MY DETRANSITION IS OVER
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- Опубліковано 21 сер 2020
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Hello! I'm Elle. I'm a 20 year old woman who thought I was a man for 5 years. FtMtF detransitioner. I like to talk about the mistakes I've made, and how things will get better.
This might sound patronizing but I mean it to be encouraging: the whole “I need to figure things out RIGHT NOW” is a very late-teens/early twenties mindset thing, the reality is that it takes a lifetime
Thank you, I really needed to hear this.
Leila Sommer you’re welcome :)
Emily So true. I remember philosophically analyzing everything. I had to know if I believed in God, if I believed in the death penalty, if morales can be culture dependent, what percentage of me was gay or straight. Now, I’ve accepted there isn’t really a clear answer for any of those things. Sigh.
I subbed bc you’ve been here for 10 years!
I thought I was trans from the ages 14-18. I lived as a boy in high school. Due to family issues, I had to move in with my Dad and finish out my senior year in a new school. I had the choice to live as a girl or as a guy, I still questioned myself even after thinking I felt 100% trans. I chose to live as a guy and it didn't stick well with others. People were nice about it, except a few kids here or there (that's always expected), and I was welcomed by my friends when I came out to them.
I went to therapy because of what happened when I lived with my Mom (it's nothing too bad but it effected me a lot). My therapist was a very open person and had worked with trans people before, most of them actually transitioning with her help and some choosing not to.
I went for a year, learned to fully accept myself and how I was born, and deeply considering my life as either a boy or a girl. I was accepted as both and this troubled me a lot because I then questioned why I expect to be treated differently as one or another.
I thought being a woman was worse than being a man, so I wanted to be a man to be treated with respect. I was wrong to think this and the realization hit me really hard. I'm 21 now, I identify as Agender, and I'm completely comfortable with myself.
I had a huge identity crisis, and I think I've always questioned who I was and what role I play in other peoples lives. I also saw that my ways of thinking aren't perfect and I have a lot to work on internally.
I'm very thankful I never went too far into transitioning. And I'm sorry this is long, it feels good to rant.
I think I speak for most of us viewers when I say: _We came for the detransition; we stayed for Elle._ We would _love_ to hear about other stuff in your life and see you happy and growing.
Very well said. She's so articulate and intelligent I simply enjoy listening to her thinking out loud as 'the camera rolls'.
I agree, she's a lot more than 'the girl who detransitioned'
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UA-cam doesn't care what you make a video about, as long as it gets people to watch it. So you might as well make videos about what you feel like talking about. For example, what sort of courses are you taking? What major are you thinking of going for? Other career goals? Good luck and be happy.
Absolutely we want to hear your life. Not just your transition! You are a role model for so many! Your mind is beautiful
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Modern Day Elle:
"My detransition is over."
The Ghost of Male Elle:
"I'll see myself out."
It closed just as she was saying passing as a man didn't make her happy lol
Perfect !
Perfect about the door and the ghost of luke i mean
Bro for real tho wtf is up with that door
@@violin15895 right i replayed it a few times... keeping Elle in my prayers 🙏 she is such a beautiful and brave soul. May she be fully healed in every possible way that she needs.
The freakiness of that door shutting is unreal
It seemed like it stopped midway and then slammed shut with more power? Wtf
Elle WTF was that ? 😂 We just gonna pretend that never happened?
Ikr, I had to rewind it to see what happened - crazy college town 👻
The air conditioner intake is in the main room and the vents are in Elle's room. It creates a pressure difference and shuts the door.
@@Silky777 That would make sense. I first wondered if she had a front door open or something.
The door closed, the chapter closed, it's a sign, you're doing great girl ;)
I love this analogy
It would be nice to see you discover new vistas, maybe explore the thought processes of why people are drawn to the Christian faith, listening to both sides of the aisle! May u find inner peace in the process!
Elle: “My transition is over”
Everyone: “The door! Ghost!”
😂😂😂😂👻👻👻👻👻
Lol literally! Time for my apartment is haunted vlogs!!!
I said ghost when door slowly started to shut.. creeped me out lol x
Luke just left the room.😜
There is no way that doo could close that slowly, stop moving and then slam. 😂I’m sorry but..😂
@@gamingpeople1009 EXACTLY!
That SMILE is back,, School, Guitar, Boyfriend, Keep your priorities in order and you will accell, Thank you Miss Palmer
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i wonder how she can afford to rent a place without a job though
Jimmy probably student loans?
Excel
Once I had began to pass very easily as my birth sex (female), that's when I knew my detransition was over. I had trained my voice to be more feminine (androgynous), my hair is in a nice style, the way I dress is feminine (I used to wear more GNC clothing while freshly detransitioned), my makeup routine is stable... Overall just accepting femininity has been a blessing.
I'm happy for you. You are achieving great things. :)
Oh it's you! I recently subscribed to you
Allow me to tell you that you are very beautiful and it's interesting listening to you talking :)
@@namikotv8562 Aw shucks! Thanks! I appreciate that 🤗❤️
This is a dumb question, but wouldn’t your voice go back to being feminine on hrt?
@@mootpoint36 Not a dumb question at all, if you mean going off of testosterone. According to some other FtM detransitioners, estrogen, over time, tightens their vocal folds similar to how they were before the effects of T. Perhaps I was impatient to be registered as female so I voice trained a bit to a more feminine range. Estrogen has helped smooth it out a bit. We'll need more cases to determine if estrogen really heightens the vocal folds over time, because right now, I'm not entirely convinced it does anything substantial.
I'm glad you fell back in love with your true self ❤
"A year ago I had a full beard. I was going by the name Luke." sounds like a fantastic story opening
I started watching because I was interested in what you had to say about detransitioning, I stayed because I'm interested in what you have to say in general. You have a great energy about you and I'm sure whatever you do next, you'll ace it!💙
We will definitely be needing some, "my apartment is haunted" videos in the near future.
Proud of you, keep optimistic, you are doing great!
"I might as well just live, keep living, and stop rumenating on all this shit that doesn't matter. It'll be good. Things are good." Life rules according to Elle. Perfection. Congrats, I'm so happy for you. :)
It is just me or her voice is getting softer? That makes me very happy for her🙂👏🏻👏🏻
The softness is definitely coming through. I'm so happy for her
cathiecake86 to me her voice is the one of a man unfortunately got her , it’s really sad that this thing is irreversible ...
@@salvolondon it was worse though. It's gotten a little better.
@@salvolondon She took testosterone , can't estrogen reverse it ???
@@GMANKOOL23 then no trans women would need voice training or surgery. Estrogen dosen't change your voice. Testo blockers neither.
Definitely time to start making “my apartment is haunted” vids! Lol..that door slam was frightening! I am so proud of you and I think what you are doing for yourself..your life and mental health..it’s absolutely the right decision! And I look forward to your podcast! I’m happy you are happy! 💓💓💓 btw, I just love hearing you talk, so I will listen to literally anything you want to talk about!
“The way I look is not gonna affect the quality of my life”.
Honestly I think more ppl need to hear that in general. I know I did ❤️ thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Autumn Gard you are so right I believe we need to learn from all the people that have to help others
A lot of UA-camrs say they love what they do because they do what they love. So that's what your channel should be about. What you love. It ain't always about us. All people love passion, it makes us happy ;D
How did you not get freaked out with that door slamming on its own??!! 😳😳😳👻
Draft. Or Ghosts. Or Draft Ghosts.
@CerberV Or Ghost Drafts. 😉
@@nodancingpalmtrees7931 Damn, outsmarted by not trees.
Your doors never close on their own when your windows are open???
ChocoBabiChan Never
You’re only 20?! You are awesome!🥰 I’m 57 and I’m still trying to sort myself out !
Hell, I think we all are to some degree. Think my 70 year old dad still is, we all are
I'm in my early 30s and not really sure what I'm doing. I actually feel less sure now than I did 5 years ago. It's all good though.
Wren Poldark I think the “trick” is to not stop trying 💖
We never have it all sorted out. We’re always learning.
I feel better about being 27 and in a homeless shelter
I identified as "not a girl" since I was 12, before I even knew what trans was, and I was out publicly and passing for about two years before I formally decided to "detransition", I feel kind of weird about using that word because I never underwent medical transition but the process of just stopping seeing myself the way I had been for years was intense and I'm only now 3 years later finishing it, I'm 21 in about two months and I feel like I'm just starting the whole teenage finding your identity thing. I can be actually confident as a woman now and explore femininity in a way that used to just make me hate myself and it's so unbelievably healing and freeing to be able to go out in a dress or a crop top and feel comfortable, and I'm really grateful to you and the other UA-camrs who talk about their experiences with detransition for helping me get there. Seeing how much things are improving for you and how much happier and more hopeful you are makes me really really happy, it's really hard to realise all these things about handling mental health and make those decisions about what to do about it and I'm really proud of you, I'm excited to see whatever content you put out next 💕
Therapy is so important. So many people refuse it but it's such a great way to work out what's in your head. Good luck in the future.
WHAT DO WE WANT TO WATCH: As a long-time UA-cam myself, the audience comes for the channel host. You should make WHATEVER kind of vids you want to make. Some people might go away, but that's ok. You can only make things you're excited about making or the channel won't survive. People will come, go and stay for content you like, and as time goes on, your core audience will strengthen.
Regarding looking in mirror shock, adjustment, same for aging. More than 3x your age, yet I still expect to see young person in mirror. Not the same, I know, but I can relate. As for rest, good decision and ...
Me too, at 60 (regular female here). I still have an unusually young voice, which causes a disparity. Thankfully, I'm not horribly wrinkled yet but it's coming. The under the chin thing is the worst shock, though.
I can’t even deal with being in my 30s...
maria shabalina: it gets easier, promise! :)
sugaree71 thanks for the words of encouragement 😊
The aging thing is crazy. I just find it sooooo weird to know I’m almost 40 where exactly did that time go? It’s almost shocking to me. Nothing wrong with aging but it doesn’t feel real when I still feel so young. My parents warned me this is how is was for them but experiencing it is something else.
ARE WE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT YOUR DOOR CLOSING, DECIDING MAYBE IM NOT GOING TO CLOSE, THEN COMPLETELY CLOSE?
Was probably a draft.
Haunted..
It was just a ghost.
It stopped for a moment, then slammed 😱
I respect this (and you!) sooo much ❤ it isn't something you need to dwell on, but I am glad to have heard your journey. You've helped so many people, including me. Congrats on the apartment and bf! You deserve the best in life 😊
hi, im an androgynous/masculine woman who thought i was trans for a little bit. your videos were good for me.
the past couple of years ive learned to love my masculinity and appreciate how wonderful masculine women are. i hope you feel the same.
thank you for everything.
Elle, it has truly been an honour to have listened to your story and follow this part of your journey with you. You are a wise, intelligent, kind-hearted, well-humoured and beautiful young lady. Your videos on the subject of transition have broadened the understanding of many a viewer, and I have no doubt that they have also been of great comfort and support to people whose journeys might be similar to your own. I think I speak for the vast majority of your viewers when I say that we wish you all the best in life, and if that means you decide to step away from UA-cam or to change the direction your channel is heading, then we support you 100%. We look forward to hearing your thoughts on all kinds of subjects, and to grow as fellow humans alongside you. Congratulations to you and your boyfriend for having found one another, always a blissful and exciting time. Wishing you both the utmost of happiness together. Take care of yourselves, and forge your own path in life.
It is a good sign of mental health that you don't want to rehash personal struggles, but what you done so far will help others so much, that is a big win! Thank you!
Changing direction is a great step and good luck with your new podcast and I'll check it out.
I’m happy you are feeling good about yourself and your life as you keep moving forward.
A note on living at home and being uncomfortable. I’m 57 and my parents are 80 and somehow they STILL make feel like I’m 9 years old when I visit for very long. A week goes well, 10 days is my limit.
Congratulations on your new apartment and getting into school again and best wishes going forward 😊
As much as I’ve enjoyed being in this journey with you and learning so much from your experience, I think this is an extremely healthy decision for you...and that makes my heart happy. ❤️
im so happy for u!! i still wanna be hearing from you. im so exited for the upcoming podcast. grettings🥺
can we all just take a moment at talk about the door closing slowly then slamming shut and also how weird the timing was when it happened????????????
I think that's what everyone is talking about
One of the things that concerned me about quarantine was the number of college students having to go back to live at home after having begun establishing themselves and their independence (having the freedom to establish their identities) at college. Some of them don't have "affirming" or supportive environments for them and I prayed for them that they would get through it.
Adieu, my friend! You are a remarkable young woman, and I hope you find all that you want in life. Love, luck, and light to you!!❤️
THAT DOOR SHUTTING WAS UNREAL OH MY GOSH
I wonder if she had a front door open or something? Sometimes the draft can shut doors pretty forcefully. If not, that's odd
I'm glad you're moving forward, I mean you seem happy. It was a process for you and it was perfect. I'm also glad that you will continue to upload to the best of your ability (that's completely understandable) because I enjoy listening/watching you. I've followed part of your journey and I'd like to continue doing so! You go girl!
It's so wonderful seeing you so happy :) it's adorable! I hope everything keeps getting better.
I love watching your videos. I’m a 34 year old mom of two toddlers and have never even known a trans person that I know of. I watch because you’re interesting and enjoyable to listen to. Even if you never spoke about detransitioning again I would still watch. 💜
First off I love you!! You’re a beautiful soul and your smile is so radiant! I’d love to see Just vlogs or weekly life updates about school and ‘normal’ stuff like things you’ve brought that are cool or days out, foods you may have tried and maybe ‘youtube trends’ e.g how well you and your best friend know each other? I don’t no just chilled laid back light entertainment take it at YOUR pace Elle and not the internets 🙌🏼😘❤️🙏🏼
Elle, it has been so wonderful watching your confidence and happiness grow through your videos this year! You are a wonderful soul and WOMAN! Your humour and eloquent way of speaking has kept me watching and whatever content you create in the future, I'll be looking forward to it! In the mean time take care and have a fab time back at uni!
Maybe the door slamming is a sign to trust yourself and that you're making the right decisions for you. Even if you're not feeling pride, I hope you're not feeling shame. ♡♡ Best wishes to you on your journey! You deserve to be happy in the skin your most comfortable in! ♡
human pattern seeking behaviour .
Seeing messages where there are none.
Nice message tho
Probably just some wind
I realize wind shuts doors because thats what wind does. We choose to look at things differently, so we'll see things differently and that's A-okay. ✌
Congratulations! You're life has changed so much, and it's great to see you happy. You're a wonderful, bright young woman with so much to offer. Make this time about you, how you're going to organise your busy life. It's exciting. Thank you for your candour and sharing your detransition, it was a brave thing to do. Go and live your life and enjoy it! Love and best wishes from across the water xxx
Good for you for moving on. Gotta let go of those labels and just be you!
I love how you're allowing yourself to let go, be free from the past, have a new start, and work on self improvements! I'm of the opinion that all people need to be forward thinking and continuously and actively be self improving. You're doing that and it's commendable. Love from Michigan.
I like the way you share your story, explaining your feelings in complete detail, and being honest with yourself and other people. I think you're a very smart in some of those areas. Being as young as you are you will have a great future. Keep up the great work and continue being helpful to others by being passionate and honest.
Good for you, you are not defined by your gender, your transition or de transition. There is so much more to you for us to see and appreciate, and so much more for you to give.
Congrats on the move and new equipment and GUITARRRR YESSSS! I fully support this 😆
Yessss keep making videos Elle we came for your story but stayed for you!
I think ya totally hit the nail on the head when you said that you don’t want to talk about it anymore because you don’t NEED to talk about it (outside of therapy) don’t let algorithms talk you to go against your inner knowing. Keep being you and everything else will come.
Also, finding you on here just made my night, thank you*
Your authenticity is incredible & appreciated!✨
You are so beautiful inside and out & intelligent😍
I look forward to listening to the podcasts as well as following you here💗
I'm sorry you had to go through this experience, but it's made you the person you are today and stronger because of it (I'm a transguy but I'm proud of you for doing this thing that can be so hard) healing isn't linear and if these steps are what you needed to find yourself then don't let anyone tell you that you did anything wrong. I know it was hard but you're gonna be so much happier and healthier for this 😊
Glad to see this chapter closing on UA-cam. You can provide video content about life as a college student. Keep the majority of your personal life personal. Glad you are happy and things are going well.
Elle, I have so enjoyed getting to know you and I see such a peace about you now. As far as what I would like to see going forward...how your new apartment comes together, things that excite you that you are learning.
I'm so glad you're moved back into your college town. I'm glad you're enjoying your new apartment. It's really exciting you're going back to school, having a podcast coming up. I'll follow your Twitter for updates. I'm so happy you are where you are at this time in your life. 😊❤💓❤
I really am happy for you, I can see it in just your smile alone. You do you hun! ❤️
I’d love to see “day in the life” vlogs!!
Happy to hear you’re doing well ☺️ I enjoy watching you!!!
Good luck with school c:
Congrats on the new home! And so happy that you seem to have a bright and happy future ahead of you. You are an inspiration and I’m so happy you exist, your videos have helped me cope with my own detransition. Stay strong, stay awesome!
I'm so happy for you!
Good luck with this new chapter of your life! 💛
Thanks for inspiring me to try out social transition before jumping into the medical side of things. It's helped me really figure out my experience of gender. I still feel male, but it has helped to take the anxiety off of things. I didn't realize you were only 2 years older than me too, that's rad!
Elle: this is not making me happy
Door: okay the gate is closing
The way you talk about deep things in such a matter-of-fact way is weirdly calming and refreshing. I think any video you make will be good, regardless of the topic. I'm glad you're doing well!
You and Ryan Barnes have been really helpful...I've been trying to figure out what I want to do...thank you Elle!!
Thank you for your educational content, it helped me to change my perspective on many things regarding trans community and the concept of transitioning. Congratulations, love to see you smile, you just radiate happiness!! Can't wait to listen to your podcast!
I came for someone else who was detransitioning and I felt alone until I found you. Either way I'm glad i found you. Make whatever you want.
I can’t wait to see whatever you do on UA-cam next!! Talking about the personal stuff is hard, especially when it’s something that’s becoming less relevant to your life. You’re right, it’s not healthy. So be healthy, and do whatever you feel like doing with your channel, and I can’t wait for it!
SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!! we're here for all of you and we appreciate everything you choose to share. i'll love to see what comes next ✌🏻😗
Congrats Elle. I'm so glad your doing well..u seem like such a kind genuine person. U deserve to be happy!!🌞🎉
Good for you! I will definitely follow you!
Maybe in like five years you can write a book.. I appreciate watching your detransition.
You are an awesome lady.
this really makes me so happy 🥺 makes my day when you can see people are visibly happier 💕
Elle, good for you. I am glad to hear you are putting your well being first and moving forward. I have followed your story for the last year and I think you can be sure that your detransition story has and will help others who are struggling as you did. But now the next chapter begins for you. You are so young and you have so much wonderful things ahead of you. So glad you are feeling happy. :) I wish you all the best.
First of all: Elle, you are incredibly articulate, it is so easy to listen to you :)
Secondly: Thank you for telling this part of your story!
Isn't Elle awesome? OMG they gotta write a book...
that ghost was like "i'll give u some privacy"
Good luck with your future endeavors!!! You are going to touch so many people's lives with your kindness, humility and sense of humor. Cant wait to hear your podcast. I dont have Twitter, I hope you let us know on youtube!
Congrats about the apartment! It’s cool to see you going about life, the detrans things becoming less prominent as you get busy with classes, relationships, etc. Best of luck with your studies this year!
Yes, girl! You don't need to make your life public, but I appreciate you sharing this part of it with all of us. Keen to hear your music or listen to your podcast!
The ghost emphasizing that that part of your life is over by slamming that door, be free Elle, and I hope your ghost roommate is friendly! (:
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU ELLE!! Holy fuck you've done everything I need to do to get me out of my current depression, I'm so happy for you, and know that even if you still have bad days you can remind yourself of this videos mindset, your developing, your brain is still growing and honestly I'll watch absolutely anything you upload because I just like your personality :D Also we're doppelgangers lol
Came her from Slapped Ham but felt compelled to find out what your original post was about seperate from the door closure. I ty for sharing your story. You're amazing.
Good luck in school Elle! Do whatever makes you happy in life and on UA-cam! I'll watch whatever lol😍🦋💙💚
Did that door honestly just close by itself and Elle barely even flinched
I have to say that this video made me smile from ear to ear. I'm a 50ish year old mom of three kids, one around your age. I have watched you from your very first video, it just popped up in recommended videos and I watched it. I have watched pretty much every one of your videos and could see you becoming more confident with every video. The smile on your face is real and it is beautiful. You are beautiful. I am so happy to see you truly happy. ❤️
Bravo!! Happy for you! “Live and keep living” love it! btw: the name of your podcast is obvious: “Here’s the Thing”. Best of luck to you Elle!
We’d love to meet your boyfriend! But everything at your own pace ❤️ glad things are looking up
Girl I love seeing you so happy and positive! Totally understand the moving part, can't wait to go back to uni ❤
You seem brighter and brighter with every update. And your voice is definitely softer! Incredibly happy for you.
I am so happy to see you happy, Elle! That's been a hell of a journey! Hope this podcast thing is gonna be out in the wild soon!
You and Ryan getting new equipment at the same time, Wild.
Which Ryan? There’s so many lol
@@Blake1720 Ryan Barnes, another FMF detransitioner
@@cerberv5040 She is great I love her
@@namikotv8562 She is great! Tho still can't get over those dreadlocks, but hey, whatever floats her boat.
@@cerberv5040 Ohh yeah kinda same I was kinda surprised about her choice but well
I think her lately outfits are cool as hell
Congratulations! I've really come to like you very much. I'm not surprised that you got scooped up -- lucky guy. Maybe you can talk about issues relevant to de-transition without it having to be about you? It seems like you're helping a lot of people.
Or... if you don't want it to be about de-transitioning, it seems to me that the underlying issue is the medicalization of spiritual/ emotional issues and also the question of what parents and society best can do when children make assertions that could change their lives. So keep the core issues? Or whatever you want! but I do notice that channels that do well tend to have a theme.... Best of luck to you!
I'm proud of you. Going to keep following you on your journey so long as you're willing to share. Thanks for sharing your story, thoughts, and bravery.
You're amazing, and I'm so happy for you and congrats on your relationship! Whatever content you choose to make in the future I'd love to watch it. You have such a strong personality and I just love watching your videos
Delightful video, my friend. I feel like I've gotten such an education from you in these last months that will help me better understand my grandson and his struggles with his sexuality. But I've grown very fond of you and would love to see you make videos in your day to day life, cooking, make-up, clothes shopping . Anything at all really. I do not have a Twitter account so won't be able to follow you there. I do occasionally check my Instagram but I can't add one more :) . But you are a delightful young woman and thank you for sharing your life with all of us.
For five years I identified as a guy, and I also went by the name Luke. For five years I told others to call me that name along with he/him, and I spent so much time agonizing over passing. I had so, so much anxiety and depression. I'm proud to call myself a woman again, and I've come to terms with just being a butch lesbian... even if I still have dysphoria sometimes. It's a tough journey. But in my opinion, coming to terms with who you are rather than living a lie is definitely worth the pain. I'm really proud of you! (And btw, your voice is super attractive right now lol.)
I just found you! I think you are wonderful. Honesty isn't always happy. I appreciate you happy or sad. You are so smart. You have so much to share. Not about transitioning only. How about how to love yourself? So many people struggle with that. Good luck!
I'm so happy your closing the door on the path that wasn't right for you and continuing your life towards your greatest happiness! Thank you for sharing your journey, especially with those of us that connect with the same hurdles.
I don't know how well UA-cam supports it, but I've always liked "lifestyle vloggers" after I discover someone a genuinely like. So even lil vids of "here's me cooking tonight" or "here's a weird skill I learned" would be great. We all just wanna see you happy! ❤👍
It was so fitting to see your door close confirming you closing the Chapter on de-transitioning Like you had Confirmation from someone watching over you from above. Gave me a bit of the chills. lol Here is to the Happy You Elle :D As They say when one door closes another one opens. I think your journey will be Amazing in this direction. Your boyfriend is a lucky guy to have such an intelligent, sincere beautiful person for his girlfriend. Good Luck with your continued education . Stay safe and well/ This Pandemic has given lots of us time to think and slow down and examine what is important and to set Goals for our future. Especially when so many hundred thousand souls have lost this privilege to Covid19 . May Life be kind to you and continue to smile and be happy. You are Beautiful inside and out
Hi Elle... I don't know how else to put it so I'll just be straight out with it.... my aunt transition from male to female and I think it was the best choice for her she has never been happier.... unfortunately she passed away 12 years ago, it was suicide but unknowing. She loved her husband very much and he loved her... I miss them so much but my point is...... you are gorgeous and there are times where I hear you talkin down yourself. If it makes you feel any better if I didn't know I would have never thought anyting. My grandmother was a contralto.... a female bass singer. She had a five-octave vocal range so she could sound quite feminine but she could sing Bass with the big boys and would often have fun competing with men and would often win with who can sing the deeper note. You do not sound like a man you had a very soothing pretty speaking voice. I'm glad that you're finally able to move past this and I'm glad that you have a boyfriend. Even if you were straight up lesbian I would still be happy for you. I will not keep going on and on, I'm just trying to reach to the internet and give you a really big hug and say bless you sweetheart...
You are so genuine and cool af. I wish you all the best in the podcasts.
So happy you're happy!!!!! ...I noticed instruments in the background. Maybe you can do music videos? Or talk about what you are studying. I honestly think I've just gotten used to hearing you talk about random topics and it's kinda a part of my routine now so I'd likely watch anything.
This is the best news!! Go out and live life - onwards and upwards :)
I would enjoy lifestyle content like cooking, skating, vlogs, music, trying new things!
So happy for you Elle! Glad your life is improving! I hope my life can improve too. 😂
You’re literally so cute omg ❤️ I wish you the best on your journey!!
Enjoy these days! College time was sooooo special to me and time does fly. I am 60 and it seems like yesterday I was in school. Good luck and best wishes!