Was kicked out of my parents house at age 16 by narcissistic parents and have a ton of abandonment issues. I am a teacher now and my life is about taking care of my students. All of this is very true for me.
Are you nurturing yourself? I was kicked out at 16 also and I am a major people pleaser and caretaker. I often and constantly have to step back and care for myself or I lose myself
Me too.. 16… get out.. not responsible for me anymore… and I’ve had all that caretaking crap and I do not do that anymore. I really do try to take care of myself since I have cause so much suffering for, “me,”…..that being said, I also see the deepest wound in my heart is not knowing what’s it’s like to have unconditional love and emotional connection to family. I don’t hold grudges because I understand the human conditioning, and I understand the forgiveness to give to my parents from the sinful nature being passed on generation after generation. At the same time I’m still in this human realm existing, and that brokenness from not being unconditionally loved ..from not being unconditionally accepted, not connected with a mother and the father on a level on emotional intimacy connection has a spot in the heart of sadness…Because once I really realized how loving we are to be to each other then I discover it wasn’t abandonment ..it was a deep wounding of not having unconditional love from another human, and I know that’s meant for every one of us. Yet humans can’t give each other the love that they were meant to give each other because of the brokenness and even if you think you are giving the love, the unconditional love, I would call yourself out … because we have all been conditioned with the worldly love, and that is just not the same as a holy spirit love …We all matter regardless what happen in our childhood. Jesus has renewed my heartmind.
This lecture is so on point, it’s unbelievable. How he knows so deeply and extensively without having gone through severe trauma himself, is amazing. Opened up the world that is inside me as well as my ‘ closed off’ and abusive spouse. Would have never known what the thought processes are weren’t it for this lecture; the obvious symptoms on the outside are the only observable things and they too are exactly as he describes. His talk is accusatory to neither the victim nor the abuser; was a pleasure and healing to listen to .
My unconscious beliefs were that anyone who really knew me would leave me, and I had to do things that others wanted in order to get "love". What a mess I made of my life with these beliefs! Unlearning this garbage has been good for me.
Some parents are emotionally immature people. So they are also emotionally immature parents too. . They can be shockingly detached from their kids emotional realities. Therefore, kids must not whine or complain. It messes up an emotionally immature parent's day. What a terrible thing for children to go through.
I was an emotionally stunted parent and person because of all the trauma in my life at 12 specifically (I just learned) so I was stuck there and also emotionally closed off because of trauma throughout my life and I couldn’t be there for my children emotionally. So from a parent and a child that was emotionally neglected, I’m sorry that we can figure all of this out before we have children and pass it on to the. I have been on a healing journey since 2013 and am still discovering things I need to address and heal. We who have had it done to us, we can heal it and love ourselves and heal, if we truly want to.
@@lisalambert81865what a difficult thing to discover about yourself. May you continue on this beautiful journey of healing and discovering your true Self. 💜
I'm just coming to the realization that fear has major control over me. Lots of trauma , physical and verbal abuse. Thanks for validating what I've been feeling all of my life. You're a God send.
Dr. Fletcher I'am recovering from childhood trauma at the age of 77. Your videos have helped me immensely and I want to thank you for your dedication and compassion. My story, like everyone who suffers from childhood trauma is multifaceted and intensely complex. I am getting better everyday. I had to get to the where I realized that I had experienced this trauma beginning at age four and that all of my subconscious coping mechanisms had not only severely injured me but pretty much everyone with which I have had a relationship. One day I realized that I' had had enough physical and mental injury that it was time to begin to change my life. A quote from author George Sand,(Mary Ann Evans) is now my mantra " It is never too late to become the person you were meant to be."
I’m 65 and doing the work too. Since I’ve been collecting autoimmune diseases for 15 years now, I finally realized the real cause. Trauma. Dysregulated nervous system. Like you, I believe it’s never too late to grow and heal. This series hits all of my issues. Done I’ve healed from but others to address . It’s a lifetime journey. Best to you on your healing journey.
Mr. Tim is a genius as far as I am concerned. Thank you for this extremely informative and helpful talk. I wish I would have been in therapy with you and not wasted so years with other therapists. I learned more in 40 minutes than the last 50 years of therapy. God bless you sir and God bless everyone who gets this...
I’ve been listening daily for the last 2 or so months. The content seems to make so much sense despite being new to me. Though I like to think I’m past the honeymoon phase, I can’t ignore that I don’t have enough psychiatric/psychological knowledge to assess this on an academic level. Even still, it feels good-soothing really-to listen to him talk. Science can’t take that away, and so I can say with certainty that I gain value from this man!
Yup this is me. My mom told me in my early teens she was going to give me up for adoption. That she had the papers ready, but when she held me she couldn't. That messed me up big time. Knowing you were about to be thrown away. Then grow up in an abusive home. Awesome. My siblings fron another marriage called me half breed. Yeah i get abandonment issues. This is so helpful. Thank you.
wow. My mom told me around age 5 not only that I was unplanned - she already had two - and that she lost her deposit on a cherry wood dining table set because of my birth. She related this with such disappointment that I felt she'd have preferred the furniture. That statement about holding you is a profound admission of her mistake and of her love for you. It's also damn poor timing.
I am the result of a rape and my mother kept me but abused me mentally and physically the physical abuse stopped when I got roo big to hit she always favoured her friends children and people who hate me even to this Day and try ruin my relationships it's very painful
Riddled in fear since 4 years old when I watched my parents beat the shit out of each other. Then my mother emotionally detached. I was completely alone. This is so very true.
Ah, the painful truth. One of the hardest things to come to terms with is acknowledging your own value and worth. Your brain is literally wired to believe the opposite so it's a nasty battle of providing evidence that you have worth. You have to find a way to stay a step or two ahead of your inner critic. It can be so exhausting but it's definitely worth the fight.
yeah, it’s just really painful and hard, that’s not to dissuade you. Just the honest truth. But it does get better and it is worth it. Every soldier has their war, this is ours. It’s worth fighting for so please don’t ever give up hope! ❤
I tried listening to this a few weeks ago and could not do it; I wasn't ready yet. I'm being treated for CPTSD due to narcissistic abuse throughout 24-year "marriage." Fear has always dominated my life and I am finally coming to grips with where it's rooted from, including my father leaving the home when I was a young child. Your wisdom is greatly appreciated. Thank you.
This fits me perfectly. I've lived my entire life in fear. And when I meet a new person today if I just get the slightest hint of rejection from them I reject them first that way I don't have to deal with the pain of being rejected. But as I grow older my biggest fear is that I'm going to be rejected by God. Even though I believe in God and I pray and try to do right I don't believe that God loves me. It terrifies me to death that I'm going to stand in front of God and hear him say I never knew you
I was a home missionary’s kid in the U.S. and am still dealing with C-PTSD and religious trauma. I dealt with night terrors and insomnia for most of my life from being paddled by the principal, the authority “placed there by God” in Christian school for not being able to fall asleep fast enough on command during nap time. It was just a few months ago that I stopped hearing an angry man yelling in my head for “not taking responsibility” and that I “deserved to be punished” when I was struggling with how to go about something. Now, I work customer service and struggle every time I see a parent hitting or threatening their kids and am not allowed to do anything to stop them. The works of such people as Bradley Jursak, Thomas Keating, Paul Young, and Richard Rohr, and many others have helped me deconstruct harmful ideas and move into what a loving God and a relationship with them can be like. Paul Young’s “The Shack” is also helping me forgive people that hurt me. I see you. I hear you. We are in this together. And you are loved. *Edit: Added “We are in this together” and that is important to remember.
Kurt, I recognize your fear how you describe it. As an adult, 62 years old, I have finally come to feel a peace I couldn't have imagined earlier. I am so grateful. The reason is mostly that I have listened to a lot of talks on youtube with Richard Rohr, Henri Nouwen, James Finley and read their books and that I have signed up for a daily newsletter from The Center for Action and Contemplation which I recieve every morning in e-mail. I wish you peace and every good.
Wow..this sums up my life. Even after 2 years of therapy. I still feel like like something is not right. You hit the nail on the head. Thank you for enlightening me. now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really appreciate you. Thank you so much
I've lived with fear for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with acute anxiety many years ago and that has been accompanied by depression in recent years. Dad was an alcoholic, Mom was emotionally disconnected. I'm so afraid of failure that it often keeps me from even beginning. 95% of what you alluded to applies to me. I have always felt like a 5 yr. old trying to function in the role of an adult in an adult body. I believed my anxiety/panic disorder was genetic and the rest, well....I have always wondered what is wrong with me. I have never had much support, just soldier on.....Thankyou for this series........
Absolutely relate to crying to commercials, or a funny video, or other stuff where there is no apparent reason but I just get a well of emotion coming up… it’s like the joy or beauty hits me and somehow opens a pocket of pain/fear
I am 66, had depression and anxiety for over50 years. I never knew until a few months ago that I had cptsd. However I did know I lived in fear my whole life. This is my second video of yours I have watched. For the second time in my life I am heading A TRUTH. Thank You. I wish you were in the UK.
this is so so enlightening. tim your videos are changing my life. i've lived with this anger since i was 3 and finally at 48 i'm starting to understand the mechanism.
I saw a mother dragging her crying 7 year old daughter by her ear around target scolding her and publically humiliating her inside of a Target and I almost lost it. I felt like I would have been escorted out by security if I tried to intervene with a total stranger's "parenting" but it made my blood boil over and I felt totally helpless that everyone in the store would probably just tale the abusive mother's side and cast judgement on me for trying to meddle in someone else's business that "shouldn't not concern me". That's how abusers get away with abusing in broad daylight. Under the guise of, "I'm doing what's best for my child so butt out!"
Was bought up in a narcissistic family left at 17 then got into a very toxic narcissistic relationship with a toxic male and his mum running the whole show, they certainly placed me where they wanted to place me in there life. Feeding my shame, whilst lapping up theres, I lived in hope, my needs were always dismissed, 7 years living in fight and flight mode. The relationship ended thank god, I have many fears but work with them and try push through. I am no contact with my family members and low contact with my ex. This gives me consistency. People tried to distort my reality because it's suited there narrative. I know who I am and actually like who I am. These videos have been a life saver for me, all of them.
I was writting about my day and my latest discoveries about myself. I found I have so many fears. I thought, ok... Now I know... Work in progress. I did not seek this video. I was looking a funny videos and this pops up! Mindblown! Thank you for sharing this goldmine. ❤❤❤
The first time I watched this, it plummeted me into an emotional panicky crisis. I’m listening for a second time and taking notes this time. Thank you for your lectures.
This video brings up a lot for me. Virtually everything Tim talked about described my behavior and thoughts with every romantic relationship I've had. Which are few, for my reasons explained in the video. I screwed up so many times in my past, and this video helped give me a better understanding. I miss my ex and constantly get angry at myself for causing the split. I wanna get myself sorted out so I stop hurting myself and others. Thank you Tim Fletcher for creating your content!
You know me so well. I want to share something, might help someone out. I found a really really great tool that works. I was stuck in the limbic brain, the melange of horror, and it seemed like nothing but doom ahead etc etc. Well, i done the wim hof breathing exercise 3 times in a row, and it almost immediately put me back into my cortex. I done it the next day too and same miracle. I felt some trauma and tension leave my shoulders. Give it a go. I've been doing it on and off for awhile - the 11 min video on yt - but this was the first time i done it 3 times in a row.
You know what, since I followed Mr Tim, I came through with my shame, guilt and just recently, fear and here I am… getting to befriend with my beloved fear and how I call them out is to say thing like, false evidence appearing real. Thanks Tim
❤Awesome Detroit river. Thanks for sharing my friend. Love your work and commitment in helping hurt people understanding themselves and the ability to develop freedom from it ❤
He is describing my childhood times, my relationships, and wounds I've passed down to my kids even though I tried to show my love for my kids better. In reality I do not know how to really connect with others.
I love tim i play his channel every single night, i love his layout with the slideshow, and the fact he has knowledge of both worlds: religion and medical. Much love from canada. I was diasgnosed with crippling ocd that started 2 months doing much better now thanks to meds and lots of praying.
I agree with what you say fear has followed me all my life, as you say I buried mine for a long time, it came out as severe anxiety, it was only as I got older I realised how much fear I had felt as a child, my mother was the source of my fear, she caused it and gave me no comfort after. It has taken a long time to untangle my many fears in adult hood and I am still working on it.
1:54 That phrase. I express myself genuinely, stating it in the first-person-perspective ("I feel..."), and I'm told, "Get over yourself.". And she wonders why I don't talk to her more than I do.
Easy said than done. That's why church wasn't for me as this statement doesn't acknowledge the trauma mistreatment of another just dismissed emotions...the god of my understanding cares more greatly about what other humans have caused me than any pastor can ever get as they are merely human too. Self work, inner self discovery around trauma, narcissist abuse, codependency, meditations, affirmations, prayer nature are tools that have helped heal some wounds, change my perceptions,behaviours and allowed me to forgive and stay in a good energetic space even when life gets difficult. Be careful of what others advise...do your own you tube mentor search on those who have come through the same abuse. Alot of church goers haven't. These my own views no right or wrong here just my own experience..
Thank you so much. I started getting help about 5 yrs ago. CBT therapy & counseling. Your videos 'have really helped me. I'm constantly working on changing my thinking patterns. I've made a lot of progress. I'm so glad I stumbled across your content.
Trauma changed my life. 180 drgrees. It also evoked a spiritual awakening. In a weird way, Im grateful for what happened to me. Not meaning the pain and health issues.
It does make a person call upon God and draw close to Him. He understands and Jesus suffered for all our injuries as well as our sins. He went deeper than we have in order to lift us. May He ever be my friend and Redeemer.
I am so grateful that the Divine has always been by my side. I felt disappointed in my family but just knew in my heart that they were incapable of true relationships. I always felt comfortable spending time with my heavenly Father and my guardian angels 😇 ❤️. Thank you for your compassionate lecture on such tragic historical issues of our society. What a blessing you are! Great job!
Thanks so much for all your insight! I do miss the biblical part you used to show at the end tho.. they added another, poetic dimension to the information you present. ❤
This is great for both the person with cptsd and the "normal" person as well, because now the normal people can understand where the perceived annoying behavior is coming from instead of saying something is wrong with the traumatized person, and the cptsd person can actually see an alternative option in relationships besides the one their injured brain came up with our of desperation, thank you so much for highlighting the perspectives of people with cptsd!
Thank you so much Mr. Fletcher for all your videos. I did not know myself then and why I always sabotage my life. I am full of shame and guilt for screwing up my marriage and family. I feel so sad and always feel depressed that I was not able to put my family together but now I’m determined to change and improve myself to become better.
Dear mr. Fletcher, you are a blessing to this community. I was driving when I first listened to one of your videos. I had to stop because that video (perfectionism) made me break down in tears. And yes, whenever you ask how many characteristics of a particular CT did we identify, I get 95%. Each one of these videos on CT are worth a lifetime of therapy with an average therapist I wish I could do some sessions with you.
Narcissist/Phycopath husband caused me this from all 4 my children, and the true fact that I was the one always there for them, seems to have not been noticed. Never mock true faith because God's word has kept me when abandoned and erassed by everyone.....🙏 Even though they have all told me Im of no value, I know my value because of God and one day, "They will know the truth and the truth will set them free"....🙏🕊💗
Summed it up on the first minute. After 2 therapy session I've realised I have so much underlying fear...that I was unaware of, as had been masking by wearing rose tinted glasses/'everything is fine' attitude for so long. Now I've taken the rose tinted glasses off, riding the waves of suppressed fear is so intense...but I know it will be worth it on the other side. Thank you so much for these videos 💚
Dude you're insanely bright!😮 I relate so much and things makes more sense now. I thought I had PTSD, BPD, NPD etc but I don't. Just traits. Some of my fears are: Abandonment. That my anxiety and fear shows in public. Handling a job. My loved ones health. Being ugly. 💙Thanx for existing, I feel understood.
This work is so accurate. I'm sure everyone's specific details, their stories, are so different. Not all of what you say applies. But enough does, that listening is often difficult. I have to stop, come back later to hear more. I am working with a very skilled therapist. He's helping a lot. But with a very traumatic childhood with two raging narcissistic parents, themselves badly damaged, and a very difficult career and apparently quite natural relationship difficulties, well to call this a difficult lifetime is such an understatement. One thing I'm so glad of, is being older now. That no matter how much longer it will be, surely it will not be very much longer.
You are 100% correct, a part of me is not afraid, also hurt, but my body mind emotions are Having the ones who should love you most treat you evil is beyond comprehension painful. You are afraid to talk be yourself, walking on eggshells, the manipulation chaos cheating, did not feel safe with my husband, his slander and choice of friends. Nobody is bigger then my God He heals the. Broken hearted Yes you are absolutely right, even when you do good they turn it into evil,
I’m at a loss for any hope right now, I want to love others desperately, but what to do when they won’t let me do that? I fear rejection, abandonment and loneliness. I had true love and lost it due to our combined fears. If only we had talked, in depth, about our fears, we might not be in separation. The grief and loss I feel, feels insurmountable. Like I may never fully recover, like they say I won’t. They say grief can last a lifetime, it just subtly fades day by day, but the loss remains forever. I feel so lost, it feels pathetic and I feel ashamed to feel so lost. I do feel alone, scared and abandoned. I feel incredibly isolated, like I don’t know how to be a person in society. Not necessarily because of the failed relationship, but because of the connection we shared. I fear I may never acquire that sort of connection again. It can feel so impossible to extract and nurture vulnerability with someone new, it feels like no one is willing to be truly vulnerable. I feel disconnected from real life. Like I’ve been ruined by knowing true love, like I can’t possibly know how to be a normal person moving through life without the warm presence of that love. I hope he can heal, and that I can fully release him. To detach is a skill I’m lacking right now. I don’t know how to possibly detach without feeling like I might drown. I know that I won’t, but knowing doesn’t negate feeling, unfortunately. I wish he knew that I love him more than anything, and that I forgive him for hurting me, and that I want to move past this, together.
My parents handed me to people that raped me when I was as young as 3. I was called a liar and the boy who cried wolf. I was also told that I ate too much and that I was going to work in a sewer when I was to become an adult. I was also told I was going to be “sold to the gypsies” . I was put into the custody of the State at the age of 15 by my parents. I’m now 54 and l was told to not come to my mother’s funeral. And I was hospitalized last year due to getting hit by a truck and my father called me at the hospital and told me to never contact him again and this was my funeral. I’m a extreamly strong person and I must stay strong so my own children are raised to be aware and have tools I never had. That being said, I opened up more on this thread than I would do with other people. No way I’m letting anyone near me close enough to hurt me again. I got me and I need to work at being on time and getting shit done.
I’d come to the same decision until discovering these TIMTalks and Thais Gibson’s UA-cam channel. Now, on the day that I watch them it makes relive all the horrors of childhood, Feels like someone’s pushing knitting needles into my head and chest. And because he’s describing every single thing I did, every strategy I cooked up, every way my mind went, every reaction I had, as if he’d watched me and read my mind since I was 3, I feel cheap and stupid too. Even when he talks about healing. That means you have to hope again and that’s the scariest f*****g thing I’ve ever heard. Because if I commit and he’s wrong my life is over. It s already a struggle to stay and always has been. But he’s saying these things out of love and concern for others, it all makes sense and logically connects AND it’s exactly what I’ve lived. So I’m going to hope because he’s nailed my history in every point he made so far. That means it’s likely he’s right about the healing. Good luck in whatever you choose. I hope for blessings for both me AND you. Because it sounds like we’ve both had it pretty rough. Healing and acceptance was just a dream that always had an end when you woke up.
I had a Brilliant Therapist by the name of Mike Rothberg. Palisades Counseling Center 2001-2003 NJ. If only Tim and Mike could merge. Mike was hitting on this, twenty years ago, but i was all.tied up.in aterrible relationship and other exoeriences i had yet to.mull over. I consider this a great miracle that i joined this channel.
This isn't a coincidence that I have just found these videos now!! Tim explains this so dam well it feels these videos are personalised to me it's insane, I have a lot of what Tim is saying and I can recognise what I need to work on Thank you so much for explaining this in a way that resonates with me!!!
This is very insightful. It demonstrates how a learning difference - dyslexia, afasia, DLD... - is a serious ACE. The child has no caring adult to turn to, unless they have been especifically trained and most are not, during the whole of the school day, every day of their school life. Parents are generally powerless against these forces. Over 50% of adult male population in Western countries are undiagnosed dyslexics. It is not dyslexia, it is the trauma and subsequent school exclusion through inapropriate assessment and grading. Terribly sad. Heartbreaking.
I'm sick of living in my trauma but it's my default mode, moving forward is like stepping on nails to jump in a cold shower to put out the fire on my head.... and that's just getting a decent job I won't have to work countless hours to support my self with
Wow, I've been alone all my life. First by being neglected, then from being abused, then being disowned and disassociation from my religious congregation. Therefore, I have been feeling alone all my life, which left me in fear forever. Btw, it's bad for your heart to live fearfully and alone.
My parents, both of them, would push me into a corner and bully me until I cried. Then it seemed like they were “satisfied,” and backed off. The more I resisted and remained calm and rational, the louder and meaner they got. The put on such an expert facade to the people outside the house, I’m so scared that no one will believe me. And in fact, there have even been therapists who have asked me, “did you ever stop to think your mother loves you?” People think that the position of mother is untouchable and sacred. I’m not the problem, but it doesn’t matter if everyone sides with the parent. I stated my needs clearly, “I want you to stop bullying and discouraging me, and start encouraging me.” My mother said, “I can’t.” She’d go into “fugue” states where she’d chase me and shame me, I told her to stop but it was like she couldn’t hear me. My fear is that she’ll come after me, and no one will believe me.
Me too.. 16… get out.. not responsible for me anymore… and I’ve had all that caretaking crap and I do not do that anymore. I really do try to take care of myself since I have cause so much suffering for, “me,”…..that being said, I also see the deepest wound in my heart is not knowing what’s it’s like to have unconditional love and emotional connection to family. I don’t hold grudges because I understand the human conditioning, and I understand the forgiveness to allow my parents from the sinful nature being passed on generation after generation. At the same time I’m still in this human realm existing, and that brokenness from not being unconditionally loved ..from not being unconditionally accepted, not connected with a mother and the father on a level on emotional intimacy connection has a spot in the heart of sadness…Because once I really realized how loving we are to be to each other then I discover it wasn’t abandonment ..it was a deep wounding of not having unconditional love from another human, and I know that’s meant for every one of us. Yet humans can’t give each other the love that they were meant to give each other because of the brokenness and even if you think you are giving the love, the unconditional love, I would call yourself out … because we have all been conditioned with the worldly love, and that is just not the same as a holy spirit love …We all matter regardless what happen in our childhood. Jesus has renewed my heartmind.
Having huge sabotage, abandonment right now. Its terrifying being so aware of whats happening and working hard to not be overwhelmed. Its a really important day today. Im working hard to keep it together and accept the fear and be in the moment. Terrifying 🤦
Dear mr. Fletcher. I m an avid watcher of your every episode on Trauma. I had a very emotionally secure childhood, with parents that were attentive and supportive. But I live in a war torn area, my triggers are sirens, explosions, missiles, running for shelter or hiding in a "safe room" at home....for years and years my feelings of physical safety, are being destroyed. within all that I lead a ""normal"" routine life with family, friends, work, pets....but war erupts so often, and this fear for staying alive gnaws at the soul, the hope, and the inner strength. so this is not a matter of childhood trauma. not every trauma is. This is a trauma that everyone living in this impossible situation experiences. the fear is a constant realistic fear. the trauma is ongoing. dear mr. Fletcher, all the remedies you've so kindly suggested, do not help here, sadly I m saying this also as long time therapist. Maybe you can also address this kind of trauma. thank you so much.❤
Oh yes, fear of success is real. I was one of the best students in medical school when I had one of the worst mental breakdowns and gave up. Everyone was shocked I've given up many MANY a time ever since.
Thank you SO much for this. I will have to listen to the other episodes as well, now. I ended up writing down the list of fears and colour coding them according to how strongly I feel they apply to me. This was very informative. Including spotting the ones I have so much NOT a problem with that I'm likely to be overcompensating something.
I was abused by narcissists in my 20s and 30s, including a friend and romantic date, and the latter especially led to me developing a fear of what these people would do to me or the things I enjoyed in my life, via conscious malignant sabotage. It was one of the few things I still have to work through with a psychologist in EMDR therapy.
Thank you so much Tim. These talks have been VERY validating and supportive for me during a very difficult period. Your work and understanding embodies love and give me hope
This is golden 🥇 praying for 7 billion views because everyone on this earth need to hear this
Agree!
Amen ❤😊
In agreement
AMEN!!
I said the same thing!
Was kicked out of my parents house at age 16 by narcissistic parents and have a ton of abandonment issues. I am a teacher now and my life is about taking care of my students. All of this is very true for me.
Well done on breaking your family cycle
Good but don’t forget about your self either
God bless you. Prayers. I hope you have good friends or good church family to support you.
Are you nurturing yourself? I was kicked out at 16 also and I am a major people pleaser and caretaker. I often and constantly have to step back and care for myself or I lose myself
Me too.. 16… get out.. not responsible for me anymore… and I’ve had all that caretaking crap and I do not do that anymore. I really do try to take care of myself since I have cause so much suffering for, “me,”…..that being said, I also see the deepest wound in my heart is not knowing what’s it’s like to have unconditional love and emotional connection to family. I don’t hold grudges because I understand the human conditioning, and I understand the forgiveness to give to my parents from the sinful nature being passed on generation after generation.
At the same time I’m still in this human realm existing, and that brokenness from not being unconditionally loved ..from not being unconditionally accepted, not connected with a mother and the father on a level on emotional intimacy connection has a spot in the heart of sadness…Because once I really realized how loving we are to be to each other then I discover it wasn’t abandonment ..it was a deep wounding of not having unconditional love from another human, and I know that’s meant for every one of us. Yet humans can’t give each other the love that they were meant to give each other because of the brokenness and even if you think you are giving the love, the unconditional love, I would call yourself out … because we have all been conditioned with the worldly love, and that is just not the same as a holy spirit love …We all matter regardless what happen in our childhood. Jesus has renewed my heartmind.
His, lectures need to be played in prisons to help people in jail, just to be able to explain this let alone understand it shows how brilliant he is
Yes u're right
Omg that would be amazing and much needed
Agree!
This lecture is so on point, it’s unbelievable. How he knows so deeply and extensively without having gone through severe trauma himself, is amazing. Opened up the world that is inside me as well as my ‘ closed off’ and abusive spouse. Would have never known what the thought processes are weren’t it for this lecture; the obvious symptoms on the outside are the only observable things and they too are exactly as he describes. His talk is accusatory to neither the victim nor the abuser; was a pleasure and healing to listen to .
This is a great idea 💡
fear has ruined my life and has controlled my life in all aspects of my life. Thank u for all that u do. Life changing 😢
It' amazing when we see how much of our world is controlled by fear, instead of by what we want and love.
My unconscious beliefs were that anyone who really knew me would leave me, and I had to do things that others wanted in order to get "love". What a mess I made of my life with these beliefs! Unlearning this garbage has been good for me.
Me too. You are not alone 😊
It’s so crazy switching over from wanting them to like you so badly and just being yourself. I hope I can keep up the new habits
honestly yeah me too I thought I was the only one
Me too!!! Just getting out of my abusive marriage after 43.5 years. I feel like my heart is slowly opening up and my head is getting clearer
@@bingoandtoto I can only speak for myself. I do not understand your point, given that I did not say this experience was unique to me.
Mr. Fletcher, I hope this message is delivered to you. Please accept my deepest thanks and my sincere appreciation for what you are doing !!!
Some parents are emotionally immature people. So they are also emotionally immature parents too. . They can be shockingly detached from their kids emotional realities. Therefore, kids must not whine or complain. It messes up an emotionally immature parent's day. What a terrible thing for children to go through.
I was an emotionally stunted parent and person because of all the trauma in my life at 12 specifically (I just learned) so I was stuck there and also emotionally closed off because of trauma throughout my life and I couldn’t be there for my children emotionally. So from a parent and a child that was emotionally neglected, I’m sorry that we can figure all of this out before we have children and pass it on to the. I have been on a healing journey since 2013 and am still discovering things I need to address and heal. We who have had it done to us, we can heal it and love ourselves and heal, if we truly want to.
@@lisalambert81865what a difficult thing to discover about yourself. May you continue on this beautiful journey of healing and discovering your true Self. 💜
Ah, get it!! It does make sense! But it still isn’t resolved! Of course, you know god doesn’t wants to speak 😢
I'm just coming to the realization that fear has major control over me. Lots of trauma , physical and verbal abuse. Thanks for validating what I've been feeling all of my life. You're a God send.
Dr. Fletcher
I'am recovering from childhood trauma at the age of 77. Your videos have helped me immensely and I want to thank you for your dedication and compassion. My story, like everyone who suffers from childhood trauma is multifaceted and intensely complex. I am getting better everyday. I had to get to the where I realized that I had experienced this trauma beginning at age four and that all of my subconscious coping mechanisms had not only severely injured me but pretty much everyone with which I have had a relationship. One day I realized that I' had had enough physical and mental injury that it was time to begin to change my life. A quote from author George Sand,(Mary Ann Evans) is now my mantra " It is never too late to become the person you were meant to be."
Wow. Beautifully said. Ditto!!!
I’m 65 and doing the work too. Since I’ve been collecting autoimmune diseases for 15 years now, I finally realized the real cause. Trauma. Dysregulated nervous system. Like you, I believe it’s never too late to grow and heal. This series hits all of my issues. Done I’ve healed from but others to address . It’s a lifetime journey. Best to you on your healing journey.
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Mr. Tim is a genius as far as I am concerned. Thank you for this extremely informative and helpful talk. I wish I would have been in therapy with you and not wasted so years with other therapists. I learned more in 40 minutes than the last 50 years of therapy. God bless you sir and God bless everyone who gets this...
We're all kindasad we didn't get his help years ago right?
I’ve been listening daily for the last 2 or so months. The content seems to make so much sense despite being new to me. Though I like to think I’m past the honeymoon phase, I can’t ignore that I don’t have enough psychiatric/psychological knowledge to assess this on an academic level. Even still, it feels good-soothing really-to listen to him talk. Science can’t take that away, and so I can say with certainty that I gain value from this man!
@@mknels1299Yes, but better late than never!
You are a phenomenal teacher, l can’t thank you enough for your teachings and with such compassion.
It must be heart breaking, but you aren't alone 😊
Oh my god. I have fear of FAILURE and fear of SUCCESS. I finally understand why I've been paralyzed these past few years.
THIS man saves lives.
I can't thank you enough sir. God bless you ❤
Yup this is me. My mom told me in my early teens she was going to give me up for adoption. That she had the papers ready, but when she held me she couldn't. That messed me up big time. Knowing you were about to be thrown away. Then grow up in an abusive home. Awesome. My siblings fron another marriage called me half breed. Yeah i get abandonment issues. This is so helpful. Thank you.
❤❤❤wishing you happiness and peace
wow. My mom told me around age 5 not only that I was unplanned - she already had two - and that she lost her deposit on a cherry wood dining table set because of my birth. She related this with such disappointment that I felt she'd have preferred the furniture. That statement about holding you is a profound admission of her mistake and of her love for you. It's also damn poor timing.
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I got the same treatment it's awful
I am the result of a rape and my mother kept me but abused me mentally and physically the physical abuse stopped when I got roo big to hit she always favoured her friends children and people who hate me even to this Day and try ruin my relationships it's very painful
Riddled in fear since 4 years old when I watched my parents beat the shit out of each other. Then my mother emotionally detached. I was completely alone. This is so very true.
Ah, the painful truth. One of the hardest things to come to terms with is acknowledging your own value and worth. Your brain is literally wired to believe the opposite so it's a nasty battle of providing evidence that you have worth. You have to find a way to stay a step or two ahead of your inner critic. It can be so exhausting but it's definitely worth the fight.
Does it get better?
@@gerovyking2782 for sure, but you need professional help and being honest with yourself
yeah, it’s just really painful and hard, that’s not to dissuade you. Just the honest truth. But it does get better and it is worth it. Every soldier has their war, this is ours. It’s worth fighting for so please don’t ever give up hope! ❤
I tried listening to this a few weeks ago and could not do it; I wasn't ready yet. I'm being treated for CPTSD due to narcissistic abuse throughout 24-year "marriage." Fear has always dominated my life and I am finally coming to grips with where it's rooted from, including my father leaving the home when I was a young child. Your wisdom is greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Tim's work is a blessing for the many!
This fits me perfectly. I've lived my entire life in fear. And when I meet a new person today if I just get the slightest hint of rejection from them I reject them first that way I don't have to deal with the pain of being rejected. But as I grow older my biggest fear is that I'm going to be rejected by God. Even though I believe in God and I pray and try to do right I don't believe that God loves me. It terrifies me to death that I'm going to stand in front of God and hear him say I never knew you
I was a home missionary’s kid in the U.S. and am still dealing with C-PTSD and religious trauma.
I dealt with night terrors and insomnia for most of my life from being paddled by the principal, the authority “placed there by God” in Christian school for not being able to fall asleep fast enough on command during nap time.
It was just a few months ago that I stopped hearing an angry man yelling in my head for “not taking responsibility” and that I “deserved to be punished” when I was struggling with how to go about something.
Now, I work customer service and struggle every time I see a parent hitting or threatening their kids and am not allowed to do anything to stop them.
The works of such people as Bradley Jursak, Thomas Keating, Paul Young, and Richard Rohr, and many others have helped me deconstruct harmful ideas and move into what a loving God and a relationship with them can be like. Paul Young’s “The Shack” is also helping me forgive people that hurt me.
I see you. I hear you. We are in this together. And you are loved.
*Edit: Added “We are in this together” and that is important to remember.
Kurt, I recognize your fear how you describe it. As an adult, 62 years old, I have finally come to feel a peace I couldn't have imagined earlier. I am so grateful. The reason is mostly that I have listened to a lot of talks on youtube with Richard Rohr, Henri Nouwen, James Finley and read their books and that I have signed up for a daily newsletter from The Center for Action and Contemplation which I recieve every morning in e-mail. I wish you peace and every good.
There is no god, hope you're not banking on that existing because you've wasted your life if you have
The same with me.
When I go through trauma, I get night terrors and panic attacks early in the morning I realise fear is at the base of it.
Wow..this sums up my life. Even after 2 years of therapy. I still feel like like something is not right. You hit the nail on the head. Thank you for enlightening me. now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really appreciate you. Thank you so much
I just finished 5 years of therapy and it's still not right. I don't think we can ever get back fully
I imagine you both could also seek out a new therapist if you feel you've hit a wall. I know, easier said than done
There are a lot of layers to heal when you have childhood trauma.
I had no one to run too. No one to connect with. It was a horrible childhood. These videos are amazing.
I've lived with fear for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with acute anxiety many years ago and that has been accompanied by depression in recent years. Dad was an alcoholic, Mom was emotionally disconnected. I'm so afraid of failure that it often keeps me from even beginning. 95% of what you alluded to applies to me. I have always felt like a 5 yr. old trying to function in the role of an adult in an adult body. I believed my anxiety/panic disorder was genetic and the rest, well....I have always wondered what is wrong with me. I have never had much support, just soldier on.....Thankyou for this series........
the hard part is seeing it, deep inside you, that hoplesness, always on your shoulder, rooted in your heart, we are just broken human beigns, thats it
I couldn’t relate more to your comment. You’re not the only one. Hang in there we can do this
This guy right here should literally tour the world teaching this
I knew at 8 years old that I was on my own, and not to count on anyone but myself.
❤️😢 Love and big hugs from Holland
Absolutely relate to crying to commercials, or a funny video, or other stuff where there is no apparent reason but I just get a well of emotion coming up… it’s like the joy or beauty hits me and somehow opens a pocket of pain/fear
So grateful for your videos and the gift of “You” that you are sharing with the world. Your understanding of trauma is refreshing
I am 66, had depression and anxiety for over50 years. I never knew until a few months ago that I had cptsd. However I did know I lived in fear my whole life. This is my second video of yours I have watched. For the second time in my life I am heading A TRUTH. Thank You. I wish you were in the UK.
this is so so enlightening. tim your videos are changing my life. i've lived with this anger since i was 3 and finally at 48 i'm starting to understand the mechanism.
I saw a mother dragging her crying 7 year old daughter by her ear around target scolding her and publically humiliating her inside of a Target and I almost lost it. I felt like I would have been escorted out by security if I tried to intervene with a total stranger's "parenting" but it made my blood boil over and I felt totally helpless that everyone in the store would probably just tale the abusive mother's side and cast judgement on me for trying to meddle in someone else's business that "shouldn't not concern me".
That's how abusers get away with abusing in broad daylight. Under the guise of, "I'm doing what's best for my child so butt out!"
I think the context of the "handling" of a situation with someone's child is VERY IMPORTANT.
I'm so grateful for the work of Tim Fletcher (& his team). You have benefited my life profoundly. Thank you.
This is amazing! Finally, I know what’s wrong with me, and that there is a solution.
Fit like a glove.
Thank you Tim.
You are the best! You have brought so much awareness to why I have lived in fear my whole life!
Was bought up in a narcissistic family left at 17 then got into a very toxic narcissistic relationship with a toxic male and his mum running the whole show, they certainly placed me where they wanted to place me in there life. Feeding my shame, whilst lapping up theres, I lived in hope, my needs were always dismissed, 7 years living in fight and flight mode. The relationship ended thank god, I have many fears but work with them and try push through. I am no contact with my family members and low contact with my ex. This gives me consistency. People tried to distort my reality because it's suited there narrative. I know who I am and actually like who I am. These videos have been a life saver for me, all of them.
I was writting about my day and my latest discoveries about myself. I found I have so many fears.
I thought, ok... Now I know... Work in progress.
I did not seek this video. I was looking a funny videos and this pops up! Mindblown!
Thank you for sharing this goldmine. ❤❤❤
The first time I watched this, it plummeted me into an emotional panicky crisis. I’m listening for a second time and taking notes this time. Thank you for your lectures.
This video brings up a lot for me. Virtually everything Tim talked about described my behavior and thoughts with every romantic relationship I've had. Which are few, for my reasons explained in the video. I screwed up so many times in my past, and this video helped give me a better understanding. I miss my ex and constantly get angry at myself for causing the split. I wanna get myself sorted out so I stop hurting myself and others. Thank you Tim Fletcher for creating your content!
You know me so well.
I want to share something, might help someone out. I found a really really great tool that works. I was stuck in the limbic brain, the melange of horror, and it seemed like nothing but doom ahead etc etc. Well, i done the wim hof breathing exercise 3 times in a row, and it almost immediately put me back into my cortex. I done it the next day too and same miracle. I felt some trauma and tension leave my shoulders. Give it a go. I've been doing it on and off for awhile - the 11 min video on yt - but this was the first time i done it 3 times in a row.
You know what, since I followed Mr Tim, I came through with my shame, guilt and just recently, fear and here I am… getting to befriend with my beloved fear and how I call them out is to say thing like, false evidence appearing real. Thanks Tim
❤Awesome Detroit river. Thanks for sharing my friend. Love your work and commitment in helping hurt people understanding themselves and the ability to develop freedom from it ❤
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LOL still as a very broken, but functional person, I am getting much better because of you Dr.Tim, thank you! hugs God sent & Bless everyone.
You soothe me without giving me ill feelings about my parents, my bad choices and other influences that molded me into this pile of messy human
He is describing my childhood times, my relationships, and wounds I've passed down to my kids even though I tried to show my love for my kids better. In reality I do not know how to really connect with others.
I love tim i play his channel every single night, i love his layout with the slideshow, and the fact he has knowledge of both worlds: religion and medical. Much love from canada. I was diasgnosed with crippling ocd that started 2 months doing much better now thanks to meds and lots of praying.
Hit the nail on the head. Wow. I hope to lose the fear someday
I agree with what you say fear has followed me all my life, as you say I buried mine for a long time, it came out as severe anxiety, it was only as I got older I realised how much fear I had felt as a child, my mother was the source of my fear, she caused it and gave me no comfort after. It has taken a long time to untangle my many fears in adult hood and I am still working on it.
If only 30 years ago such true knowledge was as available like today. No worries there are generations to come to teach from experience.
1:54 That phrase. I express myself genuinely, stating it in the first-person-perspective ("I feel..."), and I'm told, "Get over yourself.". And she wonders why I don't talk to her more than I do.
Get away, when you can.
My pastor says because I'm a new creation, stop being anxious. Live like you're in victory
Easy said than done. That's why church wasn't for me as this statement doesn't acknowledge the trauma mistreatment of another just dismissed emotions...the god of my understanding cares more greatly about what other humans have caused me than any pastor can ever get as they are merely human too. Self work, inner self discovery around trauma, narcissist abuse, codependency, meditations, affirmations, prayer nature are tools that have helped heal some wounds, change my perceptions,behaviours and allowed me to forgive and stay in a good energetic space even when life gets difficult. Be careful of what others advise...do your own you tube mentor search on those who have come through the same abuse. Alot of church goers haven't. These my own views no right or wrong here just my own experience..
Fear and shame sometimes are the only things getting me out of bed so it's a motivator but leads to no authentic living
Thank you so much. I started getting help about 5 yrs ago. CBT therapy & counseling. Your videos 'have really helped me. I'm constantly working on changing my thinking patterns. I've made a lot of progress. I'm so glad I stumbled across your content.
Trauma changed my life. 180 drgrees.
It also evoked a spiritual awakening. In a weird way, Im grateful for what happened to me.
Not meaning the pain and health issues.
Thank you for this 🙏🏼🤍 I am starting to feel the same way. The trauma - spirituality link is fascinating to me.
True story
Trauma can make you seek enlightenment and seek self awareness which is always good but I also believe that ignorance is bliss
It does make a person call upon God and draw close to Him. He understands and Jesus suffered for all our injuries as well as our sins. He went deeper than we have in order to lift us. May He ever be my friend and Redeemer.
I am so grateful that the Divine has always been by my side. I felt disappointed in my family but just knew in my heart that they were incapable of true relationships. I always felt comfortable spending time with my heavenly Father and my guardian angels 😇 ❤️. Thank you for your compassionate lecture on such tragic historical issues of our society. What a blessing you are! Great job!
Thanks so much for all your insight! I do miss the biblical part you used to show at the end tho.. they added another, poetic dimension to the information you present. ❤
Me too.
Check spiritual bypassing series
Me too. I love it because it adds so much dimension to whatever passage he uses
These videos are helpful. I really wish I could find a counselor ike this. Been in therapy almost 10 years.
This is great for both the person with cptsd and the "normal" person as well, because now the normal people can understand where the perceived annoying behavior is coming from instead of saying something is wrong with the traumatized person, and the cptsd person can actually see an alternative option in relationships besides the one their injured brain came up with our of desperation, thank you so much for highlighting the perspectives of people with cptsd!
Thank you so much Mr. Fletcher for all your videos. I did not know myself then and why I always sabotage my life. I am full of shame and guilt for screwing up my marriage and family. I feel so sad and always feel depressed that I was not able to put my family together but now I’m determined to change and improve myself to become better.
Dear mr. Fletcher, you are a blessing to this community. I was driving when I first listened to one of your videos. I had to stop because that video (perfectionism) made me break down in tears. And yes, whenever you ask how many characteristics of a particular CT did we identify, I get 95%. Each one of these videos on CT are worth a lifetime of therapy with an average therapist I wish I could do some sessions with you.
Narcissist/Phycopath husband caused me this from all 4 my children, and the true fact that I was the one always there for them, seems to have not been noticed.
Never mock true faith because God's word has kept me when abandoned and erassed by everyone.....🙏
Even though they have all told me Im of no value, I know my value because of God and one day, "They will know the truth and the truth will set them free"....🙏🕊💗
Summed it up on the first minute. After 2 therapy session I've realised I have so much underlying fear...that I was unaware of, as had been masking by wearing rose tinted glasses/'everything is fine' attitude for so long.
Now I've taken the rose tinted glasses off, riding the waves of suppressed fear is so intense...but I know it will be worth it on the other side.
Thank you so much for these videos 💚
Dude you're insanely bright!😮
I relate so much and things makes more sense now. I thought I had PTSD, BPD, NPD etc but I don't. Just traits.
Some of my fears are:
Abandonment.
That my anxiety and fear shows in public.
Handling a job.
My loved ones health.
Being ugly.
💙Thanx for existing, I feel understood.
This work is so accurate. I'm sure everyone's specific details, their stories, are so different. Not all of what you say applies. But enough does, that listening is often difficult. I have to stop, come back later to hear more. I am working with a very skilled therapist. He's helping a lot. But with a very traumatic childhood with two raging narcissistic parents, themselves badly damaged, and a very difficult career and apparently quite natural relationship difficulties, well to call this a difficult lifetime is such an understatement. One thing I'm so glad of, is being older now. That no matter how much longer it will be, surely it will not be very much longer.
This hit home, I’ve been searching for what is triggering me and finally I got my answer, Ty!
God bless you!
God has Shown me Daily- I ❤️you!
God Loves me And I can Trust Him!
Prayers for That
Revelation!
Perfect Love
Casts out Fear!
Definitely! God is my only hope,I pray to Him through Christ, through Him we can talk to the Father! I saw miracles in my life.
Yes we are not alone but adopted
Ohhh Amen and Amen!!! For I shall never leave you nor forsake you 💕🙏💕
These video's make me so thankful that the internet exists.
You are 100% correct, a part of me is not afraid, also hurt, but my body mind emotions are
Having the ones who should love you most treat you evil is beyond comprehension painful.
You are afraid to talk be yourself, walking on eggshells, the manipulation chaos cheating, did not feel safe with my husband, his slander and choice of friends.
Nobody is bigger then my God He heals the. Broken hearted
Yes you are absolutely right, even when you do good they turn it into evil,
I’m at a loss for any hope right now, I want to love others desperately, but what to do when they won’t let me do that? I fear rejection, abandonment and loneliness. I had true love and lost it due to our combined fears. If only we had talked, in depth, about our fears, we might not be in separation. The grief and loss I feel, feels insurmountable. Like I may never fully recover, like they say I won’t. They say grief can last a lifetime, it just subtly fades day by day, but the loss remains forever. I feel so lost, it feels pathetic and I feel ashamed to feel so lost. I do feel alone, scared and abandoned. I feel incredibly isolated, like I don’t know how to be a person in society. Not necessarily because of the failed relationship, but because of the connection we shared. I fear I may never acquire that sort of connection again. It can feel so impossible to extract and nurture vulnerability with someone new, it feels like no one is willing to be truly vulnerable. I feel disconnected from real life. Like I’ve been ruined by knowing true love, like I can’t possibly know how to be a normal person moving through life without the warm presence of that love. I hope he can heal, and that I can fully release him. To detach is a skill I’m lacking right now. I don’t know how to possibly detach without feeling like I might drown. I know that I won’t, but knowing doesn’t negate feeling, unfortunately. I wish he knew that I love him more than anything, and that I forgive him for hurting me, and that I want to move past this, together.
Having hope feels so impossible.
Why dont you tell him exactly as you told us. Blessings🙏
In un
Thank you for all the gifts you give people and sharing your knowledge so clearly and speaking amazingly so well about CPTSD. Thank you 🙏
So thankful Tim and his work 🙏🏾 I’m at the ground floor of my healing journey scared to death but his content it truly a blessing
My parents handed me to people that raped me when I was as young as 3. I was called a liar and the boy who cried wolf. I was also told that I ate too much and that I was going to work in a sewer when I was to become an adult. I was also told I was going to be “sold to the gypsies” . I was put into the custody of the State at the age of 15 by my parents. I’m now 54 and l was told to not come to my mother’s funeral. And I was hospitalized last year due to getting hit by a truck and my father called me at the hospital and told me to never contact him again and this was my funeral. I’m a extreamly strong person and I must stay strong so my own children are raised to be aware and have tools I never had. That being said, I opened up more on this thread than I would do with other people. No way I’m letting anyone near me close enough to hurt me again. I got me and I need to work at being on time and getting shit done.
Sorry about this experience.
I’d come to the same decision until discovering these TIMTalks and Thais Gibson’s UA-cam channel. Now, on the day that I watch them it makes relive all the horrors of childhood, Feels like someone’s pushing knitting needles into my head and chest. And because he’s describing every single thing I did, every strategy I cooked up, every way my mind went, every reaction I had, as if he’d watched me and read my mind since I was 3, I feel cheap and stupid too. Even when he talks about healing. That means you have to hope again and that’s the scariest f*****g thing I’ve ever heard. Because if I commit and he’s wrong my life is over. It s already a struggle to stay and always has been. But he’s saying these things out of love and concern for others, it all makes sense and logically connects AND it’s exactly what I’ve lived. So I’m going to hope because he’s nailed my history in every point he made so far. That means it’s likely he’s right about the healing. Good luck in whatever you choose. I hope for blessings for both me AND you. Because it sounds like we’ve both had it pretty rough. Healing and acceptance was just a dream that always had an end when you woke up.
I’m so sorry that happened to you.
Thank you for this lecture. I’m going to use it for my CrJ class. I’ll be working with foster childrennthis year and this helps teach patience.
I had a Brilliant Therapist by the name of Mike Rothberg. Palisades Counseling Center 2001-2003 NJ. If only Tim and Mike could merge. Mike was hitting on this, twenty years ago, but i was all.tied up.in aterrible relationship and other exoeriences i had yet to.mull over. I consider this a great miracle that i joined this channel.
Many thanks, Tim , your channel, listening to you, opens a whole world of understanding myself!
This lectures are so practical.
Thank you for your service and breaking this down. This is me childhood abuse &trauma. Fear.
This isn't a coincidence that I have just found these videos now!! Tim explains this so dam well it feels these videos are personalised to me it's insane, I have a lot of what Tim is saying and I can recognise what I need to work on
Thank you so much for explaining this in a way that resonates with me!!!
Tim I’m extremely thankful for your videos. Watching them can frankly be painful but I’m here to Learn. God bless you boss man
This is very insightful. It demonstrates how a learning difference - dyslexia, afasia, DLD... - is a serious ACE. The child has no caring adult to turn to, unless they have been especifically trained and most are not, during the whole of the school day, every day of their school life. Parents are generally powerless against these forces.
Over 50% of adult male population in Western countries are undiagnosed dyslexics. It is not dyslexia, it is the trauma and subsequent school exclusion through inapropriate assessment and grading.
Terribly sad.
Heartbreaking.
I'm sick of living in my trauma but it's my default mode, moving forward is like stepping on nails to jump in a cold shower to put out the fire on my head.... and that's just getting a decent job I won't have to work countless hours to support my self with
This is saving my life
im so broken man, im tired of fighting this battle, this amazing guy just show me the huuge wall i cant climb, now i understand, i cant make it
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Of course you can silly
Wow, I've been alone all my life. First by being neglected, then from being abused, then being disowned and disassociation from my religious congregation. Therefore, I have been feeling alone all my life, which left me in fear forever. Btw, it's bad for your heart to live fearfully and alone.
I definitely know I have fear. Forever. Thanks for this.
Thank you for putting so much of your teachings on your page. Your helping me get thru some hard times I'm struggling with right now
My parents, both of them, would push me into a corner and bully me until I cried. Then it seemed like they were “satisfied,” and backed off. The more I resisted and remained calm and rational, the louder and meaner they got. The put on such an expert facade to the people outside the house, I’m so scared that no one will believe me. And in fact, there have even been therapists who have asked me, “did you ever stop to think your mother loves you?” People think that the position of mother is untouchable and sacred. I’m not the problem, but it doesn’t matter if everyone sides with the parent. I stated my needs clearly, “I want you to stop bullying and discouraging me, and start encouraging me.” My mother said, “I can’t.” She’d go into “fugue” states where she’d chase me and shame me, I told her to stop but it was like she couldn’t hear me. My fear is that she’ll come after me, and no one will believe me.
A blessing from you! Healing healthy!
Me too.. 16… get out.. not responsible for me anymore… and I’ve had all that caretaking crap and I do not do that anymore. I really do try to take care of myself since I have cause so much suffering for, “me,”…..that being said, I also see the deepest wound in my heart is not knowing what’s it’s like to have unconditional love and emotional connection to family. I don’t hold grudges because I understand the human conditioning, and I understand the forgiveness to allow my parents from the sinful nature being passed on generation after generation.
At the same time I’m still in this human realm existing, and that brokenness from not being unconditionally loved ..from not being unconditionally accepted, not connected with a mother and the father on a level on emotional intimacy connection has a spot in the heart of sadness…Because once I really realized how loving we are to be to each other then I discover it wasn’t abandonment ..it was a deep wounding of not having unconditional love from another human, and I know that’s meant for every one of us. Yet humans can’t give each other the love that they were meant to give each other because of the brokenness and even if you think you are giving the love, the unconditional love, I would call yourself out … because we have all been conditioned with the worldly love, and that is just not the same as a holy spirit love …We all matter regardless what happen in our childhood. Jesus has renewed my heartmind.
Having huge sabotage, abandonment right now. Its terrifying being so aware of whats happening and working hard to not be overwhelmed. Its a really important day today. Im working hard to keep it together and accept the fear and be in the moment. Terrifying 🤦
Dear mr. Fletcher. I m an avid watcher of your every episode on Trauma. I had a very emotionally secure childhood, with parents that were attentive and supportive. But I live in a war torn area, my triggers are sirens, explosions, missiles, running for shelter or hiding in a "safe room" at home....for years and years my feelings of physical safety, are being destroyed. within all that I lead a ""normal"" routine life with family, friends, work, pets....but war erupts so often, and this fear for staying alive gnaws at the soul, the hope, and the inner strength. so this is not a matter of childhood trauma. not every trauma is. This is a trauma that everyone living in this impossible situation experiences. the fear is a constant realistic fear. the trauma is ongoing. dear mr. Fletcher, all the remedies you've so kindly suggested, do not help here, sadly I m saying this also as long time therapist. Maybe you can also address this kind of trauma. thank you so much.❤
I have allowed it to control me to the point that I’m unable to make many decisions for fear of once again doing the wrong thing.
Oh yes, fear of success is real. I was one of the best students in medical school when I had one of the worst mental breakdowns and gave up. Everyone was shocked I've given up many MANY a time ever since.
Thank you SO much for this. I will have to listen to the other episodes as well, now.
I ended up writing down the list of fears and colour coding them according to how strongly I feel they apply to me. This was very informative. Including spotting the ones I have so much NOT a problem with that I'm likely to be overcompensating something.
Great vid and great work tim. Ty
Thank you Tim for all the work you have done
Thank you mr. Fletcher! You are a great teacher!❤
Perfect love casts out fear. 🕊
Amen and Thank God
I was abused by narcissists in my 20s and 30s, including a friend and romantic date, and the latter especially led to me developing a fear of what these people would do to me or the things I enjoyed in my life, via conscious malignant sabotage. It was one of the few things I still have to work through with a psychologist in EMDR therapy.
Thank you so much Tim. These talks have been VERY validating and supportive for me during a very difficult period.
Your work and understanding embodies love and give me hope
This is it! I have this problem! Thank you. You are Godsent for me.
this is exactly my storey / behaviour , iv listened to blogs , 12 step programme reading self help , trying to break this
All the above. Every box! What a wealth of info. Thank you.
Helpful, I like the way you kept it practical and relatable thank you.