I’ve Messed Up,So Saying Farewell for a While🙏🏼

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  • @Anthonys_S
    @Anthonys_S 2 місяці тому +14

    Tim, stay strong mate . Please don’t punish yourself or cut yourself off completely. Please make sure you have your support.
    Love you brother ✊
    You’ve got this.
    God bless.

  • @ZARMUSIC-hx3gh
    @ZARMUSIC-hx3gh Місяць тому +4

    I've found that hard exercise, breaking a sweat, really helps! It restores a chemical balance, allowing regenerative sleep, and a healthy appetite for food. Whenever feelings of dread, and cravings start to step forward, pickup the weights, and force them back into the background. All the Best to you! 💖

  • @yamyite
    @yamyite 2 місяці тому +5

    RIGHT CALLING ON ALL VIEWERS AND SUBSCRIBERS!
    LETS SHOW TIM SOME LOVE AND DONATE TO THE CHANNEL! HE NEEDS US NOW, SO SHOW HIM, WHAT HE MEANS TO US AND THAT WE’VE GOT HIS BACK! ❤👍

  • @SuperPussyFinger
    @SuperPussyFinger 2 місяці тому +10

    Tim, don’t be gone long. This world needs you. As you would say, you’re a warrior. You’re bigger than this. Rise above.

  • @paulstephens4858
    @paulstephens4858 2 місяці тому +7

    Tim you are an inspiration.
    We all trip and fall we need to get back up dust ourselves off and go again.
    Stay strong TIm ❤️

  • @nikonfx8763
    @nikonfx8763 2 місяці тому +8

    you've not let anyone down..you'll be back soon when it passes these things happen and you're honest so keep your chin up

  • @UKProperPrepper
    @UKProperPrepper 2 місяці тому +6

    You can get through this, it doesn't undo all your hard work. It is a blip which you can overcome and put behind you. You know you can do this! Sending you much love and strength, Tim. Take care for now and be kind to yourself.

  • @PARFOS
    @PARFOS 2 місяці тому +7

    You are a good man Tim

  • @phillipgriffiths9624
    @phillipgriffiths9624 Місяць тому +2

    Don’t be gone long. You are an inspiration. As I said before, I have been on Tramadol for 20 years for chronic pain. I am slowly tapering, but every now and again I find my dosage going up. One thing about Spain is the weather. Our weather doesn’t help, it can be very depressing.
    You have fallen to a lower ledge on the mountain, not to the bottom. I respect you so much for your honesty. We need you more now than ever before. We don’t want a perfect person, but an honest one.

  • @videotree3034
    @videotree3034 2 місяці тому +11

    Don't come off UA-cam. Talk to us...we are here for you

  • @LOUIS-nx8jd
    @LOUIS-nx8jd 9 днів тому

    please take care Tim, I have been trying to get clean since 2009 from IV heroin, am trying now, am always trying. its so dam hard. please don't beat yourself up, you have done amazing so many times, and you will again. please look after yourself man, I don't want you feeling bad at all, all the best mate.

  • @muppet101z
    @muppet101z 18 днів тому

    Sharing so much love to you Tim ❤ In my times of withdrawal your videos have helped me so much ❤ I hope you are okay and please come back ! You are valid whether you have relapsed or not, you’re not alone!

  • @jeannedorton1243
    @jeannedorton1243 2 місяці тому +2

    Thankyou for your brutal honesty Tim….many of us love and support you here,please don’t be a stranger…..now is when you need all of our support the most♥️

  • @TheLouizianaWildman
    @TheLouizianaWildman 2 місяці тому +2

    We all love you and your videos Tim and are pulling for you, God bless ~

  • @exoticwater
    @exoticwater 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for keeping it real Tim. Please don’t be hard on yourself. You are loved by this community regardless of where you’re at! Like you tell us always - You are a warrior! You’ve got this! Day by day Tim xx Much love 🥰❤

  • @richardfox2865
    @richardfox2865 29 днів тому

    You haven't let anyone down. Just dust yourself off and get back on the wagon.
    Keep going, Mate. Good luck 👍.

  • @ASIF_M1934
    @ASIF_M1934 2 місяці тому +1

    God bless you Brother Tim; you are only human and shall overcome. Always in your corner.❤

  • @Angeliaaerrington
    @Angeliaaerrington 2 місяці тому +1

    Tim, you're honest, don't go away buddy, you've been an inspiration to me.

  • @petergonzalez1719
    @petergonzalez1719 2 місяці тому +2

    You're one of my idols. You got this! Take care of yourself. UA-cam isn't going anywhere. Did 2 30 days of sobriety back to back. Stuff happens. Don't be too hard on yourself.

  • @Scott-pw2qu
    @Scott-pw2qu 2 місяці тому +2

    Wow I have been clean from opioids for 5 years and I have not stopped thinking about them everyday even up to this day I’m still thinking about them. I remember years ago watching your channel and you saying about Roy’s tears in the rain speech from blade runner. It’s an obsession that has haunted me from the very first time I took my first pill. Now I’m still obsessed even though I have been clean for years. I have been battling alcohol but I still think about pills. It’s something we all will battle until the end. I just watched blade runner and this channel came straight into my head as I used to watch it when I was battling withdrawal 5 years ago I thought I would see what was happening and I’m glad I did because it proves we are never alone in addiction even if we feel the most lonely person in the world going through something like this. Stay in warrior mode and keep fighting Tim.

    • @yamyite
      @yamyite 2 місяці тому

      Easier said than done. But maybe if you could knock the drink on the head, you’d feel more in control about thinking of the tablets? Be well brother 💪

  • @ianpullman203
    @ianpullman203 2 місяці тому +1

    Been through it so often with alcohol. Thank you for sharing your struggle. Build up from this, and see you back at your best soon.

  • @allenshares5504
    @allenshares5504 2 місяці тому +1

    Your honesty shows a lot , good man!!!
    Pick yourself up dust yourself of and get back to it !!! You got this !!

  • @DaisyNova333
    @DaisyNova333 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you so much for being transparent and vulnerable.

  • @maryanderson4170
    @maryanderson4170 2 місяці тому +1

    So sorry to hear that Tim! Work out what you need stay safe my friend, and Thankyou for all you have done for everyone. It's true your never the same after an addiction. I'm 12 months off opiates I know that's still very early in recovery but I will never be the same. Every single day is a struggle for me and I just never feel myself anymore always sick. Throwing in the towel seems like a good idea at times, what's the point of all of it when all I do is suffer! God Bless Brother.❤

  • @DaisyNova333
    @DaisyNova333 2 місяці тому +2

    We will be here when you get back ♡♡♡ take care

  • @jimboslice2013
    @jimboslice2013 2 місяці тому +1

    Tim dont he to hard on urself , i was loving your videos hopefully you get thimgs sorted and more videos back on the channel best of luck tim ❤❤

  • @fozman3875
    @fozman3875 2 місяці тому +1

    Tim i wish you all the best mate and with your channel
    i know you can kick this things backside,hope your making more
    youtube content soon and the very best of luck my friend.

  • @videotree3034
    @videotree3034 2 місяці тому +1

    Don't beat yourself up Tim. We all believe in you. God bless you

  • @idunno512
    @idunno512 2 місяці тому +1

    Mate you’ve helped me so much over the last few years, your videos saved me during my opiod withdrawal DONT beat yourself up about having a moment of weakness.
    Every day is a chance to create a new life a new story for yourself. Time here is short so spend it with your family, dont go back to spain it will only make you poorly being away from loved ones. You’re a fighter so stay here and fight! Summers coming just hang in there

  • @kandy777
    @kandy777 2 місяці тому +4

    Hi Tim..👋🏻 oh dear, I know exactly what u mean 🤦‍♀️🙏🏻, what on earth did u buy? How many did u take? Bless you Tim it’s a nitemare 🌈😘

  • @davidbryson1332
    @davidbryson1332 2 місяці тому +1

    Hi Tim. Objectivity is such a difficult perspective to maintain and I can see that you're struggling to keep an objective mind around the current situation. You have always come over as a guy who has tremendous bravery and honesty and those two qualities are inspirational to so many who use your channel.
    We beat ourselves up when we deem that we've 'fallen' from whatever dizzy and impossible heights we believe that we should be at and rarely acknowledge that we're entitled to the occasional lapse, and end up developing amnesia about the many good things we have done for others and for ourselves. and you Tim have done countless things which through the sincerity of your vids, have made lots of people feel better about themselves. On behalf of those people, can I sincerely thank you.
    Are you going through a difficult time? Certainly looks like it. Have you got what it takes to recover? Most certainly. Will you get back to making those fantastic vids that make a difference in so many people's lives. You better had! Carpe Diem my friend!

    • @TimJohnsonrecovery
      @TimJohnsonrecovery  2 місяці тому +2

      Thanks David those words mean such a lot to me . Thank you sincerely and yes I’m feeling stronger and will be back very soon! Much love and Carpe Diem to you 🙏🏼

  • @heinzketchup4201
    @heinzketchup4201 Місяць тому

    Keep strong. Thank you

  • @dg9015
    @dg9015 2 місяці тому

    Stay strong, mate 💪you've got all our support like you've given us 💙

  • @M0B05H1
    @M0B05H1 2 місяці тому

    Proud of you Tim! You managed to keep yourself away from all the temptations!

  • @girliegirlie999
    @girliegirlie999 21 день тому

    I am so sorry that you find yourself in this position again Tim.
    I only recently found your channel because I too am going through codeine withdrawal ( prescribed 30/500 co-codamol x 8++ per day UK) again, having previously been off them for 6 years).
    Do not feel bad, disingenuous or guilty or any of those things. It is clear that your channel has helped so many people m, and you have helped me massively in a very short space of time. You absolutely need to do whatever is right for you right now, but so many of us are here for you if and when you need us! You support others and all are keen to support you right back. YOU are a warrior!
    Nobody is perfect and that is what makes us real and human. You have stumbled, but you will get right up again.
    I am going to watch loads of your back catalogue of videos tonight while cussing and thrashing about with my RLS.
    Thinking of you

  • @allenshares5504
    @allenshares5504 2 місяці тому +1

    You helped me almost 4years ago and encouraged me , so now I want to encourage you to not condemn yourself and just know it’s part of your journey ,maybe to just inspire by what you done here by being honest when you slipped up , don’t look at it a fail but a experience to learn from ! You only fail if you fall and stay down ! I’ll be praying for you sir,

  • @cynthiafortier2540
    @cynthiafortier2540 Місяць тому

    Tim you are so right, addiction never leaves us. Come back soon, we all can support each other. Much love to you!!

  • @chezzerk
    @chezzerk 2 місяці тому +1

    Sadly we all know how easy it is to relapse.
    This is why we need you Tim..
    We have all relapsed but like you said never give up up on giving up..
    We all need each other..
    I am looking into kava
    Magic mushrooms are being studied for fighting addictions with great success.
    Don't be so hard on yourself Tim.. None of us are safe around our poisons.
    Your a champ to alot of us..
    Your only human ❤

    • @jimboslice2013
      @jimboslice2013 2 місяці тому

      I've heard a lot of ones say microdosing the mushroom is meanta be really good for the mental health and depression a don't no about the addiction part thow if we have that disease in us could we not end up getting hooked on the mushrooms just a thought as a was going threw the comments. I'm currently fighting a really hard opiate drug and it's a killer to get off was doing ok then slipped up like Tim again this be my 1000 th time maybe of trying to get this but always fail , wouldn't mind trying the microdosing sometime to see if ther is any benefit from it

    • @yamyite
      @yamyite 2 місяці тому

      To my knowledge they’re not addictive.
      It’s about getting on the spirit road. I also read that psychedelics regrow neuro pathways in the pre fontal cortex.
      NOW if you’re in recovery then it becomes a lot bigger question as to whether it’s a path you want to go down, it’s kill or cure when in our position for sure

  • @jasonmedlin168
    @jasonmedlin168 2 місяці тому

    Praying for you,

  • @neftalitran3789
    @neftalitran3789 2 місяці тому +1

    Get well!

  • @SkipjackStevens
    @SkipjackStevens 2 місяці тому +1

    Bummer. I guess I would do the same. You only human. get your shit together and good luck with your recovery.

  • @jocelynecomeau6572
    @jocelynecomeau6572 2 місяці тому +1

    Take care Tim

  • @sherylstory7809
    @sherylstory7809 Місяць тому

    Noone is perfect and no one expects you to be we all fall short never be ashamed but always take time for yourself 🙏

  • @Stargazer-sq1or
    @Stargazer-sq1or 2 місяці тому

    I'm the same..Ur a wonderful person...it's them doing it making money...Ur great..xx

  • @travelbyplanestrainsandcruise
    @travelbyplanestrainsandcruise 2 місяці тому +1

    Fair play mate your honesty will set you free, your right get to the place that suits you best UA-cam will always be here but will you meaning your more important.If you ever heard the song right beside me Sophie B Hawkins that's were we stand by you 🤗

  • @rachelburge2338
    @rachelburge2338 2 місяці тому +2

    Really sad for you tim 😢

  • @fitriamin3225
    @fitriamin3225 2 місяці тому

    Hope your will be strong sir

  • @seppderdeppo
    @seppderdeppo 2 місяці тому +1

    Wish you all the best. I am sure you ll make it for good.
    Have relapsed again. I am from Germany and alcoholic. And relapsed again. The 10th time? Whatever. Have to attend AA again and get on my feet. I thought I was free. I know I ll never be. Good luck my friend.

  • @user-my2tt4gi3u
    @user-my2tt4gi3u 2 місяці тому

    Tim you are my hero. You will still beat this

  • @RonEngrassia
    @RonEngrassia 19 днів тому

    We're all human. Please come back and share your experience Ina relapse. It's important. It happens. I've relapsed numerous times. No shame. Hope youre well.

  • @Steve-qt2xm
    @Steve-qt2xm 2 місяці тому

    I’m in the same position, so you’re not alone Tim. I told a friend that having experienced opioids is like someone who has eaten bread all their life, then suddenly is given a cream donut. They will never ever forget how that cream donut tastes. They can go back to
    Bread, but the memory of that donut is forever imprinted on their brain.

  • @daniels3401
    @daniels3401 2 місяці тому

    happens to the best of us. Pick yourself up its all part of the process of God reaching you. We've all been there many times

  • @nicholecornes1915
    @nicholecornes1915 Місяць тому +1

    Relapses are a part of recovery sweetie! Just start over its not a big deal!!!!!!

  • @elainesaunders8300
    @elainesaunders8300 2 місяці тому

    😢😢😢 please don't be so hard on yourself! We love you and need you.

  • @ana33604
    @ana33604 Місяць тому

    🤗

  • @user-re1qp3si5v
    @user-re1qp3si5v 2 місяці тому

    I wish you good luck.😊👍

  • @Hannahxx1971
    @Hannahxx1971 2 місяці тому +1

    Good Luck from The Wirral, UK. It's so easy to slip up. Once you've tried opiates, they're always lurking...for me, anyway. It doesn't matter how you're doing in life..even if things are going well a little voice says, "You know you could be even happier." I have to always be on my guard, though I'm not tempted by the tablets you're talking about. I used to go from chemist to chemist, buying multiple packets of the ones beginning with P and the ibuprofen with codeine .. but only when I'd finished my script early. I'd buy wine and eat packets of pills, just to get a dose that would stop the withdrawal. I hate the things now and can't even touch normal paracetamol WITHOUT the extras because they remind me of how ill the strong ones made me. Anyway, take care Tim. Lots of love x

  • @lillypad5310
    @lillypad5310 2 місяці тому +1

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @karir6171
    @karir6171 2 місяці тому

    💖 Self compassion. Grace.

  • @olivier-pierredebelmont.3630
    @olivier-pierredebelmont.3630 2 місяці тому +3

    Hey Tim! Welcome aboard! BUT! We,humans,are doomed to fall again &again!
    What do you think I was doing these 1-2 month ? I relapsed after 6( SIX!)MONTH of nearly zero heroin or opioids pills,and ,of course,all my troubles,pains,doubt,light panic,very high mood,very low mood,one of the yoyos of our life,my friend Tim....
    But,I just remind you,you have supported my withdrawal since day one,by your inspiring videos...and these 6 month were a nice time.....that ,since 40-50 days,I had given up......
    Now,I will try again,one more time(at our âge Tim we look stupido sometimes😂)
    Because I must go to see my old Mum (96) in Switzerland, that will be my goal,as you said that we must have a goal.
    Obviousely,you can,if you want,ignore my message,but no forget I will be there for you😊

    • @chezzerk
      @chezzerk 2 місяці тому +1

      Here here, we'll said 🙏🙏🙏

    • @yamyite
      @yamyite 2 місяці тому +1

      Having a goal bigger than ourselves is essential. I gave up smoking cigarettes for 18months when me and my ex wife were trying for a baby.
      We we’re successful against all odds, so miracle’s do happen. So use that will power of your mother and let’s face it you’re on the clock if she’s 96. I won’t wish you good luck, as it’s not down to luck. It’s down to suffering, suck up the suffering! 💪

    • @olivier-pierredebelmont.3630
      @olivier-pierredebelmont.3630 2 місяці тому +1

      @@yamyite thank you,very encouraging comment,have nice week end!

  • @mackadeww
    @mackadeww 2 місяці тому

    Keep.your head up, we are all human. I'm still slipping slightly on alcohol thoughts. On and off again. 2 months clean. Here and there. Currently , 3 months sober. But want a sip to ease my mine. Knowing that I can stop at one. You definitely motivated me. So thank you Sir for being an inspiration.....

    • @sharonkee8609
      @sharonkee8609 Місяць тому

      Your right Your never truly free, ever. Alcohol was my main poison but some prescription and street drugs as well. I bounced in and out of the rooms for 5 years before by some miracle, one day at a time ive made it to 18 years. Well played for admitting it straight away and getting back in the saddle. Learn from this and move forward brother.

  • @johnwaldron7647
    @johnwaldron7647 Місяць тому

    Don’t give up on yourself dude, the people who love you are not a burden you need to carry along with your struggle. People do love you and share your affliction but the pressure to be perfect is unreasonable.

  • @Nick-iu7ks
    @Nick-iu7ks 2 місяці тому +2

    The graph is not linear. Just get back on your horse and smile.

  • @anthonybelt7415
    @anthonybelt7415 Місяць тому

    I don't know you brother but I know that you are human. Forgive yourself the best you can

  • @ianmaddox2314
    @ianmaddox2314 2 місяці тому +1

    Hello Tim it's only a minor blip you didn't start drinking which would be a lot worse , don't be away too long as we all enjoy your video's, take care mate 🙏👍🌞

  • @marydelaney9696
    @marydelaney9696 2 місяці тому

    Perhaps a new boundary/rule could be to never go into a pharmacy again. It is horrifying to me that opiates are so available in the UK, when they really are a source of addiction and sorrow. Glad you were able to get off them before you needed to go through withdrawal.

  • @Stargazer-sq1or
    @Stargazer-sq1or 2 місяці тому

    Don't beat yourself up.. because u will get better..carpe Diem.. but Ur such a wonderful man x

  • @Pwnziillaaaa
    @Pwnziillaaaa 2 місяці тому

    I have a lot of admiration and respect for you. Moments of weakness do not erase years of strength. You have helped people more than you would ever believe. Focus on yourself and hope to see you soon. 🫡

  • @baldersn4474
    @baldersn4474 2 місяці тому +1

    Have u ever been to your gp and had your testorone levels checked ? U might be suffering from low testostorone ? I was i went on trt and statyed working out up the gym , best thing ive ever done to beat addiction..

  • @appalledpaul5497
    @appalledpaul5497 Місяць тому

    Being back with family and friends would have caused some sort of subconscious pining as they all celebrated their favourite substances of choice, some taking mucho plenty heavy and having a ball without obvious issues so . . . why can't I have a little something too??

  • @user-my2tt4gi3u
    @user-my2tt4gi3u 2 місяці тому

    Yes Tim. GO BACK TO SPAIN. YOU DID SOOOO WELL

  • @user-il6oo6dv9q
    @user-il6oo6dv9q 2 місяці тому

    Part of the journey is getting lost sometimes

  • @ianmallows660
    @ianmallows660 2 місяці тому

    Our own will power is not enough mate go to meeting go to meeting go to meeting 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿📕📕📕📕📕

  • @Darkness2257
    @Darkness2257 2 місяці тому

    Hi Tim, thank you for sharing this with me. I have been relapsing recently, with the death of my uncle and my parents divorce. I've been one day sober. We start back again at day one again. See you when you get back. You've earned my subscription. Addiction is so powerful

  • @garybregel4259
    @garybregel4259 Місяць тому

    What does relapse have to do with the UA-cam channel?

  • @joewalsh886
    @joewalsh886 Місяць тому

    How did u buy opiates from the pharmacy without a prescription?

    • @TimJohnsonrecovery
      @TimJohnsonrecovery  Місяць тому

      In the uk pharmacy sells a brand called Nurofen plus over the counter! That’s ibuprofen and codeine (12.8mg) per tablet. So I just took a lot ! Highly dangerous and not recommended and was how I got started and escalated on opiates many years ago

  • @Karinesrecipe
    @Karinesrecipe Місяць тому +1

    Speaking your truth is courageous. But, please dont tell people that we're never truly free. It dimply isnt true. Im a woman im long term recovery and ivam free. Ill check in with you in a couole weeks, sir.

  • @stewartsullivan9866
    @stewartsullivan9866 2 місяці тому

    Your going to move too spain to avoid these pills ? Better of staying and learning too deal with functioning with life without these in your life ,better to meet it head on and fight the temptation through coping skills ,i used to be a heavy drinker i am well at the stage now of being able to go in town full of bars and pubs and supermarkets filled with alcohol and just say No ! There was a time when i couldn't pass one of these places without going in ,we can teach our brains and behaviour too say No ! I would certainly get in touch with Narcotics Anonymous before doing anything else !

    • @TimJohnsonrecovery
      @TimJohnsonrecovery  2 місяці тому +1

      I live in Spain so just going home to regroup and work on myself via na and aa which I’m active in over there 🙏🏼

  • @lesbianmustardbottle957
    @lesbianmustardbottle957 Місяць тому

    You're a cool dude. Keep fighting the good fight. I believe in you.

  • @Steven_tatman
    @Steven_tatman 2 місяці тому +1

    I've messed up more times then I can remember. I haven't watched the video yet , I'm just going off the title. everyone makes mistakes.....that why they makes pencils with rubbers on the end. I know the shitty feelings afterwards, like I let everyone down including myself. And u just feel awful for a few days afterwards. But least u have recognised u messed up mate, believe me we all do it. Just don't go off hiding away for days coz that makes u feel worse. Ur definitely not alone 💯❤️‍🩹💪

  • @claremurphy777
    @claremurphy777 2 місяці тому

    Tim...forgive yourself as I'm sure those whom you love will For so many this channel is a wealth of info & inspiring words told w authenticity & commitment. I am thankful for your service.🙏🏼
    the old obsession coming over you w all its trickery ...a painful pointer for vigilance .
    ...youve shown us a few times now how recovery from setback is possible w valuable lessons learnt... No better man. Look forward to seeing you back whenever /if ever you choose. ✨🫂Carpe diem 💪🏼.