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  • @JessicaKent
    @JessicaKent  3 роки тому +1171

    Please keep in mind Demi is finally telling her truth. This is her story to share, one the media ran with long before she fully understood what happened. Her music video ...recreated her OD night to a T..and yes that includes makeup from the night b4 the OD. She did not glamorize it. The video also has a trigger warning. Please do not fill the comment section with hate. If you don't like her..or her music..just don't watch today 🙏💚

    • @lynnspeelman5645
      @lynnspeelman5645 3 роки тому +14

      Excellent and valid point Jess!

    • @triciaannenewbury1122
      @triciaannenewbury1122 3 роки тому +14

      Very well put Jess. I am beyond glad I found your channel. God bless you and yours Jess.

    • @jaidenbelanager8424
      @jaidenbelanager8424 3 роки тому +12

      Yess, she is going through a lot, and we don’t need to be hating on her. If anything we need to be giving her so much love through this whole situation.

    • @boyztomen17
      @boyztomen17 3 роки тому +6

      OUT WIT THE DEVIL!

    • @meag_ken822
      @meag_ken822 3 роки тому +5

      THIS!!

  • @emilyward4388
    @emilyward4388 3 роки тому +1152

    I love that she got “survivor” tattooed on her neck where the tubes were. So powerful

    • @Rubester-cl6op
      @Rubester-cl6op 3 роки тому +5

      It’s beautiful!

    • @jenniferh7825
      @jenniferh7825 3 роки тому +2

      Me too!

    • @sarahserenity3872
      @sarahserenity3872 3 роки тому +7

      Thanks for pointing this out bcuz I missed that!

    • @samraddatz6002
      @samraddatz6002 3 роки тому +11

      I have the same tattoo so seeing her have that tattooed made me cry. I obviously have the tattoo for the same reason only I have it on my arm

    • @samanthacunningham30
      @samanthacunningham30 3 роки тому +5

      Hi just here to say that’s not correct she actually got a butterfly tattooed over her scar 💗💗💗

  • @kdemarco2010
    @kdemarco2010 3 роки тому +556

    I can only imagine how hard it was to turn one of the worst nights of her life into a music video. I'm sure it was extremely empowering but at the same time almost reliving it in a way I'm sure was incredibly traumatizing the same time. This was a strong decision making that video for sure

    • @Katelynn.R.B
      @Katelynn.R.B 3 роки тому +6

      She said it was actually really therapeutic n helped alot

    • @shannonmccarthy3461
      @shannonmccarthy3461 3 роки тому +1

      @pedro cortez when your goal is to help people then it's a no brainer she didnt do it for fame and attention if she did she would have done all this right after it happened not 2 years and show wanted to show how far she has come and to show other addicts after an overdose how far you can come so your comment is just ignorant

    • @shannonmccarthy3461
      @shannonmccarthy3461 3 роки тому

      @pedro cortez obviously you never had to deal with addiction or ever had an addict in your life which if thats the case im happy you dont because thats not something id wish on my own worst enemy but I think you're wrong

  • @alyssiaschiess
    @alyssiaschiess 3 роки тому +198

    the fact she tattooed “survivor” on her neck where the tubes were. chills.

  • @samgay9571
    @samgay9571 3 роки тому +459

    When I was in AA I got shit for smoking weed but I looked around one day and everyone was drinking red bull and smoking cigarettes and I'm just like yeah ok. 🙄

    • @tatianabaudean1633
      @tatianabaudean1633 3 роки тому +32

      Yup. I've never experienced that but I do see that the main message or view regarding addiction recovery is being 100% sober and maybe it works for a lot of people but personally I find myself able to manage a glass of beer and weed and that's definitely not a popular opinion but I'm proud of myself regardless what others think and also hope you're doing ok xx

    • @JessicaKent
      @JessicaKent  3 роки тому +48

      Im sorry anyone judged you 💚

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +17

      @@JessicaKent
      Especially in what is supposed to be a safe space, like AA!!!

    • @lynncrf
      @lynncrf 3 роки тому +7

      Exactly! I consider myself blessed to be missing the addiction gene. I wouldn't care if I never drank alcohol ever again, and I don't care about cigarettes or drugs either. Yet you can pry my dark chocolate and my tea from my cold dead hands. So everyone has something and IMO all drugs should be legalised.

    • @KatlynJShute
      @KatlynJShute 3 роки тому +3

      @@tatianabaudean1633 I’m the same! I use weed to manage my migraines which are debilitating. I also am okay with alcohol. I have no issues managing that socially but I’m still vigilantism it doesn’t become a problem. Sobriety is sobriety! It’s different for everyone and it’s no ones business!

  • @captaincmorgan
    @captaincmorgan 3 роки тому +269

    The fact she did her hair the same, her nails, makeup, her outfit, got the same phone, everything so spot on to recreate her overdose THAT accurately... my God I ugly cried. How cathartic it must've been for her, and I hope reenacting it like they helps her play the tape to the end anytime her sleeping tiger stirs.
    Demi is amazing. So grateful that she shared her story with us all 💕

    • @jenniferh7825
      @jenniferh7825 3 роки тому +15

      Absolutely. I just wish when she left the hospital at the end she was wearing something different. I got a weird sense of foreboding when I saw that, given how much effort she put into the rest of the video. It reminded me of when she didn’t sing the last lines of sober about getting help at one of her last performances before the OD. I don’t believe for a second she forgot the lyrics like she said. But maybe that’s just me reading too much into it!

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +1

      @@jenniferh7825
      I agree with all of that.

    • @crystalmasters8582
      @crystalmasters8582 3 роки тому +1

      Wow. Didn’t know that.

  • @kylieroth2326
    @kylieroth2326 3 роки тому +701

    Recovering does NOT need to be complete abstinence. Recovery is when you’re not hurting yourself/others with those things anymore. If Jess, Demi, anyone can smoke, moderately drink, as long as they are using those things responsibly. And right now they are. That’s what sobriety is. Responsibility.

    • @DozerfleetProd
      @DozerfleetProd 3 роки тому +29

      Some things are always harmful, even in small amounts. And abstinence should be the goal. However, that doesn't always mean that cold turkey is the answer. In fact, all too often, cold turkey is the worst way to approach something. The system shock of cold turkey is almost as bad as the poison itself.
      I still miss caffeine. But I now find Dr. Pepper way too gassy. Better to get it from tea or something, than go back to Dr. Pepper.

    • @victoriamahnke1755
      @victoriamahnke1755 3 роки тому +30

      I think it's different for everyone. I'm a year sober yet I'm now terrified of alcohol, because I know how badly I'd react. I can't just stop at one drink, once I get a taste my addiction takes over. I guess that's how my brain/body reacts. And for me, I'd rather be safe than sorry. I think it's about what boundaries a person is comfortable with. As long as you're happy, thriving, and staying true to yourself, that's recovery.

    • @kylieroth2326
      @kylieroth2326 3 роки тому +14

      @@victoriamahnke1755 yes! I’m so proud of you! For that year and for knowing yourself enough to know your boundaries!

    • @victoriamahnke1755
      @victoriamahnke1755 3 роки тому +5

      Thank you so much 💓

    • @seanmorgan2257
      @seanmorgan2257 3 роки тому +15

      If you are an addict and in recovery from alcohol the saying is 1 is too many 2 is not enough. When you have an addiction that is the problem you cannot control it, it controls you.

  • @ashleynicole7115
    @ashleynicole7115 3 роки тому +574

    I wish more people on social media were like you and your subscribers. The fact people dragged her name all over the internet as a “junkie” is so disgusting. People never understand someone else’s struggles, and it’s not their place to pass judgment on them because they turned to drugs to relieve those struggles. Thank you so much for this video Jess 🖤

    • @sarahstacy5746
      @sarahstacy5746 3 роки тому +3

      I didn't read passed the first 2 sentences and I'm gonna agree, there's a post by illthought (their channel) on here saying that when she od-ed it was just so funny but when it's ur mom, brother sister it's not an it connects it with mental illness and depression I can't remember word for word also the ones I do is the ways u lost both my mom & close the how I lost my brother so I can't keep repeating them however it is worth seeing the post but idk how to leave the link so just saying it would go great with one of the post Jess put up with treating addiction is treating a whole range of other things that people don't want to see they just want their daily gossip an someone to look down on when what their doing is worse in my opinion , words leave life long scars and wounds sometimes

    • @samanthajordan1817
      @samanthajordan1817 3 роки тому +1

      I loveeee being called a loser junkie lol..such ignorance

    • @lijntje266
      @lijntje266 3 роки тому +1

      also her geographer lost everything. nobody wanted to work with her anymore and everyone said it was her fault. so horrible how people are :(

    • @misseselise3864
      @misseselise3864 3 роки тому +6

      the only people worse than people calling her (and all other addicts) a “junky” is the ones that cared about her after her OD but puts down addicts they know irl

    • @mntlhlthaddtnstilltrying
      @mntlhlthaddtnstilltrying 3 роки тому +1

      @@lijntje266 choreographer? Doubt she had a geographer on tour.

  • @JessicaKent
    @JessicaKent  3 роки тому +6

    UA-cam made me cut out the music video. Im sorry! 😔

  • @shannonmccarthy3461
    @shannonmccarthy3461 3 роки тому +100

    So many people dragged her and called her a junkie and talked down on her for doing drugs and overdosing instead of thinking about the pain she was in they only focused on her overdose. People are so quick to judge so thank you for doing this video

    • @sydnerxx
      @sydnerxx 3 роки тому +1

      It was disgusting how people madefun of her for it.

  • @jenniferh7825
    @jenniferh7825 3 роки тому +268

    I thought the tubes in her neck were because the level of drugs in her system were so toxic they literally needed to remove them artificially by filtering and cleaning her blood with dialysis so that her liver and kidneys had a chance. I think that’s what she means by “closer than you know” - terrifying. I’m so glad you reacted. X

    • @tinacrick5067
      @tinacrick5067 3 роки тому +58

      “Closer than you know” means she literally almost died. She had 3 strokes, a heart attack and needed resuscitated a few times. I think the tubes are dialysis though you might be right on that one.

    • @jenniferh7825
      @jenniferh7825 3 роки тому +33

      @@tinacrick5067 that’s the point I was trying to make - for her to need dialysis tubes sewn into major arteries because her blood was so completely full of drugs that it was shutting down her organs, and that’s without mentioning the strokes and heart attacks - I had no idea how close to death she came and I guarantee the casual listener wouldn’t either. That was my interpretation of those lyrics. Her basically saying this was so much more than having my stomach pumped or being revived with narcan.

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 3 роки тому +2

      @@jenniferh7825 I don’t think that’s a thing.

    • @Steph.Robinson
      @Steph.Robinson 3 роки тому +28

      @@jenniferh7825 I've come here after watching the documentary first, and yes she was on dialysis to remove the toxins from her blood because her kidneys couldn't cope with breaking down all the toxins, she had 3 Dr's altogether, one managing the damage to her brain, one for her eyes and the other for the damage to her kidneys. They tried to put the tubes in her groin but it was too painful so they had to sew them into the arteries in the neck which would also prevent her from pulling them out

    • @TheReducedsodium
      @TheReducedsodium 3 роки тому +19

      @@dewilew2137 blood dialysis definitely is a thing

  • @bethanydrool
    @bethanydrool 3 роки тому +49

    I’m so glad her assistant found her. My sister luckily was found too and survived fentanyl laced drugs.

  • @litgirlablaze3432
    @litgirlablaze3432 3 роки тому +41

    Being a functional addict is full of shame. It’s crazy she asked “does everyone know?” When she wakes up!? Like not even “what happened” because it’s so full of embarrassment and shame. It’s sad I hope over the years the stigma changes.

  • @XXallycat101XX
    @XXallycat101XX 3 роки тому +62

    I had a 5-year addiction that almost killed me multiple times and I overdosed multiple times and two years ago I was able to quit. Just last week I had contacted the person to get it again cuz I was going to relapse and tell my self that I wont abuse it the way I did and when this music video came out I chose not to and told them nevermind.

    • @joysanders59
      @joysanders59 3 роки тому +2

      Praise God!

    • @SkivbarKaviar
      @SkivbarKaviar 3 роки тому +1

      Good for you!!!

    • @mazzle927
      @mazzle927 3 роки тому +2

      Very powerful and strong of you. My problem is one of my drugs dealers is a friend of mine whom I help financially so he doesn't starve/ can feed his son and daughter but he always ends up paying me back either by 50% with money or 100% if not more but with crystal and I simply can't turn that down yet...and then that ends up with me buying tar or Xanax so I can sleep each night...I wish I had your strength

    • @The_Lion_And_The_Lamb
      @The_Lion_And_The_Lamb 3 роки тому +6

      @@mazzle927 I don’t have any of the friends I had when I was using. I had to let them go. They didn’t miss ME, just what I could help them with. Would this person still be your friend if you stopped helping them? You can buy the food and give it to them rather than the money for the food. Plus there’s food pantries & churches & food stamps they can go to for food. A friend, even if they are a true friend, isn’t worth losing your life for. Pray when you are tempted (if you are a believer). It helped me. I still have my struggles every day but I hate to see somebody using because of their loyalty to a friend. Would this friend do the same for you if they were in your shoes? Just something to think about. I’ll pray for you if you want me to. God bless ✝️

    • @hannalowercase5928
      @hannalowercase5928 3 роки тому +1

      i'm so proud of you

  • @laurenm7898
    @laurenm7898 3 роки тому +90

    weed helped me get through my coke addiction. whatever works is better than giving up.

    • @star_fruitti
      @star_fruitti 3 роки тому +14

      It’s helped me so much with my alcoholism, I’m so thankful that cannabis works for me and that it helps so many others ♥️

  • @beccam510
    @beccam510 3 роки тому +50

    Every time she would say “stay safe, stay sober” I would feel kinda weird cause I smoke weed and I almost felt like I was letting her down, and now knowing she smokes too idk makes me feel better

    • @samdp42
      @samdp42 3 роки тому +2

      I like that she changed it. But like she said sober doesn’t mean abstinence.

  • @JSandwich13
    @JSandwich13 3 роки тому +60

    The music video broke me. I've never been addicted to anything but I struggled with sh and trauma from csa like demi did as well as an ED and God it just hit home seeing her like that. Its so powerful and she's really helping to bring awareness and understanding to addiction and mental health struggles
    I've always loved her for that.

  • @lexjane4457
    @lexjane4457 3 роки тому +64

    There’s a whole “ controversy” and people are actually upset that she re-created her overdose, her OWN OD...for her video. I think it is such a powerful video I loved it

  • @parisinthe30sx
    @parisinthe30sx 3 роки тому +120

    Her song "sober" always hits me in the feels. I admire how open she is about her addiction. she's one tough and brave woman who has been through a lot, and I hope and pray she continues to get better. I wish I would have went california sober, instead I joined a MMT center, which has been a blessing as well as a curse.

    • @ruhsaanjones4750
      @ruhsaanjones4750 3 роки тому +3

      When I first heard that song...I thought " Sometimes you just don't know how people really feel inside ".

    • @Alexiane067
      @Alexiane067 3 роки тому +1

      And knowing she wrote this song when she had already relapsed is so sad 😞

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +1

      @@Alexiane067
      I agree..... But maybe it was MORE cathartic for her this way?
      We'll never really know. 😔
      when that part of the documentary came, I literally threw up. I've not been able to watch the music video in its entirety without being sick either.
      🙏 Prayers UP for Demi!!!!!!!

    • @misseselise3864
      @misseselise3864 3 роки тому +1

      same. listening to “sober” then “dancing with the devil” is soul shaking

    • @annabelcrescibene4257
      @annabelcrescibene4257 3 роки тому +1

      @@misseselise3864 try sober, anyone, dancing with the devil, ICU, art of starting over and then California Sober. Heartbreaking and beautiful

  • @katleger8484
    @katleger8484 3 роки тому +9

    When you mentioned “who are we to judge how someone recovers from addiction” it’s so true and I see it a lot from people who have never dealt with it more than people who have.

  • @Okkkkkkk-ol5kz
    @Okkkkkkk-ol5kz 3 роки тому +38

    For the people in my life that have been in recovery, sober did mean abstinent. They *couldn’t* just drink in moderation. “It’s just a little red wine, I’ll be fine.” And the whole first verse really hammers home why sober *can’t* include drinking for many people.
    Everyone’s road to recovery looks different. But you have to really know yourself and your support system to be able to drink or smoke in moderation.
    So proud of Demi and anyone who makes the choice to get help for themselves.

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +8

      I know I may get slammed for saying so.. but I think it's 1,000% different between cannabis and alcohol. I don't believe that any addict should attempt to use alcohol in moderation. 🤷
      Cannabis is so different because it, as Jess mentioned, treats the underlying symptoms of addiction. Such as depression, ptsd, insomnia associated with both. Pretty sure it has kept my feet on the Earth more than once!!
      EDIT: I don't drink alcohol, nor use drugs. Solid statement.

    • @kaylastephens1345
      @kaylastephens1345 3 роки тому +2

      @@CodyRae11 I'm 5 years sober, from an opiate addiction, pain pills to be exact. I drink in moderation, maybe once every couple of months. For me the two is completely different feelings, I don't drink to get drunk, I cant stand the feeling whatsoever. But I was also the type during my addiction I didn't like being high, I got hooked off of a single prescription after dental work when I was 16 and had no clue about addiction at all, didn't know I could become addicted so quickly. My addiction got bad because my tolerance built up and it kept taking more and more to just simply not be in withdrawal, so my entire addiction I was only chasing the feeling of normal, never chased the high feeling. An alcohol buzz for me isn't anything like I felt taking pain killers even when I did have to take so much and made me high I never enjoyed that feeling, i hope that makes sense. My story is definitely not your typical addiction story though so that may make a difference. I have a drink or two on occasion to relax, but im allergic to THC so weed wouldn't ever be an option for me, which is unfortunate

    • @joysanders59
      @joysanders59 3 роки тому +3

      I am 20 years sober. To me it means no alcohol.

    • @candim.9375
      @candim.9375 3 роки тому +1

      15 years sober. Alcohol and marijuana are not sober to me.
      In fact, it's dangerous to use a large platform to tell people that you're "'California sober."

  • @tanayapatel9490
    @tanayapatel9490 3 роки тому +100

    It's so heartbreaking seeing Demi's story represented in the media the way it has been. Love her!!! She's so inspiring ❤️

    • @DozerfleetProd
      @DozerfleetProd 3 роки тому

      I find the railroading of Don Blankenship, the railroading of Schaeffer Cox, the abuse inflicted on Millie Weaver, the outright kidnapping of Mark Grenon's sons by the FDA over his ClO2 debacle, the ongoing persecution of Bob Miner, the ongoing persecution of Brian D. Hill, etc. - and the nation's all-around apathy for the gross injustices being committed against these individuals - much more heartbreaking. Millie acted fully within the law; but was harassed and jailed in conditions that violated her rights regardless. Bob did literally none of the things he was accused of. He was exonerated THREE TIMES (triple jeopardy!), and STILL faces harassment from the State of North Dakota, which in spite the exonerations, persists in refusing to restore his rights and reunite his family! Blankenship went to jail for the EPA's recklessness, like a scene out of Ghostbusters!
      THESE CASES, should not only yield heartbreak nationwide, but an unquenchable wrath, and insatiable desire to hold accountable the abusive officials responsible for these miscarriages of justice! Heck, I still want to string up the bastards of the Florida Fish and Wildlife Service who prosecuted a restaurant owner over a no-longer-valid DOMINICAN law that he didn't even violate, over a lobster delivered to him in the wrong package type - and they looted his children clean, like the literal bandits that Fish and Wildlife are! And put the man they were looting in prison for 8 YEARS, just to shut him up!
      Where is our outrage over these real injustices? When can we finally start making these monsters in our bureaucracy start pleading for the mercy they never showed their victims?

  • @ams3754
    @ams3754 3 роки тому +35

    The fact she has the STRENGTH to write that song let alone film such a raw and probably emotionally traumatic video is astounding she is a shining light for so many normal struggling people! Great video jess 💕

  • @isabellabass5346
    @isabellabass5346 3 роки тому +43

    Can we talk about how triggering making that video must have been? She had to re-enact everything that happened that night. I literally can't imagine.

    • @rebeccaarcher1206
      @rebeccaarcher1206 3 роки тому +2

      There were certain parts that took up to 10 tales due to her emotions!

    • @xLostInFirex
      @xLostInFirex 3 роки тому

      Ikr! Hope it was therapeutic to her at the end as well.

  • @lifegoeson9695
    @lifegoeson9695 3 роки тому +13

    September 2014 I was hospitalized in the psych ward for the first time. We couldn't keep our phones, but we could bring in iPods and mine was filled with Demi's songs. I would listen to them all day every day until I was discharged (almost a month later). It felt as if she was there with me, giving me strength. I felt so alone and all it took to make me feel less alone was listening to her music... to her voice. My favorite one was, and still is, the song called: Warrior. Now I have "warrior" tattooed on my wrist. Demi Lovato has helped me so much and she doesn't even know it... and probably never will. She's amazing and so strong. I hope she'll never overdose again. She doesn't deserve all this pain. I love her so much.

  • @jarsofglitter
    @jarsofglitter 3 роки тому +66

    I've seen a lot of people talking about her and basically saying she has no excuse for suffering because she's rich and could go to treatment whenever she wants. Like, please, if I had had endless money during my addiction I'd find a way to lose it all. You don't leave this shit behind until you're ready no matter who you are or what you have. Thank you for talking about this and taking her seriously. I'm so sick of hearing people talk about her like her experience isn't valid just because she's Demi Lovato. I've never even been a huge fan of her music but I have so much respect for her for talking about this because we need to humanize addicts if we're ever going to make progress in treating them.

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +3

      I understand how some people could say that, I really do. but on the flip side, even Jess has spoken about having all this money made her feel more alone.

    • @xoxoPinkVoltage
      @xoxoPinkVoltage 3 роки тому +1

      RIGHT!? I would of been broke in under a year lol.

  • @ashley1968
    @ashley1968 3 роки тому +14

    You can tell in the video that she’s crying and feeling everything she felt during the making of the video. The justification “just one more...I’ve been so good...” are all excuses I’ve used. A little turns into a lot in a blink of an eye. I love the empowerment that the pain brings.

  • @kailak5587
    @kailak5587 3 роки тому +14

    She actually talked about how beneficial she was to have those resources a little bit in the last episode of her docuseries. It was good to see her acknowledge that.

  • @carol-gz6nc
    @carol-gz6nc 3 роки тому +55

    The worst is that his dealer gave an interview like to TMZ two years ago basically laughing at his relationship with them he saying they were flirty and s**t ,🤮

    • @nicolebrandt1571
      @nicolebrandt1571 3 роки тому +3

      Who was her dealer?

    • @biddymcgee5090
      @biddymcgee5090 3 роки тому +16

      I stumbled on that too... absolutely sickening. Saying “she knew what she was getting into” with the fent laced H and BS like that. He r*ped her while she must have already started ODing (he must have realized, as you can see in the music video he pushes her onto her side before leaving) and then left her for dead. Ugh I hope he sees justice.

    • @intuitivecelebritypsychic2845
      @intuitivecelebritypsychic2845 3 роки тому +1

      @@nicolebrandt1571 Brandon Johnson

    • @Nikki-jn3ud
      @Nikki-jn3ud 3 роки тому +7

      What a dumb dude. I've never met a dealer who was willing to admit wrong doing to anyone.. let alone on tmz.

  • @wendycollins6268
    @wendycollins6268 3 роки тому +7

    The tube in her neck was for dialysis.. she had kidney failure and multi system organ failure.. she is blessed to be alive! She’s so brave for sharing her story

  • @erinerinerinOOO
    @erinerinerinOOO 3 роки тому +1

    I hear your voice in my head almost every day saying, “There is no wrong way to recover.” Thank you for giving me strength. You help so many people. 💜

  • @jazmynleii2600
    @jazmynleii2600 3 роки тому +7

    This documentary is amazing, she’s incredible. I’m so glad you reacted to this. 💖

  • @lesliebrayton8016
    @lesliebrayton8016 3 роки тому +9

    She is so talented! Thank you for your honesty and saying it’s none of our business!

  • @DM-ez4em
    @DM-ez4em 3 роки тому +80

    I was wondering if you watched Dancing with the Devil and what you thought of this if you did!!! So glad that you are doing a reaction video!! It was so crazy how people were blamed for Demi’s overdose! So glad that Demi has given them the platform to clear their names!!!! Love you and this video 😘😘😘😘😘

  • @Bunny-qw2sl
    @Bunny-qw2sl 3 роки тому +24

    I’ve loved this woman ever since 2009, and not gonna lie.. when her best friend said that yay, she turned 28, escaped the 27 club.. I may have laughed a little too hard.. but that was only to mask my heartbreak. I don’t know what I, and so many other people on this planet, would do if she had died that day. It sure been a long 3 years.. the journey ain’t over yet, not for her, her fans or anybody who is a recovering addict. I’ve never been addicted to any substance or thing my entire life, therefore I will never be able to fully relate to what these people are going through.. but all my respect goes out to the people who defeated addiction or currently are defeating addiction. All of you are a bunch of fucking strong willed survivors!!

    • @elenapic6859
      @elenapic6859 3 роки тому +1

      I think what has helped me not relapse in this, one of the most difficult year in my life, is not thinking I'm 27. I have it so deep within myself what I've felt when my idols joint the club, one I always tought I'd be part of. I actually convinced myself when I was about to turn 27 that I already was 28. Five more weeks and I'd had made it, 10 weeks to go for 10 years sober.

    • @Bunny-qw2sl
      @Bunny-qw2sl 3 роки тому

      @@elenapic6859 And when the ten years are reached, another ten, twenty, thirty ect.. of being sober will follow :)

  • @shelbylynn4770
    @shelbylynn4770 3 роки тому +42

    Yes love this!!! And love Demi!!! She’s so real in her songs and I can relate to her

  • @mollygabrielle
    @mollygabrielle 3 роки тому +9

    I’m so glad you put this out!!! ❤️ hoping many people see this video and educate themselves more on addiction. My father is an alcoholic and I’ve learned so much from you, that addiction is bigger than the person. It’s helped me come to visualize a different perspective on it. Thank you 🙏🏼

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +1

      As the adult child of an alcoholic father I pray for you. I used to tell people that my daddy was the best person on the planet, when he was sober... Which was basically never the first 18 years of my life.
      Praying for you. 🙏♥️

    • @mollygabrielle
      @mollygabrielle 3 роки тому +1

      @@CodyRae11 thank you so much ❤️

  • @Livingdgurl
    @Livingdgurl 3 роки тому +5

    Woo. That song. The whole thing. I'm glad she's still alive. I'm glad you made it out alive, as well. I'm thankful for California sober myself. 💜 I appreciate your videos! 💜

  • @jordynniccole7434
    @jordynniccole7434 3 роки тому

    Thank you for covering this, I loved her documentary series and I'm so glad someone is creating a discussion about it.

  • @TheKekee123
    @TheKekee123 3 роки тому

    I think for everybody in recovery watching her documentary really hits home and I feel you Jess I cry to you every time I hear this song it’s like it takes me back to when I was in my addiction and I understand her so much

  • @22kelseydillabaugh
    @22kelseydillabaugh 2 роки тому +3

    She did touch on her privilege of being financially able to have a whole team to help her through her recovery! I hope you watch it again and see that part because it really helped me see just how humble and down to earth she is after all this. She also touches on that when in interview about her docuseries. But you’re completely right that it’s important she knows her privilege. Also, if I’m not mistaken, she has a foundation for people that need aid to go to treatment. It’s called the Lovato Treatment Scholarship ☺️🙏🏻 I hope this message is helpful and makes you even more happy to be her fan.

  • @notdestinedotps329
    @notdestinedotps329 3 роки тому +17

    When you started crying I wanted to hug you so bad!😭😭 Glad you are doing good now and that the drugs are out of your life...
    And definatly glad we have simular music taste😊

  • @livgrace8070
    @livgrace8070 3 роки тому

    THIS is why i love you jess ♥️ most of the recovery community is really judgemental so your channel is so refreshing

  • @brittanycarriere9423
    @brittanycarriere9423 3 роки тому

    I absolutely love how well u speak! You are captivating and real! Thank you for your constant honesty and humor in todays society.. it's rare! So much love and light from Canada 🇨🇦💓

  • @maddie0619
    @maddie0619 3 роки тому +19

    When she OD people made memes about it & joked about it. That pissed me off & broke my heart

  • @amberelizabeth182
    @amberelizabeth182 3 роки тому +3

    I have goosebumps everywhere. And I’m in tears. This is so powerful. And I’m so lucky to be alive after overdosing twice in my active addiction..

  • @victoriaali3477
    @victoriaali3477 3 роки тому +1

    I loved this video. Made me sob 😭 Thank you for sharing this with us. Also.. i just watched part of the doc series on UA-cam today actually and she did speak about having a huge team around her that is able to help her and acknowledged the amount of resources she has that other people don’t have. Just wanted to point that out, I don’t know if it was another episode or something but just wanted to share! But I love you and your channel and I’m just so grateful that Demi is still here with us and I am so grateful that YOU are still here, sharing your heart with all of us. God bless!

  • @Beforthestorm24
    @Beforthestorm24 3 роки тому

    You have so much grace explaining your reaction, this video brought me to tears yet the doc did not, great job Jessica ❤️❤️

  • @femke3868
    @femke3868 3 роки тому +26

    You’ve changed my opinion about cannabis in recovery so much!
    I didn’t understand it before, and I was one of the people who would say ‘you’re not really sober’
    I regret that so much, now that I understand it more
    So thank you for explaining it and making me a less judgemental person!💚

    • @jarsofglitter
      @jarsofglitter 3 роки тому +4

      You should also thank yourself for being *open* to changing your opinion because some people you can talk to until you're blue in the face and they will still never give another idea the time of day.

    • @femke3868
      @femke3868 3 роки тому +1

      @@jarsofglitter 💚💚

  • @benedettaroseartolli9182
    @benedettaroseartolli9182 3 роки тому +5

    Hi Jess, just wanted to tell you that you have opened my eyes to the world of addiction and mental illnesses. I am applying to college and you have inspired me to study for ways to help people. I am now doing a research on Narcan and specifically how many people born between 1998 and 2006 know what it is, their opinions on sobriety, addiction etc
    Thank you so much for inspiring me.
    Lots of love,
    Xx

  • @katielee89
    @katielee89 3 роки тому

    I just love how you talk about everything. Your realness is so refreshing. I am glad Demi sets boundaries and is talking about everything on her terms. I'm so glad she is doing well

  • @erifetzer
    @erifetzer 3 роки тому +2

    OMG YESSSSS I REQUESTED THIS!! I loved the video thank you so much!!! ♥️♥️

    • @andreaherrera3905
      @andreaherrera3905 3 роки тому +2

      OMG really! I remember seeing your comment on the live, guess she took your advice. Great idea!!!!

  • @kayphoenixraven
    @kayphoenixraven 3 роки тому +11

    Demi is such a strong warrior, always has been. I'm so happy she's okay, she's been through so much and she's such an inspiration.

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому

      I am never going to stop fearing for her. 😔🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

  • @michelleberger7747
    @michelleberger7747 3 роки тому +118

    Sad part is Demi pays her team to micro manage her. She may feel more trusting of them than herself. Gosh I really hope she becomes a stronger person.

    • @feliciaann721
      @feliciaann721 3 роки тому +41

      Sometimes strength is giving up control and letting other people keep you safe from yourself. Doing whatever she has to do to keep herself safe and sober is strong.

    • @Alexiane067
      @Alexiane067 3 роки тому +5

      They where there to « help » her with her eating desorders but it went to far for her own good. She changed her team and is now working with scooter Braun

    • @camilule9011
      @camilule9011 3 роки тому +4

      She changed the entire team since OD happened

    • @sassirandom6783
      @sassirandom6783 3 роки тому

      I think she does it, because she did a lot of the things because people controlled her and she couldn't deal with it. So it's huge thing for her to give up the control & trust other people :)

  • @jininberry8204
    @jininberry8204 3 роки тому +1

    So glad you make videos from one recovering addict to another.

  • @Moony42910
    @Moony42910 3 роки тому

    I love how open an raw you are to this. I know with you being you is helping so many out there.. Thank you💛💚🧡🖤

  • @VampFaye
    @VampFaye 3 роки тому +28

    Excellent POV! Her song and story are so powerful. I believe California Sober should be explored more often in recovery plans. Sometimes total abstinence is impossible and causes more harm than good. 💜💜💜

    • @Nikki-jn3ud
      @Nikki-jn3ud 3 роки тому

      Agreed! I'm sober from benzos now, and I have been since February 2020 but I have to give a lot of credit to weed. It helps my anxiety but doesn't make me feel "out of my mind" at all like benzos did.

  • @TheIntenseMD
    @TheIntenseMD 3 роки тому +6

    Thank you for reacting to this. I loved hearing your perspective.
    The line in her neck was for emergent dialysis.

  • @trapmonkey2529
    @trapmonkey2529 3 роки тому

    This song combined with the video gave me chills🥺❤🥰 addicts are some of the strongest people! They fight so hard everyday. Everyone who's recovered or recovering from addiction is absolutely incredible💞

  • @somethingbykatie
    @somethingbykatie 3 роки тому

    Jess, thank you for filming your reaction to Demi's story!! It's truly beautiful to see both of you sharing your stories and saving lives. Thank you for being you!🤍

  • @MaisieKennedy48
    @MaisieKennedy48 3 роки тому +3

    Thank you for doing this video Jes💗

  • @user-ox4cz4tw3k
    @user-ox4cz4tw3k 3 роки тому +7

    So glad you are reacting to this

  • @andrearamirez7489
    @andrearamirez7489 3 роки тому +1

    OHHHHH YES I was SOOO waiting for this!!!!

  • @Faithmadelegacy
    @Faithmadelegacy 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for advocating so beautifully for her Jess ♥️

  • @Ahaxa
    @Ahaxa 3 роки тому +5

    seeing jess cry makes me want to hug her so badly since i see her as a mom figure. and the fact demi is bringing this issue to the light makes me so happy that shes spreading awareness.
    i dont comment much but i felt like i should :]

  • @taylercornelius9011
    @taylercornelius9011 3 роки тому +7

    this is what i needed today on my path to recovery. i have no support other than my therapist and my treatment team.

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +1

      You have Jess -- and ger Subscribers.
      And Ms. Jenn
      And Ms. Christina - and THEIR subscribers.
      And Me. 🙏🙏😘

    • @susanmcguire4664
      @susanmcguire4664 3 роки тому +1

      Sending you lots of love and positive vibes. Do everything you can to improve yourself and become stronger and healthier.
      Believe in yourself and listen to your therapists. Wishing you good luck :)

  • @daynabrailey6217
    @daynabrailey6217 3 роки тому

    The docuseries along with this video made me cry my eyes out. I've never personally had an addiction but am friends with others that have and it is sad. My heart goes out to those in recovery, dealing with addiction and those that have lost loved ones to addiction.

  • @jeffeby2218
    @jeffeby2218 3 роки тому

    I love your insight and perspective. I truly think this is one of your best videos and I have viewed a lot of your content. Thank you.

  • @StuckInPastTimes
    @StuckInPastTimes 3 роки тому +10

    When she first talks about her treatment center, she does comment that she is extremely lucky to be able to pay for and afford the best of the best!

  • @JuMixBoox
    @JuMixBoox 3 роки тому +3

    I love that you did this reaction! I have always been a huge fan of Demi Lovato and been interested in your opinion on celebrities becoming addicts, as they are usually wealthy and you got into that works because of poverty.

  • @tanyya2203
    @tanyya2203 3 роки тому

    Watched the docuseries and music video and I was brought to tears. I don’t even have any experience with or know anyone who does drugs or alcohol. It was so powerful and hearing her speak about it taught me a lot about what addicts and alcoholics go through and think about. On another note, this is my first time watching your videos and already seeing you cry while reacting to the video made me cry too. I may not know your story, but I can tell you’re so strong❤️ only wishing you the best

  • @6stringsGirly
    @6stringsGirly 3 роки тому

    Hey Jess, I decided to watch the documentary because I found your channel. I’ve always been a fan of Demi and watching your videos helped me better understand the documentary. I never really thought about addiction as a disease and it has been very eye opening for me. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and helping me understand how difficult recovery is. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  • @Blue.velvet.0124
    @Blue.velvet.0124 3 роки тому +11

    I watched the doc and listened to most of her new music and tho I wouldn't call myself her biggest fan I still enjoy her music it really hurt me to see how horrible some people have been to her she doesn't deserve the hate she's gotten for years. I wish her all the best. And I know she used to do a lot of talks at rehabs and stuff like that a couple of years ago. Sending love to everyone 💜 💜💜

  • @xxMercy
    @xxMercy 3 роки тому +4

    This event was literally the most major catalyst in getting clean for me. Seeing it played out on screen makes me cry too.

  • @SaucyGalMakeup
    @SaucyGalMakeup 3 роки тому

    Thank you for saying all of this Jess! I totally agree. My recovery is my business! This video made me ball my eyes out. It’s very sad but it’s also nice to know that I’m not alone in my addiction/recovery. Thank you for all that you do Jess!

  • @phemery1182
    @phemery1182 3 роки тому

    NEVER stop being you or feeling or thinking out loud...love you and learn so much from you THANK YOU

  • @almadeluz501
    @almadeluz501 3 роки тому +6

    Shit hits hard. Didn’t think I’d cry. I’ve been California sober for 8 months, relapsed for a few. Was sober another 8 months a week ago, and 6 days ago I relapse (black). I’m back on the horse. It was only one day of fuckin up. I thought I was invincible, but emotions, my physical health, many things dragged me back down that dark path for a day.. never again. We must always stay vigilant:(
    Regardless of our backgrounds or life experiences, it’s interesting how addiction can reduce us to the same lost souls..
    I felt a lil sideways about Demi’s support not being mentioned as well. I pray for all the souls out there that are homeless or have literally no one... those are some of the hardest battles to transcend when we have no one to lean on or trust.. (this in no way means I’m discrediting Demi or anyone who has support. Even I have support. Addiction is hard period. I was simply saying I feel an extra tinge of pain and sorry for those who don’t have loved ones supporting them is all)
    Anyways, loved your commentary Jess. Well said, and Demi’s song made me tear. Her voice is killer, and those words struck deep 🤟

  • @Breamarie17
    @Breamarie17 3 роки тому +39

    To notice the clothes she is wearing is the same clothes she wore the night of her overdose... that hits deep.

    • @KitKat-ve2em
      @KitKat-ve2em 3 роки тому +3

      And when she leaves the hospital she’s wearing them again, showing she’s right back in that head space

  • @shyannamarie3954
    @shyannamarie3954 3 роки тому

    Jessica is my fav. Thank you for sharing your stories. It helps me realize there is hope. Love you. Keep doing what you do.

  • @npats550
    @npats550 3 роки тому

    Thank you for sharing and your opinion on the documentary. It's nice to see compassion

  • @marzipan247
    @marzipan247 3 роки тому +12

    I’ve been “California sober” for a little more than half a year and it has really helped me a lot to have something there when I get down or have a thought about using my drug(s) of choice

    • @karahershey
      @karahershey 3 роки тому +3

      The Problem is Demi Used to have a Drinking Problem As a Teen So it might not Be the best Choice for Demi

  • @lynnspeelman5645
    @lynnspeelman5645 3 роки тому +3

    Demi has such a beautiful and powerful voice. I hope and pray for the best for her and her struggles. What a beautiful young woman too 💜

  • @gabriellenichole3445
    @gabriellenichole3445 3 роки тому

    She was so brave to tell so much of her story. I relate so much, I pray she knows how important her story is for all of us out there who felt so alone in our pain. I pray for everyone in active addiction and recovery to be safe and healthy. 🙏💕🦋

  • @AntoinetteMot
    @AntoinetteMot 3 роки тому

    Hey Jess! I just watched the latest episode (from yesterday episode 4 I believe) and I was relieved to hear her mention the fact that she's privileged and able to afford the help she got. I know it's something you mentioned here and I agreed with you so felt the need to come here today after I watched the latest one. Have a great day!

  • @maryaliceprouty4051
    @maryaliceprouty4051 3 роки тому +43

    I’m now sobbing at work at 8 in the morning watching you react to the music video - I already sobbed watching just the video but adding you watching the video hit hard 😭😭😭. Can I also just add thank you for including the song and risking the copyright and being demonetized

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому

      If anybody were to come at her for using the video, just a new low for humanity.
      I cannot imagine how incredibly incredibly incredibly difficult this was, and has all been for Jess.
      🙏🙏🙏♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️🙏🙏🙏

  • @heyzzw5725
    @heyzzw5725 3 роки тому

    Yes!! I was hoping you'd do this video!

  • @canorous7302
    @canorous7302 3 роки тому

    I'm so glad that you made this video because when I first watched her docuseries i was like I WANT JESS' OPINION

  • @mamashell2340
    @mamashell2340 3 роки тому +5

    Damn. That was crazy powerful. I hope she stays on her path and stays her sober. ♥️

    • @karahershey
      @karahershey 3 роки тому

      I really Worry about the Drinking Because she used to have a Drinking problem As a Teen

  • @triciaannenewbury1122
    @triciaannenewbury1122 3 роки тому +7

    Demi you queen. You have been down and out. Hit rock bottom. And you still came out on-top. Your a goddamn survivor. You are my hero demi. Keep showing em

  • @TheKendylDiaries101
    @TheKendylDiaries101 3 роки тому

    I’m SO HAPPY you made this video!! I was hoping you would make a video like this!! Watching the documentary I thought about you the entire time and what you’ve shared about addiction.

  • @BillyWood
    @BillyWood 3 роки тому

    LOVED this video, so respectful and informative. Thank you!!

  • @raikougal
    @raikougal 3 роки тому +4

    When you started crying I wanted to hug you!!! I know you don't do hugs very often but I felt like you needed one.

  • @wazakaunda6652
    @wazakaunda6652 3 роки тому +45

    Omg omg omg thank you so much for listening!!!!!!😭😭😭❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @chantellacollins1397
    @chantellacollins1397 3 роки тому

    Love you and Demi! Such inspirations for us lost souls out here! Thank you for all you do!!

  • @cecilewampler
    @cecilewampler 3 роки тому +2

    That music video seriously made me ugly cry!! I've been sober from M for 20 months now. I am so happy that she is using her voice. Hopefully more people will begin to realize that just because someone is famous doesn't mean that they can't go through this.

  • @elliemeow6167
    @elliemeow6167 3 роки тому +3

    Ive been wanting to watch her documentary Dancing w the Devil. I LOVE how she has come put about this. She didnt need to at all!! Demi is so relatable!! & so beyond beautiful

    • @CodyRae11
      @CodyRae11 3 роки тому +1

      Exactly she didn't need to do it at all! I want to scream at it every single hater,!!!

  • @amandawolf838
    @amandawolf838 3 роки тому +4

    I have loved Demi for years. When she went to rehab for the first time in 2010 or 2011 I was at the brink of my own breakdown so when she came back and started talking about what she struggles with and being sober (even though she wasn’t) it hit a nerve with me and that was the moment I decided to seek my own treatment. Obviously my story and hers are very very different but in a way I feel like we have both really found ourselves over the last year or so. This album is her fresh start and it’s the soundtrack to mine.

  • @raahatkapur
    @raahatkapur 3 роки тому

    Jessica can we get more reactions from you. I honestly loved your reaction to this!!!!
    I felt your emotions coming through the screen. So powerful

  • @jenniferalvarez6658
    @jenniferalvarez6658 3 роки тому

    i love your channel because im someone who tries to understand things I've never been through. kinda how you like snapped (criminal minds is my go-to). the world loves to judge what they don't understand, so thank you and demi for not letting that stop you and helping others

  • @ks-et2gq
    @ks-et2gq 3 роки тому +3

    that was the jacket she wore that night :( man this isn’t even the first time i’ve watched this and here i am crying again. love you so much jess.