I never thought I'd be able to make this video. (Sobriety, Depression, Hope)
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I never knew this video would reach so many people... it's painful to see how many of you are hurting and not wanting to exist. I've read just about every comment (there are currently over 2,200). Please know that your journeys and life experiences are valuable. Your life is worth living. I empathize with you and want all of us to find our own healthy ways of living and healing. Let's all choose to keep going and find the joy that life can bring. For me personally, seeing so much backlash online and fearing constant harassment just shoved my heart deeper into self hatred and depression. I wanted out. I don't think a lot of people understand that 4 years ago I lost an entire family, home, and a future I had fully embraced and committed to. That being said, healing is a process and I've gained so much understanding about myself and my own personal value system. I went on to gain a true partner and incredible family that loves people without an agenda. Pamela and her family (which is now mine too!) are some of the realest, kindest, and selfless people I've ever known. I'm a lucky guy. I will always strive to embrace what comes my way and will try to love Pamela with all of me. Yall hang in there. Don't let someone else's perception of your truth and existence steer you down a dangerous path. You are the driver. Sometimes we need to get off the road we've been on because it only leads to something even more hurtful. Go fuel up and try again. Your story isn't over!
I don’t wanna existe bc I have bullied in school and when I get home I just cry because I have no friends so in school I play on my own and help people but there never thank you for me helping my self
Thanks for sharing Josh. I’ve been sober now for 6 years. It isn’t easy, but anything worth having is hard to get. YOU ARE WORTH IT! 40 days is incredibly awesome dude!! 🙌🏼👏🏼👍🏼 keep it up and just know that there are real people out here in internet land that love ya from way back, and are praying for you, Pamela, and your new family...as well as your parents and the rest of your fam. Tea-Cow!!! 😂 -Stephanie 🤍🖤
@@araselirodriguez4956 you’re a good person , people are mean , kids are mean , especially in school , I let the people in my school ruin me , I dropped out of school in 7th grade just because I didn’t want to be around the people that bullied me in school , or I would act out so they thought maybe I was cool , but no , the key is to be yourself and not care what those rude kids say or think , just know that you are beautiful, you’re perfect , you’re absolutely amazing, and you are capable of anything baby. Dont ever feel like you don’t need to be here or you are not worth it because of what anyone says ❤️
So happy for you, Josh!
You prolly dont care but if you guys are stoned like me during the covid times you can watch pretty much all of the latest movies on instaflixxer. I've been binge watching with my brother lately =)
Takes a VERY strong man to tell a story like yours. You probably saved someone's life❤️
He most definitely helped saved mine ❤
@@MissJane777 I wish you all the best X
He saved mine... ♥️😭
He saved mines 😭
Thanks man
Hey josh!!!! Congrats! I’m 8 years sober! Keep it up it’s possible!
Robyn Ray congratulations!!
Congratulations!
Thanks guys!
Robyn Ray Wow! Congrats to you for 8 years 🥳🙌🏾
Wow Robyn, way to go! So inspiring ❤️❤️❤️
THIS is IT. This is the content that needs to exist. This is HONESTY and REALNESS.
You can actually SEE it in his eyes!! Bright and clear! 🥰🥰
Absolutely! Couldn't agree more.
What happened
That it is. I really felt for him. H ius heart was shattered. We have all been there. Most anyway. He was with her for many years. They often say it takes as long to get over the relationship as your were un it. However to tell anyone to kill themself or not wake up is bloody disgusting. Josh time heals all. It does.
The train lolololo you dont get much more real than that. I hope hes ok. People really NEED TO STOP TELLING PEOPLE TO GO KILL THEMSELVES OR DONT WAKE UP ETC. Its disgusting. Ulcers hurt so bad like really bad.
“I didn’t want to kill myself, but I just stopped protecting myself from all the danger in the world”. Heard this once and I don’t know why, but this was the first thing that popped in my mind when I was watching your video.
Woah...
“You are so worth it, but you cant rely on everyone else to see that”, a powerful message.
“Be nice to people” has a new meaning and I am in tears Josh. Sending love and light to you AND Pamela.... all love ❤️!!!
I haven’t seen josh like this EVER. He looks so healthy and happy. This makes me so so happy to see you like this, Josh. I enjoyed this video, keep going, you are so strong!! ☺️
Kiara The Pooh same, yes for self improvement and self realization
Thank you for telling your story Josh! I’m a therapist and I specialize in addictions. I commend your work and your honesty! Congratulations on your 40 days! One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time and sometimes one second at a time. What a gift you have to find yourself again and to be surrounded by people who love and support you.
Meghan Quinlan I’m a therapist too! I’m so proud of josh and anyone who is embarking on a healing journey.
I almost ended my life yesterday. Woke up and saw this. Thank you for this video
I’m am so genuinely happy you’re still with us. Take it a day at a time. Accomplishing little goals add up to greatness!!!
This broke my heart 😔 and I'm a complete stranger. Don't ever forget that you mean something. You deserve to be here. Stay strong. Thinking of you
Hey stranger, you’re not alone. I have been in your shoes and I know that things won’t feel normal for a long time, but please keep trying. The days, weeks, or months that it takes to feel normal might seem so heavy and hard, but you can be stronger than them. Reach out to someone if you can, if you have no one there are resources online/ over the phone. Stay strong, friend. You are worth the fight.
A Beez I am happy you are here on this earth. You have a story here and I wish you nothing but strength and a good life. Nothing is easy so many obstacles. You have strength and more than anything a purpose here 💞
L O yes! I agree no one is alone. You have made it here on this world and I wish you the best as well. Sending so much strength and blessings.
I feel so bad he was painted as the bad guy for so many years. Amazing how strong he is. Pam is such a great human
I don't think he ever was painted as a bad guy. I've always just seen it as after the divorce, people just got bored because it was difficult to watch Josh be completely different.
Everyone wanted to paint you as the bad guy in a story that they didn't even know the half of. I'm just happy that you're healing and have found peace. To anyone who wished ill will towards you, I hope they are also healing and finding peace, because no centered person would ever wish death upon someone else. Thank you for being so honest and raw about what you've experienced. It's so so refreshing.
Honestly, Josh, you seem like a completely different person in this video. I've been watching you for 6 or 7 years, and I have never seen this Josh. You are more real than ever before. You actually seem like a real, genuine person and it's refreshing. It's a good look.
3 years ago I was blacked out (this happened once a week) and i was in the kitchen. My best friend asked me what ya drinking and I said water! My husband came over and grabbed my “water” and had my best friend taste it. It was straight vodka when I could already hardly walk. That was my last drink, and i don’t even remember it. I just remember thinking “I don’t want to lie to people about this.” I had never lied to my best before but drunk me did. I have a lot more love and respect for myself these days. Some days are HARD and I want to drown out the bad days, but I find healthy ways. I am so so happy you found love for yourself. I will not drink with you today.
People it’s 2020. There’s no need to be rude, disrespectful, lie, hate, we need to be more caring and loving
“I don’t want to exist, I didn’t want to take my own life but I didn’t want to exist” this video hit home for me. I’m very much the same way, especially since having my baby 9 months ago. Struggling with depression and having a medically compromised child, made me way more depressed than I ever have been. So thank you for making this and putting my struggles into words. You deserve better.
cassidy collazo Same. After my daughter was diagnosed with a genetic disease I found a FB group of amazing moms with kids in the same disease who helped pull me through. I found i had to be around people who totally understood. Have you tried finding your group? If that sounds appealing to you I highly recommend. ♥️
This is me at this very moment and has been for 2 years. I hope you get better
I relate to u like many others do. Sending u love and prayers ❤️
Oh dear lady. I hope your ok. Depression is the worst. But you can get past it. Much love xx
Postpartum depression is a thing a lot of woman go through hope you are getting help
The man you were, endured everything you had to endure, to bring you to this place now... the man you were meant to be. You have come so far, Joshua. Being completely honest, I have been here for YEARS, I was one of those people who put your past relationship up on a pedestal, and I was heartbroken for you, and angry for you, but you have taught me that even through the darkest of times, there is light... there is hope... Pamela radiates it, and now you do to! Wishing you the absolute best! You have so much in store! I love this version of YOU! So genuine. Take care! ♥️
Josh, you are a pure, kind, loving, and caring man. It's actually helpful to hear this. Because I know there's hope for all of us who struggle with mental disorders. You are a champion.
I have been in the "I want to die, but I don't want to kill myself" head space. Honestly it's a dark and scary place to be. I'm still trying to claw out of it, because it's really really hard. You are strong and you are worth it. Congrats on your sobriety! Keep it up!
I'm there too.
@AsHLiegH-MaRie HoPe 😥
@@Winter_Dream 😔
Stay strong. Good times are coming
I’ve been there
Joshua, these past four years you’ve reacted exactly how a devastated, heartbroken man would act. You were never crazy, but made to feel crazy. You were loving, invested and kind and everything an amazing husband should be. I am so glad that you got a second chance with Pamela, she reflects back to you the truth of who you are. Your anger and pain were justified. You were always the stronger one because you took the blow. What a man you were and are and have become... refined by fire, still you... and finally free.
This is such a beautifully written response ❤️
Thank you, that’s very kind ❤️
❤️
Jade Alex that’s lovely.
What a lovely comment! This was beautiful. Truly.
Pamela is the internet’s angel. She’s so darling with you, and I love that she allows you to take up space and celebrates it.
I’ve watched you since the divorce and before the divorce. I was in a relationship and I totally understand how rough life can get. I am now pregnant and happy with a new man a year after getting out of a physically and emotionally abusive relationship and moving on, I remembered everyone thought you was the bad guy when you got in a divorce and I felt so bad because no one would let you say your piece. I at first was blind sided but over time I opened my eyes to both sides because no one really knew what happened and it was none of our business. I’m sorry I doubted you honestly and I wish you nothing but well. We all have our faults
Yesss girl. Same here. So glad you’re doing better too!!! Good luck with your pregnancy. My baby girl is almost 2 now 🥰
Congrats on your pregnancy ❤️ stay safe!
But why did people think that he was the bad guy, I remember I was thinking that he is more available person emotionally than the person he divorced with.. I am very happy though he found his way again and found a great woman who loves him and supports him very much
Ozum Oben Sendil everyone thought Joshua was abusive to her. I seen some people say that he cheated when it kinda seems the other say around. But personally for me, I saw that he was tweeting a lot about his ex wife (not gonna day her name bc it’s unnecessary) and I thought he was just bothering her when she was pregnant but over time I realized why he did what he did and I felt bad and opened to both sides.
@@kayJBayla Ohh i see.. thanks for explanation :)
*I hope this goes viral. I just feel like so many people should hear this message*
You are NOW my favorite version of you I have ever seen. I’ve been following your journey for 10 (11?) years now and I will say that 1) life will only be more beautiful from here as you maintain your sobriety and 2) you had to endure all of those 4 years of hell to bring you to be the man that God wants you to be. That voice in your head in the shower that day you decided to change your life was undoubtedly the voice of God finally breaking through to tell you what He has been trying to, all along. If only we could just listen. So thankful you exist and I know this video will help so many people. Love you, Joshua.
This is beautiful 😍
Perfectly said!
I can’t lie, I was one of the people who left his channel and kind of forgot about it after the divorce, but I’m so glad I stumbled across this video. I’m so sorry you had to go through so much, it just shows how people’s thoughtless comments can deeply affect people. And I’m sorry that you didn’t get the internet support that you deserved. Stay strong ❤️
My husband is 13 years sober- if you’re not already doing so, I highly recommend plugging into a local AA group, getting a sponsor, and working the steps. Best wishes to you on your journey.
Josh u got a grown ass 25 year old man on the verge of tears. Thank you for your words of encouragement and I'm glad to see you slowly coming back to the Josh I enjoyed watching a long time ago. Keep pushing buddy!
I celebrate 11 years sober in Sept. Keep moving forward! The sober life is so AMAZING!
Congrats
Congratulations!! That’s amazing!!!
Heather Kaiser I hope I make it to 11 years!
Yaaas! Congrats! 💜
Well done you..congratulations and best of luck going forward
Pamela was a blessing during those rough times and continues to be. I believe that God sent her back to you
So do I !
you were treated so unfairly when this whole situation happened. you reacted in a way that any normal human would, and you were destroyed for it. you did not deserve that in any way, shape, or form. so happy you’re feeling better
People don’t realize always how long it takes to heal mentally and emotionally. So proud of you and always rooting for you Josh
Have you ever considered being a motivational speaker? Maybe that’s your destiny Josh. You have a way with words that actually clicks. I’ve felt what you felt, I’ve resorted to alcohol or pills to numb it for sure. I’ve tried to fix myself on my own and it doesn’t work. But hearing your words makes a person feel like they aren’t alone but also makes something click that a new mind frame needs to happen. Who knows if this makes sense, but I really hope it’s something you may consider at some point. And if you do, it will be a goal of mine to go and watch you speak. Thank you for sharing.
I've actually had this conversation with a few people close to me within the last couple of days. Maybe this is the beginning of that journey :)
@@JoshuaDTV oh almost definitely and especially with your life experience you will be able to connect and help alot of people
andddd hey there's alot of money in it aswell Definitely go for it .
Yeeeees!!!! DO IT
This!!! Maybe all these years, the universe was preparing him for something beyond his past self!!
Monique Dolls-Bradley I was going to say the same thing. It’s definitely something to consider Josh!!
The last time alcohol touched my lips was oct 7, 1995. I was 35 then and I’m 59(60 in July ) now. You found the answer...it’s honesty . Humbly sweet honesty. Pride (if sucked down like a soda ) will eventually turn into humility and then honesty within yourself is reborn. I love it baby boy. Embrace your sobriety and your sobriety shall set you free 👍🏻. I myself am reminded of the worst sadness I’d ever felt ...is when I was drinking . You got this kid, stay humble. Your sister in sobriety ❤️✌🏻
Resonated with this, especially the part where you talked about how people get tired of hearing it over and over. I'm in that spot right now, where I dont feel like anyone wants to listen anymore, but I'm working through it with God and praying that the meaning to it all will come soon. I, too, was in a relationship that ended suddenly - not one as serious as yours, but one that broke me and changed me and made me doubt my worth. I gave all my worth away to the relationship itself and I'm desperately fighting to find my own worth again. I can't wait until the moment where I'm where you're at, with a loving spouse by my side saying "where you go I'll go" instead of "well, goodbye, good luck." I have faith it exists, and I pray every day it's worth fighting for. Thanks for this, Josh ❤
@Agnostic Atheist Ex-Christian Thank you! I've been in and out of therapy in my life... I know therapy is SO good for many people, but I have had few positive experiences. If I would get to the point where I feel like it is mandatory, I would absolutely do so. Thank you for your kindness :)
I’ve been in ur place with a sudden end of a relationship and it ruined my self esteem for a long time along with alot of other issues that followed and I eventually saw the light again. just be patient with urself and trust that time will heal :)
wow wow WOW! Really at a loss for words here. I'm going to be completely honest here. I have no clue who you are. You seem like you've had a substantial UA-cam following for quite sometime and maybe I've been living under a rock but this has got to be the realest thing I think I have ever watched on here. I'm not even sure how I came across this video because it wasn't in my suggestions but I needed to hear this. I think a lot of people need to hear this. You can genuinely tell this comes from a place that most of have been at some point in our lives.
All I can say is thank you. Thank you for sharing what I'm sure was deeply difficult to express. I'm almost certain you changed a lot of mind sets out there by doing so.
Definitely my own 💗
That means a lot. Following or not, I just hope I can help those that are struggling like I have.
Welcome to sobriety! I’m almost 9 months sober. Sending you positivity and love!
Congratulations
Congratulations! Keep it up!
This is an important video. So happy you are in a good spot and even when you’re not we are all still rooting you on ❤️
My husband killed himself in front of me almost 3 years ago and I have been numbing the pain with alcohol so much since then I have developed diabetes. I can empathize with your struggle. I hope that I can be strong enough to put it down too. Thank you for sharing. It was inspiring to me. Felt like your message was meant for me.
I am so proud of you for pushing through all of that. Keep on going. This message was meant for you. ❤️
You can and you will. You deserve to be happy and healthy. Once you hit a point where you feel normal again, you’ll be so glad you took the steps to the rest of your life. I’m rooting for you. 💛
I believe in you Kelly . You can and will do it . You are worthy and your life matters. Cheering you on!
Im sooo sorry...
Im somewhat in ur shoes
...on February 29th 2020 the love of my life committed suicide...he was in my garage @ my apt complex ...he hung himself a friend came & got me said emergency hes trying to cut wrists ( thought i could come downstairs & help my love out 😭😭 ) that wasnt the case was blue & i took his makeshift noose off his neck 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
IM NOT A DRINKER...BUT ALL I WANNA DO IS GET DRUNK...BUT KEEP STOPPING MYSELF FROM BUYING A BOTTLE
its sooo hard to deal all i do is cry / talk to his picture or whereever i go . talk tohim
& now im trying to move out my apartment & have to clean & pack up apt. & garage on my own
( cuz when im @ apartment im just waiting for him to walk in the front door )
IM SORRY U HAD TO SEE IT ALL! 💜
I’m so sorry
Although this video is about YOU and YOUR story, I need to start by appreciating Pamela. The world would be a much better place with more Pamelas in it. What a wonderful human she is - I'm so glad you two found your way back to each other. You deserve to have this partnership, and I wish you two many loving, supportive, joyful an healthy years together!
Congratulations to you for 41 days of sobriety and re-finding your center! You truly look healthy and happy. The light has come back to your eyes. I've been watching you for nearly a decade and I don't think I've ever been happier for you.
As difficult as your journey has been, this video tells a very inspiring story that many of us will benefit from hearing. Including me. You're very brave, very strong and very kind and hella talented. Thanks for sharing it all with us.
I turned to pills and heroin after my divorce and loss of everything else..committed suicide last November died for 9 minutes and came back and decided to change everything since I got a 2nd chance. . Been there sweetheart.. with those same thoughts . Proud of you. Its harder than people think to come back from that
I was already teary eyed from the video but even more from your comment. I am just a stranger but I am very and genuinely happy to hear you got a second chance.
Ooo listen to Let It All Work Out by Lil Wayne
I am so happy that you got a second chance❤️ You deserve to be here and be happy
I don’t exactly understand how one can “die for nine minutes and come back,” and get a “second chance.” Sorry if I’m being ignorant, but- is it a figure of speech or was it meant literally? Again, sorry if I’m being ignorant but I really want to know...
@@petalmist0288 have you not heard of someone being resuscitated? When one's heart stops beating (ie. They're dead), but maybe they are in an ambulance or hospital and they are able to revive them.
You may have lost the old narrative you were writing, but because to this turn, everything you wanted to be, as Joshua David Evans, will come to ever greater fruition.
the amount of LOVE and SUPPORT in these comments is everything. I mean of course everyone should’ve supported him when he was at his lowest but the amount of support he is getting is so amazing. josh you went through so much and i’m so happy you got through it and shared your story to help others! 💗
I remember wanting to kill myself a few years back...and i commented on one of joshs video. I didnt think he'd respond. I asked him advice on how to get through dark times. And he replied back. I wish i couldve saved the comment. I cant even remember which video it was. But thank you josh. For noticing. For caring. Im alive today bc of your words. Please become a motivational speaker. It is your calling 💜.
My sweet friend. Can I call you friend? I am so proud of you. I say this all the time but no matter who goes against you, I will always be standing right beside you. You are an absolute treasure to me and I care about you as if I know you. Keep going! Be nice to yourself. ❤
what a loving comment ♥️
So glad he found such an amazing woman to be his wife. We all deserve someone to hang onto us when we feel like we’re drowning.
This feeling of not wanting to exist, it’s a feeling that I’ve had for over 8 years. That’s when my life fell apart, and continued to do so. I hope that you can move on from this feeling. I didn’t turn to drink, I turned to food, I’m twice as heavy as I was 8years ago. And I was already overweight. Godspeed, I hope you have the strength within as that’s something I just don’t have. The more people talk about this the better. Thanks you
Here to support you too. You matter and you're not alone ❤️ Count the positives of each day and hold them tight. Small steps are key - habits and goals aren't achieved in a day. Can be something as small as taking a walk around the block to enjoy the nice weather, listen to your favorite music to lift you up paired with an energizing shower or bath, write down one thing you love about yourself each day - you can repeat if needed but just writing it every day.
This is a bit off topic, but I would love to know the story of how you and Pamela reconnected a few years ago, and how you started dating.
I would too! I would love to hear his part and Pamela's pov too. I love them so much
I believe there’s a podcast somewhere about that :)
I would be ALL over that video! :)
@@Kattt5210 whereeee? im so curious :)
anchor.fm/lifechangespod/episodes/EPISODE-5---Joshua-Evans--Pamela-Rose-e1r58n I hope this link works, I loved this podcast!
Josh, you're honestly looking so well & healthy! Our boy is thriving!! Sending love to you & yours.
Sobbing right now. Idk how you managed to make this video without crying.
am i the only one that got emotional when he said “what’s up internet?” Like BROO I was close to crying!!
I didn't used to care for you Josh, I found you disingenuous. BUT this video was really refreshing and honest. I am rooting for you and hope you make more content. Well done.
nobody talks about the part where you don't get better. for such a long time you try and try and it doesn't get better and you stop telling people about it. thank you so much for addressing that because that part is always left out from recovery stories and it's so important that people know about it, because if people don't get better straight away they can give up, they need to know it can take time, they need to know that before you get better, you can spend a long time trying and not getting better. take care, you're doing amazing
Josh your genuine subscribers will never seek to find the smallest gossip about your life. We want you to be the happy in your life. Life isn’t a fairytale, and that’s something that your younger followers probably expect. You show the REALITY of life, thank you for stripping down to your core and sharing your personal thoughts. You’re doing amazing, keep at it. Finally Pamela is a keeper. Bless you both! ♡
You’re worthy of happiness. Be nice to people, but also...be nice to yourself ❤️ Happy to see you doing well
Yes!! Well said!
stumbled across this video for the wrong reasons but it’s something I didn’t know I needed. Thank you.
sometimes wrong reasons turn into positive realizations :)
JoshuaDTV you are such a sweet man oh my goodness
I know a lot of people hated on Josh for “lashing out” in his videos but his divorce was forced onto camera. I always felt it was kinda weird that people just dropped him over that.
Madison Sedgwick it seriously must be SOO hard to go through something like that and not be okay, and be in the spotlight. The average person can get away with it and everyone moves on. But he still had to go through his grief. I’m glad he’s doing better!
Yes!!! I don’t understand it.
He was in love with her and it seemed like she tossed him aside two seconds after the papers were signed and moved on with her life and had a whole as family. He wanted those things with her and I know that of that had happened to me, I would have been devastated. Stay strong Josh!
shows how toxic and vicious some of her die hard loyal fans are.
So true! When I first came across his break down-lashing out video, I was shocked and heartbroken to see the amount of commenters maliciously mocking him saying he isn't moving on, when to me it was obviously at that time a silent cry for help. Even if they thought it was a cry for attention, guess what it IS a "cry" for attention but an attention to help heal cuz he was obviously hurting and just needed a space to cry out. So how tf do people think belittleing him does any good?!! Despite the anger, you could still feel the pain in his voice. Moving on isn't easy, it is a slow healing process, and it's only when you have the priviledge and space to heal fast, do you heal fast. That's why different people move on at different paces, and for some this can especially get difficult when your mental state is such that you feel like your life is just breaking down and you're starting to lose all the things you cared for and could've held onto to heal. Maybe he did try to heal and move on on his own, but couldn't cuz even after 4 years things kept going bad (possibly the loss of his youtube passion/family problems). It probably started to feel painful how unfair his life seemed to keep going from bad to worse while the other person seemed to have all the support and space to grow and heal like an upward graph. It leaves you with a kind of mental state where even if you have few loved ones by your side you feel trapped or helpless. So it's only natural to feel the need even after 4 years to go back to the source you feel started it all and vent to an outside source- UA-cam. But now I'm so so glad he was able to get better and gain back his ground, he looks so much happier and healthier now. You can tell he has healed and truly found himself. That takes strength! And Josh if you ever read this, just know I'm cheering you on buddy from the other side of the world and there are people out there who have your back who will give you and others the courage and space to heal. You're being a wonderful role model to help people recover from bad mental health❤. You've just earned a new subscriber haha:)
Also I wish people just learnt to be more nicer and empathetic, it's not that hard!! I know people like to say those are just kids but that's BS cuz even as a kid I knew to be kind to people.
I've had that exact shower conversation with myself before and it's life changing. I'm a year and a half sober now and I'm more me and more free than I ever have been. Welcome to the rest of our lives, it's nice to have you on the other side!
How wonderful for you!!❤
I mean he seems so much more mentally healthy and i am very proud of him for that. After his divorce it didn’t really feel the same watching his videos, he felt different. But now its like we have JoshuaDTV back :))
Everyone always hated on him, Yes I agree that he did do some wrong things (as everyone does) but he wasn’t in a good state and hating is no way to treat someone, I’m glad that he has gotten better
4 minutes in and I’m already crying because prior to this very moment the year before all I wanted to do was not exist. The very same thing, I wouldn’t take my own life but I just didn’t care to live. It’s a terrible place to be in. I’m so happy you’re finding your way. This video couldn’t of come to me at a better time in my healing process, So inspiring! thank you for using your platform and voice!
💗❤️💗
Depression is a deadly disease. It isn't weakness or a failure of character.
kwoodmansee it’s a chemical imbalance. Those thoughts are not real. If you’re against using therapy and meds to treat depression, that’s the same as refusing to take insulin as a diabetic. 🤷♀️ the mental health stigma needs to end.
I was diagnosed with depression and it is not a deadly disease . You can overcome it and it does get better. Please inform yourself before you spread false information that can really affect other people’s mental health.
@@katerinakotrupas825 I've had depression my whole life, it's different for everyone. Left untreated it can kill, not just because of suicide, but from health problems, addiction ect. You can't just magically make your self better as many people seem to believe. It takes a lot of effort, and for many of us a combination of medications and therapy. Just because it can be overcome doesn't mean it's not deadly or a disease.
kwoodmansee not true girl
kwoodmansee Agreed. It takes hard work to overcome/cope with depression. To push forward each day dealing with depression isn’t easy. Needing help/support to cope from professionals is needed in many cases. Depression can affect our bodies medically and lead to other health problems. Quite true. It’s important to take care of our physical and mental health.
I am almost 43 and have dealt with depression since my early teen years. It’s been decades of finding new ways to cope (therapy and/or medication treatment). For many it’s a lifelong issue that we are constantly managing and working to move forward with healthy habits.
He was never the bad guy.... an image of that he was was printed in our brains
Thank you Josh... for opening up❤️❤️❤️
You look the healthiest and best I've seen you look in a long time. I am so so glad you are doing better. I hope you have an amazing future ahead.
I watched you back in the day of the divorce. I haven’t really seen much of you since. But this showed up for some reason of my twitter feed. And I just want to say thank you. I have been so close to giving up. I can honestly say you have helped save my life. Thank you.
I’ve never heard anyone talk about their depression that same way I deal with my depression💜 The “I just don’t want to exist anyone and I just don’t want to be here” but I don’t want to harm myself!! Bro I feel that!
Same here. My counselors will ask if I have thoughts of self harm, my answer is always, "No, I just think it'd be easier to go to sleep & never wake up again" just the feeling of "the world is too heavy". I get it.
That is exactly how I feel. Its nice to see that Im not the only one going through it. I always have felt that my feelings were just made up or not real, but they are!
@@graceann0316 Sometimes, just knowing that you're not alone, makes things a bit more bearable! 🖤🤍❤
This is the happiest Josh I’ve ever seen in a video. Not like a fun happy, but a happiness that comes from a deep sense of joy, peace, and fulfillment. Thanks for sharing.
‘You never know what your words can do to someone’
Isn’t it funny how one quote can mean two completely different things at the same time. I’m sure you never thought that your words could affect so many people in the way that they did. I’m so happy that you’re happy.
People don't realize how traumatic divorce can be
Right??
And it's not just the divorce, his whole idea of relationships, love, marriage crumbled in front of him with the situation of his parents too.
Worse if it's public. Because of the internet people don't feel accountable for some of the horrible shit they say and don't understand how their words can affect the person on the other side.
kimbo263 and like he said, his divorce was sudden and unexpected, as well as his parents
@@clickycrust Yeah that's pretty much what happened to me. My parents had a nasty divorce after 26 years. All the kids had no clue it was coming. I had just thrown them a huge anniversary party for their 25th. It really messed up what "true" love and relationships meant to me.
My husband of 4 years (together for 7) told me just over 2 weeks ago he wants a divorce. We have 3 kids and were saving up for a house. I don’t want to exist anymore, and I thank you so so much for showing me that I can be happy again. I’ve watched you for years and years and watched all of this happen 4 years ago and I truly hope I find my Pamela some day. She’s an absolutely beautiful human ❤️
You will get through this very rough time.do it for yourself,you are stronger than you know you are and don't think about meeting your "Pamela" yet,that will all happen naturally when it's supposed to..you got this, just be you and do your best.good luck with everything 🙏
Sorry to hear about what your going through. If there’s still a chance, fight for what you have. My husband and I went through a VERY ROUGH patch right before five years married. We were able to get through and it was tough but now we’ve been married ten years. I hope it works out for you, I don’t know you but I’m praying!
Melissa Rose My heart hurts for you. I'm so sorry. I hope it turns out better...
Melissa Rose Try to not get divorced quickly. Try working it out, take a break. My parents took one for 3 Years. Now they're better than ever
I'm sorry to hear that, stay strong for yourself and your family
Josh- keep telling your story. It is such an important part of your recovery. You are helping others. Shame & guilt no longer navigate your thoughts. Your honesty will be so healing. Congratulations on day 41! One day at a time!
It's absolutely disgusting that you recieved those nasty comments. What is wrong with people? So glad you made it through such a dark point in your life. Just know that you are so loved ❤
when you mentioned how you felt like you didn't want to exist anymore is exactly how I feel right now in my life but this video made me realize that things will get better Thank you Josh ❤️
Hang in there !
@@randih801 thank you, I do need this encouragement
Everything happens for a reason, and things will get better! Praying for you
Awww I’m so sorry. I know exactly how you’re feeling. They will, I promise. Remember God loves you 🥺🥰
You've got this! ♡
So proud of you Josh!❤️ I’ve watched you since about 2014 and I think you’re a great person. Keep up the good work, It’ll only get easier. Wishing you the best!
This was better than any therapy session I've always loved Josh for his honesty . Stay strong Josh 💕
Josh, if you ever need a reason to stay alive is, people need your heart, that if your purpose. I'm so glad you are still with us.
You are right, the tongue is a sword, your words cut like knives.
Don’t ever be embarrassed about struggling, what you went through was tough . It’d be worrisome if you weren’t affected by it at all. It’s human to have emotions. I’m so happy you have Pamela and are working on bettering yourself! It’s tough to do but just know you’re not alone ❤️. And to all the nasty comments they can F off for reals
Pamela for the WIN!!! A wonderful person for another wonderful person. So grateful she is there for you, Josh, and that you're getting help. You are resilient and a good person. Sending you love and light!
Honestly in tears.
Brings a whole new meaning to 'be nice to people'.
Have watched for years. Do what makes you happy❤
This post makes me really want to support you. Maybe I will go and buy a Be Nice To People Shirt. I am so happy that you have an amazing wife who stands by you in the good times and the bad. Keep singing, keep vlogging.
Sierra Travels yes I totally agree! This is a great idea!!
I just went and bought some! He deserves all the support ☺️ what an inspiring journey
Where do we go to get his merch?
Glad to see ur still here and your changing man, depression is so fucked it’s like the colors we see change
I remember when I got my heart broken and was absolutely
humiliated by a man I loved. I was a complete mess for two years. Can't imagine it being public. Good luck to you, you're very strong.
Good job brother , i have 25 years clean , you can do it!!!
Neil Clarke wow what a fantastic achievement! Congratulations!
I’ve suffered with major depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. My relationship with my husband used to be terrible. We have a lot of addiction in my family which makes the depression worse. And now that I have everything I could ever want or need, my husband is so great and supportive now, but I still hate myself, and I’m still hopeless and lost. I don’t know the answers. There is no cure for this. But, the one thing that keeps me here in this earth besides my daughter, is my husband telling me, “Just don’t give up.” Sounds really stupid and simple, but it’s so helpful to me. Whether I just made the bed that day, or maybe all I did besides lay around is cook dinner for my family, I did SOMETHING and I didn’t end my life that day. That keeps me going.
Wishing you well and anyone else reading this. ♥️
Hey you can do this! Keep fighting! 🙌💚
Sarcastically_me I think you are incredible for sharing 💗 You are so important to your family, and they need you. 🥰 I hope you can Rest knowing how loved you are.
Sarcastically_me sometimes it's so hard to believe you worth something because of your own accusing and belittling thoughts in your head that may seem very true. Mental health is everyday struggle for me even if I'm doing well from the outside. I heard from other people that cognitive behavioural therapy was very helpful to change negative patterns of thinking (I haven't tried it yet but am willing to).
This is the most heartwarming story I’ve ever heard don’t listen to those rude comments people like that aren’t worth you time
Josh, I needed this today. I lost my mom 5 years ago this week. (I was only 17 and a junior in high school). I’ve lost so many of my friends due to me grieving, I’ve felt so worthless. What you said today really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️ Thank you for being a light to others!
so sorry for what you went through, i hope you have people there for you now
Hayley Tackett I’m so sorry for your loss. Although I was 40 when I lost my mom, it was one of the worst experiences I ever went through. Sending you love and hugs.
I’m gonna be honest when the divorce happened it totally just you out I felt as if you were a terrible guy and never looked back but I’m so glad I stumbled upon this video because I realized I was so wrong for so long and I’m sorry
Let’s do this, Josh. It’s me. I am at least that one person. We’re also close in age. I’m 31.
Again, let’s do this ❤️
I’m currently going through the HARDEST moments in life still and trying to be strong and keep moving forwards . I deleted social media , I’m trying to get myself distracted and keep positive thoughts. I’m working on it. It’s hard . Very hard . But I got this . WE ALL GOT THIS!
Paloma Mayrany I’ve been feeling the same way. This video was perfect timing. thank you. We do got this.
Stay strong!
I'm sorry and I understand. I'm going through hell and made some horrible choices!! I'm so scared.
lipglosskitten26 don‘t be scared. You‘re not alone! We are here.
Xiomara Roxana Yesssbit definitely was perfect timing. I see a lot of people are going through kind of the same thing that I’ve noticed. Like mentally. But I’m so glad josh talked about it and now he’s helping us and I want to help to. That’s why I commented so if anyone can relate or anything, I want to help anyone and make you feel like your not alone and we get through it 🙌🏻🌈💛 lots of love !
Josh, Josh, Josh.....I have watched you for years, and there have been times when I have commented here that I am proud of you for something or other...but I can say that this is the proudest I have ever been of you. So glad you have Pamela right beside you every step of the way, no matter how hard the times get. Your most recent videos have been some of my favorites, just getting to really know YOU.
I can't even imagine what you must have gone through. I am so happy that you are sober, that Pamela is in your life, and that in the shower, that 'light switch popped on'. As you said so powerfully yourself: You should exist. And on top of that: you deserve so much happiness. And finally, while we're talking about people who love you: we love you, Josh!
Hey josh, idk if you’ll ever see this but I so appreciate you and everything you do! I’ve been watching you since I was 13/14 and growing up with both parents being alcoholics, id find myself coming to your channel to distract myself from the shit that was going on in my life and now being 20 years old, seeing you go through the same stuff I had to watch my parents go through breaks my heart! You are a wonderful human being and you have one of the strongest partners in the world who will stick by you till the end of time and that’s so special. And I’m happy to see you doing so well right now. Nothing brings me more happiness to see the people that truly deserve happiness flourish. Thank you for being you! And stay strong ❤️
Charlotte Harrop this is gorgeous 💖💖💖
@@gracehindle Thank you lovey! xx
Charlotte Harrop 💖💖💖
Josh, what an honest, strong and positive message video! We all need to hear this .. especially now during the apocalypse. : ) Many things that we do to relax and to escape have a cost. We have to ask ourselves, "Is it worth the cost?" I am so proud of you cutting alcohol out of your life. This is very hard to do .. as many of us know. According to the news alcohol sales are skyrocketing. Many people I am sure are prob. drinking way to much right now. You, I and I hope anyone who is reading this should try not to fall down that rabbit hole. So bad for the body and the mind. Big hug Josh. Have always loved seeing your videos.
The crazy thing about this is that he probably felt like his world was ending when his divorce happened. In reality life was just making sure he got to where he needed to be with his now wife. Its shitty that he had to go through that but look at him now happy , thriving and in love with his soulmate. Knowing their story from listening to the podcast they did ,she has always been his ONE.
V B Yes!! It's beautiful
“I don’t exist anymore” is what I still sometimes say to myself. I’m sorry Josh, I’m sorry you ever felt that way because ouch. It hurts.
I hope you still exist! Your not alone
This really feels like the most sincere and grounded I’ve ever seen you. Really pleased to hear things are getting better for you!
I'm so glad that josh is still here with us today. Hes becoming sober amd we are so proud of you, we love you.
So proud of you Josh, keep pushing through!!! Also, Pamela is amazing, God knows what he is doing 🌸💕🌟
I’ve been watching your videos for like 7 years now and it’s so nice to see you in such a good spot. I’m so glad you’re making videos again and I’m even happier that you’ve found your inner peace. Wishing nothing but the best for you, Pamela, and your family ❤️
I haven't watched you in years and I saw this video and figured I'd check it out. I really needed to hear this. Thank you. You are a very strong person. Subscribed.
I feel so bad for him it all started because someone married him and then said that she didn’t want him to be miserable and she felt like he didn’t love him anymore and went down hill for there and I am so glad that you are in a better state of mind praying for you💛🕊♥️
Keelei Rocha-Long why did they divorce?
Shelby I think it’s because she said in a vlog that as soon as she became more popular than him, that was when they started to argue. Then they got a divorce because she felt like she felt like she didn’t love Joshua as much as she used too.
We use the same sobriety app. I stopped watching for a long time because I couldn’t handle watching the pain you were going through while handling my own. This last weekend I got to watch that counter hit 100. I can’t wait to watch your number go up. You got this!