Why Final Self Portraits Are Terrifying
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- Опубліковано 2 тра 2024
- Today we're exploring what happens when an artist creates a final interpretation of who they are.
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My grandmother was a painter and she had to give it up before she passed. She was not famous but she was very talented. She was very depressed when she couldn't paint anymore. I hope one day I could take pictures and make a website for her to show the world her beautiful paintings.
I hope you’ll manage to make this website. I’d love to see her work one day.
Please do if you can! And if you do, please hit me up and let me know, I'd love to check her work out.
I will go to your website. I don’t have my notifications turned on, but if I ever come back to this video and I see your reply with her website in it, and all her paintings in the website, I will go visit and look at her beautiful artwork. If there’s a place to leave a review, I will do that. I anticipate her creations!!
Please share her gift with the world. 🙏🏼
Yeah, absolutely
Picasso's last words were apparently "Drink to me."
And of course we learned that from our good friend Paul McCartney 🥰
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like a true Spaniard
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those drawings by william are fucking haunting how hollow they are
YES! damn it feels so... void of humanity.
I'm having a really bad episode in my life. Suffered from mental illness since I was 5-6 years old. I'm an artist and listening to all these stories from other struggling artists makes me feel that I am not alone, and that many other mentally ill artists used their art as a medium that in the end, inspires more people like us.
Prayers sent for you!
@@melanieford2511 Thank you, I'm trying to get better day by day!
I’ll pray for you as well. I sincerely hope you get better
Good luck! Rooting for you!
An elephant artist must feel the same way
Utermohlens last portrait is simply harrowing.
Thank you for letting me find what that was. I kinda want to get it as a tattoo
It looks like the drawing of a demon by crowley
Sad but fascinating look into the human psyche
Fantastic video. Goya's shift from painting Spanish royalty to some of the most dark shit is something I'll never not love. I'd love to see more like this!
It's unfortunate that you don't get much recognition from UA-cam's algorithm but your videos have demonstrated consistency in quality if not in frequency.
Another excellent video 👏
Every time he uploads, I'm always hooked. I frequently think of how I started watching him when he did top 10 videos.
Appreciate you!
The artist uses brain, eyes, hands, The whole body really, in a coordinated project to represent the world.
I thought Goya’s last self portrait was “saturn devouring his son” (which isn’t even the actual name of the painting but)
It's not a self portrait but one of the last pictures they've found.
At least people aren't sure what he drew there. "Saturn devouring his son" was found with a few other pictures he drew in his manic like state ( I don't know what to call it, he deteriorated pretty badly) before he died. Some of these pictures were found on his walls (he drew some creepy a*s sh*t on his walls). But nobody knows why or what he did there
one of the symptoms of schitzophrenia is losing your ability to make facial expressions as well as going a sort of nonverbal. theyre called negative symptoms. i think this is probably also what brian was expressing in his mouth fixations. i went through it myself, i could only write to express myself. and at that my thoughts were very broken. i could at times not even finish a sentence
Williams final portraits are gonna haunt my nigtmares
My father has schizophrenia, and his name is Brian too. The self portrait at 6:56 touched me in a way I can't really place but it brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for showing this to me.
I have schizoaffective disorder and i want to not be alive.
I got real near dying for a while because of being postponed for a surgery, and then surgery complications. I made some wild self portraits. I felt like I was falling apart, just a breeze somehow keeping my meat-shell moving. It was very depersonalizing and none of my portraits had full faces. I'd get to the eyes and it would all fall apart. One had my head cracking open like a shattered egg. Another just had static and clouds.
I am still puppeting this meat body around, and The worst of its over, but I still don't feel quite like I'm living
3:21 This is like the Epic Mickey concept art, now that I think of it they kinda even share similar stories
Excellent as always 👌🏻🥇
Had the feeling to check your channel and sure enough there is a new video yay
Your videos have come so far over the years! Lemonade stands to rap battles and great video's! 😁
Thanks you so much, always appreciate you watching the content!
Been waiting for someone to make a video like this! New sub!
Great to hear! Thanks a million
I love these videos! Please keep it up!
Thank you! Will do! 😊
Damn I love this channel. Excellent video
Thank you Jordan!
good to see this channel back !
Not self promotion, more a moment of transparency and observation.
I believe that professional artists are doomed to develop serious mental diseases and it's due to the unnoticed stress of the artwork. The work does put artists in a form of mental distress that they don't notice.
That's why alot of artists don't want to be stuck on one piece with how mentally exhausting it is to compose or concentrate deeply for so long of a time. That's just the time and energy, nevermind the feelings.
My own gallery work, although vividly colorful, sends me into feelings of isolation to the point that I feel like there's nothing out there, to the point where my self portraits always include me bleeding from some kind of serious injury. 3 of them are private and hidden showing my brains being blown out.
TL;DR
Artists go crazy.
So glad you’re back
Appreciate you!
art shows us not only how to see outside, but how to see inside
I don't like that Idea that the real William passed away a long time before he died. William was still there, changing, suffering til the end.
great conclusions. great video
Great video, thank you
great original content,thanks
Appreciate you!
great video and commentary
Thank you!
The face over Goya's shoulder is one of the most frightening depictions of a human I've ever seen
I think the faces behind him were meant to portray people close to him who didn't have the best intentions. The kind of friends and relatives that only stick around when they think they could benefit from your misfortune-- they look hungry, desperate. Inhuman
This was an awesome video 💯👏🏻!
Thank you very much I’m glad you enjoyed it!
Time for me to go to bed one last video to watch before I go to bed.
*Last video before I go to bed*
Guess I'm not going to sleep. 😅 Thanks youtube!
Great video. Incredibly sad but life often is :(
I think Goys is weakly holding on to his bedsheets which shows his precarious health state at the time, and in contrast his doctor is very strong and administering treatment to him.
Missed u deburke
I domt like how vague he is about these artist's illnesses. William had Alzheimer's Disease and that series of painings was him painting how he viewed himself at each of the six stages.
He clearly loved art so much to be able to remember how to do so.
i honestly feel like i struggle to express myself properly through art. i love to paint and draw but i just struggle to know what i feel and i wish that i could shut off the part of my mind that i know is holding me back from putting it on paper.
watching someone slowly lose their mind is sad. its happening to my father right now because of brain cancer. his drawings and words are often nonsensical but there are moments of clarity i cannot understand. id take some of his burden if i could.
this was really good
Excellent
that last line is so good, "the darkest parts of this battle wont be seen on a canvas". good shit
fuck, this is depressing.
Brian also had the "ESP horns" in his work. The squiggles and mouths are common in schizophrenic art.
Can you do more of this stuff 😀
Goya's final painting is Haunting.
Beautiful
Can’t wait for my Bryan Charnley moment 😊😊😊
These stories are so sad!
Well hey there stranger ❤
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Reddit
There's a video of the caretaker's music set to William UD Molen's portraits. its hauntingly apt.
Counter point they aren’t terrifying we just attribute that meaning to them because we are afraid of death.
Wow this is so intense. The emotions…..i dont even know what to say. It’s all really heavy.
Very interesting and terrifying
william's are no doubt the most haunting
Fun fact: Willam UD Molens last "painting" in 2000 actually was used with a pen on a piece of napkin
damn what a cool fricking channel
Enjoyed the video though I do have a suggestion could you have their names present on the screen too? I was trynna look up two of the artists I’d never heard of but couldn’t figure the spelling of their names
You could try the voice search option on google.
Damn. Having a bad time today, so I only have negatives to say, but I'll spin it into a controversial positive. Had they lived forever, they never would've made these powerful paintings.
You can still lose yourself even if you live forever
Is the lifelong anguish of the artist worth the fleeting moments of aw and intrigue for and from other people, tho?
Picasso was the biggest troll in art ever. Dude must be still laughing beyond the grave watching his doodles selling for millions of dollars.
I think you are right. I often imagine how rightfully mentally superior and downright amused people like Picasso, Malevich or Pollock must've felt while looking at some of their creations knowing full well how in the future we will salivate and look for higher meaning in a bunch of geometrical shapes and pretty innocuous doodles. It's so easy to fool a mind looking to be fooled.
"it ain't that deep cuh"
He was basically a hipster who "did it first".
Also to mention Helene Schjerfbeck's self portraits that changed dramatically from 1895 until the very last at 1945.
I find these calming but horrifying.
Probably need to start doing some art to get this type of thing out of my head before i get too old and theres too much in there. I dont want to have to look at it though 😮
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Yeah, hate to break it to you but that wasn’t Utermohlen’s final drawing. He actually made two more after the last one you showed.
You should do a collaboration with solar sands
Why did you choose to refer to Utermohlen and Charnley by their first names?
Melancholy.. 😔
Love
😭😭😭😭Picasso was petrified
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Utermohlen definately tried to draw himself after that, its just that it didnt do anything
i just found out picasso died in the 70's. i always thought he died in like the 1700's lol
Dang
I like music
Haunting bonechilling and interesting
Bro I know this is supposed to be serious but the Picasso one was fuckin hilarious
There's too many talented people to get famous off it.
I think his artwork looks worse than my artwork at age 7.
I adore goya
You should do a similar video about musicians, or even just hip hop (since rock n roll is covered so often its a little cliche at this point). Capital Steez is an interesting individual with a very sad story, and the song "Free The Robots" is the only song Capital Steez made where he didn't sound happy (He jumped off the top story of the Capitol Records Building not long after making the video) he was an amazingly talented individual who was screwed over by record label's.
Also had eery lyrics that seemed to allude to how he would go such as "I'm fly like $uic1de jumpers" and "The yellow tape was a warning sign, but it's hard to cut straight to the chase without a dotted line"
Eyedea is another very interesting individual who won rap battles and had a very promising future ahead of him but overdosed at a young age. I can go on and on, but there's definitely enough on this topic to make a video about it, or even an entire series
What AI is this voice?
Missing van gogh here, but interesting vid anyway
You forgot "Pogo the Clown."
Not gonna lie, i was an artist who had a curious style i guess, tended more for the 3D and now i don't draw with the pen almost.
I used to draw weird stuff, like dark characters, and i came to believe in God with certainty after reading the Quran.
I want light, and to me it's crazy the amount of self delusion, idolatry, and in general inflated egos that there are in the art world.
People make art pieces sacred, that is wild to me... even when they claim not to believe in God, they make smaller gods out of created things.
This is literally what paganism has always been.
We live in a time where we have hardcore materialism dominating, but at the same time people need spirituality or meanings, so they end up doing what people did in the time of ignorance, making the same mistakes people made before them while thinking they are being innovative.
I know i can't create life, only the One can do that in truth.
Yet many people are deluded to believe they are creating real worlds or characters, and that is a scary idea...
I could have gone that way, and i'm thankful i didn't because it would have gotten darker than it already was.
My experience is like that of a poet, when he finds a word so perfect no human can make, he is left speechless and can't hardly articulate word for poetry again...
Because when one understands, it's almost an insult to try to imitate such beauty...
People make the created sacred, but i found the true sacred and it's beautiful.
And i'm not calling anyone to any sect, i don't believe the book does either.
Rather i just call to what you already know.
There are two things that are certain, death and that you come from somewhere else and it stops at One.
Peace be with you.
Chuju nie odpowiedziałeś na pytanie z tytułu filmu.
what a Squidward
I thought this was just an art channel lol what went on it and its horror
Alzheimer and dementia are horrible diseases. I hope they'll find a cure one day.
Judging by his self portraits he didn't age well at all.
as an artist (not a painter) who does both digital and traditional art, giggity giggity i sure hope I don't make any self portraits when I get diagnosed with dementia, depression, schizophrenia, pneumonia and ..other stuff
I don’t know if it tells you when someone dislikes your comment so I wanted to let you know I did personally as an artist myself who’s struggled with mental health from a young age your comment disgusted me
the "scary" music ruins the video
who tf cares?
I hate the idea that artists should subject themselves to unnecessary suffering for the purpose of achieving an artistic goal. It's not noble and the art created isn't worth it. Don't fall in love with suffering.
Yep gravity is bad enough all by itself
@@caseco4979 thank you. so true.
the piccaaso picture looks so shitty , looks like the shit i drawed when i was 4 trying to draw a skull
I take back all the times I wished to be artistic. Apparently it's a feckin curse. I'll stick to math, thanks.
that made me laugh. right, now i can go to sleep in a good mood, thanks!
Am i the only one who finds them to be hilarious rathen than disturbing? The background is dark OFC but the portraits ain't disturbing unless you empathize deeply with the decaying authors.
Also don't think OP knows what nihilistic means lmao
A cute schizophrenia?
Picasso's works are interesting folk art, but they're not good.
folk art? mate he's one of the pioneers of cubism, and is totally one of the best artists of all time!! he is so great!!
@@Franklyn-kr7lc Cubism is a childish coping mechanism that allowed a certain number of (sort of) tribalistic influences to insert themselves into genuinely beautiful movements. This is objectively true.
@@devekut2 no, you've got it wrong. cubism was a way for people like picasso to combat the camera, which was gaining popularity at the time. he and many others used cubism as a way of showing that painted art was superior to the camerta, as it could represent meaning and abstract forms. it took some inspiration from folk art, sure, but folk art is great, so how is that bad?
@@Franklyn-kr7lc When I poop I flush it. I don't keep it around to gaze at.
@@devekut2 what does that have anything to do with what we're talking about
Art videos like these are so gay and pretentious it's actually terrifying.
I think picaso painted like an 8 year old on the spectrum. Never saw what people saw in his "art" if you can even call it art.