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LOL!!!😬😳😵💫😆I did the gas pump thing twice two. The second time, I did it in a station that was prepared for my kind of insanity-they hose had a disconnect to safeguard against damage. I was driving out the parking lot with the hose in tow! I was soooo embarrassed. 😮but now I just laugh.
Many of these are my triggers. The clumsiness, the superhero, being ignored, having others wait on me, frustration about being depended on to help someone, being rejected, being overlooked, being overly praised......draining!
It just clicked in my mind too that my anxiety in the evenings is related to being forgotten at day care 😢 I'm sorry you went thru this, I'm still feeling so much anger from how I was treated as a child.
Anna, I wonder if you have any idea how many thousands of lives you have saved and improved, the zillions of relationships that you have positively deepened, the many open minded therapists that you have influenced to help their patients approach CPTSD symptoms in a new, more helpful and more healthy ways. You truly have been an absolute miracle for so many of us, providing the perfect words for previously impossible feelings and actions that have held us back for so long. Please know how much you have contributed to such deep world healing for so many of us. And thank you for your wonderful book, too.
I tend to pull out of groups if I don't click right away with people in the group. I was given up as a baby. My birth mom abanndonned my brother and sister when I was barely four months old. Then our birth dad took us to his in-laws home in another state.
I have the abandonment thing REALLY bad. Like really...but directed toward myself. I dont ever think ill of friends who I feel is going to throw me away. I just ask myself why will no one keep me. What am I doing that causes people to do this? Because it has to be my fault. I dont EVER do silent treatment because that's effed up. It's been done to me and i don't want to cause other people that pain. To be fair, I will sabotage relationships. Leave them before they leave me. I'm always waiting for it to happen in the back of my mind.
Anna, It's amazing how I can relate to what you're saying on a deep level but I could never find the words to express. Thank you for what you are doing. ❤
You explaned me exactly what is happening to me. I didn't understand why I reacted with strong emotion in some situations. The people sometimes told me, I overreacted the situation. (Not gaslighting.) I didn't understand why it was so uncomfortable when my actual partner spent time with his ex and tell me I was too jealous. Thank you very much for your video!
Oh Anna i cried when you said about your father and the letters that he left you. One of my biggest fears are that my parents are gonna die and I will never heal my relationship as I want with them😢
I wish I could like this video 1,000 times. Listening to you talk about me and feeling understood has me in uncontrollable tears. ❤ I'm working on myself and I needed this video.
I got really triggered today, when I went to my sisters house for dinner. On the coffee table was a memorable photo album, that my sister had put together for my nephew. I scrolled through it and there was a photo of loads of people, including grandparents, other aunts but not one photo of me. I could feel myself turning the pages looking for myself. I turned to my nephew and said oh not one photo of me, that will be good not to remember me. Not his fault, he hadn't put it together. He felt bad too and put his hand on my shoulder. I honestly don't know how I didn't cry and get up and say i was going home. When I got home later it was like my world came to an end 😢 I have so much neglect from my family, especially own sons. How do you cope with this 😢
Sorry that happened. Do you or your nephew have a camera/cameraphone? Take a smiley picture together, get it printed and send to him - for the album if there was space or in a frame if not. :)
@RaefonB Thank you for understanding. I am 60, and this is my life. It's embarrassing and I tend not to draw attention to it because it makes the situation worse. I've always told I'm too sensitive 🥺
@@dianemower7422Ah, I understand. Fingers crossed that it was just an oversight, but you know your family and I don't. Hope things get better for you asap.
I hear you. Hang in there. I think you may like The Daily Practice. It is a great way to process fears and resentment and to release all unwanted emotions. It's a free course that you can find here: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Give it a try. Many people feel better right after they try it! Nika@TeamFairy
Thank you for speaking to this, having emotional flashbacks has been a scary part of my life experience ive never known how to name them and get out of them and so they in themselves have become a thing ive feared happening again because theyre so scary. Knowing about them is part of managing and tending to it, thanks again ❤
That fear left alone!! Although I learn not to show when left out as I feel because they used to invite me and I just make excuse as I do not like to bitch about the people who is not there or worried I might say something that will get me into trouble! Now they stop inviting me! Thats ok! I organised my own and was surprised that people came . i was so anxious that nobody will turn up to my daughter’s birthday party !! They turned up all of them!! I still find difficult to believe that people ever like me! I still have a long way to go! Your book Re-Regulate helped me to uncover why? So thank you for your videos and book I can see myself making small progress!!
Fit in what's that? I'm the queen of isolation. I was raised by a pack of narcissists wolves. That was out for blood. Isolation was my only peace. Still is. I'll try but I'm frightened.
I understand it can be frightening at the beginning but it is so worth it! The Daily Practice can support you in this process because it is a great way to process fears and resentment. Give it a try, if you haven't already! Here's a link to the free course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Nika@TeamFairy
Being Bullied and Abused from childhood with Nobody to report those frequent incidents, nobody to stand up for me, + growing up in a Survival environment with that " ALL MAN FOR HIMSELF" ideology, today I'm an adult who can not Forgive ANYBODY, because that's only way I stand up for myself, address my grievances with my offender in an Extremely Ruthless REVENGE/Way... That way, the person will never Dare Mess with me, EVER AGAIN. Honestly, I'm beginning to feel tired of those characteristics I think I need help to overcome that Retain grievances then Revenge later to people who hurt/offend me.... Help.
We absolutely understand. Daily Practice (a free course) can be a good first step. If you want to go deeper, Anna has a whole course on Healing Childhood PTSD. Free Daily Practice: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Healing CPTSD course: bit.ly/CCF_HCPTSD Nika@TeamFairy
I grew up in an abusive and neglectful environment. I'm the youngest of 5 with much older siblings - I feel like I come from a completely different generation. My siblings were all jealous of me for being young when my parents became wealthy while they were all becoming adults. I felt like I had 6 parents. My mother drank heavily (I recently realized she was sexually abused as a child.) Her father sexually abused me when I was 5 (forced oral). My brother also made a sexually coercive comment to me when I was about the same age (my brother and I have a 6+ year age gap). I was raised to be silent and not have opinions (female submissiveness). I stopped performing academically. I was also ostracized by classmates for having a sexually suggestive last name. I reported the abuse of my grandfather, my parents immediately removed me from the situation but then allowed him back into my home and daily life including letting me go on trips to the store in his VW camper bus (complete with a mattress). I dissociated for 30+ years. My sexual abuse from my grandfather was one of several family secrets. My mother triggered my memories of abuse after he died. My brother always says I overreact but I never discussed his sexually coercive abuse with him. He recently told me to calm down and I reminded him of his sexual coercion. Considering I managed to have intermittent interactions with him over the last 55+ years without confronting that subject, I think I underreacted and he's just a gaslighting narcissist who continues to infantilize and silence me by judging me as overreactive. He deserved my anger - I finally stood up for myself. I have gone completely no contact.
Anna, I love your videos, but I don't seem to find any on how to confront the abuser. I feel I stood up for myself and acted appropriately, but I'm seeing no validation of that.
If you only came up with this because of politics, Anna specifically calls you out for displacing your emotional issues. If you mean people generally lack compassion, sure, but "muh Americans".
@@JaMeshuggah Are you saying 'Muh Americans' as a way to imply @itspersonal3351 is a redneck? I hope the irony is not lost upon the people who try to claim Tolerance and then display the opposite on an hourly basis. Thank God this time the silent and sane have spoken with their votes.
...a nasty comment sitting there like a turd...hahahahahaha what a great comparison! Flush that turd 💩 I love the compilations of the symptoms and can relate to them. Thank-you for your thoughts and healing guidance. Have a great day 🙂
I have a question for all my trauma family friends and Anna I am currently suffering with mental health after I smoked weed. I am not a weed person however the day I smoked the last 3 years before which dropped me in a panic attack 1s I got my 1st panic attack I smoked 1 full pack of cigarettes at 1 time and I was literally crying and thinking I am going to die and I went to sleep 2nd day i woke up I was still alive😅. Then I quit my addiction all together 1 time smoking, alcohol, weed, pornography. Some additions still I have. And in 3 years of addiction free journey i realised I have ADHD, anxiety, depression and a lot. In all this condition i found 1 more CPTSD which is horrible for me. That is my childhood trauma my sexual abuse at age 10. What can I do for this ( I went to the AA meeting and I also shared my trauma with some of my friends ) still I am in this trap what can I do please give me some suggestions 🙏
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I highly recommend The Daily Practice (a free course). It can be a good first step. If you want to go deeper, Anna has a whole course on Healing Childhood PTSD. Free Daily Practice: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Healing CPTSD course: bit.ly/CCF_HCPTSD Nika@TeamFairy
That fear left alone!! Although I learn not to show when left out as I feel because they used to invite me and I just make excuse as I do not like to bitch about the people who is not there or worried I might say something that will get me into trouble! Now they stop inviting me! Thats ok! I organised my own and was surprised that people came . i was so anxious that nobody will turn up to my daughter’s birthday party !! They turned up all of them!! I still find difficult to believe that people ever like me! I still have a long way to go! Your book Re-Regulate helped me to uncover why? So thank you for your videos and book I can see myself making small progress!!
*Take my free Daily Practice course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
*Join my Membership and access my private online community: bit.ly/CCF-Membership
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LOL!!!😬😳😵💫😆I did the gas pump thing twice two. The second time, I did it in a station that was prepared for my kind of insanity-they hose had a disconnect to safeguard against damage. I was driving out the parking lot with the hose in tow! I was soooo embarrassed. 😮but now I just laugh.
2.5 minutes in and burst out crying and my tears are like rivers. Somebody understands me.
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Shout out to all the people here to better yourself! I love you for that! Big hug! Your doing great!
Thank you. God bless you.
Thanks for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy
at age 75, after many years of doing ok, I was "triggered" and it shocked me what it brought to the surface
Same here at age 63. Had a nervous breakdown and it just opened up the floodgates. WOW!
@@Cherrybee61 so sorry to hear this
hold on, be strong and don't give up!
Many of these are my triggers.
The clumsiness, the superhero, being ignored, having others wait on me, frustration about being depended on to help someone, being rejected, being overlooked, being overly praised......draining!
You're not alone. Hang in there!
Nika@TeamFairy
My father used to get drunk and forget to pick me up from daycare. It stayed with me forever.
Hang in there. We hope you will find Anna's teachings helpful.
Nika@TeamFairy
It just clicked in my mind too that my anxiety in the evenings is related to being forgotten at day care 😢 I'm sorry you went thru this, I'm still feeling so much anger from how I was treated as a child.
Anna, I wonder if you have any idea how many thousands of lives you have saved and improved, the zillions of relationships that you have positively deepened, the many open minded therapists that you have influenced to help their patients approach CPTSD symptoms in a new, more helpful and more healthy ways. You truly have been an absolute miracle for so many of us, providing the perfect words for previously impossible feelings and actions that have held us back for so long. Please know how much you have contributed to such deep world healing for so many of us. And thank you for your wonderful book, too.
Absolutely 💯 there's a depth and sophistication to the content on cptsd that I haven't found elsewhere.
Wow, thank you for your kind words! I'm sure Anna will appreciate this :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Every single trigger you mentioned I share…including the music thing
Your whole list has a check mark next to them.😮
I tend to pull out of groups if I don't click right away with people in the group. I was given up as a baby. My birth mom abanndonned my brother and sister when I was barely four months old. Then our birth dad took us to his in-laws home in another state.
Ptsd symptoms, no matter how much tell ourselves we're fine it shows in the actions 😪
I have the abandonment thing REALLY bad. Like really...but directed toward myself. I dont ever think ill of friends who I feel is going to throw me away. I just ask myself why will no one keep me. What am I doing that causes people to do this? Because it has to be my fault.
I dont EVER do silent treatment because that's effed up. It's been done to me and i don't want to cause other people that pain.
To be fair, I will sabotage relationships. Leave them before they leave me. I'm always waiting for it to happen in the back of my mind.
I have struggled to being left out over the years..
Anna, It's amazing how I can relate to what you're saying on a deep level but I could never find the words to express. Thank you for what you are doing. ❤
You are so welcome!
This is what I think about you helping so many people Ms Fairy, ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You explaned me exactly what is happening to me. I didn't understand why I reacted with strong emotion in some situations. The people sometimes told me, I overreacted the situation. (Not gaslighting.) I didn't understand why it was so uncomfortable when my actual partner spent time with his ex and tell me I was too jealous. Thank you very much for your video!
Oh Anna i cried when you said about your father and the letters that he left you. One of my biggest fears are that my parents are gonna die and I will never heal my relationship as I want with them😢
I wish I could like this video 1,000 times. Listening to you talk about me and feeling understood has me in uncontrollable tears. ❤ I'm working on myself and I needed this video.
We're all rooting for you :) -Calista@TeamFairy
I got really triggered today, when I went to my sisters house for dinner. On the coffee table was a memorable photo album, that my sister had put together for my nephew. I scrolled through it and there was a photo of loads of people, including grandparents, other aunts but not one photo of me. I could feel myself turning the pages looking for myself. I turned to my nephew and said oh not one photo of me, that will be good not to remember me. Not his fault, he hadn't put it together. He felt bad too and put his hand on my shoulder. I honestly don't know how I didn't cry and get up and say i was going home.
When I got home later it was like my world came to an end 😢 I have so much neglect from my family, especially own sons. How do you cope with this 😢
@@dianemower7422 oh honey. I understand you. I see you.
Sorry that happened. Do you or your nephew have a camera/cameraphone? Take a smiley picture together, get it printed and send to him - for the album if there was space or in a frame if not. :)
@RaefonB Thank you for understanding. I am 60, and this is my life. It's embarrassing and I tend not to draw attention to it because it makes the situation worse. I've always told I'm too sensitive 🥺
@@dianemower7422Ah, I understand. Fingers crossed that it was just an oversight, but you know your family and I don't. Hope things get better for you asap.
I hear you. Hang in there. I think you may like The Daily Practice. It is a great way to process fears and resentment and to release all unwanted emotions. It's a free course that you can find here: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Give it a try. Many people feel better right after they try it!
Nika@TeamFairy
Thank you for speaking to this, having emotional flashbacks has been a scary part of my life experience ive never known how to name them and get out of them and so they in themselves have become a thing ive feared happening again because theyre so scary. Knowing about them is part of managing and tending to it, thanks again ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your triggers! I relate SO MUCH! Thank you! 🥰
That fear left alone!! Although I learn not to show when left out as I feel because they used to invite me and I just make excuse as I do not like to bitch about the people who is not there or worried I might say something that will get me into trouble! Now they stop inviting me! Thats ok! I organised my own and was surprised that people came . i was so anxious that nobody will turn up to my daughter’s birthday party !! They turned up all of them!! I still find difficult to believe that people ever like me! I still have a long way to go! Your book Re-Regulate helped me to uncover why? So thank you for your videos and book I can see myself making small progress!!
Some of these triggers remind me of people with sensory issues or misophonia. Neurodivergent/autism/ADHD
There are overlap. Many of the syntoms are similar.
Fit in what's that? I'm the queen of isolation. I was raised by a pack of narcissists wolves. That was out for blood. Isolation was my only peace. Still is. I'll try but I'm frightened.
I understand it can be frightening at the beginning but it is so worth it! The Daily Practice can support you in this process because it is a great way to process fears and resentment. Give it a try, if you haven't already! Here's a link to the free course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Nika@TeamFairy
This is a great video! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences, it's been really helpful really helpful. ❤️
I'm so glad the video was helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy
Being Bullied and Abused from childhood with Nobody to report those frequent incidents, nobody to stand up for me, + growing up in a Survival environment with that " ALL MAN FOR HIMSELF" ideology, today I'm an adult who can not Forgive ANYBODY, because that's only way I stand up for myself, address my grievances with my offender in an Extremely Ruthless REVENGE/Way... That way, the person will never Dare Mess with me, EVER AGAIN.
Honestly, I'm beginning to feel tired of those characteristics I think I need help to overcome that Retain grievances then Revenge later to people who hurt/offend me....
Help.
We absolutely understand. Daily Practice (a free course) can be a good first step. If you want to go deeper, Anna has a whole course on Healing Childhood PTSD.
Free Daily Practice: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Healing CPTSD course: bit.ly/CCF_HCPTSD
Nika@TeamFairy
A rerun look back video
Thank you for your insight! What results have you achieved with Normotim? 🙏
I love you Anna Runcus ❤🥰
"Runcus," LOL
Anna thanks for sharing
Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
I heard Normotim can reduce dopamine release, which may make it easier to drop habits tied to pleasure, like smoking or overeating.
The best comeback I've heard for getting interrupted is: "Why don't *you* talk for a while, and *I'll* do all the interrupting?"
For me it was, “I’m sorry, did the middle of my sentence interrupt the beginning of yours?” But I like that one, too!
I grew up in an abusive and neglectful environment. I'm the youngest of 5 with much older siblings - I feel like I come from a completely different generation. My siblings were all jealous of me for being young when my parents became wealthy while they were all becoming adults. I felt like I had 6 parents. My mother drank heavily (I recently realized she was sexually abused as a child.) Her father sexually abused me when I was 5 (forced oral). My brother also made a sexually coercive comment to me when I was about the same age (my brother and I have a 6+ year age gap). I was raised to be silent and not have opinions (female submissiveness). I stopped performing academically. I was also ostracized by classmates for having a sexually suggestive last name. I reported the abuse of my grandfather, my parents immediately removed me from the situation but then allowed him back into my home and daily life including letting me go on trips to the store in his VW camper bus (complete with a mattress). I dissociated for 30+ years. My sexual abuse from my grandfather was one of several family secrets. My mother triggered my memories of abuse after he died. My brother always says I overreact but I never discussed his sexually coercive abuse with him. He recently told me to calm down and I reminded him of his sexual coercion. Considering I managed to have intermittent interactions with him over the last 55+ years without confronting that subject, I think I underreacted and he's just a gaslighting narcissist who continues to infantilize and silence me by judging me as overreactive. He deserved my anger - I finally stood up for myself. I have gone completely no contact.
Anna, I love your videos, but I don't seem to find any on how to confront the abuser. I feel I stood up for myself and acted appropriately, but I'm seeing no validation of that.
Yes I did learn the slow way...adult trash took that away so why would I ever keep another or want another?
What do you think about using Normotim for panic attacks?
What do you think about the vitamins in Normotim?
I feel personally attacked and like i'm talking to my mom's sister. Thanks!!!
Feeling like half of Americans have no compassion and live in an alternate reality and the rest of us live with PTSD. 😢
🎯
If you only came up with this because of politics, Anna specifically calls you out for displacing your emotional issues. If you mean people generally lack compassion, sure, but "muh Americans".
It's like this all over the world. People are just "sleepwalking" except the ones who are healing.
My sweet heart ❤
@@JaMeshuggah Are you saying 'Muh Americans' as a way to imply @itspersonal3351 is a redneck? I hope the irony is not lost upon the people who try to claim Tolerance and then display the opposite on an hourly basis. Thank God this time the silent and sane have spoken with their votes.
Is there a written list of triggers the 22 you talked about I’ve missed some
How do you feel when using Normotim with lithium ascorbate?
Do you think lithium ascorbate in Normotim plays a role in weight management?
What features of Normotim do you think are most beneficial for users?
Can lithium ascorbate support your mental health journey with Normotim?
what is the difference between disregulation and disassociation and how do you know if you have DID(splits)?
For DID, you'd need to talk to a mental health professional.
...a nasty comment sitting there like a turd...hahahahahaha what a great comparison! Flush that turd 💩 I love the compilations of the symptoms and can relate to them. Thank-you for your thoughts and healing guidance. Have a great day 🙂
" Like a chicken pox virus" 😅 you're not wrong, but I'm dead ♥️ or like TB?
Do you believe Normotim can support a healthy lifestyle?
I'm a late bloomer too.
40:42
Have you seen a difference in your mood from lifestyle changes while taking Normotim?
I have a question for all my trauma family friends and Anna I am currently suffering with mental health after I smoked weed. I am not a weed person however the day I smoked the last 3 years before which dropped me in a panic attack 1s I got my 1st panic attack I smoked 1 full pack of cigarettes at 1 time and I was literally crying and thinking I am going to die and I went to sleep 2nd day i woke up I was still alive😅. Then I quit my addiction all together 1 time smoking, alcohol, weed, pornography. Some additions still I have. And in 3 years of addiction free journey i realised I have ADHD, anxiety, depression and a lot. In all this condition i found 1 more CPTSD which is horrible for me. That is my childhood trauma my sexual abuse at age 10. What can I do for this ( I went to the AA meeting and I also shared my trauma with some of my friends ) still I am in this trap what can I do please give me some suggestions 🙏
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I highly recommend The Daily Practice (a free course). It can be a good first step. If you want to go deeper, Anna has a whole course on Healing Childhood PTSD.
Free Daily Practice: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Healing CPTSD course: bit.ly/CCF_HCPTSD
Nika@TeamFairy
I hate the word triggered. Is there no better word?
it's used to mean a lot of things, but here, in my work, it means "a dysregulated nervous system response has begun"
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That fear left alone!! Although I learn not to show when left out as I feel because they used to invite me and I just make excuse as I do not like to bitch about the people who is not there or worried I might say something that will get me into trouble! Now they stop inviting me! Thats ok! I organised my own and was surprised that people came . i was so anxious that nobody will turn up to my daughter’s birthday party !! They turned up all of them!! I still find difficult to believe that people ever like me! I still have a long way to go! Your book Re-Regulate helped me to uncover why? So thank you for your videos and book I can see myself making small progress!!