My Biggest Regret - mtf transgender
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- Опубліковано 22 лют 2023
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Do you like these kind of videos where I share my honesty and feelings?
I love them!!!!
Yes they are great
Wishing you all the health, happiness and love..🕊🕊🕊
Im an hetero-cis-white candian male and I like your whole content, I feel like I understand better LGBTQ+ community eventhough I'm priviledged (regarding oppressions).
May the hate you receive make you stronger!
Absolutely! I came out to a few friends a couple of months ago, and my mom this past weekend. Your videos have been helpful for me in navigating. Thank you!
My biggest regret was waiting so long to be me. 😭😭 all that time wasted in self pity when I had the power all along. Love your content and honesty! 🖤❤️💜
Me too! I used to be like small & perfect & such fear! I knew @ 5-6 & saw omg that's me!! I'm a GIRL TOO but like ya I lied bc my dad was so so....sorry we girls know!
I hate the pushing of the alphabetical mafia & child abuse but we are who we are & you spoke it so perfect 🥰 Mathilda ❤️
Gets to me too! Yuck BLAHHHH a man in a mirror EWW ew ew
If you have support groups??? Verry much share one! My community & city (yuck)...ly 💕
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What prevented you to be yourself before?
@@neitiajatusrikos i know you’re asking her and not me, but personally i had too many people in my life who had me convinced i was just a fem man. lol was not the case and now i’m pretty sad with how much money i’ll have to spend to reverse the effects of male puberty
This made me cry, I started HTR when I was 19… and yeah that’s a huge regret for me except there was no way for me to know because no one was talking about it… that’s why it needs to be something that people know about… but yeah my dysphoria really makes things difficult… But yeah we have to just do whatever we can to help ourselves and at the end of the day we are what we are and we should all be so damn proud of the shit we’ve had to endure🥺 you’re amazing and thank you so much for all the videos you’ve made💜
I don’t think you act like you regret it. I think you are just trying to be honest and say it’s not always easy. Nothing is black or white and I can not stand it when people act like it’s all or nothing. Life is complicated. I’d think if I was in your shoes I’d wonder if it would just be easier to be born female since you ARE a female. But I also can understand that what you have been through has made you who you are and it’s all any of us know. Our personal experience. Keep up the good work! Also I have had surgery on my foot and I thought no big deal. It is just a foot. Turns out it was a bigger deal than I thought and I felt stupid for not taking it seriously. I know it’s not the same but I bet a lot of people feel like they didn’t really understand what their surgery was going to be like. I wish I would have asked more questions too. But oh well.
I stopped my transition the first time as a friend asked me poliietly to stop and since im a people pleaser, i did and i regret that as now i am transitioning and because I stopped it long time ago, i could of been the female I been wanting to become for a long time now. it was 8 years ago that i stopped and its only been 2 years since i been on it. I am happy i have a partner that is helping me and making me a stronger and being a massive support
no surgery or masks in the world will make u female. just simple a man cross dressing.
Same exact boat as you...
Forget regrets,can’t change the past. The choices me make,things we miss,make us who we are today. All
We can do is be the best version of us now. Hope you’re keep well Mathilda 😊
So true! Each unique experience has its own value and we each have a process to go through.
Sure but some people are smart enough to learn from the mistakes of others.
Thanks for this Mathilda. I envy those that can let the past stay in the past. Sometimes people like to bring our past back to our present when we least expect it and that makes it tough to carry on.
I miss your lovely hair clips 🎀 I can also understand how editing, looking at your self on the screen could be so difficult and possibly Dysphoric as well, because I hate looking at myself in the mirror 😢
I appreciate your realness. So many of us that are going through transition, or have done so AND are content creators tend to sanitize our experiences too much. We don't talk about the negatives. And when we do, people jump to conclusions and fail to understand the context of those negatives. If I say that I had an emotionally rough day and I question whether or not this is all worth the effort, people think I'm going to go and detransition or I need serious mental health help. In reality, we all are struggling to some degree with things in our life. If it's not about one thing, it's another. Thank you for putting yourself out there. I think that in a few years as others stand on the shoulders of giants, you will be one of those giants.
Thank you for your honesty. It sounds like what you're saying is that those who get on hormones before puberty get more femininization, that they look more like women. Maybe what's going on is that those who go on puberty blockers or get the hormones early, never actually see how their masculine faces would have looked, so they don't have that memory and they're not comparing how they look now with how they looked as a male. If I saw you and I hadn't known you were trans I would never have guessed. I don't know what cosmetic work you've had on your face, I'm guessing you must have because from your facial features it's not possible to tell that you were born male. So maybe what's going on is that because you have this memory of your face as male you are superimposing that memory over your face as it is now, to see how masculine or feminine you look, and by doing this you reinforce the idea that it's a male face rather than a female face. Seeing something in your face that reminds you of how you looked as a male then makes you think that you look male.
In the UK and in some states in America they have banned puberty blockers and transitioning for minors, this probably sounds harsh to you because it sounds like in Sweden this isn't the case. The reason though, is that there have been a lot of cases teens thinking, and being totally convinced they're trans and getting the hormones and surgery and then later realising they're not, that they had body dysphoria or something similar, which they mistook for gender dysphoria. It's happened to a lot of girl's who are on the autistic spectrum, these girls are believing they're trans when actually it's the symptoms of autism that make them appear more masculine and to like masculine things.
We often think that if we'd done something different in the past the horrible things that have happened to us wouldn't have happened. I used to think if I'd been born male then people wouldn't have treated me the way they had, I wouldn't have been abused or bullied. But men can be abused and bullied too, so probably this isn't true (this is another reason some young girls have transitioned thinking they were trans when they weren't). I've seen some videos of Jazz Jennings and her transition, she went on puberty blockers and transitioned very early. But she's had a lot issues. I don't know what she thinks of her transition now. I know she had a lot of complications with her bottom surgery, because when you go on puberty blockers your genitals don't grow and they don't have the material to do the bottom surgery. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that transitioning early has it's own difficulties, and though you might have gotten the facial features you wanted you'd have had other issues to deal with instead.
I hope all this helps. Thank you for doing this video. The more people talk honestly, the more knowledge and experience we all gain.
Mathilda, you've been nothing but a huge inspiration to me! Your videos help me to see and accept myself as I try to figure out who I am/want to be. Opening up with your feelings and honesty truly touches my heart. One day I hope to be at least half as amazing as you are
Love you girl! Being trans is hard because the world is not kind to us. The process is hard and the world makes it even tougher. You are a hero to many of us. It must just be difficult to have to be a hero and not just be a person if that makes any sense. Hearts out to you.
Is the world not kind to you or are you just mad they don’t have the same opinion…
@@fuzzyapplebong328 you can have whatever opinion you want and not be an asshole to other people like transphobes are. They go on a lot about science but refuse to read or acknowledge all of the data and research done on transgender people and gender dysphoria or the fact that third genders and trans people have existed in basically every culture since the existence of humanity. There are people who literally want to kill or harm trans people just for being who they are, there are governments actively trying to make their lives worse and take their rights away from them, get your head out of the fuckin sand lol.
I have fully transitioned and regretted it. I realised ten years later no matter what it’s all cosmetic. I wish there was therapy for gender dysphoria
very good video , and omg your hair looks so pretty
Hi Matilda, I think that to have regrets about anything is normal. Reflecting on what your life is and how it's changed is healthy. That you have focused your life into such a positive way shows your strength. Please keep going. Trolls and arseholes will always be around. I hope that you lean on your support and cut out the people that will attack you. Doing these sort of videos helps so many people. Please know that.
I shouldn't have done what you are doing right now: being open about myself, but here I am at it again. When I was outed originally, I had two choices: whether to deny it all and be labeled as a liar, or admit it. I also thought that I was legitimately psychotic. I have gone mad and this is all madness. I will fill out these coupons and the shrinks will admit me in. Obviously, this one did not happen. I should have just taken my life. That would have been the easy way, but then again, nothing in my life is easy.
Why are you saying exactly what I feel 😭?? Literally everything thing you said is a slap of emotions... you are the only one I herd that actually felt the same as I am... Especially the internelised transphobia...
I kind of feel like I don't even fit in the the trans community sometimes... Since every time I see ppl talk about things they are making jokes that makes me feel like I am even more broken since they aren't really bothered by not passing, and they are proud of who they are... And they don't have to fight themselves to change the things they hate so much about them selves... I never met anyone that needs to deal with hating the fact that they are trans so much that their brain won't let them shave their face, even though they hate their facial hair so much and just pray to wake u up without it... I can't look at mirrors, to the point that I get jump scared of mirrors in videos and movies... And since the start of the corona I even don't show my face with out a mask... I just hate to think that anyone see me as this abomination of a human...
To be honest it kind of what I needed to hear since what you felt really reminds me of what I feel now (also it touched my feelings just enough to let me cry a little bit after so long) and I really wanna say that promise that I will listen to your regrats and won't compromise on anything, but I can't I can only promise that I will try to listen to your regrets , since I just turned 18 and can finally start doing things with out the permission of my parents (that I'm gonna cut out once I will move to Copenhagen or Malmo idk yet) and it's so scary but I know that it's gonna be worth it one day
And I feel you 💞
Yes I think we all overlooked the fine details of complications etc. Just wanted it done. Although I did a lot of research on the best surgeon and procedure for me at that time. I am elated at the final result.
i'm feeling similar to this currently. my mom put me on the list to have the conversations i needed to have when i was 11, by the time i got the chance to be seen at 14 i got scared and backed out. now i very much had male puberty (especially in my voice), and walking away from the door that had opened for me at 14 has hit me like a truck.
That door isn't closed yet, trust me. If that's doorway you want to walk through, it's not closed, and won't be closed. The hard truth is that it might get harder and harder to open as the years go on, like the hinges get rusty. But you can always go back to that door. I've met so many wonderful trans people over 30, 40, even over 50 or more! who for whatever reason couldn't transition until later in life. ANd just trust me darling, that door is not closed to you.
My uncle waited until he was 35 to transition because he wanted to make sure that it was the right choice for him. Especially since he suffers from multiple other mental illness’s outside of gender dysphoria. Not to mention he wanted to at least be past puberty so his body was less likely to fail later on in time after going on T and multiple surgeries
Dont do it. Trust me, its a lifetime suffering. Alot of pain, alot of risk, alot of money. Just live simple life, be grateful with what you have. Imagine those people that live with hunger in their belly everyday, you arent one of those. Dont change what nature has given you.
@@ChristinaWinter75 this is so inspiring oh my god 😭❤️❤️
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Happy to see another upload from you. So sorry for the hate you've gotten recently. Honestly the increase of transphobia is terrifying me and I'm not even trans, can't imagine how hard it must be for you guys who are trans, I hope things get better.
The intense pressure isnt something u can describe to someone who hasnt been thru it, and u have to make a lot of decisions under it, so looking back its easy to find places where u made the wrong decision, but overall u made the right one. Take care, be well, u speak in these videos to what a lot are feeling inside.
How amazingly different my life would be if I had actually gone through with transitioning when *I* was fifteen, when the dysphoria started to just completely run me over like a truck. But I was afraid of what my friends and family would think of me. I was afraid of not passing. I was afraid of medical complications. I was afraid of all the gatekeeping (here in Canada, way back then when I was fifteen, we used to require years of therapy, red tape, and approvals and whatnot like you talk about in your other videos). I was afraid of the possibility of regretting it later on. I was afraid that going through with it would cut me off from meeting my soul mate. I was afraid of not being able to afford it (I'm from a low-income family and, while I might be mistaken, I believe that transitioning wasn't covered by our health care system back then like it is now). I'm almost thirtyfive now, and I've only just finally even so much as come out about a year and a half ago. This burden has weighed SO heavily on me all these years, and, especially since I came out, has consumed every waking moment of my existence. My life has been ruled by fear for twenty years, and my single biggest life regret is not pursuing transitioning when I was fifteen. If I could've been even HALF as gorgeous as you... I might not have wasted half a lifetime in recluse. This is never, ever, ever going away. I'm currently aiming to get onto HRT in the fall of this year, after I've taken care of a few other hurdles that I view as essential before I begin (like voice training). Despite the fact that I want this more than anything, and have since I was six years old, I'm absolutely terrified, and I have no support network, as all of my friends whom I was so worried about have long since abandoned me, but I NEED to do this. This is my cross to bear. The major theme of the last year of my life has been really and finally accepting that, if I don't do this, nothing in my life is ever going to change. There's no soul mate waiting for me. There's no opportunity waiting for me. There's no future around the corner. Not as the person I am now, at least. I'm trying so hard to keep in mind that on the other side of fear is freedom, and, with the likelihood of coming out the other end of a transition being passable and pretty growing exponentially less likely the longer one waits after age thirtyfive, I have to reach for this now or be trapped here forever, and that terrifies me even more. If there are any young people reading this, and you know that you want this-that you deeply and truly yearn for it in your heart and soul more than anything else-but are afraid, please, don't let that fear determine the course of your life; the regret of not going through with it, in a decade or two, will be so, so, so, so much worse than that fear, and will only grow with time.
@Snutih I know what I am. I know what I'm not. I know what I wish to be. I know what I can never be. Thank you, but this isn't my first day. "You should never do it because you can't be 100%" is like saying "you should never own a house if it can't be a mansion; just stay homeless." I went to middle school. I know about basic-ass biology too. Further, I never implied that being a woman is just about being gorgeous. "Maybe crossdressing will satisfy you" indeed. Imagine implying that a transgirl in her 30s has never even tried dressing feminine and putting on makeup. Thank you for the patronizing and presumptuous little lecture. You think you're being philanthropic and empathic, but it's people like you who make people like us feel ashamed to exist and drive us to suicide. Which I believe is far less likely to improve my life than the appropriate medicine and treatment. Thank you very much.
@Snutih I never said, nor did I imply, that you or anyone is keeping me from crossdressing or wearing makeup or keeping me from being gender non-conforming. I also didn't say that trans people have existed for millennia. Maybe we have. I don't know. But I didn't say that. "Wild accusations you are making here." Pot, meet kettle. I'll not waste any more of my time trying to talk to a manipulative fool who isn't even talking to me. I don't know who you're talking to, but it's very clearly not me. Please kindly get stuffed. If you reply to this comment, I will click it away and not read it, as you do not deserve my discourse only to fill my mouth with your own words. Despite the snarky tone of this message, though, I do sincerely wish that you can someday find love and peace in your callous soul. That said, goodbye, random internet strawmanner tool who evidently knows everything about everything and has been granted divine authority to judge what's right for all human beings across all the earth at their sole discretion, painting the world with their sensibilities. I don't know where I would be if I hadn't met you to cure muh trans with your thoroughly impressive "just don't be trans" technique. You can go ahead and get the last word in now so the random people you'll never meet who are reading this can see how you awesomely bested me.
@Snutih ‘should not be disrupted unless there is something physically wrong’ - no, dysphoria is a real thing & the treatment is transitioning. Endocrine treatments shouldn’t only be done when something is wrong physically - but when anything is wrong & can be fixed via HRT. Wether ya like it or not trans peoples lives get so much better when they transition
Also dysphoria is not delusion, & you can change your gender. In OP’s case she is in the wrong body - she has dysphoria that will not go away until she transitions. She is a girl becuase not everyone’s gender is determined by their sex
You realize that bio males have female blueprints as well as male ones? How else do you think the body knows to put fat in the boobs & make the skin softer simply by receiving a command chemical
Finally: being a feminine guy & a trans girl are 2 different things, but the reality is trans girls exist & not everyone who faces dysphoria is a feminine guy - trans girls exist
@Snutih SRS doesn’t have a high rate of complications - quite the opposite, sexual satisfaction rates are very high
Transitioning doesn’t make you less functional - in the vast majority of cases its the opposite, it improoves social & sexual function
Hormones & surgery change your sex characteristics - & this is a force for good as a trans persons original ones cause all sorts of issues
‘What did they do before [medical transition]?’ - what did everyone else do before cancer treatments, cateract surgery, vaccines, & hip replacements? The answer is they suffered - now that transition is an option we don’t need to suffer, we can be happy & look at our reflections without feeling anxiety
@@clearcrossroads don’t listen to these idiots - they aren’t coming from a place of intelectual honesty, go live your life & GL with transitioning
Thank you for sharing. Sexologists and psychologists used to advise against transitioning kids too young because they knew some kids would come to understand themselves as gay, and the others whose gender dysphoria persisted could still transition when they were older. It was impossible to predict who would desist after puberty. Watchful waiting and do no harm was the philosophy. Puberty is essential for sexual and brain development. It’s easy to look back and assume things would be easier if you could have transitioned sooner, but perhaps then you would never have known if your dysphoria would have persisted. Puberty suppression is associated with lowered IQ - so I’m glad for your sake that your brain was able to develop naturally.
honestly i also wish i could have younger, i hate what it’s done :/ i literally have to spend over 60k if i want to reverse the effects through cosmetic surgery… doing it young i wouldn’t have to worry about that
and oof 60k just for face i should say. voice or body add on about 30k more. and then people wonder why so many of us do sex work. sucks but it’s true
If I looked half as good as you or at least had a voice like yours my life would be very different..
thank you for being so honest when sharing your thoughts and feelings about being trans, it means a lot to be able to find candid videos like yours, you are amazing and I love you..
a hug and that you are very well 🤗💗
“This young person in the prime of their life just admitted they’ll probably need lifelong procedures for surgically-induced urinary issues from being sold a lie by predatory doctors that they can surgically change their sex, but if only I could *look as good as them*” What a sad take. You also have no idea what Mathilda looks or sounds like in real life. And Mathilda literally just said at the end of the video “I still look in the mirror sometimes and see a man.” This dynamic of someone trying to open up, but getting constantly assured and put on a pedestal by their fans who also use them as a fantasy and goal…so unhealthy for all involved.
i was thinking this too! she is one of.... 3 people i've seen now on YT that just look remarkable, sound remarkable, and i never woulda guessed they were trans at all. plus, i love the down to earth talking.
on the other side of things are the people who are abrasive and attacking all the time (oof is it worse online, holy shtt.). but also the other folks who... idk if it's just natural genetics that they happened to not have more androgynous faces or if everyone who looks really feminine simply had facial procedures...... but a lot of the time i see people who you instantly know are trans. not to mention those that didn't do voice work.
i imagine things are easier for people that look feminine or beautiful. (not internally, so much as i guess how the world greets them. and that they would be passing in day to do with zero question, vs people who don't.)
the 2 trans women i'v known personally..... er.... were not lucky to look more feminine and definitely hadn't had $ to do surgeries. one was an older coworker back in college so i'm not sure how that eventually went over time. the other is a current coworker and friend and she def wants diff things like the jaw shaving but saving takes time. she's where i learned about the vocal work and other things. i'd never really thought of it before that. but also, we had a gap in acquaintanceship due to diff projects and also i'm now remote. but then we were on the call and i messaged her and we talked later on the phone for a while. i said how amazing her voice was, compared to just before. and that's how she told me all the details on that. and other stuff too.
ironically, not long after officially transitioning she met another trans person and they've been together a few years now. both m to f. and recently they each back to back got their bottom surgeries. oof, that'd be a long tough few months. each taking care of the other during all that recovery. it was nuts how long it was and not being able to even sit. bedridden basically. god grant anyone the strength, going through procedures and operations of any kind that put you out like that.
I have no regrets even after having to go back for a second round under the knife.
Mathilda you are beautiful and brave! Thanks for sharing your journey
Mathilda, thank you for doing this video. I came to terms about my gender identity almost 2 years ago. I look up to you. I started HRT 18 months ago. May your true self keep shining.
Alyssa U.S.A.
I have been thinking about you and then you pop up here! Do pelvic floor exercises work for us too… I had the hormones at 16 and surgery at 18 and it couldn’t have been more successful and against everyone’s advice especially my family’s who have been amazing btw, but I am still going to have the ffs which wasn’t available when I was a teenager! Just a bit of fine tuning!
I was a Guinea pig for the Adam’s apple I didn’t really have but I had it for the voice… £4000 and it didn’t work but my voice changed by itself and the power of bloody hard prayer❗️❗️lol 😂 my point is that the past is so over! Count your blessings honey cos we could all think that way and we’d all be miserable and so much is better nowadays! I knew since I was 3!!!! Hard childhood but it’s over so LOVE YOURSELF hun‼️
You count your blessings hun!! Your dependent on hormones derived from horse urine farms to be able to consider yourself your ‘natural’ gender. And they are known to cause health problems long term bc taking hoarse hormones are far from natural… Did you think those estrogen and testosterone pills were coming from actual men and women?? Best of luck to you honey, Wish you could just embrace your natural self but now it’s permanently gone🫢
Hii! May i ask, how long ago was your surgery? And how is everything going? I'm a pre-op girl, and sometimes it gets discouraging hearing all the negatives (propaganda or not)
@@PunkForAReason it’s meant to frighten you! Honestly it’s SO important to keep a positive attitude and feel excited and not let a negative thought (which create negative emotions) into your head but what you resist persists so instead of trying to stop the worry just thinking about your results and how when you make a powerful intention to have it done then the universe will know it’s self out in order to help you in every way! Even synchronicities will show you the way so pay attention to them they may (definitely) be guiding you towards the surgeries and surgeons you need and as long as you research them and then remember a surgeon who is great at nose’s could well be terrible at breast implants!
I am sure you are going to be delighted with your results I was lucky that I had found a pioneer in creating the clit because they weren’t readily available in the western world before then! He trained many surgeons thank God! In London he never failed to be able to give us women orgasms! Or actually the ability for us to have orgasm by our men not them!! Lol 😂😱 o m g sorry there’s a heatwave in this city and the heats gone to my head!!! Couldn’t sleep either with the heat!
Imagine and feel the feelings that all has already gone SO well that everything has surpassed your expectations! If I could recommend a book you can listen to on UA-cam called wish’s fulfilled by Wayne Dyer or the power of the subconscious mind by dr Joseph Murphy or the power of your imagination by Neville Goddard! This works even in some cases better than surgery! Obviously you need surgery for the vagina but every few years we replace all the cells of our bodies we regenerate them so by relaxing into a receptive brain wave state called alpha and fantasising your desired outcome as if it’s already happened and then knowing that you have planted these seeds in your subconscious mind (my mum healed herself from incurable stage 4 cancer using this for we are way more electricity (electro magnetic energy) than we are flesh blood and bone. Scientifically proven…) but go about your day thinking and feeling that you are already the woman you desire to look like and watch movies of the actresses you want to look like and stick to the same few you decide on or the results will not come as clearly. You really have to make up your mind what look you want what walk you want and voice etc. my voice is 100% female now just from thinking like a woman and acting like one even while I had to quit my job and work as a lady boy in Asia because of growing breasts from hormones! I am going to have my final breast augmentation no 7 when I get the rest done and that will be that! I looked like a chopstick before wide waist no ass etc but it’s thinking that the hormones are magical pills that will transform you in your sleep… Louise Hay- you can heal your life and the first publisher of mind body and spirit books says that the universal intelligence that created us and all that is and we chose to be born this way as advanced souls for the challenge (also the universe has to diversify in order to expand) and the movie of the same name is now free on UA-cam!! Watch it honey! Quantum physicists verifies everything I have told you as true! Because It’s finally caught up with intuition and she says the universe loves symbolic gestures (rituals) so imagining the hormones as extra powerful etc really works look at the placebo effect if you doubt me but experience speaks much louder than words so test it out and remember your emotions are your sat nav only act or think the affirmations when feeling good and when you don’t say “ this too shall pass” or “ divine love is the most powerful chemical in the universe” if you have the desires then that’s what you were destined to do…. They are your life map!
You can do this honey where do you think you can or whether you think you cannot, either way you are correct!
Finally read the secret by Rhonda Byrne and ask and it is given by Abraham Hicks who has amazing videos of all kinds including how to pay for everything on UA-cam! Watch part 1-5 of Abraham Hicks the law of attraction! She looks so much younger now than all those years ago no surgery required!
Blessings in abundance from London darling! I am proud of you and I know that you are one of the most beautiful women in the world think of an Angel in the marble it just needs to be revealed by the sculptor and you are your own sculpture honey already there waiting to be revealed!😉🕯🙏
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@@PunkForAReason vagina surgery…it was in 97! I can’t believe I am revealing this! I think I will have my first facelift after ffs but the more time I spend in visualisation the less bone I see available for them to shave off! My brothers and mother think I am crazy for having this done but I like to be thin and to look feminine you need fat for the hormones to move around and I don’t want fat! So I think it’s an amazing surgery having seen the results! I want to look like Gerry Hall! If you see her UA-cam clip showing her entire career and I did used to look like that but I have had a bereavement lately and positive thoughts and the lack of them make a huge difference. I closed my Facebook account but it may still have my recent pictures! A fire destroyed all my younger photos but mom in Ireland still has a few 25 years ago I did topless modelling but I was a different human being then!! Angel blessings angel girl!
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Matilda would you be willing to let us know how much you have spent of surgeries so far?
I plan on transitioning soon and and trying to figure out whether I can afford it
The comments here scare me. How can you people have such a poor understanding of biology? Puberty is important for so many reasons, you can't pause it and it's harmful to skip it. Human have not reached the level where they can control bodily processes as if the body was a machine. You need your puberty to be a healthy human. Also, you cannot recreate genitals, you cannot create a vagina from a penis or a penis from some arm skin. All you get is a wound. I understand you desperately want to become the opposite sex, but it just isn't possible. All you do is going from being trapped in the body you don't want to being trapped in the mutilated body you tell yourself you now want.
You have no life
@@ladykavia and you're replying to the "no lifer" so what does that make you 🧐
It is hard with regrets but you cannot change the past. You did the best you could in that past. I hear you
Hi Mathilda, You are loved and you are so beautiful, I've been watching your channel for maybe a few years now as I worked through the start of my transition and I'm 34. You sharing your journey and truth as it happens is very much appreciated, we are all going to make mistakes in life, that's how we learn and we all do have the opportunity to choose to grow from them. I love you
Most interesting video! Thank you for this! Thank you for telling us about the long process with all the therapists and so on.
Too bad my parents are the most conservative people ever. I suppose I need to embrace masculinity.
thank you so much really enjoyed your video💜
I do like your videos about your thoughts, Miss Mathilda, both transgender and non-transgender viewers to learn each other.
We hear you! Take care❤
But if you'd transitioned sooner it wouldn't change anything. You'd still have gender dysphorila sometimes, look at Kim Petras, she looks more manly day by day even though she's a trans kid. I think if peope decide to transition the later the better, looking at mtf trans kids and teens that are grown up today, they don't have it better, i'd say they have it worse mentally and when they age, even though they had blockers and then estrogen, the male characteristis keep creeping in. It never ends with dysphorias, you'll always see a flaw, that's why i never transitioned and worked out my problems in my mind. Worked much better and now i'm a happy critter in my critter body.
Kim Petras is still growing and s/he's now very tall, overweight and has a double chin.
I do not believe that your sex, sexuality or gender is the most imñortant factor in determining the person you are, which is why I think that being our 'authentic selves' is an internal reflective process that has nothing to do with the external and manufactured characterists of gender re-assignment surgery
I have had relationships with both men and women, black and white people and I have been the same person throughout....but with additional experiences and attitudes which can and do influence your thinking and responses to the world around you....that is howbwe bring meaning into our lives.
I am a black biological woman and if it was possible for me to change my skin colour and pretend to be a white person, I would still be the black woman that I really am...that is why you still see a man when you look i the mirror, and still feel like a man....because you still are despite the mask and the pretense.
I really enjoy your videos.
Though it made me laugh when you said that you wished you had transitioned sooner, as I am twice you age, and having put things off for literally decades, I am just starting on the journey, my first therapy session is tomorrow.
Love you 😀
You’re beautiful inside and out. Never ever be ashamed or made to feel ashamed of whom you are ever. Nor what you decide to do with your life. People who live in glass houses ALWAYS throw stones. Ignore the f$&kers! Again, I love you and your fiancé is a lucky man. 👍
I just came out to my mom this past Saturday(I'm mtf). We're supposed to talk again today, where I'll be figuring out what my phobic dad thinks about things. Extremely Christian family, and Marine dad. A bit scare
I'm transgender mtf and a Marine, so hang in there!
@@gamedrano Thanks! The conversation went better than I thought it would! Still have some hurdles of course, but it was a huge weight lifted 🙂
@@NiTuJHGTkO I'm going to take your negative and turn it into a positive. My parents have every right and reason to mourn the loss of their son. They've had a perception of me that has been shattered. They are being supportive, and are even educating themselves. They may have lost their son, but they are welcoming their daughter with love. And for that, I'm grateful.
@NiTuJHGTkO I'm sure you love getting off on putting people down lol. Only reason I can think of why you go out of your way to a trans channel to troll. Hope this satisfied your balls and prick ❤️
@@NiTuJHGTkO 🍆🤣
I knew it! It DOES get you off. You got more to say? I'm all ears lol
You are a very refreshing young lady and it is wonderful there are young trans women letting their light shine. You visibility loving your life is life giving. Thank you for doing that.
Misgendering is not ALWAYS with Evil intentions!
A few days ago waiting at a country side trainstation the last Train was cancelled a middle aged woman offered me a ride
She corrected herself directly!
Im 6 foot 2 tall wide shoulders and a deep bass voice wearing a yellow rainsuit
She gave me a ride and dropped me at my appartement!
From the outset you should never have regrets if your being completely honest or we’re being honest also all your hard work was completely paid for by your country. The rest of the western world have so many roadblocks it’s unimaginable. Love your work your presence hope to see many more years of chit chat 💬 . ❤️
When I was realized I was trans I was relieved but also I was feeling so bad cause my puberty was well there, at 16 yo, 10 years ago 😭
For those of you here who may still be considering getting MTF SRS, why the strong need to bend the knee to heteronormativity?
Transitionning is scary af even as an adult, thanks to how society sees us... I often just follow my transition step one by one like a spectator as I am scared of what still need to be done in the future. That's hard to be positive whatever the age. But I guess every true dreams need sacrifice along the way.
It's a hard feeling. For me too, it's the biggest regret of my life not doint my transition earlier. I was realy scared and shamed; and when I could tell it to my parents, they didn't helped me, The spychologiste didn't helped me and wasn't realy good to me. So... Living shamed ans cared all the time, I wish I could reatch for some help, or do something. And finaly I transitioned on my 30's, it's the best thing in my life: being myself. Now I'm close to 40, and it's herd to live with this past, that's realy the hardest thing now, I do my best living my life and I'm happy with what and who I am now, but I still have my past and some dysphoria sometimes. So I try to be focus on present and thing that matter to me, things I love, sport help me a lot, living my true life now.
Hello Mathilda, excellent video. Please don't beat yourself up over the past. I know this is easier said than done, but you played the cards you were dealt and I think you did quite well. PS can we please see your dog? Thanks!
You look so beautiful Matilda!! Love you 😊
Hi Mathilda,
Yes. I really appreciate listening to your life reflections. But, only if those reflections don't trouble you. However, if they are therapeutic for you then we will all listen and take your wise words of wisdom. Don't worry about not being "up beat." We are all here to support each other. And if it's any consolation, I am older and as I'm sure you know, being transgender was a pretty big deal for my generation. Consequently, I only started my transition five years ago. So I get it when you say you look in the mirror sometimes and still see a man. As for me, I just don't look. As they say, "ignorance is bliss." Love your channel! You're a precious person and don't let anything or anyone tell you differently. Have a wonderful weekend 💕💃💐
I would ask more questions before having your Adams apple shaved down. Reason being is that people have some really bad side effects from that. I would look at the Samantha Lux videos on that surgery. Right now your voice is perfect, and you can swallow properly. There are risks that your voice may be irretrievably messed up and lower and you may have trouble swallowing after that surgery. If you do decide to go ahead with it at least really really research who has gotten the best results and which surgeon they used ask your surgeon their rate of complications and how many of these procedures they have done. It is much better to wait for the best most experienced surgeon because with this particular surgery it can cause irretrievable damage if there is anything that goes awry. Top surgery can be revised if need be but not this one. And I think I would have to disagree with you on when you started transitioning as well. Cross sex hormones are risky, and complete blocking of puberty can cause some very big issues. Yes you did have some issues with bottom surgery, but when you block puberty completely three things occur. First of all it means that bottom surgery sutures will rip because there is not enough tissue growth down there, secondly it can cause future osteoporosis because the puberty blocking medication has caused slight bone lengthening but poor calcium absorbtion and is very rarely recommend for anyone to be on for longer than six months due to the risks. Thirdly you could have had extreme weight gain and hunger from hypothalamus disregulation because puberty blockers disrupt all hypothalamus activity not just sex hormones. So you have been very very lucky with how things did happen for you. I don't know the answer to the when you look in the mirror problem. I personally don't look in the mirror every day. Sometimes I feel good about what I see ( I am 43 after all and you can't look 20 forever). Sometimes I hate what I see. Maybe try distracting yourself when the experience brothers you.
Girl!! Im 23 n i still cant transition! U r a woman.. no-one can notice anything!!! Just get over it. U r breathtaking 💗 u dont know how lucky u r
Matilda I’ve been watching and listening to you for almost a year now, and I want you to know you are special also know that you are an influencer and a teacher in many many many people look to you for help in guidance in their personal journey. There are, so many times that I really enjoyed. Where are you speak honestly and from your heart and you also tell us your emotions and how you’re feeling the truth about a particular item in your journey. You have helped me better understand just what it means to have dysphoria, and some of the actual symptoms not just from a block of what dysphoria means but app actually examples from your real life, too many times people do a textbook or a cookbook stamp of what they believe something to be but there’s such a large continuum and more in depth understanding of what it’s like to have dysphoria. Unfortunately, it sounds like Canada you have to have dysphoria in order to proceed forward. I question what if somebody is just not in the right body. Matilda, don’t stop being you because you can be the best you that there is we love you for who you are and we hope you will become who you want to be dictated but not read.
I have a question how you say your family that you are trans and your videos are really good
I LOVE your updates and following you through your journey. I want to say that first, and foremost. I also in every way, shape, thought and form support you with love. However, I believe that you should begin to disengage with social media. It is time for you Mathilda to live and enjoy your life out of the spotlight. Life flies by....each person only has approximately 7 decades on planet Earth. I sense pain in your recent posts. Live your life now gurlfriend. We'll be fine...Sending this with all my love. TRANS IS BEAUTIFUL 💯🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️♾
I’m 21 and I started my hrt 10 days and quit smoking first day, after 1 week I started to smoke again… 4-6 cigs per day :( can’t quit
Can someone share experience if u smoke during hrt too, does it so bad effects ( by blood analysis, personal feelings, etc). I feel i will regret about it in future 😣
Anytime you can quit smoking your lung function increase in about 2 weeks roughly, the body can heal itself when you can stop smoking
They always have warnings for women's hormonal birth control that smoking increases the risk of blood clots
Are you male? Estrogen increases risk of stroke, so adding that on top of smoking (which also increases risk of stroke) is a bad idea. Women who take estrogen birth control are warned to NOT SMOKE when on it, and that’s for women whose female bodies are already evolved for higher estrogen levels. Don’t risk it.
@@ejd5261
Yes, I am male and was speaking on what I saw running Pulmonary Function tests for a Specialist from a long time ago. Thank you updating and pointing out the possible complications of smoking, being just bad for your health.
Hi Mathilda, I'm A trans woman living in the US and am having some problems after SRS as you have mentioned on youtube. I would like to communicate with you so we could compare our experiences. Hoping this could be beneficial for both of us.
Did it make it painful to change your shirts?
I wish I transitioned earlier too but we can't change the past, just make good decisions in the future. I felt like I really related to the experiences you brought up.
I love your videos and you look fantastic. Are there people who regret transitioning? Of course there are. I don't think you regret it, you are just being honest, there are others on youtube who have transitioned and have complications with the surgery, it is a very invasive procedure and by being honest, if you can influence even just one person who is on the fence one way or the other then it is worth it. Emotionally you aren't showing regret, you are showing disappointment in the setbacks and that is extremely natural.
That's a man?
I like how they call this pride and all that when really its people not accepting the way they were born. I don't care if you want to be the other sex, I mean I could want to be tiger shark but it doesn't work that way. You are supposed to live the way you were designed. your soul CHOSE that body. By the time you get to god IF there is a god at this point, he is gonna be like wtf is this I didn't make you. and you will be discarded. If you can't own the body you are in you have failed life's test.
I know I started late I was 59 when I finally could get a job in America and not be discriminated again now 63 and yes when I look in the mirror I say crazy I also say I don't have to lie anymore I am me
To be honest, medically it might be a good think that you didn't transition before your pubity. At least you let your bones and immune system develop properly before you started suppressing your testosterone. You don't know how it would've effected you health-wise (physiologically) in the long run. What you regret is not necessarily good. You look perfect now. More feminine than me and I am a cis woman. You are beautiful and disphoria is not always treatable with superficial surgeries. Please please don't think that transitioning earlier would help you more. Also what does it even feel like to feel like a man or like a woman? I don't know what it feels like to feel like a woman, and I AM a woman. You can't look any more feminine that you already do. I would never look as feminine as you. You are gorgeous. So please, don't worry about this.
You need to focus more on who you feel you are and forget about the way you look . In the way you see yourself. Look in the mirror an love and embrace what you see and think how far you have come and also remember how horrible everything was before transitioning. Love and embrace the beautiful woman that you are becoming you will continue to change over the years as you get older for the better so try and live love all that you are and the world and people around you will do the same.🙏❤
I love seeing your channel, Matilda. I think you are gorgeous, with all due respect 🙏 ❤️ 😊.
Great video.
Your advice about not dwelling on the past is exactly what I needed to hear. Gender dysphoria sounds tough when it happens, I’m sorry. Although you don’t need me to tell you, I’ve only every seen you as a beautiful woman
I’m new here, but I can already tell that social media isn’t doing good for your mental health. You shouldn’t have to make videos like this to explain yourself to people! I love your educational videos!
But please don’t let these people get to you! It’s super unhealthy for your mental health! I’ve seen so many young UA-camrs recently come out about how the comments seriously effect their mental health! I hope all is well for you ❤
I think its funny how at around the 5 min mark, she started sounding super male. The moment they get serious and have to formukate a logic based argument, the male comes out.
with a name Marcus, do you play drums? Maya's on the guitar.
Praying for truth and peace to embrace you.🙏💛
Gender dysphoria after the initial stages of like putting coping mechanisms in place and start presenting as your gender after that gender dysphoria becomes like a a jump scare and it could jump on you at any point as you walk around the corner
Thing is your honest,that is what matters.
Focus inward. Our shells eventually fade.
Love you so much ♥️ other shouldn’t be so in your business anyway. Wether you regret something or not it’s none of their damn business.
I thought this was gonna turn into a 'detransitioner' video: that would've upset a lot of viewers! Worth putting out a reminder that in Sweden as well as a number of other European countries and Britain and Ireland, there is v little support for under 18s who say they may have significant problems regarding their gender identity and there's certainly no meds of any sort available for that age cohort.
I'm scared af of transitioning. I've been some dude all my life, what if being a woman isn't as good as I think it is. That sounds bad, but that's not how I mean it. I mean it as in what if one day I just regret it because idk.
If you're considering transitioning because you think being a woman is better ("as good as you think it is"), you're probably just a sexist man.
@@pearlpearl3806 agreed. Men wanting to be women because they want to be pretty, be desired, have an easier life, are sexist. They see women as nothing more than holes, a quick surgery and bam you're a woman.
I feel sorry for all the hate that you get it’s not called for they’re just some truly horrible people in this world😊
Sweetheart you need to wake up
“They say I’m not truthful when I say I don’t regret it”
“There are regrets not directly to the srs”
“I have a few regrets.”
“The regrets that I have”
So they are right that you do have regrets.
You don’t love the experience of being trans, but you love the people in your life. I’m unclear how these are connected? Did you meet these people *because* you were trans? Or just *after* you had transitioned? Are you worried you must keep up with medical interventions ie being trans, to keep these people in your life?? If so, that sounds very upsetting! Put your health first and people who truly love you will keep standing by you.
I can SO relate to this “traumatizing inner dialogue” you talk about- it sounds like my OCD ruminations 😓.
“Regrets regarding not removing Adams Apple earlier.” But honey, you can’t “remove” your Adams Apple. It’s your voice box protruding through your throat- we see it in males bc males have larger ones due to testosterone at puberty. You can only shave off some tissue from the front side of your larynx, which makes it weaker and compromises the structure, which is crucial to the function of the voice. You could develop speech problems from messing with your “instrument”- it’s like shaving down the walls of a cello to try to make it a violin: it doesn’t work that way. Why would you go forward with ANOTHER body-mod surgery when your first one you just found out will likely cause lifelong problems?
Those surgeons would never acknowledge complications 10+ years down the line bc to do so would require acknowledging that srs is impossible: there’s no such thing as “vaginoplasty” on a trans woman. Just penile inversion. And what do you know…penises aren’t meant to be inverted and buried into a man’s pelvic floor. Thus we can logically conclude that this unnatural construction WILL cause problems eventually.
“It’s not their fault.” Well they lied to you that it would be possible for them to build you a female sex organ which I assume is the pretense under which you consented to the operation despite the complication risks, so it literally is their fault.
“Biggest regret is not transitioning earlier”
So you felt off and then realized you were trans when you saw a documentary framing how you felt as “wrong” and a problem that needed to be fixed with medical intervention?
Have you seen Jazz Jennings? Jazz went on puberty blockers and then female levels of estrogen, blocking Jazz’s male puberty. And as a result, Jazz’s genital surgery failed disastrously bc his penis never grew enough to properly invert, causing him to require bowel surgery and several revisions, and it may have never developed enough to become sexually functional. Jazz is also morbidly obese, likely due to puberty blockers/genital surgery at such a young age. So transitioning earlier and blocking male puberty may prevent trans women from ever developing the ability to orgasm pre or post surgery. Transitioning earlier can also cause bone density issues. And blocking one’s natural puberty *may* cause brain delays since you are preventing normal development of the body. So yes, you might have been happier. OR you might have had double or triple or more the lifelong complications or health issues.
I think it is really interesting that you said that you wish you had been able to get help before the term “trans had entered your head.” Bc you say this would have allowed you to “transition sooner” but how, if you hadn’t seen information on these medical procedures? Could it be that you wish you had asked for help before you knew what trans was so your mom could have facilitated a different path for you?
You’re creating this fantasy of how your trans experience could have been good or better if you transitioned earlier- but it’s just that: a fantasy. Maybe it could have been better! OR maybe you could be morbidly obese, with osteoporosis, no orgasm or sex drive whatsoever even if you stopped the hormones, and brain developmental delays, due to early hormone exposure interrupting your puberty. 🤷♀️
I agree with your take on not living in the past wallowing in regret. But you seem to be framing the alternative as future oriented: “move forward, do what I need to do to have the best life and be happy.” This is all about the future. What about the present? Being in the present with acceptance and mindfulness? It seems like a lot of trans people swing between “should’ve/could’ve/would’ve”s about the past, or else get swept up in a future-oriented drive where their transition is a to-do list checklist to happiness. A lot of “doing” in transition. Not a lot of “being.” You’re barely beginning to process your potential lifelong surgical complications from you last organ-altering surgery, and you’re already planning the next organ-altering surgery?
“I look in the mirror and see a man.” That sounds very distressing for someone with gender dysphoria. I’m sorry 😞. But you would still be male if you transitioned earlier bc sex is already differentiated in the womb- even if you blocked your puberty and took female hormones entirely, you’d still be male. What if you see a man bc you KNOW that is what you are, no matter the surgeries or the cosmetic changes? Can you love yourself anyways? It sounds like your mind is screaming for self-acceptance: the “monster” of gender dysphoria grows the more you ignore it: Could facing it head on and accepting that YES you are a man bc you are male- but that being a man can mean whatever you want it to mean- give you more peace of mind? Maybe being a man for you means being a beautiful gay man, having amazing people who love you in your life, and wearing feminine clothes and hair.
Those awful spikes of anxiety and obsessive intrusive thoughts you describe as the manifestation of your gender dysphoria is identical to upsetting intrusive thoughts in anyone with an anxiety disorder, OCD, or body dysmorphia. I’m sorry to hear you experience them! You’re not alone! I describe it as “a monster rattling my locked door.” I like your advice on not getting stuck in the thoughts and moving on to more interesting things. 👍🏻
Why would you waste all that time writing such a thing with so much factual inaccuracy just to hurt someone?
@@summerblade3790 I’m not trying to hurt anyone! And what’s inaccurate in my comment?
Edit: Mathilda has this UA-cam account where fans call Mathilda perfect and amazing in every way. That’s unhealthy, especially when Mathilda is dealing with a lot. I’m trying to make a space where some of the difficulties Mathilda is juggling can be validated, acknowledged and discussed. What I’m doing is more loving and genuine than all these commenters and fans blowing smoke up Mathilda’s *ss, pardon the crass phrase.
I mean, my god, this is a person very vulnerably and courageously opening up about regret and pain, and the top three comments are 1. “MY only regret is waiting so long to transition” 2. “YOU don’t have regrets, I can tell” and worst of all 3. “Thanks for sharing. I TOO struggle with internalized transphobia.” How invalidating! Mathilda is struggling with regret and the response is “well I DONT” and “NO you don’t” and most invalidating, “MAYBE you do, but it’s bc you’re bigoted towards yourself.” THESE kinds of comments are the ones that are disrespectful bc they are narcissistic (what do Mathilda’s feelings mean for me?) instead of taking Mathilda’s words at face value and responding with compassion, no matter how uncomfortable her truths may make other trans people.
@@ejd5261 you cant claim to care about trans people when you call our existance fantasies & you use the wrong pronoun
Jazz & Mathilda use she/her
@@summerblade3790 I called Mathilda’s imagining that he wouldn’t be dealing with any of these health problems or regrets or doubts if he had just transitioned earlier a fantasy bc that’s what it is- an improbably or impossible imagining. I don’t believe that a male adult (man) can somehow be a woman in some mystery region of their brain or mind or heart or soul. It’s illogical and there’s no evidence for it, and there’s lots of evidence against it being the case. Right now, I want to hold space for the fact that Mathilda is male, and the idea that this is okay and doesn’t mean anything for how Mathilda wants to dress and self express, bc Mathilda is expressing regret and fear and sadness caused by complications from surgical procedures that were an attempt to change his sex. I don’t want to buy into the concept that it is possible to change sex by calling him “she” bc that path led him to serious health issues. Calling someone she or he doesn’t mean anything to me other than their sex- it doesn’t mean personality or looks or femininity/masculinity, etc. I’m not talking to Mathilda right now, so why would it be appropriate to try to control how I talk about people when they’re not present? However, if I was talking to Mathilda and another person, and referred to Mathilda as he in front of him as might happen in that scenario, and he asked me to refer to him as “she,” then I would do that to accomodate his gender dysphoria but I would make it clear that that was the reason I was doing, not bc I believe male people are women bc they like feminine things (which is sexist and homophobic).
@@ejd5261 *she - & you can shut up on that point, & it is possible to change gender - not everyone’s gender is determined by sex
If you don’t want trans people to face health issues, respect pronouns
See “Russell ST, et al. 18”
Compared to those without chosen name usage, trans people with chosen name
usage experience
71% drop in severe depression
34% drop suicidal ideation
65% drop in suicide attempts
So if you genuinely cared about trans people you would respect trans peoples pronouns
I’m not discussing anything with you until you use the correct pronouns, because you are literally contributing to the higher suicide rate - pronouns are non negociable
Unless you exclusively use she/her for Mathilda & Jazz, don’t say you care about trans people - hypocrite
If you don’t mind me asking did you have a father figure all throughout your life? Especially when you were questioning your gender identity did you have a father at the time or did you have a single mother?
You are strong!
Life is really good now.
What does all these acronyms mean? What is SRS?
srs is basically the surgery she had
@@ilyongbok Yes but what does it stand for, lol!
@@the_wizard_of_oz sex reassignment surgery, but i personally believe it should be gender reassignment surgery and be grs since you can't really change your sex lol
@@ilyongbok I see but isn't grs some kind of navigation system?
By the way I’m just really curious your views on xeo pronouns. I really try to be as open minded as possible, as a trans woman myself I have to be. But I cannot wrap my head around xeo/neo pronouns… like people identifying as cats and dogs and even inanimate objects… I’m just trying to understand! And I’m curious of your view on it bc I respect your opinions and knowledge on the lgbt community
For such a young woman just at the beginning of your life you show so much wisdom. I'm older and transition, so my journey is going to be VERY different than if I had been brave enough to come out sooner. And I've stopped following most of the younger transgender crowd, I'm so so sooooo happy for them all and support you all. But sometimes when I look at the people transitioning younger that gender dysphoria monster sneaks up on me. Usually I'm good at telling those "you should have done this sooner" voices of regret to just be quiet. But sometimes they get too loud. So all that is to say, that hearing you talk about this, and have such similar feelings was a comfort. I mean, I'm sorry you have those feelings, I wish you didn't. But I'm starting to think no matter when someone comes out, they will sometimes wish it had been earlier. And for as long as you share your life with us, I will follow :) Thank you so much, you are truly and honestly having a positive impact.
You are so unspeakably brave mathilda
One of the biggest problems in our lobes as trans women is that we van never show weakness and it is incredibly isolating. So by being brave and shareing that weakness you help us all as a community and help us have those relationships. And many of our SRS experiences will be made better by your help
*lives not lobes ack!
I say the best thing you can do is be honest to yourself, know yourself and speak YOUR truth. I for one think this video is right on. Thank you for sharing!
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Mental health needs to come first before any physiological changes.
Your really beautiful
Good lak
Not "transphobe" at all. I think once you're 18, it's your life, your decisions, and you're 100% in control of your own outcome. However, supporting minors to change their hormones with a lifetime consequences is ridiculous. Cool for you that you were so cognitive about who you was at a young age. But most minors, have no idea who they are, who they are going to be in the future, nor should they make permanent changes to their bodies. I regret tattoos that I gave myself when I was 18. Supporting minors to receive hormones or having SRS is ridiculous. Do what you want at 18. Your life!! I'll be your support, give you my own wisdom, and love you unconditionally as a mother. But I will never condone letting you tinker with your body in this manner as a minor. To me, Mathilda, you're even still a child. You don't have kids, you have no idea what it means to be a parent. And from one adult to another, what you are insinuating is horrible advice to push on 99% of minors.
I've been reading the comments and replies to comments for this video and it's disturbing how some disingenuous people, who clearly have a problem with being trans, are pretending to be solicitous and offering 'sage' advice about transitioning and self-acceptance. This is a tactic which carried to its limit equates to: "Oh you're so nice and perfect that you probably didn't need to transition to feel good about yourself!". Or they are trying to slip in the no healthcare for trans kids line by saying: "Oh you are so feminine that it shows that transitioning before puberty is unnecessary and just a health risk." These statements are designed to capitalise on your feelings of vulnerability. People who recognise that they are doing this should be thoroughly ashamed of themselves. Well that's all. Of course you ARE beautiful etcetc, but I mean it. ❤️
You said exactly what I was thinking. I used to wonder why trans channels would always disable comments and now I 100% understand why with the amount of concern trolls, TERFS, and religious transphobes that stalk their channels to either give disingenuous passive-aggressive nonsense or are straight up transphobic. Hypocritical that these people go on and on about the transgender community being a grooming cult and yet they go to trans channels to leave comments clearly trying to put doubt in trans men and women.
Hiii
😢on so many levels.
Lets see how you feel when you get male-pattern baldness. Reality check.
I can completely empathise with all your struggles.
I wish I knew I was a woman sooner.
As a woman, I just don’t get this. What makes someone who doesn’t have female body parts “feel like a woman?”
@@ejd5261 I can’t explain it to you. It is not a physical feeling.
@@CassieAngelica but there’s no “woman feelings” or “woman thoughts.”
@@ejd5261 Correct, but there is a sense of self.
@@CassieAngelica How can an abstract sense of self be sexed? Your personality doesn’t have sex organs. 🤷♀️ are you conflating “femininity” and “masculinity” with literally being a woman or a man?
I don't think you are a man, but I think You very care your self so you feel upset dont care yourself many more you will be better！
Wait, someone called you transphobic ? How strange lol, as a newly out trans woman your videos have been a treasure trove for me, you're the least toxic person in the online trans community. Take care mathilda