Something happened yesterday that shook me to my core. I went to a friend's house to drop off a present for his 1-year old girl. I haven't talked to any one in literally months so it was a surprise that I showed up and remembered her birthday. My friend wasn't home but I was warmly welcomed by his fiancée. We chatted for a bit and I saw how much his daughter had grown. Last time I saw her, she was an infant and now she's almost walking. After I dropped off the present, I went to my truck and started crying. It hit me just how much time had passed and how nice it was for another person to greet me with kindness. Something about that really stuck with me because I realized all I've ever wanted was love and acceptance. Alcohol and mental illness took that from me. But I vowed to take that back, no matter what the cost.
That’s so beautiful…the fact you realize it shows where you’re at in your journey. Life keeps on, addiction just keeps you in a jail cell. You got this. Thank you for sharing it shook me.
I am so sad about the feelings that drove up for you, but so happy for you that you were able to recognize that about yourself!! Sending you tons of love and wishes for only the best for you from NY. Congratulations on your sobriety, my friend! ❤🎉🎊🎉❤️
Years and years…. Gone and wasted, I’ve had these thoughts recently too. As micru said that is beautiful that you saw that my friend. You clearly can see booze for what it is. I can tell you’re a really good person afterhours, like most of us you’ve battled this horrible disease and it changes us. Makes us miss out on moments that we can’t ever get back. Alcohol is a thief, it steals and steals. Let’s take our lives back man, not let booze steal one more moment from us with our loved ones, or whatever it might be. God bless you brother, keep your head up. Got you in my thoughts man.
Slayerrrrr!!! Yes you better get it!!! I’m so proud of you. Music, 🏋️♀️, lmao jacked slayer can’t wait 😜, look you do everything and anything to stay sober. I feel finding spirituality and loving life is key. Going back to the basics. Slay slay you gotta want it and know that sobriety is the only way. Your life depends on it. 😢I know you know it already but you’re so worth it…we all are! I look at you and see so much life…so much beauty…you’ll see it too. I know you see glimpses of it. Just focus on one day at a time. You got this…much love 💕 Slayer.
Micru!!!! ✌️😎, yes jacked slayer 🤣 I’m excited too haha. You’re always so right with your comments micru!!! I can always rely on you to not only give me truth but also to uplift me :)!! We are 100% worth it, every single one of us. We’ve got this!!! Much love back to you 🖤🙏!! One day at a time.
Ohhh and let me add now that I saw the entire vid it went from day to night. I’m sure you didn’t intend for it to transition but it’s so beautiful. I feel peace and hope you and everyone else does too. ❤
slayer im on my 18th day in a row being sober. finished september only drinking 2 days. i didnt think i could do this a year ago. i thought i was gonna die if i stopped. i dont think im going to quit forever but ive gone from drinking 4-8 beers a day for a year plus to only drinking six days within the last two months.
It’s like micru said Richard this is 100% a win!!! Don’t take any of that away from yourself brother. This is REAL progress!! You’re on the right path my friend and I can say I’m proud. Keep up the solid work 💪🙏 One day at a time.
Great video Slayer. Staying sober is really hard in the beginning but it gets much easier as time passes. I had to recognize why I was drinking (anxiety and social isolation) and then work on these aspects of my life. The thought of relapsing still scares the hell out of me, but my confidence in staying off the booze and dealing with life's challenges is much better now.
Hey thank you Paul 🙏! I definitely can relate to both the anxiety and isolation, both of these things I’m currently working on and probably will for some time. Learning how to deal with these situations in a clear, sober mind. Also relapse is starting to really scare me too man, it’s just so brutal!!! Absolute chaos!!! Let’s keep pushing forward my friend, god bless.
Slayer 4th of July weekend was my last relapse I found myself in a hotel in a town that I never been to just in a really bad place mentally the shakes lasted a whole week. I went to detox, I was lost in there and I actually said to myself I’ll probably drink again I had no hope at all. Since detox I stopped drinking, selling my crap home and we’re in the process of buying a brand new beautiful home and things are going great. I’ve never been happier man, great things are coming our way because we choose to be sober. Praying for you bro take care.
This is absolutely beautiful brother, I’m proud of you for that decision and it’s awesome that your life is turning around. Let’s not look back bro, let’s keep on the path we are on. One day at a time. God bless man and thank you. 🙏💯
So glad you went back to AA! And I'm glad you found a good meeting. I have been very lucky and I live in an area filled with very open minded and accepting meetings. I have been to meetings other places and immediately felt like, oh no! If this was my first experience I would not have come back. You really do have to try and find your tribe within the program. The group I've fallen in with has filled my life with such great fellowship. My heart is so full. My life is so full. And I'm just eternally grateful. Glad you made it back! ❤ Sending you prayers and positive vibes on your recovery journey.
That’s really beautiful, I say that often in my channel that I think AA is an amazing thing for the community aspect and the tribe aspect. Of like minded people setting out on a journey together to better themselves, like you said a fellowship. I very much feel that fellowship in my IOP group that I attend. We are like a small family. That’s why I’m looking into different meetings because I want a fellowship to continue once I complete the program. That’s so awesome that you’ve found that peace and fellowship. Much love, one day at a time. God bless 🙏
Hey there friend, I love this update. You have been on my heart. XoXoX I live ticking those boxes off too ! It. Is 100% helpful when you approach it as goals ,look back later see where you changed & grew..I am so proud of you working past 3 weeks. You are still fighting and nownyou have more pple in your corner fighting w you❤ Thank you for being here. What a blessed outlet that does help others not just yourself🎉 Melissa XoXoX
Hey Melissa :) thank you so much!! It definitely helps checking them off. Makes you feel super good, also the thanks goes to y’all. This channel would be nothing without you guys coming and showing love and support. It means a lot!! It truly makes me happy to hear that it’s helping others, it 100% helps me and it makes me smile to know other people are benefiting. Much love!! God bless 🙏🖤
This is all great advice, Slayer!! So happy to see you, my friend!! You look and sound like you're doing well. Much of everything you said is just good practice for mental health!! Im so glad that you're working so hard, and I'm certain that you're experiencing so many positive changes because of all of this. Sending you tons of love ❤️ 😊❤
Staind - It's Been A While. haha [Verse 1] And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you [Chorus] And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that are rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means [Verse 2] And it's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you [Chorus] And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again, again [Bridge] Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day [Verse 3] And it's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way the candles light your face And it's been awhile But I can still remember just the way you taste [Chorus] And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me [Outro] And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry
3 weeks turn into 4 4 into 5 keep it up! Keep yourself busy talk to someone if you have stupid thoughts. Proud of you bro life’s a trip alcohol only makes the trip worse
So happy to hear your doing well Slayer. It's been 3 weeks sober for me too. I'm still going to my meetings every Thursday and they're really helping. Keep strong brother, we can do this.
Congratulations on the 3 weeks bro!!!! 💪🙌 that is awesome! Keep hitting those meetings, we can most definitely do this. Just gotta take it one day at a time. God bless
Great job Slayer I'm very proud of you! 3 weeks is great it tells me that you can hold back those demons, keep kicking their asses brother. You looking much better, healthier and more happy more important I can see you have got your self-respect and motivation back compared to what alcohol does to you the difference is like night and day keep going. I was just checking out UA-cam this morning while drinking my coffee so I say your video I was wondering where you were I am very impressed man. Keep strong, Keep the faith, never quit it's worth it and if AA or any other tools available for us alcoholics works for you use it and keep using it brother. Have a great weekend be safe look forward not back enjoy each day that you win the battle against that booze brother, be proud of yourself, you deserve it. If it helps dive into your videos full force they do help others too thanks for the vid brother, God Bless
Slayer, good to see you brother!! Thanks for sharing your experiences with us! Congrats on 3 weeks of sobriety, I'm already 2 weeks sober after my recent slip up! No need to dwell on the past, just learn from your mistakes and keep moving forward. That's all any of us can do, man! Based on my experiences and what I've seen/heard from other people suffering from alcoholism, I must say that alcohol is the absolute worst! When you have heroin or meth addicts saying they feel sorry for alcoholics, you know alcoholism is a major problem. I don't wish this disease on ANYONE!!! Prayers to those out there still suffering and I hope that sobriety finds them soon! Take care and God bless, my friend! ❤
Hey David!! It’s good to see you as well my friend!! 2 weeks 💪💯 nice man that’s awesome. We gotta keep pushing forward, the past is the past. All we can change is the now! Also yea man….. the more research I do, the more alcoholics I meet the more i agree that it is the worst. I’m sure some of that reason is because it’s so easy to purchase. I’ve said many times same as you that I wouldn’t wish alcoholism on my worst enemy!!! Thanks for this great comment David! God bless
Slayer!! Awesome to hear from ya brother..Great, inspiring video..We're on this sober journey together..U got 3 weeks .I got 3 weeks exactly today...Let's keep pushin for life💯🙏..Shout out to the whole community..LD, Shades, shout out Sacred Serpent 🐍,OG BAT!!!(The Realest) .. Always putting God first..In Jesus name.. ...Psalms 73:26
@@JCarm-LK785 A few sober creators like Slayer and Anna Barram and L.D.'s channels are cooking with fire. My channel is more of a slow pressure-cooker. Hopefully, I can hit 1k by Dec. 31 - the year anniversary of my channel. It might happen, but I doubt it. I don't care. I'll just keep making content. My shorts tend to get more views that my videos for some reason. People's attention spans probably have something to do with it. I try to keep my videos under 10 minutes now. Thanks for commenting.
@JCarm-LK785 Thanks!! Now I've heard of a couple more - - Serpent 🐍 for one ,and of course YOURSELF (I'LL check it out). Like the psalm 73 ref. If memory serves, that's the psalmist who was ready to give up because it seemed only the wicked prospered, so he's like, what's the point??. Then something changed .... COOL 😎!!!
You have a very comforting voice and are very relatable. As well as informative and knowledgeable. Have you ever considered doing storytelling videos or even videos about topics you're interested in? Podcasts and history/true crime/spooky story UA-camrs are what has kept me sober.
This is really sweet of you to say shayna thank you so much :) 🙏, I’ve never considered it but I definitely should!!! That’s a great idea 💡! Have you ever watched JCS criminal psychology?? Or the channel explore with us?? Those videos are absolutely wild!!! I watch them to help me stay sober too. Watching those wild videos just make you want to be a better person lol. Thanks again shayna 🙏🖤
That was very inspiring. I might give AA a try. I'm very glad to hear you're making progress! Great things are in store for you. God's people are amazing. That's just the way it is.
AA is definitely worth the shot. That program has saved my life. I couldn't stay sober for more than a week or two. My previous record was 77 days, and on Monday, I will be celebrating my 1 year sober anniversary. Go in with an open mind. Be willing to take suggestions. Be honest with yourself and others. The program works if you work it.
We feel and look better when we're sober & we make better choices, life falls into place & things are easier when we remove the poison. Keep it up brotha!
Yo whats good slayer glad you're still sober. I ended september strong hit 4 days sober in a row for the first time in months. Been off to a bad start in October tho not really stressing too much about the relapses like I used to I know its a part of the process. Ive been reading too if youre looking for more books to read you should check out Outwitting the Devil by Nepoleon Hill
That is absolutely bada%% my friend!!! That’s progress and that’s what matters. Who cares that it’s October 5th, it’s not too late to jump on the “sober October” train brother. Also this is wild that you mention that book, I’ve heard amazing things about it. One of the podcasts I listen to about spirituality and just deep topics brought that book up. I’ll definitely need to give it a read now. God bless bro 💯💯
So good to see you’re doing well Slay Slay🥹 and glad to hear you’re reading the Bible! Please throw a prayer up for me and my family. I’m not gunna drink but I’m going through it right now 🥺🙏🏽
Slayer, I’m still struggling but I’m learning more and more that it’s crucial that we avoid drama situations in order to survive. By all means show love to your loved ones but be careful with strangers. We must learn to love and parent our own selves. I’m happy that you enjoy Bible Studies. I bought a KJBible and I have read it 3 and a half times. Just a few chapters every evening. I always loved Revelations. It’s interesting. I went to college and became an ordained minister but then I started questioning everything. I got lost. I’m still praying 🙏 but I’m not even sure what I believe anymore. You will have a Beautiful Life. Just know you deserve it.💞
You’re on the right path Cindy, you got the right mindset. We all fall and stumble sometimes, we are human beings. We can fall and stumble with our walk with god too, that’s normal. You will find your way again and I already feel like you are. You’re a warrior for coming and sharing with the community what’s happening and letting me know. Everyone is cheering you on, don’t give up. Remember it’s one day at a time, god bless and much love. Keep me updated 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you Slayer. I’m in South Carolina and we’re still going through some serious aftermath from the hurricane here. Western North Carolina is much much worse. Please keep all of us in prayers. Basically that storm was happening when I relapsed last week. I’m surely not happy about it either. I’m just a straight up person and I’m very honest. Most people try to hide any mistakes. I’m past that. 😊 Thank you so Much for your honesty and kindness. We all love and respect you.🙏💞
It’s 6 am. I just woke up from a nightmare. I dreamed that I got blackout drunk with an old friend. Omg what a mind fock. Happy to watch your video and come back to Earth. Alcohol is so bad, I’m still having traumatic nightmares about it after being sober ten months. Focking demon’s poison and nothing more.
@@SpiritualFlesh-x6x Me too !!! Do you think it's brain 🧠 damage?? I also have GREAT memorable dreams, but plenty of the BAD ...so vivid, can't explain, and sober for now over a year!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt I tend to think it relates to vitamin B deficiency. Especially B1. But I am also only 6 weeks clean of cannabis so my dopamine and other neurotransmitters are still funky.
The nightmares man yes they are absolutely awful, bizarre and usually frightening. Alcohol is an insane dr*g that needs to be looked into way more. We need to stop the adds and the normalization of one of the hardest drugs on earth!!! God bless bro.
@SpiritualFlesh-x6x Cool bro, I don't do weed either, which makes me Abby-normal, ...anyway, yes, dopamine and other NTs are so powerful that I think they make almost indelible impressions (not straight memory,you understand), that we aren't close to understanding!!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt have you heard of hypnogogic jerks? I have been jerking awake a couple times every night. Hard to get to sleep. Then I wake up early after a weird dream or just naturally but Im having a really hard time sleeping more than 6 hours. Just gotta push through I guess. The body usually can normalize and find a balance again.
My friend, I admire your fight, yet I am concerned by your relapses and the severity of your ensuing withdrawal symptoms, as I believe as a fellow addict, that we only have a certain amount of relapses within us that we can survive. Stay safe, my brother, please.
Hey thank you brother!! 🙏🙏 also I 100% agree man. I think we do have a certain number of relapses and it’s definitely time for me to stop. I don’t know how many I have left in me but I haven’t given my body enough time. I really have to go a long period of time for some healing to happen. Much love brotha, god bless
I often find that self depreciation and negative thinking is one of the biggest things that leads to a relapse. Ive always struggled with that personality. I notice that you seem to struggle with this as well. One of the hardest things is to learn to love and accept yourself. Binge drinking is a form of self harm, and self harm comes from low self esteem and hatred of one self. If you can learn to respect yourself then you can eventually have better self control. One of my favorite robbin williams stand up bits that describes what im saying was "Poooor me........pooooooor me........pour me. ....another drink". Also good job at getting back on your feet you only truly lose if you give up, which i can see you haven't done 🤘🤟
@@adriangronewold7433 you are 100% right Adrian and I’ve definitely been working on it. It’s something I struggle with. These things take a lot of time and work and they can be very painful because you are forced to look into your dark side and deal with it without the booze, but it’s doable and totally worth it. Also I heard delirium Dirk say that quote!!! I didn’t know it was from robin williams! I’ve said that a few times to people haha, wow what a trip. Anyways thanks brother, hope you’re well. One day at a time 🙏💯
Look at you! Your young your a good looking and articulate young man. When I found out how much damage I had done, I imagined telling my son who is actually older than you Slayer, and then him having to tell his two little girls. Your Grandmother "chose" to drink despite being an intelligent woman. That felt terrible to imagine. So yes, you do it to yourself, so undo it if you can before it's too late. You can do it you have everything to know you shouldn't and a whole life ahead of you. Janet 🇬🇧 x
I was on a ~3 week dry spell around the time you relapsed. I had zero cravings but winded up caving some days later. I've contained it to weekends since but things are starting to get messy and I'm fucking up even though nobody has said anything yet. I don't even feel good right now, just that dull 'numb' feeling you get when no matter how much you drink, you wont feel good kicks in.
I know that feeling Yates all too well brother, I’m sorry man that you’re going through this. 3 weeks is awesome man, that shows you can do it. If you couldn’t you wouldn’t even be able to make it 2 days. Don’t beat yourself up, it happens. You can see it for what it is and that right off the bat is a good sign. When you’re ready hop back on the wagon my friend, do whatever it takes. If that means a detox trip to be safe I’d definitely recommend it. You will get back to where you want to be brother, thank you for being honest and coming back. God bless bro, keep me updated 🙏 be safe!
What's up, man? Cool on the three weeks. Hang in there. One of my first real girlfriends a long time ago had an alcoholic mother. We would stop at the ABC store (N.C.'s liquor stores) and pick up handles of vodka here and there and I never thought about her drinking. It was ten years before I ended up in the same boat. The girl called me out of the blue right when the 2000s began and said they found her mother deceased in her home. My ex moved to Greensboro for college and didn't see her for years. Her mother had bad agoraphobia and would only go to the grocery store. Apparently, she may have died from a heart attack from delirium tremens, I was told. It was sad for the both of us.
Hey shades! What’s up brother?? Thank you man. Also that is horrible bro, but doesn’t surprise me. That’s the nature of this disease when it fully takes over. DT’s are so dangerous, like DD use to say they take out most people. R.I.P to that lady. Hope you’re well my friend! One day at a time. 💯🙏
@@Slayer-7373thank you for asking Slay🖤 I’m so late responding, but I’m not doing too good! I can’t stop relapsing after I was 6-7 months clean. I’ll get it together soon though. Thank you for all you do for the sober communit…you give me hope🖤
@@natsnikkii awe I’m so sorry to hear that :(, I understand how that goes. It’s like opening up a doorway when we relapse. You will definitely get back on track, no doubt in my mind. If you ever need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to reach out please!!! Feel free to send me a message on instagram or send me an email!!! We are here for one another. Keep your head up, much love 🙏🖤. Keep me updated
Hi Slayer. Completed my IOP last Wed. You just spoke to me right now. First week of making a list and I did it! Feels incredible. Gonna use your suggestion on reading the Bible. You look great. 140 daze junk free 😂
Hey karlee ✌️! Congratulations on completing IOP!!!! That is awesome!!!! 🙌 the list is so helpful, I didn’t realize how much it would come into use. Also that is really cool to hear about the Bible :). Thanks so much!!! Let’s keep doing this sobriety thing! Also LD is awesome, I’m glad you’re here on the journey with us. God bless 🙏
I was hoping for that Lids video 😆 The catholic church has the scripture organized daily for each mass and it takes about about two years reading the daily scriptures to read the whole bible. You could google that if it interests you. If you don't add something to your schedule, its not likely to get done. So I'm happy to hear you're doing this :)
Hey don’t worry!! I’ll show y’all the lids video ;) 😂. Also that’s pretty cool, I’ll check it out thanks. And definitely!! The schedule planner has been super helpful. Much love and thank you!!! ER 😆🖤🙏
@@Slayer-7373 it doesn't have to be the footage you already have since it seems you didn't buy anything because the store wasn't any good. But a vlog of you buying a cap or checking some out would be nice. I hope you are able to achieve everything you yearn and mention in the later part of this video 🙏🏻 I'll send you an email with a couple of thoughts about this.
Hey! You there...rolling along and something grabbed your attention n the next thing you knew it watched this entire video n related! Hi! How are you? Welcome to #TeamSlayer aka #TeamRecovery hahahah I just make stuff up as I go along! Stay safe! Stay sober! Stay slayable! #slaythataddiction🎉❤Melissa
So proud of you my friend. I love your schedule Idea. Keep your room clean. I need that one too. OH bless you, helping your Mom. You're funny. man -- the crap stores at the mall LOL -- Your Natural state longs to express itself. I will say that again. Slayer's natural State longs to express itself. So proud of you & your family in counseling. **Glad to hear you are going to try AA again. Don't be checking out the Chicks there // LOL. ( Laughing ) A counselor told me once " you don't want a partner from AA because then you are 2 sick people in a relationship " . Remember I told you we will choose drinkers or addicts because of our histories? And they will choose us? ** We have to have awareness about that .. Like If I want to date someone -- I go into a room of 100 good men, I will choose the 1 drinker without knowing it. THAT's sick right?
Thanks for the awesome words as always Judith :) 🙏🖤 Also I will try my best 🤣, trust me I’m the same way as you Judith. I’m naturally attracted to other addicts too because they can understand us and we can understand them, but it’s like you said it can be really dangerous when you have two “sick” people together. It could end it total disaster, but yea I’m definitely drawn towards others who struggle with this because we are so hard to understand. This disease is so hard to understand. Anyways, thank you and god bless 🙏🖤
Speaking of books, you should check out A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose. It's by Eckhart Tolle. He helped me a ton in life. You should check him or the book out! He does the audio for the audio book also. He has a calming voice. AND you should listen to Coming Back to Life by Pink Floyd. I like to pretend its about sobriety and finding your true sober self. Great lyrics and sounds beautiful. One of my favorite songs of all time.
Dude eckhart tolle is awesome!!! I’ll definitely check that out!!! Also I love Pink Floyd just as much lol, surprised I’ve never heard of this song? Excited to give it a listen. Glad to see you have good taste not only in books but music as well 😎💯🙏
Hey trippy 👋 what’s up brother! What I do is just google meetings near me and a whole list of meetings and times pop up. I’d try to do the same and see if there are any meetings in your area! God bless bro
Sobriety isn’t the goal. It’s much deeper than that. It’s finding a peace that has nothing to do with self determination and depending only on Jesus. I haven’t figured it out but I know that’s the answer
@@bryanthomas6063 you will figure it out brother, I definitely agree that sobriety is way deeper than just a goal. It’s honestly hard to put into words but we both know what we are talking about. Both of us will get it my friend, one day at a time. One minute at a time if that’s what it takes.
I’m glad you’re on the road to sobriety again. You say you’re “extremely busy,” but what does that mean? You mention many things, but they seem supportive at best. What will truly enable your sobriety is work, which you only mention briefly. I don’t know what you actually do, but I want to know: what, when, and how. Real work and hard manual labor will solve your problem. Your days should be filled with work and recovery only, leaving no time to overthink. It’s time to get serious about this. Who do you think pays for your hospital visits? We do. In my country, what you have is considered a luxury problem. It’s a cycle of alcohol, hangover, missed work, job loss, no money, ending up on the streets, and eventually dying. Nobody pays your hospital bills. If you continue to fail, I won’t support you anymore because it’s unfair to those who can’t afford it and sets a bad example. Good luck, bro. Do it.
That is a personal choose my friend, If you do just be safe and do what you’re suppose to do. God bless bro 🙏 thanks for being part of this community man!
It really depends on you, but for most people it’s not easy. Some just say one day that they are done and never look back, but for most of us it’s one of the hardest things we will ever have to do in our lives! God bless you my friend! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 like most my alcohol consumption increased over the years. I'm up to 1-2 pints of vodka a day. I'm ashamed and embarrassed. I did quit the green 5 days ago and got cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome. Puked all day on day 2, day 3 and 4 still nauseous but no puking. Still going through it. Didn't sleep at all on day 2. Just wondering if quitting all these substances at one time is a good idea. I don't have health insurance and can almost guarantee I'll get delirium tremors when I quit. I'm interested in what withdrawal is like and how you overcome it. Anyways thanks for replying you're awesome don't forget
I think you should change your profile pic slayer, idk who the chick is in the photo but if it’s a girl from the past , I don’t like how when u go on UA-cam maybe not you but maybe your subconscious gets triggered to your old habits , why always have that reminder every day , take a new pic when u ready of the new you and detach from the chaotic you , you’re a new person now
Hey Alex 👋 it’s interesting that you bring this up because I’ve been thinking about changing my profile pic and I might. The pic has my friend in it, but still it does betray the old me. I’m mixed to be honest because part of me likes seeing it because it reminds me of who I don’t want to be, but at the same time like you said I’m trying to let that old way of myself go. I’ll definitely have to think about it, I love that you brought this up. God bless bro 🙏
Just be careful about religion in recovery. I did all of these same things you did for years, and ultimately it didn't stick. I came from a family that had religion already too. AA never worked for me. It's not for everyone.
@@krislic84 hey kris 👋! Trust me I’ll be real hesitant, especially about AA. I’ve tried it in the past and it never stuck for me, so I’m hoping something might change, but I will be careful!!! Much love and peace 🙏
would you help me create a channel? I’m sick of this shit I relapsed again too I have no clue what I’m gunna say infront of a camera thinking about it gives me anxiety… not wanting to make a channel for attention and clout… I genuinely have like no family or friends so I need to find a new community to be a part of bro
Hey Corey send me an email brother @slayersober7@gmail.com. I can help you make a channel if you want!! Also LD and Amanda along with some others made a discord. Amanda could you drop the link or the name for this brother? God bless man
@Slayer-7373 hey, slayer, there are a few things that came up with the discord that just need to be sorted out before we can get it up and running!! LD will Def make an announcement when we're ready to go!
18:22 for the crazy withdrawal experience.
Much love!
Something happened yesterday that shook me to my core. I went to a friend's house to drop off a present for his 1-year old girl. I haven't talked to any one in literally months so it was a surprise that I showed up and remembered her birthday. My friend wasn't home but I was warmly welcomed by his fiancée. We chatted for a bit and I saw how much his daughter had grown. Last time I saw her, she was an infant and now she's almost walking. After I dropped off the present, I went to my truck and started crying. It hit me just how much time had passed and how nice it was for another person to greet me with kindness. Something about that really stuck with me because I realized all I've ever wanted was love and acceptance. Alcohol and mental illness took that from me. But I vowed to take that back, no matter what the cost.
That’s so beautiful…the fact you realize it shows where you’re at in your journey. Life keeps on, addiction just keeps you in a jail cell. You got this. Thank you for sharing it shook me.
I am so sad about the feelings that drove up for you, but so happy for you that you were able to recognize that about yourself!! Sending you tons of love and wishes for only the best for you from NY. Congratulations on your sobriety, my friend! ❤🎉🎊🎉❤️
Alcohol takes your precious time on this earth away from you, it shortens your life.
Years and years…. Gone and wasted, I’ve had these thoughts recently too. As micru said that is beautiful that you saw that my friend. You clearly can see booze for what it is. I can tell you’re a really good person afterhours, like most of us you’ve battled this horrible disease and it changes us. Makes us miss out on moments that we can’t ever get back. Alcohol is a thief, it steals and steals.
Let’s take our lives back man, not let booze steal one more moment from us with our loved ones, or whatever it might be. God bless you brother, keep your head up. Got you in my thoughts man.
@Slayer-7373 Like that , THIEF!! ...and a thief that returns to the scene of the crime daily, and at every opportunity!!
Slayer, you're not chaos, you're helping so many people with your honest and awesome videos!
I hope so, that’s all I want is to help others with this chaotic disease. Thanks so much 🙏🖤
Good to see you Slayer, 2 thumbs up for a good weekly plan, and checking things off your list is spot on! Wishing you well 🙏
Thanks hunnie b :)!! 🙏
Cleaning my room and bathroom, and the Bible was huge for me when I first got sober. Day 1-4 it was all I did.
It’s been so important for me these last few weeks!!! It really does work! 🙏
God bless brother.
Slayerrrrr!!! Yes you better get it!!! I’m so proud of you. Music, 🏋️♀️, lmao jacked slayer can’t wait 😜, look you do everything and anything to stay sober. I feel finding spirituality and loving life is key. Going back to the basics. Slay slay you gotta want it and know that sobriety is the only way. Your life depends on it. 😢I know you know it already but you’re so worth it…we all are! I look at you and see so much life…so much beauty…you’ll see it too. I know you see glimpses of it. Just focus on one day at a time. You got this…much love 💕 Slayer.
Micru!!!! ✌️😎, yes jacked slayer 🤣 I’m excited too haha.
You’re always so right with your comments micru!!! I can always rely on you to not only give me truth but also to uplift me :)!! We are 100% worth it, every single one of us. We’ve got this!!! Much love back to you 🖤🙏!!
One day at a time.
@@Slayer-7373❤
Ohhh and let me add now that I saw the entire vid it went from day to night. I’m sure you didn’t intend for it to transition but it’s so beautiful. I feel peace and hope you and everyone else does too. ❤
:) I thought the transition was kind of cool too, gives the video a vibe kind of. Thank you 🖤
@@Slayer-7373 well look at you all fancy. I loved it…all of the beautiful things that are here for all of us (nature is 🆓).
@@Micru866 Transformation?? ...now for the better for Slayer and so many ✨️!!!
slayer im on my 18th day in a row being sober. finished september only drinking 2 days. i didnt think i could do this a year ago. i thought i was gonna die if i stopped. i dont think im going to quit forever but ive gone from drinking 4-8 beers a day for a year plus to only drinking six days within the last two months.
It’s a win!
Congratulations on 18 days, my friend!!! 🎉🎊🎉🎊 you've got this!! Keep fighting. I'll be wishing for only the best for you 😊❤
It’s like micru said Richard this is 100% a win!!! Don’t take any of that away from yourself brother. This is REAL progress!! You’re on the right path my friend and I can say I’m proud. Keep up the solid work 💪🙏
One day at a time.
@amandaflaherty7528 you SAID it m'lady, 💯 !!!
@Slayer-7373 And, so proud of you Slayer , my friend 🧡 !!!
Great video Slayer. Staying sober is really hard in the beginning but it gets much easier as time passes. I had to recognize why I was drinking (anxiety and social isolation) and then work on these aspects of my life. The thought of relapsing still scares the hell out of me, but my confidence in staying off the booze and dealing with life's challenges is much better now.
Hey thank you Paul 🙏! I definitely can relate to both the anxiety and isolation, both of these things I’m currently working on and probably will for some time. Learning how to deal with these situations in a clear, sober mind. Also relapse is starting to really scare me too man, it’s just so brutal!!! Absolute chaos!!!
Let’s keep pushing forward my friend, god bless.
Slayer 4th of July weekend was my last relapse I found myself in a hotel in a town that I never been to just in a really bad place mentally the shakes lasted a whole week. I went to detox, I was lost in there and I actually said to myself I’ll probably drink again I had no hope at all. Since detox I stopped drinking, selling my crap home and we’re in the process of buying a brand new beautiful home and things are going great. I’ve never been happier man, great things are coming our way because we choose to be sober. Praying for you bro take care.
This is absolutely beautiful brother, I’m proud of you for that decision and it’s awesome that your life is turning around. Let’s not look back bro, let’s keep on the path we are on. One day at a time.
God bless man and thank you. 🙏💯
Thank you for this video Slayer. It's good to hear you're doing so well. I wish you all the best. ❤
🙏thanks so much Debbie as always, god bless
So glad you went back to AA! And I'm glad you found a good meeting. I have been very lucky and I live in an area filled with very open minded and accepting meetings. I have been to meetings other places and immediately felt like, oh no! If this was my first experience I would not have come back. You really do have to try and find your tribe within the program. The group I've fallen in with has filled my life with such great fellowship. My heart is so full. My life is so full. And I'm just eternally grateful.
Glad you made it back! ❤ Sending you prayers and positive vibes on your recovery journey.
That’s really beautiful, I say that often in my channel that I think AA is an amazing thing for the community aspect and the tribe aspect. Of like minded people setting out on a journey together to better themselves, like you said a fellowship. I very much feel that fellowship in my IOP group that I attend. We are like a small family. That’s why I’m looking into different meetings because I want a fellowship to continue once I complete the program. That’s so awesome that you’ve found that peace and fellowship.
Much love, one day at a time. God bless 🙏
And thank you :)
Hey there friend, I love this update. You have been on my heart. XoXoX I live ticking those boxes off too ! It. Is 100% helpful when you approach it as goals ,look back later see where you changed & grew..I am so proud of you working past 3 weeks. You are still fighting and nownyou have more pple in your corner fighting w you❤ Thank you for being here. What a blessed outlet that does help others not just yourself🎉 Melissa XoXoX
Hey Melissa :) thank you so much!! It definitely helps checking them off. Makes you feel super good, also the thanks goes to y’all. This channel would be nothing without you guys coming and showing love and support. It means a lot!! It truly makes me happy to hear that it’s helping others, it 100% helps me and it makes me smile to know other people are benefiting.
Much love!! God bless 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373 R I G H T. THAT IS HOW GOD ROLLS.
@@Slayer-7373 God loves ❤ you so much.
@@Onelethalangel69 🙏🖤
This is all great advice, Slayer!! So happy to see you, my friend!! You look and sound like you're doing well. Much of everything you said is just good practice for mental health!! Im so glad that you're working so hard, and I'm certain that you're experiencing so many positive changes because of all of this. Sending you tons of love ❤️ 😊❤
:) 🖤 thanks as always Amanda, I hope you’re doing amazing.
Staind - It's Been A While. haha
[Verse 1]
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
[Chorus]
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
[Verse 2]
And it's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
[Chorus]
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again, again
[Bridge]
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
[Verse 3]
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
[Chorus]
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
[Outro]
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
I love that song!! Hope you’re well.
Lmao, ITS BEEN A WHILE! 🤣
3 weeks turn into 4 4 into 5 keep it up! Keep yourself busy talk to someone if you have stupid thoughts. Proud of you bro life’s a trip alcohol only makes the trip worse
Exactly, very well put my friend. 🙏
Good to see you man. One day at a time
Hey good to see you Jeff!! Hope you’re doing well brother. God bless 🙏
So happy to hear your doing well Slayer. It's been 3 weeks sober for me too. I'm still going to my meetings every Thursday and they're really helping. Keep strong brother, we can do this.
Congratulations on the 3 weeks bro!!!! 💪🙌 that is awesome! Keep hitting those meetings, we can most definitely do this. Just gotta take it one day at a time. God bless
Great job Slayer I'm very proud of you! 3 weeks is great it tells me that you can hold back those demons, keep kicking their asses brother. You looking much better, healthier and more happy more important I can see you have got your self-respect and motivation back compared to what alcohol does to you the difference is like night and day keep going. I was just checking out UA-cam this morning while drinking my coffee so I say your video I was wondering where you were I am very impressed man. Keep strong, Keep the faith, never quit it's worth it and if AA or any other tools available for us alcoholics works for you use it and keep using it brother. Have a great weekend be safe look forward not back enjoy each day that you win the battle against that booze brother, be proud of yourself, you deserve it. If it helps dive into your videos full force they do help others too thanks for the vid brother, God Bless
Well said..Amen 🙏 brother..
Very well said man, thank you brother. Let’s keep winning over this disease. You have a great weekend as well my friend!!
God bless 🙏
Slayer, good to see you brother!! Thanks for sharing your experiences with us! Congrats on 3 weeks of sobriety, I'm already 2 weeks sober after my recent slip up! No need to dwell on the past, just learn from your mistakes and keep moving forward. That's all any of us can do, man! Based on my experiences and what I've seen/heard from other people suffering from alcoholism, I must say that alcohol is the absolute worst! When you have heroin or meth addicts saying they feel sorry for alcoholics, you know alcoholism is a major problem. I don't wish this disease on ANYONE!!! Prayers to those out there still suffering and I hope that sobriety finds them soon! Take care and God bless, my friend! ❤
Hey David!! It’s good to see you as well my friend!! 2 weeks 💪💯 nice man that’s awesome. We gotta keep pushing forward, the past is the past. All we can change is the now!
Also yea man….. the more research I do, the more alcoholics I meet the more i agree that it is the worst. I’m sure some of that reason is because it’s so easy to purchase. I’ve said many times same as you that I wouldn’t wish alcoholism on my worst enemy!!!
Thanks for this great comment David! God bless
You've got a beautiful soul, there is so much ahead for you.
:) this is really awesome of you to say, thank you.
God bless 💯🙏
Slayer!! Awesome to hear from ya brother..Great, inspiring video..We're on this sober journey together..U got 3 weeks .I got 3 weeks exactly today...Let's keep pushin for life💯🙏..Shout out to the whole community..LD, Shades, shout out Sacred Serpent 🐍,OG BAT!!!(The Realest) .. Always putting God first..In Jesus name..
...Psalms 73:26
Thanks for the shout out, JCarm. I actually watched a new SS video the other day. He was tending to one of the herbs he grows.
@@ShadesOClarity No problem Shades..I really hope your channel becomes more recognized(It needs to, great information, videos, etc)..
@@JCarm-LK785 A few sober creators like Slayer and Anna Barram and L.D.'s channels are cooking with fire. My channel is more of a slow pressure-cooker. Hopefully, I can hit 1k by Dec. 31 - the year anniversary of my channel. It might happen, but I doubt it. I don't care. I'll just keep making content. My shorts tend to get more views that my videos for some reason. People's attention spans probably have something to do with it. I try to keep my videos under 10 minutes now. Thanks for commenting.
@@ShadesOClarity I hear ya man..Best of luck in all your endeavors brother..Big respect to your 3 months sobriety, take care!
@JCarm-LK785 Thanks!! Now I've heard of a couple more - - Serpent 🐍 for one ,and of course YOURSELF (I'LL check it out).
Like the psalm 73 ref. If memory serves, that's the psalmist who was ready to give up because it seemed only the wicked prospered, so he's like, what's the point??. Then something changed ....
COOL 😎!!!
Good to hear from you. You. Can. Do. This!!! Stay in the now, but don't forget this hell, but forgive yourself and carry on. Hugs.
🖤
Thanks Diane!! 🙏
Sounds like a nice structured life plan. Whatever it takes. Full speed ahead!
Yes! Thanks as always Ron’s mom :) 🙏🖤
You have a very comforting voice and are very relatable. As well as informative and knowledgeable. Have you ever considered doing storytelling videos or even videos about topics you're interested in? Podcasts and history/true crime/spooky story UA-camrs are what has kept me sober.
This is really sweet of you to say shayna thank you so much :) 🙏, I’ve never considered it but I definitely should!!! That’s a great idea 💡!
Have you ever watched JCS criminal psychology?? Or the channel explore with us?? Those videos are absolutely wild!!! I watch them to help me stay sober too. Watching those wild videos just make you want to be a better person lol.
Thanks again shayna 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373 I will definitely have to check those videos out. And I think it's an amazing idea for you!!
You’ll slay this. Stay strong you’re great 💪💪
@@j2626-u2g appreciate this, 🙏💪💯!!!!
God bless!! Thank you!
STAY STRONG! SLAYER STRONG. Lord have mercy on you.
🙏💪appreciate you my friend, thank you and god bless.
3 weeks! 🙌
😎🙌🖤
That was very inspiring. I might give AA a try. I'm very glad to hear you're making progress! Great things are in store for you. God's people are amazing. That's just the way it is.
Hey thanks image :)!! You should try AA, it’s worth a shot. Also amen to that 🙏 god bless
AA is definitely worth the shot. That program has saved my life. I couldn't stay sober for more than a week or two. My previous record was 77 days, and on Monday, I will be celebrating my 1 year sober anniversary. Go in with an open mind. Be willing to take suggestions. Be honest with yourself and others. The program works if you work it.
@@twosugarscream agreed twosugars!!! Congratulations on 1 year sober as well 🙌🙌 this is absolutely amazing. :)
Nice to hear your laugh. Well done on the three weeks. 👏👏👏❤
Thanks jean:) 🖤
We feel and look better when we're sober & we make better choices, life falls into place & things are easier when we remove the poison. Keep it up brotha!
Absolutely man, very well said. To better things my friend!! God bless bro, appreciate this comment. 🙏💯
Yo whats good slayer glad you're still sober. I ended september strong hit 4 days sober in a row for the first time in months. Been off to a bad start in October tho not really stressing too much about the relapses like I used to I know its a part of the process. Ive been reading too if youre looking for more books to read you should check out Outwitting the Devil by Nepoleon Hill
Hey!! Congratulations on your continued effort!!! You've most definitely got this. Just NEVER quit quitting!! I've of these times it WILL stick!! 🎊🎉🎊❤
That is absolutely bada%% my friend!!! That’s progress and that’s what matters. Who cares that it’s October 5th, it’s not too late to jump on the “sober October” train brother.
Also this is wild that you mention that book, I’ve heard amazing things about it. One of the podcasts I listen to about spirituality and just deep topics brought that book up. I’ll definitely need to give it a read now.
God bless bro 💯💯
So good to see you’re doing well Slay Slay🥹 and glad to hear you’re reading the Bible!
Please throw a prayer up for me and my family. I’m not gunna drink but I’m going through it right now 🥺🙏🏽
Thanks so much Shannon :)!! Prayers sent!!!! 🙏🖤 keep your head up.
@@Slayer-7373 thankkk yewww🙏🏽🫶
I'M So Proud Of You!!
@@rebeccaschanlaub2863 🙏thanks so much Rebecca :)
Proud of u this is dope. Keep going n keep sharing ur story please you’re not alone n people’s cheering on ur sobriety💜
Thanks so much Tiffany :)💯, I won’t be going anywhere trust me. Much love to you!!
SLAYERRRRR !!!!!
Craig!!!!! 💪😎
When in the AA rooms try and see what you have in common with people- NOT the differences 👍
Absolutely, well put. 💯
Slayer, I’m still struggling but I’m learning more and more that it’s crucial that we avoid drama situations in order to survive. By all means show love to your loved ones but be careful with strangers. We must learn to love and parent our own selves. I’m happy that you enjoy Bible Studies. I bought a KJBible and I have read it 3 and a half times. Just a few chapters every evening. I always loved Revelations. It’s interesting. I went to college and became an ordained minister but then I started questioning everything. I got lost. I’m still praying 🙏 but I’m not even sure what I believe anymore. You will have a Beautiful Life. Just know you deserve it.💞
You’re on the right path Cindy, you got the right mindset. We all fall and stumble sometimes, we are human beings. We can fall and stumble with our walk with god too, that’s normal. You will find your way again and I already feel like you are. You’re a warrior for coming and sharing with the community what’s happening and letting me know. Everyone is cheering you on, don’t give up.
Remember it’s one day at a time, god bless and much love. Keep me updated 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you Slayer. I’m in South Carolina and we’re still going through some serious aftermath from the hurricane here. Western North Carolina is much much worse. Please keep all of us in prayers. Basically that storm was happening when I relapsed last week. I’m surely not happy about it either. I’m just a straight up person and I’m very honest. Most people try to hide any mistakes. I’m past that. 😊 Thank you so Much for your honesty and kindness. We all love and respect you.🙏💞
This is a beautiful and very helpful video. I’m a revering alcoholic.
Hey thank you so much Ruth :), I’m glad that’s it’s helpful!
It’s 6 am. I just woke up from a nightmare. I dreamed that I got blackout drunk with an old friend. Omg what a mind fock. Happy to watch your video and come back to Earth. Alcohol is so bad, I’m still having traumatic nightmares about it after being sober ten months. Focking demon’s poison and nothing more.
@@SpiritualFlesh-x6x Me too !!! Do you think it's brain 🧠 damage?? I also have GREAT memorable dreams, but plenty of the BAD ...so vivid, can't explain, and sober for now over a year!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt I tend to think it relates to vitamin B deficiency. Especially B1. But I am also only 6 weeks clean of cannabis so my dopamine and other neurotransmitters are still funky.
The nightmares man yes they are absolutely awful, bizarre and usually frightening. Alcohol is an insane dr*g that needs to be looked into way more. We need to stop the adds and the normalization of one of the hardest drugs on earth!!!
God bless bro.
@SpiritualFlesh-x6x Cool bro, I don't do weed either, which makes me Abby-normal, ...anyway, yes, dopamine and other NTs are so powerful that I think they make almost indelible impressions (not straight memory,you understand), that we aren't close to understanding!!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt have you heard of hypnogogic jerks? I have been jerking awake a couple times every night. Hard to get to sleep. Then I wake up early after a weird dream or just naturally but Im having a really hard time sleeping more than 6 hours. Just gotta push through I guess. The body usually can normalize and find a balance again.
My friend, I admire your fight, yet I am concerned by your relapses and the severity of your ensuing withdrawal symptoms, as I believe as a fellow addict, that we only have a certain amount of relapses within us that we can survive. Stay safe, my brother, please.
Hey thank you brother!! 🙏🙏 also I 100% agree man. I think we do have a certain number of relapses and it’s definitely time for me to stop. I don’t know how many I have left in me but I haven’t given my body enough time. I really have to go a long period of time for some healing to happen.
Much love brotha, god bless
Thanks for the video 👏👍. Happy for your sobriety 😊. Keep going 🙏♥️👍🫂
Thank you Debra!!! 🙏🖤
I often find that self depreciation and negative thinking is one of the biggest things that leads to a relapse. Ive always struggled with that personality. I notice that you seem to struggle with this as well. One of the hardest things is to learn to love and accept yourself. Binge drinking is a form of self harm, and self harm comes from low self esteem and hatred of one self. If you can learn to respect yourself then you can eventually have better self control. One of my favorite robbin williams stand up bits that describes what im saying was "Poooor me........pooooooor me........pour me.
....another drink". Also good job at getting back on your feet you only truly lose if you give up, which i can see you haven't done 🤘🤟
@@adriangronewold7433 you are 100% right Adrian and I’ve definitely been working on it. It’s something I struggle with. These things take a lot of time and work and they can be very painful because you are forced to look into your dark side and deal with it without the booze, but it’s doable and totally worth it.
Also I heard delirium Dirk say that quote!!! I didn’t know it was from robin williams! I’ve said that a few times to people haha, wow what a trip.
Anyways thanks brother, hope you’re well. One day at a time 🙏💯
Look at you! Your young your a good looking and articulate young man.
When I found out how much damage I had done, I imagined telling my son who is actually older than you Slayer, and then him having to tell his two little girls. Your Grandmother "chose" to drink despite being an intelligent woman. That felt terrible to imagine.
So yes, you do it to yourself, so undo it if you can before it's too late.
You can do it you have everything to know you shouldn't and a whole life ahead of you. Janet 🇬🇧 x
This is really awesome of to say Janet, thank you so much. I’m sorry for your pain you had to go through, trust me I understand 🙏🖤.
Looking Good Young Man Keepa Go!!
Hey thanks Richard! 🙏
Hope u have a wonderful week ahead! 😊 Be happy! ❤💜
You as well Debbie!!
Looking good! 🎉 yay!!!
Thank you!!! 🙏🖤
i love u slayer, sometimes its hard
to express our emos
Love you too brother, it is some times man it really is.
I was on a ~3 week dry spell around the time you relapsed. I had zero cravings but winded up caving some days later. I've contained it to weekends since but things are starting to get messy and I'm fucking up even though nobody has said anything yet. I don't even feel good right now, just that dull 'numb' feeling you get when no matter how much you drink, you wont feel good kicks in.
I know that feeling Yates all too well brother, I’m sorry man that you’re going through this. 3 weeks is awesome man, that shows you can do it. If you couldn’t you wouldn’t even be able to make it 2 days. Don’t beat yourself up, it happens. You can see it for what it is and that right off the bat is a good sign. When you’re ready hop back on the wagon my friend, do whatever it takes. If that means a detox trip to be safe I’d definitely recommend it. You will get back to where you want to be brother, thank you for being honest and coming back.
God bless bro, keep me updated 🙏 be safe!
Wow I didn’t know your hospital situation was a month ago? Is that right
Good work on your sobriety
Also, I’m totally here for the rambles
@@stephanielake8169 yes over a month ago now :)!! Thanks Stephanie
Sorry for being who I am.. Take care. Thank you for being here.
Don’t apologize for being YOU Debbie!!
Slayer, I had an uncle who died from an alcohol induced heart attack. He was found alone in his apartment a day or so later. So, so sad.....
That is horrible Rita 😟, unfortunately it’s more common than people realize….. r.I.p to your uncle. 🙏
What's up, man? Cool on the three weeks. Hang in there. One of my first real girlfriends a long time ago had an alcoholic mother. We would stop at the ABC store (N.C.'s liquor stores) and pick up handles of vodka here and there and I never thought about her drinking. It was ten years before I ended up in the same boat. The girl called me out of the blue right when the 2000s began and said they found her mother deceased in her home. My ex moved to Greensboro for college and didn't see her for years. Her mother had bad agoraphobia and would only go to the grocery store. Apparently, she may have died from a heart attack from delirium tremens, I was told. It was sad for the both of us.
Hey shades! What’s up brother?? Thank you man.
Also that is horrible bro, but doesn’t surprise me. That’s the nature of this disease when it fully takes over. DT’s are so dangerous, like DD use to say they take out most people. R.I.P to that lady.
Hope you’re well my friend! One day at a time. 💯🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I am doing well. Heading toward four months. Hope you are well.
@@ShadesOClarity that’s epic man!! I’m pretty good man, any day away from that poison is a good day.
@@Slayer-7373 You got that right. I dig you are going to start uploading more. I really like your videos.
@@ShadesOClarity appreciate you man!! You deserve more subs!!
Proud of you slay!!! 🖤🖤🖤
Thank you!!! :)🖤🖤, how are you??
@@Slayer-7373thank you for asking Slay🖤 I’m so late responding, but I’m not doing too good! I can’t stop relapsing after I was 6-7 months clean. I’ll get it together soon though. Thank you for all you do for the sober communit…you give me hope🖤
@@natsnikkii awe I’m so sorry to hear that :(, I understand how that goes. It’s like opening up a doorway when we relapse. You will definitely get back on track, no doubt in my mind. If you ever need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to reach out please!!! Feel free to send me a message on instagram or send me an email!!! We are here for one another. Keep your head up, much love 🙏🖤. Keep me updated
Hi Slayer. Completed my IOP last Wed. You just spoke to me right now. First week of making a list and I did it! Feels incredible. Gonna use your suggestion on reading the Bible. You look great. 140 daze junk free 😂
1st time commenting been watching you a long side LD. I have liver disease. ⚘️
Hey karlee ✌️! Congratulations on completing IOP!!!! That is awesome!!!! 🙌 the list is so helpful, I didn’t realize how much it would come into use. Also that is really cool to hear about the Bible :). Thanks so much!!! Let’s keep doing this sobriety thing!
Also LD is awesome, I’m glad you’re here on the journey with us. God bless 🙏
Good work brother
Hey thanks man. 🙏🙏
Slayer
“It’s been a while”
Song 😊
Yes Kristen 🤣
@@Slayer-7373 love
I was hoping for that Lids video 😆
The catholic church has the scripture organized daily for each mass and it takes about about two years reading the daily scriptures to read the whole bible. You could google that if it interests you.
If you don't add something to your schedule, its not likely to get done. So I'm happy to hear you're doing this :)
Hey don’t worry!! I’ll show y’all the lids video ;) 😂.
Also that’s pretty cool, I’ll check it out thanks.
And definitely!! The schedule planner has been super helpful. Much love and thank you!!! ER 😆🖤🙏
@@Slayer-7373 it doesn't have to be the footage you already have since it seems you didn't buy anything because the store wasn't any good. But a vlog of you buying a cap or checking some out would be nice.
I hope you are able to achieve everything you yearn and mention in the later part of this video 🙏🏻 I'll send you an email with a couple of thoughts about this.
Hey!
You there...rolling along and something grabbed your attention n the next thing you knew it watched this entire video n related!
Hi! How are you?
Welcome to #TeamSlayer aka
#TeamRecovery hahahah I just make stuff up as I go along!
Stay safe!
Stay sober!
Stay slayable!
#slaythataddiction🎉❤Melissa
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Can't become a master without failing a couple of times, you won't learn anything unless you know how to NOT. Best wishes ❤
Exactly, I love this.
Best wishes right back to you ILAA, hope you’re doing well. Much love 🙏
well hello again, im on a bender at the minute but doing well, also just waneted to say hi t everyone
Hey trippy 👋, you will pull through this man I know you will. Do whatever it takes brother and keep me updated!! 🙏
So proud of you my friend. I love your schedule Idea. Keep your room clean. I need that one too. OH bless you, helping your Mom. You're funny. man -- the crap stores at the mall LOL -- Your Natural state longs to express itself. I will say that again. Slayer's natural State longs to express itself. So proud of you & your family in counseling. **Glad to hear you are going to try AA again. Don't be checking out the Chicks there // LOL. ( Laughing ) A counselor told me once " you don't want a partner from AA because then you are 2 sick people in a relationship " . Remember I told you we will choose drinkers or addicts because of our histories? And they will choose us? ** We have to have awareness about that .. Like If I want to date someone -- I go into a room of 100 good men, I will choose the 1 drinker without knowing it. THAT's sick right?
Thanks for the awesome words as always Judith :) 🙏🖤
Also I will try my best 🤣, trust me I’m the same way as you Judith. I’m naturally attracted to other addicts too because they can understand us and we can understand them, but it’s like you said it can be really dangerous when you have two “sick” people together. It could end it total disaster, but yea I’m definitely drawn towards others who struggle with this because we are so hard to understand. This disease is so hard to understand.
Anyways, thank you and god bless 🙏🖤
Slayer, i love that you have found god.
@@rebeccaschanlaub2863 amen, me too Rebecca me too. 🙏god bless
Slayer.....well said. Its not rambling.
Hey thank you cyn :), I’m glad someone doesn’t think I’m rambling!! Haha.
Much love.
Speaking of books, you should check out A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose. It's by Eckhart Tolle. He helped me a ton in life. You should check him or the book out! He does the audio for the audio book also. He has a calming voice. AND you should listen to Coming Back to Life by Pink Floyd. I like to pretend its about sobriety and finding your true sober self. Great lyrics and sounds beautiful. One of my favorite songs of all time.
Dude eckhart tolle is awesome!!! I’ll definitely check that out!!!
Also I love Pink Floyd just as much lol, surprised I’ve never heard of this song? Excited to give it a listen. Glad to see you have good taste not only in books but music as well 😎💯🙏
@@Slayer-7373 hell yeah dude
how do you find the meetings with your folks?
Hey trippy 👋 what’s up brother! What I do is just google meetings near me and a whole list of meetings and times pop up. I’d try to do the same and see if there are any meetings in your area! God bless bro
@@Slayer-7373 thanks, ye theres a meeting like 15 minute walk from where i live, i live in the city
Sobriety isn’t the goal. It’s much deeper than that. It’s finding a peace that has nothing to do with self determination and depending only on Jesus. I haven’t figured it out but I know that’s the answer
@@bryanthomas6063 you will figure it out brother, I definitely agree that sobriety is way deeper than just a goal. It’s honestly hard to put into words but we both know what we are talking about. Both of us will get it my friend, one day at a time. One minute at a time if that’s what it takes.
I'm not me anymore. Happiness to everyone!! 😊☺😍
What’s going on Debbie?
I’m glad you’re on the road to sobriety again. You say you’re “extremely busy,” but what does that mean? You mention many things, but they seem supportive at best. What will truly enable your sobriety is work, which you only mention briefly. I don’t know what you actually do, but I want to know: what, when, and how. Real work and hard manual labor will solve your problem. Your days should be filled with work and recovery only, leaving no time to overthink. It’s time to get serious about this. Who do you think pays for your hospital visits? We do. In my country, what you have is considered a luxury problem. It’s a cycle of alcohol, hangover, missed work, job loss, no money, ending up on the streets, and eventually dying. Nobody pays your hospital bills. If you continue to fail, I won’t support you anymore because it’s unfair to those who can’t afford it and sets a bad example. Good luck, bro. Do it.
Like you said brother, it’s time to do it!! 🙏
Im still interested in trying some psychedelics
That is a personal choose my friend, If you do just be safe and do what you’re suppose to do.
God bless bro 🙏 thanks for being part of this community man!
@@Slayer-7373 could you still do a video talking about your psychedelic experiences
How hard would you say quitting alcohol is?
It really depends on you, but for most people it’s not easy. Some just say one day that they are done and never look back, but for most of us it’s one of the hardest things we will ever have to do in our lives!
God bless you my friend! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I guess I'm asking what are the withdrawals like? I've been drinking over 20 years
@@UnseemlyGenie00 how much do you usually drink my friend?
@@Slayer-7373 like most my alcohol consumption increased over the years. I'm up to 1-2 pints of vodka a day. I'm ashamed and embarrassed. I did quit the green 5 days ago and got cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome. Puked all day on day 2, day 3 and 4 still nauseous but no puking. Still going through it. Didn't sleep at all on day 2. Just wondering if quitting all these substances at one time is a good idea. I don't have health insurance and can almost guarantee I'll get delirium tremors when I quit. I'm interested in what withdrawal is like and how you overcome it. Anyways thanks for replying you're awesome don't forget
Taco Bell 🌮 police and ambulance lol can’t wait. A good chalupa let’s get it slay!
It’s a WILD story micru lol
Heyo it's Jeremy 😉
Yoooo!!! What’s up!!! Lol now you can see how crazy I am lmao.
_Good to see, my man. Have you tried eating salads?_ ;-)
Salads haha, the cure 😂
I think you should change your profile pic slayer, idk who the chick is in the photo but if it’s a girl from the past , I don’t like how when u go on UA-cam maybe not you but maybe your subconscious gets triggered to your old habits , why always have that reminder every day , take a new pic when u ready of the new you and detach from the chaotic you , you’re a new person now
Hey Alex 👋 it’s interesting that you bring this up because I’ve been thinking about changing my profile pic and I might. The pic has my friend in it, but still it does betray the old me. I’m mixed to be honest because part of me likes seeing it because it reminds me of who I don’t want to be, but at the same time like you said I’m trying to let that old way of myself go. I’ll definitely have to think about it, I love that you brought this up.
God bless bro 🙏
You hit rock bottom when you stop digging
Great way of putting it my friend. 🙏
Hii :)
@@stephanielake8169 hey Stephanie!!! :)
Just be careful about religion in recovery. I did all of these same things you did for years, and ultimately it didn't stick. I came from a family that had religion already too. AA never worked for me. It's not for everyone.
@@krislic84 hey kris 👋! Trust me I’ll be real hesitant, especially about AA. I’ve tried it in the past and it never stuck for me, so I’m hoping something might change, but I will be careful!!! Much love and peace 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 You too! Thanks for the videos.
would you help me create a channel? I’m sick of this shit I relapsed again too I have no clue what I’m gunna say infront of a camera thinking about it gives me anxiety… not wanting to make a channel for attention and clout… I genuinely have like no family or friends so I need to find a new community to be a part of bro
Never forget that you can reach out here, too, Corey! If you want support, then you have friends here who are wishing for only the best for you. 😊❤😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 is there like a discord lol maybe I don’t need to make a channel
Hey Corey send me an email brother @slayersober7@gmail.com. I can help you make a channel if you want!! Also LD and Amanda along with some others made a discord. Amanda could you drop the link or the name for this brother?
God bless man
@Slayer-7373 hey, slayer, there are a few things that came up with the discord that just need to be sorted out before we can get it up and running!! LD will Def make an announcement when we're ready to go!
@@amandaflaherty7528 oh I gotcha Amanda!!! Thank you!!
Stay strong brother. What is your email?
🙏💪, slayersober7@gmail.com