you expressed. So thank you for sharing this. From one sexual assault survivor to another you are amazing, you are worthy and you did what you needed to in the moment to survive a very awful trauma. Hopefully none of this triggered you or anyone else. If it did I'm sorry that was not my intention. Lots of love!
You crack me up Xavier 😂😂😂😂👍✌
Appreciating your complete honesty and transparency. It can be very empowering to admit things out loud.
❤ much love
If anyone likes Kpop there are these hour-long clips here on UA-cam with songs that makes you feel bad-ass. Just in case you didn’t know.🙃
Also, can alters who are fronting get flashback from trauma that happened in the headspace? Or maybe that depends on the system...🧐
Xavier, In my system we have a few that are chameleons and kind of changes their mannerisms a lot as well. Funny enough Xander and his twin Alexis are some of those. Wonder if mysteries are with the X's lol! J/k. I feel like our system is starting to figure out some new things too and love the way you explained things about the memory synapses because we've had a similar theory but we imagine it with books and the older books are more fragile and delicate like ancient papyrus. They are too delicate for many of us to handle and those with that "expertise" can go and "read or open" it up. You all are doing great! Love hearing the developments of your journey!
The Pehonix Collective
So much of this makes sense to us. Thank you.
And realizing we have anime introjects!!!!! We have Lain from Serial Experiments Lain and Migi from Parasyte.
Until I learned about DID I didn’t know much about ritual abuse. This seems like is a very huge problem in America, most likely because of how many Americans who are religious. There is very little of it in Scandinavia, because most of us aren’t religious. It’s really sad and scary to learn about, it is horrendous and it makes me literally sick thinking about what children can be exposed for. The offenders should never be able to even be a part of society.
I’m happy you are moving out soon, it doesn’t help being in a toxic environment, and hopefully it will be better once you move 🌸
Thank you so much for sharing all your updates, we appreciate you ♡
You are a beacon of hope for all.
I love elfen lied omg, I never here anyone really talk about. It was the first anime I ever watched when I was 14. It's been hard to find one better. I see similarities now that you saw something. I've always loved him and all of the rest of the alters I've seen as of now. I don't have did, I have trauma and mental health issues but not did. The way you handled what's life dealt you is so inspiring. Congrats on the engagement, I hope you guys get your house soon🖤
Great video, Xavier. I'm glad you got to feel some empowerment from this video.
One of my favourite videos from you guys!! Really loved your honesty and how open you were.... so intriguing to hear all your updates and keen to hear more xx
I have something to say;
You are so brave.
It takes so much courage and so much energy, to step foward and openly talk about your past.
I am so proud of you. ❤
You have come so far and made so much progress. Thank you for sharing this with us all.
~ The Stockholm System
Kratom (mitragyna speciosa) can help physical pain and mood/emotional lability. You could look into microdosing psilocybin cubensis ('magic' mushroom) but need to research the area before trying this.
Really hope you guys get into a place together soon y’all really deserve to be happy thru all of the trauma❤️
I was wondering, when yall have profound ideas, theories, like you spokr about brains/memories/developrment, does everyone have that thought? Do yall discuss the topic? And also have you shared how yall talk? Like, are you able to communicate while doing things physically?
Thank you for being so open and transparent! I'm sure yall know, but thank you for helping so many.
You seem so nice! Your so brave! And still maintain a sense of humour. I send love to your system xx
so proud of you, you seem so aware. I've been obsessively watching your channel, it's so interesting and incredible. Saying your trauma outloud was inspiring and made me tear up because of how this shows your healing!
Hi Aether! (or do you prefer Aether System? - I just found you/your channel yesterday...)
Thanks so much for your video and all the insights all of you (from both systems) give "us out here".
I noticed a background noise during the duration of the video - a fan? since you mentioned it being summer... - and wanted to suggest/ask if it is possible to put an ANC filter onto recordings or something else for background noise reduction. It wasn't terrible; just an idea - I have no idea of technicalities in filming and editing and what's possible.
Have a wonderful day/night/week! And looking forward to hearing/watching more from you. :)
Zavier! It's so good to hear from you! Since I watched your meet the alter video I've been hoping that you would get the chance to open up. So I'm so happy to see you again.
Wow honestly so proud of your strength for saying that Xavier. I found it something that was hard af to do personally but also found it empowering and over time made me feel like I was taking back control. I literally felt like I was hit in the chest when you said that because it made me feel like it gave me that much more strength and conviction in myself. Idk it's hard to explain but it made me feel empowered and in control the way you said it. Idk if this makes sense but it really hit me so thank you for this feeling of strength and power when I really needed it.
So very empowering! It is important for people to be able to say what happened and how it made them feel. It shouldn't be something to be ashamed of. Thank you for empowering others ❤️
Just commenting to say I think you are really brave and also smart and your videos provide important information about DID. Wishing all of you all the best.
Thank you for sharing what you're going through! When I'm having severe anxiety I like to use organic cbd without the thc so that I'm still sober but it takes some of the emotional pain away. You all may have already tried that but if not, I recommend!!
I ran across your channel as a recommended after following MultiplicityAndMe.
All I have to say is that was brave AF to say so brazenly on camera, in "public". Not many people have the guts to do that. I'm really impressed. Healing thoughts.
Thank you for sharing these things with the community, it has helped our system and I'm sure many more to learn that we are not alone.
(Question for the 7k Q&A- any advice for systems in high school?)
Maybe cbd will help you. I am not a system but it is pretty helpful for me.
I am proud that you have done this Video!
Thank you for be an amazing person !!!!!
I'm so proud of you for making the decision to say that out loud. For us it has always taken the power away from our abuser, to say yes we were sexually assaulted, but we're here now- cocon will+jane
You fucking rock. all of you
Way to go love you all
In your 7K stream will you tell us in the inner world how some of the different alters sound? Your beautiful system has so many interesting alters and I've been very curious about them! ❤❤❤
Ugh RA royally sucks! You find yourselves feeling a certain way or reacting a certain way regularly, and then come to realize it happens every time it's a Naw Moon (for example). Words or phrases on repeat in your mind all day, randomly, all these weird clues... We so relate.
Great job/video!!
I love you guys ❤️❤️
as a new system, and we know you have maede vidios on this, know that medusisan system finds you a hero
also side note. 50 dollar dynasty has a song titaaled sphinx... he may enjoy it
I hope things gets better
❤All the love ❤
Negative reinforcement is taking something negative away
Positive reinforcement is adding something positive to condition a child to something
Then there's punishments n stuff.
(I'm a psych major)
Have to say you are so awesome x x x
TW: Amusement Parks
Bruh Oak's Park is lit. I haven't been in so long though.
Lots of interesting things going on! Just FYI, we learned in our teaching prep classes that the brain isn’t fully “cooked” until 25. As far as we know, 21 was an arbitrary choice.
Can i ask how does therapy work?
Because I believe some of the trauma holding alters must need more help than some of the other alters but you can't know if they will be fronting at the appointment time. Also, can they actively avoid fronting just because they don't want to discuss those memories etc.
It must be hard to convince all the alters that may need help to agree to talk about it.
You’re courageous
Kratom is a supplement that can help with intense pain, it binds to the same receptors that opiates use. Also, whole plant cbd extracts (none of that powdered cbd isolate stuff) don’t turn up on drug tests, and don’t leave you “buzzing”. Foria wellness is a company that delivers (expensive!) high quality extracts right to your house.
Congrats on being able to plainly and bluntly state at least part of your trauma. The very first time I said it out loud I cried and vomited from the memories. I can now detach myself from it to tell my truth.
As far as survivor terminology I dont like it either. Yes I survived but its so much more than just surviving. Maybe sexual assault triumpher? Not sure that works either lol
Someone else probably already said this already but about the medicine for somatic pain- we take Cymbalta for that!! It doesn't completely fix it but it makes a noticeable difference.
(weed helps much more but I don't live in a legal state)
Also our littles whipped the rest of us into shape recently. They're really powerful when something is important to them
Thank you so much for sharing things with us. Also I have a question if anyone would like to answer it. What is executive dysfunction? Thanks have a good day.❤
We too have the whole cigarette smoke thingy
we want inner world history!
💜 I wish I had your courage. It takes alot to admit what you have been put through. Maybe someday I can have the same 💙
THIS VIDEO MADE ME RELIZE ONE OF MY ALTERS IS AN INTROJECT WHA-
Hey! As far as medical cannabis goes perhaps they'd allow a topical application of CBD dominant creams or oils ? They help in some pain conditions that I've read on (part of my job). Unsure if youve tried those. Best of luck system ❤
Edit: Also! So cool to hear you talk about synapses! I'm a physiology graduate and have always been fascinated by neuronal axon development and synapses! A professor at my university has kind of always looked at it and it's made me think a lot about it. Itd be cool to talk to you about it sometime if you're keen? Just an over enthusiastic, open minded scientist 😅😊 wish you all the Best!
Kratom helps me. I only use it 1 or 2 times a day. I put it in water
Q&A, but also, totally do not answer if it makes you uncomfortable: is it possible for a little be negatively triggered out in a possibly dangerous situation? and, if so, what do you do? how can you help keep them safe, etc?
Sumire Whisper definitely, triggers are a lot of things, and some may be triggered out with loud sounds or something fearful. Triggers can be both positive or negative, and you can definitely trigger a little to front. Remember - they had “jobs” when the body was a child, and can still have those jobs
For the Q & A: I've been having many dissociative headaches lately following being cut off communication wise from my system. Thoughts?
Your hermit in the cave sounds like the guy that knows the most stuff... even if he's off-putting, he likely knows the most truth about what was done to you
I love Hollow. His box of blue things kinda reminds me of Smeagol/Gollum, but Elfen Lied makes sense, too!
Btw, I'm also a victim of sexual assault. I got "only" depression and anxiety, though, not DID. I was 10 and it took me about three years until I realized what had happened (I mean, I knew what sex was, and I was not interested in it yet bc I was so young, but it took a few years until I realized it was sexual assault and that I was a victim). I seeked help when I was 19. I'm 27 now and I still have mental problems, but I'm doing a lot better than at 19-23. Those years were the worst, for some reason, when it comes to my mental health and self harm. Nowadays, I can manage.
I hope you can move in with your partner system as soon as possible and be happy. :)
Your videos are very interesting and informing. I like learning more about psychology, by seeing concrete cases by real people, living their lives...
ahhhhh oaks park is amazing sorry this is a v serious video but i love oaks park
I like your hair in this video.
admitting things should be empowering for yourself. obviously, you don't have to say it to us, but once you own it you can hopefully feel a bit freer. :)
For pain have you tried Valerian? I've heard it can help. Be sure to check w/ interactions and ur doc first of course though.
My understanding of Valerian is that it can be counterproductive in the long run. Also it can have fairly negative mental effects for some people. But it is also a strong medicine that can be very helpful.
I still don’t understand how secondary hosting works for you guys (Aether). I’ve asked before and one of you tried to explain it so I know it’s some how idifferent from “co-hosting”? But I still don’t get it.
Heck I looked up to Stein from Soul eater as a model aha
Hmmm for some reason I am not subscribed to this channel. Boop! There we go, fixed.
Hey also my Little likes you? I think you're calming him down he's a little freaked out after what happened with our roommates
Okay gonna go binge-watch a ton of your videos. owo - Holly
I always thought it was interesting to think of alters as different reincarnated souls... Actual souls coming to your aid. Totally non- scientific... But fascinating to me.
For us, especially early on in our journey of discovering who we really are, it was actually really grounding and validating when we came to the conclusion that none of us is a separate spirit, reincarnated or otherwise, inhabiting this body. Especially because of the experiences one of the hosts had where he did believe that some of our persecutors were spirits. We've all lived this life or lived lives in our inner worlds, and there isn't anything supernatural about our existence.
@@whirlwindsystem Thank you for your perspective! I can see how my idea would probably not be comforting... It's definitely not scientific or logic based! I hope it doesn't offend you. It's more an idea I had early on before I completely understood DID & how it forms.
Is a fictive (idk if that’s how it’s spelled) an alter that’s like a fictional type creature? Or something else?
Do you have any tips for new diagnosed systems?
you have the negative reinforcement thing right :)
What about CBD instead of THC (different parts of the marihuana)?
Don't get me started on the marijuana... 🙄 It's the only thing that has gotten me through lately, but it used to give me panic attacks... 🤔
100% with you! I'm not a system, but have found it is the only thing that gets me through complex physical and mental health issues!
@@crystalvalentine-johnson3032 - exactly. . And I'm really trying to stay away from some of the more serious medications because they usually have so many more side effects...
Yooo oaks park is the best
10:08 Since recent discoveries concerning Hollow and Nobody, do yall still feel Hollow is fictive/fictive-ish?
Not at all 😅😅😅
I've always wanted to know...., Well, I understand that typically alters are born in the mind of a child. Did the child's mind create the idea of an alter, & once they are "born", the alter takes over from there...? As far as their own history, backstory, etc... Or is some of that subconsciously decided? As I've understood it, alters aren't really consciously created, & so it seems to me that some of the details, & specificity is beyond that of a child's understanding... so it seems indigenous to the alter themselves, if that makes sense?? 😟
If you have any thoughts on this concept, I would love to hear more in your 7k Q & A! 🤗
I've watched some of DissociaDID's videos and they discribe one of the newer leading theories on DID. Apparently everybody has several more or less distinct personalities as a child (think of how different an overly tired toddler behaves versus a hungry one or a happy one) and they integrate slowly until the age of 8 (I believe that's the age they mentioned). With early childhood trauma the amnesic walls the brain builds up means that one “part“ has different memories and thus forms a different character. Once the brain has learned doing this, it can do it again and again...
@@alexk7973 Yes thank you! I watch dissociaDID as well, & I get what the theory describes, but for me the level of detail is just fascinating, & it's hard to just say, the brain is a powerful thing, I really love every single detail, lol... To know why certain things occur & why certain personalities may have developed is so interesting, (I've seen them touch on that topic as well)
I know we'll probably never have all the answers...
But the brain is an amazing protector... and it will never cease to amaze me! 🤗
@@cypher237 I guess it all comes down to survival instict and the fact, that the brain is “just another“ organ of the body, even though we often consider it to be seperate (mind and body kind of thing). If you think of it as such, the human body is a system of organs themselves, each with a specific function. Breathing, feeding etc.; the brain's function is to keep the ball rolling and to man the command center. I guess it goes to great lengths to fulfill it's role even under the most adverse of circumstances. But so do other organs, too. I'm thinking of people surviving on minimal amounts of lung capacity, with next to no kidney function and more. And not just people, animals in general. I'm just in awe of the force of life, if you want to call it that.
@@alexk7973 yes I totally agree, although when I start to remember all the normal shared functions between animals, & remember that the brain is just an organ like a liver or anything else, reminds me that magical, mysterious, spiritual things just aren't possible... & That makes me sad... 😝
@@cypher237 well there are many people considering the life force itself very spiritual. I personally am a rather cerebral person, so while I love to analyze all of this and philosophize (is that even a word? Sorry not my first language) I don't feel a very spiritual connection to all of this. However many people do, and maybe that's a path for you to look into. Your connection to the world around you is very much uniquely your own and while there are many scientific facts that can't or shouldn't be denied, you can still define how you relate to the information given and how you value your unique relationship with yourself and the world around you. It's not for no reason, that a lot of scientists are very spiritual people, though most of the time they don't connect to any specific religion or school of thought ...
Try cbd
Kratom as a pain killer thats legal. Prescription meds, Lycira and Gabapentin are some non narcotic pain med subs but do alter reality like marijuana