Just want to be clear because I brought up the lamictal…. I do not take lamictal anymore. I will make a video on the details of all of that in the coming days. I meant to talk about a little bit more in this video but shocking, I got sidetracked.
Hey man i just found your channel, I’m 24 currently trying to quit opioids and your videos are really inspiring the stuff u bring up it’s crazy how similar your problems seem to mine but please keep making videos, i only just found your channel but I’m praying for you, looks like it’s been 9 months since your last video i hope you’re okay bro💯
Great to hear from you brotha! I'm currently 2 years and 10 months sober. And watching your videos all that time ago started me on that journey. I'll keep you in my prayers, and I hope to keep hearing from you man. God bless
My brother! Never clicked a video so fast. So happy to hear from you man. It’s a part of the human condition to be addicted to crap and it’s literally in your DNA. Don’t be so hard on yourself none of this stuff is killing you the way opiates and benzos do. Keep on fighting the good fight dude we’re all here for ya 🙏🏻
When you ask for prayer I choked up. My husband is an addict for real and he has been tapering from methadone and its getting down to less than a year and he will be facing reality for the first time since his teens. It is terrifying to see addiction go up and down. We quit everything else in the past 3 years except his chew and my coffee. Doing great now for heathens, but its such a struggle to be good. I used my share of party favors. 30 years smoking pot finally stopped, our mouths are still gutters, and we too are Christians. Embarrassing. This world is a trap and only one way out. We think we are so clever but we just shit it all up when we don't listen. Lord help us all, in Jesus name. Amen.
I pray kratom is legal where you all live! Methadone is tough and has a half life. I literally switched to an old pain med then placed myself in rehab. Hardest thing I have ever done. Well worth it. After off the opiates doc placed me on naltrextone due to my natural opiate receptors going crazy.. Felt better almost instantly. Stayed on it for about a month while I kept cardio going and praying. Going on 14 years in recovery and did not get away from God. Pray Hes close and brings you all peace.. He keeps it up with your support and God's faith he will eventually have his worst day that will still be better than his best day now. If that makes since. I pray God's continence is shining down and grants you all new mercies and miracles. God bless 🙌 🙏 🕊
@@paradiddle5150 I've always struggled with insomnia... I'm 37 and was on opioids for over half my life and on Suboxone for about the last 10-12 years and still dealing with PAWS and my sleep is still hit and miss... Wish I could give you a better time line on when sleep goes back to normal... Stay blessed!!! 💯💪
As an addict, the draw will never leave. It is a daily fight and we have to take small steps. As long as you move forward you are at least heading in the right direction.
God bless you Gabe! Keep up the good fight for the Good News. God will never quit fighting for us. His strength is our strength. Don’t ever feel alone. I can relate to all comments today. I’ve missed your videos. Despite what you feel is a failure, you’re helping me and others no matter the stage in your journey. You’re strong and fully capable. Know what, God’s Grace is promised and given freely. Thank you for the update and keep up the good fight!
Being dependent on benzos, methadone or suboxone is alot worse than occasionally taking small amounts of what you mentioned- and smoking. Don't be too hard on yourself you've came up a long uphill road. It's tough I'm fighting the awful a's- anhedonia, apathy, anxiety & akathesia. Taper off and keep moving forward improving your relationship with God who is forgiving unlike addictions/dependencies. +
Umm hold on I'm late to this party 😂 this video is 4 months old I just now seen this.Now you say small amounts of benzos,methadone and subs are worse than umm smoking? Where the fck is that coming from? I don't take methadone,benzos,but I do take 3mgs of suboxone and still continuing to taper as life goes on,but I am more healthier than 98 percent of the population.I am a competitive bodybuilder,Former Professional athlete,I got off pain meds from injuries in sports and got on suboxone and yes I'm continuing to ween off as time goes on,bur this small amounts stuff is worse thing makes no sense.Yes congrats that your clean and off stuff,and I'm not trying to offend you at all,but I take small amounts and in the kind of shape if someone needed their life saved and between me and you and we had to run 5 miles to save this person's life I would be leaving you in the dust.i am in the best shape of my life right now 😂 When I seen that comment i damn near coughed up my coffee.
@@tommandich-je2tq What I said was being dependent on methadone, benzos or suboxone is alot worse than occasionally taking small amounts of what he mentioned taking and smoking a little pot. If you ever quit sub completely you'll know why. As far as shape goes since my receptors aren't numbed by suboxone I would react quicker than you and be first to the scene to save a life.
@@tommandich-je2tqI absolutely see what you mean, that was my first instinct too, but reading their comment again I think they are saying that dabbling in little things here and there is okay sometimes and to give yourself some grace because it beats full blown addiction. IDK... Just my thoughts ❤❤
Welcome back!!!! I feel you bro, sometimes i use psuedoephedrine, or chewing tobacco, just kind of here and there. I think it's not the worst, but it's just like a coping mechanism for mismanaged emotions........I just keep my focus on my life goals, and it kind of comes and goes. I do like this verse, mark 7 14-23
Weed isn’t that bad, it actually can make certain things better, I dabble, not enough for it to get me, I’m done with it, the misery it brings, I don’t sleep well either, 20 years on methadone
I went from opiates to methadone to opiates to heroin to methadobe to suboxone to cocaine and started kratom to get off of my Suboxone 😭 I am almost there, stay strong 🙏🏽🤍
Glad to see an update video from u bro , I’m 13 months sober & pron & weed def r issues from time to time for me. That pron be blocking my Blessings @ time since the energy it takes from u & pushes u from God everytime u watch it , atleast that’s how I feel
I’m the same with weed. I’ve cut so much garbage out of my life, but weed is literally impossible for me to stop. Life is long though bro - there’s always another saga or five out there in our lives.
i always come back to fw your videos you made history without even realizing youve built some great g. hope to see you back posting soon. im well aware that later down the road you get to a point where you jus gotta move on and stop talking about the bullshit bc there's literally nothing left to talk about. blessings g
Wow I can’t believe I got the notification. I actually made a channel of my own and you were part of my inspiration..you helped me a lot back in April 2020 during the pandemic. Don’t know if you remember me but I never forgot about you.
@@gabemccall3523 man like I said it was over 3 years ago now and that UA-cam account is done and deleted so any comment I left is gone but my name was dalex77 and I left comments on your suboxone videos. I jumped at 8mg cold turkey and some dude in your videos helped me more then anyone during that horrible time during the lockdown of April 2020. Thanks Gabe for helping me also if it wasn’t for your videos I don’t know who would of gotten me through that dark time. But I’m sorry to hear you have been struggling, man life is hard. Unfortunately since 2020 I relapsed back on fentanyl and yup back on a very low dose of suboxone but I’m doin ok now.
Good to hear from you again! I’m still relapse free as well and it makes me happy to hear the same about you. Sorry if this message sounds a little weird I am using talk to text.
Awesome! I actually just started talking into all my text this year and I’m always telling people that cause it can really mess up sometimes lol. Appreciate your comment and excellent to hear your still on the right right path
@@gabemccall3523 sorry! I was driving at the time! Honestly it’s great to know that you haven’t relapsed on opioids but at the same time are still having struggles. (Thanks for making the video) It makes me feel not alone. I’ve been doing good myself but definitely still have struggles and vices that aren’t good for me. So it’s nice to know that it’s normal. Thanks Gabe!
Listen you are forgiven. You need to get back in Gods presence & accept His love!! He isnt mad at you He just wants to get you back on the path ❤ You are doing good, helping His other children get off of this stuff. Please just turn back to Jesus. He loves you & there are people that need you!!
Brother Gabe, you need to keep your eyes fixed on Yeshua (Jesus there was no J) and He will get you through. Ask Him to give you a new heart and heal you from this awful disease. All things are possible with God. Finding God and our Lord and Savior changed everything for me in one moment. I’d really love to talk in-depth on some stuff to do with Christianity. God bless Gabe!
You should have a sponsor by now for sparkling water…lol…glad to hear from you…still keep you in my thoughts and prayers bro…your getting there…my inspiration originally was my job plus my family…Remember all that stuff is poison to us…
I was a 5 year user of kratom as well as a perc user. Watched your videos while going through withdrawl after 3 days in detox. I appreciate your videos still my man. Ive had slip ups with alcohol and now im sober from alcohol too. Took two tries to get off the booze but now im clean from it 5 months. Guess what though. Im tapering of gabbies now too. It never ends man but i know i can do it. I have never ending cravings for everything man. It makes me upset and choked up that i hide this problem i have from my fiance but im just so bloody emberrassed. I fake it and put on a strong front. I rediscovered your videos after 3 years ago i last saw ya. Glad to be back for some more therapy. Im going to end this with you helped me then during my withdrawls, and look, youre still helping me now. Cheers pal.
Hey, Gabe, I know exactly how you feel. There's a story i'd like to tell you, and it is basedone truth. My life and my brother's Mike's life. And with me and God and our Lord Jesus Christ. There's a story that I want to tell dot me on the light. En, your face, your God, who is the Lord Jesus Christ? Even myself I'm still struggling but I still believe.
Your honesty is humbling to me Gabe. I really admire that about you. I totally understand what you’re going through. I also believe in God and like you, I want nothing more than to live by his commandments, but I fall victim to the flesh too darn much! I am a work in progress and God knows that. He knows my heart is true, that I believe and if keep moving forward, I’ll get there someday. Take all the time you need bud! Seriously. I definitely have been praying for you Gabe, but I had faith. I also did the whole UA-cam thing for a long time and understand how accountable we feel to our subscribers. It’s no joke when we say we love our subscribers. I felt the same way when I was struggling man. I did feel like I should be “motivating” others when I was in a dark pit of despair. It’s good that you got on and let us know that your ok, health and alive at least. A step in the right direction! Quitting weed is a lot harder than people think. I’m 41 and have smoked since 16, maybe younger. Live in Maine so grow my own outdoors. So now it’s even harder to quit, when it’s free and I ALWAYS have pounds of it around! 😂 I have found in my “older” years that it makes me super anxious now though if I smoke during the day, so I toke only at night and AFTER work! 😂 2 weeks on 50mg of Zoloft though and it no longer makes me anxious. It’s like how it used to make me feel, just chill. Weird… Zoloft is working for me. I feel you and I have a crap load in common. Maybe give a SSRI a go? I never believed in them, but I definitely do now! God bless bro! I’ll be praying for you! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Just wanna say when i go on my daily walks i will just put on one of your videos and listen to your videos cause they help bring me closer to the big man and to do the right things. You got this man!
Right there with you man. 14 months off kratom, mostly put away the booze i used to cope after that but cant stop edibles and once or twice a week been drinking kratom extract in the evenings. The anhedonia is awful. Amino acids have helped, especially l tyrosine and DLPA. That and listening to and reading Dr Timothy Kellers work. Keep goin bro, youre not alone.
30 day off gabapentin and my weed pens. It’s hurt bad but I’m getting threw it. The pain is unbearable but after the first three weeks I’ve been doing way better
Dude you strength is truly inspirational. Having went through a few withdrawals on a relatively mild opiate I can only imagine the physical and mental torture you have been through
Hearing voices, like how your thoughts sound? Because that can be spiritual warfare my friend!! It can be the enemy trying to lead you away from what God wants for you. I've experienced it myself
If we confess our sins, He is faithful, and just to forgive us our sins, and CLENSE us from ALL unrighteousness. Keep up.the good fight. Its truly a battle. The War goes on until we leave the flesh. From one to another. Keep the faith thats all that matters. We all fall short. The human condition.
Gabe your story is similar to mine,except mine was with methadone not subs,dude don’t get down on pot it was a lifesaver for me,screw all those pills they push on you,you are way better off on weed especially if you grow your own da kine, I am off klonipins 5 yrs. now that was the worst took me over 3 yrs ,thanks for benzo buddies saved me too. Aloha Gabe
Bro I've been smoking for years , I'm off opiates and I also use gabapentin also. I don't think it's near what we have done😂, Awesome to hear from you brother.
I am a long time listener to you. Maybe you should do a long term rehab. Try finding really good acupuncture. I am coming off and abusing sedatives. It enhances Benzos and reduces my withdrawal. It’s centers me as well. I am honestly shocked how well it helps. It’s not cheap.
U remind me of myself in alot of ways addiction family religion self awareness guilt regret hopelessness procrastination you are making a difference to a lot of peoples lives have and will continue through this platform be well ❤
Hey bro, you’ve got a ways to go and I hope you get there… I use your videos when I got off the box and I’m seven months clean now and I don’t do anything other than a couple beers maybe twice a month but it was a slow progress and the more purpose I find the easier it gets for me… Maybe try to find some purpose… Good luck
Pretty condescending for someone a few months off subs drinking beers... The man has kids - plenty of purpose. Addiction just sucks. "Doing the work" isn't real. Some people just get lucky.
I feel you. The further I get from God, the more I seek out crap to fill that void. I think I have come to the realization that life is beautiful, but happiness can never be fully achievable. We have these points of happiness and it’s mostly good, but if we were always fully happy, why would we ever seek out anything beyond this world. We need a little unhappiness to realize we are mere mortals. I think boredom and depression are what drive us to fill voids. So, what we could do, is go into deep meditation and prayer during these times, but instead we often as you said, quiet that voice and then take in some type of alternative to fill that void.
I watched this again just because I've missed your videos so much, my original comment was basically saying I was happy you were back. Now, after rewatching I wanted to commend you on being so honest and willing to put yourself out there for us to see. You crack on yourself about the things you are doing that you aren't proud of, but As I read through the comments I see how many people you've helped, including me although I have since relapsed, I know you stopped doing videos for a year or so but Gabe your videos (all of them) have helped so many people and they will continue to as long as they are available. You may feel as though you've moved away from God but I feel like you do "God's work" just by being vulnerable for all of us. I'm like you in the sense I "want" to quit opiates (I know I'm comparing apples to oranges since you are off opiates and are talking about weed) in my heart of hearts I do. But, I've come to find life and my emotions are hard to deal with sober. After 6 months I still didn't feel "right", still couldn't sleep and anything emotional threw me for a loop. I had a friend OD and my mother had been sick awhile and passed away and I've come to find I needed to be on opiates to deal with the onslaught of sadness I felt. Its messed up when you think about it. Sorry I didn't mean to ramble I just wanted to tell you I don't think the things you are doing are horrible by comparison but also don't put yourself down so much. You help people just by getting on here and being YOU!
2:30 this is literally how I have dealt with depression for the better part of 2 years. ketamine therapy, TMS, psych meds have not helped. I feel I am at a breaking point because my substances of choice (kratom, adderall, phenibut, lyrica) seem to not work well anymore and my mood is shit. just started a semester at college too. idk wtf to do also about faking it...I could be a fucking oscar winner at this point. I don't think anyone knows the real me because I'm either a world class actor or intoxicated same with the hedonism, and the porn (tho only when on adderall). I'm shocked to hear someone who I feel like I can relate to SO MUCH. I'm glad I found your channel. i massively appreciate your radical honesty. I'm the same way, no matter how brutal or bad the truth...it is what it is. and, to an extent, I think I am one of the very few people that understands this unique type of hell. you're clearly a strong motherfucker. I know I am. lmk if you'd wanna talk more.
Hey Gabe, 5 year Kratom addict here. Currently going cold turkey for the millionth time. You’re videos are and have been a huge inspiration, thanks for the content
Gabe, it’s a hell of a thing to hop on a video and be honest when you’re not proud of your behavior. I appreciate your honesty and I can say that at least I’m better for it, I am fighting the same battle
Missed your vids. Be kind to yourself always. Unfortunately addiction is a life long battle. I get it. I had a manic depressive mixed episode (bipolar type 2) and started to abuse my meds after years on them no issues. Thank god I stayed off opiates though through that..been clean from IV heroin 3 years now. I’m on a bipolar med and I’m doing much better and am able to again take my adhd meds responsibly again
Good to hear from you Gabe. Think we’re kind of in a similar situation at this point. I openly and purposefully used weed to cope and get off kratom and phenibut. Phenibut I’ve been off over a year, kratom since March. Getting sleep is really the big thing for me cause Im a working dad too and the weed helps me relax and drift off at the end of the day but I don’t want to rely on it. Im trying not to stress too much right now because Im definitely still feeling waves of PAWS come and go which includes real difficult falling asleep but I just focus on the progress I’ve made. Hope you feel the same. God bless brother.
❤ Keep fighting brother. Remember that everyday is a spiritual battle. Take it seriously. The devil is like a lion seeking out whom he can devour. Prone to wander Lord i feel it. Your whole video sounds very familar to me as it reminds me of myself. I love you brother. Dont give up.
Sometimes I wonder if God even listens anymore. Godbless man. Everything will be alright in the end aslomg as we follow jesus. That's a biblical promise right there too. But it's hard tho. The spiritual battle it hard. It's like God an Satan fighting eschother Still and we are all just stuck in the middle of this horrendous war.
We are sinners by nature. Remember, there has only been 1 perfect man in the history of humanity. Grace is as important for self as it is for others. The most important thing is that you have Christ on your heart. You'll get back on track brother and Ill be praying for you🙏🏻 You were a help to me through a really tough time🤝🏻
Gabe! I deleted my other channel. I want you to know one thing… if you never thought you made a change in this world I want you to listen to me. If it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be where I am right now. I started making videos just like you but I no longer do (not sure if you remember me? AD /Ashley). Anyways, you truly changed my life and my kids. I have been clean (lost count) but years! Literally completely using your videos as inspiration! I am now almost done with school (bachelors in psychology) I finally had the baby (after many losses) not sure if you remember from my videos. He is now one years old! Promotion at work! Bought our own home. Anyways you truly changed my family and I’s life. I thought the same way you were thinking right now but you told me to just keep going and don’t give up and that’s what I did. I will never forget what I was but I’m now discovering a whole new me… but yea you had a huge part to play in it. I guess I just want to say thank you. I thank you, my kids thank you, and my family thanks you ❤
My only vice right now is the low dose suboxone that I tapered down to and caffeine /nicotine. I have a ON nicotine pouch in my lip from the time I wake up til I go to sleep and I drink a red bull a day. I take 1-2 mg of suboxone a day. I think I'm just going to stay at that level because it helps me for now. I do feel guilty tho when I go to aa meetings. I haven't used heroin in 9 months but I still don't consider myself sober. It sucks. I feel ya bro. I occasionally would dabble with adderal and xanax back in the day. That state of always chasing dopamine and euphoria is hard to break out of. It becomes a hard habit to stop obviously. I wish the best for you bro. God bless
Great to hear from you man. Your videos really helped me and still do. Please be careful out their bro! I think your videos are way under viewed. God bless you. P.S. I can totally relate to feeling like your slipping away from God (temporarily). But the devil uses that to force us into self deprecation and it’s a downhill spiral. Just focus on getting back into the spirit and remember Gods patience is beyond our comprehension. Your/were forgiven, now let’s get back on track! I will pray for you.
@@gabemccall3523 Your welcome. I mean it. I struggled huge with Lyrica and Gabapentin and tried to take the odd one but it also caught up with me pretty quick again. I found them really hard to get off of but that’s just me. Keep us posted buddy!
our brains of certain people just whole life revolve around being altered and we look forward to it everyday all day and when we dont have it everything becomes a mess
What an amazing gift to see your new video this morning. I’m sorry you’re struggling, but glad you aren’t giving up. I finally got off of subs and have regressed a bit myself. I totally get it & appreciate your honesty. Keep sharing. It helps us all. Sending prayers. 🌻
Your starting too feel again cause benzo where shutting everything down…don’t feel guilty…I’ve been wondering how you been…nice to see ya ..be careful with psychological meds they tend to all have some forms of withdrawal once you’ve on them pass 6 weeks..k bro will keep praying for you..🙏🏻
People swear that pot is the cure all be all and no judgment at all but people can be addicted to weed on a level that rivals any drug. Keep posting you inspire others
@@gabemccall3523 I had a feeling. I’m very interested in that path as well. The spiritual path of meditation combined with psychedelics, retreats, etc. I’ve had small spiral awakenings and glimpses of what’s possible, even through maintaining a meditation habit for a months. It’s amazing what’s possible with the mind and neuroplasticity. There’s an element of connecting to God through those as well, regardless of what beliefs people hold. I’m excited to hear about your journey, keep me updated! I’ll be following a similar path.
@@craig9910 lol yeah I get that. Believe it or not I actually have a friend who’s a Lions fan and I’ve been to a 49ers Lions game with him before. He’s cautiously optimistic just like you. Either way, it was a very impressive year for them.
Stuck on kratom currently, youre kind of where i was at before. I have to say with the weed I feel you but also if its just at night like you say...try edibles or cbd or something to bridge you. I dont want to tell you "its not that bad" but me, once i get sober i would take 0 issue with smoking weed once or twice a day. Nothing keeps me mentally stable and proactive in recovery when im not allowed to smoke or on maintenance, and i dont want maintenance Also you may have been physically addicted to the gabs and benzos by now. Every time you relapse the withdrawals will get worse, gaba drugs do that 4 some reason
That addiction thing gabe is the benzo ...I've been on and off these many times through it....I turn my addiction to food or smoking a shit load of cigarettes and the sleep i was maxing 3 hours a night and the porn stuff goes throughthe roof i was off the fuckers a full year and relapsed back on them.....im doing rehab just now and there using the ashton manuals on me.... love ya brother.. v for victory and god bless 🙌
Just want to be clear because I brought up the lamictal…. I do not take lamictal anymore. I will make a video on the details of all of that in the coming days. I meant to talk about a little bit more in this video but shocking, I got sidetracked.
Are you still alive
@@kingofkings7278he is. He’s doing well.
Hey man i just found your channel, I’m 24 currently trying to quit opioids and your videos are really inspiring the stuff u bring up it’s crazy how similar your problems seem to mine but please keep making videos, i only just found your channel but I’m praying for you, looks like it’s been 9 months since your last video i hope you’re okay bro💯
Hi again hope ur well ❤
Great to hear from you brotha! I'm currently 2 years and 10 months sober. And watching your videos all that time ago started me on that journey. I'll keep you in my prayers, and I hope to keep hearing from you man. God bless
Wow that’s awesome! Truly appreciate your prayers and encouragement
My brother! Never clicked a video so fast. So happy to hear from you man. It’s a part of the human condition to be addicted to crap and it’s literally in your DNA. Don’t be so hard on yourself none of this stuff is killing you the way opiates and benzos do. Keep on fighting the good fight dude we’re all here for ya 🙏🏻
Appreciate your encouragement brother
When you ask for prayer I choked up. My husband is an addict for real and he has been tapering from methadone and its getting down to less than a year and he will be facing reality for the first time since his teens. It is terrifying to see addiction go up and down. We quit everything else in the past 3 years except his chew and my coffee. Doing great now for heathens, but its such a struggle to be good. I used my share of party favors. 30 years smoking pot finally stopped, our mouths are still gutters, and we too are Christians. Embarrassing. This world is a trap and only one way out. We think we are so clever but we just shit it all up when we don't listen. Lord help us all, in Jesus name. Amen.
I pray kratom is legal where you all live! Methadone is tough and has a half life. I literally switched to an old pain med then placed myself in rehab. Hardest thing I have ever done. Well worth it. After off the opiates doc placed me on naltrextone due to my natural opiate receptors going crazy.. Felt better almost instantly. Stayed on it for about a month while I kept cardio going and praying. Going on 14 years in recovery and did not get away from God. Pray Hes close and brings you all peace.. He keeps it up with your support and God's faith he will eventually have his worst day that will still be better than his best day now. If that makes since. I pray God's continence is shining down and grants you all new mercies and miracles. God bless 🙌 🙏 🕊
Just saw ur video praying for you my friend
Hey God Bless you brother!!! 🙏😇🙌 Edit: Your videos still really help me... I'm 194 days off Suboxone... Don't be to hard on yourself Gabe man... 🤘😎
How long did it take you to start sleeping normal again?
@@paradiddle5150 I've always struggled with insomnia... I'm 37 and was on opioids for over half my life and on Suboxone for about the last 10-12 years and still dealing with PAWS and my sleep is still hit and miss... Wish I could give you a better time line on when sleep goes back to normal... Stay blessed!!! 💯💪
I’m month 8 off suboxone and I’m sleeping 6 -7 hours. It’s the sore legs and lack of energy that are still killing me.
I appreciate that! Keep on grinding. The energy will come back. Exercise always helped me with the energy.
@@kevinmoon3864how long were u in it?
As an addict, the draw will never leave. It is a daily fight and we have to take small steps. As long as you move forward you are at least heading in the right direction.
Hope all is well warrior! Im on day 14 jumping of 6mgs! The struggle is worth the salvation, god bless brother🎉
Good job. I'm starting this week.❤
I was wondering where you been, good to see you Gabe!
God bless you Gabe! Keep up the good fight for the Good News. God will never quit fighting for us. His strength is our strength. Don’t ever feel alone. I can relate to all comments today. I’ve missed your videos. Despite what you feel is a failure, you’re helping me and others no matter the stage in your journey. You’re strong and fully capable. Know what, God’s Grace is promised and given freely. Thank you for the update and keep up the good fight!
Thank u very much sir. Love your comment!
Being dependent on benzos, methadone or suboxone is alot worse than occasionally taking small amounts of what you mentioned- and smoking. Don't be too hard on yourself you've came up a long uphill road. It's tough I'm fighting the awful a's- anhedonia, apathy, anxiety & akathesia. Taper off and keep moving forward improving your relationship with God who is forgiving unlike addictions/dependencies. +
Appreciate that!
Appreciate your comment! Thank you
Umm hold on I'm late to this party 😂 this video is 4 months old I just now seen this.Now you say small amounts of benzos,methadone and subs are worse than umm smoking? Where the fck is that coming from? I don't take methadone,benzos,but I do take 3mgs of suboxone and still continuing to taper as life goes on,but I am more healthier than 98 percent of the population.I am a competitive bodybuilder,Former Professional athlete,I got off pain meds from injuries in sports and got on suboxone and yes I'm continuing to ween off as time goes on,bur this small amounts stuff is worse thing makes no sense.Yes congrats that your clean and off stuff,and I'm not trying to offend you at all,but I take small amounts and in the kind of shape if someone needed their life saved and between me and you and we had to run 5 miles to save this person's life I would be leaving you in the dust.i am in the best shape of my life right now 😂 When I seen that comment i damn near coughed up my coffee.
@@tommandich-je2tq What I said was being dependent on methadone, benzos or suboxone is alot worse than occasionally taking small amounts of what he mentioned taking and smoking a little pot. If you ever quit sub completely you'll know why. As far as shape goes since my receptors aren't numbed by suboxone I would react quicker than you and be first to the scene to save a life.
@@tommandich-je2tqI absolutely see what you mean, that was my first instinct too, but reading their comment again I think they are saying that dabbling in little things here and there is okay sometimes and to give yourself some grace because it beats full blown addiction. IDK... Just my thoughts ❤❤
Welcome back!!!! I feel you bro, sometimes i use psuedoephedrine, or chewing tobacco, just kind of here and there.
I think it's not the worst, but it's just like a coping mechanism for mismanaged emotions........I just keep my focus on my life goals, and it kind of comes and goes.
I do like this verse, mark 7 14-23
Appreciate your comment brother!
Weed isn’t that bad, it actually can make certain things better, I dabble, not enough for it to get me, I’m done with it, the misery it brings, I don’t sleep well either, 20 years on methadone
@@ELpeaceonearth I need to, I’m not exactly young anymore, pushing 50
I went from opiates to methadone to opiates to heroin to methadobe to suboxone to cocaine and started kratom to get off of my Suboxone 😭 I am almost there, stay strong 🙏🏽🤍
Glad to see an update video from u bro , I’m 13 months sober & pron & weed def r issues from time to time for me.
That pron be blocking my Blessings @ time since the energy it takes from u & pushes u from God everytime u watch it , atleast that’s how I feel
I’m the same with weed. I’ve cut so much garbage out of my life, but weed is literally impossible for me to stop.
Life is long though bro - there’s always another saga or five out there in our lives.
Ain’t been so excited to see a video come on my screen in a minute
Appreciate the honesty Gabe 🙏
i always come back to fw your videos you made history without even realizing youve built some great g. hope to see you back posting soon. im well aware that later down the road you get to a point where you jus gotta move on and stop talking about the bullshit bc there's literally nothing left to talk about. blessings g
Im in same boat brother, to a T. Glad I'm not alone.
We’re in it together!
Wow I can’t believe I got the notification. I actually made a channel of my own and you were part of my inspiration..you helped me a lot back in April 2020 during the pandemic. Don’t know if you remember me but I never forgot about you.
Thank you very much for your comment. I don’t remember…. Maybe if you refreshed me I would?
@@gabemccall3523 man like I said it was over 3 years ago now and that UA-cam account is done and deleted so any comment I left is gone but my name was dalex77 and I left comments on your suboxone videos. I jumped at 8mg cold turkey and some dude in your videos helped me more then anyone during that horrible time during the lockdown of April 2020. Thanks Gabe for helping me also if it wasn’t for your videos I don’t know who would of gotten me through that dark time. But I’m sorry to hear you have been struggling, man life is hard. Unfortunately since 2020 I relapsed back on fentanyl and yup back on a very low dose of suboxone but I’m doin ok now.
The Sparkling Water Corporations really should hire Gabe!!👍♥️
Hey man good to see you
We're only human Gabe, and we're still here!
Good to hear from you again! I’m still relapse free as well and it makes me happy to hear the same about you. Sorry if this message sounds a little weird I am using talk to text.
Awesome! I actually just started talking into all my text this year and I’m always telling people that cause it can really mess up sometimes lol. Appreciate your comment and excellent to hear your still on the right right path
@@gabemccall3523 sorry! I was driving at the time!
Honestly it’s great to know that you haven’t relapsed on opioids but at the same time are still having struggles. (Thanks for making the video)
It makes me feel not alone.
I’ve been doing good myself but definitely still have struggles and vices that aren’t good for me.
So it’s nice to know that it’s normal.
Thanks Gabe!
Gabapentin for President
Yo bro keep making videos I relate to a lot of the addiction stuff so it makes me feel better that I’m not alone in this fight.
Listen you are forgiven. You need to get back in Gods presence & accept His love!! He isnt mad at you He just wants to get you back on the path ❤
You are doing good, helping His other children get off of this stuff. Please just turn back to Jesus. He loves you & there are people that need you!!
wow. I just looked you up this morning to see what was going on with you and here you are posting a video. What a coincidence.
That’s crazy
Brother Gabe, you need to keep your eyes fixed on Yeshua (Jesus there was no J) and He will get you through. Ask Him to give you a new heart and heal you from this awful disease. All things are possible with God. Finding God and our Lord and Savior changed everything for me in one moment. I’d really love to talk in-depth on some stuff to do with Christianity. God bless Gabe!
You’re absolutely right! Appreciate your comment
Love your honesty, you’re not alone. Thx for the video. The negotiating and the bargaining that goes on in our minds is nuts.
Thank you for your comment.
Good to see ya. Maybe your unhappy with something and can’t stop useing
U help yourself by helping others and that’s awesome, stay with it man!!
Keeep the vids coming man. They help fellow earthlings!
You should have a sponsor by now for sparkling water…lol…glad to hear from you…still keep you in my thoughts and prayers bro…your getting there…my inspiration originally was my job plus my family…Remember all that stuff is poison to us…
Awesome to hear from you Gabe.
YAY!!!♥️👍 Gabe Is Back! So great to hear from you again!!
Thank you Cindy
I was a 5 year user of kratom as well as a perc user. Watched your videos while going through withdrawl after 3 days in detox. I appreciate your videos still my man. Ive had slip ups with alcohol and now im sober from alcohol too. Took two tries to get off the booze but now im clean from it 5 months. Guess what though. Im tapering of gabbies now too. It never ends man but i know i can do it. I have never ending cravings for everything man. It makes me upset and choked up that i hide this problem i have from my fiance but im just so bloody emberrassed. I fake it and put on a strong front. I rediscovered your videos after 3 years ago i last saw ya. Glad to be back for some more therapy. Im going to end this with you helped me then during my withdrawls, and look, youre still helping me now. Cheers pal.
Good to hear from you man
Truth is only Jesus can set you free from that addict mentality.
Hey, Gabe, I know exactly how you feel. There's a story i'd like to tell you, and it is basedone truth. My life and my brother's Mike's life. And with me and God and our Lord Jesus Christ. There's a story that I want to tell dot me on the light. En, your face, your God, who is the Lord Jesus Christ? Even myself I'm still struggling but I still believe.
Your honesty is humbling to me Gabe. I really admire that about you. I totally understand what you’re going through. I also believe in God and like you, I want nothing more than to live by his commandments, but I fall victim to the flesh too darn much! I am a work in progress and God knows that. He knows my heart is true, that I believe and if keep moving forward, I’ll get there someday. Take all the time you need bud! Seriously. I definitely have been praying for you Gabe, but I had faith. I also did the whole UA-cam thing for a long time and understand how accountable we feel to our subscribers. It’s no joke when we say we love our subscribers. I felt the same way when I was struggling man. I did feel like I should be “motivating” others when I was in a dark pit of despair. It’s good that you got on and let us know that your ok, health and alive at least. A step in the right direction! Quitting weed is a lot harder than people think. I’m 41 and have smoked since 16, maybe younger. Live in Maine so grow my own outdoors. So now it’s even harder to quit, when it’s free and I ALWAYS have pounds of it around! 😂 I have found in my “older” years that it makes me super anxious now though if I smoke during the day, so I toke only at night and AFTER work! 😂 2 weeks on 50mg of Zoloft though and it no longer makes me anxious. It’s like how it used to make me feel, just chill. Weird… Zoloft is working for me. I feel you and I have a crap load in common. Maybe give a SSRI a go? I never believed in them, but I definitely do now! God bless bro! I’ll be praying for you! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Glad to see u man, keep making your videos…it’s helped us and u before so it can help u again..hang in there man and keep making these videos brother.
I appreciate that!
Just wanna say when i go on my daily walks i will just put on one of your videos and listen to your videos cause they help bring me closer to the big man and to do the right things. You got this man!
Right there with you man. 14 months off kratom, mostly put away the booze i used to cope after that but cant stop edibles and once or twice a week been drinking kratom extract in the evenings. The anhedonia is awful. Amino acids have helped, especially l tyrosine and DLPA. That and listening to and reading Dr Timothy Kellers work. Keep goin bro, youre not alone.
We’re in the same boat. Bottom line is for me is that I’ve got to have a vice. It’s got to be something. That’s where I’m at.
30 day off gabapentin and my weed pens. It’s hurt bad but I’m getting threw it. The pain is unbearable but after the first three weeks I’ve been doing way better
Words that showed up on my feed yesterday…”I’m f** struggling, but I’m not f** failing!
Dude you strength is truly inspirational. Having went through a few withdrawals on a relatively mild opiate I can only imagine the physical and mental torture you have been through
Man, I clicked so fast!!!
Hearing voices, like how your thoughts sound? Because that can be spiritual warfare my friend!! It can be the enemy trying to lead you away from what God wants for you. I've experienced it myself
Pray for strength. I’m the same boat as you brother. The exact same boat.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful, and just to forgive us our sins, and CLENSE us from ALL unrighteousness. Keep up.the good fight. Its truly a battle. The War goes on until we leave the flesh. From one to another. Keep the faith thats all that matters. We all fall short. The human condition.
Gabe your story is similar to mine,except mine was with methadone not subs,dude don’t get down on pot it was a lifesaver for me,screw all those pills they push on you,you are way better off on weed especially if you grow your own da kine, I am off klonipins 5 yrs. now that was the worst took me over 3 yrs ,thanks for benzo buddies saved me too. Aloha Gabe
Bro I've been smoking for years , I'm off opiates and I also use gabapentin also. I don't think it's near what we have done😂, Awesome to hear from you brother.
I'm struggling to get off just 300mg of gabapentin I took at night
I am a long time listener to you. Maybe you should do a long term rehab.
Try finding really good acupuncture. I am coming off and abusing sedatives. It enhances Benzos and reduces my withdrawal.
It’s centers me as well. I am honestly shocked how well it helps. It’s not cheap.
Seek first the Kingdom of God☝️
Matthew 6:33
U remind me of myself in alot of ways addiction family religion self awareness guilt regret hopelessness procrastination you are making a difference to a lot of peoples lives have and will continue through this platform be well ❤
Good to see ya still kickin’ it .
Most folks’ live thru disasters. You’ll be just fine . Keep grinding it out .
Hey bro, you’ve got a ways to go and I hope you get there… I use your videos when I got off the box and I’m seven months clean now and I don’t do anything other than a couple beers maybe twice a month but it was a slow progress and the more purpose I find the easier it gets for me… Maybe try to find some purpose… Good luck
Pretty condescending for someone a few months off subs drinking beers... The man has kids - plenty of purpose. Addiction just sucks. "Doing the work" isn't real. Some people just get lucky.
Yo, Gabe, keep your head up! ❤ you help me so much by showing your own vulnerabilty. I need this. Thank you!
I feel you. The further I get from God, the more I seek out crap to fill that void. I think I have come to the realization that life is beautiful, but happiness can never be fully achievable. We have these points of happiness and it’s mostly good, but if we were always fully happy, why would we ever seek out anything beyond this world. We need a little unhappiness to realize we are mere mortals. I think boredom and depression are what drive us to fill voids. So, what we could do, is go into deep meditation and prayer during these times, but instead we often as you said, quiet that voice and then take in some type of alternative to fill that void.
I just found your channel. Glad that you did an update. I will keep you in my prayers.
Welcome to the channel 👍
I watched this again just because I've missed your videos so much, my original comment was basically saying I was happy you were back. Now, after rewatching I wanted to commend you on being so honest and willing to put yourself out there for us to see. You crack on yourself about the things you are doing that you aren't proud of, but As I read through the comments I see how many people you've helped, including me although I have since relapsed, I know you stopped doing videos for a year or so but Gabe your videos (all of them) have helped so many people and they will continue to as long as they are available. You may feel as though you've moved away from God but I feel like you do "God's work" just by being vulnerable for all of us. I'm like you in the sense I "want" to quit opiates (I know I'm comparing apples to oranges since you are off opiates and are talking about weed) in my heart of hearts I do. But, I've come to find life and my emotions are hard to deal with sober. After 6 months I still didn't feel "right", still couldn't sleep and anything emotional threw me for a loop. I had a friend OD and my mother had been sick awhile and passed away and I've come to find I needed to be on opiates to deal with the onslaught of sadness I felt. Its messed up when you think about it. Sorry I didn't mean to ramble I just wanted to tell you I don't think the things you are doing are horrible by comparison but also don't put yourself down so much. You help people just by getting on here and being YOU!
Thank you very much for your comment. Me as more than you know! God bless you
2:30 this is literally how I have dealt with depression for the better part of 2 years. ketamine therapy, TMS, psych meds have not helped. I feel I am at a breaking point because my substances of choice (kratom, adderall, phenibut, lyrica) seem to not work well anymore and my mood is shit. just started a semester at college too. idk wtf to do
also about faking it...I could be a fucking oscar winner at this point. I don't think anyone knows the real me because I'm either a world class actor or intoxicated
same with the hedonism, and the porn (tho only when on adderall). I'm shocked to hear someone who I feel like I can relate to SO MUCH. I'm glad I found your channel.
i massively appreciate your radical honesty. I'm the same way, no matter how brutal or bad the truth...it is what it is. and, to an extent, I think I am one of the very few people that understands this unique type of hell. you're clearly a strong motherfucker. I know I am.
lmk if you'd wanna talk more.
Hey Gabe, 5 year Kratom addict here. Currently going cold turkey for the millionth time. You’re videos are and have been a huge inspiration, thanks for the content
Appreciate your comment!
Gabe, it’s a hell of a thing to hop on a video and be honest when you’re not proud of your behavior. I appreciate your honesty and I can say that at least I’m better for it, I am fighting the same battle
Missed your vids. Be kind to yourself always. Unfortunately addiction is a life long battle. I get it. I had a manic depressive mixed episode (bipolar type 2) and started to abuse my meds after years on them no issues. Thank god I stayed off opiates though through that..been clean from IV heroin 3 years now.
I’m on a bipolar med and I’m doing much better and am able to again take my adhd meds responsibly again
This spiritual war is no joke
My brother from another mother.
Good to hear from you Gabe. Think we’re kind of in a similar situation at this point. I openly and purposefully used weed to cope and get off kratom and phenibut. Phenibut I’ve been off over a year, kratom since March. Getting sleep is really the big thing for me cause Im a working dad too and the weed helps me relax and drift off at the end of the day but I don’t want to rely on it. Im trying not to stress too much right now because Im definitely still feeling waves of PAWS come and go which includes real difficult falling asleep but I just focus on the progress I’ve made. Hope you feel the same. God bless brother.
Love the honesty
Thank you for that
Sorry to hear you’re stressed. Glad to hear from you again though. You’ve gotten me through some tough times without even knowing it. 👍
I appreciate that
GOD BLESS AND SALUTE!!!
Ain’t nothing wrong it’s smoking bud my guy just don’t start up the other stuff
Glad to hear from you.
❤ Keep fighting brother. Remember that everyday is a spiritual battle. Take it seriously.
The devil is like a lion seeking out whom he can devour.
Prone to wander Lord i feel it.
Your whole video sounds very familar to me as it reminds me of myself. I love you brother. Dont give up.
Sometimes I wonder if God even listens anymore. Godbless man. Everything will be alright in the end aslomg as we follow jesus. That's a biblical promise right there too. But it's hard tho. The spiritual battle it hard. It's like God an Satan fighting eschother Still and we are all just stuck in the middle of this horrendous war.
Lmaaooo u got me good 1st 20 sec lol
#theBubblyrelapse
Lol I just have to do stuff like sometimes I guess. Helps me prepare to tell you guys the bad news I suppose.
We are sinners by nature. Remember, there has only been 1 perfect man in the history of humanity. Grace is as important for self as it is for others. The most important thing is that you have Christ on your heart. You'll get back on track brother and Ill be praying for you🙏🏻 You were a help to me through a really tough time🤝🏻
Appreciate that brother! God bless
I saw your name come up on my feed and I was so excited!!! I clicked on it so fast!
We are masters of switching one compound for a another. Good to hear your truth dude.
Gabe! I deleted my other channel. I want you to know one thing… if you never thought you made a change in this world I want you to listen to me. If it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be where I am right now. I started making videos just like you but I no longer do (not sure if you remember me? AD /Ashley). Anyways, you truly changed my life and my kids. I have been clean (lost count) but years! Literally completely using your videos as inspiration! I am now almost done with school (bachelors in psychology) I finally had the baby (after many losses) not sure if you remember from my videos. He is now one years old! Promotion at work! Bought our own home. Anyways you truly changed my family and I’s life. I thought the same way you were thinking right now but you told me to just keep going and don’t give up and that’s what I did. I will never forget what I was but I’m now discovering a whole new me… but yea you had a huge part to play in it. I guess I just want to say thank you. I thank you, my kids thank you, and my family thanks you ❤
My only vice right now is the low dose suboxone that I tapered down to and caffeine /nicotine. I have a ON nicotine pouch in my lip from the time I wake up til I go to sleep and I drink a red bull a day. I take 1-2 mg of suboxone a day. I think I'm just going to stay at that level because it helps me for now. I do feel guilty tho when I go to aa meetings. I haven't used heroin in 9 months but I still don't consider myself sober. It sucks. I feel ya bro. I occasionally would dabble with adderal and xanax back in the day. That state of always chasing dopamine and euphoria is hard to break out of. It becomes a hard habit to stop obviously. I wish the best for you bro. God bless
Great to hear from you man. Your videos really helped me and still do. Please be careful out their bro! I think your videos are way under viewed. God bless you. P.S. I can totally relate to feeling like your slipping away from God (temporarily). But the devil uses that to force us into self deprecation and it’s a downhill spiral. Just focus on getting back into the spirit and remember Gods patience is beyond our comprehension. Your/were forgiven, now let’s get back on track! I will pray for you.
Thank you very much for that! God bless you
@@gabemccall3523 Your welcome. I mean it. I struggled huge with Lyrica and Gabapentin and tried to take the odd one but it also caught up with me pretty quick again. I found them really hard to get off of but that’s just me. Keep us posted buddy!
our brains of certain people just whole life revolve around being altered and we look forward to it everyday all day and when we dont have it everything becomes a mess
What an amazing gift to see your new video this morning. I’m sorry you’re struggling, but glad you aren’t giving up. I finally got off of subs and have regressed a bit myself. I totally get it & appreciate your honesty. Keep sharing. It helps us all. Sending prayers. 🌻
Thank you so much and keep on pushing ahead as well.
Forgetting those things which are behind & reaching forward to those thing's which are ahead...Gabe, keep looking for Gods guidance!!
Your starting too feel again cause benzo where shutting everything down…don’t feel guilty…I’ve been wondering how you been…nice to see ya ..be careful with psychological meds they tend to all have some forms of withdrawal once you’ve on them pass 6 weeks..k bro will keep praying for you..🙏🏻
Glad you’re back Gabe, I’m a new subscriber your videos really helped me 3 months ago, like you’ve influenced my life keep going bro big love ❤👍🏻
Wow thank you very much for that. Truly appreciate it
@@gabemccall3523 of course man 🙌🏻
😂Im like u as long i dont pick up hard drugs im good, i mainly use gabapenton and delta 8 cuz im on probation, but i dont like either one really
People swear that pot is the cure all be all and no judgment at all but people can be addicted to weed on a level that rivals any drug. Keep posting you inspire others
Is trying something related to psychedelics?
That’s the plan
@@gabemccall3523 I had a feeling. I’m very interested in that path as well. The spiritual path of meditation combined with psychedelics, retreats, etc. I’ve had small spiral awakenings and glimpses of what’s possible, even through maintaining a meditation habit for a months. It’s amazing what’s possible with the mind and neuroplasticity.
There’s an element of connecting to God through those as well, regardless of what beliefs people hold.
I’m excited to hear about your journey, keep me updated! I’ll be following a similar path.
Dam gab I’m in the same boat it’s like we twins no bs
Just talk to God trust me it helps
Do you gave your energy gabe and if so,how long did it take?
Looks like it's Detroit and San Francisco in he championship! Crazy!
What a game! Detroit is gonna be around a while. Lots of good young talent.
@@gabemccall3523 we will see, it’s the lions, I’m never confident
@@craig9910 lol yeah I get that. Believe it or not I actually have a friend who’s a Lions fan and I’ve been to a 49ers Lions game with him before. He’s cautiously optimistic just like you. Either way, it was a very impressive year for them.
Whoo hoo!! Glad to see you. We missed you
Luv u bro
Stuck on kratom currently, youre kind of where i was at before.
I have to say with the weed I feel you but also if its just at night like you say...try edibles or cbd or something to bridge you.
I dont want to tell you "its not that bad" but me, once i get sober i would take 0 issue with smoking weed once or twice a day. Nothing keeps me mentally stable and proactive in recovery when im not allowed to smoke or on maintenance, and i dont want maintenance
Also you may have been physically addicted to the gabs and benzos by now. Every time you relapse the withdrawals will get worse, gaba drugs do that 4 some reason
That addiction thing gabe is the benzo ...I've been on and off these many times through it....I turn my addiction to food or smoking a shit load of cigarettes and the sleep i was maxing 3 hours a night and the porn stuff goes throughthe roof i was off the fuckers a full year and relapsed back on them.....im doing rehab just now and there using the ashton manuals on me.... love ya brother.. v for victory and god bless 🙌
What are your thoughts on Oregon State & the PAC 12???
Oh it’s sucks…. I understand why other schools left. But I’m pretty freaking mad. Like…. Really mad. Sucks as a beaver fan.