Sober for 1 Year - Why I Quit Drinking

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    I almost didn't make this video simply because of how personal this is. But ultimately I'm glad I did. Mostly because: I know there are a lot of people out there that are struggling, hurting, and tired of the devastation and destruction that comes with this addiction. Alcohol dependance is undoubtedly a complex situation, and I hope that anyone who is caught up in the grasp of this cunning and baffling disease can possibly acquire insight into rising above it. Like I said in this video, there are more people than you may realize that are sober people. It's hard to believe when drinking is all you know, but I promise you, there is a better life outside of the dark, depressing, and lonely depths of an alcohol induced rock bottom. Despite this weeks video being different from the videos I usually make, I feel this needed to be said. I also want to thank you for watching this painful video and I hope everyone has a great week ahead.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 5 тис.

  • @CaptainGnarkill
    @CaptainGnarkill  5 років тому +1134

    I planned on replying to every comment here, but the amount of them is a little overwhelming... I have read most of them though. I love you all so much and appreciate all the support too! To those of you struggling with a substance, I hope sharing my story helped or at least provoked some positive thoughts on possibly making some changes in your life. 3 years later and I am still sober: ua-cam.com/video/kb8gLNYNah0/v-deo.html

    • @mattfretwell8757
      @mattfretwell8757 5 років тому +9

      Thank you

    • @amendez8567
      @amendez8567 5 років тому +2

      I sent you an FB messenger message. Read!!!

    • @HowardBoos
      @HowardBoos 5 років тому +16

      Thank you. It took a lot of guts. And, I especially want to thank you for being honest enough to create the picture that defuncts the lie that addiction is just a bunch of folks having fun,
      We both know that it's anything but fun.
      It's pure pain.

    • @FiftyFivePercent
      @FiftyFivePercent 5 років тому +12

      Thanks for sharing your story man, I'm at 4 months and can relate to your experience a lot. It honestly really helped me out and reminded me how important sobriety is

    • @troytempest6181
      @troytempest6181 5 років тому +14

      A very honest account of the reality of this disease.
      20 years sober & I thank God every day.
      Thank you for sharing Captain.

  • @kendalllowe7527
    @kendalllowe7527 4 роки тому +903

    Alcohol steals happiness from tomorrow.

    • @bull_Tattoo
      @bull_Tattoo 3 роки тому +9

      Sooo true 🙌

    • @zackerythomas3675
      @zackerythomas3675 3 роки тому +7

      The abuse of alcohol and addiction to alcohol steals happiness from tomorrow.

    • @noit1049
      @noit1049 3 роки тому +25

      Moderation is hard when you're an alcoholic. One drink leads to another and another. Yet it is possible, but I think moderation to an alcoholic is like 8 beers..

    • @staceyharvey6329
      @staceyharvey6329 3 роки тому +3

      That’s prophetic!

    • @orangedrone
      @orangedrone 3 роки тому +5

      But, it makes it magically appear out of fucking nowhere today.

  • @jrlakin370
    @jrlakin370 4 роки тому +2233

    I quit today, after losing nearly everything. Starting AA tomorrow. Wish me luck.

    • @Chill-Pill
      @Chill-Pill 4 роки тому +26

      How you doing now Jim?

    • @brucehester888
      @brucehester888 4 роки тому +31

      I've lost it all too bro. Material things are easy to get back. Loved ones, not so easy. I've lost a lot of people I love over the SH*T.

    • @lt.generalofsalt4273
      @lt.generalofsalt4273 4 роки тому +15

      Remember you didnt lose any of things to alcohol your taded them for it.

    • @IsItVeg
      @IsItVeg 4 роки тому +2

      Jim Lakin aa won’t keep you sober

    • @GoogleAccount-uz1uj
      @GoogleAccount-uz1uj 4 роки тому +9

      You can do it ❤️

  • @AllansStation
    @AllansStation 10 місяців тому +77

    Keep it up. A heavy drinker for over 30 years. Decided one day that's enough, this is killing me. I was 60 years of age and dying. I just stopped. Now aged 92 in perfect health. Never had or wanted a drink since then. It can be done

    • @DianaCarolinaGirl22
      @DianaCarolinaGirl22 4 місяці тому +2

      Wow now that's inspiring & incredible at the same time. Congrats!

    • @villanvar84
      @villanvar84 Місяць тому +3

      Got bless you what did it take to.grt through it I'm 39 and maybe about 20 yrs drinking and I'm ready to stop but it's so difficult when it's been your coping mechanism for so long but I keep spiraling and lost a job again

    • @Sacred_Walls
      @Sacred_Walls Місяць тому

      @@villanvar84l started by deciding that ld had ENOUGH. It was wrecking my body. I hadn’t been able to fall asleep naturally for 15 years. My circadian rhythm was FUKKD and I used to plan my meals around it. My friendships suffered and I was soooo tired of hiding my habit! So one day l woke up, got ready for work and put all the bottles in my cupboard in a bag and threw it in the communal trash on my way out. Never looked back and although my body is still in recovery, l do not miss that life of planning everything around alcohol anymore. If I can do it, so can you. Good luck ❤

    • @1Jason
      @1Jason Місяць тому +1

      Thats inspirational.

  • @howlartwork798
    @howlartwork798 3 роки тому +703

    man i watched this when i first decided it was time to quit alcohol. I remember thinking I hope I manage a year sober, seemed impossible. I just past my first year of sobriety from alcohol :D

    • @allanlocke5749
      @allanlocke5749 3 роки тому +3

      🤝🙏

    • @jonathanedwards6132
      @jonathanedwards6132 3 роки тому +22

      Working on 3 days...

    • @daniel-km4qx
      @daniel-km4qx 3 роки тому +6

      BRAVO My way to stay sober is through personal development including planning the day, every day I write down in a notebook my list of things to do, great notebooks with quotes for recovering alcoholics are on amazon, search: "hungry man notebooks". I haven't drunk for 555 days and I'm happy

    • @oldonetwoable
      @oldonetwoable 3 роки тому +6

      My Daughter is currently in hospital withdrawing, it's hell. I pray she never has to go through this again. Well done to everyone that is on the other side of this nightmare. I wish you all the very best.

    • @CHARLESSBRONSON
      @CHARLESSBRONSON 2 роки тому +1

      @@oldonetwoable I'm still going through this nightmare and it's been almost 6months sober. At times I feel like I'm going crazy or that I'm going to lose my cognitive function indefinitely anytime soon. I hope your daughter is getting better an staying clean. 🙏🏻.

  • @MattyRox
    @MattyRox 4 роки тому +685

    Sober 38 days, hey it’s a start.

    • @hollyclark690
      @hollyclark690 4 роки тому +9

      one day at a time

    • @monotraumatik8491
      @monotraumatik8491 4 роки тому +5

      Keep it up man! You're doing great

    • @ChrisDuffy_82
      @ChrisDuffy_82 4 роки тому +3

      Same here!

    • @CFCMAMO1
      @CFCMAMO1 4 роки тому +10

      The rest is smooth sailing. Congrats on 38 days.

    • @NelsonVanDweller
      @NelsonVanDweller 4 роки тому +3

      Still going? I'm in month 5 now. Lockdown here in UK has helped. But yeh gunna keep it up at all costs

  • @Blessedup69
    @Blessedup69 4 роки тому +992

    I quit then relapsed.
    Then quit then relapsed.
    Then after repeating that 50 times I got it right.
    I stopped counting the days ,I’m 8 years sober

    • @leninramos1980
      @leninramos1980 4 роки тому +24

      Never Stop Quiting

    • @thefeelcompany
      @thefeelcompany 4 роки тому +5

      Awesome!

    • @henryj8363
      @henryj8363 4 роки тому +15

      Thank you this gave me hope.

    • @thecapone45
      @thecapone45 4 роки тому +25

      That’s really inspiring. 8 years. Wow. That’s great.
      I know how it feels. I would tell myself that I would quit after today, after today. And it got bad. I would start going two days tops without drinking. Two days was like a record and rarely did I make it to say three. I’m trying hard to take a break. I’ve been sober 7 days. It’s 2019 and I can’t remember the last time I went a week without being drunk. Seven days. It doesn’t seem like much but honestly, seven days is so rare. Proud of myself. I want to share my accomplishment but it’s hard because no one even knows I suffer from alcohol abuse. No one knows my accomplishment.

    • @colinmeng
      @colinmeng 4 роки тому +2

      @@thecapone45 I am proud of you! Keep going ;)

  • @Bwh-rm3py
    @Bwh-rm3py 3 роки тому +337

    I made it 14 months without drinking, it was the best time of my life. Met the love of my life and planned to get married at the age of 54. I lost control and started drinking again. She gone now and well I'm not sure what to do but here i go again with not drinking. Anyone reading, please don't wait until your 54, do it now.

    • @1893Mauser
      @1893Mauser 2 роки тому +12

      God bless you man.

    • @FlashFac
      @FlashFac 2 роки тому +8

      Little late to the comment. Something that has helped me is to understand that it's not our fault. It's the drug and poisons fault. It's not that we lack willpower, it's that the poison robs us of ourselves. All of the problems are because of a addictive substance we trick ourselves into believing is controllable through will power. A lot is never enough, a little is always too much.

    • @metabolic_jam
      @metabolic_jam 2 роки тому +6

      Sorry about your loss, you'll definitely meet someone as wonderful once you're sober again. God bless

    • @christopherreed5741
      @christopherreed5741 2 роки тому +14

      I'm 54, quit drinking 11 months ago after about 30 years of being drunk. Being sober is hard lately. I don't want to drink though. What's hard is realizing the life I built on booze sucks. My job sucks. I hate where I live--it's ugly. The people are ugly here. Garbage everywhere. I keep thinking a geographic cure will fix things but they never have in the past (forget strange cities or countries, I've woken up after black out drinking on a couple different continents). I left my drunk wife of 7 years. I gave her an ultimatum--she chose booze. I don't blame her but don't want to be with a drunk. Plus, she was a real bitch. Genuine. So ugliness abounds, existential yearning and regret torture me. To quote the poet James Wright, "I have wasted my life."

    • @Humble_Bee.
      @Humble_Bee. 2 роки тому +2

      Best of luck. ❤

  • @thomasjohnson3314
    @thomasjohnson3314 3 роки тому +90

    5 years, do I miss it? Yea, is my life 1000 times better now? absolutely.

    • @thomasjohnson3314
      @thomasjohnson3314 2 роки тому

      @Wayne F. Its ok to miss 'parts" of drinking. No different than the first cigarette in the morning, it still gives you cancer.

    • @labab1048
      @labab1048 2 роки тому +1

      @Wayne F. You miss the “idea” of it…but if you don’t play the “mind game” which is all the disease really is, and wants from you, then you get the upper hand over it, day by day! When you don’t have the first one…you’ll never have the second.

  • @ericward9159
    @ericward9159 4 роки тому +311

    A lot of people drink to feel good, I drink to not feel at all.

    • @BL00DS5
      @BL00DS5 4 роки тому +12

      Deep bro deep..

    • @4ll1d0155m0k3w33d
      @4ll1d0155m0k3w33d 4 роки тому +22

      I think deep down every addict uses whatever drug of choice to not feel. Only problem is the next day it's gonna be even worse, you can't keep that cycle up forever. I am so sick of the cycle. Eventually my liver would give out and I'd be dead, fuck that. I want to live this life now and experience it, feel it, not just erase it with booze. Hope you can find your way.

    • @HWG-wm8ld
      @HWG-wm8ld 4 роки тому +3

      Yea, I just wanted to escape. Almost as if I was dead for the night.

    • @spiritw0rld
      @spiritw0rld 4 роки тому +7

      I used to drink to feel good. But always after I stopped drinking I started to have depression and *feeling of impending doom* after 1-2 days. I learned the feeling will go away once I drink again. So, I continued to drink to keep the feeling away, to not feel. Ironically the "cure" was the fuel for the fear.

    • @rchloe-wk3rp
      @rchloe-wk3rp 4 роки тому +3

      i drink to feel ANYTHING. been sober the last couple months after 5 years bingeing and i'm literally now a robot/sociopath/recluse.

  • @ilovebrandnewcarpets
    @ilovebrandnewcarpets 5 років тому +358

    "It wasn't even enjoyable...it was just something I did."
    Yup, that about summed it up for me.

    • @swf4841
      @swf4841 4 роки тому +3

      Yep. It’s ridiculous. No need for it.

    • @dimwitsixtytwelve
      @dimwitsixtytwelve 4 роки тому +7

      That's the stage I'm at now. My tolerance is so high that I don't even get a buzz off it anymore. I would have to move up to liquor/spirits to get a buzz again but I know that's a slippery slope I'm not prepared to go down.

    • @hiddenorchard
      @hiddenorchard 4 роки тому +1

      yup

    • @4ll1d0155m0k3w33d
      @4ll1d0155m0k3w33d 4 роки тому

      @@dimwitsixtytwelve dude just stop now. Take it from me, probably 2,000 liquor bottles later. I'm off the sauce now and plan on living life.

    • @dimwitsixtytwelve
      @dimwitsixtytwelve 4 роки тому +2

      @Robert Beurkens yeah I know! I'm getting there! Glad to hear you're doing well, the biggest thing I noticed how easy it is to adjust feeling like shit every morning. You go from that to waking up sober and you feel amazing!

  • @samanthamoreno8855
    @samanthamoreno8855 3 роки тому +328

    23 year old female and I’m not an alcoholic but I can see it going in that direction. I’m watching all these videos to get myself to stop now before I can’t.

    • @jk-474
      @jk-474 3 роки тому +3

      Hope you’re on a more positive path now. I used to be a real ass myself when I’d overendulge, I moderate myself far better now, I’m more the stoner type for the past few years now, even with that I moderate and not only do I save product for myself, but it feels far more rewarding taking some rips while I’m winding down too. You look like a bright woman, hope you’re using that full force and staying positive!

    • @Sidhumswl
      @Sidhumswl 3 роки тому +17

      Read up on Allen Carr and you eventually realize that every drinker is an alcoholic at a different stage. The further we go into drinking, the easier it becomes to realize we are alcoholics. Hard to believe but even the normal drinker is an alcoholic, but just at an early stage.

    • @charliebrennancole3363
      @charliebrennancole3363 3 роки тому +4

      ur only young nip it in the bud!

    • @fabianwright9147
      @fabianwright9147 3 роки тому +5

      stop it. I'm withdrawing its hell

    • @oldironsides4107
      @oldironsides4107 2 роки тому +2

      Just don’t drink early and you’ll be fine.

  • @jasondiaz8792
    @jasondiaz8792 2 роки тому +51

    I’m 83 days with no alcohol. And it’s hasn’t been easy. But I wanna learn to respect myself. I need to keep going.

    • @chandlerpewitt2647
      @chandlerpewitt2647 Рік тому +2

      How u doing now i have 8 months and 20 days almost the same you would if u stuck with it

    • @TherealAlmightyAG
      @TherealAlmightyAG Рік тому +1

      @@chandlerpewitt2647 I have 11 months. Congrats on your 9 months as of now. Hang in there bro. No reason to look back. Like my recovery coach say, "If you ever wanna get high or drunk, rewind the tape."..

    • @kurupt4147
      @kurupt4147 3 місяці тому +1

      Well done

  • @ericjesse2409
    @ericjesse2409 4 роки тому +408

    Alcohol eventually betrays you one way or another

    • @DanBol8686
      @DanBol8686 4 роки тому +1

      100%

    • @denisepaulsenful
      @denisepaulsenful 4 роки тому +25

      Yes. It's like a lover who cheats. You keep forgiving them but they are inherently unfaithful until eventually you've had enough. But not everyone throws out their cheating lover. Or the booze. But the betrayal will continue for alcohol belies the danger it poses to your health and wellbeing. Ask me. I am now a quadriplegic after just a few drinks too many one night I fainted. I suddenly lost consciousness and broke my neck. Yes, this shit is dangerous. It should be sold with a skull and crossbones label. It is a poisonous substance that shouldn't be bottled and sold as a form of entertainment. It's liquid disease.

    • @veronicarubio1657
      @veronicarubio1657 4 роки тому

      Eric Jesse ☹️

    • @1superocky1
      @1superocky1 4 роки тому +3

      @@denisepaulsenful best wishes denise x

    • @JustinQuarles
      @JustinQuarles 4 роки тому +4

      Eric Jesse it is by far the most dangerous devastating drug on this planet.

  • @alexs3958
    @alexs3958 4 роки тому +690

    I’m 10 days off alcohol (I know that isn’t a lot but it’s big to me) and feel incredible! Here’s to life with clarity 😊.

  • @malikmalik1141
    @malikmalik1141 3 роки тому +79

    I love the fact that my digestive system is fixed.I have an appetite and I'm never constipated. I love been sober.

  • @alkmke
    @alkmke 3 роки тому +102

    15 days sober and this video helped me off the struggle bus today.
    Thank you ♡

    • @99problemsbutafishaintone35
      @99problemsbutafishaintone35 Рік тому +2

      I was you 4 years 15 days ago.
      Replace old addictions with healthy ones.

    • @Mark-on3nl
      @Mark-on3nl 8 місяців тому +1

      I'm 3 weeks today keep going....more benefit to stop than to keep drinking

    • @alkmke
      @alkmke 8 місяців тому +3

      Just passed 2 years 🥳. My whole life changed for the better 💖 quitting alcohol was the best decision I've ever made for myself.

    • @jordanlang6527
      @jordanlang6527 6 місяців тому +1

      @@alkmke that’s amazing 👏🏼 I’m 11 days been to 3 meetings so far head feels a lot clearer already

  • @bridawg24
    @bridawg24 5 років тому +340

    16 years without a drink. Life is good!

  • @danielayris3623
    @danielayris3623 3 роки тому +207

    When this shows up randomly after I've been really struggling, its probably a sign I shouldn't just ignore.

    • @jazzstarish4186
      @jazzstarish4186 2 роки тому +3

      Those times waking up or drinking in the shower. Yeah it creeps in.

    • @jeanieolahful
      @jeanieolahful 2 роки тому

      Read Allen Carr’s Easyway to Control Alcohol, it changed everything for me.

  • @misskay9828
    @misskay9828 3 роки тому +8

    Woke up this morning and realised how many Christmas I lost being drunk . Never got to enjoy the Christmas dinner or see my son open his gifts . Really excited for this Christmas sober . Will be my first . One day at a time

  • @kaitruntley
    @kaitruntley Рік тому +23

    Hey brother I’ve been fighting this demon for 20 years. Every once in a while I’ll rewatch this video and it reminds me of the pure hell alcoholism is. Thank you for opening up and sharing this. Reminds me that I’m not alone.

  • @libertyprime9202
    @libertyprime9202 5 років тому +90

    5 years sober not a single drop

    • @daniellee1722
      @daniellee1722 4 роки тому

      Liar...I know you had a slice of black forest cake ;)

  • @scottcunningham7319
    @scottcunningham7319 5 років тому +535

    Opiate addict here, 51 days sober today. Congrats on the year brother

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 5 років тому +3

      Scott Cunningham That’s Awesome!!!♥️

    • @carlmarker9257
      @carlmarker9257 5 років тому +2

      dont give up

    • @karinsmith6513
      @karinsmith6513 5 років тому +2

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    • @rickyharvey4835
      @rickyharvey4835 5 років тому +3

      All additions are tuff but they all can be beat

    • @gregorywheless3064
      @gregorywheless3064 5 років тому +7

      Way to go my friend ! Yeah I started snorting my 40mg. oxycontin pills back in 2002 . Got off the pain pills , now battling alcohol. Your comment will give me ammo to beat this .

  • @garytaunton1093
    @garytaunton1093 3 роки тому +66

    I can't think of 1 good thing alcohol has every done for me !! Quit 7 months ago after 40 years of drinking !!!

    • @Marlin2263
      @Marlin2263 3 роки тому +1

      How did you give up.? Asking from Australia

    • @garytaunton1093
      @garytaunton1093 3 роки тому +6

      @@Marlin2263 I just quit one day. I'm 56 and drank since High School. I never had a problem . Pretty much a weekend drinker but would binge drink and just got tired of feeling like crap for 3 days after. I decided I wanted to live a healthy life and live another 30 years if possible. I also quit smoking 3 Years ago. I was 80 pounds over weight, high cholesterol, high blood pressure(170/100) etc. I have lost over 70 pounds, blood pressure 120/70, cholesterol at normal levels and I walk 3 miles everyday and full body workout every other day. I feel reborn like a new person !!!

    • @StarxPlayz7
      @StarxPlayz7 3 роки тому

      @@garytaunton1093 daym,good job mate.

    • @garytaunton1093
      @garytaunton1093 3 роки тому

      @@StarxPlayz7 Thank You !

    • @ThePittas
      @ThePittas 3 роки тому +1

      Congrats

  • @Liquidgrin
    @Liquidgrin Рік тому +6

    One month sober. I’m feeling like a human again. I don’t think I ever want to go back to where I was a month ago. Starting to find the silver lining in my day to day feels good.

  • @jessemunson1352
    @jessemunson1352 5 років тому +539

    1 year is HUGE. I'm on day 39 myself. While I miss the brief moments of euphoria - I don't miss the constant negativity that engulfed me. When the brain is being given artificial happiness, it STOPS producing natural happiness. THAT was the key insight for me.

    • @chitownp1noy
      @chitownp1noy 5 років тому +14

      Jesse Munson 1 year, 1 month, and 16 days sober today. It has been one hell of a journey. Lost a lot of so called “friends” but I finally found peace within myself. I used to go to AA meetings, but it’s not for me anymore. I still talk to my sponsors here and there. Time heals, just keep occupied. The relationships with my family is stronger, I have better relationships with my actual friends, and my overall health, mental health, and physical health is way better. Getting sober was the best thing I did for myself. Keep strong, and take it one day at a time.

    • @getridofpanic
      @getridofpanic 5 років тому +1

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    • @trevostuden8456
      @trevostuden8456 5 років тому +1

      Amazing how the human body works isn't it? Hey captain gnarkill if you're reading this, I just want to tell you that it takes a brave person to come this realization. And your journey is very inspirational to hear. Keep up the good work, I subscribed to your channel because of this video.

    • @jellydee123
      @jellydee123 5 років тому +4

      Mikey Bernabe Thankyou for your insight, im a week in. In no alcoholic but i am mentally dependant.

    • @jenhasken
      @jenhasken 5 років тому +9

      SPOT ON YES WELL SAID. YES. We need to educate about this! ANY drug that makes the brain “happy” will confuse and depress the brain when it leaves. And those “brief moments” are awesome but are so hard to reach without going through so many mental gymnastics (for me anyway) just so isn’t worth it. Other ways....exercise, “soft focus” on a beautiful scene, so many other ways you can reach euphoria even if briefly every day.... when SOBER.

  • @mrrex1616
    @mrrex1616 5 років тому +161

    My quitting alcohol can be summed up as such "I didn't like being a jackass."

    • @samanthatheowlbear2003
      @samanthatheowlbear2003 4 роки тому +3

      Waking up in the morning, and then the rush of memories and shame after a night drinking too much, was the worst. I always did jackass shit in my drinking days. Total disrespect to my body and others.

    • @Chrissmith-wn2of
      @Chrissmith-wn2of 4 роки тому

      summed up for me the liver said no

  • @fembot521
    @fembot521 3 роки тому +29

    I’m not even an alcoholic and I quit alcohol October 2019. It’s not good for anyone man!

  • @wecandobetter9821
    @wecandobetter9821 2 роки тому +25

    What have I learned and experienced being clean and sober for the past 37 years is I find myself hardly ever having to apologize for something I said or did. That alone is just amazing to me.

    • @sgt.lincolnosiris4111
      @sgt.lincolnosiris4111 Рік тому

      Who the fuck cares about someone 37 years sober tho. Go take a long slow drive for no fucking reason old man.

    • @wecandobetter9821
      @wecandobetter9821 Рік тому +1

      @@sgt.lincolnosiris4111 I sure hope you get some help for your anger problems friend

    • @tiny.giant1
      @tiny.giant1 8 місяців тому +1

      I feel like this is such a high form of respect you give yourself. I bet it builds confidence

  • @hotwheel6663
    @hotwheel6663 5 років тому +353

    I quit 30 years ago and best thing I did. All My Friends at the time thought I was weird because I didn't drink. Now most of them are dead. Nuff said.

    • @hotwheel6663
      @hotwheel6663 5 років тому +28

      @Van Allen
      I made it they did not nuff said

    • @ChanceBerryman
      @ChanceBerryman 5 років тому +7

      Van Allen that’s what I’m thinking. It’s like living a super long time. My grandma is 82, she’s lived a long life but everyone she grew up with, all her friends and family around her age are long gone. Congrats on being sober, but outliving everyone you care abt isn’t a win

    • @hotwheel6663
      @hotwheel6663 5 років тому +44

      @@ChanceBerryman
      You make new Friends along the way. Its not like You have so many Friends and that's it. Why would You not want to live as long as You can? You only have one life. Besides nice to feel good everyday and not be hungover or sick because of the crap You put in your body.

    • @tonywellington7854
      @tonywellington7854 5 років тому +17

      @@ChanceBerryman ITS NOT? so you'd prefer the alternative?? by your WARPED REASONING dying first is a WIN
      clearly YOU need to sober up yourself you FOOL

    • @Fakshin
      @Fakshin 5 років тому +7

      Did you kill them all for thinking that you're weird?

  • @spaceghost8995
    @spaceghost8995 5 років тому +165

    26 years sober here. Zero desire to ever drink again. I know I am useless when I'm using.

  • @teresagallo
    @teresagallo Рік тому +5

    I just lost my sister to alcoholism. She was only 53. She struggled all her life. She never wanted help. Her life was drinking all day, all night. She ruined her esophagus and her gi tract. She too would lie there in her urine for days. In the end she bled internally, The las seizure killed her. She aspirated and her heart stopped. This has been so hard. So difficult that no matter what I said I couldn't help her. She only wanted the bottle. And now she's gone.

    • @Noyonboldoo
      @Noyonboldoo Рік тому

      Lost my parents to alcohol. I am now heading that direction. So afraid. I have 2 young children need to stop drinking

    • @teresagallo
      @teresagallo Рік тому +1

      @@Noyonboldoo please dont follow in your parents footsteps. do this for your children. be strong, love yourself, heal yourself. do this for you, do this for your children.

    • @Noyonboldoo
      @Noyonboldoo Рік тому

      @teresa galuppo thank you. I am now 4 days sober. Last drink was on my 38th birthday. I will make that my last and will leave this poison prison and go free my rest of life.

    • @teresagallo
      @teresagallo Рік тому +1

      @@Noyonboldoo God bless you. May you find the strength and never look back.

  • @albertaguilar8809
    @albertaguilar8809 3 роки тому +15

    I will be sober 1 year in 10 days. Wow, everything that he says is pure truth. I had lost my job, my child and was a hair short of being homeless. I couldn't have done it without my parents dragging me to get help. I believe the most important part of recovery, far from accepting your problem, is wanting to help yourself. Because if you don't want to help yourself it doesn't matter if monkeys are jumping on your head. No one will be able to help you...great video and thanks for sharing!!

  • @michaelfitzgerald434
    @michaelfitzgerald434 4 роки тому +337

    I am 15 years without alcohol. Life's good!

  • @BeingBetter
    @BeingBetter 5 років тому +350

    I have been sober about 50 days.

    • @parkestanley2436
      @parkestanley2436 5 років тому +2

      I'm 4 days sober thanks to NALTREXONE it's a wonder drug!

    • @kevinm5898
      @kevinm5898 4 роки тому +1

      @@parkestanley2436 I've been hearing a lot about this. Do you live in the U.S.? How do I get it?

    • @parkestanley2436
      @parkestanley2436 4 роки тому +2

      Now 25 days sober with NALTREXONE!! Also stopped smoking weed, got two for one. I knew behavioral therapy would be a total failure. NALTREXONE started working in just 5 hours!! You must combine it with Cymbalta and Gabapentin. I'm not struggling with caving in. With these 3 drugs I'm fine. Please everyone, TRY THIS!!!!!

    • @BeingBetter
      @BeingBetter 4 роки тому +12

      I'm glad that worked for you. I've been off all alcohol for 84 days now.

    • @kirnpu
      @kirnpu 4 роки тому +2

      I'm taking Acamprosate and wow - there are NO cravings! I've got 164 days and it's all due to those pills and meetings. Been drinking for 40 years and literally didn't know how to stop or live without alcohol. I could stop but the cravings would always take me back. I just asked my doctor for them and he totally supported me. I can't stress enough - if you're sick to death of drinking ask for help. The problem IS bigger than you can handle alone.

  • @sunnychumber2822
    @sunnychumber2822 3 роки тому +18

    I been watching this video every single day for last 29 days over n over again.. its my 20th day without alcohol.. thanks for sharing your story feels like my own story

  • @Skooma_Detox
    @Skooma_Detox 2 роки тому +24

    Dude I could listen to you talk about this all day. I’ve wanted desperately to get sober for years. I’ve tried and made it a couple weeks before, but then end up thinking I can handle having a couple drinks and then I fall right back in.
    I watched this video in full last night while nursing a hangover and decided to pour all the beers I just bought down the sink.
    Today is day one. I’ll be referencing your videos often. Thanks for making these getting sober videos man.

    • @grifyn882
      @grifyn882 2 роки тому +2

      how do it work for you man ?

    • @danadaurey24
      @danadaurey24 Рік тому +1

      I pray you are still sober, and embracing life!! :) all my love. YOU GOT THIS!!!

    • @Unholy-1
      @Unholy-1 3 місяці тому +1

      I hope your still in control. Stay strong

  • @satchrules101
    @satchrules101 3 роки тому +186

    12 years sober from Crack and Alcohol!! Congrats bro hope everything is well!

    • @williammoffatt946
      @williammoffatt946 3 роки тому +8

      I've heard coming back from a crack addiction is one of the hardest things you can do, tons of respect!

    • @satchrules101
      @satchrules101 3 роки тому +2

      @@williammoffatt946 Thank you bro!

    • @davidduncan7888
      @davidduncan7888 3 роки тому +9

      @@williammoffatt946 I was a crack addict for over 11 years. I will agree that's it hard. I quit cold turkey after a trip back to Florida with my wife, where i had my breaking point after leaving her at the hotel for 3 days by herself. I quit on my own after that and never looked back.

    • @satchrules101
      @satchrules101 3 роки тому +3

      @@davidduncan7888 Congratulations bro!

    • @ft1296
      @ft1296 3 роки тому +5

      Congrats brother , been struggling with the same for a while .I'm 5 days clean and counting .pray for me

  • @mike7966
    @mike7966 3 роки тому +42

    107 days no alcohol.77 days no weed for the first in since I was 15.Im 47 now and listening to these kinda stories really makes a difference.I know I’m not alone and my path will be bright if I just keep looking forward.

    • @kdub7176
      @kdub7176 3 роки тому +2

      Congrats 🎊🎈 That’s amazing! What a huge deal! I think the first step is the scariest! Baby steps are miles long!! Every second sober is a win! Be kind to yourself, be patient, believe you can =YOU ARE doing this! I wish you strength, happiness and blessings! You give me hope! I pray I can be as brave as you soon! I must!

  • @yebitchye
    @yebitchye 3 роки тому +22

    I know this video is old but I wanted to let whoever's reading to never give up. With these lockdown during the pandemic, my heart goes out to the people having to stay at home and struggle. You are NOT alone.

  • @MultiDom20
    @MultiDom20 3 роки тому +13

    I’m fully focused now on healing and getting my body back to normal

  • @122ALVARO11
    @122ALVARO11 5 років тому +190

    Allmost lost my job my house and my life due to alchooll.... two years sober in august

  • @keithfoster9022
    @keithfoster9022 5 років тому +196

    Awesome job man. After 30 years of boozing I got 488 days dry

    •  5 років тому +4

      Give me some tips I’ve been drinking 28 years I ready to quit but I keep thinking about it sometimes when I drink I really don’t want it but I still do it Any advice will help

    • @imchanging4008
      @imchanging4008 5 років тому +4

      GodSun Universe do not quit cold turkey it’s so dangerous. Gradually taper down and reduce the amount slowly, set out a plan of reducing the amount you drink but DO NOT SUDDENLY STOP USING, can cause seizures and stuff

    • @patrolpilot3756
      @patrolpilot3756 5 років тому +3

      @, you can stop cold but doing yourself can be risky. If your daily intake is high and your afraid you may suffer withdrawal symptoms, talk to your doctor. They will help guide you through it, or even recommend a detox at the hospital for a few days. Had a family member do it. Know one even knew. Til months later.

    • @johnsanders3492
      @johnsanders3492 4 роки тому +1

      Im Changing that’s only if u drink everyday. If u binge drink on weekends u won’t die

  • @MrSabas15
    @MrSabas15 2 роки тому +4

    I think the hardest part are those days when you feel like crap and you know one thing that can instantly make it better. Thanks for sharing.

  • @PizzzaBoy
    @PizzzaBoy 2 роки тому +36

    10 days sober and trying to beat the boredom and find things I used to enjoy before I discovered alcohol. I had a panic attack similar to you. My arms and face locked up and I legit thought I was gonna die. Thanks for sharing your story, brother.

    • @rachelwilliams8009
      @rachelwilliams8009 2 роки тому +4

      Day 8 wish me luck

    • @PizzzaBoy
      @PizzzaBoy 2 роки тому +1

      @@rachelwilliams8009 You got this! Always reach out to others if you need help.

    • @rachelwilliams8009
      @rachelwilliams8009 2 роки тому

      @Kev Buckley thank u

    • @psevant1
      @psevant1 2 роки тому

      Day 21 for me. I thought I was going to die as well the first day.
      I wish us both good luck
      Peace

    • @yodaddy9362
      @yodaddy9362 Рік тому

      That's the key to staying sober. Finding things to keep you occupied through the day.

  • @WalturdTheCat
    @WalturdTheCat 3 роки тому +269

    Waking up without a hangover is wonderful...it sounds simple but when you're drinking daily for years and in constant state of hangover wow what a change!

    • @knkjkjn
      @knkjkjn 3 роки тому +2

      Nah not always. I can drink a pint or more every night and never have any hangover.

    • @WalturdTheCat
      @WalturdTheCat 3 роки тому +4

      @@knkjkjn I drank a 12-pack daily every morning I woke up feeling like s*** and would do it all over again

    • @renatosarabia9574
      @renatosarabia9574 3 роки тому +3

      I'm definitely trying to get to a point where I don't wake up with a hangover.....I've been drinking so many years and so constant that it's rare when I wake up sober.... I would love to know what that feels like again....I've Been falling off the wagon on and off for a long time and want to take myself seriously, I've lost so much in my life already

    • @poppyseed9226
      @poppyseed9226 3 роки тому +3

      @@renatosarabia9574 it’s mental too man. tell yourself you don’t need it and maybe, pick up a new hobby. it worked for me, everyone’s different, but just a suggestion. prayers for you brother.

    • @renatosarabia9574
      @renatosarabia9574 3 роки тому +1

      @@poppyseed9226
      I feel you brother, I really do.... But this bullshit has me all stupid....since I was a baby.... 7th grade 14 yrs old.... And went crazy with it all for so many years it's weird to even be sober some time's. Lol...I do it off an on but my lifestyle has always been this...... I know it's mental but that addiction is very mental

  • @murdochcampbell7211
    @murdochcampbell7211 5 років тому +77

    What feels weird is how much time you have while sober

    • @Noah204.
      @Noah204. 5 років тому +5

      Kyle Campbell it’s unreal....I have to find something to do with it in a positive way

    • @Mr99RICH99
      @Mr99RICH99 4 роки тому +9

      Yes the days feel twice as long sober

    • @danholmes7039
      @danholmes7039 4 роки тому +1

      That was how it was for me at first now I dont have enough hours in the day
      Welcome to your new life go out and live it

    • @altagolfer
      @altagolfer 4 роки тому

      Take the time to do what you always wanted to do.

    • @matthewhaddadin1777
      @matthewhaddadin1777 4 роки тому +1

      Honestly I hated it at first I’m like why is life so boring

  • @lcote367
    @lcote367 3 роки тому +11

    Thank you for sharing your story, love and strength to you. 2 days sober, round 4. Never give up.

  • @Mikemikemike13579
    @Mikemikemike13579 3 роки тому +31

    Thank you for this video, I remember watching it about a year ago and it was helpful to make me quit. I'm 9 months now! Thinking and praying for everyone else starting to walk the path of sobriety!

  • @nhaybingi
    @nhaybingi 4 роки тому +215

    I actually watched the whole 34 mins... I'm about a day sober... I'll try my best

    • @rhsandne71
      @rhsandne71 4 роки тому +7

      joseph thuo keep it up man. Tomorrow is my 30th day

    • @nhaybingi
      @nhaybingi 4 роки тому +7

      @@rhsandne71 wow...you've tried my friend. Today is a Friday and the weekend is coming.... I'll try my best to avoid this demon.

    • @rhsandne71
      @rhsandne71 4 роки тому +7

      joseph thuo if you need to chat hit me up on here and I can give you my number. No judgement bro.

    • @chrischepulis5670
      @chrischepulis5670 3 роки тому +2

      Keep on truckin my friend.

    • @juliawalker3461
      @juliawalker3461 3 роки тому +8

      same, I drank about 12 hours ago. Im so over it it is destroying the relationship with the one i love so dearly and lost my friends and always quit work or be in pain at work wanting to leave. just so not worth it. good luck

  • @heretech7025
    @heretech7025 4 роки тому +118

    I made it 3 months until Saturday this weekend. Got blackout. Right back on track tho. Each time I drink, I want to drink less and less. Honestly, fuck alcohol. I can attribute almost everything that has ever gone wrong in my life to it.
    Thanks so much for making this video.

  • @christinatourangeau3895
    @christinatourangeau3895 2 роки тому +12

    I'm celebrating my 1 year of sobriety today from alcohol. I stumbled across this video, and it's funny how all of us addicts have a very similar story and experiences, from pink cloud, the ups and downs, losing and gaining friends, feeling extreme empathy towards others who are currently going through addiction. Everyone has a different journey of getting there. Best thing about sobriety is how evolved you become as a human being, it's not easy..if it was, everyone would be able to be and stay sober. I'm still afraid I'm going to pick up a drink, but now I have those experiences to help me along the way incase I relapse, looking forward to the future and no looking back. 🖤
    Thanks for sharing this video.

  • @JerryBurke1234
    @JerryBurke1234 2 роки тому +10

    3 years later I still play this from my top 3 sobriety play list videos and still struggle. No discredit to you brother. Your very inspiring and I’m proud of you brother! Hope all is still well. Hope to one day as you…be my own success story.

  • @katelynspencer8392
    @katelynspencer8392 4 роки тому +47

    I'm 10 days sober. It's the longest I have been sober , fully wanting and intending to

    • @tebhernandez
      @tebhernandez 4 роки тому +2

      please stick with it

    • @tebhernandez
      @tebhernandez 4 роки тому

      @@shoban I really hope you stay strong! I dont know you but I really want you to get through it and have a happy long life. YOU CAN DO IT

    • @fletcherhawkins1682
      @fletcherhawkins1682 4 роки тому

      you just have to realize one sip = walking right back into your own personal hell.

  • @TBehm2
    @TBehm2 5 років тому +313

    5 days sober today. Hope I can keep pushing

    • @kenmor03
      @kenmor03 5 років тому +11

      Well done,you`re almost over the physical withdrawal effects.You can do this.

    • @TBehm2
      @TBehm2 5 років тому +1

      kenmor03 thank you

    • @Goat-jz4cj
      @Goat-jz4cj 5 років тому +4

      Your Dad one week for me today it was so weird not drinking on New Year’s Eve man..... congratulations on 5 days brother

    • @dw6015
      @dw6015 5 років тому +1

      Im pushing through one day at a time since the 1st and also cooking healthy foods to help. Youre not alone.

    • @todddole5844
      @todddole5844 5 років тому +2

      Keep it up guys👍 1 day at a time!!!

  • @rashaka21
    @rashaka21 3 роки тому +23

    Hey.. I’ve been binging on UA-cam videos of people sharing their sobriety stories and just felt so compelled to comment on this video! I really appreciated how raw and honest you were. I’m 2 weeks sober and hoping it’ll be forever. It’s shocking how alcohol pulls you into a depression that never would have existed had you not had the inclination to chase the thrill of being drunk. I hope you continue to make videos like this ... felt so real. Thanks so much for sharing .... from Canada with love!!

    • @malachihandemande8159
      @malachihandemande8159 2 роки тому +1

      Hey mate are you still sober?

    • @rashaka21
      @rashaka21 2 роки тому +1

      @@malachihandemande8159 started over … 18 days today! :D

    • @malachihandemande8159
      @malachihandemande8159 2 роки тому +1

      @@rashaka21 that's alright. Keep going. I'm 4 days today.

  • @LewisBlackwellMusic
    @LewisBlackwellMusic 3 роки тому +8

    I quit drinking from the start of August 2020, but 100% sober from the 4th January 2021, and haven't touched alcohol since. My anxiety has dramatically reduced, less depressed, and generally feeling a lot better. This video has really helped, thank you :)

  • @utistudent099
    @utistudent099 5 років тому +47

    When I heard Slash from GNR say he was sober now and all along he was just inebriated to kill time , I had my whoa moment. You must stay busy. A lot of us drink simply to kill time and justify boredom. Now I cycle , kayak and scuba dive quite a lot. If we are not on a mission we get bored and then depressed and then drunk.......stay busy my friends.

    • @Yakaflo
      @Yakaflo 5 років тому +2

      Very true!

    • @evelynbaron2004
      @evelynbaron2004 4 роки тому

      Excellent point of view; sleep, diet, exercise -- it's all important. You mentioned a well-known person and I know we're taught in the rooms not to think about them as role models but when I think about the late great Tom Petty, he was reticent about talking about drinking and the cocaine year working with Dave Stewart and then finally after a long time he gave his biographer carte blanche to speak the truth about his nightmare father and his Dantesque mid-life breakdown when he was on heroin for a year and couldn't get off it alone. The irony in his case was as he said, 'I turned pain into anger into ambition into an acute sense of social justice and finally into forgiveness' and his death from an accidental overdose had nothing to do anymore with addiction; he fell on his sword for his audience, to whom he felt great loyalty so months and months on a broken hip on pain killers, so tragic and so ironic; he still had so many plans; he was incredibly thrilled to be a grandfather, all that.

  • @jacetaylor9641
    @jacetaylor9641 5 років тому +158

    1 month completely sober, thanks for sharing your story brother.

  • @KitKat9370
    @KitKat9370 Рік тому +4

    This is the most powerful, vulnerable real account I’ve watched. I resonate with most of what you said. I’m only 4 days in but had my rock bottom and want to live not just exist in the pathetic alcohol hell. The comments are equally humbling. I’ll be watching it again I’m sure. Thanks from Scotland

  • @gokuhawks14
    @gokuhawks14 3 роки тому +12

    I have been sober five days. I'm trying to quit for good.

    • @daniellee1722
      @daniellee1722 3 роки тому

      Comments like this are the most honest

    • @daniel-km4qx
      @daniel-km4qx 3 роки тому

      BRAVO My way to stay sober is through personal development including planning the day, every day I write down in a notebook my list of things to do, great notebooks with quotes for recovering alcoholics are on amazon, search: "hungry man notebooks". I haven't drunk for 555 days and I'm happy

    • @growsinhouseherbiculturali1100
      @growsinhouseherbiculturali1100 3 роки тому

      How’s it going? I’m day 7.

  • @mikesizemore1086
    @mikesizemore1086 4 роки тому +32

    4 years 39 days alcohol free, Best choice I ever made!

  • @eternalcowboy-qg3ku
    @eternalcowboy-qg3ku 3 роки тому +154

    I just relapsed after 291 days. I feel so down because I was sure I would never touch it again. I'm not out though. Just a stepping stone in a long road. Good luck to all of yall.

    • @rockbottom1014
      @rockbottom1014 3 роки тому +4

      No real alcoholic has the will power to quit on their own. It’s a desease. Have tried AA?

    • @andymccloskey8039
      @andymccloskey8039 3 роки тому +11

      Relapse is part of recovery. Learn from the relapse and trudge on.

    • @rockbottom1014
      @rockbottom1014 3 роки тому +2

      Andy McCloskey Recovery is one thing and a slip is another.

    • @rjsimpkins2911
      @rjsimpkins2911 3 роки тому +1

      Touch not the unclean thing, as it is too cunningly insidious. You can do 291 x 1000 next time.

    • @katrinabarriett6177
      @katrinabarriett6177 3 роки тому +3

      Keep trying. I'm trying too

  • @chrissalazar9048
    @chrissalazar9048 3 роки тому +11

    Hey Dude I've been an alcoholic for 10 years man i need help

  • @triquepersonalwork6369
    @triquepersonalwork6369 3 роки тому +49

    The Holy Bible says "a fruit of the spirit is self control". This means, if we have a drinking problem then we need to deal with a spiritual problem, not a physiological one.

    • @mickelined5447
      @mickelined5447 3 роки тому +3

      Thank you, the only way to heal from alcoholism is through Jesus Christ. When he saves us, his holy spirit enables us to live a life of total surrender to God and self-control. Without Jesus, it's hard to fight off temptation permanently.

    • @pattyj4298
      @pattyj4298 3 роки тому +1

      Spot on!!! Only God saved me and

    • @starlightsky222
      @starlightsky222 3 роки тому

      Beautifully said x

    • @crackazack510
      @crackazack510 3 роки тому +3

      Amen! 🙏 I was saved a week after I was released from ICU, never been religious in my life. I woke up a believer after praying numerous nights to die. Haven't had a drink since. Been 3 years. God is good! 🙏

  • @jacobramsey9247
    @jacobramsey9247 3 роки тому +178

    I lashed out at my wife last night and broke a chair and got the cops called on us. This is the first time I’ve ever had the cops called on me. I would never hurt her physically but I did yell at her. I’m done starting today. Hopefully she will forgive me and give me a chance to do this for her and my babies. Your video helps a lot you’re doing good I know I can too!

    • @juliawalker3461
      @juliawalker3461 3 роки тому +8

      goodluck!!! you got this. first step is admitting you want to quit drinking misery

    • @rjsimpkins2911
      @rjsimpkins2911 3 роки тому +17

      Also remember that sober doesn't automatically make you nice. Your children need this and need a better role model, lest they grow into alcohol problems of their own 10 and 20 years from now.

    • @robe.2424
      @robe.2424 3 роки тому +4

      I can't say whether or not she will forgive you because I'm a different person. But giving up on alcohol is the greatest chance you'll ever have to taking your first best step through the door of a new way of living your life. You cannot change the past but you have all the power you could ever ask for by changing the future with not giving alcohol a chance. I believe a lot of people are stronger than they give themselves credit for; people do drink for a lot of reasons and people tell themselves at times the alcohol numbs the pain or helps them deal with the pain. But alcohol is one of those silent killers. It's like a heartless thief that you let into your home, he promises he's just there to hang out and make you feel better like a bad influence.. But slowly he's finding every way to take all of your enjoyment away and control you. This is alcohol, one of the worst enemies of joy. It's like a snake's slow killing venom. It's destroyed so many lives from yesterday to hundreds of years before us. So you have this chance to make your own history and succeed where others have failed before, when alcohol comes knocking at the door promising you he'll cheer you up with good times. Just remember how many other families he's ruined and be glad you never let him in.

    • @stogies3
      @stogies3 3 роки тому

      If you can find an AA or any other support group i think you will have a better chance.
      All the best to you

    • @kbaggott9924
      @kbaggott9924 3 роки тому +7

      Gotta do it for yourself not for them. Doing it for your kids or wife will only keep you sober for so long.

  • @presleyperformance8487
    @presleyperformance8487 5 років тому +95

    Who would "thumbs down" this video??....Wtf. There is nothing bad about this video whatsoever. It's great!! Thank you for posting this, it was inspiring.

    • @someguy7526
      @someguy7526 4 роки тому +2

      Unfortunately there's always gonna be "thumbs down" for any video with over 50K views.
      This was very helpful, a lot of time I drink, I talk a lot and in-depth about my beliefs in the world and would sometimes say some crazy things, related to those beliefs and becomes pretty awkward for the next day or 2.
      I've cut down a lot, to once a week 6- Beers instead of almost daily red wine, usually 2 bottles.
      Next Saturday (24th may) I want to enjoy it, one last time and be done, want to be healthier and much happier.
      Sorry about the ranting and my life story, haha :)

    • @johnpippin2426
      @johnpippin2426 2 роки тому

      Same thing I thought. Misery loves company I guess.

  • @satevo462
    @satevo462 3 роки тому +11

    I genuinely love the cries. They remind me that I'm still human. That I can still feel. Even if it's over some stupid shit, crying feels amazing and I'm grateful that I can. Because for years, no matter how sad I was, no matter how much pain I was in, I couldn't cry. I'm not sober now but I'm trying to get there. The fact that I can cry tells me I'm making progress. Crying is a gift. It's not being a pussy. It's allowing yourself to feel. And that's the first step towards getting better. Addiction is all about suppressing your feelings. Crying is being man enough to face you feelings and cry if you need to. Thank god for the cries.

    • @allanlocke5749
      @allanlocke5749 3 роки тому +1

      YES! well said. Fact is to feel is human. Accept them and treasure them. However don't let feelings make your decisions unless they are noble.
      For example; Pet gets old and starts to suffer, you do the right thing say "good bye I'll miss you, thank you for everything, I won't forget you and remember, I love you always", put the animal to sleep.
      Why because It's wrong to hold on and keep it living everyday in pain.
      Unpleasant feelings like heartbreak, negative thought patterns like fear of life without your loved one, brought on by the circumstances can lead a person to be selfishness.
      Be there to be the right person.

  • @brianramsay7056
    @brianramsay7056 3 роки тому +9

    I dunno who you are, sir. Never watched a video by you. Dunno if you're still on UA-cam.
    I've been struggling for years. I dream of sober days, but it never happens.
    I can't say this video is life changing for me, but you got me in the feels a couple times. You got me thinking about things.
    Thank you

    • @Gggtry
      @Gggtry 2 роки тому +1

      You need the foundation before you can build a house. Basically you need to fortify yourself and get the hard part done with before you can start the process. Admitting alcohol is in control is the hardest part to realize when you’re drunk everyday. I don’t touch any of that maybe once a year no joke. All because I’ve watched my dad become a bad drunk to the point he beat my mom. My girlfriend is struggling with alcohol and she isn’t even 20 yet. She crashed and totaled 2 cars because of alcohol and I know she wants help but she can’t quite get to that point yet. She says she’s not ready to give up on it but she’s a lot better with it. I understand everyone is their own person and I can’t change her but I really wish she would take that step. I love her to death and I plan on marrying her but I’m not going to marry my dad. I told her that and she turned it around so I gave up on that. Now I casually tell her once and a while I don’t like it and she gets mad so I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing by just letting her do what she wants and going on her time with the process. You can make it man it’s a demon you need to battle before it kills you. Godspeed

    • @brianramsay7056
      @brianramsay7056 2 роки тому +2

      @@Gggtry thanks. I'm doing better now since 2 months ago when I originally posted this.
      I haven't full on quit, but I can go several days without drinking now. Plus, I've greatly reduced cigarettes as well. I was at a pack a day, now it's a pack every 3 days. It's a struggle, but it can be done. Just don't expect an overnight change.
      Hope things work for you and your girl. It's rough. You can't really force it. Maybe ask if she wants to go to therapy with you. Don't say for alcohol though, haha

    • @Gggtry
      @Gggtry 2 роки тому +1

      @@brianramsay7056 yeah I def don’t do that haha but hey man that’s a lot better than what you were doing a couple of months ago and you should feel proud of the progress you’re making. I feel as if the best way to battle something is to take your own time on it and ease your way off of it and from one stranger to another I am happy to hear you’re going in the right direction:)

    • @brianramsay7056
      @brianramsay7056 2 роки тому

      @@Gggtry thank you. That means a lot. Again, I wish you nothing but the best with you and your girl

  • @dycypl
    @dycypl 3 роки тому +172

    My last sip was December 31, 2019. Vodka was my vice. It controlled me. I haven't had as much as a beer since then and I'm not going back. It's amazing what you can accomplish when alcohol isn't in your life.

    • @mplslawnguy3389
      @mplslawnguy3389 3 роки тому +9

      Vodka was mine too. A lot of serious drinkers go with it because it goes down fast and easy. I never drank for the taste, just the effects. For me, alcohol is pure poison both physically and mentally. Sober now for 3 months and it feels amazing. Life is good.

    • @timetowakeup6302
      @timetowakeup6302 3 роки тому +5

      @@mplslawnguy3389
      Good for you guys. I just hit the year mark myself. It's nice to wake up clear headed, be available for friends and family, and not be broke all the time.

    • @allanlocke5749
      @allanlocke5749 3 роки тому +2

      First time I had vodka was the first time and thankfully the last time, I got drunk at High school. 😌
      School principal made it worse by calling assembly to tell the students I had been sent to hospital for a stomach pumping.
      In reality by then I was ok, didn't even need to throw up when they sent me to the bathroom. Anyway almost got expelled, wrote an essay instead, earned a new nickname "alchy" and my golden boy rep suffered another blow.
      But wait there's more! Things got a whole lot worse until I was in my 26th year of life.

    • @degoek
      @degoek 2 роки тому +1

      Vodka is my vice too im tired of the non sense i need to stop these hangovers are seriously awful makes me feel guilty and drained i hate it!

    • @marshallm6888
      @marshallm6888 2 роки тому

      That’s amazing man. We’re in this together.

  • @evatrujillo6865
    @evatrujillo6865 5 років тому +70

    1 year and 8 months sober here! 🙋🏻‍♀️
    I drank for fun started at the age of 14 and my drinking progressed through out the years where It took me to some dark places, I never wanna go back to.
    I love my new life I feel awesome!!! ✨🙏🏼😍

  • @cloudmystic1223
    @cloudmystic1223 3 роки тому +10

    Thank you so much for this man, I have zero days sober, but everything you said just really hit home especially about the tearing up, the suicidal thoughts, planning everything and plotting everything around the next shot the next beer, using it as a crutch in awkward situations, I feel that on such a powerful level, so I applaud you. Thank you.

  • @toddnovak5688
    @toddnovak5688 3 роки тому +3

    Thank you for putting yourself out there like this. It meant a lot to me. Congratulations on your sobriety. It’s not a destination, it’s a journey!

  • @Ironhandjohn
    @Ironhandjohn 4 роки тому +50

    I knew I should quit drinking when I was seventeen. I finally did thirty years later. 621 days and counting, put one foot in front of the other & the world will turn.

    • @markweyant7779
      @markweyant7779 3 роки тому

      Me too! 50 yo and still being stupid😞

    • @Ironhandjohn
      @Ironhandjohn 3 роки тому +2

      @@markweyant7779 As long as you draw breath, it's never too late to quit if you really want to.

    • @mplslawnguy3389
      @mplslawnguy3389 3 роки тому +2

      Pretty much when I should have quit. Now 40, and I regret every second I drank, but looking forward to a sober life.

  • @radicalcentrist9471
    @radicalcentrist9471 5 років тому +165

    I watched whole thing coz I lost my head drinking last night. I'm gonna end up homeless if I don't stop. Already lost my wife and kid. Gonna to AA for the first time Sunday. Need to stop. Its ruining has ruined my life for so long

  • @briankrapp9771
    @briankrapp9771 3 роки тому +3

    So proud of you man been sober for 3 years and currently an AA member. Your video is so inspiring. Keep up the great work God bless and proud of you

  • @themortgagesquirrel693
    @themortgagesquirrel693 Місяць тому +1

    When I got sober I cried all the time, suddenly having to feel all the emotions, not drown them was overwhelming. Love the sober life and never want to go back ❤

  • @dalex60
    @dalex60 3 роки тому +17

    Alcoholics don’t build relationships, they just take prisoners...

  • @cirjames2540
    @cirjames2540 5 років тому +105

    For me, it started with the social portion of drinking but creates the most alone I have ever been in my life.
    Alcohol is called spirits for a reason for those that are susceptible to the addiction, we become a slave to the demon.

  • @natedog1619
    @natedog1619 2 роки тому +3

    Thanks for opening up with your story, Capt! I could see the pain and emotion it brought up. Unfortunately I can relate to many aspects of your story, including the pain and emotion, but my family and friends saved my life not long before it was too late and I’ll be forever grateful for their helping hand in my darkest hour. Doing this alone would have to be the toughest battle any lost soul could face. Much love guys and gals, keep the faith and take things one day at a time! It gets better!

  • @nattyremedies2890
    @nattyremedies2890 6 місяців тому +1

    Thank you brother. This was much needed. I plan on watching your 3 year sober video later today. Thank you.

  • @ellerskillzis
    @ellerskillzis 3 роки тому +63

    Bro, you level of authenticity is refreshing. I’m 20 hours sober. Thanks man.

    • @allanlocke5749
      @allanlocke5749 3 роки тому +2

      That's wonderful. You're a legend Scotto.

    • @kdub7176
      @kdub7176 2 роки тому +1

      Wishing you all the best! You can do this!!!

    • @avagage1
      @avagage1 2 роки тому

      Scott this is a year later how are you doing?

  • @ast-og-losta
    @ast-og-losta 5 років тому +17

    done. Two years sober. Best thing I ever did.

  • @JermaineSam
    @JermaineSam 2 роки тому +3

    Congrats brother! I’ve been sober from alcohol for over 7 years now. I totally understand what you mean by just a rush of emotions sometimes. It’s a blessing but it can be overwhelming to feel things at such extremes sometimes. It can be hard to make friends who understand what you’ve gone through because a lot of people still drink and unfortunately a lot of people binge drink. I left a lot of toxic people behind and sometimes that’s tough and there’s a certain level of guilt but we have to be able to self preserve. Anyway I’m rambling. Stay strong.

  • @stacielivinthedream8510
    @stacielivinthedream8510 3 роки тому +22

    I can totally relate! I had a seizure 2 days ago and it scares the hell out of me! Never thought it would happen to me! I'm done with alcohol it's a very cruel master

  • @fletcherhawkins1682
    @fletcherhawkins1682 4 роки тому +65

    i am 65 days sober. the biggest change for me came when i watched my usually emotionally closed off girlfriend who i love more than anything open up and cry to me about how much she wishes i could quit. she delt with HELL from being with me and told me she stayed for the guy i was sober. two completely different people. i lost my 17$ an hour job driving forklift all day easiest job. a week later i totaled my car and got a DUI. lost my liscence. that still didnt stop me. extremely suicidal. i also fantasized and planned suicide. my parents didnt really want me arround because i was an asshole neither did my sister or her boyfriend my best friend. everyone hated me and i hated myself. then i saw the pain in my girlfriends face and that was what it took for me to change. ive decided one sip = a series of bad things happening. more pain. one sip means walking into my own personal hell. that makes it alot easier to say no. god bless all of you and even if youre on day 3 fuck yeah man. its 100% worth it.

    • @AS-ly8tr
      @AS-ly8tr 3 роки тому +3

      Hi dude, how is it going?

    • @fletcherhawkins1682
      @fletcherhawkins1682 3 роки тому

      @@AS-ly8tr whos this do i know you?

    • @fletcherhawkins1682
      @fletcherhawkins1682 3 роки тому +12

      an update, i still have not taken a single sip, its still a struggle some days. i start thinking ive gone this long and still going strong so why cant i have just one beer or get drunk once. then go back to not drinking. i have to remind myself that that is not how it works. not for me. it can be hard to say no. my mind still trys to trick me but i have not and will not give in. im increadibly proud of myself. this has been my biggest acomplishment and i hope i can help inspire anyone reading this to keep going. or atleast try. cuz if i can do it anyone can do it. stop crying thinking youre doomed, if you are as bad as i was you have been there many times. i know you feel like a slave to your problem and if you are. but you dont have to be. god bless. i love you

    • @AS-ly8tr
      @AS-ly8tr 3 роки тому +2

      @@fletcherhawkins1682 sorry Fletcher I didn't want to be intrusive.

    • @AS-ly8tr
      @AS-ly8tr 3 роки тому +5

      @@fletcherhawkins1682 i was just generally interested because I know how hard being and staying sober is. Take care✌️

  • @aussiewanderer9977
    @aussiewanderer9977 5 років тому +128

    Everyone who drinks should watch this. Thank you for doing this

    • @grantomalley8532
      @grantomalley8532 4 роки тому

      Stop. every once in awhile I go out to dinner with wife and we enjoy a glass of wine, so what? My dad , lived to be 101 and had a very small glass of red wine right until 101....

    • @daniellewelsh9215
      @daniellewelsh9215 4 роки тому +2

      @@grantomalley8532 he's not talking about your couple glasses of wine, he's talking about people with a serious problem . People that can't just have a couple drinks without it turning into 10 and being wasted every single day. Some people can drink alcohol in moderation, others like myself also, cannot

    • @grantomalley8532
      @grantomalley8532 4 роки тому

      @@daniellewelsh9215 Ok, Well then chose to stop at one or 2 glasses

    • @daniellewelsh9215
      @daniellewelsh9215 4 роки тому

      @@grantomalley8532 I choose not to drink at all, you do whatever you want. Just don't get why you are in this comment thread when the video is about alcoholics. Not people that go and drink a couple drinks every now and then

    • @Dsinkz
      @Dsinkz 4 роки тому +1

      @@daniellewelsh9215 he knows why he ended up on this video,,like the rest of us,,either him or someone he knows has a problem with the devils water

  • @lapdawg60
    @lapdawg60 3 роки тому +3

    I appreciate your honesty and holding nothing back. Thank you. I needed this, brother. Hold fast...

  • @estasmagick
    @estasmagick 2 роки тому +2

    I can relate! Everything you shared I pretty much went through the same...the destruction, the lifestyle. i'm now 4 years sober!! Thank you for sharing, you are helping free someone from addiction. Congratulations on making a firm decision to change your life, and succeeding as well. Much love to you

  • @stephaniewallace5785
    @stephaniewallace5785 5 років тому +257

    I'm starting my journey today. Thank you for the encougment.

    • @MayhemRv
      @MayhemRv 5 років тому

      Stephanie Wallace You can do it Stephanie. But you gotta want sobriety....

    • @mikee9673
      @mikee9673 5 років тому

      How is your journey?

    • @ryantinker8598
      @ryantinker8598 5 років тому

      I am starting today. Hopefully you're still going. Good luck to you.

    • @parkestanley2436
      @parkestanley2436 5 років тому +1

      How are you doing? I started 5 days ago using NALTREXONE it's amazing!!

    • @parkestanley2436
      @parkestanley2436 4 роки тому

      @EJ I'm now 43 days totally off heavy alcohol and weed, thanks 100% to Naltrexone!! How you doing???

  • @cbond99
    @cbond99 4 роки тому +57

    In 2015, I was hospitalized with severe Pancreatitis. I was 5'3" and 266 lbs. My gall bladder was removed and I had gout as well. I was drinking myself to death. It took me almost dying to wake me up & make me put the Vodka down. The main thing I learned was, anything in excess is going to disrupt your balance. To much booze, too much food, too much sleeping; ect. Everything has to have balance. There is no greater feeling of self-satisfaction than arriving at the end of a hard fought journey with no excuses and no regrets and looking at yourself honestly and saying, “I did that”.
    Isn't it amazing how much "free-time" you have when you get away from drinking? I spent so much time getting it, hiding it, drinking it and sitting around from the effects of it; that I never had much time for anything else but my job. Now, I'm doing woodworking, dabbling in knife-making and getting my body back in shape. (lost 116 lbs. so far)
    Remember, the wolf at the top of the hill is far less hungry than the one climbing it.

    • @soldierforchrist631
      @soldierforchrist631 4 роки тому +1

      Seems like alcohol is a good weight gainer?

    • @pollyanna147
      @pollyanna147 4 роки тому +1

      Pancreatitis is no joke. 8 trips to the hospital feeling like you would rather be dead.

    • @amberbrown7554
      @amberbrown7554 4 роки тому

  • @mindig11
    @mindig11 3 роки тому +8

    Thank you so much for sharing. I totally get the just me, 4 walls and my drinks scenario. I hope to find myself again in my sobriety. I really appreciated your honesty

  • @thisxfeeling1641
    @thisxfeeling1641 2 роки тому +4

    I needed to watch this. My sister passed away back in June. She was an alcoholic. We used to drink heavily and its so crazy that I lost her. Im trying to stay strong but losing more and more of my loved ones urges me to drink. I’ve been able to stay sober for a few months. I’m trying every day not to take off and binge drink. Your video is inspiring to me to stay sober. Thank you for your words.

  • @andyeps8499
    @andyeps8499 4 роки тому +48

    7 months sober but seriously struggling at the moment , but watching videos like this allways helps knowing im not on this journey alone . keep the good work up

    • @j.t152
      @j.t152 3 роки тому +1

      Keep ur head up im sober for month i was drinking heavy before i feel good to being sober and not wasting my money

    • @Jon5150XL
      @Jon5150XL 3 роки тому +2

      You’re not alone Andy

  • @Don_Constanzo
    @Don_Constanzo 4 роки тому +42

    I have drunk for 18 years and in all my life I have never reached more than 60 days an that was 9 years ago. Two years ago I reached 13 days. Even when my leg was broken in a fight, I arrived with a doctor 3 days later with my fibula destroyed.
    Today is my 14th day without any substance (Caffeine, nicotine, cocaine, alcohol or weed). It's the longest i ever been sober in 2 years.
    I don't want to be a jackass anymore either.
    Blessings for all.

    • @Don_Constanzo
      @Don_Constanzo 3 роки тому +3

      @Thaspacegoat Æ Thxs mate, i'm going to consider the psychedelics.

    • @rockytheafg
      @rockytheafg 3 роки тому +3

      Weed can be hard to quit also. I hope you're successful with sobriety.

    • @Seaton1518
      @Seaton1518 3 роки тому +1

      @@rockytheafg dont really need to worry about quittin weed, ive never heard a crazy weed horrow stories besides i ate all the doritos and pizza and had fun laughing.

    • @cruiser6260
      @cruiser6260 3 роки тому +6

      No weed can cause schizophrenia, paranoia, working memory loss, mostly lost motivation, reaction time . Swapping one drug for another is still just escaping.

    • @aceellis7463
      @aceellis7463 3 роки тому +2

      Dude I hope you're doing ok. Much love

  • @publiclandspinup7932
    @publiclandspinup7932 3 роки тому +11

    I know this is an old video, but I just found it, and I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. This was so impactful.

  • @JamesDerousselle
    @JamesDerousselle 3 роки тому +3

    Thanks so much for this video brother. You have no idea how much this has blessed me as I’m making the decision today to be sober. You’re awesome and I appreciate you fully.

  • @thetatteredrose5054
    @thetatteredrose5054 3 роки тому +71

    I lost my husband to alcohol and then to suicide. I didn't know if I could make it through your video but I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you for quitting and telling your story. I pray that you have many years of happiness headed your way! You deserve it! Much love...

  • @gingerztube
    @gingerztube 4 роки тому +53

    Yep, when I quit drinking (30+ years ago) I found out who my real friends were and who weren't my friends at all. I realized that people whose lives were going down the toilet would grab on to anyone they could to take down the drain with them. Take care & have a great life!

    • @mplslawnguy3389
      @mplslawnguy3389 3 роки тому +1

      The old cliche misery loves company couldn’t be more true when it comes to alcoholics. Congrats on 30 years.

    • @gingerztube
      @gingerztube 3 роки тому

      @@mplslawnguy3389 Ain't that the truth! Thanks!

    • @jamtree9746
      @jamtree9746 3 роки тому +1

      Very true-thats my experience as well.

  • @brettthornton9820
    @brettthornton9820 3 роки тому +1

    Keep up the good work. Have struggled for 25 years and I'm struggling again. I needed this this morning