@@elysiaxox anything you have to do daily getting interrupted creates major problems elsewhere too. If you can't expel waste your organs will not continue to function with ease
@@veraboltonDo not feel sorry for them. God hates what they do, they will be punished for it. It is an abomination to try to change your sex. You can't change your DNA. Waste all the money in the world, you will always be what you were born to be.
Point blank, the science just is not there yet. Yes they can plastic surgery you up to make it look the way it looks down there, but the body itself is very intelligent and knows when something has changed that shouldn't have. Apart of that COULD be because these surgeries happen, for some, too young(which I personally think should not be happening) when everything isn't fully matured yet. Leading the complications. BUT, the body is just too complex of an organism tbh for this type of surgery at this time with the science and understanding we currently have. It's just too-too risky and painful and life threatening long term as far as the quality of life in concerned. I see too many MTF people regretting this surgery after just jumping on it after "hearing" about it. More of a money grab for these surgeons tbch. I'm definitely not a doctor or surgeon or medical professional. I just love and live for sciences and this just happens to fall under that umbrella. I HOPE YOU ALL THE BEST!!!!🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😬😬 Please take care of yourself and MAKE SURE you are legit eating healthyyyyyy!!!!! ...coming from a gay man
It's so scary to me because long term studies re hormones and procedures aren't even in the journals yet! Yes, maybe a few papers but the science is NOT there yet. It will be, and then I'd make my choice
As a doctor(not a surgeon) I know that MTF surgery is very complex and difficult. Unlike top surgery, which is usually successful, bottom surgery is way more complex, and way more risky. You will not be anatomically like a cis female, nor functionally. You will always be “different”. That is not meant to be mean, just that to go through with this you must understand that. You will lose the male anatomy, but will not have true female anatomy, period. And as she said there are risks of complications. I’m fine with adults doing this with open eyes, but not with unrealistic expectations. Good luck, and thanks for posting.!
I just watched a transgender woman on a channel Odins Men say she was disappointed when she went to her Dr post SRS for a pap smear test and was told 'No, you don't have female anatomy ' . She also was given a prostate exam and didn't know that biological women couldn't have them as we have no prostate gland. How on earth was she operated on with so little knowledge? She's from the US so I have no idea how their health care system works yet I'm horrified that she had zero knowledge of basic anatomy and was able to consent to SRS. I've had genetic breast cancer 3 times, my oncology team explain every aspect of my treatment,gave me literature, the breast care nurse number to call... Just incase. Counselling if I wanted etc... But I'm in Australia and we have Medicare for all.
@@elenawilliams32 External phenotype will be female after Male to Female reassignment surgery, but the internal phenotype still male (prostatic gland, seminal ducts and so on).
@@Tanya-rh9vj I absolutely understand that. My question was- How did this person sign up for SRS, get the required counselling etc and be approved for SRS when they clearly didn't understand what was going to happen to their body? I mean, they thought that they could have a pap smear test!
@@elenawilliams32 I didn’t understand your point at first, english isn’t my native language, sorry. But yes, I agree with you, doctors should show all the risks related to the surgical procedure the person is going to do! Obviously there are the good points, but there are bad points too, sometimes those bad points can be irreparable, not only for the body but also for the mind / psychological of the person. I don’t support MtF surgery but I’m not against it if the person is an adult and know all the risks related to this surgical procedure. However, I support those who want to change their face and body through plastic surgery, like Facial Feminization Surgery and Silicone Implants, those are reparable procedures in some level if the person regrets. I hope science one day will be so advanced that people can change their biology without permanent problems. I have a trans woman friend and she doesn’t want to do MtF surgery anymore, she’s satisfied having only female appearance, even if not completely.
They don't want to retain God in their knowledge so He's given them up to a reprobate mind. All they can do now is repent and work with where they are. Sad whst us humans do to ourselves and each other smh.
It's troubling to me that you keep reassuring yourself and everyone else that your complications are "not severe". Why don't you consider this complication to be that serious? You are very young to be having trouble urinating, and urinary problems don't get better with age. This is a life-changing complication that you are going to have to deal with for the rest of your life. Just because other people have worse complications don't mean that you need to downplay your complications. You have every right to be upset about this. I'm so sorry this is happening.
@@nanskiboutski243 also if you really want to say EVERYONE knows this please feel free to get me EVERYONE'S signature stating they do in fact know this
@@jaijai5250also because she's had her male urethra shortened, she'll be getting nonstop utis. It's why women have utis a couple times a year even if we're deadly clean. Shortened urethra means bacteria enters it much easier compared to a penis that has a long one that extends out of the body, ours is just outside the body. That's just one factor but ik for a fact most MTF trans ppl have severe utis like 20 a year
This just came up in my feed randomly, and I was so touched by what you shared. To me, feeling like crying is such a human response. I’m a cis woman who had some strange issues from a tear that wouldn’t heal for a long time after giving birth. I felt so upset and despairing and like nobody could understand. It’s incredibly vulnerable to have issues with this area, and I recognised your feelings. You are so beautiful and the vulnerable courage you show is graceful and radiant. May you, every part of you, be wrapped in the most unconditional love. 💕
You are a real adult woman; how can your health problems for giving birth, be compared to a sane healthy young male who for some mental reason got some doctors to castrate him? You are a woman who are complying to your biological set up, giving birth and then working with your doctor to get your health back He was healthy and the medical system of his own country castrated and mutilated his perfectly healthy genitals giving him a life long disability. How can any woman sympathize with this barbaric treatment of young mentally ill boys? What if this was your son, deciding to go on and be mutilated?
You keep saying your complications aren't severe, but you're having multiple surgeries to fix things. To me, listening to you, it sounds like your complications are, in fact, serious.
Its good to see that people are talking about all the complications that happen. Some of them are life changing in the worst possible way. I'm sure many, many people regret these surgeries and its all starting to come out in the open now. So many detransitioners are speaking out.
People have always known that this surgery is risky. People just want a reason to dislike trans people or to prove them wrong so they seek this information out more.
@@YourPainting1 That's a really strange way to think. I doubt people look for reasons to dislike someone. There are many wonderful trans people and there are many absolutely idiotic trans people. The same as the general population.
Absolutely not true. People don’t want to see the suffering that happens with these surgeries. Stop gaslighting others into this life long living hell. These surgeries are not necessary. Live as you like, but do not believe the lies. There are complications for most people. They aren’t told the truth. There is no such thing as transitioning. It’s only an allusion. You can not change your sex. Please for others being lead down this path , don’t do it. Not this self mutilation. Live and dress and act as you wish. But these surgeries are horrible and you are not being told the truth.
Your body is trying to heal up. I can't even have ear piercings because if I don't wear earrings for one day they will close up. The body wants to heal. Good luck 🤞🍀
@@Lambdamale. because it has. I love gory horror. Been my favorite genre since I was a toddler. I looked up photos of these surgeries and nearly threw up. It's vile that anyone would promote it.
I am in healthcare. I have been in this career for 41 years and have seen a lot. The past 5 years have been the worst: gastric bypass and sex reassignment surgeries. are extremely frightening. Yesterday, one of my coworkers was floated to another unit. She ended up having to code a new sex change male to female. Her new vagina failed and she had to come to our ED because it wouldn’t stop bleeding, and hadn’t urinated in days. She as afraid to come to us. She is in ICU now, hanging in there.
@@GODS_OUTLAW Out of everyone, I think trans people who want to get surgery would want to know more. It's something that's life changing that they might do, and if they don't know all the negative effects then they'll think it'll always work. Who cares if they want surgery (it is their body) but they should be well informed to make the right decision for themselves. Surgeons purposefully downplay the negative effects, only the positive ones that can occur. And that is NOT ok. It is giving people a false idea that they will get what they want, but never knowing that there are risks. It's up to the person themselves to know if the risk is worth it, but they don't even know sometimes cuz surgeons don't warn them of any potential negative effects.
I for real got tears in my eyes when you talked about being different 😭 You are my idol and I follow you through my own transition - you are so strong! ❤
I had my srs done in thailand few months ago, i was shocked that of all the girls that had surgery that week i healed pretty fast , they took stitches 9days post op i had to stay in the hospital for 14 days then they discharged me and stayed in the hotel for few days before i flew back home. I didnt have any issues what so ever until 2 weeks ago my scrutom came out of my cavity , and now i am sooo depressed in sooo much discomfort and and it bleeds sometimes, i have booked flight and all to go back and have my surgeon fix it nextmonth .youre right it is a lifetime commitment and it is very depressing :( . Having complications is a constant reminder that we are different and it truly brings back dysphoria :( . I wish i could give you a hug. And i hope everything goes well for you. I will pray for your safe and smooth recovery .❤
@@lyes8563 hi babe everything is well went back to my surgeon and they fixed my prolapse . Still have occasional pain from time to time but dr. Said itll take a yr to 18months to fully heal.
It's really distressing sister. Even after tolerating so much pain we are not treated like woman in the society. Many boys mock us by saying we are boy😢. I feel suicidal sometimes.
@@sidahuja2851They don't mock you. They are stating the obvious. Having your penis cut off and replaced with God knows what doesn't make you a woman. You will never be a woman. Never. You should be able to admit that this is wrong. You should make sure no one else goes through this same sick experience.
I can see the pain in your eyes. 😢I hope you find peace and I hope there is a way to take away the discomfort you go though with SRS. Thank you for educating me, I am not trans but this video was super informative and insightful. It’s so important to get your experience out there!! ❤
You seem like a really kind and genuine person and I’m sorry this happened to you. On one hand you’re saying yu don’t regret it and you don’t want to discourage others then on the other you’re crying and describing really traumatic and serious issues that have resulted from this surgery. Why wouldn’t you want to discourage other young people from making this mistake? There is no such thing as no complications with SRS. If this was supposed to prevent self inflicted harm, it doesn’t seem like it worked. I pray you will be able to heal and get on with your life.
It’s because she doesn’t want to offend the trans community … it’s like a cult . They can’t speak against it even tho the surgeries is a form of self-harm
@@houseplant7441 no, you dumb head. she’s basically saying she does not regret it because she had no other choice, just like many young trans people out there. discouraging people to do it would plainly be stupid.
@@hannah2048 It literally is a cult because they believe women can become men even though science says otherwise , it’s the same as having a religious belief
You weren’t “too tight.” Your body had an open wound that it was trying to close and your body is going to try to close this for the rest of your life. People need to hear the truth.
@@isabellavantichel4459 ok you can live in lala land if you want thinking a tiny hole thru cartilage is the same thing as cutting off a major body part/ organ and turning it into a gaping hole in your body. I live in reality, not lala land.
Honey, I'm so sorry for the pain and difficulties that you have experienced and are experiencing. I'm just so sorry. I hope that things get better and I am grateful and happy that you are who you are and that you're bravely sharing your life experiences with us.
Yes, you're different. We're all different. We're all unique in our own ways. And all have issues. Many humans have complications from surgeries years down the road. Not just you. Im sorry youre going through a difficult time. Sending light & love during your healing journey ✨🙏🏽 thanks for sharing
No matter what anyone wants.... The bottom surgery will never be good , easy or healthy.....best practice is keep whatever body parts you have and dress however you like......love what you are.....respect yourself and move on living a productive life....
It’s not that simple for people who were truly born with gender dysphoria, which is a disorder. I’m not in favor of bottom surgery but I’m not against it. Although, I support if people want to change their appearance from male to female and vice versa (face surgery, silicone implants and so on), because all of those are reversible in some point.
Untrue most people are not happy it takes years for your organs to feel somewhat normal again. Because you were perfectly healthy before and now you have to deal with body that is no longer healthy now you have to worry about infections just being able to use the bathroom properly will be a dream for the body of a person that has the surgery. So keep the parts u have take hormones leave it at that @@yeoss
@@sarahgonzales1715 There is literal studies and evidence that suggests that transition has a regret rate of ~less than 1%. The suicide rate even goes down post-transition. And also wdym infection. You have to worry about infection your whole life. Do you not wash your genitals or something? Stop spouting misinformation.
I hope you get well soon Matilda, thank you for being so brave and sharing your situation. Seeing you so upset broke my heart but this will pass I am sure and you are a young, beautiful girl with so much ahead of you. Stay strong ❤️. Edit: punctuation.
I am sorry to hear about your trouble as a 30 years post surgery transwoman I have grown to accept all my problems. But it is still better than living as a male. I hope you start feeling better.
I love you. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for what happened to you. No one should have been allowed to do this to you - and that will always be my opinion. You’re lovely. They could never take that away from you, and that’s not something they gave you with these surgeries. You are so much more than your body, it never had to hurt.
I do not understand how any doctor who adheres to the Hippocratic Oath can in good faith perform Bottom Surgery in order to address what is clearly a mental disorder. It would be tantamount to performing "fat transplants" on Anorexics or purposely cutting off perfectly good limbs to individuals who have Body Integrity Identity Disorder and identify as "handicapped". This is barbaric and ludicrous. We should not purposely mutilate a human body to try and align with a delusional brain. I have compassion for anyone with such extreme gender dysphoria, but there is no indication that bottom surgery is worth the risk. For Trans-women that means purposely leaving a wound open and actively preventing that wound from healing. The last time we used surgical intervention to try to solve mental disorder was an unmitigated disaster. And history has shown that surgical lobotomies to address mental illness was barbaric and cruel. Although at the time, these lobotomies were framed as being "compassionate care" History will judge criminally mislabeled "gender affirming" surgery with the same degree of contempt.
I understand you perfectly. I had surgery 1 year and a half ago. I had complications (luckily not so serious). and what I constantly struggle with are urinary infections. I was hospitalized 7 times for infections and each time they become more resistant. I went from doctor to doctor, I consulted with other surgeons and since they make you understand that they don't want to get involved in someone else's work or in a problem, you feel alone and it exhausts you a lot. I also have trouble urinating and I take tamsulosin which helps me a lot to relax my muscles. For the pain I use a hot water bottle that calms me down a lot. strength and anything ask me. And I also had no choice. my dysphoria was very strong to the point that it would end up mutilating me. I think that this surgery is for extreme cases and should not be taken lightly. and you have to be very strong mentally. You also have to know enough about one to make that decision. Analyze the past for possible traumas. You don't have to have anything pending to have the best time possible. Sorry for the traslation. I am the argentina
I’m a Post op Trans woman as well . Everything for the most part is good however I’ve had urinating issues as well so on Tuesday I have to visit my surgeon and they will take a look by inserting something in my urethra into the bladder to see what’s up. I’m scared because I don’t know if it’s a painful process.
@@bemidji57 omg I never heard of this, lol, now I'M scared. What causes this in women? Is it something medical or something that can happen because of diet/lifestyle? I ask bc sugar has been the one vice I can't quit. And as I get older, I worry. A lot. I actually quit nicotine easier than I can sugar sighhh
it was a complication after years.. she was fine and this doesn’t happen to everyone this is probably so so damn small and rare. and if she has a problem she is going to get it fixed. so ignorant.
@@qrstuvduhalaphabets hahaha, a quick search will inform you of how ignorant you are. Aparently it is the norm to have complications with bottom surgery. Turns out doctors can't manufacture our bottoms as promissed. But go ahead and be the experiment😊
Im so sorry for you having such difficulties and challenges in life. You deserve the best in and from life. There is nothing anyone can say to change what you are experiencing. I send my best wishes to you and wish I could offer more to help you find the happiness you deserve Love Jessica
@@Melnokina.-. bro even I don't comment or up comments like this. and I have been a troll and a half at times. It's outright malicious intent to harm at this point with the HE/SHE comments ...we should be praying for this persons that they recover the best they possibly can. And finds the spiritual growth and peace at heart that we all need.
@@Melnokina.-. my guy I'm fully against it myself, I here purely out of fascination with the psychology behind a person who says they are transgender. But we've all seen the HE / SHE comments enough man your not saving any little kids by being a doink. Like I indicated, I used Like the same comments , then , especially after it being played out , I realized it's just meant to dehumanize one of our own brothers/sisters so ...."c'mon man" let's start being decent people ,we can do it together
Mathilda, I truly feel for you, some of these complications can be totally frustrating, and can cause a secondary reactive depression. I am a physician and even I have fears for what I want done surgically in the future
@@verabolton then you clearly dont understand transgender people the depression is caused by dysphoria, not the other way around, my 40 year history of depression is gone after I had transitioned. and further Mathi;da's secondary reactive depression is due to complications of surgery, just compare the regret rate of GRS to knee surgery, about 1% compared to 40%, so success is high, regret is low, and it is not mutilation, you should take your gender critical malarkey elsewhere
@@gracekinsley3142 But they said they still have dysphoria... clearly GRS didn't sort it out, only caused further suffering both physically and mentally. The fact that they need to dilate themselves daily to maintain the appearance of a woman... utterly horrendous! The pain they go through is immense and they don't talk about their wonderful sex life. They admit their body will never be "normal"... Still, they maintain the 'no regret' mantra... while fighting tears... what a tragedy! 😨 Mutilating a body can never be a solution for depression. Never. Meaning of mutilation: 1) Damaging someone's body, especially by cutting or removing part of it 2) To damage or change something so much that it is completely spoiled We cannot possibly know the exact regret rate of GRS, because it's a very new trend and we have no enough data for a clear picture. You comparing it to a knee surgery proves you have no idea what you're talking about (don't switch off your brain when using google). Plus, you mess up the knee surgery dissatisfactory rate with the alleged GRS regret rate, which is at least *TEN TIMES* higher than for knee surgery - and it keeps growing. Knee surgery is to repair a damaged ligament - GRS is to destroy healthy body parts. Big difference, indeed!
@@verabolton you know fuck all about medicine, I am a physician and have been for the past 30 years, I have specific special interests in endocrinology and mood disorders, I am sufficiently more expert in these areas than you are, regret rate again published - (GRS A total of 27 studies, pooling 7928 transgender patients who underwent any type of GAS, were included. The pooled prevalence of regret after GAS was 1% (95% CI
Comment section not passing the vibe test. This information is useful for people like me who are very seriously considering this surgery. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and the haters am be out on read cause they’re voice doesn’t matter here
Save your self before it's too late, you should have taken this video as a warning for god sake ! whatever you're going through you need to fix your mind not the body ppl 😆
Mutilation of the body is never a solution for depression. In fact, it causes further depression. You calling me a hater or any other names won't bother me, I won't give in to emotional blackmail 😶
@@verabolton That’s literally proven to be untrue. Bottom surgery has less than 1% regret rate, that’s significantly less than other life saving surgeries like heart surgery or organ transplants. You’re choosing to be a hateful and unaccepting person, even if you were shown proof you’ll deny because for some reason other people’s joy threatens you.
@@Vi.lets.violet Proof? Where's your proof? GRS regret rate is 3 - 3.8% and growing according to Genderhq and Cornell University. There's been only one long term research about gender dysphoria so far, and according to that research 70-80% of the children will grow it out and settle in their biological sex if they're not pressurized to transition socially. This means: 70-80% is the future regret rate if we don't count with the current social contagion (which will push it even higher). Sui*dal rate doesn't go down with GRS and it doesn't stop the dysphoria either. The only thing GRS does: mutilates and ruins a healthy body without addressing the underlining problem.
Happy NewYear to you too! :) 🎆🎆🎆 I can imagine the pain, frustration and all. You must get the best out of it. You are in a country with good public health, and you have days of peace and happiness. But of course there are days of sadness. You are definitely a great help to thousands of people - young and old like me, - who experience a lot of these emotions, too.
Do not have surgery on a perfectly healthy body because someone convinced you this will somehow heal an unhealthy mind. Especially do not have such complicated surgeries as those involving genital plumbing, which is so very fragile and complex. If you care about other trans people, be a voice against surgeries that will have them struggling for the rest of their lives.
@@iceprincess135 removing perfectly healthy genitals is the same as having surgery to correct an illness or ailment? How is this any different from the people who want to cut off their limbs? Our genitals play a big role in regulating our bodies and serve a bigger purpose than sex or who's male or female.
Lots of us non transgender women have problems urinating. It’s a woman thing having plumbing problems because of the way we are built. We have infections, yeast overgrowth chronic irritations. We all learn to urinate right after having sex to prevent infections. Really, it helps so much. Being a woman can be hard but it’s rewarding in its own way.
Be strong and thank you so much! I find these videos so important even if I know lots of bad people misuse stuff like this. I have been resisting surgery and know even if for some unknown reason I end up being a cismale in future I would not regret it. Without logic interfering, I am 110% in it for surgery, with logical application however I am 80% sure. However logic also had me resisting being myself and HRT. Before I finally got diagnosed, and even after, I watched so much from all sides. Those that are trans, allies, detransitioners, transphobes, medical professionals, studies, et cetera. Stuff like this is so helpful for me to truly be sure of myself without doubt. I wish the best! Fully understand how this situation unfortunately retriggers dysphoria, it's our unfortunate reality but we are making the most of it.
If I were you, I'd wait a few years before even thinking about surgery. Its only been recent that so many are coming out and admitting all the complications. Some of them are shocking, like having to live with a colostomy bag, long term catheters, constant pain, inability to have sex at all. I really feel for you having the dysphoria, I can't even imagine how that feels. It just seems that these surgeries are not advanced enough.
@@leelee2350 they are very advanced, however are still surgeries. Surgeries for this are nothing new, though the advanced methods and results are. Medical decisions are all about risk/benefit, pros/cons. What is worse for the individual and their medical situation? Those may sound like shocking complications but those are nothing new to me.
This is why doctors NEED to tell their patients about the downside of SRS surgery....even after trans people get the surgery there's some that still commit suicide and that's really sad...I believe gender dysphoria is a mental illness and I think they need to help fix that issue with therapy and medication before them getting SRS surgery, that's permanent and it will affect your life.....especially with the complications....I really feel for these people that have gender dysphoria, I couldn't imagine living with that 😢
Gender dysphoria is a disorder, not a mental illness, but yes, therapy is necessary and real expectations about transition is totally necessary, also about the risks, but not medication to treat dysphoria, because there’s no medication to treat or alleviate dysphoria, because again, it’s a disorder, not a mental illness.
They've done plenty of studies on gender dysphoria and have concluded that the only effective treatment is to physically transition. There is nothing else that works.
I'm a biological male, and I had an issue back in 2019 with peeing. Mine stopped completely. It's scary, and I felt 2nd hand pain listening to your story. I still get worried it will come back.
I think more trans people need to come out and say all the BAD about it instead of only saying the good. Which should include, that it won't fix any mental issues, it won't actually make you that gender- it just changes your body.
This is 100% untrue. The surgeries change your body. The hormones change your mind and heal your brain from the poison of the incorrect hormones. Take it from someone who's had "all the surgeries" and had zero problems with any of them, they work, and they and the hormones saved my life.
I had my surgery almost 20 days ago AND THIS IS SO TRUE. DONT👏DO👏IT👏 if u don’t really need this as ur let step, FEEL like a woman BEFORE the surgery, because this will not make u feel more or less and u have to have GUTS to have this…
Wow I genuinely feel bad for you, I hope you know Jesus loves all of us no matter what even when we turn our back on him he is always waiting for you with open arms
@@quinnvids Why so negative. There may not be any complications. But with any surgery you are introducing the possibility. For me, I feel I’m over it,and healed nicely, functioning well.
@@quinnvids Yep folks should not take it lightly and not everyone needs or should do it. I had complications even from mine, and its was way more involved, pain, blood, infection, etc. than I ever expected.
Your very brave to be honest about the complications and to warn people that this may not be for everyone thats not 100% sure. i hope you get better honey.
Because it *is* traumatic and unnatural. Mutilation of the body is never a solution for depression. Actually, it causes further depression. Poor thing still thinks they didn't have a choice... 🥺
All surgeries come with complications. Transgender people get surgeries to minimise gender dysphoria, this isn’t uncommon. It’s not up to you to decide whether people should get certain surgeries or not.
@@veraboltonyou can't tell people that they're depressed though. She can have medical issues and still not be depressed or wishing she didn't do it. Of course it'd be better if no one wanted surgery
@@theduchessofdarknessofficial Depends on what you call a "success" - eg the patient survives...? Bottom surgery is a butchery, it's mutilation, it leaves you with multiply complications every single time. That's why less and less people wants it.
It's so sad that you were in such emotional pain that you felt you had no other options. Tbh I haven't seen anyone come out of these surgeries without pretty severe complications. It seems like a lot of these doctors are predatory and know what they're doing to people in making them lifelong customers. With all due respect they should stop doing them until they figure out a better way with better results. I hope your situation works out, you seem like a beautiful person who just wants a normal life.
As a cis woman, our bladders and vaginas malfunction quite regularly too. I’m 30, no pregnancies ever, and I literally can’t hold my bladder more than 40 minutes without daily medicine. I’ve also had cervical pre-cancer twice! I know that’s nothing compared to post-surgery complications but just know that everyone’s body has issues from time to time.
I appreciate your vulnerability and opening up about your struggles post-surgery. I have been transitioning for the past 10 years now and have been taking my journey at my own pace to be completely sure. I recently had an orchiectomy 2 years ago and now I have my SRS date set for December this year. Since my date has been set, I have been working on myself more. The doctors pretty much told me the surgery is like going through a marathon with your body physically and emotionally. Your videos have helped me to understand what to expect in this process. Thank you ❤️
If I would be in the same situation, I would talk to other trans people who already had it done and ask their experience. I would talk to as many as I can. I would also look specifically for those who had complications so I could have a better picture of my chances. That surgery is so complicated, so many things can go wrong. Shape Shifter talked about how his sex life was totally ruined. His genitals are not functional and he lost his sex drive too. He basically regretted the surgery and de-transitoned and still fears the future complications. Maybe I would wait a little more, a few more years until the surgery technique gets more developed and reliable. Life is precious. But with constant surgeries what kind of life is that?
@@moma-b I don't know your life story and you don't know what I have gone through to get to where I am currently. To put me in the same box as a shape shifter is extremely insulting to where I am in life. To be honest, I never have heard of this person before, nor do I want to associate myself with this person moving forward. I would never claim to be a victim of my circumstances. Taking ownership of my life decisions has helped me in my journey. To apply that I haven't talked to people that have had this similar surgery is very ignorant on your behalf. I have done my research and I accept that there are very real and long-term risks that are associated with this type of surgery. The surgeons and doctors are very clear about these risks before they start and it's your responsibility to take these risks seriously before the day of the surgery. I have taken my life & my journey very seriously and have improved my physical and mental health in the process. I am very proud of my current circumstances in life and I am confident in who I am and where I am going moving forward. ✌️
@@kathern_rocks _"To put me in the same box as a shape shifter is extremely insulting to where I am in life"_ Then I am so glad I did not put you into any box, especially not his box. _"nor do I want to associate myself with this person moving forward"_ I don't even understand why would you even think of such. I read a lot of stories every day and never even crossed my mind to associate myself with any of those. _"To apply that I haven't talked to people that have had this similar surgery is very ignorant on your behalf."_ Again, it is very good than that I did not apply anything to you. I was deliberately putting my words down to avoid such thing at any cost. E.g. I could've used _"when you do this and that"_ but I didn't. I put myself into a similar situation and formed my opinion about what I would do. I hope you can differentiate. Because exactly this is why we have different words to express different meanings, to avoid that the other person feel insulted, which could take away the possibility of a conversation. I'm happy to hear that you feel good and confident and I wish you all the best with your path forward.
Oh my! So sorry to hear you're experiencing problems and as someone who is wavering on the do I/don't, I watch videos like yours and I understand that you've been happy and you are very young, compared to me anyway, and that this is as dysphoric and I'm sure being reminded isn't nice. My reasoning for dreading this is, I hate pain and the thought of something going wrong fills me with fear. I've already had years of pain from surgery when I was a child and the thought this could happen again makes me shiver! I wish you well and I hope you have a speedy recovery. Mikki
I’m seeing this a year later. I hope you are doing better now. I’m a medical professional and I have seen way too many complications with this type of surgery. Many of the doctors performing them are literally experimenting on vulnerable people. I wish you talked more in your video about the need for counseling before deciding to have this done. I would recommend at least a year. Surgery can certainly benefit many with true gender dysphoria, but also be harmful for others. It is a lifelong commitment, and there will be lifetime issues and revisions. It’s never “one and done” with this surgery. I hope you are doing better.
Oh, Mathilda, I'm so sorry you are experiencing those nagging complications and hope they are resolved quickly. I hope you and Christian are and will continue growing strong together. ❤❤❤
Thank you, Mathilda. I wish you a speedy recovery and as few complications as possible as time goes on. If you are watching this and you aren’t trans and don’t have bottom dysphoria, I encourage you to stop for a moment before posting about how unnatural this is or how monstrous it is and consider one of the last things she says in her video: that she is tired of being reminded she is different. When you are trans people never stop reminding you, and much of the discourse of others is around your genitals. Imagine people focusing on that all the time - imagine how that feels, especially if you already feel alienated in your own body. The relief that can come with this procedure cannot be understated. It is not something to pity or to mourn or to get sympathy points for saying “oh you poor thing.” This is a human saying she is in pain for something she doesn’t regret, and those two things are not diametrically opposed. Be here for her without judgment.
This seems to be the standard and not some random complication. I’m so confused how this cures someone’s gender dysphoria when most end up with some lifelong medical problem to maintain these new body parts that never even perform the basic function those actual body parts are intended to perform. I’m genuinely confused. This trans woman seems like a lovely person who’s allowed themselves to be experimented on. Everyday I’m seeing more and more people coming out who are in the same situation and it’s very sad.
Its amazing how this mass hysteria about gender is ruining people's lives. People who are unhappy, doing crazy things to themselves to try to grasp at fleeting happiness....thats life without God and Jesus. Real joy comes from our Creator God, nothing else will do... 🙏
Mathilda! I'm sorry you're going through this. I admire you for being open and sharing your story. I can tell that you're in pain. Hope the best for you. Hugs!
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, *_and learn of me_* for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." *_~Jesus_* (Matt 11:28-30)
@@OMGKawaiiPsycho man? well, Jesus is God and every knee *_will bow_* and every tongue *_will confess_* that Jesus Christ is Lord to the glory of God the Father... so the only question you have to ask yourself is if you want to bow before you enter the Kingdom of God.... *_OR_* the Lake of Fire... because, make no mistake, you *_are going to bow_*
@@OMGKawaiiPsycho I did not say you will bow to me... you will bow to Jesus...and confess that He is Lord to the glory of God... He is the CREATOR and every knee will bow... it's just a matter of when. I recommend you get right with God before your last day here and the judgment... and all you have to do is seek Him with you whole heart... you will find Him and learn about Him in His Word... just read it yourself. He loves you, He is waiting for you to humble yourself and repent...He laid down His life to free you from the bondage of sin and death... do not neglect so great a salvation! "....learn of me..." ~ Jesus
@@inTruthbyGrace W-well... I'll bow for Jesus then... I'll get on my knees and beg Jesus to punish me for being such a bad girl... I'll submit to my lord, Jesus Christ (ㆁωㆁ)
i feel you girl. ❤ you are so strong and beautiful and admirable. i appreciate you being so vulnerable and sharing your experience. ❤️ your videos mean so much to me.
Thank you for sharing. Not everyone is given the complete picture and it doesn’t seem fair that they only find out after their leap of faith when it’s too late to make other choices if wanted.
I am really sorry you are having these complications. I want to offer some food for thought that helped me a lot in getting over feeling weird and different than other people: To think you are especially weird, defective, different, etc. is essentially very similar to thinking you are especially good. You perceive yourself as "special" in both cases, only in the former it is negative and in the latter positive. It was very healing for me to balance my ego and see that I am not special and therefore also not especially weird or different. I know this may trigger defensiveness in people because when you feel bad about yourself, it does not feel great to be told "you're not special, get over yourself", but I do believe it is part of the problem for a lot of people and genuinely healing to move through nonjudgmentally and with self-compassion. It feels much better to put more energy on other things and other people than on myself and how "defective" I am... Good luck healing your physical complications and emotional feelings about your body xx
This is a very important video document highlighting a lifelong commitment to medical intervention in order to address chronic complications resulting from the removal/alteration of male/female genitalia and then the creation of a facsimile of female/male genitalia and it should be watched by anybody considering embarking on such a momentous surgical pathway.
Today, the trans community willlikely denigrate your situation and try to bury this content. They will say that you’re a transphobe and tell you to shut up. Your content is exactly what a young person needs to hear and I hope you continue to publish content. Thank you!!!
@@canadachandler7521 ...can you name even one time when we’ve actually “buried” information regarding bottom surgery and called mtfs transphobes for talking about it? 💀 Dude, you’re not the main character
Like bro. You can read about the risks of bottom surgery if you do like 5 seconds of Googling. It’s not hard. We actively welcome science that helps us learn more about ourselves so we can have safer procedures in future. Stop being so strange
I doubt that there are people without any complications at all honestly. If I‘m wrong, ok, then nice for those who have none. But thinking of the surgeries it‘s almost impossible to not have issues after them. I mean, the body is hurt at very sensitive regions on purpose, where nothing like that is meant to be like that. Sorry to say but that‘s the biological, physiological anatomic side of these treatments. I‘m sorry for your complications, believe me, they are more common than you think, they are normal consequences unfortunately but not many are willing to talk about that! So thank you for your honesty, it could help many people. Is that nerve pain you still have ? ( the one occuring while watching TV you described ) It IS a major surgery that will have a huge impact on any persons life following through with it but mostly not in the -prior to surgery - imagined way.
I know it has to be very hard to talk about many of these things. Thank you for putting yourself out there despite that difficulty. I am sure the videos you have created have helped a great many people. *offers hugs*
Love you lots and lots and Matilda from your sister Kenzie and I hope you had a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful blessed New Year too!! 🦄🏳️⚧️🦋💙💞🤍💞💙😘😘😘
The reason you're having pain in because your skin is a place is not supposed to be, plain and simple. That's what happens with scar tissue. I'm not hating or anything, I'm just stating facts. You can be trans and not have the bottom surgery, unless you're severely bothered by it and experiencing major gender dysphoria. If it saves your life, make sure this is the reason and not something else. Because it's a very shocking transition, many things can go wrong and will go wrong. You'll most likely get many painful infections and be healing for a extended period of time, which will also be painful and very expensive. The reason you can't pee is because once again, your uretha isn't in the right place and things are moved around. Doctors and Big Pharma, big corporations are BANKING off trans people and it really bothers me, they're acting like they're helping people who are troubled by their own bodies and experiencing hell. They don't care about trans people, they want your money.
😢 pray for everyone who has been fooled by this trans-human agenda. Simply out: a vagina is not just a place to be sexually penetrated, and reducing this important female organ down to that one minuscule function is so misogynistic it’s hard to believe that we are really doing genital lobotomies in 2024 and calling it “health CARE” 😢
Wow that’s so true! I went to do some research about it … and just by looking at a picture of men/women anatomy you can see the differences . Even after the bottom surgery it can never be in the right place !
There are testimonies about men who do not have the bottom surgery, but take estrogen and have serious complications with that. The human body was not meant to "change sex," and trying to do so is like a fish trying to like out of water.
I'm 36 yrs old transwoman I'm happy and live being like this every one who see me treat me like a girl because in and out I'm look feminine. But until now I'm still not done srs which I'm still thinking 100% I will do someday or soon? But who's know if I can do that what ever happen I will be happy. For you my sister don't give up what ever complication you feel now that is not permanent on you. You will be OK, fine soon I'm soo happy for you ❤️❤️❤️ just always pray and be happy❤️❤️❤️
I'm sorry youre going through this . But this is the reality....its such a horrific , barbaric surgery and it's unnatural . Your body will always try to heal itself and it will malfunction because it's been wracked . You would've found someone to love and accept you without doing the surgery . Just the way you were . But anyways, good luck
Keep in mind, when you go against nature be prepared for the consequences. I don't feel sorry for these people at all. It is normal to feel awkward growing up. It can be physically painful, especially for girls and many of us are bullied in school for not fitting in with the cool people, whatever they are.
It amazes me how anyone can convince themselves that inverting their genitals in this butchering way is the ANSWER to their mental problems. What the heck!!!!
Please be careful what you say. Being trans isn't a mental health problem. Gender dysphoria is a serious mental health problem that cannot really be 'solved' without surgeries like this. Doing SRS generally isn't to get other people to love you, but to try to make your anatomy fit with what you feel it should have always been. It is just really important to be aware of the side effects, which I think is why sharing this experience is so crucial, so thank you for that, Mathilda. As she said, she is still happy she did the surgery, despite all the complications.
It's good and brave to discuss these issues openly, too many kids are getting into this with no idea about the life long problems that can happen. I have seen people who end up with no working sex organs and that can't be fixed, also the lifelong implications of taking hormones shortens people's lives and can and does result in pre senile dementia. I think the more people who tell their stories honestly, without getting embroiled in the trans gender activists rhetoric, the better informed these kids, and their families will be to make these decisions or not. What people fail to see is the vested interests of doctors and pharmaceutical companies who are trying to sell as many lifelong courses of hormones they can, without being up front about the problems this incurs. I hope everything goes well for you.
It’s not only doctors and big pharma making money. It sounds like the manufacturers of urinary incontinence products will be making a packet also. Now they stand to benefit from all age groups, and not just the elderly, or those who naturally develop incontinence. I wonder if it also affects the bowels, and can lead to faecal incontinence, particularly for women. Uterine activity can have an impact on the bowels also, such as periods, or labour.
So sorry to hear that honey. It's true that their are different surgeries and complications can arise, but its better than waking up in the morning and looking in the mirror knowing that their is an elephant between the legs. I know that Thailand has many successful and great surgery options and revision corrections. Also in Brazil a Doctor created an actual phallus out of the clients own stem cells. I was wondering if its possible if they could create the female reproductive system out of my own stem cells (not for other people, but for me) in order to have the transfer surgery later. But, I have to take tiny steps. Ill take HRT later in life, but coming out socially is great and euphoric. Also growing out my hair feels great. I do hope things for you work out. This is coming from a suicide survivor; you did what you needed too continue in life. It's not a regret because you are alive and fighting. I seriously wanted to end things, until I realized im Bigender. The thought will always be there but I can't reset this life. I know that if I had the opportunity and option when I was a kid to transition I wouldn't be so miserable. And the reason is because Texas citizens are as ignorant as ants and don't let their kids express themselves because they are afraid of change. 😐 But, I'm looking forward to life and all the twist and turns whether they may be positive or negative, because it tells us that we are alive. It is possible that you may feel you are having a crummy and stale day, but I hope it gets better for you. I may not understand fully your hardships, but Their will be good days. Feel the breeze outside, watch and hear the streams of water , or enjoy listening to music watching the grass grow as your having a picnic. Enjoy the present moments while ignoring the deep constant thoughts of the mind. You got this girl! 😊 Stay authentic and keep the world in color when it seems gray.
Please take care of you. I understand that things can be challenging for you, but you've come so far. Please just try to think of the positive things you have going for you. And it's really amazing that you're taking this opportunity to try and help others. Take care!
🥹 I am tearing up 🥺 I am so proud of you, Mathilda, and I don’t even know you. 🥺 thank you for your bravery in being so honest about your experiences. Thank you for educating people, inspiring people (myself included). I am a cisgender woman. 🥺 I am so privileged to have been born biologically with how I identify. I am so, so sorry for the pain and trauma that you have had to endure 💔 😢 You are so damn strong though. Your resilience is inspirational! Slay, queen!!!!!!!! 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜
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You are still a dude women are women
Trans "women" are men with mental health issues
Get some help and stay in swedistan
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An average person urinates several times throughout the day, EVERY day. Having an issue with that would be considered a SERIOUS complication
You should hear about the FtM bottom surgeries and urination. It's pure body horror
When you put it like that… I guess it is a serious complication
@@elysiaxox anything you have to do daily getting interrupted creates major problems elsewhere too. If you can't expel waste your organs will not continue to function with ease
I go about 10 times a day, so that really needs to work properly.
They just gaslight themselves into thinking they are better and everything is great! It is NOT
Not being able to pee is pretty severe! I’m not sure why you feel like you have to down play what your going through
It’s easier to delude yourself than admit you made a horrible mistake.
The church of trans
Because it’s a cult…. And you have to get more recruits to bow down at the alter of trans.
@@NellyMariaArt 💯
@@veraboltonDo not feel sorry for them. God hates what they do, they will be punished for it. It is an abomination to try to change your sex. You can't change your DNA. Waste all the money in the world, you will always be what you were born to be.
Thank you for being honest. Many trans women like to sugar-coat about their bottom surgery results. ❤️
Sugarcoating is one way to say they're a bunch of liars.
Point blank, the science just is not there yet. Yes they can plastic surgery you up to make it look the way it looks down there, but the body itself is very intelligent and knows when something has changed that shouldn't have. Apart of that COULD be because these surgeries happen, for some, too young(which I personally think should not be happening) when everything isn't fully matured yet. Leading the complications.
BUT, the body is just too complex of an organism tbh for this type of surgery at this time with the science and understanding we currently have. It's just too-too risky and painful and life threatening long term as far as the quality of life in concerned. I see too many MTF people regretting this surgery after just jumping on it after "hearing" about it. More of a money grab for these surgeons tbch.
I'm definitely not a doctor or surgeon or medical professional. I just love and live for sciences and this just happens to fall under that umbrella.
I HOPE YOU ALL THE BEST!!!!🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😬😬 Please take care of yourself and MAKE SURE you are legit eating healthyyyyyy!!!!! ...coming from a gay man
@@sia9907no, not really
It's so scary to me because long term studies re hormones and procedures aren't even in the journals yet! Yes, maybe a few papers but the science is NOT there yet. It will be, and then I'd make my choice
@@lorihoop3831baby the biodentical hormones are been here since the 90s.. must be so sad to have so many anxiety that u cant be ur trueself:(
As a doctor(not a surgeon) I know that MTF surgery is very complex and difficult. Unlike top surgery, which is usually successful, bottom surgery is way more complex, and way more risky. You will not be anatomically like a cis female, nor functionally. You will always be “different”. That is not meant to be mean, just that to go through with this you must understand that. You will lose the male anatomy, but will not have true female anatomy, period. And as she said there are risks of complications. I’m fine with adults doing this with open eyes, but not with unrealistic expectations.
Good luck, and thanks for posting.!
Thank you Doctor for sharing the truth. It's very important for people considering it, young people most of all.
I just watched a transgender woman on a channel Odins Men say she was disappointed when she went to her Dr post SRS for a pap smear test and was told 'No, you don't have female anatomy ' . She also was given a prostate exam and didn't know that biological women couldn't have them as we have no prostate gland. How on earth was she operated on with so little knowledge? She's from the US so I have no idea how their health care system works yet I'm horrified that she had zero knowledge of basic anatomy and was able to consent to SRS. I've had genetic breast cancer 3 times, my oncology team explain every aspect of my treatment,gave me literature, the breast care nurse number to call... Just incase. Counselling if I wanted etc... But I'm in Australia and we have Medicare for all.
@@elenawilliams32 External phenotype will be female after Male to Female reassignment surgery, but the internal phenotype still male (prostatic gland, seminal ducts and so on).
@@Tanya-rh9vj I absolutely understand that. My question was- How did this person sign up for SRS, get the required counselling etc and be approved for SRS when they clearly didn't understand what was going to happen to their body? I mean, they thought that they could have a pap smear test!
@@elenawilliams32 I didn’t understand your point at first, english isn’t my native language, sorry.
But yes, I agree with you, doctors should show all the risks related to the surgical procedure the person is going to do!
Obviously there are the good points, but there are bad points too, sometimes those bad points can be irreparable, not only for the body but also for the mind / psychological of the person.
I don’t support MtF surgery but I’m not against it if the person is an adult and know all the risks related to this surgical procedure. However, I support those who want to change their face and body through plastic surgery, like Facial Feminization Surgery and Silicone Implants, those are reparable procedures in some level if the person regrets.
I hope science one day will be so advanced that people can change their biology without permanent problems. I have a trans woman friend and she doesn’t want to do MtF surgery anymore, she’s satisfied having only female appearance, even if not completely.
This is heartbreaking. Hearing her talk about these complications as if it’s normal, par for the course is beyond me. I’m at a loss for words.
Yes! Complications should be freak , RATE things. Not to be expected or normal.😮😮😮
They don't want to retain God in their knowledge so He's given them up to a reprobate mind. All they can do now is repent and work with where they are. Sad whst us humans do to ourselves and each other smh.
@@mache3984 You are weak minded. …No? Prove me wrong, define “God”. For I believe you are delusional and think you are something you are not.
You mean him gone her
Hearing "him" talk. Wishful thinking is not a fact
It's troubling to me that you keep reassuring yourself and everyone else that your complications are "not severe". Why don't you consider this complication to be that serious? You are very young to be having trouble urinating, and urinary problems don't get better with age. This is a life-changing complication that you are going to have to deal with for the rest of your life. Just because other people have worse complications don't mean that you need to downplay your complications. You have every right to be upset about this. I'm so sorry this is happening.
I worked on a male urology ward as a student nurse in the 1980’s. Urinary retention is serious, and usually happens to older men.
Anyone could have this problem anytime for a multitude of reasons, what's to say it wouldn't have happened anyway
@@Areyouafraidofthedarkkuk Men have this problem and it is related to their prostate. As EVERYONE knows.
@@nanskiboutski243 also if you really want to say EVERYONE knows this please feel free to get me EVERYONE'S signature stating they do in fact know this
@@jaijai5250also because she's had her male urethra shortened, she'll be getting nonstop utis. It's why women have utis a couple times a year even if we're deadly clean. Shortened urethra means bacteria enters it much easier compared to a penis that has a long one that extends out of the body, ours is just outside the body. That's just one factor but ik for a fact most MTF trans ppl have severe utis like 20 a year
Oh, this is heartbreaking. thank you for being so honest. I just want to give you a big hug.
Thank you for sharing your story and being so open and vulnerable. I wish you great health and recovery.
This just came up in my feed randomly, and I was so touched by what you shared. To me, feeling like crying is such a human response. I’m a cis woman who had some strange issues from a tear that wouldn’t heal for a long time after giving birth. I felt so upset and despairing and like nobody could understand. It’s incredibly vulnerable to have issues with this area, and I recognised your feelings. You are so beautiful and the vulnerable courage you show is graceful and radiant. May you, every part of you, be wrapped in the most unconditional love. 💕
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@wavingcat5 I disagree you are a "cis woman". You were not assigned a sex at birth, you were born female.
Cis woman?? You're a woman, get real.
Penis inverted has problems
You are a real adult woman; how can your health problems for giving birth, be compared to a sane healthy young male who for some mental reason got some doctors to castrate him?
You are a woman who are complying to your biological set up, giving birth and then working with your doctor to get your health back
He was healthy and the medical system of his own country castrated and mutilated his perfectly healthy genitals giving him a life long disability.
How can any woman sympathize with this barbaric treatment of young mentally ill boys?
What if this was your son, deciding to go on and be mutilated?
You keep saying your complications aren't severe, but you're having multiple surgeries to fix things. To me, listening to you, it sounds like your complications are, in fact, serious.
So sorry to hear dear, I hope it gets better by the times goes. You are loving dear and I'm glad you are surrounded by people that love you.
Its good to see that people are talking about all the complications that happen. Some of them are life changing in the worst possible way. I'm sure many, many people regret these surgeries and its all starting to come out in the open now. So many detransitioners are speaking out.
People have always known that this surgery is risky. People just want a reason to dislike trans people or to prove them wrong so they seek this information out more.
@@YourPainting1 I don't think thats true...
@@amking33 It's true, & you don't need to look far to find out. Transphobic people really are looking for any reason to deny the right to transition.
@@YourPainting1 That's a really strange way to think. I doubt people look for reasons to dislike someone. There are many wonderful trans people and there are many absolutely idiotic trans people. The same as the general population.
Absolutely not true. People don’t want to see the suffering that happens with these surgeries.
Stop gaslighting others into this life long living hell. These surgeries are not necessary.
Live as you like, but do not believe the lies. There are complications for most people. They aren’t told the truth.
There is no such thing as transitioning. It’s only an allusion. You can not change your sex.
Please for others being lead down this path , don’t do it. Not this self mutilation.
Live and dress and act as you wish. But these surgeries are horrible and you are not being told the truth.
Your body is trying to heal up. I can't even have ear piercings because if I don't wear earrings for one day they will close up. The body wants to heal. Good luck 🤞🍀
I have heard this from many people. The body will perpetually believe it has been injured and will be trying to heal for the rest of her life.
@@Lambdamale. because it has. I love gory horror. Been my favorite genre since I was a toddler. I looked up photos of these surgeries and nearly threw up. It's vile that anyone would promote it.
@@VisenyaAtoms It's not a promotion; it's an option for those interested.
Not with colon vaginoplasty
Same thing happens to my piercings, haven't met anyone else to say the same, but this is always what I say too
I am in healthcare.
I have been in this career for 41 years and have seen a lot.
The past 5 years have been the worst: gastric bypass and sex reassignment surgeries. are extremely frightening.
Yesterday, one of my coworkers was floated to another unit. She ended up having to code a new sex change male to female. Her new vagina failed and she had to come to our ED because it wouldn’t stop bleeding, and hadn’t urinated in days.
She as afraid to come to us.
She is in ICU now, hanging in there.
oh my god! how did it go??
Hadn’t urinated in DAYS?!
Holy fuck, your story should be on the news!! But it never will be because they don't want that info out
@@GODS_OUTLAW Out of everyone, I think trans people who want to get surgery would want to know more. It's something that's life changing that they might do, and if they don't know all the negative effects then they'll think it'll always work. Who cares if they want surgery (it is their body) but they should be well informed to make the right decision for themselves. Surgeons purposefully downplay the negative effects, only the positive ones that can occur. And that is NOT ok. It is giving people a false idea that they will get what they want, but never knowing that there are risks. It's up to the person themselves to know if the risk is worth it, but they don't even know sometimes cuz surgeons don't warn them of any potential negative effects.
Poor thing. I wish trans people could feel comfortable with the genitals they were born with but I understand why some people do surgery
I for real got tears in my eyes when you talked about being different 😭 You are my idol and I follow you through my own transition - you are so strong! ❤
I had my srs done in thailand few months ago, i was shocked that of all the girls that had surgery that week i healed pretty fast , they took stitches 9days post op i had to stay in the hospital for 14 days then they discharged me and stayed in the hotel for few days before i flew back home. I didnt have any issues what so ever until 2 weeks ago my scrutom came out of my cavity , and now i am sooo depressed in sooo much discomfort and and it bleeds sometimes, i have booked flight and all to go back and have my surgeon fix it nextmonth .youre right it is a lifetime commitment and it is very depressing :( . Having complications is a constant reminder that we are different and it truly brings back dysphoria :( . I wish i could give you a hug. And i hope everything goes well for you. I will pray for your safe and smooth recovery .❤
Hi there, it's been six months. How are you feeling now?
@@lyes8563 hi babe everything is well went back to my surgeon and they fixed my prolapse . Still have occasional pain from time to time but dr. Said itll take a yr to 18months to fully heal.
It's really distressing sister. Even after tolerating so much pain we are not treated like woman in the society. Many boys mock us by saying we are boy😢. I feel suicidal sometimes.
It may not be about being "different" .... it may be about cutting essential complicated body parts off. I'm sorry for both of you for your loss....
@@sidahuja2851They don't mock you. They are stating the obvious. Having your penis cut off and replaced with God knows what doesn't make you a woman. You will never be a woman. Never. You should be able to admit that this is wrong. You should make sure no one else goes through this same sick experience.
I can see the pain in your eyes. 😢I hope you find peace and I hope there is a way to take away the discomfort you go though with SRS. Thank you for educating me, I am not trans but this video was super informative and insightful. It’s so important to get your experience out there!! ❤
very bad advice. this is a very demonic lifestyle that leads to hell.
Well, he invited the pain upon himself
@@Nigerian-born_Americanshe* herself *. Just because she wanted the surgery doesn't mean she invited the complications, you ...
@@thatguybutitsactuallyagirl5384 He*
@@thatguybutitsactuallyagirl5384 I am aware that America is struggling with reality, but he is a he.
You seem like a really kind and genuine person and I’m sorry this happened to you. On one hand you’re saying yu don’t regret it and you don’t want to discourage others then on the other you’re crying and describing really traumatic and serious issues that have resulted from this surgery. Why wouldn’t you want to discourage other young people from making this mistake? There is no such thing as no complications with SRS. If this was supposed to prevent self inflicted harm, it doesn’t seem like it worked. I pray you will be able to heal and get on with your life.
It’s because she doesn’t want to offend the trans community … it’s like a cult . They can’t speak against it even tho the surgeries is a form of self-harm
@@houseplant7441 no, you dumb head. she’s basically saying she does not regret it because she had no other choice, just like many young trans people out there. discouraging people to do it would plainly be stupid.
@@houseplant7441 it very clearly isn't a "cult". You'd know that if you watched her content without bringing along any preconceived notions.
Because that would get her burned at the stake for heresy!
@@hannah2048 It literally is a cult because they believe women can become men even though science says otherwise , it’s the same as having a religious belief
I dont understand why this surgery is even being done. It is dangerous and frankly mutilation.
You weren’t “too tight.” Your body had an open wound that it was trying to close and your body is going to try to close this for the rest of your life. People need to hear the truth.
Open wound is not correct. After the surgery itself yes, but after it's healed, no. It's more comparable to something like a piercing.
Gurl you sound real pressed. Why are you here anyways? Mind your own shit show life….
@@isabellavantichel4459 ok you can live in lala land if you want thinking a tiny hole thru cartilage is the same thing as cutting off a major body part/ organ and turning it into a gaping hole in your body. I live in reality, not lala land.
@@isabellavantichel4459are you insane?! You are beyond delusional
@@christinajones6500 Do you have any scientific evidence to support your statement?
Honey, I'm so sorry for the pain and difficulties that you have experienced and are experiencing. I'm just so sorry. I hope that things get better and I am grateful and happy that you are who you are and that you're bravely sharing your life experiences with us.
We have a question here : is your urethra between your clitoris and your vaginal opening ????
So happy to see you're back, I love your videos and you're so strong and amazing and hundred percent my idol!
LOVE U
Your idol is a man with mental illness?
Once they do the surgery they know they will have a repeat patient for life! That’s why they do it $$$$$
Yeah Sure because there is nothing less complicated then These surgeries
this is a very demonic thing. these people need to repent.
Yea they do heart and lung transplants too just for money. Nobody needs them it’s just done for money right? Grow up please.
@@estrella84827exactly that’s why they push them
What about in Canada where it's free?????
Yes, you're different. We're all different. We're all unique in our own ways. And all have issues. Many humans have complications from surgeries years down the road. Not just you. Im sorry youre going through a difficult time. Sending light & love during your healing journey ✨🙏🏽 thanks for sharing
No matter what anyone wants.... The bottom surgery will never be good , easy or healthy.....best practice is keep whatever body parts you have and dress however you like......love what you are.....respect yourself and move on living a productive life....
It’s not that simple for people who were truly born with gender dysphoria, which is a disorder.
I’m not in favor of bottom surgery but I’m not against it. Although, I support if people want to change their appearance from male to female and vice versa (face surgery, silicone implants and so on), because all of those are reversible in some point.
not true. most people are happy post-SRS
Untrue most people are not happy it takes years for your organs to feel somewhat normal again. Because you were perfectly healthy before and now you have to deal with body that is no longer healthy now you have to worry about infections just being able to use the bathroom properly will be a dream for the body of a person that has the surgery. So keep the parts u have take hormones leave it at that @@yeoss
@@sarahgonzales1715 There is literal studies and evidence that suggests that transition has a regret rate of ~less than 1%. The suicide rate even goes down post-transition.
And also wdym infection.
You have to worry about infection your whole life. Do you not wash your genitals or something?
Stop spouting misinformation.
Speak for yourself, dont broadcast your own choices as facts of life for others. We get it, OP, you don't want SRS. Cool.
I hope you get well soon Matilda, thank you for being so brave and sharing your situation. Seeing you so upset broke my heart but this will pass I am sure and you are a young, beautiful girl with so much ahead of you. Stay strong ❤️.
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I am sorry to hear about your trouble as a 30 years post surgery transwoman I have grown to accept all my problems. But it is still better than living as a male. I hope you start feeling better.
I am ze aimer...and zu are ze aimee!
How? *And what does "living as a male" mean?
@@MustyUnderboob he means he likes playing dress up
@@NickyRikki She meant she doesn't ant to be an ogre like you
You're still living as a male. One with problems post sterilisation surgery.
I love you. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for what happened to you. No one should have been allowed to do this to you - and that will always be my opinion. You’re lovely. They could never take that away from you, and that’s not something they gave you with these surgeries. You are so much more than your body, it never had to hurt.
I do not understand how any doctor who adheres to the Hippocratic Oath can in good faith perform Bottom Surgery in order to address what is clearly a mental disorder.
It would be tantamount to performing "fat transplants" on Anorexics or purposely cutting off perfectly good limbs to individuals who have Body Integrity Identity Disorder and identify as "handicapped".
This is barbaric and ludicrous. We should not purposely mutilate a human body to try and align with a delusional brain. I have compassion for anyone with such extreme gender dysphoria, but there is no indication that bottom surgery is worth the risk.
For Trans-women that means purposely leaving a wound open and actively preventing that wound from healing.
The last time we used surgical intervention to try to solve mental disorder was an unmitigated disaster. And history has shown that surgical lobotomies to address mental illness was barbaric and cruel. Although at the time, these lobotomies were framed as being "compassionate care"
History will judge criminally mislabeled "gender affirming" surgery with the same degree of contempt.
I understand you perfectly. I had surgery 1 year and a half ago. I had complications (luckily not so serious). and what I constantly struggle with are urinary infections. I was hospitalized 7 times for infections and each time they become more resistant. I went from doctor to doctor, I consulted with other surgeons and since they make you understand that they don't want to get involved in someone else's work or in a problem, you feel alone and it exhausts you a lot. I also have trouble urinating and I take tamsulosin which helps me a lot to relax my muscles. For the pain I use a hot water bottle that calms me down a lot. strength and anything ask me.
And I also had no choice. my dysphoria was very strong to the point that it would end up mutilating me. I think that this surgery is for extreme cases and should not be taken lightly. and you have to be very strong mentally. You also have to know enough about one to make that decision. Analyze the past for possible traumas. You don't have to have anything pending to have the best time possible.
Sorry for the traslation. I am the argentina
I’m a Post op Trans woman as well . Everything for the most part is good however I’ve had urinating issues as well so on Tuesday I have to visit my surgeon and they will take a look by inserting something in my urethra into the bladder to see what’s up. I’m scared because I don’t know if it’s a painful process.
Have them put you under anesthesia. I am a natural woman and have had my urethra stretched several times. It is painful!!
@@bemidji57 omg I never heard of this, lol, now I'M scared. What causes this in women? Is it something medical or something that can happen because of diet/lifestyle? I ask bc sugar has been the one vice I can't quit. And as I get older, I worry. A lot. I actually quit nicotine easier than I can sugar sighhh
Have your prostate checked, they don't remove it. Since your trans they might not ask you. Depending on your age could be something going on there.
How much time has it been since your srs?
Gross.
I can't pee, experience mild to severe pain and bleed every now and then but I"m so happy! 🧐
it was a complication after years.. she was fine and this doesn’t happen to everyone this is probably so so damn small and rare. and if she has a problem she is going to get it fixed. so ignorant.
@@qrstuvduhalaphabets hahaha, a quick search will inform you of how ignorant you are. Aparently it is the norm to have complications with bottom surgery. Turns out doctors can't manufacture our bottoms as promissed. But go ahead and be the experiment😊
Cis women bleed every month
For very different reasons@@OMGKawaiiPsycho
I'm sure she wanted a perfect outcome but she had to take the downsides with the positivity it brought her personally
Im so sorry for you having such difficulties and challenges in life. You deserve the best in and from life.
There is nothing anyone can say to change what you are experiencing.
I send my best wishes to you and wish I could offer more to help you find the happiness you deserve
Love Jessica
sending you love i can understand how much pain this is to go through 💘 you’ve helped me so much as a trans girl and i hope you’re okay
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@@Melnokina.-. bro even I don't comment or up comments like this. and I have been a troll and a half at times. It's outright malicious intent to harm at this point with the HE/SHE comments ...we should be praying for this persons that they recover the best they possibly can. And finds the spiritual growth and peace at heart that we all need.
@@timmarinelli2962 harm who? He is a man cant change that. Do you go out of your to make serial killers comfortable? No so stop
@@Melnokina.-. my guy I'm fully against it myself, I here purely out of fascination with the psychology behind a person who says they are transgender. But we've all seen the HE / SHE comments enough man your not saving any little kids by being a doink. Like I indicated, I used Like the same comments , then , especially after it being played out , I realized it's just meant to dehumanize one of our own brothers/sisters so ...."c'mon man" let's start being decent people ,we can do it together
@@timmarinelli2962 so we should indulge in their delusions?
Mathilda, I truly feel for you, some of these complications can be totally frustrating, and can cause a secondary reactive depression. I am a physician and even I have fears for what I want done surgically in the future
Mutilating a body can never be a solution for depression. Never.
@@verabolton then you clearly dont understand transgender people the depression is caused by dysphoria, not the other way around, my 40 year history of depression is gone after I had transitioned. and further Mathi;da's secondary reactive depression is due to complications of surgery, just compare the regret rate of GRS to knee surgery, about 1% compared to 40%, so success is high, regret is low, and it is not mutilation, you should take your gender critical malarkey elsewhere
@@gracekinsley3142
But they said they still have dysphoria... clearly GRS didn't sort it out, only caused further suffering both physically and mentally. The fact that they need to dilate themselves daily to maintain the appearance of a woman... utterly horrendous! The pain they go through is immense and they don't talk about their wonderful sex life. They admit their body will never be "normal"... Still, they maintain the 'no regret' mantra... while fighting tears... what a tragedy! 😨
Mutilating a body can never be a solution for depression. Never.
Meaning of mutilation:
1) Damaging someone's body, especially by cutting or removing part of it
2) To damage or change something so much that it is completely spoiled
We cannot possibly know the exact regret rate of GRS, because it's a very new trend and we have no enough data for a clear picture.
You comparing it to a knee surgery proves you have no idea what you're talking about (don't switch off your brain when using google). Plus, you mess up the knee surgery dissatisfactory rate with the alleged GRS regret rate, which is at least *TEN TIMES* higher than for knee surgery - and it keeps growing.
Knee surgery is to repair a damaged ligament - GRS is to destroy healthy body parts. Big difference, indeed!
@@verabolton you know fuck all about medicine, I am a physician and have been for the past 30 years, I have specific special interests in endocrinology and mood disorders, I am sufficiently more expert in these areas than you are, regret rate again published - (GRS A total of 27 studies, pooling 7928 transgender patients who underwent any type of GAS, were included. The pooled prevalence of regret after GAS was 1% (95% CI
@Vera Bolton I just want to be happy with my body 🙁
You are honest and shining beauty. I'm sorry for your pain. ❤
Comment section not passing the vibe test. This information is useful for people like me who are very seriously considering this surgery. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and the haters am be out on read cause they’re voice doesn’t matter here
Save your self before it's too late, you should have taken this video as a warning for god sake ! whatever you're going through you need to fix your mind not the body ppl 😆
Mutilation of the body is never a solution for depression. In fact, it causes further depression.
You calling me a hater or any other names won't bother me, I won't give in to emotional blackmail 😶
@@verabolton That’s literally proven to be untrue. Bottom surgery has less than 1% regret rate, that’s significantly less than other life saving surgeries like heart surgery or organ transplants. You’re choosing to be a hateful and unaccepting person, even if you were shown proof you’ll deny because for some reason other people’s joy threatens you.
@@Vi.lets.violet Proof? Where's your proof?
GRS regret rate is 3 - 3.8% and growing according to Genderhq and Cornell University.
There's been only one long term research about gender dysphoria so far, and according to that research 70-80% of the children will grow it out and settle in their biological sex if they're not pressurized to transition socially. This means: 70-80% is the future regret rate if we don't count with the current social contagion (which will push it even higher).
Sui*dal rate doesn't go down with GRS and it doesn't stop the dysphoria either.
The only thing GRS does: mutilates and ruins a healthy body without addressing the underlining problem.
@@Vi.lets.violet oh yeah. All this joy this man is having with his botched cewchi. Sure.
Happy NewYear to you too! :) 🎆🎆🎆 I can imagine the pain, frustration and all. You must get the best out of it. You are in a country with good public health, and you have days of peace and happiness. But of course there are days of sadness. You are definitely a great help to thousands of people - young and old like me, - who experience a lot of these emotions, too.
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This is heartfelt and painfully honest and important public service. Blessings to you for love and peace and healing.
Thank you for sharing your challenges. You're loved and appreciated! I hope it only gets better for you moving forward.
Do not have surgery on a perfectly healthy body because someone convinced you this will somehow heal an unhealthy mind. Especially do not have such complicated surgeries as those involving genital plumbing, which is so very fragile and complex. If you care about other trans people, be a voice against surgeries that will have them struggling for the rest of their lives.
What good is it to spread such unresearched info? Even healthy bodies need surgery to stay healthy sometimes. She wasn't convinced by anyone to do it.
@@iceprincess135 removing perfectly healthy genitals is the same as having surgery to correct an illness or ailment? How is this any different from the people who want to cut off their limbs? Our genitals play a big role in regulating our bodies and serve a bigger purpose than sex or who's male or female.
If u watched the video u will see that this is what they are saying. They have no choice but to get corrective surgery
What if they don't want to listen and all the people around them are making you a villain just for asking questions!
@@iceprincess135here’s research femininity in males is not female
Lots of us non transgender women have problems urinating. It’s a woman thing having plumbing problems because of the way we are built. We have infections, yeast overgrowth chronic irritations. We all learn to urinate right after having sex to prevent infections. Really, it helps so much. Being a woman can be hard but it’s rewarding in its own way.
Be strong and thank you so much! I find these videos so important even if I know lots of bad people misuse stuff like this. I have been resisting surgery and know even if for some unknown reason I end up being a cismale in future I would not regret it. Without logic interfering, I am 110% in it for surgery, with logical application however I am 80% sure. However logic also had me resisting being myself and HRT. Before I finally got diagnosed, and even after, I watched so much from all sides. Those that are trans, allies, detransitioners, transphobes, medical professionals, studies, et cetera. Stuff like this is so helpful for me to truly be sure of myself without doubt.
I wish the best! Fully understand how this situation unfortunately retriggers dysphoria, it's our unfortunate reality but we are making the most of it.
If I were you, I'd wait a few years before even thinking about surgery. Its only been recent that so many are coming out and admitting all the complications. Some of them are shocking, like having to live with a colostomy bag, long term catheters, constant pain, inability to have sex at all. I really feel for you having the dysphoria, I can't even imagine how that feels. It just seems that these surgeries are not advanced enough.
@@leelee2350 they are very advanced, however are still surgeries. Surgeries for this are nothing new, though the advanced methods and results are. Medical decisions are all about risk/benefit, pros/cons. What is worse for the individual and their medical situation?
Those may sound like shocking complications but those are nothing new to me.
Can you imagine being life long patient? Rest of life without sexual pleasure. If no I would strongly advise not to make that decision.
@@anjdjeo that's my reality now 😂
It's good to see a comment like yours in the middle of so much trash that comes from people who will never understand our reality.
Don’t do it please there going to fuck you up I seen to many girls mislead look at the other stories my heart goes out to you ❤
You know it's too late to beg, right?
Yeah it so sad 💔
This is why doctors NEED to tell their patients about the downside of SRS surgery....even after trans people get the surgery there's some that still commit suicide and that's really sad...I believe gender dysphoria is a mental illness and I think they need to help fix that issue with therapy and medication before them getting SRS surgery, that's permanent and it will affect your life.....especially with the complications....I really feel for these people that have gender dysphoria, I couldn't imagine living with that 😢
Gender dysphoria is a disorder, not a mental illness, but yes, therapy is necessary and real expectations about transition is totally necessary, also about the risks, but not medication to treat dysphoria, because there’s no medication to treat or alleviate dysphoria, because again, it’s a disorder, not a mental illness.
You do realize that this is considered TERF rhetoric in the trans community, right?
They've done plenty of studies on gender dysphoria and have concluded that the only effective treatment is to physically transition. There is nothing else that works.
They commit suicide because of the constant harassment even though they received the surgery
@@angelface5031tell her!
I'm a biological male, and I had an issue back in 2019 with peeing. Mine stopped completely. It's scary, and I felt 2nd hand pain listening to your story. I still get worried it will come back.
@Educat ional I'm intact
I'm a woman and had the same, some kind of bladder spasm after a bad UTI. it went for about 2 weeks, was scary
This breaks my heart so much. I can only hope things improve for you. Thankfully you have a supportive Fiancee, friends and loved ones. 🙏🏿🤞🏿🤞🏿🤞🏿
I'm really sorry about your complications, I hope you can heal.
I think more trans people need to come out and say all the BAD about it instead of only saying the good. Which should include, that it won't fix any mental issues, it won't actually make you that gender- it just changes your body.
This is 100% untrue. The surgeries change your body. The hormones change your mind and heal your brain from the poison of the incorrect hormones. Take it from someone who's had "all the surgeries" and had zero problems with any of them, they work, and they and the hormones saved my life.
So touching Mathilda. I totally get it that you just want to have a regular, smooth-running life. Big hugs from me :)
so glad I found your channel, its really given me hope the past few months.
I had my surgery almost 20 days ago AND THIS IS SO TRUE. DONT👏DO👏IT👏 if u don’t really need this as ur let step, FEEL like a woman BEFORE the surgery, because this will not make u feel more or less and u have to have GUTS to have this…
Wow I genuinely feel bad for you, I hope you know Jesus loves all of us no matter what even when we turn our back on him he is always waiting for you with open arms
Oh darling
You're sooo strong and sooo brave
❤❤❤ i hope things will get better for you again. Your videos have been such a big help
It is hard, i had to go for surgery twice to tweak the results, but after 1 year, i got over the blues and healing, and was happy again.
(until the next complication comes up. could be months or years. but it will)
@@quinnvids Why so negative. There may not be any complications. But with any surgery you are introducing the possibility. For me, I feel I’m over it,and healed nicely, functioning well.
@@skye7690 because other people need to be aware of the risks
@@quinnvids Yep folks should not take it lightly and not everyone needs or should do it. I had complications even from mine, and its was way more involved, pain, blood, infection, etc. than I ever expected.
@@skye7690 agreed, I hope everything goes well for you moving forward!
I'm glad you talk about this and make people think very hard before make the decision.
So sorry to hear your going through these complcations. Stay strong I will keep you in my prayers ❤
Your very brave to be honest about the complications and to warn people that this may not be for everyone thats not 100% sure. i hope you get better honey.
Everybody is DIFFERENT Matilda. You are a wonderful person. I can tell. Everyone struggles with their own problems. Keep on keeping on. ❤️
This sounds so traumatic and unnatural .Thats why you're so emotional cause is a trigger even talking about it .NOTHING is normal about this !!!!
Because it *is* traumatic and unnatural. Mutilation of the body is never a solution for depression. Actually, it causes further depression. Poor thing still thinks they didn't have a choice... 🥺
There have bee successful surgeries
All surgeries come with complications. Transgender people get surgeries to minimise gender dysphoria, this isn’t uncommon. It’s not up to you to decide whether people should get certain surgeries or not.
@@veraboltonyou can't tell people that they're depressed though. She can have medical issues and still not be depressed or wishing she didn't do it. Of course it'd be better if no one wanted surgery
@@theduchessofdarknessofficial Depends on what you call a "success" - eg the patient survives...? Bottom surgery is a butchery, it's mutilation, it leaves you with multiply complications every single time. That's why less and less people wants it.
It's so sad that you were in such emotional pain that you felt you had no other options. Tbh I haven't seen anyone come out of these surgeries without pretty severe complications. It seems like a lot of these doctors are predatory and know what they're doing to people in making them lifelong customers. With all due respect they should stop doing them until they figure out a better way with better results. I hope your situation works out, you seem like a beautiful person who just wants a normal life.
As a cis woman, our bladders and vaginas malfunction quite regularly too.
I’m 30, no pregnancies ever, and I literally can’t hold my bladder more than 40 minutes without daily medicine. I’ve also had cervical pre-cancer twice! I know that’s nothing compared to post-surgery complications but just know that everyone’s body has issues from time to time.
I appreciate your vulnerability and opening up about your struggles post-surgery.
I have been transitioning for the past 10 years now and have been taking my journey at my own pace to be completely sure. I recently had an orchiectomy 2 years ago and now I have my SRS date set for December this year. Since my date has been set, I have been working on myself more. The doctors pretty much told me the surgery is like going through a marathon with your body physically and emotionally.
Your videos have helped me to understand what to expect in this process. Thank you ❤️
Hi kathern! I'm gonna be honest, you will live to regret SRS. Its not real and its not worth it. Be well!
@@eleusinia_ I'm creating a life that is more important to me than what you're option will ever be worth. ✌️
If I would be in the same situation, I would talk to other trans people who already had it done and ask their experience. I would talk to as many as I can. I would also look specifically for those who had complications so I could have a better picture of my chances. That surgery is so complicated, so many things can go wrong. Shape Shifter talked about how his sex life was totally ruined. His genitals are not functional and he lost his sex drive too. He basically regretted the surgery and de-transitoned and still fears the future complications.
Maybe I would wait a little more, a few more years until the surgery technique gets more developed and reliable. Life is precious. But with constant surgeries what kind of life is that?
@@moma-b I don't know your life story and you don't know what I have gone through to get to where I am currently.
To put me in the same box as a shape shifter is extremely insulting to where I am in life. To be honest, I never have heard of this person before, nor do I want to associate myself with this person moving forward. I would never claim to be a victim of my circumstances. Taking ownership of my life decisions has helped me in my journey.
To apply that I haven't talked to people that have had this similar surgery is very ignorant on your behalf. I have done my research and I accept that there are very real and long-term risks that are associated with this type of surgery. The surgeons and doctors are very clear about these risks before they start and it's your responsibility to take these risks seriously before the day of the surgery. I have taken my life & my journey very seriously and have improved my physical and mental health in the process.
I am very proud of my current circumstances in life and I am confident in who I am and where I am going moving forward. ✌️
@@kathern_rocks _"To put me in the same box as a shape shifter is extremely insulting to where I am in life"_
Then I am so glad I did not put you into any box, especially not his box.
_"nor do I want to associate myself with this person moving forward"_
I don't even understand why would you even think of such. I read a lot of stories every day and never even crossed my mind to associate myself with any of those.
_"To apply that I haven't talked to people that have had this similar surgery is very ignorant on your behalf."_
Again, it is very good than that I did not apply anything to you. I was deliberately putting my words down to avoid such thing at any cost. E.g. I could've used _"when you do this and that"_ but I didn't. I put myself into a similar situation and formed my opinion about what I would do. I hope you can differentiate. Because exactly this is why we have different words to express different meanings, to avoid that the other person feel insulted, which could take away the possibility of a conversation.
I'm happy to hear that you feel good and confident and I wish you all the best with your path forward.
Glad to see that you are back. Happy start of 2023!
News flash. You weren’t “in danger” before your surgery. You can commit to not unaliving yourself. You can commit to loving yourself as is.
Oh my! So sorry to hear you're experiencing problems and as someone who is wavering on the do I/don't, I watch videos like yours and I understand that you've been happy and you are very young, compared to me anyway, and that this is as dysphoric and I'm sure being reminded isn't nice. My reasoning for dreading this is, I hate pain and the thought of something going wrong fills me with fear. I've already had years of pain from surgery when I was a child and the thought this could happen again makes me shiver! I wish you well and I hope you have a speedy recovery.
Mikki
please don’t get the surgery. it is not safe. please try to accept your body without harming it ❤
Don’t do it. Your instincts are telling you, listen to them. ❤
What do you think surgery will achieve?
Take time to think about it. People making decisions for you on what you should do should not be accounted for.
Feminine men need acceptance not conversion
You are a brave and strong person for putting this out there.
Thanks to the universe and to your massive strength that you are still here with us. There is a reason for that. Always stay positive.
The fact that it's actually legal to do these "surgeries" is insane
I’m seeing this a year later. I hope you are doing better now. I’m a medical professional and I have seen way too many complications with this type of surgery. Many of the doctors performing them are literally experimenting on vulnerable people. I wish you talked more in your video about the need for counseling before deciding to have this done. I would recommend at least a year. Surgery can certainly benefit many with true gender dysphoria, but also be harmful for others. It is a lifelong commitment, and there will be lifetime issues and revisions. It’s never “one and done” with this surgery. I hope you are doing better.
Oh, Mathilda, I'm so sorry you are experiencing those nagging complications and hope they are resolved quickly.
I hope you and Christian are and will continue growing strong together.
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Thank you, Mathilda. I wish you a speedy recovery and as few complications as possible as time goes on. If you are watching this and you aren’t trans and don’t have bottom dysphoria, I encourage you to stop for a moment before posting about how unnatural this is or how monstrous it is and consider one of the last things she says in her video: that she is tired of being reminded she is different. When you are trans people never stop reminding you, and much of the discourse of others is around your genitals. Imagine people focusing on that all the time - imagine how that feels, especially if you already feel alienated in your own body. The relief that can come with this procedure cannot be understated. It is not something to pity or to mourn or to get sympathy points for saying “oh you poor thing.” This is a human saying she is in pain for something she doesn’t regret, and those two things are not diametrically opposed. Be here for her without judgment.
This seems to be the standard and not some random complication. I’m so confused how this cures someone’s gender dysphoria when most end up with some lifelong medical problem to maintain these new body parts that never even perform the basic function those actual body parts are intended to perform. I’m genuinely confused.
This trans woman seems like a lovely person who’s allowed themselves to be experimented on. Everyday I’m seeing more and more people coming out who are in the same situation and it’s very sad.
Its amazing how this mass hysteria about gender is ruining people's lives. People who are unhappy, doing crazy things to themselves to try to grasp at fleeting happiness....thats life without God and Jesus. Real joy comes from our Creator God, nothing else will do... 🙏
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God bless her because these people think the complications will stop
Mathilda! I'm sorry you're going through this. I admire you for being open and sharing your story. I can tell that you're in pain. Hope the best for you. Hugs!
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, *_and learn of me_* for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." *_~Jesus_* (Matt 11:28-30)
Worshipping men is one of my kinks too
@@OMGKawaiiPsycho man? well, Jesus is God and every knee *_will bow_* and every tongue *_will confess_* that Jesus Christ is Lord to the glory of God the Father... so the only question you have to ask yourself is if you want to bow before you enter the Kingdom of God.... *_OR_* the Lake of Fire... because, make no mistake, you *_are going to bow_*
@@inTruthbyGrace Y-yes Master... I'll bow for you... I'll get on my knees for you~ 😖
@@OMGKawaiiPsycho I did not say you will bow to me... you will bow to Jesus...and confess that He is Lord to the glory of God... He is the CREATOR and every knee will bow... it's just a matter of when. I recommend you get right with God before your last day here and the judgment... and all you have to do is seek Him with you whole heart... you will find Him and learn about Him in His Word... just read it yourself. He loves you, He is waiting for you to humble yourself and repent...He laid down His life to free you from the bondage of sin and death... do not neglect so great a salvation!
"....learn of me..." ~ Jesus
@@inTruthbyGrace W-well... I'll bow for Jesus then... I'll get on my knees and beg Jesus to punish me for being such a bad girl... I'll submit to my lord, Jesus Christ (ㆁωㆁ)
Thank you for the brutal honesty.
Thank you for your honesty Mathilda. ❤
I’m sorry you’ve been suffering with complications. Hope wellness is around the corner for you. Xx
😢You certainly are not happy! You are clearly severely traumatized!😢
i feel you girl. ❤ you are so strong and beautiful and admirable. i appreciate you being so vulnerable and sharing your experience. ❤️ your videos mean so much to me.
You can tell “she” is lying when she says she doesn’t regret the surgery
Thank you for sharing. Not everyone is given the complete picture and it doesn’t seem fair that they only find out after their leap of faith when it’s too late to make other choices if wanted.
I am really sorry you are having these complications. I want to offer some food for thought that helped me a lot in getting over feeling weird and different than other people: To think you are especially weird, defective, different, etc. is essentially very similar to thinking you are especially good. You perceive yourself as "special" in both cases, only in the former it is negative and in the latter positive. It was very healing for me to balance my ego and see that I am not special and therefore also not especially weird or different. I know this may trigger defensiveness in people because when you feel bad about yourself, it does not feel great to be told "you're not special, get over yourself", but I do believe it is part of the problem for a lot of people and genuinely healing to move through nonjudgmentally and with self-compassion. It feels much better to put more energy on other things and other people than on myself and how "defective" I am... Good luck healing your physical complications and emotional feelings about your body xx
This is a very important video document highlighting a lifelong commitment to medical intervention in order to address chronic complications resulting from the removal/alteration of male/female genitalia and then the creation of a facsimile of female/male genitalia and it should be watched by anybody considering embarking on such a momentous surgical pathway.
Today, the trans community willlikely denigrate your situation and try to bury this content. They will say that you’re a transphobe and tell you to shut up. Your content is exactly what a young person needs to hear and I hope you continue to publish content. Thank you!!!
Why would we bury information necessary for improving our healthcare?
@@kakonthebed Because you are in a cult. You are not allowed to question a cult.
@@canadachandler7521 ...can you name even one time when we’ve actually “buried” information regarding bottom surgery and called mtfs transphobes for talking about it? 💀 Dude, you’re not the main character
Like bro. You can read about the risks of bottom surgery if you do like 5 seconds of Googling. It’s not hard. We actively welcome science that helps us learn more about ourselves so we can have safer procedures in future. Stop being so strange
@@kakonthebed People who have spoken out about de-transitioning on Reddit. Happens all the time. Get over it.
I doubt that there are people without any complications at all honestly. If I‘m wrong, ok, then nice for those who have none.
But thinking of the surgeries it‘s almost impossible to not have issues after them. I mean, the body is hurt at very sensitive regions on purpose, where nothing like that is meant to be like that. Sorry to say but that‘s the biological, physiological anatomic side of these treatments.
I‘m sorry for your complications, believe me, they are more common than you think, they are normal consequences unfortunately but not many are willing to talk about that! So thank you for your honesty, it could help many people. Is that nerve pain you still have ? ( the one occuring while watching TV you described )
It IS a major surgery that will have a huge impact on any persons life following through with it but mostly not in the -prior to surgery - imagined way.
I know it has to be very hard to talk about many of these things. Thank you for putting yourself out there despite that difficulty. I am sure the videos you have created have helped a great many people. *offers hugs*
I know I am, and I'm sure most of this community you've built here are sending you well wishes, support, and love. All will be well, Matilda.
Love you lots and lots and Matilda from your sister Kenzie and I hope you had a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful blessed New Year too!! 🦄🏳️⚧️🦋💙💞🤍💞💙😘😘😘
Sending you all love, girl! 💞💞
The reason you're having pain in because your skin is a place is not supposed to be, plain and simple. That's what happens with scar tissue. I'm not hating or anything, I'm just stating facts.
You can be trans and not have the bottom surgery, unless you're severely bothered by it and experiencing major gender dysphoria. If it saves your life, make sure this is the reason and not something else. Because it's a very shocking transition, many things can go wrong and will go wrong. You'll most likely get many painful infections and be healing for a extended period of time, which will also be painful and very expensive.
The reason you can't pee is because once again, your uretha isn't in the right place and things are moved around.
Doctors and Big Pharma, big corporations are BANKING off trans people and it really bothers me, they're acting like they're helping people who are troubled by their own bodies and experiencing hell. They don't care about trans people, they want your money.
😢 pray for everyone who has been fooled by this trans-human agenda. Simply out: a vagina is not just a place to be sexually penetrated, and reducing this important female organ down to that one minuscule function is so misogynistic it’s hard to believe that we are really doing genital lobotomies in 2024 and calling it “health CARE” 😢
Wow that’s so true!
I went to do some research about it … and just by looking at a picture of men/women anatomy you can see the differences .
Even after the bottom surgery it can never be in the right place !
There are testimonies about men who do not have the bottom surgery, but take estrogen and have serious complications with that. The human body was not meant to "change sex," and trying to do so is like a fish trying to like out of water.
I'm 36 yrs old transwoman I'm happy and live being like this every one who see me treat me like a girl because in and out I'm look feminine. But until now I'm still not done srs which I'm still thinking 100% I will do someday or soon? But who's know if I can do that what ever happen I will be happy. For you my sister don't give up what ever complication you feel now that is not permanent on you. You will be OK, fine soon I'm soo happy for you ❤️❤️❤️ just always pray and be happy❤️❤️❤️
I'm sorry youre going through this . But this is the reality....its such a horrific , barbaric surgery and it's unnatural .
Your body will always try to heal itself and it will malfunction because it's been wracked .
You would've found someone to love and accept you without doing the surgery . Just the way you were . But anyways, good luck
Keep in mind, when you go against nature be prepared for the consequences. I don't feel sorry for these people at all.
It is normal to feel awkward growing up. It can be physically painful, especially for girls and many of us are bullied in school for not fitting in with the cool people, whatever they are.
I feel the same. I’m sorry she and many others felt like this to do this.
It amazes me how anyone can convince themselves that inverting their genitals in this butchering way is the ANSWER to their mental problems. What the heck!!!!
Please be careful what you say. Being trans isn't a mental health problem. Gender dysphoria is a serious mental health problem that cannot really be 'solved' without surgeries like this. Doing SRS generally isn't to get other people to love you, but to try to make your anatomy fit with what you feel it should have always been. It is just really important to be aware of the side effects, which I think is why sharing this experience is so crucial, so thank you for that, Mathilda. As she said, she is still happy she did the surgery, despite all the complications.
@@kylie4568 you be careful what you say. Please do some research. These surgeries are such a violation of nature.
It's good and brave to discuss these issues openly, too many kids are getting into this with no idea about the life long problems that can happen. I have seen people who end up with no working sex organs and that can't be fixed, also the lifelong implications of taking hormones shortens people's lives and can and does result in pre senile dementia. I think the more people who tell their stories honestly, without getting embroiled in the trans gender activists rhetoric, the better informed these kids, and their families will be to make these decisions or not. What people fail to see is the vested interests of doctors and pharmaceutical companies who are trying to sell as many lifelong courses of hormones they can, without being up front about the problems this incurs. I hope everything goes well for you.
It’s not only doctors and big pharma making money. It sounds like the manufacturers of urinary incontinence products will be making a packet also. Now they stand to benefit from all age groups, and not just the elderly, or those who naturally develop incontinence.
I wonder if it also affects the bowels, and can lead to faecal incontinence, particularly for women. Uterine activity can have an impact on the bowels also, such as periods, or labour.
So sorry to hear that honey. It's true that their are different surgeries and complications can arise, but its better than waking up in the morning and looking in the mirror knowing that their is an elephant between the legs. I know that Thailand has many successful and great surgery options and revision corrections. Also in Brazil a Doctor created an actual phallus out of the clients own stem cells. I was wondering if its possible if they could create the female reproductive system out of my own stem cells (not for other people, but for me) in order to have the transfer surgery later. But, I have to take tiny steps. Ill take HRT later in life, but coming out socially is great and euphoric. Also growing out my hair feels great.
I do hope things for you work out. This is coming from a suicide survivor; you did what you needed too continue in life. It's not a regret because you are alive and fighting. I seriously wanted to end things, until I realized im Bigender. The thought will always be there but I can't reset this life. I know that if I had the opportunity and option when I was a kid to transition I wouldn't be so miserable. And the reason is because Texas citizens are as ignorant as ants and don't let their kids express themselves because they are afraid of change. 😐
But, I'm looking forward to life and all the twist and turns whether they may be positive or negative, because it tells us that we are alive.
It is possible that you may feel you are having a crummy and stale day, but I hope it gets better for you. I may not understand fully your hardships, but Their will be good days. Feel the breeze outside, watch and hear the streams of water , or enjoy listening to music watching the grass grow as your having a picnic. Enjoy the present moments while ignoring the deep constant thoughts of the mind. You got this girl! 😊 Stay authentic and keep the world in color when it seems gray.
Please take care of you. I understand that things can be challenging for you, but you've come so far. Please just try to think of the positive things you have going for you.
And it's really amazing that you're taking this opportunity to try and help others.
Take care!
Thank you ❤️❤️
I'm sorry for your pain. I hope you're doing well and continue to do well in the future.
🥹 I am tearing up 🥺 I am so proud of you, Mathilda, and I don’t even know you. 🥺 thank you for your bravery in being so honest about your experiences. Thank you for educating people, inspiring people (myself included).
I am a cisgender woman. 🥺 I am so privileged to have been born biologically with how I identify. I am so, so sorry for the pain and trauma that you have had to endure 💔 😢
You are so damn strong though. Your resilience is inspirational! Slay, queen!!!!!!!! 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜
This madness needs to stop! Just because you can does not mean you should.