Hello. Found your channel via the algorithm. You seemed interesting so I subscribed. I definitely have super human hearing. Although I honestly never realized how much it affected me until the last few years. I never put it together. Not sure how it took me so long. Or maybe it’s because I’m getting older. Almost lost my mind last year at a graduation ceremony for a relative. Like my mind was on fire. The clapping was almost enough to make me jump off the grandstands head first into the concrete. I’ve always hated clapping anyway. Seems so ridiculous. Clothing is another big thing. I can’t do anything other than 100% cotton clothing. Less static, softer, breathable, and doesn’t feel so weird on my skin. I don’t like any poly mix clothing. The poly fabric stuff holds odors. I also use fragrance free / skin sensitive detergent. And I don’t use fabric softener or dryer sheets. The dryer sheets thing is also a heath concern. Incase you’re not familiar. Might be worth looking into if you’re not aware. Smells actually really mess me up. Like softer lighter scents are ok. Some natural scents are ok. Like a campfire. But perfumes or colognes feel like someone is punching me in the face. If I can smell someone from more than an arms lengths away it really irritates me. Especially in restaurants/ indoors. I get nauseous. And with routines I’m not sure how I feel about them. I can honestly go both ways with it. Like for some stuff it’s really nice. But I can be ok just doing what I want when I want also. I guess it depends on the situation. Like eating doesn’t matter anytime is fine for me. But taking a shower every morning is a sure thing for me. Although say we lost water because of a winter storm I’d be ok going a few days without. Like the novelty can replace my routine for a bit. Can actually get some dopamine form a change. And I’d be ok. But again it can be hard for me to realize when something is upsetting me. Like I never connected things as much as I have recently. So I’m still learning. It’s possible I just never understood how much I was affecting myself by not connecting the dots. I was off but didn’t know why. And the hyper-focusing is definitely something I do. I never realized it wasn’t exactly normal to forget everyone else exists while doing something. Like I literally forget about anything other than what I’m doing and I never questioned it. I always wondered what meditation was. I thought it was turning off all thoughts. But recently I’ve learned it’s more about becoming fully aware of the present moment. Thats when I realized I’ve been meditating my whole life. lol. I love when I can stop thinking about everything other than the one task at hand. Time stops. It’s like a dream state with energy flowing through me. I don’t want to stop once I get going. It’s amazing. Things just flow and fall into place easily. The only problem is if I can’t get into this mindset for whatever reasons, it’s super difficult to do what needs to be done. Hence the procrastination like you brought up. I’m very much an all or nothing person. Although I’m really trying to be less all or nothing and balance it out with doing smaller tasks and moving on. Im also a Perfectionist. But that’s another thing I want to change. It’s honestly holding me back so much. I’m getting so tired of it.
Hi, there.Thanks for subscribing, and all the support. Crazy to think how as individuals we feel so alone in our personal experiences. Which kind of made me feel ashamed in seeking out Others who felt the same way.
I love routine, and knowing what is coming up even if there's nothing scheduled. I can definitely relate on the rocking. As a way of self soothing, when I get nervous in my videos, I notice when I rewatch some of them, i'm rocking back and forth, don't even realize i'm doing it at the time😅
Yes i'm very sensitive to noise and bright lights. Some of these car headlights these days they are far to bright. I dont think that i suffer with alexithymia but i could be wrong🙋♂️🦮
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Hello. Found your channel via the algorithm. You seemed interesting so I subscribed.
I definitely have super human hearing. Although I honestly never realized how much it affected me until the last few years. I never put it together. Not sure how it took me so long. Or maybe it’s because I’m getting older. Almost lost my mind last year at a graduation ceremony for a relative. Like my mind was on fire. The clapping was almost enough to make me jump off the grandstands head first into the concrete. I’ve always hated clapping anyway. Seems so ridiculous.
Clothing is another big thing. I can’t do anything other than 100% cotton clothing. Less static, softer, breathable, and doesn’t feel so weird on my skin. I don’t like any poly mix clothing. The poly fabric stuff holds odors. I also use fragrance free / skin sensitive detergent. And I don’t use fabric softener or dryer sheets. The dryer sheets thing is also a heath concern. Incase you’re not familiar. Might be worth looking into if you’re not aware.
Smells actually really mess me up. Like softer lighter scents are ok. Some natural scents are ok. Like a campfire. But perfumes or colognes feel like someone is punching me in the face. If I can smell someone from more than an arms lengths away it really irritates me. Especially in restaurants/ indoors. I get nauseous.
And with routines I’m not sure how I feel about them. I can honestly go both ways with it. Like for some stuff it’s really nice. But I can be ok just doing what I want when I want also. I guess it depends on the situation. Like eating doesn’t matter anytime is fine for me. But taking a shower every morning is a sure thing for me. Although say we lost water because of a winter storm I’d be ok going a few days without. Like the novelty can replace my routine for a bit. Can actually get some dopamine form a change. And I’d be ok. But again it can be hard for me to realize when something is upsetting me. Like I never connected things as much as I have recently. So I’m still learning. It’s possible I just never understood how much I was affecting myself by not connecting the dots. I was off but didn’t know why.
And the hyper-focusing is definitely something I do. I never realized it wasn’t exactly normal to forget everyone else exists while doing something. Like I literally forget about anything other than what I’m doing and I never questioned it.
I always wondered what meditation was. I thought it was turning off all thoughts. But recently I’ve learned it’s more about becoming fully aware of the present moment. Thats when I realized I’ve been meditating my whole life. lol. I love when I can stop thinking about everything other than the one task at hand. Time stops. It’s like a dream state with energy flowing through me. I don’t want to stop once I get going. It’s amazing. Things just flow and fall into place easily.
The only problem is if I can’t get into this mindset for whatever reasons, it’s super difficult to do what needs to be done. Hence the procrastination like you brought up. I’m very much an all or nothing person. Although I’m really trying to be less all or nothing and balance it out with doing smaller tasks and moving on. Im also a Perfectionist. But that’s another thing I want to change. It’s honestly holding me back so much. I’m getting so tired of it.
Hi, there.Thanks for subscribing, and all the support. Crazy to think how as individuals we feel so alone in our personal experiences. Which kind of made me feel ashamed in seeking out Others who felt the same way.
for me, routines are soothing-- like rocking
I love routine, and knowing what is coming up even if there's nothing scheduled. I can definitely relate on the rocking. As a way of self soothing, when I get nervous in my videos, I notice when I rewatch some of them, i'm rocking back and forth, don't even realize i'm doing it at the time😅
Yes i'm very sensitive to noise and bright lights. Some of these car headlights these days they are far to bright. I dont think that i suffer with alexithymia but i could be wrong🙋♂️🦮