Thank you for sharing. I had, what sounds like, a VERY similar experience a little more than a month ago. You're absolutely right, it feels like you're possessed. I had so many vivid hallucinations of people trying to attack and rape me, auditory hallucinations of people telling me to murder, a constant loop of music that wasn't there, objects/paintings moving and talking to me, seizures, etc. Absolute hell for about 3 days. Then it just stopped. Batshit crazy. Completely changed my perspective on life. I'm sober 42 days today. That experience alone makes me never want a single drop of alcohol ever again. Stay strong.
Jackie Kelly i had that experience in a hotel and on a plane was rushed to hospital i thought i had become Schizophrenic we phoned the hotel dr who injected me with Diazepam wich felt like Heroin the relief from the fear and realising it was not Schizophrenia i think in the hotel before i may have been having Seizures or dreams of having them
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Thank you for posting this. I can really relate. The panic and fear is something i wouldnt wish on anyone in the world. You have powerful energy friend....keep on keepin on! 💛💛💛💛
I totally get this man, I’m coming off a minor DT that’s lasting 3 days so far. And omg the evil spirit monsters when you close your eyes are so horrible. I don’t think they’d allow it in theatres. And the worst part is through it all is the sweating and being cold and hot at the same time
Evil monsters? When I closed my eyes it was more just flashing images that could be all sorts of things, yes some could be monsters, but it would be pretty much anything
Mate this is one of the most hardcore stories I've ever heard - the fact you kept having seizures then got back up and kept hallucinating and then seizured again. I have no idea how you're still alive. My wife had an alcohol withdrawal seizure and it was like something from The Exorcist...she groaned and her face contorted into a different person and she fell to the ground and I had to call an ambulance. She was a zombie for days after, didn't remember anything, kept thinking she was in a TV show, it was so scary. She also hallucinated one night in bed, spiders, chanting outside, shadow people...I thought she was going to be stuck that way forever. I also had mild withdrawals every week after drinking for 2 days straight every weekend for 20 years straight...I'd sweat in bed, shaking non stop, I'd hear music on loop as if it was being played in my room, I'd shut my eyes and see demonic pictures as real as if I were watching a screen. And the depression and anxiety was crushing. My wife and I are now 1 year 7 months sober and absolutely thriving. We love being sober. I'm so glad you're ok...are you still sober? I see this was 5 years ago.
"Delirium Tremens Stories" been there for about 14 days then hospital after running middle of the night,, Horror you cant imagine because you never could think it,,2 years on i still suffer with the visions thankfully average weekly ish random days for hour or so,, alot of people never made it through this im learning to know now,,nobody talks of it too me
I had a very similar experience in my most recent relapse. I have also tripped and very intensely, and this was nothing like anything I had experienced before. My issue has always been vodka, or cheap rum when I lived in Guatemala. When I tried to detox at home I kept begging my mom to let me detox using light beer...but she did not want to enable me so I actually tried drinking mouthwash in small quantities when I felt that I would have a seizure. It was like my life flashed before my eyes also, and all I could do was lay in bed. I could not even get up to take a shower, and when I looked at myself in the mirror it was like almost as if I was on a bad trip but worse...like I thought I was not even human. Whether my eyes were open or closed, I was seeing these demon-like things...and they were laughing at me and it was like I was having persecutory delusions...like everything I had done in life was to be ridiculed or scorned or that I was being sent straight to hell. I thought I had gone to hell. When I finally did get up to shower, I had auditory hallucinations. Thank you for posting this. I thought I was losing my mind or that I had done too many hallucinogens previously. Finally, it subsided; but it is an experience that changed me completely.
Hey Kelsa! Thanks for sharing your story with me. It just shows that we are not alone in all of this. It’s a terrifying experience and I wouldn’t wish it on anybody but it’s a life changing one as well and I needed to go through it to make me appreciate my life. It’s like a huge wake up call from a higher power. I hope your keeping well. We are strong, Keep fighting! ✌️
Kelsa Jones i would not wish it on a worst enemy i get into lots of arguments with people who have never gone thought it my worst fear would be being Arrested and the police making me die cold turkey in a cell with others who are not withdrawing i bet the police would not care and in a cell with the lights on would not know the diffreince between the police inmates and Hallucinations
Self detox and withdrawal is the worst it's pure hell freezing cold sweats even though your boiling hot hulucinations and seizures constantly your body is rumbling anxiety is constantly with you. Medical detox works really well have done it befor and have relapsed with terrible mental health issues. And am now ready to go to rehab again. I can't wait to feel myself again, for me and my daughter. I wish everyone battling this poison the best ❤️
Well done for getting back on track! I’ve fell of the wagon so many times but I’m now 13 months sober the longest I’ve been in a long time. Yeah I’ve had a medical detox once before I went to rehab but it was so hard to get and took so long to be approved. I wouldn’t wish self detoxes on my worst enemy but when you are desperate you have no choice. Hope you get the help you need. Keep me updated and stay safe. ♥️
Friend, I really hope you are well today. You are not alone. There are people who understand you. There might be a lot of people who do not understand and are not helpful but don’t get hung up on those types. I can see your will to live a fulfilling life. You’re in my prayers no matter what. 💚🧡💛
One of the key points that comes out when you’re speaking with other people who consider themselves to be alcoholics is rigorous honesty, and I’ll just leave it there. That’s the way that you can get better.
I'm so sorry that is brutal!! It's been 5 years I hope you're okay. I'm going through this but not as severe as you. I'm shaking, I'm seeing demons too, crying, my liver is shutting down, in so much pain, so much guilt, cannot sleep. I'm back in AA and need and want to be free of this vicious cycle. I hear you it's absolutely terrifying! I went to celebrate Canada day and was violently shaking the entire time barely able to focus on conversation. I never felt so hopeless.
Seeing demons and horrific images when you close your eyes, is exactly what I experienced as well. It’s an awful prison. Inescapable except through time. Sucks.
I did a handle 1.75 a day for two years. Hospital told me they had never seen a liver function so low for my at. my liver enzymes are x33 times higher than health range and I'm 19 years old. I've had it all. I used to close my eyes and see strange evil bugs / monsters that were just not even explainable. You just wonder how it's even possible for your mind to make that up
Hey Owen I just wanted to say I’m glad you’re sober and I’m working my way there I relapsed once two weeks ago I’m back drinking a bottle of whiskey within a 24 hour period. When I first quit I got the sweats a good bit a good bit of nausea. I never had a seizure but on the 4th day of withdrawal I started hallucinating and I seen these two big dogs that looked like hell hounds. They looked like Doberman pinchers with long white horns instead of ears in my back yard. Then about a half hour later I saw a grim reaper looking figure in my living room 10 feet away from me staring straight at me. I also sometimes heard music playing when nothing or nobody was around. That’s when I relapsed cuz I was more terrified than ever before when I saw the grim reaper staring me eye to eye.
bighf24 Hey man! I hope you are doing well. Remember one day at a time don’t pressure yourself. It’s terrifying isn’t it. I’m sure we see these things for a reason. I think there’s some realness in these dreams and hallucinations. Why else would we see these terrifying things? I think they are just a warning sign from god knows where but I think they are there to help us by scaring us and showing us way could happen if we keep living like this. We need to learn to love ourselves and look after our bodies because life is so precious and I know realise that now I’m sober. I hope you are are alright and I’m wishing the best for you! Thanks for sharing your story. Keep me updated on your journey! People like us need to stick together and help each other.
Owen Armstrong thank you for getting back to me. The hallucinations with the dogs were weird as hell because I own a 215 pound Great Dane and I had let him in from the back yard not 2 minutes before I saw the “hell hounds” as I call them. But the grim reaper figure that was staring me eye to eye didn’t make sense to me. I wasn’t afraid one bit I just stood there and stared at it as it did to me. Then my dog started barking at the mailman and it went away. Idk what the hell it was but it sure was nothing like anything I ever saw hallucinating on mushrooms or acid I did in high school. But the worst of what I’m going through is the constant pounding headaches and nausea. The sweats are bad but not as bad as the headaches. I just want to be myself again
There is a physical aspect to it, and a spiritual aspect. The darkness doesn't want you to let go of the dependency because being in it keeps you from God's destiny for your life. I am so sorry you went through all of that.
Hey Owen, I hope you're still doing well. Its crazy that you mentioned seeing demons when you closed your eyes! I experienced the same exact thing. At night in the wallpaper I would see them and if I closed my eyes it was if I was watching TV and seeing them. I'm not sure if it was because I was in a detox facility and on Benzos though that I almost enjoyed it because I knew it was just withdrawals. Stay strong!
Hi angel thanks for sharing. Hope you're well sending love light and blessings xx 8 years sober next month. But remember detoxing on my own sooooo well.. Keep it in the day 💕🙏🏻💕
Thank you so much! Yeah it’s tough but we get through it. Congratulations on your 8 years coming up that’s amazing! I hope to be there one day. Sending love and positive vibes! 💖✨
Sorry for the late reply Rachel. I relapsed again and split my head open twice. I’m absolutely fine now, clean and sober again with no damage done. Should be making a video about it soon.
@@andrewrowley8710 just hang in there! It will soon stop. It is very dangerous to do alone so I would recommend to anyone going through it to get medical help as they can give you detox pills to help but if your stubborn like me and just want to do it alone just know that it eventually stops and try and look after yourself as best you can. Drink plenty of water and try and eat some toast or something. Sleep is always the best thing but I know it’s impossible when going through detox plus the nightmares are terrifying, so just try and rest maybe watch something familiar on Netflix or something. You will get through this Andrew! Stay safe man.
@@0wenarmstrong Thanks so much for saying that man, this has truly been an insane spiritual experience that I will never forget and learned from. I love the way you talk and I really like you're face! You're one of the good ones.
Alright mate im from durham, newcastle area and i am absolutely terrified of stopping because i dont know whats going to happen when i do. Slowly weening off is not really working either. Wish me luck
You look young man. Figure out why you're trying to forget and you won't need to drink. I've almost died 2 times in hospitals. Been to detox many times over 15 years. Figure next time will be fatal. I drink because of my mental health issues. But I've sorted those out and really don't drink much anymore. Doesn't have to be life-long. A healthy diet is the most important part for me. No sugar.
@@watermelonineasterhay What I mean is if you're addicted to alcohol there's a reason. You find out why you need a drink heavy you shouldn't have a problem with alcohol. There's no such thing as an alcoholic. Don't be fooled by what people say. Many people have quit started back up and quit again without having a problem.
Well hope you're still doing okay. Isn't it pretty shocking that a drug like alcohol is so part of our culture when it can cause such horrific withdrawals?
Yep! Spot on. Feels like you want to rip out of your body. I thank God never got DT like that, I would probably die. I ended up cleaning my whole house as well, helps a lot to move around and get your mind off of it. This was after an 11 day binge drinking wine/ vodka through 24 hours a day. (would sleep and wake up hungover so take swigs from bottle)
Thanks for posting your experience I’ve been going through DTs for the last two days and it’s been horrible last night I literally thought I was gonna die same with this morning I’m kind of scared about tonight because it’s usually the third day that’s the worst for me. I am a heavy vodka drinker but I also top that off with beer and pretty much anything I can get my hands on every day, a pint to a liter a day and beer between the shots. I found your stories though about your hallucinations and dreams so similar to mine I mean I had a dream that there was a lady demonic looking, her skin falling off, with all sorts of blood and puss spraying on me. It was horrible. I hope I can Get through this I’m scared to taper because I feel like when I have a drink it makes the withdrawal worse it’s like always start sweating and shaking and it’s worse like an hour or two later after the drink. Hopefully I don’t have a heart attack or seizure. I’m very scared right now, I was doing the same thing praying to the universe, my granny, god everything to get me through last night, sweating and shaking and the horrible closed eye visions. Take care.
Thank you for sharing your story. How have you been since stopping? I'm so sorry you went through all this. You have convinced me to stop drinking. That repeating hell is my worst nightmare. I hope you are better now.
Hey Michelle. Sorry for the late reply I relapsed again fell over and split my head open twice within 2 weeks. I’m absolutely fine now. Clean and sober and the detox went well as I didn’t just go cold turkey so no horrible dreams. I’ll make a video about it soon.
@@0wenarmstrong so glad you are doing better love. So sorry that you hurt your head! Happy to hear you are alright, and I've almost completely stopped drinking. I Got mad the other day and grabbed the nearest bottle and turned it upside down.. but then stopped, spit it out and poured the rest down the sink. 💕 its not worth my life and health.
I know the fear of the alcohol seizure trust me I’ve had one before , that’s why I’m detoxing again rn but with benzos so I don’t have one , it’s terrifying and depressing , my muscles keep twitching
Joshua Luevanos I know it’s one of the worst things a person can go through but you just have to stick it out because it’s so worth it in the end. Takes a few weeks to be totally back to normal but you just have to think to yourself that it will pass and you’ll be happy again soon. Hope it’s going well! Keep me updated. Keep fighting.
Owen Armstrong I mean I’ve done with over and over again , I started drinking last Thursday because I was badly beaten my broken bones so last night I decided that since my concussion is gone I’ll stop the drinking so I just bought a 6 pack , stuck it out through the night and then waited a few hours I took my benzos and slept from 5am to 2pm waking up constantly sweating and shaking till I finally woke up and just took more of the medications , trust me Ik the feeling , the first couple of days are pretty shitty but it’ll take 1-2 weeks for the cravings to go , Ik what the feeling when u close ur eyes u see a lot of things , it’s very scary , u can die from alcohol detox u should have seek medical attention :/
Yeah you should defiantly get medical attention if you can but if you can’t you just have to stick it out and reduce the alcohol safely, it’s dangerous to just stop all together.
Owen Armstrong well I have my benzodiazepines so I’ll get through it I’ve got through so many relapses like I hope this was the last one , so Ik I’m fine or won’t go into dts or seizures. Cleansing my liver and my kidneys so I won’t have a bad withdrawal
Hey Owen, what a detox story. Ive had similar dreams (you know the ones) but back then I kept drinking and didn't get the point as you mentioned, the reason why we're meant to witness this stuff I'm actually on day 3 right now, no booze.. starting to see things as I'm writing this. I'm wondering how you're traveling now, I myself have done several inpatient detoxes and have always relapsed.
Hey Skourge, hope you’re doing well! I know it’s hard but you just have to ride it out. I’ve relapsed many times since then. They have never been as bad as that one I described as I didn’t just go cold turkey. They have been slow difficult detoxes where I slowly wean myself off the alcohol. Last one I had I ended up in hospital again because I needed a vitamin drip also they gave me pills to help with the withdrawal whilst in there so that really helped. I think it will always be a apart of my life. I find it when my life is going good I always tend to relapse. I don’t know if it’s self sabotage or rewarding myself thinking I can drink again, but it never turns out well. I find the biggest thing for me to relapse is boredom. So I just try and keep myself busy. I’m going to start volunteering at the recovery centre that helped me so hopefully that will help a lot. It also will give me a purpose which sometimes I don’t think I have. Also helping people like me will be very rewarding. Hope your detox goes well, you’ll be in my prayers. Keep fighting, you’re stronger than you think!
Thanks dude. Yeah it was hell for those 3 days, I lucky got some cash in today and was about to get a few benzo's The pain is finally over.. For now I guess. Next battle being the cravings and oh yes.. The sheer boredom. That's where I went wrong as well, Managed to get sober and stay off it for a good while and then BAM.. Straight back in the cycle again, comes out of nowhere sometimes and it's just too hard to resist on certain days. Keep fighting too brother, All the best. It's certainly one hell of a struggle. Much love
Thank you for sharing. I have been there. They are always the same experience... But different. Alcohol is demonic. I suppose addictions in general are... We all need to keep being good, it's the only way. ❤
This is helping me so much. God bless you❤ I weaned for 3 days and today is my first day with out alcohol in about 2 years. Did you feel like your body was in physical agony and feel tingly?
Thank you! Yes I felt everything, felt like I was on the brink of insanity and felt like my time was up, but I’m still here and I’ve been through this many times. You’re doing great! It’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do but it will be worth it when it’s all over. You’ll feel like a new person. Good luck and keep up the good work! You’ve got this! ♥️
Yep the demonic voices and shadow people. Scary ass shit. Especially if you never heard of this before. I had my first DT last week. Its an absolute terrifying experience.
Been there my friend, , it's such a hideous cycle, the things you describe sound so familiar, the physical is, hideous, the mental , spiritual & overall "mental state" is torture , take care man, ✌️ it gets better ✌️❤️ sounds like D.T.'s man & it ain't no joke , eat well, try to relax, sleep will come, pray & believe✌️, a friend of mine described D.T.'s as "taking 20 hits of acid & not knowing it " 😳, a hot shower & a grateful heart helps tremendously ✌️❤️
Hey man thanks for sharing! ♥️ Yeah the worst experiences in my life have been my detoxes but now I’m proud to say that I’m 13 months sober and no sign of going back. Everyday is a fight but it gets easier as time goes on. 🙂♥️
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I relapsed for 3 weeks but I became alcohol dependant again because I was constantly drinking. It happens every time I relapse, that’s why it’s so hard to detox myself. Well I’ve been heavily drinking since I was 17, it became a problem when I was at uni because thats when I started drinking everyday. I didn’t get help till January 2017 and that 1st detox was easy because I had doctors coming out giving medication everyday after my controlled drinking. Then after that I went into rehab for 3 months and was sober for a year and a half. I’ve relapsed 6 times in the last year. The first self detox was definitely the scariest and most dangerous.
Half a liter of Vodka a day for 3 weeks doesn't lead to such horrific withdrawals. For the symptoms you re describing one needs to drink a 750ml bottle of vodka for 2 months strait. No sober time. You wake up, you drink again. Then if you stop abruptly, you get to the point of seeing stuff, and hearing noises, and when you eventually fall asleep you get brain zapps, precursors to seizures.
He is a more sensitive individual, so I guess it’s possible for some, although it surprised me to hear that. Took me about 6 months of drinking 1.5L a day to get the horrific withdrawals.
AA definitely works for about 10% but, sometimes it's a major turnoff and a cause to just want more. Give Steffon Barkload's homepagw an opportunity, after only 1 hour, you'll be able to hypnotize yourself to possibly quit permanently or be in control.
Yeah, this isn't fun. I just finished a week long bender 3 days ago. Shorter than you, but I drank far, far more, think a fifth of whisky plus a looot of beers. Finally dawned on me that I'm gonna die if I keep this up, so decided to take drastic measures. Thankfully, I had some diazepam on hand. I honestly think it saved my life. Used the loading dose protocol, after 60mgs I was no longer going insane. The demons did make an appearance the second day, saw and heard them trying to reach out to me from beyond the veil. Some more valium sent them away. It's day three now, and I feel ok-ish. No more valium, I really don't want to get addicted to that shit as well. I'm using some propranolol to make sure I don't stroke out or get a heart attack from increased blood pressure. Still feeling shaky, but getting better. Moral of the story is, without benzos, detoxing is just an absolute nightmare. It's best to do it under medical supervision, of course, don't try to self- medicate like I did. It's not my first rodeo, and I know what I'm doing by now. I honestly think that if I didn't have access to those pills, I'd be either hospitalised or dead. Saw my doctor today, got some IV's for liver support, as well as an Antabuse implant, so I dont get tempted to drink again for the next year. You;'ve got this, kid. Remember, you just have to not drink today.
Alcohol is evil they call it spirits for a reason , I’ve been in rehab and had a 200/120 blood pressure my hearth rate was 140 standing couldn’t breathe right chest chalking and twitching sweating like crazy felt like I was going to seazure up luckily I went to the Er pumped me with Ativan and Librium doctor said I was in a hypertension crisis luckily I managed to get clean for 90 days relapsed but sober again it’s a ongoing fight wish everyone the best in sobriety
@@dmx3838 well you can but I’ve been really lucky and liver is absolutely fine after having tests. The liver repairs itself but it can only take so much.
should of had Valium its blissful as you feel the warmth kick in and the body becoming Sedated then it would not be hell but heaven well no as its slimier to taking Heroin when your in pain it works on stooping the pain he would diffidently not had Seizures if on Valium
I took medication the first time I detoxed but it took months to go through the process to get access to them and then a doctor had to come out to give me the pills. It takes far to long to go through this process when you are so desperate to stop.
I had a gallon of hard liquor daily habit before i went to my first detox. Had to be wheelchaired in couldn't even hold a pen or cup of water. Within a week my central nervous system regulated with meds, nutrition and hydration. I was 57 so no spring chicken and I was a hard drinker for 30 years. But honestly for me the detox was the easiest part of recovery. Total care and relaxation getting off my personal battlefield of hell. It did end up taking me three detoxes and a full year in patient. Even then i had a mild relapse. Sober 4 years now by persistence and grace and help from others. But detox got me through it. Just my experience.
I truly feel for this young man I hope he's doing well seems like a very gentle soul
Thank you for sharing. I had, what sounds like, a VERY similar experience a little more than a month ago. You're absolutely right, it feels like you're possessed. I had so many vivid hallucinations of people trying to attack and rape me, auditory hallucinations of people telling me to murder, a constant loop of music that wasn't there, objects/paintings moving and talking to me, seizures, etc. Absolute hell for about 3 days. Then it just stopped. Batshit crazy. Completely changed my perspective on life. I'm sober 42 days today. That experience alone makes me never want a single drop of alcohol ever again. Stay strong.
Jackie Kelly i had that experience in a hotel and on a plane was rushed to hospital i thought i had become Schizophrenic we phoned the hotel dr who injected me with Diazepam wich felt like Heroin the relief from the fear and realising it was not Schizophrenia i think in the hotel before i may have been having Seizures or dreams of having them
That is the withdrawals and bad sensations that pull someone to take again alcohol.alcoholic feels good after taking drink.
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Beautiful man, great spirit. Wishing you the very best. You WILL prevail. Alcohol detox is the hell.
Thanks man! Hope you had a lovely Christmas. ♥️☺️
Thank you for posting this. I can really relate. The panic and fear is something i wouldnt wish on anyone in the world. You have powerful energy friend....keep on keepin on! 💛💛💛💛
I totally get this man, I’m coming off a minor DT that’s lasting 3 days so far. And omg the evil spirit monsters when you close your eyes are so horrible. I don’t think they’d allow it in theatres. And the worst part is through it all is the sweating and being cold and hot at the same time
Evil monsters? When I closed my eyes it was more just flashing images that could be all sorts of things, yes some could be monsters, but it would be pretty much anything
Mate this is one of the most hardcore stories I've ever heard - the fact you kept having seizures then got back up and kept hallucinating and then seizured again. I have no idea how you're still alive. My wife had an alcohol withdrawal seizure and it was like something from The Exorcist...she groaned and her face contorted into a different person and she fell to the ground and I had to call an ambulance. She was a zombie for days after, didn't remember anything, kept thinking she was in a TV show, it was so scary. She also hallucinated one night in bed, spiders, chanting outside, shadow people...I thought she was going to be stuck that way forever. I also had mild withdrawals every week after drinking for 2 days straight every weekend for 20 years straight...I'd sweat in bed, shaking non stop, I'd hear music on loop as if it was being played in my room, I'd shut my eyes and see demonic pictures as real as if I were watching a screen. And the depression and anxiety was crushing. My wife and I are now 1 year 7 months sober and absolutely thriving. We love being sober. I'm so glad you're ok...are you still sober? I see this was 5 years ago.
"Delirium Tremens Stories" been there for about 14 days then hospital after running middle of the night,, Horror you cant imagine because you never could think it,,2 years on i still suffer with the visions thankfully average weekly ish random days for hour or so,, alot of people never made it through this im learning to know now,,nobody talks of it too me
I had a very similar experience in my most recent relapse. I have also tripped and very intensely, and this was nothing like anything I had experienced before. My issue has always been vodka, or cheap rum when I lived in Guatemala. When I tried to detox at home I kept begging my mom to let me detox using light beer...but she did not want to enable me so I actually tried drinking mouthwash in small quantities when I felt that I would have a seizure. It was like my life flashed before my eyes also, and all I could do was lay in bed. I could not even get up to take a shower, and when I looked at myself in the mirror it was like almost as if I was on a bad trip but worse...like I thought I was not even human. Whether my eyes were open or closed, I was seeing these demon-like things...and they were laughing at me and it was like I was having persecutory delusions...like everything I had done in life was to be ridiculed or scorned or that I was being sent straight to hell. I thought I had gone to hell. When I finally did get up to shower, I had auditory hallucinations. Thank you for posting this. I thought I was losing my mind or that I had done too many hallucinogens previously. Finally, it subsided; but it is an experience that changed me completely.
Hey Kelsa! Thanks for sharing your story with me. It just shows that we are not alone in all of this. It’s a terrifying experience and I wouldn’t wish it on anybody but it’s a life changing one as well and I needed to go through it to make me appreciate my life. It’s like a huge wake up call from a higher power. I hope your keeping well. We are strong, Keep fighting! ✌️
Kelsa Jones i would not wish it on a worst enemy i get into lots of arguments with people who have never gone thought it my worst fear would be being Arrested and the police making me die cold turkey in a cell with others who are not withdrawing i bet the police would not care and in a cell with the lights on would not know the diffreince between the police inmates and Hallucinations
Self detox and withdrawal is the worst it's pure hell freezing cold sweats even though your boiling hot hulucinations and seizures constantly your body is rumbling anxiety is constantly with you. Medical detox works really well have done it befor and have relapsed with terrible mental health issues. And am now ready to go to rehab again. I can't wait to feel myself again, for me and my daughter. I wish everyone battling this poison the best ❤️
Well done for getting back on track! I’ve fell of the wagon so many times but I’m now 13 months sober the longest I’ve been in a long time.
Yeah I’ve had a medical detox once before I went to rehab but it was so hard to get and took so long to be approved. I wouldn’t wish self detoxes on my worst enemy but when you are desperate you have no choice.
Hope you get the help you need. Keep me updated and stay safe. ♥️
Friend, I really hope you are well today. You are not alone. There are people who understand you. There might be a lot of people who do not understand and are not helpful but don’t get hung up on those types. I can see your will to live a fulfilling life. You’re in my prayers no matter what. 💚🧡💛
Sleeping with a guy would be 1000x scarier i reckon... that would turn me into a pisshead
One of the key points that comes out when you’re speaking with other people who consider themselves to be alcoholics is rigorous honesty, and I’ll just leave it there. That’s the way that you can get better.
I'm so sorry that is brutal!! It's been 5 years I hope you're okay. I'm going through this but not as severe as you. I'm shaking, I'm seeing demons too, crying, my liver is shutting down, in so much pain, so much guilt, cannot sleep. I'm back in AA and need and want to be free of this vicious cycle. I hear you it's absolutely terrifying! I went to celebrate Canada day and was violently shaking the entire time barely able to focus on conversation. I never felt so hopeless.
I'm on day 3. The diarrhea and stomach pains are intense.
stick with it , it gets better hang in there
@@paddymcdonald8060 180 days sober now after a few relapses
I left in January now feeling well.i took ayurvedic medicines.than no craving for alchol.it made my nervous system strong.
@@Sarah-no7lv congrats hope your doing well recovering alcoholic here.
Seeing demons and horrific images when you close your eyes, is exactly what I experienced as well. It’s an awful prison. Inescapable except through time. Sucks.
I saw those demons during my worst relapse.
Alcohol detox is awful going through it😮
I did a handle 1.75 a day for two years. Hospital told me they had never seen a liver function so low for my at. my liver enzymes are x33 times higher than health range and I'm 19 years old. I've had it all. I used to close my eyes and see strange evil bugs / monsters that were just not even explainable. You just wonder how it's even possible for your mind to make that up
Thanks for sharing alcohol is a killer and ruins everything. I hope you're sober and doing well👍
Thanks man! Yeah 14 months sober and still going strong! 😊
Hey Owen I just wanted to say I’m glad you’re sober and I’m working my way there I relapsed once two weeks ago I’m back drinking a bottle of whiskey within a 24 hour period. When I first quit I got the sweats a good bit a good bit of nausea. I never had a seizure but on the 4th day of withdrawal I started hallucinating and I seen these two big dogs that looked like hell hounds. They looked like Doberman pinchers with long white horns instead of ears in my back yard. Then about a half hour later I saw a grim reaper looking figure in my living room 10 feet away from me staring straight at me. I also sometimes heard music playing when nothing or nobody was around. That’s when I relapsed cuz I was more terrified than ever before when I saw the grim reaper staring me eye to eye.
bighf24 Hey man! I hope you are doing well. Remember one day at a time don’t pressure yourself.
It’s terrifying isn’t it. I’m sure we see these things for a reason. I think there’s some realness in these dreams and hallucinations. Why else would we see these terrifying things? I think they are just a warning sign from god knows where but I think they are there to help us by scaring us and showing us way could happen if we keep living like this.
We need to learn to love ourselves and look after our bodies because life is so precious and I know realise that now I’m sober.
I hope you are are alright and I’m wishing the best for you!
Thanks for sharing your story. Keep me updated on your journey! People like us need to stick together and help each other.
Owen Armstrong thank you for getting back to me. The hallucinations with the dogs were weird as hell because I own a 215 pound Great Dane and I had let him in from the back yard not 2 minutes before I saw the “hell hounds” as I call them. But the grim reaper figure that was staring me eye to eye didn’t make sense to me. I wasn’t afraid one bit I just stood there and stared at it as it did to me. Then my dog started barking at the mailman and it went away. Idk what the hell it was but it sure was nothing like anything I ever saw hallucinating on mushrooms or acid I did in high school. But the worst of what I’m going through is the constant pounding headaches and nausea. The sweats are bad but not as bad as the headaches. I just want to be myself again
There is a physical aspect to it, and a spiritual aspect. The darkness doesn't want you to let go of the dependency because being in it keeps you from God's destiny for your life. I am so sorry you went through all of that.
Thank you. Yes it was a very spiritual experience. I’m kind of thankful that I went through it. It taught me a lot.
@@0wenarmstrong I would venture to say your guardian angel was fighting for you.
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Hey Owen, I hope you're still doing well. Its crazy that you mentioned seeing demons when you closed your eyes! I experienced the same exact thing. At night in the wallpaper I would see them and if I closed my eyes it was if I was watching TV and seeing them. I'm not sure if it was because I was in a detox facility and on Benzos though that I almost enjoyed it because I knew it was just withdrawals. Stay strong!
Hi angel thanks for sharing. Hope you're well sending love light and blessings xx 8 years sober next month. But remember detoxing on my own sooooo well.. Keep it in the day 💕🙏🏻💕
Thank you so much! Yeah it’s tough but we get through it. Congratulations on your 8 years coming up that’s amazing! I hope to be there one day.
Sending love and positive vibes! 💖✨
Thanks for sharing Owen. So glad you made it through. How are you doing today?
Sorry for the late reply Rachel.
I relapsed again and split my head open twice. I’m absolutely fine now, clean and sober again with no damage done. Should be making a video about it soon.
❤ Glad you're recovering Owen!
Hi Owen how are you doing now? Hope your well, I can totally understand your story, keep strong
I've been there. It's absolutely hellish. I hope you're clean and sober now. God Bless you xx
Me too howlong do you stay fatigued for?
@@topnotchlyrics8806 it's different for everyone.
@@patriciamitchell247 i also havr hallucinated stuff, do you have whatsapp or discord?
It's like hell and and going through that tomorrow because I am determined
I hope it went well for you. I am on day 3...
The most detailed story I've watched online! I've been there too! Thank you for sharing.
Thanks man! Just trying to be as honest and detailed as I can to help other people going though it. :)
@@0wenarmstrong I am currently going through this hell right now......when I close my eyes I'm convinced demons exist.
@@andrewrowley8710 just hang in there! It will soon stop. It is very dangerous to do alone so I would recommend to anyone going through it to get medical help as they can give you detox pills to help but if your stubborn like me and just want to do it alone just know that it eventually stops and try and look after yourself as best you can. Drink plenty of water and try and eat some toast or something. Sleep is always the best thing but I know it’s impossible when going through detox plus the nightmares are terrifying, so just try and rest maybe watch something familiar on Netflix or something.
You will get through this Andrew! Stay safe man.
@@0wenarmstrong Thanks so much for saying that man, this has truly been an insane spiritual experience that I will never forget and learned from. I love the way you talk and I really like you're face! You're one of the good ones.
Alright mate im from durham, newcastle area and i am absolutely terrified of stopping because i dont know whats going to happen when i do. Slowly weening off is not really working either. Wish me luck
You look young man. Figure out why you're trying to forget and you won't need to drink. I've almost died 2 times in hospitals. Been to detox many times over 15 years. Figure next time will be fatal. I drink because of my mental health issues. But I've sorted those out and really don't drink much anymore. Doesn't have to be life-long. A healthy diet is the most important part for me. No sugar.
Do you mean you can drink a little bit without being addicted? As withdrawal syndrome is permanent
@@watermelonineasterhay What I mean is if you're addicted to alcohol there's a reason. You find out why you need a drink heavy you shouldn't have a problem with alcohol. There's no such thing as an alcoholic. Don't be fooled by what people say. Many people have quit started back up and quit again without having a problem.
Well hope you're still doing okay. Isn't it pretty shocking that a drug like alcohol is so part of our culture when it can cause such horrific withdrawals?
I hope you’re doing well and are sober. Alcohol is evil ... its some purpose is to destroy
Yes I just turned 15 months sober yesterday! 🙌
Yep! Spot on. Feels like you want to rip out of your body. I thank God never got DT like that, I would probably die. I ended up cleaning my whole house as well, helps a lot to move around and get your mind off of it. This was after an 11 day binge drinking wine/ vodka through 24 hours a day. (would sleep and wake up hungover so take swigs from bottle)
Thanks for posting your experience I’ve been going through DTs for the last two days and it’s been horrible last night I literally thought I was gonna die same with this morning I’m kind of scared about tonight because it’s usually the third day that’s the worst for me. I am a heavy vodka drinker but I also top that off with beer and pretty much anything I can get my hands on every day, a pint to a liter a day and beer between the shots. I found your stories though about your hallucinations and dreams so similar to mine I mean I had a dream that there was a lady demonic looking, her skin falling off, with all sorts of blood and puss spraying on me. It was horrible. I hope I can Get through this I’m scared to taper because I feel like when I have a drink it makes the withdrawal worse it’s like always start sweating and shaking and it’s worse like an hour or two later after the drink. Hopefully I don’t have a heart attack or seizure. I’m very scared right now, I was doing the same thing praying to the universe, my granny, god everything to get me through last night, sweating and shaking and the horrible closed eye visions. Take care.
How have you been , bro?
Thank you for sharing your story. How have you been since stopping? I'm so sorry you went through all this. You have convinced me to stop drinking. That repeating hell is my worst nightmare. I hope you are better now.
Hey Michelle. Sorry for the late reply I relapsed again fell over and split my head open twice within 2 weeks. I’m absolutely fine now. Clean and sober and the detox went well as I didn’t just go cold turkey so no horrible dreams. I’ll make a video about it soon.
@@0wenarmstrong so glad you are doing better love. So sorry that you hurt your head! Happy to hear you are alright, and I've almost completely stopped drinking. I Got mad the other day and grabbed the nearest bottle and turned it upside down.. but then stopped, spit it out and poured the rest down the sink. 💕 its not worth my life and health.
How did you do it this time? Please tell
I know the fear of the alcohol seizure trust me I’ve had one before , that’s why I’m detoxing again rn but with benzos so I don’t have one , it’s terrifying and depressing , my muscles keep twitching
Joshua Luevanos I know it’s one of the worst things a person can go through but you just have to stick it out because it’s so worth it in the end. Takes a few weeks to be totally back to normal but you just have to think to yourself that it will pass and you’ll be happy again soon.
Hope it’s going well! Keep me updated. Keep fighting.
Owen Armstrong I mean I’ve done with over and over again , I started drinking last Thursday because I was badly beaten my broken bones so last night I decided that since my concussion is gone I’ll stop the drinking so I just bought a 6 pack , stuck it out through the night and then waited a few hours I took my benzos and slept from 5am to 2pm waking up constantly sweating and shaking till I finally woke up and just took more of the medications , trust me Ik the feeling , the first couple of days are pretty shitty but it’ll take 1-2 weeks for the cravings to go , Ik what the feeling when u close ur eyes u see a lot of things , it’s very scary , u can die from alcohol detox u should have seek medical attention :/
Yeah you should defiantly get medical attention if you can but if you can’t you just have to stick it out and reduce the alcohol safely, it’s dangerous to just stop all together.
Owen Armstrong well I have my benzodiazepines so I’ll get through it I’ve got through so many relapses like I hope this was the last one , so Ik I’m fine or won’t go into dts or seizures. Cleansing my liver and my kidneys so I won’t have a bad withdrawal
Alcohol is fun in the beginning but once you lose control of it goodbye happiness. I'm glad you are ok Owen.
Hey Owen, what a detox story.
Ive had similar dreams (you know the ones) but back then I kept drinking and didn't get the point as you mentioned, the reason why we're meant to witness this stuff
I'm actually on day 3 right now, no booze.. starting to see things as I'm writing this.
I'm wondering how you're traveling now, I myself have done several inpatient detoxes and have always relapsed.
Hey Skourge, hope you’re doing well! I know it’s hard but you just have to ride it out.
I’ve relapsed many times since then. They have never been as bad as that one I described as I didn’t just go cold turkey. They have been slow difficult detoxes where I slowly wean myself off the alcohol. Last one I had I ended up in hospital again because I needed a vitamin drip also they gave me pills to help with the withdrawal whilst in there so that really helped.
I think it will always be a apart of my life. I find it when my life is going good I always tend to relapse. I don’t know if it’s self sabotage or rewarding myself thinking I can drink again, but it never turns out well.
I find the biggest thing for me to relapse is boredom. So I just try and keep myself busy. I’m going to start volunteering at the recovery centre that helped me so hopefully that will help a lot. It also will give me a purpose which sometimes I don’t think I have. Also helping people like me will be very rewarding.
Hope your detox goes well, you’ll be in my prayers. Keep fighting, you’re stronger than you think!
Thanks dude.
Yeah it was hell for those 3 days, I lucky got some cash in today and was about to get a few benzo's
The pain is finally over.. For now I guess.
Next battle being the cravings and oh yes.. The sheer boredom.
That's where I went wrong as well, Managed to get sober and stay off it for a good while and then BAM..
Straight back in the cycle again, comes out of nowhere sometimes and it's just too hard to resist on certain days.
Keep fighting too brother, All the best. It's certainly one hell of a struggle.
Much love
Thank you for sharing. I have been there. They are always the same experience... But different. Alcohol is demonic. I suppose addictions in general are... We all need to keep being good, it's the only way. ❤
This is helping me so much. God bless you❤ I weaned for 3 days and today is my first day with out alcohol in about 2 years. Did you feel like your body was in physical agony and feel tingly?
Thank you! Yes I felt everything, felt like I was on the brink of insanity and felt like my time was up, but I’m still here and I’ve been through this many times.
You’re doing great! It’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do but it will be worth it when it’s all over. You’ll feel like a new person.
Good luck and keep up the good work! You’ve got this! ♥️
Yep the demonic voices and shadow people. Scary ass shit. Especially if you never heard of this before. I had my first DT last week. Its an absolute terrifying experience.
Thank you for your video
Been there my friend, , it's such a hideous cycle, the things you describe sound so familiar, the physical is, hideous, the mental , spiritual & overall "mental state" is torture , take care man, ✌️ it gets better ✌️❤️ sounds like D.T.'s man & it ain't no joke , eat well, try to relax, sleep will come, pray & believe✌️, a friend of mine described D.T.'s as "taking 20 hits of acid & not knowing it " 😳, a hot shower & a grateful heart helps tremendously ✌️❤️
Hey man thanks for sharing! ♥️
Yeah the worst experiences in my life have been my detoxes but now I’m proud to say that I’m 13 months sober and no sign of going back.
Everyday is a fight but it gets easier as time goes on. 🙂♥️
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Thank you. I am in this mess. Trying to detox. Terrified of dreams/hallucinations. Yes, interesting. Take care
Good luck! It’s an awful experience but everyone is different. Just try and do it as safely as possible. Sending positive vibes to you.
@@0wenarmstrong Thank you!
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i'm 2 years sober. How are you doing now owen?
You were alcohol dependant after 3 weeks of drinking? Or u just relapsed for 3wks? How long did u drink before the relapse?
I relapsed for 3 weeks but I became alcohol dependant again because I was constantly drinking. It happens every time I relapse, that’s why it’s so hard to detox myself.
Well I’ve been heavily drinking since I was 17, it became a problem when I was at uni because thats when I started drinking everyday.
I didn’t get help till January 2017 and that 1st detox was easy because I had doctors coming out giving medication everyday after my controlled drinking.
Then after that I went into rehab for 3 months and was sober for a year and a half.
I’ve relapsed 6 times in the last year. The first self detox was definitely the scariest and most dangerous.
Half a liter of Vodka a day for 3 weeks doesn't lead to such horrific withdrawals. For the symptoms you re describing one needs to drink a 750ml bottle of vodka for 2 months strait. No sober time. You wake up, you drink again. Then if you stop abruptly, you get to the point of seeing stuff, and hearing noises, and when you eventually fall asleep you get brain zapps, precursors to seizures.
He is a more sensitive individual, so I guess it’s possible for some, although it surprised me to hear that. Took me about 6 months of drinking 1.5L a day to get the horrific withdrawals.
Took me about 18 years of absolutely heavy drinking. I suppose we are all different. I had mild withdrawals after 5 years, but 18 to really get there.
AA definitely works for about 10% but, sometimes it's a major turnoff and a cause to just want more. Give Steffon Barkload's homepagw an opportunity, after only 1 hour, you'll be able to hypnotize yourself to possibly quit permanently or be in control.
Yeah, this isn't fun. I just finished a week long bender 3 days ago. Shorter than you, but I drank far, far more, think a fifth of whisky plus a looot of beers. Finally dawned on me that I'm gonna die if I keep this up, so decided to take drastic measures. Thankfully, I had some diazepam on hand. I honestly think it saved my life. Used the loading dose protocol, after 60mgs I was no longer going insane. The demons did make an appearance the second day, saw and heard them trying to reach out to me from beyond the veil. Some more valium sent them away. It's day three now, and I feel ok-ish. No more valium, I really don't want to get addicted to that shit as well. I'm using some propranolol to make sure I don't stroke out or get a heart attack from increased blood pressure. Still feeling shaky, but getting better.
Moral of the story is, without benzos, detoxing is just an absolute nightmare. It's best to do it under medical supervision, of course, don't try to self- medicate like I did. It's not my first rodeo, and I know what I'm doing by now. I honestly think that if I didn't have access to those pills, I'd be either hospitalised or dead. Saw my doctor today, got some IV's for liver support, as well as an Antabuse implant, so I dont get tempted to drink again for the next year.
You;'ve got this, kid. Remember, you just have to not drink today.
Don't worry my friend been there 8 times lol. I know not funny but I love to party but hate to pay after
Alcohol is evil they call it spirits for a reason , I’ve been in rehab and had a 200/120 blood pressure my hearth rate was 140 standing couldn’t breathe right chest chalking and twitching sweating like crazy felt like I was going to seazure up luckily I went to the Er pumped me with Ativan and Librium doctor said I was in a hypertension crisis luckily I managed to get clean for 90 days relapsed but sober again it’s a ongoing fight wish everyone the best in sobriety
stick to it Alejandro , realize every day , we almost lost you
I ever had a good time there.
How much drinks you drink per day/week? And for how much time?
Last relapse I had I was drinking a litre of vodka a day and it normally lasts between 3 weeks to a month, could be longer.
@@0wenarmstrong wow that a lot. And you get damage to you liver or something?
@@dmx3838 well you can but I’ve been really lucky and liver is absolutely fine after having tests. The liver repairs itself but it can only take so much.
@@0wenarmstrong good luck i am also struggling with this poision
@@dmx3838 I know it’s really hard but you have to be strong. I really hope that you get better soon. Sending positive vibes!
Did that happen on day 1?
Yeah pretty much when you stop drinking all together
Alcohol withdrawal is no joke
Another way is to tapper alcohol with proper diet if u can do otherwise seek medical attention.
should of had Valium its blissful as you feel the warmth kick in and the body becoming Sedated then it would not be hell but heaven well no as its slimier to taking Heroin when your in pain it works on stooping the pain he would diffidently not had Seizures if on Valium
I took medication the first time I detoxed but it took months to go through the process to get access to them and then a doctor had to come out to give me the pills. It takes far to long to go through this process when you are so desperate to stop.
Yes valium helps the detox so much. You just have to be careful not to get hooked on those too. 5 day supply should be good.
I had a gallon of hard liquor daily habit before i went to my first detox. Had to be wheelchaired in couldn't even hold a pen or cup of water. Within a week my central nervous system regulated with meds, nutrition and hydration. I was 57 so no spring chicken and I was a hard drinker for 30 years. But honestly for me the detox was the easiest part of recovery. Total care and relaxation getting off my personal battlefield of hell. It did end up taking me three detoxes and a full year in patient. Even then i had a mild relapse. Sober 4 years now by persistence and grace and help from others. But detox got me through it. Just my experience.
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His voice is giving me a anxiety attack
Just press the mute button, I’m sure that will solve the problem. :)
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