Were close to being able to hit a top 10 record spot, maybe even a number one! Pretty unbelievable for an independent record! You can help push that even further! Pre-order the Sick Boi album by clicking this link! bio.to/Ren-Sick-Boi As always here are the lyrics for anyone who wants them, thankyou so much for watching this, really proud of it, im doing everything independently so if it moved you in someway it would mean the world to me if you gave it a share as it will help spread it all over the world :) Also out on streaming platforms too! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/hiren Hi there Ren It's been a little while, Did you miss me? You thought you’d buried me, didn't you? Risky… Because I always come back Deep down you know that… Deep down you know I'm always in periphery Ren aren't you pleased to see me? it's been weeks since we spoke bro, you know you need me You’re the sheep, I'm the shepherd Not your place to lead me Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me Hi Ren I’ve been taking some time to be distant I’ve been taking some time to be still I've been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I'm ill I've been making some progress lately, and I've learnt some new coping skills So I haven't really needed you much man I think we need to just step back and chill Ren, you sound more insane than I do You think that those doctors are really there to guide you? Been through this a million times Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to Okay, take another pill boy Drown yourself in the sound of white noise Follow this 10 step program, rejoice! All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy Nah mate, this time it's different man trust me I feel like things might be falling in place And my music's been kinda doing bits too Like I actually might do something great And when I'm gone maybe I'll be remembered For doing something special with myself That's why I don't think that we should talk man Cause when your with me it never seems to help You think that you can amputate me? I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we We are one, split in two that makes one so you see You got to kill you if you wanna kill me. I'm not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh your music is thriving? Delusional guy! Where's your top ten hit? Where's your interview with Oprah? Where are your grammes Ren? Nowhere! Yeah but, my music's not commercial like that I never chased numbers, statistics or stats I Never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me so why would Iconcernn myself with that? But my music is really connecting, And the people who find it respect it , And for me that's enough ‘cause this life's been tough so it gives me a purpose I can rest in Man you sound so pretentious ! Ren your music is so self centred, No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself… trust me You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations, provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it You wana be a big deal… Next jimi hendrix? forget it Man it's not like that Man it's just like that I'm inside you you twat Nah it's not man your wrong, when I write I belong Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song Ren sits down, Has a stroke of genius, He wants to write a song that was not done previous A battle with his subconscious… Eminem did it Played on guitar Plan B did it Man your not original you criminal, rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people's material Ren mate we've heard it all before Ohh "she sell sea shells on the sea shore" Fuck you I don't need you, I don't need to hear this, cause I'm fine by myself, I'm a genius! and I will be great, and I will make waves, and ill shake up the whole world beneath us That's right speak your truth, your fucking god complex leaks out of you It's refreshing to actually hear you say it! In stead of down play it… “Oh the music Is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that the that's just a bonus” Fuck you ima fucking kill you Ren Well fucking kill me then let's fucking have you Ren I'm a do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music? ‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die Yeah I call the shots and so i who choose who survives I'll tie you up in knots then I'll lock you inside News flash… I was created at the dawn of creation, I am temptation I am the snake in Eden, I am the reason for treason Beheading all Kings, I am sin with no rhyme or reason, Sun of the morning, Lucifer, Antichrist, father of lies, Mestophilies, Truth in a blender, Deceitful pretender, The Banished avenger, The righteous surrender When standing in-front of my solar eclipse, My name it is stitched to your lips so see I won't bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal You wana kill me? I'm enteral, immortal I live in every decision that catalysed chaos That causes division I live inside death, the beginning of ends I am you, you are me, I am you Ren Hi Ren… I’ve been taking some time to be distant, I’ve been taking some time to be still I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I've spent half my life ill But just as sure as the tide start turning Just as sure as the night has dawn Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm I was made to be tested and twisted I was made to be broken and beat I was made by his hand, it's all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet And you know me my will is eternal And you know me you've met Me before Face to with a beast I will rise from the east and I'll settle on the ocean floor And I go by many names also Some people know me as hope Some people know me as the voice that you hear when u loosen the noose on the rope And you know how I know how I know that I'll prosper? Because I stand here beside you today I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain And I didn't once flinch or shake So cower at the man I've become When I sing from the top of my lungs That I won't retire I'll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong And when I am gone I will rise In the music that I left behind Ferocious persistent, immortal like you we’re a coin with two different sides When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil, and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences... With Illness, autoimmunity and psychosis As I got older I realised that there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare But there were victims and there were students It wasn’t David verses Goliath, it's was a pendulum eternally swaying between the dark and the light, and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance, and like a dance, the more rigid I became the harder it got The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps the more i suffered And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.
I wanted to make this track one of the most honest and raw pieces i've made. All live stripped back with just me and a guitar, It's probably my proudest works to date, and I cant wait for you guys to see it, remember to turn on the notifications button to be reminded to join me at the premier next Thursday at 7pm GMT. See you guys there. So excited for you guys to see this
Wowza! I am looking forward to hearing this one, but cannot figure out how to join the wait. You pur so much of your soul into your music it's inspiring. Hopefully I'll stumble on a busk one day!
Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.
Ren these words mean more to me than you'd ever understand. The fact you silenced that voice in your head gives me hope that I can too. Please keep on fighting. The world needs you. I've recently discovered you and TBP and you've changed my perception in ways I don't understand yet.
Can't wait, also that's very deep and I appreciate you being so open, we need that in today's world where we are supposed to be strong and independent, we need to hear about others struggles in order to deal with our own, we need to help each other.
I will add a quick story to show why being open helps others. I was trapped in a hole that I was lowered in a cage to do some work. Utter catastrophe happened and water started filling the hole. I couldn't get to the cage to get raised, I resigned to I was going to die. Luckily it got solved before I drown, I got out eventually puked out of shock and was never the same. However I didn't think about the people watching from up top, they thought they were going to watch a man die and they didn't speak about it. Not until group therapy years later and with me being completely open and crying did one guy finally let go, "I thought I was going to watch you die" saying that out loud helped him and even me understand his animosity towards me. Being vulnerable allows others to also be vulnerable and that is not a bd thing. Thank you for sharing ren, I'm sure it's going to be an amazing video
@@bookerwills8649 I'm glad you're still with us to share this story. Your story is an affirmation to my core value in life. Every interaction we have with each other is a "two way street". Travel down the other person's path before you judge or come to conclusions. If more people would Sonder this world would be a better place.
REN do u think it's a help or a hindrance when it comes to making music ? , I'm not saying it has to be one or the other just wondered if either happens to be the case
I am a psychiatric nurse. I actually learned about you from another psych. nurse. Your music is spreading and inspiring both patients and staff. Thank you for doing this. It makes a difference. It really does.
Thank you for your comment, and your contribution to helping others find wellness! If I may share, for the years that my Lyme disease was misdiagnosed, many of my symptoms showed up as psychological and neurological. I feel so grateful to have come through the other side (7 years later) and this song really inspires me to appreciate the darkness of my past as I journey in to the light. Bless!
Hi Phoenix. We taught together in Ulsan about a decade ago. It's insane to come across your name on a random youtube video. Hope all is well - Lee Teacher.
I’ve written and unwritten what I want to say but my words are so 😮, so Human ! Felt very un-alone and that someone -a Human gets it ! Thank you ☺️ Keep making waves and shaking the world ❤
Ren, I'm 64 years old and I have never heard anyone come close to what my brain has done all my life. I was diagnosed with MPD in the 1980s, I spent most of my life fighting against the various raging people I've been. I went through treatment, and self-medicated, and did all the pharmaceuticals from various psychiatrists but in the end I learned to bargain, to talk, to communicate with all the things that are me. I have finally found peace in my life, I hope you find the same and please always keep creating, we need you.
@@HumblePupp communication has been key for me, both with myself and with others. I have no filter. I'm ok with that now. I wasn't always. I've always felt like I was that square peg that people tried to hammer into the round hole and I'm over that. My brain works much better on my terms. People say not to hate yourself then every way you turn those same people are telling you to tone it down, be quiet, don't be dramatic, blend in. Excuse me but fuck that, I matter too. What you need, that matters too. I don't hurt anyone and I don't bother anyone but I'm also not going to be other than exactly who I am for anyone.
- you did something great - you will be remembered - you did something special - your music is really connected - your music is respected - you made waves - you shaked the world - you are hope
I think you are a quiet genius I can’t reply to that main thread But I want you to know You are a Quiet genius I respect this song. I don’t know you so. Can’t pretend But this…..
Found this guy about a month ago and i can’t stop listening. He’s so goddamned good. He touches a ton of different genres too. I’ve been so bored with music the last couple years, which is a shame since I’ve been a musician since I could hold a trumpet at 5. Ren had me actually feeling beats again.
clever, Mackey!!! Love it bro. If people listen to this master piece n say its not brilliant then they clearly dont know jack about music n talent. so as u say RESPECT IT!!!!!! nuff love bro natalie xx
Yes I will surely come off as crazy as Ren to some but I think music can find us when we need it. It's magical. I dunno if other magic is real but music exists so checkmate. Even animals like it. It makes the mammals and even plants react. Water I think I forget whatever Japanese experiment something about water and emotions maybe maybe music maybe both I don't know.
I've been in and out of the mental hospital since I was a teenager, by my count eight times now. Without sharing my diagnoses (I have a lot), I regularly have psychosis on top of mood swings and panic attacks, and as hard as its been for me, it's been harder for my family that can't understand. My father showed me this, and I think he was excited to be able to feel connected to me through music that he could relate to my mental health problems. I'm not really one to leave comments, but I wanted to say thank you.
I was done. Finished. Ready to check out. My military career, over. My children, raised. I was okay with becoming a statistic. I wondered, “where will I fall? 18, 12….22?” Then this song popped into my feed. Thank you Ren. Your song was like a friend reaching out in the dark to grab me just before I fall into the sweet abyss. I know there’s a lot of work ahead…but I have to save myself…I deserve being saved. Thank you. Your music is saving lives. Big love to you!
Hope: “The voice that u hear when u loosen the noose on the rope” That verse hit me hard. He also has a song about suicide. Perhaps it could help u too.
You deserve to be saved. And loved. Please hold on, if not for yourself, for your family. And if you can hold on for them, eventually, you can see enough to hold onto yourself. You are not alone. Ever!
This work is sublime - It is not only for the meak, this is for absolutely everyone - for me it is eastern philosophy spoken into Western culture - and that is no easy task by any means!! BRAVO and THANK YOU!!
“And I go by many names also Some people know me as "hope" Some people know me as the voice that you hear When you loosen the noose on the rope” That line always hits me hard. It’s brings me to tears & hits me in my soul. I relate so much to this song.
My little Brothers name is REN. Ren went missing and I thought he was dead. I searched the internet high and low for clues and then I came upon your video HI-REN. It was as if My brother was singing his personal Anthem. You share his name and his struggle. After 5 months I found my brother safe. I shared with him this video, we watched it together and cried from the deepest part of our souls. Your message is so needed in this chaotic world and HOPE is the light we look to. In pure gratitude for your gift…. Thank you Ren.
Kicked heroin a year and half ago after 12 years of using and trying to just end it man. To be be fully honest with yall. This song has meant more than any song I've ever heard. I can't express it. Truly. How can one put into words the way a piece of art shakes and breaks your entire soul. Thank you. Thank you for creating. Thank you all for being here to support and relate to this.. I love you. You are beautiful. Things get better.
He sings from his soul , doesn't he. He reminds me of someone I lost recently, who also used music to try to heal his issues, but this artist has a strength my loved one couldn't quite manage. I've survived a severe chronic pain issue that started in the late 80s so know how to fight for life. I hope you find the strength you need, when you need it. And if you don't mind my best advice... positive reinforcement works amazingly well. On my worst days, if I repeat I'm having the best day ever, 3 times, within 20 minutes I'll realize I'm doing so much better. Blessings to you.
That's beautiful. The first year & a half were the hardest for me. You're doing something incredibly difficult, so be proud. It gets a little easier as you go, so keep going.
Not going to lie, it’s a life long battle. It does get easier but only with time and therapy if needed and that’s your jam. I too felt this song, the lyrics in my soul. Please know, if you don’t succeed today then just try again tomorrow. You’ll get there. Best of luck to you!💜
Me to at 12am this morning. I'm back for the 3rd time. Watched a few other videos. REN is Brilliant 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 yes, it's the story of his life. Read his drop down. It tells about his experiences since 9 yrs old. He also says it at the end of this song😊
Same just now. I was here again for Kurt Vile’s Pretty Pimpin’ and this was up next. Thank you, algorithm “gods”…mind blown. What a gift for me this morning
Ren, Im a 38 year old U.S. Navy Corpsman who has been dealing with PTSD and i cant ever tell anyone how it feels to be at battle with your own insides but your song makes to so clear what its like and i cant thank you enough or your words they are beyond worthy of any award in the world but i hope my thanks is enough at this moment.
Just from some of the lyrics, I feel confident that this kind of feedback is the highest praise and satisfaction that a true, big hearted artist like this could ever want or hope for. Connection with other humans over industry praise!
Jesse, I just wanted to day thanks for your service. I was lucky enough to work with you guys during my time at NASWI SAR as a PR. You guys are seriously appreciated. Take care ! I love this song and it does help ground me when the anxiety kicks in.
Hi Ren. I am late to the party. Just found you a couple of weeks ago. Your work, and this song in particular, resonnate with most of us, if not all. We all have our demons, our experiences and external influences and mental vounderabilities helps determine the person we shape as adults. I had to be close to 50 before i had no choice, but look into my cabinet. Better late than never, right? I am humbeled now and accept that i have work to do, to live the rest of my life. This song struck me. It probably affect people in milions of different ways. I have cried my eyes out to this, and see this as an essential piece of culture. Going in and out of the psych ward, i have shared your song with whomever would listen. I just want to thank you for writing this. The world needs more of you. Sorry for mistakes, English is not my first language.
That is the most raw beautiful song about the human experience I’ve heard. As a therapist, this is the dance I witness in my clients, and the dance had to accept in myself as human. Thank you, Ren, for managing to capture its pain, chaos and beauty in such a clear and touching way! This song is not only a musical masterpiece, but also a psychological one
Fuck me a year later and it’s still THE MOST IMPACTFUL musical performance I’ve ever seen or experienced
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I'm a 61 yo grandma. I play an acoustic exotic wood Ibanez . Mother of pearl and abeloni inlays. This piece of art you created is a fuckin masterpiece. Thank you
I was a teenager in the 80's and music was my passion. My spirit. I got older. Got pulled under by life. I lost my passion along the way. It's been a very long time since I came across music that touched me and made me feel that connection again. A month or two ago you popped up in my recommendations and I clicked. I am very glad that I did because for the first time, in a very long time, you've helped me feel that passion again. Thank you Ren. You have a gift that does not come along often.
I feel you bro. Im sort of in that funk now. Been several years since I have had that fire. I was once consumed by it, but life just drained me for every ounce of motivation I had. After nearly 25 years I just got lost and its been very hard to find my way back. And sadly, this time it will be alone. After decades of creating within a group, going solo is such a huge challenge for me. Artists like REN, are indeed rekindling that fire. Its a good feeling.
I am a 52 year old grandma. I have not heard anything so profound in my life. What comes to mind is my favorite quote. I shall leave it here. Leave it, or take it if it resonates with your soul. "and those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music".-Friedrich Nietzsche
You saved the life of a young man I worry about. I'm a retired teacher and after bumping into him in town, I sent him this. I envisage a huge crowd marching on Parliament to stop the attack on the NHS funding for young people's mental health with everyone singing this together. You have given me, an old lady hope. To see this amount of passion and determination in the younger generation is exhilarating. But more than that Ren - you saved a life.
To save a life is a monumental thing for anyone to do but to help many more to feel better about themselves and maybe save many more to realise death is inevitable but the longer you hang in there the better the chances of seeing there can be more to hang on to and find your own place in the world. Ren has an ability to do this and so do we all.
I am a woman in my seventies. I gave up on today’s music , for some years now, then last week, I heard Ren!! I haven’t felt so excited, inspired and enthralled by music, since I first heard David Bowie in the 70’s...... he said, Rock was the art form of the working class.... I think Ren just gave a voice to a whole generation of disenfranchised young people of today, and those of all ages struggling with their own mental health..... deep and wonderful , thank you Ren ❤️
I am a man in my 30s who'd also given up. I missed the story telling. The movie like aspect music used to carry. Growing up on marty robbins and the like there was a story for the song. This blows me away and makes me so happy that the story telling and meaningful music isn't dead. We're not limited to a beat and some words. Thank you to Ren
Came here from Tiktok, Ren has consumed my attention for hours now. You really have a gift, I cannot wait to see how your career unfolds. May it be a long and healthy one sir
Today at 11:50pm I found this piece. And it’s the last 10 minutes of the 4th anniversary of losing my father to suicide. He endured a long battle with depression, drug abuse, and extremely severe psychosis. Eventually the demons won and took him from us. I know that if he were here he would have loved this video. In my years of seeing my fathers struggle, I’ve never quite heard anyone put it into perspective like this. And for that, I thank you Ren. RIP papa I love you ❤️
Phil's wife Susan here. Have you listened to Ren's song "Suicide". I lost my Dad to this when I was nine years old and found Ren's songs about this subject cathartic to listen to. Just hearing the word being sung out loud which nobody would talk about back then. If you enjoyed "Hi Ren" I recommend checking out more of his catalogue. There is heaps of great music on it.
I found this song couple of days ago and it broke me into milion pieces and built me up back again and I think I am changed forever. You are amazing artist and I feel blessed and inspired that I fould you and I hope I will see you making great things
Hi Ren, I don't know if you're reading this and I thought long and hard about what I'm going to say... It was just unbelievable, it had such an impact. You don't need millions of listeners to make the difference. What you do is unique, uniquely good. Please do not stop. We need you! Lots of love from Germany.
Ren, I'm 66 years old. I've been a music fan for as long as I can remember. This isn't a song, this is opera, this is something altogether new. This has touched me like nothing before. Keep fighting the good fight. And remember there is always "Hope" .
I don't think you understand the meaning of this song. He's proving that you are the bad guy as a therapist. As well psychologists are the bad guys. You're never going to beat mental illness it's just going to exist whether you try to extinguish it or not. And all of your so-called therapies do more harm than good. You're hurting people with your practice it's not medicine but government incentivize torture of a vulnerable group. Anyone who knows what they're talking about knows that's the fact
georgekaknes, sorry that you've had such a bad experience with therapists. Like everything, there are good and bad therapists out there. And this song is not about that in any way. You're just reading into it. Ren does criticize the medical system, including the kind of therapists that are dismissive of their patient's true concerns, but he doesn't paint all of them with that brush
@@cathywethington5913 you would be right except for the fact that the only good therapist and this is a scientific fact proven by math and statistics. The only good therapist out their base their their findings on brain scans and objective evidence it's actually called objective evidence-based science. None of that is actually available to poor people or people on disability benefits. Unfortunately I have no evidence of a disability but the system especially the mental health system and my own family screwed me the f*** over. Not only do I have more intelligence than we don't have any intellectual disability there's no evidence of any kind of disability. Even the doctors that treat me knew this you know I was not only not intellectually disabled but brilliant they had no evidence you have no evidence to make any of their claims. Of course if you're rich this is a very different story. Do you know how many doctors that go towards poor people just don't care. Again it's not their fault you're concentrating of vulnerable presource.the toxic combination of extreme poverty usually people that actually would normally be in that situation are vulnerable because their families are horrible families like my own. Can you usually there's a lack of common Sense on the part of the parents that think that you know these things are happening. You're right there's a small very insignificant amount of therapists that will do the right thing but it's not because they're good people it's because their clientele rich people can brutally sue their asses and have a lot of say so because they have money. Are the the vast majority including those people would hurt anyone and would do everything based on complete pseudoscientific quackery and don't really care what they do to people because human beings are inherently more evil than good there is a shred of good in every human being the most nasty human has a little bit of good but the majority of humans in fact All humans regardless of if they say I'm an empath there's no such thing as a human there's no such thing as an inherently good or more good than bad human there are only really self-aware effective bad people who gather bad but there's others but they are aware of their badness so they're not going to hurt anybody with and they can channel it in a healthy way. Then finally there are people who have some kind of reward or something the consequence for their actions that can and will be done against. Since most mental health is done to vulnerable people who have been stripped of their credibility to be able to talk on behalf of these things the instructor of everything they've been they've been horribly treated there's there's no such thing as anything and it attracts predators it's like why are there so many pedophiles in school because you're got a vulnerable group that's never going to be taken seriously that will never in a million years be listened to that is unfortunately all densely packed in a single area. And it's like snakes or lions or tigers if you concentrate a prayer source you're going to attract predators.
WOW!!! You have just made a fan for life!!! Thank God I came across you!!! I have never heard anything like You before! The speech at the end brought tears to my eyes. I feel you completely! Love you forever and I will pray for you. Please never go mainstream. You are worth more than that. ❤
I have been a full time career songwriter since 1979. I have been successful and I thought I knew the whole thing. This piece has shown me how amazing songwriting can be ... I found you accidentally ... I need other people to hear it ... I love this
@@kelseychatski7046 I was absolutely gobsmacked by this video! It went from curious imagery to humorous chorus/hook to skillful sophistry to spiritually uplifting affirmation of humanity. Who the hell is this guy? How have I not heard of him before? Where can I listen to more of him? Brilliant, just brilliant!!!
I am 61 years old and I've heard and seen plenty in my life. But this...this reduces me to tears each time I hear it. It's a masterpiece Ren. So raw and real. Funny and sad. Heartbreaking but redemptive. Love to you from downunder mate. Keep well and keep writing and playing. I will be following and listening.
I hope you write a book someday, Ren. I know what the hallucinations and chronic illness are like. I'm 57 and you blow my freaking mind. You are a light and a kind of healer 💚
I commented under one of Ren's other songs talking about my depression. I have never seen so much support from another community online. YOU GUYS (including Ren) are the real treasure. Keep being awesome, the world needs you!
damn man/mann't that's so nice, It's so nice to hear that you were heard, being heard is a huuuugeeee step, especially if you feel heard, to me it's 70% of the way of recovery. I hope you're doing better than you did a month ago. Don't tell yourself you need to improve everyday, sometimes there is a setback, which isn't back to 0, but back to the last point, it's okay and you'll do it, i have no clue who you are, but the fact that you are even thinking about if you're worth it, makes you worth it. You're great
In 9 minutes and 20 seconds, I went from Smiling > Laughing > Empathizing > Appreciating > Enjoying > Respecting > Marveling > Feeling Disrupted > Feeling Inspired > and … CRYING… and then when the song ended, sitting speechless for a long while. This is the first time I have come across your music, and you are right, you are a GENIUS! Better yet, you’re a captivating artistic genius! Thank you for putting this into the world! WOW!
My brother showed me this last night and I was captivated. The guitar skill (bass player 25+ years) with singing and rapping around... the tone, the dissonance, the timing, the lyrics... this WILL be timeless. Hi Ren, we relate to you, and all that you do, hi friend, whether you're there or you're not, we stand with you.
This guy may not be the next Jimi Hendrix but he will be the first Ren. And what I've heard from him in music and poetry over the last few years is already making waves. Ren is a concentrate of talent and creativity that connects. People of different musical genres, skin colors and age groups come together and enjoy his works. This is so much more than music!
When his voice cracks at 3:50, it tears my heart apart because it sounds like he's used to no one believing in him so he has to keep his head high and believe hard enough for himself. ❤ keep doing what you're doing Ren, you're amazing!
I'm a combat vet that suffers from PTSD, depression and bipolar. And with all the doctors I had I felt never understood me, but with this one song I felt I finally found someone that gets me. Thank you for this masterpiece.
For the person that said he couldn't have been a soldier of he ws diagnosed with bi polar.. I'm a US Army veteran.. 15th Signal. And I have a diagnosis of bi polar from the Department of Veterans Affairs hospital. Also depression, anxiety amd adhd. Real textbook looney bird I guess.. But went in I had a clean bill of health mind body and soul. I don't know how's any of those conditions work.. If they hand just lay dormant until they didn't. Or if they were developed post service. But there are VA hospitals all over this c mountry full of folks with conditions that would have disqualified them initially
This leaves me jaw opened. This song grips on my souls edge in so many ways. I had to hear most parts twice or even a third time to realize what lyrical brilliance i have just witnessed. Im glad that there are still high artists who produce such masterpieces out of their heart, instead of what numbers say. Efford and emotionless music on the charts. This is another league. I have no words left.
Same here. I was listening on my way home from work and literally restarted this video four times because I wanted to fully understand what was being said and from where. I struggle with bipolar and addiction so this hit on so many levels. I struggle to articulate the battle between and he absolutely nailed it. Beautiful doesn’t quite capture it. Cracked open, real, raw, vulnerable.. Unlike most things you’ll encounter these days. I am people and I respect it ✊🏼
I don't really know what to say. I'm 60 years old, and I honestly can't remember ever hearing a song for the first time that stopped me in my tracks like this one did. That brought me to tears like this one. This song demands to be heard...it needs to be heard...it's a song for every human being who has ever struggled with mental illness and thought that there was no way through, no light at the end of the tunnel. I was one of them. Thank you for baring your soul. ❤️
my heart goes out to you my son who is 44 years old has been off his meds for 8 month's now and he is coming back to us,l will most certainly make sure he listens to this, l was going to say song but it is more a work of fine art a masterpiece you would think he can't top this but it would not matter
@@jaysea1553 I'm so glad that you're getting your son back...and that he's finding himself again. Much love and healing thoughts to you, your son, and your whole family. Much better days are ahead. ❤️
Sir! i am 38 years old an i ve never been in such hard times....i guess.....i am a soldier from Austria and i ve seen things.....i really like your song and can see similitaries! your song is fckn genius! your THE fckn 2024 Bard! thank you for this and all of your music
Hi Ren . The very best performance I've ever seen in my 64 years here on earth . Thank You Man . Everyone should listen to this and hear the words you sing and speak . 🙏❤️🙏
My beloved brother is on the schizophrenic spectrum and this song is so much like what he experiences. Your words went straight through my heart. I'm fighting to save him from human rights violations right now, he was brutalized by police and now held in isolation. If I could trade places with him, I would. I will not give up, not while I still breathe. I will listen to your words everyday as I fight for him, a reminder of his struggle and the hope that remains. Wishing you healing and peace, Ren. Thank you for standing in your power!!!!! You're a gift to the world!!!!!
I work in Suicide Prevention I will be definitely telling callers to listen to your song. I think this song will understand we all have darkness and light and we have to learn the dance and appreciate ourselves. I think this song will help them. ❤️
Absolutely no doubt. This young lad is a genius. He is not only innately talented, but is clever and has such wisdom ,as to true this round and use it to his advantage . So many messages in this track for us all.
As a diagnosed DID person who deals a lot with these thougths i can say It does help. It shows that there are people who understand and that these peoples are able to finds the words we couldn't .
This is my first ever comment on UA-cam, I'm a 54 yr old British man living in America. This affected me in so many beneficial ways, I can't list them. You deserve so much admiration and respect. It makes me proud to be British. 🇬🇧
G-day, I’m a 54 year old Australian woman who has British ancestry. 😊 I’ve always enjoyed British music, comedy etc. I’ve never really got into this kind of music, until now discovered this talented young man through Justin Hawkins of the Darkness who’s British rock band I really enjoy there music. I just felt the need to comment welcome to the world of you tube commenting lol. Hope you & your family are doing well in this crazy messed up world at the moment. 🇦🇺🇬🇧😊🐨🦘🦈🐊
Not really proud to admit it, but I think the words really are more elegant over there than it is here in the states. It’s like they have more meaning and they are aesthetically pleasing as well. I’ve been wanting to add proper as an adjective and call my friends mates but it wouldn’t sound right here I don’t think! 😂
Don't know your verse beginning at 6:20 always brings me to tears I always hold back but at a pitiful attempt. This song hits me hard and I've shared it with my children which they've also become fans. You bring bring REAL, SOLID, HEART-FELT, TRUE music. Not only through beats and melodies and rhythm or verses but with feeling that is felt within every bit of our. . . . At least my soul. Keep pushin Ren. Your music IS making a difference.
I am 72 soon to be 73 this song had me in tears it was a flashback to my younger years and still So real today, yet we persevere. Ren you are not alone we all struggle with demons. Love you young man!
What’s good about this song, is nobody can cover it, nobody can play it exactly like him, nobody can copy it, it’s forever Ren’s own, and nobody can take that from him. And this song is eye opening. (Dang, 574 likes?)
This moved me in a way I hadn’t been touched by music in many years. Certainly not today’s music. Your story is inspiring beyond words. This work of art is a MASTERPIECE IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD.
Ren, as a physician I would like to thank you for this monumental exploration of the human condition. This is exactly what those of us that have suffered with psychic distress needed. Shame on CNN and their editorial and journalistic malpractice in creating the impression that your music is somehow dangerous to those having suicidal ideation. Of course, anything and anyone can be blamed for romanticizing self-harm but in my professional opinion, there is a greater therapeutic healing associated with an honest approach to this subject. CNN should be ashamed of themselves.
As a Veteran who has struggled and battled with PTSD for 13 years, this song hits harder than anything I've watched or listened to. I know all too well that voice which isn't your own, putting you down at every turn. Thank you for creating this raw, emotional and beautiful masterpiece.
Ren you helped me through depression, thank you so much. I’m still recovering fully, but thanks to this song, and many, many of your other songs, I’m still on this planet. Your an amazing artist, and whenever I was at a low (which was a lot 😅) I put this on. If only I could repay you, thank you brother 🙏
You are BRILLIANT! I am 78(almost) and this is such a thought provoking insight into ego and alter ego. You, young man, are going places. Don’t let the sharks take advantage of your talent. Stay true!!!
@@RenMakesMusic Hi Ren. Thanks for the amazing art. You know this wont go viral in these decades of fakeness and lies. People wear masks many faces at different places and times and The devil took the light wear it looks like the angels are actually the devils now.. and they might stabbing your back.. confusing and complicated this world is these days its kinda annoying. Like the world is upside down now. Alot of things are still wrong. Needs to be fixed. But will someone fixed it? Anyone? Who knows. A Hero Maybe. Someone. No one. You know, "Too much love will kill you." - Brian May Yeah too much colors. Too many rules we break. Whats the difference with animals? They live with no rules so... yeah And i think... I want to break those masks. Yeah its sounds silly and naive. But Thats one of my dreams in the future. I know this aint goin any easy. But Ill try my worst to make it all come true. Anyway. And you Thank you I wont forget you and your amazing work of art. Really amazing. It wont go viral no but it will have much respect from me and other big fans of yours. Its the path of music you choosed this one. Amazing. Just. Wow. 🙏🏻👍🏻
FUCK..... ME. I've never felt that way watching music before. It's like he tore out my soul, showed it to me, gave it a clean and a cuddle and put it back in again. What a talent. I hope he has a great life.
I'm a breast cancer survivor who wrote three songs in the 80s. One is a hit. I've always been afraid they weren't good enough, and if one was, someone would steal it. I don't want the songs dying with me. I've just moved to Nashville and REN has given me the courage to try, and I'm old and dislike most rap! Hi Ren is performance art, unique and amazing considering today's music😘
My best friend's son moved to Nashville, Marcus has found success with his music and he's touring the world! Try to find Marcus King and tell him his hometown Greenville, SC homey kes, sent you to meet him and turn him onto Ren's 'Hi Ren' video. Marcus struggles with mental challenges and he needs to hear Ren's healing music! Good luck with your music and I hope you meet up with Marcus King! Rock On, kes
Ren, this was incredible. At 14 I began fighting autoimmunity. At 20 began illness and dialysis At 26 was diagnosed with PTSD and Psychosis. I've never been able to speak of my battles. Nobody understood. Man, that speech in the end broke me. I know how to describe my life to the ones I love man. Thank you.
Chronic fatigue syndrome here and CTPSD. I believe the two are linked - one goes down, the other does. Physical and mental.. Hugely grateful to Ren for the superbly creative way to express all this and others for sharing their journey. xxxx
I have a suggestion for you, since it started with autoimmunity, look into nutritional therapy, carnivore diet, keto diet modifications, doctors are introducing that as a treatment, paychiatrist Chris Palmer is one. Please look into things that are even very unpopular at this time. You are accountable for your health, don’t just deal with symptoms.
@user-my4iv6pp7l god isn't real! If there truly was a creator do you honestly believe he'd be happy with humankind destroying and polluting 'His' creation? Humankind CONSTANTLY killing each other? No! There is no higher power, there is only humans exploiting each other, killing each other, hating each other! Your prayers have no effect. Religion is just a tool of oppression, keeping others under control and in fear.
God bless man! I was also on dialysis for 3 years! Kidneys destroyed. Was lucky enough to have a transplant 3 years ago. I have PTSD from what I went through but life in itself is really incredible. Now I try and find the pleasure in even the smallest of details and that seems to keep me in tune. Wish you all the best!
I am a musician, writer, and artist, and all I can say is I have never produced nor seen anything as genuine and moving as this. A most exceptional approach to demon-killing and expression.
I’m crying. I never thought someone could really express how it feels like, how it is inside one’s head. The imposter syndrome, the depression, the anxiety, the demons. I’m still battling with mine and I hope I can learn how to relax and dance.
Jesus loves you and he will help you pull out of these dark times and remember he is coming back for all the believers and we will be taken up into the clouds with him
People talk talk talk about Jesus and G_d and salvation and all of this stuff. It sounds like lies and propaganda but like every other "conspiracy theory", it's all true. Soften to the will of the Lord Jesus and He will change you and heal you. I know from personal experience. G_d bless.
Your song is so incredibly inspiring for me personally, as it resonates so perfectly with my own struggle. I found it exactly when i so desperately needed the hope it provides. You touched me deeply, encouraging me not to give up, but to keep fighting. So thank you so dearly for sharing it with the world! You are indeed a genius, and your music is helping changing the lives of people you'll probably not ever meet. I am now beginning a new chapter, to try to be still and relaxed, to help me dance a bit easier. I will forever know you as the voice of hope. Much love!!
I am not musically inclined at all! Also completely uneducated in it. However, I can feel the frequency, the energy , explosions in my heart, and mind, now to play it again, and again gleaning the wisdom of his words. We are kindred Ren, your one of my kind✨
“And I go by many names also. Some people know me as hope. Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope.” Absolute chills. Just a stunning piece of work, the entire 9 minutes. Huge respect and admiration.
I have never felt so seen and heard. I also didnt realize how long ive been hiding from myself do to my fear of failing. Im gonna pick back up my guitar. Just. Thank you.
Perhaps the most incredible, terrifying, entertaining, thought-provoking, depressing, inspiring, strange, and most perfect storytelling I've ever heard. Thank you for this!!!
I’ve watched so many reactions to this video and they follow a pattern. Everyone is impressed with the initial guitar skills. But when Ren starts belting in his operatic voice, they all raise an eyebrow because it’s different and not what they are expecting. But it never fails that by the time he ends the song with his next operatic phase, they are all bobbing their heads and truly feeling it because they have just gone on this journey with REN, and they feel his triumph over his negative emotions and doubts. It’s beautiful.
I'm 50 y/o artist in Ohio, USA. This song was shared on fb by a local musician. Before I was 1 min in to "Hi Ren" I was moved to stop & text the link to my 74 y/o dad a State over. He doesn't do fb, but has played guitar & supported indie music most of his life. We listened together, separately, then had a long conversation about what an incredible work of songwriting, composition, & video you'd made; how many styles it encompassed while surpassing categorization, and your mastery at all of them. The voice, the lyrics, the lights! He excitedly texted it on to his array of friends. I shared it on fb, w/ my partner, & our early 20s daughter. They shared. Everyone who listened was floored. Your message & vision has crossed age gaps & distance, and you've given people some powerful shivers in all the right ways. My most sincere congratulations to you.
This will probably get zero radio play, but deserves every grammy there is. And a Tony for performance art. The only performance in maybe the same category as this is Demi Lovato's Anyone video. The emotion, the rawness, the pain, the complete exposure of a human soul is so overwhelming and gritty. If you are not crying, you are not listening. This is unique and iconic. Rem, thank you for sharing your journey.
So I have my Bachelors in Psychology after serving in the Marines and I’m currently going for my Masters. I currently work as a Crisis Counselor at a local hospital. Ever since I heard this, I have been petitioning to my administrators to add this song to our music therapy in-patient group sessions. I couldn’t imagine a better rendition that damaged souls could relate to more and let them know that they are not alone. This is a true masterpiece, and you, sir, are a true artist and besides that, you are an inspiration to anybody with mental health issues. God bless you my guy, and be as well as you possibly can be Ren. Don’t ever stop doing what you do.💜
@WaywardWhickey117 Maybe consider the song 'Chalk Outlines' as a therapy option too? It perfectly describes the hollowed out, lost feeling that can come from some medications. They are necessary, but they come at a cost of losing a little of yourself every time you take them.
@@Budini67I use Three Days Grace, NF, Mass Of Man, 10 Years, Badflower and a few others in the therapy. It has to be considered and appropriate, since everyone’s trauma is 100% a case by case basis. Some will relate to the music, realize they aren’t alone and be uplifted. Others will hear the song, empathize with it but fall further into despair because someone put actual lyrics to their pain and by doing so, only makes them identify with the negative aspect that much more and then spiral into darkness. You have to “read the room”, as they say.
@@subspaceanomalycheck that guy’s music out. Start with ‘War Inside of Me’ Different style than him {folk/Americana} but guy writes amazing lyrics and lived them. Just like this guy. Authentic to the max.
I don’t know how the heck I found myself here watching this, but to then read someone dropping a Benjamin Tod quote - someone I had almost the same reaction to years ago when first discovering (using again) is quite something. I’ve been through rehabs, filled volumes of diaries with similar lyrics and monologues, and I’ve had my ups and downs. As a musician myself, music is what’s always gotten me through. And hearing Ren describe getting older, and learning to dance that eternal dance as the pendulum swings really hit me hard. I’m in my 30s now, married, and just had a kid. I feel like the depression fell off a while back. Then it was replaced with apathy. And my creative side seemed to go away. Then my son was born and I was given a new purpose. I still haven’t reconnected with my creative half, but I squeeze in an hour or two a day of guitar or drums between diaper changes, working, fixing the house, etc. Good to hear, and remember, that we are all human. And we’re all in this together.
The feeling, the strugle, the redemption and the tools to move forward feel similar to me. Thanks for your great music. don't let the dark site ever tell you different. You help me. And I am sure so many others to find their voice and feelings in your songs. Love you man! With kind regards, The 5 year boy 50 year old man.
Sending a message from the future and I can confidently say that this is such a refreshing and unique track and I can't get enough of it and I got it stuck on repeat now. The melody is so catchy and the lyrics are so well written. I love the dark and eerie atmosphere. Sick Boiiii!
I'm discovering this after losing my daughter, we wrote music together , and had an amazing relationship .. since losing her I have been unable to play, I am surrounded by instruments and fun equipment but yet cannot even play a note.. I was on the edge , questioning my purpose on this earth . I watched your performance and it hit me differently than anything else. All I can say is thank you.. No you did not cure me , but you have made me aware . I scheduled my first therapy session and although I still can't make music, I am hopeful that I can overcome these demons that have overtaken my mind.. Thank you Ren.
Sorry for your loss brother, I couldn't even imagine. Hope that you will get back into music because in the end, music is the therapy and music is life. My condolences and much love.
I believe in you, Seth. The music stood silent the day you lost your daughter. But I hope one day you'll play again. For although she lives in your heart, she comes alive within your music. I wish you all the best in the future. One day you'll play a note, and it'll be the most beautiful note... I'm rooting for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, message me.
I normally don't care for this type of music outside of a few outliers, but ive listened to quite a few of your songs and every song truly made me feel in a point of my life where I thought that I was numb. Your music is powerful, which is a term I reserve for a very select few artists. And for me to feel so strongly for music outside of the usual genres that I listen to means that you are really doing something right. I wish you the best and I hope that so many more people can experience your art and connection with what you're saying. What a treasure to behold.
Dude I’ve listened to this every day for the past 2 weeks and can only now write this. I have struggled with the demons for more than half my life and I’m 38 this year. I always talk about my venture with it but this “song” explains everything I try and say. You my friend will save many lives with this piece of art. Men have always kept their struggles to them selfs and I applaud you for sharing your struggles in this master piece. I will always be eternally great full for this
I love that music like this, brings people together that understand. I'm 34 and struggled with trauma for so long. It is exhausting.. you can feel very alone, but there is many of us out there. Find the others ❤
Same. But I’m 53 female. Have always hid my depression. Been my friend since 13. Diagnosed major depressive disorder. I’ve never even said it out loud. And then it became a gift. Once you step into it. I can help my older kids with their stuff and will stand in their fire. I wouldn’t want to be any other way.
@@christicameron1314 No, they won't go. You cannot win, you cannot let the demon go. You can embrace them and integrate them and when succesful in controlling the demon it will become less. However the demon will always remain, the demon always has been there. Trauma make the demon very loud and persistent. @OP thx for your service and the best of whishes in your future.
I'm 51, and I've been into music all my life. This is THE most powerful piece of art I have ever seen. This guy is Sting, Eminem, classical musician, poet, actor, performance artist, and more all in one. And then the raw, visceral message he delivers. Just. Freaking. Incredible.
Speechless! He's got it all: sincerity, storytelling, a voice, guts to be authentic with no gimmicks, no copying anyone else. I'd like to see more for sure.
Hi Ren. I'm 23. I'm from Ukraine. I'm crying. Thank you. I have obsessive compulsive disorder, depression, chronic stress, anxiety disorder and other neurological disorders. At the age of 18, i started working to buy medicines and alleviate my mental condition. I will be strong. I will keep on fighting. I will remember you. ❤️
As someone who has OCD, I know how horrible it can get to some degree for that. Paired with all those other neurological disorders, I can’t even imagine what that must be like. Rooting for you bud! The fact you’ve gotten this far shows how strong you are in my opinion.
@@thenormie got any bad teeth? I just went through 22 years of hell with the most extreme depression and anxiety symptoms along with issues they believed to be neurological. My teeth didn't hurt so I didn't know I had a massive dental infection making me sick. My left leg was almost completely useless. A prescription of Clindamycin and some extractions have changed everything. I still have mental health struggles but a lot of it is from being misdiagnosed and being given dangerous meds that didn't help me at all, in fact some of them left me with permanent problems (don't ever stop abruptly taking psych meds, it's dangerous and I don't want you to be confused and think I am advising you to stop meds at all but remember to be your own advocate for your health, doctors don't know wtf they are doing in my experience and I have the horror stories to prove it and be aware of what you take, exactly how it works and make sure the benefits outweigh the risks. I have some of the same issues you listed here and to think I went through hell for so long and so many doctors missed it and just kept giving me psych med after psych med... It makes me wonder how many other people would have symptoms minimized or alleviated with antibiotics because they have an infection or other issues that has been misdiagnosed. Basic blood and urine tests didn't tell them or me anything. I had skin issues and some other health issues but they never linked anything to a dental infection at all. Some things that might help you that helped me though ... osteopathic manipulative therapy for anxiety. Cognitive behavioral therapy, an actual psychiatrist and not a counselor or therapist (sorry, they just don't have enough education to be treating some of the people they treat and it ends up making therapy not very beneficial) and look up the 4-7-8 breathing technique and also search for a book online called From Panic To Power by Lucinda Bassett and also, all your symptoms here could also be symptoms of something bigger like autism or a more complicated diagnosis so getting a second eval and making sure you aren't misdiagnosed is never a bad idea. I am not saying you are. I am just reeling from realizing I just spent 2+ decades in hell because of a bad tooth that I didn't know was that bad because I couldn't see it, it looked fine on the front. I have struggled with anxiety, depression, PTSD and I am not OCD diagnosed but I have weird repetitive things I have to do and do counting things so it wouldn't surprise me but all I know is when I started the antibiotics, everything changed. My symptoms aren't severe like they were. I want to leave the house and I don't feel suicidal every minute of every day. I even thought about getting a job and have been able to get a few things done. People made me feel like I was crazier than I really am, they told me I was indefinitely broken and threw med after med at me. I don't know your situation or anything about you other than what you have said here but I am telling you about my situation just in case there is any possibility you could be going through a worse hell than you really need to. Having mental health struggles is hard and I don't know what healthcare in Ukraine is like, especially since the war but it's not that great here. I was someone that thought doctors knew more about things than me, after all, they went to school for years to do their job, they must be smart, right? Maybe so but they learn what they are taught and here it seems like that means you prescribe meds you know nothing about, doctors and pharmacists never really communicate enough and I know so many people being heavily medicated for psych issues and they don't get any better, some even get worse. I just want you to know if you are struggling, don't ever give up hope that there are options for you. I thought I was destined to just keep getting worse and I ended up agoraphobic because my anxiety was so bad. I can relate to your health struggles and I just don't want anyone to ever go through what I have gone through and am currently still dealing with so if there is any chance you have even one bad tooth, get it fixed. My doctor was convinced I had a neurological disorder because my leg was falling asleep, going numb and hurt like hell to walk on. She never did any tests prior to making this assumption. Come to find out, the infection was causing me to have nausea and vomiting, balance issues, my leg issues, tachycardia, ear issues, swollen glands and my mental health symptoms were really bad. When I first started getting sick I was a teenager. I grew up in a house with alcoholic and abusive parents. They didn't enforce tooth-brushing. When I was 10 I got made fun of for having gross teeth and got upset and that's when I learned most people brush 3 times a day. So I started doing so but I used the wrong toothbrush and got a hard one instead of a soft one. I ate and drank things that ruined my enamel and my parents were abusive so I was anxious all the time and would grind my teeth. They refused to let me get braces and I just had a perfect storm. The tooth that caused me all the issues was bad on the backside but I couldn't see it and when I was young, I had a cavity in that tooth filled so I never thought it was an issue after that but looking back, I started getting sick then and my anxiety because me severe then, like I said, I had always had anxiety since I could remember but now it felt more extreme like my heart might explode, I would get dizzy and go into fight or flight even if nothing was around to trigger it. My dad wouldn't take me to a doctor because he said I was faking it so I swore when I turned 18 I would go on my own and get meds like I saw on tv that would make me happy and fix everything. I didn't know those commericals we're total bullshit and that I couldn't just take a pill and get better. The doctors even made it seem like medication would make everything better. They tried me on close to 40 medications, only 1 helped but they wouldn't give me that one anymore because it's a controlled substance. Zoloft made my impulse control disappear so all my obsessive habits got really bad, nobody wanted to be around me and doctors prescribed me opiates for abdominal pain, cause unknown and I got addicted to them before the script was even finished. I feel like I tried to be proactive about my health and they made things so much worse for me and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. It wasn't just one doctor, it's all of them I have been to and it was an anxiety specialist that told me I was indefinitely broken. I am 37. I have no kids, job, I have no money and a week ago I just wanted to die because I felt like I would never get better. If not for my faith I would have killed myself long ago but I am glad I kept going. I am not fully recovered and it will be a long time before I am and I may not even be able to fully recover, it's possible I have nerve damage in my leg and I already have a heart murmur from the Cymbalta they put me on but I already feel a huge improvement and it seems like it would be easy to try someone on this med for a few days to see if symptoms improve in case they do have an infection someone missed before they try all these other dangerous meds or give out diagnosis'. If you ever struggle, I hope some of the suggestions like the book I mentioned, the therapies or especially the breathing technique help you out. I realize your situation might not be like mine at all but I couldn't keep scrolling without mentioning this in the event that there's a possibility you or anyone else could be in a similar situation and be unaware of it. I can't believe how much of a difference it made in the intensity of my symptoms and it's an easy enough thing to rule out. I noticed a change from the very first dose of antibiotics and only this specific antibiotic.
I have listened to this song a lot over the last year including a lot of reactions to it. Although I haven’t suffered personally with the same struggles a lot of people in my life have/are still fighting their demons so this song has still resonated. Unfortunately a month ago a cousin of mine only 25 took his own life and I haven’t been the same since. I will never understand exactly what he was going through and never will. I just hope more people are able to find artists like yourself and reach of for help, that pendulum will swing back to the light eventually. The loosen the noose on the rope line absolutely destroys me now, I wish he heard that voice of hope.
Just wanted to say I’m a 46 year old man, I’ve been to war, through tragedy, watched my mother and father pass in hospitals in the span of 18 months. I’ve dealt with what came to me as a father of four cuz I’ve had to. Through it all I’ve barely shown emotion, not understanding how to deal with any and all of it. This song hit me so hard. I’ve listened to it over a dozen times and I have a hard time not tearing up each and every time. It’s literally hope. It’s the epitome of watching someone rise above struggle come manifest before my eyes. I have no words to describe how much I appreciate this song, your lyrics, your performance. Thank you
Brother you are valuable, your feelings are real and deserve expression. Treat yourself the way you treat everyone else. I am a 43 year old father of 5. Recently accepted the fact that even though I am the strongest man in the room, I have never had a relationship that wasnt a bitch abusively plundering my life, especially the one with my recently dead father. Realize and celebrate yourself, bones to the rest of them for a minute.
@@Hijodeganas1 Frankly, I hear “this generation sucks” more from young people than anyone else. I get a general sense that it’s the “zoomers” who are fed up with modern culture. The people you associate with “boomers” are the ones advocating most for the proliferation of anger towards their own generation. Once upon a time they would spit on soldiers and call them baby killers… Nice try shoe-horning your arrogant generalization though.
Agreed "Why is modern music bad?" Maybe because you listen to the radio and not music. Having the tools for anyone to be able to produce has created a near infinite amount of artitsts. if you cant find something you love its a skill issue.
Ar no point in history have these lyrics been more relevant. The world is suffering a mental health crisis. Exceptional piece of art ,shocking, moving ,but above all else inspiring. 🙌
I always wonder what people's mental health was like during Rome's peak, Viking raids, Mongolian conquests, the Islamic expansion, the Crusades, the worst plagues, the Turkish invasions, European colonisation etc...
Every time I listen it - I can see and hear that joyful roar and the applause of healing gratitude (growing instantly at 6:43) among the people in front of the stage where you sing your truth live. Thank you Ren for your Waves.
Goddamn man, i'm struggling to find the words. I cannot give this a big enough endorsement, completely original, i've never ever in my life heard this sort of sound before. Poetry, rap, classical guitar. Quite possibly one of the best performances i've seen.
If you don't win a Grammy for this because it won't fit into someone else's box, don't worry about it. You've earned our admiration and appreciation. This is what we all need. Thank you for this.
The Grammy's are fucked. It's another marketing and advertising channel for the established music industry. Ren is not commercial , or if considered so, they would have to persuade established artists that they were pretending all along to not give two fucks about the existential struggle of life.
Were close to being able to hit a top 10 record spot, maybe even a number one! Pretty unbelievable for an independent record! You can help push that even further! Pre-order the Sick Boi album by clicking this link! bio.to/Ren-Sick-Boi
As always here are the lyrics for anyone who wants them, thankyou so much for watching this, really proud of it, im doing everything independently so if it moved you in someway it would mean the world to me if you gave it a share as it will help spread it all over the world :) Also out on streaming platforms too! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/hiren
Hi there Ren
It's been a little while,
Did you miss me?
You thought you’d buried me, didn't you? Risky…
Because I always come back
Deep down you know that…
Deep down you know I'm always in periphery
Ren aren't you pleased to see me? it's been weeks since we spoke bro, you know you need me
You’re the sheep, I'm the shepherd
Not your place to lead me
Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me
Hi Ren
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I've been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I'm ill
I've been making some progress lately, and I've learnt some new coping skills
So I haven't really needed you much man
I think we need to just step back and chill
Ren, you sound more insane than I do
You think that those doctors are really there to guide you?
Been through this a million times
Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to
Okay, take another pill boy
Drown yourself in the sound of white noise
Follow this 10 step program, rejoice!
All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy
Nah mate, this time it's different man trust me
I feel like things might be falling in place
And my music's been kinda doing bits too
Like I actually might do something great
And when I'm gone maybe I'll be remembered
For doing something special with myself
That's why I don't think that we should talk man
Cause when your with me it never seems to help
You think that you can amputate me?
I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we
We are one, split in two that makes one so you see
You got to kill you if you wanna kill me.
I'm not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh your music is thriving?
Delusional guy! Where's your top ten hit? Where's your interview with Oprah?
Where are your grammes Ren?
Nowhere!
Yeah but, my music's not commercial like that
I never chased numbers, statistics or stats
I Never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me so why would Iconcernn myself with that?
But my music is really connecting,
And the people who find it respect it ,
And for me that's enough ‘cause this life's been tough so it gives me a purpose I can rest in
Man you sound so pretentious !
Ren your music is so self centred,
No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself… trust me
You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations,
provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it
You wana be a big deal… Next jimi hendrix? forget it
Man it's not like that
Man it's just like that I'm inside you you twat
Nah it's not man your wrong, when I write I belong
Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song
Ren sits down,
Has a stroke of genius,
He wants to write a song that was not done previous
A battle with his subconscious…
Eminem did it
Played on guitar
Plan B did it
Man your not original you criminal, rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people's material
Ren mate we've heard it all before
Ohh "she sell sea shells on the sea shore"
Fuck you I don't need you, I don't need to hear this,
cause I'm fine by myself, I'm a genius!
and I will be great, and I will make waves, and ill shake up the whole world beneath us
That's right speak your truth, your fucking god complex leaks out of you
It's refreshing to actually hear you say it!
In stead of down play it…
“Oh the music Is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that the that's just a bonus”
Fuck you ima fucking kill you Ren
Well fucking kill me then
let's fucking have you Ren
I'm a do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?
‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die
Yeah I call the shots and so i who choose who survives
I'll tie you up in knots then I'll lock you inside
News flash…
I was created at the dawn of creation,
I am temptation
I am the snake in Eden,
I am the reason for treason
Beheading all Kings,
I am sin with no rhyme or reason,
Sun of the morning, Lucifer,
Antichrist, father of lies,
Mestophilies,
Truth in a blender,
Deceitful pretender,
The Banished avenger,
The righteous surrender
When standing in-front of my solar eclipse,
My name it is stitched to your lips so see
I won't bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal
You wana kill me? I'm enteral, immortal
I live in every decision that catalysed chaos
That causes division
I live inside death, the beginning of ends
I am you, you are me, I am you Ren
Hi Ren… I’ve been taking some time to be distant,
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I've spent half my life ill
But just as sure as the tide start turning
Just as sure as the night has dawn
Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm
I was made to be tested and twisted
I was made to be broken and beat
I was made by his hand, it's all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet
And you know me my will is eternal
And you know me you've met Me before
Face to with a beast I will rise from the east and I'll settle on the ocean floor
And I go by many names also
Some people know me as hope
Some people know me as the voice that you hear when u loosen the noose on the rope
And you know how I know how I know that I'll prosper?
Because I stand here beside you today
I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain
And I didn't once flinch or shake
So cower at the man I've become
When I sing from the top of my lungs
That I won't retire I'll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong
And when I am gone I will rise
In the music that I left behind
Ferocious persistent, immortal like you
we’re a coin with two different sides
When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil,
and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences...
With Illness, autoimmunity and psychosis
As I got older I realised that there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare
But there were victims and there were students
It wasn’t David verses Goliath, it's was a pendulum eternally swaying between the dark and the light,
and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast
It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance,
and like a dance, the more rigid I became the harder it got
The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps the more i suffered
And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier
It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods
And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.
Fking genius ❤
My guy this art of yours comes in so many forms
Hi ren :D
I'm so grateful that I found you , holy that recommendation changed my life. Thank you, Ren
Utterly brilliant mate. Needed this. Thankyou.
I wanted to make this track one of the most honest and raw pieces i've made. All live stripped back with just me and a guitar, It's probably my proudest works to date, and I cant wait for you guys to see it, remember to turn on the notifications button to be reminded to join me at the premier next Thursday at 7pm GMT. See you guys there. So excited for you guys to see this
So excited!!!! ❤️
Your work is always 💯
I like music again because of you👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
so excited to be here for this 🤍
Can't wait!
Wowza! I am looking forward to hearing this one, but cannot figure out how to join the wait. You pur so much of your soul into your music it's inspiring. Hopefully I'll stumble on a busk one day!
Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed.
I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head.
When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus.
These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between.
My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished.
My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world.
The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war.
For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person.
I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought.
Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours.
I can't wait for you all to hear it.
Ren these words mean more to me than you'd ever understand. The fact you silenced that voice in your head gives me hope that I can too. Please keep on fighting. The world needs you. I've recently discovered you and TBP and you've changed my perception in ways I don't understand yet.
Can't wait, also that's very deep and I appreciate you being so open, we need that in today's world where we are supposed to be strong and independent, we need to hear about others struggles in order to deal with our own, we need to help each other.
I will add a quick story to show why being open helps others. I was trapped in a hole that I was lowered in a cage to do some work. Utter catastrophe happened and water started filling the hole. I couldn't get to the cage to get raised, I resigned to I was going to die. Luckily it got solved before I drown, I got out eventually puked out of shock and was never the same. However I didn't think about the people watching from up top, they thought they were going to watch a man die and they didn't speak about it. Not until group therapy years later and with me being completely open and crying did one guy finally let go, "I thought I was going to watch you die" saying that out loud helped him and even me understand his animosity towards me. Being vulnerable allows others to also be vulnerable and that is not a bd thing. Thank you for sharing ren, I'm sure it's going to be an amazing video
@@bookerwills8649 I'm glad you're still with us to share this story. Your story is an affirmation to my core value in life. Every interaction we have with each other is a "two way street". Travel down the other person's path before you judge or come to conclusions. If more people would Sonder this world would be a better place.
REN do u think it's a help or a hindrance when it comes to making music ? , I'm not saying it has to be one or the other just wondered if either happens to be the case
I am a psychiatric nurse. I actually learned about you from another psych. nurse. Your music is spreading and inspiring both patients and staff. Thank you for doing this. It makes a difference. It really does.
Thank you for your comment, and your contribution to helping others find wellness! If I may share, for the years that my Lyme disease was misdiagnosed, many of my symptoms showed up as psychological and neurological. I feel so grateful to have come through the other side (7 years later) and this song really inspires me to appreciate the darkness of my past as I journey in to the light. Bless!
Amazing
This is amazing
Hi Phoenix. We taught together in Ulsan about a decade ago. It's insane to come across your name on a random youtube video. Hope all is well - Lee Teacher.
I’ve written and unwritten what I want to say but my words are so 😮, so Human !
Felt very un-alone and that someone -a Human gets it !
Thank you ☺️
Keep making waves and shaking the world ❤
Ren, I'm 64 years old and I have never heard anyone come close to what my brain has done all my life. I was diagnosed with MPD in the 1980s, I spent most of my life fighting against the various raging people I've been. I went through treatment, and self-medicated, and did all the pharmaceuticals from various psychiatrists but in the end I learned to bargain, to talk, to communicate with all the things that are me. I have finally found peace in my life, I hope you find the same and please always keep creating, we need you.
"in the end I learned to bargain, to talk, to communicate with all the things that are me" hit me right in my soul
@@HumblePupp communication has been key for me, both with myself and with others. I have no filter. I'm ok with that now. I wasn't always. I've always felt like I was that square peg that people tried to hammer into the round hole and I'm over that. My brain works much better on my terms. People say not to hate yourself then every way you turn those same people are telling you to tone it down, be quiet, don't be dramatic, blend in. Excuse me but fuck that, I matter too. What you need, that matters too. I don't hurt anyone and I don't bother anyone but I'm also not going to be other than exactly who I am for anyone.
@@GlasUndMetallDamn 🥺🥺🥺
@@GlasUndMetallyou communicate your feelings in such a beautiful manner. Wishing you the best.
@@rihamy2nd Thank you, I wish you an abundance of the same, all the best.
- you did something great
- you will be remembered
- you did something special
- your music is really connected
- your music is respected
- you made waves
- you shaked the world
- you are hope
Absolute truth 💯
👌
Much Respect 🙏
I think you are a quiet genius
I can’t reply to that main thread
But I want you to know
You are a Quiet genius
I respect this song.
I don’t know you so. Can’t pretend
But this…..
Well said
This is no longer a song. This is no longer music. This is a soul splitting open and exploding into art.
beautifully put
Truth
This is life
this is america
I was thinking “of course! Music is art😊” but now 5:04 … I understand what you mean 😶
"The people who find it respect it."
Indeed.
Truth. Thanks to whatever youtube reactor who introduced me to Ren ❤
Found this guy about a month ago and i can’t stop listening. He’s so goddamned good. He touches a ton of different genres too. I’ve been so bored with music the last couple years, which is a shame since I’ve been a musician since I could hold a trumpet at 5. Ren had me actually feeling beats again.
clever, Mackey!!! Love it bro. If people listen to this master piece n say its not brilliant then they clearly dont know jack about music n talent. so as u say RESPECT IT!!!!!! nuff love bro natalie xx
Yes I will surely come off as crazy as Ren to some but I think music can find us when we need it. It's magical. I dunno if other magic is real but music exists so checkmate. Even animals like it. It makes the mammals and even plants react. Water I think I forget whatever Japanese experiment something about water and emotions maybe maybe music maybe both I don't know.
Truer words have never been uttered...in this case, eloquently, vociferously, beautifully, forcefully, benevolently....sung.
Ren, you didn’t just make a song - you made a mirror. ‘Hi Ren’ forces us to face what we hide from ourselves. And damn, it's beautiful."
I've been in and out of the mental hospital since I was a teenager, by my count eight times now. Without sharing my diagnoses (I have a lot), I regularly have psychosis on top of mood swings and panic attacks, and as hard as its been for me, it's been harder for my family that can't understand. My father showed me this, and I think he was excited to be able to feel connected to me through music that he could relate to my mental health problems.
I'm not really one to leave comments, but I wanted to say thank you.
And I want to say thank you for leaving this comment as it is just as beautiful as this song and video. 💜
Just keep swimming. Stay alive fren.
This made me cry. Thank you.
Keep strong x
All the best for you for now and in the future
I was done. Finished. Ready to check out. My military career, over. My children, raised. I was okay with becoming a statistic. I wondered, “where will I fall? 18, 12….22?” Then this song popped into my feed. Thank you Ren. Your song was like a friend reaching out in the dark to grab me just before I fall into the sweet abyss. I know there’s a lot of work ahead…but I have to save myself…I deserve being saved. Thank you. Your music is saving lives. Big love to you!
That is awesome, this to me is what should be felt, Ren is sharing and creating more awareness. We are not alone!
Hope: “The voice that u hear when u loosen the noose on the rope”
That verse hit me hard.
He also has a song about suicide. Perhaps it could help u too.
@@sesamesheltonst5197 which song is it? I’d love to know. I’ve only just now discovered Ren.
Be strong keep going good luck ❤xxx
You deserve to be saved. And loved. Please hold on, if not for yourself, for your family. And if you can hold on for them, eventually, you can see enough to hold onto yourself. You are not alone. Ever!
This guy didn't write a song, he wrote a play. An epic. A glimmer of hope for the lost and lonely. A masterpiece for centuries. 💔❤️
Eh.
100% agree, thats just genius
a modern Iliad or Oddessy in 10 minutes.
This work is sublime - It is not only for the meak, this is for absolutely everyone - for me it is eastern philosophy spoken into Western culture - and that is no easy task by any means!! BRAVO and THANK YOU!!
To be or not to be…
“And I go by many names also
Some people know me as "hope"
Some people know me as the voice that you hear
When you loosen the noose on the rope”
That line always hits me hard. It’s brings me to tears & hits me in my soul. I relate so much to this song.
Same. He's brilliant. And you're not alone.
My little Brothers name is REN. Ren went missing and I thought he was dead. I searched the internet high and low for clues and then I came upon your video HI-REN. It was as if My brother was singing his personal Anthem. You share his name and his struggle. After 5 months I found my brother safe. I shared with him this video, we watched it together and cried from the deepest part of our souls. Your message is so needed in this chaotic world and HOPE is the light we look to. In pure gratitude for your gift…. Thank you Ren.
❤
A tangible, believable, soul-piercing HOPE
❤
❤❤
Bullshit.
Kicked heroin a year and half ago after 12 years of using and trying to just end it man. To be be fully honest with yall.
This song has meant more than any song I've ever heard. I can't express it.
Truly.
How can one put into words the way a piece of art shakes and breaks your entire soul.
Thank you.
Thank you for creating.
Thank you all for being here to support and relate to this..
I love you.
You are beautiful.
Things get better.
Suicide attempt survivor here, only one way....UP. LOVE in Christ to you. Hug.
He sings from his soul , doesn't he. He reminds me of someone I lost recently, who also used music to try to heal his issues, but this artist has a strength my loved one couldn't quite manage. I've survived a severe chronic pain issue that started in the late 80s so know how to fight for life. I hope you find the strength you need, when you need it. And if you don't mind my best advice... positive reinforcement works amazingly well. On my worst days, if I repeat I'm having the best day ever, 3 times, within 20 minutes I'll realize I'm doing so much better. Blessings to you.
That's beautiful. The first year & a half were the hardest for me. You're doing something incredibly difficult, so be proud. It gets a little easier as you go, so keep going.
So agree, thank you, bless you take care
Not going to lie, it’s a life long battle. It does get easier but only with time and therapy if needed and that’s your jam. I too felt this song, the lyrics in my soul. Please know, if you don’t succeed today then just try again tomorrow. You’ll get there. Best of luck to you!💜
This came up randomly on my feed… my mind is truly blown. I’m lost for words. Incredible art. More than just a song.
Me to at 12am this morning. I'm back for the 3rd time. Watched a few other videos. REN is Brilliant 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 yes, it's the story of his life. Read his drop down. It tells about his experiences since 9 yrs old. He also says it at the end of this song😊
Same here, been listening to his songs non stop for the past few days. So much uniqueness and amazing works of art
@musicwith9lives welcome to the Renegades!
Welcome to the Reniverse ♥️🎶
Same just now. I was here again for Kurt Vile’s Pretty Pimpin’ and this was up next. Thank you, algorithm “gods”…mind blown. What a gift for me this morning
70 years young and i think this is groundbreaking . Loving it
Ren, Im a 38 year old U.S. Navy Corpsman who has been dealing with PTSD and i cant ever tell anyone how it feels to be at battle with your own insides but your song makes to so clear what its like and i cant thank you enough or your words they are beyond worthy of any award in the world but i hope my thanks is enough at this moment.
Just from some of the lyrics, I feel confident that this kind of feedback is the highest praise and satisfaction that a true, big hearted artist like this could ever want or hope for. Connection with other humans over industry praise!
37yr old Army Vet here with PTSD and severe anxiety. Ditto to your comment
Jesse, I just wanted to day thanks for your service. I was lucky enough to work with you guys during my time at NASWI SAR as a PR. You guys are seriously appreciated. Take care !
I love this song and it does help ground me when the anxiety kicks in.
He's fukin awesome. Off the scale. David Bowie would feel inferior hearing this guy
🤗
These aren’t songs. They are one-man musicals. And they are masterpieces. Profound musical therapy.
❤❤❤
Hi Ren. I am late to the party. Just found you a couple of weeks ago. Your work, and this song in particular, resonnate with most of us, if not all.
We all have our demons, our experiences and external influences and mental vounderabilities helps determine the person we shape as adults. I had to be close to 50 before i had no choice, but look into my cabinet. Better late than never, right?
I am humbeled now and accept that i have work to do, to live the rest of my life.
This song struck me. It probably affect people in milions of different ways. I have cried my eyes out to this, and see this as an essential piece of culture. Going in and out of the psych ward, i have shared your song with whomever would listen.
I just want to thank you for writing this. The world needs more of you.
Sorry for mistakes, English is not my first language.
"And the people who find it respect it."
Facts Ren. Facts.
Facts
Found it
Facts
found it yesterday, im obsessed now
🫶🏼
That is the most raw beautiful song about the human experience I’ve heard. As a therapist, this is the dance I witness in my clients, and the dance had to accept in myself as human.
Thank you, Ren, for managing to capture its pain, chaos and beauty in such a clear and touching way! This song is not only a musical masterpiece, but also a psychological one
Fuck me a year later and it’s still THE MOST IMPACTFUL musical performance I’ve ever seen or experienced
I'm a 61 yo grandma. I play an acoustic exotic wood Ibanez . Mother of pearl and abeloni inlays.
This piece of art you created is a fuckin masterpiece. Thank you
I was a teenager in the 80's and music was my passion. My spirit. I got older. Got pulled under by life. I lost my passion along the way. It's been a very long time since I came across music that touched me and made me feel that connection again. A month or two ago you popped up in my recommendations and I clicked. I am very glad that I did because for the first time, in a very long time, you've helped me feel that passion again. Thank you Ren. You have a gift that does not come along often.
Is right lad am happy for you. Rens music is amazing. Hope u enjoy your found again journey
💤 most slept on musician
I agree I could just listen to him play the guitar all day. Then his vocal journey is the icing on the cake.
I feel you bro. Im sort of in that funk now. Been several years since I have had that fire. I was once consumed by it, but life just drained me for every ounce of motivation I had. After nearly 25 years I just got lost and its been very hard to find my way back. And sadly, this time it will be alone. After decades of creating within a group, going solo is such a huge challenge for me. Artists like REN, are indeed rekindling that fire. Its a good feeling.
get back into music! get creating, you deserve it. there is nothing better. im the same way, and its where I found my spirality as a teen.
I am a 52 year old grandma. I have not heard anything so profound in my life.
What comes to mind is my favorite quote. I shall leave it here. Leave it, or take it if it resonates with your soul.
"and those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music".-Friedrich Nietzsche
This just made me cry so hard. Thank you.
You are a lovely grandma xxx
Beautifully said!! 💖🙏💖
58 here ... I'm feeling inspired by this song ... I've always wanted to leave a mark behind but never did. It's never too late
Jealous much?
You saved the life of a young man I worry about. I'm a retired teacher and after bumping into him in town, I sent him this. I envisage a huge crowd marching on Parliament to stop the attack on the NHS funding for young people's mental health with everyone singing this together. You have given me, an old lady hope. To see this amount of passion and determination in the younger generation is exhilarating. But more than that Ren - you saved a life.
My heart just exploded in the most beautiful way. 💛
To save a life is a monumental thing for anyone to do but to help many more to feel better about themselves and maybe save many more to realise death is inevitable but the longer you hang in there the better the chances of seeing there can be more to hang on to and find your own place in the world. Ren has an ability to do this and so do we all.
I think *you* saved that life x
Love your music bro n ya spirit it’s inspiring in this mad world! Much love bro
You saved him too
Holy shit. Ren, you weren't wrong when you said you were a genius. This hits harder than a head-on collision and I'm so impressed. Congrats, mate.
I am a woman in my seventies. I gave up on today’s music , for some years now, then last week, I heard Ren!! I haven’t felt so excited, inspired and enthralled by music, since I first heard David Bowie in the 70’s...... he said, Rock was the art form of the working class.... I think Ren just gave a voice to a whole generation of disenfranchised young people of today, and those of all ages struggling with their own mental health..... deep and wonderful , thank you Ren ❤️
He speaks for so many of us…
U ain't 70 lol
@@n0l1f3music you don’t actually have no life
Calm down ol' hag
I am a man in my 30s who'd also given up. I missed the story telling. The movie like aspect music used to carry. Growing up on marty robbins and the like there was a story for the song. This blows me away and makes me so happy that the story telling and meaningful music isn't dead. We're not limited to a beat and some words. Thank you to Ren
Came here from Tiktok, Ren has consumed my attention for hours now. You really have a gift, I cannot wait to see how your career unfolds. May it be a long and healthy one sir
Today at 11:50pm I found this piece. And it’s the last 10 minutes of the 4th anniversary of losing my father to suicide. He endured a long battle with depression, drug abuse, and extremely severe psychosis. Eventually the demons won and took him from us. I know that if he were here he would have loved this video. In my years of seeing my fathers struggle, I’ve never quite heard anyone put it into perspective like this. And for that, I thank you Ren. RIP papa I love you ❤️
Lost my sister Oct 29, 2021 to suicide.. Agree with your comment. Wishing you love & peace until you're reunited with your Daddy..❤🕊️❤️
@@jennybeam7226 😐
Phil's wife Susan here. Have you listened to Ren's song "Suicide". I lost my Dad to this when I was nine years old and found Ren's songs about this subject cathartic to listen to. Just hearing the word being sung out loud which nobody would talk about back then. If you enjoyed "Hi Ren" I recommend checking out more of his catalogue. There is heaps of great music on it.
God bless
I'd say it was a draw, don't forget he also killed the demons.
I found this song couple of days ago and it broke me into milion pieces and built me up back again and I think I am changed forever.
You are amazing artist and I feel blessed and inspired that I fould you and I hope I will see you making great things
Hi Ren,
I don't know if you're reading this and I thought long and hard about what I'm going to say... It was just unbelievable, it had such an impact. You don't need millions of listeners to make the difference. What you do is unique, uniquely good. Please do not stop. We need you! Lots of love from Germany.
HE SAID THE THING
Ren, I'm 66 years old. I've been a music fan for as long as I can remember. This isn't a song, this is opera, this is something altogether new. This has touched me like nothing before. Keep fighting the good fight. And remember there is always "Hope" .
Man I'm 61yo and totally agree... this is inspiring and brilliant, sad yet eye opening
I’m a therapist in my 60’s, this dragged me from high to low to high again, just like the pendulum Ren describes. Standing ovation from me 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
As hard as it is to live with constant swing from light to dark… think how much more it would take to cope with constant mediocre greyness!
Oh, you like music from retards?
I don't think you understand the meaning of this song. He's proving that you are the bad guy as a therapist. As well psychologists are the bad guys. You're never going to beat mental illness it's just going to exist whether you try to extinguish it or not. And all of your so-called therapies do more harm than good. You're hurting people with your practice it's not medicine but government incentivize torture of a vulnerable group. Anyone who knows what they're talking about knows that's the fact
georgekaknes, sorry that you've had such a bad experience with therapists. Like everything, there are good and bad therapists out there. And this song is not about that in any way. You're just reading into it. Ren does criticize the medical system, including the kind of therapists that are dismissive of their patient's true concerns, but he doesn't paint all of them with that brush
@@cathywethington5913 you would be right except for the fact that the only good therapist and this is a scientific fact proven by math and statistics. The only good therapist out their base their their findings on brain scans and objective evidence it's actually called objective evidence-based science. None of that is actually available to poor people or people on disability benefits. Unfortunately I have no evidence of a disability but the system especially the mental health system and my own family screwed me the f*** over. Not only do I have more intelligence than we don't have any intellectual disability there's no evidence of any kind of disability. Even the doctors that treat me knew this you know I was not only not intellectually disabled but brilliant they had no evidence you have no evidence to make any of their claims. Of course if you're rich this is a very different story. Do you know how many doctors that go towards poor people just don't care. Again it's not their fault you're concentrating of vulnerable presource.the toxic combination of extreme poverty usually people that actually would normally be in that situation are vulnerable because their families are horrible families like my own. Can you usually there's a lack of common Sense on the part of the parents that think that you know these things are happening. You're right there's a small very insignificant amount of therapists that will do the right thing but it's not because they're good people it's because their clientele rich people can brutally sue their asses and have a lot of say so because they have money. Are the the vast majority including those people would hurt anyone and would do everything based on complete pseudoscientific quackery and don't really care what they do to people because human beings are inherently more evil than good there is a shred of good in every human being the most nasty human has a little bit of good but the majority of humans in fact All humans regardless of if they say I'm an empath there's no such thing as a human there's no such thing as an inherently good or more good than bad human there are only really self-aware effective bad people who gather bad but there's others but they are aware of their badness so they're not going to hurt anybody with and they can channel it in a healthy way. Then finally there are people who have some kind of reward or something the consequence for their actions that can and will be done against. Since most mental health is done to vulnerable people who have been stripped of their credibility to be able to talk on behalf of these things the instructor of everything they've been they've been horribly treated there's there's no such thing as anything and it attracts predators it's like why are there so many pedophiles in school because you're got a vulnerable group that's never going to be taken seriously that will never in a million years be listened to that is unfortunately all densely packed in a single area. And it's like snakes or lions or tigers if you concentrate a prayer source you're going to attract predators.
WOW!!! You have just made a fan for life!!!
Thank God I came across you!!! I have never heard anything like You before!
The speech at the end brought tears to my eyes. I feel you completely! Love you forever and I will pray for you.
Please never go mainstream. You are worth more than that. ❤
I have been a full time career songwriter since 1979. I have been successful and I thought I knew the whole thing. This piece has shown me how amazing songwriting can be ... I found you accidentally ... I need other people to hear it ... I love this
When a 9+ minute song feels like it’s 30 seconds. Phenomenal. I got chills.
I didn't even realize how long it was until I read your comment. Wow, yeah. I was mesmerized
@@kelseychatski7046 I was absolutely gobsmacked by this video! It went from curious imagery to humorous chorus/hook to skillful sophistry to spiritually uplifting affirmation of humanity. Who the hell is this guy? How have I not heard of him before? Where can I listen to more of him? Brilliant, just brilliant!!!
yoooooooooooooooo
If you want to concider almost 2 minutes of monologuing part of the song. It's more like a 7 minute song.
I am 61 years old and I've heard and seen plenty in my life. But this...this reduces me to tears each time I hear it. It's a masterpiece Ren. So raw and real. Funny and sad. Heartbreaking but redemptive. Love to you from downunder mate. Keep well and keep writing and playing. I will be following and listening.
I hope you write a book someday, Ren. I know what the hallucinations and chronic illness are like. I'm 57 and you blow my freaking mind. You are a light and a kind of healer 💚
I commented under one of Ren's other songs talking about my depression. I have never seen so much support from another community online. YOU GUYS (including Ren) are the real treasure. Keep being awesome, the world needs you!
Just remember that sadness is different from depression... ;) 💕
World needs you too ❤
@@mystic_momma333 🙏🙏
@@robindevoh 🙏🖤
damn man/mann't
that's so nice, It's so nice to hear that you were heard, being heard is a huuuugeeee step, especially if you feel heard, to me it's 70% of the way of recovery. I hope you're doing better than you did a month ago. Don't tell yourself you need to improve everyday, sometimes there is a setback, which isn't back to 0, but back to the last point, it's okay and you'll do it, i have no clue who you are, but the fact that you are even thinking about if you're worth it, makes you worth it. You're great
In 9 minutes and 20 seconds, I went from Smiling > Laughing > Empathizing > Appreciating > Enjoying > Respecting > Marveling > Feeling Disrupted > Feeling Inspired > and … CRYING… and then when the song ended, sitting speechless for a long while. This is the first time I have come across your music, and you are right, you are a GENIUS! Better yet, you’re a captivating artistic genius! Thank you for putting this into the world! WOW!
I was quite literally "floored" when I heard/saw this for the first time.
That was exactly my response to ❤
Me also.
My brother showed me this last night and I was captivated. The guitar skill (bass player 25+ years) with singing and rapping around... the tone, the dissonance, the timing, the lyrics... this WILL be timeless.
Hi Ren, we relate to you, and all that you do, hi friend, whether you're there or you're not, we stand with you.
This could be the most powerful thing I've ever watched...
This guy may not be the next Jimi Hendrix but he will be the first Ren. And what I've heard from him in music and poetry over the last few years is already making waves. Ren is a concentrate of talent and creativity that connects. People of different musical genres, skin colors and age groups come together and enjoy his works. This is so much more than music!
"... but he will be the first Ren."
Holy shit, dude. Would that anyone ever had reason to say that about me.
There will be songs in the future referencing "you think you're the next Ren?". Guaranteed!
When his voice cracks at 3:50, it tears my heart apart because it sounds like he's used to no one believing in him so he has to keep his head high and believe hard enough for himself. ❤ keep doing what you're doing Ren, you're amazing!
I'm a combat vet that suffers from PTSD, depression and bipolar. And with all the doctors I had I felt never understood me, but with this one song I felt I finally found someone that gets me. Thank you for this masterpiece.
Man. First. Thank you for your sacrifice and service. Please keep your head up keep fighting the fight.
this doesnt add up, you wouldnt have been a soldier with bipolar
@@Dpreest maybe not diagnosed till after
@@Dpreest very judgmental
For the person that said he couldn't have been a soldier of he ws diagnosed with bi polar.. I'm a US Army veteran.. 15th Signal. And I have a diagnosis of bi polar from the Department of Veterans Affairs hospital. Also depression, anxiety amd adhd. Real textbook looney bird I guess.. But went in I had a clean bill of health mind body and soul. I don't know how's any of those conditions work.. If they hand just lay dormant until they didn't. Or if they were developed post service. But there are VA hospitals all over this c mountry full of folks with conditions that would have disqualified them initially
This leaves me jaw opened. This song grips on my souls edge in so many ways. I had to hear most parts twice or even a third time to realize what lyrical brilliance i have just witnessed. Im glad that there are still high artists who produce such masterpieces out of their heart, instead of what numbers say. Efford and emotionless music on the charts. This is another league. I have no words left.
Same here. I was listening on my way home from work and literally restarted this video four times because I wanted to fully understand what was being said and from where. I struggle with bipolar and addiction so this hit on so many levels. I struggle to articulate the battle between and he absolutely nailed it. Beautiful doesn’t quite capture it. Cracked open, real, raw, vulnerable.. Unlike most things you’ll encounter these days. I am people and I respect it ✊🏼
I don't really know what to say. I'm 60 years old, and I honestly can't remember ever hearing a song for the first time that stopped me in my tracks like this one did. That brought me to tears like this one. This song demands to be heard...it needs to be heard...it's a song for every human being who has ever struggled with mental illness and thought that there was no way through, no light at the end of the tunnel. I was one of them.
Thank you for baring your soul. ❤️
my heart goes out to you my son who is 44 years old has been off his meds for 8 month's now and he is coming back to us,l will most certainly make sure he listens to this, l was going to say song but it is more a work of fine art a masterpiece you would think he can't top this but it would not matter
I was stopped in my tracks too. So many hard-hitting ideas that need to be heard, and felt. Amazing.
@@jaysea1553 I'm so glad that you're getting your son back...and that he's finding himself again. Much love and healing thoughts to you, your son, and your whole family. Much better days are ahead. ❤️
Sir! i am 38 years old an i ve never been in such hard times....i guess.....i am a soldier from Austria and i ve seen things.....i really like your song and can see similitaries! your song is fckn genius! your THE fckn 2024 Bard! thank you for this and all of your music
Hi Ren . The very best performance I've ever seen in my 64 years here on earth . Thank You Man . Everyone should listen to this and hear the words you sing and speak . 🙏❤️🙏
Isn't it great?! I just stumbled on this yesterday and didn't expect it to be like this..
I agree🙏👏👏👏👏👏 Not Because I’m 64, but,😎 I Am 64… And I Totally Agree 😊
@@micheleclifford8969 Good taste young sir :)
Edit: Cheers to many more years and Merry Christmas!
My beloved brother is on the schizophrenic spectrum and this song is so much like what he experiences. Your words went straight through my heart. I'm fighting to save him from human rights violations right now, he was brutalized by police and now held in isolation. If I could trade places with him, I would. I will not give up, not while I still breathe. I will listen to your words everyday as I fight for him, a reminder of his struggle and the hope that remains. Wishing you healing and peace, Ren. Thank you for standing in your power!!!!! You're a gift to the world!!!!!
I work in Suicide Prevention I will be definitely telling callers to listen to your song. I think this song will understand we all have darkness and light and we have to learn the dance and appreciate ourselves. I think this song will help them. ❤️
Helen, take the next step and see that there's no dancer. Just the dance.☯
Absolutely no doubt. This young lad is a genius. He is not only innately talented, but is clever and has such wisdom ,as to true this round and use it to his advantage . So many messages in this track for us all.
As a diagnosed DID person who deals a lot with these thougths i can say
It does help. It shows that there are people who understand and that these peoples are able to finds the words we couldn't .
Love your work, keep on sharing, this song saves lives. #Ren thankyou
And to think that CNN falsely claimed that "Hi Ren" endorsed suicide. How wrong they are.
This is my first ever comment on UA-cam, I'm a 54 yr old British man living in America. This affected me in so many beneficial ways, I can't list them. You deserve so much admiration and respect. It makes me proud to be British. 🇬🇧
G-day, I’m a 54 year old Australian woman who has British ancestry. 😊 I’ve always enjoyed British music, comedy etc. I’ve never really got into this kind of music, until now discovered this talented young man through Justin Hawkins of the Darkness who’s British rock band I really enjoy there music. I just felt the need to comment welcome to the world of you tube commenting lol. Hope you & your family are doing well in this crazy messed up world at the moment. 🇦🇺🇬🇧😊🐨🦘🦈🐊
Not really proud to admit it, but I think the words really are more elegant over there than it is here in the states. It’s like they have more meaning and they are aesthetically pleasing as well. I’ve been wanting to add proper as an adjective and call my friends mates but it wouldn’t sound right here I don’t think! 😂
I'm a DJ and musician for over 30 years...and this tune has left me speechless ...unreal it's like a compilation album in one song ....amazing
Don't know your verse beginning at 6:20 always brings me to tears I always hold back but at a pitiful attempt. This song hits me hard and I've shared it with my children which they've also become fans. You bring bring REAL, SOLID, HEART-FELT, TRUE music. Not only through beats and melodies and rhythm or verses but with feeling that is felt within every bit of our. . . . At least my soul. Keep pushin Ren. Your music IS making a difference.
I am 72 soon to be 73 this song had me in tears it was a flashback to my younger years and still So real today, yet we persevere. Ren you are not alone we all struggle with demons. Love you young man!
This is brave, beautiful, chaotic, chilling, scary, and so relatable. This fvcking brilliant
Perfectly spoken !! I love this !! FLINT MI 💓 LOVES ❤️
What’s good about this song, is nobody can cover it, nobody can play it exactly like him, nobody can copy it, it’s forever Ren’s own, and nobody can take that from him. And this song is eye opening. (Dang, 574 likes?)
He aint worrying about that 💅
@@roxyfoxyfoxyroxy lol
@@roxyfoxyfoxyroxy HA! You’re not wrong, it’s just cool, you don’t have people copying something you put your heart and soul into.
Totally🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
@@WOFDragonNerd absolutely right!!!
This moved me in a way I hadn’t been touched by music in many years. Certainly not today’s music. Your story is inspiring beyond words. This work of art is a MASTERPIECE IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD.
Ren, as a physician I would like to thank you for this monumental exploration of the human condition. This is exactly what those of us that have suffered with psychic distress needed. Shame on CNN and their editorial and journalistic malpractice in creating the impression that your music is somehow dangerous to those having suicidal ideation. Of course, anything and anyone can be blamed for romanticizing self-harm but in my professional opinion, there is a greater therapeutic healing associated with an honest approach to this subject. CNN should be ashamed of themselves.
One must first be self-aware to be ashamed 😁
@@mishterpreshident BINGO!
What the hell! CNN criticized this artists music as being dangerous?? But this song is such a great powerful message. Wow SMH
CNN? Why watch drivel? Why watch dishonest journalism? Why watch television period!?!
Yes they should. If they listened to Chalk Outlines they could see a little deeper. But CNN doesn't want healing, let's be real.
As a Veteran who has struggled and battled with PTSD for 13 years, this song hits harder than anything I've watched or listened to. I know all too well that voice which isn't your own, putting you down at every turn.
Thank you for creating this raw, emotional and beautiful masterpiece.
I'm here with you brother
Couldn't have said it better myself.
Word
🤗💗
And how hard it is when that voice IS yours and you can't stop it.
Ren you helped me through depression, thank you so much. I’m still recovering fully, but thanks to this song, and many, many of your other songs, I’m still on this planet. Your an amazing artist, and whenever I was at a low (which was a lot 😅) I put this on. If only I could repay you, thank you brother 🙏
You are BRILLIANT! I am 78(almost) and this is such a thought provoking insight into ego and alter ego. You, young man, are going places. Don’t let the sharks take advantage of your talent. Stay true!!!
Wow, you're beautiful! Never would've guessed you're in your 70's! Agree, Ren is talented!!
YOU ARE THE WINNER FOR THE OLDEST ASS HEAD IN THIS COMMENT SECTION, GOOD JOB, quick question: can u still walk?
This is an incredible piece of art. So proud of you, Ren. Stay strong for us.
Thanku means a lot :)
@@RenMakesMusic Hi Ren. Thanks for the amazing art. You know this wont go viral in these decades of fakeness and lies. People wear masks many faces at different places and times and The devil took the light wear it looks like the angels are actually the devils now.. and they might stabbing your back.. confusing and complicated this world is these days its kinda annoying. Like the world is upside down now. Alot of things are still wrong. Needs to be fixed. But will someone fixed it? Anyone? Who knows. A Hero Maybe. Someone. No one.
You know,
"Too much love will kill you."
- Brian May
Yeah too much colors. Too many rules we break. Whats the difference with animals? They live with no rules so... yeah
And i think...
I want to break those masks. Yeah its sounds silly and naive. But
Thats one of my dreams in the future. I know this aint goin any easy. But Ill try my worst to make it all come true. Anyway.
And you
Thank you
I wont forget you and your amazing work of art. Really amazing. It wont go viral no but it will have much respect from me and other big fans of yours. Its the path of music you choosed this one. Amazing. Just. Wow. 🙏🏻👍🏻
And for yourself.
I agree
FUCK..... ME. I've never felt that way watching music before. It's like he tore out my soul, showed it to me, gave it a clean and a cuddle and put it back in again. What a talent. I hope he has a great life.
I hope he does, too. Ever since I discovered this song I can’t stop listening to it. One of the few I can’t get sick of.
@@sadiehelen❤
You articulated this perfectly. It did something to my soul that is beyond description.
Well said ❤
Well said 😊
I'm a breast cancer survivor who wrote three songs in the 80s. One is a hit. I've always been afraid they weren't good enough, and if one was, someone would steal it. I don't want the songs dying with me. I've just moved to Nashville and REN has given me the courage to try, and I'm old and dislike most rap! Hi Ren is performance art, unique and amazing considering today's music😘
My best friend's son moved to Nashville, Marcus has found success with his music and he's touring the world! Try to find Marcus King and tell him his hometown Greenville, SC homey kes, sent you to meet him and turn him onto Ren's 'Hi Ren' video. Marcus struggles with mental challenges and he needs to hear Ren's healing music! Good luck with your music and I hope you meet up with Marcus King! Rock On, kes
do you by any chance have those songs on Spotify? i’d love to listen.
Ren, this was incredible.
At 14 I began fighting autoimmunity. At 20 began illness and dialysis
At 26 was diagnosed with PTSD and Psychosis.
I've never been able to speak of my battles. Nobody understood. Man, that speech in the end broke me. I know how to describe my life to the ones I love man.
Thank you.
Also look up nervus vagus therapy and parasymphatic tuning. They are reaching extraordinary results with both illnesses.Evidence based!
Chronic fatigue syndrome here and CTPSD. I believe the two are linked - one goes down, the other does. Physical and mental.. Hugely grateful to Ren for the superbly creative way to express all this and others for sharing their journey. xxxx
I have a suggestion for you, since it started with autoimmunity, look into nutritional therapy, carnivore diet, keto diet modifications, doctors are introducing that as a treatment, paychiatrist Chris Palmer is one. Please look into things that are even very unpopular at this time. You are accountable for your health, don’t just deal with symptoms.
@user-my4iv6pp7l god isn't real! If there truly was a creator do you honestly believe he'd be happy with humankind destroying and polluting 'His' creation? Humankind CONSTANTLY killing each other? No! There is no higher power, there is only humans exploiting each other, killing each other, hating each other! Your prayers have no effect. Religion is just a tool of oppression, keeping others under control and in fear.
God bless man! I was also on dialysis for 3 years! Kidneys destroyed. Was lucky enough to have a transplant 3 years ago. I have PTSD from what I went through but life in itself is really incredible. Now I try and find the pleasure in even the smallest of details and that seems to keep me in tune. Wish you all the best!
I am a musician, writer, and artist, and all I can say is I have never produced nor seen anything as genuine and moving as this. A most exceptional approach to demon-killing and expression.
I’m crying. I never thought someone could really express how it feels like, how it is inside one’s head. The imposter syndrome, the depression, the anxiety, the demons. I’m still battling with mine and I hope I can learn how to relax and dance.
You will just keep the lord Jesus Christ in your sight
Jesus loves you and he will help you pull out of these dark times and remember he is coming back for all the believers and we will be taken up into the clouds with him
Yes.
People talk talk talk about Jesus and G_d and salvation and all of this stuff. It sounds like lies and propaganda but like every other "conspiracy theory", it's all true. Soften to the will of the Lord Jesus and He will change you and heal you. I know from personal experience. G_d bless.
When the light shines, you'll see it with your soul .
Your song is so incredibly inspiring for me personally, as it resonates so perfectly with my own struggle.
I found it exactly when i so desperately needed the hope it provides.
You touched me deeply, encouraging me not to give up, but to keep fighting.
So thank you so dearly for sharing it with the world!
You are indeed a genius, and your music is helping changing the lives of people you'll probably not ever meet.
I am now beginning a new chapter, to try to be still and relaxed, to help me dance a bit easier.
I will forever know you as the voice of hope.
Much love!!
I believe this is the most lyrically and psychologically courageous and impactful musical performance I've ever seen. Thank you Ren.
I am 53 years old and making music since 15. But this guy is a genius. This is perfect Art. I really respect him and what he is doing !
I agree, it’s awesome!
@@tomasrosa4430 then go?
@@tomasrosa4430then why are you here commenting ?
I am not musically inclined at all! Also completely uneducated in it. However, I can feel the frequency, the energy , explosions in my heart, and mind, now to play it again, and again gleaning the wisdom of his words. We are kindred Ren, your one of my kind✨
Is there somewhere i can find your work?
“And I go by many names also.
Some people know me as hope.
Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope.”
Absolute chills. Just a stunning piece of work, the entire 9 minutes. Huge respect and admiration.
Those lyrics got me also.
That's the bit that finally cracked me the first time through.😭
I have never felt so seen and heard. I also didnt realize how long ive been hiding from myself do to my fear of failing. Im gonna pick back up my guitar. Just. Thank you.
Perhaps the most incredible, terrifying, entertaining, thought-provoking, depressing, inspiring, strange, and most perfect storytelling I've ever heard. Thank you for this!!!
I’ve watched so many reactions to this video and they follow a pattern. Everyone is impressed with the initial guitar skills. But when Ren starts belting in his operatic voice, they all raise an eyebrow because it’s different and not what they are expecting. But it never fails that by the time he ends the song with his next operatic phase, they are all bobbing their heads and truly feeling it because they have just gone on this journey with REN, and they feel his triumph over his negative emotions and doubts. It’s beautiful.
Ive just described this to a friend as :- There's a moment in the video where you stop critiquing and just listen. Every persons moment is different.
@Suvi Eskelinen THANK YOU
Expressed so well
Well said!
Exactly what I've noticed as well and like myself, initially speechless at the end
I'm 50 y/o artist in Ohio, USA. This song was shared on fb by a local musician. Before I was 1 min in to "Hi Ren" I was moved to stop & text the link to my 74 y/o dad a State over. He doesn't do fb, but has played guitar & supported indie music most of his life. We listened together, separately, then had a long conversation about what an incredible work of songwriting, composition, & video you'd made; how many styles it encompassed while surpassing categorization, and your mastery at all of them. The voice, the lyrics, the lights! He excitedly texted it on to his array of friends. I shared it on fb, w/ my partner, & our early 20s daughter. They shared. Everyone who listened was floored. Your message & vision has crossed age gaps & distance, and you've given people some powerful shivers in all the right ways. My most sincere congratulations to you.
Sharing Ren is one of life's greatest pleasures 🙏.
Feel like I watched that through a crack in the door , like something I wasn’t supposed to see . Very raw , real , authentic 🔥
This will probably get zero radio play, but deserves every grammy there is. And a Tony for performance art. The only performance in maybe the same category as this is Demi Lovato's Anyone video. The emotion, the rawness, the pain, the complete exposure of a human soul is so overwhelming and gritty. If you are not crying, you are not listening. This is unique and iconic. Rem, thank you for sharing your journey.
So I have my Bachelors in Psychology after serving in the Marines and I’m currently going for my Masters. I currently work as a Crisis Counselor at a local hospital. Ever since I heard this, I have been petitioning to my administrators to add this song to our music therapy in-patient group sessions. I couldn’t imagine a better rendition that damaged souls could relate to more and let them know that they are not alone. This is a true masterpiece, and you, sir, are a true artist and besides that, you are an inspiration to anybody with mental health issues. God bless you my guy, and be as well as you possibly can be Ren. Don’t ever stop doing what you do.💜
@WaywardWhickey117 Maybe consider the song 'Chalk Outlines' as a therapy option too? It perfectly describes the hollowed out, lost feeling that can come from some medications. They are necessary, but they come at a cost of losing a little of yourself every time you take them.
@@Budini67I use Three Days Grace, NF, Mass Of Man, 10 Years, Badflower and a few others in the therapy. It has to be considered and appropriate, since everyone’s trauma is 100% a case by case basis. Some will relate to the music, realize they aren’t alone and be uplifted. Others will hear the song, empathize with it but fall further into despair because someone put actual lyrics to their pain and by doing so, only makes them identify with the negative aspect that much more and then spiral into darkness. You have to “read the room”, as they say.
“It’s the duty of artists to go into the darkness and bring something back that’s tangible for people to heal themselves with” - Benjamin Tod
Good quote
@@subspaceanomalycheck that guy’s music out. Start with ‘War Inside of Me’
Different style than him {folk/Americana} but guy writes amazing lyrics and lived them. Just like this guy. Authentic to the max.
Got goosebumps reading this lol
I don’t know how the heck I found myself here watching this, but to then read someone dropping a Benjamin Tod quote - someone I had almost the same reaction to years ago when first discovering (using again) is quite something.
I’ve been through rehabs, filled volumes of diaries with similar lyrics and monologues, and I’ve had my ups and downs. As a musician myself, music is what’s always gotten me through. And hearing Ren describe getting older, and learning to dance that eternal dance as the pendulum swings really hit me hard.
I’m in my 30s now, married, and just had a kid. I feel like the depression fell off a while back. Then it was replaced with apathy. And my creative side seemed to go away.
Then my son was born and I was given a new purpose. I still haven’t reconnected with my creative half, but I squeeze in an hour or two a day of guitar or drums between diaper changes, working, fixing the house, etc.
Good to hear, and remember, that we are all human. And we’re all in this together.
I love Benjamin Todd he’s a modern day poet as well
The feeling, the strugle, the redemption and the tools to move forward feel similar to me. Thanks for your great music. don't let the dark site ever tell you different. You help me. And I am sure so many others to find their voice and feelings in your songs.
Love you man!
With kind regards,
The 5 year boy 50 year old man.
Wow, what a performance. This is one of the most fresh and original works of art I have seen in decades. Congratulations young man - you're awesome!
If u like this check out Complete- song name Jordan
He's only unsigned person to get no1 apparently
Found you
Your lessons are great
Thanks
You know he is in his 30's right?
Hey 30's is young
Sending a message from the future and I can confidently say that this is such a refreshing and unique track and I can't get enough of it and I got it stuck on repeat now. The melody is so catchy and the lyrics are so well written. I love the dark and eerie atmosphere. Sick Boiiii!
😍
Nah, I think the reactions will be more extreme :)
Cannot waaaaiiiiiiit this is gonna be a masterpiece
The build up!
I'm discovering this after losing my daughter, we wrote music together , and had an amazing relationship .. since losing her I have been unable to play, I am surrounded by instruments and fun equipment but yet cannot even play a note..
I was on the edge , questioning my purpose on this earth .
I watched your performance and it hit me differently than anything else.
All I can say is thank you..
No you did not cure me , but you have made me aware .
I scheduled my first therapy session and although I still can't make music, I am hopeful that I can overcome these demons that have overtaken my mind..
Thank you Ren.
Sorry for your loss brother, I couldn't even imagine. Hope that you will get back into music because in the end, music is the therapy and music is life. My condolences and much love.
All the best brother. Some day you will be together again and untill then Champ: DO IT! Much Love.
Sorry for your loss brother.
I believe in you, Seth. The music stood silent the day you lost your daughter. But I hope one day you'll play again. For although she lives in your heart, she comes alive within your music. I wish you all the best in the future. One day you'll play a note, and it'll be the most beautiful note... I'm rooting for you.
If you ever need someone to talk to, message me.
I’m so sorry for you pain & loss Seth, please know your Daughter is still with you, she’s just in the next room ❤️🤗✝️🙏🏽 God Bless you 🎶💕
I normally don't care for this type of music outside of a few outliers, but ive listened to quite a few of your songs and every song truly made me feel in a point of my life where I thought that I was numb. Your music is powerful, which is a term I reserve for a very select few artists. And for me to feel so strongly for music outside of the usual genres that I listen to means that you are really doing something right. I wish you the best and I hope that so many more people can experience your art and connection with what you're saying. What a treasure to behold.
Dude I’ve listened to this every day for the past 2 weeks and can only now write this. I have struggled with the demons for more than half my life and I’m 38 this year. I always talk about my venture with it but this “song” explains everything I try and say. You my friend will save many lives with this piece of art. Men have always kept their struggles to them selfs and I applaud you for sharing your struggles in this master piece. I will always be eternally great full for this
Well said.
Stay safe.
I love that music like this, brings people together that understand. I'm 34 and struggled with trauma for so long. It is exhausting.. you can feel very alone, but there is many of us out there. Find the others ❤
I hear him everyday. Baring the soul. True to his space. I've been there I am there.
Thanks for this, I have never found the courage or even the words to speak to my loved ones about what goes in inside. I wish it was different!
Same. But I’m 53 female.
Have always hid my depression. Been my friend since 13. Diagnosed major depressive disorder. I’ve never even said it out loud.
And then it became a gift. Once you step into it.
I can help my older kids with their stuff and will stand in their fire.
I wouldn’t want to be any other way.
As a war veteran with brain injuries, many demons, and constant rumination this speaks to me. Thanks for this.
Demons gotta go bro.
Stonewind Institute, Chester Arkansas. Doc deals with war demons.
Thank you for your service
@@christicameron1314Demons are ever present. The trick is becoming stronger than them.
@@christicameron1314 No, they won't go. You cannot win, you cannot let the demon go. You can embrace them and integrate them and when succesful in controlling the demon it will become less. However the demon will always remain, the demon always has been there. Trauma make the demon very loud and persistent.
@OP thx for your service and the best of whishes in your future.
This is the definition of “art is supposed to make you feel something”. Wow, just wow.
You took the word from my mouth ... wow ❤
Well said!!
DUDE, dude dude... this shit is soooo fugging AWESOME. New fan and will be telling everyone I kno to search you out. RESPECTS
I'm 51, and I've been into music all my life. This is THE most powerful piece of art I have ever seen. This guy is Sting, Eminem, classical musician, poet, actor, performance artist, and more all in one. And then the raw, visceral message he delivers. Just. Freaking. Incredible.
I am 60 and a musician. Yes, this is what a human soul sounds like. This has restored my faith in the power of music.
🎉🎉🎉
You nailed it on the head! Gonna use your description to share this with my American friends on FB.
Speechless! He's got it all: sincerity, storytelling, a voice, guts to be authentic with no gimmicks, no copying anyone else. I'd like to see more for sure.
Hi Ren. I'm 23. I'm from Ukraine. I'm crying. Thank you.
I have obsessive compulsive disorder, depression, chronic stress, anxiety disorder and other neurological disorders.
At the age of 18, i started working to buy medicines and alleviate my mental condition.
I will be strong. I will keep on fighting. I will remember you. ❤️
As someone who has OCD, I know how horrible it can get to some degree for that. Paired with all those other neurological disorders, I can’t even imagine what that must be like. Rooting for you bud! The fact you’ve gotten this far shows how strong you are in my opinion.
@@thenormie thanks 🙏❤️🥲
@@thenormie got any bad teeth? I just went through 22 years of hell with the most extreme depression and anxiety symptoms along with issues they believed to be neurological. My teeth didn't hurt so I didn't know I had a massive dental infection making me sick. My left leg was almost completely useless. A prescription of Clindamycin and some extractions have changed everything. I still have mental health struggles but a lot of it is from being misdiagnosed and being given dangerous meds that didn't help me at all, in fact some of them left me with permanent problems (don't ever stop abruptly taking psych meds, it's dangerous and I don't want you to be confused and think I am advising you to stop meds at all but remember to be your own advocate for your health, doctors don't know wtf they are doing in my experience and I have the horror stories to prove it and be aware of what you take, exactly how it works and make sure the benefits outweigh the risks. I have some of the same issues you listed here and to think I went through hell for so long and so many doctors missed it and just kept giving me psych med after psych med... It makes me wonder how many other people would have symptoms minimized or alleviated with antibiotics because they have an infection or other issues that has been misdiagnosed. Basic blood and urine tests didn't tell them or me anything. I had skin issues and some other health issues but they never linked anything to a dental infection at all. Some things that might help you that helped me though ... osteopathic manipulative therapy for anxiety. Cognitive behavioral therapy, an actual psychiatrist and not a counselor or therapist (sorry, they just don't have enough education to be treating some of the people they treat and it ends up making therapy not very beneficial) and look up the 4-7-8 breathing technique and also search for a book online called From Panic To Power by Lucinda Bassett and also, all your symptoms here could also be symptoms of something bigger like autism or a more complicated diagnosis so getting a second eval and making sure you aren't misdiagnosed is never a bad idea. I am not saying you are. I am just reeling from realizing I just spent 2+ decades in hell because of a bad tooth that I didn't know was that bad because I couldn't see it, it looked fine on the front. I have struggled with anxiety, depression, PTSD and I am not OCD diagnosed but I have weird repetitive things I have to do and do counting things so it wouldn't surprise me but all I know is when I started the antibiotics, everything changed. My symptoms aren't severe like they were. I want to leave the house and I don't feel suicidal every minute of every day. I even thought about getting a job and have been able to get a few things done. People made me feel like I was crazier than I really am, they told me I was indefinitely broken and threw med after med at me. I don't know your situation or anything about you other than what you have said here but I am telling you about my situation just in case there is any possibility you could be going through a worse hell than you really need to. Having mental health struggles is hard and I don't know what healthcare in Ukraine is like, especially since the war but it's not that great here. I was someone that thought doctors knew more about things than me, after all, they went to school for years to do their job, they must be smart, right? Maybe so but they learn what they are taught and here it seems like that means you prescribe meds you know nothing about, doctors and pharmacists never really communicate enough and I know so many people being heavily medicated for psych issues and they don't get any better, some even get worse. I just want you to know if you are struggling, don't ever give up hope that there are options for you. I thought I was destined to just keep getting worse and I ended up agoraphobic because my anxiety was so bad. I can relate to your health struggles and I just don't want anyone to ever go through what I have gone through and am currently still dealing with so if there is any chance you have even one bad tooth, get it fixed. My doctor was convinced I had a neurological disorder because my leg was falling asleep, going numb and hurt like hell to walk on. She never did any tests prior to making this assumption. Come to find out, the infection was causing me to have nausea and vomiting, balance issues, my leg issues, tachycardia, ear issues, swollen glands and my mental health symptoms were really bad. When I first started getting sick I was a teenager. I grew up in a house with alcoholic and abusive parents. They didn't enforce tooth-brushing. When I was 10 I got made fun of for having gross teeth and got upset and that's when I learned most people brush 3 times a day. So I started doing so but I used the wrong toothbrush and got a hard one instead of a soft one. I ate and drank things that ruined my enamel and my parents were abusive so I was anxious all the time and would grind my teeth. They refused to let me get braces and I just had a perfect storm. The tooth that caused me all the issues was bad on the backside but I couldn't see it and when I was young, I had a cavity in that tooth filled so I never thought it was an issue after that but looking back, I started getting sick then and my anxiety because me severe then, like I said, I had always had anxiety since I could remember but now it felt more extreme like my heart might explode, I would get dizzy and go into fight or flight even if nothing was around to trigger it. My dad wouldn't take me to a doctor because he said I was faking it so I swore when I turned 18 I would go on my own and get meds like I saw on tv that would make me happy and fix everything. I didn't know those commericals we're total bullshit and that I couldn't just take a pill and get better. The doctors even made it seem like medication would make everything better. They tried me on close to 40 medications, only 1 helped but they wouldn't give me that one anymore because it's a controlled substance. Zoloft made my impulse control disappear so all my obsessive habits got really bad, nobody wanted to be around me and doctors prescribed me opiates for abdominal pain, cause unknown and I got addicted to them before the script was even finished. I feel like I tried to be proactive about my health and they made things so much worse for me and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. It wasn't just one doctor, it's all of them I have been to and it was an anxiety specialist that told me I was indefinitely broken. I am 37. I have no kids, job, I have no money and a week ago I just wanted to die because I felt like I would never get better. If not for my faith I would have killed myself long ago but I am glad I kept going. I am not fully recovered and it will be a long time before I am and I may not even be able to fully recover, it's possible I have nerve damage in my leg and I already have a heart murmur from the Cymbalta they put me on but I already feel a huge improvement and it seems like it would be easy to try someone on this med for a few days to see if symptoms improve in case they do have an infection someone missed before they try all these other dangerous meds or give out diagnosis'. If you ever struggle, I hope some of the suggestions like the book I mentioned, the therapies or especially the breathing technique help you out. I realize your situation might not be like mine at all but I couldn't keep scrolling without mentioning this in the event that there's a possibility you or anyone else could be in a similar situation and be unaware of it. I can't believe how much of a difference it made in the intensity of my symptoms and it's an easy enough thing to rule out. I noticed a change from the very first dose of antibiotics and only this specific antibiotic.
@@xbrandi12345x yeah my experience is nothing close to that. I’m sorry that you had to go through that.
Hi Ren. I'm 23. I'm from Afgnistan. I'm crying. Thank you. But everybody похуй.
I have listened to this song a lot over the last year including a lot of reactions to it. Although I haven’t suffered personally with the same struggles a lot of people in my life have/are still fighting their demons so this song has still resonated.
Unfortunately a month ago a cousin of mine only 25 took his own life and I haven’t been the same since. I will never understand exactly what he was going through and never will. I just hope more people are able to find artists like yourself and reach of for help, that pendulum will swing back to the light eventually.
The loosen the noose on the rope line absolutely destroys me now, I wish he heard that voice of hope.
Just wanted to say I’m a 46 year old man, I’ve been to war, through tragedy, watched my mother and father pass in hospitals in the span of 18 months. I’ve dealt with what came to me as a father of four cuz I’ve had to. Through it all I’ve barely shown emotion, not understanding how to deal with any and all of it. This song hit me so hard. I’ve listened to it over a dozen times and I have a hard time not tearing up each and every time. It’s literally hope. It’s the epitome of watching someone rise above struggle come manifest before my eyes. I have no words to describe how much I appreciate this song, your lyrics, your performance. Thank you
Brother you are valuable, your feelings are real and deserve expression. Treat yourself the way you treat everyone else. I am a 43 year old father of 5. Recently accepted the fact that even though I am the strongest man in the room, I have never had a relationship that wasnt a bitch abusively plundering my life, especially the one with my recently dead father. Realize and celebrate yourself, bones to the rest of them for a minute.
Love you man, life’s not always easy but it is worth it in the end and then onto the unknown
SKILLLLL ISSUE!
@@TrollPope have some respect
get a job lil nigga
“Why is modern music bad?”
It’s not, it’s just not in the commercial music industry anymore.
Truly genius stuff right here, holy crap.
From now on any time I see a boomer say something like "music nowadays is trash" I'm sharing this song.
@@Hijodeganas1 Frankly, I hear “this generation sucks” more from young people than anyone else. I get a general sense that it’s the “zoomers” who are fed up with modern culture. The people you associate with “boomers” are the ones advocating most for the proliferation of anger towards their own generation. Once upon a time they would spit on soldiers and call them baby killers…
Nice try shoe-horning your arrogant generalization though.
Agreed "Why is modern music bad?"
Maybe because you listen to the radio and not music. Having the tools for anyone to be able to produce has created a near infinite amount of artitsts. if you cant find something you love its a skill issue.
Hijodeganas1, As "boomer", I approve this message
Yeah you are right, but you still have to search for it. You don't get it on a plate anymore.
Ar no point in history have these lyrics been more relevant. The world is suffering a mental health crisis. Exceptional piece of art ,shocking, moving ,but above all else inspiring. 🙌
I always wonder what people's mental health was like during Rome's peak, Viking raids, Mongolian conquests, the Islamic expansion, the Crusades, the worst plagues, the Turkish invasions, European colonisation etc...
Every time I listen it - I can see and hear that joyful roar and the applause of healing gratitude (growing instantly at 6:43) among the people in front of the stage where you sing your truth live.
Thank you Ren for your Waves.
Goddamn man, i'm struggling to find the words. I cannot give this a big enough endorsement, completely original, i've never ever in my life heard this sort of sound before. Poetry, rap, classical guitar. Quite possibly one of the best performances i've seen.
I second that motion! 100%
You stole my words and thoughts
If you don't win a Grammy for this because it won't fit into someone else's box, don't worry about it. You've earned our admiration and appreciation. This is what we all need. Thank you for this.
Grammys way to satanic for this stuff
The Grammy's are fucked. It's another marketing and advertising channel for the established music industry. Ren is not commercial , or if considered so, they would have to persuade established artists that they were pretending all along to not give two fucks about the existential struggle of life.
You don't need a statue or a trophy that you can buy in a shop to know that you're great, loved or achieved something in your life.
I agree man, To self judge critically is the hard as shit, never mind post it for the world. Sweet stuff
We know what this is worth, and to him it’s worth more than a petty trophy I’d guess
It doesn't even feel like 9 minutes, what an amazing track
Thankuu ❤️
@@RenMakesMusic Love from Portugal! 🇵🇹
especially when the playback speed us 1.75
When the song stopped i waited for the second part because i thought that only 2 minutes has passed
Such a universal timeless sequence. ♥Gorgeous piece.