tWitch's widow opens up on how she explains his loss to their kids

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  • In a TODAY exclusive, Allison Holker sits down with Hoda Kotb and opens up about the months since her husband, Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, took his own life a few weeks before Christmas. “No one's ready for that moment and there's no one that saw this coming. No one. And that also breaks my heart, too,” she says.
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  • @susandickerman4939
    @susandickerman4939 Рік тому +2793

    I feel so bad for Allison. She had so much negative press after twitch passed. Social media is the worst. I really admire her strength. In public. What goes on in the privacy of her home. She's human. With 3 children. I can't imagine.

    • @jmlw3
      @jmlw3 Рік тому +61

      Oh my, I didn’t see anything negative. What could possibly be said that’s unkind?!

    • @ceecee4491
      @ceecee4491 Рік тому +82

      @@jmlw3 people love to blame wives for their husband's actions :( it's messed up, but I'm glad to see most of the comments here empathizing with her and understanding

    • @Sophya7
      @Sophya7 Рік тому +44

      ​@@jmlw3at the beginning some people were saying she put a hit on him and crazy stuff like that... it was bad

    • @tertersha8796
      @tertersha8796 Рік тому +28

      People are just wicked minded 😞

    • @susandickerman4939
      @susandickerman4939 Рік тому +19

      @@Sophya7 awful in the beginning. I don't understand. On social media these days. It's the trend. Even when someone passes away. I don't understand it. It's so cruel. Just because you don't know rhat person. They think it's okay. Which i think so worse. Because you have no clue as to what that person is going through.

  • @KimmyR12
    @KimmyR12 Рік тому +839

    You can tell she is still very much in pain, I pray she gets through it for her kids and heal. It's so heartbreaking

    • @karenkimber8374
      @karenkimber8374 11 місяців тому +12

      She playing with you guys emotion.She help delete her husband for money

    • @eringuthrie7380
      @eringuthrie7380 11 місяців тому +9

      Karen stop ✋️

    • @karenkimber8374
      @karenkimber8374 11 місяців тому +2

      @@eringuthrie7380 No the truth hurt

    • @karenkimber8374
      @karenkimber8374 11 місяців тому +1

      @@eringuthrie7380✋🏾No

    • @ISCARI0T
      @ISCARI0T 11 місяців тому

      @@karenkimber8374 KAREN MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

  • @vanessapote7093
    @vanessapote7093 Рік тому +842

    My oldest son is 25 going through alot with mental health, we talk everyday, im aways checking on him, im glad he came back home to live for now, he reached out for help to our dr and now talks to a counsellor, im so proud of my oldest son for reaching out and talking to me as his mum, we are very close me and my 3 sons ❤❤❤

    • @user-iz1bz4pz9j
      @user-iz1bz4pz9j Рік тому +34

      You're an excellent parent. I wish I had that kind of relationships in my life. Thank you for doing what you're doing for your kids

    • @manaona3730
      @manaona3730 Рік тому +12

      Bless you and your sons. And I’m so happy he felt the self permission to reach out for help!!

    • @brendadickson9583
      @brendadickson9583 Рік тому +9

      Thank God he opened up ❤keep on praying n being for him.

    • @bbthree8886
      @bbthree8886 Рік тому +17

      Thank you for welcoming back home. I’m 23 and experienced a lot of mental health battles as a kid and teen and am trying everything to repair all of that as an adult and my parents allowing me to live at home is a huge blessing for it. So again, thank you on your son’s behalf for doing that for him.

    • @stephenmarkovic878
      @stephenmarkovic878 Рік тому +6

      Get off social media get rid of your cell phones and start living like it’s the 80s in you will see your mental health of your children disappear

  • @Lovesimplicity_livesimply
    @Lovesimplicity_livesimply Рік тому +789

    My dad suddenly passed when I was 10... took his own life. It was the most devastating thing for us kiddos (3 of us too all under 10) and our mom that literally went from being a stay at home mom to working full time immediately to support us all. All while handling this loss... I am 39 now and that day/night is still fresh in my mind. God bless this family and Lord be with them

    • @thelibrarian894
      @thelibrarian894 Рік тому +21

      So sorry for your loss and you had to experience this. I hope life is treating you well. Can I ask how is your mum doing, how did she cope from such a big change for her?

    • @swimmingturtle00
      @swimmingturtle00 Рік тому +12

      My condolences 💕💐Thank you for sharing. I can relate in a similar manner. Our hearts will always carry on sometimes lighter sometimes heavier but our loved one will forever be part of us.☮️✌️

    • @Lovesimplicity_livesimply
      @Lovesimplicity_livesimply Рік тому +9

      @@swimmingturtle00 I am so sorry you are able to relate in a similar manner😭😭😭😭💔 they will always live on. I lost my dad as a kiddo then lost a family friend that I considered a brother and he considered us his family as well, LaVar Washington. It is very important to me these people are not forgotten. I still share stories with people about them both whether they knew them or not🧡🧡🧡🧡

    • @BlessedTruly2014
      @BlessedTruly2014 Рік тому +3

      So sorry for your loss & God bless your strong momma!!

    • @Mimi_moon
      @Mimi_moon Рік тому +9

      Please take care of your mom if she's still with you. What a strong lioness taking care of her cubs.

  • @pkcollins8300
    @pkcollins8300 Рік тому +451

    Oh man......I just want to reach through this screen and give her a hug. I cannot imagine the pain and emptiness. I wish a big beautiful life for all of them.

  • @Sassyglbeauty
    @Sassyglbeauty Рік тому +979

    Oh man. I’m bawling. So hard to imagine this man struggling and not reaching out to his wife. My heart goes out to her and her kids.

    • @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374
      @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Рік тому

      Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

    • @RobinaB530
      @RobinaB530 Рік тому +3

      Me too--big time.

    • @RobinaB530
      @RobinaB530 Рік тому +4

      @@rm742

    • @msmiami212
      @msmiami212 Рік тому +30

      People mostly don’t realise they have THE depression. Or that they’re ‘struggling’ with anything worth talking about. They feel fine. Which is why ‘just talk to someone’ is rarely effective.
      You really never stop trusting your brain, the one you make all your decisions with, that has protected you and gotten you this far. Ideas like his grow little at a time, discarded as ridiculous, then start to make more sense. There is bravery, sadness, terror, also practicality wrapped up in how they feel. I just pray for us all that our calibration of reality always stays accurate.

    • @user-ib9op9kq2k
      @user-ib9op9kq2k Рік тому +20

      Maybe he didn't know he was struggling probably operated on autopilot

  • @terraalbritton6405
    @terraalbritton6405 Рік тому +178

    She says she feels sadness and anger but doesn't stay there. I admire that so much! I am so proud of her. I love that she still talks to him and teaches their kids to talk to him, too. That communication really helped me when my dad suddenly passed.

    • @nesq4104
      @nesq4104 11 місяців тому

      She's a witch

  • @celestesimeon-wilfling5278
    @celestesimeon-wilfling5278 Рік тому +146

    " If I'm feeling this much pain, it's because I've had so much Love." That part hit deep however gave a beautiful understanding about life BALANCE 💜

  • @michelleramirez2921
    @michelleramirez2921 Рік тому +350

    This poor woman is still in shock. I am so deeply saddened by this just like everyone. The children have a wonderful mommy. Much love and peace to Allison and her family. ❤

    • @karenkimber8374
      @karenkimber8374 Рік тому +1

      Oh, please she play with your emotions twitch did not delete himself. Allison know that she had something to do with it.

    • @tonyamartin1425
      @tonyamartin1425 9 місяців тому

      she is not in shock how dumb are you people?

    • @brendabrunner2308
      @brendabrunner2308 9 місяців тому

      @@karenkimber8374who the ….do you think you?You have no right to make such horrible accusations! You continue to make this accusation over and over. You sound like the devil himself ! Get a life and stop trying to change people’s perceptions because you’re only making a fool of yourself! You disgust me!

    • @tonyamartin1425
      @tonyamartin1425 9 місяців тому +1

      no she isn't that is not what shock from grief looks like

  • @Freeuniverse777
    @Freeuniverse777 Рік тому +1465

    To anyone who is feeling like giving up and in that brink of taking their lives, remember this - When the world seems to have abandoned you, DO NOT abandon yourself. You are hurt because you have ao much love in you, give that love back to yourself. ❤

  • @southernborn1358
    @southernborn1358 9 місяців тому +81

    The death of a spouse is literally the most devastating loss of my life. It was sudden, unexpected, unnecessary-1 year and 4 months later, I’m still on my knees, humbled.

    • @TheMalawianFlorence
      @TheMalawianFlorence 9 місяців тому +4

      Hugs and kisses to you❤. Death is painful.

    • @rhondabrown3550
      @rhondabrown3550 9 місяців тому +2

      Me too🙏🏽 hugs!

    • @amysmith3247
      @amysmith3247 9 місяців тому +5

      I agree to a point. But trust me most devastating loss is the loss of a child!!!! Period

    • @simple_naildesigns
      @simple_naildesigns 8 місяців тому +1

      So sorry for your loss 🙏🏽

    • @sarastewart9437
      @sarastewart9437 7 місяців тому

      ​@@amysmith3247100%

  • @Cupcake4me
    @Cupcake4me Рік тому +116

    My heart goes out to Allison. She’s in so much pain and shock. Yet shes gotta stay strong for her kids and for the world. I wish her well….the pain must be unbearable ❤️

    • @tonyamartin1425
      @tonyamartin1425 9 місяців тому

      no she is not you have eyes but cannot see

    • @taroman7100
      @taroman7100 3 місяці тому

      No one will know what was going on there.

  • @chicagokat8
    @chicagokat8 Рік тому +914

    I am also a widow and having to break the news to my son who was 8 at the time...was the very worst day of my life. Thank you for sharing your pain and loss, Allison. I watched your love story unfold, I once met tWitch in Austin at SXSW, I am still saddened by your loss. He's watching over you and your family. Thank you for bringing awareness to mental health. It's so hard to ask for help.

  • @Therezumee92
    @Therezumee92 Рік тому +826

    It's a shock even if you see it coming. My grandmother talked about it for years, we tried to do as much you can, but it still blindsided everyone the morning we found her. We just never think that someone close will ever go to that dark place... It's heartbreaking how much he was hurting, not being able to hold on even for his babies.

    • @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374
      @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Рік тому

      Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

    • @alexisangel5581
      @alexisangel5581 Рік тому +50

      I can relate to this! I empathize with you. My grandmother took her own life a little over two years ago and the grief still hits hard for us. She always had a dark sense of humor but it got darker after my step grandfather died from kidney cancer in 2017. My sister and I were always paranoid that she would harm herself eventually but my mom was completely blindsided by it. She was the one who found her and she has PTSD now due to it. Mental health is super important including in the older generation. I truly believe the older generations get overlooked regarding mental health and the impacts of it. I’m so sorry for your loss. Prayers, love, and support for you ❤️🙏🏻

    • @jonfreeman9682
      @jonfreeman9682 Рік тому +17

      Well it's not adding up. I can't help but suspect maybe there's more like homicide and a setup to look like that.

    • @jackiebenjamin8772
      @jackiebenjamin8772 Рік тому

      ​​Freeman, it's because you have no idea about mental health.

    • @JC-du6sn
      @JC-du6sn Рік тому +2

      Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer 😇

  • @Bearschick43
    @Bearschick43 11 місяців тому +22

    I never met him but was devastated to hear of his passing. I fell in love with his beautiful smile and soul watching Ellen. I'm sorry for his wife and children 😢 RIP Stephen

  • @AnnMarieXOXO
    @AnnMarieXOXO Рік тому +6

    When my brother passed I always thought that when he was in so much pain God finally said “it’s ok to come home”. He was such a sensitive soul. He showed more compassion for others than what you see today. He was a light. It just became too hard for him. The coulda, woulda, shoulda can never be changed, but as they say hindsight is 20/20. It was never more true after he passed. He was in so much pain at the end. It will take years to get back to your “new normal” but my heart is with you and your beautiful family. We are all here for you.❤🙏🏼

  • @imsuchanocfan
    @imsuchanocfan Рік тому +301

    My heart goes out to Allison and their 3 children. She needs all the support and positive energy more than ever now. I hope and believe she will be OK and so will the kids - of course it will be a long journey but she seems to have a support group behind her.

  • @cece8095
    @cece8095 Рік тому +735

    I swear, I love Hoda. She was literally crying with her. She is one the VERY few sensitive journalists we have left. Her, Savannah Guthrie, Anderson Cooper.. that’s about it. They are all we & these people are on large platforms have left. And God bless Allison & her family. With these things you don’t have words.

    • @diaryofafreebitch
      @diaryofafreebitch Рік тому +14

      She is so perfect for this job. 💗🙌🏻

    • @marcus3567
      @marcus3567 Рік тому +28

      I agree with Hoda but I'd add Robin Roberts on that list too.

    • @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374
      @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Рік тому

      Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

    • @anneredmoon
      @anneredmoon Рік тому +13

      I feel what you are saying, but there are actually a lot of caring journalists out there, in my opinion.

    • @tvs9978
      @tvs9978 Рік тому +6

      I think for this particular atory, EVERYONE, EVERYONE who was interviewing her would cry. Twitch's death hit everyone hard

  • @gratitude3673
    @gratitude3673 Рік тому +53

    No one should ever blame the wife. Most "extremely happy people" do not show how they truly feel inside. Every body still expect them to be happy and feel that they don't have worries, these people just give off so much of themselves and as the wife says, they want to be there, they feel responsible for every other person and keep their feelings to themselves. I pray she continues to receive support, she truly needs it

  • @joannebrazier7003
    @joannebrazier7003 11 місяців тому +4

    I am so sorry 4 her and children

  • @suzanne296
    @suzanne296 Рік тому +103

    This man put a smile on my face in worst of days. I am so sorry he was hurting and gave up. Love from Illinois gal 🙏

  • @M.M.424
    @M.M.424 Рік тому +531

    This just breaks my heart. I saw him once on a subway. He was impeccably dressed in tweed, small wire rimmed glasses and book in his lap. He radiated class and manners.
    I watched them fall in love. It's so crazy... and so so sad.

    • @Ava2969ny
      @Ava2969ny Рік тому +12

      @ M M -- I wish he would have thought for one second that day about how much he was loved. My guess is that he was deeply sensitive, most creative people are; his pain must have been unbearable because not even the love of his wife and children was enough to keep him here.

    • @rose.g.
      @rose.g. 11 місяців тому +2

      Manners? That's an odd thing to mention. Of course he had manners, most people do.

    • @tl6932
      @tl6932 11 місяців тому +6

      ​@@rose.g. I think "manners" paints a clear picture because some people are rude or do not notice others.

    • @M.M.424
      @M.M.424 11 місяців тому

      @@rose.g. in NYC... right

    • @M.M.424
      @M.M.424 11 місяців тому +2

      @@tl6932 no man spreading... to me that equated to manners on a crowded morning subway. He was a sweet soul

  • @authorkodyboye
    @authorkodyboye 9 місяців тому +14

    As someone who's coming on the third anniversary of losing someone to their mental illness, I want to stress how important it is to take time to allow yourself to heal. While there is never any "right way" to heal, just as there is never any right way "to grieve," please remember that your feelings are valid, and that you are allowed to feel every bump of the rollercoaster that comes after experiencing something like this.
    Thank you, Hoda, for taking the time to talk with Allison, and to bring awareness to mental health traumas that affect so many people.

  • @augustmoon9973
    @augustmoon9973 Рік тому +256

    It's devastating to see the weight that both her and him had to carry separately and at different times. He carried the weight of the world, and she has to carry the weight of such an incredible loss. Even as a complete stranger looking in, I get a lump in my throat and a knot in my stomach just thinking about how this loss impacted his loved ones. Sending good thoughts & love to anyone effected with mental health concerns. ❤

  • @jacquelinesolomon4530
    @jacquelinesolomon4530 Рік тому +124

    Allison, I am so very, very sorry. So grateful that you were blessed to love each other. Praying over you and the kids. Much love.

  • @Sedgies
    @Sedgies Рік тому +89

    Much love to Allison and her family. He was such a light to the world. ❤

  • @rebekahwhitcomb2396
    @rebekahwhitcomb2396 Рік тому +285

    What sucks about mental illness is what people say after a person that’s committed suicide. They say, “why didn’t he say something? If you need to talk to someone… I’m always there.” Let’s understand that it takes a huge amount of trust and vulnerability to share with people what you’re going through. When someone is ready to open and share what they are going through, people tend to give them unsolicited advice or try to figure out a solution. They don’t really sit there and actively listen. Also, another reason why far too many people don’t feel like opening about their struggles is because people are quick to ridicule and discourage the person more for feeling that way. In order to have a serious conversation about mental health problems, we need to recognize that it takes a huge amount of trust to do that.

    • @emilyr123
      @emilyr123 Рік тому +20

      This is a fantastic point - and in addition, often when people reach out there aren't sufficient resources to truly help them, or the resources that are available are overwhelmed and backlogged. There are so many obstacles and barriers when it comes to not only sharing your mental health struggles, but getting adequate and effective help and support. It is never as simple as just saying something.

    • @jbaux84
      @jbaux84 Рік тому +13

      I know for me, I feel like on top of what you said, I also feel like I’d be a burden. People already have their own worries and problems, so who am I to dump on them? Thankfully I do have a therapist I can open up to and I’m in some Facebook support groups. I also have a cousin I’m close to and we both share our struggles openly, no judgement. I’m honestly lucky to have these outlets.

    • @RussManK3
      @RussManK3 Рік тому +5

      So well said.

    • @ElizaAlmanza
      @ElizaAlmanza Рік тому +8

      Seriously I’ve opened up to so many people about things just to get rejected basically. Its hard.

    • @bellavita3097
      @bellavita3097 Рік тому +7

      Yes Plus when you’re sick you’re not in your right mind to go for the help I lost my dad and my uncle from this disease it is a disease just like diabetes just like heart disease and we must start testing from elementary middle school high school, and adulthood for this disease. So we can help people. There are seven signs of depression that everyone should know.

  • @rejectedheartsclub
    @rejectedheartsclub 11 місяців тому +5

    Heartbreaking. She was kind to do this interview. Sending all the love 💛

  • @lisabelle7553
    @lisabelle7553 Рік тому +129

    As a big SYTYCD fan, I got to know them both on the show, and I remember learning they were a couple, I was overjoyed. I'm so heartbroken for her and their children. I pray for their strength and peace to continue to get through this.

  • @heather_doestruecrime
    @heather_doestruecrime Рік тому +112

    Rest In Peace to this man who has a beautiful soul and struggled until he couldn’t anymore. Sending SO much love to her and their children.

  • @seaofsolace
    @seaofsolace Рік тому +87

    The level of pain this woman has to live with and the burden she has to carry should be illegal. It makes me so mad and sooo sad. We live in a very cruel world. My heart goes out to her. I hope she and her children make it to the other side of this tragedy and find a sense of normalcy again. It breaks my heart. I can only imagine what it did to hers. ❤

  • @RayG.L
    @RayG.L Рік тому +3

    Talking about feeling so much pain because there was so much love… that got me.

  • @a_2502
    @a_2502 Рік тому +93

    It's so insanely sad knowing how well people can hide their pain.... A lot of us don't know the answer but a lot of us do want to help. Life is so hard and complicated and I hope that we can be there for each other more. Healthy human interaction is so important. Be well out there everyone ❤

    • @brendadickson9583
      @brendadickson9583 Рік тому +1

      In a public taxi crying cause I am tired of it all I know God will answer one day but honestly am tired and I am always there for others n now am afraid to open up to them cause they always assume am okay n am not,
      Sorry long right up just saw your words n just needed to say something to release a bit. Thank you

    • @a_2502
      @a_2502 9 місяців тому

      @@brendadickson9583 I hope that you find the person that you can open up to and will listen to you. They are out there. Peace and blessings!

  • @kristinecrowley8321
    @kristinecrowley8321 Рік тому +55

    He had such warm, positive energy. I’m so sorry for his wife and kids. I wish he could have seen what a tremendous loss this would be to his family and fans. His heart was just too good for this world.

  • @dandv428
    @dandv428 9 місяців тому +2

    It is so confusing but makes so much sense all at the same time.

  • @joannsherrer2125
    @joannsherrer2125 7 місяців тому +1

    She is an amazing woman

  • @katrin896
    @katrin896 Рік тому +120

    Honestly can't imagine what she's going through. I've been with my husband for 11 years and I am more in love with him now than when we first met. I don't know what I would do if I'd lose him like this, I certainly wouldn't be as strong as Allison. All my love to her

  • @skatingcanuck9837
    @skatingcanuck9837 11 місяців тому +8

    Such composure and strength in the face of utter tragedy. Sending condolences and love to this beautiful family.

  • @pbentsonable
    @pbentsonable 7 місяців тому +1

    Amazing woman. Protect and support her always. ❤

  • @tinabica-demers9205
    @tinabica-demers9205 Рік тому +196

    My husband died suddenly 2021. As the family I knew imploded, I had to figure out the best to do for my 16 and 11-year-olds, all the while I was shattered. Along that came failures, bumps in the road and so many tears. I learned what "lean into the grief" really meant. I had to push away the toxic people who wanted nothing more than the spotlight of the loss we were living every single second of every day. I don't think he knew he wouldn't wake up, and I pray he didn't feel pain when the angels took away the center of our world, the compass in our life all in my days. Mike is guiding me and I hope I never let him down. He taught me how to love , and be loved. I hope that I give our babies just that...all of that. His memory and light are eternal.

    • @ImQuiteGay
      @ImQuiteGay Рік тому +8

      I’m sorry for your loss ❤

    • @rb43
      @rb43 Рік тому +5

      I am so sorry for your loss. Having three children myself, I cannot imagine the strain you must have experienced. I was moved to tears by your comment. Wishing you and your family the best!

    • @ashdallis6701
      @ashdallis6701 Рік тому +3

      beautifully spoken. Praying for your healing..

    • @christineshultz7615
      @christineshultz7615 Рік тому +4

      I'm so sorry for your loss. My son passed in his sleep from a brain aneurysm we were unaware existed. We look at living completely differently now.

    • @offthewallbts4697
      @offthewallbts4697 Рік тому

      I’m sorry for your loss 🤍 did he just suddenly die in his sleep?

  • @Nimisha369
    @Nimisha369 7 місяців тому +1

    My heart goes out to the Family. He was indeed love and light ❤

  • @sabrinadixon6227
    @sabrinadixon6227 8 місяців тому +1

    My heart aches for her!! Please don’t apologize for feeling and crying…

  • @mojavewolf1
    @mojavewolf1 Рік тому +50

    Sweet Allison , my husband died by suicide in 2007 . I know the feelings and it is a hard road for us survivors, you will become anew . Much love and Hugs ❤

  • @squaregangster
    @squaregangster Рік тому +102

    People say they want your positive energy only but don't realize how detrimental that can be to someone who needs to feel all their emotions

    • @XFonti-ik3ql
      @XFonti-ik3ql Рік тому +14

      Sooooo true ! Well said ! Thank You for knowledging such a strong reality !

    • @anjakersten
      @anjakersten Рік тому +4

      Thanks for making that point, it’s so important!

    • @amyhenningsgard8618
      @amyhenningsgard8618 Рік тому +1

      That reminds me of the old saying “laugh, and the world will laugh with you. Cry, and you’ll cry alone.”

    • @Andypandieful
      @Andypandieful Рік тому

      Bingo. It tanks then down further. Suppression is a lie. It has to be felt to work it out. Toxic positivity is an actual issue.

  • @Mila-Nova
    @Mila-Nova 11 місяців тому +12

    My heart goes out to her and her kids. I cannot fathom that kind of loss. Absolutely heartbreaking

  • @adelamoravcova9452
    @adelamoravcova9452 11 місяців тому +3

    This one is still hard to believe. It’s honestly just heartbreaking.

  • @lissetsanchez5316
    @lissetsanchez5316 Рік тому +76

    I wish I could just embrace her. This is one of the toughest things to have to endure. I have a friend who's son took his life. He was only 22. This was 4 years ago. I make sure to check on her frequently. She is so brave to want to help others in her grief.

    • @why6795
      @why6795 Рік тому +11

      You are a great friend❤

  • @kettlebellyogini
    @kettlebellyogini Рік тому +7

    I’m still so heartbroken for her and her kids. What a lovely lovely woman! I can’t imagine her loss.

  • @flowerd1348
    @flowerd1348 8 місяців тому +1

    I love how Hoda doesn't hold back tears

  • @maddynavarro77
    @maddynavarro77 Рік тому +52

    My heart and prayers go out to you, your babies and family. Praying for peace in this grief. 🙏🏽❤️

  • @ro.3645
    @ro.3645 Рік тому +300

    I lost my dad at 31. When I think about how hard it was for me to process as an adult, I can’t imagine how confusing this must be for children to process who loose a parent, especially an active and present parent. Please y’all. Always check in on your loved ones, you just really never ever know.

    • @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374
      @belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Рік тому

      Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

    • @meeky0420
      @meeky0420 Рік тому +3

      Agree! Lost my parents at 20 and it was devastating! I ended up ok so far 😂 hope they are ok.

    • @KRP-tq8hh
      @KRP-tq8hh Рік тому +5

      Lost my dad at 22, almost 22yrs ago. I miss him every single day and cannot imagine how these babies are coping not having the language yet to express their pain.

    • @JC-du6sn
      @JC-du6sn Рік тому +2

      Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer 😇

    • @luckydominic4862
      @luckydominic4862 Рік тому +1

      A man should never open up to his wife or children. He went out like a man. If he would’ve talked about his feelings he would’ve lost respect forever. He did the right

  • @realworkoutsforrealpeople5041
    @realworkoutsforrealpeople5041 Рік тому +72

    He was so loved, by so many, strangers and friends and kin alike.
    I am still hurting all these months later and I only knew his public persona so I can't imagine what it is like for his wife and kids.
    Here is a cyber hug for you, Allison.

  • @eunicekeely7765
    @eunicekeely7765 8 місяців тому +1

    My grandson same…….he was just 15…. Happy….smart…athletic…popular…no one saw it coming, not even his parents! Heartbreaking! It has been 2 years and I can still hardly talk of it. So so so sorry. Twitch just confirmed the shock of it! My son has sponsored a self awareness day at work at the Cleveland Clinic which will be ongoing specifying that It is ok to not be okay! I am terrified for my other grandson! My son managed the first year but the second year went into a deep depression. He is finally coming out of it. Someone going through it like you and your family can understand the horror of it all and the pain. Take care of your own self so you can still be strong for your kids.

  • @loisnoble9139
    @loisnoble9139 Рік тому +30

    My heart breaks for her and her children. I still can't believe he's no longer here with us. RIP Twitch may your soul rest in perfect peace. Alison I'm crying with you may you find peace. You and your children will always be in our thoughts and prayers.

  • @weenazic5180
    @weenazic5180 Рік тому +45

    I myself is a widow. I lost my husband on 11/04/22, due to suicide. I didn’t see it coming either. The worst day of my life. We have a 16 year old daughter and both still processing. I’m trying to be strong and positive for my daughter. We were married for 19 1/2 years together. I missed him everyday. I appreciate Allison bringing awareness of this mental illness. It’s so difficult to understand.

    • @louisar4227
      @louisar4227 Рік тому +1

      Praying for you 🙏🏼

    • @Kristen71
      @Kristen71 11 місяців тому

      I’m so sorry 🙏🕊💔

  • @kathleen4376
    @kathleen4376 Рік тому +13

    I am rooting for you and your kids Allison! Proud of your communication efforts and supporting your kids deal with this tragic loss.

  • @myhobbies9230
    @myhobbies9230 11 місяців тому

    I saw a quote once that said:
    Grief is Love with no where to go.
    It sticks with me for when I am overwhelmed by grief.

  • @italove1986
    @italove1986 Рік тому +15

    Allison you are resilient! ❤ You have an incredible heart that will illuminate your husband's legacy.

  • @moniquebowens9524
    @moniquebowens9524 Рік тому +8

    You just never know what someone is going through in silence.continous prayers for his family

  • @J_Khodabaks
    @J_Khodabaks Рік тому +2

    Just because he was full of joy and happiness doesn’t mean he wasn’t hurting
    Behind every smile there’s a broken heart 💔

  • @jessw7136
    @jessw7136 Рік тому +6

    My dad took his life 10/04/20
    No one saw it coming. No signs. I am still in shock. All my love to you and the kids. This is a pain thats never ending.

    • @manaona3730
      @manaona3730 Рік тому +1

      I’m so sorry for your loss and experience. I couldn’t imagine losing my father. My heart is with you.

  • @Ssz_6738
    @Ssz_6738 Рік тому +34

    My heart breaks for her and her kids 😢

  • @ericahall1781
    @ericahall1781 11 місяців тому +3

    I feel that he became depressed when his show (The Ellen Show where he was one of the producers) got canceled. Rest in peace, Stephen ❤

  • @TheMalawianFlorence
    @TheMalawianFlorence 9 місяців тому +1

    This is one celebrity death that really hurt. Stephen made us all so happy and he was carrying around all this hurt.

  • @JE-ws7zu
    @JE-ws7zu 11 місяців тому +3

    This one was so heartbreaking as his family couldn’t even see his pain. My heart goes out to them. I pray she finds peace and happiness 💕

  • @angelwolfe6728
    @angelwolfe6728 Рік тому +13

    Sending so much love to Allison and children 🫶✨💞

  • @yvonnetengen158
    @yvonnetengen158 Рік тому +6

    My heart goes out to Allison! Much love and blessings to her and family for strength peace and hope!

  • @paganharris8594
    @paganharris8594 Рік тому +4

    Bless her for doing this. The amount of strength this had to have taken…. Everyone be kind to one another because we really never know what we’re all going through behind closed doors. We’re all just trying our best.
    Love you Boss family💝

  • @leonip9142
    @leonip9142 8 місяців тому +1

    So sad, heartbreaking. May he rest in peace and I hope his beautiful family will be able to work together through this heartache.

  • @patriciajohnson6101
    @patriciajohnson6101 Рік тому +23

    So sorry for this loss to your family 🕊

  • @contessalouannec8064
    @contessalouannec8064 Рік тому +12

    Thank Goodness he was in our lives. Bless her and her family.

  • @leabrowning8256
    @leabrowning8256 9 місяців тому +4

    His smile was to make us feel better. I wished we knew so we could have all helped him. God bless his children & Allison, & his mom & dad. This shook me. He was a beautiful light. ❤❤❤❤

  • @Leelee-op7vj
    @Leelee-op7vj 9 місяців тому +1

    Allison is so amazing.

  • @thedogzoo
    @thedogzoo Рік тому +7

    I think of this family so much. I lost my husband 2 years ago. I was lucky to have him 31 years. I talk to him everyday. I can't even begin to know what you are going through. You're so strong.

  • @coreygarnett5826
    @coreygarnett5826 Рік тому +6

    This was the saddest thing about 2022..I hope they stay strong 💪🏾 and keep their ❤’s open.

  • @holly_kalae
    @holly_kalae Рік тому +3

    This woman is so strong, god bless her. Still in total shock, if anyone would tell me this was going to happen I never would believe it he was someone I associated with so much happiness and love and positivity but just goes to show you never know what someone is going through. Sending so much love and light to the family ❤🕊

  • @vickilockeby3172
    @vickilockeby3172 8 місяців тому +1

    People search for their true love for a lifetime….so this breaks my heart because ik they loved each other so much! I am 48 and still searching for my soulmate

  • @wonderfulpets3828
    @wonderfulpets3828 Рік тому +32

    I've been a fan of Allison since she was on SYTYCD, and I was so happy to see her and Twitch together for many years. They were such a beautiful couple with an obvious love for each other and their kids. It's still so shocking that this happened to him. As Allison said, I hope that this tragedy opens up conversations and that somebody gets the help they need because of his story.

  • @brendy0807
    @brendy0807 Рік тому +5

    My father took his own life when I was 5. It takes a long time to get through that. Thinking of his family 💜

  • @linhquy2913
    @linhquy2913 9 місяців тому +3

    What a strong soul you are, Allison! Sending you love, support, and encouragement. This interview made me tear up in so many ways. ❤❤❤

  • @aishasavon
    @aishasavon 11 місяців тому +13

    Been fans of both of them since they were on SYTYCD and watched them blossom into a beautiful family and spread so much love throughout the world. I pray for her and her family's strength and healing and all of Twitch's family. This loss truly struck everyone. The press was so horrible to her and it was disgusting to see all the hate towards her. You TRULY never know what someone you love or are close to is going through. The world needs to be more kind.

  • @savitri2794
    @savitri2794 Рік тому +10

    Hoda is so compassionate👍

  • @HeatherSC02
    @HeatherSC02 Рік тому +14

    Still so hard to imagine he’s gone. He was such a beautiful soul. Allison is doing a great job. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be for all of them. He’s alive within those sweet babies. They have their daddy’s smile and joy.

  • @bettycogswell9851
    @bettycogswell9851 Рік тому +24

    God bless her and her family.

  • @amandawyatt9694
    @amandawyatt9694 8 місяців тому +1

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers 🙏 ❤️ sending love and light to you and your family...

  • @aubreekane9439
    @aubreekane9439 11 місяців тому +11

    Omg she looks absolutely emotionally drained, I’m so used to seeing her so full of life and happy. This is heartbreaking. Praying for you Allison! And your babies!

  • @Flower13022
    @Flower13022 Рік тому +20

    I feel so bad for Allison and her kids. I wish we, or anyone could’ve helped Twitch so he’d be here. Sending love and prayers for this family 💕

  • @nvegasgrl
    @nvegasgrl Рік тому +38

    Heartbreaking! I'm still praying for you and the kids, Allison! I thank you for highlighting mental health awareness while you're going through your own time of sorrow. It matters! Y'all have been such bright lights in my life! Me & my 6 yr old grandson danced with y'all often on Boss Family Workouts. I pray God continues to shine on you! RIP tWitch! ❤

  • @laurasopalca8433
    @laurasopalca8433 11 місяців тому +2

    This really made me cry , Stephen was an amazing man , I wish we could take away your pain 😔💔

  • @TheStayh21
    @TheStayh21 11 місяців тому +1

    I watch this, and I am still in shock 😢 breaks my heart. Literally, when I see this 💔 I feel the pain 💔

  • @dhanadakeisham485
    @dhanadakeisham485 Рік тому +29

    Yeah.....nothing prepared us for this dreadful day. Sending love to the family.

  • @valentinaelizabeth9462
    @valentinaelizabeth9462 Рік тому +5

    This interview made me cry , the kids are so hurt. I feel it for them . God bless her and her kids . Twitch we miss you so much, I still can't believe it.xx

  • @sdh42
    @sdh42 Рік тому +7

    This is the first celebrity death that really shook me. I still can't believe it. My heart goes out to Allison and her babies.

  • @clarissekorum7633
    @clarissekorum7633 8 місяців тому +1

    I'm so saddened by your loss. There's a saying only the Good die young. Your in my heart and prayers.

  • @stephaniehopkins2999
    @stephaniehopkins2999 Рік тому +121

    The biggest problem I had was asking for help, never thought asking for help was a solution. TBH asking for help wasn’t on my list, I didn’t want anyone to feel sorry for me, look at me different, or tell me I was stupid for feeling a certain way. I thought I could figure things out on my own without anyone getting involved but that back fired when my “attempt” was interrupted and then EVERYONE knew what was up. That was 20 years ago and I’m ashamed to admit that those thoughts and feelings have never truly gone away. Life is sure complicated isn’t it?

    • @ziona9259
      @ziona9259 Рік тому +14

      I totally agree with you. Sometimes I don’t wanna tell people how empty I’m feeling when it comes to not being able to bring my friends together. I mean I understand they have families and other stuff to do, of course. The thing is, I don’t want to make it seem like that I’m trying to control people or force them cuz I’m not like that. They can say I can’t do stuff like that and that I should be careful to who I put trust towards but it makes me feel shame because it’s like I’m becoming a victim yet I’m treated as if I’m the problem to myself. That’s why I didn’t need anyone to teach me things that are hard for me to cope with so I only push myself to do better without having to rely on anyone. So sometimes it sucks to not being able to tell how you feel without feeling ashamed.

    • @courtr1588
      @courtr1588 Рік тому +19

      I hope you know that you have nothing to be ashamed about. I'm sorry to hear that you're still struggling. You are amazing to keep fighting though. Your life matters.

    • @Crystal_1992
      @Crystal_1992 Рік тому +18

      I tried to get help and no one cared 😢im doing ok now though

    • @BbGun-lw5vi
      @BbGun-lw5vi Рік тому +14

      @@Crystal_1992 I’m really sorry you were dismissed. Is it possible some of those people just didn’t know what to say to you so it seemed like they didn’t care? Sometimes people have no idea what to say. Kind of like when a person loses a loved one and people don’t reach out because they’re afraid.
      I’m glad that you’re doing better now. I hope you find a friend who you can share your troubles and joys with.

    • @ziona9259
      @ziona9259 Рік тому +3

      @@courtr1588 appreciate it

  • @GB-TX
    @GB-TX Рік тому +10

    Thank you for sharing this with the world Allison. This is so important.
    Men need to feel like they can share their emotions and don't have to bear the burden of being the worlds' Superman.
    I am so sorry that he took himself away from you and your children. You are all so strong. And hopefully others can learn from this and less of these tragedies could happen.

  • @BerrybooX
    @BerrybooX 10 місяців тому +2

    She’s a remarkable woman.. sending you prayers for strength!! Rip twitch

  • @evaisaiahhall
    @evaisaiahhall 9 місяців тому +3

    I have watched them literally since day one on so you think you can dance. They are were the perfect couple. I cried when they got engaged, I cried when they had babies, I cried when we lost him. I love her so much and I'm praying for them all and whoever feels you are alone you aren't! We love you too speak up let someone know you can't take it anymore someone will be there please don't give up

  • @serveriamanning6313
    @serveriamanning6313 Рік тому +48

    Omg. Praying for Allison and her kids. Prayers to his mother and family as well. Depression is a real issue and unfortunately in the BLACK community you're told to pray it away. I'm happy Allison is part of the mental health program raising awareness. ❤
    Twitch ..RIH😢😢❤❤

  • @Caitecakess
    @Caitecakess Рік тому +4

    Her smiling and dancing in his honor, for a cause… so powerful 😭😭😭😭