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I'll be honest I'm diagnosed with the most chronic severe from of depression. That aside the last year or so quiting drug's an working out helped much more than I assumed. Although full disclosure I'm far more angry now less hurt myself more hurt evil bastrads. Also finding God helped more than anything else. Which is funny because I want death more than ever now but know suicide is not a option.
Keep in mind that i am not being edgy or anything, it's just the most effective way to live, my life improved much more when i stopped giving a f bout others.
your why is sisyphus happy video genuinely helped change the trajectory of my life. i never understood how everyone else could cope with how pointless everything is. I saw eating, sleeping, breathing, caring for myself, working my job, entering relationships as all burdens that could never be sated. The ball kept falling back down the hill. my only purpose in life was "i have to stay alive because my loss will crush the people who love me", but i didnt have any passions or goals beyond that. i could never remember things, it felt like i was moving through life as if it were a dream most days. it was like that from 17 to 25. then i watched your video like a day after a really bad breakdown. it was a day i woke up late, felt sore and drained. i opened youtube to scroll for a couple hours and there it was. I watched the first one, where it just talked about Absurdism, i think. And i just didnt get how "one must imagine sisyphus happy" was in any way a revolt of the absurd. it felt like conforming to a system that intends to grind my bones into bread. then i watched the why is he happy video, the 20 minute one, and it all clicked. the only other time i can clearly think of a moment where i ingested i formation that so firmly changed my life was when i tried quitting smoking ciggies. i had tried for like a month of actively trying my absolute hardest to quit, and i couldnt do it. i hit a absolute miserable pit where i felt powerless to ever stop. and i read Alan Carrs The Easy Way to Stop Smoking, and its like a 70 page book, i read half of it, and just quit cold turkey right then and there. i havent smoked in like, 4 years? maybe? i dont even remember, i literally never think about smoking and have no desire for nicotine. Your video was like that for my depression. It totally reframed how i see life and everything. i still have times where i have to face the reality that i spent the last 8 years depressed and have picked up some unhealthy habits, but im aware of them and feel more capable of processing those thoughts. it just really helped me at the right time fr. my memory and focus have improved, i feel passionate about things. im really on a good path, i feel.
Whoah, thank you for sharing your story. It inspires me to make changes in how I'm thinking about life. Like I started to appreciate life more if that makes sense >.< I'm so glad to hear you're doing better now ^^
I feel this actually. When I have a wound, I can't help but keep looking at it, or touching it. If I could just leave it alone I would forget about it and it would seemingly heal faster.
I like this alot however ..an infection must be fought or drained manually and cannot simply be ignored. Thats mental illness or scars too deeply made. Life is polarity . For every up there's a down. And for every left a right. Another example is animal attacks. Some you run from , some you stare down and others you ignore. And sometimes, it doesn't really matter what you do , your getting eaten anyways .
@@scottblack7182 So you're saying that, we need to eventually get help despite the thought of "I'm doing fine, it's just an old wound"? How about a wound that came repeatedly towards the same place?
Modernism is what's wrong. Rejecting it means not returning to whatever empyreal culture gave us this modernism, it would imply setting up alternatives. Happy and chill alternatives to modernism. Like solarpunk? Without this change, we'll return to the cognitive weight of living under this sytstem of oppression, leading to internal depression.
When I'm depressed the narrative for who I am collapses and meaning is moved to an unreachable dimension. At most I can rely on figments of who I was before in order to trudge forwards, towards some nebulous concept of completion. Each book, each acquired skill, and each memory devoid of significance-but telling of what should be. Time and space are dimensions confusing to us humans by their very nature, but meaning is what helps us make sense of it all; to have meaning taken away is as significant as losing one of your sense organs.
For me depression came from being too harsh on myself and having high expectations and hate myself for not reaching them.After I realised that,I slowly learned that I'm not doing as bad as I thought.
I don't wanna sound like I know anything but my thoughts on the matter. Depression is a state of self-hatred that can never go away. It's also a state of soul-searching that comes up blank. It's also a mental state of suffering. So to me, I feel the best way forward is to love yourself, find a purpose in life, and be surrounded by people who love you.
I agree, but your solution is easier said than done. Depression is also caused by constantly trying to fill a void by feeding yourself the easiest remedies for your state of sadness. If I feel bad right now, I want to feel good right now, so the best solution I see to feel good right now is drugs, scrolling etc. depression is also a state of wanting to be depressed in a sense because it gives you excuses for using these lower forms of excitement (short term rather than long term like working out etc).
And it's why addicts stay addicted. They hate themselves so much they make it everyone's problem. Running away from yourself pushes everyone else away too
@@Darkmoanerr The problem with drugs or short-term solutions is just that they are short-term solutions. Also, I never said it would be easy to find meaning, love yourself, and have a community. I am conflicted if people want to be depressed because they want short-term pleasure. Either way, that's a good comment to my comment. It's like a...meta-comment.
I remember laying in my room looking at the ceiling and wanting every second to pass by faster. Somehow that was everything that was necessary, time heals all. I'm not saying I didn't do nothing to fix it but at the same time I needed time to pass by in order to look at life differently again.
This put me out there, depression is like a different lens on life. When you are depressed, you want to keep looking at it. I feel like we are universally fascinated by consistency or patterns, or maybe it's just me beind psychotic.
0:37 this is a huge reason why shrooms work so well against depression, it’s like when you’re stuck in a hole or something in a video game knowing there’s no way to progress unless you start the level over. Mushrooms are like the ‘replay level’ button, gives you the opportunity to see things from another perspective
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.poras. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
i started garderning to focus on other life, it helps me heal with time but gives me a distraction worthy of actually focusing on, we all want to bring something to fruition and gardening even in the simplest way can help
"I now thought that this end [happiness] was only to be attained by not making it the direct end. Those only are happy (I thought) who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness... Aiming thus at something else, the find happiness by the way." - John Stuart Mill
Such great insights! I suffer from anhedonia. It dulls all my feelings. I almost never have a 10/10 day, but I'll also never have a 1/10 day. Most of my days are 5/10, making everything kind of blank. It's similar to the Byung-Chul Han quote. For me, it's not discovering the source of the form of depression, but rather, dealing with it. I will never have good days, and never have bad days. But like any sane person, I don't want bad days, and wish to strive for good days. What do? The key is not setting ultimate goals. Instead, set goals along your horizon. Find a goal, but it is not THE goal. I love writing, so my goal is "finish my story." But that's not the only goal. If I complete that goal, I'll feel horrible, because I have nothing else. So, set a new goal. Then keep setting a new goal, over and over. It sounds exhausting, and it is. But so is life. Sometimes life is exhausting, and that's okay, because as long as you have a new goalpost to strive for, you'll have a reason to keep going. Nothing is ever complete. So why strive to complete? Instead, strive to have a good time, and when you run out of things to do, find new things. It's not hedonism; it's practicality. Do things that are good and nice. When you run out of good and nice things to do, find new things that are also good and nice. Because, since the world is good and nice by default, you'll never run out of good and nice things to do so long as you actively make the effort to do them.
I got out of my 2 year depression following a really bad break up by one day more or less growing so tired of being down and sad all the time and just said to myself "fuck it, I deserve better. I know it's cliche too say "just be happy' but a large part of depression (for me at least) was having such low self worth that I didnt respect myself enough to want better. After telling myself I deserved better, my goal became "to find joy in the moment". There are loads of beaty in the world and I am 100% genuine when I say that taking the time to actually stop and appreciate music, food, art, connections, nature and the like made me actually happy. Now a year later I've pushed my self to start weight lifting because I though "hey it would be neat to do and perhaps I'd feel happy doing it".
Love the idea that the things you used to enjoy doing no longer “charm” you, as if they were the ones trying to live through us and not us through them.
This makes a lot of sense as someone who has never dealt with depression but had a lot of depressed friends. i was extremely judgemental, thinking it would help them point out what they did wrong imo and how to fix it even tho it never worked
I recently finished reading Tolstoy's confessions, and I was impressed by how everything he confesses I feel too. His depression and suicidal thoughts arise from the doubt in his heart, it is very clear that Tolstoy understands that ignorance is a gift
This video is quite refreshing! I think I'll come back to it when I get lost in the frustration of running on a tight deadline or accomplishing a goal etc. Its important to try the best one can and have a clear understanding of what things are under ones control w/o being judgemental about it. It's also important to just be present in the process or in the moment sometimes as it makes it easier to get by or understand the situation. Eventually everything comes to an end but that doesn't mean there isn't anything left to start.
Day to day, feeling of emptiness and pointlessness of existing randomly set in"why am I doing this" "no fulfillment but I keep doing it" Living like a zombie day to day. I can't help but feel we're just insignificant ants that are sentient but still follow obvious non yielding patterns
In a sense, it gives me hope that we can imagine a better life than we are experiencing. Maybe this too means nothing, but I still believe in this hope. As long as you wish for fulfillment, there is some hope you may find it within yourself.
Took me 25 years of hospitalizations, addiction, hopelessness, feeling "different" than most. Something happened, I guess spiritual awakening, a few years back where I felt I had to be able to sit with self honestly. The rest of what I attempted for 25 years was all related to avoiding that. The suffering that perspective dragged me through almost killed me, but today through meditation, philosophical exploration, self-reflection, etc., literally everyone and everything appears so very different. I now felt that the WHY behind the WHAT is where the real reality lies. Only I could get me here, nobody could "fix" how I felt because I knew what I saw and how I felt about life around me... but was always told in one way or another it was something wrong with me.
when i struggle with these phases in my life whether it's short term or prolonged supression of self by turning my humanness into a mere idea/a piece of information, i slowly shift myself to the general awareness that you mentioned in the video. wearing a pair of socks to warm my tired and bleak spirit even in the summer, i try to know and then know some more. there's no end to knowing and suddenly i am interested in something or the other and calling my interestedness a positive thing or progress wouldn't help but what helped and helps is the pursuit of knowing more and then some more. and then i pause and then i go again and then i slow down and then i get my heart racing and i am going on and on without assigning it its place on the spectrum of good to bad.
I'm really going thru a terrible time in my life... hopefully some of this video is internalized somehow and helps me and anyone else on the strange journey. Thanks man
Thank you for your little guidance i now realize i am unconsciously neglecting my real life, its struggles, endeavours by relentlessly searching for pleasurable content on YT day & night
i'm not depressed myself, i'm actually quite happy but i have a friend really going through it and having this perspective helps me understand him a lot more, thank you
It could be that one is depressed because they are working in a cubicle instead of farming or doing art or whatever. It could be that one is depressed because they have without realizing ignored their ultimate purpose in life. But it could also be something very simple as they can't get a girlfriend or have a family or obtain a financial standing without extreme toil, this to me is far more relevant as causes than lack of purpose which may have been the case all those years ago. You may also encounter that upon trying to solve these basic needs you discover a society wide problem that is preventing you from meeting them. In this case no amount of self reflection or whatever can help you.
Pin this! This is the key problem. Self-reflection makes it worse because with reflection, comes amplification! The most self-reflective become the most hurt, and the most sociopathic and psychopathic become more successful (than yours self-reflective truly) And then you may find that with the dissolution of communities and late-stage capitalism, people don't really feel like helping you for as long as it takes. To me, this in and of itself, is the meaning of life - to see and react to the true darkness that is this universe. Perhaps also to shine for a brief moment, but we are not all granted this! Perhaps you may become bitter. Perhaps you may find someone to hug and love. Briefly. Perhaps you may find a believable illusion. There is no God we did not create ourselves. We come from nothing and go on to become nothing. I came, I saw, I went.
Insane how you analized in such a simply but effective way what depression is, as a person witch started with sertraline around 3 months ago i really relate to everything you said. really appreciate your work
Depends on your age location etc. I was a skinny emo adhd gamer and found friends online. Later I joined a gym and found gymbros. Later I did MDMA in techno clubs and found other traumatized lost souls and hedonists. Later I found love. All of this is possible, just not all the time. Depression steals life but you can get out. Sports is a huge factor and nutrition, also psychedelics have been life-changing for me
As someone who is tormented with hopeless thoughts on the regular, some things that make me feel a bit better are: music, nature, exploring theories of thought, philosophy, and politics
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This video is incredibly well done, the thoughts and narratives behind it have truly brought me joy not from their own nature, but in their promises and hopes. Thank you for making this.
Hey, I just came across your video this morning and it made me reflect. I noticed that I am having a real good year and my personal mood is on a all time high at the moment. I wish it could go on forever like this, but right now I'm just enjoying the ride. Thank you ❤
Acquiring new perspectives is key. Your depressed one is just one possible perspective. 🙂 Remember you are not as concrete as the mental state you have fortified might lead you to think
It’s kind of odd how growing up it was always “everyone is unique in their own way” but there are 8 billion of us and we’re expected to thing not a single other one has gone through the exact same bullshit we have. we aren’t special. Even throughout all of the internet there is almost guaranteed someone weather dead or alive that has shared you experiences.
Sisyphus 55 has changed my life, broadened my horizons, and taught me so much. Thank you for everything, including getting me through the darkest days of my life and introducing me to philosophy, which has become one of my biggest interests now.
Your videos deeply help me, Sisyphus 55. It is rare to find videos that feel like they understand what it means to be human nowadays. This is organic, this is real. Thank you.
All I could think at the conclusion of the video was, I wish this had been made 17 years ago when my brother was still alive. Thank you for making this, it was beautiful. I hope that every person with depression can watch this and try out the advice for themself. I learned the importance of those things on my own journey with mental health, and well, they changed my life.
Things that helped me with my depression 1. Find something I’m passionate about, for me it was socialism. 2. Educate yourself on those things 3. Once you have the knowledge join a local organization and meet other like minded people 4. Maybe some yoga
Ayer fue mi cumpleaños, y hoy estoy en otra ciudad. Toda la semana anterior me había sentido tan feliz, tan lleno de vida, como sí ya todo tuviera respuesta, como si tuviera sentido. Me sentía con una ligereza increíble. Pero justo ayer, en mi cumpleaños, me he sentido fatal, culpable, deprimido, de los peores episodios que he tenido, creía que era ya la hora de suicidarme, pero pssss no ocurrió. Hoy me deshice de todo lo que conozco y me fui a otro lugar, a buscarme, a explorar. Será mejor que me ponga mi gabardina y mi sombrero y empiece a descifrar mi misterio, alejarme lo más posible de mi muerte, y dejar que la felicidad venga de los lados a mi mente. Gracias sisifo, tus videos siempre me dejan que pensar...
To be honest. I’ve tried moving from a place of self analysis to general analysis. But the same thought persists every single time “Why are you doing this? You’re furthering yourself from finding the truth. Don’t run away from your problems.” I’ve tried doing healthy activities but they feel like temporary escapes from my minds grasp although they do help for a small bit. I feel myself infatuated with this idea of “What if I end up living the wrong life?” and the extreme uncertainty of things that happen afterwards. “Is everything a lie? Is it not? How can I prove it?” And when I can’t understand it I go down the pit of despair. Never really experienced this before as I was living happily before this. To be honest I have no clue what to do now. But I hope that I will find a way. Thanks for your videos man.
Hey man, i cannot know what you’re going through. But i can try to give my thoughts: on the question “what if im living the wrong life” i have another question: what then is the right life? Similarly, I found peace in the uncertainty that i felt, (Well, can i know/prove everything? How do i live, how should i live?). I found a way for myself to accept that i cannot know all, i cannot prove it all and that’s what made my life beautiful. I can find new things, meet new people, explore! What do i care if it is real. I can either spend my life trying to prove it or just go along with it and maybe find out anyways. Summing up my paragraph: try and find a way to accept and embrace your uncertainty. It’s what makes life entertaining!
@@meneer_haas1929 Man thanks for your reply it truly means a lot. I have tried to think of to that way. To be honest I have no clue myself why I’m feeling this way. It happened so abruptly and was kinda overwhelming. The main thing is i try to pay no attention to it. But my mind is so infatuated with this idea of a “fundamental truth to everything and existence.” The more I try to stray from it the more this pessimistic nihilism consumes me. I lived pretty happily beforehand and didn’t really think about these things. But it just feels like my life is a lie, including everything I’ve done beforehand too. That in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t matter. Although that can be seen as a positive, it doesn’t sit with me. To be honest this is the last place I thought I would vent this out. But it does ease off the anxiety a bit. So I gotta thank you for replying. 🙏
A year ago today, I called the suicide hotline for the second of three times in the month of April, everything was wrong, I didn’t feel safe anywhere, my mind was always pulled in a 100 directions. The best explanation I always use is a quote from Jean-Paul Sartre’s No Exit: “Anything, Anything would be better than this agony of mind, this creeping pain that fumbled and gnaws and caresses and never quite hurts enough” After Therapy, Medication, throwing myself into random activities, volunteering and a lot of reading. I’m still here. You, who needs this video now. You will be too I hope.
Follow-up question for you, Sisyphus. From the quote of Mill, "Those only are happy who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness." But what object should our minds be fixed upon? My needs are so diverse and shifting from moment to moment. One moment may be spent in mediation, feeling this deep curiosity of self and universe, but the next may be spent on objects inhibiting happiness but still necessary. Working for financial security being the obvious, daily task. Cleaning the toilet, healing an injury, etc. With this in mind, I am unsure of what object should be the goal, how much time one ought to spend on such object, etc.
Just try and see this is the only method. But this quote reminds me the social feeling of Adler. Adler says the way yowards happines goes throught the interest for others.
That quote is incomplete. The full quote is "Those only are happy (I thought) who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness; on the happiness of others, on the improvement of mankind, even on some art or pursuit, followed not as a means, but as itself an ideal end." When you ask this question, what object should be the goal, it implies you have a "goal" of happiness. Thus, you have not escaped your loop of chasing happiness. The next part of the book says "Aiming thus at something else, they find happiness by the way. The enjoyments of life (such was now my theory) are sufficient to make it a pleasant thing, when they are taken en passant, without being made a principal object." There is a profound liberation in simply doing actions for the sake of it. No justifications, no pursuit of a certain outcome, not even the pursuit of an end state. You just do them. And in retrospect, you find yourself 'happy'. However, the moment you do something 'to become happy,' you find yourself trapped in the cycle again. Happiness is like a rainbow, you have to turn away from the sun to see the rainbow.
thanks, good video at the right time, i just so confused about get rid of my depression. it's been 2 weeks I've been like a dead girl walking with blank mind and unlimited tiredness.
I know why I’m depressed. It’s because for whatever reason, I find working a job excessively stressful and difficult. Even the easy jobs that “anyone can do”, I struggle in. I have panic attacks, I have mental breakdowns, just constantly fighting the urge to crumple onto the floor and cry. I’ve tried to be optimistic but the more I try and struggle and fall apart, the more I lose hope. When my parents can’t support me anymore, I don’t know how I’m going to survive. My whole childhood I was labelled “smart” and “gifted” and it was all a lie. If I was actually smart I would be able to do a simple dishwashing job without constantly fighting the urge to scream, cry and run away. I want to be able to contribute to society. I want to be able to support the people I love. But I’m so lost. Perhaps I’m just not strong enough for this world
In 2019 I was diagnosed with a depressive episode, and then I found out I have a sort of atypical Bipolar disorder. I couldn't relate more to the statement that depression is a place of continuous self-analysis and self-judgement, something that we need to do once in a while but, as the video quotes, a pencil which is continually sharpened eventualy gets all consumed - and I did. Of course I'm not completely cured of this, as bipolar disorder is something one will have for his entire life, but after medication and a continuous effort to stop trying to do everything as a means to a future goal (most of the time, filled with a lot of vanity and craving for approval), I felt love flourish for the things I'd already done and that I'm already doing. That really was a game changer, doing things for the sake of it, not to eventually get money, or to become attractive, or to become recognized. Even in the deepest depression there's a lot of vanity and ego which are so huge they start opressing yourself. Great video, thank you so much!
I'm actually not depressed today. My problems are definitely still there. But today, I feel fine. I didn't do anything special to feel this way. I didn't work hard at it yesterday. I just feel, normal for some reason. It's all chemicals and we have no control over it.
@@lustejon it's a bit of A and B. For some people it's their brain just being "off" and with others it's a combination of experiences and negative cognition. And I'm sure some people have overlap. I developed depression and anxiety not long after hitting puberty. Nothing significant in my life led me there really, and despite having a decent sense of self normally and trying to fix it myself, I couldn't shake it off. The flow of time felt entirely different.. simultaneously too slow and too quick. After taking medication for two years I weened off of it and function without it now. I do value the philosophical quandaries I pondered while in that state of mind, but nothing I would have done on my own could have gotten me out of it.
I've had depression my entire life pretty much. The worst part is I have a tangible reason to being sad that never goes away. I can't afford therapy but even if I could my therapist would probably just say womp womp because I need a miracle force to change the very nature of how the world interacts with me. It doesn't matter what I am, how I think, my routines. Things coming into contact with me just bring out the worst of those things. I have to lose just fate. I am unlikeable and borderline unlovable besides from people I grew up with. Sad life. Anytime I meet someone I already know there's a timer until they screw me over too.
I'm lucky enough to have had a great reaction to medication. Been on Bupropion for 3 years now and I've never felt better. It really gave my life back. Ofc still always aware it could maybe not last but I'll cross that bridge when we get there 😅
I was raised in a highly religious home and then became atheist several years ago. I think not "knowing" what afterlife awaits me anymore took away the meaning, and has left me wondering what I "should" or "should not" be doing. Should I try to be great, remembered, physically competent, spiritual, as kind as I can be, as connected to other people as I could be? So many options that I am not great at so what hope could I have for what this means besides whatever I want to do with this life that is in front of me. And yet I dont even want to live this one. If I leave everyone behind, will I be reprimanded in the next life if there even is one? Will this world cease to exist as time catches up or the simulation ends? We can never truly know the meaning, the cause, the end, so why would I continue to put in effort? It makes me lonely, and I dont like to shut people out, especially the few that I want to show love to but dont have the energy anymore. I dont know what to do but exist and even that is not painless.
Listen people, life is a thing that shouldn't be wasted, cherish it, take care of it and enjoy it. Life is fast, life is short, life is also minimum. Make the most of it. Enjoy life before it's too late. Be with the people you love. Find love. Don't be afraid to express your feelings to one another. Life is a gift and it shouldn't be thrown away.
Sadly i do know where it comes from (my inability to truly connect with people due to cptsd) and also that solving this issue doesn't entirely lay in my hands. So i guess I'll have to wait for time to cover it back up again so I'll stop staring at it and have the energy to try and build such relationships. Sadly this also doesn't entirely lay in my hands
Depression doesnt affect me like it used to. But in some ways it lingers. I still desire very little in life, I keep to myself quite often. I at least seem to have banished the ghoulish feeling which used to hang over me during worse years.
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I'll be honest I'm diagnosed with the most chronic severe from of depression. That aside the last year or so quiting drug's an working out helped much more than I assumed. Although full disclosure I'm far more angry now less hurt myself more hurt evil bastrads. Also finding God helped more than anything else. Which is funny because I want death more than ever now but know suicide is not a option.
@@Trump2024aswyou should become "evil bastard" like me, caring bout others feelings is not the priority you need, improve yourself first.
Keep in mind that i am not being edgy or anything, it's just the most effective way to live, my life improved much more when i stopped giving a f bout others.
Bad video im hardly despressed at all
i simply have that dawg in me
The black dog of depression, as Churchill related to his own depression.
Shane Gillis?
In the darkest and coldest part of winter, I found within me, an invincible dawg
That video came at the right time
All of them do 😭
Unbelievably correct time, yes 😭
I'm alone at a Saturday night . This video came at the perfect time
@@SPDemergency1202 we're all here together, not really that alone
Absolutely
your why is sisyphus happy video genuinely helped change the trajectory of my life. i never understood how everyone else could cope with how pointless everything is. I saw eating, sleeping, breathing, caring for myself, working my job, entering relationships as all burdens that could never be sated. The ball kept falling back down the hill. my only purpose in life was "i have to stay alive because my loss will crush the people who love me", but i didnt have any passions or goals beyond that. i could never remember things, it felt like i was moving through life as if it were a dream most days. it was like that from 17 to 25. then i watched your video like a day after a really bad breakdown. it was a day i woke up late, felt sore and drained. i opened youtube to scroll for a couple hours and there it was. I watched the first one, where it just talked about Absurdism, i think. And i just didnt get how "one must imagine sisyphus happy" was in any way a revolt of the absurd. it felt like conforming to a system that intends to grind my bones into bread. then i watched the why is he happy video, the 20 minute one, and it all clicked. the only other time i can clearly think of a moment where i ingested i formation that so firmly changed my life was when i tried quitting smoking ciggies. i had tried for like a month of actively trying my absolute hardest to quit, and i couldnt do it. i hit a absolute miserable pit where i felt powerless to ever stop. and i read Alan Carrs The Easy Way to Stop Smoking, and its like a 70 page book, i read half of it, and just quit cold turkey right then and there. i havent smoked in like, 4 years? maybe? i dont even remember, i literally never think about smoking and have no desire for nicotine. Your video was like that for my depression. It totally reframed how i see life and everything. i still have times where i have to face the reality that i spent the last 8 years depressed and have picked up some unhealthy habits, but im aware of them and feel more capable of processing those thoughts. it just really helped me at the right time fr. my memory and focus have improved, i feel passionate about things. im really on a good path, i feel.
That’s so sick. I’m happy for you.
I’m glad you’re in a better place now
Whoah, thank you for sharing your story. It inspires me to make changes in how I'm thinking about life. Like I started to appreciate life more if that makes sense >.< I'm so glad to hear you're doing better now ^^
Damn, are you me? I feel exactly how you where feeling before the video, guess I'll go watch that video lol
you are incredible
I feel this actually. When I have a wound, I can't help but keep looking at it, or touching it. If I could just leave it alone I would forget about it and it would seemingly heal faster.
This is such a brilliant analogy.
'tis a wound of the mind
I like this alot however ..an infection must be fought or drained manually and cannot simply be ignored. Thats mental illness or scars too deeply made. Life is polarity . For every up there's a down. And for every left a right. Another example is animal attacks. Some you run from , some you stare down and others you ignore. And sometimes, it doesn't really matter what you do , your getting eaten anyways .
@@scottblack7182 So you're saying that, we need to eventually get help despite the thought of "I'm doing fine, it's just an old wound"? How about a wound that came repeatedly towards the same place?
Modernism is what's wrong. Rejecting it means not returning to whatever empyreal culture gave us this modernism, it would imply setting up alternatives. Happy and chill alternatives to modernism. Like solarpunk?
Without this change, we'll return to the cognitive weight of living under this sytstem of oppression, leading to internal depression.
It's funny how we have no original experience and we all share the same mentality and other characteristics
yet our minds trick us into being alone 😭😭 we’re all connected in our loneliness lol
it's called genes lol
@@handsomebear. Mentality is shared through genes?
apart of the same system
@@Noritsuxc maybe he means biology lol
When I'm depressed the narrative for who I am collapses and meaning is moved to an unreachable dimension. At most I can rely on figments of who I was before in order to trudge forwards, towards some nebulous concept of completion. Each book, each acquired skill, and each memory devoid of significance-but telling of what should be. Time and space are dimensions confusing to us humans by their very nature, but meaning is what helps us make sense of it all; to have meaning taken away is as significant as losing one of your sense organs.
You put it so well, thank you.
For me depression came from being too harsh on myself and having high expectations and hate myself for not reaching them.After I realised that,I slowly learned that I'm not doing as bad as I thought.
I don't wanna sound like I know anything but my thoughts on the matter. Depression is a state of self-hatred that can never go away. It's also a state of soul-searching that comes up blank. It's also a mental state of suffering. So to me, I feel the best way forward is to love yourself, find a purpose in life, and be surrounded by people who love you.
Damn man thank you.. I needed to hear that.
Just love yourself 4head
I agree, but your solution is easier said than done. Depression is also caused by constantly trying to fill a void by feeding yourself the easiest remedies for your state of sadness. If I feel bad right now, I want to feel good right now, so the best solution I see to feel good right now is drugs, scrolling etc. depression is also a state of wanting to be depressed in a sense because it gives you excuses for using these lower forms of excitement (short term rather than long term like working out etc).
And it's why addicts stay addicted. They hate themselves so much they make it everyone's problem.
Running away from yourself pushes everyone else away too
@@Darkmoanerr The problem with drugs or short-term solutions is just that they are short-term solutions. Also, I never said it would be easy to find meaning, love yourself, and have a community. I am conflicted if people want to be depressed because they want short-term pleasure. Either way, that's a good comment to my comment. It's like a...meta-comment.
I remember laying in my room looking at the ceiling and wanting every second to pass by faster. Somehow that was everything that was necessary, time heals all. I'm not saying I didn't do nothing to fix it but at the same time I needed time to pass by in order to look at life differently again.
Same but it's been a month now i need to gmst
This put me out there, depression is like a different lens on life. When you are depressed, you want to keep looking at it. I feel like we are universally fascinated by consistency or patterns, or maybe it's just me beind psychotic.
I was feeling fucked up for days, and yt recommends me this 😢
I love you
- Patrick Star
It's gonna get better bro. Godspeed
May the force be with you
Thanks guys (:
0:37 this is a huge reason why shrooms work so well against depression, it’s like when you’re stuck in a hole or something in a video game knowing there’s no way to progress unless you start the level over. Mushrooms are like the ‘replay level’ button, gives you the opportunity to see things from another perspective
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Yes, dr.poras. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Yes he is dr.poras.
Can dr.poras send to me in UK?
Absolutely, his offerings extend to global delivery, prioritizing complete confidentiality for individuals valuing their privacy.
i started garderning to focus on other life, it helps me heal with time but gives me a distraction worthy of actually focusing on, we all want to bring something to fruition and gardening even in the simplest way can help
"I now thought that this end [happiness] was only to be attained by not making it the direct end. Those only are happy (I thought) who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness... Aiming thus at something else, the find happiness by the way." - John Stuart Mill
Such great insights! I suffer from anhedonia. It dulls all my feelings. I almost never have a 10/10 day, but I'll also never have a 1/10 day. Most of my days are 5/10, making everything kind of blank. It's similar to the Byung-Chul Han quote. For me, it's not discovering the source of the form of depression, but rather, dealing with it. I will never have good days, and never have bad days. But like any sane person, I don't want bad days, and wish to strive for good days.
What do? The key is not setting ultimate goals. Instead, set goals along your horizon. Find a goal, but it is not THE goal. I love writing, so my goal is "finish my story." But that's not the only goal. If I complete that goal, I'll feel horrible, because I have nothing else. So, set a new goal. Then keep setting a new goal, over and over. It sounds exhausting, and it is. But so is life. Sometimes life is exhausting, and that's okay, because as long as you have a new goalpost to strive for, you'll have a reason to keep going.
Nothing is ever complete. So why strive to complete? Instead, strive to have a good time, and when you run out of things to do, find new things. It's not hedonism; it's practicality. Do things that are good and nice. When you run out of good and nice things to do, find new things that are also good and nice. Because, since the world is good and nice by default, you'll never run out of good and nice things to do so long as you actively make the effort to do them.
Gotta love when he drops a banger vid
Frl, he's awesome!
@@cloudnine5459 his timing is also very accurate lol
I got out of my 2 year depression following a really bad break up by one day more or less growing so tired of being down and sad all the time and just said to myself "fuck it, I deserve better.
I know it's cliche too say "just be happy' but a large part of depression (for me at least) was having such low self worth that I didnt respect myself enough to want better.
After telling myself I deserved better, my goal became "to find joy in the moment". There are loads of beaty in the world and I am 100% genuine when I say that taking the time to actually stop and appreciate music, food, art, connections, nature and the like made me actually happy. Now a year later I've pushed my self to start weight lifting because I though "hey it would be neat to do and perhaps I'd feel happy doing it".
Love the idea that the things you used to enjoy doing no longer “charm” you, as if they were the ones trying to live through us and not us through them.
This channel is the reason i understand myself and the world around me
This makes a lot of sense as someone who has never dealt with depression but had a lot of depressed friends. i was extremely judgemental, thinking it would help them point out what they did wrong imo and how to fix it even tho it never worked
I recently finished reading Tolstoy's confessions, and I was impressed by how everything he confesses I feel too. His depression and suicidal thoughts arise from the doubt in his heart, it is very clear that Tolstoy understands that ignorance is a gift
I love these videos they're so mentally stimulating that it reminds me how not all social media is brain-rot
This video is quite refreshing! I think I'll come back to it when I get lost in the frustration of running on a tight deadline or accomplishing a goal etc. Its important to try the best one can and have a clear understanding of what things are under ones control w/o being judgemental about it. It's also important to just be present in the process or in the moment sometimes as it makes it easier to get by or understand the situation. Eventually everything comes to an end but that doesn't mean there isn't anything left to start.
Day to day, feeling of emptiness and pointlessness of existing randomly set in"why am I doing this" "no fulfillment but I keep doing it" Living like a zombie day to day. I can't help but feel we're just insignificant ants that are sentient but still follow obvious non yielding patterns
In a sense, it gives me hope that we can imagine a better life than we are experiencing. Maybe this too means nothing, but I still believe in this hope. As long as you wish for fulfillment, there is some hope you may find it within yourself.
Took me 25 years of hospitalizations, addiction, hopelessness, feeling "different" than most. Something happened, I guess spiritual awakening, a few years back where I felt I had to be able to sit with self honestly. The rest of what I attempted for 25 years was all related to avoiding that. The suffering that perspective dragged me through almost killed me, but today through meditation, philosophical exploration, self-reflection, etc., literally everyone and everything appears so very different. I now felt that the WHY behind the WHAT is where the real reality lies. Only I could get me here, nobody could "fix" how I felt because I knew what I saw and how I felt about life around me... but was always told in one way or another it was something wrong with me.
when i struggle with these phases in my life whether it's short term or prolonged supression of self by turning my humanness into a mere idea/a piece of information, i slowly shift myself to the general awareness that you mentioned in the video. wearing a pair of socks to warm my tired and bleak spirit even in the summer, i try to know and then know some more. there's no end to knowing and suddenly i am interested in something or the other and calling my interestedness a positive thing or progress wouldn't help but what helped and helps is the pursuit of knowing more and then some more. and then i pause and then i go again and then i slow down and then i get my heart racing and i am going on and on without assigning it its place on the spectrum of good to bad.
I'm really going thru a terrible time in my life... hopefully some of this video is internalized somehow and helps me and anyone else on the strange journey.
Thanks man
Thank you for your little guidance i now realize i am unconsciously neglecting my real life, its struggles, endeavours by relentlessly searching for pleasurable content on YT day & night
Every second the video goes on, everything just fits in piece by piece within my current puzzling situation.
i'm not depressed myself, i'm actually quite happy but i have a friend really going through it and having this perspective helps me understand him a lot more, thank you
Words cannot explain how much I needed this video and how seen and validated I feel after watching it
It could be that one is depressed because they are working in a cubicle instead of farming or doing art or whatever. It could be that one is depressed because they have without realizing ignored their ultimate purpose in life. But it could also be something very simple as they can't get a girlfriend or have a family or obtain a financial standing without extreme toil, this to me is far more relevant as causes than lack of purpose which may have been the case all those years ago. You may also encounter that upon trying to solve these basic needs you discover a society wide problem that is preventing you from meeting them. In this case no amount of self reflection or whatever can help you.
Pin this!
This is the key problem. Self-reflection makes it worse because with reflection, comes amplification! The most self-reflective become the most hurt, and the most sociopathic and psychopathic become more successful (than yours self-reflective truly)
And then you may find that with the dissolution of communities and late-stage capitalism, people don't really feel like helping you for as long as it takes.
To me, this in and of itself, is the meaning of life - to see and react to the true darkness that is this universe. Perhaps also to shine for a brief moment, but we are not all granted this! Perhaps you may become bitter. Perhaps you may find someone to hug and love. Briefly. Perhaps you may find a believable illusion.
There is no God we did not create ourselves.
We come from nothing and go on to become nothing.
I came, I saw, I went.
Insane how you analized in such a simply but effective way what depression is, as a person witch started with sertraline around 3 months ago i really relate to everything you said. really appreciate your work
this is one of your most beautiful and poetic videos so far, I love it
How can we practice compassionate curiosity if we have limited relationships, or if having none is one pillar of our depression?
Depends on your age location etc. I was a skinny emo adhd gamer and found friends online. Later I joined a gym and found gymbros. Later I did MDMA in techno clubs and found other traumatized lost souls and hedonists. Later I found love. All of this is possible, just not all the time. Depression steals life but you can get out. Sports is a huge factor and nutrition, also psychedelics have been life-changing for me
As someone who is tormented with hopeless thoughts on the regular, some things that make me feel a bit better are: music, nature, exploring theories of thought, philosophy, and politics
Bro, i need like we need 1 video every week ngl, your voice is so calming and the content is awesome ❤
your timing is incredible
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Pinning the ad instead of the crisis hotline is kind of funny tbh
This video is incredibly well done, the thoughts and narratives behind it have truly brought me joy not from their own nature, but in their promises and hopes. Thank you for making this.
Hey, I just came across your video this morning and it made me reflect.
I noticed that I am having a real good year and my personal mood is on a all time high at the moment. I wish it could go on forever like this, but right now I'm just enjoying the ride.
Thank you ❤
Acquiring new perspectives is key. Your depressed one is just one possible perspective. 🙂 Remember you are not as concrete as the mental state you have fortified might lead you to think
I really like the noir ascetic you chose for this. Finding yourself by figuring out something that is not yourself, but also kinda yourself
It’s kind of odd how growing up it was always “everyone is unique in their own way” but there are 8 billion of us and we’re expected to thing not a single other one has gone through the exact same bullshit we have. we aren’t special. Even throughout all of the internet there is almost guaranteed someone weather dead or alive that has shared you experiences.
Sisyphus 55 has changed my life, broadened my horizons, and taught me so much. Thank you for everything, including getting me through the darkest days of my life and introducing me to philosophy, which has become one of my biggest interests now.
Your videos deeply help me, Sisyphus 55. It is rare to find videos that feel like they understand what it means to be human nowadays. This is organic, this is real. Thank you.
All I could think at the conclusion of the video was, I wish this had been made 17 years ago when my brother was still alive.
Thank you for making this, it was beautiful.
I hope that every person with depression can watch this and try out the advice for themself. I learned the importance of those things on my own journey with mental health, and well, they changed my life.
anyone that’s going through a dark time, you are so important and your life has meaning. Keep your head up and going strong
Things that helped me with my depression
1. Find something I’m passionate about, for me it was socialism.
2. Educate yourself on those things
3. Once you have the knowledge join a local organization and meet other like minded people
4. Maybe some yoga
I liked the point about not making happiness the ultimate goal, I'm so tired of pursuing happiness
Deep thinkers thinking about becoming deep feelers again is the most beautiful circle I’ve ever seen.
Ayer fue mi cumpleaños, y hoy estoy en otra ciudad. Toda la semana anterior me había sentido tan feliz, tan lleno de vida, como sí ya todo tuviera respuesta, como si tuviera sentido. Me sentía con una ligereza increíble. Pero justo ayer, en mi cumpleaños, me he sentido fatal, culpable, deprimido, de los peores episodios que he tenido, creía que era ya la hora de suicidarme, pero pssss no ocurrió. Hoy me deshice de todo lo que conozco y me fui a otro lugar, a buscarme, a explorar. Será mejor que me ponga mi gabardina y mi sombrero y empiece a descifrar mi misterio, alejarme lo más posible de mi muerte, y dejar que la felicidad venga de los lados a mi mente.
Gracias sisifo, tus videos siempre me dejan que pensar...
Thank you to put references in description box. I love to dive a little bit deeper, though your videos are already a great resource!
To be honest. I’ve tried moving from a place of self analysis to general analysis. But the same thought persists every single time
“Why are you doing this? You’re furthering yourself from finding the truth. Don’t run away from your problems.”
I’ve tried doing healthy activities but they feel like temporary escapes from my minds grasp although they do help for a small bit. I feel myself infatuated with this idea of “What if I end up living the wrong life?” and the extreme uncertainty of things that happen afterwards. “Is everything a lie? Is it not? How can I prove it?” And when I can’t understand it I go down the pit of despair.
Never really experienced this before as I was living happily before this. To be honest I have no clue what to do now. But I hope that I will find a way. Thanks for your videos man.
Hey man, i cannot know what you’re going through. But i can try to give my thoughts: on the question “what if im living the wrong life” i have another question: what then is the right life?
Similarly, I found peace in the uncertainty that i felt, (Well, can i know/prove everything? How do i live, how should i live?).
I found a way for myself to accept that i cannot know all, i cannot prove it all and that’s what made my life beautiful.
I can find new things, meet new people, explore! What do i care if it is real. I can either spend my life trying to prove it or just go along with it and maybe find out anyways.
Summing up my paragraph: try and find a way to accept and embrace your uncertainty. It’s what makes life entertaining!
@@meneer_haas1929 Man thanks for your reply it truly means a lot.
I have tried to think of to that way. To be honest I have no clue myself why I’m feeling this way. It happened so abruptly and was kinda overwhelming.
The main thing is i try to pay no attention to it. But my mind is so infatuated with this idea of a “fundamental truth to everything and existence.” The more I try to stray from it the more this pessimistic nihilism consumes me.
I lived pretty happily beforehand and didn’t really think about these things. But it just feels like my life is a lie, including everything I’ve done beforehand too. That in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t matter. Although that can be seen as a positive, it doesn’t sit with me.
To be honest this is the last place I thought I would vent this out. But it does ease off the anxiety a bit. So I gotta thank you for replying. 🙏
This channel is a gem.
how did you know i was crying just now
The 'description' (1:00) Tolstoy gives for his depressed state, really hits home.
Phenomenal video as always. Right in the height of my depression too. Time to put my detective cap on
Really needed this rn. Not really sure where I am mentally but still
A year ago today, I called the suicide hotline for the second of three times in the month of April, everything was wrong, I didn’t feel safe anywhere, my mind was always pulled in a 100 directions. The best explanation I always use is a quote from Jean-Paul Sartre’s No Exit: “Anything, Anything would be better than this agony of mind, this creeping pain that fumbled and gnaws and caresses and never quite hurts enough”
After Therapy, Medication, throwing myself into random activities, volunteering and a lot of reading. I’m still here. You, who needs this video now. You will be too I hope.
I love the content dude, no matter the topic your content manages to brighten my day.
I could’ve sworn this guy made this video already, it would be in his nature
thank you for your video. it really helped to sort some current thoughts
Right on time❤ thank you
Follow-up question for you, Sisyphus. From the quote of Mill, "Those only are happy who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness."
But what object should our minds be fixed upon? My needs are so diverse and shifting from moment to moment. One moment may be spent in mediation, feeling this deep curiosity of self and universe, but the next may be spent on objects inhibiting happiness but still necessary. Working for financial security being the obvious, daily task. Cleaning the toilet, healing an injury, etc.
With this in mind, I am unsure of what object should be the goal, how much time one ought to spend on such object, etc.
Just try and see this is the only method. But this quote reminds me the social feeling of Adler. Adler says the way yowards happines goes throught the interest for others.
At 9:40 there is a chart on the types of things. Any of those for any amount of time before moving to the next one is fine, you are over thinking it.
That quote is incomplete. The full quote is "Those only are happy (I thought) who have their minds fixed on some object other than their own happiness; on the happiness of others, on the improvement of mankind, even on some art or pursuit, followed not as a means, but as itself an ideal end."
When you ask this question, what object should be the goal, it implies you have a "goal" of happiness. Thus, you have not escaped your loop of chasing happiness.
The next part of the book says
"Aiming thus at something else, they find happiness by the way. The enjoyments of life (such was now my theory) are sufficient to make it a pleasant thing, when they are taken en passant, without being made a principal object."
There is a profound liberation in simply doing actions for the sake of it. No justifications, no pursuit of a certain outcome, not even the pursuit of an end state. You just do them. And in retrospect, you find yourself 'happy'.
However, the moment you do something 'to become happy,' you find yourself trapped in the cycle again. Happiness is like a rainbow, you have to turn away from the sun to see the rainbow.
“To know everything is to know nothing, to know nothing is to know everything”
thanks, good video at the right time, i just so confused about get rid of my depression. it's been 2 weeks I've been like a dead girl walking with blank mind and unlimited tiredness.
hope you feel a bit better! the important thing is to remember it will pass
You always have a good take on things but this was top notch. Thank you
When you realise this channel has been your partner in investigation.
Really grateful for the videos.
I know why I’m depressed. It’s because for whatever reason, I find working a job excessively stressful and difficult. Even the easy jobs that “anyone can do”, I struggle in. I have panic attacks, I have mental breakdowns, just constantly fighting the urge to crumple onto the floor and cry. I’ve tried to be optimistic but the more I try and struggle and fall apart, the more I lose hope.
When my parents can’t support me anymore, I don’t know how I’m going to survive. My whole childhood I was labelled “smart” and “gifted” and it was all a lie. If I was actually smart I would be able to do a simple dishwashing job without constantly fighting the urge to scream, cry and run away.
I want to be able to contribute to society. I want to be able to support the people I love. But I’m so lost. Perhaps I’m just not strong enough for this world
Tbf, you have to be specifically not smart to wash dishes all day and not die inside.
Thank you. Very impactful video to me for many reasons
Took me 4 years to make it through this journey and it was the best thing i ever did (and continue to do) for myself. Give it a shot yall!!!
A nice expansion on the original video. You have definitely grown as a writer.
In 2019 I was diagnosed with a depressive episode, and then I found out I have a sort of atypical Bipolar disorder. I couldn't relate more to the statement that depression is a place of continuous self-analysis and self-judgement, something that we need to do once in a while but, as the video quotes, a pencil which is continually sharpened eventualy gets all consumed - and I did. Of course I'm not completely cured of this, as bipolar disorder is something one will have for his entire life, but after medication and a continuous effort to stop trying to do everything as a means to a future goal (most of the time, filled with a lot of vanity and craving for approval), I felt love flourish for the things I'd already done and that I'm already doing. That really was a game changer, doing things for the sake of it, not to eventually get money, or to become attractive, or to become recognized. Even in the deepest depression there's a lot of vanity and ego which are so huge they start opressing yourself. Great video, thank you so much!
I'm actually not depressed today. My problems are definitely still there. But today, I feel fine. I didn't do anything special to feel this way. I didn't work hard at it yesterday. I just feel, normal for some reason. It's all chemicals and we have no control over it.
I like to think that we have significant control over it. There’s always a choice. But that’s just my opinion
@@lustejon it's a bit of A and B. For some people it's their brain just being "off" and with others it's a combination of experiences and negative cognition. And I'm sure some people have overlap. I developed depression and anxiety not long after hitting puberty. Nothing significant in my life led me there really, and despite having a decent sense of self normally and trying to fix it myself, I couldn't shake it off. The flow of time felt entirely different.. simultaneously too slow and too quick. After taking medication for two years I weened off of it and function without it now. I do value the philosophical quandaries I pondered while in that state of mind, but nothing I would have done on my own could have gotten me out of it.
@@lustejon It's not an opinion were pill pushers products to work it would. It's a bridge to resolve troubles except that is all it is a bridge
@@hrpfuk You're being incredibly rude
Perfect timing on this post... I really needed this
thank you. this was a very important video to me at this time. wish you the best
I havn't seen another human in person not even on facetime or zoom since nov 2019.
Why is that though, fren?
yeah dawg i would recommend u get some human interaction. you don’t wanna end up having psychosis or being like travis bickle from Taxi Driver
When the mind has no problems to solve for its survival, the mind creates problems from nothing.
thanks sissy
I've had depression my entire life pretty much. The worst part is I have a tangible reason to being sad that never goes away. I can't afford therapy but even if I could my therapist would probably just say womp womp because I need a miracle force to change the very nature of how the world interacts with me. It doesn't matter what I am, how I think, my routines. Things coming into contact with me just bring out the worst of those things. I have to lose just fate. I am unlikeable and borderline unlovable besides from people I grew up with. Sad life. Anytime I meet someone I already know there's a timer until they screw me over too.
This is unbelievably succinct
I'm lucky enough to have had a great reaction to medication. Been on Bupropion for 3 years now and I've never felt better. It really gave my life back. Ofc still always aware it could maybe not last but I'll cross that bridge when we get there 😅
Beautiful as always keep doing what you do
I was raised in a highly religious home and then became atheist several years ago. I think not "knowing" what afterlife awaits me anymore took away the meaning, and has left me wondering what I "should" or "should not" be doing. Should I try to be great, remembered, physically competent, spiritual, as kind as I can be, as connected to other people as I could be? So many options that I am not great at so what hope could I have for what this means besides whatever I want to do with this life that is in front of me. And yet I dont even want to live this one.
If I leave everyone behind, will I be reprimanded in the next life if there even is one? Will this world cease to exist as time catches up or the simulation ends? We can never truly know the meaning, the cause, the end, so why would I continue to put in effort? It makes me lonely, and I dont like to shut people out, especially the few that I want to show love to but dont have the energy anymore. I dont know what to do but exist and even that is not painless.
Your voice is so soothing I love the videos man keep it up! I play them to try calm my day down like a audio book
that detective murder case example was perfect
Thank you man.
thanks for the video sisyphus55
Thank you for making a documentary about my current life situation.
Your best video so far!
Incredible video! Keep pushing the boulder !
Listen people, life is a thing that shouldn't be wasted, cherish it, take care of it and enjoy it. Life is fast, life is short, life is also minimum. Make the most of it. Enjoy life before it's too late. Be with the people you love. Find love. Don't be afraid to express your feelings to one another. Life is a gift and it shouldn't be thrown away.
Simply brilliant.
i just realised that you're probably the reason I took philosophy in college. thanks
Sadly i do know where it comes from (my inability to truly connect with people due to cptsd) and also that solving this issue doesn't entirely lay in my hands. So i guess I'll have to wait for time to cover it back up again so I'll stop staring at it and have the energy to try and build such relationships. Sadly this also doesn't entirely lay in my hands
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Depression doesnt affect me like it used to. But in some ways it lingers. I still desire very little in life, I keep to myself quite often. I at least seem to have banished the ghoulish feeling which used to hang over me during worse years.
thank u