My jaw dropped when Alex said they picture a van with different parts in different seats and usually having a copilot! That's exactly the same thing we picture with our system, and we've never heard of another using the same analogy! We're a newly discovered system (within the past six months) and it's so easy for us to feel invalidated or not able to relate to others with similar disorders. For us, it's normal to have like two or three in the front seat and most are just always talking, discussing and joking and wanting to go different places/do different things. The middle row are the alters interjecting thoughts into the co-consciousness, and the backseat is for the alters who want to zone-out, looking out the window or are even just in their head/sleeping. Right now there are five of us, but we know there are others that we haven't met yet, and we imagine them hiding in parts of the van we can't see, afraid to come out. Like the trunk and such. We know they're there (not sure on a number), but we're letting them come out on their own with VERY gentle help -- like "everyone is just as accepted and valid as anyone else in the system" and "i'm/we're so grateful for all our parts, even ones undiscovered" etc. Thank you so much for helping us along our journey, since therapy is unfortunately not an option for us at this point in time. I'm so glad to have found the Amplexus System's channel!! It's so inspiring building up a community so we can feel less alone :) sorry for the pronoun switching, we've been co-con while writing this haha -- Ophie and Alerie
Newly diagnosed system here. It took me years for my diagnosis bcs of my memory blanks or what i call "checking out" where i dissociate and then i loose time and memory, then weeks or months later i get snippets of memories where i have to ask people or myself, if i did the things. My switches don't have auditory tells/accents. Im also the secondary host. I really liked this video. It let me see how and why my doctors labelled me as a difficult prognosis. Im all squared up now tho.
Autopilot question: I've a DID diagnosis. I've sort of got an autopilot in that, sometimes, it's like nobody is occupying the body - but it doesn't just fall over. Like - I can start vacuuming, and then dissociate, we're all like...communicating in the inner world...the body keeps vacuuming. Eventually, I come back, and I only vaguely remember even what the body was doing. Full amnesia is rare for me, except I do have full amnesia for some big things from my childhood.
I don’t have DID, but I get this exact thing fairly often whenever I have a task to do (I don’t do much because depression and anxiety), so I’ll start doing a task and I’ll dissociate before or during, then either part way through or at the end I’ll stop dissociating and be confused as to how I got where I am and how I ended up doing what I’m doing. If I think hard about it I can piece together what happened, but it always feels strange to just let myself do things on autopilot to the point where it’s difficult to remember what even happened
This is fantastic!! My best friend has 45, but one of them has his own system of about 40 so she has a lot and we laugh because when I met her we knew of nine. 😂😂
Omg the tea thing reminds me of our protector, Silas cus he drinks loads of tea... Also, whenever Jake is close to front he shouts the most random things at really innapropriete times XD
@@thecouncilofeightsystem8122 I've seen a couple of comments reporting protectors "imitating" caffeine high, seemingly without actually consuming it somehow. I don't know why, but it makes perfect sense for me on an intuitive level. Looks like many protectors are hyper vigilant by nature, and it's a very draining state to be in constantly. They might use caffeine to stay ready for anything for long periods. I may be wrong, but that's the best guess I have for now.
My autopilot is when im dissociating, if there’s some weird spasm when I get pulled from front but no one else is there to take over, but it goes off the last memory, so there was one time I was getting into the shower, and I dissociated when I turned the hot water on, and I snapped out of it because my autopilot was getting in the shower, the hot water only shower. Things like that.
Do you have any tips on telling apart BPD from OSDD-1b or DID? I know the DSM criteria for each of these, but when it comes to figuring out "do I also have either OSDD-1b or DID, or is it just my BPD?" it gets very confusing. (tldr; I have a system, but it might be from BPD, with dissociative symptoms being from BPD or DP/DR. It's very hard to tell.)
I've been diagnosed with bpd but I also have alters and me and my therapist think I have osdd 1-b. Bpd is just losing ur sense of self not becoming a whole other person with a whole other world.
*minor drug/drink talk* The other night my body got 'taken over' by what introduced himself as a 'rabbit in a hat' and acted psychotic and insulted me (the original personality) but I watched it all happening and felt like I had no energy and was just glitching behind my eye sockets. Last night my friend mentioned pills and I got taken over yet again by some kind of drug obsessed alcohol obsessed guy who was hooked on the idea of getting high and pissed even though I never have, I had the same feeling just watching it happen. I'm really confused because I have little to no amnesia but I act completely out of character and I'm really tired and confused coming back in. I thought it was a conscious decision at first to give me emotions personalities but I can't take them back and I can't get out when they take over. What is this? Am I going mad? Am I mimicking? I'd also like to point out that I have dissociative seizures and suspected c-ptsd if that affects anything at all. Thank you for any input.
emerald fraser it sounds like on the super hippy side you’re an empath, you pick up on people’s emotions and feel them yourself. On the more “sciencey” side maybe there’s something else (Did, bipolar, schizophrenic disorders? Not a doctor!) I would talk to a therapist, not saying that in a bad way but we’re both going “hmm?” at your situation and I really hope you’ve found some solace as it’s been a month and all after this comment.
It’s closer to 150 at this point, but yes! We know almost all their names and voices. After being such a large number for so long, you kinda just get used to it lol -Cedar
I can't focus on you two, only the kitty! Cats are sooo snuggly ^u^ Our host wants to watch the actual video but all I want to do is watch the cat :D oh well, Cairo can watch this later if he wants to have a chance at paying attention hehehe -unnamed little in the Zephyr System
You really should have specified what disorder you were talking about, because there’s many types of osdd and just knowing that people probably watched this video and now have a clear idea of what the disorder is when...lots of the info isn’t right...is discouraging to me. Like I have osdd but I’m not part of a system and I experience amnesia and no one ever believes me because of misinformation like this, people always try and tell me I have did when I don’t. I don’t know. I just wish you would have said what type of osdd you have so viewers can differentiate and not make assumptions about the whole disorder :/ What’s done is done tho, this is a pretty old vid lol
That's actually a good point, I think I'm gonna change the title of this to DID vs OSDD-1b just to clarify that it's OSDD-1b we're talking about in the video -Devon
Glad you asked for the clarification. We have OSDD 1b and I call us an OSDD system. That's how I clarify between the two. I am so used to the term I forget that others wouldn't realize OSDD can come with a system or with one personality but lots of dissociation.
Oh my gosh y'all are so funny. And Thicc Boy was made for the camera. It's cool to hear about others experiences with their inner worlds; I feel like mine is like that group of friends that hangs out and goes everywhere together, and sometimes people are paying attention to a conversation and sometimes they're listening to music or reading a book, you know, just checked out and doing their own thing. Oh and glad to know we're not the only ones who switch so many times a day. :) thought we had some issue or something.
I know i have a dissociative disorder but i don't know what it is and I'm just trying really hard to figure it out and i just got a new counselor so she doesn't know me well i wonder if i have osdd 1a if anyone can talk to me and help me figure it out itd be greatly appreciated
If this is an ignorant question I apologize. Let's say I'm in a relationship with a DID lady, and all of her alters are dating me and one alter is a man (I'm heterosexual) how is the best way to handle her male alter wanting to be in the mix? I have friends who are homosexual, and I stick up for them, and they know I'm a loyal friend, but that's all I can be. I can't be their lover.
Honestly? Keep an open open mind and see how things are like when or IF it really ever comes to this! For starters, you don't have to be romantically and/or sexually involved with everyone in a system... I mean the alters are all different people with different preferences [!!!!] and for the littles intercourse is usually in most cases entirely out of the question anyway (or should be at least). So who knows maybe you 'don't have to worry about that' anyway? Chances are you won't have to. In case it DOES come to that though, you know, you won't lose your status as the heterosexual™ if you just give it a try. Only to experiment. You never know. You could miss out on the relationship of your lifetime! Or, err... One of them, depending on who else in the system you're involved with ^^` Settle this with your partner THEN instead worrying about a 'what if' now mate 😶 The 'I'm like- such a loyal supporter but I just couldn't ever date a guy' thing, something about this rubs me the wrong way... I can understand you have your preferences, and I honestly couldn't ever have a sexual relationship with a woman either, still, I wouldn't rule out a romantic relationship if I really fell in love with her 😔 Maybe it's because love and sex are two entirely different things for me? And because it's still a pretty narrow minded perspective in a way... I mean, whatever happens happens, right? You just fall in love with someone or you don't. But immediately implying 'ugh like ewww' is not a good way to go into this, I guess... I'd also say don't worry about yourself too much. A relationship has, in the most traditional sense, two people, so it also depends a lot on your partner and what they're comfortable with, you know? Just think about it: That male alter would, just going by your example, still be in a female body - so it's a question of how far they're comfortable with stuff and willing to go, dysphoria is no joke. Please, you'll find some sort of arrangement or agreement when it comes to that. Just like you've got your preferences they have theirs and all sides should be equally taken under account and be respected. - a 10 member osdd system [Written by the Co-host]
It works out. :) Speaking from experience of the reverse. Partnered with a male bodied system. Ya never know where it takes you but its a ride ;P lolz. Trans, lesbian gals are pretty cool. :O I thought I was hetro too. Its all good though, just have to be well versed in who is who in a system (their tells) and be sure of whom you give random affection to or just ask first who's around before being romantically or sexually affectionate.
Maybe talk to him about your feelings, When our host was in a relationship, he was only interested in being friends with me and made that known and I respected that and everything worked out just fine. -Kyle
Hiya, a bit of a strange question, that might be a little difficult to answer, idk. But, how do you tell if it's not just your inner monologue, and is actually an alter talking to you? Apologies if you've already done a video on this or answered it previously
Hey there! Sorry I’m not from the channel, but I do know a lot about DID. From what I’ve heard, they’ll know if it’s an alter because the alters will all argue with each other, while an inner monologue will be less aggressive? That’s how Chloe from DissociaDID described it:)
@@PhoenixChix I dont know if that would be accurate because I dont have did or any dissociative disorder whatsoever, but I argue with myself quite often and can be very harsh to myself. I think for people with alters it's probably more like, they're listening to people in another room talking to each other. They're passively listening, not talking themselves.
I guess it’s hard to explain because you can usually just tell? Well for me it was in that case, I’m part of a osdd 1b system. With thoughts and inner monologue to yourself, it’s one sided. As a host, I can hear them talking in the background, like if two people next to you we’re having a conversation, and I can talk to them through my consciousness and I get a response back. (Example) If I were to ask an alter who’s co-con or in the headspace their name, they respond.
My jaw dropped when Alex said they picture a van with different parts in different seats and usually having a copilot! That's exactly the same thing we picture with our system, and we've never heard of another using the same analogy! We're a newly discovered system (within the past six months) and it's so easy for us to feel invalidated or not able to relate to others with similar disorders.
For us, it's normal to have like two or three in the front seat and most are just always talking, discussing and joking and wanting to go different places/do different things. The middle row are the alters interjecting thoughts into the co-consciousness, and the backseat is for the alters who want to zone-out, looking out the window or are even just in their head/sleeping. Right now there are five of us, but we know there are others that we haven't met yet, and we imagine them hiding in parts of the van we can't see, afraid to come out. Like the trunk and such. We know they're there (not sure on a number), but we're letting them come out on their own with VERY gentle help -- like "everyone is just as accepted and valid as anyone else in the system" and "i'm/we're so grateful for all our parts, even ones undiscovered" etc.
Thank you so much for helping us along our journey, since therapy is unfortunately not an option for us at this point in time. I'm so glad to have found the Amplexus System's channel!! It's so inspiring building up a community so we can feel less alone :) sorry for the pronoun switching, we've been co-con while writing this haha -- Ophie and Alerie
That's amazing you can relate! :D We just started looking at these comments! We are happy to help along your journey. :) You're never alone.
@Acrylic and Aether I loved making and editing this video! So glad it came out alright!
Dude, you are so distracting!
You're so random. I love you.
Newly diagnosed system here. It took me years for my diagnosis bcs of my memory blanks or what i call "checking out" where i dissociate and then i loose time and memory, then weeks or months later i get snippets of memories where i have to ask people or myself, if i did the things. My switches don't have auditory tells/accents. Im also the secondary host. I really liked this video. It let me see how and why my doctors labelled me as a difficult prognosis. Im all squared up now tho.
Autopilot question: I've a DID diagnosis. I've sort of got an autopilot in that, sometimes, it's like nobody is occupying the body - but it doesn't just fall over. Like - I can start vacuuming, and then dissociate, we're all like...communicating in the inner world...the body keeps vacuuming. Eventually, I come back, and I only vaguely remember even what the body was doing. Full amnesia is rare for me, except I do have full amnesia for some big things from my childhood.
Is that a question?
That is pretty normal, the body that we occupy can autopilot small tasks as well
I don’t have DID, but I get this exact thing fairly often whenever I have a task to do (I don’t do much because depression and anxiety), so I’ll start doing a task and I’ll dissociate before or during, then either part way through or at the end I’ll stop dissociating and be confused as to how I got where I am and how I ended up doing what I’m doing. If I think hard about it I can piece together what happened, but it always feels strange to just let myself do things on autopilot to the point where it’s difficult to remember what even happened
SAME!!! Like exactly! Same with the childhood thing. I'm missing alot of my childhood/teenage years but I dont have super bad amnesia
@@lewisford7438 please LMAO i was thinking the same thing
"telepathy and hoping for the best" is totally a phrase I'm going to use in fantasy story I'm working on
This is fantastic!! My best friend has 45, but one of them has his own system of about 40 so she has a lot and we laugh because when I met her we knew of nine. 😂😂
24:30 - Really needed to smile just a tiny bit.
Thanks all.
Omg the tea thing reminds me of our protector, Silas cus he drinks loads of tea... Also, whenever Jake is close to front he shouts the most random things at really innapropriete times XD
@@thecouncilofeightsystem8122 Is this why I randomly drink 8 cups of tea on random days
@@thecouncilofeightsystem8122 our protector loves coffee
@@thecouncilofeightsystem8122 I've seen a couple of comments reporting protectors "imitating" caffeine high, seemingly without actually consuming it somehow. I don't know why, but it makes perfect sense for me on an intuitive level. Looks like many protectors are hyper vigilant by nature, and it's a very draining state to be in constantly. They might use caffeine to stay ready for anything for long periods. I may be wrong, but that's the best guess I have for now.
96? How on earth? 😱
Impressive mate
My autopilot is when im dissociating, if there’s some weird spasm when I get pulled from front but no one else is there to take over, but it goes off the last memory, so there was one time I was getting into the shower, and I dissociated when I turned the hot water on, and I snapped out of it because my autopilot was getting in the shower, the hot water only shower. Things like that.
Do you have any tips on telling apart BPD from OSDD-1b or DID? I know the DSM criteria for each of these, but when it comes to figuring out "do I also have either OSDD-1b or DID, or is it just my BPD?" it gets very confusing.
(tldr; I have a system, but it might be from BPD, with dissociative symptoms being from BPD or DP/DR. It's very hard to tell.)
BPD doesnt have alters if you have a system its from DID or OSDD
I've been diagnosed with bpd but I also have alters and me and my therapist think I have osdd 1-b. Bpd is just losing ur sense of self not becoming a whole other person with a whole other world.
Hey! DissociaDID has a video of that. I think it's informative. Check that out!
@@sweetsops.. can you link? I love their channel but idk what video you're on about
You can't have a system from just having bpd, if you have a system you have either osdd or did (:
"It's just like- GUYS, *PLEASE* LISTEN"
i want to hang out with you guys so much jfc, you're so chill but still fun i love this vibe
*minor drug/drink talk*
The other night my body got 'taken over' by what introduced himself as a 'rabbit in a hat' and acted psychotic and insulted me (the original personality) but I watched it all happening and felt like I had no energy and was just glitching behind my eye sockets. Last night my friend mentioned pills and I got taken over yet again by some kind of drug obsessed alcohol obsessed guy who was hooked on the idea of getting high and pissed even though I never have, I had the same feeling just watching it happen. I'm really confused because I have little to no amnesia but I act completely out of character and I'm really tired and confused coming back in. I thought it was a conscious decision at first to give me emotions personalities but I can't take them back and I can't get out when they take over. What is this? Am I going mad? Am I mimicking? I'd also like to point out that I have dissociative seizures and suspected c-ptsd if that affects anything at all. Thank you for any input.
emerald fraser it sounds like on the super hippy side you’re an empath, you pick up on people’s emotions and feel them yourself. On the more “sciencey” side maybe there’s something else (Did, bipolar, schizophrenic disorders? Not a doctor!) I would talk to a therapist, not saying that in a bad way but we’re both going “hmm?” at your situation and I really hope you’ve found some solace as it’s been a month and all after this comment.
Ninety six? Do you know all their names and recognise their voices?
It’s closer to 150 at this point, but yes! We know almost all their names and voices. After being such a large number for so long, you kinda just get used to it lol
-Cedar
@@AcrylicAndAether That's amazing! You deserve medals!
@@AcrylicAndAether when where they born? Where all/some of them always there from the systems starting point?
I can't focus on you two, only the kitty! Cats are sooo snuggly ^u^
Our host wants to watch the actual video but all I want to do is watch the cat :D oh well, Cairo can watch this later if he wants to have a chance at paying attention hehehe -unnamed little in the Zephyr System
You really should have specified what disorder you were talking about, because there’s many types of osdd and just knowing that people probably watched this video and now have a clear idea of what the disorder is when...lots of the info isn’t right...is discouraging to me.
Like I have osdd but I’m not part of a system and I experience amnesia and no one ever believes me because of misinformation like this, people always try and tell me I have did when I don’t. I don’t know. I just wish you would have said what type of osdd you have so viewers can differentiate and not make assumptions about the whole disorder :/
What’s done is done tho, this is a pretty old vid lol
That's actually a good point, I think I'm gonna change the title of this to DID vs OSDD-1b just to clarify that it's OSDD-1b we're talking about in the video
-Devon
@@AcrylicAndAether wow dude that's awesome! It means a lot that you clarified :) ✌🏻
Glad you asked for the clarification. We have OSDD 1b and I call us an OSDD system. That's how I clarify between the two. I am so used to the term I forget that others wouldn't realize OSDD can come with a system or with one personality but lots of dissociation.
Oh, and the muriad of combinations. I'm over simplifying it
I LOVE THE NOSEY MUSTACHI CAT !!
with all the growling you can both start a metal band and the lyrics to it later, like yea.. that's what I was saying with the growling xD
Alex is literally our host at three in the morning 😂
Well, I'm usually up at 3 in the morning! :D Party time!
❤❤
cat!
Oh my gosh y'all are so funny. And Thicc Boy was made for the camera. It's cool to hear about others experiences with their inner worlds; I feel like mine is like that group of friends that hangs out and goes everywhere together, and sometimes people are paying attention to a conversation and sometimes they're listening to music or reading a book, you know, just checked out and doing their own thing. Oh and glad to know we're not the only ones who switch so many times a day. :) thought we had some issue or something.
YOUR CAT HAS A MUSTACHE!! 😸
If the body needs to sleep, but the person fronting can’t, can putting the body on autopilot help?
I know i have a dissociative disorder but i don't know what it is and I'm just trying really hard to figure it out and i just got a new counselor so she doesn't know me well i wonder if i have osdd 1a if anyone can talk to me and help me figure it out itd be greatly appreciated
Hey! Have you already figured out what's been worrying you?
How's it going?
Love this video! I really needed it. Thank you
Don't stress, just rest! 😌😴 sweet dreams!! Sweet kitty... 💯💕
İf someone has OSDD 1 b can their alters have their own history and past?
Yes they can.
@@jadarobinson6487 how
angela sheridan because they can?
💗💞💕
Is it just me... or does he look like Markaplier?
WHO, ME? That's a massive compliment! -Alex
I'd go gay for a tran F to M man any day! They werent brought up with locker room talk x)
-James
If this is an ignorant question I apologize. Let's say I'm in a relationship with a DID lady, and all of her alters are dating me and one alter is a man (I'm heterosexual) how is the best way to handle her male alter wanting to be in the mix? I have friends who are homosexual, and I stick up for them, and they know I'm a loyal friend, but that's all I can be. I can't be their lover.
Honestly? Keep an open open mind and see how things are like when or IF it really ever comes to this! For starters, you don't have to be romantically and/or sexually involved with everyone in a system...
I mean the alters are all different people with different preferences [!!!!] and for the littles intercourse is usually in most cases entirely out of the question anyway (or should be at least). So who knows maybe you 'don't have to worry about that' anyway?
Chances are you won't have to.
In case it DOES come to that though, you know, you won't lose your status as the heterosexual™ if you just give it a try.
Only to experiment.
You never know.
You could miss out on the relationship of your lifetime!
Or, err... One of them, depending on who else in the system you're involved with ^^`
Settle this with your partner THEN instead worrying about a 'what if' now mate 😶
The 'I'm like- such a loyal supporter but I just couldn't ever date a guy' thing, something about this rubs me the wrong way...
I can understand you have your preferences, and I honestly couldn't ever have a sexual relationship with a woman either, still, I wouldn't rule out a romantic relationship if I really fell in love with her 😔
Maybe it's because love and sex are two entirely different things for me? And because it's still a pretty narrow minded perspective in a way...
I mean, whatever happens happens, right?
You just fall in love with someone or you don't.
But immediately implying 'ugh like ewww' is not a good way to go into this, I guess...
I'd also say don't worry about yourself too much. A relationship has, in the most traditional sense, two people, so it also depends a lot on your partner and what they're comfortable with, you know? Just think about it:
That male alter would, just going by your example, still be in a female body - so it's a question of how far they're comfortable with stuff and willing to go, dysphoria is no joke.
Please, you'll find some sort of arrangement or agreement when it comes to that.
Just like you've got your preferences they have theirs and all sides should be equally taken under account and be respected.
- a 10 member osdd system [Written by the Co-host]
It works out. :) Speaking from experience of the reverse. Partnered with a male bodied system. Ya never know where it takes you but its a ride ;P lolz. Trans, lesbian gals are pretty cool. :O I thought I was hetro too. Its all good though, just have to be well versed in who is who in a system (their tells) and be sure of whom you give random affection to or just ask first who's around before being romantically or sexually affectionate.
Maybe talk to him about your feelings, When our host was in a relationship, he was only interested in being friends with me and made that known and I respected that and everything worked out just fine. -Kyle
Hiya, a bit of a strange question, that might be a little difficult to answer, idk.
But, how do you tell if it's not just your inner monologue, and is actually an alter talking to you? Apologies if you've already done a video on this or answered it previously
Hey there! Sorry I’m not from the channel, but I do know a lot about DID. From what I’ve heard, they’ll know if it’s an alter because the alters will all argue with each other, while an inner monologue will be less aggressive? That’s how Chloe from DissociaDID described it:)
@@PhoenixChix I dont know if that would be accurate because I dont have did or any dissociative disorder whatsoever, but I argue with myself quite often and can be very harsh to myself. I think for people with alters it's probably more like, they're listening to people in another room talking to each other. They're passively listening, not talking themselves.
I guess it’s hard to explain because you can usually just tell? Well for me it was in that case, I’m part of a osdd 1b system.
With thoughts and inner monologue to yourself, it’s one sided.
As a host, I can hear them talking in the background, like if two people next to you we’re having a conversation, and I can talk to them through my consciousness and I get a response back.
(Example) If I were to ask an alter who’s co-con or in the headspace their name, they respond.
This is a super old video lol, but I have the same shirt that Liberty is wearing!
All of my Alters hated it when you dabend Alex :D. Charley did to and she is 5. ^^
Believe me, looking back, I also hated that I dabbed :D
our cat looks so similar
I really need help and I can't find it, what do I do, please, I can't take it anymore
What do you need help with
Alex is cuteeeeee
NAW. YOU ARE :3
Liberty is so cute in this video 😍
Enjoyed this video😁 👍
ayo you look like a amazing person
NO, YOU'RE AN AMAZING PERSON!