Perks of going to the Psych Ward
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00:00 a story I rarely tell
02:26 my first admission
03:39 a troubled history
07:45 the other people there
10:02 what happens after?
12:22 my 2019 admission
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When Illy said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know" I actually burst into tears, I really needed to hear that.
Same, I never knew I needed to hear that till now
bro same I cant-
ONG.
We cry together? 😢
Same, it often feels like nobody really cares and like I'm all alone in the universe, but hearing things like this helps. Hope you're doing alright.
"Half of us are gay, Susan!" 😂 I loved that comeback.
i maen now yeah in this time half of us are gay
No kidding, I've been on child's psychiatric wards as a med student and it's weird for the kids there to _not_ be queer or on the spectrum lol
I'm mentally insane but never went to a physc ward, but im aromantic. people still do call me gay @@Pudu2909
Actually in anonymous surveys only between 1.5% and 3% of people admit to being gay...
why are those people ALWAYS named Susan tho???!
I lost my little sister in 2020. She was one of the few members in our family that we didn't think we needed to check in on. The "People will notice. People will miss you." line is so, so real
Sorry for your Sister, hope you ok❤❤❤!!!👌👌👌👌👌
I’m so sorry for your lose. I lost a family member not too long ago and I know what it’s like. Hope your doing ok! ❤❤
I’m so sorry that happened to you. COVID hit us hard, but depression and anxiety hit even harder,
Diagnosed or not, it’s important to talk to everyone, even if they seem okay.
@@pinewooxdude, what the fuck?!
i was sent to a mental hospital, and all of the patients were really nice. The nurses, however, clearly viewed us as sick and hardly even people. I wasnt clearly struggling, and one of the nurses looked at me and said 'it must be hard to be surrounded by all this sickness.' When I was interviewing for partial the lady who was interviewing me treated me like a child. People really dont understand that a lot of the times its not the patients who are the scariest part about psych wards.
definitely. I think I'm lucky to not have had a completely terrible experience. but it wasn't easy and I have a lot of mixed feeling about it to this day. trauma, but also feeling like its what I needed. and 100%- the other patients were I think what helped me the most
“it must be hard surrounded by all this sickness.” That statement will cause me to hunt whoever said it almost immediately which is not a good thing one because of the place I would be in like a metal hospital, two will give the staff justification to not view or treat me as human I identify as part wolf so people would probably already view me as subhuman hehe. I’m glad you had a good experience.
@BenthewildchildE750 haha what the fuck
@@helixxia9320 I can see why you have that reaction
@@helixxia9320 I miss spoke maybe not hurt but definitely hurt with words. I know still a bad reaction.
This may have been one of your best and most important videos. You’re an incredible person, Illy. ❤
ya
You don’t get to explain 😤
Hello rebecca
I agree, Becca. It must not have been easy for her to talk about this topic, and yet she did. I bet it was a huge weight off her chest, and as a fan, I'm really happy and proud of her. :)
Yea
“Seeking help doesn’t make you a burden, it doesn’t make you a attention seeker your not being dramatic or over sensitive what your feeling is real its sad and its scary” Really made me burst into tears
You and me both man. You and me both.
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another way to think about it, seeking help when you need it is making other people money so that they can survive
me too 😭
@@very_small_cat Hello.
My great grandmother had schizophrenia and she spent her life in and out of hospitals. She had horrible treatment, and our family believes my great aunt was fathered not by my great-grandfather, but a worker at one of the hospitals. She was a wonderful woman according to my mum, not violent just troubled. She just heard voices, she loved her family. She passed when I was a baby, but I’ve been told her funny stories my whole life. I’m proud to be her relative, what a strong woman she was and how the cards she was dealt were so cruel.
She spent her last 10 years of life hospital free, comfortable and surrounded by family.
I’ve been quite depressed lately, and I remind myself of how my family has fought through mental health again and again. She found happiness, and so can I. No shame in being admitted, but I know there’s strength within me.
This made me cry, I'm glad you found hope in her story and her relation to you 🧡
As a person with a mild type of schitzophrenia im glad she had her last years in comfort and love. your family sounds so kind and warm❤️
Keep like this :)
As a survivor of attempted suicide, I can really relate. I’ve stugged with depression since I was ten and suicide since eleven. Always know that people do care, and don’t be afraid to call 988 (aka the mental health line) and talk to a professional about anything you need. There are always people that love you. Stay strong♥️
Are you okay?
@@Daffodil-xw7nfEh. Meds and friends get me through the day so yeah
Ok 👍
As someone who's gone through all depression stages, call 988 if you're in crisis. I just 😢 still struggle but I'm better. In the past I had to go to er after attempted suicide
When the number is blocked like everything on your phone 😁
I almost cried when you said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know." I needed to hear that!
Thank you for helping to destigmatize mental health hospitals, and for having the strength to tell your story! You seem like an amazing person! ❤️
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Same, but I actually did start crying.
@@runningtoastgirl7766 me too
Same
I almost cried too
As someone who’s also been admitted several times, it’s very comforting in a strange way to know that I am not alone and that one of my favorite UA-camrs has a similar experience to me. I know this must be extremely difficult to talk about, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing and making so many people feel less alone. This feels very de-stigmatizing and again, (I know I sound like a broken record,) thank you, you amazing person!
Bruhhhh ^^.
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I’ve also been admitted a couple of times and it’s nice that it’s talked about in a better way now :)
Like all of your videos, you did not have to share this. The fact you did is incredible.
I am glad you are still here, and wish you all the best no matter where your life takes you Illy.
I was put into one because I was having a panic attack at school and some stupid day one police officer called a ambulance and I was put in my opinion unrighteously and it was horrible I peed on a man but as of now I’m so happy and much better I was supposedly need it too stay for a month but my father was so stressed out he had a seizure and I left along with him
I love watching Kallmekris’s videos of going into “haunted buildings” like the old asylums because she always shows so much respect and compassion for the people who were taken there.
Sameee
Kris is an amazing person. She's a great role model!
Remember tho, it’s only been around 13 years or so that many pscychiatric hospitals stopped treating patients like animals. Around the 80’s - 90’s In Brazil for example, a man called Austregésilo Carrano Bueno was locked up in a psych ward by his parents for smoking weed and was abused by the staff. He went through shock therapy, he was not allowed to visit his family, he was beaten, thrown in the solitary on many occasions, given medicine he was not prescribed for etc. This is an actual event that happened to an actual human being less than 50 years ago. His story was documented in a movie called “Bicho de 7 Cabeças” so if anyone wants to learn more, that’s a nice way to go. He also published a book called “Canto dos Malditos”, so that’s also a really good way to learn more abt his case.
as someone who ended up in the psych ward after a seriously damaging suicide attempt, I thank you, illy. keep spreading your kindness.
edit: thank you all for your concern, i'm doing much better now! remember that you are loved. ❤
Are you ok?
Are you doing better?
How are you doing now?
@@dogeclanleader1NAH ☠️
Yo how'd u do it??
Hey Illy! I’m currently 12 and have been admitted to a mental hospital twice. It really has been damaging to tell people but this video really made me realize that needing help isn’t something to be ashamed of. Thank you so much for this video. I really needed it.❤
i hope youre doing a bit better now !
hope you are doing ok!
I hope you’re doing well
I hope the leaves crunch just right and the netflix logo hits the precise corner of the screen for you
Why?
This is an INCREDIBLE video. I went to a pediatric psych hospital after a s*icide attempt in 2008, and I still remember it fondly. Thank you for spreading this word.
My first intake, the nurse kept demanding to know why I was crying the whole time and wouldn't accept "I'm scared" as an answer. Ducking Susan.
“Susan?”
“Susan.”
@@juiciestlemonadeofyoutube ugh, susan.
Using an anonymous account because I don't usually comment, but I just wanted to say thank you. As a 15 year old that has been contemplating suicide for the last year or so, hearing that "people will miss you" made me realize that there is people I have in my life to live for. I've been afraid of telling a therapist or my parents about being suicidal, because I was afraid of being admitted to a psych ward, but after seeing this I might decide to be a little more open with them. Thank you so much
Yes get help if you need it!!! There is always at least one person who will be willing to listen and maybe even help you get help
I know it is difficult, but please get help if you can! Sending lots of love to you 💖
yes i’m 100% sure you have people to live for! like the other comments said, it’s really important to get help, i hope everything goes well for you 💕
In my experience by far the worst part of psych wards (I’ve been in 6 times) is the mind numbing boredom, bring books and/or coloring books
dont tell ur parents or a therapist, thats one of the dumbest things u could do. u dont want to talk to ppl who dont understand and also you'd just be reaffirming stigmas that all young ppl are mentally ill. plus, therapy is way too expensive
“seeking help doesn’t make you a burden, it doesn’t make you an attention seeker. You are not being overdramatic or too sensitive”
thank you, thank you, thank you. Cried through the second half of the video, currently still crying. Thank you
😢 so sorry for you
same
DEEZ NUTZ
@@thanos7338 leave
@@thanos7338 cringe
Yeah but also the truama hmm let me list a few of my experiences :D
* Restraints for no good reason
* Booty juice
* The screams
* Not being allowed to speak
* Told I’m faking for attention
* Talking shit about me with other staff IN FRONT OF ME
* Watching fights
* All the codes
* People sharing their trauma giving me anxiety and fears
* Being put on 1 to 1 for no reason
* Locked in the padded room for a seizure attack
* Almost being attacked many times
* Leaving me on the floor alone during seizure’s thinking i want attention
* Watching someone attempt and staff had to perform life saving measures as paramedics ran in and we were shoved into another room
* Stripped and searched on the weekly and just randomly
* Alarm sounds and staff running ro other units not saying what was going on - almost daily
*
Skyland
* Not allowed to ho to therapy, locked in my room
* Stripped and patted down
* Being refused medical care
Anchor
* Being dragged across the floor
* Physically attacked
* Verbally abused by staff
* Told i was faking
* Far to small food rations
* Denied to use the bathroom
* Rats and shit everywhere
* Watching kids punch through a wall to escape
* Staff Giving wrong dosing of my meds and sometimes refusing to give me them all together
Rose Crance - best of them all but shitty still
* left alone on the floor during seizures
* Being SA’d and everyone thinks I lied
* Refused medical care
* Told i was faking
* Watching bad fights
* Being forced to say chants before doing anything
* Forced to shower in front of staff (they would stare at me)
General ER
* being ignored
* Waiting for hours
* Denied anything to do
* Doing nothing while i screamed and cried in the corner
* Not listening at all
I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression and as a result I have been to the psych ward a couple of times. It was tough being away from the people I loved and in the end I became stronger than I was at the start of my sojourn in the psych ward. I just wanted to give my thanks to Illy for shining some light to people who only think of psych wards in the context of horror movies. Thank you for being such an incredible person Illy
"if i wasnt clinically troubled before i definitely was now" i feel that. i went to a GOOD hospital and i still came out more traumatized than before.
people who liked this are you ok. do you need to talk. do you want a hug or a fist bump or something
I’m so glad I came across this video! I have been struggling for a long time as well with mental health and I recently finished a PHP (partial hospitalization program) and IOP (intensive outpatient program) and it was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself. These mental health programs and facilities are truly life-saving and so misunderstood. Seeing positive media makes it a lot easier for break down the stigma around mental health and taking care of yourself. Much love everyone and I hope this video helped you as much as it helped me. It’s nice to know you aren’t alone. 🫶🏻
me too. best in my area.
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@@cityfey No, we liked your Comment cause it was funny.
As a nurse that works mainly in the adolescent unit of a psychiatric hospital, I am really glad that a video like this exists. So many of the kids that come in could definitely benefit by seeing and hearing other's stories and seeing that they're not alone in their experiences.
if they have TV time maybe this would be good for them!
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FRIENDS AMEN 😇🦋😇
I have a question. I'm a teen and was thinking of becoming a nurse there. Idk if this is rude but do you get payed well? Do you enjoy your job? Have you ever been "unsuccessful" ?
I went once, and I spent the entire time scared and confused. I didn't get any treatment because I didn't understand how "locking me up" was supposed to help me. I then decided to never express any suicidal ideations from then on.
In my experience, hearing other people who is in a similar situation as one self, is the best part of therapy.
I love how you’re so open about this. Once I rewatch this video you have almost everywhere I am crying. I love Bluey and I love people who are open to talking about things when I am just a little insecure about that. Thank you, Ilyssa.
As a 24 year old who spent most of my teenage years in the psych hospital and going through residential stays as well. I don't even have to watch further than the intro because that was absolutely accurate. We were ruthless to some of the staff.
I hate them being called insane asylums. It makes them seem scary and a horrible place. I had to spend quite a bit of time in a mental health hospital and for the first few weeks, I was terrified because I kept thinking to myself "everyone here is crazy and could lash out at any moment". In reality, they are just like regular hospitals but for people with some issues. No psychopathic cannibals strapped to chairs or screaming people ripping themselves apart. Just a place to help people get better
Tell that to the people who got into a fight there every other day. I've watched way to many feral teenagers get there pants oull down and shot in the ass with a syringe to beleive this. The name is warrented
@@brix-rb9dg yes, people with major issues do go there, but the name makes it seem like the people that go there are crazy. I went there stressing that maybe I was insane which makes you worse. But most of the people I ended up meeting were at least nice. The hospital I was at wasn't exactly as nice in the video as we were separated a lot more, but it's not as scary as the word asylum suggests
tbh, some have pretty nice things. Heard they have rooms that have powerful lamps. People with severe winterdepression can sit there for a short while and it is like having an instant summer :) Some have nice gardens or activities.
Though they are less nice than that retirement home with hot tubs or residential kittens.
@@MissMoontree the one I went to wasn't as nice because it was basically a few repurposed hospital rooms
@@bopply2616 Actually, the word "asylum" originally means essentially a place to find peace and safety. People fleeing from a country can seek asylum in a safer place, for instance. It's a bit of a shame that it's taken on a less friendly connotation lately. I wonder if Batman (and the whole Arkham asylum thing) is partially to blame? Cause really, it should be such a nice term. I mean minus the "insane" part anyways, that's not helping anyone :/
I'm a 51-year-old man who struggles with depression and mental health. Your message of "people care about you" brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for this.
Sending you lots of hugs and bugs
❤🖤💚🧡💛💙🐛🦋🐜🐝🐞🦗🕷
you got this💕💕💕😊
We love you homie stay strong ❤❤❤
We care about you homie, you got this. Stay strong ♥️
Cry about it grandpa 🤡🤡🤡🤡
i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder- and i had a severe manic episode which risked my life- i didnt realize the problems and my parents sent me there -- im glad people are talking about these things so others can feel comfortable with their experiences
I can’t say I’ve been trough half of what you have but hearing you talk about how people cared when you where gone made my day and made me smile. Keep up the good videos and I can’t wait for the next one
I'm a counseling intern at a psych hospital. Genuinely thank you for trying to break the stigma. More people need to be like you. This was extremely brave. Another banger as always.
Hey sorry if this is weird, but can I ask what degree you got to intern at a psych hospital? I’m only in my first year of a Bachelors of Arts psych study, but I feel like I don’t have much direction rn
@sopgiav yeah no problem! I'm in my first intern class for my masters in counseling degree. I got my bachelors in psychology as well so thats a good path to the clinical route if that's what you wanna do. Still got a year until I get my license and degree though.
are you a mariah or a susan
Get fired
Hoo boy, nearly 40 year old here who was admitted to the psych ward at 17 and 23. Man, this is relatable! Dealt with a ton of depression and anxiety stuff that sent me to very bad places, and both times really helped me get back on track. And people will notice that you’re gone. No one is an island. This society is just geared to make it feel that way.
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Wah! 😲 Wow you’re right! But it’s in a good way. Got to say that, in the early-mid 2000’s the fear of what people thought about mental health issues was like a storm cloud hovering over you. So glad that people are more honest with themselves!
Idc how long ago this video was, this made me cry. Thank you for explaining and helping sm people by talking abt your story and experience :)
When Illy said, “ People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know” I Brust out laughing bc I didn’t believe her, then I realized how much I needed to hear that, and cried with all the tears I had. You really are an amazing person you deserve the best, Illy ❤️
Bro i did the exact same thing
right hearing your important or pretty and stuff makes me laugh
Me too... I just cried instantly.
Nice content
500th like! ^^
I work with vulnerable teenagers and I will try to share this video around to those who can benefit from it. I went to a clinic myself in 2019 it was more of a personality disorder treatment of 9 months but I understand the shame. The whole "People will miss you when you're gone" part really hit me. Thank you for this video.
so did you go to residential? and for a pd? that's something i've been told could happen with me, was it helpful? only answer if you're comfortable of course
@@lemocide well I'm from the Netherlands so I'm not sure what residential means. I took a train there on sunday and stayed till Thursday, 4pm. And that for 9 months. It was more like fulltime group therapy with a lot of rules. It helped a lot! Unfortunately they had to close the whole place down after being a psych place since the early 1900's very sad. Mental health care funding has been declining for years now :(
I feel the emotions you placed in this video, I'm glad you're doing better in a world filled with broken souls. Great video illy, glad you're back on my recommended. Haven't seen you since sophmore year of highschool.
Speaking as someone from Bangladesh, a third world country, this is something we so desperately need. But we're stuck in the (in the American context) 1950s when in comes to mental healthcare. Just knowing that this type of acceptance exists somewhere on this planet is immensely helpful. Sending this to all my depressed friends. ♥️
yeah, some as a middle eastern. mental health in asia has a loooong way to go
im bangladeshi :)
haha im from south asia as well, mental healthcare is so very underdeveloped
I hope your country can get good mental Healthcare in the near future, the one thing everyone should be able to get is adequate and accessible mental Healthcare without persecution or judgment. My country still has so far to go in getting great mental Healthcare, but I bet most people here would come to appreciate how incredible our system is compared to the developing world
Same here in Algeria (North africa)
From what I've heard about my cousin, who became depressed and even wandered on the streets for months before his family put him in a psychward, most stories about psychwards are horror stories that people use to gaslight you into thinking that "no" you don't need help.
They also often bring faith and laziness into the mix??? Like how do you link me suspecting I have ADHD and depression with my relationship with faith and Allah? WTF.
Like the stigma around it made it so hard. My mom doesn't believe what I'm going through is real and the fact that I need a psychiatrist not a psychologist (the one I went to were terrible).
Like I went to a psychiatrist once and my mom refused to take me back for the second session where we were supposed to assess things.
Anyway, I hope y'all survive what you're going through.
I went to a psych ward and it was upsetting but it wasn’t an awful experience. It’s nothing like the movies or video games. I just read books, colored and talked to people. I was scared that my fiancé wouldn’t stay with me because who wants a crazy girl but he didn’t care! We really need to destroy the idea that psych wards and patients are dangerous monsters.
A partner that stays by your side during those trying times, thats how you know you've made a good choice. Your partner is a keeper for sure!
My best friend is also struggling with mental health. I want to say that I appreciate you making this video. Not just for speaking up for those needing help, but your description is also reassuring for those like me on the outside.
I remember watching this video the day it came out and I was actually aware of how mental hospitals were very different from how they are portrayed through media beforehand but this video reinforced the good things I knew about them. Especially now after I had to be admitted into a mental hospital of my own and despite me knowing all the "horror" stories and assumptions were not true it didn't make it any less nerve racking but watching this video again, now that I'm discharged, just gives me a big sense of comfort. Thank you Illy! ❤
Literally crying because I was just in the situation where I was terrified to be admitted into the pych ward. I was and still am in the lowest point in my life and my parents thought it would be best to be evaluated. It's a difficult thing to admit, that you need help but it's better to get the help than for it to be too late
I’ve always been terrified of being admitted, but this video made it seem a lot less scary :) ❤
Best wishes for you. I hope your life gets happier soon.
It will be okay either way. I've been admitted and the very beginning is always the scariest. Some people might be jerks, but you just understand each other, and it feels nice. Same thing with the staff. There are the most amazing nurses along with the not so great ones. A big part of my recovery is finding the red balloons. All the depression and anxiety and other trauma is yoir white elephant, and everyone's gonna tell you to not focus on it. But it's alot easier to find a red Ballon to focus on instead.
You are not alone
I work as a mental health tech and stribe to be a “Maria” every single day. It makes me so happy when adults who were once admitted recognize the distinction between the Susan’s and are thankful for the work we do. It’s definitely an “underpaid” position, but it’s the most gratifying and fulfilling job I have ever worked. I was admitted and I have struggled with depression since I was 17, and being able to give back to the community that once saved my life means the literal world to me. Thank you Illy🧡
I’m wanting to do the same thing. I do need to look into how one gets too work as a I guess nurse for a psych ward
People with depression don’t deserve to go to a psych ward. It’s like going to the ER for a cold. Reserve psych wards for schizophrenics and mania patients.
@@MM-pv5tp if you had a chronic lung or immune condition you might very well need to go to the ER as the result of a cold. Life-saving medical care isn’t something people have to “deserve”, it’s just a right. Even if depression wasn’t life-threatening, as it often is, people in pain would still have the right to receive treatment. What you’ve said here is indefensible.
@@WhatWouldLubitschDo If you had a chronic lung condition and you could die at any moment, then you absolutely should go to the ER, but not if you just have a common cold. Depression is not immediately life threatening since it can’t make you kill people or yourself, and even if you do, it’s almost always when you’ve had it for a really long time and you’ve reached your breaking point. So why won’t you go to therapy before you reach that point. Seriously, going to a psych ward for depression is like going to the ER for a cold, and it’s disrespectful to schizophrenics and mania patients who are actually in crisis, whose lives are actually on the line, and need immediate care.
@@MM-pv5tp you have no understanding of mental health conditions, or of reality, and the misinformation you’re spewing is extremely dangerous.
I love it!, it is a very magically helping, suiting, special and supporting story to hear you tell! ❤ I'm glad you finaly had the courage to tell others about it!!
I'm glad you make vids like these cuz mental health is very under-rated and if this can encourage anyone to seek help, it's effort well spent. Thank you!
This is such a powerful video and it’s so relatable
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"People will care if you disappear one day." That line instantly brought me to tears. Didn't know how much I needed to hear that. Thank you for being brave!
I’m sorry and I wish that u seek help for whatever ur going through. Remember u aren’t a burden. U deserve love just as much as anyone else does ❤️🩹
Please hold on, things will get better I promise.
All the things you said in this video are so meaningful to me and always hit me right in the heart. I love this and as someone who struggles with severe anxiety, I feel like I wouldn’t be scared going to psych ward anymore if I needed to which is amazing. Thank you, and also the advice you gave about people noticing when you disappear is amazing too and it helps a lot. Thank you.
Thank you for letting my friend and roommate have comfort and knowledge of what she would exspect before going to the hospital. This helped motivate her and ease her anxiety a shit ton so we could get out the door and go. I cannot thank you enough!
Great vid Illy!
This is such a great video and it helps so much. Thanks illy!
Oh my, it's the all powerful swoozie
I agree, this really helped me
This video is a W
Yep fr it was quite crazy!!!!!!
As a med student who's aiming to be a psychiatrist, thank you for speaking up about this. There's still so much stigma around mental health and seeking help to the point I've heard multiple times that I'm wasting my potential by deciding to pursue the mental health branch as if it's any less important. I'll stay true to my dreams and help as much people as I possibly can. I want to give back and take care of others and I can't stress enough how important and crucial is mental health
I agree and thank you people like you are the reason people can see another day ☺️
@@nightmarestar9192 thank you so much for your kind words, it means a lot 🤍
Future psychologist here. I agree that the stigma around mental health is still strong and it is important to talk about it. If anything, in a world where so many physical issues can be taken care of, people have more time to pay attention to their mental health.
@@nightmarestar9192 people who want to *
Thanks you for your work, we need more poeple like you in the world
illy you are literally so strong and you mean so much to me ☹️💕 your videos always help me, even find things out about myself. i’ve loved you for years and i’m so glad i did and your doing good. don’t ever give up hope, your so brave and i really look up to you ❤
she aint that strong, calls critization bullying
I just wanted to say, thank you illy. I recently was admitted into a psychiatric hospital and this video helped me so much. You’re a treasure to UA-cam.
“People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know”
That was everything I needed to hear, thank you illy
Same here, it actually made me cry a little. I think I really needed someone to say that
nope
No one really cares, you are just lying to yourself. You are just a burden! Stop seeking to guilt people into your BS.
that is something i really wish i didnt know
This is actually not true because if I was gone today others including yourself will movery, my family might care and they move on without me through time but it doesn't mean they won't miss me. It's those who have known you your entire life who will miss you when your gone because after them you have nobody left.
As a high schooler who’s dad doesn’t take anxiety or mental health seriously, this helps a lot, you are really gonging to help the world with this video.
Yea I think it definitely helps, as my parents just get mad at me for my mental health, and my therapist considering sending me to a physch ward too, its comforting knowing htey aren't scary
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@@Mels_child omg I didn’t even realize 💀😭 it’s meant to say “going” lmao
Thank you so much for this Video. I'm currently going through quite a phase and I thought about admitting my self but I was so scared about it all that I choosed not to. Watching this video really helps with that anxiety and also just changed my mind about what a psychiatric hospital is in gerneral. You made the thought of admitting my self way les scary and more welcoming. Again thank you so so much for this video, you're changing and most defently even saving people's lives by helping them to overcome this fear of psychiatric hospitals. Thank you, you're amazing❣
This helped me a lot I’ve been In and out of depression for a couple days now but when I came across this video it gave me the motivation to move forward and be happy so thank you for helping me 💪🏻
I’m strong I can do this
5:17 you're shitting me. When I was in a ward it was LITERALLY that. Doctors forcing medicine on patients, security "securing" someone having a panic attack by pinning her to the ground and then (literally) throwing her into an isolation room-- BRUH when I got out I was WORSE. I still have freaking nightmares. County of Riverside Mental Health Facility. It was literally a giant room with chairs to sleep on. No activities, no outside time, no private places to retreat to if you had a panic attack. If an argument broke out or anything happened, security used excessive force. I was TERRIFIED the ENTIRE TIME. This was in 2019!!!!! I'm-- I'm genuinely so freaking mad. I've been avoiding reaching out for help because of my experiences.
That's like a fucking prison, Jesus Christ
@@ConstantDerivativesounds worse than a prison, those facilities are around go help people, pineapple’s gotta report this or somethin’ like that
I agree with this . I grew up with this .
Oh my god. I hope other patients have recovered or gotten help they needed for the extra unnecessary trauma, and I hope other patients have sued the company who made that horrible place.
Yeah, I'm happy for her that she had a better experience but my experiences with hospitals were much more like what you described. I was in constant fear of violence from other patients with severe anger problems, staff humiliated & degraded other girls in the ward with me... One girl was borderline SA'd by a staff member in front of all of us. There was old blood on one of the walls. Medicine was forced down your throat if you wouldn't take it willingly, even if you were having bad side effects. You would MAYBE be able to see the doctor once a week, even then you had to be lucky. We were not treated like people at all, just crazed animals. I also came out much worse each time, the ward gave extra trauma on top of the trauma I already wasn't getting help for - because they'd rather force meds on ppl than give adequate therapy. As much as I wish for mental wards to be safe & helpful, they are not in many cases, unless you can afford the luxury of a better ward.
It's a shame - stories like this, while valid, can make it seem like more horrific ones are just being dramatic. They're not. There is still tons of ableism, malpractice, and abuse in many psych wards, but those who speak up are rarely heard or believed.
I remember after my last major suicide attempt, everything about me was physically fine but I didn't know if my body was secretly damaged so I worked up the courage to tell my older brother that I needed to get checked at a hospital to be safe. This led to me admitting to him what I did the night before and of course he told the rest of my family. He takes me to the hospital and there is literally nothing wrong with my body, but I am getting talked with a psychiatrist before being released just to be safe. This is when my father reaches the hospital and enters during the talk. He takes over the conversation to scream "If there is really something wrong with you, we will put you in an asylum till you are normal again. Is that what you want? Us to leave you there if you are depressed? Or is there really nothing wrong with you?". The psychiatrist had to ask him to leave the room. I don't tell them about this stuff anymore.
A very similar thing happened to me almost exactly 4 years ago, and I've been dealing with my mental health alone since then. I'm not gonna pretend that I know exactly what you're dealing with but I hope you know you're not on your own. Shit sucks.
christ. you didn't deserve that. what the fuck
Is your mom the same way? 💔😔
I’m so sorry. Having a family that lacks understanding and doesn’t give the support you need is an awful thing. I hope you’re doing okay now.
I get how you feel man, I'm in a similar situation with my mom, she's not the person I feel safe around and always says stuff like that to me too. Just know, your not in this alone.
Hey, thanks so much for getting have enough to share this experience! My friend had gone to one a couple times, but it was a bit hard for them to talk about at the time. Thanks for helping understand what it was like for them a bit better :)
Thank you so much! I am terrified of psych wards, since I am neurodivergent (medium support needs) and I don't think people there will listen to what I need, and just put me through some traumatic programm that harms me more than it does good. This video really helped me to understand that neurodivergent/disabled people have a place there too, and it feels less scary now. Thank you so much!
as a 11 year old, who always thought that my problems are "too small" and that "im gonna be a burden", this video has helped me a bunch, youre like a therapist. Thanks you, Illy
"people will notice if you dissapear one day, they will notice, they will care" and "people care about you" has made me cry, Thank you again, Illy
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id recommend going to a professional :)
@@elka1127 same
I'm the same age, and I've always felt the exact same way. It really is tough sometimes. You got this everyone ♡
Illy, thank you for making this.
I'm 13 and I've been admitted too a psyche ward twice. I don't think I can explain how much seeing one of my favorite animators talk about this kind of experience means to me.
Same im also 13 and have been to a psych word twice it is very difficult
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@@beretta4775 really?
i am also thirteen i've been admitted once but i can agree with you
@@beretta4775 can you just like not?
Thank you for sharing this and shining light on a big part of all our health-our mental heath. ❤❤❤
I love you so much, Illy!!! You are so strong and wonderful. Thank you for giving me courage in my mental and emotional rut. You truly do help people. More than you know. Stay safe and I will too!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
as a twelve year old who's been terrified of asking for help and opening up for over a year, thank you illy. My mental health and my issues has always been mocked and never taken seriously. Thank you illy, you're an amazing person and I'm so sorry that happened to you and I'm happy you managed to get through it and recover
Same for me, I’m so scared to talk to anyone. I’ve been mentally shut down by my parents whenever I said something about me feeling depressed or overly-anxious. I still haven’t talked to anyone about how I feel. I mean I did like once or twice to my close friends but they didn’t actually listen to me and used my past trauma against me. I felt so terrible and still do.
I was in that exact same position 11 years ago - I promise it gets better ❤️ I still struggle, but I know myself so much better now and know how to help myself, and thankfully have people around me who are kind and understanding about my struggle. you're a tough cookie, you got this ❤️
You were bullied for being depressed?! Next time someone says something rude to you about that, please tell them that it’s a dangerous, serious, and very real that, and what they’re saying to you is mentally damaging and only making it worse and that their IQ is lower than that of a chipmunk if they think that what they’re doing is acceptable or funny. I’m so sorry no one thinks you deserve help. Everyone does!
I’ve wanted to ask for help for so long but also been terrified. I hope you can get better
Idk how to ask help. My mom isn’t that smart on mental stuff, she will probably try to help but I just don’t have the nerve to tell her
Everyone let’s all give a round of applause to illy for being brave ans strong to talk about her experiences with a psych ward.
And to everyone else talking about their experiences,you are strong too,and we are happy to see you strong
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Thank you thank you!!!
sometimes i forget the strength it took to voluntary commit myself 2 years ago during a manic psychosis. I'm on the back end of my worst manic episode since then and while it took a lot out of me i managed it and am stronger because of it. even if it doesn't always feel that way. Thank you for reminding me of that strength. keep spreading the love
I’ve been very scared to admit myself to one, but after watching this I’ve figured out that I shouldn’t have to struggle alone, thanks illy, you’re story gave me courage❤
As a person who's mother has threatened to send them multiple times... Thank you. My mental health is often never taken seriously, and 'sending me away' is used as a threat rather than an option to help me. You are an amazing person, Illy!
Same
Same, I vividly remember her telling me “that’s where crazies go. It won’t be good for you.”. It discouraged me from ever talking about this again.
Same. My parents think I’m crazy because I have weird flashbacks of stuff and sometimes I question myself in very scary ways.
Y'all should see about getting into free online therapy. A school counselor or city resource worker should be able to direct you.
Dang, I never had to go through that. I’ll never truest know what that feels like. Hope y’all have wonderful lives!!
I was admitted into a mental hospital due to self-harm. My mom suddenly passed away from liver cancer in February this year. I initially coped with it through music, videogames, and the occasional cry. It was a rollercoaster of grief. The real bout of depression hit me like a truck in April. It was difficult getting any schoolwork done. I felt uneasy as this one big piece to my life remained empty. One day, I tried to help with how I felt by going outside and walking to my local sushi bar to treat myself. It was a great day. Only the next day on the bus ride home, I planned to take a knife to my arms and legs. I did just that when I got to my room. My dad noticed what I was doing. After a brief conversation, he drove me 20 minutes to the nearest mental hospital.
I was there for a week. Honestly, it was the best week of my entire year. At first though, it was scary. I was still so shooken up. I felt uneasy in that sterile environment, but over time, it started to feel like home. I got used to sleeping on an uncomfortable 5" thick foam mattress with the door open and nurses checking on everyone every 15 minutes. The food was delicious. We did art together. We sat at a table to discuss various mental health related topics. My therapist there even recommended this book called "The Happiness Trap." I highly recommend it. I've learned some very good coping skills through that book and during my stay. Hell, I even bought my own copy.
Everyone there was super sweet. Even the other patients there were awesome. I made five friends during my stay. We had a blast. There was one time we were playing duck-duck-goose in the enclosed outdoor space on the basketball field. We were wearing those same non-slip socks as you described except they ripped super easily. From running in circles during that game, we tripped, ripped our socks, and almost sprained our ankles. When anyone did get hurt, we all laughed it off. Such good times. What was cool was the nurses allowed us to turn on the TV during free time and let us choose what to watch or listen to. I had dibs on the remote a lot of the time and played barber beats and jazz from the Yakuza OST. I don't know how the other patients put up with me for so long, lol.
Hands-down, that hospital was one of the best experiences ever. I came out of that place a changed young woman. Unfortunately, however, there have been some stories in circulation about bad experiences in similar facilities. So if anyone has to get into a mental hospital, I highly recommend you look at the reviews. Thank you for sharing your story, Illy.
It’s so heartwarming to see good stories like yours. It gives me hope for the future. I hope you are doing well still internet stranger, take care!
That is such an inspiring and heartwarming story and I truly hope that you’re doing better… I’m so so so sorry for your loss, bless your heart 💗💗🫶
Yakuza has good music,you did these people a favor lol
Yeah I have been doing self harm and have been thinking suicidal thoughts because I felt like a horrible burden and always in the way and so I though “well no one is even going to notice if I’m gone” but when I heard some words i hadn’t heard in years “I love you” and my mom also said “I will not be alive anymore if you are gone honey” and those words broke my heart and so I stoped and it was hard btw I’m 12 almost 13
I was sent there after community college drove me crazy. Only for a couple of days. It was not a pleasant experience. The room was chilly and the chairs were uncomfortable and the food was icky and I didn’t even bother to shower because I was afraid the water would be cold too. The pillows were wrapped in plastic under the pillowcase just like the orphanage and the nurses would rush in every few hours while I was sleeping to check my blood pressure. I was pushed to take a Zyprexa when I was admitted which turned me into a sludgy pile of lead but I wasn’t made to take any more medications afterwards.
as someone who’s been to one of these before, it really depends on the hospital, the one i went to made everything sososo much worse.
Honestly I would say illy is my favorite animation story time UA-camr right now, I feel like I connect to a lot of her story’s. Some examples are I don’t like my body, I was bullied as a kid, I was super talkative, and honesty not going through the best time rn. She’s also really good at educating people on different topics, and it’s really nice. Thank you illy ☺️
Everyone let's give a round of applause to lily for being brave and strong to talk
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this made me cry and realize im not being dramatic, im young and people often tell me im just in a bad mood. we love you illy and we’re all proud of you❤
We’re proud of you too, dont forget that :)
People can’t decide how you feel, you know you the best🫶🏼
Stop,,,, this made cry all over again,, you are so sweet..
It makes me feel so much better when people who I don't even know tell me I'm loved. I had an assignment recently and I had to write a descriptive essay. The last paragraph was about me struggling to continue. My teacher made comment on the assignment saying that this was one of the best assignment he had ever read. He said it not only was a good story but really portrayed how I view the world. Thank you guys. I mean it.
The West is going though a big mental health crisis, you're not alone. We are all going through our own struggles.
This popped up on a day I needed it. I have been dealing with stuff most of my life but have never really been able to get help. I spent most of the morning trying to find help in my area but no dice. I am still here to write this so I guess you can consider today a success either way.
im so happy for you haley!!! you deserve this 💗.
I was admitted involuntarily when I was 12, and I can honestly say that in that terrifying time, the other patients I met there were some of the nicest people I had ever met. Thank you for making this, it will truly help so many people ❤️
Try listening to your parents. It prevents stuff like this from happening.
@@CasperInkyMagoo wow, have you ever dealt with mental illness before? This comment is unbelievably insensitive.
Why?
@@CasperInkyMagooIt doesn’t work like that hon
@@CasperInkyMagoo Lol that made me laugh 😂
all the clips you showed before you admitted yourself really shows that people can hide what their actually feeling. if i had met you then i wouldn’t have suspected anything was wrong. makes me really sad that i’ve met people that are going through terrible things and are hiding it. truly feel sorry for them and you. i’m glad your doing better now. thank you for sharing this with us ❤️
This really makes me wish I had been admitted as a kid when I needed it, and super happy to see that other people got help of their own, thank you for spreading awareness on this!
Thank you for this. I've been struggling for years and have been afraid to really seek help. But this makes me think that maybe I could, before I do something I'll never have the chance to regret
Despite this whole thing being animated, you feel real. There's no dramatic background music, no comedic sound effects, just a person, sharing what happened...😊
very true.
I'm currently interning as a therapist at a pediatric psych hospital. This video is so, so important. There are so many kids who need to know it is okay to get help.
Please continue and work hard to make these places better especially for kids. So many come out more traumatized than they were originally
I feel weird to ask but would/could you go somewhere even without suicidal thoughts? I am just having problems getting through the day to day and I wonder if this would help?
There are just as many adults that need good nurses and therapists as well. At the mental hospital I went to, adults were treated like infants. And the range of disorders people had and range of ages of everyone didn’t really make for a great experience. I don’t know how other hospitals are, but the one I went to, Shoal Creek, was only good when I was admitted as a teen. Even the nurses know that the way that adults are treated at Shoal Creek is messed up. A nurse I had when I was admitted as a teen, actually warned me *against* going to Shoal Creek when I became an adult. The systems they have in place for adults is just atrocious and I wish we had had better nurses than the ones we got- a lot of them just kind of… I don’t know, I felt kind of talked down to…
@@animeluchia5405 I'm so sorry you had to go through that!
@@fellowdawn4191Yes. If your mental illness or temporary condition is greatly impacting your ability to take care of yourself or continue day to day then the ER can let you admit yourself in. Please don't be discouraged if your situation seems somehow less dire than others'. You would never wish this same pain on anyone, so you deserve to be better.
I'm really glad you made this video, I think this going to help - not just a lot young people.... but some of us that are a bit older and just know this might be something they have to experience in life.
Thanks so much for this video! I myself have trauma related to mental health facilities and this was very helpful. Those horrible students is one of the reasons I struggle to seek help today and thanks for actually talking about that. If I someday get my courage back I will make sure to say that I under no circumstances want to have medical students watching or participate in my health. Thank you again ❤
this gave me the courage to tell my mom about the thoughts i’ve been having. i just told her, we cried, she hugged me. we’re going to the doctor tomorrow
omg i hope you get well! good luck!
How did it go?
I wish my mom was like that.
Though I don’t know if she will handle me telling her that I have 15 disorders and bad mental health-
Hopefully this video gives me courage as well
@@EmptyHeadspace_123 i went to the hospital for a while, got on new medicine, and i got home a couple day ago. i’m feeling a bit better and i feel like everyone in the house is a little more educated on my condition and how i’m not just “sad”.
@@disabledrat_ Thats good , hope u dont die.
As someone who has been in HIC (high intensive care) in a pychiatric hospital over 4 times now (i am 15) I am very glad that this video exists so that more people can understand what its like and that they are not alone and help can be found
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I'm going to a mental hospital soon and this video helped me prepare a tiny bit. Tysm.
How do you like actually get admitted? Like if you’re really depressed or su1c1d4l do you just get admitted? I’m scared I might go there idk. I wish you well
Alrighty nevermind yall I'm good ^_^
I'm going to be honest, I've never heard of or seen your channel before, but mental health is something we do not see enough people talking about online, i am coming out of my lowest point and every word you said is true, your not a burden because you struggle, everyone needs help sometimes, some for some its family, others its friends, for me it was a mental health charity that provides counselling, and i turned there because i couldn't get the help i needed anywhere else, please keep doing what your doing, this is something that people need to see and need to talk about, too many people have the idea of bottling it up till they have a meltdown and its dangerous.
I can’t be the only one who’s loved watching illy’s channel turn into such a safe educational place while still keeping that same humor she’s always had in her videos💗
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@@lilyb_is_cool it’s probably just a typo, they seem to be a regular viewer or they make it sound as though they are
@@antjewhipple3853 i thought it was probably a typo, but i was just saying that in case they actually didn't know.
I was involuntarily admitted to a psych ward back in 2012. I had been struggling with severe OCD, but didn't know what it was at the time. I'll never forget the doctor saying "he needs to stay", and crying my eyes out until we got to the actual ward. I was surprised at how nice all the other patients and doctors and nurses were. The night I was admitted was the worst night of my life, but the day I was released was one of the best.
Hey! I'm happy you're here to share it and hope things get better!
Wishing you all the best❤
I hope you are doing better now.
As a fellow OCD sufferer I understand the nightmare it can create.
@@MemorableEventsVideo I'm doing a lot better now. I hope that you're doing good as well.
I personally love seeing the "988" posters in the video and the links. my grandfather started this project and my family and I helped. we put an insane amount of work and I'm glad it paid off.
I’m so proud of you that your able to share your story to the people considering going to the mh
I’m a clinical mental health counseling grad student right now, and I’ll be a therapist in a year. Watching your video made me tear up, especially when you gave evidence that people will miss you when you’re gone. You have such a genuine and insightful way of explaining your story, and it’s really impacted me for the better. Thank you so much for sharing 💖
(And I promise to never be a Susan)
Yeah us psych students ourselves HATE Susans
I want to do what you do. Im 18 and going to college for it soon. I teared up too. I want to be a mariah so bad
Ellie is the reason why you went to a mental asylum Because people for ADHD was problem child back then
@@mushroomlover479 if you have a passion for it, please do!! I have never felt so proud and excited than when I started grad school and finally got to learn how to help people. I’m seeing my first clients in August, and it feels surreal. I made the decision to do this when I was 11 because I had a wonderful counselor that saved my life. If you genuinely care about the well-being and mental health of others, then I highly encourage you 💗
You BETTER not be a Susan! I have no _actual_ way of holding you to it, internet stranger, but the sentiment is still there! /lh
This is crazy because I'm actually going to check into inpatient on Monday. I'm really scared but I need help, thank you so much for this.
you can do it!!! im so proud of you! i wish you all the luck and love you need!
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Good luck! Super star You can do this! UwU
Sending love ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤍
@@illymation thank you so much, seeing that you replied made me tear up a little. I've been watching you for years and some of your music has gotten me through some rough times. You're amazing and I appreciate the support.
i wish you the best of luck and ( as a former patient there ) i assure you everything will be okay and its a very supportive and safe place :)
thank you so much for putting up this video it made me cry because earlier this month as a thirteen year old I was admitted to the mental hospital because I tried to hurt myself but because of you let me explain studios and Jaiden animations I have reason to keep on living even when life wants me to die you help me never ever give up on my dreams and to help me stay healthy thank you so much.
I’ll probably go to one of these at one point in my life, but this video made me less scared.
When you said “seeming help doesn’t make you an attention seeker, or overreacting” I genuinely started tearing up. I’ve been convincing myself that I’m overreacting every time I’m depressed or feel anxious, or that people won’t believe me if I said I was going through something. That they’ll just think I want the attention and look down on me. listening to your story has made me feel a lot better about myself. Thank you so much, your such a trooper!! 👍
It's not that people don't believe you. It's that your problems are not as unique as you imagine and deep down you feel guilty seeing other people seemingly handle it with ease.
Just so you know, nobody's life is as it appears on the outside.
Dude same 😭
Doesn't help when your family calls it dramatic to literally not be happy all the time and you've therefore developed an instinct to rather keep your true emotions hidden
Same
Stay strong, and talk to people! But the right kind of ppl, it really helps.
Never related to anything more. thank you for making this. It’s good to see more portrayals of mental hospitals, then just: straight jacket, all white walls, etc.
It makes it less scary for people who may be going through things.
And well not all mental hospitals are great. I’m so glad you made this.
Yeah I went to one that sucked. They weren’t willing to help me with my needs. They wouldn’t let me have my stuffed animals, they had food that I couldn’t handle eating and I had to scream at the top of my lungs to get out of there. I’m okay now but it still haunts me to this day.
During my first year of middle school, I was involuntary admitted into a mental hospital. I felt ashamed during my time away from my family, but even missed my older sisters birthday. Thank you for making this video and explaining the reality of what IS a psych ward. Gracias!!
Ive been to the psych ward twice
It was always a dumb 12 hour stay at the ER before i was emitted to go to the phsyc ward. Endless beeping, screaming people dowm the hall, and 0 privacy. It was awful. I didnt even have a say if i wanted to go to the psych ward or not
The ambulence was fun though. I had never been in one, so it looked cool to see a car driving backwards, because i could only look through the backwards window.
I only stayed at the phsych ward for 8 days for both stays, but it felt like and eternity. I had never wanted to see my family so bad in my life, because i had basically been torn away from them. Usually in normal life at home, i have things like devices to help pass the time, but for 60% of the time, all i could do was sleep, and wander around my room. I wasnt allowed to see the other kids, or even just step out into the hallway, unless i needed to speak to a staff member. Me and the other kids did find a way to bypass this, as we often would just talk to each other in the hallway without ever actually leaving the room lol.
Evem then, i had a love hate relationship with the phsych ward. I loved the other kids there. I was friends with almost every one of them. I finally had people who i could truly relate too. That staff were nice too. Often, in the middle of night when everyone else would be sleeping, i would be going through and mental episode, and just be on the floor in a curled up position in pure silence, of silently crying uncontrollably. The staff members would be there and help me calm down. We even had some time to stay outside and play in the courtyard for a bit. I remember me and the other kids there always did the anual “Hospital Got Talent” lol. The food was also heavenly there.
ON THE OTHER HAND, because we werent allowed to see each other unless it was during group activities, and break times, i had to do nothing, but just, WAIT AROUND.
I was honestly kinda jealous at the other kids because they had room mates, and i had no one.
Also, i know its a psych waes, but like, theres zero privacy
I was always be comfortable in my not so comfortable bed, ready to drift off to sleep, and pne of the staff member would creak open the door, blinding me closed eyes, completely ruining my sleep.
I honestly loved my first stay though. It felt like time had stopped, and i could finally rest for a bit, until getting back up and jogging through the trails of life.
Second stay though, wasnt as good. Same awful ER visit, but i had to go to a different hospital. This time however, i barely had any ither kids to talk to, because all the other “kids” there we like, 17+
I at least got some radio headphones so i could listen to Mix 96, but it felt so boring. I actually thought i was going insane from bordom
I did finally get a room mate, but guess what? It was on my freaking last day there. It was really sad too. He was a guy named Jack. He was really friendly, and we enjoyed talking to each other. It was really sad when i had to leave him all alone when i had to leave the psych ward.
But yeah. I liked my first stay, but i never ever want to go back
You're embodying the saying "be the change you want to see in the world". This was a very honest video about a subject matter that isn't always given the most positive attention, but BECAUSE of stories like yours and more coming out, it's getting better.
when u talked about maria, i literally burst into tears. i never realized how badly i want someone like that in my life and i’m so beyond glad you were able to have someone like her as your nurse
aww this makes me want to go into psych as a nurse more than anything. it would mean the world to me to make a difference like that
*Hugs*
I wish you weren’t someone online so I could hug you and let you vent without having anyone who wants to hear it
I had my own "Maria", and I can safely say that she both saved my life and changed it forever. One of the most incredible people I've ever met and one of my best friends. She died a couple of years ago now, but I still think about her constantly.
same omg same