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  • I'm telling the truth about my bottom surgery and all the complications that might follow with the having srs/grs/gcs. (Male to female transition)
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 619

  •  3 роки тому +141

    If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to leave a comment!

  • @joealexander3123
    @joealexander3123 Рік тому +183

    Is anyone else noticed how she justifies the pain she’s having six years later over and over and over again by saying with every surgery there is risk of complications and pain after. Honey, I’ve had about six or seven surgeries, and none of them are painful seven years later so I don’t know what you’re telling yourself to make yourself feel better about it but no not every surgery ends in pain in pain

    • @supernova11711
      @supernova11711 Рік тому +19

      Good for you lol. Not all surgery is the same and neither are all people. Some people WILL experience pain for years or even for the rest of their lives after surgery or injury. Everyone is different.
      I sprained my ankle when I was about 10 and I’m 41 now and STILL notice it being sore sometimes. Nothing really bad but it’s just not quite as strong as the other one. That wasn’t a surgery but same idea.
      My grandfather had hip surgery on both hips and he always had some pain afterwards, it just helped him be more mobile.
      I could go on but sure you get the point.
      She doesn’t “need” to justify anything. Her life…honey.

    • @gregpresley1466
      @gregpresley1466 Рік тому +13

      ​@@supernova11711 WHAT?😂😂😂 That was NOWHERE near the point!! Lol..

    • @englishgoddess8238
      @englishgoddess8238 Рік тому +5

      @@gregpresley1466 😂😂😂 lol I’m confused as well so for example say me and my mum had the same surgery as me. But after the surgery she could be fine but I could be in a world of pain.
      And bottom surgery is so hard to do. Major things coming happening to people when getting this done. Like the trans man who died just after surgery.
      If you got the surgery done then you should know all of the risks that could happen by your surgeon.
      If he didn’t explain theses risks then you can sue them. 😂

    • @bridaw8557
      @bridaw8557 Рік тому +3

      It’s such a shame these bad doctors don’t say they can’t do the surgery well enough yet to make it worth the risk. I hope one day soon. She and other trans people can get this corrected. If they warn others not to do it. They’re blacked balled by their own community.

    • @supernova11711
      @supernova11711 Рік тому +2

      @@gregpresley1466 How wasn’t it. She said she was “justifying” it by saying there’s risk to any surgery. I pointed out that…there IS.
      Then she went on about how SHE’S had surgery and everything is fine. Then I pointed out that it’s not the case all the time.
      I’m not sure what you’re struggling with?

  • @andreas4112
    @andreas4112 3 роки тому +120

    Hi Mathilda. I am a 62yr old trans woman. I started my transition only about 5 yrs ago and I had my SRS in April 2019. My experience was a little different. I was very lucky. Everything went very well. I had almost no pain and I did not have any complications. The experience is different from girl to girl and it depends on the method used and of course on the surgeon. Even my stay at the hospital was quite nice and no bad experience at all. Nurses were all very nice and caring. My dilation schedule was also more acceptable. I had to dilate 2 times per day for about half a year. Then I could change to once per day. Pain during dilation was never an issue. But as I told before. I was very lucky. Everything went so well. I could not be happier with the result. And I am so happy and proud of my body now! Thanks anyway for your videos. It is always nice to hear from other trans girls. So many things we experience are alike but some are different.

    • @olivialecy8295
      @olivialecy8295 3 роки тому +3

      @Paula Kyle but after a year after the operation it is necessary to dilate every day?

    • @racheal3538
      @racheal3538 3 роки тому

      Who was your surgeon?

    • @andreas4112
      @andreas4112 3 роки тому +6

      @@racheal3538 Dr. Fakin. He currently works at Ocean Clinic in Madrid and Zurich.

    • @makipri
      @makipri 2 роки тому +5

      I underwent it around the same time at the age of 39 and it was super easy as well. Lying in the bed all time caused more pain than the surgery. Noticed that when the epidural came off twice. The pain in the surgical site wasn’t very significant without it, felt more like a rash. I expected the surgery to be the most difficult thing I’ll ever endure but in the end it was a walk in the park compared to tonsillectomy. But I prepared for it by going to the gym regularly as you lose muscle mass during the hospital visit.

    • @_mxxnlight4840
      @_mxxnlight4840 2 роки тому +3

      So proud of you!! 💖

  • @noac.d.1720
    @noac.d.1720 3 роки тому +282

    Must be difficult to speak about this to the entire world, being so personal, I hope you now you help people Matilda, great video as always from you Asexual subscriber.

    •  3 роки тому +24

      It really is sometimes. Thank you

    • @cynaptyc
      @cynaptyc 3 роки тому +4

      @ I bet! Always remember this though. You are helping individuals that benefit by knowing they are not alone and maybe opening people's eyes to see that trans people are REALLY just fellow humans just trying to make their way through life too! 😉

    • @Psyopcyclops
      @Psyopcyclops 2 роки тому +1

      Literally nobody asked.

    • @kunpunko
      @kunpunko 2 роки тому +2

      @@Psyopcyclops what are you talking about? are you like twelve?

    • @Psyopcyclops
      @Psyopcyclops 2 роки тому

      @@kunpunko Considering that you can’t even read English, are you sure you’re not twelve?

  • @jclandry6933
    @jclandry6933 3 роки тому +45

    Despite your bad experience, you emerged better on the other side. Takes a brave soul to share what you endured. Great story Mathie.

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon 2 роки тому

      He's a pathetic narcissist and you are helping it along.

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому

      LOL, chump.

    • @WestCoastGeoLover
      @WestCoastGeoLover Рік тому

      Brave? We have lowered the bar for bravery. Brave: soldiers at war, people undergoing surgery to save their lives, making difficult decisions like mastectomy for cancer, police officers,...

  • @TheAlaskinKumquat224
    @TheAlaskinKumquat224 2 роки тому +35

    So much respect for you for talking about this so openly and honest

  • @LaHayeSaint
    @LaHayeSaint 3 роки тому +45

    Mathilda is very frank and concentrates on side-effects of bottom surgery but seems very pleased overall that she is now fully transitioned. I like her hair style and voice too. Another beautiful woman!

    • @bigbiafra5288
      @bigbiafra5288 2 роки тому +1

      I wonder when the baby is coming, you think there will be issues with her delivery, she has to carry it 9 months.

    • @LaHayeSaint
      @LaHayeSaint 2 роки тому +3

      @@bigbiafra5288 Ralu -- Adoption! That surprised you.

    • @bigbiafra5288
      @bigbiafra5288 2 роки тому +1

      @@LaHayeSaint Why adopt when she can give birth to her own?

    • @LaHayeSaint
      @LaHayeSaint 2 роки тому +8

      @@bigbiafra5288 Ralu (your kidding me, however) -- Bottom surgery does not involve construction or transplantation of ovaries.

    • @Becalavelle
      @Becalavelle Рік тому

      @@LaHayeSaintor womb etc etc etc

  • @rabarbosa62754
    @rabarbosa62754 3 роки тому +20

    Thanks for discussing GRS! Good to hear from your experience. Physical and mental issues, complications, and the length of time to be recovered without feeling abnormal. ✌️👍🏼

  • @ClickDecision
    @ClickDecision 3 роки тому +32

    It's honestly amazing that doctors are able to do this. I'm happy it worked out for you. If it were me I'd be so scared :o

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому +4

      It's not amazing, it's criminal. Any doctor that castrates a man should lose their license and go to prison.

    • @ClickDecision
      @ClickDecision Рік тому +2

      @Raider Of The Lost I think you likely don't understand the situation and don't want to consider anything else as itd requires you to alter your world view in a big way

    • @therealfakerickc-1393
      @therealfakerickc-1393 Рік тому +1

      @@jeremydalejon your god doesn’t have a gender. Just food for thought

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому +3

      @@ClickDecision it's evil to it's core and you support it. What does that say about you?

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому

      @@therealfakerickc-1393 Sure HE does. Jesus was a man. Try reading the Bible or any book for that matter you dunce.

  • @vblake530530
    @vblake530530 3 роки тому +96

    I’m a physician and the dilator part, though accurate made ME cringe. Still, I agree it’s important that you shared that.

    • @bryanbulmer6716
      @bryanbulmer6716 Рік тому

      Stop chopping weiners off lol.

    • @bridaw8557
      @bridaw8557 Рік тому +2

      It’s important that trans people who’ve had the surgery tell about the possible and frequent issues around these surgeries. Perhaps others would wait until the procedures are improved

  • @heathercalkins
    @heathercalkins 3 роки тому +9

    I’ve had 8 brain surgeries and many other surgeries for a condition I have with my nerves and what you say about pains after surgery is so true. Even after being “healed” you can even be affected by changes in the weather. Like you said, it’s a small price to pay. I’m not trans, but I was living in a great deal of pain so I couldn’t keep living that way either. I love your videos. Learning how others live and expanding my mind to always be as inclusive as possible in my life is important to me, and I’ve learned a lot from you. You are a beautiful woman and a bright soul. Keep making great content. 💜

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому

      Don't get surgery. Let nature take it's place. If it's time to go,it's time to go!

    • @dakotaaddison9059
      @dakotaaddison9059 3 роки тому +6

      @@newbeginning9112
      Hey cool advice, keep it to yourself, don’t tell other people what they should do with their lives, some people don’t believe the same stuff you do and that’s okay
      If we worked by your logic for me...well I’d be dead right after I was born, and I’ve gone through about 3-4 surgeries that saved my life each

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому +1

      @@dakotaaddison9059 that's not natural

    • @dakotaaddison9059
      @dakotaaddison9059 3 роки тому +3

      @@newbeginning9112
      By your logic a stomach ulcer is completely natural and I shoulda just died :/

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому

      @@dakotaaddison9059 yes

  • @pinkpriss
    @pinkpriss Рік тому +10

    Thank you so much Mathilda for sharing your brave honesty and truth. I needed to hear that in a big way! You likely just saved me from a future of regret! Blessings and love to you!

    • @Becalavelle
      @Becalavelle Рік тому +2

      Please look up the bottom surgery images on UA-cam.
      Butchering yourself sadly won’t help a mental affliction

    • @Cshaw53
      @Cshaw53 11 місяців тому +1

      @@Becalavelle Its not ''butchering'' and it's not mental affliction. Shes clearly happier after the surgery

  • @Isabelerololelalé
    @Isabelerololelalé 10 місяців тому +4

    I never had any trans friends until last year, and your videos help me to understand better what she's gonna have to deal with. It would be amazing if you could make a video about how to make the right questions at the right time in order to learn more and being able to support a trans friend without hurting them :')

  • @jeannieeakin1374
    @jeannieeakin1374 3 роки тому +23

    I don’t know how I ended up on your channel, but I’m glad I did. I love your content and think you are an awesome person. I completely understand how you felt in the hospital, I endured a very complicated twin pregnancy and spent months in the hospital connected to tubes and monitors and feeling the side effects of drugs they were giving me to stop preterm labor. They were constantly waking me up to do menial tests and making noise, i felt like I could never get any sleep. And then there was the constant exams by multiple doctors, nurses, specialists. And they even brought in students to examine me. They would lift the sheet and the door of my room would be open and I could see people passing in the hallway. Like you said, it was degrading. My twins are normal healthy 22 year old men now, but I still remember clearly my awful time in the hospital.

    •  3 роки тому +5

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @dakotaaddison9059
      @dakotaaddison9059 3 роки тому +1

      Same, I ended up in the hospital for about a week or more, I had gone in for emergency surgery due to a ruptured stomach ulcer around 2018, I absolutely hated not being allowed to eat or drink, they hardly even gave me ice chips, I fucking craved those so hard at the time too

    • @TrishDigginsDesign
      @TrishDigginsDesign 3 роки тому +2

      Hospitals - the only place I’ve ever been woken up in order to be able to take a sleeping pill. LOL

    • @VeronicaGorositoMusic
      @VeronicaGorositoMusic 2 роки тому +1

      @@TrishDigginsDesign so ffffing true!

  • @illylilly8491
    @illylilly8491 2 роки тому +6

    Thank you so much for this video. I just got my surgeon and I am working on fullfilling the requirements that he gave me to have before the surgery. It feels really good to finally be on the right track to getting this done. I haven't been this happy in a while. But I really have been wanting to get so info from people that have first hand perspective. Thanks for this video. ☺️

    • @bryanbulmer6716
      @bryanbulmer6716 Рік тому +1

      No lilly, don't go to the dark side... Lol

    • @illylilly8491
      @illylilly8491 Рік тому

      @@bryanbulmer6716 5 more days. I'm excited

  • @rabarbosa62754
    @rabarbosa62754 3 роки тому +26

    Your personal experience is valuable to all genders and that includes me! 🤭
    I underwent the same type of surgery women go through when they have an Hysterectomy, my experience was for a man.
    My recovery took many (4-5) years before my body calmed down and my mental acceptance of the changed became normal. I feel good about myself, the mental aspect normalized, and physically I know how to move forward.
    Thank you for your perspective through these VLOGs.

  • @lynch702000
    @lynch702000 3 роки тому +3

    I'm glad you're happy with your post op stuff. What a lot of people don't first consider is that the pelvic structure of a biological female is shaped differently so they can have babies. bone surgery is really bad so I don't recommend it. That's why the dilation process is important for mtf. Secondly, the doctors in almost all surgeries bunch up the skin and staple or stitch it, which causes all kinds of problems. It leaves nerves exposed. Think how much a tooth cavity hurts. The tissue should be interlaced like your fingers providing a growth potential for the nerves. It also reduces the risk of bacterial growth in the folds. The patient, in my opinion, should be kept in a medically induced coma and immobilized for a few weeks. That way the skin is allowed to grow together without tearing apart. It also reduces the embarrassment issue. Also, think of when you get a bad cut and they fold the skin over to stitch together. Outside skin tissue does not bond to each other. That's why your fingers and toes stay separated. Micro slicing and interweaving is the way of the future. Just my humble thoughts

  • @megyumiyoshi1062
    @megyumiyoshi1062 3 роки тому +9

    Thank you so much for being open and share your personal experience with us

  • @taylornicole7845
    @taylornicole7845 3 роки тому +10

    I had emergency surgery and spend 2 months in the hospital and just didn't feel like a human at all. After a month of being there I finally got to shower ... expect it was other people showering me. While I love and appreciate the nurse so much for helping me I have completed blocked it all out of my brain and barely have any memories from it. Hospitals are dehumanizing in general without even meaning to!

  • @quitherisguy
    @quitherisguy 3 роки тому +32

    Eeee I'm early!
    By the way I love your videos, they explain a lot and plus I love how pretty and optimistic you are!✨

  • @sharpsvilleBill
    @sharpsvilleBill 3 роки тому +70

    Mathilda, as an RN I can tell you (and you know) when you check into a hospital you check your modesty at the door. Unfortunate fact of life. You look beautiful today!

    • @Jade-5713
      @Jade-5713 3 роки тому +1

      So true !

    • @williamgibb5557
      @williamgibb5557 3 роки тому +4

      Med school teaches you ,no modesty in the medical field!

    • @jeanspeer4053
      @jeanspeer4053 3 роки тому +5

      I was going to say when I Had my kids everyone including practically the janitor came in to look down there 👇 after awhile it was like who else wants to look 👀! I feel ya!

    • @DanielleNicoleMakeup
      @DanielleNicoleMakeup 3 роки тому +1

      @@jeanspeer4053 IKR! I was thinking about women having childbirth, papsmeres, and periods on the daily. Painful, embarrassing, and super uncomfortable!

    • @AcousticCircle
      @AcousticCircle 3 роки тому +7

      I know what you meant to say, but I also want to stress that this "fact" is not a given. Doctors are taught that it's okay to be that way and maybe the health system also requires it because there isn't enough time, but I actually refuse to accept that I get treated like a piece of meat when I'm at a hospital. It's bad enough to be miserable because of a surgery or illness. No need to strip the person of their dignity, too. I think this is something medical school should actually focus more on (or at all).

  • @julia-fp2xi
    @julia-fp2xi 3 роки тому +6

    Uhh you're so pretty, i cant (but also what you're saying is super informative and thank you lots for that) 💕💫

  • @slowshop
    @slowshop 3 роки тому +12

    Very educational M.H. This kind of brutally honest videos will be much appreciated by a bigger audience, I think. Ha det gött!

  • @ARSA525
    @ARSA525 3 роки тому +6

    I don't get feeling degraded by hospital stay. I was hospitalized for nearly a week for seizures, and I didn't feel degraded at all. I felt lucky that I had all these professionals around me for so long and help me in case something happens, and helping me transition to a new life with a chronic illness I had to deal with.

    • @dakotadunedain5098
      @dakotadunedain5098 3 роки тому +1

      A group of strangers also weren't pulling your blankets and gown up to stare at your genitals like a piece of meat as they please.... I can't believe someone had to explain this

  • @ZavierFray
    @ZavierFray 3 роки тому +5

    you helped me respect myself as transgender thank you

  • @rileywoolhouse3009
    @rileywoolhouse3009 3 роки тому +6

    Thank you matelda u have helped me through this year with my Gender dysphoria watching ur videos have made it easier in 2020 with the Coronavirus in all i just wanted to tell u it was a lot easier to finally tell my family and with that said I now have my family support u have helped me more then u will ever know thank you

  • @re575817
    @re575817 Рік тому

    Nature can be evil. Pain sucks Thank you so much for being so open. Your husband is a very luck person. Remember personalities change. Always work on that on that. Always hug each other.

  • @danyellelove9285
    @danyellelove9285 3 роки тому +3

    Hi Mathilda!! First off I just want to say that I love watching your videos! I also want to say that I am open minded and my curiosity is through the roof, lol, little embarrassed to say that, but not really. Anyhow, I watch a lot of transgender videos so I could learn and understand, and no disrespect to other transgenders, but I must say you are the most natural, beautiful, outspoken, funny, courageous trans woman (woman) I’ve seen!! I would never think or believe you were trans and the information you put out about your life/experiences is just amazing and very informative. Stay being you and keep putting out your wonderful content!!! Much love 🤟🏼

  • @mr.speyside5240
    @mr.speyside5240 2 роки тому +9

    It’s almost as if your body wasn’t designed to maintain a wound that never completely heals. 🤔

  • @TailGreat
    @TailGreat 3 роки тому +5

    This whole thing must be costly, financially and emotionally, like seriously it mustve been very expensive

    • @jakehoot8811
      @jakehoot8811 3 роки тому

      Its free in her country due to healthcare

  • @cripheponine
    @cripheponine 3 роки тому +12

    Another video of Mathilda Obviously is what I needed! :)

  • @Kya_._Papaya
    @Kya_._Papaya 3 місяці тому

    I thank God that I didnt ever get any surgeries. I just went through 2.5 years of hrt hormones(mtf) and just fot my bottom surgery scheduled. Instead of being happy I was filled with dread. I just decided that I dont not only want the surgery but do not want to be on hrt for the rest of my life. Finding self love, I am now happy with the fact that I was born a biological male and look forward to getting my health back. Hrt is no joke and these surgeries are lunacy

  • @unsalted_pepper550
    @unsalted_pepper550 3 роки тому +4

    Not only surgery, but even scars can hurt long after the wound has healed. I have a fully healed scar on my knee from like a decade ago and it still hurts from time to time

  • @sl.ame.derisoire
    @sl.ame.derisoire 3 роки тому +17

    I laughed every time you tried to say the things while staying PG 😁
    Thanks for always sharing your experiences with us ❣

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому

      How long have you been a homosexual? How did your dad react to the news?

    • @sl.ame.derisoire
      @sl.ame.derisoire Рік тому

      @@jeremydalejon Never been a homosexual and my dad never had to react to any news he was dead when I came out as everything I had to came out as

    • @Imnotmadeofclaysorry
      @Imnotmadeofclaysorry 3 місяці тому

      @@jeremydalejonur so embarrassing

  • @efx245precor3
    @efx245precor3 3 роки тому +32

    Thank you so much. Having the surgery in January 2021.

    • @eternallove7
      @eternallove7 3 роки тому +3

      so excited for you! tell me how it goes!

    • @Showtime-dt4ui
      @Showtime-dt4ui 3 роки тому +3

      Good luck my dude
      Edit: (dude is a gender neutral term)

    • @cameronthemaneron784
      @cameronthemaneron784 3 роки тому +1

      yaaaaay!!!!!

    • @longbeachwoman
      @longbeachwoman 3 роки тому

      Why..? Don’t. I’ve heard people are never truly happy with it. Good luck

    • @efx245precor3
      @efx245precor3 3 роки тому +5

      @@longbeachwoman Well I’ve been truly unhappy with the current parts for so many years can’t wait to rid them.

  • @meagain1112
    @meagain1112 2 роки тому +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your own experience. What a beautiful journey you have allowed us to follow. I have a very close transgender friend and I’m researching all I can about it. You have helped me understand so much more, so thank you!

  • @timkelly6985
    @timkelly6985 Рік тому +6

    Any surgeon that will remove a healthy body part show lose their license.

  • @albertoplata1319
    @albertoplata1319 3 роки тому +4

    Very insightful. Just appreciative of the straight forward blend of personal experience. Much love and respect to you.

  • @thenamescara64
    @thenamescara64 3 роки тому +39

    Thank you for making this video Mathilda, I’m a cis female that is trying to educate themselves about this topic! Could you possibly make a video on mtf top surgery, as there doesn’t seem to be many of those videos on youtube?

    • @Skye_YTT
      @Skye_YTT 3 роки тому

      Top surgery is basically the same as getting chest implants as a cis female

    • @JesusIsStillTheAnswer
      @JesusIsStillTheAnswer 2 роки тому +3

      no. your an ACTUAL woman, not a cis

    • @Amelia-jl4db
      @Amelia-jl4db 2 роки тому

      What makes a woman a woman? If your so sure about that give me a foolproof answer

    • @kunpunko
      @kunpunko 2 роки тому +3

      @@JesusIsStillTheAnswer she is a cis woman. trans women are women. why are you on this video if you don’t know anything? just to be disrespectful?

    • @Shin-iv6yc
      @Shin-iv6yc Рік тому +2

      @@kunpunko Trans women are trans women, no women. There're even trans women out there with such an insane level of self awareness that they admit this fact.

  • @grimkitty9990
    @grimkitty9990 2 роки тому +2

    I think if your getting pains then you should see the doctor again because it could be some stitches that could be wrong , but yeah just consult with your doctor and you most likely fix the problem

  • @justinea4714
    @justinea4714 3 роки тому +10

    they should make like a numbing lube to help with dilating so it won’t hurt

  • @glmike523
    @glmike523 3 місяці тому

    I had "Open Heart surgery" just over three years ago and I still have periodic "stabbing" pains. Quite annoying but
    manageable. I had to put all my personal feelings aside and came to realize you have no personal space because doctors, nurses, and others check you out constantly. Pipes coming out of your chest, IV in several spots including your neck. Just a total embarrassment. But, I was only in the hospital for 3 days, with NO pain. All the pain came months later.

  • @paularcher4607
    @paularcher4607 3 роки тому +9

    I had always heard the dilation process involved included increasing the size of the dilators as your body got used to the smaller (starter) unit.

    • @RemyRAD
      @RemyRAD 3 роки тому +2

      Well yes and no. You don't wait for your body to get used to anything. You get like five sizes.. Like your fingers only larger. Much larger.
      And it goes like this:
      1) grab smallest dilator in circumference. Apply judicious amounts of KY lube and insert. All the way. Don't push too hard. Working around a little old. Do that for about 5 minutes. Then exhale, relax, remove. Don't hold your breath that long. It's not recommended.
      2) grab the next larger dilator. Repeat Step #1.
      3) grab the next larger dilator. Repeat Step #2.
      4) grab the next larger dilator. Repeat Step #1 & 2.
      5) grab the next larger dilator. Ouch! Put down that dilator. Unless you're into S & M. I'm not. And well, no Ron Jeremy for me. Oh well.
      6) No regrets.
      7) No regrets.
      8) and vamp out.
      And that's how it goes multiple times per day for the first few months or year or year and 1/2 or the next 5 years or 10 perhaps 20 or more. But only once a day. If you still have any energy. Or once a week. Or once a month. Or just forget it. Because it's never going to be like the real one/ones.
      I got mine a couple of decades ago. Unfortunately my husband died of 22 years. Some of us were actually faithful and loyal and dignified. Not all. I was. And I'm very happy. No complications at all. No static at all. I worked in FM.
      And I have my own Steely Dan. I like plugging into sockets still. And 4 major music award nominations later. I guess I'm pretty good at that. Not much on the pretty side though. My engineering is pretty. Like this:
      soundcloud.com/remyrad/somtimesa-session-1-over-the-tr-fm
      it sort of sounds like an NBC-TV broadcast. But it's not. There's a good reason why it sounds that way though. It's one of their audio consoles and one of their engineers of 20 years, me. Enjoy I sure do. It feels good to me. Was it good for you? It's real. It's live. No pretty makeup manicures or remixing. This is all raw baby! This is the way I roll.
      Ya MON!
      RemyRAD

  • @dalegraham2534
    @dalegraham2534 Рік тому

    I have had surgeries in multiple areas of my body and pain was gone within six months each time. You have done something to your body which it was not designed for. I sure hope you are up front with your boy friend about your surgery so he knows what to expect.

  • @8flyhawk
    @8flyhawk 3 роки тому +6

    Thanks so much for all these informational videos Mathilda! I'm currently starting my transition and all your videos have been a huge help to give me an idea of what I can expect going forward! Love your videos, love your style, love you! Much love

  • @conniemcintosh6247
    @conniemcintosh6247 2 роки тому +1

    Coming up on two months post op and so far so good. I only spent a day and a half in the hospital and I went home with the catheter and the packing. I went back the following week and had all that removed and after I got my dialator instructions I was sent home. I had a really good surgeon and the staff at the UNC transgender care unit was top notch. A lot of stuff has changed.

  • @nicolemichellenewman4699
    @nicolemichellenewman4699 3 роки тому +9

    My wife said the same thing when she gave birth, after her C section. Maybe it is fitting as we are helping give birth to a new person. But that feeling is real and I'm glad you told us about it. I have not had my GCS yet. This is very good info.

    • @the.foxglove
      @the.foxglove 3 роки тому

      Yeah I agree with this - reminds me of childbirth

    • @Virginia.50
      @Virginia.50 Рік тому

      Birth pain ain't nothing to do with this

  • @Figsforfun
    @Figsforfun 2 роки тому +4

    The complications came from the surgery, saying otherwise is lying.

  • @8flyhawk
    @8flyhawk 3 роки тому +20

    I've heard that the gauze packing they have in the area after the surgery can be very painful to remove after surgery, how bad did you find it if you don't mind me asking?

    •  3 роки тому +13

      I didn't find it too bad actually, a little bit uncomfortable, however I wouldn't say painful.

    • @8flyhawk
      @8flyhawk 3 роки тому +2

      @ Thanks so much, I have a good pain threshold but have heard it's bad and saw a video of a woman getting it out and very much not enjoying it so am glad to have a second opinion on it!

    • @katywalker8322
      @katywalker8322 3 роки тому +4

      Seems to vary. Most people don’t seem to have a major issue.
      Personally, catheter removal was the most painful part (and frankly, a lot less painful than minor dental work)

    • @VeronicaGorositoMusic
      @VeronicaGorositoMusic 2 роки тому

      @@8flyhawk I've felt no pain in that stage, then the 1st dilation was the, no pain.
      Then at hotel it became hard, stressful as shoulder pains arised as a consequence....

  • @rockmemama86
    @rockmemama86 3 роки тому +3

    Might be a little awkward but look into getting some pelvic floor massage/therapy. They wear gloves and massage the muscles of the pelvic floor. It can incorporate anything from the belly button to the mid thigh inside and out. You need to release the trigger points from your scar tissue. Over time you will see major improvements if you stay regular with it:)

  • @DavidGS66
    @DavidGS66 3 роки тому +4

    I heard a small # of laser eye surgery patients have so much pain, that they are literally driven to suicide. We need ways to screen surgery patients for this.

    • @supernova11711
      @supernova11711 Рік тому

      Wow! That’s terrible, I’ve never heard of that before.

  • @StellaRaeVon
    @StellaRaeVon Рік тому +4

    ... And some people NEVER achieve "the Big O" after SRS

  • @dakota3841
    @dakota3841 3 роки тому +74

    i would just pretend the pains are my peroid

    • @Transgurl
      @Transgurl 3 роки тому +2

      same

    • @corneliakobilke4638
      @corneliakobilke4638 3 роки тому +2

      More like an std…. Menstrual cramps don’t happen in your vagina

    • @moimui
      @moimui 3 роки тому +6

      Speak for yourself, I get cramps in my vagina.

    • @mykah9333
      @mykah9333 2 роки тому +1

      @@moimui Felt that.

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon 2 роки тому +22

      you said it right, "pretend". That describes these people's entire lives...a lifetime of pretending they are something they aren't.

  • @williamrandall3786
    @williamrandall3786 3 роки тому +15

    You are amazing..You have really made me see a transgender as exactly whom they wish to be and have become...You are amazing...

  • @myrealcalifornialife7458
    @myrealcalifornialife7458 3 роки тому +4

    I am new to the channel, I’m not sure why all these male to female videos came across my recommendation but I subbed. You are absolutely beautiful. 😘😘😘

  • @lordreega8994
    @lordreega8994 3 роки тому +4

    The fact that I'm still interested should be proof enough for me, yet me internalized transphobia and my social anxiety are still fighting it.

    • @sofiaormbustad7467
      @sofiaormbustad7467 3 роки тому +3

      You could take some tests online or ask psychiatrists/psycologs online. Try to talk about it and if it is serious I recommend going to a doctor. I felt like my doctor was really great to be the first to talk to.

    • @sofiaormbustad7467
      @sofiaormbustad7467 3 роки тому +2

      Doing nothing is the worst ever though

    • @danielgillooly2748
      @danielgillooly2748 3 роки тому +1

      @@sofiaormbustad7467 I agree, talking about things and searching the other side matters so much.
      As a straight Mexican/white male Christian, I would say fight it!
      But I am not your mentor obviously, if you need to talk, find some people with differing views as well, going gung ho too far either way can problematic or even end up at Jonestown lol
      But I can guarantee that you were made just as God designed you, and you're beautifully and wonderfully made at that, a miracle, in fact.

  • @eddieramos6883
    @eddieramos6883 3 роки тому +3

    The way you explain it is like there are two "transitions" so to speak: The mental transition and the genital "transition " ( Time that takes for that "area" to accommodate to its new use ) . This is not a hate comment.

    • @VeronicaGorositoMusic
      @VeronicaGorositoMusic 2 роки тому

      Yeah i know what you implied. 3 TRANSITIONS:
      The way they say.
      The way it's known.
      The way it is FOR REAL.

  • @Leonardo-cw1dd
    @Leonardo-cw1dd 2 роки тому +3

    this is definitely helpful for someone that is researching and/or deciding on getting bottom surgery

  • @RachelPeacock
    @RachelPeacock 3 роки тому +9

    I'd do absolutely anything to get this surgery..
    Probably sell my car and take out a loan if I don't get the funds by surgery date.
    Happy for you girl! Mega jealous

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому +5

      Delusional

    • @dakotaaddison9059
      @dakotaaddison9059 3 роки тому +8

      @@newbeginning9112 you didn’t need to say shit, leave the queen alone

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому

      @@dakotaaddison9059😂 queen is current 🤣 you do know that a slang towards them LMAO. I'm proud of you. You're transphobic and you don't know it.🤣

    • @newbeginning9112
      @newbeginning9112 3 роки тому

      @Onyx 2020 I love pain! It makes me happy 😊.

    • @solar2000
      @solar2000 3 роки тому

      @@newbeginning9112 Get a job.

  • @NickCADA
    @NickCADA 3 роки тому +2

    I just hope you can be happy being who you are.

  • @KamillaMirabelle
    @KamillaMirabelle 9 місяців тому

    @Mathilda as a pre op transwomen.. it is nice to hear an honost take on SRS

  • @selenearriaga3135
    @selenearriaga3135 3 роки тому +2

    Glad you were able to get the big O. I had my surgery oct 3rd 2020. Recently made 2 months healed and I've reached the big O already. For me tho I've always had a higher sex drive and it stood even after surgery. Altho I haven't explored sexually with anyone yet I've explored my new bestie and just figuring it all out.

  • @darrellkeck8613
    @darrellkeck8613 3 роки тому +5

    Wish I could really do a q&a with you. I have so many questions and need one really informed trans woman to help me with different details of my transitioning

  • @amyemerson
    @amyemerson 7 місяців тому

    Post-operative serious treatment adverse events are directly related to the surgery. Had the surgery not occurred, the complications would be inexistent.
    The long-term risks here are incredibly worrisome.
    The risk of infection, urogenital issues, vasculature abnormalities and various cancers from the overuse of hormones will likely increase with age.
    Is there any data on presumed life expectancy after a full transition? If not, medical providers should be having these discussions.
    The long-term adverse events from knee surgery are incomparable to this surgery, essentially one is dramatically modifying reproductive and urinary systems…not just a singular bone…rather reassembling systems which will suffer total loss or reduced functionality.
    With a shorten urethra, it is predictable that there will be serious kidney problems in the future.
    I guess we will have to wait 20 years to really measure if the benefits have outweighed the risks.

  • @natalieclark6027
    @natalieclark6027 3 роки тому +1

    Hello. Love your videos. Even if my experience doesn't end up being exactly like yours, it's still nice to hear about yours, and other's experiences.

  • @garym3863
    @garym3863 3 роки тому

    Great Work On the topic Mathilda, you answered some of the questioned I had. Thank you

  • @daliaelena1525
    @daliaelena1525 3 роки тому +1

    This is the first video I see on your canal and I just wanted to say: you are really beautiful 😍

  • @robinhajek1850
    @robinhajek1850 3 роки тому +3

    Hi Mathilda. This was a good video. Lots of useful information.
    I think that when/if I get SRS I will have a zero-depth vaginoplasty. I think that is all I need, and having to do all that dilation sounds awful.

  • @Serra-Chan
    @Serra-Chan 3 роки тому +4

    Hey Mathilda, i find it lovely what you're doing and i think it helps a lot of people that are in the situation of transitioning or for others to understand it.
    I would find it interesting to see what difference there are between Germany and Sweden or an other country, like how long you must be in a therapy before you can go to a gynecologist and start your HRT (1 year here in Germany by law and also different stuff)? Do you also need 2 separate indications written by psychologists for your gynecologist to start your HRT? What is the minimum you must wait to get your SRS after you started the HRT(1 year in Germany so the body can adapt to the HRT)? There are many other topics that could make nice videos and help others like changing the name and gender for your ID cart, also here in Germany we have something called "Ergänzungsausweis" supplementary card before you officially change your name and gender on your ID cart and other documents.

  • @anniew4105
    @anniew4105 Рік тому

    I hope you feel better ❤

  • @1974dodgecharger
    @1974dodgecharger Рік тому +5

    Surgery will never make you happy.
    Don’t ever volunteer to lop off body parts people that’s insane

  • @abrshsagna6432
    @abrshsagna6432 Рік тому +3

    But whyyyyyyyyy? All the entire life in pain.

  • @locasiare
    @locasiare 3 роки тому +3

    Thank you so much for sharing this with us 🙏 and that you are happy!

  • @thecaseylwest
    @thecaseylwest 3 роки тому +2

    Here for the algorithm stayed for the info I have no clue about. Also look into getting stem cell injections for your downstairs.

    • @samuelmagnum6047
      @samuelmagnum6047 3 роки тому

      It's called vagina, not "downstairs"

    • @dakotaaddison9059
      @dakotaaddison9059 3 роки тому

      @@samuelmagnum6047 I’m sure the guy knows, cut him some slack it can be embarrassing having to say it out loud for certain people sometimes 😊

  • @ConserveMore
    @ConserveMore 3 роки тому +6

    The LGBT community has made so much progress over the past 20 years. I'm so glad that you can share your story with other people so they can make decisions after being informed.

  • @isabella9654
    @isabella9654 Рік тому +2

    Thanks so much! I'm having my top surgery April 28th and I've highly considered bottom surgery for sometime in the future as it's definitely something I want. Although, I'm still nervous and wonder if I should wait until they have more advanced medical education on the m-t-f side of bottom surgery. I've heard through my endocrinologist that f-t-m bottom surgery is much more advanced in the way of it being better understood and performed. I'm open to any opinions/knowledge from others or Mathilda.

    • @supernova11711
      @supernova11711 Рік тому

      Congratulations!!! I hope everything went well!
      I’m 3 months post of but I’m not trans or anything. Was just a double A cup and wanted an enhancement 😊. Wasn’t too bad but be prepared that they will heal at different rates and differences between the two breasts will exist. We aren’t born perfectly symmetrical and surgery doesn’t “fix” that lol
      My very undereducated opinion would be to wait. I’ve wanted implants for 20 years but waited until they seemed quite a bit more advanced. I’m glad I did. I know it’s different but I do kind of understand. I was born a woman and have always loved being one but felt my body didn’t completely fit me because I never had breasts. I’m 41 now and that never went away.
      Your health is the most important thing though. Who knows what could change in 5-10 years! They might come up with safer more effective surgeries…especially with so many people wanting to transition now, they tend to put their focus where the money is.
      If your mental health starts to decline because of it then that will definitely weigh into it but hopefully top surgery will help with that.
      Best wishes to you 💕

  • @ath3na.64
    @ath3na.64 3 роки тому +3

    I've wondered about the pains that can happen after SRS surgeries- just like they can happen with any surgery. I had 2 spinal fusions and I've heard that some people can live normal lives after the healing process is finally over, but I'm not disabled, have chronic pain, and a good portion of my back [mostly the upper/middle area] is still numb because my nerves never healed fully.
    Anyway, thank you for sharing your experience and being brave enough to talk about it publicly. I'm sure you're helping lots of trans younglings who are still figuring themselves out or looking into what kind of surgery they might want to get. [:

    • @makipri
      @makipri 2 роки тому

      Normally the pain isn’t that much of a big deal. My tonsillectomy was a lot more difficult to recover from. Still, the recovery and the pain varies from person to another.
      I expected GRS to be the most difficult thing I’ll ever endure, allocated seven neighbours to help during the recovery but never needed the help at all. No problems after going back home, but you lose a lot of muscle mass during the hospital visit. And you’re not supposed to sit for a couple of months, only in short amounts with a donut shaped pillow.

  • @johnchristianson515
    @johnchristianson515 3 роки тому +4

    Sounds like a mixture of phantom limb pain, normal pain that comes with sex, and possibly a few nerves getting crossed and randomly firing from being placed wrong during SRS. I can't say anything definitive since the most difficult surgery i ever had was a leg surgery where they put a metal cage around my leg for six months that i still have bone pain twenty years later.

  • @pollyannaprinciple5860
    @pollyannaprinciple5860 Рік тому +1

    My sister's former coworker (MTF) had her bottom surgery in another country and after her recovery, she didn't have complications. Also, I knew someone who had the FTM bottom surgery and he had major complications ongoing. Seems like it depends on how skilled the doctor is.

    • @MagdalenaTheremin
      @MagdalenaTheremin Рік тому

      It depends of someones healing abilities and operation technic. Those surgeons who can perform this kind of surgery are very skilled. You cannot blame them.

    • @adjualove9257
      @adjualove9257 Рік тому +1

      ​@@MagdalenaThereminHOW DO YOU KNOW ALL DOCTORS' SKILL LEVEL?!😂 THERE ALWAYS GOING TO BE DOCTORS THAT ARE BETTER SKILLED THAN OTHERS IN ANY SPECIALTY!

  • @L1a7even
    @L1a7even 2 роки тому +10

    surgically mutilated male.
    pharmacologically-dependent.

  • @liamodonovan6610
    @liamodonovan6610 3 роки тому +46

    Love you Matilda your always stunning and interesting

  • @gailwagner8115
    @gailwagner8115 3 роки тому +1

    Wow, dilation sounds horrible! I mean I have had paps and such but it's not an open wound and not 3 times a day!! The O thing is not always easy for women born woman either.. so welcome to womanhood.. ❤️

  • @AlexanderHate
    @AlexanderHate 3 роки тому

    Tnx for information Mathilda 💯☺️you are awesome, I love your channel.♥️♥️♥️

  • @Sionapink48
    @Sionapink48 3 роки тому

    Just the thought of knives in my private area give me nightmares but I must say your strong. Soon I shall walk the same path ☺️

  • @harpomianre6228
    @harpomianre6228 3 роки тому +2

    My question was the surgery worth it? More sexual enjoyment before or after? I think that is important for other transexual people that want to transition. Should they not get the surgery or should they? Either way they can be in a loving relationship.

  • @linalindbladh8529
    @linalindbladh8529 Рік тому

    No its not common you get pain in the place when you do 'any' surgery. Ive had many and I don't have any issues.

  • @Evelaraevia
    @Evelaraevia 3 роки тому +2

    How are you even supposed to work if you have to dilate so much .-. There is no way a company would allow you to take 3 months off of work for something like that. At least not in the USA...

  • @ericktorres4055
    @ericktorres4055 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you for sharing, honesty

  • @morelove619
    @morelove619 3 роки тому +1

    i love the way you talk:)

  • @Tomken8d2
    @Tomken8d2 3 роки тому

    Study Tantra. If you can afford it, go to a Tantra master. Being in a group of other transwomen can actually make it easier. Mutual support and learning to be comfortable in your "new" body. I didn't want to say "being open" or "opening up" to others but that's exactly what it is, figuratively and literally. A group "big O" where you share and build up your "O" energy together can be an amazing experience. I learned how to "Tantra" many years ago and I assure you it's real and it works. I did it as a male though to delay my "O" and do a Tantric "edging." My GF at the time yelled at me in frustration, "JUST C-M ALREADY!" because I kept expelling my ":charge" and she was getting sore. Srysly, no boast.

  • @TravelBreakthrough
    @TravelBreakthrough 3 роки тому +2

    Wow im sorry you had to go through this but since this is what you want it’s all good

  • @Andythenurse
    @Andythenurse 3 роки тому +2

    Interesting that similar number of cis women struggle to climax too. I wonder if hormones or psychological make up plays a part.

  • @stefaniea.5903
    @stefaniea.5903 3 роки тому +5

    Did you worked on your voice? I had speech therapy but my voice isnt still anywhere near a female voice. 😥

    • @ellenzvolska5529
      @ellenzvolska5529 3 роки тому

      I bet your voice is beautiful! I believe in you girl 🥰xx

  • @philiphawkins1442
    @philiphawkins1442 3 роки тому +1

    You are an amazing person and great video as always

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому

      You're flirting with a man Spanky.

    • @philiphawkins1442
      @philiphawkins1442 Рік тому

      @@jeremydalejon hahaha lol 🤣🤣🤣 you think I’m flirting her then I’m so but No! It’s taken you 2 years to say that. Your so funny 🤣

    • @jeremydalejon
      @jeremydalejon Рік тому

      @@philiphawkins1442 Yes you are homosexual.

    • @philiphawkins1442
      @philiphawkins1442 Рік тому

      Yeah I know I am. But I have friends who are gay, lesbian bi, transsexual and others what’s wrong with that?

    • @philiphawkins1442
      @philiphawkins1442 Рік тому

      @@jeremydalejon I’m not a Homosexual I am a straight guy. You are a Homosexual person. You like it hahaha 😂

  • @trenchdigger59xzy
    @trenchdigger59xzy 3 роки тому

    Any type of major surgery hurts even afterwards. However ya do feel vulnerable while spending long periods in the hospital.

  • @jehuveronica4546
    @jehuveronica4546 3 роки тому +1

    Yes another vid ❤

  • @LussiDragon777
    @LussiDragon777 Рік тому

    You are beautiful and amazing, and I thank you for all that you do ❤❤❤

  • @irenebernardi3954
    @irenebernardi3954 3 роки тому +2

    Do you think you may have vulvodynia? I suffer from it and your symptoms sound somewhat similar?

  • @Starlababy
    @Starlababy 3 роки тому +4

    Well we are not ment to have surgery on our private parts.

    • @andreas4112
      @andreas4112 3 роки тому +3

      Well we are not ment to be born in the wrong body!!

    • @jimmyhigh6897
      @jimmyhigh6897 3 роки тому +1

      @@andreas4112 You arent. You are you. You "think" you were. Facts over feelings.

    • @jimmyhigh6897
      @jimmyhigh6897 3 роки тому +1

      Its amazing this even needs to be said. Up is down and down is up these days

    • @moanalisa3694
      @moanalisa3694 2 роки тому

      @@jimmyhigh6897 there actually is plenty of facts that prove you wrong its not that hard to google.weird of you to think you know how someone else feels .

  • @isabellehanlon8932
    @isabellehanlon8932 3 роки тому +3

    Having occasional pain is very much part of being a woman unfortunately. :/