Marijn Hulsewe from genesis to pop culture integration. Still love her music...wish she'd go back to being a loner. Shes completely unrecognizable from what first caught my attention. Get out of the fame Claire...if it makes you happy, fine...but I know youre much more special than that. Youre one of a kind. Not like them.
I love her old stuff but she’s evolving so does her music and she said her music would bum everyone out at concerts but I would love to hear the old stuff live, her her in concert she opened for Florence wish she would do a full concert
her genius is otherworldly! i believe she double-majored in neuroscience and russian and then double-minored in two other things, one is electronic music (i think)!!!!! she is fucking amazing!!!!
when that guy went up to get food while she was trying to share something and she just stares at nothing because she’s obviously hurt by it. felt that.
Omg I related that so much. When I was in highschool I just got really nervous/anxious after tests and literally started dancing to release some stress!!!
Why didn't Grimes actually know where her exam was taking place? and isn't it odd that when Grimes was speaking in the hallway it was so quiet with no other students around ? ( Maybe because they were ACTUALLY inside the class room writing the actual exam?!) Grimes has said herself that she was only self learning and studying aspects of space, she said in her Spin magazine interview that she didn't have the grades or math and Physics course requirements to study astronomy.
@@friv_0881 she wasn't old enough. She's not even 10 there. I mean she's 40 now but she was a little kid. & The real account for the singer is Claire Lightening. All these sights & merchandising are phishing.
It's sad, she said she feels this void even with her closest friends and feels she will always be separate from everyone, then it cuts to a shot of her just sitting between two people, not connecting with them
Yeah, guy on the left especially acting like shes not even there, ignoring what she says, turning his back, walking away, and then offering the other guy food (and not including her) infront of her face. What could induce a feeling of loneliness more than that little display of blatant disregard AND on camara to boot during a documentary ABOUT HER. Brought back a couple of unpleasant memories of my own. Hope she found new "friends".
Man I feel like that completely. It’s a constant state being, don’t think it’s something that can change. But that’s probably cause it’s likely a mild case of borderline personality disorder who grimes probably has. Dunno if I do but evidently it’s unusual.
@@KidsWithGuns1992 "not feeling connected to people" is like less than one tenth of the symptomology of BPD. I know very little about Claire but she definitely has quite stable and strong relationships with her family and friends. She makes a music video and song each christmas with her family members and brother. Her brother is involved in nearly every one of her music videos, and she has the same 4 reoccurring friends as back up dancers, etc in so many of her music videos. She used to show up in the vancouver and montreal area and shows all the time and show her music and converse with people. If she has any form of personality disorder it's sub clinical to the max. She's just portraying herself as the typical tortured artist. Her comments about feeling connected to people is just typical what it's like to be highly intelligent.
Spenser Roger yeah i completely agree w you. I don’t look at that like poor grimes bc to be frank, everyone is unique and it’s totally normal to not feel 100% connect w your close friends/family. It doesn’t mean you aren’t close to ppl & feel connections. Literally everything in life has different angles of how you can approach things. Definitely don’t think poor grimes, she’s so intelligent!
The end is so SAD. Showing someone your music is so personal and neither of those people gave a shit. I know the feeling. But she starts nodding to it anyway and that's how she made it to where she is today. She stepped the fuck up and believed in herself. In interviews she always says "it just kind of happened!" But from my point of view, it seems she unknowingly obliterated anything that came in her way. She's a strong person and I love her so much. She has such a deep belief in herself in a world where especially women are told to think twice about literally everything.
Fucking so correct. I'm in that phase right now, making so much progress and feeling like I can make something of it and literally everyone I know could care less. Its almost weird, the feeling. Like you're being set up..
Being someone who loves writing music, singing, rapping, playing piano and guitar, discovering music, recommending music, and making playlists and having spent the first 18 years of my life living in a 300 something population town in Wisconsin, I strongly resonate with that ending scene and your analysis of it. People like her help me stay on track and spend time on what I love even if no one else gives a shit. I have my lock screen set as pictures of people that inspire me and she is consistently in the rotation. Tash Sultana is another super inspiring artist for me and any time I hear either of them talk I just want to go all out on my dreams and be as authentic as possible and the value of that is infinite. 💖
@@cbyrd2010 @Keelin Blackburn Yesss to this whole conversation. I hardly ever watch documentaries on artists, but I just recently started to. I always enjoyed her music & the fact that she doesn't care to be her weird, authentic self, but after watching this I don't think I've ever related to someone so well in my life. I stick out like a sore thumb everywhere my whole life, but Grimes is an inspiration to just keep going. No matter how much we're misunderstood, or people think we're weird for thinking differently, we can still excel in whatever we put our minds to. It's a really hard lesson to learn when I feel like it's just me...
Ikr wtf they were super rude!!! And the look on her face and her frame made me feel very sad, she looked so disappointed and that was just really messed up of those guys! 😵😤🤬❤❤❤💕
I love how she talks about failing her test and not answering questions; shes frustrated and down; then she tap dances. literally healing for me haha goals
“i feel like i am an extremely lonely person i don’t really connect with anybody at all even my closest friends i have this huge void between them and myself”
For some reason while watching this I got sort of emotional, I’m assuming it’s because Grimes doesn’t really seem like this anymore. Hearing all those unreleased tracks from the Halfaxa era makes me feel so comforted yet empty. Wow
I don’t know, personally from recent interviews compared to this documentary I can see her growth. Sure, she’s no longer as awkward, enigmatic and relatable (loneliness/melancholy is very easy to relate to) but I think she’s just grown to understand herself better and embrace who she is. I think she understands now that she’ll never really feel like she fits in and that that’s okay; she’s not alone. She seems more comfortable in her own skin nowadays and I think she’s a lot happier; she doesn’t seem as anxious and unsure of herself
ugh who else relates with her about feeling separate from everyone else but art merges the gap? I see myself in her and think she's me taken to the next level in music ugh ..
yes she is so similar to me at that time and age (i'm a similar age to her) except that i then lost confidence in myself and tried to be normal and abandoned all of my creative endeavours and everything became dark and meaningless. i feel like she is a reflection of my more authentic self and she inspires me to get back to that kind of pure authenticity. relate to so much of what she says, like that she feels like she is seperate to everyone and feels a void between even her closest friends, and that creativity is her way of dealing with that (it was for me too and when i abandoned it i stopped being able to deal and 'lost my mind'), and how it is much more her than how she is in day to day life, the thing about liking music that sounds like it comes from somewhere else that you can't understand (why i love her), loving the sound of yearning in music and that she expresses yearning to get somewhere else she can't get to, liking the feeling of not knowing and floating in a void. watching this was a strange, beautiful and therapeutic experience. my dream is to start making music again and then collaborate with her... just let me dream ok ✨🦋
I love all of Grimes’ music but this era of sound resonates the most with me, it’s my favorite. I think having her articulate how she’s feeling along with the music she’s making makes it resonate for me even more deeply. I hope she releases some bsides one day.
Stefano Pozzoli I think so too, or at least more of a mix of all her albums. I realllllly loved that sample of that Bollywood inspired song she put on Twitter.
Amazing, "I Like not knowing I like just feeling" , I love this point of view, this sense of Claire's about the music and the feelings, its so beautiful
This statement gives a good glance in grimes' unique mentality. We live in the scientific era, where factual certainty trumps having feelings. This appreciation for feeling is mostly lost in mainstream culture nowadays
From my experience you have to be in touch with the body first, with feeling foremostly. This will make the abstract theories and the facts we collect about our experiences fall into its place. She is def using both brain halves :D
I've seen this sentiment from a lot of her fans and I think it's a really interesting example of how restrictive an audience can be. Objectively she's improving and growing with each album both artistically and personally, but (some of) her fans want her to remain static, to take away the very thing that makes her amazing; her wild genius, autodidactic, and experimental nature, having to constantly test her limits and push beyond.
Wow, she isn't connected to anyone, even with her closest friends she has a huge void, feels she will always be separate from everyone. And she is a extremely lonely person. I felt that. Me too. It's just me against the world it seems. But I am not talented... I am just dumb and numb. My special power is growing feelings by hearing music made by artists like her. Thank you Grimes. Sadly I discovered her so late...
Hello, I know this is a year late, but I hope you are doing better now, if you are ever feeling lonley I am open to talk to. Also please don't limit yourself by beleiving you arent talented! Trust me "talent" is usually just hard work and oppurtunity, you can become "talented" too if you beleive you can. It can be hard to motivate yourself especially if you are numb, but the first step is to simply beleive you can do something ❤
I came here every day in my hard moments to feel better, and get inspired :( I still do it Claire, I know she will never read this but I hope she knows that she inspire many people, including myself. and I really appreciate the person who did this in 2010, I feel less alone with 11 minutes
I just love seeing the authentic self exspression it is something I yearn for in this life ✨✨✨✨ to just be able to release and share it beautifully with the world.
I have never in my whole life resonated with someone so much. I'm crying with a smile on my face because I'm carved out of the same material in an abstract way
I think this Is the most magical thing about her, she makes you feel like it's ok to be weird and that whatever that you love doing Is special even if anybody can actually understand it, she makes you feel good for simply being you.
Claire is a beautiful example of what is possible when you truly and utterly follow your dreams. She said she not only _wants_ to go to space....but that she _will_ go to space. And goddamn if she isn't probably entirely correct. Not only did she combine her intense creativity with her intense willpower....but it all lead to her ultimately meeting, and now dating, Elon Musk of all people. Probably the one person on this planet who could make her dream of space travel a very real possibility. She set some incredible goals for herself.....and then she literally made them happen. It's inspiring stuff...
While brain storming a prospective joke, Elon Musk discovered she had already made the joke, and reached out to her over Twitter.... the rest is history.
I feel so lucky to have met Grimes in 2012. I jumped on stage of her DJ set at the echoplex in LA. I told her "I love you!" and she gave me a great, big hug! She is so truly genuine and authentic. She deserves the recognition she has now
Same, it was so beautiful. It wasn't even her I was yelling at, it was the stupid doc editors that had the audacity to layer her speaking over her singing. Morons. Let the genius speak and then let her sing .... SEPARATELY!
I've dreamt of making music and being an artist for around 15 " years, but my mind won't let me, I get scared and I can't retain information or be able to find a way to express myself. She's so lucky and dedicated and the first person I ever wished I actually was. She deserves everything she worked for... It paid off. So proud of who she is...
You already are an artist, you always have been. Just remember you're going to be gone one day and so therefore you shall begin making music at once, friend. Don't be afraid, you wouldn't have that desire if it weren't destined to be. DM me if you need to get started. I was in that same thinking until Feb 2nd and I'm 16 tracks into an album!
@@cbyrd2010hi can I message you too? I’m going through the same exact thing and I really need help breaking out of my fear. I am so creative and I know I’m meant to be a visionary I just need guidance. ❤️
As someone who recently started listening to her. She really captivates me entirely. Been hooked for like a whole week. I breath, listen, and see her stuff. Anyways I'm glad to have discovered her but her new stuff is so different. All in all, I still enjoy her work and the message behind it. One of a kind if I may
Did that guy seriously get up right after she said “this ones good”, and proceed to offer baked goods to the guy deep in a book, arm right out in front of Claire & not even offer her any of the baked goods ?
She is the most refreshing human being. She is like this glimmer of hope in such a bland and painfully empty society. She articulated truths that resonate with all of us, as they should.
10 years ago: grimes gets excited about seeing an airplane taking off because she thinks it’s a rocket ship 2020: dating the founder of spacex and attended the NASA x spacex dragon launch. she really is living her best life right now.
Omg this gave me life!!! Hidden unknown tracks pre Halifax’s grimes! A unseen performance and her space talk and her identifying with not being able to say it show she creates it!! Glad she finally has someone to not feel so alone with that loves space as much as her ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Christa McAuliffe. Her name is Christa McAuliffe. Indirectly, she taught me one of the most important lessons of my life: "For a successful technology, reality must take precedence over public relations, for nature cannot be fooled." ... and now I'm attempting to design pacemakers for the human heart based on this principle ... and Michael Ende's seminal work on cardiology, "Momo".
I see Grimes and I hear her speak, and I can't help but feel sad in a way. I feel that I can understand her but then if I look deeper, I have this intense longing to have a mind that is creatively aligned with her's. The way Grimes is able to best communicate is through audible and visual art. I, however; feel as though I simply don't have the ability to do so. I think my creativity manifests itself in a much more linear way, that is to say, I am most capable of communication through writing. I have little passion for words, though, and I wish my time spent expanding my visual and audible artistic skills didn't always feel so wasted on me. I have trouble appreciating the otherworldly creations of my favorite artist without developing a yearning to create something just like they have. Grimes: I envy you, and that bittersweet emotion is what has and will always keep me coming back to your work.
This is one of the most beautiful and inspiring documentaries I've ever seen. I've recently come out of the music closet and I love playing and expressing this music inside of me, too. Thank you for capturing Claire in such awesome moments. I know singing is very vulnerable and takes courage. It's as if when we surrender to a higher purpose we become one with whoever is receiving the music. Blessings!
I could feel it, the sounds of her soul. It resonates on a very deep, intense, emotional level. It forces you to close your eyes, lock out the world, shut down everything that is going on around you and re-connect with your inner self. She shared a very primal, very private moment. All they had to do was listen, really listen. It gives you the feeling of floating in space or floating in the ocean, all by yourself. Far removed from all the noise of life. It reminded me of blue whale vocalization. Hardly audible to the human ear but very intense. Wild and free.
This doc is the most relatable thing i've seen.. the frustration over a proyect or goal you have... not able to connect 100% with close friends... the more i know about Grimes, the more i admire her ❤
3:27 (just thinking and writing) It fascinates me how people become who they are, especially when you get to see them after moving out from their parents. Sometimes when people look back on their childhood/ living with their parents it sounds like they are describing a relationship they would have had with teachers or some other authoritarian figure. It sounds like their parents and home was their shelter to take up that space for specified amount of time, not so they could leave and explode to become someone new but just to sit there and to respond to their environment around them. It fascinates me how a person like Grimes comes to be. Things that are way before their time are extremely hard for me to comprehend. How did they get the courage? What were people telling them? What were there parents like? What was the stage of the world and society? It’s crazy that each person is insanely unique and detailed in their thoughts.
I understand what she means I’m only the sameway from where it comes of being a loner even to my own family and I myself will never connect with other people 😔
@@AdelaTomankova tell the entire human race and all the trillions of people since the beginning of time. Now we have choices & stigmas removed from social acceptance/ridicule. For thousands of years women have been expected to be mothers. Our wiring and human sociology is based on continuous “breeding” if you will. So weird perhaps but most common than any other thing we as an entire race share. 💗
@@AdelaTomankova whenever you like someone that's just your instinct telling you to replicate what you see in that person, regardless if you then go on having babies or not. shocking (to nobody except you it seems).
07:02, 07:48 Swan Song... I need the complete tape, please... I had never seen this documentary :,) listen a lot of music without releasing... I cant believe it. By far, the best thing that happened to me in the semester :,) Thanks to this Grimes, shes my everything ♥♥♥
She actually said a few weeks ago she’s recently been diagnosed with autism. I guess it’s why a lot of us have really resonated with her feeling of distance from others over the years
She makes me feel not soo alone.I have ADHD and was diagnosed as a young child . I knew I was intelligent but everyone including my family viewed me and told me (a child) lol that im just always going too be at least a little bit behind normal people or kids. What you think and what thoughts you act upon is what makes you u, not what you say. What you say is an expression of what you are. Sooo sometimes an artist throws paint at a canvas just like some ppl throw words or sounds out too give their audience a little more than your typical responses. We now live in a time where our picture is under our name at all times and we are whatever we want ppl too think we are whatever we throw at the canvas (vocally.) Grimes is honestly adorable and spontaneous and seems too live in the (right now) her responses are *raw* and cute and sometimes come off as stupid and ppl eat that up just like they do too me. Someone of true intelligence would agree that its pretty stupid too walk around claiming tooo be smart because you are going tooo end up in a million disagreements about things you dont care about that you know little of risking your WWF smartest person championship belt destined too lose anyways. You look over at who u thought was dumb and they are laughing and seem they dont know your pain of losing ur WWF belt. You finally speak too them and find out they know ALOT more than you assumed. My manic 2 days is closing in on me sooo I wanna say Grimes I love ya and would freaking love too hang with ya and play music, bellydance, rollerblade and buy a bunch of temp tattooes and cereal and highlighters and see what we can accomplish in a day. Or go too space just too fart and turn around. I hope you all enjoy this rambled random assortment of brain farts i wasted ur time reading. Be safe be stupid be late for everything ... much love!!!!!
I totally get you. I wasn’t diagnosed with adhd until I was 26, like last year. This disconnect and void she speaks about and feeling misunderstood is so true for someone like me. Always being underestimated or eccentric, she persisted and let her art shine. She’s truly inspiring
Like Grimes said, we never feel close to anyone, since we operate on another kind of level of thinking. Looking for likeminded people, I understand we are different and there are not many, so maybe this request is probably in vain. Nontheless I hope this shoutout can bring our giftedness together and would love to follow likeminded people. Feel free to reply for connection 💜
Dean - oh nice playlists man! I need to sort mines out and make them public soon. Don’t know how messaging with youtube works, but feel free to hit me up on instagram anytime: MissEllenMartin
Hey. So glad to find comments like this. I feel reading comments like yours makes me feel like there are others out there who can't seem to find their people and even though we may be online we can be connected in some way. I just finished law school and I can't tell you how lonely it is being like one of us and having to just keep it to yourself bc no one else around you would even understand, much less care. I'm working on an album and a 6ftx9ft painting to accompany as album art and all the souls around me could care less lol ahhhh! Curious to know whAt you're deal is!
What a gem! Thanks so much for uploading this lok! I'm a huge Grimes fan, and probably my favorite "era" of hers was the period from Halfaxa to Visions. And this mini doc is a great insight into that world she was in the midst of creating. Love it. :)
Why did this got reuploaded? I remember seeing this in 2011 or 2012 but then it dissappeared from the internet due to privacy reasons or something like that. Some uploader/blogger actually told me that they got messaged by Grimes/management to remove it.
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"do you wanna go to space" "oh, yes! i think i will" * dates elon musk 8 years later *
Marijn Hulsewe from genesis to pop culture integration. Still love her music...wish she'd go back to being a loner. Shes completely unrecognizable from what first caught my attention. Get out of the fame Claire...if it makes you happy, fine...but I know youre much more special than that. Youre one of a kind. Not like them.
I love her old stuff but she’s evolving so does her music and she said her music would bum everyone out at concerts but I would love to hear the old stuff live, her her in concert she opened for Florence wish she would do a full concert
its hard to give up the fame not unless she is truly unique or goes back to producing her old style but remains anonymous like sia
her face is
thank you azealia for ruining it all :(
i feel like she's so fckin smart but is having trouble articuating herself with words but is very good at doing so in the form of music/art
Just like Elon
@@kuklavoodoo9846 what
@@kuklavoodoo9846 isnt that what art essentially is at its core? someones interpretation of the world, other peoples art, etc
her genius is otherworldly! i believe she double-majored in neuroscience and russian and then double-minored in two other things, one is electronic music (i think)!!!!! she is fucking amazing!!!!
Lol the irony behind misspelling articulating
“yesterday dreams are tomorrows rainbows...she’s dead”
I laffed
Grimes in college is an aesthetic
Themsbeatlesrock you're an aesthetic
Lucas Sonny an interesting human
congrats on ur 1k
AT all of you...beatles=tired like every musician except CEB'GiMeS and oh ok me.
an aesthetic what? burnt out at Junior level like a real Spirit
when that guy went up to get food while she was trying to share something and she just stares at nothing because she’s obviously hurt by it. felt that.
Her body language and breathing just made me want to hug her 🥺🥺🥺🥺 So happy she’s gotten this far 🤍 it was worth it
It‘s the untold, everyone knows..
It looks like she’s just vibing
I felt so gutted for her. Feel the same feeling too often to count, for myself and empathetically for my son who's very creative.
showing people your stuff is such a vulnerable feeling
Hearing her talk about space then years later dating Elon musk in a weird way like it was destined
manifestation*
Elon time travel
Totally
this makes me think about law of attraction
I am very proud of the youtube algorithms for sharing this with me
😎 same
"I answered like a little more than 50% of the questions"
* starts tapdancing *
Omg I related that so much. When I was in highschool I just got really nervous/anxious after tests and literally started dancing to release some stress!!!
HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAH
Why didn't Grimes actually know where her exam was taking place? and isn't it odd that when Grimes was speaking in the hallway it was so quiet with no other students around ? ( Maybe because they were ACTUALLY inside the class room writing the actual exam?!)
Grimes has said herself that she was only self learning and studying aspects of space, she said in her Spin magazine interview that she didn't have the grades or math and Physics course requirements to study astronomy.
@@friv_0881 she wasn't old enough. She's not even 10 there. I mean she's 40 now but she was a little kid. & The real account for the singer is Claire Lightening. All these sights & merchandising are phishing.
It's sad, she said she feels this void even with her closest friends and feels she will always be separate from everyone, then it cuts to a shot of her just sitting between two people, not connecting with them
Yeah, guy on the left especially acting like shes not even there, ignoring what she says, turning his back, walking away, and then offering the other guy food (and not including her) infront of her face. What could induce a feeling of loneliness more than that little display of blatant disregard AND on camara to boot during a documentary ABOUT HER. Brought back a couple of unpleasant memories of my own. Hope she found new "friends".
Man I feel like that completely. It’s a constant state being, don’t think it’s something that can change. But that’s probably cause it’s likely a mild case of borderline personality disorder who grimes probably has. Dunno if I do but evidently it’s unusual.
@@KidsWithGuns1992 "not feeling connected to people" is like less than one tenth of the symptomology of BPD. I know very little about Claire but she definitely has quite stable and strong relationships with her family and friends. She makes a music video and song each christmas with her family members and brother. Her brother is involved in nearly every one of her music videos, and she has the same 4 reoccurring friends as back up dancers, etc in so many of her music videos. She used to show up in the vancouver and montreal area and shows all the time and show her music and converse with people.
If she has any form of personality disorder it's sub clinical to the max. She's just portraying herself as the typical tortured artist. Her comments about feeling connected to people is just typical what it's like to be highly intelligent.
I guess most autistic / adhd ers feel this way
Spenser Roger yeah i completely agree w you. I don’t look at that like poor grimes bc to be frank, everyone is unique and it’s totally normal to not feel 100% connect w your close friends/family. It doesn’t mean you aren’t close to ppl & feel connections. Literally everything in life has different angles of how you can approach things. Definitely don’t think poor grimes, she’s so intelligent!
The end is so SAD. Showing someone your music is so personal and neither of those people gave a shit. I know the feeling. But she starts nodding to it anyway and that's how she made it to where she is today. She stepped the fuck up and believed in herself. In interviews she always says "it just kind of happened!" But from my point of view, it seems she unknowingly obliterated anything that came in her way. She's a strong person and I love her so much. She has such a deep belief in herself in a world where especially women are told to think twice about literally everything.
Fucking so correct. I'm in that phase right now, making so much progress and feeling like I can make something of it and literally everyone I know could care less. Its almost weird, the feeling. Like you're being set up..
Being someone who loves writing music, singing, rapping, playing piano and guitar, discovering music, recommending music, and making playlists and having spent the first 18 years of my life living in a 300 something population town in Wisconsin, I strongly resonate with that ending scene and your analysis of it. People like her help me stay on track and spend time on what I love even if no one else gives a shit. I have my lock screen set as pictures of people that inspire me and she is consistently in the rotation. Tash Sultana is another super inspiring artist for me and any time I hear either of them talk I just want to go all out on my dreams and be as authentic as possible and the value of that is infinite. 💖
@@cbyrd2010 @Keelin Blackburn
Yesss to this whole conversation.
I hardly ever watch documentaries on artists, but I just recently started to. I always enjoyed her music & the fact that she doesn't care to be her weird, authentic self, but after watching this I don't think I've ever related to someone so well in my life.
I stick out like a sore thumb everywhere my whole life, but Grimes is an inspiration to just keep going. No matter how much we're misunderstood, or people think we're weird for thinking differently, we can still excel in whatever we put our minds to. It's a really hard lesson to learn when I feel like it's just me...
Ikr wtf they were super rude!!! And the look on her face and her frame made me feel very sad, she looked so disappointed and that was just really messed up of those guys! 😵😤🤬❤❤❤💕
@@kayv5840 yes girl! Go get it! People like us need people like us! It's not easy sometimes, but it will be okay...❤❤❤
Eternal child. Her soul didn't lose her luminosity
EA egon schiele?
EA gorgeous comment
thats so pretty
She's lucky.
One of the most beautiful comments ever
I love how she talks about failing her test and not answering questions; shes frustrated and down; then she tap dances. literally healing for me haha goals
“i feel like i am an extremely lonely person i don’t really connect with anybody at all even my closest friends i have this huge void between them and myself”
imagine going to class with grimes
fantasy
Most of people dont pay attention to this kind of people.. Its sad but when you now them and have them near life is awesome
HAHAAH I magine the same, and would be my crush hahaha
she’s amazing id listen to her talk all day, she’s so fascinated
@@cndyliz9092 true, people usually outcast those kind of people
For some reason while watching this I got sort of emotional, I’m assuming it’s because Grimes doesn’t really seem like this anymore. Hearing all those unreleased tracks from the Halfaxa era makes me feel so comforted yet empty. Wow
Yes she is I like her new stuff,realize change empty out and refilling is natural process I really like all of it..
I don’t know, personally from recent interviews compared to this documentary I can see her growth. Sure, she’s no longer as awkward, enigmatic and relatable (loneliness/melancholy is very easy to relate to) but I think she’s just grown to understand herself better and embrace who she is. I think she understands now that she’ll never really feel like she fits in and that that’s okay; she’s not alone. She seems more comfortable in her own skin nowadays and I think she’s a lot happier; she doesn’t seem as anxious and unsure of herself
its called growing up
ugh I agree but I would rather see someone change and flourish than remain stagnant
Id like to hear your opinion on her music now
Beautifully awkward I feel less alone
And yet she makes awkward seem so cool
ugh who else relates with her about feeling separate from everyone else but art merges the gap? I see myself in her and think she's me taken to the next level in music ugh ..
Starseed
Yeah, she gives me hope that one day I’ll make it
Ugh wow
🙋♀️Yes...when she said I even feel this void between me and my closest friends😔
yes she is so similar to me at that time and age (i'm a similar age to her) except that i then lost confidence in myself and tried to be normal and abandoned all of my creative endeavours and everything became dark and meaningless. i feel like she is a reflection of my more authentic self and she inspires me to get back to that kind of pure authenticity. relate to so much of what she says, like that she feels like she is seperate to everyone and feels a void between even her closest friends, and that creativity is her way of dealing with that (it was for me too and when i abandoned it i stopped being able to deal and 'lost my mind'), and how it is much more her than how she is in day to day life, the thing about liking music that sounds like it comes from somewhere else that you can't understand (why i love her), loving the sound of yearning in music and that she expresses yearning to get somewhere else she can't get to, liking the feeling of not knowing and floating in a void. watching this was a strange, beautiful and therapeutic experience. my dream is to start making music again and then collaborate with her... just let me dream ok ✨🦋
Its so funny that she likes not understanding lyrics because when I first heard her music I thought she was speaking a different language
Oh my gosh they DO make so much sense together
Yeah they make total sense together for real.
YESSS
totally
who
@@dusty203 she and elon musk
i hope musk will make her wish of space travel come true
orkusuga maybe they marry in a spaceship traveling to space hahaha
Awww maybe
hope they both go to mars and Grimes plays music on mars
he could easily make it happen hope it works out ive been following her for a cpl years elon seems unique but I have a thing for her
That’d be sweeeet
I love all of Grimes’ music but this era of sound resonates the most with me, it’s my favorite. I think having her articulate how she’s feeling along with the music she’s making makes it resonate for me even more deeply. I hope she releases some bsides one day.
lets wait for the next records, i think she re considered halfaxa era and vibe from what i get rn.
Stefano Pozzoli I think so too, or at least more of a mix of all her albums. I realllllly loved that sample of that Bollywood inspired song she put on Twitter.
Aunchient Pistol her record label forced her to make that pop music.. she dropped them and is going to make music like her earlier albums again.
@@Capgungoesbang I remember she said something like she's done w that pop shit hahaha she's goin darker
@@provisionalhypothesis what makes it naive music
Musk and grimes deserve each other scientifically.
Tejendra Kumar they broke up
they are back together ^~^
Kindreds miss each other too much
and now they're having a baby
Come Through Miss Thing
Reading the 4 comments at the same time was funny xD
10:20 I feel that, grimes trying to vibe to a song and everyone else is not paying any attention
Squishier Gnat Grimes was not TRYING to vibe, she WAS VIBING !!!
And that is such a great track!!
@@nicoleb8970 whats the name of the song?
Ye please XD I love it
Gavo Siga it’s called rasik (it’s on halfaxa)
Amazing, "I Like not knowing I like just feeling" , I love this point of view, this sense of Claire's about the music and the feelings, its so beautiful
This statement gives a good glance in grimes' unique mentality. We live in the scientific era, where factual certainty trumps having feelings. This appreciation for feeling is mostly lost in mainstream culture nowadays
From my experience you have to be in touch with the body first, with feeling foremostly. This will make the abstract theories and the facts we collect about our experiences fall into its place. She is def using both brain halves :D
Also the not knowing symbolizes letting go/ creativity / emotions, thus embracing chaos. Right brains, am I right?
I hope she is the first person to make an album in space.
Dude that would be mystical I would cry
I miss this Grimes.. so pure and experimental.
How would you describe her in the now?
I've seen this sentiment from a lot of her fans and I think it's a really interesting example of how restrictive an audience can be. Objectively she's improving and growing with each album both artistically and personally, but (some of) her fans want her to remain static, to take away the very thing that makes her amazing; her wild genius, autodidactic, and experimental nature, having to constantly test her limits and push beyond.
Mae Grogan couldn’t have said it any better
@@carolhopkinson3470 I don't like her anymore either. Nice try.
so many unreleased halfaxa songs, i need themm
rasik was released tho
ah please i need to know what song was that
Да, бро ты не знаешь что за песни в это видео? Я их никогда не слышал вроде...
@@stefanopx5811 no?
The ending is truly sad . :(
I want to cry my eyes out I relate to everything she says
sending u a hug :)
She is a genius. Nothing more, nothing less. A very rare type of person
Wow, she isn't connected to anyone, even with her closest friends she has a huge void, feels she will always be separate from everyone. And she is a extremely lonely person. I felt that. Me too. It's just me against the world it seems. But I am not talented... I am just dumb and numb. My special power is growing feelings by hearing music made by artists like her. Thank you Grimes. Sadly I discovered her so late...
Hello, I know this is a year late, but I hope you are doing better now, if you are ever feeling lonley I am open to talk to. Also please don't limit yourself by beleiving you arent talented! Trust me "talent" is usually just hard work and oppurtunity, you can become "talented" too if you beleive you can. It can be hard to motivate yourself especially if you are numb, but the first step is to simply beleive you can do something ❤
She's just recording with the 2010 apple built in speaker! To quote the kids these days, "I'm shook".
I came here every day in my hard moments to feel better, and get inspired :( I still do it Claire, I know she will never read this but I hope she knows that she inspire many people, including myself. and I really appreciate the person who did this in 2010, I feel less alone with 11 minutes
Hope you are in a better place . She is a human being just like you and I are - - don't forget that . =P
I just love seeing the authentic self exspression it is something I yearn for in this life ✨✨✨✨ to just be able to release and share it beautifully with the world.
“I like not knowing. I like just FEELING, like... I like FLOATING in.. in a void.” PISCEAN POWER- ACTIVATED!!
favorite grimes documentary
I have never in my whole life resonated with someone so much. I'm crying with a smile on my face because I'm carved out of the same material in an abstract way
Mono Mode I love what you said.
I feel exactly the same
we should establish a peace sect.
Same. You just see yourself.
that's so beautiful, I feel the same
There’s something in this video that makes me rewatch it from time to time. It brings me comfort and makes me feel ok with the way I am
I think this Is the most magical thing about her, she makes you feel like it's ok to be weird and that whatever that you love doing Is special even if anybody can actually understand it, she makes you feel good for simply being you.
Claire is a beautiful example of what is possible when you truly and utterly follow your dreams.
She said she not only _wants_ to go to space....but that she _will_ go to space. And goddamn if she isn't probably entirely correct.
Not only did she combine her intense creativity with her intense willpower....but it all lead to her ultimately meeting, and now dating, Elon Musk of all people. Probably the one person on this planet who could make her dream of space travel a very real possibility. She set some incredible goals for herself.....and then she literally made them happen. It's inspiring stuff...
I think the same since beggining!
it indeed is inspiring and her determination is great, but imo meeting him was also by chance
truly is! amazing how she talks about her wishes of doing all these things and then she finds a way of doing all of them. incredible
While brain storming a prospective joke, Elon Musk discovered she had already made the joke, and reached out to her over Twitter.... the rest is history.
she's gonna release her next album from space i can tell
I feel so lucky to have met Grimes in 2012. I jumped on stage of her DJ set at the echoplex in LA. I told her "I love you!" and she gave me a great, big hug! She is so truly genuine and authentic. She deserves the recognition she has now
I was thinking like, shut up Grimes, I cant hear Grimes! Lol
Same, it was so beautiful. It wasn't even her I was yelling at, it was the stupid doc editors that had the audacity to layer her speaking over her singing. Morons. Let the genius speak and then let her sing .... SEPARATELY!
I've dreamt of making music and being an artist for around 15 " years, but my mind won't let me, I get scared and I can't retain information or be able to find a way to express myself. She's so lucky and dedicated and the first person I ever wished I actually was. She deserves everything she worked for... It paid off. So proud of who she is...
You already are an artist, you always have been. Just remember you're going to be gone one day and so therefore you shall begin making music at once, friend. Don't be afraid, you wouldn't have that desire if it weren't destined to be. DM me if you need to get started. I was in that same thinking until Feb 2nd and I'm 16 tracks into an album!
@@cbyrd2010hi can I message you too? I’m going through the same exact thing and I really need help breaking out of my fear. I am so creative and I know I’m meant to be a visionary I just need guidance. ❤️
Of course@@goddessdayana
As someone who recently started listening to her. She really captivates me entirely. Been hooked for like a whole week. I breath, listen, and see her stuff. Anyways I'm glad to have discovered her but her new stuff is so different. All in all, I still enjoy her work and the message behind it. One of a kind if I may
me too
im glad that i experienced her music
I am having the same experience as of the past 4 months.
I just discovered her this week and I feel the same thing as you. I'm captived.
This is happening to me in 2021. She’s a blessing that I need in this crazy world!
Did that guy seriously get up right after she said “this ones good”, and proceed to offer baked goods to the guy deep in a book, arm right out in front of Claire & not even offer her any of the baked goods ?
Art Life context, it likely looks worse than wha it is
Lol why is that moment my life 😆
Art Life good job pointing it out makes it stand out even more
damn... that made me feel so bad
Simp
Grimes is such a special and genuine person.
Period
She is the most refreshing human being. She is like this glimmer of hope in such a bland and painfully empty society. She articulated truths that resonate with all of us, as they should.
10 years ago: grimes gets excited about seeing an airplane taking off because she thinks it’s a rocket ship
2020: dating the founder of spacex and attended the NASA x spacex dragon launch.
she really is living her best life right now.
Grimes was describing "ethereal" music 10 years ago?! noice
mr.sandman ? You think this is a modern/recent concept??
ck ck what im saying is she was into ethereal back then too
Tbh her earlier stuff sounds a lo more ethereal than the new stuff
Pls never take this video down. This is one of my favorite videos on UA-cam. She is my inspiration. It’s such a cute little documentary:)
She looks lonely at the end of video
The way she says "oh yeah this one's pretty good" and the dude immediately stands up. The fool
Grimes’ voice does exactly what she spoke about with the children’s choir to me, her singing is healing ❤️
"oh I failed..." *starts tap dancing*
As a huge longtime Grimes fan, ty so much for this upload. I cannot believe i never saw this.
Ok, now i understand. They are made for each other really.
This is very comforting
Especially the beginning
my safe place
Omg this gave me life!!! Hidden unknown tracks pre Halifax’s grimes! A unseen performance and her space talk and her identifying with not being able to say it show she creates it!! Glad she finally has someone to not feel so alone with that loves space as much as her ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Jacob Socialite those tracks are actually halfaxa demos
Why is she making me cry? I feel so confused
This is just herself, and this is who I fell in love with 6-7 years ago. And still am in love.
Me 2
she's so perfect
22 yo Grimes is me rn fr
i am insanely obsessed with this woman.
Christa McAuliffe. Her name is Christa McAuliffe.
Indirectly, she taught me one of the most important lessons of my life:
"For a successful technology, reality must take precedence over public relations, for nature cannot be fooled."
... and now I'm attempting to design pacemakers for the human heart based on this principle ... and Michael Ende's seminal work on cardiology, "Momo".
I’m so mad that the song in the beginning and in the middle, I’ll never be able to hear. They’re so beautiful.
I like how open and honest she is about her art
I see Grimes and I hear her speak, and I can't help but feel sad in a way. I feel that I can understand her but then if I look deeper, I have this intense longing to have a mind that is creatively aligned with her's. The way Grimes is able to best communicate is through audible and visual art. I, however; feel as though I simply don't have the ability to do so. I think my creativity manifests itself in a much more linear way, that is to say, I am most capable of communication through writing. I have little passion for words, though, and I wish my time spent expanding my visual and audible artistic skills didn't always feel so wasted on me. I have trouble appreciating the otherworldly creations of my favorite artist without developing a yearning to create something just like they have. Grimes: I envy you, and that bittersweet emotion is what has and will always keep me coming back to your work.
This is one of the most beautiful and inspiring documentaries I've ever seen. I've recently come out of the music closet and I love playing and expressing this music inside of me, too. Thank you for capturing Claire in such awesome moments. I know singing is very vulnerable and takes courage. It's as if when we surrender to a higher purpose we become one with whoever is receiving the music. Blessings!
I could feel it, the sounds of her soul. It resonates on a very deep, intense, emotional level. It forces you to close your eyes, lock out the world, shut down everything that is going on around you and re-connect with your inner self. She shared a very primal, very private moment. All they had to do was listen, really listen. It gives you the feeling of floating in space or floating in the ocean, all by yourself. Far removed from all the noise of life. It reminded me of blue whale vocalization. Hardly audible to the human ear but very intense. Wild and free.
This doc is the most relatable thing i've seen.. the frustration over a proyect or goal you have... not able to connect 100% with close friends... the more i know about Grimes, the more i admire her ❤
I can’t believe someone finally upload this doc. Thank you so much
I love her is much I could cry
Her music does have that sound of longing & mystery ,that's what makes it so beautiful also that puts her WHOLE HUMAN HEART into it!!!!!
I need that song they listened to chilling out on the sofa!
Grimes - Rasik
ale gloomy thank u so much
3:27 (just thinking and writing) It fascinates me how people become who they are, especially when you get to see them after moving out from their parents. Sometimes when people look back on their childhood/ living with their parents it sounds like they are describing a relationship they would have had with teachers or some other authoritarian figure. It sounds like their parents and home was their shelter to take up that space for specified amount of time, not so they could leave and explode to become someone new but just to sit there and to respond to their environment around them. It fascinates me how a person like Grimes comes to be. Things that are way before their time are extremely hard for me to comprehend. How did they get the courage? What were people telling them? What were there parents like? What was the stage of the world and society? It’s crazy that each person is insanely unique and detailed in their thoughts.
I rewatch this video over and over for the song played in the background
This is my favorite grimes interview
She’s such a sweet and lovely soul. I have so much care for this being.🥺
i'd kill if i had the chance to download all of those unreleased Grimes song!
Same
LOL. Her tap-dancing in tennis shoes is the dang cutest thing I've ever seen. Sorry Grimes. I know you hate being called that, but it's TRUE
I understand what she means I’m only the sameway from where it comes of being a loner even to my own family and I myself will never connect with other people 😔
that little hug at 8:06 is so adorable I love it
I think Elon watched this and fell in love and said Yep I want her to be The Mother Of My Space Children
Cringe
Kinda messed up, dating someone wanting them to be a mother
@@AdelaTomankova tell the entire human race and all the trillions of people since the beginning of time. Now we have choices & stigmas removed from social acceptance/ridicule. For thousands of years women have been expected to be mothers. Our wiring and human sociology is based on continuous “breeding” if you will. So weird perhaps but most common than any other thing we as an entire race share. 💗
@@AdelaTomankova whenever you like someone that's just your instinct telling you to replicate what you see in that person, regardless if you then go on having babies or not. shocking (to nobody except you it seems).
Loved this mini-dock, thank you
Whoever made this video. Amazing job!
I NEED THAT SONG IN THE BEGINNING!!!
YES MEE TOO
is it unreleased?
bia unfortunately
ua-cam.com/video/ofl-sJxuQk4/v-deo.html
I NEED IT TOO OH MY
07:02, 07:48 Swan Song... I need the complete tape, please... I had never seen this documentary :,) listen a lot of music without releasing... I cant believe it. By far, the best thing that happened to me in the semester :,)
Thanks to this Grimes, shes my everything ♥♥♥
Yup that's swan song. One of my favorites from Grimes
She’s such a beautiful person. Having a best friend with Aspergers, and myself having ADHD, I feel like she could potentially be on the spectrum.
She actually said a few weeks ago she’s recently been diagnosed with autism. I guess it’s why a lot of us have really resonated with her feeling of distance from others over the years
She makes me feel not soo alone.I have ADHD and was diagnosed as a young child . I knew I was intelligent but everyone including my family viewed me and told me (a child) lol that im just always going too be at least a little bit behind normal people or kids. What you think and what thoughts you act upon is what makes you u, not what you say. What you say is an expression of what you are. Sooo sometimes an artist throws paint at a canvas just like some ppl throw words or sounds out too give their audience a little more than your typical responses. We now live in a time where our picture is under our name at all times and we are whatever we want ppl too think we are whatever we throw at the canvas (vocally.) Grimes is honestly adorable and spontaneous and seems too live in the (right now) her responses are *raw* and cute and sometimes come off as stupid and ppl eat that up just like they do too me. Someone of true intelligence would agree that its pretty stupid too walk around claiming tooo be smart because you are going tooo end up in a million disagreements about things you dont care about that you know little of risking your WWF smartest person championship belt destined too lose anyways. You look over at who u thought was dumb and they are laughing and seem they dont know your pain of losing ur WWF belt. You finally speak too them and find out they know ALOT more than you assumed. My manic 2 days is closing in on me sooo I wanna say Grimes I love ya and would freaking love too hang with ya and play music, bellydance, rollerblade and buy a bunch of temp tattooes and cereal and highlighters and see what we can accomplish in a day. Or go too space just too fart and turn around. I hope you all enjoy this rambled random assortment of brain farts i wasted ur time reading. Be safe be stupid be late for everything ... much love!!!!!
I totally get you. I wasn’t diagnosed with adhd until I was 26, like last year. This disconnect and void she speaks about and feeling misunderstood is so true for someone like me. Always being underestimated or eccentric, she persisted and let her art shine. She’s truly inspiring
Like Grimes said, we never feel close to anyone, since we operate on another kind of level of thinking. Looking for likeminded people, I understand we are different and there are not many, so maybe this request is probably in vain. Nontheless I hope this shoutout can bring our giftedness together and would love to follow likeminded people. Feel free to reply for connection 💜
MissEllenMartin until watching this I thought I was the only one with a longing to find someone who I can relate to. Feel free to msg me
Dean - oh nice playlists man! I need to sort mines out and make them public soon. Don’t know how messaging with youtube works, but feel free to hit me up on instagram anytime: MissEllenMartin
this.
Hey. So glad to find comments like this. I feel reading comments like yours makes me feel like there are others out there who can't seem to find their people and even though we may be online we can be connected in some way. I just finished law school and I can't tell you how lonely it is being like one of us and having to just keep it to yourself bc no one else around you would even understand, much less care. I'm working on an album and a 6ftx9ft painting to accompany as album art and all the souls around me could care less lol ahhhh! Curious to know whAt you're deal is!
❤️
She is the girl everyone falls in love with - and she’s like that in every moment.
Wow. So relatable. Such an inspiration.
What a gem! Thanks so much for uploading this lok!
I'm a huge Grimes fan, and probably my favorite "era" of hers was the period from Halfaxa to Visions. And this mini doc is a great insight into that world she was in the midst of creating. Love it. :)
I've watched this video before, but a lot of things she says at the end are feelings i have now at this point in my life.
such a well made film, props to emily kai bock
I have tears in my eyes watching this.
grimes' best era :( miss those times
My all times favorite grimes documentary
Why did this got reuploaded? I remember seeing this in 2011 or 2012 but then it dissappeared from the internet due to privacy reasons or something like that. Some uploader/blogger actually told me that they got messaged by Grimes/management to remove it.
Break up? His loss tbh. I swear there’s no other girl like Claire out there.
I watch this and I’m happy for her that she achieved so much.
The ending 🥺🥺🥺 Her facial expressions, her eyes, her breathing, her body language.... hope she’s surrounded by loving people now. 🤍
Whoever those guys were.. they suck
Her and Hana Truly seem to really support and uplift each other. It seems like she has some solid and loving friends in her life now 💕
@@sterlingclark4523 yeh