At the end of the day you were never actually broken, you were simply using the best tools you had at the time and to nonetheless let them go and live the life you’ve always wanted
What scares me is the fact that maybe the best tools I had at the time are still the best tools I have. That it was never about me using the "wrong" tools, but my environment requiring (and continuing to require) those specific tools
I didn't grow up too quickly. I grew up too slowly. And for that I carry this constant shame, as if I had condemned myself to eternal obstruction in my life, as if I compromised my own future for not growing up fast enough.
Glad to know that there someone feels the same way. It feels like missing out on a lot of things. And when we look at our friend, the question that like to pop out just " what did I do in this year"
sometimes it helps me to remind myself that we all have different life paths, cant look around at others at your own age and ask why you arent where they are. we all have different paths and situations
FOMO is being actively engineered into people to facilitate us spending all our time on social media sites like youtube. We've all been led to real addiction.
Understanding and facing our addictions or escapism is a tough journey but I wish everyone luck this year. I hope that we all find the person we were meant to be.
You ARE the person you were meant to be. Endless comparison with some ideal version of yourself will just make you upset. It's ok to have issues to work through, that doesn't remove your worth. Worth is inherent to all of us, it's not earned through achievements.
Crying at night because I feel so disappointed of what I've become, and I get this notification. (Edit: i did not realise that this comment would get a lot of attention and likes but i am thankful and appreciate everyone who showed support. I'm sorry because I can't reply to any of ur comments because I'm quite stressed 24/7 and doesnt know how to share my problems to anyone because of trauma and personal issues. I am a 15 year old with a suicidal mind is all that i can share with you all for now.. i hope everyone who is having a bad time right now gets the comfort and rest that they need
Bro what you become is mostly better then other's, you are aware of your pain and your feelings what others hide and blank offer with busy work, atleast you have the room to cry and actually can, what im trying to say is your probably fine, just relax
Compassionate curiosity - a summary: 1. Re-label: Is it really something I need to do? 2. re-attribute: separate yourself from your thoughts & feelings. Look at this urge from the perspective of a patient, compassionate observer - is this feeling caused by hunger / tiredness etc 3. Re-focus: instead of grabbing your phone, grab a book, walk outside 4. Re-value: The addiction has outworn its welcome 5. Re-create: what is the life that you really want?
@alexxx4434 Or meditation. Depends on how you choose to see it. You are ultimately not your thoughts or body, but the pure awareness centered in the energy of the heart. Staying as this neutral observer/being, and not as the thinker or doer of actions, life unfolds more harmoniously and becomes more light. Like watching a movie thats not constantly being interfered with by the audience, who thinks they are the director. This is the essence of spiritual understanding and true wisdom. God bless 🙏❤.
@parisheidi3119 please read my comment my comment above. God is with you, no matter how alone and tired you feel. You're not fighting alone. I really hope you find peace of mind, brother. Just go with the flow of life and breathe, you got this! Great things are coming for all of us, don't lose faith. The pain you're feeling can't compare to the joy and peace you will feel, you just gotta keep going and stay aware. Everything is gonna be ok, I hope these words don't feel empty to you. Life unfolds more harmoniously when you stop trying to control and resist it. Surrender to the present moment, as that's all that exists (past and future are an illusion) and watch as your soul blossoms.❤️🙏
@@parisheidi3119 Therapy does not help everyone, and may even make some feel worse. Some say that journaling and meditation help them better. Another tip: you need to turn self-hatered into self-compassion. Realize, that the source of the pain inside us are often came from the outside and we internalized it, and kept torturing ourselves with it. Indeed, some of our thoughts may not really be our thoughts, but of others, paticularly those that hated us. Hope this helps.
That's why I will not so much as Jay Walk. I worry I would lose my dogs. Take care of yourself, for them, and you will be fine. They are better friends than whomever helped get you into trouble. :)
You can't believe how much I needed this. I'm in a period of time where I will soon have to become responsible, to start taking care of myself on my own, but the way I have lived my life has made me think I will fail, that I will not fulfill my goals and aspirations. This video at least gave me assurance that everything will be okay. Great vid
I don’t know your situation but always remember it’s okay to fail sometimes, we all do it at one point or another, having the ability to pick yourself back up after failure and accept it, embrace it and move forward with learned experience will help you in the long run rather then running from failure, just remember it’s okay if things don’t always work out and it’s also okay to ask for help from people who care about you, best of luck bud
Sounds like we are in the same boat my friend. I wish you all the best. however shit plays out in the end its whatever. as long as we tried our best with whatever opportunities and relationship s come our way. Im just gonna try my hardest not to stress on the outcome or whetheri made the right choices, cause thats too much extra work lol lemme stay higher than Pluto on the moon, for as long as im alive and ill make sure everything moves in a positive direction. 🙃 i just know its game over if im sober
Gabor Mate is quoted here saying, “I feel sure it was forged in my chest cavity somewhere between my lungs and heart…” The scientific name of that cavity is the mediastinum. It’s the place where I’ve always physically felt the pain of heartache, abandonment, grief, and rejection. It’s also the place where 15 years ago scans revealed a tumor the size of a grapefruit, which led to a diagnosis of stage 4 mediastinal lymphoma. I can’t help but wonder if there’s a connection.
If you read more of Dr. Mate's work, he points to these connections a lot. Anger leading to heart issues, depression and abandonment of self leading to cancer, etc etc. Western medicine tends to think of the mind and body as separate things, but it is all part of one system. Edit: My grandpa had lymphoma and it is no joke. I am thankful you both survived and are here, friend.
I've come across several people describing stuff to be there, in the chest, but for me it's always right behind my forehead. That's why I sometimes get this desire to bash my head against a wall, to hurt this thing in there.
This video came in the right time, even tho i may have zoned out half the video, i loved it. also congrats on 1million subs sisyphus you deserve this so much man
When I zone out, I feel like the universe is telling me "this is important listen to it more attentively" and I just replay the part I zoned out in it usually has the more profound thoughts. Which is kind of #4 in the list (refocus).
This is my favorite video you’ve released. As someone who’s training to become a classical musician, which is a difficult task to pursue, this was something I needed to hear.
Best of luck in all your endeavors, I'm 47 and always wanted to play the guitar but I'm not musically inclined at all lol but I'll never learn if I don't try but maybe tgis is the year I actually put in the practice and learn how to play, nothing ventured, nothing gained, God Bless!!!
@@YuckyBucky-yb8oz My uncle was in the same spot as you. By now he has played for a few years and even done a few small shows with his friends. U got this.
That's a pill hard to swallow. For the last few years i've convinced myself my family broke me beyond repair, that it's not just a mechanism but instead this is who i am now, this new broken state of being is my true self. I made peace with the fact that i've lost my mind, i found solace in knowing there's no hope for me, and that my life has no purpose or directions anymore. I need time. I'll keep this video saved, maybe one day i'll change my mind.
i understand. i used to be severely suicidal, with plans to die at 20. losing the freedom that comes with dying is hard. i still feel like living and the responsibilities that come with it are almost too much to bear. it feels like shackles. i also made peace with what my family did to me. most people don't realise that after coming back from the brink, you're still quite close to it.
Sisyphus reaching 1 mill is a thing I’ve anticipated since I first started watching him when he had about 300k. This has made my day congratulations brother 🥳🥳🥳
Feeling like you are broken and actually being broken is different. You feel like you are broken (unless you are a murderer or some “stuff”) since when you have been at peace with yourself in the past, there must be a fix. A good routine, friends and loved ones, a job that you like, and feeling responsible…etc
Everyone is fundamentally broken. Or a walking miracle. It's all just a narration. There's so much to discover philosophically; explore your despair, learn the deep teaching of buddhism and stoicism, earn the sobriety of awareness of your existence and only then make judgement after asking yourself if that's all there is to understand.
'Subdue the regret. Dust yourself off, proceed. You'll get it right in the next life, where you don't make mistakes. Do what you can in this one, while you're still alive.' -Volition, Disco Elysium
Thank you for this video. I struggle with severe alcoholism, 16+ drinks per day, and you’ve made me seriously examine my life. I can’t say I won’t continue to drink myself to death, but I believe that your words have given me a fighting chance.
@0WhiteKnight0 you might experience some kind of struggle someday and realize that you cannot just stop doing things that are problematic simply because you know they are wrong.
@@Betweoxwiteganhabit, dependence over long term use, maybe fear over being sober in a miserable reality. It can be many reasons, my friend. It's better that you don't come to fully understand some things (first hand). Some people, regardless of drugs/alcohol/toxic addictions, do things that are against their own interest despite knowing better. Diagnosing what's causing that behavior is always, very difficult.
@@Betweoxwitegan can always be a bit of both, reality of your mental health, your financial situation, general circumstances. Some people's lives are rarely pleasurable at all, they might have no friends, they might not be able to see their friends, fight with their family, don't have partners, have a bad lifestyle caused by exhaustion from work, I can't think of every example. Why do you think?
It's that final step that has eluded me for... I don't honestly know how long, now. I have actualized every other step, for years at one point, and I just... gave up. I don't have the desire to change. Whether it's too difficult, or I'm too lazy, the end result is the same: I simply don't care whether I'm happy or not. It's easier, safer, more comfortable for me to simply sit on the sidelines of my own life and support my friends until they move on or I run out of energy. I have a thousand rationalizations, I've spent entire inner lifetimes thinking of excuses, but I think I'm simply a lazy coward. Scared of life and scared of trying. But with all that said, with CBT, DBT and therapy, I do finally feel like I'm no longer a danger to myself or others. I've stopped hating myself, even if I've stopped short of loving myself. I don't think I can ever forgive myself, and I'm honestly terrified of what I might become if I ever did, so I think I'm OK with comfortable, even if I'm not happy. And maybe, eventually, I'll finally complete that last step. I've at least stopped rushing towards the finish line.
This is so relatable, it’s great to know that no one has to feel like they’re alone in what their going through. I think we will both find our happiness
These videos always act as a nice pat on the back when most needed, and when least expected to happen. Great job. I'll admit, I've had that feeling of "brokeness" which I always described as "I don't care for my own life", whether I got the money or relationship, I was ready sooner to throw my life away since I thought at 25, my life is too far gone to be saved. I already made too many mistakes and my "person" was already too quiet, cynical, and unhealthy to get anywhere worthwhile, nor did they deserve it if they could. This in tandem with clear-as-day addictions that are never easy to confront detached from the value it's accumulated to my mind, has made the few wake-up moments all the more terrifying, making the sense "I'm too far gone" all the greater. I've always had to have any source of hope come from outside myself, since I always end up back in the addiction pit trying on my own, though I have genuinely tried. I would hope anyone that feels the same, or similar, try to find people to share this compassionate curiosity with: it's never easy alone. I'm soon to be unemployed, so having a little ray like this, has made the hopelessness feel a little bit better.
Your Videos are always like the hug of a best friend, not afraid to tell you uncomfortable truths to encourage you to become your best self, always accepting, always loving, always seeing what you can be and believing that you can find a way to be your best self regardless of what happened to you or what you've done. You got this. Stare at the Abyss long enough and it'll have to blink eventually. Don't give up, it's never to late to make your life better.
I am addicted to chocolate. I’ve noticed that after a day or two without chocolate I begin to crave it intensely. I will go out on a 30+ minute round trip at 9:00 at night just to obtain chocolate. If I can’t obtain chocolate I become restless and agitated, eating whatever is closest to chocolate in terms of its composition and flavour profile but not being truly satisfied. I eat chocolate that doesn’t belong to me as I lack the self control to not consume it. I obviously desire chocolate when I am sad, but even when I feel safe, happy and fulfilled I still experience chocolate cravings. I’m not addicted to any other substance in this way.
I want to say something about how this made me feel...but I'm not entirely sure how. I've been struggling a lot and i want so badly to believe I'm not broken. I've failed a lot in getting better and it makes me afraid to try again. Maybe I've just convinced myself that we aren't all capable of stopping our decent. But when videos like this pop up on my feed, there's that smothered part of me that breaks free just to say "it's not too late." Thank you for putting this video here for people who need to be reminded.
The phrase "Separate yourself from your thoughts." has always been strange to me, since I don't know how to define myself, aren't I my thoughts? My actions? My values? I'm so many things but I've never been able to pinpoint what exactly I am, if anyone could give me some guidance on that it would be much appreciated.
yeah, spiritual teachings from Tao-ism, Zen-Buddhism and WuWei revolve around that. I struggle(d) with that a lot too. I can recommend videos on YT by Alan Watts, a late american philosopher known for his connection to those teachings. Tried to find an english version of a good book about WuWei/Tao, that I find helpful, but didn't find it.
Genuinely one of my favorite content creators, it's a joy to be promoted and reflect one or twice a week with your guidance. Even if it's ideas I have had before you often help me find the vocabulary to describe, collect, and explore them further or with others. Congrats on 2mil subs, well deserved. You keep many people search for comfort, joy, and value in life.
The video kept stopping because of my bad internet and i actually felt like sisyphus constantly pausing and resuming the video hoping i could keep watching, that was interesting
I hope you'll be doing fine. But it takes time and effort. For me its been a year and Im still not fully recovered. I only went through the most hurtful period. And I wish you to overcome this faster than me!
It’s been almost 4 months for me since breakup and I promise you, it gets a bit better over time, try to be kind to yourself and give yourself some space. I really hope you get through it and feel better!
I have been far too subject to the moods and conditions around me in the world, and have constantly blown around within them, seemingly helpless. Sisyphus, your efforts here are reaching me-- and I am not easy to reach. You're helping me to realize that I have choices I've never been aware of, and that I have a chance. A chance is all we can ask for. Thank you very much.
Thank you so much! Chasing novelty … or distraction from responsibility… Too comfortably not have to push so hard, finding balance … With love to this community … 🦋🕊🌹
The sheer accuracy with which these videos match up to my feelings and the situations I'm in is incredible. Because these videos have been so relevant for me over a couple of years now, I really wonder how much of a genuine impact they might've had on my development.
@@jazzmazz476 Don't underestimate how much work I've done on myself. Sure, I've used the best tools I had at the time, but the result is an eternal screaming in my head. And that's the sane part of me that's doing the screaming. The rest of me isn't doing so good.
The human spirit (consciousness) can never be destroyed. One step at a time you got this! When things seem to be falling apart, they might be falling into place. Allow the darkness to grow your light and go with the flow and you'll be ok man ❤️🙏
it has taken me a long time to realize that all my life i have been running and hiding from things i felt threatening and that way i was never able to actually do anything for myself. when i realized that there's a huge amount of power in saying "you know what? i'm done running and i can fcking do this" it was a real game changer for me. there was a short period of time when i kept myself from skipping school by not giving myself the option. i stopped asking myself whether i should stay home and just kind of thought nothing else but "i am going to school". this was exactly the trick i needed now. i'm a new person now. i don't feel like i want to stick to the screen all day. i really don't mind being distracted from what i would do to hide in the past. i want to go outside. and for the first time in my life i actually want to work
Congrats on 1 mil!! You deserve it so much. Your videos have helped me navigate troubled waters and have encouraged me to study philosophy in college!!
I knew you’d be able to help me, recently I’ve been feeling like everything I’ve ever attempted to do just falls apart when I get it, that as soon as I have anything in my hands it immediately disappears into thin air. I’ve had my fair share of addictions I eventually got rid of, I slowly find out that dealing with this unpredictable life is difficult and a long lasting battle. But it’s more worth it than anyone can really imagine
when you're stuck behind, the only direction you can go is forwards. my advice is to open up to someone you trust. if you have nobody to talk to then write about your thoughts and feelings instead. i hope you feel better soon❤️
wholehearted congratulations on one million! your work is so incredibly scrupulous and has been so invaluably helpful to myself and a million others. 💘🥂 i hope you are keeping well!
I have been going through the worst OCD/Depression of my life recently. Quit alcohol over a month ago now and it has been getting better. The fact I stumbled upon this video gives me so much hope. To everyone out there going through something similar I wish you the best. It get's better. Stay strong.
I don't think I can go through any of this on my own. Been trying to deal with this for so long by myself but nothing's changed. Need at least someone to lend a helping hand.
The visual style has really improved and still kept the same vibe I really love these videos and it means a lot to me Please keep making them, idk how long a wait there is between
Watched a video recently by Dry Creek Wrangler School about replacing old habits with new ones rather than outright removing them, which goes hand in hand with what you're saying. Been doing that a lot lately, and it's been better than a year ago where I just gave in and never challenged the thought that I couldn't change
this one came at a great time. trying to increase my self-awareness and self-control in the new year, and this has helped to set out a more concrete strategy as to how to go about it. thank you 🙏
this could not have come at a better time!! I know we each have our addictions - some worse than others. But i loved that the observing of the internal state and understanding triggers is universal. I find that saying things out loud also grounds me in the present moment and helps me face addictions better. Ty for this perfect vid
I have so much grace compassion and patience for other people that ive never shown myself. I dont have a strong sense of self. I am often in a state of depersonalization. My most recent ex says i am fake, an npc, that im just an amalgamation of maladaptive behaviors trauma and psychosis. And i hate myself for being so weak and changeable. But if i heard the story of my own life from someone else, i know i would marvel at the sheer strength of will that person must have to get out of bed at all, let alone support themselves, let alone be someone other people can count on. My adaptability isn't a weakness, and i am a miracle. You are all miracles.
As a person going through a therapy program rn but still struggling with substance use, the ending got me tearing up fr. But it's what I needed to hear this week.
I have learned to love myself the way I attempted to love others. It was odd, but I have learned to anticipate my wants and needs. It has been a few months. I finally trust myself.
The ending especially jives with how I have come to view the struggles I had in the past. I was constantly using weed and psychedelics for 5 years. I wasn't sober that entire time. Multiple times while quitting I would relapse, during these times I was villifying the substance and when I relapsed I was submitting, I was essentially saying "I'm already a disappointment, what is one more time of letting myself and others down, its all I've ever done". But in the past year of being sober I have come to understand that I was doing these things for a reason. Now these substances feel as though they would hinder the progress which I am making every day. This is the difference, I came to accept myself, I came to accept why I felt the need to seek succor from these things. I came to understand the coping mechanisms. The idea of decompiling thoughts is quite accurate as well. As I have only reached this point through journaling. I have been journaling for about 2 months now and have filled 3 notebooks. On average I write 5-6 pages a day. I have always written but keeping physical journals has allowed my thoughts to flow much more freely and has gotten me to a much more grounded state. I have also come to value myself and my ideas much more. Instead of feeling as though I wasted time I now feel like all of my life has been worthwhile experiences to cultuvate the current state I find myself in. If it weren't for the hardship and mistakes I would not be where I am. I have grown to love the vivid tapestry which my psyche has matured into. No longer am I failure and fuck up, but a beautiful mind that experienced quite the story.
I rarely resonate with philosophical content like this. Still love it and leads me to interesting thoughts, but it doesn't typically touch me to a deeper level. This one did, and I felt the need to say it. Thanks for your work.
I felt like this a couple years ago, real low point when I took stock of my life and realised I am nowhere near where I thought I would be right now and there's nothing I could do to get where I want to be any faster than just slugging along. Now I don't recommend this for everyone, but my solution was to quit and to stop caring. But I ended the right thing: my expectations. Luckily I hate drugs, so I never had that problem so nothing to quit there. I also didn't want to quit living, I love being alive and seeing what's to come, you know, fomo. The only thing that is worth quitting are your expectations, so what if you're not rich and married by now? Take stock of your life as it is right now, find what hurts you and stops you from doing what you love doing and end those things. You want to live! You just might not want to live this way, then stop the way and live how you want to live
A lot of these "stories we tell ourselves" (2:00 ) are narratives someone else set for us one day then we keep the score from that day on. It can lead to trying to recreate the situation where you got rejected or hurt. Because if someone accepts you that's not good enough. They only accepted you because of XYZ, but if you become the most rejectable person and someone STILL doesn't reject you then you're lovable and then you've taken control. This is a terrible trap of the mind trying to take control over the external world and expecting something that it never gets. You can't control being broken (unlovable, unconfident, etc.) by having someone else tell you you're not those things (that may transiently help though). If you're battling a construct of the mind, external things can only sooth you, not fix you. I personally really like the idea that "emotions are part of the mental process". (im gonna reference the @ 6:00 definition of soothing because it's great) When you feel pain do you "stop thinking" about it and leave it for later? If so, that's why it probably feels like you're losing parts of yourself as you ignore sad things. You literally lose mental space to function because you're burying your trauma in your brain instead of clearing the space, there's figuratively no room for anything else life throws at you. Being able to "sit with an emotion" instead of A) embracing (getting wrapped up in) the emotion or B) rejecting (distracting from) the emotion is how you start to take control. Understanding proceeds control. Your only have control over how sweet a cake is if you know what sugar is and how to use it. The more you can observe your emotions without pushing or pulling, the more clearly you (your consciousness) can think. Getting over strong chemical addictions like drinking is very hard. If you're just using will power (which is an emotion) then good luck. Coping simply isnt enough for most people. The push and pull is fundamentally a losing game and a lateral move of acceptance allows you to be free and happy. If you can us mindfulness as an experiential tool for spirituality it will just positively effect the rest of your life. You don't solve your problems you create space where you can think about your problems. It's not painless but you become someone who can both feel pain and enjoy the warmth of the sun. You don't fix being broken, you become agnostic to it. You let go of the things the brain tells you you need to do. You do this by listening to what your brain is telling you and decide how you feel about what it's saying. The only thing I'd disagree with in this vid is I don't think the goal of meditation is to "be a detective" or to "philosophize"(4:20). We know we have problems so we go looking for them, but when we go looking for external things we tend to find and focus on those. I think this can easily lead you down the wrong path. There are often no logical answers. Often people will be traumatized as children and have vivid memories of the thing that happens after the event, because that's what they experienced in the height of their traumatic emotions. These emotions will scream at you but the events are often murky. Philosophers are (often) rooted in objective Truth and less so "experiential truths".. And I don't think you can logically find "your personal relationship with the universe" (aka spirituality) but you certainly can through meditation. Sorry this is so ranty, be well yall
5:48 five program Hasta 5:48 basicamente detalla y explica los sentimientos especificos a lo que se refiere por "estar roto" etc, que es algo bastante comun en videos asi. Para dejar en claro por donde va y meter a todos en la misma pagina, quitarle lo abstracto para bien. Por suerte bastante directo, porque tiene un par de videos que lo romantizan un poco mas (igual van por otro lado tambien) Y de ahi detalla un metodo, diario de 5 pasos desde el cual solucionar esos conflictos: 1- renombrar 2- redistribuir 3- re-enfocar 4- revaluar 5- recrear
the exact video i needed in my life. I've been going through terrible depression and in the past couple of years I've picked up multiple addictions that have caused me to lose my last job. I appreciate you SIsyphus 55, I will do those 5 steps
Sisyphus you look at the atoms, and I look at the cells. This was an amazing video, congrats at reaching 1 million Subscribers. You've changed the course of my life somewhat, for that I thank you.
This was a very well-constructed, thoughtful, hopeful, and helpful video. I am going to do my best to apply this into my own life because I really need to.
I’m certainly tired of feeling ashamed and resenting myself for all the things that I’m not, for all the things I expect myself to be and that I think others expect of me. I’m especially tired of putting up a facade for others so that they are none the wiser about my depraved and fallen state. Thanks for the video, I think it’s the push I needed to start giving a rats ass about myself again so I stop treating myself like shit on my shoe. I need to have the same compassion on myself that I wish to give to others.
Great video. This right here kinda made me reevaluate my privilege. I thought that this was relatively common knowledge. I must just have been lucky to have grown up with a father that used this method of thinking not only on himself but also to understand me. Being relatively in control of my mind is really nice.
The way you phrased it all, the cadence in the build up of each sustaining argument, makes it all so obvious, and the beauty of it all, is nothing was a miss Each letter, every word, hit each target in my mind, and through to my heart 💜. You pulled it off so well My respects to you 😮😊
I recently watched a video about "Sam O'Nella Clones" and in the comments, someone mentioned THIS channel as a potential "serious" (as opposed to silly) "Sam O'Nella Clone". The ONLY thing you have in common with any of those channels is your animation style, and even then, yours is very different.
This reminds me of something someone said to me. "The only thing wrong with you is that you think something is wrong with you." I try to keep that in mind when I'm feeling down.
This is actually fantastic! I've already figured out large parts of this process on my own thankfully, but it is thanks to such a process that I am finally starting to reclaim my life and become in control of how I spend my time! Thank you for making such a great description of said process :D
This being the first video that ive managed to learn the lessons of before it comes out is… great. Ive been progressing more and more into the psychologically rich life for years, and im still improving beyond that of a need for happiness, connection, and more. It is possible. If my dumbass can reach this far, you can too. It will take months, years, energy, struggles. But it is achievable, and you are achieving it. Be well guys :)
Allow me to start this by saying I don’t want words of encouragement or compassion. I just want to say this to get it out. I am concerned, I don’t know how long I’ll live, I was born with problems with my heart, and a recent surgery has failed to give me a life without doctors visits. I cant stand being a cash cow for the same doctors that gave me this illness so I don’t know when I’ll die. I worry that I won’t find a partner within that time. I worry I’ll never experience that love and those memories. I worry I’ll never have kids because of that failure. I try, and try, and try. I can’t find the person I want. I’m stuck on a dead first love and can’t get past that. You can’t correct that. So I laugh and hope God will save me.
I'd say you should start by, as the vid suggested, questioning where does that fear and yearning for having kids and a significant other comes from. Is it what you really want or is it because that's what's "expected" of the "average" person? Remember that your life is inherently valuable regardless of offsprings or romantic partnerships. And, as for the doctor's visits, try seeing them in a more positive light, because, right now, though you think they're bad, you're calling _yourself_ the cash cow. Though you do have a chronic illness, none of us truly know when we're going to die. Even ideally healthy people are just one accident away from becoming a casualty. Try finding out what would make you happy today, one day at a time. Maybe seek a community of people with chronic issues similar to yours, so you can see beyond the "ideal" that is pushed onto you by mainstream media, and learn how others like you cope with their situation, and hear how fulfilling a life can be, regardless of what happens to a person. Good luck, buddy.
As someone who has struggled with a long past relationship and lack of closure from it (until somewhat recently when we reconnected out of the blue), understanding limerence and past traumas and how these might relate to you could help you understand and heal. Much love Whaler!
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WRONG! WE ARE ALL BROKEN SLAVES TO THIS SOCIETY!
Have you ever looked at the works of J krishnamurthi?
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who actually needs therapy when sisyphys55 is free
“Do we settle for a familiar sadness, or risk discomfort for a better life?”
Amazing line here.
In this exact situation right now. Feels fucking awful
@@doratheshade me too :)
@@doratheshade Agreed! I'm also worried that I'll end up making things worse if I try to change.
True. But even thinking about it is hard. I wish someone would help me.
I risked discomfort and all I got was this worse life.
At the end of the day you were never actually broken, you were simply using the best tools you had at the time and to nonetheless let them go and live the life you’ve always wanted
What scares me is the fact that maybe the best tools I had at the time are still the best tools I have. That it was never about me using the "wrong" tools, but my environment requiring (and continuing to require) those specific tools
@@Hubcool367I can relate. But at some point I found that if the tools weren't working for my betterment I needed to grow and find new ones.
Damn
I didn't grow up too quickly. I grew up too slowly. And for that I carry this constant shame, as if I had condemned myself to eternal obstruction in my life, as if I compromised my own future for not growing up fast enough.
Glad to know that there someone feels the same way. It feels like missing out on a lot of things. And when we look at our friend, the question that like to pop out just " what did I do in this year"
sometimes it helps me to remind myself that we all have different life paths, cant look around at others at your own age and ask why you arent where they are. we all have different paths and situations
FOMO is being actively engineered into people to facilitate us spending all our time on social media sites like youtube. We've all been led to real addiction.
I have the same shame.
I feel the same....
Understanding and facing our addictions or escapism is a tough journey but I wish everyone luck this year. I hope that we all find the person we were meant to be.
you too brother
@@Snowydaze007 I appreciate it.
We're all tryna face ourselves some way or another. Godspeed.
You ARE the person you were meant to be. Endless comparison with some ideal version of yourself will just make you upset. It's ok to have issues to work through, that doesn't remove your worth. Worth is inherent to all of us, it's not earned through achievements.
@@HoboGardenerBen that's very strong, thank you for sharing your thoughts I'll remember them! :)
Crying at night because I feel so disappointed of what I've become, and I get this notification.
(Edit: i did not realise that this comment would get a lot of attention and likes but i am thankful and appreciate everyone who showed support. I'm sorry because I can't reply to any of ur comments because I'm quite stressed 24/7 and doesnt know how to share my problems to anyone because of trauma and personal issues. I am a 15 year old with a suicidal mind is all that i can share with you all for now.. i hope everyone who is having a bad time right now gets the comfort and rest that they need
If it makes you feel any better, you're not alone. That is exactly how I ended up on this video, too.
Bro what you become is mostly better then other's, you are aware of your pain and your feelings what others hide and blank offer with busy work, atleast you have the room to cry and actually can, what im trying to say is your probably fine, just relax
If you made your bed you can fix your bed 🍀 but that's on nobody but you
It's morning bro lmao
Another day of having an existential crisis + identity crisis + stress + procrastinating + being alone all day
How the fuck am i supposed to be able to pay attention when the pianist is throwing gnarly jazz licks through the whole video
Compassionate curiosity - a summary:
1. Re-label: Is it really something I need to do?
2. re-attribute: separate yourself from your thoughts & feelings. Look at this urge from the perspective of a patient, compassionate observer - is this feeling caused by hunger / tiredness etc
3. Re-focus: instead of grabbing your phone, grab a book, walk outside
4. Re-value: The addiction has outworn its welcome
5. Re-create: what is the life that you really want?
Separating oneself from one's own thoughts and feelings is called dissociation, btw.
@alexxx4434 Or meditation. Depends on how you choose to see it. You are ultimately not your thoughts or body, but the pure awareness centered in the energy of the heart. Staying as this neutral observer/being, and not as the thinker or doer of actions, life unfolds more harmoniously and becomes more light. Like watching a movie thats not constantly being interfered with by the audience, who thinks they are the director. This is the essence of spiritual understanding and true wisdom. God bless 🙏❤.
My issue is I just wanna die. I've been in therapy for almost 5 months and all its done is make those thoughts way more common and prevalent.
@parisheidi3119 please read my comment my comment above. God is with you, no matter how alone and tired you feel. You're not fighting alone. I really hope you find peace of mind, brother. Just go with the flow of life and breathe, you got this! Great things are coming for all of us, don't lose faith. The pain you're feeling can't compare to the joy and peace you will feel, you just gotta keep going and stay aware. Everything is gonna be ok, I hope these words don't feel empty to you. Life unfolds more harmoniously when you stop trying to control and resist it. Surrender to the present moment, as that's all that exists (past and future are an illusion) and watch as your soul blossoms.❤️🙏
@@parisheidi3119 Therapy does not help everyone, and may even make some feel worse. Some say that journaling and meditation help them better.
Another tip: you need to turn self-hatered into self-compassion. Realize, that the source of the pain inside us are often came from the outside and we internalized it, and kept torturing ourselves with it. Indeed, some of our thoughts may not really be our thoughts, but of others, paticularly those that hated us.
Hope this helps.
Just got out of jail today and this is exactly what I needed to hear. I’m just grateful to be on my phone in my own bed next to my animals.
wishing the best for you
Congratulations on a fresh start. May circumstances and motivation both work in your favor!
That's why I will not so much as Jay Walk. I worry I would lose my dogs. Take care of yourself, for them, and you will be fine. They are better friends than whomever helped get you into trouble. :)
You can't believe how much I needed this. I'm in a period of time where I will soon have to become responsible, to start taking care of myself on my own, but the way I have lived my life has made me think I will fail, that I will not fulfill my goals and aspirations. This video at least gave me assurance that everything will be okay. Great vid
I don’t know your situation but always remember it’s okay to fail sometimes, we all do it at one point or another, having the ability to pick yourself back up after failure and accept it, embrace it and move forward with learned experience will help you in the long run rather then running from failure, just remember it’s okay if things don’t always work out and it’s also okay to ask for help from people who care about you, best of luck bud
failure can be comedic… with perspective: laugh n lean about those failures, they help lead the way towards those goals
how have you lived your life? if i may ask. i believe we may be in a similiar situation.
Sounds like we are in the same boat my friend. I wish you all the best. however shit plays out in the end its whatever. as long as we tried our best with whatever opportunities and relationship s come our way. Im just gonna try my hardest not to stress on the outcome or whetheri made the right choices, cause thats too much extra work lol lemme stay higher than Pluto on the moon, for as long as im alive and ill make sure everything moves in a positive direction. 🙃 i just know its game over if im sober
@@set-afro0689 bro is me 😭
Gabor Mate is quoted here saying, “I feel sure it was forged in my chest cavity somewhere between my lungs and heart…” The scientific name of that cavity is the mediastinum. It’s the place where I’ve always physically felt the pain of heartache, abandonment, grief, and rejection. It’s also the place where 15 years ago scans revealed a tumor the size of a grapefruit, which led to a diagnosis of stage 4 mediastinal lymphoma. I can’t help but wonder if there’s a connection.
Blocked Heart chakra. ❤️
If you read more of Dr. Mate's work, he points to these connections a lot. Anger leading to heart issues, depression and abandonment of self leading to cancer, etc etc. Western medicine tends to think of the mind and body as separate things, but it is all part of one system.
Edit: My grandpa had lymphoma and it is no joke. I am thankful you both survived and are here, friend.
I've come across several people describing stuff to be there, in the chest, but for me it's always right behind my forehead. That's why I sometimes get this desire to bash my head against a wall, to hurt this thing in there.
This video came in the right time, even tho i may have zoned out half the video, i loved it.
also congrats on 1million subs sisyphus you deserve this so much man
Samee!! I was going comment about this.
1.75x speed helps me with the zoning out problem
When I zone out, I feel like the universe is telling me "this is important listen to it more attentively" and I just replay the part I zoned out in it usually has the more profound thoughts. Which is kind of #4 in the list (refocus).
Month after a break-up, today I came upon a realization. I am not broken, I am just being molded into something new.
This is my favorite video you’ve released. As someone who’s training to become a classical musician, which is a difficult task to pursue, this was something I needed to hear.
Best of luck in all your endeavors, I'm 47 and always wanted to play the guitar but I'm not musically inclined at all lol but I'll never learn if I don't try but maybe tgis is the year I actually put in the practice and learn how to play, nothing ventured, nothing gained, God Bless!!!
I believe in you!!
@@YuckyBucky-yb8oz My uncle was in the same spot as you. By now he has played for a few years and even done a few small shows with his friends. U got this.
it’s like you knew exactly what i needed to hear.. thank you
sick pfp g jones and eprom go hard as fuck
@@dogebad thanks! hell yes bro im a huge fan of both!
That's a pill hard to swallow. For the last few years i've convinced myself my family broke me beyond repair, that it's not just a mechanism but instead this is who i am now, this new broken state of being is my true self. I made peace with the fact that i've lost my mind, i found solace in knowing there's no hope for me, and that my life has no purpose or directions anymore.
I need time. I'll keep this video saved, maybe one day i'll change my mind.
i believe in you can change. i hope you find happiness.
i understand. i used to be severely suicidal, with plans to die at 20. losing the freedom that comes with dying is hard. i still feel like living and the responsibilities that come with it are almost too much to bear. it feels like shackles. i also made peace with what my family did to me. most people don't realise that after coming back from the brink, you're still quite close to it.
Sisyphus reaching 1 mill is a thing I’ve anticipated since I first started watching him when he had about 300k. This has made my day congratulations brother 🥳🥳🥳
It's hard for me to accept the information put forwards by this video. I.. don't think I'm physically able to concede that I'm not a broken person.
Your in a meat suit remember
Feeling like you are broken and actually being broken is different. You feel like you are broken (unless you are a murderer or some “stuff”) since when you have been at peace with yourself in the past, there must be a fix. A good routine, friends and loved ones, a job that you like, and feeling responsible…etc
Oh god… If you identify with Fugo from JoJo’s, I feel like I have a pretty good idea of what happened 😭
It's an ongoing process
Do your best to keep on the path you forged
Everyone is fundamentally broken. Or a walking miracle. It's all just a narration. There's so much to discover philosophically; explore your despair, learn the deep teaching of buddhism and stoicism, earn the sobriety of awareness of your existence and only then make judgement after asking yourself if that's all there is to understand.
'Subdue the regret. Dust yourself off, proceed. You'll get it right in the next life, where you don't make mistakes. Do what you can in this one, while you're still alive.' -Volition, Disco Elysium
Definitely going to play this again.
Volition is just your logical and kind older brother, who loves you even though you keep making mistakes.
Everything Volition says is so quotable
Every man lives two lives. The second begins when he realizes he has just one.
I mean if there's a next life to get it right, why bother with this one? Mildly flawed logic.
Thank you for this video. I struggle with severe alcoholism, 16+ drinks per day, and you’ve made me seriously examine my life. I can’t say I won’t continue to drink myself to death, but I believe that your words have given me a fighting chance.
@0WhiteKnight0 you might experience some kind of struggle someday and realize that you cannot just stop doing things that are problematic simply because you know they are wrong.
@@Betweoxwiteganhabit, dependence over long term use, maybe fear over being sober in a miserable reality. It can be many reasons, my friend. It's better that you don't come to fully understand some things (first hand). Some people, regardless of drugs/alcohol/toxic addictions, do things that are against their own interest despite knowing better. Diagnosing what's causing that behavior is always, very difficult.
@@Betweoxwitegan can always be a bit of both, reality of your mental health, your financial situation, general circumstances. Some people's lives are rarely pleasurable at all, they might have no friends, they might not be able to see their friends, fight with their family, don't have partners, have a bad lifestyle caused by exhaustion from work, I can't think of every example. Why do you think?
It's that final step that has eluded me for... I don't honestly know how long, now. I have actualized every other step, for years at one point, and I just... gave up. I don't have the desire to change. Whether it's too difficult, or I'm too lazy, the end result is the same: I simply don't care whether I'm happy or not.
It's easier, safer, more comfortable for me to simply sit on the sidelines of my own life and support my friends until they move on or I run out of energy. I have a thousand rationalizations, I've spent entire inner lifetimes thinking of excuses, but I think I'm simply a lazy coward. Scared of life and scared of trying.
But with all that said, with CBT, DBT and therapy, I do finally feel like I'm no longer a danger to myself or others. I've stopped hating myself, even if I've stopped short of loving myself. I don't think I can ever forgive myself, and I'm honestly terrified of what I might become if I ever did, so I think I'm OK with comfortable, even if I'm not happy.
And maybe, eventually, I'll finally complete that last step. I've at least stopped rushing towards the finish line.
This is so relatable, it’s great to know that no one has to feel like they’re alone in what their going through. I think we will both find our happiness
8:36 that's the happiest i've seen the stick guy
These videos always act as a nice pat on the back when most needed, and when least expected to happen. Great job.
I'll admit, I've had that feeling of "brokeness" which I always described as "I don't care for my own life", whether I got the money or relationship, I was ready sooner to throw my life away since I thought at 25, my life is too far gone to be saved. I already made too many mistakes and my "person" was already too quiet, cynical, and unhealthy to get anywhere worthwhile, nor did they deserve it if they could. This in tandem with clear-as-day addictions that are never easy to confront detached from the value it's accumulated to my mind, has made the few wake-up moments all the more terrifying, making the sense "I'm too far gone" all the greater. I've always had to have any source of hope come from outside myself, since I always end up back in the addiction pit trying on my own, though I have genuinely tried. I would hope anyone that feels the same, or similar, try to find people to share this compassionate curiosity with: it's never easy alone.
I'm soon to be unemployed, so having a little ray like this, has made the hopelessness feel a little bit better.
We all could use some more self-compassion and little less self-depricating.
Your Videos are always like the hug of a best friend, not afraid to tell you uncomfortable truths to encourage you to become your best self, always accepting, always loving, always seeing what you can be and believing that you can find a way to be your best self regardless of what happened to you or what you've done. You got this. Stare at the Abyss long enough and it'll have to blink eventually. Don't give up, it's never to late to make your life better.
I am addicted to chocolate. I’ve noticed that after a day or two without chocolate I begin to crave it intensely. I will go out on a 30+ minute round trip at 9:00 at night just to obtain chocolate. If I can’t obtain chocolate I become restless and agitated, eating whatever is closest to chocolate in terms of its composition and flavour profile but not being truly satisfied. I eat chocolate that doesn’t belong to me as I lack the self control to not consume it.
I obviously desire chocolate when I am sad, but even when I feel safe, happy and fulfilled I still experience chocolate cravings. I’m not addicted to any other substance in this way.
needed this today, thank you boulder man
I find it extremely comforting whenever Sisyphus 55 uploads. The next thing to do is, imagine nothing is wrong with life and embrace solitude.
I want to say something about how this made me feel...but I'm not entirely sure how. I've been struggling a lot and i want so badly to believe I'm not broken. I've failed a lot in getting better and it makes me afraid to try again. Maybe I've just convinced myself that we aren't all capable of stopping our decent. But when videos like this pop up on my feed, there's that smothered part of me that breaks free just to say "it's not too late." Thank you for putting this video here for people who need to be reminded.
The phrase "Separate yourself from your thoughts." has always been strange to me, since I don't know how to define myself, aren't I my thoughts? My actions? My values? I'm so many things but I've never been able to pinpoint what exactly I am, if anyone could give me some guidance on that it would be much appreciated.
This is extremely difficult for some people, myself included... it's a practice. Look into zen meditation if you're interested. ^
@pissedpajamas5718 that helps understand it better, tysm!
yeah, spiritual teachings from Tao-ism, Zen-Buddhism and WuWei revolve around that.
I struggle(d) with that a lot too.
I can recommend videos on YT by Alan Watts, a late american philosopher known for his connection to those teachings.
Tried to find an english version of a good book about WuWei/Tao, that I find helpful, but didn't find it.
LET'S GO STARTING THE YEAR POSITIVELY
Genuinely one of my favorite content creators, it's a joy to be promoted and reflect one or twice a week with your guidance. Even if it's ideas I have had before you often help me find the vocabulary to describe, collect, and explore them further or with others. Congrats on 2mil subs, well deserved. You keep many people search for comfort, joy, and value in life.
The video kept stopping because of my bad internet and i actually felt like sisyphus constantly pausing and resuming the video hoping i could keep watching, that was interesting
Country?
Insanely ironic how I get this notification right after my breakup, but I can already tell this is something I needed to hear
I hope you'll be doing fine. But it takes time and effort. For me its been a year and Im still not fully recovered. I only went through the most hurtful period. And I wish you to overcome this faster than me!
@@mikethechemis thanks man, im trying my best
It’s been almost 4 months for me since breakup and I promise you, it gets a bit better over time, try to be kind to yourself and give yourself some space. I really hope you get through it and feel better!
I have been far too subject to the moods and conditions around me in the world, and have constantly blown around within them, seemingly helpless.
Sisyphus, your efforts here are reaching me-- and I am not easy to reach.
You're helping me to realize that I have choices I've never been aware of, and that I have a chance.
A chance is all we can ask for.
Thank you very much.
This dropping on my birthday a time which is always a riddled with anxiety is perfect timing.
Thank you so much!
Chasing novelty … or distraction from responsibility…
Too comfortably not have to push so hard, finding balance …
With love to this community …
🦋🕊🌹
I really needed this today, thank you
The sheer accuracy with which these videos match up to my feelings and the situations I'm in is incredible. Because these videos have been so relevant for me over a couple of years now, I really wonder how much of a genuine impact they might've had on my development.
When the builder considers an unfinished building broken, then it indeed is.
(7:57) You aren't the builder, don't hold yourself responsible for what you didn't do
@@jazzmazz476 Don't underestimate how much work I've done on myself. Sure, I've used the best tools I had at the time, but the result is an eternal screaming in my head. And that's the sane part of me that's doing the screaming. The rest of me isn't doing so good.
I am not broken
I am destroyed
The human spirit (consciousness) can never be destroyed. One step at a time you got this! When things seem to be falling apart, they might be falling into place. Allow the darkness to grow your light and go with the flow and you'll be ok man ❤️🙏
it has taken me a long time to realize that all my life i have been running and hiding from things i felt threatening and that way i was never able to actually do anything for myself. when i realized that there's a huge amount of power in saying "you know what? i'm done running and i can fcking do this" it was a real game changer for me.
there was a short period of time when i kept myself from skipping school by not giving myself the option. i stopped asking myself whether i should stay home and just kind of thought nothing else but "i am going to school". this was exactly the trick i needed now.
i'm a new person now. i don't feel like i want to stick to the screen all day. i really don't mind being distracted from what i would do to hide in the past. i want to go outside. and for the first time in my life i actually want to work
perfect timing, as always
Just went through a breakup after ten months. This is exactly what I needed. Thanks man.
Congrats on 1 mil!! You deserve it so much. Your videos have helped me navigate troubled waters and have encouraged me to study philosophy in college!!
God damn serendipity…. This human connection shit is what makes it all worth while. I will keep going even though I want a nap
Congrats on 1 mil! These videos were something that I didn't ask for, but they were something I definitely needed. Thank you.
I knew you’d be able to help me, recently I’ve been feeling like everything I’ve ever attempted to do just falls apart when I get it, that as soon as I have anything in my hands it immediately disappears into thin air. I’ve had my fair share of addictions I eventually got rid of, I slowly find out that dealing with this unpredictable life is difficult and a long lasting battle. But it’s more worth it than anyone can really imagine
Thank you for this much needed video. Been going through it
I always feel like a failure, a nobody, insignificant, just an NPC
when you're stuck behind, the only direction you can go is forwards. my advice is to open up to someone you trust. if you have nobody to talk to then write about your thoughts and feelings instead. i hope you feel better soon❤️
None of you are broken, your are meant to be here and you are worth more than you know generationally living within you is your family live for them
How about when it's your family that breaks you?
@@alexxx4434 you all much to learn from eachother i wish you the best
wholehearted congratulations on one million! your work is so incredibly scrupulous and has been so invaluably helpful to myself and a million others. 💘🥂 i hope you are keeping well!
You're not broken. You're broke.
Great video! I've been having trouble with feelings of brokeness lately
I have been going through the worst OCD/Depression of my life recently. Quit alcohol over a month ago now and it has been getting better. The fact I stumbled upon this video gives me so much hope. To everyone out there going through something similar I wish you the best. It get's better. Stay strong.
An excellent video as always, this one especially hits close to home
Thank you brother. Your videos are the best thing in this entire platform.
I don't think I can go through any of this on my own. Been trying to deal with this for so long by myself but nothing's changed. Need at least someone to lend a helping hand.
And people say get professional help. Today I tried to, got laughed off by the doctor.
@@re11ik96, well it says a lot about the doctor's professionalism. Just mark the dumb f''k as incompetent and try another one.
I guess you're right. Its been my experience also so far
The visual style has really improved and still kept the same vibe
I really love these videos and it means a lot to me
Please keep making them, idk how long a wait there is between
1 Million my man. I am very proud of you and your thoughts. Thank you for your work. Here is to many more and to your future!😂
Watched a video recently by Dry Creek Wrangler School about replacing old habits with new ones rather than outright removing them, which goes hand in hand with what you're saying. Been doing that a lot lately, and it's been better than a year ago where I just gave in and never challenged the thought that I couldn't change
i just got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and i’m tearing myself apart- i needed this notification, thank you.
this one came at a great time. trying to increase my self-awareness and self-control in the new year, and this has helped to set out a more concrete strategy as to how to go about it. thank you 🙏
Congratulations on 1 million subscribers! You deserve it Sisyphus 55. You make truly amazing videos
this could not have come at a better time!! I know we each have our addictions - some worse than others. But i loved that the observing of the internal state and understanding triggers is universal. I find that saying things out loud also grounds me in the present moment and helps me face addictions better. Ty for this perfect vid
i swear these videos always come up in the nick of time, thanks for helping us all understand the human condition a bit better
I have so much grace compassion and patience for other people that ive never shown myself. I dont have a strong sense of self. I am often in a state of depersonalization. My most recent ex says i am fake, an npc, that im just an amalgamation of maladaptive behaviors trauma and psychosis. And i hate myself for being so weak and changeable. But if i heard the story of my own life from someone else, i know i would marvel at the sheer strength of will that person must have to get out of bed at all, let alone support themselves, let alone be someone other people can count on. My adaptability isn't a weakness, and i am a miracle. You are all miracles.
As a person going through a therapy program rn but still struggling with substance use, the ending got me tearing up fr. But it's what I needed to hear this week.
I have learned to love myself the way I attempted to love others. It was odd, but I have learned to anticipate my wants and needs. It has been a few months. I finally trust myself.
I'm pretty sure Sisyphus 55 lives in my wall and uploads whatever I've been depressed about for the month because holy crap what perfect timing
The ending especially jives with how I have come to view the struggles I had in the past. I was constantly using weed and psychedelics for 5 years. I wasn't sober that entire time.
Multiple times while quitting I would relapse, during these times I was villifying the substance and when I relapsed I was submitting, I was essentially saying "I'm already a disappointment, what is one more time of letting myself and others down, its all I've ever done".
But in the past year of being sober I have come to understand that I was doing these things for a reason. Now these substances feel as though they would hinder the progress which I am making every day. This is the difference, I came to accept myself, I came to accept why I felt the need to seek succor from these things. I came to understand the coping mechanisms.
The idea of decompiling thoughts is quite accurate as well. As I have only reached this point through journaling. I have been journaling for about 2 months now and have filled 3 notebooks. On average I write 5-6 pages a day.
I have always written but keeping physical journals has allowed my thoughts to flow much more freely and has gotten me to a much more grounded state.
I have also come to value myself and my ideas much more. Instead of feeling as though I wasted time I now feel like all of my life has been worthwhile experiences to cultuvate the current state I find myself in. If it weren't for the hardship and mistakes I would not be where I am. I have grown to love the vivid tapestry which my psyche has matured into. No longer am I failure and fuck up, but a beautiful mind that experienced quite the story.
I rarely resonate with philosophical content like this. Still love it and leads me to interesting thoughts, but it doesn't typically touch me to a deeper level. This one did, and I felt the need to say it. Thanks for your work.
we can all change, don’t give up guys! This is a great way to start realizing your true self, and the divinity of your soul
I felt like this a couple years ago, real low point when I took stock of my life and realised I am nowhere near where I thought I would be right now and there's nothing I could do to get where I want to be any faster than just slugging along. Now I don't recommend this for everyone, but my solution was to quit and to stop caring. But I ended the right thing: my expectations.
Luckily I hate drugs, so I never had that problem so nothing to quit there. I also didn't want to quit living, I love being alive and seeing what's to come, you know, fomo. The only thing that is worth quitting are your expectations, so what if you're not rich and married by now? Take stock of your life as it is right now, find what hurts you and stops you from doing what you love doing and end those things. You want to live! You just might not want to live this way, then stop the way and live how you want to live
A lot of these "stories we tell ourselves" (2:00 ) are narratives someone else set for us one day then we keep the score from that day on. It can lead to trying to recreate the situation where you got rejected or hurt. Because if someone accepts you that's not good enough. They only accepted you because of XYZ, but if you become the most rejectable person and someone STILL doesn't reject you then you're lovable and then you've taken control. This is a terrible trap of the mind trying to take control over the external world and expecting something that it never gets. You can't control being broken (unlovable, unconfident, etc.) by having someone else tell you you're not those things (that may transiently help though). If you're battling a construct of the mind, external things can only sooth you, not fix you.
I personally really like the idea that "emotions are part of the mental process". (im gonna reference the @ 6:00 definition of soothing because it's great) When you feel pain do you "stop thinking" about it and leave it for later? If so, that's why it probably feels like you're losing parts of yourself as you ignore sad things. You literally lose mental space to function because you're burying your trauma in your brain instead of clearing the space, there's figuratively no room for anything else life throws at you.
Being able to "sit with an emotion" instead of A) embracing (getting wrapped up in) the emotion or B) rejecting (distracting from) the emotion is how you start to take control. Understanding proceeds control. Your only have control over how sweet a cake is if you know what sugar is and how to use it. The more you can observe your emotions without pushing or pulling, the more clearly you (your consciousness) can think. Getting over strong chemical addictions like drinking is very hard. If you're just using will power (which is an emotion) then good luck. Coping simply isnt enough for most people. The push and pull is fundamentally a losing game and a lateral move of acceptance allows you to be free and happy.
If you can us mindfulness as an experiential tool for spirituality it will just positively effect the rest of your life. You don't solve your problems you create space where you can think about your problems. It's not painless but you become someone who can both feel pain and enjoy the warmth of the sun. You don't fix being broken, you become agnostic to it. You let go of the things the brain tells you you need to do. You do this by listening to what your brain is telling you and decide how you feel about what it's saying.
The only thing I'd disagree with in this vid is I don't think the goal of meditation is to "be a detective" or to "philosophize"(4:20). We know we have problems so we go looking for them, but when we go looking for external things we tend to find and focus on those. I think this can easily lead you down the wrong path. There are often no logical answers. Often people will be traumatized as children and have vivid memories of the thing that happens after the event, because that's what they experienced in the height of their traumatic emotions. These emotions will scream at you but the events are often murky. Philosophers are (often) rooted in objective Truth and less so "experiential truths".. And I don't think you can logically find "your personal relationship with the universe" (aka spirituality) but you certainly can through meditation.
Sorry this is so ranty, be well yall
5:48 five program
Hasta 5:48 basicamente detalla y explica los sentimientos especificos a lo que se refiere por "estar roto" etc, que es algo bastante comun en videos asi. Para dejar en claro por donde va y meter a todos en la misma pagina, quitarle lo abstracto para bien. Por suerte bastante directo, porque tiene un par de videos que lo romantizan un poco mas (igual van por otro lado tambien)
Y de ahi detalla un metodo, diario de 5 pasos desde el cual solucionar esos conflictos:
1- renombrar
2- redistribuir
3- re-enfocar
4- revaluar
5- recrear
the exact video i needed in my life. I've been going through terrible depression and in the past couple of years I've picked up multiple addictions that have caused me to lose my last job. I appreciate you SIsyphus 55, I will do those 5 steps
Sisyphus you look at the atoms, and I look at the cells. This was an amazing video, congrats at reaching 1 million Subscribers. You've changed the course of my life somewhat, for that I thank you.
I am so much in love with your concepts of videos and the way u present it to the watchers. I just wanna say thank u for helping me make my mind
congrats on one mil. love you
This video was a God send. Not just because of the advice but oddly enough because it's just. Feels. So. Comforting to feel understood and related to.
You will not ever comprehend just how much I need this video.
I'm not broken. The world is. And irredeemably so...
This was a very well-constructed, thoughtful, hopeful, and helpful video. I am going to do my best to apply this into my own life because I really need to.
I’m certainly tired of feeling ashamed and resenting myself for all the things that I’m not, for all the things I expect myself to be and that I think others expect of me. I’m especially tired of putting up a facade for others so that they are none the wiser about my depraved and fallen state. Thanks for the video, I think it’s the push I needed to start giving a rats ass about myself again so I stop treating myself like shit on my shoe. I need to have the same compassion on myself that I wish to give to others.
Thanks for bringing up the awareness and truth that's need to be said. This is a world wide issue that we all are facing.
Great video. This right here kinda made me reevaluate my privilege.
I thought that this was relatively common knowledge. I must just have been lucky to have grown up with a father that used this method of thinking not only on himself but also to understand me.
Being relatively in control of my mind is really nice.
The way you phrased it all, the cadence in the build up of each sustaining argument, makes it all so obvious, and the beauty of it all, is nothing was a miss
Each letter, every word, hit each target in my mind, and through to my heart 💜.
You pulled it off so well
My respects to you 😮😊
thank you for posting this just a few minutes before my birthday 🥹 growing up has been stressing me out, but this made me realize I'm doing just fine❤
I only noticed now but congrats on a million subs!! Been following you for 3 years now, I love your videos and glad other do too!!
I may not be broken, however, i am cracked at fortnite
This channel is such a gem! I got a random recommendation, and i think I'll be a long-time viewer now :)
you're not the only one))
I am so incredibly grateful for this channel, it has been a tool that has helped me through so much. Thank you Sisyfus 55
This isn't where i expected to find actual great advice for my OCD, but i welcome it
I recently watched a video about "Sam O'Nella Clones" and in the comments, someone mentioned THIS channel as a potential "serious" (as opposed to silly) "Sam O'Nella Clone". The ONLY thing you have in common with any of those channels is your animation style, and even then, yours is very different.
This reminds me of something someone said to me.
"The only thing wrong with you is that you think something is wrong with you."
I try to keep that in mind when I'm feeling down.
This is actually fantastic! I've already figured out large parts of this process on my own thankfully, but it is thanks to such a process that I am finally starting to reclaim my life and become in control of how I spend my time! Thank you for making such a great description of said process :D
This being the first video that ive managed to learn the lessons of before it comes out is… great. Ive been progressing more and more into the psychologically rich life for years, and im still improving beyond that of a need for happiness, connection, and more.
It is possible. If my dumbass can reach this far, you can too. It will take months, years, energy, struggles. But it is achievable, and you are achieving it. Be well guys :)
Will be coming back to this video when I'm feeling doubtful. Thank you for sharing
Allow me to start this by saying I don’t want words of encouragement or compassion. I just want to say this to get it out.
I am concerned, I don’t know how long I’ll live, I was born with problems with my heart, and a recent surgery has failed to give me a life without doctors visits. I cant stand being a cash cow for the same doctors that gave me this illness so I don’t know when I’ll die. I worry that I won’t find a partner within that time. I worry I’ll never experience that love and those memories. I worry I’ll never have kids because of that failure. I try, and try, and try. I can’t find the person I want. I’m stuck on a dead first love and can’t get past that. You can’t correct that. So I laugh and hope God will save me.
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i don’t have many words but wishing you strength.🩷
I'd say you should start by, as the vid suggested, questioning where does that fear and yearning for having kids and a significant other comes from. Is it what you really want or is it because that's what's "expected" of the "average" person? Remember that your life is inherently valuable regardless of offsprings or romantic partnerships. And, as for the doctor's visits, try seeing them in a more positive light, because, right now, though you think they're bad, you're calling _yourself_ the cash cow.
Though you do have a chronic illness, none of us truly know when we're going to die. Even ideally healthy people are just one accident away from becoming a casualty. Try finding out what would make you happy today, one day at a time. Maybe seek a community of people with chronic issues similar to yours, so you can see beyond the "ideal" that is pushed onto you by mainstream media, and learn how others like you cope with their situation, and hear how fulfilling a life can be, regardless of what happens to a person.
Good luck, buddy.
As someone who has struggled with a long past relationship and lack of closure from it (until somewhat recently when we reconnected out of the blue), understanding limerence and past traumas and how these might relate to you could help you understand and heal. Much love Whaler!
Happy 1 million man! Keep pushing on and thank you for great content.