You are such an incredible example of what perseverance can achieve. I think so many of us manage to gain weight but don’t do the neural rewiring required for full recovery -but you are doing both!! with so much strength & grace. Thank you for being you and for sharing this path ❤️ Always bringing Hope
When you said "Yesss, I can't believe I forgot something existed!" i smiled so hard then Taylor Swift's "I forgot that you existed" came into my head. Should be the soundtrack of the biscoff story!! Much love to you xxx
“Different bodies, different paths” - this is such an important thing to remember. Thank you dear Meg. I had a situation this week where my friend was talking about removing things from her diet and I had to take a breather. I stood outside for a few minutes in order to recalibrate and remember what path I’m on. Recovery is essential.🌻 It’s lovely to see you looking so well. Your baby bump is beautiful. Thank you for making a video so shortly after being unwell. It’s so appreciated by all those that follow you. 💜 Take care and rest well, D xx 🤗
I've been through losing and gaining way too many times in my lifetime. The one thing I can never get right, or feel 'deserving' of, is - the minute I start believing I look normal again and people are no longer as concerned as they were - I start thinking I have to start behaving normally. And I hate it. Behaving normally to me not only means dealing with everyday life like a grown-up (ha ha), but also includes re-incorporating movement and exercise, whereas when I feel I'm on the side of being too thin, there is no guilt whatsoever if I give up exercise. I enjoy hearing your thoughts about our 'history' with an ED and how we have to always keep that in mind and treat ourselves accordingly. One of these times, I hope to get that through my thick skull! :)
You are so philosophical about the ED you had. I am so impressed by your strength & courage to fight the ED. I was rather concerned about your recent bouts of ill-health but now so relieved you are on the road to recovery. I do love watching & listening to ALL your you-tube videos, Meg. I have, as you know, been in recovery for years, but the reassuring thing is, I NEVER EVER want to go back where I was. I still get concerned about when, where & what I eat, depending on how much exercise I've done, but since meeting Brian, I've gradually improved. It's extremely hard & the traveling down to Cornwall, just sitting there on the train, has caused some anxiety but it's slowly improving & I don't restrict when I'm with my other half! Take good care of yourself, Meg. Love from Alison (Ruislip, Middlesex, The UK).
Is Brian from Cornwall? It's honestly my favourite place in the world! & the train journey from Exeter to Newton Abbot is so stunning. Enjoy it. And I'm getting better every day, thank you. I'm glad things are going well with your man, keep moving forwards xxxx
you were always articulate but with time it seems like you have so much more agency and clear headed. You also get funnier each video I just... this is such recovery goals! The lack of brain fog, the assertiveness, the humour and overall personality it's all so emotional to watch ahah.
Chloe Polkinghorne awww thanks pal. It’s nice that that shows, I can definitely feel it now. Not that I think I’m hilarious now 😂 but I definitely feel like life takes less effort & I enjoy it more xxx
Absolutely brilliant advice!!! I’ve realized through your descriptions of “eating disordered thoughts” that I completely resonate with what you are describing. I’ve always had a normal BMI but have not quit being obsessed with becoming smaller and having food rules. The pressure to “bounce back” after having children completely opposes the physical demands of the body to recover from pregnancy and labor and the production of milk if you choose to breastfeed. It’s absolutely maddening when you try to diet but your body knows it needs to store a little extra fat and water to feed your baby. Some bodies can easily drop weight while nursing but after two kids I know mine needs to hold onto extra fat and fluid and that’s ok. I was blessed with ample milk supply and even had extra to donate to other mothers. It can be challenging to see your body change to accommodate children even with adoration from the husband of my bigger butt and boobs😂. I battle everyday with realizing the absolute mum goddess that I am but you seriously swerve my thoughts right direction. Thank you, gal!!!! You’re going to be an amazing mother.
When I was sick I started having nightmares of eating my dream extreme hunger binges and waking up about to cry when my anorexia got really bad. It was terrifying-worse than dreams of getting kidnapped and shit.
This doesn’t happen as often now but just the other night I had it again. Very anxiety provoking but might mean your attention needs to be drawn there-to keep challenging yourself because there is some fear.
Dear Meg. Brian was born in Dorchester, in Dorset, but he lives in Truro now. He has a home also in Broadwindsor, near Bridport in Dorset. I am SO VERY FORTUNATE to have met him in Rhodes - October 2018, on a Ramblers tour holiday. He has helped save myself from a lonely life of eating disorder behaviour! Thank you Meg. Axx
Absolutely love this!!🙌❤️ I’m constantly thinking about food and when I’m in bed at night I just stay up planning what I am going to eat for the next day. Its crazy how preoccupied you can get about food when you are in the depth of this disorder. I still find myself very comforted knowing exactly how much food I have, but also my indecisiveness makes it even harder to choose what to eat, like “do I want a bagel or a sandwich or what about that leftover dinner, oh wait I had that yesterday” you know stupid things like that. I actually stayed over my friends house for a week and I got an insight on how normal people eat. I was in shock when my friend didn’t know what they wanted to eat when meal times rolled around and how spontaneous they were when they chose what they wanted to eat. I guess everyone doesn’t meticulously plan out the food they have for a day shocker lol😅
Your videos on UA-cam show how hard you have to fight to recover. You have fought so hard to be where you are and you deserve all of the happiness in the world. So much love. X
TODAY I went to a Party and then I got hungry so I went outside by myself to get a large Pommes with mayo and ketchup, and I walked back and ate it by myself in front of a whole group of people I was talking to and didn't know very well, at all since before that night, and I was not a tiny bit uncomfortable or anxious. Recovery does pay off, recovery is possible, I'd have never in a million years imagined this was ever gonna be possible, but I AM PROOF!!!!
Meg-First off, Congratulations on your pregnancy! I know it’s long overdue but I haven’t commented in a while. Your whole life has changed so much since you started making these videos. There’s just SO MUCH there! As I recover, I’m starting to feel like I would like to be a mother. I couldn’t even be there with those thoughts in the past. I worried way too much about how a baby could mess with my food/exercise routines during the day. The mere thought of that turned me off completely (let alone the pregnancy/post birth period). You really mean so much to me (and I’m not the only one I know). I’m so thankful that you keep doing these videos and that you reassure all of us that just because you are pregnant doesn’t mean that the same mindsets don’t apply to the rest of us. You seem to have a little bit of an inner rebel in you and that side COMPLETELY resonates with me. That side of myself, when harnessed, is so powerful. When I can say f**k you to my disorder thoughts and choose “opposite actions”. That leaves me feeling really free and it just feels right. I don’t know if I did the best at explaining it but I’m sure you know what I mean. Enough of my rambles-you are a gift. An absolute gift. I hope that you keep gaining strength every day. I hold you in my thoughts like a friend.
Hey Meg you’re so awesome! Can you make a video on your period/if you lost it, when you got it back, and if you think your fertility was affected by your eating disorder or if you had an easy time getting pregnant? Thanks so much
You are such a motivation!! Currently I am struggling a lot with extreme hunger and food cravings. I eat jars of nutella and PB also bars of chocolate on top of my meal plan. I hope this ends soon...
I am cheering for you reaching your goals and you look so happy! These videos are so helpful for people to see and I love your mantras. Thanks for all you do by sharing your wisdom and experiences!
Love your channel so much. I think you are the most helpful You Tuber on anorexia. I appreciate all your talks. I don’t know if you realized but you were in a black and white room, with Bertie who is black and white, and you were wearing black and white hehe. Unplanned coincidence I guess lol. Definitely need to rewatch this whenever I have doubts that I need to copy someone else’s doings
Sounds funny but I’m so broody & your bump is so perfect 🥰😍 it’s making me want to recover even more because babies have always been such a huge goal for me 💗 so much love to you xxxx
Hi Meg. I'm using my mom's computer because I don't have one-I'm 12. I love you videos, and I have a question I'm really struggling with. I do ballet and dance a lot. I used to do it to burn calories, but now I do it for fun because I've always loved it. How do you deal with doing positive exercise while looking around and seeing people who are skinnier than you without thinking to burn more calories through the exercise? I don't know if that makes sense, but I want to dance without comparing myself to people. That's hard because there's mirrors everywhere. When I have a private we cover the mirrors, but how do you remove the struggles surrounding exercise and not get triggered by it? Especially when you want to do it, but once I start I think, "Well, now that we're here, I know I can always think about how many calories I'm burning and I might as well burn some more." I think I take advantage of the fact I like dance, so I'm afraid I'll start abusing it again.
How is this the first time I've noticed you have glasses? I love your glasses! Can I ask what brand the frames are? I think I want a second pair. Good topic here though. A breakthrough moment for me was when I got so busy and caught up in an activity I forgot to have lunch until really late. I was thrilled like you having forgotten the spread here. To have been able to forgot about food for so long was such a big step.
I got so excited when I first discovered a bit of cheese that had gone moldy or cereal that had gone stale because I had forgotten about them. It felt like a thing that happens to “normal” eaters because they’re not so hung up on every little bit of food in the house.
Dear Meg, thankyou for this video. I’ve been in recovery from anorexia for almost 4 years now. This topic is, I think, one of the hardest things for me. Constantly comparing myself with other people who tell me they didn’t have breakfast, are not hungry or haven’t had any thing to eat that day. It makes me so miserable and I always think that I will gain weight quicker than others, or that I’m an ‘over eater’ because I did have breakfast. I don’t know how to turn these negative thoughts into something good. How can I cope with these people? Or: how do you cope with people who have eating disorders as well?
Hey Megs, thanks for making a video so soon after being poorly, I was so concerned about you. I have a question - when you had extreme hunger, did you find your days just taken up with non stop eating? I’ll eat from 9am - 1pm, go lay down to watch a film and then ten minutes I’m up again due to either physical or mental hunger. It’s just relentless right now and I’m finding it so distressing. I feel quite lonely because it’s leaving no time for anything else in my days but food food food. Your meals always seemed quite organised, even from early vids, but my meals and snacks just seem ALL over the place and CONSTANT. X
I hope you now know that this, too, shall pass. It saddens me no one responded to you, but YES SO MUCH YES. All day taken up by a relentless desire and urgency to eat. Every ounce of me was solely focused on food At all times. It too passes. Trust the process darling
I often feel like a fraud when I talk about my ED as my journey doesnt echo how others suffer and i have never been in hospital. But then when i sit and recall the thoughts i get that kinda shows me how much ED gets me. January i relied on take out way too much and then I convinced myself that my belly had grown because of it and I convinced myself that I felt ill cause of my bad eating and I started calling it bad food.
Thank you so much for thoughts that you're sharing with us. It helps so much because it's easy to forget what's important when main focus for half of your life was food
Hi, Megsy. I’m a big fan of your videos. ❤️ Today is a bad body image day for me. Sometimes I can go weeks or days without thinking about my body. Other days are harder. I’m a year into recovery from EDNOS, atypical Anorexia. I cannot honestly tell if I’ve gained more weight in the past few months or if my head is playing tricks on me. What I do know is that I’m not toned. I’ve never been toned, even at my sickest. I hate most workouts, except for yoga and walking. I’ve tried to do more of those...but my cellulite really deeply triggers and upsets me. The fact that I have full hips upsets me. I’m crying as I type this. I have cellulite on my stomach for the first time in my life. Everyone still says I’m thin and look healthy....i feel healthy...but I cannot stand looking at my body in the mirror. I cannot stand the fat. Does this ever get easier?
Just a slight thinking... not everyone who has a history if overexercize needs to cut it out completely. I overexercize I know that, but I've ALWAYS been a VERY active person so for me exercize is going to be PART of my recovery because to cut it out would have way to much of a negative impact it's not good.
Meg,ı really need help. I promise God to not weighing myself for a month but know ı dont know how much ı am eating is normal and ı can t trust my hunger bcs ı have got nausea frequently and ı still scare of desserts, ı can not be inutietive
Hi love! It seems you truly cannot trust your hunger yet and intuitively eat. I suggest you work with an eating disorder specialist and a nutritionist to put you on a good meal plan that you can follow first before relearning portion sizes, etc and continuing your recovery in a safe place! You'll need to let go and trust the professionals, but most importantly you need to truly commit. Things will be better soon. I promise. Strength to you love xx
xy• I wish, but I can't go any doctor etc bc I should overcome ityslef my parents won't me send to doctor for that if I told and I don't wanna make them sad, they won't be understand well.
@@selintuncs I understand you:( I thought the same thing. the truth is, regardless of whether or not they'll understand your mental state, they DO want you to be physically healthy. Think about it, would you ever want a baby that you made and produced and spent all this time and money and effort on to become sick? Of course not. You want it to be healthy. So be honest to yourself. Are they the ones holding you back here, or is it you? You have to remind yourself that in an eating disorder mentality, your thoughts aren't rational. I had to do this all too. And yeah, it's really fricking hard. But it only means you become stronger
@@selintuncs and it is so so valid to get help. You don't have to fight this alone. And sometimes, you CAN'T fight this alone. It is a disease, just like any other physical disease. You wouldn't fighter "cancer" alone at home would you?
has she ever struggled with binge eating?? I feel like she may have got lots of food thoughts, but never acted on the thought of like actually eating 8 bagels and binging. like it would be on her mind, but she wouldn't actually binge out like that on her cravings. which is maybe why her weight never fluctuated? i think she's naturally a smaller person with not as strong of cravings because if your a person who binges from restriction, you literally canNOT stop that binge from happening. I think she naturally has a small stomach and eats small portions, but her ED made her eat like really really little
“Feeling shit won’t last forever, but your eating disorder will.” Always come through with the goods, Meg!
You are such an incredible example of what perseverance can achieve. I think so many of us manage to gain weight but don’t do the neural rewiring required for full recovery -but you are doing both!! with so much strength & grace. Thank you for being you and for sharing this path ❤️ Always bringing Hope
"I don't want to live a life of minimals anymore" - absolute nailed it. Thanks Meg for another uplifting and motivating video! x
When you said "Yesss, I can't believe I forgot something existed!" i smiled so hard then Taylor Swift's "I forgot that you existed" came into my head. Should be the soundtrack of the biscoff story!! Much love to you xxx
Tasha Langley omg girl I’m going to listen to that song in a whole new light now !! Xx
“Different bodies, different paths” - this is such an important thing to remember. Thank you dear Meg. I had a situation this week where my friend was talking about removing things from her diet and I had to take a breather. I stood outside for a few minutes in order to recalibrate and remember what path I’m on. Recovery is essential.🌻
It’s lovely to see you looking so well. Your baby bump is beautiful. Thank you for making a video so shortly after being unwell. It’s so appreciated by all those that follow you. 💜
Take care and rest well, D xx 🤗
I've been through losing and gaining way too many times in my lifetime. The one thing I can never get right, or feel 'deserving' of, is - the minute I start believing I look normal again and people are no longer as concerned as they were - I start thinking I have to start behaving normally. And I hate it. Behaving normally to me not only means dealing with everyday life like a grown-up (ha ha), but also includes re-incorporating movement and exercise, whereas when I feel I'm on the side of being too thin, there is no guilt whatsoever if I give up exercise. I enjoy hearing your thoughts about our 'history' with an ED and how we have to always keep that in mind and treat ourselves accordingly. One of these times, I hope to get that through my thick skull! :)
Make this the time 💗 You can do anything (or in this case, not do!) you put your mind to. X
You are so philosophical about the ED you had. I am so impressed by your strength & courage to fight the ED. I was rather concerned about your recent bouts of ill-health but now so relieved you are on the road to recovery. I do love watching & listening to ALL your you-tube videos, Meg. I have, as you know, been in recovery for years, but the reassuring thing is, I NEVER EVER want to go back where I was. I still get concerned about when, where & what I eat, depending on how much exercise I've done, but since meeting Brian, I've gradually improved. It's extremely hard & the traveling down to Cornwall, just sitting there on the train, has caused some anxiety but it's slowly improving & I don't restrict when I'm with my other half! Take good care of yourself, Meg. Love from Alison (Ruislip, Middlesex, The UK).
Is Brian from Cornwall? It's honestly my favourite place in the world! & the train journey from Exeter to Newton Abbot is so stunning. Enjoy it. And I'm getting better every day, thank you. I'm glad things are going well with your man, keep moving forwards xxxx
you were always articulate but with time it seems like you have so much more agency and clear headed. You also get funnier each video I just... this is such recovery goals! The lack of brain fog, the assertiveness, the humour and overall personality it's all so emotional to watch ahah.
Chloe Polkinghorne awww thanks pal. It’s nice that that shows, I can definitely feel it now. Not that I think I’m hilarious now 😂 but I definitely feel like life takes less effort & I enjoy it more xxx
Absolutely brilliant advice!!! I’ve realized through your descriptions of “eating disordered thoughts” that I completely resonate with what you are describing. I’ve always had a normal BMI but have not quit being obsessed with becoming smaller and having food rules. The pressure to “bounce back” after having children completely opposes the physical demands of the body to recover from pregnancy and labor and the production of milk if you choose to breastfeed. It’s absolutely maddening when you try to diet but your body knows it needs to store a little extra fat and water to feed your baby. Some bodies can easily drop weight while nursing but after two kids I know mine needs to hold onto extra fat and fluid and that’s ok. I was blessed with ample milk supply and even had extra to donate to other mothers. It can be challenging to see your body change to accommodate children even with adoration from the husband of my bigger butt and boobs😂. I battle everyday with realizing the absolute mum goddess that I am but you seriously swerve my thoughts right direction. Thank you, gal!!!! You’re going to be an amazing mother.
Jillian Gonzalez and I’m sure you’re an awesome mother too!
Your videos are so inspiring you will be such a good mom❤❤
anyone else who dreams about eating food and then wakes up and panics about it?
Ugh, me girl. Feel your pain 💜
Dude. YES.
Yeah too often yuck
When I was sick I started having nightmares of eating my dream extreme hunger binges and waking up about to cry when my anorexia got really bad. It was terrifying-worse than dreams of getting kidnapped and shit.
This doesn’t happen as often now but just the other night I had it again. Very anxiety provoking but might mean your attention needs to be drawn there-to keep challenging yourself because there is some fear.
Dear Meg. Brian was born in Dorchester, in Dorset, but he lives in Truro now. He has a home also in Broadwindsor, near Bridport in Dorset. I am SO VERY FORTUNATE to have met him in Rhodes - October 2018, on a Ramblers tour holiday. He has helped save myself from a lonely life of eating disorder behaviour! Thank you Meg. Axx
This is just what I needed to hear today!!! Gradually no longer obsessing over food is the absolute goal
Absolutely love this!!🙌❤️ I’m constantly thinking about food and when I’m in bed at night I just stay up planning what I am going to eat for the next day. Its crazy how preoccupied you can get about food when you are in the depth of this disorder. I still find myself very comforted knowing exactly how much food I have, but also my indecisiveness makes it even harder to choose what to eat, like “do I want a bagel or a sandwich or what about that leftover dinner, oh wait I had that yesterday” you know stupid things like that. I actually stayed over my friends house for a week and I got an insight on how normal people eat. I was in shock when my friend didn’t know what they wanted to eat when meal times rolled around and how spontaneous they were when they chose what they wanted to eat. I guess everyone doesn’t meticulously plan out the food they have for a day shocker lol😅
Chen Greenman that was so my goal to get to a point where food wasn’t so planned out & I could just choose what I wanted when I came to eat it!
Your videos on UA-cam show how hard you have to fight to recover. You have fought so hard to be where you are and you deserve all of the happiness in the world. So much love. X
TODAY I went to a Party and then I got hungry so I went outside by myself to get a large Pommes with mayo and ketchup, and I walked back and ate it by myself in front of a whole group of people I was talking to and didn't know very well, at all since before that night, and I was not a tiny bit uncomfortable or anxious. Recovery does pay off, recovery is possible, I'd have never in a million years imagined this was ever gonna be possible, but I AM PROOF!!!!
Meg-First off, Congratulations on your pregnancy! I know it’s long overdue but I haven’t commented in a while. Your whole life has changed so much since you started making these videos. There’s just SO MUCH there! As I recover, I’m starting to feel like I would like to be a mother. I couldn’t even be there with those thoughts in the past. I worried way too much about how a baby could mess with my food/exercise routines during the day. The mere thought of that turned me off completely (let alone the pregnancy/post birth period). You really mean so much to me (and I’m not the only one I know). I’m so thankful that you keep doing these videos and that you reassure all of us that just because you are pregnant doesn’t mean that the same mindsets don’t apply to the rest of us. You seem to have a little bit of an inner rebel in you and that side COMPLETELY resonates with me. That side of myself, when harnessed, is so powerful. When I can say f**k you to my disorder thoughts and choose “opposite actions”. That leaves me feeling really free and it just feels right. I don’t know if I did the best at explaining it but I’m sure you know what I mean. Enough of my rambles-you are a gift. An absolute gift. I hope that you keep gaining strength every day. I hold you in my thoughts like a friend.
I really look up to you Meg. You're so inspiring 💖
every time i feel even a sliver of guilt during recovery i always turn to your videos. thank you for being you, you’re resilient!!!
Bertie trying to get to your bagel was absolutely adorable 😍 - thank you for all your tips in this video Meg 👏
Chrissy J love that little boy so much 💙💙💙
Hey Meg you’re so awesome! Can you make a video on your period/if you lost it, when you got it back, and if you think your fertility was affected by your eating disorder or if you had an easy time getting pregnant? Thanks so much
Glad you're feeling better again. At 7:30min Bertie looks like cookie monster... Made me smile, my dog is the exact same...
Hahaha, so cute!!!! Dogs are the best thing ever!
You are such a motivation!! Currently I am struggling a lot with extreme hunger and food cravings. I eat jars of nutella and PB also bars of chocolate on top of my meal plan. I hope this ends soon...
Your videos are so helpful to me ……….. Thank you for putting them up, Meg!!
Yay new video! Hope you’ve been well!
"I wasn't doing disordered shit."yes Queen ♥️✨🌞 I am praying for you and your baby 🙏♥️
I am cheering for you reaching your goals and you look so happy! These videos are so helpful for people to see and I love your mantras. Thanks for all you do by sharing your wisdom and experiences!
Meg, your hair looks so healthy!
Love your channel so much. I think you are the most helpful You Tuber on anorexia. I appreciate all your talks. I don’t know if you realized but you were in a black and white room, with Bertie who is black and white, and you were wearing black and white hehe. Unplanned coincidence I guess lol.
Definitely need to rewatch this whenever I have doubts that I need to copy someone else’s doings
Sounds funny but I’m so broody & your bump is so perfect 🥰😍 it’s making me want to recover even more because babies have always been such a huge goal for me 💗 so much love to you xxxx
Awwww keep that in mind!!! Such an amazing goal and so important to get well for xxxxx
Megsy Recovery absolutely 💗💗💗
Thank you Megan this is once again sooo helpful. Please keep making these videos!
Hi Meg. I'm using my mom's computer because I don't have one-I'm 12. I love you videos, and I have a question I'm really struggling with. I do ballet and dance a lot. I used to do it to burn calories, but now I do it for fun because I've always loved it. How do you deal with doing positive exercise while looking around and seeing people who are skinnier than you without thinking to burn more calories through the exercise? I don't know if that makes sense, but I want to dance without comparing myself to people. That's hard because there's mirrors everywhere. When I have a private we cover the mirrors, but how do you remove the struggles surrounding exercise and not get triggered by it? Especially when you want to do it, but once I start I think, "Well, now that we're here, I know I can always think about how many calories I'm burning and I might as well burn some more." I think I take advantage of the fact I like dance, so I'm afraid I'll start abusing it again.
This video is helping me so much, thank you.
This is just what I needed to hear! Thank you so much!!
How is this the first time I've noticed you have glasses? I love your glasses! Can I ask what brand the frames are? I think I want a second pair.
Good topic here though. A breakthrough moment for me was when I got so busy and caught up in an activity I forgot to have lunch until really late. I was thrilled like you having forgotten the spread here. To have been able to forgot about food for so long was such a big step.
"Break the cycle" is such a great mantra for recovery!
Missed your videos. Thx for loading.🥯🥯🥯🥯❤️👍🤤👏😋
I got so excited when I first discovered a bit of cheese that had gone moldy or cereal that had gone stale because I had forgotten about them. It felt like a thing that happens to “normal” eaters because they’re not so hung up on every little bit of food in the house.
Another amazing vid. Thank you ♥️
Dear Meg, thankyou for this video. I’ve been in recovery from anorexia for almost 4 years now. This topic is, I think, one of the hardest things for me. Constantly comparing myself with other people who tell me they didn’t have breakfast, are not hungry or haven’t had any thing to eat that day. It makes me so miserable and I always think that I will gain weight quicker than others, or that I’m an ‘over eater’ because I did have breakfast. I don’t know how to turn these negative thoughts into something good. How can I cope with these people? Or: how do you cope with people who have eating disorders as well?
Anouk Visser Same. Fight!
I have given up moving and study plans to work in recovery!
Meg, your hair has grown so long! Hope you’re feeling better 😊
Hey Megs, thanks for making a video so soon after being poorly, I was so concerned about you. I have a question - when you had extreme hunger, did you find your days just taken up with non stop eating? I’ll eat from 9am - 1pm, go lay down to watch a film and then ten minutes I’m up again due to either physical or mental hunger. It’s just relentless right now and I’m finding it so distressing. I feel quite lonely because it’s leaving no time for anything else in my days but food food food. Your meals always seemed quite organised, even from early vids, but my meals and snacks just seem ALL over the place and CONSTANT. X
I hope you now know that this, too, shall pass. It saddens me no one responded to you, but YES SO MUCH YES. All day taken up by a relentless desire and urgency to eat. Every ounce of me was solely focused on food At all times. It too passes. Trust the process darling
@@thelovelymshulia Thank you xxx
I haven’t seen your videos in awhile ! How far along are you?! You’re glowing
brittany groen She said 7 months in this video :)
I often feel like a fraud when I talk about my ED as my journey doesnt echo how others suffer and i have never been in hospital. But then when i sit and recall the thoughts i get that kinda shows me how much ED gets me. January i relied on take out way too much and then I convinced myself that my belly had grown because of it and I convinced myself that I felt ill cause of my bad eating and I started calling it bad food.
I was thinking of giving up processed sugary foods for Lent, and I've realised I'm making it an excuse to restrict. :(
omg, my dog used to look exactly like your puppy and is also called bettii
Get well soon! 💖
What video software do you use to make your videos ? X
Thank you so much for thoughts that you're sharing with us. It helps so much because it's easy to forget what's important when main focus for half of your life was food
Hi, Megsy. I’m a big fan of your videos. ❤️ Today is a bad body image day for me. Sometimes I can go weeks or days without thinking about my body. Other days are harder. I’m a year into recovery from EDNOS, atypical Anorexia. I cannot honestly tell if I’ve gained more weight in the past few months or if my head is playing tricks on me. What I do know is that I’m not toned. I’ve never been toned, even at my sickest. I hate most workouts, except for yoga and walking. I’ve tried to do more of those...but my cellulite really deeply triggers and upsets me. The fact that I have full hips upsets me. I’m crying as I type this. I have cellulite on my stomach for the first time in my life. Everyone still says I’m thin and look healthy....i feel healthy...but I cannot stand looking at my body in the mirror. I cannot stand the fat. Does this ever get easier?
yaaay love it❤️💛
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Just a slight thinking... not everyone who has a history if overexercize needs to cut it out completely. I overexercize I know that, but I've ALWAYS been a VERY active person so for me exercize is going to be PART of my recovery because to cut it out would have way to much of a negative impact it's not good.
Meg,ı really need help. I promise God to not weighing myself for a month but know ı dont know how much ı am eating is normal and ı can t trust my hunger bcs ı have got nausea frequently and ı still scare of desserts, ı can not be inutietive
I can t focus on anything and ı really get rid of it please help!!Btw my brain prefers eating when my all parents near me to prove myself to them
Hi love! It seems you truly cannot trust your hunger yet and intuitively eat. I suggest you work with an eating disorder specialist and a nutritionist to put you on a good meal plan that you can follow first before relearning portion sizes, etc and continuing your recovery in a safe place! You'll need to let go and trust the professionals, but most importantly you need to truly commit. Things will be better soon. I promise. Strength to you love xx
xy• I wish, but I can't go any doctor etc bc I should overcome ityslef my parents won't me send to doctor for that if I told and I don't wanna make them sad, they won't be understand well.
@@selintuncs I understand you:( I thought the same thing. the truth is, regardless of whether or not they'll understand your mental state, they DO want you to be physically healthy. Think about it, would you ever want a baby that you made and produced and spent all this time and money and effort on to become sick? Of course not. You want it to be healthy. So be honest to yourself. Are they the ones holding you back here, or is it you? You have to remind yourself that in an eating disorder mentality, your thoughts aren't rational. I had to do this all too. And yeah, it's really fricking hard. But it only means you become stronger
@@selintuncs and it is so so valid to get help. You don't have to fight this alone. And sometimes, you CAN'T fight this alone. It is a disease, just like any other physical disease. You wouldn't fighter "cancer" alone at home would you?
Productive me too! New house new study promotion new bf leanr to drive. I never give myself a break or time to eat in purposes!
has she ever struggled with binge eating?? I feel like she may have got lots of food thoughts, but never acted on the thought of like actually eating 8 bagels and binging. like it would be on her mind, but she wouldn't actually binge out like that on her cravings. which is maybe why her weight never fluctuated? i think she's naturally a smaller person with not as strong of cravings because if your a person who binges from restriction, you literally canNOT stop that binge from happening. I think she naturally has a small stomach and eats small portions, but her ED made her eat like really really little
__ is the “she / her” being analysed here me?
Megsy Recovery yep 👍🏻