4:03 I relate to you so much Vanity, I’ve been watching you on TikTok since December and you’re so open and transparent and REAL it’s what I’ve always wanted to see from a Christian influencer. Your hope and positivity kept me pushing. I also feel so defeated and SO lonely at times, I crave companionship and “the easy way out” like how we used to live in comfort before being saved :/ feel so guilty and ashamed of that. I feel like I should feel like Christ is enough. But I sometimes don’t and I feel so ashamed for that. It’s hard to be positive and remain faithful in this life. Thank you for opening up and continuing to make your audience feel like they aren’t alone. Praying for you 🩷
Especially with a child!! That does make such an impact. I have been crying lol it's been a few months of feeling the weight but life is filled with moments like this and Gods ways are always higher.
Vanity, I found you on TikTok some time ago. It's so crazy how much our stories match down to the smallest details. I absolutely admire the path you are on and can relate so much it's like I'm hearing someone tell me my own story. I lived in Dallas in my dream apartment i literally prayed so hard for it. God literally had to make me leave because he knows I wanted to keep trying to hang on when he had been told me it was time to go. I was so stubborn. Your story really helps me push through cause I see I'm not alone. Cannot wait to see you in a space you'd knew you'd always be but until then you are right where you need to be. Sending prayers your way. And thank you for sharing your story! ❤❤❤❤
Wheww this was a good read!! You really get it. Thanks for sharing as well. God really does is big one every time and like you said we are always where we need to be, as hard as it sometimes, but we are hard pressed on every side but NOT crushed.
Thank you for confirming. I was hesitate on sharing, as vulnerable as I normally am, talking about this kind of greif is just always tough to say out loud. Especially when you know better, when you know this is only temporary and it's all happening for a reason, that aren't to lean on our own understanding etc. But while the flesh grieves, man it's so difficult.
@@_msvanity it’s so difficult. I came to conclusion I am just soo tired. Tired of cycles , tired of being in survival mode. No one understands this painful process 😩 girl we can talk for hours about this 😭
I've went through similar sadness these past couple weeks, over sin and etc. but I think it is important to remember, Mathew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." 2 Corinthians 7:10 "Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret." and being compassionate to the people who have yet to seek God and to the ones who are struggling. also pray, no matter how difficult the Prayer. (also James and proverbs have severely helped me)
Oooffff let me go meditate on those Beatitudes again. BLESSED ARE THOSE WHO MOURN. Thank you for drawing some comfort up and sharing those reminders/ scriptures/ books.
I’m praying for you vanity!!! You have reached so many people including myself and helped them truly. I’m in a similar situation feeling alone and losing all my friends and things that I thought I loved at 19 feeling like I’m missing out and is very difficult. I don’t wanna lose faith in this time in life when I know that can be easy when you feel you have nothing.
Thank you Vanity for sharing this. Your videos remind me that I am human and that’s okay. I too have experienced significant loss back to back this year and you’re right people ppl don’t talks about this part. It’s not easy showing up , we just know we have to bc of who goes before us. This fight is not easy. This video was too relatable once again!
That makes me happy to hear because we all really are just humans experiencing this full range of human emotion. The fight is not easyyyyy but somehow always rewarding in the end!!
Joshua 1:5 - Stay strong. I'm going through something similar and it's very much hard. But it means that God is building something beautifully new. Something had to change so He could give you what's meant for you. So hang in there sister, rest, forgive and trust in God. Keep persevering because you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. He will NEVER think about letting you down. He loves you more than anything. Remember Jeremiah 29:11. God loves you and He has a great plan for you. ♥︎
Thank you for your openness and sharing your journey. Lord knows I needed to hear it. And maybe you needed to hear that your message inspired me. Keep going Ms. Vanity. Keep strong. 💗
Girl thank you for your vulnerability… the bible says to know that our brother & sister face similar struggles as we do. (1 Peter 5:9) You are truly inspiring & your story lets me know that Im not alone & neither are you! “Trust in the Lord with all your heart & lean not on your own understanding; acknowledge Him in all your ways & He shall direct your path” 🤍 the Lord hand IS over your life in every aspect so expect to see Him in due time sister❤
Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Vanity, I am in the same placed right now. Just keep feeling the pain and trusting God as you move forward. "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11
1 peter 5:9 💓 dying to my old self has been one of the most gut wrenching things I have ever been through. I am no stranger to grief, but this one got more of a kick to it lol. I pray you feel better soon. Your transparency has helped me in so many ways. Thank you so much! I know our Father has an amazing plan for you. Praying that he grants you the strength to endure it all. ❤🩹
Don’t let Satan focus on what you don’t have, remember you have God.
So simple but so good!!
Wow. I can see myself in you. Never had self reflection in this way ever. My heart is breaking watching this
Remember Job!
Thanks for being so open.. I pray the whole armour of God over you and cover you with the blood of our savior Jesus Christ 🙏 🙌
Be strong in the Lord.
4:03 I relate to you so much Vanity, I’ve been watching you on TikTok since December and you’re so open and transparent and REAL it’s what I’ve always wanted to see from a Christian influencer. Your hope and positivity kept me pushing. I also feel so defeated and SO lonely at times, I crave companionship and “the easy way out” like how we used to live in comfort before being saved :/ feel so guilty and ashamed of that. I feel like I should feel like Christ is enough. But I sometimes don’t and I feel so ashamed for that. It’s hard to be positive and remain faithful in this life. Thank you for opening up and continuing to make your audience feel like they aren’t alone. Praying for you 🩷
I could just cry 😢 going through a lot of the same things and it can be so weighing especially with a child 💔🙏🏾
Especially with a child!! That does make such an impact. I have been crying lol it's been a few months of feeling the weight but life is filled with moments like this and Gods ways are always higher.
Vanity, I found you on TikTok some time ago. It's so crazy how much our stories match down to the smallest details. I absolutely admire the path you are on and can relate so much it's like I'm hearing someone tell me my own story. I lived in Dallas in my dream apartment i literally prayed so hard for it. God literally had to make me leave because he knows I wanted to keep trying to hang on when he had been told me it was time to go. I was so stubborn. Your story really helps me push through cause I see I'm not alone. Cannot wait to see you in a space you'd knew you'd always be but until then you are right where you need to be. Sending prayers your way. And thank you for sharing your story! ❤❤❤❤
Wheww this was a good read!! You really get it. Thanks for sharing as well. God really does is big one every time and like you said we are always where we need to be, as hard as it sometimes, but we are hard pressed on every side but NOT crushed.
God knew I needed to see this! I was literally praying about this! God bless you ❤
Thank you for confirming. I was hesitate on sharing, as vulnerable as I normally am, talking about this kind of greif is just always tough to say out loud. Especially when you know better, when you know this is only temporary and it's all happening for a reason, that aren't to lean on our own understanding etc. But while the flesh grieves, man it's so difficult.
@@_msvanity it’s so difficult. I came to conclusion I am just soo tired. Tired of cycles , tired of being in survival mode. No one understands this painful process 😩 girl we can talk for hours about this 😭
I've went through similar sadness these past couple weeks, over sin and etc. but I think it is important to remember,
Mathew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted."
2 Corinthians 7:10 "Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret."
and being compassionate to the people who have yet to seek God and to the ones who are struggling.
also pray, no matter how difficult the Prayer.
(also James and proverbs have severely helped me)
Oooffff let me go meditate on those Beatitudes again. BLESSED ARE THOSE WHO MOURN.
Thank you for drawing some comfort up and sharing those reminders/ scriptures/ books.
I’m praying for you vanity!!! You have reached so many people including myself and helped them truly. I’m in a similar situation feeling alone and losing all my friends and things that I thought I loved at 19 feeling like I’m missing out and is very difficult. I don’t wanna lose faith in this time in life when I know that can be easy when you feel you have nothing.
Thank you Vanity for sharing this. Your videos remind me that I am human and that’s okay. I too have experienced significant loss back to back this year and you’re right people ppl don’t talks about this part. It’s not easy showing up , we just know we have to bc of who goes before us. This fight is not easy. This video was too relatable once again!
That makes me happy to hear because we all really are just humans experiencing this full range of human emotion. The fight is not easyyyyy but somehow always rewarding in the end!!
Joshua 1:5 - Stay strong.
I'm going through something similar and it's very much hard. But it means that God is building something beautifully new. Something had to change so He could give you what's meant for you. So hang in there sister, rest, forgive and trust in God. Keep persevering because you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. He will NEVER think about letting you down. He loves you more than anything.
Remember Jeremiah 29:11. God loves you and He has a great plan for you. ♥︎
Thank you for your openness and sharing your journey. Lord knows I needed to hear it. And maybe you needed to hear that your message inspired me. Keep going Ms. Vanity. Keep strong. 💗
And I did!! This was hard for me to articulate, these kind of realities and emotions are always hard to face so thank you for reaching out.
Girl thank you for your vulnerability… the bible says to know that our brother & sister face similar struggles as we do. (1 Peter 5:9) You are truly inspiring & your story lets me know that Im not alone & neither are you!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart & lean not on your own understanding; acknowledge Him in all your ways & He shall direct your path” 🤍 the Lord hand IS over your life in every aspect so expect to see Him in due time sister❤
Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Thank you for sharing this scripture!
God is in control. I pray we all come into the fullness of God’s plan ❤
Amen. God really is!
Vanity, I am in the same placed right now. Just keep feeling the pain and trusting God as you move forward. "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11
That is one of the scriptures on my prayer board that I see everyday because it is such a great reminder. Thank you for sharing!!
@@_msvanity Praise God! I will pray for you. Please pray for me
1 peter 5:9 💓 dying to my old self has been one of the most gut wrenching things I have ever been through. I am no stranger to grief, but this one got more of a kick to it lol. I pray you feel better soon. Your transparency has helped me in so many ways. Thank you so much! I know our Father has an amazing plan for you. Praying that he grants you the strength to endure it all. ❤🩹
Hey girl!!
Thank you for taking the time out to comment and for your prayers, Because this really does HIT SO DIFFERENT.