Look here little miss petunia, I can’t tell you how much you’ve inspired me when it comes to school. I’ve hit some major road blocks with my schooling, and it’s been super discouraging. I know we can’t see everything of course, so my perception isn’t reality (talking about your life) however your passion shines through, and it really makes me feel like I can do it all -I can work full time and do school and read and also spend time with people that I love. and life is so stressful, but I wanted to tell you how much just watching you talk about school even when you are in the pits, has helped me see that I’m not alone. I’m going to be a nurse, so my heart and my brain have been in this battle. Something like...why is it taking me so long and I feel so lost?! Just keep being positive about yourself too! It’s so easy to tell someone else something, but you’re trying and with each down fall I pray you see the silver lining, or you can keep that goal you have tucked away in your heart and keep going! Because you’re smart and awesome too! With killer bangs and eyeshadow! You’re a busy bee! Thanks for being you!
ik this is not my business but i started off with jane austen i would recommend sense and sensibility. i used to struggle to get into classics but austen in general is somewhat accessible and honestly an amazinggggggg author
I would recommend “The Count of Monte Cristo” by Alexandre Dumas, it’s very thick but the story is really engaging as it is a revenge plot. I remember reading it as a high schooler (my native language is not English) and didn’t have issue with arcane language that usually plagues classics.
I know Noelle wasn’t feeling too good recently, I feel like you can tell in her recent videos that she seems a little down. I don’t mean this in a hurtful way, I just want Noelle to know that there’s no pressure to put out videos for us if she needs a break ! 😊 If you see this Noelle, hope you’re okay and we’re sending all our love and support 🌸🧡✨ Also really appreciate your honesty about mental health and how you’re feeling ! Loved the video 🌿🥰 Edit : just finished the video, and you are awesome and smart ✨
Anyone else wanna see a video with Noelle’s mum? Like a video of them doing a book tag or just talking about their favourite books would be so fun! Hope you feel better soon ❤️
I do that too! My boyfriend is more the type where he doesn't like that I don't get my money back for the amount I spent on the books I'm unhauling, if that makes sense, but I'd happily send my unhauls to a used bookstore for someone else to love. And it leaves space for more beauties!!
You push yourself really hard it seems. I hope you have time soon for some genuine rest. Whenever I catch myself "hustling", I remember this quote I found once: "When it comes to a decision between dissapointing yourself or them, never choose yourself", meaning don't do what you think you "should" do. Rest :)
thank you for being so candid with your journey about feeling the joy while doing things you love, i have been struggling with that a lot lately, so thank you
I have literally re-watched every single video you've ever posted because it was the only thing that lifted my spirits in this difficult period of my life. I clicked so fast because I was impatiently waiting for your next video 😭 you're genuinely the only UA-camr that I watch on repeat, I love how true and real you are and I think a lot of people love your content because you don't try to be someone you're not when you face the camera ☺️ ❤️
Mental health can be so difficult since it's not something that you can physically see such as a broken leg. But it's just as important! I hope you can get some relief soon! You mentioned going to a therapist. I've been going for over a year now and I love it. Therapy helps so much I recommend it to everyone. Sending love and well wishes!
It’s okay to not feel okay. Your honesty surrounding your mental health is beautiful. The fact that you’re sharing that part of yourself publicly is really brave and inspiring. You’re so loved by this community. 💛
I'd love to see a book shelf tour since you rearranged them. I'm also curious how much your Stephen King collection has grown. But seriously, you could just sit there reading the phone book (do those even exist anymore) and I'd rush to watch it. Love your videos so so much.
Thank you for being honest about mental health. I've been in a depression and the accompanying anxiety have both been kicking my ass the last 6 weeks in particular--but anyway, I love your channel and you and the whole booktube community. Love and light to all of us. We are all magic--we just forget that sometimes. Like, Dumbledore said: "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
honey babyyyy ❤️ I totally understand being in a mental state where you just can't see the good. but I just want you to know that you are so awesome!! you've got a lot on your plate with grad school, a full-time job, a youtube channel, plus just trying to live a life. you're doing so great, and seeing your videos brings me so much joy! thank you for being honest about your mental health. you don't need to share what you don't want to, but it's so nice to see other people dealing with life and not pretending everything is perfect. you're doing your best, and we love you!
you are such a well-loved human, ily 💕 pls be kind to yourself and we understand if you need to take a break, all we want is just you feeling a lot better about yourself ❤️
hi noelle! i don't usually comment on videos, but I just wanted to say how much i love yours. i'm also in grad school getting my master's in film, and the amount of self-doubt and fear i've recently been feeling has been bordering on debilitating. i'm so sorry that you're struggling, but your honesty and willingness to share your struggles have made me feel way less alone. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i look forward to every video you post. i hope you start feeling better soon. you are so awesome and intelligent, and you bring so many people joy.
Noelle your reading vlogs just got me through the last 3 days. I was stressed out by a task at work that did not give me meaning or joy, but I had to meet a deadline regardless. Playing your reading vlogs on the background grounded me and helped my brain focus rather than wondering to dark places. Your determination and self-discipline carried me through. As a person who struggle with negative self-talk as well, I can relate to how you are feeling. I would like to thank you by saying a few kind words: - You are emotionally intelligent for being self-aware of feelings and when you need mental health breaks. That is SMART! - You are resourceful for coming up with ideas and finding solutions when you get stuck, such as brainstorming with your friends after a disappointing chat with your prof. That is another way your smartness shines. - You are kind and generous to students new to your program by telling them you understand their anxiety and offering your support - You are loving and thoughtful towards friends and family - You show integrity by aligning your actions with your value (re: subscription box) - You are brave for speaking about mental health openly Wishing you all the best!! - Annie
Oh, Noelle, I have been feeling the exact why you are describing for yourself. I have been very unhappy in my current job, so I finally secured another, but my mental health is so bad I'm terrified I will fail at this new opportunity. But, the people around me believe in me and the people around you know you got this! We all love you and believe in you. I know it is hard to remember that sometimes. Sending love and positive vibes!
i know you don’t have any social media anymore so i’m not really sure how to get in touch/personally message you so imma just leave this here lol. kinda embarrassed that people are gonna read this but fuck it. the last 3 years for me have been so fucking crazy. covid, my 4 year relationship ended, i cut ties with my best friend, i lost both my parents a year apart to cancer, and mentally it’s just all been too much for too long. cliche but true: i can always count on watching your videos and feeling so soothed and comforted by you, even when you’re just talking about books. you are literally the sister i never had but i love with all my heart and inspires me everyday to be passionate, kind, motivated, and happy. also watching you graduate your masters and getting married and are just fucking crushing it life doing youtube, reading, and having a full time job just makes me feel so full and inspired and joyous and just all the things for you idk i just really wanted to tell you how much i fucking love you and yeah that’s all
Thank you so much for sharing this vulnerability with me - I am so, so sorry to hear how hard the last few years have been, I truly can’t even imagine what you’ve been through and my heart feels for you. I’m so glad my videos could give you any bit of joy - that was seriously so sweet to read ❤️ love you
Hey, Noelle. Just wanted to say a little thank you. Your videos have really done so much for me. They got me through lockdown last year, which happened right after I experienced something traumatic and then had to move because of lockdown - entering a completely new and unfamiliar situation. Your channel became a safe space for me. You spread joy because it exists in you. Don't forget that :) You are beautiful person. Thank you for the joy you spread on this channel and the comfy, homey atmosphere you create here. Much love xx
Noelle, first off this video was wonderful as per usual and my Saturday morning was started by watching this and having a lovely cup of tea. I just wanted to comment and say that it seems like this semester has been particularly brutal for students everywhere and people's mental health has severely tanked. I'm so sorry you're having a really rough time. I'm glad to see you're getting professional help, and I hope you're just able to take things step by step, one day at a time. When you said you don't feel joy about things anymore, I related so hard because I remembered having that exact realization myself a couple of years back. Please know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. And since you're such a bubbly, sunshiny person, you're probably extra harsh on yourself for not being "up" all the time. Please be kind to yourself mentally, keep up good CBT habits and know that you're wonderful and intelligent and beautiful. There are always people in your comments sections talking about how your videos have gotten them through hard times and that's so true because you're such an amazing person! That being said, though -- bitch, allow yourself time to do *nothing*!!! When was the last time you just completely chilled out without thinking about filming or editing or work or school or being productive in some way? I'm sure people would rather you didn't upload for ages if it meant you got some quality brain-rest time. Anyway, sorry for the long ass comment but yeah, just keep muddling on through these murky waters and just focus on the small things, and be patient with yourself. You'll get through it xxx
Noelle, you truly are a ray of sunshine and so funny and smart and genuine! Thank you for being honest about your mental health journey. It is comforting to know even a ray of sunshine has rainy days. I hope you feel better soon because I love you and love seeing you excited and happy. It's okay not to be okay though. Thank you for showing that you are just like the rest of us and have down days. Just know that you are not alone and there are brighter days coming. You bring me so much joy and laughter and you make me so excited to read! I love you and your channel!
I’m glad your professor was flexible for your summer schedule! And I hope things are better today! You are smart and amazing! I used to tell my members to make a list of things you know you’re good at or the things you’ve accomplished in your life and look back on those when you’re having a hard day. I know we only see a snippet of your life, but you show your intelligence, kindness, strength and humor in all your videos! I hope that you know you make our dark days a little brighter with your smile! Sending you a hug virtual hug!!!
Oh Noelle I wish you lots of little happy moments and surround yourself with people who help to lift you up when you are feeling down. Your mom seems like a great person for that job. Sending you love and light.
Back again after finishing your video. Your outro made me misty 🖤 I feel you. I understand whole heartedly. I just wanted to say that I'm so glad I found you on booktube. Every time I see you uploaded a video it makes me smile because I know you're about to unleash that infectious megawatt smile. You are a delight. 🖤🥰
I love that you openly speak about your mental health struggles because lately I’ve been feeling exactly the same - makes me feel less alone! You’re so amazing and can’t tell you how much I appreciate you ❤️
My mental health has been trash lately. And like you said it's it'll be okay then all of a sudden I'm on the verge of tears and can't figure out why. I think a lot of us are struggling lately. with the 1 million things going on in the world and our own lives.
Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. I hope you get to feeling better mentally and start enjoying things again. Also, it would be so fun to see you grab some books from the little free libraries next time you have some books you want to give away. It would be nice to follow you around your city and see what sort of books people are reading in your area. Love your content, whatever it is!
Sending you love and light 💛 hope you took good care of yourself this week as well. For what it’s worth, you are awesome and smart too! Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic. Hope this week is brighter!
As exams have finished, I have been reading The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt. I'm really enjoying it. I've also been watching loads of anime and writing some poetry. It's nice to relax so much after finishing school properly.
I've started watching you last month and basically binged all your videos because I think you're such a cool and interesting person and have a great judge on books and writing! I'm currently listening to The Whisper Man and loved Writers and Lovers beforehand and its from your recommendations and amazing videos. I'm so sorry you're going through a bad mental health episode right now and how upset you were at the end of this video, but know there's so many people behind you and wishing you all the best. I hope summer treats you well and can't wait to see more of your content over these next months but more importantly that you take time for your mental health are happier in yourself too. Thanks again! ❤
Hi. First I love watching your videos, you are great at it. Second, just wanted to say that you are not alone. I suffer from depression and anxiety and sometimes it just gets triggered out of nowhere. It really ruins your day, but I have found that going on a walk with my pup is the best remedy. Hope you have an beautiful week and stay strong!
Thank you for sharing your mental health journey. I appreciate that you shared your struggle to find joy. I have named that negative voice in my head Judith and sometimes I have to yell, "SHUT UP JUDITH!" It's pretty cathartic. I love your reading vlogs. I think you are beautiful and smart and you have the loveliest blue eyes. I also think it's cute that right after you say that you aren't feeling like rating things anymore that you look and get excited when a book is rated 4 stars on goodreads! :) Big hugs!
Oh my goodness you are your momma’s twin!! How precious 🥺 I just finished Between the World and Me. Now I’m starting The Fifth Season tonight! Love your vlogs and how candid you are with the internet. You seem like a genuinely great person. Sending all positive vibes your way ✨
I agree about the Friends reunion. There was a lot of fanfare but my favorite parts where when the 6 of them just talked amongst themselves. Plus like, out of all the guest stars who got a shoutout, no mention of Paul Rudd?? hmmm
As I Lay Dying is absolutely incredible. The Sound and the Fury is difficult af. I recommend reading As I Lay Dying first, just to get into the groove of Faulkner’s writing style. The Sound and the Fury might be easier to understand with another Faulkner under your belt. I also recommend picking up a study guide book of some kind. Just a suggestion, of course! You’re brilliant, Noelle! Sending lots of love! Happy reading! ❤️📚
If you can not tell it to yourself at the moment, I will: you are awesome and you are smart! And your videos, jokes and simply your super sweet and funny being makes my day! Thank you so much for sharing your struggles. You are not alone in this! Sending you love and strength to get through the crappy parts 💕
i've literally been rewatching ur videos and i reached passed ur isolation favorites video already,,, just DESPERATE to see my fave strawberry gal and now we have been BLESSED with a new video i am so EXCITED AAAAAAAAAA
You got this! Be kind to yourself too. I felt every word you said at the end of your video. Why do our brains have to do us like that!? 😭❤️ Sending you love.
I can totally relate to the struggle with feeling joy and feeling motivated even to do the things you love these days. I think a lot of feelings from the past year are catching up to a lot of us. We've all been through so much along with our own unique experiences and struggles and it is so okay to feel overwhelmed. I loved the vlog and I hope you are feeling better! I hope you have more days with joy than struggle days coming up in your future
My sweet little turtle dove, you are fabulous. I too suffer with my mental health, and know it can change in a heartbeat. I can have had the loveliest day and still end up crying. It's how it goes. This is a bad patch, but look how you're still posting and creating, even though you have so much to contend with?! I did my Masters degree whilst working full time, and did my dissertation during the pandemic lockdown last year. You are a soldier, and I not only am proud of you, I look up to you and how awesome you are. Love you my strawberry shortcake, much love from the UK xxxxxx
aww Noelle i'm sorry you weren't feeling great, your videos bring me so much joy and just know that you are loved and all your feelings are valid xx ❤️
I noticed that you talked about people watching a lot in this video and that feeling of know people have lives that they would lull live after you part and i wanted to let you know there a word for it! Sonder-the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own-populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness-
Hi Noelle. I just want to say that I'm sorry you are dealing with mental health issues and want to send you a virtual hug.🤗 It hurts my heart to see anyone deal with depression and feeling so down on themselves. I deal with it too, so I know how it can just zap all of the joy from you without warning. It will get better. We just have rough patches in life unfortunately, but thankfully they don't last. Take care of yourself above all else. I will be praying for you and all the while wishing you well. Sending love and hugs!
Thank you so much for being honest and speaking out about how you have been struggling with your mental health. As someone who finds it really difficult to talk about my own mental health problems it is soooo inspiring and reassuring to hear someone I admire also goes through these things too. You are so strong ❤️ Be kind to yourself, be your own best friend and take the time you need. All of the Covid free hugs and well wishes from Ireland x
💛🧡❤️💜💙💚 hoping you all the best. Human beings are so resilient, strong, and mailable. That’s just the baseline. Luckily you are also witty, creative, entertaining, empathetic, and intelligent. Those are a lot of bonuses to the original package, ha. It’s easy to lose sight of that but luckily we (those watching) get to see from a third perspective and we clearly see a lot of things we like or there wouldn’t be so many of us here.
Hi, Noelle! About short stories: there is a book 'the joy luck club' by Amy Tan. Stories about 4 daughters and their mothers, who had totally different life problems in China, and now they are in America, dealing with loss and thoughts and everything there is. I loved the cultural beautiful things that you notice throughout the book. And sobbed a little... I'm pretty sure, you will like it, such an unusual read!
I'm so excited for summer vacation as I will be off work, having nice weather AND CAN FINALLY READ MISERY!! also thank you for bringing so much happiness to us during lockdowns 💓💓
Many of us struggle with mental health (anxiety is my main issue), so please know you are not alone. You are clearly an intelligent, passion person. I’m in my 30s now, and there are plenty of difficulties, but I do feel happier and less stressed than in my 20s(& that is with an autoimmune condition/chronic health issues). Hang in there. 💙
You're already very successful and have done what most cannot do and what many dream of! From what I've seen about you you're a very hard-working, sincere and motivated character and that's probably why you're such a success here. You're doing so well! We're all excited to see your face pop up on the screen and it's because we see something great in you. You're doing a great job and I hope you'll feel happier soon
Hi Noelle, thank you for sharing how you’re feeling and being open. Your videos always bring me such joy and it’s comforting to see that I am not alone in some of my darker moments. I hope you’re sweet to yourself too, you deserve all the best! Thanks for being you!
you’re so smart, strong, charismatic and beautiful!!! nothing wrong with not being ok but when your brain is being nasty, just know that we still love you and are proud of you 💓💓💓
This video really was just SO MUCH FUN. Love these little candid moments with you, Noelle. Also, can we all agree just how cute is Noelle's mom?! Clearly where Noelle gets all that sass from, haha! Love to see it. ❤️❤️
Hey Noelle, I’ve been watching your videos for ages but I never comment. I just saw that last clip and I just wanted to pop in here and say I’m sending you my best vibes and hope you’re doing okay. The world is so crazy right now and that doesn’t make anything easier. I don’t know you… but your videos make my days a little better, and for that, you are wonderful and I’m really grateful for you!! Keep going sunshine!! Big hugs xx
I agree with you re: the Friends reunion- the best part was when it was just the core cast chatting and reminiscing, the stuff with the audience didn’t feel as authentic. I liked hearing from the international fans and guest stars too!
I'm so sorry for this really hard time you're having. I relate whole heartedly with your mental health issues. You are a fascinating, smart, and funny lady and I enjoy your content so much because of the YOU aspect of the videos. You always have interesting things to share, great perspectives on life/books, and it looks like you have a great life carved out for yourself in SF. I know it's hard to see these things for yourself when you're in the middle of a down period in your mental health, but I hope having other people say so helps.
I live in the Middle East so getting new books is often slow. We rely on the second hand market a lot but with people not traveling the same, even this has proved difficult. I did, however, recently discover a small charity book stall in the mall so I went to donate some books. As I placed the books into the donation box, I happened to spy a copy of ‘The Silent Patient’. I have heard you (and others) mention this book and was intrigued to read it but gave up hope of finding a copy any time soon. I guess when a book is meant to be, it’s meant to be. I hope I like it as I am so looking forward to ‘The Maidens’, sounds right up my street. Thanks for your vlog, I always really enjoy them. Take care and stay safe, Tx!
I read an article that said Matthew Perry had dental surgery shortly before the reunion which is why he wasn’t talking much. But I agree I wanted to here more from him
I'm currently reading Ariadne and its being quite enjoyable so far! From what I have read it's mostly about her personal story, not that of the minotaur or the others in the original myth. I'm really liking how we are seeing the women's perspectives of a lot of greek mythology now though, because often they are a key part of how the men became heroes and are too often forgotten. Also the cover is stunning.
I’ve been reading Severance on your recommendation and really digging it, so thank you. Also reading 100 Years of Solitude which is a real trip. If you are on a short story kick, try The Lonesome Bodybuilder, a collection of short stories by Yokiko Motoya, with the longest story being about a woman who wants to build muscles and her husband oblivious to her changes, as well as some surrealist stories that are like magical realism.
hi Noelle I want you to know that I love your videos and they have helped me when I feel anxious or down. Your sweet and bubbly personality is enjoyable. I love how real you are about mental health and being honest with us. Thank you for sharing your books with us have a great day :)
I love that you had a such a productive weekend. I’m sorry that you struggled at the end but I’m glad you are able to share and be so open with us! Loved that mom cameo, she’s adorable. Stay strong you wonderful human you! 🥰
My grandma and I used to sit on the benches in our town and people-watch. It’s one of my fondest memories of my grandma 👵 That and the amazing pancakes she made me, those were the best! 🥰
Hi Noelle!! You’re awesome. You’re smart. Your videos bring so many people joy, and your genuine and wonderful personality shines through with each one. I hope today is a peaceful one for you. I’m sorry some days are tough. I know how exhausting that can be, and I know you’ve got this. Thinking of you & wishing you well 💖
I LOVED the friends reunion but I TOTALLY agree, I wanted to hear more from Matthew Perry!! He's overcome so much in his life and I wanted to hear more about that and how his struggles affected his experience on the show. Even the little tidbits about his like debilitating need to be funny and to make people laugh was REALLY interesting, but I would've loved to have heard more
I love your videos♥️I’m sorry that you’re going through mental health struggles. I’ve been going through them too lately with my MBA and work, etc. But you were what inspired me to start reading this year and I thank you for all of your great recommendations. Hope you start feeling better soon♥️
You have so inspired me to up my reading life. Am tackling back list stuff & loving it. So please know that you make a difference. A big difference, to many many people, my friend. ❤
I have the same issue with doing starred reviews. I start questioning, way too hard, how exactly I'm deciding what constitutes a 4 vs a 5. I start overthinking, and for that reason I almost never actually give a rating.
I love you so much!! I have one of these days again, where I was feeling completely fine but when the tiniest incident happens I'm feeling unwell and bad... It's really reasuring to see that I am not the only one who has such feelings. ❤
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from this moment on i will only be referring to barnes and noble as "barnie" thank you
YES!!!
Look here little miss petunia, I can’t tell you how much you’ve inspired me when it comes to school. I’ve hit some major road blocks with my schooling, and it’s been super discouraging. I know we can’t see everything of course, so my perception isn’t reality (talking about your life) however your passion shines through, and it really makes me feel like I can do it all -I can work full time and do school and read and also spend time with people that I love.
and life is so stressful, but I wanted to tell you how much just watching you talk about school even when you are in the pits, has helped me see that I’m not alone. I’m going to be a nurse, so my heart and my brain have been in this battle. Something like...why is it taking me so long and I feel so lost?!
Just keep being positive about yourself too! It’s so easy to tell someone else something, but you’re trying and with each down fall I pray you see the silver lining, or you can keep that goal you have tucked away in your heart and keep going! Because you’re smart and awesome too! With killer bangs and eyeshadow! You’re a busy bee! Thanks for being you!
I couldn’t have said it better 👏🏼 sending all the love to noelle and everyone feeling the stress of work+school life 🧡🧡
could you do a ‘which classic books are worth reading’ vid after your academic summer tbr? love the vid :)
ik this is not my business but i started off with jane austen i would recommend sense and sensibility. i used to struggle to get into classics but austen in general is somewhat accessible and honestly an amazinggggggg author
i think rebecca is really accessible to start with and kinda gothic
@@susieidk9434 Rebecca is AWESOME
I would recommend “The Count of Monte Cristo” by Alexandre Dumas, it’s very thick but the story is really engaging as it is a revenge plot. I remember reading it as a high schooler (my native language is not English) and didn’t have issue with arcane language that usually plagues classics.
it sounds silly, but children’s classics are the place to start! i reccomend little women, anne of green gables and heidi by johanna spyri!
I know Noelle wasn’t feeling too good recently, I feel like you can tell in her recent videos that she seems a little down. I don’t mean this in a hurtful way, I just want Noelle to know that there’s no pressure to put out videos for us if she needs a break ! 😊 If you see this Noelle, hope you’re okay and we’re sending all our love and support 🌸🧡✨
Also really appreciate your honesty about mental health and how you’re feeling !
Loved the video 🌿🥰
Edit : just finished the video, and you are awesome and smart ✨
Anyone else wanna see a video with Noelle’s mum? Like a video of them doing a book tag or just talking about their favourite books would be so fun! Hope you feel better soon ❤️
I’m so sorry to hear that you weren’t feeling great by the end of the vlog, I’ve been feeling similarly and it sucks. Hope you’re feeling better now 💜
Love the cycle of donating then buying new books that's totally me! 😂
My favorite book of May was House of Hollow!
I do that too! My boyfriend is more the type where he doesn't like that I don't get my money back for the amount I spent on the books I'm unhauling, if that makes sense, but I'd happily send my unhauls to a used bookstore for someone else to love. And it leaves space for more beauties!!
@@melanieheath9829 I've been swapping books with people it's been fun as well!
@@angeliatayslife that's my favorite thing to do too. I have a half shelf of books I'm trying to do that with hahaha
You push yourself really hard it seems. I hope you have time soon for some genuine rest. Whenever I catch myself "hustling", I remember this quote I found once: "When it comes to a decision between dissapointing yourself or them, never choose yourself", meaning don't do what you think you "should" do. Rest :)
thank you for being so candid with your journey about feeling the joy while doing things you love, i have been struggling with that a lot lately, so thank you
I have literally re-watched every single video you've ever posted because it was the only thing that lifted my spirits in this difficult period of my life. I clicked so fast because I was impatiently waiting for your next video 😭 you're genuinely the only UA-camr that I watch on repeat, I love how true and real you are and I think a lot of people love your content because you don't try to be someone you're not when you face the camera ☺️ ❤️
I do the same thing 😃
Mental health can be so difficult since it's not something that you can physically see such as a broken leg. But it's just as important! I hope you can get some relief soon! You mentioned going to a therapist. I've been going for over a year now and I love it. Therapy helps so much I recommend it to everyone. Sending love and well wishes!
Noelle we need a jewelry (especially earrings!) collection video!!
Yes!!
Dropping off your donations to a bunch of Little Libraries was the sweetest and now I need to do it!
It’s okay to not feel okay. Your honesty surrounding your mental health is beautiful. The fact that you’re sharing that part of yourself publicly is really brave and inspiring. You’re so loved by this community. 💛
I'd love to see a book shelf tour since you rearranged them. I'm also curious how much your Stephen King collection has grown. But seriously, you could just sit there reading the phone book (do those even exist anymore) and I'd rush to watch it. Love your videos so so much.
Omg I was literally just rewatching how you annotate books cannot wait to watch this!
I just got The Maidens as my BOTM pick so i’m glad you liked it 😭 i’m excited to read it!
My copy comes Tuesday!
Same!!!! I’m so excited.
saaaame :)
the goldfinch sitting in that little library 😭
Thank you for being honest about mental health. I've been in a depression and the accompanying anxiety have both been kicking my ass the last 6 weeks in particular--but anyway, I love your channel and you and the whole booktube community. Love and light to all of us. We are all magic--we just forget that sometimes. Like, Dumbledore said: "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
honey babyyyy ❤️ I totally understand being in a mental state where you just can't see the good. but I just want you to know that you are so awesome!! you've got a lot on your plate with grad school, a full-time job, a youtube channel, plus just trying to live a life. you're doing so great, and seeing your videos brings me so much joy! thank you for being honest about your mental health. you don't need to share what you don't want to, but it's so nice to see other people dealing with life and not pretending everything is perfect. you're doing your best, and we love you!
sending you and everyone all the good vibes, we all deserve it 💕
I’ve been Reading ‘the midnight library’ this week! Really loving it!
you are such a well-loved human, ily 💕 pls be kind to yourself and we understand if you need to take a break, all we want is just you feeling a lot better about yourself ❤️
YES short stories really do give you that feeling on people watching !!! That’s the perfect way to describe it!
hi noelle! i don't usually comment on videos, but I just wanted to say how much i love yours. i'm also in grad school getting my master's in film, and the amount of self-doubt and fear i've recently been feeling has been bordering on debilitating. i'm so sorry that you're struggling, but your honesty and willingness to share your struggles have made me feel way less alone. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i look forward to every video you post. i hope you start feeling better soon. you are so awesome and intelligent, and you bring so many people joy.
Noelle your reading vlogs just got me through the last 3 days. I was stressed out by a task at work that did not give me meaning or joy, but I had to meet a deadline regardless.
Playing your reading vlogs on the background grounded me and helped my brain focus rather than wondering to dark places. Your determination and self-discipline carried me through. As a person who struggle with negative self-talk as well, I can relate to how you are feeling.
I would like to thank you by saying a few kind words:
- You are emotionally intelligent for being self-aware of feelings and when you need mental health breaks. That is SMART!
- You are resourceful for coming up with ideas and finding solutions when you get stuck, such as brainstorming with your friends after a disappointing chat with your prof. That is another way your smartness shines.
- You are kind and generous to students new to your program by telling them you understand their anxiety and offering your support
- You are loving and thoughtful towards friends and family
- You show integrity by aligning your actions with your value (re: subscription box)
- You are brave for speaking about mental health openly
Wishing you all the best!! - Annie
Seeing you in this Last Clip breaks my heart 🥺 I hope you are feeling better and thank you for sharing your weekend with all of us. We love you ❤️❤️
Oh, Noelle, I have been feeling the exact why you are describing for yourself. I have been very unhappy in my current job, so I finally secured another, but my mental health is so bad I'm terrified I will fail at this new opportunity. But, the people around me believe in me and the people around you know you got this! We all love you and believe in you. I know it is hard to remember that sometimes. Sending love and positive vibes!
i know you don’t have any social media anymore so i’m not really sure how to get in touch/personally message you so imma just leave this here lol. kinda embarrassed that people are gonna read this but fuck it.
the last 3 years for me have been so fucking crazy. covid, my 4 year relationship ended, i cut ties with my best friend, i lost both my parents a year apart to cancer, and mentally it’s just all been too much for too long. cliche but true: i can always count on watching your videos and feeling so soothed and comforted by you, even when you’re just talking about books. you are literally the sister i never had but i love with all my heart and inspires me everyday to be passionate, kind, motivated, and happy.
also watching you graduate your masters and getting married and are just fucking crushing it life doing youtube, reading, and having a full time job just makes me feel so full and inspired and joyous and just all the things for you
idk i just really wanted to tell you how much i fucking love you and yeah that’s all
Thank you so much for sharing this vulnerability with me - I am so, so sorry to hear how hard the last few years have been, I truly can’t even imagine what you’ve been through and my heart feels for you. I’m so glad my videos could give you any bit of joy - that was seriously so sweet to read ❤️ love you
Hey, Noelle.
Just wanted to say a little thank you.
Your videos have really done so much for me. They got me through lockdown last year, which happened right after I experienced something traumatic and then had to move because of lockdown - entering a completely new and unfamiliar situation. Your channel became a safe space for me.
You spread joy because it exists in you. Don't forget that :)
You are beautiful person. Thank you for the joy you spread on this channel and the comfy, homey atmosphere you create here.
Much love xx
Noelle, first off this video was wonderful as per usual and my Saturday morning was started by watching this and having a lovely cup of tea. I just wanted to comment and say that it seems like this semester has been particularly brutal for students everywhere and people's mental health has severely tanked. I'm so sorry you're having a really rough time. I'm glad to see you're getting professional help, and I hope you're just able to take things step by step, one day at a time.
When you said you don't feel joy about things anymore, I related so hard because I remembered having that exact realization myself a couple of years back. Please know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. And since you're such a bubbly, sunshiny person, you're probably extra harsh on yourself for not being "up" all the time. Please be kind to yourself mentally, keep up good CBT habits and know that you're wonderful and intelligent and beautiful.
There are always people in your comments sections talking about how your videos have gotten them through hard times and that's so true because you're such an amazing person! That being said, though -- bitch, allow yourself time to do *nothing*!!! When was the last time you just completely chilled out without thinking about filming or editing or work or school or being productive in some way? I'm sure people would rather you didn't upload for ages if it meant you got some quality brain-rest time.
Anyway, sorry for the long ass comment but yeah, just keep muddling on through these murky waters and just focus on the small things, and be patient with yourself. You'll get through it xxx
I literally just went on UA-cam to see if you posted a new video and here I am blessed by this
Noelle, you truly are a ray of sunshine and so funny and smart and genuine! Thank you for being honest about your mental health journey. It is comforting to know even a ray of sunshine has rainy days. I hope you feel better soon because I love you and love seeing you excited and happy. It's okay not to be okay though. Thank you for showing that you are just like the rest of us and have down days. Just know that you are not alone and there are brighter days coming. You bring me so much joy and laughter and you make me so excited to read! I love you and your channel!
I’m glad your professor was flexible for your summer schedule! And I hope things are better today! You are smart and amazing! I used to tell my members to make a list of things you know you’re good at or the things you’ve accomplished in your life and look back on those when you’re having a hard day. I know we only see a snippet of your life, but you show your intelligence, kindness, strength and humor in all your videos! I hope that you know you make our dark days a little brighter with your smile! Sending you a hug virtual hug!!!
Your love for your mom makes me so happy 🥺 you are such a sweet daughter 💕
as i lay dying is honestly a trip i would love to see what you thought of it even if you don’t have to read it!
Oh Noelle I wish you lots of little happy moments and surround yourself with people who help to lift you up when you are feeling down. Your mom seems like a great person for that job. Sending you love and light.
Back again after finishing your video. Your outro made me misty 🖤 I feel you. I understand whole heartedly. I just wanted to say that I'm so glad I found you on booktube. Every time I see you uploaded a video it makes me smile because I know you're about to unleash that infectious megawatt smile. You are a delight. 🖤🥰
I haven’t had joy in a long time. I feel ya!
I love that you openly speak about your mental health struggles because lately I’ve been feeling exactly the same - makes me feel less alone! You’re so amazing and can’t tell you how much I appreciate you ❤️
My mental health has been trash lately. And like you said it's it'll be okay then all of a sudden I'm on the verge of tears and can't figure out why. I think a lot of us are struggling lately. with the 1 million things going on in the world and our own lives.
Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. I hope you get to feeling better mentally and start enjoying things again. Also, it would be so fun to see you grab some books from the little free libraries next time you have some books you want to give away. It would be nice to follow you around your city and see what sort of books people are reading in your area. Love your content, whatever it is!
Sending you love and light 💛 hope you took good care of yourself this week as well. For what it’s worth, you are awesome and smart too! Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic. Hope this week is brighter!
I hope you feel better Noelle. We love you and you inspire us all.
As exams have finished, I have been reading The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt. I'm really enjoying it. I've also been watching loads of anime and writing some poetry. It's nice to relax so much after finishing school properly.
I've started watching you last month and basically binged all your videos because I think you're such a cool and interesting person and have a great judge on books and writing! I'm currently listening to The Whisper Man and loved Writers and Lovers beforehand and its from your recommendations and amazing videos. I'm so sorry you're going through a bad mental health episode right now and how upset you were at the end of this video, but know there's so many people behind you and wishing you all the best. I hope summer treats you well and can't wait to see more of your content over these next months but more importantly that you take time for your mental health are happier in yourself too. Thanks again! ❤
Hi. First I love watching your videos, you are great at it. Second, just wanted to say that you are not alone. I suffer from depression and anxiety and sometimes it just gets triggered out of nowhere. It really ruins your day, but I have found that going on a walk with my pup is the best remedy. Hope you have an beautiful week and stay strong!
The part with her mom was so precious
Thank you for candidly sharing your mental health struggles. Love the vlogs and hope you are feeling better
Thank you for sharing your mental health journey. I appreciate that you shared your struggle to find joy. I have named that negative voice in my head Judith and sometimes I have to yell, "SHUT UP JUDITH!" It's pretty cathartic.
I love your reading vlogs. I think you are beautiful and smart and you have the loveliest blue eyes.
I also think it's cute that right after you say that you aren't feeling like rating things anymore that you look and get excited when a book is rated 4 stars on goodreads! :)
Big hugs!
Awww your mom looks so cute
Oh my goodness you are your momma’s twin!! How precious 🥺
I just finished Between the World and Me. Now I’m starting The Fifth Season tonight!
Love your vlogs and how candid you are with the internet. You seem like a genuinely great person. Sending all positive vibes your way ✨
I have been waiting for a reading volg! Whenever im in a reading slump, watching your reading vlogs always get me out of them ❤
I agree about the Friends reunion. There was a lot of fanfare but my favorite parts where when the 6 of them just talked amongst themselves. Plus like, out of all the guest stars who got a shoutout, no mention of Paul Rudd?? hmmm
As I Lay Dying is absolutely incredible. The Sound and the Fury is difficult af. I recommend reading As I Lay Dying first, just to get into the groove of Faulkner’s writing style. The Sound and the Fury might be easier to understand with another Faulkner under your belt. I also recommend picking up a study guide book of some kind. Just a suggestion, of course! You’re brilliant, Noelle! Sending lots of love! Happy reading! ❤️📚
If you can not tell it to yourself at the moment, I will: you are awesome and you are smart! And your videos, jokes and simply your super sweet and funny being makes my day! Thank you so much for sharing your struggles. You are not alone in this! Sending you love and strength to get through the crappy parts 💕
I appreciate how open you are about your struggles with mental health and I’m sending all the healing and positive vibes your way!!
i've literally been rewatching ur videos and i reached passed ur isolation favorites video already,,, just DESPERATE to see my fave strawberry gal and now we have been BLESSED with a new video i am so EXCITED AAAAAAAAAA
I’m reading the Night Swim & House in the Cerealan Sea for my book club!!
You got this! Be kind to yourself too. I felt every word you said at the end of your video. Why do our brains have to do us like that!? 😭❤️ Sending you love.
I can totally relate to the struggle with feeling joy and feeling motivated even to do the things you love these days. I think a lot of feelings from the past year are catching up to a lot of us. We've all been through so much along with our own unique experiences and struggles and it is so okay to feel overwhelmed. I loved the vlog and I hope you are feeling better! I hope you have more days with joy than struggle days coming up in your future
My sweet little turtle dove, you are fabulous. I too suffer with my mental health, and know it can change in a heartbeat. I can have had the loveliest day and still end up crying. It's how it goes. This is a bad patch, but look how you're still posting and creating, even though you have so much to contend with?! I did my Masters degree whilst working full time, and did my dissertation during the pandemic lockdown last year. You are a soldier, and I not only am proud of you, I look up to you and how awesome you are. Love you my strawberry shortcake, much love from the UK xxxxxx
I’m dying to know what the two lines were in The Maidens that made you suspicious! I just finished and wowee, I really liked it.
same!
I'm so deeply hyped that you get to read more for enjoyment 🍓
aww Noelle i'm sorry you weren't feeling great, your videos bring me so much joy and just know that you are loved and all your feelings are valid xx ❤️
I noticed that you talked about people watching a lot in this video and that feeling of know people have lives that they would lull live after you part and i wanted to let you know there a word for it!
Sonder-the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own-populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness-
Hi Noelle. I just want to say that I'm sorry you are dealing with mental health issues and want to send you a virtual hug.🤗 It hurts my heart to see anyone deal with depression and feeling so down on themselves. I deal with it too, so I know how it can just zap all of the joy from you without warning. It will get better. We just have rough patches in life unfortunately, but thankfully they don't last. Take care of yourself above all else. I will be praying for you and all the while wishing you well. Sending love and hugs!
Thank you so much for being honest and speaking out about how you have been struggling with your mental health. As someone who finds it really difficult to talk about my own mental health problems it is soooo inspiring and reassuring to hear someone I admire also goes through these things too. You are so strong ❤️ Be kind to yourself, be your own best friend and take the time you need. All of the Covid free hugs and well wishes from Ireland x
💛🧡❤️💜💙💚 hoping you all the best. Human beings are so resilient, strong, and mailable. That’s just the baseline. Luckily you are also witty, creative, entertaining, empathetic, and intelligent. Those are a lot of bonuses to the original package, ha. It’s easy to lose sight of that but luckily we (those watching) get to see from a third perspective and we clearly see a lot of things we like or there wouldn’t be so many of us here.
Hi, Noelle! About short stories: there is a book 'the joy luck club' by Amy Tan. Stories about 4 daughters and their mothers, who had totally different life problems in China, and now they are in America, dealing with loss and thoughts and everything there is.
I loved the cultural beautiful things that you notice throughout the book. And sobbed a little... I'm pretty sure, you will like it, such an unusual read!
I'm so excited for summer vacation as I will be off work, having nice weather AND CAN FINALLY READ MISERY!!
also thank you for bringing so much happiness to us during lockdowns 💓💓
those little libraries are so adorable!! I wish my country have those😭
the first book tuber that really got me into reading! thanks so much noelle for making my day with your content
Many of us struggle with mental health (anxiety is my main issue), so please know you are not alone. You are clearly an intelligent, passion person. I’m in my 30s now, and there are plenty of difficulties, but I do feel happier and less stressed than in my 20s(& that is with an autoimmune condition/chronic health issues). Hang in there. 💙
You're already very successful and have done what most cannot do and what many dream of! From what I've seen about you you're a very hard-working, sincere and motivated character and that's probably why you're such a success here. You're doing so well! We're all excited to see your face pop up on the screen and it's because we see something great in you. You're doing a great job and I hope you'll feel happier soon
Sending you the best of wishes ✨ you are enough, you are worthy, you are loved.
Hi Noelle, thank you for sharing how you’re feeling and being open. Your videos always bring me such joy and it’s comforting to see that I am not alone in some of my darker moments. I hope you’re sweet to yourself too, you deserve all the best! Thanks for being you!
you’re so smart, strong, charismatic and beautiful!!! nothing wrong with not being ok but when your brain is being nasty, just know that we still love you and are proud of you 💓💓💓
I hope you can begin to start feeling better more often this summer! You are amazing and deserve it more than anything!
This video really was just SO MUCH FUN. Love these little candid moments with you, Noelle. Also, can we all agree just how cute is Noelle's mom?! Clearly where Noelle gets all that sass from, haha!
Love to see it. ❤️❤️
Her whole channel is just sunshine☀️☀️ for me 😚
Hey Noelle,
I’ve been watching your videos for ages but I never comment. I just saw that last clip and I just wanted to pop in here and say I’m sending you my best vibes and hope you’re doing okay. The world is so crazy right now and that doesn’t make anything easier. I don’t know you… but your videos make my days a little better, and for that, you are wonderful and I’m really grateful for you!! Keep going sunshine!!
Big hugs xx
I agree with you re: the Friends reunion- the best part was when it was just the core cast chatting and reminiscing, the stuff with the audience didn’t feel as authentic. I liked hearing from the international fans and guest stars too!
I'm so sorry for this really hard time you're having. I relate whole heartedly with your mental health issues. You are a fascinating, smart, and funny lady and I enjoy your content so much because of the YOU aspect of the videos. You always have interesting things to share, great perspectives on life/books, and it looks like you have a great life carved out for yourself in SF. I know it's hard to see these things for yourself when you're in the middle of a down period in your mental health, but I hope having other people say so helps.
I live in the Middle East so getting new books is often slow. We rely on the second hand market a lot but with people not traveling the same, even this has proved difficult. I did, however, recently discover a small charity book stall in the mall so I went to donate some books. As I placed the books into the donation box, I happened to spy a copy of ‘The Silent Patient’. I have heard you (and others) mention this book and was intrigued to read it but gave up hope of finding a copy any time soon. I guess when a book is meant to be, it’s meant to be. I hope I like it as I am so looking forward to ‘The Maidens’, sounds right up my street. Thanks for your vlog, I always really enjoy them. Take care and stay safe, Tx!
I read an article that said Matthew Perry had dental surgery shortly before the reunion which is why he wasn’t talking much. But I agree I wanted to here more from him
Your videos are so soothing to me. An old New Jersey mantra: Gotta take care of number 1 before you have number 2. Put yourself first sis!!
I'm currently reading Ariadne and its being quite enjoyable so far! From what I have read it's mostly about her personal story, not that of the minotaur or the others in the original myth. I'm really liking how we are seeing the women's perspectives of a lot of greek mythology now though, because often they are a key part of how the men became heroes and are too often forgotten. Also the cover is stunning.
I’ve been reading Severance on your recommendation and really digging it, so thank you. Also reading 100 Years of Solitude which is a real trip.
If you are on a short story kick, try The Lonesome Bodybuilder, a collection of short stories by Yokiko Motoya, with the longest story being about a woman who wants to build muscles and her husband oblivious to her changes, as well as some surrealist stories that are like magical realism.
hi Noelle I want you to know that I love your videos and they have helped me when I feel anxious or down. Your sweet and bubbly personality is enjoyable. I love how real you are about mental health and being honest with us. Thank you for sharing your books with us have a great day :)
I love that you had a such a productive weekend. I’m sorry that you struggled at the end but I’m glad you are able to share and be so open with us! Loved that mom cameo, she’s adorable. Stay strong you wonderful human you! 🥰
My grandma and I used to sit on the benches in our town and people-watch. It’s one of my fondest memories of my grandma 👵 That and the amazing pancakes she made me, those were the best! 🥰
Your videos are my favourite to watch on a cosy Sunday morning ❤️
Hi Noelle!! You’re awesome. You’re smart. Your videos bring so many people joy, and your genuine and wonderful personality shines through with each one. I hope today is a peaceful one for you. I’m sorry some days are tough. I know how exhausting that can be, and I know you’ve got this. Thinking of you & wishing you well 💖
I LOVED the friends reunion but I TOTALLY agree, I wanted to hear more from Matthew Perry!! He's overcome so much in his life and I wanted to hear more about that and how his struggles affected his experience on the show. Even the little tidbits about his like debilitating need to be funny and to make people laugh was REALLY interesting, but I would've loved to have heard more
I love your videos♥️I’m sorry that you’re going through mental health struggles. I’ve been going through them too lately with my MBA and work, etc. But you were what inspired me to start reading this year and I thank you for all of your great recommendations. Hope you start feeling better soon♥️
Loved this, I am excited for your summer reading vlogs! I hope you take some time and give yourself some tlc.
You have so inspired me to up my reading life. Am tackling back list stuff & loving it. So please know that you make a difference. A big difference, to many many people, my friend. ❤
I have the same issue with doing starred reviews. I start questioning, way too hard, how exactly I'm deciding what constitutes a 4 vs a 5. I start overthinking, and for that reason I almost never actually give a rating.
I love you so much!! I have one of these days again, where I was feeling completely fine but when the tiniest incident happens I'm feeling unwell and bad... It's really reasuring to see that I am not the only one who has such feelings. ❤