painting a creepy self portrait because i can

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  • finally found some time at art college to paint for fun! personal art is always more enjoyable than art assignments so i decided to make this silly painting in my spare time. hope u guys enjoy this video! thanks for 400k!!! :)
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  • @nhus5891
    @nhus5891 11 місяців тому +1614

    camileon weezer sona painting

    • @caamileon
      @caamileon  11 місяців тому +299

      LMFAOOOOOOO

    • @_jonah
      @_jonah 11 місяців тому +46

      HELPPP IM SOBBING THTS TOO FUNNY ISVKSKV

    • @ayanami._rei
      @ayanami._rei 11 місяців тому +11

      You've won, you can quit youtube now. 😂

    • @MossIsMossy
      @MossIsMossy 11 місяців тому +4

      THIS FLOORED ME

    • @nhus5891
      @nhus5891 10 місяців тому +17

      @@dibobine8040
      Hey!
      Camileon = this artist's name
      weezer = is a band that has become known as a reference joke, because one of their album cover has a picture of 4 men standing next to each other.
      sona = slang for 'persona'.
      camileon weezer sona painting = a painting where camileon painted themself as the funny picture of weezer album (she did not actually do this, but there is enough similarity for me to think it is funny, and to leave a comment)
      I don't know if that makes a lot of sense, but I tried my best!

  • @alicea.3218
    @alicea.3218 11 місяців тому +93

    Don't worry about the "deeper meaning", future art historians of your great works will figure it out themselves!

    • @Parcivals-Creations
      @Parcivals-Creations 11 місяців тому +10

      It’s gonna be about obese hamsters that play guitar or some crazy shit like that

  • @FisicaR
    @FisicaR 11 місяців тому +56

    Being extremely skilled just to pain weird little silly things is like the whole point of art you go girl

  • @semicool103
    @semicool103 11 місяців тому +56

    not to interpolate meaning onto your self-described meaningless work but I really liked this even just from the concept art because it feels like as you’re smiling it gets stranger and more simplified because you’re less comfortable with the smile. and you talking about insecurity while painting it seemed like on some level you kind of felt that way too. I think this painting is awesome and I wish I could render stuff the way you can. keep it up gang. I hope you get 15 trillion subscribers.

  • @anonymousantonet
    @anonymousantonet 11 місяців тому +43

    You said that this work doesn't have any meaning but i can't help but thinking that there is one. One that depicts how insecurity and vulnerability in the public eye can alter your perception of yourself. Im sorry to be that annoying person cuz obviously it can still simply be a fun painting for your enjoyment, but the sentiment kinda hit me when you started talking about how you don't feel the best about your smile. Something that i'll always believe is when you can't convey what's on your mind or don't want to do it directly, your art naturally does it for you, and i think that's one of the beauties of it
    Btw your smile is beautiful, youre an amazing human and artist, and i wish you the best

    • @Mari-kz7ts
      @Mari-kz7ts 10 місяців тому +2

      I thought the same thing!!! I also thought it was a pretty good representation of how, even though she came a long way from being insecure of painting herself to having self portraits be her "thing", she still has insecurities shes trying to overcome, like her smile
      (also yeah her smile is beautiful it was actually a bit jarring hearing her talk about how she feels insecure about it because I always thought it was particularly warm and pretty)

  • @drawlynnfaves
    @drawlynnfaves 11 місяців тому +31

    though it's fine to have no meaning, what you said about how you imagined that's how you're smiling in your mind in the last one is kind of a meaning in itself--like the act of smiling creating that image in your mind. and also the fact that you dont usually paint yourself smiling being another potential reason. ik those werent the actual intent for a viewer to get but i feel like some could be derived. AWESOME WORK THOUGH as a portrait painter graduate myself i understand the drive towards wanting to make self-portraits and it's so nice to see

  • @顔松
    @顔松 11 місяців тому +18

    "i thought it would be funny" is the BEST reason to make a painting imo. amazing work btw it came out sooo good

  • @jbwilliams31
    @jbwilliams31 11 місяців тому +48

    I accidentally skipped the vid to the middle of it and ALL I SAW WAS HER CRYING 😭😭😭😭😭😭😩😩😩 or laughing idk

  • @themeltingpot3266
    @themeltingpot3266 11 місяців тому +26

    there should be more art thats just for fun that people put a lot of effort into but dont attach specific meaning to, sometimes its cool to just have an idea and try it out without any pressure to make it sound like its more than it is. really love your art and videos, you're awesome!!

  • @PlainBlueFolders
    @PlainBlueFolders 11 місяців тому +18

    With FULL honestly, I can’t wait to go absolutely feral for your full smile art style.
    I love it. I love it SO MUCH!!!

    • @PlainBlueFolders
      @PlainBlueFolders 11 місяців тому +7

      And in case you’re wondering, I am being honest about it. I saw your sketches in your artbook and I fell in love with the full smile style you created. I understand that it may not be your preference, so please don’t feel pressured, but I felt really drawn to it. If you ever do commissions, please let me know.

  • @Phantaztica
    @Phantaztica 10 місяців тому +21

    i can not even comprehend the pure skill of this artist

  • @360truths7
    @360truths7 11 місяців тому +14

    A possible meaning could be how a person's true colors shine through in relaxed scenarios! When the light, which could be interpreted as stress or pressure, is shining in the subjects face and eyes, she's neutral looking, or even cold and sad. As the light, or the "stress" fades, she loosens up, her face and especially her eyes contorting into an amplified version of herself, demonstrating what her real personality is like :)

  • @fae9736
    @fae9736 11 місяців тому +16

    the 4th face is so silly and unsettling all at the same time and i love ittt. don’t stress too much about when people ask you the meaning behind your work. im sure every artist has had those moments when they want to make something just because :p

  • @beanbaginahoorah
    @beanbaginahoorah 8 місяців тому +25

    You're literally the reason I started painting again. Not only did my first human portrait, but my first self portrait as well and I'm so super proud of it. Seeing your vids always inspires me :3 rn I'm working on a portrait of Tim curry

  • @MiCKi914
    @MiCKi914 11 місяців тому +11

    I love this 4x self-portrait! The last one is so goofy, and I really liked how you described it as "this is how I feel like I look when I smile really big." I kind of feel that way, too! I'm really glad you are seeing self-progress as well.

  • @skdkss5548
    @skdkss5548 9 місяців тому +35

    I WISH I WERE JOKING AT 11:42 WHEN U SAID U MADE AN EDIT I GOT AN AD FOR TRASH CANS I WAS LIKE WHAT

  • @PIIPER
    @PIIPER 9 місяців тому +21

    thanks for posting this, it really brought me back to the perspective of being an artist viewing your own work. i think living life and losing interest in making art along the way made me forget what it's like to view your own art like this. i saw this specific piece of yours go viral on instagram/twitter, along w TONS of your amazing artwork. remarkable pieces like this are dazzling, sure, but there's something VERY important and entirely missed sometimes, and that's your perception of your own work
    for you to look at this painting and say you didn't like how it was turning out, how you loved and hated working on certain parts of it, even how you were self conscious about being watched, all of it was so natural and normal to the human experience of creating art. people who don't create art or people who have lost their love in it probably forget that we all are too hard on ourselves. hell, i had no idea you were such a goofy, upbeat person until i watched your vids! artwork only speaks a tiny part of who you are as an artist/person, but i think i forgot about that. regardless, hearing you talk about yourself and your art in such a human way reminded me that even the greatest artists feel this way. thanks again :]

  • @onojonojobithepotato
    @onojonojobithepotato 11 місяців тому +10

    I love seeing you being happy while painting! I was concerned for your sanity with the last few vlogs lmao

  • @mqrscc
    @mqrscc 11 місяців тому +16

    She’s so hilarious, like I’m literally so jealous, she can paint and has like the BEST sense of humour. ❤

  • @isabelamiranda8039
    @isabelamiranda8039 11 місяців тому +8

    Camila made realistic painting a joyful thing to me, before watching her videos I used to think it was kinda boring hahahaha Thank youuu ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @RainyCraze
    @RainyCraze 11 місяців тому +10

    The fArtsy way to answer about deeper meaning: "I don't know the meaning yet. This concept was on my heart and I'm still discovering my motivations."
    Eventually you can work in words like "juxtapose", probably around junior year that will be in every sentence in class.

  • @missjackson8634
    @missjackson8634 11 місяців тому +8

    Your videos are like therapy by now. It's so funny and relatable all your painting process, the good and the bad days. Thank you once more for sharing this with us! Hope you are having good rest in your break!

  • @meike6646
    @meike6646 11 місяців тому +9

    I love watching your painting process!!! its so easy to forget how much work goes into it. So impressed!!

  • @MarcNassif-tb5ib
    @MarcNassif-tb5ib 11 місяців тому +46

    SOUND THE ALARMS CAMILA POSTED🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

  • @kellalafaire8534
    @kellalafaire8534 11 місяців тому +11

    Every artist has the ugly phase in their work. Every one. Dont sweat it. ❤

  • @SashaBrauspotatogeek
    @SashaBrauspotatogeek 11 місяців тому +7

    this is probably one of my favorites of yours so far, i get not knowing the meaning behind a painting but you so effortlessly portrayed how you view yourself in two different ways, mixing your realistic painterly style with the new whimsical doodles of yours and it shines with your personality

  • @Fhooenix_
    @Fhooenix_ 9 місяців тому +21

    4:11 why did she look PETRIFIED 😭

  • @PlainBlueFolders
    @PlainBlueFolders 11 місяців тому +5

    Also, this is your reminder that you are a very creative and talented person and you should acknowledge that about yourself.

  • @amquiet2
    @amquiet2 10 місяців тому +20

    Maybe this painting could be, gradually warming up to someone u met. the last one could be being ur silly self/more comfortable to that person.

  • @AnaosPoffu
    @AnaosPoffu 10 місяців тому +7

    the last face is giving uncanny valley, and i absolutely LOVE IT. i adore art like that sm oh my goodness you did an amazing job!

  • @Rad-ish030
    @Rad-ish030 10 місяців тому +24

    I'm gonna need that life is good playlist Camila 🙏🏻😬

  • @groovyhannah8517
    @groovyhannah8517 10 місяців тому +9

    this painting is awesome!!! I know art school is tough rn camila but keep it up and hang in there

  • @StarzieRat
    @StarzieRat 11 місяців тому +25

    I never know if shes about to cry or laugh

  • @snakestuffer
    @snakestuffer 11 місяців тому +8

    the sketchbook tour was actually the first video i ever watched of yours heh im a true fan!!

  • @Duskmoon_
    @Duskmoon_ 5 місяців тому +19

    LITERALLY BALLING as soon as you said here is a little edit I did to get the ball rolling a Colgate toothpaste add appeared and jumpscared me with a zoom out of a smiling man with upbeat music.

  • @pilfowp3216
    @pilfowp3216 11 місяців тому +5

    so glad you were able to finally relax and get back to what you enjoy!! looks great!

  • @SylviaColdHeart
    @SylviaColdHeart 11 місяців тому +10

    Loki love it. You should try painting yourself interacting with those cartoon style characters you make. That would be so cool! Congrats for 413k!

  • @Sophielise7
    @Sophielise7 11 місяців тому +4

    Just ordered some merch! I can't thank you enough for the amazing content you keep dropping. You continue to be so relatable and honest with us which is getting hard to find in UA-cam these days. I hope you have an amazing semester and you keep creating the art that you enjoy! 2024 is the year of Camileon!

  • @RalloR
    @RalloR 7 місяців тому +20

    Its like that time when the pianist premiered one piece in a party and when finished everybody was in awe and someone asked master what does it mean? and he just played it again. Like it is what it is, words are pointless, useful for study but pointless its like i dont know dude, you tell me. Like, art and painting is not about "knowing" things, you dont need to explain yourself B)

    • @RalloR
      @RalloR 6 місяців тому +4

      Like you can rationalize it afterwards to talk about it in a certain way but the experience is according to you and it's something where you use reason but feeling is very much present and you can't talk exactly about the abstract experience.

  • @priscillamontoya9702
    @priscillamontoya9702 11 місяців тому +6

    I don’t think is scary, i think the last face is soooo cute, like, look that one big smile!!! I just love it, she is so cute, let her smile in peace 🤭😊

  • @effalapinska8042
    @effalapinska8042 11 місяців тому +6

    You seriously deserve all the hype and so much more recognition. I love your videos and always look forward to you posting not only for your amazing work but PERSONALITY and passion for painting!!
    Gotta get that merch before you go famous 😭❤

  • @ilovebeansprouts2600
    @ilovebeansprouts2600 11 місяців тому +10

    DROP THE LIFE IS GOOD PLAYLIST ‼️

  • @VimblesArt
    @VimblesArt 11 місяців тому +7

    whats funny is that you felt most self conscious about painting the third/ smiling portrait but it's the one that looks the most like you imo :') ♥

  • @lilelotus
    @lilelotus 11 місяців тому +11

    biblically accurate camileon

  • @amarahardaclaw
    @amarahardaclaw 9 місяців тому +10

    you're literally one of the best artists I've ever known

  • @_Mari_2023
    @_Mari_2023 10 місяців тому +18

    *clears throat* I just realised that… Number one , was the face you made when you hit 100k , face number two was 200k , face number three was 300k and face number four is 400k U-U …

  • @circlont6a
    @circlont6a 11 місяців тому +10

    12:41 lowkey need that playlist rn

  • @popgrl
    @popgrl 11 місяців тому +3

    i swear to god u are one of my comfort youtubers , ur so so so talented + funny + pretty 😭

  • @lewisroadstudio9270
    @lewisroadstudio9270 11 місяців тому +14

    The only thing that you should be insecure about in the public space is how jealous everyone will be when they realize you're a freshman with more true talent than a grad student. Keep going. You'll earn your way to the L.A. mansion.

  • @CryptidSystem
    @CryptidSystem 11 місяців тому +7

    The monks of antiquity doodled weird shit in the margins of the manuscripts they worked on. I love art from what people find funny and enjoy, feels like it comes from a pure place (depending on the humour 😅)

  • @cora1ia
    @cora1ia 11 місяців тому +5

    love following u on ur RISD journey, theres always something new to see lol :))

  • @KinjalD-b2b
    @KinjalD-b2b 10 місяців тому +8

    "bcoz funy and sily" should be considered a valid meaning behind a painting.

  • @martinacollu4867
    @martinacollu4867 11 місяців тому +4

    so beautiful and funky and silly
    probably one of my favorites of your paintings

  • @sagebm
    @sagebm 11 місяців тому +3

    camila your videos are seriously getting me through everything rn thank you sm

  • @proceduralgunk
    @proceduralgunk 11 місяців тому +2

    Its so fun seeing you hanging out with your friends while painting

  • @alyonadendy
    @alyonadendy 11 місяців тому +12

    People were asking about the meaning of the picture, and I was just curious what was behind the decision of putting every next face into more and more shadow, very interesting:з

  • @bepsicat8545
    @bepsicat8545 11 місяців тому +5

    i love the last face so much it makes me giggle

  • @sorayafarah446
    @sorayafarah446 7 місяців тому +12

    I think you are SO TALENTED AND IM OBSESSED. but I think the proportion of the 4th face is off and the hair being more straight makes it even more noticeable

  • @stupidArtKid_
    @stupidArtKid_ 11 місяців тому +3

    YES FINAALY IVE BEEN WAITING ALL DAY FOR THIS!!!!! I LIKE ACTUALLY YELPED WHEN I SAW YOU POSTED

  • @katesoup5428
    @katesoup5428 11 місяців тому +8

    CONGRATS ON THE MERCHHHHHH
    GONNA BUY IT :)

  • @reignbarrun
    @reignbarrun 6 місяців тому +12

    no just i actually did stop this video and watched the sketchbook video first. then came back here to camileon saying 'just kidding. pls watch'. girl dw i gotchu. i listened hahahahah

  • @moonmother5427
    @moonmother5427 11 місяців тому +4

    YAY CONGRATULATIONS ON 400k AND MERCH!!!!!!!!!I’m gonna make fan art of you now!!!!!!

  • @iheartpastels
    @iheartpastels 11 місяців тому +5

    BABE WAKE UP A NEW CAMILEON VIDEO‼️🔥🗣️

  • @nadiahammod5186
    @nadiahammod5186 10 місяців тому +8

    LET'S GET THIS GURL TO 1M SUBSCRIBERS

  • @cupsalonpas
    @cupsalonpas 11 місяців тому +2

    i love this painting so much. i think about it every day. this painting is my roman empire. fun fact the first time you posted it i couldnt stop thinking about it and i had to sleep with the lights on 😔

  • @yousseftheconqueror7842
    @yousseftheconqueror7842 11 місяців тому +5

    You got the meaning without knowing the meaning behind it , I would say It represents the 4 moods you usually have , and how the funny camilion is the one that makes you go through the other 3 moods

  • @mikuenjoyerXD
    @mikuenjoyerXD 10 місяців тому +8

    10:05 loved hearing this part about the explanation of the expression

  • @shaynesexton274
    @shaynesexton274 11 місяців тому +11

    I wanna be ur friend so bad. I love your energy and you’re hilarious

  • @lcnartsy
    @lcnartsy 11 місяців тому +2

    Omg Camila!!!! I didn’t even realized you hit 400k!!!! Congrats!!!!! I’m so happy for you!!!

  • @alyonadendy
    @alyonadendy 11 місяців тому +4

    The time when the one wishes they could just laso it and move around x) happens to me so many times with traditional art q-q

  • @moomoo3689
    @moomoo3689 11 місяців тому +4

    I absolutely loved this video, it was so funny and fun! Congrats on 400K!!

  • @iam_crumb
    @iam_crumb 11 місяців тому +2

    i looooove ur portraits and ur vids really help while im struggling with my art journey 🙏

  • @alqmort
    @alqmort 11 місяців тому +3

    new camileon upload everyone cheered

  • @Plant_in_a_box
    @Plant_in_a_box 11 місяців тому +5

    Camila you are the reason I am actively avoiding my homework and I could not be more grateful 😂

  • @Maria.mousey
    @Maria.mousey 9 місяців тому +4

    She likes 4...
    WE NEED TO GET TO 4 MILLION SUBS!!
    Also love you and your amazing descriptions and experiences

  • @jupiterspliiice
    @jupiterspliiice 11 місяців тому +2

    why do you always seem to be near bursting into tears 😭 i love you camila gworl AHHHH think i like this little lifeeeee

  • @totallynotdeepika
    @totallynotdeepika 11 місяців тому +6

    The queen finally postedddddd

  • @rainytayy
    @rainytayy 11 місяців тому +1

    it’s not even my painting but i would hang that up on my wall immediately, it’s such a vibe ‼️

  • @surferns
    @surferns 11 місяців тому +5

    camila is my joanna ceddia

  • @maisieturley4043
    @maisieturley4043 11 місяців тому +3

    I just got a t-shirt and stickers! So excited 💜

  • @jasming.1389
    @jasming.1389 11 місяців тому +29

    Art is a lot of just faking all the meaning of your work. But I think in this video you described it as how weird and distorted you feel when you actually smile. so progression of the faces match the distortion of your feelings. I'm sure as you spend more time in art school you can learn to talk about your art.

  • @Kaz-xs6xl
    @Kaz-xs6xl 11 місяців тому +5

    youve never had chocolate like this from wonka has been STUCK IN MY HEAD FOR SO LONG OH MY ABSOLOUTE JEAN!!!11!!11!!1

  • @shannon5012
    @shannon5012 11 місяців тому +4

    i love your videos so much Camila they make my day!

    • @caamileon
      @caamileon  11 місяців тому +1

      thanks so much im so glad!

  • @00juls00
    @00juls00 11 місяців тому +1

    Even though it’s midnight and i have work early in the morning, I gots to stop and watch this! I never miss a video!

  • @jjdrawz555
    @jjdrawz555 11 місяців тому +10

    Why does Camilla always break into that British accent help- 💀😂

  • @ChantelleArts
    @ChantelleArts 11 місяців тому +3

    when I saw you post this painting I genuinely thought the last face had a filter on it 😂 didn't realise it was actually painted like that, that's so cool!!

  • @JeM130177
    @JeM130177 11 місяців тому +3

    So pleased you've had time to do a painting for fun!

  • @defnotcrfurrsty
    @defnotcrfurrsty 11 місяців тому +4

    dw you are the new age of youtube. NO QUESTIONS.

  • @AmateurMori
    @AmateurMori 8 місяців тому +12

    THATS SO GOOD WHATTTT

  • @ratakus_patakus
    @ratakus_patakus 11 місяців тому +4

    i wish i had money to buy the merch it blesses my eyeballs and scratches my brain.

  • @fwmuqing
    @fwmuqing 11 місяців тому +2

    9:12 that stupid noodle noodle apple strudel song has been in my head since December

  • @iamluyu
    @iamluyu 11 місяців тому +8

    omg youre painting the portraits with acrylics???😩😩😩 I wish in my art school we were allowed to use other than oils😭😭😭😭

  • @silverarrowtarot
    @silverarrowtarot Місяць тому +5

    you are almost at 650k now wow! amazing.

  • @fayecandraw
    @fayecandraw 11 місяців тому +2

    i love her so much

  • @Lotus-px1qo
    @Lotus-px1qo 9 місяців тому +7

    3:00 so realll I’m working on a similar self portrait! In one side its half of my face front view, and the other side is my side profile (big nose AHHH).
    These paintings always get put on display for the whole school and the percentage of people who paint @ my school is 2% 😭

  • @obitoushia9852
    @obitoushia9852 10 місяців тому +8

    that humour is just woaw😭🙏

  • @ghkdwls360
    @ghkdwls360 11 місяців тому +3

    You and jackie liu are one of my favorite artists on youtube! :D

  • @basilunderworld
    @basilunderworld 11 місяців тому +5

    the way she says ahh this looked so weird or off
    and im here like WTF DO U MEAANNN
    her: picks up pencil
    2 secs later
    *MASTERPIECE*
    also her: EH.. its not too bad

  • @totoka-2022
    @totoka-2022 10 місяців тому +3

    I LOVE THE PAINTINGGGG ALSO UR SO RELATABLE

  • @silverqc
    @silverqc 10 місяців тому +14

    bro turned into a titan😭