Its really refreshing to hear someone be so open and honest about their addictions and struggles in a way that feels honest and open Edit: I'm glad you got sober and very glad you had a support network of people who looked out for you
“And eventually the pharmacists stop being nice to you” LMAO. I’m not an addict but I was prescribed a controlled substance for several years, and yeah. If there was ever a hiccup with my prescription or my doctor wasn’t getting back to me, I always wound up being seen as the bad guy. They treat you like an addict even if you aren’t one, and you’ve probably noticed our society does not treat addicts well whatsoever, so there’s really no winning. Frankly glad to not be on those particular meds anymore. Thank you for taking to time to share your story with us, I’m so glad you found your way out of that. It’s an extremely difficult thing to do (and again, we definitely don’t make it easy, with how scarce recovery resources are and how badly addicts are treated) but you did it.
So proud of you. I’m so happy potroast was such an angel to you right when you needed her. Thank you for sharing this. It’s never easy and it’s never over, but that’s exactly why we have to keep holding on
How incredibly resilient of a human being are you. Congratulations on your almost 4 years of sobriety. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You have all of us rooting for you now.
The worst fear when I got prescribed my Concerta, to treat my ADHD, was that I'd become addicted because addiction runs in my family. I haven't become addicted to anything but it's still something I fear because I know addiction runs in my family. Addiction doesn't make someone evil. It is a disorder that impacts and changes your brain & its chemistry. If you're struggling with addiction, you can recover. And if you're clean I'm proud of you.
When I was in 3rd grade I started taking ADHD meds and took Adderall all throughout my life. It started to be unhealthy in 8th grade through highschool when I took multiple extended release pills a day. I wasn’t in therapy and my mother (who liked the grades I got on the medication) didn’t want to take me off the meds. She took Adderall as well and it always worked for her normally and she has always done well on any medication like anti anxiety or anti depressants. so she was a big believer in just taking the right cocktail of medication to combat negative side effects caused by other medications. The Adderall made me anxious and depressed (which I was already prone to due to family history but the Adderall seemed to heighten it all) my moms solution was to put me on other meds. She also didn’t know I was abusing the Adderall. Basically I had an early realization in my junior year that I was abusing the medication and that the side effects of anger, anxiety, depression, and just a pessimistic and hateful mindset made me feel so bad. However, I continued to take the Adderall to sustain my grades and the way of life I’d grown accustomed to on the medication. Then COVID hit mid junior year and I didn’t have a solid reason to continue taking the medication because I was out of school and there were no grades to sustain. One day I impulsively threw out my medication so I wouldn’t have access to it and continued to do so until I got through to my mom and doctor and no longer had a prescription for it. Thankfully I never knew of any people at school who sold their prescriptions so I wasn’t tempted to find other ways of getting the Adderall. My senior year sucked (partially due to the pandemic and partially due to not having stimulants) and my GPA plummeted. The only coping mechanism I had for my ADHD was Adderall. I eventually went to therapy after senior year and found coping mechanisms that didn’t involve the medication and I’ve been 100% healthier off of it than I ever was on it. Before I went to college I took a year off and really worked on myself and learned to live life off of medication. I relate to that feeling of “using cocaine but later being scared of a flu shot” because now I am weary of all medication and try to stay away from it. I don’t take prescription medication of any kind anymore (because that’s what works for me) but now if I’m in pain or dealing with allergies I will try anything else before reaching for Advil or Benadryl. These last few years of the pandemic have been terrible for so many people but I am so thankful that the world shut down because I don’t think I would’ve ever gotten to where I am now if that hadn’t happened. I do know that medication like this does help so many people but I wish it wasn’t pushed so early on or as the first or only option. I was in 3rd grade when I started taking stimulants and I feel like I was just set up (because of my individual personality) to become abusive of it. My family history of addictive personalities wasn’t a factor considered when I was prescribed an addictive controlled substance. With the ADHD meds shortage I can’t help but think maybe some (not all) people would benefit from other methods. Sorry if this is a bunch of rambles but this video just brought up a lot of my own experience! I don’t think I’ve ever heard someone really speak on what it’s like to become addicted to prescribed ADHD medication that was meant to help them but I see myself (even if just a little bit) reflected in your story. ❤
We went to PH together and i know you probably don't remember or know me but I'm so glad that your honest with your whole life. You are an amazing person and I'm so glad you have taken control of your life. Good for you :)
i love how nonchalantly funny you are even when talking about such heavy topics. i cannot imagine the strength it took to get through this. you are amazing
Thank you for sharing your story! I’ve been sober for over a year now and heard a lot of overlap with my story. I appreciate your honesty because being open, willing and honest about recovery can be hard ! Thank you
Thank you for sharing! As a young person on the sobriety journey it’s so comforting to hear stories from other young people as sometimes it feels so isolating. Glad you are doing better now ❤️
Wow....I felt like I was on adderall why you were explaining your ups and downs dealing with addiction and bio polar condition. Took adderall when my insurance would not cover provigil for CFS. Could not handle physical feeling. From what observed many individuals who take different substances which become addictive do so around the 13-14 year mark. They are actually bio polar and everything starts to change chemically. My partner was bio polar and went through much in the addiction category. You have had quite the ride.....so proud of you for all you have accomplished.....AND most of all for being you Girl! I know you are a young woman. Admire you and you have much Grace. Now I get on an entirely different level how utterly devastating losing PotRoast was/is. Love You🐾💝
My friends daughter is on Adderall. She just went through a five day Adderall induced psychosis similar to schizophrenia symptoms. Yesterday my friend text me and said my daughter is back meaning her daughter had come out of the Adderall induced psychosis. One time she went to her house and all of the covers to all the lighting in the house jad been removed. She asked her daughters husband why all the covers had been removed and he said her daughter thought there were hidden cameras behind the light covers. When she comes out of her psychotic episodes she gets defensive and says her episodes have nothing to do with Adderall. Any helpful tips on how to approach this would be helpful. Thanks
This was great. Thanks for sharing this. There's not enough compassion in the world towards people dealing with substance abuse. Be excellent to each other, and have grace for yourself.
Im so happy you decided to post this video❤ Im addicted to my phone and It’s awful. No one understands what addiction is until you’re in it. It literally feels like I can’t live without my phone, and whenever someone tried to question my addiction or tried to help I used to lash out because I’d convinced myself i needed my phone to survive. So thank you, I feel a little less lonely
Super refreshing to hear someone else talk candidly and real about addiction. I went through similar experiences with Ambien. NA and AA were great to get me started, but the whole “people” aspect was a struggle. 20 years ago now…
Wow, I’m in awe of you and your candidness. I’m very proud of you, you’re incredibly strong. I’m so happy I found you and Pot Roast during the pandemic. You and your content brought me a lot of joy in really difficult times (and still do!)! Happy Mother’s Day ❤
Thank you for sharing your story 💖 love you and your kitty babies so much~ Ironically, I also won the DARE essay contest 🙃 we all work at our own paces, and it's certainly never a straight line. Thank you for being your own amazing self 💕
I loved getting to hear more about your story! We are a similar age, live in a similar part of the country, have a similar number of cats, AND are both recovering addicts?? I appreciate you and your content and miss Pot Roast often
I also won the dare contest in elementary school (but mine was a poster making contest and not an essay). The prize was a $100 savings bond and dumbass college me thought it would be so funny to spend it all on drugs
You're a fucking queen. Thank you for your honesty and no nonsense one soded chat. I'm nearly two years sober, and was diagnosed with ADHD in December. I'm 37. Such fun. Have been doing lots of reading and research and gosh darn it, turns out I am so fucking autistic it's not even funny 😅
Hopelessly addicted to adderall. Been 15 yrs on this recovery journey. I'm petrified of not having adderall. Taking it isnt even fun anymore. 6 yrs off heroin and have quit everything but can't stop aderall. Pain is my only motivator
Gurl, the pandemmy was "good" for me too...staying at home and not being immersed in the constant pull of everybody else's needs/wants/demands/opinions/perceptions/manipulations, etc? That really really helped me.
ADHD med addiction is a problem because life sucks. College is stupid, we go through 12+ years of school to be asked what we wanna do for our lives when we haven’t had any perspective aside from sitting a desk doing whatever bs you’re told, and taking it home with you.
Just wondering where your parents were and how they didn't know you were drinking before school at 13. My parents know everything i did when I was 13. Not judging just wondering.
Its really refreshing to hear someone be so open and honest about their addictions and struggles in a way that feels honest and open
Edit: I'm glad you got sober and very glad you had a support network of people who looked out for you
This is the only Mother’s Day Video i wanted
“And eventually the pharmacists stop being nice to you” LMAO. I’m not an addict but I was prescribed a controlled substance for several years, and yeah. If there was ever a hiccup with my prescription or my doctor wasn’t getting back to me, I always wound up being seen as the bad guy. They treat you like an addict even if you aren’t one, and you’ve probably noticed our society does not treat addicts well whatsoever, so there’s really no winning. Frankly glad to not be on those particular meds anymore. Thank you for taking to time to share your story with us, I’m so glad you found your way out of that. It’s an extremely difficult thing to do (and again, we definitely don’t make it easy, with how scarce recovery resources are and how badly addicts are treated) but you did it.
So proud of you. I’m so happy potroast was such an angel to you right when you needed her. Thank you for sharing this. It’s never easy and it’s never over, but that’s exactly why we have to keep holding on
How incredibly resilient of a human being are you. Congratulations on your almost 4 years of sobriety. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You have all of us rooting for you now.
The worst fear when I got prescribed my Concerta, to treat my ADHD, was that I'd become addicted because addiction runs in my family. I haven't become addicted to anything but it's still something I fear because I know addiction runs in my family.
Addiction doesn't make someone evil. It is a disorder that impacts and changes your brain & its chemistry.
If you're struggling with addiction, you can recover. And if you're clean I'm proud of you.
When I was in 3rd grade I started taking ADHD meds and took Adderall all throughout my life. It started to be unhealthy in 8th grade through highschool when I took multiple extended release pills a day. I wasn’t in therapy and my mother (who liked the grades I got on the medication) didn’t want to take me off the meds. She took Adderall as well and it always worked for her normally and she has always done well on any medication like anti anxiety or anti depressants. so she was a big believer in just taking the right cocktail of medication to combat negative side effects caused by other medications. The Adderall made me anxious and depressed (which I was already prone to due to family history but the Adderall seemed to heighten it all) my moms solution was to put me on other meds. She also didn’t know I was abusing the Adderall. Basically I had an early realization in my junior year that I was abusing the medication and that the side effects of anger, anxiety, depression, and just a pessimistic and hateful mindset made me feel so bad. However, I continued to take the Adderall to sustain my grades and the way of life I’d grown accustomed to on the medication. Then COVID hit mid junior year and I didn’t have a solid reason to continue taking the medication because I was out of school and there were no grades to sustain. One day I impulsively threw out my medication so I wouldn’t have access to it and continued to do so until I got through to my mom and doctor and no longer had a prescription for it. Thankfully I never knew of any people at school who sold their prescriptions so I wasn’t tempted to find other ways of getting the Adderall. My senior year sucked (partially due to the pandemic and partially due to not having stimulants) and my GPA plummeted. The only coping mechanism I had for my ADHD was Adderall. I eventually went to therapy after senior year and found coping mechanisms that didn’t involve the medication and I’ve been 100% healthier off of it than I ever was on it. Before I went to college I took a year off and really worked on myself and learned to live life off of medication. I relate to that feeling of “using cocaine but later being scared of a flu shot” because now I am weary of all medication and try to stay away from it. I don’t take prescription medication of any kind anymore (because that’s what works for me) but now if I’m in pain or dealing with allergies I will try anything else before reaching for Advil or Benadryl. These last few years of the pandemic have been terrible for so many people but I am so thankful that the world shut down because I don’t think I would’ve ever gotten to where I am now if that hadn’t happened.
I do know that medication like this does help so many people but I wish it wasn’t pushed so early on or as the first or only option. I was in 3rd grade when I started taking stimulants and I feel like I was just set up (because of my individual personality) to become abusive of it. My family history of addictive personalities wasn’t a factor considered when I was prescribed an addictive controlled substance. With the ADHD meds shortage I can’t help but think maybe some (not all) people would benefit from other methods.
Sorry if this is a bunch of rambles but this video just brought up a lot of my own experience! I don’t think I’ve ever heard someone really speak on what it’s like to become addicted to prescribed ADHD medication that was meant to help them but I see myself (even if just a little bit) reflected in your story. ❤
We went to PH together and i know you probably don't remember or know me but I'm so glad that your honest with your whole life. You are an amazing person and I'm so glad you have taken control of your life. Good for you :)
i love how nonchalantly funny you are even when talking about such heavy topics. i cannot imagine the strength it took to get through this. you are amazing
You are so strong, thank you for sharing 🤍
thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this with us, so important for people to talk about addiction and show there can be an other side
Thank you for sharing your story! I’ve been sober for over a year now and heard a lot of overlap with my story. I appreciate your honesty because being open, willing and honest about recovery can be hard ! Thank you
Thank you for sharing! As a young person on the sobriety journey it’s so comforting to hear stories from other young people as sometimes it feels so isolating. Glad you are doing better now ❤️
You are absolutely the most real and genuine person on the internet and I’m extremely glad that you’re here gracing us all with your royal presence. 💖
Wow....I felt like I was on adderall why you were explaining your ups and downs dealing with addiction and bio polar condition.
Took adderall when my insurance would not cover provigil for CFS. Could not handle physical feeling.
From what observed many individuals who take different substances which become addictive do so around the 13-14 year mark. They are actually bio polar and everything starts to change chemically.
My partner was bio polar and went through much in the addiction category.
You have had quite the ride.....so proud of you for all you have accomplished.....AND most of all for being you Girl!
I know you are a young woman. Admire you and you have much Grace.
Now I get on an entirely different level how utterly devastating losing PotRoast was/is.
Love You🐾💝
Never heard of bio polar
Wow this hit home so hard. So many similar struggles. Thank you for sharing, it helps to know that while every story is different, you’re not alone.
Dude thank you so much for sharing this with us, 3 years clean ❤❤
I needed to hear this, actually, so much, thank you
NO idea what it is...but I absolutely ADORE you. Just learning more about you makes me so happy ❤ thanks for sharing darling!
Not even 10 mins into this video and I can relate SO MUCH. thank you for making this!! It’s nice to not feel alone.
I appreciate you so deeply. Thank you for sharing this.
thank you so much for being open and sharing your experience with us.
My friends daughter is on Adderall. She just went through a five day Adderall induced psychosis similar to schizophrenia symptoms. Yesterday my friend text me and said my daughter is back meaning her daughter had come out of the Adderall induced psychosis. One time she went to her house and all of the covers to all the lighting in the house jad been removed. She asked her daughters husband why all the covers had been removed and he said her daughter thought there were hidden cameras behind the light covers. When she comes out of her psychotic episodes she gets defensive and says her episodes have nothing to do with Adderall. Any helpful tips on how to approach this would be helpful. Thanks
Congratulations. I resonated with a lot. ❤
This was great. Thanks for sharing this. There's not enough compassion in the world towards people dealing with substance abuse. Be excellent to each other, and have grace for yourself.
Im so happy you decided to post this video❤ Im addicted to my phone and It’s awful. No one understands what addiction is until you’re in it. It literally feels like I can’t live without my phone, and whenever someone tried to question my addiction or tried to help I used to lash out because I’d convinced myself i needed my phone to survive. So thank you, I feel a little less lonely
Super refreshing to hear someone else talk candidly and real about addiction. I went through similar experiences with Ambien. NA and AA were great to get me started, but the whole “people” aspect was a struggle. 20 years ago now…
I love your transparency. Thank you for sharing this story.
Wow, I’m in awe of you and your candidness. I’m very proud of you, you’re incredibly strong. I’m so happy I found you and Pot Roast during the pandemic. You and your content brought me a lot of joy in really difficult times (and still do!)! Happy Mother’s Day ❤
Thank you for being so open about your experience and we're all so proud of you for getting to where you are today 💜
Thank you for being so open about it
You're doing it right. Proud of you. Thank you.
We are sooo much alike!! I’m so happy I found this video. Your amazing . I resinate with everything you said
thank you for sharing your story. i am actively struggling with addiction and hearing about your sobriety really encourages me.
Thank you for sharing your story 💖 love you and your kitty babies so much~
Ironically, I also won the DARE essay contest 🙃 we all work at our own paces, and it's certainly never a straight line. Thank you for being your own amazing self 💕
Thankyou for sharing! ❤
Yes. Fantastic video. Thank you.
Wow you’ve done soooooo well 🥹❤️ really happy for you
Congratulations on your sobriety. Thank you for sharing your story. It was very insightful.
I loved getting to hear more about your story! We are a similar age, live in a similar part of the country, have a similar number of cats, AND are both recovering addicts?? I appreciate you and your content and miss Pot Roast often
This was so sweet and vulnerable. So many people hide from this sort of openness. I thought you were cool before, but I really admire you for this.
how did you know I needed this video? love you always potroastsmom
This is my favorite podcast
All of this information only makes me love you more. The fact that you are where you are now - outstanding work 👏👏😻x
thank you for sharing this video
I also won the dare contest in elementary school (but mine was a poster making contest and not an essay). The prize was a $100 savings bond and dumbass college me thought it would be so funny to spend it all on drugs
Thank you for sharing! You’re amazing!
You're a fucking queen. Thank you for your honesty and no nonsense one soded chat. I'm nearly two years sober, and was diagnosed with ADHD in December. I'm 37. Such fun. Have been doing lots of reading and research and gosh darn it, turns out I am so fucking autistic it's not even funny 😅
Also, love the good place - such a great show!
this helped me realize that i have/had an addiction so thank you so much idk :)
wtf is wrong with you (i also wasnt talking about an addiction to adderall but okay) @stephaniewest8226
Hopelessly addicted to adderall.
Been 15 yrs on this recovery journey. I'm petrified of not having adderall. Taking it isnt even fun anymore. 6 yrs off heroin and have quit everything but can't stop aderall. Pain is my only motivator
Congratulations on your sobriety!
You’re amazing and I’m proud of you!
Thank you for sharing ❤
I love love love The Good Place so much.
Gurl, the pandemmy was "good" for me too...staying at home and not being immersed in the constant pull of everybody else's needs/wants/demands/opinions/perceptions/manipulations, etc? That really really helped me.
Are story is very very similar also diagnosed with ADHD abusing my meds and drinking at night
You’re a gorgeous gorgeous girl and I just wanna say I understand. You’re so strong
ADHD med addiction is a problem because life sucks. College is stupid, we go through 12+ years of school to be asked what we wanna do for our lives when we haven’t had any perspective aside from sitting a desk doing whatever bs you’re told, and taking it home with you.
I was pissed to find out all the cheesy “it gets better” bits were true when I got sober. Sometimes go touch grass really is the best idea lmao
libra king rocko
I take 300mg/ day sometimes. Is that a lot?
How did they diagnose you with bipolar? Did you have depressive/manic episodes while sober?
that couch looks comfy tho what's good
love you so much
Just wondering where your parents were and how they didn't know you were drinking before school at 13. My parents know everything i did when I was 13. Not judging just wondering.
2:30 scared for the both of y’all lol
Addicts that are always addicts are addicts that think they addiction was the problem
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This was so honest and relatable, thank you for sharing. I love kitty content but I would totally tune into more life experience stuff 🤍
ROCKTOBER
Congrats on staying sober 🫶 Id be curious to know how you regulate your adhd without meds, if youre ever interested in sharing that
Thank you for sharing ❤