As someone who has had those thoughts, I’ll say this, a reason that we don’t go through with it is because we do think about the effects it will have on our loved one, BUT, there might be time you get in this really really dark place, where ever rational thought disappears, and in that moment you’re not thinking about anyone other than yourself, and how you just want the pain to end. But I will say this, the thing that keeps us going is HOPE, as long as we have a little light at the end of the tunnel, that can get us through it all. Just something to break through the darkness. HOPE is what keeps us going, so please, never lose HOPE .❤❤
As an introvert, who HAD a big challenge with accepting compliments...I look back and see how that path did not serve me. I am so grateful to the people who have come into my life to show me a healthier, self-accepting way. You and your guests ard among these people, Ed.
So beautiful and hit home: “Existence is enough!” Life is a gift, waking up and being in life, and in the moment is enough. Show up, walk in, and be here or where you are.
This was so life changing for me. I'm a giver, and I personally got to that place where I couldn't give anymore. But thankfully God helped me through it. Thank you for taking your calling so seriously. You blessed me.
I hate that "humans" ruin experiences for people because they don't know when to shut up! The last thing someone needs when they are adjusting to a life they never prepared for, is the unwarranted negative opinions of others. This interview was so amazing and how about we keep this family in prayer and sending love...we will all experience grief because it is inevitable as part of our human experience so let's be loving & kind and not judgmental, mean and opinionated. We love you Allison...keep thriving!
I agree. The fact is that she is still alive and she has 3 children to raise now. She has to bounce back. She can't go into some black hole and not come out 10 years later. Those kids are traumatized, but if she can make them understand that their dad loved them and that in a moment he was hurting so bad (possibly from a chemical imbalance in his brain or mental illness) that he chose to take his life. I hope that she raises these kids and meets a healthy person with whom to share her life. She's still young. Please bless her with another child if that's her desire. I think she and Twitch were thinking about having another child. Additionally, those kids need a community. Let them interact with their dad's folks, but she has the final say and is the gatekeeper. Let them know what they can say and to keep it positive. (They did raise him, and why was Twitch broken. Something in that past may have caused that among his family.) Instill in them that "Suicide is never the answer."
OMGOSH I cried through this whole interview. I laughed too😊How beautiful, strong & articulate❤. We are so grateful for you sharing your story. SO BRAVE & NECESSARY🙌🙌🙌🙏🙏🙏
Ed, so much truth. I have given so much to my work and didn't have anything for my family. It has had a negative impact on my family. I am now working on being present and avail emotionally and physically for my family. Thank you for this podcast!!!
Great discussion. Sadly we live in a world where extroverts are celebrated and set the expectation for how everyone should go through life, while introverts are often misunderstood, are highly sensitive and struggle to function in a way that honours who they are, so end up neglecting their own needs. It’s so important that we encourage more respect and understanding of the tremendous value that introverts have in our society and recognize the pressure to be a certain way that doesn’t come naturally… and what they need to feel whole and appreciated and happy.
Speechless! Thank you two for your conversation, Ed for holding space and reflecting, and phew, Allision for bringing all of you and all you've learned in life and with this experience. I'm amazed at how Allison is moving forward and I applaud it so much. Cheering you on, and like Ed, feel that you're just starting. Keep thriving! Love for the two of you!
Wow this was so touching and heartbreaking! We all need to love ourselves more, love others more easily and be nicer to one another in this harsh world we live in.
I remember growing there was teen on our block who took his life and his family found him like that and the sister who was a year older than me was nvr the same after that. His death affected her for so many years and that really opened my eyes and I promised I would nvr out my loved ones through that no matter how low I was feeling at the time… and she wrote something on the school bathroom wall that always stayed with me it was something like ‘don’t make a permanent decision over a temporary feeling’ … that has stuck with me forever and the poor girl suffered without her older brother for a long time
Sadly most of us that are left behind from a spouse's actions are also condemned by those closest to us, so in my case withdraw to stop that additional hurt. I have lost my relationship with my husband's family, my brother and my sister, because they blame me for not doing something. Having to learn to live without your person is hard and adding family leave is hard, but with God moving forward is possible, but you never forget, you just learn to live with the grief journey, one that is different from anyone else's. Grief never goes away, you learn how to live with it.
Let’s all take a moment and look inside. Do you know how loved you are? Do you love yourself? Thank you for this. I struggle at times to receive compliments and feel worthy of good things. Thank you for this interview. It makes me want to work on myself. I want to give more to myself in the way that I give to others. What a concept that so many of us can learn from! ❤️ ✌️
All I can say is Wow. I knew of Twitch(Stephen) from seeing him on tv, & always making ppl smile… but I didn’t know his story. Thank you Allison for sharing your vulnerability & depth. Most of us couldn’t imagine what you & your family have gone through. You’re so courageous & brave. I concur w/ Ed… this Is going to help a lot of ppl. Thank you for sharing & allowing the audience to learn from your insights! #MAXOUT
We really honor the dead more than we honor the living! That is beyond so truthful and just wow ! I felt this way over the years too after loosing my dad and other family members.
Great interview. I admire both of you being so honest and vulnerable. Stephen was clearly a giving, sensitive person, loved by everyone. And so very tragic wasn't able to take that in. I do wonder whether someone in Stephen's state of mind made a rational "choice". It's a tough call for people who never experience those depths and dark voices to make. And discounts likelihood most likely feel their loved ones are better off w/out them in this world. Feels like we all still need to be more educated about suicidal thoughts. Thank you for sharing!
Part of not getting to know why something like that happened or if anything could have changed things is giving up the idea of having control over situations or others. We can’t always dictate what happens in our lives or to those who we care about.
Hi Ed, can YOU PLEASE HAVE ON THE SHOW. ABIGAIL SHRIER !! She HAS A BOOK OUT CALLED “BAD THERAPY” . It would be Great to hear you interviewed her . Thank you !!!
Why is it always the ppl who are constantly uplifting others and trying to make sure everyone else around them is well but they’re the most empty inside… any person I’ve ever known who took their life it was a shocker to find out they were feeling empty inside and so low but they were the nicest funniest happiest always making everyone around laugh and never showed this sadness in them…breaks my heart everytime that happens and you couldn’t help them cuz you didn’t see it
“What if you’re not screwed up, you just want to be better”? Such a profound and eye opening statement! This Needs to become my new Mantra until it’s internalized.
People pleasers (givers) consciously seek out the opposite, because it gives them a false sense of fulfillment to make others happy. The reverse is also true. Non-pleasers (takers) seek out people pleasers consciously because it gives them a false sense of confidence. The givers give until their cup is empty and the takers take until what they receive no longer strokes the ego. It's a toxic combination as neither will genuinely FIX the insecurity that both are nurturing as a result of childhood conditioning. It's a temporary fix over and over and over. Internal self work and healing by both must be done to balance out the ebb and flow of give and take and learning to love yourself first.
🌷 Lovely conversation. I wish you all the strength and thank you for speaking out Allison, it must have been so difficult for you, thank you for sharing. Take good care of you and your family. 🌷
This is one of the best 40min of my life! And I'm not even kidding! You two were chosen for this interview and I'm happy I had the chance to see it! Thank YOU! ❤
I was deeply depressed as a child, throughout my teenage years, and in my 20s. I desperately wanted to die, more often as a child and teen. I had too much hope to give in. I had such dark thoughts but my hope had continued to shine a light on me. When you get in to that dark place your thoughts are all negative. It takes over and every good thought is taken over by darkness. Too many times I had felt everyone is better off without me. When you go down that negative deep road it’s like a wild fire burning down every positive thought. It’s not possible to think of the reality of how this would impact your loved ones. I don’t think suicide is selfish. I think the person is so blinded by pain that they can’t see past it. They likely feel everyone would be better off. I still have my moments. I sound a lot like twitch. Always giving my all but I feel uncomfortable when anyone compliments me. I can’t deal and I always feel I can do better. I never feel good enough. I still have my struggles but I would not say I’m depressed anymore. I am working on taking care of myself, it’s so important.
The internal questioning she mentioned after he took his life is needed. There are things people do that contribute to someone not feeling understood or accepted.
I was so grateful that you continued to DANCE...💛 If it's at all possible, I'm sure many of those times "tWitch" is dancing with you... 💛 I'm aslo grateful that thru videos, his dancing still gives me joy...💛
I’m an introvert who depletes constantly and can’t accept compliments…. But I don’t know how to love myself. Like Alison said “I don’t know if I love myself”…. I don’t know if I do or how to. Amazing interview
Ed, it’s childhood trauma that affects the ability to feel. The numbing feeling or dissociation that is used as a child to survive abuse/neglect is deep in the body… it’s not necessarily cognitive. The people that were supposed to be safe as a child were the ones that often cause the most pain. The wiring of the brain changes at trauma and it stops there, so when someone meets you it’s not just the adult that shows up, it’s also the wounded child.
As someone who has had those thoughts, I’ll say this, a reason that we don’t go through with it is because we do think about the effects it will have on our loved one, BUT, there might be time you get in this really really dark place, where ever rational thought disappears, and in that moment you’re not thinking about anyone other than yourself, and how you just want the pain to end. But I will say this, the thing that keeps us going is HOPE, as long as we have a little light at the end of the tunnel, that can get us through it all. Just something to break through the darkness. HOPE is what keeps us going, so please, never lose HOPE .❤❤
This is a great way to put it. It's such a sad thing ):
As an introvert, who HAD a big challenge with accepting compliments...I look back and see how that path did not serve me. I am so grateful to the people who have come into my life to show me a healthier, self-accepting way.
You and your guests ard among these people, Ed.
So beautiful and hit home: “Existence is enough!” Life is a gift, waking up and being in life, and in the moment is enough. Show up, walk in, and be here or where you are.
This was so life changing for me. I'm a giver, and I personally got to that place where I couldn't give anymore. But thankfully God helped me through it. Thank you for taking your calling so seriously. You blessed me.
I hate that "humans" ruin experiences for people because they don't know when to shut up! The last thing someone needs when they are adjusting to a life they never prepared for, is the unwarranted negative opinions of others. This interview was so amazing and how about we keep this family in prayer and sending love...we will all experience grief because it is inevitable as part of our human experience so let's be loving & kind and not judgmental, mean and opinionated. We love you Allison...keep thriving!
I agree. The fact is that she is still alive and she has 3 children to raise now. She has to bounce back. She can't go into some black hole and not come out 10 years later. Those kids are traumatized, but if she can make them understand that their dad loved them and that in a moment he was hurting so bad (possibly from a chemical imbalance in his brain or mental illness) that he chose to take his life. I hope that she raises these kids and meets a healthy person with whom to share her life. She's still young. Please bless her with another child if that's her desire. I think she and Twitch were thinking about having another child. Additionally, those kids need a community. Let them interact with their dad's folks, but she has the final say and is the gatekeeper. Let them know what they can say and to keep it positive. (They did raise him, and why was Twitch broken. Something in that past may have caused that among his family.) Instill in them that "Suicide is never the answer."
OMGOSH I cried through this whole interview. I laughed too😊How beautiful, strong & articulate❤. We are so grateful for you sharing your story. SO BRAVE & NECESSARY🙌🙌🙌🙏🙏🙏
Wow, 1 minute into the introduction & I know this is impactful on self love & reflection.
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This show will/has changed my life! Thank you!
Ed, so much truth. I have given so much to my work and didn't have anything for my family. It has had a negative impact on my family. I am now working on being present and avail emotionally and physically for my family. Thank you for this podcast!!!
Great discussion. Sadly we live in a world where extroverts are celebrated and set the expectation for how everyone should go through life, while introverts are often misunderstood, are highly sensitive and struggle to function in a way that honours who they are, so end up neglecting their own needs. It’s so important that we encourage more respect and understanding of the tremendous value that introverts have in our society and recognize the pressure to be a certain way that doesn’t come naturally… and what they need to feel whole and appreciated and happy.
Speechless! Thank you two for your conversation, Ed for holding space and reflecting, and phew, Allision for bringing all of you and all you've learned in life and with this experience. I'm amazed at how Allison is moving forward and I applaud it so much. Cheering you on, and like Ed, feel that you're just starting. Keep thriving! Love for the two of you!
Wow this was so touching and heartbreaking! We all need to love ourselves more, love others more easily and be nicer to one another in this harsh world we live in.
I remember growing there was teen on our block who took his life and his family found him like that and the sister who was a year older than me was nvr the same after that. His death affected her for so many years and that really opened my eyes and I promised I would nvr out my loved ones through that no matter how low I was feeling at the time… and she wrote something on the school bathroom wall that always stayed with me it was something like ‘don’t make a permanent decision over a temporary feeling’ … that has stuck with me forever and the poor girl suffered without her older brother for a long time
Sadly most of us that are left behind from a spouse's actions are also condemned by those closest to us, so in my case withdraw to stop that additional hurt. I have lost my relationship with
my husband's family, my brother and my sister, because they blame me for not doing something. Having to learn to live without your person is hard and adding family leave is hard, but with God moving forward is possible, but you never forget, you just learn to live with the grief journey, one that is different from anyone else's. Grief never goes away, you learn how to live with it.
Wow. So strong. So vulnerable. This changed my day and mindset. I will watch this next time I need a mind reset.
Let’s all take a moment and look inside. Do you know how loved you are? Do you love yourself?
Thank you for this. I struggle at times to receive compliments and feel worthy of good things. Thank you for this interview. It makes me want to work on myself. I want to give more to myself in the way that I give to others. What a concept that so many of us can learn from! ❤️ ✌️
“Life is the Gift” 😍❤️
All I can say is Wow.
I knew of Twitch(Stephen) from seeing him on tv, & always making ppl smile… but I didn’t know his story. Thank you Allison for sharing your vulnerability & depth. Most of us couldn’t imagine what you & your family have gone through. You’re so courageous & brave. I concur w/ Ed… this Is going to help a lot of ppl.
Thank you for sharing & allowing the audience to learn from your insights!
#MAXOUT
Beautiful message! Thank you for sharing to help me and so many others!
That was awesome. Allison, you are so strong ❤
What a beautiful interview. Such amazing insights, thank you.
Great show... i definitely need to learn to 'just be'...the part of me that is constantly comparing always beats me up for it...thanks ed and guest
An amazing conversation and has impacted me deeply. Thank you.
This is an All-Time Best EVER!
Allison is a beautiful soul!🙏💖
I’ve learned grief doesn’t have a time limit and it’s pretty much infinite, but alternates in its state and severity.
We really honor the dead more than we honor the living! That is beyond so truthful and just wow ! I felt this way over the years too after loosing my dad and other family members.
Great interview. I admire both of you being so honest and vulnerable. Stephen was clearly a giving, sensitive person, loved by everyone. And so very tragic wasn't able to take that in. I do wonder whether someone in Stephen's state of mind made a rational "choice". It's a tough call for people who never experience those depths and dark voices to make. And discounts likelihood most likely feel their loved ones are better off w/out them in this world. Feels like we all still need to be more educated about suicidal thoughts. Thank you for sharing!
Part of not getting to know why something like that happened or if anything could have changed things is giving up the idea of having control over situations or others. We can’t always dictate what happens in our lives or to those who we care about.
Thank you.. so touching and helpful ❤
His death was so devastating. Applause to his widow for her journey through grief. I wish tWitch knew how much he was loved..
Thank you ❤
Hi Ed, can YOU PLEASE HAVE ON THE SHOW. ABIGAIL SHRIER !! She HAS A BOOK OUT CALLED “BAD THERAPY” . It would be Great to hear you interviewed her . Thank you !!!
Why is it always the ppl who are constantly uplifting others and trying to make sure everyone else around them is well but they’re the most empty inside… any person I’ve ever known who took their life it was a shocker to find out they were feeling empty inside and so low but they were the nicest funniest happiest always making everyone around laugh and never showed this sadness in them…breaks my heart everytime that happens and you couldn’t help them cuz you didn’t see it
You are amazing!
Very impactful....
seriously...just the opening minutes...wow....
Second! 🎉🙌🏼
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Loved this ❤
The struggle to balance our existence as human “beings” vs. human “doers”🤍🙏🏻 Existence is enough
“I will not let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet”. Love it
“What if you’re not screwed up, you just want to be better”? Such a profound and eye opening statement!
This Needs to become my new Mantra until it’s internalized.
People pleasers (givers) consciously seek out the opposite, because it gives them a false sense of fulfillment to make others happy. The reverse is also true. Non-pleasers (takers) seek out people pleasers consciously because it gives them a false sense of confidence. The givers give until their cup is empty and the takers take until what they receive no longer strokes the ego. It's a toxic combination as neither will genuinely FIX the insecurity that both are nurturing as a result of childhood conditioning. It's a temporary fix over and over and over. Internal self work and healing by both must be done to balance out the ebb and flow of give and take and learning to love yourself first.
🌷 Lovely conversation. I wish you all the strength and thank you for speaking out Allison, it must have been so difficult for you, thank you for sharing. Take good care of you and your family. 🌷
I sit my grandson on my lap in front of my vanity mirror, pick up his little arms & we say I AM’s❤
This is one of the best 40min of my life! And I'm not even kidding! You two were chosen for this interview and I'm happy I had the chance to see it! Thank YOU! ❤
I was deeply depressed as a child, throughout my teenage years, and in my 20s. I desperately wanted to die, more often as a child and teen. I had too much hope to give in. I had such dark thoughts but my hope had continued to shine a light on me. When you get in to that dark place your thoughts are all negative. It takes over and every good thought is taken over by darkness. Too many times I had felt everyone is better off without me. When you go down that negative deep road it’s like a wild fire burning down every positive thought. It’s not possible to think of the reality of how this would impact your loved ones. I don’t think suicide is selfish. I think the person is so blinded by pain that they can’t see past it. They likely feel everyone would be better off. I still have my moments. I sound a lot like twitch. Always giving my all but I feel uncomfortable when anyone compliments me. I can’t deal and I always feel I can do better. I never feel good enough. I still have my struggles but I would not say I’m depressed anymore. I am working on taking care of myself, it’s so important.
The internal questioning she mentioned after he took his life is needed. There are things people do that contribute to someone not feeling understood or accepted.
He wished he was ⚪️ and he wished he didn’t have Epstein ties
I was so grateful that you continued to DANCE...💛 If it's at all possible, I'm sure many of those times "tWitch" is dancing with you... 💛 I'm aslo grateful that thru videos, his dancing still gives me joy...💛
Thank you… I lost my beloved and giving husband die by suicide as well. Bless you both alison and Ed
I’m an introvert who depletes constantly and can’t accept compliments…. But I don’t know how to love myself. Like Alison said “I don’t know if I love myself”…. I don’t know if I do or how to. Amazing interview
Willingly give and gracefully receive... it took me years to get that second part down...❤
Awesome! We need to show more people we believe in them...really believe in them!!!
Great authentic interview, thank you Ed as always ❤️
Ed, it’s childhood trauma that affects the ability to feel. The numbing feeling or dissociation that is used as a child to survive abuse/neglect is deep in the body… it’s not necessarily cognitive. The people that were supposed to be safe as a child were the ones that often cause the most pain. The wiring of the brain changes at trauma and it stops there, so when someone meets you it’s not just the adult that shows up, it’s also the wounded child.
Very impactful. I've been contemplating suicide post my divorce on top of dealing with daily intense pain. I've felt so alone in everything.
You are loved!
Sending you so much love. Know that you are worth being here.❤
We see you and need you in this world. Sorry you are going through this❤
Your existence is enough. I love you.
Ellen DeGeneres if her show did not end he would still be alive today guaranteed
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i wish you could’ve asked allison why she’s not letting his family see the kids