Meg, I don't say this lightly - your videos and being able to watch your journey has been more helpful to me than the 25 years of inpatient and residential treatment I have had. Thank you for letting us in on your recovery and taking the time to make these videos. You are truly a stellar person.
"any open food in the kitchen used to burn a hole through my brain"...... wow, I can so relate to this. Thank you for "normalizing" this experience as part of the recovery process. I've watched every single one of your videos from the very beginning and I am so inspired by your progress and the healthy, full life you are building for yourself :)
When you talk about time.... my God, it feels never ending. The hours before I'm 'allowed' to eat stretches endlessly. Hoarding all my nice stuff - I identify! And I'm freezing ALL the time. I'm just about within the healthy BMI range so it took a long time to get treatment. Starting CBT-E tomorrow and watching your videos has been such an amazing help and inspiration. Thank you 🥰
I love that you brought up the goal of wearing a t-shirt!!! Every one of your goals is one I have myself. I can’t wait till I can one day wear a t-shirt without embarrassment at how thin my arms are! Wish I had a significant other like yours to plan, prepare, cook meals and support me.
Megsy, I am so proud of you and you should be so proud of yourself as well. You have come SO FAR and are inspiring so many other people, like me, by sharing your journey. I began my own ED recovery account a few months ago to record my story, and you were a huge motivator for me to take that step. Thank you so much and keep fighting. You are amazing ❤️💪
My goodness this is all me too! Thank you so much Meg for all your video and information on YT and IG! I have watching all your videos by I just started recovery after 14 years of anorexia at 51 years old! You mean a lot to me!
This video made me realise how far I've come myself! All these little steps together do make a big difference. Sometimes I just forget how different and worse things were before. 😊
You are so incredibly inspiring! Sometimes in my recovery, I'm like, "ok, but what would Meg do" and it's really helpful :). I think the goals that aren't as obvious or visible are the most important because they represent the internal healing is happening. You are amazing and I hope to be like you one day!
SO relate to this. You explain things so perfectly by the way, better than anyone else, have followed you from the start and you are always SO inspiring. Xxx
Meg. This is one of your videos where I have seen myself more reflected on. The small things are always the hardest because they are the parts of your routine that you need to break. The "not using nice stuff", "not wanting to waste food in the fridge", "not feeling worth buying a starbucks when you want it", not feeling comfortable with "takeout every day", keeping the boxes/bags of gifts "just in case", ETC ETC ETC. I have done them all. Sometimes I still do because of being so ingrained in my subconscious. But as you said it's the little things that one aims at changing because they make our life, in the grand scheme, feel more amazing. Thank you for always being the inspiration you are!
Your goals are so relatable, and I also think is would be such a good video for friends and family of those who have eating disorders to help them to understand how difficult seemingly simple things can be, and how much impact mentally the preoccupation with food can have. It’s really useful to hear how the healthy Meg thinks about the rules/barriers that unwell Meg had, and how much better and more enjoyable life is now that you’re no longer bound by them xx
I'm proud of all the progress you've made Meg. Been following you for years (sounds creepy). Glad you are doing so well. Your messages have stuck with me and many of the things you've said about ordering take-away, having someone else prepare your food, and ordering a regular Starbucks without special ingredients is truly freeing. Thank you for another great video.
Every time you upload I find it so helpful and relatable, you are one of my favourite recovery youtubers because you explain things so well, I have so many 'little but big goals', can relate to the milk thing in Starbucks, like my local know exactly how I like my coffee, but I get so anxious in different/unknown coffee shops, I just want to be able to relax as well!
I didnt even realize I do so many things in this video. Not using nice things, peering over the counter when I order a coffee, and so many other ones. Thank you for continuing to be an inspiration to others. ❤ P.s. Bren is so talented. I LOVE that song
I very often find myself looking back to when I was ill. I constantly wonder what I would be doing if I didn't lose 5 year of my life to anorexia... I feel as though I'm still catching up, even though I have been recovered for nearly 3 years. It is usually with regret that I look back. Megsy, I would like to know how you deal with regret, if you feel it at all? Regret for wasting time, regret for missing good opportunities, regret for not accomplishing more so far... I always enjoy your videos! 🖤
Weirdly when I was in recovery & especially when I was younger I had so many regrets & I felt like I was missing out on stuff. But where I am in my life now I have no regrets at all. I actually wouldn’t change anything, because I love who I am & the people around me. I wouldn’t take back being ill because of all the things I learnt from it & I think it’s made me a better & more emotionally aware person. I don’t know if that’s common 🤷♀️ I also lost 15 years to being ill!!!! I honestly didn’t think I would ever say this, but yeh I feel really proud & content with where I am. & that’s obviously not to say that things are perfect now. I’d say just keep exploring areas of life & filling the space the ED has left behind. It’s definitely not an overnight thing, but life can catch up 😘😘
At Starbucks I usually get the blonde grande americano 2 shots of expression instead of 3, 4 stevias, 3 sugar free vanilla, light splash of almond milk and a dash of cinnamon, I’m in still in recovery at 35 years old and you’re beautiful and an inspiration to me. I’ve learned that a lot of the signs of an eating disorder are not about food but outside circumstances that we can’t control, and am aware that’s pride, but the best we can do is pray and take it one day at a time, one prayer that helps me is the serenity prayer, I believe it’s way more challenging to recover at an older age especially because your body starts to experience sensitivities to some foods. :/
This is SO true!…and you explain it perfectly. I relate to ALL those ‘little’ goals - they ARE the big goals in recovery & when you achieve them they feel amazing. So worth the ‘challenge repeat’ & ‘feel shit & do it anyway’ it takes to get there. That’s helped me so I hope in recovery. Thank you so much for sharing and continuing to share - the repetition on here & your Insta is SO helpful - especially considering everything you have been through/are going through. You are amazing and a total inspiration. I love when you talk about Alfie too & seeing your gorgeous necklaces 💜 Sending you lots of love and positivity x
This put a lot of context to understanding how the small habits are really important to solve, to get recovered. Bren is such a talent too, his music is so beautiful and calming. I like it in your videos. x
I so relate with the time thing. I still try find anything to do with my time while thinking what the next meal's gonna be. As if the only moments that matter are those food related, the rest is just a void that needs to filled up... It's still a big problem.... You're still such an inspiring and wonderful woman!
So awful isn’t it! & tbh that’s because the only moments that matter are those with food in. Your body just wants to EAT! & it tells you loud & clear. Keep giving it the food it needs. It’s the only way to get to a point of balance & mental peace 🙏🏻
It is so heart warming and very motivational hearing you say all these things because stuff like that is something I strive for and am working on...I also do want to feel like I'm more in the moment with everything. I can't even tell you how long it's been since I've felt that way and it does sadden me but I know...I don't want to allow myself to keep me stuck there because " it's been like that or it's always been this way" no. The time is always now. I do relate to most well, all the things you shared...the thoughts, the struggles, the urges...yea. I'm soo very happy and inspired by how you consistently work on these things even how well far your in into recovery. I don't hunk you can still struggle even after weight gaining, even after doing something hard two three times...stuff always comes up and like you've shared in your reels or short clips...that it can for some odd reason change forms all the time..like if I challenge bread, it will say well only wheat not white bread, then if I try to challenge that, it will then say well only ones that have the calories and it has to be low, then that again...after no it has to be grain free...blah blah...daaaamn...it's a world wind of rules and irrational thoughts and urges. But the fact that you talk about this helps me remember that, that sh** is not okay, that I don't want my life to revolve around my ED, how you find a way to satisfy my ED (like compensating). However, I do want to live, you help me with that and so I appreciate it sooo much. Your a great support, a fabulous woman, a beautiful example of why recoverying is far more important. Love you loads and all your love ones too. Here for you too. Alfie is and will always be there for you.🕊️🥊🌄🧘🖤🐾🆓🥺🤗🥣🧀🛒🌯🥗🥪🍔🍟🍛🍰🍪☕🚗🏡🌆🕯️🛁🍼
The coffee thing is so real for me right now , my therapist has challenged me to have milk in my coffee again small but huge . You are so real and strong thank you x
I totally relate with all these goals. While the goals may seem to many people so little, they are so monumental in Ed recovery. You have always been so inspiring to me and your advice and sayings are always so helpful to me. Opposite actions is a big affirmation that has helped me. I’ve loved watching your journey and am so proud of you.
I always remember you saying food doesn't have to be perfect that really helps with just not obsessing over what to eat and when where who with how much how late how early how often no need to worry if your cake is broken wrong dry or you don't it doesn't taste the best your no longer wasting time calories you are gaming LIFE❤️
This vlog really hones in on how sad it all is when in illness 😢 so so sad to hear all these behaviours laid out and just how much time and mental energy had gone into it 😢such a great video
You’re hair has gotten SO long! ❤️Following these updates over the past few years and seeing how far you’ve come is such an inspiration. Thanks for sharing and keep staying strong!
I loved this video Meg! It helped remind me of all the smaller goals that can make recovery seem more achievable! I'm so proud of how far you've come! I love the style of your videos and find them comforting and down-to-earth! Thanks again for putting out this content :)
Amazing how many little big things have changed throughout your recovery which has built up into so much freedom and normality ❤️ all these small changes over time which build towards a much happier life.... It's so worth it!!! Xxx Just post videos when you feel able to sweetie, don't put pressure on yourself xx
I can relate to all of this, my local Starbucks and pret I swear the people would fear me coming in as I’d scrutinise anyone making my drink, checking the milk, how many pumps of sugar free syrup, did my cup touch any other drinks, I would literally have a tantrum (grown woman tantrum is not pretty!) if it wasn’t perfect. Now I just go in, order, don’t watch and drink, it’s amazing! And I would always know what was in my fridge and cupboards, supermarket shopping was horrible for my husband as I’d be there for hours reading packets and food labels, now if I want it, it goes in the trolley that’s it. Xxx
Thank you so much for all your videos, they are massive help for me in getting out of the quasi-recovered stage I have been in since I started my late 20s..I cannot imagine how hard the past year has been for you, yet you are still managing to help others with these videos, which no one else on you-tube has quite been able to match, at least not for me anyway.. so thank you 🙏..for me my main goal is I want to be a healthy weight and example for my children, and then the seemingly trivial little things like wearing whatever I like without worrying about looking too skinny, which I know I do, and hate, thanks to the remnants of ED clinging on in the shadows in subtle ways and preventing further weight gain, although I want to gain weight because I don’t want to be skinny!!
Im so proud of how far you're come💕💕💕 you give me hope that full recovery exists,that things i'm struggling now will get better,thank you for all your honest videos,are so so so helpful😘😘😘lots of love for you and bren.
I relate so hard to the thing about food in the house burning a hole in your brain! I CANNOT just forget about it and get on with my day, it’s so annoying and crap. Good to know that I’m not the only one experiencing this though and so happy for you that you moved past it. Your videos are always an inspiration to do the hard work xoxo
Thank you so much for your videos! I’m about to go back into treatment for the second time and it’s a really good time for me to reevaluate my goals. Thank you for always offering such great advice!
This is so helpful, thank you❤ I'm following the same type of behavorial therapy that you were treated with. Everyday day, every meal is a new challenge, but I'm hopeful it'll get easier with time ❤
i can relate so much of your old thoughts. thanks for that :) it is so frustrating and worrying what that illness makes with our brains. keep going Megsy. wish you all the best.
Thank you again for another great video and reminder. I have been pushing and pushing and really stressing myself out. Watching your videos helps to remind me that this is a process and that things will get better. Much love 💘
I love how you have so many things that remind you of your son, Alfie. My daughter was stillborn at 38 weeks (13 years and 8 months ago) so my heart is with you. I wanted to comment about the watch issue. Mine isn’t so much with time but I use it to body check. How tight or loose the band is around my wrist, makes me feel better or worse depending on how it is. For me that’s worse than checking the time. Thanks for your openness in sharing your recovery journey.
Such an interesting video and very relatable to those small goals others would not understand I am working through these still but defo have broken many rule and achieved many mini goals ... oh dear I keep gift boxes though not so much any more!!! And I use my things more too now. So much you never realise till later how much was linked to Ed! And you look gorgeous in that orange dress!!!!! ❤️
Great to have you here again!! I miss your videos so much, they are so helpful as a recovery warrior. Only a shame they are not more frequent hehe Thanks again and congrats, megsy! (:
Hello Megsy, it has been quite a long time that I wanted to do as you : toast, poched eggs, avocado....I managed to do it this morning : toast, bed of cooked spinach, smoked salmon and... one on top of the other and sot separated in ma plate + side of tomatoes....also big win: milk AND sugar in the coffee (frappuccino or hot latte)... could imagine i would be doing it one day. But I remembered what you said: "nothing is going to happen".... something DID happen: i was happy ans really appreciate the dish and my latte (to the point i think i am a little bit addicted to it) .... thanks to you....i a certain way you pushed me to JUST DO IT .... have a lovely day.
What you described about open snacks is how I feel about leftovers. I never cook myself meals or get meals out because I feel like I can’t have any prepared food in the fridge without binging on it or it consuming my mind
Great video as always. So nice yo see all the progress you have done and I AM trying to do. Really trying to follow your advises and tips cause find them really helpful. It is wonderful finding channels like yours, showing the reality of recovery, and not those that make it seem that everything is easy and start making this unrealistic food chalkenges as if recovery was that. Really love watching your videos once and again, and when I find it eifficult seeing that that is normal and ir is not a reason to give up, and see how oye lives can change. .. lovely. Never change. By the way, when are you going to record a little concert Bren playing the guitar and You playing the piano? Jajaja. Hugs and Kisses
Yes it is definitely not fun or a game, it’s for a better life! & Bren is so much better than me, but maybe we could try 😁 I just love sitting & listening to him play 🎶
The little things and changes are the ones which lead to a free, happy and wholesome personality and life! That is what counts. Well done Megsy! You are such a great role model for many people. Brandon is such a great singer and musician- sounds extremly nice and calming. Best regards from GER.
There are so many good points in this video as recovery really is all about being able to do the things that people without an eating disorder do naturally. Because I am more recovered now I have been able to take on more responsibility at work which has been great. I am much busier and it means there is not much time in the evening to cook dinner and my lunch times are more random. If I was still in my ED there is no way I would have been able to cope with that but now what we are eating in the evening isn't my main focus of the day it is "just dinner". You sometimes don't realise how much an eating disorder holds you back until it isn't there anymore and you realise that you can do things that previously seemed impossible. For instance I now run a group over lunch time once a week. It means I just have to grab what ever is available but I still have to make sure i eat as don't want to fall into an accidental relapse. I never thought I would be able to do that so it is just so freeing. Thanks for the video xxxx
That’s amazing! It’s so liberating being able to do these things isn’t it 🙌 sometimes I’m like “am i really this lucky that I’m allowed to just do this?”. So pleased for you 😘😘
Awww I’m so proud of you and how far you’ve come! ♥️ I’m not ‘quite’ in recovery yet..Ok, not all 🥴🤭but can relate to so much you said about hoarding, knowing everything you have in the kitchen, buying not one box of bars/snacks but loads (just so they’re there in case a war breaks out!) I don’t even snack, if I have a little shitty lowest calorie snack bar it’s for a meal! I can’t imagine being ‘normal’ in the world as haven’t been for so many years but know I’ll do it one day and you sharing your journey helps so much to know it’s possible! Love all your vids, you explain everything from the heart and so well. What beautiful friends you have too 🥰 When Bren said when you were getting ready to go out “You deserve it darling” I absolutely sobbed…maybe because I live alone and think I’ll never get love again but that kindness just went right through me. Big old therapy sessions starting soon!! 🤭🥴😂😂Lots of love to you 😘
You are doing so great petal and a big THANK YOU for making these videos. It’s so good to see ur little big wins. It would be really good to hear how Bren has coped with helping you through ur recovery. He sounds like a keeper petal. Me and ems love you. We think about you every day and always tell each other when u hv a new post up on Instagram. Thank god for megsy 💞💞💞
Awwww love your messages 🤗🤗 I would love to do that, but Bren doesn’t really like being in the videos 🙈 I’ll ask him again, but usually it’s a no. Which I respect. He’s wonderful though, I’m so grateful for him every single day 🙏🏻
ive really been struggling with fear of gaining weight in recovery. i know that i have to do it but dwaling with bloating, bad body image and all the shit feelings (physically and mentally) that come with it really make it hard and make me question everything and stunt my motivation to recover. i feel so lost at times and would love to know how you push past these feelings and how you maintain motivation to keep going, also if you are challenging any foods always help me to see that its possible, and ways that you just block the thoughts and carry on whilst eating, or leading up to it, or after (dealing with guilt and fear of weight gain) c
I think I might have done videos about this, but I think opposite actions & feel shot & do it anyway works with weight gain as well. It won’t be uncomfortable forever, & the long term benefits that come with it can far outweigh the short term discomfort…. But you have to do it to get to the benefits 😘😘😘
hey megsy, SO excited to watch this!! i cant tell you how much you have helped me. you are truly an inspiration, my biggest role model and a godsend. thank you for being YOU and for sharing your journey and struggles as well as help and encouragement with the rest of the world and me! xx
Haven't watched the video yet but I will do later for sure! I just read the description and it reminded me that I did want to be able to for example eat PB out of the jar without measuring it but I never managed to do it although I really wanted to and was frustrated and a bit jealous when I saw people eat PB without thinking about it. I gave up trying but some things changed and I am totally fine doing it! I am still really underweight but I am eating more and giving myself permission to eat as much PB as I want and it just feels okay to do so without measuring it now. To let go of the goal/desire to change so badly helped me in a way but what probably helped the most was to nourish my body, to let go of the control and to focus on other things. Really looking forward to watching the video!!! :)
@@megsyrecovery191 Just finished watching the video and it reminded me of all the lotions, moisturisers and other stashes of stuff I still have from when I was probably preparing for Covid or WW 3 years in advance 😂 Thank you for taking the time to share those videos with us!!! Have a great weekend!!!
If I've a wish on my bucket list is meet up with u someday😍😍 I'd be dead chuffed, on top of the world ....you're my role model, I'm trying to copy u in everything almost...bcs I'm 100% convinced what you're doing is the right thing to get completely recovered. You're a warrior. I'm soooooo proud of you and all your achievements so far💪💟💟💟💟
Are you still playing your piano? How do find eating a ‘proper’ meal when it’s so hot? I’m thinking of being abroad on holiday and it being it so hot Your posts are so moving xxxx
when do you admit that "you're done" with recovery? you're in healthy weight so what should happen when you finally say "i'm free. I am recovered from anorexia"?
Meg, I don't say this lightly - your videos and being able to watch your journey has been more helpful to me than the 25 years of inpatient and residential treatment I have had. Thank you for letting us in on your recovery and taking the time to make these videos. You are truly a stellar person.
I agree. True for me too x
The “help” in these places, is it even help 😑 hope you’re doing well x
"Being able to sit all day in the office without being cold" wow, you are right, it was such a nightmare to me!
"any open food in the kitchen used to burn a hole through my brain"...... wow, I can so relate to this. Thank you for "normalizing" this experience as part of the recovery process. I've watched every single one of your videos from the very beginning and I am so inspired by your progress and the healthy, full life you are building for yourself :)
When you talk about time.... my God, it feels never ending. The hours before I'm 'allowed' to eat stretches endlessly. Hoarding all my nice stuff - I identify! And I'm freezing ALL the time. I'm just about within the healthy BMI range so it took a long time to get treatment. Starting CBT-E tomorrow and watching your videos has been such an amazing help and inspiration. Thank you 🥰
I love that you brought up the goal of wearing a t-shirt!!! Every one of your goals is one I have myself. I can’t wait till I can one day wear a t-shirt without embarrassment at how thin my arms are! Wish I had a significant other like yours to plan, prepare, cook meals and support me.
Megsy, I am so proud of you and you should be so proud of yourself as well. You have come SO FAR and are inspiring so many other people, like me, by sharing your journey. I began my own ED recovery account a few months ago to record my story, and you were a huge motivator for me to take that step. Thank you so much and keep fighting. You are amazing ❤️💪
My goodness this is all me too! Thank you so much Meg for all your video and information on YT and IG! I have watching all your videos by I just started recovery after 14 years of anorexia at 51 years old! You mean a lot to me!
This video made me realise how far I've come myself! All these little steps together do make a big difference. Sometimes I just forget how different and worse things were before. 😊
You are so incredibly inspiring! Sometimes in my recovery, I'm like, "ok, but what would Meg do" and it's really helpful :). I think the goals that aren't as obvious or visible are the most important because they represent the internal healing is happening. You are amazing and I hope to be like you one day!
I totally agree, the invisible goals often helped me the most in the moment! & even better…. You’ll be like you! Wonderful, unique, fabulous you 🌻
It’s great to be reminded of these “small” goals to see how far we’ve come!! Thanks for another great video, i always enjoy them 🌸
SO relate to this. You explain things so perfectly by the way, better than anyone else, have followed you from the start and you are always SO inspiring. Xxx
Meg. This is one of your videos where I have seen myself more reflected on. The small things are always the hardest because they are the parts of your routine that you need to break. The "not using nice stuff", "not wanting to waste food in the fridge", "not feeling worth buying a starbucks when you want it", not feeling comfortable with "takeout every day", keeping the boxes/bags of gifts "just in case", ETC ETC ETC. I have done them all. Sometimes I still do because of being so ingrained in my subconscious. But as you said it's the little things that one aims at changing because they make our life, in the grand scheme, feel more amazing. Thank you for always being the inspiration you are!
You are my absolute favourite UA-cam! Truly such an inspiration!!
Your goals are so relatable, and I also think is would be such a good video for friends and family of those who have eating disorders to help them to understand how difficult seemingly simple things can be, and how much impact mentally the preoccupation with food can have. It’s really useful to hear how the healthy Meg thinks about the rules/barriers that unwell Meg had, and how much better and more enjoyable life is now that you’re no longer bound by them xx
I'm proud of all the progress you've made Meg. Been following you for years (sounds creepy). Glad you are doing so well. Your messages have stuck with me and many of the things you've said about ordering take-away, having someone else prepare your food, and ordering a regular Starbucks without special ingredients is truly freeing. Thank you for another great video.
Every time you upload I find it so helpful and relatable, you are one of my favourite recovery youtubers because you explain things so well, I have so many 'little but big goals', can relate to the milk thing in Starbucks, like my local know exactly how I like my coffee, but I get so anxious in different/unknown coffee shops, I just want to be able to relax as well!
I didnt even realize I do so many things in this video. Not using nice things, peering over the counter when I order a coffee, and so many other ones. Thank you for continuing to be an inspiration to others. ❤
P.s. Bren is so talented. I LOVE that song
I very often find myself looking back to when I was ill. I constantly wonder what I would be doing if I didn't lose 5 year of my life to anorexia... I feel as though I'm still catching up, even though I have been recovered for nearly 3 years. It is usually with regret that I look back. Megsy, I would like to know how you deal with regret, if you feel it at all? Regret for wasting time, regret for missing good opportunities, regret for not accomplishing more so far... I always enjoy your videos! 🖤
Weirdly when I was in recovery & especially when I was younger I had so many regrets & I felt like I was missing out on stuff. But where I am in my life now I have no regrets at all. I actually wouldn’t change anything, because I love who I am & the people around me. I wouldn’t take back being ill because of all the things I learnt from it & I think it’s made me a better & more emotionally aware person. I don’t know if that’s common 🤷♀️ I also lost 15 years to being ill!!!! I honestly didn’t think I would ever say this, but yeh I feel really proud & content with where I am. & that’s obviously not to say that things are perfect now. I’d say just keep exploring areas of life & filling the space the ED has left behind. It’s definitely not an overnight thing, but life can catch up 😘😘
At Starbucks I usually get the blonde grande americano 2 shots of expression instead of 3, 4 stevias, 3 sugar free vanilla, light splash of almond milk and a dash of cinnamon, I’m in still in recovery at 35 years old and you’re beautiful and an inspiration to me. I’ve learned that a lot of the signs of an eating disorder are not about food but outside circumstances that we can’t control, and am aware that’s pride, but the best we can do is pray and take it one day at a time, one prayer that helps me is the serenity prayer, I believe it’s way more challenging to recover at an older age especially because your body starts to experience sensitivities to some foods. :/
You are such an inspiration!! I really love your videos!! Please never ever stop!
Said it before and I'll say it again and again and again....u blow me away X perseverance xx
This is SO true!…and you explain it perfectly. I relate to ALL those ‘little’ goals - they ARE the big goals in recovery & when you achieve them they feel amazing. So worth the ‘challenge repeat’ & ‘feel shit & do it anyway’ it takes to get there. That’s helped me so I hope in recovery. Thank you so much for sharing and continuing to share - the repetition on here & your Insta is SO helpful - especially considering everything you have been through/are going through. You are amazing and a total inspiration. I love when you talk about Alfie too & seeing your gorgeous necklaces 💜 Sending you lots of love and positivity x
This put a lot of context to understanding how the small habits are really important to solve, to get recovered. Bren is such a talent too, his music is so beautiful and calming. I like it in your videos. x
I so relate with the time thing. I still try find anything to do with my time while thinking what the next meal's gonna be. As if the only moments that matter are those food related, the rest is just a void that needs to filled up... It's still a big problem....
You're still such an inspiring and wonderful woman!
So awful isn’t it! & tbh that’s because the only moments that matter are those with food in. Your body just wants to EAT! & it tells you loud & clear. Keep giving it the food it needs. It’s the only way to get to a point of balance & mental peace 🙏🏻
It is so heart warming and very motivational hearing you say all these things because stuff like that is something I strive for and am working on...I also do want to feel like I'm more in the moment with everything. I can't even tell you how long it's been since I've felt that way and it does sadden me but I know...I don't want to allow myself to keep me stuck there because " it's been like that or it's always been this way" no. The time is always now. I do relate to most well, all the things you shared...the thoughts, the struggles, the urges...yea. I'm soo very happy and inspired by how you consistently work on these things even how well far your in into recovery. I don't hunk you can still struggle even after weight gaining, even after doing something hard two three times...stuff always comes up and like you've shared in your reels or short clips...that it can for some odd reason change forms all the time..like if I challenge bread, it will say well only wheat not white bread, then if I try to challenge that, it will then say well only ones that have the calories and it has to be low, then that again...after no it has to be grain free...blah blah...daaaamn...it's a world wind of rules and irrational thoughts and urges. But the fact that you talk about this helps me remember that, that sh** is not okay, that I don't want my life to revolve around my ED, how you find a way to satisfy my ED (like compensating). However, I do want to live, you help me with that and so I appreciate it sooo much. Your a great support, a fabulous woman, a beautiful example of why recoverying is far more important. Love you loads and all your love ones too. Here for you too. Alfie is and will always be there for you.🕊️🥊🌄🧘🖤🐾🆓🥺🤗🥣🧀🛒🌯🥗🥪🍔🍟🍛🍰🍪☕🚗🏡🌆🕯️🛁🍼
The coffee thing is so real for me right now , my therapist has challenged me to have milk in my coffee again small but huge . You are so real and strong thank you x
Bren is so talented on the guitar
And megsy you are just wonderful, your such a inspiration and a really great woman to follow.
Thankyou so very much
the candles for Alfie are beautiful.... x
I totally relate with all these goals. While the goals may seem to many people so little, they are so monumental in Ed recovery. You have always been so inspiring to me and your advice and sayings are always so helpful to me. Opposite actions is a big affirmation that has helped me. I’ve loved watching your journey and am so proud of you.
I always remember you saying food doesn't have to be perfect that really helps with just not obsessing over what to eat and when where who with how much how late how early how often no need to worry if your cake is broken wrong dry or you don't it doesn't taste the best your no longer wasting time calories you are gaming LIFE❤️
I can absolutely relate to everything you’ve been saying. So relatable
This vlog really hones in on how sad it all is when in illness 😢 so so sad to hear all these behaviours laid out and just how much time and mental energy had gone into it 😢such a great video
Always love your content. So motivational so hounist and always makes me want to try harder
You’re hair has gotten SO long! ❤️Following these updates over the past few years and seeing how far you’ve come is such an inspiration. Thanks for sharing and keep staying strong!
Im still surprised how long it is haha. I think I have Alfie to thank for that!🙏🏻 xxx
I loved this video Meg! It helped remind me of all the smaller goals that can make recovery seem more achievable! I'm so proud of how far you've come! I love the style of your videos and find them comforting and down-to-earth! Thanks again for putting out this content :)
Beautiful Meg❤️sy, You Just keep doing you, One step at a time, One day at a time 🙏🏻🕯💙 Sending you all love xx
omg youre my favorite youtuber rn 🥺🥺 i'm 3 weeks into recovery and youre such a big inspiration, literally my hero
Amazing how many little big things have changed throughout your recovery which has built up into so much freedom and normality ❤️ all these small changes over time which build towards a much happier life.... It's so worth it!!! Xxx
Just post videos when you feel able to sweetie, don't put pressure on yourself xx
Thank you 😘😘😘😘
@@megsyrecovery191 xx
I can relate to all of this, my local Starbucks and pret I swear the people would fear me coming in as I’d scrutinise anyone making my drink, checking the milk, how many pumps of sugar free syrup, did my cup touch any other drinks, I would literally have a tantrum (grown woman tantrum is not pretty!) if it wasn’t perfect. Now I just go in, order, don’t watch and drink, it’s amazing! And I would always know what was in my fridge and cupboards, supermarket shopping was horrible for my husband as I’d be there for hours reading packets and food labels, now if I want it, it goes in the trolley that’s it. Xxx
OMG the monthly candles from your friend! So so beautiful!
Thank you so much for all your videos, they are massive help for me in getting out of the quasi-recovered stage I have been in since I started my late 20s..I cannot imagine how hard the past year has been for you, yet you are still managing to help others with these videos, which no one else on you-tube has quite been able to match, at least not for me anyway.. so thank you 🙏..for me my main goal is I want to be a healthy weight and example for my children, and then the seemingly trivial little things like wearing whatever I like without worrying about looking too skinny, which I know I do, and hate, thanks to the remnants of ED clinging on in the shadows in subtle ways and preventing further weight gain, although I want to gain weight because I don’t want to be skinny!!
Im so proud of how far you're come💕💕💕 you give me hope that full recovery exists,that things i'm struggling now will get better,thank you for all your honest videos,are so so so helpful😘😘😘lots of love for you and bren.
Thank you so much for this video💕 You continue to inspire me. 🤗
I relate so hard to the thing about food in the house burning a hole in your brain! I CANNOT just forget about it and get on with my day, it’s so annoying and crap. Good to know that I’m not the only one experiencing this though and so happy for you that you moved past it. Your videos are always an inspiration to do the hard work xoxo
Thank you so much for your videos! I’m about to go back into treatment for the second time and it’s a really good time for me to reevaluate my goals. Thank you for always offering such great advice!
This is so helpful, thank you❤ I'm following the same type of behavorial therapy that you were treated with. Everyday day, every meal is a new challenge, but I'm hopeful it'll get easier with time ❤
Your awesome Meg. Lots of love to you xxx
i can relate so much of your old thoughts. thanks for that :) it is so frustrating and worrying what that illness makes with our brains.
keep going Megsy. wish you all the best.
Off topic but I love Bren's singing and guitar playing ❤️
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Another amazing video. You are such an inspiration. Everything you have done has helped me so much. All your videos have been a life saviour ❤️
You are such a determined & strong lady. I love you to bits!🌹❤️
Thank you again for another great video and reminder. I have been pushing and pushing and really stressing myself out. Watching your videos helps to remind me that this is a process and that things will get better. Much love 💘
I love how you have so many things that remind you of your son, Alfie. My daughter was stillborn at 38 weeks (13 years and 8 months ago) so my heart is with you. I wanted to comment about the watch issue. Mine isn’t so much with time but I use it to body check. How tight or loose the band is around my wrist, makes me feel better or worse depending on how it is. For me that’s worse than checking the time. Thanks for your openness in sharing your recovery journey.
Awwww bless her, & you 😢 I’m so sorry! Did you name her? I hope her & Alfie are together 💕
& I hadn’t thought of that with the watch! EDs are so awful aren’t they 😣
@@megsyrecovery191 oh yes! Her name is Maya. I do hope she and Alfie have found each other.
Awwww lovely Maya 🥰🥰🥰 I hope so too xxxx
thank you so much, Meg!
Such an interesting video and very relatable to those small goals others would not understand I am working through these still but defo have broken many rule and achieved many mini goals ... oh dear I keep gift boxes though not so much any more!!! And I use my things more too now. So much you never realise till later how much was linked to Ed! And you look gorgeous in that orange dress!!!!! ❤️
Hi Meg from Australia 🇦🇺- thank you so much for this video, very relatable!!!!! 👏😍
Great to have you here again!! I miss your videos so much, they are so helpful as a recovery warrior. Only a shame they are not more frequent hehe Thanks again and congrats, megsy! (:
Hello Megsy, it has been quite a long time that I wanted to do as you : toast, poched eggs, avocado....I managed to do it this morning : toast, bed of cooked spinach, smoked salmon and... one on top of the other and sot separated in ma plate + side of tomatoes....also big win: milk AND sugar in the coffee (frappuccino or hot latte)... could imagine i would be doing it one day. But I remembered what you said: "nothing is going to happen".... something DID happen: i was happy ans really appreciate the dish and my latte (to the point i think i am a little bit addicted to it) .... thanks to you....i a certain way you pushed me to JUST DO IT .... have a lovely day.
I can relate to every single one of these! Such a helpful and insightful video, I always love listening to them. Love to you all.
Alfie, fly with other angels, dance amongst the stars ♥♥♥
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What you described about open snacks is how I feel about leftovers. I never cook myself meals or get meals out because I feel like I can’t have any prepared food in the fridge without binging on it or it consuming my mind
Great video as always. So nice yo see all the progress you have done and I AM trying to do. Really trying to follow your advises and tips cause find them really helpful. It is wonderful finding channels like yours, showing the reality of recovery, and not those that make it seem that everything is easy and start making this unrealistic food chalkenges as if recovery was that. Really love watching your videos once and again, and when I find it eifficult seeing that that is normal and ir is not a reason to give up, and see how oye lives can change. .. lovely. Never change. By the way, when are you going to record a little concert Bren playing the guitar and You playing the piano? Jajaja. Hugs and Kisses
Yes it is definitely not fun or a game, it’s for a better life! & Bren is so much better than me, but maybe we could try 😁 I just love sitting & listening to him play 🎶
@@megsyrecovery191 it really is not. Thank You so much for sharing your experiencience. Hugs
The little things and changes are the ones which lead to a free, happy and wholesome personality and life! That is what counts. Well done Megsy! You are such a great role model for many people. Brandon is such a great singer and musician- sounds extremly nice and calming. Best regards from GER.
Such a great video. Inspiring.
There are so many good points in this video as recovery really is all about being able to do the things that people without an eating disorder do naturally.
Because I am more recovered now I have been able to take on more responsibility at work which has been great. I am much busier and it means there is not much time in the evening to cook dinner and my lunch times are more random. If I was still in my ED there is no way I would have been able to cope with that but now what we are eating in the evening isn't my main focus of the day it is "just dinner".
You sometimes don't realise how much an eating disorder holds you back until it isn't there anymore and you realise that you can do things that previously seemed impossible. For instance I now run a group over lunch time once a week. It means I just have to grab what ever is available but I still have to make sure i eat as don't want to fall into an accidental relapse. I never thought I would be able to do that so it is just so freeing. Thanks for the video xxxx
That’s amazing! It’s so liberating being able to do these things isn’t it 🙌 sometimes I’m like “am i really this lucky that I’m allowed to just do this?”. So pleased for you 😘😘
Thank you again, you are my inspiration ❤️
Awww I’m so proud of you and how far you’ve come! ♥️
I’m not ‘quite’ in recovery yet..Ok, not all 🥴🤭but can relate to so much you said about hoarding, knowing everything you have in the kitchen, buying not one box of bars/snacks but loads (just so they’re there in case a war breaks out!)
I don’t even snack, if I have a little shitty lowest calorie snack bar it’s for a meal!
I can’t imagine being ‘normal’ in the world as haven’t been for so many years but know I’ll do it one day and you sharing your journey helps so much to know it’s possible!
Love all your vids, you explain everything from the heart and so well.
What beautiful friends you have too 🥰
When Bren said when you were getting ready to go out “You deserve it darling” I absolutely sobbed…maybe because I live alone and think I’ll never get love again but that kindness just went right through me. Big old therapy sessions starting soon!! 🤭🥴😂😂Lots of love to you 😘
Sarah, you are my sister from another mister! We’ll get there. Hang in, amy 💛
You are doing so great petal and a big THANK YOU for making these videos. It’s so good to see ur little big wins. It would be really good to hear how Bren has coped with helping you through ur recovery. He sounds like a keeper petal. Me and ems love you. We think about you every day and always tell each other when u hv a new post up on Instagram. Thank god for megsy 💞💞💞
Awwww love your messages 🤗🤗 I would love to do that, but Bren doesn’t really like being in the videos 🙈 I’ll ask him again, but usually it’s a no. Which I respect. He’s wonderful though, I’m so grateful for him every single day 🙏🏻
ive really been struggling with fear of gaining weight in recovery. i know that i have to do it but dwaling with bloating, bad body image and all the shit feelings (physically and mentally) that come with it really make it hard and make me question everything and stunt my motivation to recover. i feel so lost at times and would love to know how you push past these feelings and how you maintain motivation to keep going, also if you are challenging any foods always help me to see that its possible, and ways that you just block the thoughts and carry on whilst eating, or leading up to it, or after (dealing with guilt and fear of weight gain) c
I think I might have done videos about this, but I think opposite actions & feel shot & do it anyway works with weight gain as well. It won’t be uncomfortable forever, & the long term benefits that come with it can far outweigh the short term discomfort…. But you have to do it to get to the benefits 😘😘😘
hey megsy, SO excited to watch this!! i cant tell you how much you have helped me. you are truly an inspiration, my biggest role model and a godsend. thank you for being YOU and for sharing your journey and struggles as well as help and encouragement with the rest of the world and me! xx
Without sounding too lame it’s a real privilege to be able to share forward all the stuff which has helped me so much 😘
You look incredible in that dress ! Your hair is so beautiful
Haven't watched the video yet but I will do later for sure! I just read the description and it reminded me that I did want to be able to for example eat PB out of the jar without measuring it but I never managed to do it although I really wanted to and was frustrated and a bit jealous when I saw people eat PB without thinking about it. I gave up trying but some things changed and I am totally fine doing it! I am still really underweight but I am eating more and giving myself permission to eat as much PB as I want and it just feels okay to do so without measuring it now. To let go of the goal/desire to change so badly helped me in a way but what probably helped the most was to nourish my body, to let go of the control and to focus on other things. Really looking forward to watching the video!!! :)
That’s exactly the sort of goal & experience I had as well!!! 🤗
@@megsyrecovery191 Just finished watching the video and it reminded me of all the lotions, moisturisers and other stashes of stuff I still have from when I was probably preparing for Covid or WW 3 years in advance 😂 Thank you for taking the time to share those videos with us!!! Have a great weekend!!!
I am and have been so inspired by you. After challenge repeat and feeling the fear and doing it anyway, did you see or feel your weight plateau?
Megsy, what do you think about HBO Documentary "Thin" (2006)?
If I've a wish on my bucket list is meet up with u someday😍😍 I'd be dead chuffed, on top of the world ....you're my role model, I'm trying to copy u in everything almost...bcs I'm 100% convinced what you're doing is the right thing to get completely recovered. You're a warrior. I'm soooooo proud of you and all your achievements so far💪💟💟💟💟
Well it’s been life changing for me, after lots of treatment which didn’t work! I’m so glad to be able to share the things which helped 🥰
& I’d love to meet you one day 😚
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i'm... kinda early, what to say!! omg, i loveeee your vlogs, has helped me much 🧡
love brens music!
How often did you do new challenges
Another helpful upload :)
Have u ever had issues with movement? Whats your favourite order from Starbucks do you go daily? ⭐
Are you still playing your piano?
How do find eating a ‘proper’ meal when it’s so hot? I’m thinking of being abroad on holiday and it being it so hot
Your posts are so moving xxxx
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You look so beautiful dressed up to go out ❤️💕 (although you look beautiful always anyway)
Ahh thanks. I’m so much more comfortable in shorts & t shirt, but occasionally it’s nice dressing up 😋
@@megsyrecovery191 I can relate to that statement wholeheartedly ❤️
when do you admit that "you're done" with recovery? you're in healthy weight so what should happen when you finally say "i'm free. I am recovered from anorexia"?