here I am with my morning coffee and cigarette, half awake and Katya drops "religion is for people who are afraid of Hell, spirituality is for people who have been there" man ... yeah
katya would probably be a great teacher even though she goes on a lot of tangents. she'd be that weird teacher that everyone likes and actually listens to in class
Seriously, relate to you on so many levels. Anxiety, addiction, shy, and just being fucking weird. Still riding the struggle buss, but this helps. Thank you Katya.
seeing this 4 years later with (up to) 700 people - including me in some parts - relating feels so weird and kinda scary … crazy we all found a video of a drag queen talking about this and feel a similar way. idk where i was going but i hope everyone here is okay or getting better
When i quit smoking cigarettes (i smoked for 15yrs, quit 10yrs ago), giving up the nicotine wasn't near as difficult as giving up the ritual (all those 7min breaks u give yourself all day, u smoke before things, u smoke after things) no cigarette in the morning & no cigarette before going to bed. No rewarding yourself with a smoke after doing something difficult. U just don't realize how ingrained smoking is into every moment of your day. It's a huge change! I felt like i had so much extra time to fill (my house was never so clean!-lol) But, in the end I somehow pulled it off, I haven't had even 1puff in 10yrs (cause i know i would be hooked again immediately) If u really want to quit, write a letter to yourself all the reasons u want to quit & whenever u feel weak, read that letter. My number 1 reason was that i wanted to see my daughters become mothers & i wanted to see my grandchildren someday. That was a huge reason to quit. So good luck!
I keep thinking why i 'miss' smoking even after 2 yrs of quitting (smoked for 14 yrs); I don't even have withdrawal symptoms anymore. Plus I already hate the smell so much. But now seeing this comment just solved the fucking mystery.
I can say that the way heroin was described to u was 100% accurate! The first time you feel amazing but you will never feel that way again and you will spend all of your time and money trying to. Then you get to a point where your not trying to get high anymore your just trying to stop the withdrawals. It was one of the most horrible things I have ever done to myself!
I'm so glad you're here, Katya. I'm so glad that you're alive and living and making me and many other people smile and laugh and cry. I'm so glad that you got though such a dark period in your life and you're here now being amazing. thank you for being so strong
I think it's actually more effective to talk about drugs more openly like this than to just say "don't do it", it's a very good video, god I love Katya. For some reason I'd love to watch a chat with her and Joe Gilgun xD I think they have similar experiences and personalities, it'd be hilarious. Proud of her for trying her best to stay sober, you go, dear ♥
Anaaewp I hate it when people romanticise it or try to show it as the worst thing ypu can do without actually telling anything about drugs and being realistic which in both ways leads people to be intrested in drugs
I have crippling social anxiety, no self esteem, extreme self hatred, watching Katya made me feel sad in a way I have never felt before. He is so intelligent, so talented. I wish him so much success and happiness, that he is able to transcend his need to be dependent on drugs to overcome his struggles. I've never related to someone so much, yet have nothing in common with them. I think this video changed my life a little bit.. how we are born in such different worlds, have the same crippling issues,n then go on to deal with them in such different ways. I wish with all my heart that Katya lives a happy life, although in my heart, knowing this because I relate to him so much, some people can't be happy, no matter how hard they try.
meagsicles me too. Thank goodness I've been clean for a year. You really don't understand how terrible and life destroying it is unless you've been there. :(
I love this man. For reference, I'm a recovered heroin addict. I also used stimulants. I used from 17 to 21. Now 43. It can be done. If anyone is reading this whilst still in addiction, just know it can end. PS - I only watched Requiem for a Dream ONCE. I could never again.
Gosh, you are so brilliant,...I'm mesmerized. So many cultural references, very precise and thoughtful knowledge and wow, such spiritual and metaphysical knowledge. I'm really impressed. Thank you.
I hope that as we all become more aware of things like anxiety and accomodate for it better as a society, people won't feel the need to resort to these kinds of things cause they understand themselves better
This needs so badly to be edited because there is a tonne of candid and meaningful insight in this video, especially towards the middle and end where he talks about meth, heroin (bone-chilling was the right word) and tobacco. And Katya, when he stops or at least suppresses the personality-splintering, is an extraordinary storyteller.
It was very cringey during those odd...characters..is what I will call it. Calling them personalities implies a psychological disorder. I'm hoping this is just tweaking
I've adored Katya for years, Brian is such a beautiful soul but this video makes me feel so sad, you don't need drugs to help you with life. Life needs to help you with drugs. Reach put where ever you can. You are so bright, intellectual and sparkly, I just want to hug you.
thank you for uploading this! so nice to hear him speak about his experiences entirely unfiltered. my jaw dropped when he spoke about an ecstasy comedown he had from ecstasy when he had a depressive suicidal episode, because the EXACT same thing happened to me recently from ecstasy, and i didn't entirely understand that it was the ecstasy controlling my brain. thank you.
I've only seen katya in terms of drag race, with tricks mattel. I've always thought she was funny. But this showed me a very intelligent, we spoken, and funny in a different way
@@2IGHT2EER "Tracy Martel" - An on-going joke in her fanbase. They call her Tracy Martel because a pageant dude introduced her as Tracy Martel cuz he was drunk. She found it funny and now it's all her friends call her 😂
im so happy that Katya is part of the 20% of ppl who have done drugs and can be open about it Katya has helped me with my addictions and i belief she could help you too
I am only just now seeing this-I know Katya had issues with drug addiction but I’ve never heard the full in depth story and the emotions behind why she got stuck on using. She’s so kooky sometimes I forget how genuine she is🩵
i have never watched an hour long video without skipping anything, and at the same time being wildly interested in every word that comes out of someones mouth, i love and respect katya so much🤍
Girl, you are EVERYTHING to me! I am so happy for you and your success and career and happy to hear you working through your demons the best way you see fit. You are real, lovely, intelligent, entertaining, talented, and beautiful inside and out. I cannot get enough of you Bella. Love everything about you! Keep shining my love, the world needs your sparkle!
Watched this until the end and it was incredibly informative, insightful and touching. Katya’s storytelling is so compelling it’s insane, it was fucking bone-chilling when she talked about heroin. I’m so inspired by this, it’s so important to share our stories about mental illness and addiction. Thank you for uploading this 🌹
Such an insightful, witty and wise person. No holds barred and truly salt of the earth. Would give my right hand to sit down and have a chat with Brian/Katya, never listened to one person who is so self aware and so candid. Count myself as a mostly straight fella but God damn, how can you not be in love with this.
Addiction is awful. Listening to him talk about the addiction to cigarettes reminds me of addiction to self-harm. It gives you nothing. I was addicted to self-harm because of severe, untreated major depressive disorder. It was a way to get endorphins. Now I'm medicated and it's under control but the addiction is still there. It sucks. :(
I love when he goes into the methadone clinic lady voice because my parents were methodone addicts as I was growing up LOL it's just hilarious to me now because Brian's impression is SO ACCURATE. And also the smokey British voice he does cracks me up. I sat through all of this and it was really worth it. He made many great points with a lot of good anecdotes
33:23 can i hear that again? if only society as a whole could understand this and factor this into society so people with addiction would have people who might be able to stop them before they hurt themselves because most people have not an iota of knowledge about why people use, and this is a huge part of it and of course Katya says it. Queen Katya, she really is a new category: a mind queen.
I love u you are the life the love the light. You are someone I've looked up to as a person. You are gold. I'm not a drag queen but you are fierce in my eyes. You are top 3 of all time. Bianca you know what you second..
I wish I had a teacher or a mentor that was like this like the talk it's so casual and funny yet serious and eye opening. I love how he talks to his fans like were all friends and that's a community I love being in
I haven't heard this all the way through yet and going by the thumbnail it sounds quite serious with the subject matter but I can't help but find him so funny his sense of humour is quality and being British myself I'm loving the accent he keeps doing. Such a unique person and I love it x
I love Brian/Katya. I see a lot of my (hidden) self in him, but he seems to embrace and exude his uniqueness easily. I’m more restrained (ie insecure). I’ve also struggled from addiction and it’s a never ending struggle. She’s an incredible artist, entertainer, and person. I just adore her
I love and look up to Katya so much, I’m working through and still struggling with addiction and our lives and humor line up so well I loooovvveeee her lmao
I loved and still do love requiem for a dream, it’s a haunting, harrowingly beautiful movie... Unfortunately it didn’t stop me from going down the opioid rabbit hole for a good decade. It wasn’t jerking though, my drug of choice was copious amounts of codeine and or whatever legal opioids I could get my hands on. Thankfully I’ve managed to pull myself out of that hole. Katya/Brian has been an inspiration in keeping me on the path to continued sobriety (except some weed every now and then).
Hell yes, good for you!!! Keep on that path beautiful! I know the struggle to stay clean all too well, and it takes a truly strong individual to get back from the darkness. Way to go!
UGH I love Katya, relating so hard and understanding my addiction a little more. I am an uppers gal myself, like Katya. I love hearing him talk about this.
I'm so extremely fascinated by this man, he is so smart and I could listen to him talk forever to be honest
I can’t tell who I’m more attracted to katya or brian
@@breehenry9543 both
Same
Yes! I agree! And quite easy on the eyes!
I know same here girl!
here I am with my morning coffee and cigarette, half awake and Katya drops "religion is for people who are afraid of Hell, spirituality is for people who have been there"
man ... yeah
katya would probably be a great teacher even though she goes on a lot of tangents. she'd be that weird teacher that everyone likes and actually listens to in class
I had a teacher like that. The only class I tried in.
Drag U is shook
AGREED!!100%...good call....
she could never she hates kids too much
Agreed lol
Katya says yes gawd ironically so often it's not ironic anymore
*yes gawd*
In the challenge you made us say yes gawd but on the runway you made us say oh god
katya is so complex, so intelligent, so real. also shes fucking hilarious!! i love her. hope she wins all stars, she really deserves it
oop #teamkatya
"i'll save that story for later"
tells story immediately
He is such a character, im in love with his brain, could listen this random thoughts for hours
Claudia Derevko I'm in love with his Brian
I have.
Days actually. He just draws you in.
Same, 100%
This has been more eye opening than 3 years of High School.
Arif it's sad when this is true
Presch
Katya talking with no one to guide her back to the subject is such a rollercoaster I love it
😂😂😂
I think when she gets nervous she tries to make a distraction or puts on a funny voice and I think that’s adorable
Seriously, relate to you on so many levels. Anxiety, addiction, shy, and just being fucking weird. Still riding the struggle buss, but this helps. Thank you Katya.
I hear ya. Same here.
420th like
Also hope ur ok.. please don't hurt urself
seeing this 4 years later with (up to) 700 people - including me in some parts - relating feels so weird and kinda scary … crazy we all found a video of a drag queen talking about this and feel a similar way. idk where i was going but i hope everyone here is okay or getting better
i love him so much it hurts
I want him! In a box under my bed.
every time he said "margaret" i perked up because i feel like katya is addressing me personally
same 😭🥰
SAMEEEEE
When i quit smoking cigarettes (i smoked for 15yrs, quit 10yrs ago), giving up the nicotine wasn't near as difficult as giving up the ritual (all those 7min breaks u give yourself all day, u smoke before things, u smoke after things) no cigarette in the morning & no cigarette before going to bed. No rewarding yourself with a smoke after doing something difficult. U just don't realize how ingrained smoking is into every moment of your day. It's a huge change! I felt like i had so much extra time to fill (my house was never so clean!-lol) But, in the end I somehow pulled it off, I haven't had even 1puff in 10yrs (cause i know i would be hooked again immediately) If u really want to quit, write a letter to yourself all the reasons u want to quit & whenever u feel weak, read that letter. My number 1 reason was that i wanted to see my daughters become mothers & i wanted to see my grandchildren someday. That was a huge reason to quit. So good luck!
Im going 2 try that...sumtjings gotta give...thank u 4 shAring
THIS IS SO TRUE..and i realized it just few weeks ago..hope i will quit one day and i hope soon
I keep thinking why i 'miss' smoking even after 2 yrs of quitting (smoked for 14 yrs); I don't even have withdrawal symptoms anymore. Plus I already hate the smell so much. But now seeing this comment just solved the fucking mystery.
don’t try to compare nicotine addiction and drug addiction.
I can say that the way heroin was described to u was 100% accurate! The first time you feel amazing but you will never feel that way again and you will spend all of your time and money trying to. Then you get to a point where your not trying to get high anymore your just trying to stop the withdrawals. It was one of the most horrible things I have ever done to myself!
Her metaphor describing the feeling of temptation and addiction as the devil walking this earth - astounding. Rooting for you girl!
glad you're still here 💓
Going through it now 💀😭
@@mariposa6615 💕💕
@@shelbyjohnson9790 what’s the time stamp on that?
Nothing will ever scare me more about drugs than what that guy said to Katya. THAT'S the stuff they should teach in schools.
time stamp?:)
Maybe 27:00
I'm so glad you're here, Katya.
I'm so glad that you're alive and living and making me and many other people smile and laugh and cry. I'm so glad that you got though such a dark period in your life and you're here now being amazing. thank you for being so strong
Preach, Girl.
that throaty English accent he does makes me laugh every single time. Why are you not in movies? You should be.
she is in movies! she’s in hurricane bianca 2 and some foreign movie
I think it’s more of a transatlantic accent tbh that’s why it’s more funny
I think it's actually more effective to talk about drugs more openly like this than to just say "don't do it", it's a very good video, god I love Katya.
For some reason I'd love to watch a chat with her and Joe Gilgun xD I think they have similar experiences and personalities, it'd be hilarious.
Proud of her for trying her best to stay sober, you go, dear ♥
Anaaewp I hate it when people romanticise it or try to show it as the worst thing ypu can do without actually telling anything about drugs and being realistic which in both ways leads people to be intrested in drugs
Yessssss
Why was this the most informative talk I have heard about addiction and drugs.
She's soo amazing and it's weird but memorizing
Because he’s a genius and knows how to communicate. Double-whammy gift!
I have crippling social anxiety, no self esteem, extreme self hatred, watching Katya made me feel sad in a way I have never felt before. He is so intelligent, so talented. I wish him so much success and happiness, that he is able to transcend his need to be dependent on drugs to overcome his struggles. I've never related to someone so much, yet have nothing in common with them. I think this video changed my life a little bit.. how we are born in such different worlds, have the same crippling issues,n then go on to deal with them in such different ways. I wish with all my heart that Katya lives a happy life, although in my heart, knowing this because I relate to him so much, some people can't be happy, no matter how hard they try.
Same ...
Hugs sweetheart 💗
Listening to Katya speak languages other than english has been a wonderful experience and I would like to thank her for existing and being hot.
I can just watch her all night. lol love you, Katya
nooo, i love her but an hour was enough for now!
Patrick Hempe so go to sleep
i did, you re stil on a Katya binge?
Watching this while knowing Katya is sober and thriving☺️☺️ So proud of Ms Ma’am
Katya is a genius. Insane, methodical, radical, and above all FACTUAL.
when he was describing the conversation he had about heroin my mouth dropped open from shock. it literally sounds like the devil. so so awful.
I cried
it is the devil
every opiate addiction is like a demon, his description was spot on
It's the worst & hardest thing in the world I've ever had to deal with.
meagsicles me too. Thank goodness I've been clean for a year. You really don't understand how terrible and life destroying it is unless you've been there. :(
Jesus God PLEASE somebody give Katya a gig reading books on tape. PLEASE.
ChampaAinjel
ChampaAinjel it would be 10000 hours long because of all the tangents she'd go off on, almost never actually reading the book
Glorious.
fast forward 4 years and she’s a new york times best seller! 🥺🥺🥺
ruthie kerber yes please
EVERYTHING touched on here is absolutely "thoughtful, honest, intelligent, necessary AND kind." So worthwhile in every way. Thank you, Brian.
I LOVE you Katya, you have become one of my favorite people to exist and I admire you beyond words.
Leanna Walczak +1
I love this man. For reference, I'm a recovered heroin addict. I also used stimulants. I used from 17 to 21. Now 43. It can be done. If anyone is reading this whilst still in addiction, just know it can end.
PS - I only watched Requiem for a Dream ONCE. I could never again.
That paper towel ad was probably the scariest thing I’ve ever listened to
Watching this in 2023, and this woman could be a motivational speaker
Love how Katya communicates ideas mostly in movie quotes
coming back to this 6 years later
Gosh, you are so brilliant,...I'm mesmerized. So many cultural references, very precise and thoughtful knowledge and wow, such spiritual and metaphysical knowledge. I'm really impressed. Thank you.
Honestly I can’t imagine what this took to be so open about it makes me really love katya more it takes strength to be this vulnerable
I'm just so in love with how he talks about his emotions. I feel a little less alone
It's interesting how many people with serious anxiety end up trying drugs/alcohol as a kind of crutch.
That's exactly how I ended up a dope fiend.
I hope that as we all become more aware of things like anxiety and accomodate for it better as a society, people won't feel the need to resort to these kinds of things cause they understand themselves better
it's the easiest and quickest way out of the trap that anxiety is. but a slippery slope for sure.
Facts
Self medicating is one of the biggest reasons for addiction in my opinion!
I love Katya this was inspiring people need to know about people's expiernces because it can save people
This needs so badly to be edited because there is a tonne of candid and meaningful insight in this video, especially towards the middle and end where he talks about meth, heroin (bone-chilling was the right word) and tobacco. And Katya, when he stops or at least suppresses the personality-splintering, is an extraordinary storyteller.
It was very cringey during those odd...characters..is what I will call it.
Calling them personalities implies a psychological disorder.
I'm hoping this is just tweaking
@@notthefather3919 im pretty sure hes just joking to maybe break up the tangents...
@@sr6571 aka psychosis? It was very manic.
@@notthefather3919 she has ADHD if that's relevant, I don't know 🤷♂️🤷♂️
Keep in mind these stories are anecdotal and can be hard to talk about
I've adored Katya for years, Brian is such a beautiful soul but this video makes me feel so sad, you don't need drugs to help you with life. Life needs to help you with drugs. Reach put where ever you can.
You are so bright, intellectual and sparkly, I just want to hug you.
thank you for uploading this! so nice to hear him speak about his experiences entirely unfiltered. my jaw dropped when he spoke about an ecstasy comedown he had from ecstasy when he had a depressive suicidal episode, because the EXACT same thing happened to me recently from ecstasy, and i didn't entirely understand that it was the ecstasy controlling my brain. thank you.
I've only seen katya in terms of drag race, with tricks mattel. I've always thought she was funny. But this showed me a very intelligent, we spoken, and funny in a different way
Tracey*
Mason Alesander bruh who's Tracey
@@2IGHT2EER "Tracy Martel" - An on-going joke in her fanbase. They call her Tracy Martel because a pageant dude introduced her as Tracy Martel cuz he was drunk. She found it funny and now it's all her friends call her 😂
Olwyn Glover aha I know, but i thought they just made a spelling error lol
Katya is like a Quentin Tarantino movie. A lot of long drawn out scenes that have no importance to the overall
story, but we all love and need it ❤️
More like David Lynch, imo.
i want to meet katya #bucketlist
Same
saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame
Me too
I am so fascinated by Katya. I also think that I relate to Katya so much. I’m so strange and have anxiety and depression and OCD and I relate.
Same here friend
same here! the combo of ocd and depression is so frustrating
thank you for uploading this
😀
watching this before i was in an active addiction vs now in active recovery are 2 different experiences lemme tell y'all i may be crying
I think he is so good looking!
Love it. Like the honesty. Directness. The fun. Quick wits. Hilarious voices. Katya is a natural. Honesty about drugs is needed.
I could listen to him ramble for hours
he makes my heart so full, i love and care for him so so much and i'm so proud of him for making it so far.
❤❤❤❤❤ same
i could listen to katya talk for hours
im so happy that Katya is part of the 20% of ppl who have done drugs and can be open about it Katya has helped me with my addictions and i belief she could help you too
katya really had me dying laughing and listening with total fascination for an hour. she's incredible
I am only just now seeing this-I know Katya had issues with drug addiction but I’ve never heard the full in depth story and the emotions behind why she got stuck on using. She’s so kooky sometimes I forget how genuine she is🩵
i have never watched an hour long video without skipping anything, and at the same time being wildly interested in every word that comes out of someones mouth, i love and respect katya so much🤍
when he said "melissa are you a party girl?" i fucking lost it. My name is melisa. I am indeed a party girl.
Brilliant,sensitive,honest ,witty and one of the most genuine souls I have seen .
his old man voice reminds me of Bowie.
I was thinking this
omg
OMG THIS IS SO TRUE. CAN HE GET ANY BETTER
Girl, you are EVERYTHING to me! I am so happy for you and your success and career and happy to hear you working through your demons the best way you see fit. You are real, lovely, intelligent, entertaining, talented, and beautiful inside and out. I cannot get enough of you Bella. Love everything about you! Keep shining my love, the world needs your sparkle!
Thinknappythoughts .The You Guru love this!!! My thoughts exactly. Go Katya!!!
Watched this until the end and it was incredibly informative, insightful and touching. Katya’s storytelling is so compelling it’s insane, it was fucking bone-chilling when she talked about heroin. I’m so inspired by this, it’s so important to share our stories about mental illness and addiction. Thank you for uploading this 🌹
Such an insightful, witty and wise person. No holds barred and truly salt of the earth. Would give my right hand to sit down and have a chat with Brian/Katya, never listened to one person who is so self aware and so candid. Count myself as a mostly straight fella but God damn, how can you not be in love with this.
Its comforting knowing someone else who'd struggled with addiction seeing the road to recovery isn't a straight line and its okay to struggle
Addiction is awful. Listening to him talk about the addiction to cigarettes reminds me of addiction to self-harm. It gives you nothing. I was addicted to self-harm because of severe, untreated major depressive disorder. It was a way to get endorphins. Now I'm medicated and it's under control but the addiction is still there. It sucks. :(
nicotine and drug addiction or nothing a like. i wish people would ducking stop.
fucking*
Kayta is that person who when u try to kill ur self but u don't beause you realize one day you could someday somehow become this person
I know it was 2 years ago but yes
I know it was 4 years ago but also yes
I know it was 6 years ago, but also yes!
i know it was 7 years ago but yasss!
I love Brian (Katya) as a person. I can relate SO MUCH with his story. I’m a year clean!!
congrats!!
I love when he goes into the methadone clinic lady voice because my parents were methodone addicts as I was growing up LOL it's just hilarious to me now because Brian's impression is SO ACCURATE. And also the smokey British voice he does cracks me up. I sat through all of this and it was really worth it. He made many great points with a lot of good anecdotes
I really love Brian, he is such an inspiring soul. I’m so glad he is still sober 💕
I really love your honesty, you give us all a great reason to be free of societies conceptions of who we should be.
Brian just told me everything I needed to hear about addiction right now. Bless his pure soul, and Katya's foamy ECA.
33:23 can i hear that again? if only society as a whole could understand this and factor this into society so people with addiction would have people who might be able to stop them before they hurt themselves because most people have not an iota of knowledge about why people use, and this is a huge part of it and of course Katya says it. Queen Katya, she really is a new category: a mind queen.
Just starting my recovery. Thank you for this. I was and still am shy and yeah I have a long way to go but thank you for this.
took me a while to discover Katya, but I already love her so much
This was the most educational 55 min of my life.
26:55-28:06 & 28:17-28:33 What is heroin like?
53:44-54:30 THINK
addictive drugs own you, even if its processed sugar or cow's milk.
lol, GIVE ME MY COWSMILK!
I love u you are the life the love the light. You are someone I've looked up to as a person. You are gold. I'm not a drag queen but you are fierce in my eyes. You are top 3 of all time. Bianca you know what you second..
I wish I had a teacher or a mentor that was like this like the talk it's so casual and funny yet serious and eye opening. I love how he talks to his fans like were all friends and that's a community I love being in
I haven't heard this all the way through yet and going by the thumbnail it sounds quite serious with the subject matter but I can't help but find him so funny his sense of humour is quality and being British myself I'm loving the accent he keeps doing. Such a unique person and I love it x
I love Brian/Katya. I see a lot of my (hidden) self in him, but he seems to embrace and exude his uniqueness easily. I’m more restrained (ie insecure). I’ve also struggled from addiction and it’s a never ending struggle. She’s an incredible artist, entertainer, and person. I just adore her
So anxious
That description of the first feeling of heroin (or opiates) is extremely accurate.
I want Katya to be my best friend
I love and look up to Katya so much, I’m working through and still struggling with addiction and our lives and humor line up so well I loooovvveeee her lmao
God I fucking love you, Katya.
Katya is just incredible I don’t know what else to describe her, and Brian is just amazing
I loved and still do love requiem for a dream, it’s a haunting, harrowingly beautiful movie... Unfortunately it didn’t stop me from going down the opioid rabbit hole for a good decade. It wasn’t jerking though, my drug of choice was copious amounts of codeine and or whatever legal opioids I could get my hands on. Thankfully I’ve managed to pull myself out of that hole. Katya/Brian has been an inspiration in keeping me on the path to continued sobriety (except some weed every now and then).
Damn right about Requiem for a Dream... Thanks for posting this, btw.
Be well. Brave soul.
OMG! I started my sober living journey on 2008 as well!!!
Hell yes, good for you!!! Keep on that path beautiful! I know the struggle to stay clean all too well, and it takes a truly strong individual to get back from the darkness. Way to go!
I seriously love this man so much. ❤️
This should be required viewing 💚
This really hit me. We all just want to feel good, and some people have to do some pretty bad things to get there.
Watching it during corona because I'm not mentally okay and these videos somehow help me to feel temporarily fine
I don't know if it's a scary thing or a good thing, but the more I see Katya, the more I can relate to her... it feels like me in 10 years...
i literally fell asleep to the sound of katyas voice wow
This is incredible. And chilling.
i love her so much for sharing this
I'm watching this 5 years later
UGH I love Katya, relating so hard and understanding my addiction a little more. I am an uppers gal myself, like Katya. I love hearing him talk about this.