[Reaction] Five Finger Death Punch - Gone Away (You're Crying Not Me!)
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I am a former army Ranger combat veteran I would go back in a heartbeat I lost a lot of brothers and sisters but I would go back to defend my country and protect my family my army family
Props to you bro. I was in Afghanistan where. I saw some of my brothers lose their life and calling there name we came home
Yeah, same here. You loose brothers and you are back in combat kicking down doors a few months later.
What battalion
I'm a Marine, retired 20 years now, they wouldn't let me go back then, I'll do it again today, I carried brothers and sisters home, I owe them please let me go back to defend you and serve them.
thank you for your service, not military myself but proud father of an Airman. The main difference between losing brothers and sisters and the particular case of this video, is he lost his 3 best friends and it was because he missed the IED that killed them, when it was his job to not miss it. Not knocking him for it, but you know damned well Survivor Guilt is eating him alive. Theres only 2 reasons he in particular would be going back. Revenge or suicide. And thank you to the other vets commenting in this too, dont ever think your sacrifices are unappreciated.
You said “I don’t think he could go back mentally” but to be honest we never leave there mentally which is why it’s hard to get back into society.
This is 100000% fact. Having been retired for 6 years now, I would go right back.
We never leave there mentally. When we return home we fight more demons and struggle "fitting in" more than anyone except for our military brothers and sisters who have walked the same path and battled the same demons.
Chris Thompson I’ve been retired 16 and I’d go tomorrow.
Airborne Infantry
H-MINUS
I thought the same thing-I’ve never served, but I know many people who have, and every one of them says they’d go back. (Especially now with the shitshow in Afghanistan, many want to go over there and get our citizens out.)
Thank you brother...all Americans are family....at least that was the goal...you caught for us there ...now people like need to fight for you right here
Thank you, sir! Survivor's guilt because he missed the mine and his friends died. His return downrange is "a reckoning". Him or them...he doesn't much care which.
💯 percent agree still see people I served with that didn't come back with us
I was going to say exactly that. Survivors guilt is exactly what most of it is but I would go back in a heartbeat to protect the country and the corp. Semper Fi my brothers and sisters active and non active. Be safe and watch your six and always take care of the person to your right or left.
He also feels guilty that he was the one hyping them up to enlist. He has two reasons that he feels it's their fault they're dead.
That's exactly what I was going to say survivors guilt that's why he was going to shoot himself in his garage
Absolutely true.
I got out after my first deployment back. I went back in . I then volunteered to go to my next 4 deployments. To me it was healing... Cause i didnt want other people to have to die/injured if there was something i could do. Did it have affects to me once i got out. YES. I got out and had nothing or anybody. I lived on the streets sold drugs to make money. Then. I had my daughter and she saved my life and made me complete. Filled the void i was missing that kept me sane.
Incredible story and not only am I proud and thankful for you, I am so happy your daughter had that impact on you! Keep your head and stay healthy Brother! Kids grow up too dang fast
Press f to pay respect with you sir I would have to fear and also in not proud of the USA anymore because the are leaving their vets out their on the streets without any fame or renown it's just making me fucking angry
@@Le_Grand_Corbeau666 yes ik me too, I just feel really sad and that one FFDP video wrong side of heaven? I couldnt stop tearing up.
God bless you sir and many thanks for your service! Your daughter is a very lucky girl and from the sounds of it, you're a very lucky man to have her in your life!!
The last scene, when it focusses on the bracelets always gets me. Those 3 black bracelets are known as warrior bracelets, or KIA bracelets. Each one with engraved with the name of one of the brothers he lost......
Our country throws them overseas to defend our freedom, then return to be turned on by the people they are defending. People do not give them the absolute respect these great men and women deserve. Thank you sir for protecting everything this country has, you are one of the reasons we have what we have.
On my wall sits a calendar, on that calendar is a bunch of dates with little more than a name and a rank that would mean nothing to anyone else but me. Those are my brothers I would give anything to trade places with. When those days come I always find my self watching these reaction videos. If for nothing else, I am forever thankful to Five Finger Death Punch for making it so I am less alone on those days.
Survivors guilt is a killer the line "...if could trade....I would" says it best and the chaos of the battlefield mirrors the emotions you feel inside so lots of people come back to it.
I understand your concern with wanting to be in a war zone with the surviving soldier, but as a war vet myself, i would stand next to that soldier with ZERO difficulty. To understand this, you had to be there.
A lot of us have pulled out our sidearm and contemplated the same thing he did. You don't know what it is like. Don't assume things either(not YOU two specifically, 'you' as in general). Especially in regards to CPTSD-I.
Sarah, you seem like a super sweet, nice, cultured, and articulate individual. So, with the camera OFF, please take your right hand, stretch out your arm, straighten those fingers and close them together in a flat hand stance, look into your husband's eyes and smile, hen make a loud snapping crack as you bring that hand rapidly across his left cheek, then point that same hand at him, flat as before (called the knifehand) and say, "Honey, don't be condescending to soldiers." Then kiss his booboo so he knows you're not angry.
You are 100% correct.
Survivors guilt is a bitch. I have been there myself as a scout sniper. I did 1 tour in Iraq and 3 in Afghanistan. You can never unsee what we have seen. It is our choice how we handle it. Semper Fi.
@@mr.kelley6556 Semper Gumby, brother.
thank you for your service. I have multi generations in the US armed forces both of my grandfather's seen action one was PFC army vet of World War two. and my other grandfather was a navigator in the navy during the Korean war. And my dad was in the army rangers 82 Airborne All American
@@brandonhaines2863 thank you sir, and thank your family for me, because they made it possible for me to have the opportunity to serve and defend my loved ones.
Guys, great reaction. Don't ever apologize or feel the need to justify sincere tears, they just prove authenticity. And dont get caught up in the technicalities of real life vs a message, it's a way to make a point and enhance the power of the message and narrative. They do a lot of military, but also other stuff, hard metal mostly, but alot is based on real life, message driven stuff, not fantasy. Ivan has a powerful unmistakable voice. I hope Sara is a new permanent edition, she's adorable, lol. Again, thank you for your service bro, respect! Btw, as a classic rock enthusiast, you'll definitely appreciate a family band called liliac, they do covers of dio, Janice Joplin, metalica, ozzy, and a bunch of their own stuff. Check out their song mars live in Cummings Georgia, youll get hooked! Peace
Ironically, he felt the most comfortable back there
Thats a fact! I got out of the military and jacked around for a couple of years. I felt out of place and like I didnt really belong. I got lucky and got a job as a contractor in Afghanistan that allowed me to be back in the middle of things. I felt like I was home, back where I belonged. Nearly 10 years later I am still over here, and I am finally feeling like I am done with being here. I am ready to finally go "home".
Man.....my respect because you had the strength to react to this song! greetings to your wife!
At the end of the video, those 3 black bracelets he was wearing. Those are one for each one of his buddies from the beginning of the video. That died in combat. Technically, the 22 a day support bracelets. Thank you for your resect for the band.
Somehow this version of the song hits harder, emotionally, than the original, both good songs. Something about his vocals voices the pain of losing someone. This and Wrong Side of Heaven make me cry every damn time, invoking that kind of emotion is unreal.
Amen brother
My first deployment was 15 months. I tried to stay in Iraq with another unit. Didn't have anything here and I didn't want to be here. I wanted to be back in Iraq. It's what I knew. I'm a combat veteran with PTSD and TBI and all that bullshit. Thank you for the reaction. Everyone needs to see this.
I would rather open the door to cops with a warrant than opening it to military personnel. That scene with the wife and child dealing with that loss was just . . .
I never saw combat when I was in, but mad respect to those that did.
US Army Signal Corps 90-95
I've loved this song since the offspring but it never made me look at the lyrics the way ffdp has. My wife is a Sargent in the army. She's getting ready to leave on her 3rd deployment and since being with her, this song, along with the video, tears me up every time.
Former Army here. The only home I can imagine is being back in.. shoulder to shoulder with my brothers. I’d give it all to go back.
Five Finger Death Punch is a band that cares a lot about the military and they pay tribute to that in their videos to show people what they go through they also have a lot of fundraisers for veterans
I can honestly say I've watched so many reactions to this song and I have no reasoning for it but that is as close to crying as I've been definitely a new subscriber here thanks for the reactions
They are also big on anti-bullying...react to their video Coming Down. It's a suicide awareness video. I am an Army Veteran that served in the Middle East. I love Five Finger Death Punch for shining the light on what some of the Military goes through.
As someone who was bullied for over 6 years, I'm so thankful for this song. Helped me through some bad times.
This is a tough one. From one submarine vet to another vet thanks for your service.
Thank you for your service as well bro!!! Much respect!!!!
Thank you for your service as well
Thank you for reacting to this video. I my self am an Army veteran that served 13 years before being forced out because of my chronic PTSD. I love how anyone that reacts to these videos are so suprised how they are a close representation to what us vets go through. If I was able to I would re enlist as well. I know it is hard to understand why someone would volunteer to go right back to the place that caused so much pain and suffering, but you are correct in saying it is to honor your brothers and sisters and to finish what you started.
My dad died not long after FFDP releases this cover. I remember it coming on the radio and I almost broke my ankle trying to get to the radio to turn it off. It took me forever to listen to this and not cry again. Really awesome cover. Love it.
this is the best portrayal of survivor's guilt I have witnessed in a music video, I understand his pain, he let that ied slip by him while on patrol, his 3 buddies died and he got to go home, it was either reenlist and be part of something bigger than himself or die by his own hand
I cannot watch this video without ending with tears running down my face. My son is a Marine and never saw combat, but he saw buddies who had take their own lives after those experiences. It absolutely breaks my heart. Thank you for serving your country, sir!
I’m 35 years old and a fully disabled combat veteran, I served 7 years before I was medically discharged and did two tours to the sandbox. I joined because of 9/11. I was in high school when it havppened and I knew the moment the second plane hit that it was a terrori we saw st attack and I knew I was going to join the military. I loved my country and didn’t think twice about it. I will admit after seeing how the current “regime” completely F’d up the Afghanistan drawdown I do find myself questioning whether or not it was worth the sacrifices each person who ever served there over the last 20 years made. Great reaction to a very special version of this classic and the video brings a lot of emotion out that’s for sure!
First time to your channel and yeah Five Finger Death Punch know just how to hit you in the heart. It's a POWERFUL message and they deliver it REALLY well. Amazing band, amazing song and I enjoyed your reaction to it.
He would reup for service for 2 reasons, revenge or to get himself killed to be with his friends, he was walking in front of the humvee on scout duty, his job was to look for IEDs... guessing he blamed himself because he missed the bomb that blew up, I bet any man in his situation would be tortured with guilt.
He didn't miss the IED, he pointed it out but the driver was distracted and didn't see him call it out.
There is a third which is to try to do everything in his power to prevent that to happening to someone else and that is the main reason if he wanted to be with his friends he would of committed suicide but he didn’t cause he doesn’t want it to happen to others
I remember in Iraq at the battle of al naysira I saw my share of lose n to be here today, I just don't understand how!! 2nd marine division!!. Semper Fi..
No words. Thank you to all who served and are serving.🇦🇺 🇺🇸 🇨🇦 🇬🇧 🦅 Per Ardua Ad Astra.
I'm sorry my brother I couldn't finish watching I had to stop . I thought I was strong and brave but maybe not so much any more .
I am happy your still alive and have your family . God bless you both Vietnam Vet 1965/1966
Totally understandable. Its a tough song to get through, but I certainly appreciate a band willing to step up and speak out for Vets. Much Love
Welcome home sir. Thank you for your service. Much love to you and hugs from Nevada
@@shaylengould4807 Thank you so much for your remarks . Every time I start to think the world has gone south
a sweet person like you shows me it's still ok. It means more than you could ever know
You're very welcome, and both myself and my little boy would love to shake your hand. He's six, but goes up to any vet with a military hat and ask to shake their hands and thank them for their service. When he was little it was any man with a hat, gave the kid at Costco a grin and giggle but now he can distinguish the difference. He loves to sing the anthem and say the pledge of allegiance.
@@shaylengould4807 You must be very proud of him. It seems to me that whatever your doing with him is the right thing
Nice work and God bless you
Former recon marine this gets me everytime. my brother's died with honor as warriors but doesn't make it easier really. It affects everyone in different ways some people couldn't go back, some men need to go back because they don't know what to do with the rage and pain.
The Army, at least during Viet Nam, had a buddy program. The survivor was the one who talked his buddies into joining up with him. They went through Basic, AIT, and went on their first deployment together. He was walking point and missed the IED which killed his friends. Many who have served have re-upped and or volunteered for combat tours. A lot of us never really came home, we left a piece of ourselves over there.
It's not about going back mentally, it's about never having left because no matter how hard you want it, the memories won't let themselves be forgotten.
When I came back from Afghanistan, I was not the same man I was when I first went and I've been in that position with a barrel pressed to my temple just wishing I had the strength to pull the trigger so I could be with those I lost.
I think it represents the difficulty going home, and you’re the only one that came back. The quiet is the loudest thing you can imagine, and with a lack of a defined mission, you’re inside your own head 24/7, and the only thing that might be able to provide you with a moment of familiarity and distract you from your thoughts, is going back in it. But obviously I didn’t write the song so it’s just a guess….
Never got deployed into combat but I lost friends and I'd go in a heartbeat. After losing people, my outlook on it all is that I no longer feel comfortable with coming back. I can't go long without being exposed to violence, I need and want it to feel at ease. I get anxious and uneasy without it. Can't pull that trigger in suicide because there's a hit to your pride, it's better to die in combat for something.
I joined the Army in July 2001. I had a softball scholarship my freshman year and was on delay entry. I woke to my E8 navy retired father quietly watching the TV. On the way to school the second tower was hit. My life changed forever that day. I didn't return back to school until I was 22 yo. I tell my son every year about that day. We should never forget. GOD BLESS OUR MILITARY! HOOAH!
I just want to say thank you to every vet service member on here. You have my absolute respect and love. For everything you have been through seen and done, I appreciate it. Hugs. Keep safe and stay strong. Semper Fi from a Marines daughter
Man, I don't know much about army-life but I have the most respect of soldiers/veterans. I never served, but I can't imagine what PTSD is doing. I must say that I was deeply impressed by FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH's song *_"Wrong Side of Heaven"_* : ua-cam.com/video/o_l4Ab5FRwM/v-deo.html
From the Netherlands ...... thanks for all of them that are fighting for freedom, injustice and all the shit that goes on in the world.
Sometimes, it's the only place that feels like home. In a way, that's where you find peace.
I’m a combat veteran with 2 tours under my belt. I left Afghanistan in 2013. Till this day, I’m not back mentally.
I have watched that video 100+ times. It still gets me. I will tell you from experience, going back was good for me. Life makes sense in that environment after you go through that.
Great cover of Offsprings song. Powerful video. What our soldiers go thru and then the lack of support from our government after they get what they need out of them is horrible. Thank you to all who serve and have served. We stand with you, we support you, we appreciate everything you do or have done.
I'm an 11 yr Army Vet.. a few deployments in Iraq and other combat zones.
I lost friends in Iraq and we still had to finish our deployment.
My opinion.. for Tom to say he wouldn't trust the soldier going back to a deployed area paints Tom in a negative light!
I saw/met 5FDP during my last Iraq deployment! They are a great bunch of guys and put their album on hold to come out and support the troops! Check out their song "No One Gets Left Behind"
Going back into the fight after losing your brothers is an honorable death. Going back in is more common then you think
EM3 here. Thank you so much for playing and reacting to this song. Its heart breaking what vets go through
You're not crying, I'm crying. Wait, that's not how it goes... active army, 10yrs, 3 deployments. Thank you for the reaction. Cheers.
I did three tours as a military contractor and after returning stateside I truly realized how little help we get. It really fucked me up and that was nearly 20 years ago and it’s still going harder than ever, but I would go back in a heartbeat.
The slo-mo of the Teddy bear dropping to the ground gets me Everytime
When I was in San Diego as a teen Offspring really spoke to me and this song is one of the best songs by Offspring and FFDP did it justice.
When so many of us lose like that, it's hard to reprogram ourselves to civilian life. Many can't function outside of the military. My husband has been out of the Marines 9 years and still says he misses it. He misses combat. He misses the structure. And sometimes he feels guilty that he survived and his squad mates didn't. That's why so many reenlist. I hope the insight helps ❤
A powerful song. It felt good to share the shedding of tears with you from its meaning. Do not hide from the truth your soul speaks to you; feel it, and let the tears flow from it.
@8:02 the soldier points out the 3 bracelets he's wearing for his brothers that died. That gets me every dang time.......
Respect, Tom, to you, Sarah, all veterans, and those who gave their life for democracy.
It's all I can say right now.
Mad respect to you guys!!!I just found your channel...your reaction was amazing!!! True heart, very true!!! Watch FFDP...coming down!!! Every song they have sends or makes us aware of what life is....God bless you guys!!!!
I never saw combat when I was in, but that door knock scene kills me every time. I couldn't deal with answering that knock. Bless all vets and active duty.
In my opinion there are only three reasons one goes back after what happened
To finish what his buddies started
To get revenge
Or for a suicide mission
About going back, if you watched American Sniper he either went back or extended 3 or 4 times. When you survive you think that going back you might keep someone else alive.
I was in 7th grade 9/11 at least five kids from my schools 8th grade class ended up enlisting and what we saw on the TV screens walking in the class was hands down the greatest military Recruiting video in history...
Hey Tom thanks for your service. And thanks for the reaction with ur wife I will subscribe for sure please make more reactions to this band
"I wouldn't feel comfortable being in a combat zone with him"
Actually, that is THE guy you want beside you in combat!
One of the band members is a veteran that’s why they support veterans and have so many videos
Trying to describe the relationship that you have with your fellow soldiers is damn near impossible. You’re closer than friends, closer than family, the trust you have in each other is so deep it’s impossible to explain. When you lose someone you’re close to over there, it honestly feels like losing a huge piece of your soul. I lost SSG Ari R. Cullers on 30 October 2011 in Afghanistan, my daughter carries his name and I know so many more who have done the same. When she’s old enough, she will learn about the man he was, and why she has his name.
Very tough one to watch especially for people like yourselves! Always look forward to your reactions. Keep em coming. Best wishes to you both!
A veteran explained in another video to explain why the camera focused on the 3 black bands on his arm.
The bands has the names of his friends that has died.
He also said those bands mostly mean one of 2 things.
1. Hes back for revanage.
2. Hes on a suicide mission.
After three tours, I would go back in a heartbeat!!!
Most of the time we get out and feel we don’t belong anywhere but the service. We’ve trained to be there and it’s hard to transition back
Brother I have been out since 2014 and I still don't belong here.
im a canadian here,to all you american hereoes,,thank you,thank you!!!!!
Just hearing that you would never go back into a combat zone with this man shows me you never have been that exactly the kind of man you want to go into combat with he knows what its like to lose and he will do the most to keep it from happening again
I'm a FFDP fan, but this time it's Tom who made me cry. The look on his face and him having a hard time expressing himself got me emotional.
What a lot of soldiers won't talk about is the way they've changed. Most soldiers won't admit to have PTSD if they think they may have. A lot of soldiers do come back without their friends, a lot come back to their families gone or empty home, or no homes at all. On top of that, they're extremely under appreciated. The Military is the closest a lot of these soldiers have to a family, a lot go back for a distraction, a lot go back hoping they do die for their country hoping it's a numbers game they eventually lose.
I'm not saying this for all soldiers, but this is relative to a large portion of them.
Sometimes going back to war feels like it fixes something we left there. But we always just end up leaving more and more behind.
Thanks to all who served and are serving.
You never really leave. Living in A combat zone will change you in ways you'll never imagine. 40 years and some days it's like it was yesterday.
I think what I do like about this reaction is it shows the difference between vets and civilians. They have a hard time understanding the video... For us vets, it's completely clear.
What you said about not being comfortable with him coming back to a combat situation really pissed me off. People always speak about things they have no idea about. I am a disabled combat veteran, and during a lot of operations we lost people. I trust my brothers in arms more than anything!!
sometimes you have to go back as hard as it is because to stay would be death. maybe since you've been there done that can save a brother that hasn't.
God bless every single person that puts on a uniform and runs towards fire. Being a Vet is almost as hard as when we served because we survived.
He never left there mentally!!
Great reaction video. First time watcher and this was a good one. Very powerful song and video. Love FFDP! On another note your wife is gorgeous, looks very much like Canadian actress Katheryn Winnick. Beautiful. 🖤
Love your content and with all respect and admiration your wife looks like a modern lagartha a shield maiden from vikings. Much love to you both.
Vet here, and this band fucks me up! So many guys get out of the military, and they Just. Don't. Fit. Anywhere in the civilian world. This is all they know. This is their family. It's hard.
Survivor's guilt is a real thing. Speaking from experience I pray no one else goes through it.
Unless you've been in that situation you'll never understand the brotherhood that military people feel towards one another. Yes mentally you will never recover from losing his brothers in combat like that but at the same time coming home and not having that camaraderie with anyone anymore is probably worse for him mentally.
Wow guys great reaction! Thank u for ur service Sir
Unfortunately I couldn't inlist, i tried 6 times. For medical reasons i was denied, my whole family was in one or the other branch. Brother when the video started i could see every reaction of your face.you knew exactly what qas happening. Almost PTSD reaction. I love you and you're not alone.
You will absolutely love Evergrey - Where August mourns! Another great Swedish band!
My father was e8 in the navy during the Gulf War and Desert Shield and he said once, "we should have taken care of it back then instead both his children, daughter and son, fight the same war.
I'm an old retired Squid, was active in the 70's to the early 90's. I understand the loss of comrades, co workers and fellow shipmates. The unfortunate number for me is 47 friends and co wrkers from my NAVY days have passed. But unlike this video, I didn't have 3 of my Brothers die. But still, a death of a friend is hard to understand, especially in combat. Godspeed to all our active duty and my fellow Vets.
You're right Tom, the original Version of Gone Away by the Offspring was about Dexter's then girlfriend having died in a car wreck, which Dexter had drove past that crash site not realizing that his girlfriend was involved in this wreck
He's the person you want back, because, one, the "mistake" is a lesson learned, so he learned. Two, He's experienced, meaning you'll have more experience in event something happens instead of a scared green person that might freeze up or overreact. Three, he's going back most likely for those reasons but even if it is for "suicidal" reasons, he certainly doesn't want anyone else to go out and die with him, so he'll be more protective of the others.
Some people, when they’ve lost friends and get engrossed in that environment. They only know peace in that environment. So it’s what they need to feel complete. It’s part of the struggle.
Its the pull with NCO's to go back and ensure everyone was taken care of! Whhhooooaaah! (If you know, you know)! 😎🤙🤙
A lot of us go back, a lot of the time it’s easier to be there than come home, you have to remember a majority that go to war have been through similar situations and end up deploying multiple times. I was stationed in the at Fort Lewis Washington in the Army about 21 years old watching it unfold in the office on 9/11 deployed multiple times and literally picked up pieces of friends I was standing next to moments before. I just retired, miss my brothers and sisters ❤️
I love this band. Even witout watching the videos, the songs themselves get to me sometimes too.
I'm watching this ages after ur wife/gf loves you u can see the hurt in her eyes imagining it's her relieving the flags from the soulders..ur a lucky man that's true love..hugs my lady hes with u you don't need to experience this
He reinvested to join his brothers...survivors guilt...
Many combat vets have a kind of homesickness for the sandbox, and the HELL that brings brothers together. It isn't necessarily obvious to anyone who would have the power to say NO, and might do so if they did know. If he goes back, the ones there will be grateful to have a known survivor to teach them the future, and help them REACH IT. His mental state might never be obvious to anyone who isn't HIM. Many families don't even realize what is going on in the heads of the vets WHO LIVE WITH THEM.
Thanks for listening to this one. This is what feels most comfortable for those that have been there. This is home when are with brothers and sisters. It just feels...... right. I know a lot don't understand, can't understand, or don't want to try and understand. This is the place where things just make sense without making sense.
I was hit in the Fronter lobe, woke up in the hospital with my pants and shirt cut off. I'm not sure how long I was out but I didn't see anything except for pitch white and faded hearing before going on conscious. I remember feeling that dried sticky blood on my face and when I felt my head it was shaved and I felt staples going across the right side of my head. I'm doing a hell of a lot better now, luckily i had people here for me but before I used to drink until I passed out (sober now). It's a weird feeling, still years later I have a hard time emotionally and physically, bright light gives me this headache that feels like my heads going to explode and still am working on controlling my anger. You learn to deal with it but does it ever leave you're mind, no it doesn't. Some family and friends understand but this has ruined a lot of relationships for me. I will always help out a fellow veteran whether it's in my country, the US or anywhere
My dad fought in the gulf War and talks about how he lost 3 buddies when they were sleeping and a rpg was launched into thier tent. He said he got up and started shooting in every direction without realizing his buddies were in pieces he said when the fighting stopped and his friends were gone he never felt so cold. My mom talks about when he came back home how he would get ready to fight any time a loud pop sound went off. And how he would scream in his sleep about trying to get his friends to safety. Since talking to him about it he has said how hard it was to never go back and fight but having me and my brother was the only thing that kept him here. He said seeing his friends like that changed him and made him not feel human but like a machine just ready to kill.
For me, in my mind the reason why he came back is to honor his friends and do his best to help and prevent any later soldiers having to go through what he had to experience.