For those that are critics or cynics, it is obvious to tell that Chloe really does have DID due to each alter having their own facial expressions and even micro expressions which are impossible to fake. Also, they all talk differently through voice and even the way their mouth moves when they talk. For example, Chloe talks exposing the top teeth whereas Kyle relaxes the lower lip more when he talks, exposing the bottom teeth more. Chloe and alters, you are all very inspiring in sharing your truth with the world, it is very brave and I know it will literally change lives, it has mine and I don’t have DID. Thank you for sharing your light with us!
BellaKat7 you've got some real good observation skills. for me, the thing that convinces me that she genuinely has DID is the fact that I personally respond differently to her videos when another alter is out. for example, when Chloe is fronting I'm relaxed and at ease. When Kyle is fronting, I genuinely feel like I'm hanging out with one of my mates. He's so chill and seems easy to get along with. But, in the videos where Jade is fronting, I feel slightly intimidated. don't get me wrong, I like her and enjoy the videos she's in, but I can't help feel like I'm in the presence of a stern teacher. the way she looks into the camera feels like she's staring into my soul instead of a camera.
I agree with you both and especially about Jade being intimidating. She reminds me of that Kelis song Bossy the first quote line of it is so her its: "You don't Have to love me, You don't even Have to Like me, But, YOU. WILL. RESPECT. ME!" Like she has this air of "Idgaf If YOU think I'm not friendly, I'm not here to make friends, I'm here to protect and defend. If you respect that and show me that YOU're worthy, I May decide to become friendly with you. But it is no loss to me if we aren't friends, I care more about guarding my system and those within as they are my priority." And while that intimidates me, I get it and respect it. I have trust issues too. I feel like Jade is a Warrior Queen who was raised by a Warrior Queen (Ruby). I know technically you can't have 2 Queen's in a Queendom but it feels like Jade is a Queen and since she said she was raised by Ruby I'm going to assume that Ruby is just as strong, Powerful & Regal. Jade at least from what little I know of her appears to be Regal, poised, powerful, fierce, intelligent, cunning, watchful, cleaver, calculating, firm but fair and has an air or royalty. Like she wouldn't be all "off with your head!" For no reason but if you deserved it she would happily put you in your place. She seems more self confident, self assured and to know exactly who and what she is as a person. Whereas the others seem more soft, and vulnerable but still just as beautiful and unique in their own ways. Kyle seema tough but also very gentle. He makes me think of those fireman with a kitten being saved kinda picture like he's tough and strong, but he's also kind and gentle, loving and caring. Super fun loving. The girls Chloe, Sally and Nadia seem similar yet different in their own ways like they all seem into make up and are kind to others but Sally likes to read, Nadia likes to meditate etc. It's obvious they are all real people. Just because they share a body doesn't make them less so . Sorry for the super long comment. I just love the whole DisassociaDID system and while I've only met Chloe, Kyke, Jade, Sally, Nadia and I think Anita is it? I think they are ALL such wonderful people and I really admire them for their strength and willingness to be vulnerable for the sake of helping others. Courage isn't the absence of fear but a willingness to do it anyway regardless of said fear. And I believe that all of the alters who I have had the honor and privilege of meeting have courage and are brave. Definately braver than I am. I have wanted to make videos for a while now about my life to help others with my issues or similar. But I'm afraid of the nasty things people might say to &or about me. So they have courage doing what they do. I admire and respect them all. And I hooe to learn a LOT from them as I know they have a LOT to teach me.
BellaKat7 Now that you mention it... I can actually feel the different ways my alters hold our face when they’re out. Like, I can feel our face shifting as we switch...
I agree! That would be a lot of effort to learn to write, and act for every single alter. There are individual playlists of music for each alter for cryin' out loud! It takes months for method actors to prepare for a single role let alone 5 or 25. And unless you spend years learning to act even then mannerisms are extremely difficult let alone impossible for some! As someone who works with actors it is highly unlikely an actor would do this. And with their knowledge of DID, why would you bother researching and making a youtube channel if there was a chance you'd be caught in a lie. They even warn not to self diagnose, and to speak to a doctor or support group.
She's incredible, isn't she? I have never seen ANYONE with a mental illness (including myself - I have BPD) understand and describe it the way Chloe does.
..Ooh..😳🙄.. Its pretty sad actually, that you said that😔😬... but ofc the one who is living with this is the best expert on THEIR DID... But many times when some meet a psychatric DR..😌..or a prof. ..like You are..They seem hard to explain this and can easy sat that diagnose..(bc its easy to do..or?!).. Ever get the diagnose and you doesnt agree., bc some reason or so...and what ever you say after diagnose....just strenghtens the diagnose.. and your words has no value anymore😔😞. If you can, please explain this for me.. It would help me so,so much...🥺💚.. Thank you, proff.❣️//stay safe//much Love/Hope// Linda E 💚 🇸🇪
i want to possibly be a psychologist, but im also writing a book and want to include a well written character with did to help with actual good rep! so mood
Could you make a day in the life of ... video to give a better angle of how you all go through a normal day or are productive ? If it doesn't botter any of you
Maybe if it was done on a day where you have an event? like a birthday or something? if you are worried about being boring. but honestly a normal day would be interesting all on it's own haha
Saaaaame. I had the volume on really low, so I had to focus on reading her lips and keep my mind attached to what was happening, but it still fobbed off on its own at some point.
I don't have PTSD, but I struggle a lot with anxiety. Crowds and noisy places are hard, but now at least I know what happens to me - I dissociate. So, thank you for that it helps. ❤️
I have really severe PTSD, panic disorder, and MDD along with a few other comorbid disorders. Growing up, my mom told me that I was just dramatic and nothing was wrong, which ended up making things worse. I experienced a lot of trauma during that time that I never talked about because I wasn't ever accepted. Due to that, my brain decided that the way i cope with things is to disassociate. The worst time happened just under a year ago. I had a car accident that triggered my PTSD and I disassociated for 12 hours straight, during which I planned and stopped 3 suicide attempts. I ended up in a psych hospital for 6 days because when I came to, I was scared of myself. I still disassociate a lot and I'm working on it with therapy but it freaks my coworkers out because sometimes it happens at work due to customer interactions and then they meet a strange version of me. It took a long time for me to accept that it isnt always a bad thing to disassociate but that I need to work on controlling it in more professional and social situations. I love that you speak out about DID and mental health. My trauma happened after 8 so I never developed alters but my therapists and psychiatrists explain to me that it would have likely been developed if these things happened at a younger age. I love your system that I've seen and I am proud of you ♡
I have complex PTSD, RAD, and a number of other mental health diagnoses the panic disorder and disassociation are just parts of my PTSD but my adoptive mom (she was actually very mentally and physically abusive which added to my PTSD) but she would often joke about me going off in lala land and make jokes about me being blonde and get angry when I’d forget something she had just told me to do and before I knew about dissociative disorder and depersonalization I had no idea what was wrong with me but now I realize that’s what was making me zone out and forget things and that it’s just my brain’s response to trauma and it makes me feel a little bit better because I really didn’t know what was wrong with me and thought I was stupid or not trying hard enough especially when it started getting really bad and I went from making straight A’s and being years above my grade level to not being able to retain like any new information and failing math and taking 3 times as long to get through a book because I’d constantly have to re-read everything which I never had to do as a kid. These videos help me understand my brain so much better, even my therapists didn’t explain everything as well as she does...they only really explained my flashbacks and anxiety attacks.
It’s kind of like “day dreaming” but you’re not thinking of anything. Like you’re just kinda zoned out, thinking about nothing like just blank. Atleast that’s how it is for me.
@@Josh-oj9mm It is? When I'm daydreaming I just walk in circles, perfectly aware of what's going on. I know where I am, what I'm touching, and everything I do is conscious. I may not respond to anything at all, but that's because it just feels wrong, not because I don't know that there's something I should have responded to.
haha watched the whole vid and was wondering what you were wearing.. "surely she can't be?".. then you break the 4th wall and say it at the end xD A++ video.
I'd love to be their friend too! I've just followed you guys on Facebook. :) I don't really have Insta so can't do so there. (I think I signed up ages ago but cannot remember any details of it.) But looking forward to seeing your posts on there too. I'm Sarah Jane Bennett on Facebook.
I now know that I experienced “normal” dissociation in chorus class once. We started singing one of our songs and I started singing just like everybody else but I was dissociating and thinking about something else and didn't realize I was singing until we finished. I was so confused what happened but now I know thanks to this video 🙂. Thank you Chloe
i’m in choir as well as other performance groups and i know exactly how you feel bc i dissociate every time i perform because of anxiety from the crowd etc. it’s so weird when i realise the whole thing is over and i almost never remember any of it
This is so interesting! I have CPTSD and BPD so experience clinical dissociation but obviously not to the level you do, but it's so interesting to see the spectrum there. I think a lot of people don't understand how dissociation can be so incredibly uncomfortable, not feeling like things are real and you can't quite get a grip. Thinking of you x
I’ve actually been going to therapy recently and I’ve been told (by the professionals) that I have a possibility of having BPD and cPTSD. The info on the internet is mostly saying that you can’t have both even though the symptoms do overlap. And while I do need further sessions to get a proper diagnosis, if you are able I would love to get your opinion on this. Can both of them occur at once and like idk any info about that at all? Please share only if you’re comfortable. I’m just asking because I haven’t been able to find much info about this online. Thank you 🥺❤️
Honestly I'm not sure how your videos ended up in my suggestions. But I'm SO glad they did. I have spent the last few days now binge watching all your videos and any others I can find about this. It's been an amazing and informative couple of days. I can't wait for you to post more!
heh, same! it’s been really interesting so far. i watched a way newer one and decided i’d watch her progress from the start, and i’m glad that i’m doing it.
When you're explaining dissociation, i realize this happens to me when driving, or something similar anyways. When driving for work, I would go nearly the entire 45 minute drive, end up at my destination and then have no memory of driving. I would be completely zoned out the entire time. Of course, if something happened and I needed to slam on the brakes or something, I was still aware enough to do that but it's just a strange thing that I didn't even know had a name, haha.
When I first learned about DID, I felt bad about using the word "disassociate" when I'm talking about my anxiety attacks because I thought maybe I was using that word wrong. Thank you for having it #1 on your list to say that dissociating is normal and everyone experiences it to some degree.
i really appreciate all the research you did for this video! the quotes and research you used to back up your explanations was very compelling and well-done. thanks!
I have absolutely had normal disassociation while driving. It has actually never been bad when it happens except for the fact that I only auto-pilot to work or home. If I go anywhere else and zone, I will end up at work or home unless I snap out of it sooner. It used to freak me out because I worried I was falling a sleep, but falling asleep is different cause I can't keep my eyes open and I actively fight it. But I got to a point where it felt like breathing because I almost drive better when I am not thinking, just reacting.
I have enjoyed your videos. I find it very fascinating to learn about the truth behind all these disorders, and I thank you for providing informative videos that help to remove the stigma surrounding DID. I am currently in school to be a nurse, and this truly helps to understand a person behind a book description. I have enjoyed meeting you, Kyle, and Nadia, and hope to meet more of your system as your channel grows. Much love. xxx
Hi Kayla, thank you so much! Im so glad that these videos are helping you build a new perspective, and we wish you the best of luck with your studies! 💜 Much love 😄xxx
My daughter has DID. I just recently found your channel a couple of days ago and it has been very helpful, but I would like to know more about how to help her. We have talked about intergrating her personalities, but she is very much against this. She also has a girlfriend who has DID, I can see how much they have helped one another, but I would like to do all I can to help her as well. How do I contact you personally so that you may be able to answer some questions for me? Is that possible? I admire you so much for putting yourself out there in order so that you can help others. Thank you for doing this.
Me: realizing I dissociate for about an hour, daily, to deal with stress and I get cranky when I don’t dissociate for a while *insert surprised pikachu image*
Hi, this video really helped me. I been going through some unknow trauma that I had and my first flashback and big dissociation, so this helped me understand so much. Because it was a very scary therapy appointment and moment in my life.
What fascinates me is how everyone responds differently to things. For example trauma. Why is it that someone with trauma will develop DID, whereas another person with trauma might end up with an eating disorder, or bipolar? Another person with a trauma might get amnesia and psychosis in later life... its strange isnt it!
very strange. i assume that it’s mostly about the individual and how they respond to the trauma, along with factors like how long they were going through it, circumstances, things like that
OMG. Speechless. Puzzle pieces of my life finally being put together. I've always been self-help kinda person my whole life but for last some months, I was feeling stuck but now it clicks. I can connect the dots now. Being also a trauma survivor, it's been very hard. Its been as if I have lived but I haven't lived. What I was looking for was lost but it was always been there. I tried everything but didn't get the answers (solutions) of my symptoms. Thank you so much. This video was so helpful. It set me on the right path again.
Thank you so much for making this video. I have borderline personality disorder and I have found this so helpful when explaining to prove what dissociation, derealization and depersonalization are.
What other people do when there bored: Play a game, watch Netflix, go outside etc Me: research psychology, DID, trauma, ptsd, anxiety and depression, following heaps of threads and incidentally learning new words and meanings because I'm reading things I don't understand and gaining a deeper understanding of the mind and end up having a larger and more complex vocabulary than the average 13 year old
Thank you for opening up to us and sharing your story Chloe, it's really brave of you and I'm sure will help so many people. I don't have DID, but I've struggled a lot with dissociation and it really frightened me before I found out what was going on. These things really aren't talked about enough, so for others coming to terms with symptoms you just don't hear about every day, I think it's so kind you've put yourself out and given them this place to feel safe and normal again. Lots of love!
When everyone but the front I believe you said is in, do they all stay on the same schedule in sync with everyone or do some take breaks and possibly "tag others in" in the meantime?
@@Rintastic7 we have osdd, and everybody is different, but our body has a lot of trouble sleeping, so what we do is that around bedtime, Finley (one of our Littles) will be put to bed by me and Frank (in the head space), and then Frank will snuggle up on the couch in the big living room, that has a tv/window to the outer world, and we will both read or watch Netflix or something. so we all try to get a schedule going and a sense of rest within the head. But we don't need to all have the same schedule. I'm really a night person, while Frank is a morning person for example.
i’ve been originally diagnosed with dp/dr, but now they’re trying to push the label of ptsd on me. it’s so immensely distressing to me for some reason😔 thank you so much for such a knowledge video Chloe! I miss you so much, but welcome wonderfully sweet Nin!❤️
Wow. This helped me out a lot. I suffered some deep trauma as a child, and I've been trying to figure out why I mentally checked out so hard then, and now when people try to discuss what happened with me. This will help me to be able to help me in therapy once I can afford to go to a professional. Thank you so much for helping me to figure this out. You all are amazing! Thanks again!
I literally dissociated watching this video. I was hearing what Chloe was saying but I zoned out and had to rewind like five minutes to hear it better. 😭 Awesome video. ❤
This channel was so helpful as I was figuring out what was happening to me. I do not have DID but I have been experiencing dissociation ever since I was hospitalized nearly a year ago. Finding out what was happening makes my life so much more manageable and less terrifying.
Thank you for making this video! I've recently been really interested in DID for some reason. I think it's because I experienced some form of dissociation a few years ago, and couldn't stop thinking about it, it freaked me out. When I went online I found this thread where a bunch of people were confused about experiencing something similar but nobody knew what it was. They mentioned something like a by product of depression and the Alice in Wonderland syndrome, I could see how this plays a role but these answers never satisfied my constant questioning of the situation and what I'd experienced. When I tried to explain it to friends it made me feel like they thought I was crazy. This video has cleared up so much, and I now know that it is quite common amongst people in their 20s to experience it at least once.
I did the "normal" or "common" dissociation quite a bit when reading when I was younger, and now when driving. It's a bit scary when driving. Also I know this video is really old, but I just started watching this series. I am absolutely loving watching your videos and getting more educated, I still have so many questions but it's just really amazing to see your progress (i started watching more recent vids before this) and your support system of faithful friends. I am so amazed by how you handle everything and how strong you are, I honestly don't know if I could have handled something like this and you are just a champ. love you and hope your doing well
🙄wonder how many dudes clicked on the video because it looked like you were topless. The video is very well researched and I’m glad your videos exist to help systems recognise the symptoms and to help friends and family.
I had an experience in my 20s where I was assaulted and robbed at gunpoint while making a delivery. I assume that I disassociated because my memory is that I was almost watching it happen to someone else in slow motion.
Y’all are so good at explaining experiences of symptoms on a scale with context of what is normal and what is potentially a symptoms of someone’s DID. I have never gone to any type of therapy ( I know it would be helpful to my mental health but it’s never been an obtainable thing to date) but from my understanding of DID and my self evaluation of the scale of the symptoms I have experienced if the trauma I experienced had been more frequent or continuous I may have been likely to have DID. I do not believe I reached any part of the diagnosis of having DID, I can just reflectively and objectively see how DID could have been a possibility. Thank y’all again for doing your best in helping all of us understand and comprehend what living with DID can be like and the extent of your research is beautiful. Thank you and y’all have a lovely time
I just realized - One of the scariest memories from my childhood is just a strong dissociation. I was around 10 years old, and I felt like I was watching myself in my room from a bird's eye view for a few minutes. I was extremely scared when it ended because I didn't know how to control that process, or whether it's something that would ever repeat. It did happen a few more times, thankfully not to the same degree as that first one, but even today, years later, this memory still occasionally returns to haunt me. Thank you for letting me realize that this is something normal, and not to be scared of. I don't have DID, I watch this channel mainly because I find the topic interesting, but some ideas presented are helpful to anyone, not just those suffering from DID.
I want to say, thank you so very much for your videos. I don't have DID, but I find the videos very interesting and informative, and they've helped me to understand something that I didn't understand before. You really are doing a great thing and I'm rooting for your entire system that these legal issues are resolved soon.
Currently starting a binge of all the videos while waiting for more parts of the system update to go up. So glad youre back and I send you positive vibes! Be safe and keep shining love
I deal with a lot of anxiety and dissociate to calm down. I wasn't really educated on it/didn't know if that's what I was experiencing, so I'm very grateful that I could watch this video and learn more about it. You're incredible and so influential, all of my love goes out to the DissociaDID system 💞💞
From my limited knowledge of dissociation, I thought it was what you called it when you and alters switch. But now I know it’s not, thank you for educating me on this Chloe 🙂❤️
It's very interesting that you disassociate on camera quite often, while Jess from MultiplicityAndMe does quite rarely. Love your videos. Thank you for using this platform to spread more information about DID. It will be so helpful for lost souls looking for help with the disorder
I've always noticed that I didn't remember anything from the worst parts of my depression. Like, entire weeks and months are gone. The times I do remember, I remember feeling like I was just a little too far from reality to really interact with it. The doing and seeing everything through cobwebs and foggy glass like Kyle described in ep 1. I've never really been able to put my finger on it, but since I've started watching you and the Piñata system I've realised that I was probably dissociating a lottttttt just to not have to deal with the extremes I was going through.
Just came from watching Kyle make another video on the symptoms video. I thought it would be a good idea to subscribe to people with DID to understand more about the disorder....
This was super helpful. I couldn't wrap my head around what dissociation was and the examples you gave were really good. Especially the one about studying and reading and not knowing what you just read... 😅 Thank you for this video!!
3:35 YES! That's one of the things that I always remember when someone asks about my accident! The soda in my hand fell in slow motion!! (I've also dealt with the driving/reading/staring one many times before)
8:04 actually I’m 95% sure the DSM actually doesn’t contain treatment options! (2nd year psyc major). Only disorder descriptions and symptoms and such!!
I don’t have DID, but I’ve been in many accidents throughout my life (I don’t have much much of a natural fear response which especially as a child caused me to do stupid things) and the way you described the sensation of time changing was so spot on. It’s like everything moves in slow motion but you still move at normal speed. Weirdest thing ever. I would also loose all sensation of pain and in some cases make the injury worse (eg walking on a broken limb). I always attributed that to the adrenaline in the body. Thanks for explaining this so well. Makes a lot more sense to me now.
I'm relieved that my disassociation is normal. Yay!!!! LOL Ik I don't have DID cuz I see all my diff sides as 1 self but, I have disassociated ALOT in my life b/c my dad was a mentally and sometimes physically abusive psycho so everyday dealing w/ him I would dissociate (as much as I disassociated growing up I'm lucky to not have DID). I can see how DID can happen cuz scientifically and psychologically it makes sense when u understand what's going on in the brain, esp as it's still growing. Ppl need to have more empathy for DID ppl, and other disordered ppl for if someone doesn't know they could easily be in another's shoes as they can their own one knows nothing at all. Stay strong, and realize u r loved by God/dess, and many ppl on here. Pay haters no mind, for they have no mind.
I’ve known I have DPDR since I was very young, and it would always last several hours or entire days. It started to calm down a bit in the last two years, but very recently it’s started to resurface in varying levels of severity. I’ve had several episodes of dissociating beyond the point of being able to interact with people, and I’ve been told that sometimes I just blink during these episodes and look around and don’t remember anything, asking who and where I am, though I have no memory of such events. Then they say I’ll dissociate again after a bit and come back to my normal memory and consciousness, with some lingering depersonalization. I have not had any abusive or “traumatic” experiences, or at least that I can remember, and I’ve never been told that I have any definite “alters” and I never claim to have DID or anything of the sort. I also haven’t been physically hurt in a way that would alter my brain’s memory functions. So I’m not entirely sure what’s happening to me, or why it’s manifesting now. Can you help me?
I have been dissociating a lot lately. I get easily stressed so I that is probably why. I also compartmentalize almost everything to the point where it's almost concerning. I'm just nervous because I've been through out my life that I've been told I've been abused as child with no recollection of it. Since I have been watching your videos I have been dissociating more. When this happens I've been loosing longer amounts of time. I know that I might be over reacting as I do most things since I tend to over analyse. But in other videos you have said that denying the existence of DID is a symptom. So I'm kind of stuck at this point. Thank you so much for being a source of information and comfort. You are an amazing role model for everyone in the world.
This was so helpful to me, I actually cried when you told about all the traumas since I lost my mum to a brain aneurysm when I was 7 and I had a really hard time to accept the fact that she was gone and was one point even angry at her for leaving me for months I waited for her to come home even though I kinda knew she wasn’t coming home ever again. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder
Thank you for addressing the top in the outro We've noticed that you have a lot of shoulderless tops, so we figured it was just one of those But if you were just recording a video topless, that would have been a serious power move
Lately I felt so stress due too much exhaustion on my studies. I did so much and to the point I experienced severe headaches from my frontal part and on the temporal portion of my head. Yes, recently I have experienced dissociating several times for the past week (although I also experience it before, but not severe). Which really bothers me so much, I haven't visited my psychologist yet due to hectic sched. But because of this video it helps me to feel lighter that maybe its somehow normal, or probably I just need some rest. But still, I'll be visiting my psychologist soon but this video makes me feel a quiet relief. Thank you so much fo an awesome content..
It seems so surreal to watch these videos and see how you (referring to Chloe in this video) and your alters seem to be so great at keeping productive and informing people about your situation and DID as a whole. I have had trauma in my past and experience a lot of stress but do not feel I have DID. I just think its amazing to see how well you handle it and inform others with these videos. Ps you are really pretty so I felt that was something positive to leave you with and I look forward to exploring your channel and learning more.
for me it feels like being in a dream you don't wake up out of. and what a lot of people don't mention is the anxiety that comes with it (and i am talking about anxiety from long term, chronic dissociation). i felt constantly on edge, like the feeling you get when you trip and know youre about to hit the ground- except you never make impact, and it's all the time. dissociation also comes with the terrifying dread that your mind is permanently stuck in that state and your normal life is over. it consumes your thoughts to the point where its all you can think about at literally all moments of the day. just thinking about that time in my life is enough to make my heart rate go up.
Your eyes are so pretty they're like shiny coins which is kinda a weird analogy lol but it's so pretty!! Thank you for making these videos and informing thousands of people about something they wouldnt have otherwise known about ♡
12:27 Thank you for clearing that up! I was feeling very uncomfortable and I wanted to ask but I didn't want to say anything rude in case you had body image issues. I feel so relieved ^^;
As a student majoring in social work and minoring in psychology these videos are very informative, helpful, and awesome to watch! Gonna show my psychology professor these vids! Keep up the good work Chloe and Co.
This was really helpful. I don't have DID, but this was helpful for understanding dissociation in my everyday life (during school, walking home, etc.).
I have disassociations with PTSD. For a long time it really scared me because I had no idea what was going on and also it took a while for me to be diagnosed with PTSD. Knowing that I’m not alone helps so much.
This is a very informative video though I have a question. With containing traumas in a alter, wouldn't that alter just suffer from the experience instead or would they be more resilient somehow?
The alter would suffer the trauma instead, yes. They can also be more resilient, sometimes adapted to the trauma. For example, some alters have a very high pain tolerance (to deal with torture) or low empathy (eg: if they were forced to hurt others) or be the opposite sex to the body (to feel more removed from sexual abuse) - significantly different to the habits, personality and tolerances of the host (the personality who deals with normal aspects of daily life). The host and non-EP's (trauma holding Emotional Parts) can therefore continue with normal functions without being aware of the trauma ever having occured/occurring, because if they were aware that person would not be able to function. Hope this helps! x
Hi! I don’t have DID but I do have “Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder” and experience moderate/severe dissociation several times per day. I really appreciate all your videos explaining dissociation, because aside from you I don’t know anyone else that experiences this.
I just learnt that what’s been happening in those moments is dissociation, I’ve just been calling it zoning out. For dissociating during watching videos or during something like lecture at school a trick I use is repeating the words the person is saying in my head along with them so that I can’t focus on anything else. It works most of the time, but sometimes my own thoughts overpower it and I dissociate anyways. The dissociating while reading still gets me all the time, haven’t found a way around that yet.
I know this is an old video but I figured I would comment here anyway as it is on topic. I actually dissociate quite a bit. Sometimes short sometimes fairly long. Weird but ok. The ones that scare me is when I'm missing memories after the fact along with what feels like a missing emotional hole in the chest (and a small headache to boot). This has been going on since I was a kid but only much later did I figure this out as I seem to have suddenly remembered some things on my own that were "not there" before regarding something I will not get into in a comment. As far as I am aware I do not have DID or the like but I do need to talk to a doctor one of these days if I can ever talk myself into doing so and not just suddenly forget it all. Discussing these things makes me squidgy but this feels like a safe space so yeah. Thank you for all you do. You are an amazing group that help so many out there.
I’m watching all your videos from old to new after finding you from your unboxing multiple switch video. I just wanted to say the body’s hair looks so good as the purple ombré. I love studying all different sides to mental health so thank you for educating me. 😊
Oh my gosh. I’ve heard these 2 terms so many times but never made the connection. Disassociating is just like the “nothing box”!!! When a guy can sit there and basically think about nothing for a moment. I’d say an accurate description would be “opening the ‘nothing box’ is like cracking open a lid a very small amount but disassociating is like opening it all the way”.
I've felt a dream like auto pilot before. In highschool my depression and anxiety was at an all time high, and sleeping became very difficult sometimes. I sometimes went for 3 days only sleeping a total of 2 hours. I called it autopilot, except I could tell it was autopilot. I knew I was there but I didnt feel like I was myself.
I had 1 major dissociation in my life. My grandparents died 13 days apart from each other when I was in high school. Grandma died of side effects of multiple strokes. Grandfather died of heart failure (we are convinced a broken heart). I flew to florida for my grandma's funeral and then came back home. I found out about my grandfather also dying a few days later and I remember all the way up to getting on the plane to go back to florida and then remember nothing else until returning home again. I am told I was even a pall bearer. So about 3 days I have no recollection of what so ever.
you.are.just.amazing. I have just found your channel and I can’t stop watching. I have a passion for psychology and I find this extremly educational and inspiring to watch. Thank you (system) for presenting yourself to the world! That’s brave! Much love
i don't have did, but i realise now that i dissociated yesterday after sitting two days with a girlfriend who just won't stop complaining, yesterday evening i decided "i've had enough, i won't care about anything else she says, I'll just let her talk then agree".. then I felt relieved, but also dizzy, like she was talking to me from afar. i found it strange, but i understand now. very interesting. thank you!! ❤️
im mad you're a new youtuber because i wanna binge watch like 100 of your videos BUT THERE ARE NO 100 VIDEOS :( (aka i love you and your content)
This is the sweetest!! Thank you!! 100 videos coming soon ;P ❤
Yasss!! I feel the same! you are so nice and very informed! Thank you so much for sharing on this platform
Awww thank you both so much!! 😍😍
Same. After this i only have one left. :c
Bingewatching now xD i I have a lot to go at this point
For those that are critics or cynics, it is obvious to tell that Chloe really does have DID due to each alter having their own facial expressions and even micro expressions which are impossible to fake. Also, they all talk differently through voice and even the way their mouth moves when they talk. For example, Chloe talks exposing the top teeth whereas Kyle relaxes the lower lip more when he talks, exposing the bottom teeth more. Chloe and alters, you are all very inspiring in sharing your truth with the world, it is very brave and I know it will literally change lives, it has mine and I don’t have DID. Thank you for sharing your light with us!
BellaKat7 you've got some real good observation skills. for me, the thing that convinces me that she genuinely has DID is the fact that I personally respond differently to her videos when another alter is out. for example, when Chloe is fronting I'm relaxed and at ease. When Kyle is fronting, I genuinely feel like I'm hanging out with one of my mates. He's so chill and seems easy to get along with. But, in the videos where Jade is fronting, I feel slightly intimidated. don't get me wrong, I like her and enjoy the videos she's in, but I can't help feel like I'm in the presence of a stern teacher. the way she looks into the camera feels like she's staring into my soul instead of a camera.
I agree with you both and especially about Jade being intimidating.
She reminds me of that Kelis song Bossy the first quote line of it is so her its:
"You don't Have to love me, You don't even Have to Like me, But, YOU. WILL. RESPECT. ME!"
Like she has this air of "Idgaf If YOU think I'm not friendly, I'm not here to make friends, I'm here to protect and defend. If you respect that and show me that YOU're worthy, I May decide to become friendly with you. But it is no loss to me if we aren't friends, I care more about guarding my system and those within as they are my priority."
And while that intimidates me, I get it and respect it.
I have trust issues too.
I feel like Jade is a Warrior Queen who was raised by a Warrior Queen (Ruby).
I know technically you can't have 2 Queen's in a Queendom but it feels like Jade is a Queen and since she said she was raised by Ruby I'm going to assume that Ruby is just as strong, Powerful & Regal. Jade at least from what little I know of her appears to be Regal, poised, powerful, fierce, intelligent, cunning, watchful, cleaver, calculating, firm but fair and has an air or royalty.
Like she wouldn't be all "off with your head!" For no reason but if you deserved it she would happily put you in your place.
She seems more self confident, self assured and to know exactly who and what she is as a person.
Whereas the others seem more soft, and vulnerable but still just as beautiful and unique in their own ways.
Kyle seema tough but also very gentle.
He makes me think of those fireman with a kitten being saved kinda picture like he's tough and strong, but he's also kind and gentle, loving and caring.
Super fun loving.
The girls Chloe, Sally and Nadia seem similar yet different in their own ways like they all seem into make up and are kind to others but Sally likes to read, Nadia likes to meditate etc.
It's obvious they are all real people.
Just because they share a body doesn't make them less so .
Sorry for the super long comment.
I just love the whole DisassociaDID system and while I've only met Chloe, Kyke, Jade, Sally, Nadia and I think Anita is it? I think they are ALL such wonderful people and I really admire them for their strength and willingness to be vulnerable for the sake of helping others.
Courage isn't the absence of fear but a willingness to do it anyway regardless of said fear.
And I believe that all of the alters who I have had the honor and privilege of meeting have courage and are brave.
Definately braver than I am.
I have wanted to make videos for a while now about my life to help others with my issues or similar. But I'm afraid of the nasty things people might say to &or about me.
So they have courage doing what they do.
I admire and respect them all. And I hooe to learn a LOT from them as I know they have a LOT to teach me.
BellaKat7
Now that you mention it... I can actually feel the different ways my alters hold our face when they’re out. Like, I can feel our face shifting as we switch...
I agree! That would be a lot of effort to learn to write, and act for every single alter. There are individual playlists of music for each alter for cryin' out loud! It takes months for method actors to prepare for a single role let alone 5 or 25. And unless you spend years learning to act even then mannerisms are extremely difficult let alone impossible for some! As someone who works with actors it is highly unlikely an actor would do this. And with their knowledge of DID, why would you bother researching and making a youtube channel if there was a chance you'd be caught in a lie. They even warn not to self diagnose, and to speak to a doctor or support group.
Exactly. There is nobody in the world who can act so good as to alter their micro expressions and body language to this extent. This is 100% real
As a masters degree level psychotherapist....i have only one word...WOW
❤❤❤
She's incredible, isn't she? I have never seen ANYONE with a mental illness (including myself - I have BPD) understand and describe it the way Chloe does.
@@BexMcInulty i have bpd too so happy that I've come upon this channel
@@michimelody4036 I do aswell
..Ooh..😳🙄.. Its pretty sad actually, that you said that😔😬... but ofc the one who is living with this is the best expert on THEIR DID... But many times when some meet a psychatric DR..😌..or a prof. ..like You are..They seem hard to explain this and can easy sat that diagnose..(bc its easy to do..or?!).. Ever get the diagnose and you doesnt agree., bc some reason or so...and what ever you say after diagnose....just strenghtens the diagnose.. and your words has no value anymore😔😞. If you can, please explain this for me.. It would help me so,so much...🥺💚.. Thank you, proff.❣️//stay safe//much Love/Hope// Linda E 💚 🇸🇪
Wow, I never realized I dissociate... but now I realize I do it.. quite a lot.
In a video about dissociation... I managed to zone out around the 3:00 mark and when i zoned back in it was at 6:16... had to re-watch it
I was looking for someone with a similar experience.
are there any people who dont have did or are psychologists, but just fell in love with them and just wants to learn more about them
Yep!
I’m very interested, but I also want to be a psychologist when I’m older! I find DID sooo interesting and am currently binging videos
My dad has DID
Mee 😍😍
i want to possibly be a psychologist, but im also writing a book and want to include a well written character with did to help with actual good rep! so mood
we miss you dissociadid. i’m sorry about all this copyright mess. you deserve to have your hard work restored.
What happened?
@@jhernandez7204 there’s some vids on it
Could you make a day in the life of ... video to give a better angle of how you all go through a normal day or are productive ?
If it doesn't botter any of you
Are you sure youd want to see that? Our life is very boring
Yooo that is a really smart idea. You should do that. You’ve never talked about how often you switch or dissociate in a day. It could be fun.
Maybe if it was done on a day where you have an event? like a birthday or something? if you are worried about being boring. but honestly a normal day would be interesting all on it's own haha
That would seem really interesting to me!
@@Zenmybananas, I agree
I dissociated in the middle of this video lol
mood
me too lol
Saaaaame. I had the volume on really low, so I had to focus on reading her lips and keep my mind attached to what was happening, but it still fobbed off on its own at some point.
same
So did i because it takes so long to get to the fucking point already!!!
I don't have PTSD, but I struggle a lot with anxiety. Crowds and noisy places are hard, but now at least I know what happens to me - I dissociate. So, thank you for that it helps. ❤️
I have really severe PTSD, panic disorder, and MDD along with a few other comorbid disorders. Growing up, my mom told me that I was just dramatic and nothing was wrong, which ended up making things worse. I experienced a lot of trauma during that time that I never talked about because I wasn't ever accepted. Due to that, my brain decided that the way i cope with things is to disassociate. The worst time happened just under a year ago. I had a car accident that triggered my PTSD and I disassociated for 12 hours straight, during which I planned and stopped 3 suicide attempts. I ended up in a psych hospital for 6 days because when I came to, I was scared of myself. I still disassociate a lot and I'm working on it with therapy but it freaks my coworkers out because sometimes it happens at work due to customer interactions and then they meet a strange version of me. It took a long time for me to accept that it isnt always a bad thing to disassociate but that I need to work on controlling it in more professional and social situations. I love that you speak out about DID and mental health. My trauma happened after 8 so I never developed alters but my therapists and psychiatrists explain to me that it would have likely been developed if these things happened at a younger age.
I love your system that I've seen and I am proud of you ♡
I think I have PTSD too...my psychiatrist thinks I have it.
I have complex PTSD, RAD, and a number of other mental health diagnoses the panic disorder and disassociation are just parts of my PTSD but my adoptive mom (she was actually very mentally and physically abusive which added to my PTSD) but she would often joke about me going off in lala land and make jokes about me being blonde and get angry when I’d forget something she had just told me to do and before I knew about dissociative disorder and depersonalization I had no idea what was wrong with me but now I realize that’s what was making me zone out and forget things and that it’s just my brain’s response to trauma and it makes me feel a little bit better because I really didn’t know what was wrong with me and thought I was stupid or not trying hard enough especially when it started getting really bad and I went from making straight A’s and being years above my grade level to not being able to retain like any new information and failing math and taking 3 times as long to get through a book because I’d constantly have to re-read everything which I never had to do as a kid. These videos help me understand my brain so much better, even my therapists didn’t explain everything as well as she does...they only really explained my flashbacks and anxiety attacks.
I haven't seen anyone use MDD except in the support groups on Facebook. I didn't know that doctors were diagnosing this officially now.
Same here. I have C-PTSD and my therapist told me that if my truma started a few years earlier, I would have most likely developed DID.
yatarika yup I was diagnosed with MDD about 4 or 5 years ago.
It’s kind of like “day dreaming” but you’re not thinking of anything. Like you’re just kinda zoned out, thinking about nothing like just blank. Atleast that’s how it is for me.
Isn't day-dreaming still dissociation anyway?
@@Josh-oj9mm It is? When I'm daydreaming I just walk in circles, perfectly aware of what's going on. I know where I am, what I'm touching, and everything I do is conscious. I may not respond to anything at all, but that's because it just feels wrong, not because I don't know that there's something I should have responded to.
haha watched the whole vid and was wondering what you were wearing.. "surely she can't be?".. then you break the 4th wall and say it at the end xD A++ video.
Hahaha thank you 😂😂
Np... you can break the 4th wall and scare the crap out of me like you read mind through the internet and into the future anytime lol
Hahaha, ill keep that in mind 😂😂
This video makes me understand why high schools worry about distracting shoulders :P (because I was thinking the same thing the whole video)
Duckboy Breadington omg i was wondering the ENTIRE video !
Your skin looks so smooth and healthy😍 how about do a skin care video. i want Kyle to do it! HAHAHA
Ugh I’ve just watched all your videos and I’m so interested and also want to be your friend 😂
Haha come follow us on fb and insta, we can be friends! ;P 🧡
Me too!!!
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I'd love to be their friend too! I've just followed you guys on Facebook. :)
I don't really have Insta so can't do so there.
(I think I signed up ages ago but cannot remember any details of it.) But looking forward to seeing your posts on there too. I'm Sarah Jane Bennett on Facebook.
Same! 😂
So we are all just going to act like the shower didnt turn itself on?
Okay then.
This was the comment I was looking for. I'm glad someone else knows that doesnt just happen
@@pasoan2439 hehhe not Chloe's appearance! They're talking about the Shower! here 4:11! that's so funny and weird honestly hahahahha
I was just watching that part when I saw this comment. Lmao-
Some things are meant to be unsaid-
I now know that I experienced “normal” dissociation in chorus class once. We started singing one of our songs and I started singing just like everybody else but I was dissociating and thinking about something else and didn't realize I was singing until we finished. I was so confused what happened but now I know thanks to this video 🙂. Thank you Chloe
i’m in choir as well as other performance groups and i know exactly how you feel bc i dissociate every time i perform because of anxiety from the crowd etc. it’s so weird when i realise the whole thing is over and i almost never remember any of it
This is so interesting! I have CPTSD and BPD so experience clinical dissociation but obviously not to the level you do, but it's so interesting to see the spectrum there. I think a lot of people don't understand how dissociation can be so incredibly uncomfortable, not feeling like things are real and you can't quite get a grip. Thinking of you x
I’ve actually been going to therapy recently and I’ve been told (by the professionals) that I have a possibility of having BPD and cPTSD. The info on the internet is mostly saying that you can’t have both even though the symptoms do overlap. And while I do need further sessions to get a proper diagnosis, if you are able I would love to get your opinion on this. Can both of them occur at once and like idk any info about that at all? Please share only if you’re comfortable. I’m just asking because I haven’t been able to find much info about this online. Thank you 🥺❤️
Honestly I'm not sure how your videos ended up in my suggestions. But I'm SO glad they did. I have spent the last few days now binge watching all your videos and any others I can find about this. It's been an amazing and informative couple of days. I can't wait for you to post more!
heh, same! it’s been really interesting so far. i watched a way newer one and decided i’d watch her progress from the start, and i’m glad that i’m doing it.
When you're explaining dissociation, i realize this happens to me when driving, or something similar anyways. When driving for work, I would go nearly the entire 45 minute drive, end up at my destination and then have no memory of driving. I would be completely zoned out the entire time. Of course, if something happened and I needed to slam on the brakes or something, I was still aware enough to do that but it's just a strange thing that I didn't even know had a name, haha.
When I first learned about DID, I felt bad about using the word "disassociate" when I'm talking about my anxiety attacks because I thought maybe I was using that word wrong. Thank you for having it #1 on your list to say that dissociating is normal and everyone experiences it to some degree.
Huh. Turns out I've dissociated a lot. I usually associate it with my ADHD
Same
Same
Same
OMG now it all makes sense.
This ^
I've actually asked people "what's the difference between zoning out and dissociation, because I zone out a lot" before
i really appreciate all the research you did for this video! the quotes and research you used to back up your explanations was very compelling and well-done. thanks!
Thank you very much! 😄
I never knew that disassociating can happen in so many different ways.
"Ghosts!" *makes cross sign* I giggled so hard. Also, 1996! You're younger than me by 3 years
You're so cute!
@@DissociaDID Complemented you so hard, im so jealous!
It makes me really happy that a bunch of people are going back and rewatching all of these older videos as they get reuploaded, myself included
I have absolutely had normal disassociation while driving. It has actually never been bad when it happens except for the fact that I only auto-pilot to work or home. If I go anywhere else and zone, I will end up at work or home unless I snap out of it sooner. It used to freak me out because I worried I was falling a sleep, but falling asleep is different cause I can't keep my eyes open and I actively fight it. But I got to a point where it felt like breathing because I almost drive better when I am not thinking, just reacting.
I have enjoyed your videos. I find it very fascinating to learn about the truth behind all these disorders, and I thank you for providing informative videos that help to remove the stigma surrounding DID. I am currently in school to be a nurse, and this truly helps to understand a person behind a book description. I have enjoyed meeting you, Kyle, and Nadia, and hope to meet more of your system as your channel grows. Much love. xxx
Hi Kayla, thank you so much! Im so glad that these videos are helping you build a new perspective, and we wish you the best of luck with your studies! 💜 Much love 😄xxx
My daughter has DID. I just recently found your channel a couple of days ago and it has been very helpful, but I would like to know more about how to help her. We have talked about intergrating her personalities, but she is very much against this. She also has a girlfriend who has DID, I can see how much they have helped one another, but I would like to do all I can to help her as well. How do I contact you personally so that you may be able to answer some questions for me? Is that possible? I admire you so much for putting yourself out there in order so that you can help others. Thank you for doing this.
Hi! Are you still in need of help?
Me: realizing I dissociate for about an hour, daily, to deal with stress and I get cranky when I don’t dissociate for a while
*insert surprised pikachu image*
I tend to disassociate for an hour sometimes as long as 6 because of the stress my job causes, and I also get really cranky if I don't
Me, who has adhd: Those are rookie numbers!
My prayers are with you all. Your system has enlightened us and myself. :)
I tend to dissociate when my depression kicks in. I'm just sorta watching my body from over the shoulder while it does things
Hi, this video really helped me. I been going through some unknow trauma that I had and my first flashback and big dissociation, so this helped me understand so much. Because it was a very scary therapy appointment and moment in my life.
Your hair is beautiful Chloe! Great video, gonna make sure I show this to some of my friends cause you explained everything wonderfully. :)
Ahh thank you thank youuu!!
I've just realized that I've binged watched almost all your videos today, I do hope you make more :)
(Love your avatar, LadyNoir is a power ship) Wow thank you! I'm actually editing one right now!
that is an amazing coincidence, and thank you I love the show. I finished watching season 2 on Netflix, so good!!!
Omg it's sooo good I need more Marichat in the show tho!! - Nadia
Nadia, you're so right, and i just want them to reveal their identities to each already, they came so close in that Owlman episode.
This is actullay the most wholesome and cute commentsection ever and we need to keep and maintain this
What fascinates me is how everyone responds differently to things. For example trauma. Why is it that someone with trauma will develop DID, whereas another person with trauma might end up with an eating disorder, or bipolar? Another person with a trauma might get amnesia and psychosis in later life... its strange isnt it!
very strange. i assume that it’s mostly about the individual and how they respond to the trauma, along with factors like how long they were going through it, circumstances, things like that
The wonders of each person having brains that process and develop differently
I think its about the age and severety of the trauma
Excellently explained. You may not be a professional but you should be.
OMG. Speechless. Puzzle pieces of my life finally being put together. I've always been self-help kinda person my whole life but for last some months, I was feeling stuck but now it clicks. I can connect the dots now. Being also a trauma survivor, it's been very hard. Its been as if I have lived but I haven't lived. What I was looking for was lost but it was always been there. I tried everything but didn't get the answers (solutions) of my symptoms. Thank you so much. This video was so helpful. It set me on the right path again.
Thank you so much for making this video. I have borderline personality disorder and I have found this so helpful when explaining to prove what dissociation, derealization and depersonalization are.
Haha I love that you leave some bloopers in. I could listen to you all day!
Haha thank you so much!! I am just a big goof 😂😘
What other people do when there bored: Play a game, watch Netflix, go outside etc
Me: research psychology, DID, trauma, ptsd, anxiety and depression, following heaps of threads and incidentally learning new words and meanings because I'm reading things I don't understand and gaining a deeper understanding of the mind and end up having a larger and more complex vocabulary than the average 13 year old
Gypsy Mellefont mood
Thank you for opening up to us and sharing your story Chloe, it's really brave of you and I'm sure will help so many people. I don't have DID, but I've struggled a lot with dissociation and it really frightened me before I found out what was going on. These things really aren't talked about enough, so for others coming to terms with symptoms you just don't hear about every day, I think it's so kind you've put yourself out and given them this place to feel safe and normal again. Lots of love!
If an alter gets up in the middle of the night, do you feel more tired in the morning?
Yes, as the body will have had much less sleep x
When everyone but the front I believe you said is in, do they all stay on the same schedule in sync with everyone or do some take breaks and possibly "tag others in" in the meantime?
@@Rintastic7 we have osdd, and everybody is different, but our body has a lot of trouble sleeping, so what we do is that around bedtime, Finley (one of our Littles) will be put to bed by me and Frank (in the head space), and then Frank will snuggle up on the couch in the big living room, that has a tv/window to the outer world, and we will both read or watch Netflix or something. so we all try to get a schedule going and a sense of rest within the head. But we don't need to all have the same schedule.
I'm really a night person, while Frank is a morning person for example.
Pros of watching videos about dissocaition: attempt to learn more and work out how to manage things
Cons: i have disocaited
every video i’ve watched of yours i’ve had to go back and rewatch minutes because i keep zoning out and dissociating. you’re wonderful
I hope you are safe and recovering 💓
i’ve been originally diagnosed with dp/dr, but now they’re trying to push the label of ptsd on me. it’s so immensely distressing to me for some reason😔
thank you so much for such a knowledge video Chloe! I miss you so much, but welcome wonderfully sweet Nin!❤️
Wow. This helped me out a lot. I suffered some deep trauma as a child, and I've been trying to figure out why I mentally checked out so hard then, and now when people try to discuss what happened with me. This will help me to be able to help me in therapy once I can afford to go to a professional. Thank you so much for helping me to figure this out. You all are amazing! Thanks again!
I literally dissociated watching this video. I was hearing what Chloe was saying but I zoned out and had to rewind like five minutes to hear it better. 😭 Awesome video. ❤
This channel was so helpful as I was figuring out what was happening to me. I do not have DID but I have been experiencing dissociation ever since I was hospitalized nearly a year ago. Finding out what was happening makes my life so much more manageable and less terrifying.
Thank you for making this video!
I've recently been really interested in DID for some reason. I think it's because I experienced some form of dissociation a few years ago, and couldn't stop thinking about it, it freaked me out. When I went online I found this thread where a bunch of people were confused about experiencing something similar but nobody knew what it was.
They mentioned something like a by product of depression and the Alice in Wonderland syndrome, I could see how this plays a role but these answers never satisfied my constant questioning of the situation and what I'd experienced. When I tried to explain it to friends it made me feel like they thought I was crazy. This video has cleared up so much, and I now know that it is quite common amongst people in their 20s to experience it at least once.
I did the "normal" or "common" dissociation quite a bit when reading when I was younger, and now when driving. It's a bit scary when driving. Also I know this video is really old, but I just started watching this series. I am absolutely loving watching your videos and getting more educated, I still have so many questions but it's just really amazing to see your progress (i started watching more recent vids before this) and your support system of faithful friends. I am so amazed by how you handle everything and how strong you are, I honestly don't know if I could have handled something like this and you are just a champ. love you and hope your doing well
🙄wonder how many dudes clicked on the video because it looked like you were topless.
The video is very well researched and I’m glad your videos exist to help systems recognise the symptoms and to help friends and family.
I had an experience in my 20s where I was assaulted and robbed at gunpoint while making a delivery. I assume that I disassociated because my memory is that I was almost watching it happen to someone else in slow motion.
Haha! I'm so glad you said that last part about the top. Thanks for the explanation!
Y’all are so good at explaining experiences of symptoms on a scale with context of what is normal and what is potentially a symptoms of someone’s DID.
I have never gone to any type of therapy ( I know it would be helpful to my mental health but it’s never been an obtainable thing to date) but from my understanding of DID and my self evaluation of the scale of the symptoms I have experienced if the trauma I experienced had been more frequent or continuous I may have been likely to have DID. I do not believe I reached any part of the diagnosis of having DID, I can just reflectively and objectively see how DID could have been a possibility.
Thank y’all again for doing your best in helping all of us understand and comprehend what living with DID can be like and the extent of your research is beautiful. Thank you and y’all have a lovely time
I just realized - One of the scariest memories from my childhood is just a strong dissociation. I was around 10 years old, and I felt like I was watching myself in my room from a bird's eye view for a few minutes. I was extremely scared when it ended because I didn't know how to control that process, or whether it's something that would ever repeat. It did happen a few more times, thankfully not to the same degree as that first one, but even today, years later, this memory still occasionally returns to haunt me. Thank you for letting me realize that this is something normal, and not to be scared of.
I don't have DID, I watch this channel mainly because I find the topic interesting, but some ideas presented are helpful to anyone, not just those suffering from DID.
I want to say, thank you so very much for your videos. I don't have DID, but I find the videos very interesting and informative, and they've helped me to understand something that I didn't understand before. You really are doing a great thing and I'm rooting for your entire system that these legal issues are resolved soon.
Currently starting a binge of all the videos while waiting for more parts of the system update to go up. So glad youre back and I send you positive vibes! Be safe and keep shining love
Me too!!
I deal with a lot of anxiety and dissociate to calm down. I wasn't really educated on it/didn't know if that's what I was experiencing, so I'm very grateful that I could watch this video and learn more about it. You're incredible and so influential, all of my love goes out to the DissociaDID system 💞💞
From my limited knowledge of dissociation, I thought it was what you called it when you and alters switch. But now I know it’s not, thank you for educating me on this Chloe 🙂❤️
It's very interesting that you disassociate on camera quite often, while Jess from MultiplicityAndMe does quite rarely. Love your videos. Thank you for using this platform to spread more information about DID. It will be so helpful for lost souls looking for help with the disorder
I've always noticed that I didn't remember anything from the worst parts of my depression. Like, entire weeks and months are gone. The times I do remember, I remember feeling like I was just a little too far from reality to really interact with it. The doing and seeing everything through cobwebs and foggy glass like Kyle described in ep 1.
I've never really been able to put my finger on it, but since I've started watching you and the Piñata system I've realised that I was probably dissociating a lottttttt just to not have to deal with the extremes I was going through.
Just came from watching Kyle make another video on the symptoms video. I thought it would be a good idea to subscribe to people with DID to understand more about the disorder....
Thank you so much, I really hope our videos can help shed some light on this disorder for you! If you ever have any questions, feel free to ask us 💖
This was super helpful. I couldn't wrap my head around what dissociation was and the examples you gave were really good. Especially the one about studying and reading and not knowing what you just read... 😅
Thank you for this video!!
3:35 YES! That's one of the things that I always remember when someone asks about my accident! The soda in my hand fell in slow motion!! (I've also dealt with the driving/reading/staring one many times before)
8:04 actually I’m 95% sure the DSM actually doesn’t contain treatment options! (2nd year psyc major). Only disorder descriptions and symptoms and such!!
I don’t have DID, but I’ve been in many accidents throughout my life (I don’t have much much of a natural fear response which especially as a child caused me to do stupid things) and the way you described the sensation of time changing was so spot on. It’s like everything moves in slow motion but you still move at normal speed. Weirdest thing ever. I would also loose all sensation of pain and in some cases make the injury worse (eg walking on a broken limb). I always attributed that to the adrenaline in the body. Thanks for explaining this so well. Makes a lot more sense to me now.
I'm relieved that my disassociation is normal. Yay!!!! LOL Ik I don't have DID cuz I see all my diff sides as 1 self but, I have disassociated ALOT in my life b/c my dad was a mentally and sometimes physically abusive psycho so everyday dealing w/ him I would dissociate (as much as I disassociated growing up I'm lucky to not have DID). I can see how DID can happen cuz scientifically and psychologically it makes sense when u understand what's going on in the brain, esp as it's still growing. Ppl need to have more empathy for DID ppl, and other disordered ppl for if someone doesn't know they could easily be in another's shoes as they can their own one knows nothing at all. Stay strong, and realize u r loved by God/dess, and many ppl on here. Pay haters no mind, for they have no mind.
I’ve known I have DPDR since I was very young, and it would always last several hours or entire days. It started to calm down a bit in the last two years, but very recently it’s started to resurface in varying levels of severity. I’ve had several episodes of dissociating beyond the point of being able to interact with people, and I’ve been told that sometimes I just blink during these episodes and look around and don’t remember anything, asking who and where I am, though I have no memory of such events. Then they say I’ll dissociate again after a bit and come back to my normal memory and consciousness, with some lingering depersonalization.
I have not had any abusive or “traumatic” experiences, or at least that I can remember, and I’ve never been told that I have any definite “alters” and I never claim to have DID or anything of the sort. I also haven’t been physically hurt in a way that would alter my brain’s memory functions. So I’m not entirely sure what’s happening to me, or why it’s manifesting now. Can you help me?
I have been dissociating a lot lately. I get easily stressed so I that is probably why. I also compartmentalize almost everything to the point where it's almost concerning. I'm just nervous because I've been through out my life that I've been told I've been abused as child with no recollection of it. Since I have been watching your videos I have been dissociating more. When this happens I've been loosing longer amounts of time. I know that I might be over reacting as I do most things since I tend to over analyse. But in other videos you have said that denying the existence of DID is a symptom. So I'm kind of stuck at this point.
Thank you so much for being a source of information and comfort. You are an amazing role model for everyone in the world.
This was so helpful to me, I actually cried when you told about all the traumas since I lost my mum to a brain aneurysm when I was 7 and I had a really hard time to accept the fact that she was gone and was one point even angry at her for leaving me for months I waited for her to come home even though I kinda knew she wasn’t coming home ever again. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder
Thank you for addressing the top in the outro
We've noticed that you have a lot of shoulderless tops, so we figured it was just one of those
But if you were just recording a video topless, that would have been a serious power move
Lately I felt so stress due too much exhaustion on my studies. I did so much and to the point I experienced severe headaches from my frontal part and on the temporal portion of my head. Yes, recently I have experienced dissociating several times for the past week (although I also experience it before, but not severe). Which really bothers me so much, I haven't visited my psychologist yet due to hectic sched. But because of this video it helps me to feel lighter that maybe its somehow normal, or probably I just need some rest. But still, I'll be visiting my psychologist soon but this video makes me feel a quiet relief. Thank you so much fo an awesome content..
It seems so surreal to watch these videos and see how you (referring to Chloe in this video) and your alters seem to be so great at keeping productive and informing people about your situation and DID as a whole. I have had trauma in my past and experience a lot of stress but do not feel I have DID. I just think its amazing to see how well you handle it and inform others with these videos. Ps you are really pretty so I felt that was something positive to leave you with and I look forward to exploring your channel and learning more.
for me it feels like being in a dream you don't wake up out of. and what a lot of people don't mention is the anxiety that comes with it (and i am talking about anxiety from long term, chronic dissociation). i felt constantly on edge, like the feeling you get when you trip and know youre about to hit the ground- except you never make impact, and it's all the time. dissociation also comes with the terrifying dread that your mind is permanently stuck in that state and your normal life is over. it consumes your thoughts to the point where its all you can think about at literally all moments of the day. just thinking about that time in my life is enough to make my heart rate go up.
Is it Ironic that I Disassociated during this video and I had to go back a minute to watch it again.
Your eyes are so pretty they're like shiny coins which is kinda a weird analogy lol but it's so pretty!!
Thank you for making these videos and informing thousands of people about something they wouldnt have otherwise known about ♡
12:27 Thank you for clearing that up! I was feeling very uncomfortable and I wanted to ask but I didn't want to say anything rude in case you had body image issues. I feel so relieved ^^;
As a student majoring in social work and minoring in psychology these videos are very informative, helpful, and awesome to watch! Gonna show my psychology professor these vids! Keep up the good work Chloe and Co.
This was really helpful. I don't have DID, but this was helpful for understanding dissociation in my everyday life (during school, walking home, etc.).
I have disassociations with PTSD. For a long time it really scared me because I had no idea what was going on and also it took a while for me to be diagnosed with PTSD. Knowing that I’m not alone helps so much.
This is a very informative video though I have a question. With containing traumas in a alter, wouldn't that alter just suffer from the experience instead or would they be more resilient somehow?
The alter would suffer the trauma instead, yes. They can also be more resilient, sometimes adapted to the trauma. For example, some alters have a very high pain tolerance (to deal with torture) or low empathy (eg: if they were forced to hurt others) or be the opposite sex to the body (to feel more removed from sexual abuse) - significantly different to the habits, personality and tolerances of the host (the personality who deals with normal aspects of daily life).
The host and non-EP's (trauma holding Emotional Parts) can therefore continue with normal functions without being aware of the trauma ever having occured/occurring, because if they were aware that person would not be able to function. Hope this helps! x
Its actually so nice to have this broken down finally. I was told i dessicate alot due to PTSD but was never told about it. Thank you all x
Hi! I don’t have DID but I do have “Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder” and experience moderate/severe dissociation several times per day. I really appreciate all your videos explaining dissociation, because aside from you I don’t know anyone else that experiences this.
I just learnt that what’s been happening in those moments is dissociation, I’ve just been calling it zoning out. For dissociating during watching videos or during something like lecture at school a trick I use is repeating the words the person is saying in my head along with them so that I can’t focus on anything else. It works most of the time, but sometimes my own thoughts overpower it and I dissociate anyways. The dissociating while reading still gets me all the time, haven’t found a way around that yet.
I know this is an old video but I figured I would comment here anyway as it is on topic. I actually dissociate quite a bit. Sometimes short sometimes fairly long. Weird but ok. The ones that scare me is when I'm missing memories after the fact along with what feels like a missing emotional hole in the chest (and a small headache to boot). This has been going on since I was a kid but only much later did I figure this out as I seem to have suddenly remembered some things on my own that were "not there" before regarding something I will not get into in a comment. As far as I am aware I do not have DID or the like but I do need to talk to a doctor one of these days if I can ever talk myself into doing so and not just suddenly forget it all. Discussing these things makes me squidgy but this feels like a safe space so yeah.
Thank you for all you do. You are an amazing group that help so many out there.
I was diagnosed with BPD but a lot of this really speaks to me!
I'm binge watching all of your videos again
I’m watching all your videos from old to new after finding you from your unboxing multiple switch video. I just wanted to say the body’s hair looks so good as the purple ombré. I love studying all different sides to mental health so thank you for educating me. 😊
I know I dont have DID but honestly its crazy because while watching this video I realized how offten my anxiety makes me dissociate like constantly.
Oh my gosh. I’ve heard these 2 terms so many times but never made the connection. Disassociating is just like the “nothing box”!!! When a guy can sit there and basically think about nothing for a moment. I’d say an accurate description would be “opening the ‘nothing box’ is like cracking open a lid a very small amount but disassociating is like opening it all the way”.
Glad I watched this! My daughter was saying she was disassociating and I was a bit confused. Basically she was saying she was zoning out.
I'm just now realising I've been dissociating so much these past few years and I didn't even know
I've felt a dream like auto pilot before. In highschool my depression and anxiety was at an all time high, and sleeping became very difficult sometimes. I sometimes went for 3 days only sleeping a total of 2 hours. I called it autopilot, except I could tell it was autopilot. I knew I was there but I didnt feel like I was myself.
I had 1 major dissociation in my life. My grandparents died 13 days apart from each other when I was in high school. Grandma died of side effects of multiple strokes. Grandfather died of heart failure (we are convinced a broken heart). I flew to florida for my grandma's funeral and then came back home. I found out about my grandfather also dying a few days later and I remember all the way up to getting on the plane to go back to florida and then remember nothing else until returning home again. I am told I was even a pall bearer. So about 3 days I have no recollection of what so ever.
you.are.just.amazing.
I have just found your channel and I can’t stop watching. I have a passion for psychology and I find this extremly educational and inspiring to watch.
Thank you (system) for presenting yourself to the world! That’s brave! Much love
I’m gonna binge all your videos >:D
i don't have did, but i realise now that i dissociated yesterday after sitting two days with a girlfriend who just won't stop complaining, yesterday evening i decided "i've had enough, i won't care about anything else she says, I'll just let her talk then agree".. then I felt relieved, but also dizzy, like she was talking to me from afar. i found it strange, but i understand now. very interesting. thank you!! ❤️
Well i dont remeber some part of my childhood... and YOU JUST PUT name of what i being doing over my life... Thank you