Thank you Meg for your videos! Truly inspirational! After a 9 year period of recovery, I had a full blown relapse last June and your videos have been so helpful! I’m grateful for UA-cam videos like your’s this time around along with my amazing treatment team. I’m on my way to recovery once again.
Home alone so struggling a bit, but even "messy" vlogs like these are so wonderful. You're so motivating, caring and honest, you inspire me so much. You look beautiful and happy, like always, love you!!❤️
Maud Nijsen I was home alone this week too. Hard isn’t it, it adds an extra dimension of challenge, you can do it! I kept thinking “I want to be able to eat on my own” & also if I can do it when people are around then it’s the same food. I can do it when they’re not around too 😘
@@megsyrecovery191 Thank you so much, hope you've been doing well this week! You're incredibly strong, lots of love and thank you for keeping me accountable! Btw, I'm freaking out talking to you, this is such a dream!😱😍
@@calicovmin I shifted slowly towards the conclusion that "owning" "pets" is slavery aswell. Entertaining us or exploitation for love, for example. "Pet"s are in the golden cages while "lifestock" is in the horror cages.
Oh my gosh, watching you make porridge took me way back to the early days when you used to make porridge and pop the recipe on the screen! I remember finding your account maybe a couple of months into it and watching them all from the beginning so I hadn't missed anything! Having you be so real, honest and sharing such great parts of your journey; both the good and the bad, the highs and lows, the challenges and struggles. It has been really amazing to be able to see your journey and to see the amazing things you have accomplished through your opposite actions! You have come so far xx
Megsy, you have no idea how helpful your videos are. Every time I watch them, I get an "AHA" moment! Everything you say is so accurate and hearing you say it confirms my thoughts. The one thing I do not like is how other people see sufferers gain weight and conclude: Wow! you are ok now.. you are all cured! Healing takes many many years, everything from your organs your mind, your sleep, your hormones....the key is consistency. Your body learns that things are safe and it will get fed therefore goes out of the survival mode. Getting out of survival mode will allow us to thrive and grow as human beings. None of that is possible when our physical needs are suppressed. I am so so proud of you for not only intellectually understanding these concepts for having the emotional strength to put them in practice and heal yourself! You are an amazing inspiration Megsy. Congrats for your one year on youtube and here is for many many more to come!! xox
You look amazing! I've been following you awhile now, and love watching your progress. Also, I needed to hear ALL of this. My body reacts so poorly to a low weight. And I kept thinking I wasn't skinny enough to be really sick, since others weighed less and were fine. But I'm not fine at that weight. And that's ok.
Jessica Coyle yeh exactly, are you going to live a shit horrible life because some one else’s body is a certain size or shape? Your body doesn’t care. It just wants to be healthy. & you could waste years of your life trying to hold it a bit below where it wants to be 😘😘
Liked your analogy with your cats. Really made sense. Also you would never know that your cats were different weights as they look the same, both slim and beautiful although different colours.
It’s been so amazing watching your recovery this past year! It seems we both suffered a relapse about the same time and have both been recovering at a similar pace, reaching milestones both physically and mentally at similar times. I’ve got to feel like I have a friend I’m recovering along with and it’s been so helpful. Thank you so much! 💕
Such a wonderful "messy" blog :) You are looking great and are such an inspiration to the recovery community :) Also, just a little bit of an odd request - it would be lovely to see a tour of your wonderful new home (if that is not to creepy or personal). I just wanted to see how you got your couch in the space after your fun way to measure :) Thanks for being such a recovery warrior :)
It brought me so much Joy & anticipation just knowing there was a new Meg Vlog ready & waiting for me!!!!!! Insightful & helpful as always, thanks so much Meg 😍
Girl, I literally laughed out loud when you were trying to show us your delicious carrot cake and it took a dive onto the grass!! I'm very proud of you for picking it up and saying "Oh well, food doesn't have to be perfect," and eating it! Even with a piece of grass! Lol!! I think that when those of us who are genetically predisposed to an eating disorder get below our set point, all sorts of OCD thoughts and behaviors start roaring to the forefront. Bless you for hanging in there and working your tail off to get healthy and happy!
you indeed look so much happier and healthier and your emotion become so postive and your thoughts are much more clearly articulated comepared with your first videos. pround of you and you are such an inspiration. keep going. cute dress again
Your insight is so helpful. I honestly never thought of it as weight suppression and by not being at my body’s weight that it wants to be at I am still not healthy. Our bodies are powerful machines and they know what is the best to function off of and I am slowly learning and accepting to trust it. So thank you! And your kittens are adorable! Mine cat (Kate) is so similar to Beyonce coloring wise, I love the coloring!
Yes, let's compare ourselves to cats!! Haha I've been watching your videos almost since you started this channel! I just wanted to say how much I could rognate your journey with my own. But honestly congrats to all the things you've accomplished this year! You look happier in every new video that you put up (not that you don't ever get sad nowadays, I know those moments;))... You have some super adorable kitties, oh and your new apartment looks so bright, friendly and beautiful! It suits you! Lots of love!xx
This was a very fun vlog :-D. Very raw and honest! Btw. I love your thoughts about BMI. When I let myself go I realised that my natural weight is only 3kg higher than when I was suppressing it! And I thought I would grow infinitely... Btw. Love how you are eating cakes for snacks :-). I hate when people say things like: oh, it's my birthday, so I can finally eat cake! Food is just food, I eat cake every day and I am healthy and fine :-)
Another great video. So glad you are doing well! Loved seeing Beyoncé and Stevie making more appearances in the video too. You did well with the few surprises in the video. I applaud you for not getting overly frustrated. I would’ve been! You handled everything so well. You’ve been an inspiration to me for the last 6 months+. Hugs from Boston! 🤗
Thank you so much for this vlog - you look so beautiful, happy and relaxed it's such motivation for recovery! Also it's amazing to see how far you've come, in your earlier vlogs you would have berated yourself for a 'messy' vlog (which it isn't!) but now you laugh about it which is so nice to see! Thank you meg
Your cat example was perfect! Are you in your new house? It looks gorgeous! I would love to see a house tour unless you’ve already done one and I missed it! Those stairs are beautiful!
Tabitha Farrar talks about energy debt. And it makes a lot of sense. You should look it up if you aren't familiar with the concept ! I overshoot my weight both times I recovered, so I know what I will live in this recovery. About that weight suppression, I saw it in myself, it took a tiny amount of weight loss for me to trigger anorexia and a full relapse. P.S. I love your outfits ! :)
Thank you for sharing your recovery journey with us, watching your vlogs has really helped me immensely! I’m still a long way from recovered, but working on it every day. ❤️ (Also looove your nail polish in this video, what’s the shade called? It’s gorgeous!)
Have you also had such as "obsession" with shopping (especially foods, but also other items), searching for recipes, experinces, reviews, manuals, directions for everything? I sometimes do not know what I like, how to do things etc. I procrastinate much time searching on internet "how to do thinkgs correctly" including eating, dressing, using make up, thinking living, always compare to other people. I am like maniac, it really struggles me....Any advice? Did you also go throught something similar? Thank you very much.
Hey Meg! Thanks for this lovely video :)) I was wondering- what is the tripod you are using? I actually have the exact same camera as you but have yet to find a good tripod.
My brain literally spiralled down after I developed spinal osteoporosis and a bad curvature because of long term high steroids for lupus. Over barely 3 years my measurements changed dramatically from a height of 5 foot 5 to measuring only 5 foot 1 on the chart. So in other words I’m now super tiny in terms of height. I asked my doctor during a check up if my weight should now be put against my previous height or my adjustment height with the curvature, even though I obviously still have the same amount of body! To my surprise I now apparently need to put only 5 foot 1 into a b.m.i. Chart and when I did that I was so over what I should be. Since then it has driven me crazy to try to drop and stay at what the new height says, it’s been really hard mentally
This is what I mean by BMI charts and doctors advice is a load of crap. How does your doctor know your body's natural and healthy weight? If you and I both experienced what you have with your spine our body would both act differently and we would both need to be different weights. I really don't think a chart can tell you about your actual physical body. You know if you're suppressing your weight and living with an ED ----- also, terrible advice from a doctor who should be treating your bone health. You need to be where your body needs to be, not where a chart decides!
agree with Megsy plus Anorexia and low nutrition are often also the reason for osteoporosis. And to nourish your body is very important for your osteoporosis did not go worse, or even to be better in some time - they will probably offer you some treatment and vitamins. I also have osteoporosis and I try to do my best to get it better. Best wishes!
Have you weight restored on your own at home without a treatment center? If so Did you see a dietitan or therapist and did they help you weight restore at home?
and please you also was talking about treatment center or hospital in the previous videos. Did they help you at all? Did you gain weight there? I always was afraid of going there, in fact I do not believe that hospital itself can treat it. Yes of course, they can save ones life or to make people gain weight but everybody has his own power inside his mind.
At the beginning, you said, "I'm taking the cats to the vet's this morning, so..., they don't know it but they're in for a really nasty surprise!" And i was like huh? why is the vet in for a nasty surprise? What is she gonna do to the vet???? Ohhhhh wait... hahahaha
I don't think you can know until you get there. You can look at the women in your family, and potentially your pre-illness weight for an idea, but really it's up to your body and once you're there you won't get cravings, extreme hunger, thoughts of food etc.... It's a hard one though isn't it. I hate not knowing xxx
Thank you Meg for your videos! Truly inspirational! After a 9 year period of recovery, I had a full blown relapse last June and your videos have been so helpful! I’m grateful for UA-cam videos like your’s this time around along with my amazing treatment team. I’m on my way to recovery once again.
Good for you xxxxxx
Home alone so struggling a bit, but even "messy" vlogs like these are so wonderful. You're so motivating, caring and honest, you inspire me so much. You look beautiful and happy, like always, love you!!❤️
Maud Nijsen I was home alone this week too. Hard isn’t it, it adds an extra dimension of challenge, you can do it! I kept thinking “I want to be able to eat on my own” & also if I can do it when people are around then it’s the same food. I can do it when they’re not around too 😘
@@megsyrecovery191 Thank you so much, hope you've been doing well this week! You're incredibly strong, lots of love and thank you for keeping me accountable!
Btw, I'm freaking out talking to you, this is such a dream!😱😍
We would never ever starve our companion animals. So why would we do starve ourselves when it is so cruel?
I love how you used the word "companion animal" instead of "pet" 🙌😊
@@calicovmin because I am vegan.
@@annapomelo3818 I know that, and so am I. Just some vegans still call our companion animals "pets".
@@calicovmin I shifted slowly towards the conclusion that "owning" "pets" is slavery aswell. Entertaining us or exploitation for love, for example.
"Pet"s are in the golden cages while "lifestock" is in the horror cages.
@@annapomelo3818 I agree. It's just I wish more vegans would stop using the word "pet."
Oh my gosh, watching you make porridge took me way back to the early days when you used to make porridge and pop the recipe on the screen! I remember finding your account maybe a couple of months into it and watching them all from the beginning so I hadn't missed anything!
Having you be so real, honest and sharing such great parts of your journey; both the good and the bad, the highs and lows, the challenges and struggles. It has been really amazing to be able to see your journey and to see the amazing things you have accomplished through your opposite actions! You have come so far xx
Glad it can help xxxxx
Megsy, you have no idea how helpful your videos are. Every time I watch them, I get an "AHA" moment! Everything you say is so accurate and hearing you say it confirms my thoughts. The one thing I do not like is how other people see sufferers gain weight and conclude: Wow! you are ok now.. you are all cured! Healing takes many many years, everything from your organs your mind, your sleep, your hormones....the key is consistency. Your body learns that things are safe and it will get fed therefore goes out of the survival mode. Getting out of survival mode will allow us to thrive and grow as human beings. None of that is possible when our physical needs are suppressed. I am so so proud of you for not only intellectually understanding these concepts for having the emotional strength to put them in practice and heal yourself! You are an amazing inspiration Megsy. Congrats for your one year on youtube and here is for many many more to come!! xox
You look amazing! I've been following you awhile now, and love watching your progress.
Also, I needed to hear ALL of this. My body reacts so poorly to a low weight. And I kept thinking I wasn't skinny enough to be really sick, since others weighed less and were fine. But I'm not fine at that weight. And that's ok.
Jessica Coyle yeh exactly, are you going to live a shit horrible life because some one else’s body is a certain size or shape? Your body doesn’t care. It just wants to be healthy. & you could waste years of your life trying to hold it a bit below where it wants to be 😘😘
Liked your analogy with your cats. Really made sense. Also you would never know that your cats were different weights as they look the same, both slim and beautiful although different colours.
It’s been so amazing watching your recovery this past year! It seems we both suffered a relapse about the same time and have both been recovering at a similar pace, reaching milestones both physically and mentally at similar times. I’ve got to feel like I have a friend I’m recovering along with and it’s been so helpful. Thank you so much! 💕
Awwww that's so nice! Glad we could do it together xxxx
Such a wonderful "messy" blog :) You are looking great and are such an inspiration to the recovery community :) Also, just a little bit of an odd request - it would be lovely to see a tour of your wonderful new home (if that is not to creepy or personal). I just wanted to see how you got your couch in the space after your fun way to measure :) Thanks for being such a recovery warrior :)
Meg I just wanna say you look so stunning in this video (you always do) sending my love to you and your journey keep kicking ASS
Thank you for being such an inspiration to us all. I love your determination and positivity. Ax
You're my bloody hero, love you mate :*
Mine too🤗💖
It brought me so much Joy & anticipation just knowing there was a new Meg Vlog ready & waiting for me!!!!!! Insightful & helpful as always, thanks so much Meg 😍
love the cat weight analogy! ahhh your vids literally make me so so happy! xx
Girl, I literally laughed out loud when you were trying to show us your delicious carrot cake and it took a dive onto the grass!! I'm very proud of you for picking it up and saying "Oh well, food doesn't have to be perfect," and eating it! Even with a piece of grass! Lol!! I think that when those of us who are genetically predisposed to an eating disorder get below our set point, all sorts of OCD thoughts and behaviors start roaring to the forefront. Bless you for hanging in there and working your tail off to get healthy and happy!
Yeh totally, and I find it really doesn't take much below my set point for that old way of thinking to get triggered. Lots of love xxxx
you indeed look so much happier and healthier and your emotion become so postive and your thoughts are much more clearly articulated comepared with your first videos. pround of you and you are such an inspiration. keep going. cute dress again
Your insight is so helpful. I honestly never thought of it as weight suppression and by not being at my body’s weight that it wants to be at I am still not healthy. Our bodies are powerful machines and they know what is the best to function off of and I am slowly learning and accepting to trust it. So thank you! And your kittens are adorable! Mine cat (Kate) is so similar to Beyonce coloring wise, I love the coloring!
Yes, let's compare ourselves to cats!! Haha
I've been watching your videos almost since you started this channel! I just wanted to say how much I could rognate your journey with my own. But honestly congrats to all the things you've accomplished this year! You look happier in every new video that you put up (not that you don't ever get sad nowadays, I know those moments;))... You have some super adorable kitties, oh and your new apartment looks so bright, friendly and beautiful! It suits you!
Lots of love!xx
This was a very fun vlog :-D. Very raw and honest! Btw. I love your thoughts about BMI. When I let myself go I realised that my natural weight is only 3kg higher than when I was suppressing it! And I thought I would grow infinitely... Btw. Love how you are eating cakes for snacks :-). I hate when people say things like: oh, it's my birthday, so I can finally eat cake! Food is just food, I eat cake every day and I am healthy and fine :-)
Another great video. So glad you are doing well! Loved seeing Beyoncé and Stevie making more appearances in the video too. You did well with the few surprises in the video. I applaud you for not getting overly frustrated. I would’ve been! You handled everything so well. You’ve been an inspiration to me for the last 6 months+. Hugs from Boston! 🤗
So inspiring, thanks! Can’t wait for the next one. Xx
Thank you so much for this vlog - you look so beautiful, happy and relaxed it's such motivation for recovery! Also it's amazing to see how far you've come, in your earlier vlogs you would have berated yourself for a 'messy' vlog (which it isn't!) but now you laugh about it which is so nice to see! Thank you meg
You look so happy & beautiful Meg🥰! It’s been a while since I’ve commented (but I assure you that I’m a true watcher of every upload😄)
Awww thanks pal. Lots of love xxxx
I admire your strenght.
Inspiring as always! Thank you Meg. Really are helping me to go that extra mile. Love your checked dress! Where's it from? X
You are seriously inspiring. Thank you. Love you.
Madison Killer love you 🤗
Your cat example was perfect! Are you in your new house? It looks gorgeous! I would love to see a house tour unless you’ve already done one and I missed it! Those stairs are beautiful!
You're absolutely amazing! also laughed when you were like "Shit it's falling out the bowl" 😂🤣
Tabitha Farrar talks about energy debt. And it makes a lot of sense. You should look it up if you aren't familiar with the concept !
I overshoot my weight both times I recovered, so I know what I will live in this recovery.
About that weight suppression, I saw it in myself, it took a tiny amount of weight loss for me to trigger anorexia and a full relapse.
P.S. I love your outfits ! :)
Yes, LOVE her account. & these dresses are the best thing ever, they've helped so much with feeling comfortable in a changing body xxx
MEG ⭐️YOU ARE LOVED TO THE MOON AND BACK ⭐️ KEEP REACHING FOR THE STARS BEAUTIFUL ⭐️
LOVE the kitty analogy😂🙌❤
I love the color of your eyes!
omg can you do a house tour!?? it looks massive! and beautiful!
Yes looks a dream house💖
Thank you for sharing your recovery journey with us, watching your vlogs has really helped me immensely! I’m still a long way from recovered, but working on it every day. ❤️
(Also looove your nail polish in this video, what’s the shade called? It’s gorgeous!)
KIC12557548c ahhhh I cant remember & I threw it out after this because it went bubbly & weird. It’s an OPI anyway 😚
I love your content, even when its disorganised
I still can’t get over that you put the milk in your tea first! 🙈
Loren G 😂😂😂😂
On another note though, your hair is shining and absolutely beautiful!
Have you also had such as "obsession" with shopping (especially foods, but also other items), searching for recipes, experinces, reviews, manuals, directions for everything? I sometimes do not know what I like, how to do things etc. I procrastinate much time searching on internet "how to do thinkgs correctly" including eating, dressing, using make up, thinking living, always compare to other people. I am like maniac, it really struggles me....Any advice? Did you also go throught something similar? Thank you very much.
Hey Meg! Thanks for this lovely video :)) I was wondering- what is the tripod you are using? I actually have the exact same camera as you but have yet to find a good tripod.
is that your new place? it looks beautiful
My brain literally spiralled down after I developed spinal osteoporosis and a bad curvature because of long term high steroids for lupus. Over barely 3 years my measurements changed dramatically from a height of 5 foot 5 to measuring only 5 foot 1 on the chart. So in other words I’m now super tiny in terms of height. I asked my doctor during a check up if my weight should now be put against my previous height or my adjustment height with the curvature, even though I obviously still have the same amount of body! To my surprise I now apparently need to put only 5 foot 1 into a b.m.i. Chart and when I did that I was so over what I should be. Since then it has driven me crazy to try to drop and stay at what the new height says, it’s been really hard mentally
This is what I mean by BMI charts and doctors advice is a load of crap. How does your doctor know your body's natural and healthy weight? If you and I both experienced what you have with your spine our body would both act differently and we would both need to be different weights. I really don't think a chart can tell you about your actual physical body. You know if you're suppressing your weight and living with an ED ----- also, terrible advice from a doctor who should be treating your bone health. You need to be where your body needs to be, not where a chart decides!
agree with Megsy plus Anorexia and low nutrition are often also the reason for osteoporosis. And to nourish your body is very important for your osteoporosis did not go worse, or even to be better in some time - they will probably offer you some treatment and vitamins. I also have osteoporosis and I try to do my best to get it better. Best wishes!
I've always presumed you live in Spain or something but the Arabic above the starbucks? Where do you live
Dubai x
@@megsyrecovery191 That's what I was presuming! Very nice. x
Have you borned in Dubai or did you move? :-) I would love to visit Dubai! Especially now if we have winter here!!
Have you weight restored on your own at home without a treatment center? If so Did you see a dietitan or therapist and did they help you weight restore at home?
Yeh did it at home with the help of therapist, dietician and my husband xxx
and please you also was talking about treatment center or hospital in the previous videos. Did they help you at all? Did you gain weight there? I always was afraid of going there, in fact I do not believe that hospital itself can treat it. Yes of course, they can save ones life or to make people gain weight but everybody has his own power inside his mind.
You're so beautiful!
Never forget - it doesn't have to be perfect! Unfocused, off balance, who cares!
At the beginning, you said, "I'm taking the cats to the vet's this morning, so..., they don't know it but they're in for a really nasty surprise!" And i was like huh? why is the vet in for a nasty surprise? What is she gonna do to the vet???? Ohhhhh wait... hahahaha
Hahaha, they were actually good as gold (I think they were just terrified lol)
U exercise a lot?
how do shoul I know where my body wants to be?
I don't think you can know until you get there. You can look at the women in your family, and potentially your pre-illness weight for an idea, but really it's up to your body and once you're there you won't get cravings, extreme hunger, thoughts of food etc.... It's a hard one though isn't it. I hate not knowing xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 i'm afraid that my body wants to be overweight and it's sth I cannot accept... it's so hard and I don't know what to do :/
Meg also wondered are you warmer now or still always cold but then you do live in a hot country lol xx
SO MUCH WARMER!!!!! I can feel cold now (like when we were at home in the UK), but it's a totally different feeling, and it doesn't ruin my life xxx
I got a little distracted and when you started about your cat Beyonce being a few kilos and I thought you were talking about the artist Beyonce.
Hahahahaha
what breed are you cats? they are beautiful just as you are !!!
Persian x
Meg what bmi are you at? everything you said rings true. Did u ever take medicstion? Or have depression from it ? Thanks x
I don’t tend to say my BMI because I don’t think it would help other people or me, but I’m safely in to the 20s if that helps 😂
@@megsyrecovery191 yes would love a part 2 aswel..be better if it was extra vid :) x
your dress is so cute？
All this year - you kept having 3 meals 3 SNACKS every day ?
Michaela Králiková not every day. Some days I struggled or what have you, my recovery hasn’t been perfect