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Mark you know she’s an online spiritual leader right??? You put on a wanna-be cult leader to talk about cults. Yet another case of little Mark doing the thinking. lol at least you know what “beautiful soul” really means to your subscribers 😂 🍑🍭 🍆🍆🍆🍆😉
I was born into this cult also. 41 years later and I'm still trying to make sense and heal from all the trauma, brainwashing and neglect. I couldn't watch the whole interview because it brought up too much pain but I'm glad she's talking about it and raising public awareness.
I was also born into this cult and left when I was 15 (I'm 36 now) There is nothing that someone can say to erase the trauma and most people have no idea the level of programming. Hope you're in a better place now. ❤
I've watched a lot of content on this channel. This stands out as one of the best interviews. Her honesty is refeshing and she gave me a huge shot of hope. She survived serious trauma and survived to help others manage their trauma. Outstanding interview!
I totally agree, great subject & human being. Mark has been given a gift, and can bring out the best/worst in everyone. Lol (mostly the best) 💕 How he doesn't become cynical & jaded is also another gift and something he's exercised it in one of the very best of ways!! He's got "thick skin" and appears to have genuine empathy. 💕😊 Xo- from Canada
@atinemassare I think it implies more so that there is a point where no one but you can save yourself. In that specific context it was about self-sabotage
@iu.lia.na. I see your point and agree. at the same time, hers was a poor choice of words to express that then. Plus she said some other things along the same line like "stop consenting to beeing abused as a child". Same thing. So I get your point, but I'm not sure it is what SHE means. She has a victim blaming narrative.
@@atinemassare *how dare you...* How dare you think that this is in any way about your bloody view and opinion or stupid assessment of her highly personal choice of words?!!!! Just shut TF up! This is not about you!!! SHE told HER STORY and she can f*cking say and formulate what ever she f*cking wants and how she fu*king feels it & thinks, CAUSE SHE'S TALKING, SO EVERYONE ELSE SHUTS UP!!!! YOUSELF IS ACTUALLY RIGHT NOW VICTIM-BLAMING! And nodody seriously wants to know your self-righteous sentiments, either!, "Kleine Pissnelke, verdammte." ❌❌❌
@@atinemassareI think the advice was meant for people who were in a part of their journey of self discovery and healing where there is awareness of trauma but they have not fully realized awareness of being in control of their surroundings or being a protector of their own being
@kenosabi evil pedophile "priests" don't represent the catholic church, and the church itself doesn't represent Jesus. It's a hard distinction to learn. There are bad seeds in every establishment. If you gave a regular person a beethoven musical sheet, and they butchered it/ played it very badly, do you blame beethoven? It's sad because the only one who can actually save her(Jesus), she might never turn to, because, tragically, she associates Him to her trauma. (understandably so)
Sadly, perverting religion is far too common, not only in modern times, but in all of human history. Anytime you give someone that sort of power, it will be abused. I am not saying you can't be a good, moral person who follows a religion, but I am saying religion has justified a lot of hatred, abuse, suffering, manipulation and death since its inception.
What a channel. Every single interview that I've watched instantly becomes my favorite. This girl just drips with strength and tenacity. She's a true inspiration. I'm a 47 yr old man, by the way. ✊
It must have been unbelievably confusing for Onami to be in a structured society that was consistent and predictable, but ultimately unhealthy. Paradoxically, I think this gave her an advantage in improving the rules and structures in her life that benefited her once she put a complete stop to all the problems. People who grow up without any structure would likely have a harder time doing the same. She really has a voice for those who grew up in a structured but messed up situation.
@jamienimitz6864 check out her website where she sells sex magic courses that will fix your life for thousands of dollars a year. She's a good salesperson. That's all.
I think there are behavioural patterns like unsupervised "freedom" or confusing deorientation of moral dilemmas and dangers, otherwise warnings that parents are suppossed to provide, and that builds into a somewhat excessive sense of trust, which would be leathal, especially when you are so young. For instance, I was taught since I can even start to remember, that you don´t talk to other adults alone you, especially adults, and that you walk away from them if they insist in talking to you. This "rule" actually saved my life when I was 8 years old as I believe I was a target to be kidnapped when a young girl started calling me from a car while I was on the swings outside my aunty´s, just like in the movies.
Its actually not crazy at all. It makes perfect sense. Predators in the wild can smell and sense trauma/ vulnerability, why would humans be any different? We are natural predators.
It's usually pretty obvious. Most vulnerability comes down to basic stupidity, and people tend to have a very hard time hiding that, as they lack the intelligence to do so. More sophisticated people don't remain vulnerable for long, because we're able to identify our own flaws and deal with them accordingly.
This made me cry a bit. Im 41 and still healing from SA. I was 6 years old, and it lasted for a year, then it happened again at 8..i was an alcoholic for 16, used drugs, i was in a gang when i was younger in and out of jail. Im sober from everything, but this abuse is the hardest thing to move past. When she said the part about a destructive pattern. I noticed i still do this. Its not as bad. But its still there. Im far better than i was 10 years ago. But im still struggling with it. Thank you for this. ❤. I have Cptsd. Im a huge introvert, im a single father of three kids. I never let anyone into my life, just like her. Because its hard to trust people.
Man I want you to know that you are NOT alone. CPTSD is the worst thing I've ever experienced and I feel so deeply what you say about it never going away. I'm 25 now and every day is ruled by flashbacks and anxiety and I too isolate myself and fear people in general. I feel like I'll never get anywhere in life because I'm still frozen in time as a child being abused.
Here’s to meeting likeminded people. I was a little bit younger, at 4, from my uncles. Even though I have an amazing spouse, I’ve never healed from it. I’m definitely going to get her book. She gave me inspiration & hope to heal myself, finally. No more pushing it away. I hope the best for you. I hope that you can forgive yourself and become the best version of yourself. ☺️
“Tell me a story or two, before I let you go,” is something I want to say to her until she runs out of stories. I love her spirit, energy, and message. I love her delivery. I love her verve. I love her authenticity and frankness. I just really love her. Thanks for sharing your unreal story, Onami, and thanks for giving her the platform to do so, Mark. I am a very open-minded person but, in all honestly, if I passed Onami in the street before hearing her story, I probably would’ve made unfair snap judgments about her. Maybe because of the tattoos, maybe because of other less visible factors. After hearing her story, and learning about how resilient and intelligent and articulate and beautiful she is, I can’t believe I was so quick to make negative judgements. This is exactly why your videos are so important, they challenge our preconceived ideas and snap judgements even when we don’t know we need that challenge. Thanks again for all you do.
You don't need to learn more about other people to not be ok with yourself making negative judgements. You don't need to sympathize with ones story to know your limits of consciousness. There are soo many who grew up in deprivation of mature adults. That comes in many different shapes and always plasticizes a children's brain. Do not make negative judgements ever about things that have nothing to do with you. There are many people who won't even be able to name what has happened to them ever. Not everyone is capable of telling their story or two..
@@PalinaZI second this! I also wanted to add that most of us tattooed individuals are good people. Never judge someone by what’s on the outside or in.
good for you. being introspective enough to admit that you would have judged. its also important to note, however, she's being interviewed. she's at her best. we DONT know If she's truly a good and kind person. judgement can be an effective tool. just like everything else, there is a line and spectrum.
Imagine having to escape from a cult at the age of thirteen, and build your own life from scratch. I will never complain about anything in my life again, ever...
“Cleanup in aisle 5”…I love you. We are very similar although I wasn’t born into a cult. But I personally relate to much you have discussed. You are wise and brave. Much respect and I wish you and your loved ones all love and abundance now and into the future. You helped ME today…Thank you!🙏❤️
This is the best interview yet in my opinion! What an amazing person you are! You are so well spoken. It's hard to imagine that you missed any education!
And yet she does the same to her kids - see this about her " unschooling" her kids on Hannah Alonzo's youtube video ua-cam.com/video/SMvIZJjqy-E/v-deo.htmlsi=vBvMEeeuO0MsuonW
@@narcisisticka_zloupotreba. Unschooling is nothing like a cult, it allows the child to develop and pursue his/ her natural interests, it’s freedom vs the so called education system which indoctrinates children to be obedient slaves, the whole school system os set up like a prison. There is NOTHING natural about making children sit in a box for eight hours a day learning nothing of actual use in the natural world. Wakey, wakey!
@@KingSilly sure, but this is UNSCHOOLING. She does not teach anything. The children will only learn to read if/when they want to. There are 5million commentary videos on why this lady is setting her children up for a hard life. It’s honestly really sad. Unfortunate she’s getting air time.
Initially, I was entranced with her story, her energy, and her positivity. Then I took a look at her website. Gross. I find it troubling that she’s hustling people trying to recover from arguably the worst thing one could experience.
This is the unschooling lady! Omg! I better understand her whole point of why she chose this school structure idea. And after cringing so hard at her before this, I feel bad. I didn’t know but now I completely get why she’s seems so genuinely proud of her sons accomplishments with learning. It all makes so much more sense now! Guess we really don’t know people like we think most of the time. Wow just crazy! And so disturbing how many people comment on cult content and say they were raised or born into cults! Way too many! Who knew it’s so prevalent!?!
" I never knew I was making selections for my life based on my childhood"This is the most profound thing I have heard in a long time. Mark I'd have to say this is one of the best interviews you've ever done! Thank you for sharing your experience😊😊
@@lolybird77We all interpret things differently, and u don't need to explain yourself to anyone😊 I related to a lot of wat she said myself, and I'd love to hear more of her stories!❤
@@funkymunky: are you asking?… because the person just shared how it is the most profound thing she has heard in a long time; so, no, you are not asking; but how kind of her or him to answer to you anyway.
Her story is so sad and i am truly sorry she suffered so much abuse. The truth is that the abuse cycle has not ended with her. I pray she continues to heal and starts making better decisions for her own children. Her form of "unschooling" is very negligent, to say the least. Not even teaching children to read is abusive, in my humble opinion. I do feel such empathy for her, though. I pray she heals and does better for her children.
My kids didn't go to school and they are smarter and more successful than most! My youngest did have to go to school and she is very disappointed that she did! She also is successful but missed out in creative and joyful experiences. @GarbanzoBean23
Unschooling is homeschooling, which gives a child the most freedom to learn and pick up vital life skills, including reading writing and maths, all while being in the least indoctrinating environment.
@@moonandmakery unschooling is not homeschooling. people who do one, really do not use these words synonymously. homeschooling calls for education in a home environment (either by teachers or parents who put effort into creating structure and content for kids to learn). Unschooling is a very different, deeply concerning practice common among neglectful parents. there is a good video id recommend if ud like ua-cam.com/video/3rR3HbuP6I8/v-deo.html&ab_channel=ThatLizHunter
Son enfant a six ans et peux a peine écrire un mot et en lire un. Elle a décider de pas le laisser aller a l'école et elle poste sur l'internet comment elle est fière que son fils a écrit "egg" a six ans. Pas une Belle personne.
I dodged a bullet way back in 1982. I was hanging with the Rainbow folks. Weird weird group. Finally knew it wasn’t for me and left. I am amazed by your story. So happy for you!!
Rainbow family isn’t exact same cult or even foundationally related, rainbows were allowed to travel to other festivals and be in public and meet and share the public to procure clandestine chemists. More like this cults baby brother/sister.
@ I was involved with the Rainbow family for the better part of a decade. While I was technically free to come and go, I lived with a core group of them, and had to go along with what the group decided. We ran a restaurant. We didn’t get pay, but I got to eat and a place to sleep on the floor. Once on the way to a gathering, the “elder” I was traveling with decided that I k and my younger sister) needed to put some money into the gas tank… knowing full well I didn’t make any money… so my sister and I got out of the van in the middle of the night ( while they were sleeping in the air conditioned hotel) and hitch hiked up to the gathering site. That ended my involvement with them. I wasn’t saying they were a proper “cult” I was implying they were a stepping stone in that direction, and I was glad to get away from them.
I went to a rainbow gathering in the early 2000s. I never knew it was a cult! But it makes sense It was horrible, nothing particular, just everything sucked, bad food, bad music, bad conversations, and I think being stuck there in the middle of nowhere for days made it even worse, and the no money thing was lame. When I got home I brushed out my dreads, quit smoking weed and became a reformed hippy. I still get freaked out being around rainbow family people for some reason.
@@Just.A.T-Rex I disagree. spent time on the commune (long story wound up there by accident hitchhiking) can tell you, its a cult and lots of bad bad things
A lot of people were in & out. I know the Phoenix kids were in much longer. There was a movie when river was young where the family had to live in South America because the dad was a 60s radical on the run. I remember it came out then that River had a similarly complicated youth. I do blame the cult for his alcohol & drug use, and ultimately his death. And I know Joaquin has some issues, but tbh the age gap between them is huge, I don’t think Joaquin is old enough to remember much.
Why him and Joaquin obviously have and had so many problems and I believe due to the cult they were sold to the film industry which catapulted them into stardom.
I love this woman. Started following her on instagram during my own journey to healing. Never knew her story, she’s incredible and her resilience is inspiring. The part where she said I have my children full time no one has them but me I resonate with SO MUCH. I came from a SA home from a family member and it’s taught me you cannot trust ANYONE with your babies. They will be with me full time also. No daycares or babysitters or other humans are raising my children. Not ever.
Because of your background, you understandably may feel like NOBODY can be trusted with your kids, but there are many, many good people out there who CAN be trusted. Finding those people is one of the great joys of life.
I was really impressed by this interview and Onamis charisma. But as already mentioned by another viewer in a comment: Going on her webside I was really perplexed by how she presented her own worldview and offers: For example: "You cannot go from Level One to Level Two without being initiated by a teacher. You can’t bring your own robe into a temple and call yourself a monk. You have to be initiated. Initiation is what I do." Oeh.
im sorry do you know the definition of a cult?? if so, you’d very easily grasp the fact that that’s absolutely not what she does. would you consider an astrology lifestyle subscription program a cult?! something you have a choice to be in/pay for or not??? yall are so dense i stg
I think it more so comes from a place of having gone through the worst of the worst thus being certified to help others walk through fire. People often do need guides and rites of passage to get from step A to step B. It’s often the people who had to find their own way who can best offer what they did not receive
I sympathize and empathize with her trauma BUT she’s like an infomercial spokeswoman.. I feel as if she’s not organic, she knows what to say and how to say it to win people over. It’s a perfected act. Just my opinion.. it’s like she’s “selling” her story
I felt the same way in certain parts of this interview. The speech doesn't feel totally natural it feels like a bit of a scheme. I then looked her up on social media and her website and was confirmed.
dude right!? It’s like she charmed everyone in the comments. Her eyes and magnetism. The way she smiles. Something about her deters me. And sometimes I think I’m in the wrong, but for some reason I can’t shake that feeling. But sometimes I think it’s cause she’s confident in herself, but when I first came across her on instagram I got a feeling there was something else behind her words.
She is an author and life coach. It's natural because if you follow her, you'll know she has spoken about her experience many times. It's like saying Kamala Harris sounds scripted at her rallies. She knows what she wants to say and how to say it because she's said it many times before. It's just the first time you're hearing it on this forum.
So I just searched her up on UA-cam and as sad as it is she had a bad childhood she’s still an insane person. Seems like she’s trying her best to make her own cult now.
I have seen her on IG in the past. She is a 'life coach' and sells this system on how to face your trauma type thing. I thought it was off. But getting the backstory here changes my perspective a little.
Sorry, but this seemed like a total blender... Someone who has learned her way with words... lots of empty buzzwords, I missed genuine insight. I don't deny she may have gone through horrific experiences. Absolutely possible. But be aware of people who promise a quick fix for deep rooted trauma.
Dude, I just wrote a comment saying she gives me a bad vibe, after I read so many comments of people feeling "inspired". Your comment felt like validation, thanks
Right she “teaches” ppl “sex magic” now on IG and drinking her period blood 😳 yea! I’m not kidding….and she’s not really a very nice person, I’ve had an interaction with her AND she lets and promotes her “followers” to attack you en masse if you “disagree” or challenge anything she says 🙄
@@silliestful ' Teetotaled ' isn't a word and when criticising somebody for not knowing something about language , it seems hypocritical if you don't know how to use that language yourself . Teetotalism is the practise of being abstinent from alcohol, practising it makes one' teetotal'.
The sooner people teach their children that the world revolves around Money #1 Sex #2 and drugs #3 and teach them that’s not what living or being alive revolves around but helping, showing people you love love. Being kind of a stranger and treating everyone how you want to be treated the much better that child will be prepared to go out in this world and not be taken advantage of, hurt and lied to by anyone. As of 2024 most parents are teaching they kids to want to be better then everyone else or push the parenting on others because they are to busy with social media or running around town and/or being a addict.
This is my absolute favorite you've done. I actually saved this in it's own category as "real therapy s***". She hit me hard. I really needed this. Thank you
I don’t even remember signing up for this, but I get an email like every day from her… lol. It almost seems like she is a cult leader herself in some ways. Or at the very least- she makes some really big promises of making a lot of money if you sign up for her very expensive course. 😅
If you check her website, she's trying to sell herself as an esoteric teacher. There are levels costing absurd amount of money or 10% of your income promoting magic etc. I got that exact vibe, that she took her understanding of cultish control and is trying to be an influencer making money the same way. I'd laugh if I wasn't so concerned for the those who believe this shit
Ask her students how her courses work out for them. They're great! No problem charging what you're worth. If you have the goods and can deliver, who's to say you shouldn't?
I believe this is the most impactful vid you've aired. What a blessing she is in helping people heal and reclaim themselves and their lives. Sending love and strength and celebration
What a beautiful spirit! Thank you for inspiring me to heal from my own “cult” story - being born and raised and didn’t leave until I was 33 with my 3 small kids. I really appreciate you and your strength to show us healing is possible.
great interview. i have to admit ive been watching your channel since you first started because im fascinated by horrific trama. maybe it makes me feel better about my own. but this interview was so positive and truly inspiring. This woman deserves everything she has worked so hard for and more. thanks Mark and Onami xx
The thing i think should be known about this woman is she isolates her children and lives in a very cultish way still. She doesnt let them go to school, or the doctor, doesn't vaccinate, drinks her own urine, does unschooling because she doesnt want her kids to be influenced by the outside world. Unschooling is where you teach children what theyre interested in. So her kids are far behind in education. The way she responds to critism is just cult talk. " Anti society, my sons free others are not" She sells courses on sex magic and strange hippy spirituality. I think people that are raised in cults fall victim to cult mentality
This interview is the biggest hustle I’ve heard on SWU. It’s exhausting. It’s very sad that she was raised in a corrupt and depraved environment and carries an unbelievable amount of trauma.
@@Furry_lil_goblin so many parts of her story seemed really off. I wasn’t believing any of it. Wonder if Mark checks out any of these stories he puts up on his channel.. I was skeptical in just the first few minutes
I found this interview to be very fascinating. Onami is certainly a very intelligent and interesting woman who's been through a lot. What I found most intriguing is the fact that literally nothing worked for her to help her get over her past--therapy, psychedelics, etc--until she found her own way, the way that works for her. She's found "answers" and she's smartly turned it into a business to "help others." With this in mind, I'd suggest that everyone who watched this video to take a look at her website. You can decide for yourself what to make of it. But let me just say this: IMO, when you're selling access to knowledge about woo woo "sex magic" systems that claim to help you to have a better sex life, to "build financial prosperity", to "self-actualize", or to find God, I don't see how this is fundamentally different from something like "prosperity Christianity" or, worse yet, cult construction. Maybe I'm just too cynical about these things. But consider this: at one point in the interview, she talks about not wanting her business practice to become a cult. That's all well and good and I hope she sticks to her guns. At the same time, she has first hand knowledge of how cults work and the psychological tools that they use to convince people to open their wallets. She has an "experience PhD" in these things. Just saying...beware. Have a good day.
You make some very good points. It may be intuitive, or unintentional, after all she was raised to frame existence in this manner. Like all the teenage grifting using the female teenage sexuality as the hook. If this is how years of your life was spent, it seems like it would be the most familiar tools one has to work with. In her story, she locked that toolbox and tried to “teetotal”-yet she was an alcoholic and tried heroine and used cocaine. How is that teetotaling? It’s not, unless you are talking about using the tools you developed from being in the cult. She failed to thrive without the tools. She is successful now because she is not teetotaling anymore, although she is likely straight edge. It is a conundrum but if you listen to her-she pretty much says the quiet part out loud, many people don’t hear it.
BTW if you are inspired by this woman, I just wanna let you know the other side of her life. She sells her book and courses for a lot of money and she has created her own cult, but in a different way. For example she has an esotheric course about s*gggs magic (I have no idea wtf this is). Recently she has decided to unschool her son. She did not send him to school and her son cannot read and write at the age of six. By "can't" i mean AT ALL , he cannot read even the simplest words. And he is doomed, because he is not gonna be able to go to college (in order to do so in almost any country incl USA you need a proof that you have finished school and you have some level of education). She does not care about that and a lot of people are following her advise and taking their kids out of school. One again, she is NOT homeschooling, she in UNschooling, her children have no textbooks or anything. And she claims that she is a witch. So just think about it and don't jump to conclusions about someone based on one interview. In my opinion she is not a survivor, she is the face of the cult. She has learned everything there and created her own cult based on her dramatic story about escaping from another one, because she wanted to be at the top of the cult, to be a leader and influence people rather than being influenced by someone.
Yea they renamed themselves family international, their still around just more active in countries that tolerate or are corruption of officials allow them to operate. Their communes get raided now & then in europe & south america ..Karen berg is still in leadership & like her husband leads the organization in secret very few members see her. Thats why her own son ricky ( davido) couldn't find her when he went out to kill.
Parents born during certain years are very good at denying what has happened to their children even when it’s right in front of them. It’s the biggest breach of trust and the hardest to get over.
I grew up in a similar situation in Southern California… not the same one but every kid was to give their virginity to the elder. It been a crazy thing to survive. Born in ‘82 and I’ve see this literature. I was prostituted from 11-14 until I told and the state took me.
I checked her insta. I’m glad she’s happy and knows what she wants. But every clip seems like she’s trying to sell you something (her character, her ideas, her book, her lifestyle). She’s a saleswoman.
Her Mother not only knew she was being sexually abused, her Mother was perfectly aware that sexual abuse was rampant within the cult and didn't do one damn thing about it.......Top Dog status was more important to her. Of course she denies it. Thay. All. Do.
No. Everyone eats uo anything they view. everybody focus on superficial things like how beautiful she is or how beautifully she talks. Nobody questions how disingenuous she comes off.
Onami's story really resonated with me. While I didn’t grow up in a cult (though I did find myself living with one for a few months), I am a survivor of childhood s*xual abuse, years of poor choices, drug addiction, and failed relationships. How many times I have told myself I'll give myself 6 months to turn things around or I'll just end it. I'm still here though I don't know why
There is something comforting in giving yourself a deadline. It gives a sense of control over our pain. I remember I used to tell myself something very similar to what you're saying, but just by leaving this comment you've reached out and touched someone (myself) and made me feel less alone. You have inherent value even if you dont feel it or recognize it. Let's give it another 6 months random stranger on the internet ❤
What a Sound, level headed, positive intelligent and inspiring woman. It was so great to hear your story and about the positive life you have made for yourself, after all you have been through. Thank you so much for sharing. I will be looking out for your book.
I'm having trouble empathising with her. And I don't mean like I don't believe her. It's more like the casual way she talks about very traumatic events like she's telling someone else's story, sound almost dissociative, like she's trying to sell me something. Gives me the eek, bad vibes or wtv, can't put it into words 😅 maybe I'm imaginjng things but I've learnt to trust my gut by now.
She is absolutely trying to sell you something. Your gut is bang-on correct here. I honestly cannot believe some of the comments I'm reading under this video. If you look her up, it's a lot of run of the mill sheisterism but what she's doing to her children is absolutely sick.
This cult was huge. Lots of people in it. I cannot speak for everyone but I was born in it and I assure you some of the things she is telling are lies. I think she does it to sell her crap. I'm not defending the cult or nothing. But this annoys me
Her no-nonsense, totally detached, objective description of all of this is so valuable to avoiding falling into this. I’ve never seen a cult survivor so plainly describe everything that goes on.
If you knew anything about psych, you'd realize it's not uncommon for abuse survivors to have an unhealthy attachment to sex & themselves. It takes a LIFETIME of therapy to unlearn all the abuse & brainwashing. No doubt she probably has some unhealthy things she doesn't & isn't a damn saint, but she's doing her part by overall bringing awareness & giving inspiration. Stop being so judgemental. You haven't lived a day of her pain.
@@MelisJoyliving through growing up in a cult and seeing the family divided up by it, some completely with it and others ignoring.. it was never as bad as children of god for me but I feel her pain. The trauma I went through with that destroyed me I cannot imagine what she went through. Much love to onami ❤
She’s incredibly brilliant. And yes, she nailed the whole addressing of trauma. “When was the first time you had that feeling” EMDR has been helping me and I found one of my first abandonment memories thru that process. 3 years old and wow the feelings and experience just zoomed back. Loads of healing since then. Thanks for this video Mark. Loved how the focus was more on her experiences rather than just sexual abuse.
EMDR is amazing. Upon a terrible breakup with an ex I used to walk my dog and carry a little flashlight and wave it back and forth to keep coordination while walking so as not to think about what he did to me. White Noise and Nature really helps anyone with trauma....the Piano evokes natural emotions, as well; as trauma can make you as hardened as abusers (they hurt you for crying or having feelings) once away from 'that' - certain melodies can help you regress, naturally and 'identify' with a past memory without feeling threatened. I've "balled" after having to attach a moment of hardness with a memory to cry....its not allowed in some "areas"
While I feel for this woman and her past struggles, she now currently doesn't send her son (kids?) to school and doesn't home school them, claiming that she is letting them dictate their own life path. The kid is 6. This is abuse. I'm sorry girl, I'm so sorry for what you have gone through, but you are abusing your kids. You need help. More help.
Her childhood was so controlled that she's doing the complete opposite for her kid to compensate. Not saying it's right, but that's probably the explanation.
Wow! Another stunning story from this channel! Onami, with incredible articulateness and personality, gives us a reminder of the true strength and resiliency of the human spirit, even in the worst of circumstances. I don't know how you managed to get through it all, Onami, but I admire you for doing so.
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Mark you know she’s an online spiritual leader right??? You put on a wanna-be cult leader to talk about cults. Yet another case of little Mark doing the thinking. lol at least you know what “beautiful soul” really means to your subscribers 😂 🍑🍭 🍆🍆🍆🍆😉
You should share the link to her book
Thank you for sharing ❤
I've got to get this book😮
Thank you for exposing the REAL gr00m3rs in the world, there's a reason why religious people pretend like everyone they hate is a PDF file.
I was born into this cult also. 41 years later and I'm still trying to make sense and heal from all the trauma, brainwashing and neglect. I couldn't watch the whole interview because it brought up too much pain but I'm glad she's talking about it and raising public awareness.
I left 15 years ago. @softwhiteunderbelly could do an entire channel on our stories
I don't suppose you could get over something so awful happening to you. I hope things get better for you @ceceeatsall6883
Try to finish watching, it might really help you and lead you to healing.
Idk 🤷♂️
I was also born into this cult and left when I was 15 (I'm 36 now) There is nothing that someone can say to erase the trauma and most people have no idea the level of programming. Hope you're in a better place now. ❤
The strength of this woman is amazing. Inspiring interview.
💯💯💯💯.
Yes she is a very strong and courageous lady!
And intelligence and grace. Onami is extraordinary.
Noooooo! She is crazy AF!
Sure, but also if you look at her social media ... She's insufferable and damaging to others
I've watched a lot of content on this channel. This stands out as one of the best interviews. Her honesty is refeshing and she gave me a huge shot of hope. She survived serious trauma and survived to help others manage their trauma. Outstanding interview!
You should read her books. Mami Onami is a gamechanger
I totally agree, great subject & human being.
Mark has been given a gift, and can bring out the best/worst in everyone. Lol (mostly the best) 💕
How he doesn't become cynical & jaded is also another gift and something he's exercised it in one of the very best of ways!! He's got "thick skin" and appears to have genuine empathy. 💕😊
Xo- from Canada
What a great speaker. So enjoyable to listen to. I could visit with her for hours and hours
She sounds like Drew Barrymore! I love listening to this lady speak.
@@SheTwiceI was thinking she sounds exactly like Julia Fox
@ OH YEAH!!!!! You are right on
butt hole poo, pee pee butt hole fart
look her up! she has a youtube
This is probably my favorite interview you've done. She's amazing.
Probably great at sex too
Yeah and I find it so scary 😨 at the same time
She really is! She’s such a beautiful soul
Amazing strong intelligent woman!
I'm in love with her spirit!! Amazingly inspirational.
‘You will force others to abuse you if you don’t change your pattern’ …. Very very insightful
@@aussie4065 that's not insightful, that's blaming the victim
@atinemassare I think it implies more so that there is a point where no one but you can save yourself. In that specific context it was about self-sabotage
@iu.lia.na. I see your point and agree. at the same time, hers was a poor choice of words to express that then. Plus she said some other things along the same line like "stop consenting to beeing abused as a child". Same thing. So I get your point, but I'm not sure it is what SHE means. She has a victim blaming narrative.
@@atinemassare
*how dare you...*
How dare you think that this is in any way about your bloody view and opinion or stupid assessment of her highly personal choice of words?!!!!
Just shut TF up!
This is not about you!!!
SHE told HER STORY and she can f*cking say and formulate what ever she f*cking wants and how she fu*king feels it & thinks, CAUSE SHE'S TALKING, SO EVERYONE ELSE SHUTS UP!!!!
YOUSELF IS ACTUALLY RIGHT NOW VICTIM-BLAMING!
And nodody seriously wants to know your self-righteous sentiments, either!,
"Kleine Pissnelke, verdammte."
❌❌❌
@@atinemassareI think the advice was meant for people who were in a part of their journey of self discovery and healing where there is awareness of trauma but they have not fully realized awareness of being in control of their surroundings or being a protector of their own being
There is a special place in Hell for those who pervert Jesus and Christianty, especially to innocent children.
Absolutely. But that's never stopped the Catholic church now has it?
@kenosabi evil pedophile "priests" don't represent the catholic church, and the church itself doesn't represent Jesus. It's a hard distinction to learn. There are bad seeds in every establishment. If you gave a regular person a beethoven musical sheet, and they butchered it/ played it very badly, do you blame beethoven? It's sad because the only one who can actually save her(Jesus), she might never turn to, because, tragically, she associates Him to her trauma. (understandably so)
@nourtohme4998 Wheat and tares? Bull. 👎🏿
Like pastors , preachers, clergy, priest!
Sadly, perverting religion is far too common, not only in modern times, but in all of human history. Anytime you give someone that sort of power, it will be abused. I am not saying you can't be a good, moral person who follows a religion, but I am saying religion has justified a lot of hatred, abuse, suffering, manipulation and death since its inception.
Thank you for sharing your journey, Onami.
All the best and continued success in your life.
What a channel. Every single interview that I've watched instantly becomes my favorite. This girl just drips with strength and tenacity. She's a true inspiration. I'm a 47 yr old man, by the way. ✊
Great interview hearing someone figuring out how to truly live by dealing with and overcoming deep rooted abuse. Wishing her family all the best!
I don’t think much has been overcome. This channels fanbase will beleieve anything
It must have been unbelievably confusing for Onami to be in a structured society that was consistent and predictable, but ultimately unhealthy. Paradoxically, I think this gave her an advantage in improving the rules and structures in her life that benefited her once she put a complete stop to all the problems. People who grow up without any structure would likely have a harder time doing the same. She really has a voice for those who grew up in a structured but messed up situation.
Yes, “stop consenting to be sexually abused as a child” (@ 1 hour 07 mins) Yikes.
@jamienimitz6864 check out her website where she sells sex magic courses that will fix your life for thousands of dollars a year. She's a good salesperson. That's all.
Unfortunately she runs an MLM scam around spirituality and is TikTok famous for being the main "unschooling" parent.
It's crazy how predators can sense trauma and vulnerability. Its like they can smell it
I think there are behavioural patterns like unsupervised "freedom" or confusing deorientation of moral dilemmas and dangers, otherwise warnings that parents are suppossed to provide, and that builds into a somewhat excessive sense of trust, which would be leathal, especially when you are so young.
For instance, I was taught since I can even start to remember, that you don´t talk to other adults alone you, especially adults, and that you walk away from them if they insist in talking to you. This "rule" actually saved my life when I was 8 years old as I believe I was a target to be kidnapped when a young girl started calling me from a car while I was on the swings outside my aunty´s, just like in the movies.
Do you think that is because it started with trauma and vulnerability for them? Meaning, that’s how they became predators?🤔
Narcissistic demons, energy vampires, emotional vampires. Its real, its ancient.
Its actually not crazy at all. It makes perfect sense. Predators in the wild can smell and sense trauma/ vulnerability, why would humans be any different? We are natural predators.
It's usually pretty obvious. Most vulnerability comes down to basic stupidity, and people tend to have a very hard time hiding that, as they lack the intelligence to do so. More sophisticated people don't remain vulnerable for long, because we're able to identify our own flaws and deal with them accordingly.
I’m so HAPPY I listened to this interview. THANK YOU SO MUCH MARK FOR POSTING THIS!
This made me cry a bit. Im 41 and still healing from SA. I was 6 years old, and it lasted for a year, then it happened again at 8..i was an alcoholic for 16, used drugs, i was in a gang when i was younger in and out of jail. Im sober from everything, but this abuse is the hardest thing to move past. When she said the part about a destructive pattern. I noticed i still do this. Its not as bad. But its still there. Im far better than i was 10 years ago. But im still struggling with it. Thank you for this. ❤. I have Cptsd. Im a huge introvert, im a single father of three kids. I never let anyone into my life, just like her. Because its hard to trust people.
There’s always the 12 steps, just a suggestion❤
What is SA?
Man I want you to know that you are NOT alone. CPTSD is the worst thing I've ever experienced and I feel so deeply what you say about it never going away. I'm 25 now and every day is ruled by flashbacks and anxiety and I too isolate myself and fear people in general. I feel like I'll never get anywhere in life because I'm still frozen in time as a child being abused.
@@Tito_The_Alien Sex abuse.
Here’s to meeting likeminded people. I was a little bit younger, at 4, from my uncles. Even though I have an amazing spouse, I’ve never healed from it. I’m definitely going to get her book. She gave me inspiration & hope to heal myself, finally. No more pushing it away.
I hope the best for you. I hope that you can forgive yourself and become the best version of yourself. ☺️
“Tell me a story or two, before I let you go,” is something I want to say to her until she runs out of stories. I love her spirit, energy, and message. I love her delivery. I love her verve. I love her authenticity and frankness. I just really love her. Thanks for sharing your unreal story, Onami, and thanks for giving her the platform to do so, Mark. I am a very open-minded person but, in all honestly, if I passed Onami in the street before hearing her story, I probably would’ve made unfair snap judgments about her. Maybe because of the tattoos, maybe because of other less visible factors. After hearing her story, and learning about how resilient and intelligent and articulate and beautiful she is, I can’t believe I was so quick to make negative judgements. This is exactly why your videos are so important, they challenge our preconceived ideas and snap judgements even when we don’t know we need that challenge. Thanks again for all you do.
You don't need to learn more about other people to not be ok with yourself making negative judgements. You don't need to sympathize with ones story to know your limits of consciousness. There are soo many who grew up in deprivation of mature adults. That comes in many different shapes and always plasticizes a children's brain. Do not make negative judgements ever about things that have nothing to do with you.
There are many people who won't even be able to name what has happened to them ever. Not everyone is capable of telling their story or two..
@@PalinaZI second this! I also wanted to add that most of us tattooed individuals are good people. Never judge someone by what’s on the outside or in.
I follow her on Instagram and Spotify podcasts. I’m so happy I found her
Check out her website, that'll validate your initial feeling. She now runs a 'spritual' MLM scam.
good for you. being introspective enough to admit that you would have judged. its also important to note, however, she's being interviewed. she's at her best. we DONT know If she's truly a good and kind person. judgement can be an effective tool. just like everything else, there is a line and spectrum.
this woman is the definition of years of cult - smooth talking, persuasive, and inspiring. Bet she is making millions selling that book
@@ThemistoclesAD she has literally said that she is the best witch of the north or something like that 🤣 look it upppp. Ego up the wahoo
Yes yes all the nonfiction authors making millions, that’s a very common thing 🙄
There’s so many good speakers on this channel lately, it’s moving as hell
Agreed. o_0
It’s crazy how well thought out they are from the back grounds they come from. You would think they would have been mentally broke by now.
It's almost as if he's looking for such speakers on purpose
Imagine having to escape from a cult at the age of thirteen, and build your own life from scratch.
I will never complain about anything in my life again, ever...
This channel does a great job teaching us empathy and compassion.
“Cleanup in aisle 5”…I love you. We are very similar although I wasn’t born into a cult. But I personally relate to much you have discussed. You are wise and brave. Much respect and I wish you and your loved ones all love and abundance now and into the future. You helped ME today…Thank you!🙏❤️
This is the best interview yet in my opinion! What an amazing person you are! You are so well spoken. It's hard to imagine that you missed any education!
And yet she does the same to her kids - see this about her " unschooling" her kids on Hannah Alonzo's youtube video ua-cam.com/video/SMvIZJjqy-E/v-deo.htmlsi=vBvMEeeuO0MsuonW
She’s a famous unschooler on tik tok and her children cannot read or write.
Homeschooling>Public Schooling.
@@narcisisticka_zloupotreba. Unschooling is nothing like a cult, it allows the child to develop and pursue his/ her natural interests, it’s freedom vs the so called education system which indoctrinates children to be obedient slaves, the whole school system os set up like a prison. There is NOTHING natural about making children sit in a box for eight hours a day learning nothing of actual use in the natural world. Wakey, wakey!
@@KingSilly sure, but this is UNSCHOOLING. She does not teach anything. The children will only learn to read if/when they want to.
There are 5million commentary videos on why this lady is setting her children up for a hard life. It’s honestly really sad. Unfortunate she’s getting air time.
Initially, I was entranced with her story, her energy, and her positivity. Then I took a look at her website. Gross. I find it troubling that she’s hustling people trying to recover from arguably the worst thing one could experience.
@@paxywindhund2371 exactly!!!!!!
What do you mean?
This is the unschooling lady! Omg! I better understand her whole point of why she chose this school structure idea. And after cringing so hard at her before this, I feel bad. I didn’t know but now I completely get why she’s seems so genuinely proud of her sons accomplishments with learning. It all makes so much more sense now! Guess we really don’t know people like we think most of the time. Wow just crazy! And so disturbing how many people comment on cult content and say they were raised or born into cults! Way too many! Who knew it’s so prevalent!?!
Yes, she is!
She is still spreading her cult following - check out her website!
yea she has a channel on you tube she is great
If you check out her web page, she sells sex magic and other "spiritual" teachings.... like... She got out of a cult.... and made her own...
@@MegaCatlady66 What is her channel?
" I never knew I was making selections for my life based on my childhood"This is the most profound thing I have heard in a long time.
Mark I'd have to say this is one of the best interviews you've ever done! Thank you for sharing your experience😊😊
That's a revelation to you?
@@funkymunky that whole segment, something just clicked.
Yea, in fact it is.....I am learning about how I have CPTSD
@@funkymunky go away!
@@lolybird77We all interpret things differently, and u don't need to explain yourself to anyone😊 I related to a lot of wat she said myself, and I'd love to hear more of her stories!❤
@@funkymunky: are you asking?… because the person just shared how it is the most profound thing she has heard in a long time; so, no, you are not asking; but how kind of her or him to answer to you anyway.
Her story is so sad and i am truly sorry she suffered so much abuse. The truth is that the abuse cycle has not ended with her. I pray she continues to heal and starts making better decisions for her own children. Her form of "unschooling" is very negligent, to say the least. Not even teaching children to read is abusive, in my humble opinion. I do feel such empathy for her, though. I pray she heals and does better for her children.
Right, she talks about not being allowed to go to school inside the cult and yet her kids can’t go to school either.
My kids didn't go to school and they are smarter and more successful than most! My youngest did have to go to school and she is very disappointed that she did! She also is successful but missed out in creative and joyful experiences. @GarbanzoBean23
She is very articulate, intelligent, empathetic and exudes warmth - her children will be fine.
Unschooling is homeschooling, which gives a child the most freedom to learn and pick up vital life skills, including reading writing and maths, all while being in the least indoctrinating environment.
@@moonandmakery unschooling is not homeschooling. people who do one, really do not use these words synonymously. homeschooling calls for education in a home environment (either by teachers or parents who put effort into creating structure and content for kids to learn). Unschooling is a very different, deeply concerning practice common among neglectful parents. there is a good video id recommend if ud like ua-cam.com/video/3rR3HbuP6I8/v-deo.html&ab_channel=ThatLizHunter
Magnifique entrevue. Une des femme les plus inspirantes que j'ai vu sur la chaîne. Quelle belle personne🙏
En effet.
Son enfant a six ans et peux a peine écrire un mot et en lire un. Elle a décider de pas le laisser aller a l'école et elle poste sur l'internet comment elle est fière que son fils a écrit "egg" a six ans. Pas une Belle personne.
On est d'accord. o_0
This is one strong, insightful and intelligent young woman! I hope her message can get through to those who need to hear it. She is a beautiful soul!
She is ruining her children's lives. It is so much worse than you know.
Omg! Your picture at the end of the interview is ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, LOVE IT❤️
As soon as I saw the title I knew it was the Children of God.
God has no children just creations.
Or the protestant church down the road,both are cults!
@@VikCalo It was the old name of the cult. Today they call themselves The Family International.
Gods dead mate @@VikCalo
@@DarkbluedevilSure it is.... 🤪🙄😒
This is one of the best interviews you have had in a long time.
Amen ❤
She’s a good speaker but she also knows how to speak bc she was in a cult. Look her up to learn more. And check out dissenting comments
This was really good. I learned a lot from this, especially her talking about the difficulty of dealing with everything she experienced.
I dodged a bullet way back in 1982. I was hanging with the Rainbow folks. Weird weird group. Finally knew it wasn’t for me and left. I am amazed by your story. So happy for you!!
Rainbow family isn’t exact same cult or even foundationally related, rainbows were allowed to travel to other festivals and be in public and meet and share the public to procure clandestine chemists. More like this cults baby brother/sister.
@ I was involved with the Rainbow family for the better part of a decade. While I was technically free to come and go, I lived with a core group of them, and had to go along with what the group decided. We ran a restaurant. We didn’t get pay, but I got to eat and a place to sleep on the floor. Once on the way to a gathering, the “elder” I was traveling with decided that I k and my younger sister) needed to put some money into the gas tank… knowing full well I didn’t make any money… so my sister and I got out of the van in the middle of the night ( while they were sleeping in the air conditioned hotel) and hitch hiked up to the gathering site. That ended my involvement with them. I wasn’t saying they were a proper “cult” I was implying they were a stepping stone in that direction, and I was glad to get away from them.
At a festival waiting in line , a rainbow bus pulled in behind us . That was 20 years ago . There must have been 60 people on the bus . Party on 😊
I went to a rainbow gathering in the early 2000s. I never knew it was a cult! But it makes sense It was horrible, nothing particular, just everything sucked, bad food, bad music, bad conversations, and I think being stuck there in the middle of nowhere for days made it even worse, and the no money thing was lame. When I got home I brushed out my dreads, quit smoking weed and became a reformed hippy. I still get freaked out being around rainbow family people for some reason.
@@Just.A.T-Rex I disagree. spent time on the commune (long story wound up there by accident hitchhiking) can tell you, its a cult and lots of bad bad things
River Phoenix’s parents were part of this cult.
Rose McGowan as well.
@@Parrotgirl-tattooI didn't know that.
A lot of people were in & out. I know the Phoenix kids were in much longer. There was a movie when river was young where the family had to live in South America because the dad was a 60s radical on the run. I remember it came out then that River had a similarly complicated youth. I do blame the cult for his alcohol & drug use, and ultimately his death. And I know Joaquin has some issues, but tbh the age gap between them is huge, I don’t think Joaquin is old enough to remember much.
Why him and Joaquin obviously have and had so many problems and I believe due to the cult they were sold to the film industry which catapulted them into stardom.
@@standdownrobots_ihaveoldglory The Mosquito Coast
She’s still the kid selling stuff on the side of a road.
She learned individual capitalism, instead of shilling for a cult.
I love this woman. Started following her on instagram during my own journey to healing. Never knew her story, she’s incredible and her resilience is inspiring. The part where she said I have my children full time no one has them but me I resonate with SO MUCH. I came from a SA home from a family member and it’s taught me you cannot trust ANYONE with your babies. They will be with me full time also. No daycares or babysitters or other humans are raising my children. Not ever.
wheres their father?
Shes a scammer just like all those alpha males shilling "get rich courses"
Because of your background, you understandably may feel like NOBODY can be trusted with your kids, but there are many, many good people out there who CAN be trusted. Finding those people is one of the great joys of life.
Can you tell me her ig please
@@johns3106sadly, it is often the people we trust the most that abuse us 💔
I was really impressed by this interview and Onamis charisma. But as already mentioned by another viewer in a comment: Going on her webside I was really perplexed by how she presented her own worldview and offers: For example: "You cannot go from Level One to Level Two without being initiated by a teacher. You can’t bring your own robe into a temple and call yourself a monk. You have to be initiated. Initiation is what I do." Oeh.
Escaped a cult just so she could start her own 😢
What a great tactic for getting people to join your cult.
im sorry do you know the definition of a cult?? if so, you’d very easily grasp the fact that that’s absolutely not what she does. would you consider an astrology lifestyle subscription program a cult?! something you have a choice to be in/pay for or not??? yall are so dense i stg
she literally uses ennegrams, human design, and astrology amongst other things to create an achievable life path….its not a fucking cult
I think it more so comes from a place of having gone through the worst of the worst thus being certified to help others walk through fire. People often do need guides and rites of passage to get from step A to step B. It’s often the people who had to find their own way who can best offer what they did not receive
WOW!! Onami, an authentic human being. What a gift you are to the world. Stay strong Sis.
I'm so happy you got Mami on! Been following her for a while now
Me too!
Onami has taught me so much about dealing w/trauma & personal growth.
An absolutely amazing & beautiful soul
So glad to see her sharing here❤
yeah from her website it looks like she is now running her own cult
what's her website?
Girl, you don't realize how much you've just validated my experience and feelings. Thank you, for sharing your story.
I sympathize and empathize with her trauma BUT she’s like an infomercial spokeswoman.. I feel as if she’s not organic, she knows what to say and how to say it to win people over. It’s a perfected act. Just my opinion.. it’s like she’s “selling” her story
I felt the same way in certain parts of this interview. The speech doesn't feel totally natural it feels like a bit of a scheme. I then looked her up on social media and her website and was confirmed.
Good catch
People, she talks about the same thing over and over so it sounds "rehearsed".
dude right!? It’s like she charmed everyone in the comments. Her eyes and magnetism. The way she smiles. Something about her deters me. And sometimes I think I’m in the wrong, but for some reason I can’t shake that feeling. But sometimes I think it’s cause she’s confident in herself, but when I first came across her on instagram I got a feeling there was something else behind her words.
She is an author and life coach. It's natural because if you follow her, you'll know she has spoken about her experience many times. It's like saying Kamala Harris sounds scripted at her rallies. She knows what she wants to say and how to say it because she's said it many times before. It's just the first time you're hearing it on this forum.
This is by far the most amazing interview you’ve ever done!!!!!
She earns $80,000 a month selling her "alchemy" business classes, all centered around Enneagram-based insights.
But who buys this stuff? Are there really so many people just... wishing?
Yup she's a con artist
@@clairsentientrealm7203 How is it a scam to help people live better lives in alignment with their personality type?
@ that’s not what she’s selling.
Damn so no only fans
what an awesome human being, brought me to tears at the end, her healing and light is contageous! cannot wait to get her book!
So I just searched her up on UA-cam and as sad as it is she had a bad childhood she’s still an insane person. Seems like she’s trying her best to make her own cult now.
Do you know what cult means?
@@carly582 ahhh we found one of her followers lol
I think the same. Something seems off.
Yup, you can see in the eyes
I have seen her on IG in the past. She is a 'life coach' and sells this system on how to face your trauma type thing.
I thought it was off.
But getting the backstory here changes my perspective a little.
“I hope you like scheduling” - cracked me up… the simple comedic outlook within a dark environment.. humor truly helps us through…
Doesn't help the fact she still got the crazy eyes. People in the comments pointing out that she sells a course about sex magic.
I had a friend who claims his dad was a cult leader. I thought he was joking till he took me home. His dad actually ran a cult.
Okay... Now, what does that tell us? 🤔🙄🤔
Very quick start and and finish to that story 🤣🤣
Read about Elizabeth Fritzel that was held prisoner by her own father for 24 years and had 5 kids in that dingy basement..
I once went on an epic journey. Then I came back home.
Big hole in the middle, like a donut.
Her eyes are the most insane shade of blue- she’s so pretty!!
The cult clearly thought the same
Gross
@@EllaGreenn my eyes are like hers. People always say I have contacts. My family is 99% Swede.
@@witchyfarmgirlI know crazy eyes when I see them!
She looks like any other yte woman lol
Onami is a great teacher, wheels reinvented workshop was super healing... thank you for having the courage to sharing your story! wow
I can't love this episode anymore. I'm so excited about this book. THANK YOU ❤
my favourite person on instagram i'm so happy to have watched this thank you for sharing Onami ❤
Sorry, but this seemed like a total blender... Someone who has learned her way with words... lots of empty buzzwords, I missed genuine insight.
I don't deny she may have gone through horrific experiences. Absolutely possible.
But be aware of people who promise a quick fix for deep rooted trauma.
Yup
Dude, I just wrote a comment saying she gives me a bad vibe, after I read so many comments of people feeling "inspired". Your comment felt like validation, thanks
Right she “teaches” ppl “sex magic” now on IG and drinking her period blood 😳 yea! I’m not kidding….and she’s not really a very nice person, I’ve had an interaction with her AND she lets and promotes her “followers” to attack you en masse if you “disagree” or challenge anything she says 🙄
She clearly is still lost
@@silliestful ' Teetotaled ' isn't a word and when criticising somebody for not knowing something about language , it seems hypocritical if you don't know how to use that language yourself . Teetotalism is the practise of being abstinent from alcohol, practising it makes one' teetotal'.
God, I adore her. So happy to hear more about her story. Thank you for having her on!
The sooner people teach their children that the world revolves around Money #1 Sex #2 and drugs #3 and teach them that’s not what living or being alive revolves around but helping, showing people you love love. Being kind of a stranger and treating everyone how you want to be treated the much better that child will be prepared to go out in this world and not be taken advantage of, hurt and lied to by anyone. As of 2024 most parents are teaching they kids to want to be better then everyone else or push the parenting on others because they are to busy with social media or running around town and/or being a addict.
This is my absolute favorite you've done. I actually saved this in it's own category as "real therapy s***". She hit me hard. I really needed this. Thank you
I don’t even remember signing up for this, but I get an email like every day from her… lol. It almost seems like she is a cult leader herself in some ways.
Or at the very least- she makes some really big promises of making a lot of money if you sign up for her very expensive course. 😅
It figures
I also got a cult vibe
Yep…. Just commented basically the same thing haha
If you check her website, she's trying to sell herself as an esoteric teacher. There are levels costing absurd amount of money or 10% of your income promoting magic etc. I got that exact vibe, that she took her understanding of cultish control and is trying to be an influencer making money the same way. I'd laugh if I wasn't so concerned for the those who believe this shit
Ask her students how her courses work out for them. They're great! No problem charging what you're worth. If you have the goods and can deliver, who's to say you shouldn't?
By far, my favorite interview yet! Thank you Onami for sharing your story, but even more importantly, for sharing your healing!! ❤
Great interview. One of the best on the channel. I couldn’t stop watching.
@@wryderdie26 it’s kinda like she was in a cult and learned a thing or two lol
I believe this is the most impactful vid you've aired. What a blessing she is in helping people heal and reclaim themselves and their lives. Sending love and strength and celebration
Dream and Jake were incredible too! Check them out if you can ❤
She's not. Look at her website. She's selling snakeoil. She's started her own religion basically (mixed with others).
Absolutely one of my favorite speakers and my favorite videos. Thank you for sharing!
She has a UA-cam !
@@cassidypainterxocan you put her link on please?
@@cassidypainterxo What is her channel name?
What a beautiful spirit! Thank you for inspiring me to heal from my own “cult” story - being born and raised and didn’t leave until I was 33 with my 3 small kids. I really appreciate you and your strength to show us healing is possible.
I felt the truth of your story. Thank you! Looking forward to reading your book when it becomes available
You have to let us know when her book is out. I can't wait to read it.
This is by far the best interview. What an inspiring woman thanks for sharing this
This woman is such an inspiration and a joy to listen to. I’m so happy I clicked on this video
great interview. i have to admit ive been watching your channel since you first started because im fascinated by horrific trama. maybe it makes me feel better about my own. but this interview was so positive and truly inspiring. This woman deserves everything she has worked so hard for and more. thanks Mark and Onami xx
@@aliciahicks8020 ive seen it. she seems very confused and desperate to suggest Marc is a predator and has some sick agenda.
The thing i think should be known about this woman is she isolates her children and lives in a very cultish way still.
She doesnt let them go to school, or the doctor, doesn't vaccinate, drinks her own urine, does unschooling because she doesnt want her kids to be influenced by the outside world.
Unschooling is where you teach children what theyre interested in. So her kids are far behind in education.
The way she responds to critism is just cult talk. " Anti society, my sons free others are not"
She sells courses on sex magic and strange hippy spirituality.
I think people that are raised in cults fall victim to cult mentality
Yes. The whole unschooling issue here is awful. I do not understand why she is denying her children an education.
This interview is the biggest hustle I’ve heard on SWU. It’s exhausting. It’s very sad that she was raised in a corrupt and depraved environment and carries an unbelievable amount of trauma.
How is it a hustle?
What do you mean by hustle? Just curious
@@Solitaire427look up her website lol
Look at her website. It's an obvious hustle.
@@Furry_lil_goblin so many parts of her story seemed really off. I wasn’t believing any of it. Wonder if Mark checks out any of these stories he puts up on his channel.. I was skeptical in just the first few minutes
I can not say more about how excellent your UA-cam channel is. Great work that is an empty term but, it is true.
what is her UA-cam channel please?
I found this interview to be very fascinating. Onami is certainly a very intelligent and interesting woman who's been through a lot. What I found most intriguing is the fact that literally nothing worked for her to help her get over her past--therapy, psychedelics, etc--until she found her own way, the way that works for her. She's found "answers" and she's smartly turned it into a business to "help others."
With this in mind, I'd suggest that everyone who watched this video to take a look at her website. You can decide for yourself what to make of it. But let me just say this: IMO, when you're selling access to knowledge about woo woo "sex magic" systems that claim to help you to have a better sex life, to "build financial prosperity", to "self-actualize", or to find God, I don't see how this is fundamentally different from something like "prosperity Christianity" or, worse yet, cult construction.
Maybe I'm just too cynical about these things. But consider this: at one point in the interview, she talks about not wanting her business practice to become a cult. That's all well and good and I hope she sticks to her guns. At the same time, she has first hand knowledge of how cults work and the psychological tools that they use to convince people to open their wallets. She has an "experience PhD" in these things. Just saying...beware. Have a good day.
You make some very good points. It may be intuitive, or unintentional, after all she was raised to frame existence in this manner. Like all the teenage grifting using the female teenage sexuality as the hook. If this is how years of your life was spent, it seems like it would be the most familiar tools one has to work with. In her story, she locked that toolbox and tried to “teetotal”-yet she was an alcoholic and tried heroine and used cocaine. How is that teetotaling? It’s not, unless you are talking about using the tools you developed from being in the cult. She failed to thrive without the tools. She is successful now because she is not teetotaling anymore, although she is likely straight edge. It is a conundrum but if you listen to her-she pretty much says the quiet part out loud, many people don’t hear it.
Meh…her website seems like bullshit.
@@Samuel-m4x6tCan you tell me the name of it ?
@@kimkjrulff1731 Just click on the link below the video that takes you to her book. It will also take you to her website.
@@badmuddafadda Agreed.
BTW if you are inspired by this woman, I just wanna let you know the other side of her life. She sells her book and courses for a lot of money and she has created her own cult, but in a different way. For example she has an esotheric course about s*gggs magic (I have no idea wtf this is). Recently she has decided to unschool her son. She did not send him to school and her son cannot read and write at the age of six. By "can't" i mean AT ALL , he cannot read even the simplest words. And he is doomed, because he is not gonna be able to go to college (in order to do so in almost any country incl USA you need a proof that you have finished school and you have some level of education). She does not care about that and a lot of people are following her advise and taking their kids out of school. One again, she is NOT homeschooling, she in UNschooling, her children have no textbooks or anything. And she claims that she is a witch. So just think about it and don't jump to conclusions about someone based on one interview. In my opinion she is not a survivor, she is the face of the cult. She has learned everything there and created her own cult based on her dramatic story about escaping from another one, because she wanted to be at the top of the cult, to be a leader and influence people rather than being influenced by someone.
I can't wait to read her book when it comes out!
I first heard of this cult in about 2005 when Ricky Rodriguez was in the news. If you don't know his story, I suggest looking him up.
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Yea they renamed themselves family international, their still around just more active in countries that tolerate or are corruption of officials allow them to operate. Their communes get raided now & then in europe & south america ..Karen berg is still in leadership & like her husband leads the organization in secret very few members see her. Thats why her own son ricky ( davido) couldn't find her when he went out to kill.
@theOneWhoTradez why is Ricky Rodriguez so funny to you ? He's not here to defend himself 😅 is an imbecile comment.
Parents born during certain years are very good at denying what has happened to their children even when it’s right in front of them. It’s the biggest breach of trust and the hardest to get over.
Thank you for sharing , you are so awesome ! I’m going to have to get your book ✨ let’s close this book on inner child trauma!
I grew up in a similar situation in Southern California… not the same one but every kid was to give their virginity to the elder. It been a crazy thing to survive. Born in ‘82 and I’ve see this literature. I was prostituted from 11-14 until I told and the state took me.
I hope you are okay. So glad that you weren’t just returned to your abusers like many are.
Such a painful life & she speaks so beautifully about her story. Wishing only good things to Onami & her family ✨
This woman's website looks exactly like a cult website with literal pyramid schemes and stuff about sex magic?? Ironic much?
Glad I'm not the only one. My comment was deleted when I asked earlier.
Who is she ?
I checked her insta. I’m glad she’s happy and knows what she wants. But every clip seems like she’s trying to sell you something (her character, her ideas, her book, her lifestyle). She’s a saleswoman.
Pretty much. Her eyes are dangerous
@@slide5039 exactly
Her Mother not only knew she was being sexually abused, her Mother was perfectly aware that sexual abuse was rampant within the cult and didn't do one damn thing about it.......Top Dog status was more important to her. Of course she denies it. Thay. All. Do.
Children of God were also in Australia in the middle - late 70's. I used to see their pamphlets and comic books everywhere.
They sure were blonde hair kids from memory
I love Onami!! So happy you have her on here ❤️
Addicted to the interviews on this channel. Truly some of the most inspiring and powerful storytellers. Their resilience is astounding.
Is it me or does she seem oddly detached from her experiences?
No. Everyone eats uo anything they view. everybody focus on superficial things like how beautiful she is or how beautifully she talks. Nobody questions how disingenuous she comes off.
She's worked through them. She's a life coach - she's written a book about it. She's great at what she does!
@@ghost_1153some of us legitimately talk like this. It’s nots survivors job to get you to believe it happened. Take it or leave it.
It’s not you, she’s very culty herself just dig deeper into her.
Onami's story really resonated with me. While I didn’t grow up in a cult (though I did find myself living with one for a few months), I am a survivor of childhood s*xual abuse, years of poor choices, drug addiction, and failed relationships. How many times I have told myself I'll give myself 6 months to turn things around or I'll just end it. I'm still here though I don't know why
Because you have a higher purpose ❤
There is something comforting in giving yourself a deadline. It gives a sense of control over our pain. I remember I used to tell myself something very similar to what you're saying, but just by leaving this comment you've reached out and touched someone (myself) and made me feel less alone. You have inherent value even if you dont feel it or recognize it. Let's give it another 6 months random stranger on the internet ❤
Magnesium and vitamin D helped me a lot. Also craniosacral therapy.
@ thank you. I can’t tell you how it feels just to be seen and heard, even for a moment. Take care too
Feel this. Shroomies have helped.
This is one of the best interviews you've done. Her level of self awareness, aas well as ability to articulate her experience, is staggering.
Respect!! Wishing you courage, faith, freedom, joy and prosperity.
Children of God is terrifying. Mark, glad you interviewed her. Brave woman
Def is ive seen some really crazy stories from.survivors it's huge, scary, and very much a real cult.anything other than "GOD" in these cults
Amazing interview. She is an amazing speaker and person. I hope you bring her back for another one.
this must be one of, if not, the best interview I have seen on this channel.
I cant believe shes so together after all that.i was mental mess for long time going through C/A.
I have been following mami onami on tiktok for years. Always love her insight and her wisdom on all sorts of topics. Thank you for sharing your story
What a Sound, level headed, positive intelligent and inspiring woman. It was so great to hear your story and about the positive life you have made for yourself, after all you have been through. Thank you so much for sharing. I will be looking out for your book.
Will you join the Church of Onami?
Only 10% of your income.
You are one of the best and most consequential storytellers I've ever heard or read. Your candor and self awareness are so laudable. Thank you, Onami.
When you first started to share, I heard RESPECT and I'm sure that was the key to your healing. Blessings
I'm having trouble empathising with her. And I don't mean like I don't believe her. It's more like the casual way she talks about very traumatic events like she's telling someone else's story, sound almost dissociative, like she's trying to sell me something. Gives me the eek, bad vibes or wtv, can't put it into words 😅 maybe I'm imaginjng things but I've learnt to trust my gut by now.
She is selling something. Check out her website. You can tell she was raised by a sex cult for sure.
She is absolutely trying to sell you something. Your gut is bang-on correct here. I honestly cannot believe some of the comments I'm reading under this video. If you look her up, it's a lot of run of the mill sheisterism but what she's doing to her children is absolutely sick.
This cult was huge. Lots of people in it. I cannot speak for everyone but I was born in it and I assure you some of the things she is telling are lies. I think she does it to sell her crap. I'm not defending the cult or nothing. But this annoys me
Her no-nonsense, totally detached, objective description of all of this is so valuable to avoiding falling into this. I’ve never seen a cult survivor so plainly describe everything that goes on.
I. LOVE. THIS. WOMAN.
she is phenomenally inspirational. ❤❤
This lady is kinda weird. She's offering lessons on "sex magic" on her website that claim to "level up your bank account"
If you knew anything about psych, you'd realize it's not uncommon for abuse survivors to have an unhealthy attachment to sex & themselves. It takes a LIFETIME of therapy to unlearn all the abuse & brainwashing. No doubt she probably has some unhealthy things she doesn't & isn't a damn saint, but she's doing her part by overall bringing awareness & giving inspiration.
Stop being so judgemental. You haven't lived a day of her pain.
@@MelisJoyexactly!
@@MelisJoyliving through growing up in a cult and seeing the family divided up by it, some completely with it and others ignoring.. it was never as bad as children of god for me but I feel her pain. The trauma I went through with that destroyed me I cannot imagine what she went through. Much love to onami ❤
@@MelisJoy
Cant believe you are excusing it.
Shes no dummy.
She’s incredibly brilliant. And yes, she nailed the whole addressing of trauma. “When was the first time you had that feeling” EMDR has been helping me and I found one of my first abandonment memories thru that process. 3 years old and wow the feelings and experience just zoomed back. Loads of healing since then. Thanks for this video Mark. Loved how the focus was more on her experiences rather than just sexual abuse.
EMDR is amazing. Upon a terrible breakup with an ex I used to walk my dog and carry a little flashlight and wave it back and forth to keep coordination while walking so as not to think about what he did to me. White Noise and Nature really helps anyone with trauma....the Piano evokes natural emotions, as well; as trauma can make you as hardened as abusers (they hurt you for crying or having feelings) once away from 'that' - certain melodies can help you regress, naturally and 'identify' with a past memory without feeling threatened. I've "balled" after having to attach a moment of hardness with a memory to cry....its not allowed in some "areas"
While I feel for this woman and her past struggles, she now currently doesn't send her son (kids?) to school and doesn't home school them, claiming that she is letting them dictate their own life path. The kid is 6. This is abuse. I'm sorry girl, I'm so sorry for what you have gone through, but you are abusing your kids. You need help. More help.
Her website is insane. I'm surprised there are so many positive comments.
Her childhood was so controlled that she's doing the complete opposite for her kid to compensate. Not saying it's right, but that's probably the explanation.
Wow! Another stunning story from this channel! Onami, with incredible articulateness and personality, gives us a reminder of the true strength and resiliency of the human spirit, even in the worst of circumstances. I don't know how you managed to get through it all, Onami, but I admire you for doing so.
I took every wrong way first ;)
articulation