Oh, Meg - bless you - you ARE giving back to Alfie. You love him everyday, and always will; that is giving back. Your love for him is always enough: it is the ultimate gift. 💕
You are beautiful and brave. Alfie is sitting up in heaven just in awe of his mommy. Every bite is a punch in the face to ED & a promise to Alfie that you will choose to live every single day. I'm so proud of you Meg. Thank you for humanizing anorexia. Feel shit and do it anyway. I'd constantly say that to myself over and over in my head during residential when I absolutely definitely did not want to do something. Once it's in, it's in. So many sound bites that have not only changed my life, but the course of my family's life as well. For I thank you!
There was nothing morbid, quit opposite. Its so important to talk about death and the impact that people had on our lives. Sending hugs Megs, thank you
It doesn’t feel weird or morbid but it’s the thing that keeps you going, it’s his love and what he brought you and Bren that gets you through!! And the fact you’re still trying to help people in ED recovery while you’re going through this, you’re incredible ❤️🩹
I think it's lovely how you talk about Alfie. Sad (not morbid at all, death is a terrible, tough but natural part of life), yes. But LOVE is what I hear from your words. Some religions talk about "Master Death" , who teaches us to really live life. Big hug Meg❤️
Was just rewatching your old videos. Thank you so much for posting! You literally have helped me in my recovery more than anything else. You articulate everything about EDs so well. I even send your videos to my mum, because they help her have insight to what EDs and ED recovery is like for a sufferer. Thank you so much for being vulnerable for your subscribers. You truly have helped my recovery more than I can begin to explain. Sending kindness and healing to you 🌻🤍!
I am not one to comment, but this video touched me. 💖 My heart goes out to you, Meg. I can relate to loss and feeling your feeling to help you get through it. Sometime, you need to sit with your emotions to get through them, especially when you are not using ED behaviors to numb them. Self-care is so important for everyone, but can be extremely difficult for someone with an eating disorder. I restricted every bit for pleasure and joy in my life; money and treating myself to material things was non-existent. Recovering from an eating disorder and all the work involved makes you stronger. You see that when you are faced with life’s uncertain challenges. It is awesome when it happens! Thank you for wearing your heart on your sleeve. You are truly inspirational. I also thank my good friend, Lisa from the US, for introducing to your videos. All the Best to You 🌟
Hey Meg. I never thought I could recover, but I’ve been watching your videos for a few years now, and you’re a huge reason why I am well into recovery. Thank you so much! I don’t think I could have done it without everything I have learned from your channel.
You give so many people hope and it’s so helpful to call out all those dysfunctional coping mechanisms. You’re brave and by being honest it’s so motivational. But overall I, like many people just wanted to give you a hug. Thank you for everything you do ❤️
I love your raw emotions. If you were still eating disordered, you wouldn’t be as vulnerable with us. I wish I could give you a hug. You are a courageous warrior, and a survivor. Alfie would be proud of you ❤️🥰
Meg I cannot tell you how impactful this video has been for me. I have truly taken these things to heart and begun to practice kindness to myself, and it feels really really nice. I could relate to every word you said. I am going through heart breaking season in my marriage and found myself forcing myself to be productive just as you described. And before I knew it started picking up old ED behaviors. Watching this video has reminded me that there are so many nice things I can do for myself. They may not give me the “high” of ED, but they ultimately protect what I truly value the most, which is a full life in recovery. Tonight I took the most lovely bath with candles and bath salts and wine. And tomorrow I plan to sit at a coffee shop and order my favorite latte and read. It was just so helpful and encouraging to see you doing these things amidst the greatest pain imaginable. And no, those things didn’t “fix” your pain, but they offered moments of kindness and comfort that ultimately weren’t harmful to you in the long run. Just you being good to yourself. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It’s really helping me in my own season of grieving. Sending so much love. Grateful for your vulnerability and wisdom, and grateful that you walk the walk- because it gives me courage to walk it too. ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this very vulnerable video. I struggle so much with running back to the restriction when the emotions get too much. This was so helpful.
Aww Meg this is the sweetest thing. It's horrible to have had to say goodbye to Alfie so soon, but it's so beautiful the way he is still so close with you all the time, cheering you on through recovery and showing you how strong and kind you are. The two of you have such an incredible bond, and it is so inspiring to see how you continue to heal and walk through the pain by keeping Alfie with you in all the ways you can. It is such a beautiful, holy thing you've been able to do in response to such a tragedy. You and Alfie are amazing
Oh Meg, thank you for posting and for sharing the gift Alfie gave you. I, in no way, am comparing loss, but I feel a similar way. I lost my father and younger brother 11 months apart and similiarly, I feel like if I made it through that, I can sit through the discomfort of working my way toward recovery. I have made more progress in the year since I lost them both than I have in the past 25 years. You summed it up so beautifully and I so appreciate your videos. I am sending so much love to you, Bren, Beyonce, Stevie, and Bertie from New Hampshire.
I realise that I can deal with recovery when everything is going well and as soon as something bad happens I fall back into controlling my food and I know it’s wrong and I am struggling but your videos really help. I think you are amazing and I feel sad at what you have been through, thank you for this video and I am going to try harder and my daughter has advised me I need to get some more therapy which I will do, lots of love to you Meg I am so happy you are making more you tube videos ❤️
I adore you Meg ❤️ thanks for EVERYTHING! My aunt asked me during the week what was the turning point for me to start recovery about 2 years ago and it was definitely you xxx
Thanks Megsy .Bless you .Honestly this really helped me.To be able to express your feelings at the worst point is a very brave , thing to do ,let alone record it .It opened a window to..... that the way through is ..Through ..... express it , soothe it , self care ,talk about it .What a supremely necessary tool for anyone trying to recover from an eating disorder .It is giving me courage to to face something extremely difficult in my life which I guess I have been avoiding .I will remember you as I face and express the feelings .Love X X
Thank you so much for this video Meg. I don't have human children but I have cats and one of them is very sick at the vet at this moment. Sick enough that there is a chance we might loose her. Seeing this video today meant so much. It calmed me, helped me feel all my feelings understanding it's okay not to be okay, etc. Your existence is a blessing. Lots of love. Laura
Thank you for your videos. I love how honestly you speak about your emotions and your experiences, whilst managing to express it all so well. This amount of vulnerability and sincerity is so precious, especially on such a platform. Wish you the best
Yes, Meg, I totally agree with LA!! You are such an amazing person… So warm and giving and caring and loving and you have helped so so very many people tremendously by sharing your story, your vulnerabilities, and your struggles!! He has the best mother he could possibly ever have in you!! That will never change! And you keep on giving that to him by giving to others!!
Meg I dont even know the words. You have been through something I can't imagine, but I think the way you talk about sweet Alfie and the gift he has been to you is beautiful. You give so much to this community and have such a way of sharing your experience and are so relatable and insightful. Thank you for being you and all you do. Sending much love and thanks!! XOXO
Feeling guilty for not feeling okay is my biggest issue at the moment. Emotions are such a weird thing. You inspire me to continue my journey and what you talk about really makes sense and helps to put my focus back where it needs to be. Sending some love your way
Can I just say that I had never heard that expression before and I feel like it is a life changer at the age of 43! `` there's no point in being the richest and skinniest person in the grave!`` Thank you Meg!
🤣Stevie's defiance about going in the kitty box! I love your advice about listening to your emotions - I always say emotions are our friends! Can relate to feeling lonely: my partner and best friend of 4 years broke up with me a few months ago, and the desire to go back to the ED was calling. But instead have listened to emotions and just sat in the shit feelings and listened to the needs, which is actually helping so much more!! You are an amazing woman which is shown by your ability to grow from suffering and inspire so many people. 💕
I am with you for the having a hard time asking for support/help. It’s been one of the major barriers in my recovery. Thanks for another great video Meg! You are making your little Alfie proud! ❤️
What an honest and helpful video! I love what you shared about emotions being information. My emotions are rushing back in as I progress in recovery, and thinking of them as cues to action or cues to what I need is so helpful. ❤️
Thank you so much for this honest and vulnerable video Meg. It's reassuring to hear you speak openly- though also want to give you a big hug! Lots of love xx
love you always Meg! you are the most inspiring person, thank you for the reminder that YES life is just too short to waste a single second more on eating disorder crap, and feelings are indeed temporary. this, too, shall pass. =)
This is so useful. I have been really stuck giving up dieting and practising intuitive eating. The saving money and using up leftovers is a huge issue for me and I end up eating things I don't really want which is not helping me move forward. Thank you for posting even though I understand this must have been tough to look back on.
I think you're incredibly brave Meg. Another helpful video & thoroughly entertaining (Stevie escaping the cat bag 🙊😂) - its lovely to see how "real" you are & to see your growth. Sending love from Australia 🇦🇺😍
Thank you Megsy. I have a hard time dealing with my emotions (actually all my life) and it's even harder with anxiety disorder and depression. Thanks to you i realized that i was/am not good at spending money on myself and also felt like i do not deserve it even with buying a food for myself.
Awww, I have sooo much respect for you Meg! Watching your videos from the start (as you know😂) has been inspiring and now showing that actually, despite everything, you’ve been able to manage through the most difficult time in your life; without engaging in shitty ED behaviours. You are making and have made Alfie proud; every single day.. you’re smashing this shit and learning also that just sitting with feeling is okay. Alfie would be so proud of you. Keep going! Love your vids as always, and thank you. Keep remembering “this too shall pass”, or just good old “feel shit and do it anyway”😂lots of love 💕🤗😘xxx
Thank you for sharing the video from after Alfie had just died, during your grief. I wish I could give you a hug whilst watching that. You were trying so hard to function and understand your emotions whilst desperately trying to distract your mind. How strong of you though to have still not used the ed as a quick fix despite feeling so unhappy. Dealing with emotions is soo hard and the action of avoiding trying to numb them out through ed behaviours or saving £. I have found sitting with emotions so hard, especially waiting for it to peak but reminding myself that emotions pass is so powerful. Self soothing is definitely helpful. Finding what works for you is important... It's not as effective but it's more healthy than using the ed XXX sending you so much love Meg ❤️ it's definitely ok to not be ok 💫💪❤️
I feel like you gain confidence through experience as well, like knowing you got through hard things before shows you that you can do it again. It’s just having the tolerance to face the hard things it the first place, without a sneaky ED work around 😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 yes most definitely. I'm going through this process of trusting feeling emotions and accepting they will pass so hopefully as you say I will gain the confidence in time that I CAN navigate the tough days and bank the evidence each time I manage it. Thank you for this video and your encouraging reply ❤️
You are such an extraordinarily strong yet soft person. I hope you feel all the love and admiration coming to you from here and all corners of your life.
Megsy, your soo awe-inspiring and so honest. I always appreciate that, you put yourself out there and tell it how it is and was. Yes, I agree with the others(previous comments, this is morbid...oh gosh no. It your reality, it's your experience and nothing you said was vile. If anything talking about Alfie sheds more like to all of us and yourself, it does seem very difficult for you to talk about but you loved/love him, you even said you are now letting yourself feel the emotions now and it goes with talking about something so hard in the same way. I think. Also, if their are points were you need time (emotions arise very strongly) take that time to be super gentle. I know you probably do but I just wanted to say. I do appreciate you always trying to open up to me/all of us. I'm sorry it did go about that way, you are a great, beautiful, inspiring, strong, ambitious, giving, intelligent woman no matter what. And I want to give you a hug so bad, I'm so proud of you for sticking to recovery even when all sh** happen like you said. I admire that of you. And it is hard to try to make yourself rest and eat when any feeling come up(at least for me), I try to do it anyways now, I have to. Another thing, I believe you did share this on your previous videos of I get that it does get kinda iffy to share the ED behaviors on there because it can give ideas to those entrench in the ED but at the same time I know that not your purpose to share. Tbh, I don't find it triggered but I can imagine it gets hard when you do share and even when you said about the food you feature on social media...uugh. I do hope people take responsibility of their own actions. I do hope they don't allow these behaviors get the best of them. You are even saying that you lived a sh** life for so long by doing all that and I would definitely have to agree (my life) it's still tough for me but I know I know better. However, thank you for being so vulnerable. I do always love all the extra bits too with Stevie and Bertie etc...and how your day is going. I hope you feel better by now with so much going on. Here for you. Love you loads🖤😌💞☺️🖤🆓🐾🤨🗣️👣🥛🥄🥜☕🚗🏡🎥💻📖☮️🧘
I am sorry everything has happened to you. I know this sadnesses will pass and it will build you strong. Thank you for making this very personal feelings blog. You’re al in my prayers. Be happy and strong. 👍👏👏🥰🥰🥰🤗🤗🤗❤️
meg I love your channel so much, your helped me so much in my recovery bc you explain the thoughts and things so well. I'm really thankful for your videos. I just want to ask a question. Do you experience something like tough emotions in generell. I found myself getting very angry to anyone who what's me to eat something or ask questions or stuff like this. Like I get really angry and start so shout and scream. I hate this behaviour but I feel so paralysed in this moment and can not stop. Afterwards I feel so bad bc i know that my family is just trying to help me but I react so bad very time. I wonder if someone else has experienced this? Have a nice day :)
Meg, I’ve always wondered why you chose the names of your cats and Bertie? Love how funny and cute they all are! ❤️ p.s love that the UA-cam videos are back xxx
Thankyou for sharing! I listen a lot to the song OK from Mabel. She also sings about that it is okay not to be okay and it always makes me feel a bit better.
One of the hardest things i've found in my recovery is having an ED to recover from while also dealing with another mental illness. For me it's social anxiety - for example, it'd be hard for me to sit in a cafe, order something while reading a book because not only is eating in a cafe/in front of other people hard because of the eating disorder thoughts, but also there is the awful mess of thoughts that the anxiety gives me. It's like when the eating disorder isn't that big of a part of your life anymore (more than a year into recovery here :)), however there still is the another mentall illness that takes up an unnecessarr-ily big part of the "pie chart of life".. :/
For me too, i have anxiety disorder and depression and it has bacame worse during recovery and it's so hard to recover when i balance between motivation for recovery, total apathy, wanting to die and picturing how recovery will make my life even worse etc
Your struggle with this porridge is so damn relatable. Do you have a video you've already made about this sort of situation? This is the thing that gets most in the way of my recovery--spending the energy to make the food when the process doesn't go particularly smoothly and I was already tired anyway. I get so frustrated and it gets hard not just be like "fuck it" and give up. What's your advice/mantra on challenging that whole thought pattern? Is it just kind of opposite actions? Or is there something more specific you used to help get past these sorts of hiccups scaring you away from building consistent eating habits?
I find the hard plastic carriers that have the front door are easier to get the cats in. The door is a lot easier to close quick on the cats who try to jump out. Top loading carriers are always tricky to get their legs in.
I think recovery has made you stronger wiser and kinder x Do you have days where you feel uncomfortable with your eating and appearance..or do you think it's all emotion about something else?
To me the "just add water" -thingy is triggering as f and it sends me right down the ED-path... I was even scared of _drinking_ it at one point so no added water in foods, (and it still feels difficult sometimes..) drinking it, that is fine. Adding water just.... it feels so bland to be enjoying "good" food w "just water", when you can add to the taste all you like and it does absolutely nothing to your body. Feels like dietculture ruling to me. lots of love to you, be kind to yourself xx!
Hi Megs, iv followed you for a long time and on insta. I'm currently battling a relapse and I am watching your vlogs again as the first time I struggled with Atypical Anorexia, your vlogs helped me combat it 😊, you really do make such a difference. I totally understand about Little Alfie teaching you so much, although not a child, losing my grandad who was such a idol to me, taught me that although through a heartbreaking time, his passing has taught me that I am resilient and strong although I feel the opposite. I'm so sorry about little Alfie but also know that he will live on forever in Freddie. Love Kayles @darcy_show_cocker & @pawfectly.tagged. I'd love to make you a tag for Bertie 😍 free as a way of saying Thankyou for helping me xxx
Oh, Meg - bless you - you ARE giving back to Alfie. You love him everyday, and always will; that is giving back. Your love for him is always enough: it is the ultimate gift. 💕
You are beautiful and brave. Alfie is sitting up in heaven just in awe of his mommy. Every bite is a punch in the face to ED & a promise to Alfie that you will choose to live every single day. I'm so proud of you Meg. Thank you for humanizing anorexia.
Feel shit and do it anyway. I'd constantly say that to myself over and over in my head during residential when I absolutely definitely did not want to do something. Once it's in, it's in. So many sound bites that have not only changed my life, but the course of my family's life as well. For I thank you!
There was nothing morbid, quit opposite. Its so important to talk about death and the impact that people had on our lives. Sending hugs Megs, thank you
It doesn’t feel weird or morbid but it’s the thing that keeps you going, it’s his love and what he brought you and Bren that gets you through!! And the fact you’re still trying to help people in ED recovery while you’re going through this, you’re incredible ❤️🩹
We can hear the love in your voice for Alfie. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
I think it's lovely how you talk about Alfie. Sad (not morbid at all, death is a terrible, tough but natural part of life), yes. But LOVE is what I hear from your words.
Some religions talk about "Master Death" , who teaches us to really live life.
Big hug Meg❤️
Was just rewatching your old videos. Thank you so much for posting! You literally have helped me in my recovery more than anything else. You articulate everything about EDs so well. I even send your videos to my mum, because they help her have insight to what EDs and ED recovery is like for a sufferer. Thank you so much for being vulnerable for your subscribers. You truly have helped my recovery more than I can begin to explain. Sending kindness and healing to you 🌻🤍!
Just finished the video. So moving. I am so so sorry for your loss. Much love to you and your husband 💙
Awwww thank you. I’m so so glad the stuff which has helped me can also in some way help you (& your mumma) 😚
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I am not one to comment, but this video touched me. 💖 My heart goes out to you, Meg. I can relate to loss and feeling your feeling to help you get through it. Sometime, you need to sit with your emotions to get through them, especially when you are not using ED behaviors to numb them. Self-care is so important for everyone, but can be extremely difficult for someone with an eating disorder. I restricted every bit for pleasure and joy in my life; money and treating myself to material things was non-existent. Recovering from an eating disorder and all the work involved makes you stronger. You see that when you are faced with life’s uncertain challenges. It is awesome when it happens!
Thank you for wearing your heart on your sleeve. You are truly inspirational. I also thank my good friend, Lisa from the US, for introducing to your videos.
All the Best to You 🌟
Hey Meg. I never thought I could recover, but I’ve been watching your videos for a few years now, and you’re a huge reason why I am well into recovery. Thank you so much! I don’t think I could have done it without everything I have learned from your channel.
the notification popped up and that title nearly made me tear up, thank you megsy !!
You give so many people hope and it’s so helpful to call out all those dysfunctional coping mechanisms. You’re brave and by being honest it’s so motivational. But overall I, like many people just wanted to give you a hug. Thank you for everything you do ❤️
I love your raw emotions. If you were still eating disordered, you wouldn’t be as vulnerable with us. I wish I could give you a hug. You are a courageous warrior, and a survivor. Alfie would be proud of you ❤️🥰
Meg I cannot tell you how impactful this video has been for me. I have truly taken these things to heart and begun to practice kindness to myself, and it feels really really nice. I could relate to every word you said. I am going through heart breaking season in my marriage and found myself forcing myself to be productive just as you described. And before I knew it started picking up old ED behaviors. Watching this video has reminded me that there are so many nice things I can do for myself. They may not give me the “high” of ED, but they ultimately protect what I truly value the most, which is a full life in recovery. Tonight I took the most lovely bath with candles and bath salts and wine. And tomorrow I plan to sit at a coffee shop and order my favorite latte and read. It was just so helpful and encouraging to see you doing these things amidst the greatest pain imaginable. And no, those things didn’t “fix” your pain, but they offered moments of kindness and comfort that ultimately weren’t harmful to you in the long run. Just you being good to yourself. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It’s really helping me in my own season of grieving. Sending so much love. Grateful for your vulnerability and wisdom, and grateful that you walk the walk- because it gives me courage to walk it too. ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this very vulnerable video. I struggle so much with running back to the restriction when the emotions get too much. This was so helpful.
Aww Meg this is the sweetest thing. It's horrible to have had to say goodbye to Alfie so soon, but it's so beautiful the way he is still so close with you all the time, cheering you on through recovery and showing you how strong and kind you are. The two of you have such an incredible bond, and it is so inspiring to see how you continue to heal and walk through the pain by keeping Alfie with you in all the ways you can. It is such a beautiful, holy thing you've been able to do in response to such a tragedy. You and Alfie are amazing
Oh Meg, what a beautiful video & beautiful message. I want to give you a big hug x
Oh Meg, thank you for posting and for sharing the gift Alfie gave you. I, in no way, am comparing loss, but I feel a similar way. I lost my father and younger brother 11 months apart and similiarly, I feel like if I made it through that, I can sit through the discomfort of working my way toward recovery. I have made more progress in the year since I lost them both than I have in the past 25 years. You summed it up so beautifully and I so appreciate your videos. I am sending so much love to you, Bren, Beyonce, Stevie, and Bertie from New Hampshire.
I realise that I can deal with recovery when everything is going well and as soon as something bad happens I fall back into controlling my food and I know it’s wrong and I am struggling but your videos really help. I think you are amazing and I feel sad at what you have been through, thank you for this video and I am going to try harder and my daughter has advised me I need to get some more therapy which I will do, lots of love to you Meg I am so happy you are making more you tube videos ❤️
I adore you Meg ❤️ thanks for EVERYTHING! My aunt asked me during the week what was the turning point for me to start recovery about 2 years ago and it was definitely you xxx
Thanks Megsy .Bless you .Honestly this really helped me.To be able to express your feelings at the worst point is a very brave , thing to do ,let alone record it .It opened a window to..... that the way through is ..Through ..... express it , soothe it , self care ,talk about it .What a supremely necessary tool for anyone trying to recover from an eating disorder .It is giving me courage to to face something extremely difficult in my life which I guess I have been avoiding .I will remember you as I face and express the feelings .Love X X
Good luck & lots of love for it, I have every faith you can face it & tolerate without using destructive behaviours 😘😘😘 xxxx
@@megsyrecovery191 Thanks so much for that dear Meg.. All very best 🥰 to you and Bren 🙏🏻🎊 XX
Thank you so much for this video Meg. I don't have human children but I have cats and one of them is very sick at the vet at this moment. Sick enough that there is a chance we might loose her. Seeing this video today meant so much. It calmed me, helped me feel all my feelings understanding it's okay not to be okay, etc. Your existence is a blessing. Lots of love. Laura
Thank you for your videos. I love how honestly you speak about your emotions and your experiences, whilst managing to express it all so well. This amount of vulnerability and sincerity is so precious, especially on such a platform. Wish you the best
Yes, Meg, I totally agree with LA!! You are such an amazing person… So warm and giving and caring and loving and you have helped so so very many people tremendously by sharing your story, your vulnerabilities, and your struggles!! He has the best mother he could possibly ever have in you!! That will never change! And you keep on giving that to him by giving to others!!
Meg I dont even know the words. You have been through something I can't imagine, but I think the way you talk about sweet Alfie and the gift he has been to you is beautiful. You give so much to this community and have such a way of sharing your experience and are so relatable and insightful. Thank you for being you and all you do. Sending much love and thanks!! XOXO
Feeling guilty for not feeling okay is my biggest issue at the moment. Emotions are such a weird thing. You inspire me to continue my journey and what you talk about really makes sense and helps to put my focus back where it needs to be. Sending some love your way
You speak and express yourself so articulately Meg. I love listening to your wisdom and insight about ED's. You speak so much truth 🙌❤ Big love Meg xx
Thank you Meg for your vulnerability. You are so courageous. HUG xxx
Can I just say that I had never heard that expression before and I feel like it is a life changer at the age of 43! `` there's no point in being the richest and skinniest person in the grave!`` Thank you Meg!
🤣Stevie's defiance about going in the kitty box! I love your advice about listening to your emotions - I always say emotions are our friends!
Can relate to feeling lonely: my partner and best friend of 4 years broke up with me a few months ago, and the desire to go back to the ED was calling. But instead have listened to emotions and just sat in the shit feelings and listened to the needs, which is actually helping so much more!!
You are an amazing woman which is shown by your ability to grow from suffering and inspire so many people. 💕
Oh such a lovely video. You are such a kind person. You have and still help me all the time. Lots of love
I am with you for the having a hard time asking for support/help. It’s been one of the major barriers in my recovery. Thanks for another great video Meg! You are making your little Alfie proud! ❤️
I wish I can give you a big hug! I am so grateful for what you are sharing.
What an honest and helpful video! I love what you shared about emotions being information. My emotions are rushing back in as I progress in recovery, and thinking of them as cues to action or cues to what I need is so helpful. ❤️
Thanks for posting, Meg! I love whenever you post! I’m so sorry about Alfie :((( Thanks for sharing what he has taught you!
Thank you so much for this honest and vulnerable video Meg. It's reassuring to hear you speak openly- though also want to give you a big hug! Lots of love xx
Gosh Meg you are just wonderful. So funny, kind and wise. Your love for Alfie is just beautiful xx
love you always Meg! you are the most inspiring person, thank you for the reminder that YES life is just too short to waste a single second more on eating disorder crap, and feelings are indeed temporary. this, too, shall pass. =)
You inspire me
This is so useful. I have been really stuck giving up dieting and practising intuitive eating. The saving money and using up leftovers is a huge issue for me and I end up eating things I don't really want which is not helping me move forward. Thank you for posting even though I understand this must have been tough to look back on.
I think you're incredibly brave Meg. Another helpful video & thoroughly entertaining (Stevie escaping the cat bag 🙊😂) - its lovely to see how "real" you are & to see your growth. Sending love from Australia 🇦🇺😍
Thank you Megsy. I have a hard time dealing with my emotions (actually all my life) and it's even harder with anxiety disorder and depression. Thanks to you i realized that i was/am not good at spending money on myself and also felt like i do not deserve it even with buying a food for myself.
Awww, I have sooo much respect for you Meg! Watching your videos from the start (as you know😂) has been inspiring and now showing that actually, despite everything, you’ve been able to manage through the most difficult time in your life; without engaging in shitty ED behaviours. You are making and have made Alfie proud; every single day.. you’re smashing this shit and learning also that just sitting with feeling is okay. Alfie would be so proud of you. Keep going! Love your vids as always, and thank you. Keep remembering “this too shall pass”, or just good old “feel shit and do it anyway”😂lots of love 💕🤗😘xxx
Thank you for sharing the video from after Alfie had just died, during your grief. I wish I could give you a hug whilst watching that. You were trying so hard to function and understand your emotions whilst desperately trying to distract your mind. How strong of you though to have still not used the ed as a quick fix despite feeling so unhappy. Dealing with emotions is soo hard and the action of avoiding trying to numb them out through ed behaviours or saving £. I have found sitting with emotions so hard, especially waiting for it to peak but reminding myself that emotions pass is so powerful. Self soothing is definitely helpful. Finding what works for you is important... It's not as effective but it's more healthy than using the ed XXX sending you so much love Meg ❤️ it's definitely ok to not be ok 💫💪❤️
I feel like you gain confidence through experience as well, like knowing you got through hard things before shows you that you can do it again. It’s just having the tolerance to face the hard things it the first place, without a sneaky ED work around 😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 yes most definitely. I'm going through this process of trusting feeling emotions and accepting they will pass so hopefully as you say I will gain the confidence in time that I CAN navigate the tough days and bank the evidence each time I manage it. Thank you for this video and your encouraging reply ❤️
Wow thank you for uploading this video and sharing your thoughts, experiences and emotions with us! I take very much with me from this video wow
been thinking about posting my story... not many videos out there about men with an eating disorder. Figured i'd be one of the few to post 😅
Yess & there are lots of men out there struggling!
That's amazing, go for it!.
You are such an extraordinarily strong yet soft person. I hope you feel all the love and admiration coming to you from here and all corners of your life.
Thanks Megsy 🤗
Megsy, your soo awe-inspiring and so honest. I always appreciate that, you put yourself out there and tell it how it is and was. Yes, I agree with the others(previous comments, this is morbid...oh gosh no. It your reality, it's your experience and nothing you said was vile. If anything talking about Alfie sheds more like to all of us and yourself, it does seem very difficult for you to talk about but you loved/love him, you even said you are now letting yourself feel the emotions now and it goes with talking about something so hard in the same way. I think. Also, if their are points were you need time (emotions arise very strongly) take that time to be super gentle. I know you probably do but I just wanted to say. I do appreciate you always trying to open up to me/all of us. I'm sorry it did go about that way, you are a great, beautiful, inspiring, strong, ambitious, giving, intelligent woman no matter what. And I want to give you a hug so bad, I'm so proud of you for sticking to recovery even when all sh** happen like you said. I admire that of you. And it is hard to try to make yourself rest and eat when any feeling come up(at least for me), I try to do it anyways now, I have to.
Another thing, I believe you did share this on your previous videos of I get that it does get kinda iffy to share the ED behaviors on there because it can give ideas to those entrench in the ED but at the same time I know that not your purpose to share. Tbh, I don't find it triggered but I can imagine it gets hard when you do share and even when you said about the food you feature on social media...uugh. I do hope people take responsibility of their own actions. I do hope they don't allow these behaviors get the best of them. You are even saying that you lived a sh** life for so long by doing all that and I would definitely have to agree (my life) it's still tough for me but I know I know better. However, thank you for being so vulnerable. I do always love all the extra bits too with Stevie and Bertie etc...and how your day is going.
I hope you feel better by now with so much going on. Here for you. Love you loads🖤😌💞☺️🖤🆓🐾🤨🗣️👣🥛🥄🥜☕🚗🏡🎥💻📖☮️🧘
I am sorry everything has happened to you. I know this sadnesses will pass and it will build you strong. Thank you for making this very personal feelings blog. You’re al in my prayers. Be happy and strong. 👍👏👏🥰🥰🥰🤗🤗🤗❤️
This was very very helpful,Meg. You are the strongest person I know.♥♥♥
“You can’t achieve your way out of emotions” yeah that was a good check for me. Thank you Meg, you beautiful soul
meg I love your channel so much, your helped me so much in my recovery bc you explain the thoughts and things so well. I'm really thankful for your videos. I just want to ask a question. Do you experience something like tough emotions in generell. I found myself getting very angry to anyone who what's me to eat something or ask questions or stuff like this. Like I get really angry and start so shout and scream. I hate this behaviour but I feel so paralysed in this moment and can not stop. Afterwards I feel so bad bc i know that my family is just trying to help me but I react so bad very time. I wonder if someone else has experienced this? Have a nice day :)
So much love for you Meg ❤️ Alfie is a lucky boy to have a strong mam like you! Xxx
Your such a inspiring person thank you so much for documenting your journey
Ur so helpful with ur videos thank you 💖. I find it crazy how u think the same things as me obviously Ed traits x
Meg, I’ve always wondered why you chose the names of your cats and Bertie? Love how funny and cute they all are! ❤️ p.s love that the UA-cam videos are back xxx
Thankyou for sharing! I listen a lot to the song OK from Mabel. She also sings about that it is okay not to be okay and it always makes me feel a bit better.
I miss your videos meg-!! You are always a huge source of inspiration to me. You are in dubai, yes?
One of the hardest things i've found in my recovery is having an ED to recover from while also dealing with another mental illness. For me it's social anxiety - for example, it'd be hard for me to sit in a cafe, order something while reading a book because not only is eating in a cafe/in front of other people hard because of the eating disorder thoughts, but also there is the awful mess of thoughts that the anxiety gives me. It's like when the eating disorder isn't that big of a part of your life anymore (more than a year into recovery here :)), however there still is the another mentall illness that takes up an unnecessarr-ily big part of the "pie chart of life".. :/
For me too, i have anxiety disorder and depression and it has bacame worse during recovery and it's so hard to recover when i balance between motivation for recovery, total apathy, wanting to die and picturing how recovery will make my life even worse etc
I am 40 and have had anorexia since I was 13. I will never recover, despite many attempts at trying. I wish I could be like you.
Your struggle with this porridge is so damn relatable. Do you have a video you've already made about this sort of situation? This is the thing that gets most in the way of my recovery--spending the energy to make the food when the process doesn't go particularly smoothly and I was already tired anyway. I get so frustrated and it gets hard not just be like "fuck it" and give up. What's your advice/mantra on challenging that whole thought pattern? Is it just kind of opposite actions? Or is there something more specific you used to help get past these sorts of hiccups scaring you away from building consistent eating habits?
It does not sound weird. God bless you and your family ❤🙏
I find the hard plastic carriers that have the front door are easier to get the cats in. The door is a lot easier to close quick on the cats who try to jump out. Top loading carriers are always tricky to get their legs in.
I think recovery has made you stronger wiser and kinder x
Do you have days where you feel uncomfortable with your eating and appearance..or do you think it's all emotion about something else?
And lots of love right back at yah sweetheart 💖
Thanks Megsy 🥰😍🥰
To me the "just add water" -thingy is triggering as f and it sends me right down the ED-path... I was even scared of _drinking_ it at one point so no added water in foods, (and it still feels difficult sometimes..) drinking it, that is fine. Adding water just.... it feels so bland to be enjoying "good" food w "just water", when you can add to the taste all you like and it does absolutely nothing to your body. Feels like dietculture ruling to me.
lots of love to you, be kind to yourself xx!
Thank you💛💛
I have never see the cat loves water. 🤣😂❤️👍👏
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Hugs 🤗❤️💜
Also I really wanna hug you right now 🥺
Did you find the ability to spend money on things came with recovery or you had to actively challenge it in order to recover?
Hi Megs, iv followed you for a long time and on insta. I'm currently battling a relapse and I am watching your vlogs again as the first time I struggled with Atypical Anorexia, your vlogs helped me combat it 😊, you really do make such a difference. I totally understand about Little Alfie teaching you so much, although not a child, losing my grandad who was such a idol to me, taught me that although through a heartbreaking time, his passing has taught me that I am resilient and strong although I feel the opposite. I'm so sorry about little Alfie but also know that he will live on forever in Freddie. Love Kayles @darcy_show_cocker & @pawfectly.tagged. I'd love to make you a tag for Bertie 😍 free as a way of saying Thankyou for helping me xxx