I'm trans and the cost is CRAZY!!! Would you recommend the bottom surgery despite the cost and if it gets botched? bc that's what I'm afraid of the most.
@@_samanthalux ok I'm still in the closet but I'm planning for the future and ik I'm what I'm gonna get but like I'm still a little scared if the surgeries get botched
Girl, I'm cis and I still worry a guy is gonna think i dont look good down there. The way people have decided a vaginal should look isn't the way the majority of women look. Your anxiety about your vaginal appearance is just part of being a woman. ❤ thanks for sharing your story. So intense. I cant believe how much you went through. I hope everything is going well with you physically, mentally, and emotionally. *new subscriber*
Thanks for this. My girlfriend is trans and I am constantly worried about her mental state. This is helpful. I don't know if she is going to be a non-op type or not (don't really care), but I find this to be helpful insight.
I couldnt relate more to you Samantha! From one trans youtuber to another, talking about it openly is so important and I loved the way you described the whole situation. Relatable af! Its funny cuz almost any girl has different complications down there post-op. I had to delay my flight with 3 weeks because they had to RE-insert the catheter due to an urethra inflamation. Even 2 years after surgery I struggle with a chronic UTI, but its not because of the surgery itself. It could happen to any other girl that used a catheter. Like you, I had to go to college 1 month after surgery and it was horror! I could barely sit on a chair, let alone walk normally. But I feel like these experiences we have make us unique, stronger, and they really show how much we can fight for our truth. I love you so much! ❤
I couldn't even begin to imagine the trauma that you girls have to go through just to truly be who you have always been. I have huge admiration for you!! Much love and many Huggs😁💜
I've had the surgery... at the end of the day it is the most painful thing to put yourself through, mentally and physically. The surgery is all about commitment What you put into it is what you will get out of it. Just like anything in life.
Im curious about this too. From a completely genuine standpoint. Do you feel better after? Has your mental state improved? How long ago was your procedure?
Being a good trans ally is always my intent, and I know that for some trans people they would rather not speak about this subject as it is their body, not the publics. So I'd just like to say thank you for being open about this to educate others on this topic through your experiences.
Likewise and video clips like this mean that anyone who we know who is trans can just mention the name of a procedure and we will understand what they are talking about. I have learned so much about gender reassignment from watching Samantha's videos, and my opinion is that greater knowledge and increased understanding is never a bad thing.
Never never change what GOD created on you...human beings can never never never have GOD'S Heavenly materials for your body and hell is real when you do it...cancer and slow painful smelly death. So be proud of who GOD created you to be Psalm 139. It's an insult to GOD but the devil will say it's good for you then laughs at you when your private part starts rotting and no doctor can fix it...never🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼.
I truly can't believe why people are so anti trans...Try being anti - poverty, homelessness, war..any number of things..But not anti people feeling comfortable in our own bodies...Seriously, what is wrong with people in this world! :-(
Oh sorry I took that the wrong way...that’s interesting I saw that as instead of being against trans people be against poor people...maybe it was your wording or my brain or a combo 🌟
Girl, trust....even for a WHOLE LOT of women trans or not, its hard to get off. We are more mindful. Sex isn't just "thrust, pump, enjoy" lol. Seems like a lot of emotion and thoughts are all mingled in there. So you are not alone. Try some mindful yoga, it can help clear your mind. Good luck babe. You are gorgeous, funny, smart and sarcastic....you are perfection! 😘
It's not "thrust, pump, enjoy" by default for men either...first thing anyone needs is confidence! Second is the right mindspace. Otherwise non of the physicality matters.
I do not think that’s completely true, if it’s hard to get off someone is probably not doing the right things to make you feel good cause it’s not supposed to be like that. It makes me sad that women think that it has to be that way and that it’s tougher for them when the other person might not even know how to meet your needs, which deserve to be met and when they are it isn’t hard.
Anyone who things being transgender is a choice needs to talk to people who have to go through all this pain just to feel comfortable with their own body!
@@miafranchetti8715 then send them. I’m not an idiot, you make a claim. You back it up. Don’t get offended because I ask for evidence for a claim YOU made.
I'm so glad there's education about being trans out there. I'm cis but I have lovely trans friends and I get so angry hearing old conservatives spewing complete nonsense. I really hope putting educating stuff out there will clear a bit of prejudice against trans people. You're amazing and so strong for sharing all of it!
Thanks for being so honest!!! It is probably really hard to go through everything you went through and it's a real testament to your strength that you can talk about the difficult times of your life so openly!!
I hope that in the future, the process becomes less painful and difficult, because this really sounds like hell, you need a lot of strenght to be able to go through this. You are very strong ♡
I’m a trans woman and I’ve pretty much decided against bottom surgery, because you know... I don’t really see why personally. (Although everyone who does it is perfectly valid, and if it’s right for you, absolutely go for it!!!) But it’s so nice to see this video and hear your story, always nice to keep an open mind y’know? Thank you so much!
You don't see the point? Umm... Really?? 🤨 This "Everyone is beautiful and valid and the only thing that matters is Your Truth!" ideology is cute and all, but it's crap like this that the anti-trans people get all loud about. "Your truth" may be that having a penis and a pair of hairy balls doesn't make you any less of a woman, but THE truth is that yeah, it actually kinda does (make you less of a woman). Kinda REALLY a lot. Of course genitals aren't the only thing that make someone the sex that they are. But they ARE a big, glaring, obvious factor. I absolutely believe that trans people are the sex/gender that they transition to, but that transition has to include bottom surgery. I'm sorry if that sounds mean, but I promise you that is actually how the vast majority of the public views trans people. Samantha is a perfect example. Very few people would try to argue that she is actually a man, and those that would are just being assholes. If you're a trans woman but you don't go through with bottom surgery (for whatever reason), the truth is that you're always going to be just a man in a dress.
I guess I’m feeling horrible as a CIS girl to hear what you had to go through just to feel and be who you were meant to be. You are so brave and beautiful. Also , I think a lot of women worry about what they “ look like down there” ..at least I have on occasion. We are all so different. Much love!💕
@@apttmh494 woah no they did not! Just imagine you woke up the next morning in the body of the opposite sex, how would you feel? THAT is how they feel EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY. I couldnt imagine being born a boy, im so happy to be born in the body i was in. I can only begin to imagine how incredibly horrible it must be to walk around every day feeling like you were born incorrectly. Their life is already incredibly hard and painful with out WILLINGLY IGNORANT people like you making it harder for them. Its hateful people like you that make this world so crappy to live in. They arent hurting anyone by being trans, let them be whatever makes them feel happy If you dont have anything nice to say, then shut the fuck up and don't say anything at all Trust me life is far better when you figure out that everyone has issues and we can all accomplish so much more by just supporting one an other instead of trying to break people down
I don’t think transgender women want you to guilty we all have difficulties and they differ from one person to another but we can all choose to be compassionate to each other
Jessica K I feel the same way and I’m also a CIS girl. We all worry about what our boyfriends are going to think, I get nervous that something will be wrong lol.
Thanks for sharing! I am FTM and I can’t imagine having bottom surgery. I would take the results in a second! I would spend any money I had in a second. I feel like some body parts yell “this is wrong” constantly. But the surgery part. There’s just so much of it involved below the waist. Like you explain, complications might not happen, but they might. You have to be mentally prepared for major surgery. I am not. Maybe I will be one day. I think you are brave. I think everyone who commits to these types of surgeries are brave. I think it is important to tell other trans people the truth because we can’t make good decisions without the truth.
Yes, people should be talking about the reality, so everyone can weight their choices, themselves. The same goes for all surgeries. There is such a need for patient forums to discuss the process and results! I’m so scared about my upcoming hysterectomy, and deciding whether to get my neck fused. For example with the hysterectomy, I’ve heard some people say it completely ruined their sex lives, and others say they should’ve got it done way sooner because it improved. Reading those kind of accounts helped me decide decide which type of surgical procedure to have (which bits to let them take & which they should leave). But even with the neck surgery, there are a lot of people who say that was the start of the worst pain of their life, and others who say that it fixed their pain, and everything in between. It’s really rough to make those decisions!
I'm sure you don't mean to be, but this comment is transphobic. Trust me, we have thought DEEPLY about ALL the changes that will occur if we chose to have surgery. It is not something that is taken on lightly, usually years of thought have gone into it. Please don't try to persuade trans people to not have surgery. Just listen to them and support them in however they're feeling. You don't need to be the "devil's advocate" for us, we have a very active devil's advocate that lives inside of us.
I am not trans but I have to say how brave you are to go through this just to be who you really are. It sounds horrific but it sounds like it was worth it and you are happy! Stay beautiful xxxxx
You really inspired me sis. I'm not trans, but I've gone through some things recently. I keep coming back to this video because it reminds me to never give up, like you did. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us and reminding me to never give up. Love you
These kinds of videos are so important. I’m sure you were uneasy about putting something so personal on the internet but it’s important for other people thinking about getting the surgery to know what they’re in for. And also just for people to learn about life as a mtf trans woman. Doctors sometimes sugar coat things or don’t talk about certain important details so it’s good to get the account and perspective of someone that’s been through it. I’m sorry you had to go through such a difficult process but I hope ultimately it’s worth it. 💜
I think there is also an a very significant psychological impact when you have bottom surgery that is why surgeons normally require a psychological evaluation and a strong support system before they qualify you for bottom surgery.
Wow. That would make me panic hard core. The second go around I'd be telling the doctors I'm going to need a 100% guarantee that everything's going to work right and I'm going to need it in writing in triplicate from all of them and to swear on the bible on public TV that it will work. Lol. But that's me. The last time I saw the dentist they said they were going to numb my gums. I said no you're going to knock me out I don't care if you have to use a frying pan! You have some major guts. Hats off to you.
why is this sounding a lot like how I felt after I had my baby girl. 😂 some stuff is a lot different obviously and maybe more traumatic but from the world dilation, how it was a process to heal down there, how I had that mental block for like the first 3 and half months after having, from me being scared it wouldn’t go back to normal (just normal for you) lol crazy. but I’m glad everything workout out!
I just started watching her about two days ago and I really appreciate her views and explanations of the lgbtq community. So many people in that community have dramatized it so much. My mother dated a woman for four years and they both raised me. It make me respect her so much that she looks at this as who she is and isn’t loud and dramatic, not saying everyone in the community is like this but many Lgbtq influencers are. Thank you for showing people that this is not a choice and that your whole life does not revolve around your identity physically but rather as who you are inside. It’s so nice to watch someone who understands this is simply a part of them, not everything they are.
So I rarely watch your channel, but anytime I come back, you are just evolving to be a better and better woman. You are always so pretty, I envy it, because, you are just so amazing. You are such an inspiration!
That surgery is a huge gamble for anyone. Especially a male to female change. Your body treats it like a wound and will try to close it up constantly. Any surgery that involves moving nerve endings around is a unique special experience for each person. Some people will get lucky and say they have full feeling and sex is great etc etc. Others will completely lose sex drive like a castrated person. They will feel nothing or feel pain. What is felt is weak and unsatisfying. Nerve endings is NOT an area in the medical field that has been masters. Be warned.
Bruh I'm sorry but that sounds terrifying. I wish I didn't have to ever worry about shit like this. But I feel fucking terrible. Now more than ever. I wish I could just be myself without having to worry about this shit. Do I stay unhappy forever- or do I take a gamble on my feelings and this procedure?
Girl, I got a breast reduction (which is obviously a lot less invasive than this) and I had 2 full months to recover and when I went back to doing things it was a struggle, IMAGINE getting back to regular life as soon as you did
@@_samanthalux Not going to watch much of your content ordinary person just glad to see giving good advice to fellow trans reaching out to you reminds of my trans friends Torii and Nikki!🤍❤️💕
I'm a cis female and I never knew the full extent that you brave ladies had to go through. I know it sounds immature (because it is) but I thought it was a simple snip & tuck type of procedure. I've been doing research and I'm glad to have come across this video to further educate me on this process. You are beautiful and brave for sharing and I wish you the best!💋
I've never seen something this honest before. Thank you for opening up your life to us and providing an outlet for people who are going through the same thing.
You're opening your heart and telling difficult stuff to help other trans women and to bring information and how it was for you , congratulations Samantha
I can't imagine the horror and I would not be able to go through with it, personally. Whether it be F to M or M to F surgery. I've seen videos of these surgeries and it's horrific. I hope you heal and that you never have any complications.
I’m trying to binge on these videos to support/understand my trans best friend cuz I know he’s going through a lot. He’s feeling way better after cutting his hair and getting all the girly things gone from his wardrobe/coming out, but he’s preparing for testosterone and if any trans dudes have advice for me on how to be the most supportive and helpful person I can during his difficulties, it would be much appreciated ❤️❤️❤️ By the way we’re both teenagers and I’m a straight girl, edit for grammar
Honestly you didn't have to even give your experience, but you did so for the curiosity and education of others and I thank you, I have one confirmed mtf friend and one who is questioning, this will help me explain to my questioning friend since they asked me the other day. We are in high school and I appreciate being able to learn more and understand my friends better.
Wow... I had my surgery at the beginning of March this year right before the COVID-19 situation escalated in the US. Fortunately I haven't had any issues yet. Dilating has become almost like a part time job. Working from home has helped. It's interesting to hear how different surgeon's have different requirements. There's no 2nd stage operation for me unless some complication occurs requiring a revision. Congrats on getting through it all. All the best...
Thank you so much for sharing. As more and more people are accepting of who they are and wanting to be genuine with themselves, advocates such as yourself help them learn and prepare for possible changes in their life.
What an amazing time we live in where we're able to perform surgeries like these. I can imagine a future with easier transitions and it truly becoming part of the norm. Your videos are so insightful. I am getting so many questions answered here.
I think that not only are you very brave, but also talking with such candour about your surgery. I'm almost 48 and trans but haven't had any surgeries (hoping that will be possible) yet and the UK gender clinics are working off data from the 80's and 90's and their approach and refusal of treatment for people that aren't fully out yet is soul destroying... Thank you again, Samantha
Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences, I came out of surgery with no depth probably due to a bowel perforation, this was almost a year ago. And reaching climax is really hard to get sometimes but I am learning to accept now what I do have, with no regrets but I am not sure how I will ever have a close relationship with someone again so I guess that a fair percentage of us will have to deal with some challenges after having surgery, be strong girl we are so much more than that.
Thank you for being so open about your experience. Though I haven’t had the same experience, I’ve had a 3rd degree tear from childbirth, and I can’t imagine having to “dilate” after an experience like that! You are a very strong woman!
I'm so sorry your recovery was so difficult. I know what it's like to have surgery wounds take months to heal and having to keep up with cleaning and bandages and complications etc, which in no way compares to what you went through, but the fact that your heal site was also in a place you couldn't see and you were unfamiliar with is completely terrifying. I'm so happy that it all worked out in the end
It's videos like this that open up the experience to others who don't know what to expect. I am finding I'm identifying increasingly as a conservative libertarian and I am often at odds with the trans community who will label me a bigot for the slightest of things; something I've come to expect from the hateful authoritarian aspects of the political left. They'll preach tolerance and diversity until it comes to diversity of thought... but I don't want to talk about them. I want this to be a positive comment. It's very easy to get wrapped up in the political arguments and forget the very real extremely personal aspects of the trans struggle. You sharing your story gives us all a chance to empathise with you. When I see you talking like this I don't see a boy in make up, changing their gender just to score identity points, or some screaming entitled person shouting about dozens of made up gender identities. Rather, I see a woman. A genuine real woman. Someone who's struggled to become one, but has nevertheless become a beautiful feminine inspirational woman and one I'm glad to have the opportunity to watch. Thank you for sharing. When the politics gets to be too much I seek out channels like yours, to remind me why I'm an egalitarian. When I find myself angry at the trans community for the offensive crap I see coming from it, I try to instead focus on something simple instead. We're all human deep down, and when someone can share something as intimate as the reconstruction of their vagina online, so that others can understand the struggles they go through, it's humbling and it puts all the other petty bullshit into perspective. Thank you again. I'm glad you're feeling happier in your skin.
this is the first video of yours i ever watched and im gonna be honest: i clicked because you're cute af and now that id been staring at you functioning for 11 minutes youre one of the most beautiful women id ever seen so my question is How
I am currently 4 days recovering from this surgery and just listening to your story makes me not feel alone cuz I’m having a hard time coping with all of the pain. (P.S - even before I physically started transitioning you have been my IDOOOOL! ❤)
Hey Sam, Thanks for sharing this information and being so open and honest about it. I can imagine that it must be very hard sometimes to go through the pain and not knowing what to expect. But i think you have a very brave and strong personality to have made it this far. You can be proud of yourself if you ask me. Thanks again and stay safe & healthy girl 😘
Thank you so very, very much for being candid and direct about this surgery. It sucks that it was so difficult for you but I feel like most people wouldn't bother to warn the rest of us.
I'm so glad this is here for ppl wanting to do this surgery, I'm neither against it or for it, and when your an adult, your free to do what u wish. But I've seen so many things aimed at young trans ppl saying oh 2 weeks down time, oh no big deal, but literally every person I've ever seen that's done it can explain the reality. It's a hard choice, the trans issue is a complicated thing indeed, and I do think transitioning is the answer for some while not for others, it's just all about individual decisions. But.. but.. to keep ppl informed, again, thanks. And from a lady.. girl, explore yourself, figure out what feels good by yourself, then you can teach them what u want. It's what all girl have to do, your just slightly late to the party. But have fun with your body, enjoy it, esp if you've healed and all good, go on a wonderous exploration! 🤣
As a trans female myself, (and lesbian), I found this VERY informative! I am still about a year or so away from being able TO have my bottom surgery, but finding seriously GOOD info, is hard, so THANK YOU, for this. I now have a better idea of what I MIGHT expect. Plus, I'm older, so not sure how it will all go, but... The facial reconstruction, I hear is horrid, too, however, that, and the top/bottom surgeries, are what I need to feel complete with myself.
What a harrowing and traumatic experience Samantha. I am glad you have healed and have remained strong through the whole experience! I am sure many others have benefited from your sharing.
I've been watching your videos now for a month.. I've grown to really like you and your videos you are very very gorgeous and i love how open you are about your transition I'm not trans but it's nice to learn more about it! You are a really strong woman and i literally would have never known, you look really good!! God bless sending love and prayers your way girl!!
Samantha, I know this vid is about 8 months old so please forgive me, I’m a new subscriber to your channel. First, I want to tell you thank you. I am a cisgender woman in my mid(late) 30s with young child, and your channel has educated me and helped me to educate my child about transgender humans, and helped me normalize this conversation in my home. I’ve learned things that I may not have learned otherwise about trans people, which allows me to accurately educate and teach compassion and acceptance to my child, and that is a gift that will carry hopefully generations into the future, and create loving, accepting people down the line. You have impacted the future of me and my child forever, in such a positive way. Thats pretty profound ❤️ I just adore watching you, you are funny, super smart, wise as an owl, and beautiful. Thank you so much for what you do ❤️❤️ much love 💕
Thank you so much for being open about this! Like, I only just started my transition this year and bottom surgery has crossed my mind, not as something I NEED to do necessarily, but just as a possibility. I think the fact that I don't feel an overwhelming need to get the surgery or really even think about my genitals that often means that I won't go through the trouble myself. I still have so much admiration for people who are brave enough to go ahead with it and it's just amazing to hear their perspective so like, thanks for going into those details. I found this super helpful. Also, I just discovered your channel and love your content so far. Keep it up, queen! 💖
This is very real, and I'm sorry you had to go through it. How you are born, that area being touched for a 'surgery' for a 'correction' has to be tough. if someone decides to not do bottom surgery it's completely understandable.
I’m 13 and I’m very nervous on telling my parents that I’m coming out as trans and I really want to. But I’m afraid they’ll not support me and I’ll make them sad.
Don't do it!!! And do not let them corrupt your pure soul. The Bible says you are beautiful and fearfully made and also in the image of God. Your parent will also be upset and you don't want that. They are there to protect you. Please do not let them down. I pray God to protect you with his light. Amen
Your whole transition terrifies me terribly. Not only because of physical pain, but also because of mental pain. I feel so sorry that transsexuals have to go through this to be who they feel they are. But , I am glad that the abilities of today's doctors are so far that they can correct mistake of nature. Even though I'm not a transsexual, thank you for your videos because they help me understand the feelings of transsexuals. And I was wondering if I'm able to have a relationship with a transsexual girl. And after watching your videos, my answer is absolutely yes! Having a person by your side who can overcome all these problems is a life's win! You are extremely strong person. And I admire your openness and sincerity so much. I wish you good luck and not only you, but actually all those who have to go through this difficult life journey. BTW Your eyeliner, shadows and eyebrows are on fleek! You look awesome! 💓 Jacob
I would imagine you have a catheter for a while and after it’s removal you have to use a sitz bottle to wash after using the restroom. At least that is what happens after childbirth ( minus the catheter) to care for sutures if they are required.
I am so sorry you went through this- from not trusting your "born-with" identity to the struggles of being a "female" (in my mind, you never will be a real woman but, that's me) and dealing with whatever you deal with today. Just know, it was YOU all along that did this to you. No one else. I hope someday you are fully dilated, happy, free and with the person you love. But, that is a long shot...as you will find out. NOT hating. Just old and know life.
Hey I'm a trans girl who has also had had bottom surgery and I find it really hard to date and find someone who wants to be with a trans girl who has had the surgery. Most guys either tell me their not interested because I've had the surgery or they want to date cis women instead. Im 100% passable (I know the trans community hates that term but it is what it is) and I get hit on all the time but when guys find out I'm trans or don't have that extra junk in trunk I never hear from them again. Where did you meet your BF and how do you date? I like to here other girls experience that have had the surgery because our experience varies a little bit from girls that have had the surgery. Thanks Love your videos and especially your storytimes
Oh my gosh. This was so wonderful, and honestly, hearing your reasoning at the end - I feel so validated. I am so glad you posted this in spite of the nerves!
I was so worried in the first half thank God it all turned out alright! I'm happy that you're feeling better, and it seems like you're in a much better mental state. I hope you continue to do well, and thank you for making this educational video.
I've heard that from several people who have flown after surgeries that the pressure can be a problem...even when I got a tattoo on my foot in Phoenix and flew back, it was pretty swollen. I think that's why they get worried about pregnant women flying too...
I served in the Marine Corp and have seen shit, but I actually cringed at your story. Strength and Courage are great if your fighting for your country. You fought yourself and you are probably one of the bravest warriors I've heard of. Thank you for sharing your story.
Im 2 days post op & im literally just here in my room tryna watch as many videos as possible. My experience was completely opposite & everything went flawless my vagina doesnt even look swollen
This is a great video that should be included in high school sex education classes, to dispel any misguided notions about transexuality. You're amazing.
I think you summed up all the anxiety and worries and daily life in addition nicely - “It was a lot”. Thank you for sharing. The unknown and worries are some of the worst.
lord i just discovered your channel and i'm ftn and honestly it helps soooo much to just hear someone talk about their journey, you're really inspiring 💖
Omg, I just found you, and giiiirl, you're so cute, beautiful both inside and out, just such a nice person from the first glance! Subscribing rn, and wishing you all the best and no more health issues anymore! ❤️
You are totally adorable! Thank you for sharing this very personal experience. I hope things turn out absolutely fine in the long run. By the way, no two women look really alike down there so there is no absolute "standard". If it looks good to you, it will look good to your partner as well.
I love and appreciate your candid honesty. And your delivery. The way you said certain things were like wow I had not thought of it like that You laid it all out and it’s so needed. Love it. Thank you girl
1st world problems.. it’s a luxury’s for gender to be a issue. Most people on earth are looking for there next meal while in America people are upset at “wrong pronouns”
@@JustAHuman101 like I said . first world problems. Half the world is starving to death and Americans are so sentsitive and privledge they get depressed when others don’t play along to there delusion
@@Baker19911 Because it genuinely harms them. As a trans person, it's not easy. Dysphoria leads to depression and anxiety. It's not that fricking hard to call someone by correct pronouns, it literally doesn't take any time. I think you're just lazy.
Very accurate and important to tell since it is not an easy surgery. I had GCS June 2019 and I'm still not in a good place still painful. I was supposed to have a 2nd surgery April 7th but C19 postponed and still waiting on a new date. It will be a major revision with a more experienced surgeon. Two experts in the field recommended that I don't go back to the original surgeon who's surgical technical was not up to their standards. Will see in after the 2nd if a 3rd procedure may be needed. Met you at O&E in Seattle but missed you in Maryland but did chat with your mom. I heard you had a phenomenal Gala outfit.
Honestly I think this video helped so much women, very brave and important. And cis women also I recognize a lot of questions I had as a teenager on my down-there and also I recognize things that happened after my pregnancy of during my life that's all. Every women ask themselves this kind of questions our thing is such a "serious" topic I feel like and for everyone (?!) Keep being the smart and brilliant woman you are ❤️
It's an open wound , your body will treat it as such. Also, there will grow hair inside. The healing process will never take place, because of you wouldn't have your hole without the wound being open. You have to put stick inside it to keep it open and it's very painful and it's hard to keep hygienic. Do not do the surgery, without doing hardcore research. According to research, the surgery doesn't even cause higher quality of life and it may not even help you with your mental problems. Do not think it's answer to everything. Read the stories of surgeries gone wrong, don't only read activist sites, because many of them tell blatantly lies and propaganda.
I'm not a trans but the way you are dealing with your hardships and at end of day being yourself just the way you want to that makes me Adore you and I feel so proud of you. Love you and keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
feel free to ask any (appropriate) questions! I love u guys thank u for the support 💓 Instagram: @_samanthalux
I'm trans and the cost is CRAZY!!! Would you recommend the bottom surgery despite the cost and if it gets botched? bc that's what I'm afraid of the most.
@@marcusshaffer7814 definitely don't choose a surgeon based on price! you only get one chance, pick a surgeon you trust with your life
@@_samanthalux ok I'm still in the closet but I'm planning for the future and ik I'm what I'm gonna get but like I'm still a little scared if the surgeries get botched
Are you single 😏
@@The_Boogi3man69 are you asking me
Girl, I'm cis and I still worry a guy is gonna think i dont look good down there. The way people have decided a vaginal should look isn't the way the majority of women look. Your anxiety about your vaginal appearance is just part of being a woman. ❤ thanks for sharing your story. So intense. I cant believe how much you went through. I hope everything is going well with you physically, mentally, and emotionally. *new subscriber*
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606 Hahahahahahahahahahah good to know 😅😅🤦🏻♀️
You said that a lot better than I did, but yeah, that feeling is probably a universal insecurity women have. xD
@@Niahs_Deliverance that’s just creepy. If you have any queries or something... let them know here or something. But directly asking is just creepy
Thanks for this. My girlfriend is trans and I am constantly worried about her mental state. This is helpful. I don't know if she is going to be a non-op type or not (don't really care), but I find this to be helpful insight.
*boyfriend...be real.
Alana Wells someone needs to take away your wifi 🙄
@@lanis57 I was being real, TERF
You have a boyfriend
Gabe stfu! geez
Thank you so much for sharing! Resources like these with honest testimonials are SO important. Thank you for everything you do girl! ♥️
Thank u for the kind words Maya 💓💓
Hey Samantha quiero conocerte soy de Barcelona España...:) Hola tienes email?
It's true; Sam doesn't owe us anything.
You too are beauties
Love you Maya 💞
I couldnt relate more to you Samantha! From one trans youtuber to another, talking about it openly is so important and I loved the way you described the whole situation. Relatable af! Its funny cuz almost any girl has different complications down there post-op. I had to delay my flight with 3 weeks because they had to RE-insert the catheter due to an urethra inflamation. Even 2 years after surgery I struggle with a chronic UTI, but its not because of the surgery itself. It could happen to any other girl that used a catheter. Like you, I had to go to college 1 month after surgery and it was horror! I could barely sit on a chair, let alone walk normally. But I feel like these experiences we have make us unique, stronger, and they really show how much we can fight for our truth. I love you so much! ❤
Wow you ladies are strong AF
I couldn't even begin to imagine the trauma that you girls have to go through just to truly be who you have always been. I have huge admiration for you!! Much love and many Huggs😁💜
Hey girl! I don't know if you've tried it already, but D-mannose supplements have helped my chronic UTIs so much
Sugar is bad for UTI, I read somewhere online that drinking fruit juice will make you 5 times more likely to have UTI
@@zoesmith1063 except cranberry juice, that one actually helps with UTI
This sounds intensely traumatic, sending love to you.
I've had the surgery... at the end of the day it is the most painful thing to put yourself through, mentally and physically. The surgery is all about commitment What you put into it is what you will get out of it. Just like anything in life.
Do you think it was worth it in the end ?
Im curious about this too. From a completely genuine standpoint. Do you feel better after? Has your mental state improved? How long ago was your procedure?
if you dont mind, were you ftm or mtf?
The worst would have to be dilating the wound frequently so the opening doesn't close.
From stories I hear,
It isn't very pleasant
I also heard that the wound(vagina) can become infected. It's probably healthier to keep what you have.
that sounded so painful but im so happy for you that you're all healthy and you've got what you wanted now!!
Psalm 139
@@elisabethkharis6431 Amen
Being a good trans ally is always my intent, and I know that for some trans people they would rather not speak about this subject as it is their body, not the publics. So I'd just like to say thank you for being open about this to educate others on this topic through your experiences.
Likewise and video clips like this mean that anyone who we know who is trans can just mention the name of a procedure and we will understand what they are talking about. I have learned so much about gender reassignment from watching Samantha's videos, and my opinion is that greater knowledge and increased understanding is never a bad thing.
Try being a good person. Ally is a term of war that solidifies that you see them as an other you are willing to work with in the right conditions.
Never never change what GOD created on you...human beings can never never never have GOD'S Heavenly materials for your body and hell is real when you do it...cancer and slow painful smelly death. So be proud of who GOD created you to be Psalm 139. It's an insult to GOD but the devil will say it's good for you then laughs at you when your private part starts rotting and no doctor can fix it...never🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼.
@@pampe333 “private parts rotting” you bonehead the human body only rots when you die 🤦🏻♀️. You don’t have to post such nonsense.
I truly can't believe why people are so anti trans...Try being anti - poverty, homelessness, war..any number of things..But not anti people feeling comfortable in our own bodies...Seriously, what is wrong with people in this world! :-(
I’ve been homeless and grew up poor. So don’t be anti anything.
Oh sorry I took that the wrong way...that’s interesting I saw that as instead of being against trans people be against poor people...maybe it was your wording or my brain or a combo 🌟
They are not comfortable. That's why they change everything about their bodies
Ironic how you said "own bodies" lol. when you change yourself to something you are not it's not really their "own body", no?
Whats wrong is men pretenting to be women🙄
Girl, trust....even for a WHOLE LOT of women trans or not, its hard to get off. We are more mindful. Sex isn't just "thrust, pump, enjoy" lol. Seems like a lot of emotion and thoughts are all mingled in there. So you are not alone. Try some mindful yoga, it can help clear your mind. Good luck babe. You are gorgeous, funny, smart and sarcastic....you are perfection! 😘
It's not "thrust, pump, enjoy" by default for men either...first thing anyone needs is confidence! Second is the right mindspace. Otherwise non of the physicality matters.
I do not think that’s completely true, if it’s hard to get off someone is probably not doing the right things to make you feel good cause it’s not supposed to be like that. It makes me sad that women think that it has to be that way and that it’s tougher for them when the other person might not even know how to meet your needs, which deserve to be met and when they are it isn’t hard.
@@molly702 you all are talking about a "woman" who doesn't even have a real vagina! Okay, back to the internet, thank you very much dog darnit
Anyone who things being transgender is a choice needs to talk to people who have to go through all this pain just to feel comfortable with their own body!
A lot of them regret it in later life
@@miafranchetti8715 sources please. Don’t spread bullshit k thx.
@@doctorfuckmen lol 😂 your jokes there are videos about it on UA-cam just look it up idiot
@@miafranchetti8715 then send them. I’m not an idiot, you make a claim. You back it up. Don’t get offended because I ask for evidence for a claim YOU made.
@@doctorfuckmen the evidence is on UA-cam just type in detransion story’s idiot
I'm so glad there's education about being trans out there. I'm cis but I have lovely trans friends and I get so angry hearing old conservatives spewing complete nonsense. I really hope putting educating stuff out there will clear a bit of prejudice against trans people.
You're amazing and so strong for sharing all of it!
I was so excited when I saw the notification I kinda cried
Jocelyn Arias heheheh don’t cry!
@@_samanthalux New to your channel just glad to see you helping out your fellow trans that’s all!🤍❤️💕
sounds like a scary process. damn.
Thanks for being so honest!!! It is probably really hard to go through everything you went through and it's a real testament to your strength that you can talk about the difficult times of your life so openly!!
I hope that in the future, the process becomes less painful and difficult, because this really sounds like hell, you need a lot of strenght to be able to go through this. You are very strong ♡
I’m a trans woman and I’ve pretty much decided against bottom surgery, because you know... I don’t really see why personally. (Although everyone who does it is perfectly valid, and if it’s right for you, absolutely go for it!!!) But it’s so nice to see this video and hear your story, always nice to keep an open mind y’know? Thank you so much!
Cerulia yeah irreversible damage you can never get back don’t do it
@@nickmarble7226 that's the point
@@PGOuma 😂😂😂😂😂 love you lmao
You don't see the point? Umm... Really?? 🤨 This "Everyone is beautiful and valid and the only thing that matters is Your Truth!" ideology is cute and all, but it's crap like this that the anti-trans people get all loud about. "Your truth" may be that having a penis and a pair of hairy balls doesn't make you any less of a woman, but THE truth is that yeah, it actually kinda does (make you less of a woman). Kinda REALLY a lot. Of course genitals aren't the only thing that make someone the sex that they are. But they ARE a big, glaring, obvious factor. I absolutely believe that trans people are the sex/gender that they transition to, but that transition has to include bottom surgery. I'm sorry if that sounds mean, but I promise you that is actually how the vast majority of the public views trans people. Samantha is a perfect example. Very few people would try to argue that she is actually a man, and those that would are just being assholes. If you're a trans woman but you don't go through with bottom surgery (for whatever reason), the truth is that you're always going to be just a man in a dress.
I guess I’m feeling horrible as a CIS girl to hear what you had to go through just to feel and be who you were meant to be. You are so brave and beautiful. Also , I think a lot of women worry about what they “ look like down there” ..at least I have on occasion. We are all so different. Much love!💕
You're not a CIS girl, you're a girl, a REAL woman. You dont need to feel horrible about anything. They chose the delusion, not you.
Crikey! And if we look above we can see a transphobe in it’s natural habitat, the youtube comment section
@@apttmh494 woah no they did not!
Just imagine you woke up the next morning in the body of the opposite sex, how would you feel? THAT is how they feel EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY. I couldnt imagine being born a boy, im so happy to be born in the body i was in. I can only begin to imagine how incredibly horrible it must be to walk around every day feeling like you were born incorrectly. Their life is already incredibly hard and painful with out WILLINGLY IGNORANT people like you making it harder for them. Its hateful people like you that make this world so crappy to live in. They arent hurting anyone by being trans, let them be whatever makes them feel happy
If you dont have anything nice to say, then shut the fuck up and don't say anything at all
Trust me life is far better when you figure out that everyone has issues and we can all accomplish so much more by just supporting one an other instead of trying to break people down
I don’t think transgender women want you to guilty we all have difficulties and they differ from one person to another but we can all choose to be compassionate to each other
Jessica K I feel the same way and I’m also a CIS girl. We all worry about what our boyfriends are going to think, I get nervous that something will be wrong lol.
Thanks for sharing! I am FTM and I can’t imagine having bottom surgery. I would take the results in a second! I would spend any money I had in a second. I feel like some body parts yell “this is wrong” constantly. But the surgery part. There’s just so much of it involved below the waist. Like you explain, complications might not happen, but they might. You have to be mentally prepared for major surgery. I am not. Maybe I will be one day. I think you are brave. I think everyone who commits to these types of surgeries are brave. I think it is important to tell other trans people the truth because we can’t make good decisions without the truth.
Here is a good example of why not having surgery could be more of a blessing. ua-cam.com/video/WwuRSS2whTg/v-deo.html
Yes, people should be talking about the reality, so everyone can weight their choices, themselves. The same goes for all surgeries. There is such a need for patient forums to discuss the process and results! I’m so scared about my upcoming hysterectomy, and deciding whether to get my neck fused. For example with the hysterectomy, I’ve heard some people say it completely ruined their sex lives, and others say they should’ve got it done way sooner because it improved. Reading those kind of accounts helped me decide decide which type of surgical procedure to have (which bits to let them take & which they should leave). But even with the neck surgery, there are a lot of people who say that was the start of the worst pain of their life, and others who say that it fixed their pain, and everything in between. It’s really rough to make those decisions!
Better off using a strap on.
@xxxtentacion and pewdiepie are bitches its not a choice... do you really think people would chose to be living in the wrong body?
I'm sure you don't mean to be, but this comment is transphobic. Trust me, we have thought DEEPLY about ALL the changes that will occur if we chose to have surgery. It is not something that is taken on lightly, usually years of thought have gone into it. Please don't try to persuade trans people to not have surgery. Just listen to them and support them in however they're feeling. You don't need to be the "devil's advocate" for us, we have a very active devil's advocate that lives inside of us.
I am not trans but I have to say how brave you are to go through this just to be who you really are. It sounds horrific but it sounds like it was worth it and you are happy! Stay beautiful xxxxx
You really inspired me sis. I'm not trans, but I've gone through some things recently. I keep coming back to this video because it reminds me to never give up, like you did. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us and reminding me to never give up. Love you
Psalm 139
@@elisabethkharis6431 the office s3 ep 1 4:15
These kinds of videos are so important. I’m sure you were uneasy about putting something so personal on the internet but it’s important for other people thinking about getting the surgery to know what they’re in for. And also just for people to learn about life as a mtf trans woman. Doctors sometimes sugar coat things or don’t talk about certain important details so it’s good to get the account and perspective of someone that’s been through it. I’m sorry you had to go through such a difficult process but I hope ultimately it’s worth it. 💜
I think there is also an a very significant psychological impact when you have bottom surgery that is why surgeons normally require a psychological evaluation and a strong support system before they qualify you for bottom surgery.
I thought SRS was supposed to cure dysphoria but instead it creates all new dyshorpia.
Wow. That would make me panic hard core. The second go around I'd be telling the doctors I'm going to need a 100% guarantee that everything's going to work right and I'm going to need it in writing in triplicate from all of them and to swear on the bible on public TV that it will work. Lol. But that's me. The last time I saw the dentist they said they were going to numb my gums. I said no you're going to knock me out I don't care if you have to use a frying pan! You have some major guts. Hats off to you.
why is this sounding a lot like how I felt after I had my baby girl. 😂 some stuff is a lot different obviously and maybe more traumatic but from the world dilation, how it was a process to heal down there, how I had that mental block for like the first 3 and half months after having, from me being scared it wouldn’t go back to normal (just normal for you) lol crazy. but I’m glad everything workout out!
Omg I’m such a big fan !!
And first !!
And I’m also transgender so I’m so inspired and proud of you !!
Good for you 😊
Same
Wow, you're pretty. I saw your picture and thought, wow she's pretty. Then I read the description and thought, wow, she's pretty.
I just started watching her about two days ago and I really appreciate her views and explanations of the lgbtq community. So many people in that community have dramatized it so much. My mother dated a woman for four years and they both raised me. It make me respect her so much that she looks at this as who she is and isn’t loud and dramatic, not saying everyone in the community is like this but many Lgbtq influencers are. Thank you for showing people that this is not a choice and that your whole life does not revolve around your identity physically but rather as who you are inside. It’s so nice to watch someone who understands this is simply a part of them, not everything they are.
So I rarely watch your channel, but anytime I come back, you are just evolving to be a better and better woman.
You are always so pretty, I envy it, because, you are just so amazing. You are such an inspiration!
That surgery is a huge gamble for anyone. Especially a male to female change.
Your body treats it like a wound and will try to close it up constantly.
Any surgery that involves moving nerve endings around is a unique special experience for each person.
Some people will get lucky and say they have full feeling and sex is great etc etc. Others will completely lose sex drive like a castrated person. They will feel nothing or feel pain. What is felt is weak and unsatisfying.
Nerve endings is NOT an area in the medical field that has been masters. Be warned.
Bruh I'm sorry but that sounds terrifying. I wish I didn't have to ever worry about shit like this. But I feel fucking terrible. Now more than ever. I wish I could just be myself without having to worry about this shit. Do I stay unhappy forever- or do I take a gamble on my feelings and this procedure?
@@richardcabanas1360 you can find happiness without playing with nature's laws
@@gauravmohore3034 unfortunately, that's incorrect
😢
I'm not getting a sex change as a ts woman. Being a woman socially is enough for me
Girl, I got a breast reduction (which is obviously a lot less invasive than this) and I had 2 full months to recover and when I went back to doing things it was a struggle, IMAGINE getting back to regular life as soon as you did
thank you so much for sharing! i plan on having my surgery in a few months and i'm trying my best to mentally prepare, this helps a lot
Good luck! 💓
@@_samanthalux Not going to watch much of your content ordinary person just glad to see giving good advice to fellow trans reaching out to you reminds of my trans friends Torii and Nikki!🤍❤️💕
I'm a cis female and I never knew the full extent that you brave ladies had to go through. I know it sounds immature (because it is) but I thought it was a simple snip & tuck type of procedure. I've been doing research and I'm glad to have come across this video to further educate me on this process. You are beautiful and brave for sharing and I wish you the best!💋
Psalm 139
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A lot of trans women don’t get bottom surgery though
I've never seen something this honest before. Thank you for opening up your life to us and providing an outlet for people who are going through the same thing.
You're opening your heart and telling difficult stuff to help other trans women and to bring information and how it was for you , congratulations Samantha
I can't imagine the horror and I would not be able to go through with it, personally. Whether it be F to M or M to F surgery. I've seen videos of these surgeries and it's horrific. I hope you heal and that you never have any complications.
I’m trying to binge on these videos to support/understand my trans best friend cuz I know he’s going through a lot. He’s feeling way better after cutting his hair and getting all the girly things gone from his wardrobe/coming out, but he’s preparing for testosterone and if any trans dudes have advice for me on how to be the most supportive and helpful person I can during his difficulties, it would be much appreciated ❤️❤️❤️
By the way we’re both teenagers and I’m a straight girl, edit for grammar
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Honestly you didn't have to even give your experience, but you did so for the curiosity and education of others and I thank you, I have one confirmed mtf friend and one who is questioning, this will help me explain to my questioning friend since they asked me the other day. We are in high school and I appreciate being able to learn more and understand my friends better.
YOU HAVE BEEN MISSED GIRL!! GLAD YOUR BACK 💛💛
Kylie Tanner ahhh thank u 🥰💓
Wow... I had my surgery at the beginning of March this year right before the COVID-19 situation escalated in the US. Fortunately I haven't had any issues yet. Dilating has become almost like a part time job. Working from home has helped. It's interesting to hear how different surgeon's have different requirements. There's no 2nd stage operation for me unless some complication occurs requiring a revision. Congrats on getting through it all. All the best...
Thank you so so much for being so confident and so beautiful. I’m a trans girl and you are one of the people who allow me to be ok in my own body!
Thank you so much for sharing. As more and more people are accepting of who they are and wanting to be genuine with themselves, advocates such as yourself help them learn and prepare for possible changes in their life.
I look up to you so much for being able to share with us this experience. I can't imagine how hard it must’ve been. Your amazing! ❤️
What an amazing time we live in where we're able to perform surgeries like these.
I can imagine a future with easier transitions and it truly becoming part of the norm.
Your videos are so insightful.
I am getting so many questions answered here.
Surgery can be so scary. Im so glad you got through the complications! I can't imagine that pain 😭
You are so brave being so open about your transition. You have had some really rude questions. I personally think you are great for doing this.
Oof girl you always make the videos some people are afraid to make! You’re so inspiring!
I think that not only are you very brave, but also talking with such candour about your surgery. I'm almost 48 and trans but haven't had any surgeries (hoping that will be possible) yet and the UK gender clinics are working off data from the 80's and 90's and their approach and refusal of treatment for people that aren't fully out yet is soul destroying...
Thank you again, Samantha
Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences, I came out of surgery with no depth probably due to a bowel perforation, this was almost a year ago. And reaching climax is really hard to get sometimes but I am learning to accept now what I do have, with no regrets but I am not sure how I will ever have a close relationship with someone again so I guess that a fair percentage of us will have to deal with some challenges after having surgery, be strong girl we are so much more than that.
Thank you for being so open about your experience.
Though I haven’t had the same experience, I’ve had a 3rd degree tear from childbirth, and I can’t imagine having to “dilate” after an experience like that! You are a very strong woman!
Her voice has changed so much omg, you’re so cute 🥺
I'm so sorry your recovery was so difficult. I know what it's like to have surgery wounds take months to heal and having to keep up with cleaning and bandages and complications etc, which in no way compares to what you went through, but the fact that your heal site was also in a place you couldn't see and you were unfamiliar with is completely terrifying. I'm so happy that it all worked out in the end
You’re awesome. Don’t forget that sis
It's videos like this that open up the experience to others who don't know what to expect. I am finding I'm identifying increasingly as a conservative libertarian and I am often at odds with the trans community who will label me a bigot for the slightest of things; something I've come to expect from the hateful authoritarian aspects of the political left. They'll preach tolerance and diversity until it comes to diversity of thought... but I don't want to talk about them. I want this to be a positive comment.
It's very easy to get wrapped up in the political arguments and forget the very real extremely personal aspects of the trans struggle. You sharing your story gives us all a chance to empathise with you. When I see you talking like this I don't see a boy in make up, changing their gender just to score identity points, or some screaming entitled person shouting about dozens of made up gender identities. Rather, I see a woman. A genuine real woman. Someone who's struggled to become one, but has nevertheless become a beautiful feminine inspirational woman and one I'm glad to have the opportunity to watch. Thank you for sharing. When the politics gets to be too much I seek out channels like yours, to remind me why I'm an egalitarian. When I find myself angry at the trans community for the offensive crap I see coming from it, I try to instead focus on something simple instead. We're all human deep down, and when someone can share something as intimate as the reconstruction of their vagina online, so that others can understand the struggles they go through, it's humbling and it puts all the other petty bullshit into perspective.
Thank you again. I'm glad you're feeling happier in your skin.
this is the first video of yours i ever watched and im gonna be honest: i clicked because you're cute af and now that id been staring at you functioning for 11 minutes youre one of the most beautiful women id ever seen so my question is How
I am currently 4 days recovering from this surgery and just listening to your story makes me not feel alone cuz I’m having a hard time coping with all of the pain. (P.S - even before I physically started transitioning you have been my IDOOOOL! ❤)
Hey Sam,
Thanks for sharing this information and being so open and honest about it. I can imagine that it must be very hard sometimes to go through the pain and not knowing what to expect.
But i think you have a very brave and strong personality to have made it this far. You can be proud of yourself if you ask me.
Thanks again and stay safe & healthy girl 😘
Thank you so very, very much for being candid and direct about this surgery. It sucks that it was so difficult for you but I feel like most people wouldn't bother to warn the rest of us.
You're so beautiful ❤ I did have a little giggle when you said "it was harder to get there" welcome to being a fully fledged woman hehe xxxx
I respect your bravery being open with these sensitive issues! Thank you for giving us a better chance to understand!
Girl your eyes are so beautiful oh my dayssss
I'm so glad this is here for ppl wanting to do this surgery, I'm neither against it or for it, and when your an adult, your free to do what u wish. But I've seen so many things aimed at young trans ppl saying oh 2 weeks down time, oh no big deal, but literally every person I've ever seen that's done it can explain the reality. It's a hard choice, the trans issue is a complicated thing indeed, and I do think transitioning is the answer for some while not for others, it's just all about individual decisions. But.. but.. to keep ppl informed, again, thanks. And from a lady.. girl, explore yourself, figure out what feels good by yourself, then you can teach them what u want. It's what all girl have to do, your just slightly late to the party. But have fun with your body, enjoy it, esp if you've healed and all good, go on a wonderous exploration! 🤣
As a trans female myself, (and lesbian), I found this VERY informative! I am still about a year or so away from being able TO have my bottom surgery, but finding seriously GOOD info, is hard, so THANK YOU, for this. I now have a better idea of what I MIGHT expect. Plus, I'm older, so not sure how it will all go, but... The facial reconstruction, I hear is horrid, too, however, that, and the top/bottom surgeries, are what I need to feel complete with myself.
What a harrowing and traumatic experience Samantha. I am glad you have healed and have remained strong through the whole experience! I am sure many others have benefited from your sharing.
I've been watching your videos now for a month.. I've grown to really like you and your videos you are very very gorgeous and i love how open you are about your transition I'm not trans but it's nice to learn more about it! You are a really strong woman and i literally would have never known, you look really good!! God bless sending love and prayers your way girl!!
Samantha, I know this vid is about 8 months old so please forgive me, I’m a new subscriber to your channel. First, I want to tell you thank you. I am a cisgender woman in my mid(late) 30s with young child, and your channel has educated me and helped me to educate my child about transgender humans, and helped me normalize this conversation in my home. I’ve learned things that I may not have learned otherwise about trans people, which allows me to accurately educate and teach compassion and acceptance to my child, and that is a gift that will carry hopefully generations into the future, and create loving, accepting people down the line. You have impacted the future of me and my child forever, in such a positive way. Thats pretty profound ❤️ I just adore watching you, you are funny, super smart, wise as an owl, and beautiful. Thank you so much for what you do ❤️❤️ much love 💕
Thank you so much for being open about this! Like, I only just started my transition this year and bottom surgery has crossed my mind, not as something I NEED to do necessarily, but just as a possibility. I think the fact that I don't feel an overwhelming need to get the surgery or really even think about my genitals that often means that I won't go through the trouble myself. I still have so much admiration for people who are brave enough to go ahead with it and it's just amazing to hear their perspective so like, thanks for going into those details. I found this super helpful. Also, I just discovered your channel and love your content so far. Keep it up, queen! 💖
This is very real, and I'm sorry you had to go through it. How you are born, that area being touched for a 'surgery' for a 'correction' has to be tough. if someone decides to not do bottom surgery it's completely understandable.
I’m 13 and I’m very nervous on telling my parents that I’m coming out as trans and I really want to. But I’m afraid they’ll not support me and I’ll make them sad.
I wish you the best of luck dude! I understand your concerns but you’ll have so many people supporting you no matter what :)
Don't do it!!! And do not let them corrupt your pure soul. The Bible says you are beautiful and fearfully made and also in the image of God. Your parent will also be upset and you don't want that. They are there to protect you. Please do not let them down. I pray God to protect you with his light. Amen
Your whole transition terrifies me terribly. Not only because of physical pain, but also because of mental pain. I feel so sorry that transsexuals have to go through this to be who they feel they are. But , I am glad that the abilities of today's doctors are so far that they can correct mistake of nature. Even though I'm not a transsexual, thank you for your videos because they help me understand the feelings of transsexuals.
And I was wondering if I'm able to have a relationship with a transsexual girl. And after watching your videos, my answer is absolutely yes! Having a person by your side who can overcome all these problems is a life's win! You are extremely strong person. And I admire your openness and sincerity
so much. I wish you good luck and not only you, but actually all those who have to go through this difficult life journey. BTW Your eyeliner, shadows and eyebrows are on fleek! You look awesome! 💓
Jacob
Wait how do you pee with a wound around your genatalia?
They probably have an indwelling catheter (IDC) which is a tube that goes up and directly into the bladder and empties into a bag.
Speaking Truth I think she means while it’s steal healing and stuff b.c. all the stitching etc.
good question
Jes Barnes you’re right they do use a catheter, I heard that’s painful and can give you a UTI
I would imagine you have a catheter for a while and after it’s removal you have to use a sitz bottle to wash after using the restroom. At least that is what happens after childbirth ( minus the catheter) to care for sutures if they are required.
I am so sorry you went through this- from not trusting your "born-with" identity to the struggles of being a "female" (in my mind, you never will be a real woman but, that's me) and dealing with whatever you deal with today. Just know, it was YOU all along that did this to you. No one else. I hope someday you are fully dilated, happy, free and with the person you love. But, that is a long shot...as you will find out. NOT hating. Just old and know life.
Hey I'm a trans girl who has also had had bottom surgery and I find it really hard to date and find someone who wants to be with a trans girl who has had the surgery. Most guys either tell me their not interested because I've had the surgery or they want to date cis women instead. Im 100% passable (I know the trans community hates that term but it is what it is) and I get hit on all the time but when guys find out I'm trans or don't have that extra junk in trunk I never hear from them again. Where did you meet your BF and how do you date? I like to here other girls experience that have had the surgery because our experience varies a little bit from girls that have had the surgery. Thanks Love your videos and especially your storytimes
Think you have to be good looking as Samantha to date guys...🤔👀😁
@AmloGaming you need a brain MRI scan...not all trans are hot you silly dork..😒😷
@@barnyard835 it's all up to personal taste mate
@@barnyard835 dude whats wrong with you? Thats so fucking rude
Oh my gosh. This was so wonderful, and honestly, hearing your reasoning at the end - I feel so validated. I am so glad you posted this in spite of the nerves!
she’s so pretty omggg
I was so worried in the first half thank God it all turned out alright! I'm happy that you're feeling better, and it seems like you're in a much better mental state. I hope you continue to do well, and thank you for making this educational video.
she prob got swollen because of the plane not being pressurised properly :(
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Omg it sounds so scary and painful jesus ..
I've heard that from several people who have flown after surgeries that the pressure can be a problem...even when I got a tattoo on my foot in Phoenix and flew back, it was pretty swollen. I think that's why they get worried about pregnant women flying too...
I served in the Marine Corp and have seen shit, but I actually cringed at your story. Strength and Courage are great if your fighting for your country. You fought yourself and you are probably one of the bravest warriors I've heard of. Thank you for sharing your story.
On a side note, your stunning. Don't tell my wife. Lol
Im 2 days post op & im literally just here in my room tryna watch as many videos as possible. My experience was completely opposite & everything went flawless my vagina doesnt even look swollen
You don't have a vagina. Silicone and plastic isn't real.
Let’s give it time 😵💫
Is it still complication-less?
This is a great video that should be included in high school sex education classes, to dispel any misguided notions about transexuality. You're amazing.
You look so cute! I wish my hair was that perfect and shiny!
I think you summed up all the anxiety and worries and daily life in addition nicely - “It was a lot”. Thank you for sharing. The unknown and worries are some of the worst.
Did you have trouble going through TSA? I’ve seen they aren’t friendly to anyone with medical problems
lord i just discovered your channel and i'm ftn and honestly it helps soooo much to just hear someone talk about their journey, you're really inspiring 💖
Omg, I just found you, and giiiirl, you're so cute, beautiful both inside and out, just such a nice person from the first glance! Subscribing rn, and wishing you all the best and no more health issues anymore! ❤️
I know it’s hard to talk about taboo anxieties and it’s so hard to share it with the world. You are so strong and beautiful. Mad support 💙
Psychologically, I can imagine a massive instinctual reaction to changing such a core aspect of the body.
You are totally adorable! Thank you for sharing this very personal experience. I hope things turn out absolutely fine in the long run. By the way, no two women look really alike down there so there is no absolute "standard". If it looks good to you, it will look good to your partner as well.
Anyone know if Vulvaplasty is better than this in terms of recovery? I want to be in less pain.
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I love and appreciate your candid honesty. And your delivery. The way you said certain things were like wow I had not thought of it like that You laid it all out and it’s so needed. Love it. Thank you girl
1st world problems.. it’s a luxury’s for gender to be a issue. Most people on earth are looking for there next meal while in America people are upset at “wrong pronouns”
It's no luxury
Because those "wrong pronouns" make people feel uncomfortable and depressed. Think before you speak.
@@raam1666 what’s worst someone getting your pronoun wrong or starving to death.? Wake up
@@JustAHuman101 like I said . first world problems. Half the world is starving to death and Americans are so sentsitive and privledge they get depressed when others don’t play along to there delusion
@@Baker19911 Because it genuinely harms them. As a trans person, it's not easy. Dysphoria leads to depression and anxiety. It's not that fricking hard to call someone by correct pronouns, it literally doesn't take any time. I think you're just lazy.
Seems like a long and complex journey that you’ve handled with profound maturity and courage. Congrats on your success and messaging to others!
Wow you are so gorgeous, I was born a woman, but girl your rocking it and looking so beautiful. I am very envious of you!!! Much love ♡
Very accurate and important to tell since it is not an easy surgery. I had GCS June 2019 and I'm still not in a good place still painful. I was supposed to have a 2nd surgery April 7th but C19 postponed and still waiting on a new date. It will be a major revision with a more experienced surgeon. Two experts in the field recommended that I don't go back to the original surgeon who's surgical technical was not up to their standards. Will see in after the 2nd if a 3rd procedure may be needed. Met you at O&E in Seattle but missed you in Maryland but did chat with your mom. I heard you had a phenomenal Gala outfit.
I appreciate your brutal honesty!! 💖✨
Honestly I think this video helped so much women, very brave and important. And cis women also I recognize a lot of questions I had as a teenager on my down-there and also I recognize things that happened after my pregnancy of during my life that's all. Every women ask themselves this kind of questions our thing is such a "serious" topic I feel like and for everyone (?!) Keep being the smart and brilliant woman you are ❤️
Does it hurt like after the healing process or does it like work normally I’m so confused
It's an open wound , your body will treat it as such. Also, there will grow hair inside. The healing process will never take place, because of you wouldn't have your hole without the wound being open. You have to put stick inside it to keep it open and it's very painful and it's hard to keep hygienic. Do not do the surgery, without doing hardcore research. According to research, the surgery doesn't even cause higher quality of life and it may not even help you with your mental problems. Do not think it's answer to everything. Read the stories of surgeries gone wrong, don't only read activist sites, because many of them tell blatantly lies and propaganda.
no it shouldn't be painful once you have recovered and fully healed it can take a few years though
@@elijahsamuel8177 Wrong.
Most people never stop feeling pain from the surgery.
Arnold Thomsen some people not most if all people still felt pain after surgery it would be a lot more talked about but that’s just simply untrue
I'm not a trans but the way you are dealing with your hardships and at end of day being yourself just the way you want to that makes me Adore you and I feel so proud of you. Love you and keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜