Traveling is when I am always triggered. Out of routine, no control over food etc etc - seeing you push through this Megsy gives me so much hope. Thank you for being brutally honest also, it shows the real struggle of recovery xx
Whenever I'm feeling like I'm having a setback or my eating disorder has found a way to convince me to restrict or overcompensate, your videos always help me find a better headspace. Thank you so much for sharing your recovery, it's incredibly helpful.
I think it’s so amazing to watch the juxtaposition between you having an anxiety attack after eating the burger to then going and and eating at the movies with Bren. It’s literally concrete evidence of feelings don’t last forever, food is just food, and LIFE DOES GO ON!!!! 😊💕👍
Very proud of you, as usual! And, big props for showing the part where you're obviously uncomfortable (03:00 and onwards). I think a lot of people need to see that it isn't easy. You rock!
I literally found myself cheering for you throughout the entire video. If only you knew how happy my heart was when you ate that fallen piece of bacon. You are such a huge aid to my own recovery. Your own healing has helped so many other people, and it's almost like we're all healing together. Love you, Meg
Just 4 minutes into this video and I am already so inspired! I’m in a point in my recovery where I am at a healthy weight and eating properly, but still restrict quite a lot of things, plan out my food when i get the chance to and work out more than I should. I really want more freedom and I know that, just like you, I just have to DO IT. This video really hit home for me. I really have to start doing what you are doing and face my fears head on!
Good for you hun, I really do think that's the only way. We can't want or think ourselves out of these behaviors, have to just DO IT! And it's not easy at first, but the bahviours don't just stop on their own so it's kind of the only way xxx
Before you got to the point where you said that you were trying to stop rationalising your food decisions, I was already formulating this comment. Although I sometimes do say mantras to help, many of which I’ve got from you (thank you), most of the time now I block the thoughts with a simple “ F... Off thoughts, It’s just food, I need and deserve to eat”. I think it can be more helpful than letting your brain dwell on it. Anyway that seems to help me and I find it easier to eat and move on. This video was very raw and real and I appreciate your honesty. I think we all identify with how you feel and when I am in that situation where I can feel the discomfort of my bigger body, I think of the alternative of restriction and I just can’t do it anymore. There is no going back. Even if I’m not completely free, it’s so much better living this life than my old one and it can only get better. So much love to you 💖🇬🇧
You are AMAZING. Thank you for sharing your emotional journey with us, it can't have been easy. I could literally feel the anxiety through the camera! I am sorry you had to go through all of the stress re the travel - why is it all of those things happen at the same time?! I felt so relieved for you when you boarded the plane!
Great video!! Your videos are LITERALLY saving my life. I started watching while in residential treatment about 5 weeks ago. This is my first ever ED treatment ( I'm 33 and had anorexia since 12) and while I was forced to leave res early, the truth and wisdom you share has kept me going full force on the journey to recovery. I'm finally back into a treatment program and honestly find your videos more helpful. I have yet to learn professionally anything about unrestricted eating, extreme hunger, or even challenging anything except my general fear of food. I have also been able to except my new cravings for peanut butter and yogurt which are extreme fear foods for me. Now I'm challenging myself to finally admit it and enjoy it and also trying to see it as a victory in my path to lifetime RECOVERY. So sorry for the rambling but just needed to tell you how powerful your message truly is people like me ♥️
Hey Meg, I just wanted to say thank you as you really helped me yesterday when it was my bday I kept repeating your words “food is just food”. I was out with my Mum at a pub and the menus had all the calories listed. I was so tempted to choose the lowest calorie option and cheapest but I didn’t and kept thinking of you and it really helped! I felt terrible afterwards as well but I got through it and today was another day. Love your vlogs Xx
Whether you’re having a good day or a bad day I hope you know you inspire me and so many everyday with your bravery and honesty. So much love girl. X P.S those baklava nut fritters on that menu sound bomb I want to try lol
I cannot imagine how hard it must be to be so vulnerable and show your anxiety on camera but it is SO helpful to see other people experience the same feelings. Thank you so much for all of your videos, I've been watching since about April 2018 and they've all helped so much! :)
Thanks for showing the process that you go through. My heart went out to you when you opened up your takeaway to find the wrong burger. I bloody hate when that happens! You mentioned the difficulty of spending money when you could just eat something that was already in the fridge or bring your own food to the airport to save money. I was wondering whether you could talk about your attitude to money and how your eating disorder has affected that/how it has improved since you've been in recovery. I personally find it really hard to justify buying food out when I could make something at home for far less (and save calories too). Thanks again for your videos, I hang out for them each week xx
Just remember Meg, even though we are not there in person, when your hubby is there or not there, and you're eating with a camera, we are all there at the table with you!! You are such an inspiration, you remind me to keep trying on my recovery!!!🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
You are so brave Meg! I can relate it ALL your anxiety but I can't bring myself to act as You do yet. Your bravery makes me cry. You are just so so so very brave! There is no other word. A true inspiration!
Thank you so much for sharing how it is. I could really identify with the difficulty you were experiencing. Fighting the ED thoughts feels like an uphill battle but full recovery is worth it. You can do it Meg! I truly believe you can. Your courage, realism and strength are inspiring. I feel hopeful for my own recovery and those of others after watching one of your videos. Thank you. Take care and stay strong, D xx 😊💞🌷
A-freaking-mazing effort this week! And what a happy mistake - bacon, beetroot and pineapple are the staples of an Aussie burger... consider it practice for a trip Down Under!
WOW I would have absolutely LOST IT over the accidental beetroot burger too. I probably would have driven straight to the ocean and thrown it in. and then probably myself also. You are absolutely AMAZING. I can't tell you how much your inspiration and bravery has helped me want recovery. xxx
I so look forward to your videos. You are the only 'youutuber' I find genuinely helpful :) I used to be the cool girl who ordered the burger and chips or pasty without giving a funk what other people were eating but sadly its been ten years since I was that carefree! Eating disorders are evil, insidious illnesses xxx
Thank you for sharing how much you struggled with this, makes me feel less weird when I feel like I have instantly gained weight after eating something challenging. And also the mental turmoil that comes with these challenges! I feel you so much on all of this. You are doing amazing and you can be so proud of yourself 💕 also love how Brendan is always so chill and calms you down that it's normal to eat and do these things. Love your chemistry. (:
THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST AND NOT SUGAR COATING AND TRYING TO MAKE RECOVERY LOOK SMOOTH AND EASY!!!! I love you and I am cheering for you! Keep kicking ED ass!
So true that you can't wait until the scary thoughts have disappeared and to be magically not scared anymore of these kinds of foods/food rules! Action is what is needed and I am so proud of you! I recognize all the thoughts and feelings so well. It takes so much courage and effort to go against all the fears and scary thoughts! And then repeating it over and over again. We just have to keep trust and hope that eventually the fears will really go away, which is sometimes very hard because it takes a lot of time. Thank you for showing us the real deal, so helpful and motivating!
Awesome stuff Megsy,you are amazing and I take such strength and challenge myself from your content.I may not always comment but I’m always watching and love all that you do.Take care and have a great weekend 😊
This is such a raw video, thankyou for sharing it! please keep creating content because you are like a wise owl and having someone be so brave and sharing their real feelings and journey through recovery is inspirational. Well its inspirational to me anyway haha and also making my recovery that bit easier and more manageable.
You're doing SO awesome Meg! Good for you to keep challenging your fear foods, I know it's not easy...I appreciate your honesty in showing how hard it really is to eat fear foods because that is the reality of eating disorders. You're totally winning the fight with your ED and encouraging others on the way that it IS possible. Thx!
Meg, I want to thank you so much for your vlogs. I found your channel recently and have been watching your videos everyday while I eat breakfast. I'm in my first year of full recovery after a lifetime of EDs, and your videos are so helpful and provide so much inspiration. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. You inspire me so much; I think my challenge this week will be a hamburger and fries--I still haven't tackled fries or an unmodified hamburger (modified to make my ED comfortable) yet this year. I know it will be scary, but if you can do it, so can I :) Thank you for your work and sharing your journey even when things get tough.
Your airport vlog hit home for me! I still walk around and check every menu out, wishing I could just be like everyone else sitting and enjoying a burger and a pint. But I'll walk around for ever just to find the right salad .....then it tastes like sh*t and I wish I'd just had the burger. 😁. You are such an inspiration and show your true self, and it just makes me know I'm not alone or crazy.
I really appreciate your vulnerability with us all! I feel myself cheering you on which helps me show myself the same compassion. You're an inspiration and thank you so much for sharing your journey with us!
Oh my, sweet beautiful Meg!! What a freaking awesome video - as usual! You've simply got to know how inspiring and encouraging you are. I agree with another comment about your channel being so unique and special; helpful in ways others are not. Please please please do NOT stop making these videos and doing all you're doing to rewire and live a full ED-free life. You are on such an amazing journey that is going to take you the most wonderful places! And I can't tell you enough how encouraging it is to hear Bren cheer you on in his super helpful ways! You two are rockstars and I can just tell he's going to love you through all of this and wants you to flourish into the Meg you were created to be. Free from ED and free to be all the awesomeness that is uniquely YOU!!! So much love to you my friend. ❤️
OMG this is such a lovely message, thank you!!! Yeh he really is an absolute hero, he's so accepting and really sees the "me" under the ED. I'm very lucky. And so glad if I can share the support I get in any small way. Thanks again, lots of love xxx
Just watched this weeks vlog with my cat Rata looking at Stevie on my laptop. So inspiring and so grateful for showing your vulnerability when it comes to challenging your ED. I can so relate to the thoughts and feelings. So thank you 😊
Ahh, you are such an inspiration, you continue to always be so amazing and strong!! You inspire me so much to push past my fears, not do stupid little eating disorder things and just to ignore the thoughts even when I'm scared or having a bad day!
Challenging my ed right now eating by myself in a take away joint, eating meat, cheese and full sugar soft drink. Really hard so I'm watching your videos to help me. Thank you so much Meg xoxo
When you were ordering the burger via delivery, you kept looking down and I kept wondering how you did your hair like that!! It looks really pretty. Hair tutorial please! 🙏🏼😊
It's so inspirational to see you face your ED fears! Makes me want to fight harder as well! My therapist gave me as homework to write down things to say when I feel really shit and me ED is really loud, and I've gotten some great ideas from your videos, like "opposite actions", "don't give up what you want the most for what you want in the moment", "feel shit and do it anyway"...
Very proud of you and I know you probably get this a lot but I want you to know you're one of the biggest Inspirations for my recovery. Right now I am currently a tempting the Minnie Maud method, and honestly I don't think I've ever experienced such a whirlwind of emotions just a short period of 3 days. You are so strong and Brave for sharing your story with us and continuing to persevere despite what your ED may say. 💗💗
I can relate to you so much, your are such an inspiration! side note, your fashion is so pretty and you always look amazing, even in a tee and jeans :)! xxx
Your videos are perfect for someone in the late stages of recovery.❤Honestly, I can apply your techniques to many things and find it extremely helpful. For example, I realised that when I am under a lot of stress I suddenly start having some fear foods again, such as cheese. Therefore, I had cheese paints for every single lunch last week at uni and it got so much easier. Love you, keep going 🤗❤
I love the main character in Killing Eve. She is always eating and eating so freely. You don’t see that in many shows. She is also such a healthy looking woman!
I think you're amazing to put all this on youtube. I am at the same point as you in recovery & I can feel your pain, anxiety & I can hear your thoughts. Sending so much love to you, stay strong you can do this 💜💜
Traveling is always hard for me! I always end up bringing my own food or spending hours online looking at the different menus! That is not life! You have encouraged me to challenge this when we go on vacation in a few weeks!!
I’ve noticed (for me) the wider range of food I’ve allowed myself to eat consistently the need to have food be a “certain way” or “perfect” has vastly decreased. I hope the same will happen for you. Keep up the challenges!
THANKYOU Meg. Such a good video! I relate so much to some of your thoughts you shared, like the thoughts that pop up when having a fear food. So real. You are seriously smashing ED in the face, and having what you want to eat despite feeling shit about it, you're doing it anyway. I have been trying to challenge some foods, burger and chips is something I have chosen quite a few times now when I am out. Your video has motivated me to challenge it a bit more further - 'challenge, repeat'! I relate to the thought of omg 'where has the food been, I want it all the time' "mentality". It's a bit scary, and guilt comes for wanting these foods, but yeah you are right the more you have that food the more "normalized" it becomes. My Dietitian said to me today, your body may crave something a lot, but then eventually your body won't have an urgency to have it all the time, but still fine to have it (you know it's going to run away haha). That's part of intuitive eating :) True. Your' video has motivated me to seriously repeat these food challenges more. I really like how you say : "You can't wait until you don't have the shit thoughts anymore, you just got to do it!" . Much love to you.
wow i am super proud of you! and im so thankful for your honesty and showing how you really feel in the moment💕you are such an inspiration you help me so much in my daily struggle with the same thoughts you have! i just think megsy says feel shit and do it anyway! so i challenged ice creams today! me and my boyfriend had some icecream at a restaurant outside in the sun and it really was lovely! the thoughts creep back and im like i dont deserve it or you‘ll gain an extra 20 pounds now but as you say the shit feeling passes and im thankful that i didnt miss out on a little icecream date with my boyfriend😊💖you help me so much megsy i adore you so sooo much! keep fighting we all feel shit and do it anyways 👊🏻 together we can do it! lots of love!💖
Watching your videos never fails to spur me on xx The way you live your life as the person you want to be 😍 love that you share so much, such a f** you ed when you eat the burger like a boss instead of picking it apart 👏👏
major props for showing the part where you received the wrong burger and ate it anyway. that must have been really hard for you. a lot of people without eating disorders wouldn’t have eaten it.. as an aside, if that happens again, you can work through the app to get some of your money back for receiving the wrong food.
It helps me so much to see when you're uncomfortable because on friday I drank with my friends, then had a drunk meal and the party wasn't good so I spent the night so angry thinking it wasn't worthy. But I want to live a life where I can drink with friends and have spontaneous meals!
Elena Bernal keep doing it. These things are always horrific the first few times & your anxiety will be through the roof, but if you stop you’ll never be able to do it. Repeat exposure, give your brain a chance to relearn & your anxiety a chance to go down naturally. Then you’ll be able to enjoy the life you want to live (rather than forcing it which is kind of necessary at first). Promise it gets easier xxx
You're amazing, Megsy. Can I ask... When you tried recovery previously (before the most recent relapse), did you practise this kind of challenge-repeat-challenge-repeat stratergy? Or is it something you have learned from your current psychologist? It is brilliant in it's impact AND its simplicity. We are so lucky to have you on UA-cam xxxx
Love you Meg! So proud of you once again. I literally just had a dilemma over buying salmon which I really fancied, but had chicken at home. Was thinking exactly the same way about extra £ and extra calories but I did opposite actions and bought the salmon because as you say, not having what you actually want IS RESTRICTION! OK so it's not exactly a fear food, but still a dilemma! I can so relate to the feeling of weight creeping on your body straight away and feeling body parts have grown. I also feel like the grease is seeping out of my skin. You seem to have a life with as many crap calamaties and bad luck, bless you! I can almost FEEL THE ANXIETY but honestly it does pass doesn't it? , every time, the anxiety has passed! You've lived to see another day and nothing bad has happened. You are recognising the anorexia which is great and you can see you're fed up with it! As you say, it's SHIT! you don't need it in your life! None of us do! You're videos and SO helpful. It's great to see you challenge yourself and inspires me too!! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️
Can i ask how you go about the other meals during the day when you challenge yourself like this? Thats my hardest part. Sometimes i can mentally prepare myself to enjoy a personal pizza or something but the rest of my meals are the hardest part bc i want to savor calories
you are so so beautiful meg, inside and out, watching you struggle shows how powerful the ed can be. keep fight my love you can do this, try and think FUCK IT every time those thought come to mind ily
I'm originally from HK! May I ask what's Brandon's work? Perhaps he could bring back some HK snacks for you to challenge? We're got lots of delicious goodies. :) I could relate to you so much. Like even an extra bite could translate to 5 pounds up. It's ridiculous why we calculate everything to the minute details. Sometimes I need to distract myself and understand that a week from now, that extra bite is probably in the Pacific Ocean, lol. Keep up the good energy!
Totally understand the money thing. I genuinely don’t have a ton of money but I also know food is medicine. I also have trouble with fat because I have very high cholesterol even though I don’t eat an excessive amount of fat (of course my ED is shouting that I should go back to my ED diet when my cholesterol was lower). Do you have any advice about eating even when you might have bad bloodwork or something?
Even though I'm recovered (as such) as I'm overweight, but if I'm going for a meal I always see if theres a online menu so I can pre plan what I'm going to have. Its same with Costa, I order mine made with almond milk as I know it has lower cals, shut up brain!! Xx
We are having burgers tonight and I usually have no problem eating them at home but today my ED is giving me shit. I have thoughts like, dont have chips have new potatos, just skip the bread. WTF who truly wants to eat a burger like that. Such good timing to watch this video to get some perspective and just eat the bloody thing. I love burgers it is just my eating disorder that doesnt!!!
Watching a lot of your videos tonight (I'm telling myself its because I need inspiration to recover when in actual fact its probably more procrastination from studying chemistry). Do you have any advice for overcoming the need to exercise? xx Darcey, 17
Hey Meg would love if you could talk about how your eating disorder affects the money side of your life please. It sounds like something that I may do too. Thanks😊
Yes, challenging the thought of burgers is hard but possible, it's fuel, it's energy, it's health, it's recovery, your future...you'll be ok. Your EF thoughts are irrational, untrustful, deceiving, tricky. You are incredible, wonderful, courageous, strong and powerful ❣️ It's great that you are trying to shift things around now, even if your ED is telling you all these explanations. Soooo brave of you for doing the other burger anyways, hell yes. Aaawww..stevey. lol fucking more cost for a piece of lettuce around the burger. Yaaaas, challenge the behaviors...getting away with these little things like the Mayo...nice, that's being truthful to yourself. Challenge and repeat. Amazing 🖤💜🙌 it was takes time I knoe...with practice, patience and concistence.
Idk if you've thought about this before but it seems like when you talk about calories (in food or whatever) it is seemed as bad and given a negative light. Calories are just a unit of energy and that's it. Unfortunately energy is seen as "bad" and undeserving or whatever but it is purely just energy for our bodies! It may be helpful to think of as calories as an amazing thing to keep our bodies going and strong :)
Very proud of your progress, good for you! What do you think about doing a video about veganism and all the benefits it's supposed to have on the environment and the animals and stuff like that? I'm not saying everyone has to go vegan or this is the only right way, I'm just curious what your thoughts are.
It’s funny how the financial argument of anorexia only applies when it supports its rules. Like you might have paid the extra for the “low carb” option in your disorder.
Yes, challenging the thought of burgers is hard but possible, it's fuel, it's energy, it's health, it's recovery, your future...you'll be ok. Your EF thoughts are irrational, untrustful, deceiving, tricky. You are incredible, wonderful, courageous, strong and powerful ❣️ It's great that you are trying to shift things around now, even if your ED is telling you all these explanations. Soooo brave of you for doing the other burger anyways, hell yes. Aaawww..stevey. lol fucking more cost for a piece of lettuce around the burger. Yaaaas, challenge the behaviors...getting away with these little things like the Mayo...nice, that's being truthful to yourself. Challenge and repeat. Amazing 🖤💜🙌 it was takes time I knoe...with practice, patience and concistence.
Traveling is when I am always triggered. Out of routine, no control over food etc etc - seeing you push through this Megsy gives me so much hope. Thank you for being brutally honest also, it shows the real struggle of recovery xx
Whenever I'm feeling like I'm having a setback or my eating disorder has found a way to convince me to restrict or overcompensate, your videos always help me find a better headspace. Thank you so much for sharing your recovery, it's incredibly helpful.
I think it’s so amazing to watch the juxtaposition between you having an anxiety attack after eating the burger to then going and and eating at the movies with Bren. It’s literally concrete evidence of feelings don’t last forever, food is just food, and LIFE DOES GO ON!!!! 😊💕👍
Very proud of you, as usual! And, big props for showing the part where you're obviously uncomfortable (03:00 and onwards). I think a lot of people need to see that it isn't easy. You rock!
I literally found myself cheering for you throughout the entire video. If only you knew how happy my heart was when you ate that fallen piece of bacon. You are such a huge aid to my own recovery. Your own healing has helped so many other people, and it's almost like we're all healing together. Love you, Meg
Blown away by your courage. You are beYond amazing. Thank you for sharing this beautiful and inspiring vlog
Just 4 minutes into this video and I am already so inspired! I’m in a point in my recovery where I am at a healthy weight and eating properly, but still restrict quite a lot of things, plan out my food when i get the chance to and work out more than I should. I really want more freedom and I know that, just like you, I just have to DO IT. This video really hit home for me. I really have to start doing what you are doing and face my fears head on!
Good for you hun, I really do think that's the only way. We can't want or think ourselves out of these behaviors, have to just DO IT! And it's not easy at first, but the bahviours don't just stop on their own so it's kind of the only way xxx
Before you got to the point where you said that you were trying to stop rationalising your food decisions, I was already formulating this comment. Although I sometimes do say mantras to help, many of which I’ve got from you (thank you), most of the time now I block the thoughts with a simple “ F... Off thoughts, It’s just food, I need and deserve to eat”. I think it can be more helpful than letting your brain dwell on it. Anyway that seems to help me and I find it easier to eat and move on. This video was very raw and real and I appreciate your honesty. I think we all identify with how you feel and when I am in that situation where I can feel the discomfort of my bigger body, I think of the alternative of restriction and I just can’t do it anymore. There is no going back. Even if I’m not completely free, it’s so much better living this life than my old one and it can only get better. So much love to you 💖🇬🇧
You are AMAZING. Thank you for sharing your emotional journey with us, it can't have been easy. I could literally feel the anxiety through the camera! I am sorry you had to go through all of the stress re the travel - why is it all of those things happen at the same time?! I felt so relieved for you when you boarded the plane!
P.S. if you can, watch the TEDx talk on Happy Brain: How to Overcome Our Neural Predispositions to Suffering
Great video!! Your videos are LITERALLY saving my life. I started watching while in residential treatment about 5 weeks ago. This is my first ever ED treatment ( I'm 33 and had anorexia since 12) and while I was forced to leave res early, the truth and wisdom you share has kept me going full force on the journey to recovery. I'm finally back into a treatment program and honestly find your videos more helpful. I have yet to learn professionally anything about unrestricted eating, extreme hunger, or even challenging anything except my general fear of food. I have also been able to except my new cravings for peanut butter and yogurt which are extreme fear foods for me. Now I'm challenging myself to finally admit it and enjoy it and also trying to see it as a victory in my path to lifetime RECOVERY. So sorry for the rambling but just needed to tell you how powerful your message truly is people like me ♥️
Hey Meg,
I just wanted to say thank you as you really helped me yesterday when it was my bday I kept repeating your words “food is just food”.
I was out with my Mum at a pub and the menus had all the calories listed. I was so tempted to choose the lowest calorie option and cheapest but I didn’t and kept thinking of you and it really helped! I felt terrible afterwards as well but I got through it and today was another day. Love your vlogs Xx
Whether you’re having a good day or a bad day I hope you know you inspire me and so many everyday with your bravery and honesty. So much love girl. X
P.S those baklava nut fritters on that menu sound bomb I want to try lol
I cannot imagine how hard it must be to be so vulnerable and show your anxiety on camera but it is SO helpful to see other people experience the same feelings. Thank you so much for all of your videos, I've been watching since about April 2018 and they've all helped so much! :)
Thanks for showing the process that you go through. My heart went out to you when you opened up your takeaway to find the wrong burger. I bloody hate when that happens!
You mentioned the difficulty of spending money when you could just eat something that was already in the fridge or bring your own food to the airport to save money. I was wondering whether you could talk about your attitude to money and how your eating disorder has affected that/how it has improved since you've been in recovery. I personally find it really hard to justify buying food out when I could make something at home for far less (and save calories too).
Thanks again for your videos, I hang out for them each week xx
You can't believe how motivational this video is!! (Actually I know you do believe it!)
Thank you so much Meg.
Xx
Just remember Meg, even though we are not there in person, when your hubby is there or not there, and you're eating with a camera, we are all there at the table with you!! You are such an inspiration, you remind me to keep trying on my recovery!!!🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
You are so brave Meg! I can relate it ALL your anxiety but I can't bring myself to act as You do yet.
Your bravery makes me cry.
You are just so so so very brave!
There is no other word.
A true inspiration!
Thank you so much for sharing how it is. I could really identify with the difficulty you were experiencing. Fighting the ED thoughts feels like an uphill battle but full recovery is worth it. You can do it Meg! I truly believe you can. Your courage, realism and strength are inspiring. I feel hopeful for my own recovery and those of others after watching one of your videos. Thank you.
Take care and stay strong,
D xx 😊💞🌷
A-freaking-mazing effort this week! And what a happy mistake - bacon, beetroot and pineapple are the staples of an Aussie burger... consider it practice for a trip Down Under!
yes as soon as I heard the pineapple and beetroot I knew it was an Aussie burger!
@@issymather8116 Me too!
WOW I would have absolutely LOST IT over the accidental beetroot burger too. I probably would have driven straight to the ocean and thrown it in. and then probably myself also. You are absolutely AMAZING. I can't tell you how much your inspiration and bravery has helped me want recovery. xxx
I so look forward to your videos. You are the only 'youutuber' I find genuinely helpful :) I used to be the cool girl who ordered the burger and chips or pasty without giving a funk what other people were eating but sadly its been ten years since I was that carefree! Eating disorders are evil, insidious illnesses xxx
I just love Brendan 😂 and you odvs 💁🏼♀️
Me too haha xxx
Thank you for sharing how much you struggled with this, makes me feel less weird when I feel like I have instantly gained weight after eating something challenging. And also the mental turmoil that comes with these challenges! I feel you so much on all of this. You are doing amazing and you can be so proud of yourself 💕 also love how Brendan is always so chill and calms you down that it's normal to eat and do these things. Love your chemistry. (:
THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST AND NOT SUGAR COATING AND TRYING TO MAKE RECOVERY LOOK SMOOTH AND EASY!!!! I love you and I am cheering for you! Keep kicking ED ass!
So true that you can't wait until the scary thoughts have disappeared and to be magically not scared anymore of these kinds of foods/food rules! Action is what is needed and I am so proud of you! I recognize all the thoughts and feelings so well. It takes so much courage and effort to go against all the fears and scary thoughts! And then repeating it over and over again. We just have to keep trust and hope that eventually the fears will really go away, which is sometimes very hard because it takes a lot of time. Thank you for showing us the real deal, so helpful and motivating!
Awesome stuff Megsy,you are amazing and I take such strength and challenge myself from your content.I may not always comment but I’m always watching and love all that you do.Take care and have a great weekend 😊
This is such a raw video, thankyou for sharing it! please keep creating content because you are like a wise owl and having someone be so brave and sharing their real feelings and journey through recovery is inspirational. Well its inspirational to me anyway haha and also making my recovery that bit easier and more manageable.
You're doing SO awesome Meg! Good for you to keep challenging your fear foods, I know it's not easy...I appreciate your honesty in showing how hard it really is to eat fear foods because that is the reality of eating disorders. You're totally winning the fight with your ED and encouraging others on the way that it IS possible. Thx!
Meg, I want to thank you so much for your vlogs. I found your channel recently and have been watching your videos everyday while I eat breakfast. I'm in my first year of full recovery after a lifetime of EDs, and your videos are so helpful and provide so much inspiration. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. You inspire me so much; I think my challenge this week will be a hamburger and fries--I still haven't tackled fries or an unmodified hamburger (modified to make my ED comfortable) yet this year. I know it will be scary, but if you can do it, so can I :) Thank you for your work and sharing your journey even when things get tough.
You’re doing amazing and should be so proud!! This is such a helpful and inspiring video, thank you so much!!☺️
Your airport vlog hit home for me! I still walk around and check every menu out, wishing I could just be like everyone else sitting and enjoying a burger and a pint. But I'll walk around for ever just to find the right salad .....then it tastes like sh*t and I wish I'd just had the burger. 😁. You are such an inspiration and show your true self, and it just makes me know I'm not alone or crazy.
I really appreciate your vulnerability with us all! I feel myself cheering you on which helps me show myself the same compassion. You're an inspiration and thank you so much for sharing your journey with us!
Oh my, sweet beautiful Meg!! What a freaking awesome video - as usual! You've simply got to know how inspiring and encouraging you are. I agree with another comment about your channel being so unique and special; helpful in ways others are not. Please please please do NOT stop making these videos and doing all you're doing to rewire and live a full ED-free life. You are on such an amazing journey that is going to take you the most wonderful places! And I can't tell you enough how encouraging it is to hear Bren cheer you on in his super helpful ways! You two are rockstars and I can just tell he's going to love you through all of this and wants you to flourish into the Meg you were created to be. Free from ED and free to be all the awesomeness that is uniquely YOU!!! So much love to you my friend. ❤️
OMG this is such a lovely message, thank you!!! Yeh he really is an absolute hero, he's so accepting and really sees the "me" under the ED. I'm very lucky. And so glad if I can share the support I get in any small way. Thanks again, lots of love xxx
wow, good for You Megsy! 💪😄
Just watched this weeks vlog with my cat Rata looking at Stevie on my laptop. So inspiring and so grateful for showing your vulnerability when it comes to challenging your ED. I can so relate to the thoughts and feelings. So thank you 😊
Ahh, you are such an inspiration, you continue to always be so amazing and strong!! You inspire me so much to push past my fears, not do stupid little eating disorder things and just to ignore the thoughts even when I'm scared or having a bad day!
Challenging my ed right now eating by myself in a take away joint, eating meat, cheese and full sugar soft drink. Really hard so I'm watching your videos to help me. Thank you so much Meg xoxo
When you were ordering the burger via delivery, you kept looking down and I kept wondering how you did your hair like that!! It looks really pretty. Hair tutorial please! 🙏🏼😊
"Oh well, I'm going on a flight, not a catwalk." God I love you!!
It's so inspirational to see you face your ED fears! Makes me want to fight harder as well! My therapist gave me as homework to write down things to say when I feel really shit and me ED is really loud, and I've gotten some great ideas from your videos, like "opposite actions", "don't give up what you want the most for what you want in the moment", "feel shit and do it anyway"...
u r doing a great job！！！（i have the same feeling after i challenge myself… but we still have to eat it anyway.
Very proud of you and I know you probably get this a lot but I want you to know you're one of the biggest Inspirations for my recovery. Right now I am currently a tempting the Minnie Maud method, and honestly I don't think I've ever experienced such a whirlwind of emotions just a short period of 3 days. You are so strong and Brave for sharing your story with us and continuing to persevere despite what your ED may say. 💗💗
I can relate to you so much, your are such an inspiration! side note, your fashion is so pretty and you always look amazing, even in a tee and jeans :)! xxx
You are coping so well. You are really focusing on recovery & I am so very impressed. Your videos have helped me tremendously. Alison xx
This is so me!! Very hard with anxiety around food !!
Your videos are perfect for someone in the late stages of recovery.❤Honestly, I can apply your techniques to many things and find it extremely helpful. For example, I realised that when I am under a lot of stress I suddenly start having some fear foods again, such as cheese. Therefore, I had cheese paints for every single lunch last week at uni and it got so much easier. Love you, keep going 🤗❤
What is a cheese paint? 😅
@@jennifert-lewis9426 oops, this was my autocorrection xx I meant panini:)
@@johannagetbackyourlife9 haha aw that makes sense, I probably should have figured!!
@@jennifert-lewis9426 Haha, no how should you;) Thank you for telling me!:)
Thanks for keeping it real. This is so relatable - recovery is not all fun & games. You did great - you're doing great
I love the main character in Killing Eve. She is always eating and eating so freely. You don’t see that in many shows. She is also such a healthy looking woman!
Jilian Stogniew that’s exactly what I thought when I watched it!!
I think you're amazing to put all this on youtube. I am at the same point as you in recovery & I can feel your pain, anxiety & I can hear your thoughts. Sending so much love to you, stay strong you can do this 💜💜
Traveling is always hard for me! I always end up bringing my own food or spending hours online looking at the different menus! That is not life! You have encouraged me to challenge this when we go on vacation in a few weeks!!
So unbelievably proud of you 🥰
You are so brave!. An inspiration to me x
😔 Sending Love, Strength your way 💕 We adore you Meg! For all that you are!
I’ve noticed (for me) the wider range of food I’ve allowed myself to eat consistently the need to have food be a “certain way” or “perfect” has vastly decreased. I hope the same will happen for you. Keep up the challenges!
THANKYOU Meg. Such a good video! I relate so much to some of your thoughts you shared, like the thoughts that pop up when having a fear food. So real. You are seriously smashing ED in the face, and having what you want to eat despite feeling shit about it, you're doing it anyway. I have been trying to challenge some foods, burger and chips is something I have chosen quite a few times now when I am out. Your video has motivated me to challenge it a bit more further - 'challenge, repeat'! I relate to the thought of omg 'where has the food been, I want it all the time' "mentality". It's a bit scary, and guilt comes for wanting these foods, but yeah you are right the more you have that food the more "normalized" it becomes. My Dietitian said to me today, your body may crave something a lot, but then eventually your body won't have an urgency to have it all the time, but still fine to have it (you know it's going to run away haha). That's part of intuitive eating :) True. Your' video has motivated me to seriously repeat these food challenges more. I really like how you say : "You can't wait until you don't have the shit thoughts anymore, you just got to do it!" . Much love to you.
You are amazing and your openness with struggling and thoughts in this video was so helpful. Thankyou xxx
wow i am super proud of you! and im so thankful for your honesty and showing how you really feel in the moment💕you are such an inspiration you help me so much in my daily struggle with the same thoughts you have! i just think megsy says feel shit and do it anyway! so i challenged ice creams today! me and my boyfriend had some icecream at a restaurant outside in the sun and it really was lovely! the thoughts creep back and im like i dont deserve it or you‘ll gain an extra 20 pounds now but as you say the shit feeling passes and im thankful that i didnt miss out on a little icecream date with my boyfriend😊💖you help me so much megsy i adore you so sooo much! keep fighting we all feel shit and do it anyways 👊🏻 together we can do it! lots of love!💖
You are amazing!..and so inspiring. Thank you for your videos and your honesty 💜 x
You are amazing and I totally I get how you feel. Thank you for sharing
Yes yes yes. I can totally relate. This is the most honest video I’ve seen that correlated with me. Thank you so so much. You’re amazing💗
I had my first burger in ages today - you were such an inspiration to me! Thanks so much!!!
Watching your videos never fails to spur me on xx The way you live your life as the person you want to be 😍 love that you share so much, such a f** you ed when you eat the burger like a boss instead of picking it apart 👏👏
major props for showing the part where you received the wrong burger and ate it anyway. that must have been really hard for you. a lot of people without eating disorders wouldn’t have eaten it..
as an aside, if that happens again, you can work through the app to get some of your money back for receiving the wrong food.
It helps me so much to see when you're uncomfortable because on friday I drank with my friends, then had a drunk meal and the party wasn't good so I spent the night so angry thinking it wasn't worthy. But I want to live a life where I can drink with friends and have spontaneous meals!
Elena Bernal keep doing it. These things are always horrific the first few times & your anxiety will be through the roof, but if you stop you’ll never be able to do it. Repeat exposure, give your brain a chance to relearn & your anxiety a chance to go down naturally. Then you’ll be able to enjoy the life you want to live (rather than forcing it which is kind of necessary at first). Promise it gets easier xxx
You've been doing great! I can totally understand these struggles. Stay strong!❤️
Alexa !! 😂🙈 If only we had robot brains but we wouldn't have these stupid thoughts!!
You're amazing, Megsy. Can I ask... When you tried recovery previously (before the most recent relapse), did you practise this kind of challenge-repeat-challenge-repeat stratergy? Or is it something you have learned from your current psychologist? It is brilliant in it's impact AND its simplicity. We are so lucky to have you on UA-cam xxxx
Love you Meg! So proud of you once again. I literally just had a dilemma over buying salmon which I really fancied, but had chicken at home. Was thinking exactly the same way about extra £ and extra calories but I did opposite actions and bought the salmon because as you say, not having what you actually want IS RESTRICTION! OK so it's not exactly a fear food, but still a dilemma!
I can so relate to the feeling of weight creeping on your body straight away and feeling body parts have grown. I also feel like the grease is seeping out of my skin.
You seem to have a life with as many crap calamaties and bad luck, bless you!
I can almost FEEL THE ANXIETY but honestly it does pass doesn't it? , every time, the anxiety has passed! You've lived to see another day and nothing bad has happened. You are recognising the anorexia which is great and you can see you're fed up with it! As you say, it's SHIT! you don't need it in your life! None of us do! You're videos and SO helpful. It's great to see you challenge yourself and inspires me too!! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️
Would love a video on what you guys think of Dubai and how it is to live there :) Pros and cons etc :)
Such an honest video. Thank you for sharing. How are you doing with your cheese toastie challenges? All the best x
Wow wow wow you are amazing!!! Loving these challenges videos, they are helping me so much💗
You are so brave💪🏻
Can i ask how you go about the other meals during the day when you challenge yourself like this? Thats my hardest part. Sometimes i can mentally prepare myself to enjoy a personal pizza or something but the rest of my meals are the hardest part bc i want to savor calories
I don't know if this is your case but for me, living with people who are totally fine with food I used to just look at their meals to have a reference
you are so so beautiful meg, inside and out, watching you struggle shows how powerful the ed can be. keep fight my love you can do this, try and think FUCK IT every time those thought come to mind ily
I feel you !! Love your Videos!!! Go Megan!!
Thank you for being such an inspiration!!!
You are doing great, Meg!!! ❤️💛💚💙💜
It's one F'ing ring! 😂❤️ Love Brendan!
Do you hate your laugh? You always fast forward it!
I'm originally from HK! May I ask what's Brandon's work? Perhaps he could bring back some HK snacks for you to challenge? We're got lots of delicious goodies. :) I could relate to you so much. Like even an extra bite could translate to 5 pounds up. It's ridiculous why we calculate everything to the minute details. Sometimes I need to distract myself and understand that a week from now, that extra bite is probably in the Pacific Ocean, lol. Keep up the good energy!
Totally understand the money thing. I genuinely don’t have a ton of money but I also know food is medicine. I also have trouble with fat because I have very high cholesterol even though I don’t eat an excessive amount of fat (of course my ED is shouting that I should go back to my ED diet when my cholesterol was lower). Do you have any advice about eating even when you might have bad bloodwork or something?
Even though I'm recovered (as such) as I'm overweight, but if I'm going for a meal I always see if theres a online menu so I can pre plan what I'm going to have. Its same with Costa, I order mine made with almond milk as I know it has lower cals, shut up brain!! Xx
We are having burgers tonight and I usually have no problem eating them at home but today my ED is giving me shit. I have thoughts like, dont have chips have new potatos, just skip the bread. WTF who truly wants to eat a burger like that. Such good timing to watch this video to get some perspective and just eat the bloody thing. I love burgers it is just my eating disorder that doesnt!!!
Also I'm from America and the knickerbocker glory always makes me so happy because it reminds me of Harry Potter haha
The beginning with Alexa 😂😂😂
You are awesome !! You touched on money what is that about ? Is it part of your ED
Try just half a burger and go slow.I understand your anxiety!When I challenge something I really start almost feel like I am sweating.
After binge-watching your videoes I finally wan`t to recover after 25 years.......
Watching a lot of your videos tonight (I'm telling myself its because I need inspiration to recover when in actual fact its probably more procrastination from studying chemistry). Do you have any advice for overcoming the need to exercise? xx Darcey, 17
Omg you are so BEAUTIFUL
Hey Meg would love if you could talk about how your eating disorder affects the money side of your life please. It sounds like something that I may do too. Thanks😊
Yes, challenging the thought of burgers is hard but possible, it's fuel, it's energy, it's health, it's recovery, your future...you'll be ok.
Your EF thoughts are irrational, untrustful, deceiving, tricky.
You are incredible, wonderful, courageous, strong and powerful ❣️
It's great that you are trying to shift things around now, even if your ED is telling you all these explanations.
Soooo brave of you for doing the other burger anyways, hell yes.
Aaawww..stevey. lol fucking more cost for a piece of lettuce around the burger.
Yaaaas, challenge the behaviors...getting away with these little things like the Mayo...nice, that's being truthful to yourself. Challenge and repeat. Amazing 🖤💜🙌 it was takes time I knoe...with practice, patience and concistence.
Idk if you've thought about this before but it seems like when you talk about calories (in food or whatever) it is seemed as bad and given a negative light. Calories are just a unit of energy and that's it. Unfortunately energy is seen as "bad" and undeserving or whatever but it is purely just energy for our bodies! It may be helpful to think of as calories as an amazing thing to keep our bodies going and strong :)
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My sister has a cat who always looks grumpy too, lol
Yep I feel like a whale but I love it 👍
Very proud of your progress, good for you! What do you think about doing a video about veganism and all the benefits it's supposed to have on the environment and the animals and stuff like that? I'm not saying everyone has to go vegan or this is the only right way, I'm just curious what your thoughts are.
It’s funny how the financial argument of anorexia only applies when it supports its rules. Like you might have paid the extra for the “low carb” option in your disorder.
Yes, challenging the thought of burgers is hard but possible, it's fuel, it's energy, it's health, it's recovery, your future...you'll be ok.
Your EF thoughts are irrational, untrustful, deceiving, tricky.
You are incredible, wonderful, courageous, strong and powerful ❣️
It's great that you are trying to shift things around now, even if your ED is telling you all these explanations.
Soooo brave of you for doing the other burger anyways, hell yes.
Aaawww..stevey. lol fucking more cost for a piece of lettuce around the burger.
Yaaaas, challenge the behaviors...getting away with these little things like the Mayo...nice, that's being truthful to yourself. Challenge and repeat. Amazing 🖤💜🙌 it was takes time I knoe...with practice, patience and concistence.