The Truth About My Bottom Surgery (SRS/Vaginoplasty) | Male to Female Transition Update

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  • The Truth About My Bottom Surgery (SRS/Vaginoplasty)
    Male to Female Transition Update
    Instagram & Twitter: @_samanthalux
    this video was created with the intent to educate on lower surgery for transgender individuals. this surgery is deemed medically necessary for many reasons, not purely sexual reasons. this video focuses on aspects other than the sexual ones.
    hi everyone, yes... this is exactly what it seems lol. i wanted to make this video to help any of my trans sisters out there, or even anyone else that's curious, and give my honest experience having my gender-affirming surgery. i've kept some stuff to myself, and it really isn't fair- so here you go! let me know in the comments if you still have questions :)

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  • @_samanthalux
    @_samanthalux  4 роки тому +565

    feel free to ask any (appropriate) questions! I love u guys thank u for the support 💓 Instagram: @_samanthalux

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 роки тому +30

      I'm trans and the cost is CRAZY!!! Would you recommend the bottom surgery despite the cost and if it gets botched? bc that's what I'm afraid of the most.

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 роки тому +90

      @@marcusshaffer7814 definitely don't choose a surgeon based on price! you only get one chance, pick a surgeon you trust with your life

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 роки тому +29

      @@_samanthalux ok I'm still in the closet but I'm planning for the future and ik I'm what I'm gonna get but like I'm still a little scared if the surgeries get botched

    • @The_Boogi3man69
      @The_Boogi3man69 4 роки тому +2

      Are you single 😏

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 роки тому +11

      @@The_Boogi3man69 are you asking me

  • @emilyreed28
    @emilyreed28 4 роки тому +1465

    Girl, I'm cis and I still worry a guy is gonna think i dont look good down there. The way people have decided a vaginal should look isn't the way the majority of women look. Your anxiety about your vaginal appearance is just part of being a woman. ❤ thanks for sharing your story. So intense. I cant believe how much you went through. I hope everything is going well with you physically, mentally, and emotionally. *new subscriber*

    • @gagifri2776
      @gagifri2776 3 роки тому +1

      Star Gazing what is IG?

    • @606movedtonewchannelsaeyou5
      @606movedtonewchannelsaeyou5 3 роки тому +1

      Gabi Fri Instagram

    • @gagifri2776
      @gagifri2776 3 роки тому +3

      606 Hahahahahahahahahahah good to know 😅😅🤦🏻‍♀️

    • @beardiemom
      @beardiemom 3 роки тому +66

      You said that a lot better than I did, but yeah, that feeling is probably a universal insecurity women have. xD

    • @Ashley-vr4qf
      @Ashley-vr4qf 3 роки тому +12

      @@stargazing9342 that’s just creepy. If you have any queries or something... let them know here or something. But directly asking is just creepy

  • @Mayavhenry
    @Mayavhenry 4 роки тому +998

    Thank you so much for sharing! Resources like these with honest testimonials are SO important. Thank you for everything you do girl! ♥️

  • @Jiian
    @Jiian 4 роки тому +1121

    Thanks for this. My girlfriend is trans and I am constantly worried about her mental state. This is helpful. I don't know if she is going to be a non-op type or not (don't really care), but I find this to be helpful insight.

    • @lanis57
      @lanis57 4 роки тому +97

      *boyfriend...be real.

    • @aridoesntexist
      @aridoesntexist 4 роки тому +501

      Alana Wells someone needs to take away your wifi 🙄

    • @Jiian
      @Jiian 4 роки тому +384

      @@lanis57 I was being real, TERF

    • @gabe204
      @gabe204 4 роки тому +60

      You have a boyfriend

    • @gabivichova6830
      @gabivichova6830 4 роки тому +194

      Gabe stfu! geez

  • @DariaJane13
    @DariaJane13 4 роки тому +639

    I couldnt relate more to you Samantha! From one trans youtuber to another, talking about it openly is so important and I loved the way you described the whole situation. Relatable af! Its funny cuz almost any girl has different complications down there post-op. I had to delay my flight with 3 weeks because they had to RE-insert the catheter due to an urethra inflamation. Even 2 years after surgery I struggle with a chronic UTI, but its not because of the surgery itself. It could happen to any other girl that used a catheter. Like you, I had to go to college 1 month after surgery and it was horror! I could barely sit on a chair, let alone walk normally. But I feel like these experiences we have make us unique, stronger, and they really show how much we can fight for our truth. I love you so much! ❤

    • @michell-natalycorona1565
      @michell-natalycorona1565 4 роки тому +29

      Wow you ladies are strong AF

    • @Jerbies_Kimmers
      @Jerbies_Kimmers 3 роки тому +22

      I couldn't even begin to imagine the trauma that you girls have to go through just to truly be who you have always been. I have huge admiration for you!! Much love and many Huggs😁💜

    • @Jackie-lj2ts
      @Jackie-lj2ts 3 роки тому +2

      Hey girl! I don't know if you've tried it already, but D-mannose supplements have helped my chronic UTIs so much

    • @zoesmith1063
      @zoesmith1063 3 роки тому

      Sugar is bad for UTI, I read somewhere online that drinking fruit juice will make you 5 times more likely to have UTI

    • @mimijansen3262
      @mimijansen3262 3 роки тому

      @@zoesmith1063 except cranberry juice, that one actually helps with UTI

  • @ryannchristine1704
    @ryannchristine1704 4 роки тому +209

    I've had the surgery... at the end of the day it is the most painful thing to put yourself through, mentally and physically. The surgery is all about commitment What you put into it is what you will get out of it. Just like anything in life.

    • @caterinas6863
      @caterinas6863 4 роки тому

      Do you think it was worth it in the end ?

    • @banenabug3806
      @banenabug3806 4 роки тому +11

      Im curious about this too. From a completely genuine standpoint. Do you feel better after? Has your mental state improved? How long ago was your procedure?

    • @amanesmoonrock
      @amanesmoonrock 3 роки тому

      if you dont mind, were you ftm or mtf?

    • @valeriesanchez3074
      @valeriesanchez3074 3 роки тому +6

      The worst would have to be dilating the wound frequently so the opening doesn't close.
      From stories I hear,
      It isn't very pleasant

    • @aprilrae6551
      @aprilrae6551 3 роки тому +5

      I also heard that the wound(vagina) can become infected. It's probably healthier to keep what you have.

  • @Roberta-ly9fw
    @Roberta-ly9fw 4 роки тому +232

    This sounds intensely traumatic, sending love to you.

  • @microsofterror880
    @microsofterror880 4 роки тому +315

    Being a good trans ally is always my intent, and I know that for some trans people they would rather not speak about this subject as it is their body, not the publics. So I'd just like to say thank you for being open about this to educate others on this topic through your experiences.

    • @Northstander
      @Northstander 4 роки тому +16

      Likewise and video clips like this mean that anyone who we know who is trans can just mention the name of a procedure and we will understand what they are talking about. I have learned so much about gender reassignment from watching Samantha's videos, and my opinion is that greater knowledge and increased understanding is never a bad thing.

    • @MurdermiesteR
      @MurdermiesteR 4 роки тому +6

      Try being a good person. Ally is a term of war that solidifies that you see them as an other you are willing to work with in the right conditions.

    • @pampe333
      @pampe333 2 роки тому +2

      Never never change what GOD created on you...human beings can never never never have GOD'S Heavenly materials for your body and hell is real when you do it...cancer and slow painful smelly death. So be proud of who GOD created you to be Psalm 139. It's an insult to GOD but the devil will say it's good for you then laughs at you when your private part starts rotting and no doctor can fix it...never🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼.

    • @bellaxxi4116
      @bellaxxi4116 2 роки тому

      @@pampe333 “private parts rotting” you bonehead the human body only rots when you die 🤦🏻‍♀️. You don’t have to post such nonsense.

  • @kellyadams5128
    @kellyadams5128 3 роки тому +148

    Girl, trust....even for a WHOLE LOT of women trans or not, its hard to get off. We are more mindful. Sex isn't just "thrust, pump, enjoy" lol. Seems like a lot of emotion and thoughts are all mingled in there. So you are not alone. Try some mindful yoga, it can help clear your mind. Good luck babe. You are gorgeous, funny, smart and sarcastic....you are perfection! 😘

    • @Rygir
      @Rygir 3 роки тому +7

      It's not "thrust, pump, enjoy" by default for men either...first thing anyone needs is confidence! Second is the right mindspace. Otherwise non of the physicality matters.

    • @molly702
      @molly702 2 роки тому +4

      I do not think that’s completely true, if it’s hard to get off someone is probably not doing the right things to make you feel good cause it’s not supposed to be like that. It makes me sad that women think that it has to be that way and that it’s tougher for them when the other person might not even know how to meet your needs, which deserve to be met and when they are it isn’t hard.

    • @humb1s3rvant
      @humb1s3rvant 2 роки тому

      @@molly702 you all are talking about a "woman" who doesn't even have a real vagina! Okay, back to the internet, thank you very much dog darnit

  • @rencogu2877
    @rencogu2877 4 роки тому +88

    that sounded so painful but im so happy for you that you're all healthy and you've got what you wanted now!!

  • @simills7495
    @simills7495 4 роки тому +330

    I truly can't believe why people are so anti trans...Try being anti - poverty, homelessness, war..any number of things..But not anti people feeling comfortable in our own bodies...Seriously, what is wrong with people in this world! :-(

    • @picklep9812
      @picklep9812 3 роки тому +3

      I’ve been homeless and grew up poor. So don’t be anti anything.

    • @picklep9812
      @picklep9812 3 роки тому +16

      Oh sorry I took that the wrong way...that’s interesting I saw that as instead of being against trans people be against poor people...maybe it was your wording or my brain or a combo 🌟

    • @orianamarquina6801
      @orianamarquina6801 3 роки тому +10

      They are not comfortable. That's why they change everything about their bodies

    • @Sunshine-eq1kx
      @Sunshine-eq1kx 3 роки тому +13

      Ironic how you said "own bodies" lol. when you change yourself to something you are not it's not really their "own body", no?

    • @heidiraitio8660
      @heidiraitio8660 3 роки тому +13

      Whats wrong is men pretenting to be women🙄

  • @JessicaDK1996
    @JessicaDK1996 4 роки тому +441

    I guess I’m feeling horrible as a CIS girl to hear what you had to go through just to feel and be who you were meant to be. You are so brave and beautiful. Also , I think a lot of women worry about what they “ look like down there” ..at least I have on occasion. We are all so different. Much love!💕

    • @apttmh494
      @apttmh494 4 роки тому +32

      You're not a CIS girl, you're a girl, a REAL woman. You dont need to feel horrible about anything. They chose the delusion, not you.

    • @nataliemilburn2585
      @nataliemilburn2585 4 роки тому +96

      Crikey! And if we look above we can see a transphobe in it’s natural habitat, the youtube comment section

    • @TheRubinator13
      @TheRubinator13 4 роки тому +46

      @@apttmh494 woah no they did not!
      Just imagine you woke up the next morning in the body of the opposite sex, how would you feel? THAT is how they feel EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY. I couldnt imagine being born a boy, im so happy to be born in the body i was in. I can only begin to imagine how incredibly horrible it must be to walk around every day feeling like you were born incorrectly. Their life is already incredibly hard and painful with out WILLINGLY IGNORANT people like you making it harder for them. Its hateful people like you that make this world so crappy to live in. They arent hurting anyone by being trans, let them be whatever makes them feel happy
      If you dont have anything nice to say, then shut the fuck up and don't say anything at all
      Trust me life is far better when you figure out that everyone has issues and we can all accomplish so much more by just supporting one an other instead of trying to break people down

    • @jazmynlawyer4959
      @jazmynlawyer4959 3 роки тому +7

      I don’t think transgender women want you to guilty we all have difficulties and they differ from one person to another but we can all choose to be compassionate to each other

    • @Sebadoh1994
      @Sebadoh1994 3 роки тому +4

      Jessica K I feel the same way and I’m also a CIS girl. We all worry about what our boyfriends are going to think, I get nervous that something will be wrong lol.

  • @juliahofman2861
    @juliahofman2861 3 роки тому +240

    Anyone who things being transgender is a choice needs to talk to people who have to go through all this pain just to feel comfortable with their own body!

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 роки тому +32

      A lot of them regret it in later life

    • @doctorfuckmen
      @doctorfuckmen 3 роки тому +34

      @@miafranchetti8715 sources please. Don’t spread bullshit k thx.

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 роки тому +3

      @@doctorfuckmen lol 😂 your jokes there are videos about it on UA-cam just look it up idiot

    • @doctorfuckmen
      @doctorfuckmen 3 роки тому +27

      @@miafranchetti8715 then send them. I’m not an idiot, you make a claim. You back it up. Don’t get offended because I ask for evidence for a claim YOU made.

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 роки тому +3

      @@doctorfuckmen the evidence is on UA-cam just type in detransion story’s idiot

  • @jocelynarias8940
    @jocelynarias8940 4 роки тому +135

    I was so excited when I saw the notification I kinda cried

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 роки тому +26

      Jocelyn Arias heheheh don’t cry!

  • @janold0808
    @janold0808 3 роки тому +6

    Thanks for being so honest!!! It is probably really hard to go through everything you went through and it's a real testament to your strength that you can talk about the difficult times of your life so openly!!

  • @jaymefunny7424
    @jaymefunny7424 2 роки тому +7

    I thought SRS was supposed to cure dysphoria but instead it creates all new dyshorpia.

  • @windowsxp7823
    @windowsxp7823 3 роки тому +6

    I hope that in the future, the process becomes less painful and difficult, because this really sounds like hell, you need a lot of strenght to be able to go through this. You are very strong ♡

  • @kt114
    @kt114 3 роки тому +3

    These kinds of videos are so important. I’m sure you were uneasy about putting something so personal on the internet but it’s important for other people thinking about getting the surgery to know what they’re in for. And also just for people to learn about life as a mtf trans woman. Doctors sometimes sugar coat things or don’t talk about certain important details so it’s good to get the account and perspective of someone that’s been through it. I’m sorry you had to go through such a difficult process but I hope ultimately it’s worth it. 💜

  • @mikhaellevin3353
    @mikhaellevin3353 4 роки тому +177

    Thanks for sharing! I am FTM and I can’t imagine having bottom surgery. I would take the results in a second! I would spend any money I had in a second. I feel like some body parts yell “this is wrong” constantly. But the surgery part. There’s just so much of it involved below the waist. Like you explain, complications might not happen, but they might. You have to be mentally prepared for major surgery. I am not. Maybe I will be one day. I think you are brave. I think everyone who commits to these types of surgeries are brave. I think it is important to tell other trans people the truth because we can’t make good decisions without the truth.

    • @evoman44
      @evoman44 4 роки тому +1

      Here is a good example of why not having surgery could be more of a blessing. ua-cam.com/video/WwuRSS2whTg/v-deo.html

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 4 роки тому +12

      Yes, people should be talking about the reality, so everyone can weight their choices, themselves. The same goes for all surgeries. There is such a need for patient forums to discuss the process and results! I’m so scared about my upcoming hysterectomy, and deciding whether to get my neck fused. For example with the hysterectomy, I’ve heard some people say it completely ruined their sex lives, and others say they should’ve got it done way sooner because it improved. Reading those kind of accounts helped me decide decide which type of surgical procedure to have (which bits to let them take & which they should leave). But even with the neck surgery, there are a lot of people who say that was the start of the worst pain of their life, and others who say that it fixed their pain, and everything in between. It’s really rough to make those decisions!

    • @MurdermiesteR
      @MurdermiesteR 4 роки тому +3

      Better off using a strap on.

    • @Ava-jy1rt
      @Ava-jy1rt 3 роки тому +16

      @xxxtentacion and pewdiepie are bitches its not a choice... do you really think people would chose to be living in the wrong body?

    • @henryohana6349
      @henryohana6349 3 роки тому +4

      I'm sure you don't mean to be, but this comment is transphobic. Trust me, we have thought DEEPLY about ALL the changes that will occur if we chose to have surgery. It is not something that is taken on lightly, usually years of thought have gone into it. Please don't try to persuade trans people to not have surgery. Just listen to them and support them in however they're feeling. You don't need to be the "devil's advocate" for us, we have a very active devil's advocate that lives inside of us.

  • @Angela1111122222
    @Angela1111122222 3 роки тому +11

    I'm so glad there's education about being trans out there. I'm cis but I have lovely trans friends and I get so angry hearing old conservatives spewing complete nonsense. I really hope putting educating stuff out there will clear a bit of prejudice against trans people.
    You're amazing and so strong for sharing all of it!

  • @elliecambrige8935
    @elliecambrige8935 3 роки тому +7

    I look up to you so much for being able to share with us this experience. I can't imagine how hard it must’ve been. Your amazing! ❤️

  • @ofanichan
    @ofanichan 3 роки тому +15

    I’m a trans woman and I’ve pretty much decided against bottom surgery, because you know... I don’t really see why personally. (Although everyone who does it is perfectly valid, and if it’s right for you, absolutely go for it!!!) But it’s so nice to see this video and hear your story, always nice to keep an open mind y’know? Thank you so much!

    • @nickmarble7226
      @nickmarble7226 3 роки тому +4

      Cerulia yeah irreversible damage you can never get back don’t do it

    • @PGOuma
      @PGOuma Рік тому +1

      @@nickmarble7226 that's the point

    • @CuteDeadGirl666
      @CuteDeadGirl666 4 місяці тому

      @@PGOuma 😂😂😂😂😂 love you lmao

  • @jayciekemp2135
    @jayciekemp2135 4 роки тому +12

    You really inspired me sis. I'm not trans, but I've gone through some things recently. I keep coming back to this video because it reminds me to never give up, like you did. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us and reminding me to never give up. Love you

  • @starrysmile7646
    @starrysmile7646 3 роки тому +3

    You're opening your heart and telling difficult stuff to help other trans women and to bring information and how it was for you , congratulations Samantha

  • @maiawaive9566
    @maiawaive9566 4 роки тому +8

    I think there is also an a very significant psychological impact when you have bottom surgery that is why surgeons normally require a psychological evaluation and a strong support system before they qualify you for bottom surgery.

  • @kyliekay447
    @kyliekay447 4 роки тому +74

    YOU HAVE BEEN MISSED GIRL!! GLAD YOUR BACK 💛💛

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 роки тому +6

      Kylie Tanner ahhh thank u 🥰💓

  • @MattWesss
    @MattWesss 4 роки тому +5

    Hey Sam,
    Thanks for sharing this information and being so open and honest about it. I can imagine that it must be very hard sometimes to go through the pain and not knowing what to expect.
    But i think you have a very brave and strong personality to have made it this far. You can be proud of yourself if you ask me.
    Thanks again and stay safe & healthy girl 😘

  • @sagwa1985
    @sagwa1985 3 роки тому

    I've never seen something this honest before. Thank you for opening up your life to us and providing an outlet for people who are going through the same thing.

  • @emilycheshire
    @emilycheshire 4 роки тому +7

    So I rarely watch your channel, but anytime I come back, you are just evolving to be a better and better woman.
    You are always so pretty, I envy it, because, you are just so amazing. You are such an inspiration!

  • @huneycream
    @huneycream 3 роки тому +25

    I'm a cis female and I never knew the full extent that you brave ladies had to go through. I know it sounds immature (because it is) but I thought it was a simple snip & tuck type of procedure. I've been doing research and I'm glad to have come across this video to further educate me on this process. You are beautiful and brave for sharing and I wish you the best!💋

  • @liamdinogirl3462
    @liamdinogirl3462 3 роки тому

    I was so worried in the first half thank God it all turned out alright! I'm happy that you're feeling better, and it seems like you're in a much better mental state. I hope you continue to do well, and thank you for making this educational video.

  • @jefferyneu3915
    @jefferyneu3915 3 роки тому +1

    I respect your bravery being open with these sensitive issues! Thank you for giving us a better chance to understand!

  • @garyallen1473
    @garyallen1473 4 роки тому +3

    Thank you so much for sharing. As more and more people are accepting of who they are and wanting to be genuine with themselves, advocates such as yourself help them learn and prepare for possible changes in their life.

  • @natashaainscough1258
    @natashaainscough1258 4 роки тому +146

    Omg I’m such a big fan !!
    And first !!
    And I’m also transgender so I’m so inspired and proud of you !!

  • @doyuning
    @doyuning 3 роки тому

    lord i just discovered your channel and i'm ftn and honestly it helps soooo much to just hear someone talk about their journey, you're really inspiring 💖

  • @liz9843
    @liz9843 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for being so open about your experience.
    Though I haven’t had the same experience, I’ve had a 3rd degree tear from childbirth, and I can’t imagine having to “dilate” after an experience like that! You are a very strong woman!

  • @alec3823
    @alec3823 4 роки тому +101

    sounds like a scary process. damn.

  • @nessajadexo
    @nessajadexo 4 роки тому +31

    thank you so much for sharing! i plan on having my surgery in a few months and i'm trying my best to mentally prepare, this helps a lot

  • @Maria-jl7ql
    @Maria-jl7ql 3 роки тому +9

    I am not trans but I have to say how brave you are to go through this just to be who you really are. It sounds horrific but it sounds like it was worth it and you are happy! Stay beautiful xxxxx

  • @thevirgotay
    @thevirgotay 3 роки тому +30

    why is this sounding a lot like how I felt after I had my baby girl. 😂 some stuff is a lot different obviously and maybe more traumatic but from the world dilation, how it was a process to heal down there, how I had that mental block for like the first 3 and half months after having, from me being scared it wouldn’t go back to normal (just normal for you) lol crazy. but I’m glad everything workout out!

  • @Alex-pn2hn
    @Alex-pn2hn 3 роки тому +3

    Surgery can be so scary. Im so glad you got through the complications! I can't imagine that pain 😭

  • @studioqueen4902
    @studioqueen4902 4 роки тому +3

    Thank you so so much for being so confident and so beautiful. I’m a trans girl and you are one of the people who allow me to be ok in my own body!

  • @craig3612
    @craig3612 4 роки тому +1

    Thank you so very, very much for being candid and direct about this surgery. It sucks that it was so difficult for you but I feel like most people wouldn't bother to warn the rest of us.

  • @Spriglithika
    @Spriglithika Рік тому

    Oh my gosh. This was so wonderful, and honestly, hearing your reasoning at the end - I feel so validated. I am so glad you posted this in spite of the nerves!

  • @soumiu.8264
    @soumiu.8264 3 роки тому +20

    I’m trying to binge on these videos to support/understand my trans best friend cuz I know he’s going through a lot. He’s feeling way better after cutting his hair and getting all the girly things gone from his wardrobe/coming out, but he’s preparing for testosterone and if any trans dudes have advice for me on how to be the most supportive and helpful person I can during his difficulties, it would be much appreciated ❤️❤️❤️
    By the way we’re both teenagers and I’m a straight girl, edit for grammar

  • @beanj580
    @beanj580 Рік тому +3

    I think what troubles me is that this was covered by insurance, yet I wouldn't mind some elective procedures myself. Hey, maybe even on my vag. I mean childbirth does change your anatomy, but we would certainly have to pay for that. Even facial feminization surgery is covered for trans women, yet natural born women can have just as much mental anguish from aspects of their face, but no we must pay for it

  • @kitiaraengland3860
    @kitiaraengland3860 3 роки тому +2

    Honestly you didn't have to even give your experience, but you did so for the curiosity and education of others and I thank you, I have one confirmed mtf friend and one who is questioning, this will help me explain to my questioning friend since they asked me the other day. We are in high school and I appreciate being able to learn more and understand my friends better.

  • @camrynnford1907
    @camrynnford1907 3 роки тому

    I'm so sorry your recovery was so difficult. I know what it's like to have surgery wounds take months to heal and having to keep up with cleaning and bandages and complications etc, which in no way compares to what you went through, but the fact that your heal site was also in a place you couldn't see and you were unfamiliar with is completely terrifying. I'm so happy that it all worked out in the end

  • @paulamartinezdelucena9050
    @paulamartinezdelucena9050 3 роки тому +7

    Girl, I got a breast reduction (which is obviously a lot less invasive than this) and I had 2 full months to recover and when I went back to doing things it was a struggle, IMAGINE getting back to regular life as soon as you did

  • @darkprince56
    @darkprince56 4 роки тому +3

    I can't imagine the horror and I would not be able to go through with it, personally. Whether it be F to M or M to F surgery. I've seen videos of these surgeries and it's horrific. I hope you heal and that you never have any complications.

  • @timothywalker3299
    @timothywalker3299 4 роки тому +2

    You are so brave being so open about your transition. You have had some really rude questions. I personally think you are great for doing this.

  • @shinebright3997
    @shinebright3997 3 роки тому

    I love and appreciate your candid honesty. And your delivery. The way you said certain things were like wow I had not thought of it like that You laid it all out and it’s so needed. Love it. Thank you girl

  • @stonefreews
    @stonefreews 4 роки тому +4

    Wow... I had my surgery at the beginning of March this year right before the COVID-19 situation escalated in the US. Fortunately I haven't had any issues yet. Dilating has become almost like a part time job. Working from home has helped. It's interesting to hear how different surgeon's have different requirements. There's no 2nd stage operation for me unless some complication occurs requiring a revision. Congrats on getting through it all. All the best...

  • @jerrysmith2349
    @jerrysmith2349 3 роки тому +26

    Wow, you're pretty. I saw your picture and thought, wow she's pretty. Then I read the description and thought, wow, she's pretty.

  • @makaylatherrian5944
    @makaylatherrian5944 3 роки тому +1

    I just started watching her about two days ago and I really appreciate her views and explanations of the lgbtq community. So many people in that community have dramatized it so much. My mother dated a woman for four years and they both raised me. It make me respect her so much that she looks at this as who she is and isn’t loud and dramatic, not saying everyone in the community is like this but many Lgbtq influencers are. Thank you for showing people that this is not a choice and that your whole life does not revolve around your identity physically but rather as who you are inside. It’s so nice to watch someone who understands this is simply a part of them, not everything they are.

  • @megumi8948
    @megumi8948 4 роки тому

    this is the first video i'm seeing from you AND YOU'RE SO HUMBLE AND PRETTY OMFGGGGG im jealous

  • @mandyduff5651
    @mandyduff5651 3 роки тому +4

    Thank you so much for being open about this! Like, I only just started my transition this year and bottom surgery has crossed my mind, not as something I NEED to do necessarily, but just as a possibility. I think the fact that I don't feel an overwhelming need to get the surgery or really even think about my genitals that often means that I won't go through the trouble myself. I still have so much admiration for people who are brave enough to go ahead with it and it's just amazing to hear their perspective so like, thanks for going into those details. I found this super helpful. Also, I just discovered your channel and love your content so far. Keep it up, queen! 💖

  • @QueerCripple
    @QueerCripple 3 роки тому +8

    Thank you so much for this!
    My girlfriend really really wants bottom surgery, and due to health issues, would VERY VERY LIKELY have complications like the ones you mentioned here. In fact, her assumed recovery time would be a couple MONTHS, not weeks, because she just heals poorly from literally anything ever.
    She still CAN get it done, BUT she would need to prepare herself and her doctors for the PROBABILITY that every complication that can happen, WILL HAPPEN.

    • @ashleymariah841
      @ashleymariah841 3 роки тому +1

      Look into doctor Christine McGinn! She is also a transgender woman and performs phenomenal surgeries.

    • @stuff1784
      @stuff1784 Рік тому

      Then don’t do it

  • @TheAmazingGrace2
    @TheAmazingGrace2 4 роки тому

    I love this girl. Samantha you are a goddess. Beautiful as always. 😍
    I'm sure there are millions of people out there who look up to you because you are so inspirational.

  • @tabsturz13
    @tabsturz13 4 роки тому

    Your doctor is so nice for helping you afterwards ugh i love that ❤️

  • @marciwhitton6351
    @marciwhitton6351 3 роки тому +5

    Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences, I came out of surgery with no depth probably due to a bowel perforation, this was almost a year ago. And reaching climax is really hard to get sometimes but I am learning to accept now what I do have, with no regrets but I am not sure how I will ever have a close relationship with someone again so I guess that a fair percentage of us will have to deal with some challenges after having surgery, be strong girl we are so much more than that.

  • @amazonglamazon6633
    @amazonglamazon6633 3 роки тому +3

    I appreciate your brutal honesty!! 💖✨

  • @sophileh6185
    @sophileh6185 3 роки тому

    I know it’s hard to talk about taboo anxieties and it’s so hard to share it with the world. You are so strong and beautiful. Mad support 💙

  • @MGC-XIII
    @MGC-XIII 3 роки тому +1

    What an amazing time we live in where we're able to perform surgeries like these.
    I can imagine a future with easier transitions and it truly becoming part of the norm.
    Your videos are so insightful.
    I am getting so many questions answered here.

  • @Den57701
    @Den57701 4 роки тому +4

    I've been watching your videos now for a month.. I've grown to really like you and your videos you are very very gorgeous and i love how open you are about your transition I'm not trans but it's nice to learn more about it! You are a really strong woman and i literally would have never known, you look really good!! God bless sending love and prayers your way girl!!

  • @Carlita7054
    @Carlita7054 4 роки тому +5

    Her voice has changed so much omg, you’re so cute 🥺

  • @StewKelly
    @StewKelly 3 роки тому

    What a harrowing and traumatic experience Samantha. I am glad you have healed and have remained strong through the whole experience! I am sure many others have benefited from your sharing.

  • @rengainey6081
    @rengainey6081 4 роки тому

    You were in my recommended. I'd just love to say that you're absolutely gorgeous. So proud of you and your journey.

  • @jaimcc6029
    @jaimcc6029 4 роки тому +27

    You’re awesome. Don’t forget that sis

  • @justlaurenslife4736
    @justlaurenslife4736 4 роки тому +6

    You're so beautiful ❤ I did have a little giggle when you said "it was harder to get there" welcome to being a fully fledged woman hehe xxxx

  • @raymulvey9244
    @raymulvey9244 2 роки тому

    Seems like a long and complex journey that you’ve handled with profound maturity and courage. Congrats on your success and messaging to others!

  • @blissky420
    @blissky420 4 роки тому

    I found your videos a while ago and started watching mainly because it's a topic I wasn't really knowledgeable about and wanted to learn a bit. Here I am still watching again mainly because I'm interested in learning but also because you give a real and personable delivery of it. So basically you make kick ass content and really enjoy it 👍

  • @jedwardfanxox6
    @jedwardfanxox6 3 роки тому +13

    Girl your eyes are so beautiful oh my dayssss

  • @GoPinkcom
    @GoPinkcom 4 роки тому +10

    Oof girl you always make the videos some people are afraid to make! You’re so inspiring!

  • @emily._.1398
    @emily._.1398 4 роки тому +1

    im SO proud of you!!! its not easy at all to talk abt all of this but damn im just so proud of u. ur such a nice and amazing person and im so glad u feel better now, u deserve the best❤ ily keep being who u are

    • @emily._.1398
      @emily._.1398 4 роки тому

      @Sacha Barbie tf are u even saying

  • @vipelviramotd
    @vipelviramotd 3 роки тому

    Thank you for being so candid about your surgery. I truly love it. Thanks for keeping it real.

  • @katiearmstrong4418
    @katiearmstrong4418 3 роки тому +4

    she’s so pretty omggg

  • @Urrelles
    @Urrelles 4 роки тому +104

    That surgery is a huge gamble for anyone. Especially a male to female change.
    Your body treats it like a wound and will try to close it up constantly.
    Any surgery that involves moving nerve endings around is a unique special experience for each person.
    Some people will get lucky and say they have full feeling and sex is great etc etc. Others will completely lose sex drive like a castrated person. They will feel nothing or feel pain. What is felt is weak and unsatisfying.
    Nerve endings is NOT an area in the medical field that has been masters. Be warned.

    • @richardcabanas1360
      @richardcabanas1360 4 роки тому +12

      Bruh I'm sorry but that sounds terrifying. I wish I didn't have to ever worry about shit like this. But I feel fucking terrible. Now more than ever. I wish I could just be myself without having to worry about this shit. Do I stay unhappy forever- or do I take a gamble on my feelings and this procedure?

    • @gauravmohore3034
      @gauravmohore3034 4 роки тому +8

      @@richardcabanas1360 you can find happiness without playing with nature's laws

    • @Nour-ey5le
      @Nour-ey5le 4 роки тому +19

      @@gauravmohore3034 unfortunately, that's incorrect

    • @JoeyXJameson
      @JoeyXJameson 3 роки тому

      😢

    • @transgoddess31
      @transgoddess31 3 роки тому +13

      I'm not getting a sex change as a ts woman. Being a woman socially is enough for me

  • @Rachel-pl5rk
    @Rachel-pl5rk 4 роки тому +1

    I'm so glad this is here for ppl wanting to do this surgery, I'm neither against it or for it, and when your an adult, your free to do what u wish. But I've seen so many things aimed at young trans ppl saying oh 2 weeks down time, oh no big deal, but literally every person I've ever seen that's done it can explain the reality. It's a hard choice, the trans issue is a complicated thing indeed, and I do think transitioning is the answer for some while not for others, it's just all about individual decisions. But.. but.. to keep ppl informed, again, thanks. And from a lady.. girl, explore yourself, figure out what feels good by yourself, then you can teach them what u want. It's what all girl have to do, your just slightly late to the party. But have fun with your body, enjoy it, esp if you've healed and all good, go on a wonderous exploration! 🤣

  • @nalinighode8630
    @nalinighode8630 4 роки тому +2

    I'm not a trans but the way you are dealing with your hardships and at end of day being yourself just the way you want to that makes me Adore you and I feel so proud of you. Love you and keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

  • @BiNy26
    @BiNy26 4 роки тому +3

    Omg, I just found you, and giiiirl, you're so cute, beautiful both inside and out, just such a nice person from the first glance! Subscribing rn, and wishing you all the best and no more health issues anymore! ❤️

  • @lestupidunicorn
    @lestupidunicorn 3 роки тому +5

    this is the first video of yours i ever watched and im gonna be honest: i clicked because you're cute af and now that id been staring at you functioning for 11 minutes youre one of the most beautiful women id ever seen so my question is How

  • @Heckingfelix
    @Heckingfelix 3 роки тому +1

    You're so amazing and it's a blessing to have you on this platform. 💕

  • @reina7201
    @reina7201 3 місяці тому

    I am currently 4 days recovering from this surgery and just listening to your story makes me not feel alone cuz I’m having a hard time coping with all of the pain. (P.S - even before I physically started transitioning you have been my IDOOOOL! ❤)

  • @barbara8497
    @barbara8497 4 роки тому +15

    You look so cute! I wish my hair was that perfect and shiny!

  • @jasminecotto1971
    @jasminecotto1971 4 роки тому +5

    my brave girl loving the realness as always stay beautiful

  • @suffak8
    @suffak8 3 роки тому +2

    Samantha, I know this vid is about 8 months old so please forgive me, I’m a new subscriber to your channel. First, I want to tell you thank you. I am a cisgender woman in my mid(late) 30s with young child, and your channel has educated me and helped me to educate my child about transgender humans, and helped me normalize this conversation in my home. I’ve learned things that I may not have learned otherwise about trans people, which allows me to accurately educate and teach compassion and acceptance to my child, and that is a gift that will carry hopefully generations into the future, and create loving, accepting people down the line. You have impacted the future of me and my child forever, in such a positive way. Thats pretty profound ❤️ I just adore watching you, you are funny, super smart, wise as an owl, and beautiful. Thank you so much for what you do ❤️❤️ much love 💕

  • @precooked-bacon
    @precooked-bacon 4 роки тому +1

    This is very real, and I'm sorry you had to go through it. How you are born, that area being touched for a 'surgery' for a 'correction' has to be tough. if someone decides to not do bottom surgery it's completely understandable.

  • @declanodonoghue7957
    @declanodonoghue7957 4 роки тому +3

    Hey samantha!
    I am such a massive fan and you inspire me so muchhhh

  • @tinamartini
    @tinamartini 3 роки тому +3

    Full of love and appreciation for such a courageous and true woman. Admire you so much 💕

  • @RebeccaLoran
    @RebeccaLoran 4 роки тому

    Love that you made it out okay after those complications! I'll make sure to be extra careful and listen to everything my doctors tell me lol I mean if it were me I would have just skipped that semester but I'm not you and I'm glad you made it out okay. I am a bit nervous about my surgery when that happens but of course I need it and most people in the world don't understand it but it is definitely medically necessary. I've known I've needed this for the past 12 years and I only started to move forward with my transition, starting hormones on sep 29 2019 and so I have a lot of catching up to do so I can start actually living my life. I'm 32 now and so many people say I'm still so young but I mean it still feels like I've wasted my entire life because I failed to move forward as soon as I knew what this was. I still have hope and I am definitely moving forward and have never been healthier, mentally. I'm working very closely with my doctors and a therapist and psychiatrist. I don't want to do anything to mess this up.
    Thank you for sharing your experience.

  • @sydneymcewan2379
    @sydneymcewan2379 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for sharing! ❤️❤️ Im proud of you for sharing an intimate thing like that! ❤️ Im grateful that I got the hear your experiences girl 🥰

  • @fragileasglass3192
    @fragileasglass3192 4 роки тому +6

    There's something i've always wondered: After SRS, you have to dilate for the rest of your life? or is it only for a certain period of time and then you just can live without dilating at all?

    • @michaelifecent7901
      @michaelifecent7901 4 роки тому +1

      You have to dilate, everyday or once a week to maintain the depth, or else it would be not that deep or even worse it well be close.

    • @speeeee35
      @speeeee35 4 роки тому +1

      It is technically an open wound so it will try to close up if you don’t dilate. But as she said in the video you do ween off of having to do it in most cases... though of course everyone is different. I had a friend who couldn’t even get piercings bc her body would try so hard to heal it that it would literally push it out.

    • @sylviaswayne
      @sylviaswayne 4 роки тому +5

      Drats Smithsonian it’s not an “open wound” except for when it’s healing (as with any major surgery; my mom had an “open wound” on her foot when she had her tendon fixed). Once it’s healed, you dilate because the surgery involves creating a gap for the neovaginal canal between two pelvic muscles that normally touch each other, and dilating keeps those muscles separated. It’s true that, while healing, you can permanently lose depth by not dilating, but once healed, most lost depth from not dilating can be regained by gradually dilating and re-training those muscles to separate. The “open wound” thing is a myth and makes the surgery sound more barbaric than it actually is. I know you don’t mean to perpetuate that, just wanted to let you know! 💕

  • @JawslinJabers
    @JawslinJabers 4 роки тому +21

    Wow. That would make me panic hard core. The second go around I'd be telling the doctors I'm going to need a 100% guarantee that everything's going to work right and I'm going to need it in writing in triplicate from all of them and to swear on the bible on public TV that it will work. Lol. But that's me. The last time I saw the dentist they said they were going to numb my gums. I said no you're going to knock me out I don't care if you have to use a frying pan! You have some major guts. Hats off to you.

  • @kparish05
    @kparish05 3 роки тому

    I think you summed up all the anxiety and worries and daily life in addition nicely - “It was a lot”. Thank you for sharing. The unknown and worries are some of the worst.

  • @anstef1485
    @anstef1485 3 роки тому +1

    You are totally adorable! Thank you for sharing this very personal experience. I hope things turn out absolutely fine in the long run. By the way, no two women look really alike down there so there is no absolute "standard". If it looks good to you, it will look good to your partner as well.

  • @ryetoast9544
    @ryetoast9544 4 роки тому +5

    Did you have trouble going through TSA? I’ve seen they aren’t friendly to anyone with medical problems

  • @wardiya3arbiya
    @wardiya3arbiya 3 роки тому +10

    I'm a woman not a cis whatever. I'm a woman period

    • @arcanevoid9199
      @arcanevoid9199 3 роки тому +3

      do you know what cis means?

    • @unfortunate_bee
      @unfortunate_bee 3 роки тому +4

      If ur not cis then ur trans lmao

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 роки тому +8

      Trans women are called trans.if you born woman you are simply a woman. No need to add silly sounds. At least in the majority of the world. For your little world you can make up any new meaningless nouns, pronoun or other Speach parts, like any buffon. For the rest of us, this is not necessary; a woman is a woman. Whoever was a man and changed sex is a trans woman, short for trans. We are not gonna bend to your tyranny.

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 роки тому +5

      @@peachsoda8701 you are the trans. This is how the rest of the world call you. You are the new thing trying to confirm itself in the world, you can use whatever name you like. Women are always existed and they are called women.

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 роки тому +6

      @scarlet roberts biological sex doesn't need extra word. Woman and man, that biological. trans is added when something went wrong

  • @simills7495
    @simills7495 4 роки тому +1

    I think that not only are you very brave, but also talking with such candour about your surgery. I'm almost 48 and trans but haven't had any surgeries (hoping that will be possible) yet and the UK gender clinics are working off data from the 80's and 90's and their approach and refusal of treatment for people that aren't fully out yet is soul destroying...
    Thank you again, Samantha

  • @vrku9979
    @vrku9979 4 роки тому

    Your whole transition terrifies me terribly. Not only because of physical pain, but also because of mental pain. I feel so sorry that transsexuals have to go through this to be who they feel they are. But , I am glad that the abilities of today's doctors are so far that they can correct mistake of nature. Even though I'm not a transsexual, thank you for your videos because they help me understand the feelings of transsexuals.
    And I was wondering if I'm able to have a relationship with a transsexual girl. And after watching your videos, my answer is absolutely yes! Having a person by your side who can overcome all these problems is a life's win! You are extremely strong person. And I admire your openness and sincerity
    so much. I wish you good luck and not only you, but actually all those who have to go through this difficult life journey. BTW Your eyeliner, shadows and eyebrows are on fleek! You look awesome! 💓
    Jacob