Daniel and I filmed an update about a year after this original video: ua-cam.com/video/xc1tbETJpX4/v-deo.html For some reason there's no comments allowed on the video and I can't change that on my end. I think it's a glitch in the algorithm.
I have szizaphrinea and bipolar I got a collage degree and I'm a published author I have been were this man was but with haldal I'm able to write and do stuff in the community
The last thing he said has completely changed my perspective. ‘If I am willing to do something to harm myself, why shouldn’t I do something to help myself’. Thank you. Those words will stay with me forever
Just to be sure. He meant that if we give so much importance to negative thoughts and emotions; why not do the same with the positive ones, am I right?
“You can logically know that you’re being irrational…but what does logic matter when i can feel it, i can see it, i can smell it, i can hear it…” Beautifully worded
Unfortunately I believe the more aware you are of these things within the conscious logical mind the worse it makes the experience. We’re fully lucid we have a defect that didn’t come with a warranty from the manufacture and were pissed we “bought” into it. At least the ones truly not fully there have some peace and bliss more periodically than what we experience.
I think it's a good thing to be self-aware, because it helps you both manage things to the best of your ability and also explain to others how they can support you. You have some amount of control back, and the strength to move on forward.
I only had one patient after years of getting on/off meds that finally looked at me one day & “It’s not real is it?” It’s been 15 yrs & I will never forget her.
@@abyrupus Thats very true and from personal experience i wouldnt wanna be that aware as iam, its a double edged sword, its good cause i can work on myself actively but it hurts tenfold.
I love that he has plushies with him and what seems like a fidget object. It's good when people surround themselves with what makes them comfortable or function better.
I have a Pitt Bull emotional support dog and a cat for emotional support. If I have one of them with me, I'm OK....when I go places they cant...I have extreme anxiety
“I fear losing what little worth I have. Because I don’t have much”. Dear Daniel, how wrong you are! I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You are an extremely kind, loving and intelligent human being and you should be proud of who you are. I certainly am proud of you. Lots of love from Greece
“I’ve been wondering where my Oscar award is, because this is pretty ridiculous” this guy has a great sense of humor also. His intellect is incredibly profound.
@@almondcaeser9587 sorry you are not understanding, so I’ll help you out. Watch the video in full. He says he deserves an Oscar award. He says it as a joke and my comment was stating that this man has a great sense of humor and is extremely intelligent and articulate. I get that you “Hello world” are trying to be positive and stick up for people, but in actuality you are being a troll that makes comments on videos that were not watched in full. So please, stop and just watch the video In its entirety before you post another retort.
Same, literally liked him straight away!!! I wanna be his friend lol. He seems amazing! I pray for his condition to get better ❤️ but like you said his personality shines through! ✨
Seeing the gauze wrapped around his wrists you know that he's struggling deeply. I wish nothing but the best for this guy, everyone on this world deserves love and to be cared for.
I'm a convenient store worker, from my perspective, it's NOT the government or society's fault. It is FAMILY and Friends (if any). Because when it comes to wrongful death or injury to a mentally disabled person, families want justice. When the tables are reversed families they take no responsibility. It's always the the government and societies fault.
Oh my god. I'm 14 and I'm crying. I am schizoaffective. Was denied the treatment I needed due to not having a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. I am also autistic and have been diagnosed since 2012. He's just like me. He acts just like me and talks just like me too. And he's an adult. This gives me hope for the future. Thank you so much.
Some advice, life won’t be easy for you, however treatments do exist. Stem Cell therapy for Austism and spiritual meditations, psychoanalysis for schizophrenia. The world is changing rapidly it’s becoming a place of great opportunity but dreadful totalitarianism, stay vigilant and fight for truth.
reach out for help as soon as you can. my dad has this but he’s severely debilitated by it since he repeatedly chose to not seek treatment. this man gave me hope too. i know i’m just a stranger on the internet but i just wanna spread a little bit of hope to you. you are capable and DESERVING of having a beautiful life with the love and support you need.
I hope you are doing alright. It's never easy carrying that stuff on your shoulder and may you find someone who can take care of you! I can't say I understand how hard it must be but I do know you have a bright future! Keep going, it'll be okay.
I’m so happy to hear that seeing this gave your hope for the future. - keep believing in that hope because once you’re older; you’ll be happier than you can imagine 🤍
Omg yes this man is not only intelligent. He is aware of his mental illness, has changed my perspective to try and reach out more for myself and for others and to just try to communicate the best and purist way I can and be kinder even to ppl I don't know. I hope they truly are helping him not just drugging him to the max and I really do hope you keep in touch with this guy as I wished I were able to be his friend aswell. I have borderline and it's rough aswell as the anxiety and the complex ptsd and depressive disorders. I get it and life is hard. Especially for people with issues life this man's and trying to fit in and act like what ppl perceive as normal...bravery and glad he shared this with us....he is worth more than he gives himself credit for. I want to hug him, if he was comfortable with a hug. I had a friend with this disorder that passed away. I never understood his mental illness and I understand it better now. So thank you. ❤
I dont think us as humans we realize so many people struggle with mental illnesses & youd never know or have behavioral issues that have never been resolved. Bless both of them
I want to cry with how much I relate to this. It's so exhausting to just exist. It's exhausting to do the things I used to love, like art. It's exhausting hearing people tell you it's all in your head or you're lazy or you're overreacting and that I can't keep a job for very long. It doesn't help. In fact, it just makes it worse. I battle every day of my life. I feel a sense of accomplishment when I just do a load of laundry. Everyday tasks are difficult. I rewrote this comment like 5 times because I kept telling myself that it doesn't matter. I just hope it matters to someone out there. I want that someone to know they aren't alone. Most of my frustration comes from the fact that no one understands what I go through and I am never able to put my feelings into verbal words, but seeing this video made me feel better. I hope to one day become an author and a comic artist. I hope for that future.
You know what helped me was helping other people. I sounded identical to you a time ago. But I managed to find enough.. enough energy and worth in loving other people and serving others to keep on keepin' on. You matter. I wish you the very best.
The intelligence, eloquence and self awareness this man has, along with the ability to be comedic and relatable while dealing with these issues is mind blowing to me. Seems like an awesome guy. Wish him the best.
Pretty much what I wanted to say. Really, he has more intelligence and self-awareness, at least during this interview, than 90% of the neurotypical folks I know. I wish him peace, the help he needs, and yes, joy.❤
Daniel is one of my favourite guests on SBSK. His intelligence and talent, especially in the poetry he shares online, just astounds me. I truly think he's like modern-day Van Gogh. I hope he is able to find successful and unproblematic help. I know it's a constant struggle for him. He deserves the absolute best in life.
I 100% agree with you! Daniel is a rare gem that is not that easy to find in this world. Daniel, if you’re reading this, just know that we love you and wish you to regain your self-worth, because you are worthy of everything good that this world has to offer! I truly hope that one day you’ll feel very happy again ❤️❤️❤️
This is so true and it’s how I describe panic attacks to people, I even reason with myself that “I have never died from and nothing bad has happened from a panic attack” but it doesn’t help a bit when I have one
As an EMT who has responded to 911 calls from people who are struggling with issues like this gentleman, thank you for allowing Chris to publish this. There are 3 residents within my hometown who I have transported, and it is good to know ways that I might be able to help improve their experience in the future. Thank you Daniel and best of luck.
Talking about problem is giving you the impulse that somebody have entered the issue in your head. And I see that the interview when he talked about his problems was better than medicine and psychiatrist. Nothing works better than when somebody who understands you.
It's really not though... Just as he feels he has "no self worth," an explains when he has bad days. Just waking up, not wanting to live. Cause it's just the same nothingness every day etc... He got excited when dude asked a his toys, cause it was dude abnormally something about him and if his. An just sitting ANY interest in him and/or something about him The problem is, he has no interests, no hobbies, nothing he looks forward to. Nothing to occupy himself, nothing that makes him interesting to others... So guess what, now people show an interest in his "schizophrenia." Now he's outwardly projecting that he needs help, an is happy to recieve the help and or attention. The thing is there are allot of young people who feel as though they have no purpose, an I'm not saying it's an "act" or the he's fully in control of being that way. Cause some schizophrenic people do definitely hallucinate and see things, or hear voices. I just believe that he's got more control over it all then he thinks or realizes.
18:56 "Does it make a difference just knowing somebody cares?" "It makes a world difference" Be kind. Care for others around you. That makes a big difference.
The best part is that he is 50% himself because he knows what's going on with him and in that case he can fight it and in the best case heal it if he finds the power wich most people need in their worst moments. But let's pray for him for better results. God is everywhere
@@victoryguard i just want him to feel like he is happy sometimes cause i think he stated that he hasent been happy for a while (also hello another hilda fan!)
i've never seen anyone being so vulnerable on the internet and he's helping others so, so much with that. i work with teens with his issues and he worded this SO, SO well.
This made me cry. It hurts to see someone so clearly in anguish in their own body and mind. No one deserves this. I hope he finds glimmers of light in the midst of all this darkness.
You should check out his youtube channel. he writes some lovely, deep, sometimes dark but very enlightening poems. He has such strength that i only wish i had.
@@kernspalte Hi Smoke, his youtube channel name is "Daniel Nepveux" Hope this helps. If you find it please be so kind and leave him a comment on 1 of his videos. im sure he would very much appreciate it.
People who can name their quirks, weaknesses/sensitivities, and ailements are already better off then the ones that cannot do that, because i have no doubt that everyone have some. The main thing is to learn about them and manage them.
Dumb people don’t experience psychosis. You experience psychosis because you’ve, in a way, realized you’re in the matrix (role playing an existence). It comes from thinking critically on an existencial level. If there is trauma or some sort of emotional damage, then you become a prisoner of your own mind as it’s hard to make logic of feelings. Speaking from experience.
This guy is a VETERAN. Served in the US Army. Consider that. That wasn’t described during this video but was in the check-up video posted the other day. It explains a LOT.
It's more than that. If I remember correctly, he had his life-changing injury in an initial training / on-boarding session, and he couldn't go farther, and also he felt his issues are not a physical injury. This made him feel guilty about seeking help from military agencies, because he felt he didn't deserve it and that other veterans deserve it more. Then, the channel creator spoke to organizations which help veterans and they welcomed him and re-affirmed that he deserves help as much as anyone else.
I was having so much suicidal thoughts 10 years ago as a teenage, also suffered severe anxiety and mental disorder. I got diagnosed with bipolar, spent my whole life fighting bipolar. Not until my partner recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
God he's smart. He understands what's happening, which is absolutely impressive when you are fighting against your own brain. I wish him the best, he deserves it.
I think when you are not adjusted to the rest of society it forces you to reflect. You become aware of the differences in your ways of relating to situations and the ability to compare and contrast and to articulate these contrasts appears as intelligence.
@@mikebranch7928 True, but reflecting doesn't magically give you the ability to understand the things that are happening to you when reality and fantasy are literally indistinguishable.
This is probably my fave interview to date. For the amount of diagnoses he has, his intelligence and introspection is incredible. If every person had this much self awareness we'd be living in a better world. This was absolutely incredible. Complete understanding of what is wrong, how he deals, and even the damage this can cause (ex. borderline and relationships). Great job on this.
Don't underestimate the sheer strength, guts and stamina it takes to cope with these disorders on a day to day basis. Non sufferers do not really understand the relentnesses of it. It is indeed exhausting and depressing in itself.
You bet it is. I have major depressive disorder with the psychotic features, PTSD, ADHD, and a few others. No one understands me and no one wants to care enough about me to understand me or so it seems in my mind. The hallucinations and delusions are the worst things for me along with the depression
18:56 I've never wanted to hug another person so much. The moment he closed his eyes and said that it made a world of difference to know that somebody cares, you can almost feel his pain and make you want to take it away.
I cried while watching this. My brother has schizoeffective disorder but he never articulated what he was going through in detail. I have so much gratitude to Daniel for sharing his experience and helping those of us who desperately want to understand and support people we love. I hope he knows that he has made a big, positive difference in the world by doing this interview.
Sometimes the meds we take make us less expressive. I could never have articulated what I was going through when I was in the hospital receiving treatment. Even now when I’m not psychotic I can’t remember everything and articulate them well either. Like he says. Those are flashes not memories. I just prayed for your brother for him to be cured and healed. ❤
@@sjycheryl Thank you so much for your response! My brother did seem less expressive when he was on his meds. Almost like his essence was muted. It broke my heart because he was the sweetest, smartest, most creative kid before all this happened. It sounds as though you made it through and are on the other side. Thank goodness! And bless you for praying for my family. I’m grateful. 💗
@@jamieyoung784 it could seem that way and to be honest it felt that way too. For a long time I couldn’t feel emotions because of the meds. the fear of not being able to feel joy or anything really was constant. I couldn’t even have a regular conversation to find a joke funny or to have interest in anything I used to enjoy. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be over ever but I knew I couldn’t give up hope. So it was really like believing something you can’t see can’t feel can’t know for sure with no evidence but so just keep saying to myself “god will save me”. I wasn’t a Christian back then but what really had me going was faith. Right before I was forced to the mental hospital I talked to a priest because like Daniel said, all voices are dark and they just put a lot of dark thoughts in me. The priest and other Christians made sure to me that god will saved me (and then soon I was forced to be in the hospital XD) The other thing that got me going back then was my family’s support and love. Not even for one day they ever lose faith that I will recover. They had such strong faith ( not sure why) that this was just an illness and with treatment I would definitely be recovered and live the life I used to live - never once they showed their worry or doubt in me getting better in front of me, which gave me strength to combat the voices, the fear, the delusion. So your brother is very very lucky to have you as a loving family member around. I’m sure maybe he doesn’t know how to say now but when he can he will. And he will!!!! I can relate to 90% what Daniel said. More or less the same thing had happened to me. I still have leftover syndromes but I can now work and live like everyone else. If I don’t tell no one knows I have schizophrenia. So I guess what my best suggestion is Get treatment, always talk and work closely with your doctor on any side effect that is going on and TRUST your psychiatrist. Family and friend support means the world. Have faith. Dont lose hope. I’m sure god will save your brother too. ❤️
My younger cousin is going through some struggles with psychosis right now as well. I am very worried about him. He’s been in the hospital for 10 days now and they taken his phone away so he’s unable to speak to us. It’s tough. I’m worried he will go through stuff like this and it hurts. He’s a great kid, super outgoing, hardworking and he’s just always want to hangout. I hope your brother will stay safe. It’s good you feel for him and are looking to understand further what he may be going through.
Daniel I don't know what you were like before this in high school, but I would be proud to call you my friend today. Because you are so brave, honesty and kind. Even with your daily struggles you are willing to help others. That's the epitome of a beautiful human being. Many prayers for your continued healing.
As a mother of an adult diagnosed with schizophrenia, this was incredibly enlightening. My son struggles with talking about his delusions and hallucinations. Thank you so much for doing this. ❤️
I've schizophrenia too. every sound in the surrounding sounds like someone is talking about me. Even if it's silent i hear someone talking. At first i would react to those comments and had lots of arguments with my friends and now strangers. To divert my attention and ignore those voices in my head i would put on earphones to listen to videos and music all the time from the moment of waking up. though my hearing ability got reduced slightly but now i hear voices in my head very randomly. Once a day or twice. Most of the credit goes to medication. as everyone knows medication is to be taken. sometimes i would have headaches at start but now i don't have any. Though i lost confidence in my life but i think now i can take some personality development classes to improve that.
When I describe psychosis it’s exactly that. You are conscious and aware per usual, but your subconscious is fighting to be noticed (while you are awake), so you “feel” or “sense” things differently and become hyper aware of everything, and you have a third conscious trying to parse out what is the normal conscious and what is the subconscious. In other words, our brains become over stimulated. We shut down and retreat because that’s the surest way to survive. This guy unfortunately keeps retreating and being talked to this way and likely given pills. This is where western ideologies and medicine fail us as a society.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 he isnt treating them like basket cases or people who need to be babied through their existence. he treats them with the respect and love of a friend rather than an interviewer
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 then u clearly dont understand the body language that is sometimes used in a conversation about someones mental health. the physical presentation of the interviewer is very reminiscent of what i have seen over the years of my own mental health struggles. the people i have talked to that have actually cared about my wellbeing look exactly like this.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 You most likely haven't seen Daniel's update video. Which is okay! but you should watch it before making hurtful assumptions about their interaction and interview, the update video will hopefully clarify the wrong perspective you seem to have about both of these gentlemen.
A former friend of mine was struggling with this and he hid it well from his family and us. He committed suicide completely unexpectedly and it was a huge shock to everyone. Seeing this helps me understand the struggle he was fighting every day
I am very sorry for your loss, from the bottom of my heart. I lost my mom to this horrible disease, she had schizophrenia and fought so hard, but it took her. May your friend rest in paradise.
@@TreeLynnT he can improve. He may not be completely better but he can always just get a little better at a time. After all, everyone has a journey and it’s seldom linear. It’s very clear that he’s aware of and hopefully getting help for his illness.
The unconscious poetry at 11:30. He doesn’t even realise how beautifully raw his words are. Stunning and honest articulation that hits you right in the gut. This is one of my favourite videos in the world.
What hit me with a ton of bricks was what he said right before that, the future doesn't exist. That was truth. And as someone also with anxiety disorder I had to stop the video and think on that for a while.
His words have a stark depth, like the poetry of Robert Frost, Seamus Heaney, or Loren Eisley. Around minute 8:25 "I'm back hear saying, that's just 'cause he doesn't know. He hasn't seen the letters, and he hasn't gone through the phone. He hasn't heard that beeping. He hasn't felt the second ring, that jumps on top of the first ring, that shouldn't be there when the phone rings."
What a brave, articulate, thoughtful young man. It was selfless of him to be able to share what he’s experiencing in his life. I hope that he receives the help he needs. And kudos to his friend for letting him know that he’s not alone.
I feel so much for this man. Every one of those diagnosis can be a life sentence and he's working 10x as hard as the people around him just to exist in a given moment in time. I wish him love and support.
@@bunk95In my opinion diagnosis' are a label of what someone's dealing with. I'm schizoaffective like the guy in the video and I agree that it can be a life sentence. It's hard and especially with medications being difficult
Earlier this year I was in the mental hospital with this man. He was my roommate and he isn a very good man. He has good values and cares about those he holds close. It’s was great to get to know him and I’m happy to be able to say I got the chance to do so. I haven’t been able to keep in contact since then but I hope I get the chance to meet him again
When I heard comments were back, I made sure to go back to this interview. I just wanted to thank you, Daniel, for sharing your story and providing a sense of hope and belonging for so many people, including me. I wish you the best. 💜
Daniel has such a beautifully honest and introspective thought process that makes his descriptions of his experiences with this disorder much easier to understand and relate to
So well put. Thank you. Daniel's lovely nature shines through his terrible troubles. I hope, so much, that he feels happiness and joy every single day. His health troubles are not all of him. A wonderfully eloquent, likeable, insightful man is very evident.
I literally can’t imagine what this guy goes through and having the strength to get through the day. My heart goes out to him and I truly hope and pray for the best for him. I genuinely want to be his friend.
I bey you could imagine it. You're not giving yourself credit. Or maybe unaware of your own potential to go insane. Because you can. In fact thinking you can't go insane increases insanity and risk of psychotic break. Enjoy the show
I cried with this interview. Such a nice person. So self aware. And you can feel his stress and frustration of what he is experiencing on his head, and still trying to live. He deserves love.
I’ve seen this when it first came out and never forgot him. And the part at 0:57 the way he smiles when he’s looking at his toy shows how much they help. ❤
I dont think Ive ever had so much empathy for another living thing. You clearly can see his anguish. Poor fellow. I wish something could be done for him.
@@edwelndiobel1567 I got overwhelmed with sympathy for him and I really wish I could just take his pain away. Seems like such a kind soul who deserves so much better than this.
*I fear losing what little worth I have, because I don't have much." It really hit me when he said that and how he said that. I think it's very brave to talk about such difficult things. I wish him the very best.
no person should ever have to go through something as traumatic and horrible as this, Daniel's a brave man for being able to talk about his disorder, I just hope he's okay today!
There are no words to describe this young man's courage. He put his inner most self out there for the world to see in order to promote understanding and hopefully decrease the stigma that continues to shroud mental illness. If just one person relates to and garners hope from this interview it will have been worth Daniel's sacrifice of anonymity. This interview is priceless and should be included in the training of anyone who profess works or lives with
To finish my sentence: professionally working with or living with someone who has mental health challenges. Law enforcement academies would benefit their students and the public from officers being aware of how to understand and interact with people who may exhibit such symptoms and may be in crisis.
I know; he's not bad looking either, built nice, speaks eloquently obviously intelligent and a veteran. He can jump out of an airplane - I couldn't so he's brave too. It's a damn shame he has all of this mishugena going on in his own mind which is exhausting. I wish I could hug him too, I wish 100 people could line up and hug him each week.
@@EdilmarFigueiredo Wasn't going to ask him, buddy. Don't assume that when a lady pays a compliment in this comment section, that she is secretly hoping to win a UA-cam boyfriend. 🙄 I'll bet you've had TONS of success in your dating life, making inane assumptions about women, the way you do.
I feel exactly the same. I don't even know how many times I've watched his interviews... I wish with all my being I could somehow make his life a little bit brighter. His words and actions always confort me in a very strange but warm way. Hope you're doing good, Daniel.
Man, this is raw and enlightening. I can't respect our interviewee here anymore. He is brave and so in touch with his unique mind. No one is perfect. To me, this is as beautiful a person as anyone I've ever met for his transparency and open heart.
I don't have a schizophrenia diagnosis, but I have borderline personality and depression, and I can relate in some of his feelings, like when he said that the future looks like a road of nothing. I really fell apart at that moment. Thank you for sharing this Daniel, I'm feeling less lonely now and I wish the best for you. You're a great guy ❤️
go and see someone about entity removal and your Symptoms will go away none of these disorders are disorders its not mental ilness its entity attachment their feeding off your negative emotional energy
This has to be the most intense interview you have ever done. He could feel your sincerity and you were so respectful of him with your questions. This man is so intelligent and I wish him the best in his present as well as his future
he will need someone to remove the entites that attachmet to him then all the bs will go away he not mentally ill he possessed like they all are the lights are on but no bodies home becuase these entities have cut them off from their connection to their consciousness
I don't get teary eyed too often, but this video and the follow up one got me. Daniel is such a nice dude, and I really wish him the best. He deserves help and recovery.
i’m sobbing.. my heart aches at the fact that he thinks he has little worth, he doesn’t realize how beautiful and bright his soul is. i just want to hug him. he deserves to be told and shown that he’s cared and loved for everyday
I think we all do, a little bit. Like when you hear a strange sound late at night. Logically you know it's just the cat moving, or the house creaking. But you can't logic away your fear.
Thats the thing about fear. Sadly, sometimes fear can be irrational. But sometimes you cant control fear. In my experience, i have anxiety. And something as simple as answering the phone just makes me pace and flutter with bad thoughts. I wish I wouldnt worry so much about small things.
Daniel, you probably won’t see this, but I wanted to say that you seem like an amazing person. Hearing you talk so candidly about your challenges in such an eloquent way is profoundly moving and inspiring. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for these. When I was a kid, a really close family member had schizophrenia, and it's so healing and helpful to be an adult and see strangers talk about it frankly. Helps me love and understand him more.
the second the interviewer finished what he said about being there for Daniel, I felt the weight of what he said, and when Daniel cried, I sobbed with him. as a schizoaffective, it feels so validating to hear such words, and I'm so happy he has a good support system.
I'm only 5 minutes into this video and I'm completely fixated on watching and listening to him. And I just have this overwhelming need to just shake his hand and tell him how much I appreciate his presence.
Daniel if you ever see this, know that your life has tremendous meaning, and doing things like this is incredibly helpful for people going through similar things. Even if you don’t feel joy anymore, you should feel proud for being so brave to be so open with your emotions and struggles. You have inspired me and many others.
I love you, Daniel. I've been here for a while, read your last poem "daughter" and you'll always be one of my inspirations to overcome my mental issues.
I am BPD w CPTSD, ADHD(I) and crippling panic disorder ❤️🥺 all my love to this man, his laugh at the beginning was so nice to hear, I hope he does get to experience happiness again
Having Schizoaffective disorder myself I can identify with a lot of what is being said here. Currently in my life I am going through a depressive phase and I can relate to the down, down, down feeling of just nothing making you happy. I just told my wife and mother that I am having a difficult time holding and maintaining things together. Sometimes I feel like I use all of my energy to just be a normal productive member of society.
sitting in nature for hours just listening & watching helps me. something about a tree, birds, smells & rhythm of little creatures really soothes & lifts. God Bless you! 🙏🏼
I have BPD, its so ridiculously difficult to live with. I couldn't imagine coping eith everything else on top of also the BPD. Daniel is so strong, i really feel for him.
"90% of the time I loathe who I am" completely broke my heart. Daniel I hope today you are able to feel so much joy and know without any doubt how fearfully and wonderfully made you are 💞 God lead, guide, and protect Daniel wherver he may be in life, amen!
What an intelligent, handsome and insightful man. I hope treatment for mental illness keeps on improving so he can have a good quality of life going forward.
@@pet.me102 maybe that's just one of the big reasons why he need real friends, who care about him. Also he sees Chris as one of his friends, I'm pretty sure...
I stumbled upon this video and it honestly made me very emotional. I was diagnosed with bipolar psychosis when i was 14/15 and since then everything i've experienced matches almost perfectly with what he has. It makes me so happy to see people are trying to debunk the stigma on psychosis. I appreciate every single thing this channel does. Keep it up!
This is still one of the most remarkable, insightful and heartbreaking interviews I have ever seen. I keep coming back to it. Powerful questions, and even more powerful answers. Thank you Daniel for your vulnerability and courage to share.
I’m so sorry:(❤️ sending you love and just know you are extremely strong! I struggle with mental health too and I’ve found doing things for other people makes me feel a lot better, maybe that can help you too!
I (almost) have the same disorders as well. Schizoaffective, depression, borderline, PTSD and anxiety. I also used to be anorexic but I managed to get that one under control. I still have this delusion where I think bad things will happen to my family when I eat certain things, but according to my psychiatrist, it's a symptom of my schizophrenia, not my eating disorder.
His communication skills are top notch, they way he's able to clearly explain what's happening and how he feels. I admit, my communication skills are so not good, I always repeat something many times and people still don't understand, like I have the picture but fail to speak it out. I'm working on it.
Same here. I've heard so many "what did you even just say?" Because I see the picture and think I explained it well enough but in reality I've said some gibberish words.
"When you're feeling like someone is following you how can your family or friends HELP?" He looked like he'd been waiting decades to be asked that question. I'm convinced this guy is the most empathetic person I've ever come across. Bravo!!! Asking the right questions!!!!
What an incredibly brave and generous thing for you to do, Daniel. There's someone in my own life who struggles with some of the very same things you've talked about here, and I know it will help them when they watch it. Thank you ❤
The amount of help this man has done by sharing his story is so heart warming. And I’m astounded at the interview for how well versed with the situation and how well he presented him self.
What an incredibly brave and insightful person! The fact that he is going through so much turmoil and is still wanting to share this interview to help someone else shows what an amazing individual he is! I can’t imagine the strength it must have taken to share this and I hope this helps to tear down some of the stigma surrounding mental illness. I wish you all the best Daniel
Dealing with all that internal turmoil must have developed his intellect and authenticity to a super human level. Because I spend hours listening to podcasts with a large selection of people I admire every day and I don't remember being this engrossed in a conversation. I love this man
No it doesn’t affect or develop iq/ intelligence. Its quite the opposite, it makes you slower, your brain foggier. He is just an intelligent man who happens to go through a tough time.
@@RealMusicCloudomg the commenter wasn’t talking about Iq 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️ how many dense people in this comment section replying to ppl trying to catch them out.
I read on another video's comment about something related to this. The person studied neuroscience and said that c-ptsd in children facilitates the development of mesocortical connections while neglecting mesolimbic connections. I'll quote the comment: "This basically means that children with CPTSD don’t have the chance to be children, and often have to compensate for unsafe adults such as parents or caregivers. While individuals with CPTSD find it hard to regulate high salience emotions because that part of them wasn’t really allowed to exist early in life, the adaptations and extensive pathways they’ve developed as a consequence of survival enables them to be some of the wisest and considerate people you’ll ever meet." I don't know what Daniel's childhood experiences were like, or if this applies to adulthood trauma, but I find it interesting. I have c-ptsd and I've been called an old soul. I struggle a lot with being connected to my emotions and tend to try to solve things with logic rather than with intuition.
I do have borderline personality disorder, and when he started describing it, I started crying, cause it is exactly how I feel, and nobody seems to understand it...
I just realized I have had it for years it makes me almost sick. I have been feeling a lot better lately since I started getting more sober. I feel like self awareness and wanting to be better and understanding helped me a lot.
For the first time in my life, I've been able to listen to what it is like to be in my head from another perspective. I'm sobbing. Daniel, brother, we got this. I know you probably never thought you'd hear this, but I understand every single thing you have been able to, and brave enough to not only articulate, but also put yourself out there despite being in such a vulnerable state. You have helped me tremendously in so many ways. I don't know you, but I love you, you are wonderful, and will forever remain in my heart and my prayers. And thank you to Chris for giving him the platform to do so.
Daniel and I filmed an update about a year after this original video: ua-cam.com/video/xc1tbETJpX4/v-deo.html
For some reason there's no comments allowed on the video and I can't change that on my end. I think it's a glitch in the algorithm.
It's sad, but I'm happy to comment here! Thank you Mr Chris :)
I have szizaphrinea and bipolar and I wrote two books if you want to hear my story let me know
I have szizaphrinea and bipolar I got a collage degree and I'm a published author I have been were this man was but with haldal I'm able to write and do stuff in the community
why other video does not have comments?
The musical into the woods has a great song. No one is alone. He is a glorious human being. I wish him happiness.
The last thing he said has completely changed my perspective. ‘If I am willing to do something to harm myself, why shouldn’t I do something to help myself’. Thank you. Those words will stay with me forever
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💗💗💗💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
He has a brilliant mind. Let's spread this message to other ppl who need it 💜🙏
Wow that was a nice simple line but yet so true.
Just to be sure. He meant that if we give so much importance to negative thoughts and emotions; why not do the same with the positive ones, am I right?
“You can logically know that you’re being irrational…but what does logic matter when i can feel it, i can see it, i can smell it, i can hear it…”
Beautifully worded
I kinda feel that way…
I read your comment as this gentleman was saying it.
smart guy in there
Could not have made more sense
@@dmtdreamz7706 be careful what u wish for..smh..
I worked in the mental illness field for 10 years and never saw someone with this much insight into their own mental illness.
Unfortunately I believe the more aware you are of these things within the conscious logical mind the worse it makes the experience. We’re fully lucid we have a defect that didn’t come with a warranty from the manufacture and were pissed we “bought” into it.
At least the ones truly not fully there have some peace and bliss more periodically than what we experience.
I think it's a good thing to be self-aware, because it helps you both manage things to the best of your ability and also explain to others how they can support you. You have some amount of control back, and the strength to move on forward.
I only had one patient after years of getting on/off meds that finally looked at me one day & “It’s not real is it?” It’s been 15 yrs & I will never forget her.
@@abyrupus Thats very true and from personal experience i wouldnt wanna be that aware as iam, its a double edged sword, its good cause i can work on myself actively but it hurts tenfold.
Same here. It’s impressive.
I love that he has plushies with him and what seems like a fidget object. It's good when people surround themselves with what makes them comfortable or function better.
I have a Pitt Bull emotional support dog and a cat for emotional support. If I have one of them with me, I'm OK....when I go places they cant...I have extreme anxiety
It is great..but also tells a story in itself.. 😔
What Story does it tell
Only get watt out watt gos in
Seeing him holding those cute plushes actually made me cry 😢
“I'm afraid of losing my remaining worth” those words are painful to hear.
Heartbreaking. God bless him.
He is worth sooo much more, I hope some day he can feel that.
That just hurt to hear.
Let's pray for him
@@blazkovic17 Amen
“I fear losing what little worth I have. Because I don’t have much”.
Dear Daniel, how wrong you are! I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You are an extremely kind, loving and intelligent human being and you should be proud of who you are. I certainly am proud of you.
Lots of love from Greece
That was heartbreaking. He said it in such a way, that it brought tears to my eyes.
hit me hard
So so sad. But he is brave and my hope is that for him to work through therapy and keep doing that. Don't hide yourself please. :(
Whoo γεια σου Ελληνα αδερφε
this comment made me cry. beautiful.
“I’ve been wondering where my Oscar award is, because this is pretty ridiculous” this guy has a great sense of humor also. His intellect is incredibly profound.
@@almondcaeser9587 watch the video. Good Lord lol
@@almondcaeser9587 hahaha. The patient used the humor. My god.
@@almondcaeser9587 omg ok emily
@@almondcaeser9587 sorry you are not understanding, so I’ll help you out. Watch the video in full. He says he deserves an Oscar award. He says it as a joke and my comment was stating that this man has a great sense of humor and is extremely intelligent and articulate. I get that you “Hello world” are trying to be positive and stick up for people, but in actuality you are being a troll that makes comments on videos that were not watched in full. So please, stop and just watch the video In its entirety before you post another retort.
@@almondcaeser9587
1. You are rude.
2. It's a quote.
His personality shines through all of his pain. I liked him within a few seconds and hope that he finds some happiness.
Same, literally liked him straight away!!! I wanna be his friend lol. He seems amazing! I pray for his condition to get better ❤️ but like you said his personality shines through! ✨
I did too!
I just want to hug him. He doesn't deserve this.
same :( he’s so sweet
Yeah me to. He is struggling
no one deserves this. no one.
That's how I felt when I first saw this. Hugh him and tell him that he is loved.
Same. At the end I cried. He doesn't deserve this. 😢
Seeing the gauze wrapped around his wrists you know that he's struggling deeply. I wish nothing but the best for this guy, everyone on this world deserves love and to be cared for.
What does that mean with that on his wrists
@@rf236 Possible self harm or a medical condition needing treatment. Either of which would most likely explain the gauze wrapped around his wrists.
@@icarusflies9670 come on man, read the room. It’s obvious what this person was trying to get across…
@@rf236 oh come on.... 🙄
@@saltygem3056 sorry, I have Autism
It’s so heartbreaking that society and government doesn’t put more effort into helping people who experience these symptoms.
What are you doing to help?
@@ryansacoco2060 one citizen = the government. Lmfao logical comparison
@@ryansacoco2060 I think his response is more help and thoughtful than that question.
schizoaffective is rare and the government is helping people, can you please explain what they should do?
I'm a convenient store worker, from my perspective, it's NOT the government or society's fault. It is FAMILY and Friends (if any). Because when it comes to wrongful death or injury to a mentally disabled person, families want justice. When the tables are reversed families they take no responsibility. It's always the the government and societies fault.
Oh my god. I'm 14 and I'm crying. I am schizoaffective. Was denied the treatment I needed due to not having a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. I am also autistic and have been diagnosed since 2012.
He's just like me. He acts just like me and talks just like me too. And he's an adult. This gives me hope for the future.
Thank you so much.
Some advice, life won’t be easy for you, however treatments do exist. Stem Cell therapy for Austism and spiritual meditations, psychoanalysis for schizophrenia.
The world is changing rapidly it’s becoming a place of great opportunity but dreadful totalitarianism, stay vigilant and fight for truth.
reach out for help as soon as you can. my dad has this but he’s severely debilitated by it since he repeatedly chose to not seek treatment. this man gave me hope too. i know i’m just a stranger on the internet but i just wanna spread a little bit of hope to you. you are capable and DESERVING of having a beautiful life with the love and support you need.
I hope you are doing alright. It's never easy carrying that stuff on your shoulder and may you find someone who can take care of you! I can't say I understand how hard it must be but I do know you have a bright future! Keep going, it'll be okay.
Youre a fictional thing?
I’m so happy to hear that seeing this gave your hope for the future. - keep believing in that hope because once you’re older; you’ll be happier than you can imagine 🤍
He is super eloquent describing his experience, made me really think and have a different perspective
I was in jami
Omg yes this man is not only intelligent. He is aware of his mental illness, has changed my perspective to try and reach out more for myself and for others and to just try to communicate the best and purist way I can and be kinder even to ppl I don't know. I hope they truly are helping him not just drugging him to the max and I really do hope you keep in touch with this guy as I wished I were able to be his friend aswell. I have borderline and it's rough aswell as the anxiety and the complex ptsd and depressive disorders. I get it and life is hard. Especially for people with issues life this man's and trying to fit in and act like what ppl perceive as normal...bravery and glad he shared this with us....he is worth more than he gives himself credit for. I want to hug him, if he was comfortable with a hug. I had a friend with this disorder that passed away. I never understood his mental illness and I understand it better now. So thank you. ❤
I dont think us as humans we realize so many people struggle with mental illnesses & youd never know or have behavioral issues that have never been resolved. Bless both of them
I could listen to him talk all day
He is so well spoken and open. I feel a deep respect for him.
He is very articulate isnt he,i respect his honesty
Came here to say the same.
He's far more braver than I am talking publicly. My first reaction is to run away as fast as possible!
I want to cry with how much I relate to this. It's so exhausting to just exist. It's exhausting to do the things I used to love, like art. It's exhausting hearing people tell you it's all in your head or you're lazy or you're overreacting and that I can't keep a job for very long. It doesn't help. In fact, it just makes it worse. I battle every day of my life. I feel a sense of accomplishment when I just do a load of laundry. Everyday tasks are difficult. I rewrote this comment like 5 times because I kept telling myself that it doesn't matter. I just hope it matters to someone out there. I want that someone to know they aren't alone. Most of my frustration comes from the fact that no one understands what I go through and I am never able to put my feelings into verbal words, but seeing this video made me feel better. I hope to one day become an author and a comic artist. I hope for that future.
Your comment mattered. You matter. Stay strong.
What matter u don't matter ❔
I care and I’m praying now before going to bed that all your dreams realize soon. 🙏🏼❤️
You matter!!
You know what helped me was helping other people. I sounded identical to you a time ago. But I managed to find enough.. enough energy and worth in loving other people and serving others to keep on keepin' on.
You matter. I wish you the very best.
The intelligence, eloquence and self awareness this man has, along with the ability to be comedic and relatable while dealing with these issues is mind blowing to me. Seems like an awesome guy. Wish him the best.
Pretty much what I wanted to say. Really, he has more intelligence and self-awareness, at least during this interview, than 90% of the neurotypical folks I know. I wish him peace, the help he needs, and yes, joy.❤
“If, in those dark moments, I’m willing to do something to harm me, at the very least, I should be willing to do something to help me.” Powerful
Jesus is powerfull .call on him and I pray that He will answer and heal me
@@suewiler4096 no
@@suewiler4096 stop
@@mariahyohannes why would you actively tell someone not to say something that comforts them?
@@plnkfloydian7814 no need to be rude
Daniel is one of my favourite guests on SBSK. His intelligence and talent, especially in the poetry he shares online, just astounds me. I truly think he's like modern-day Van Gogh. I hope he is able to find successful and unproblematic help. I know it's a constant struggle for him. He deserves the absolute best in life.
I 100% agree with you! Daniel is a rare gem that is not that easy to find in this world.
Daniel, if you’re reading this, just know that we love you and wish you to regain your self-worth, because you are worthy of everything good that this world has to offer! I truly hope that one day you’ll feel very happy again ❤️❤️❤️
Same dude. I follow his You Tube channel and everything. He is such a cool dude
@@Abraham_11 lol? Bruh get out
edit: oh haha it worked. The comment is deleted
Where do you follow him?
Omg! Where can I find his poetry? Please and thank you sm!
"When your senses tell you it's real, what does logic matter anymore?" That hit home for me. It completely sums up the human experience.
The way he says, "yeah... but I'm working on it." is heartbreaking. You can tell the logical side of him is fighting so hard to win the mental battle.
This is so true and it’s how I describe panic attacks to people, I even reason with myself that “I have never died from and nothing bad has happened from a panic attack” but it doesn’t help a bit when I have one
EXACTLYYY!!!
As an EMT who has responded to 911 calls from people who are struggling with issues like this gentleman, thank you for allowing Chris to publish this. There are 3 residents within my hometown who I have transported, and it is good to know ways that I might be able to help improve their experience in the future. Thank you Daniel and best of luck.
May you have peace and the cause of peace, may your peace spread to all those you talk to and work with.
It's absolutely adorable how almost immediately calmer he became after being asked to talk about his toys. You can really tell how much they help him
Talking about problem is giving you the impulse that somebody have entered the issue in your head. And I see that the interview when he talked about his problems was better than medicine and psychiatrist. Nothing works better than when somebody who understands you.
Or maybe just talk about random stuff
X
It's really not though... Just as he feels he has "no self worth," an explains when he has bad days. Just waking up, not wanting to live. Cause it's just the same nothingness every day etc...
He got excited when dude asked a his toys, cause it was dude abnormally something about him and if his. An just sitting ANY interest in him and/or something about him
The problem is, he has no interests, no hobbies, nothing he looks forward to. Nothing to occupy himself, nothing that makes him interesting to others...
So guess what, now people show an interest in his "schizophrenia." Now he's outwardly projecting that he needs help, an is happy to recieve the help and or attention. The thing is there are allot of young people who feel as though they have no purpose, an I'm not saying it's an "act" or the he's fully in control of being that way. Cause some schizophrenic people do definitely hallucinate and see things, or hear voices. I just believe that he's got more control over it all then he thinks or realizes.
Fragile masculinity has entered the chat lol come on anyone can be adorable
18:56
"Does it make a difference just knowing somebody cares?"
"It makes a world difference"
Be kind. Care for others around you. That makes a big difference.
I'd even emphasize "it makes a WORLD of difference."
Be the change you wish to see in the world.
Be love...
Not big, "A WORLD" of a difference 💕
Yes, beautiful quote ❤️
I care about you Daniel.❤️
Yes! ❤️
We must all be Christians, which means “Christ like”. Show love and humility at all times, and you shall reap what you sow!
I really hope one day he feels like he can experience joy, he deserves it
Yes I really hope he does
The best part is that he is 50% himself because he knows what's going on with him and in that case he can fight it and in the best case heal it if he finds the power wich most people need in their worst moments. But let's pray for him for better results. God is everywhere
That's... Not how it works...
@@victoryguard i just want him to feel like he is happy sometimes cause i think he stated that he hasent been happy for a while (also hello another hilda fan!)
@@loganwasmydog He is physically incapable of feeling happy.
i've never seen anyone being so vulnerable on the internet and he's helping others so, so much with that. i work with teens with his issues and he worded this SO, SO well.
This made me cry. It hurts to see someone so clearly in anguish in their own body and mind. No one deserves this. I hope he finds glimmers of light in the midst of all this darkness.
Agreed. Schizophrenia apparently comes out of nowhere. No one deserves this.
You should check out his youtube channel. he writes some lovely, deep, sometimes dark but very enlightening poems. He has such strength that i only wish i had.
@@Tinyman. could you tell me what the name of his channel is please?
@@kernspalte Hi Smoke, his youtube channel name is "Daniel Nepveux" Hope this helps. If you find it please be so kind and leave him a comment on 1 of his videos. im sure he would very much appreciate it.
@@Tinyman. Thank you, I‘m gonna try and do that.
This man has still got more self-knowledge and wisdom than 99% of the whole damn population.
FACT!
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Amen to that 💯❤️
IQ is directly related to high levels of depression and suicide
People who can name their quirks, weaknesses/sensitivities, and ailements are already better off then the ones that cannot do that, because i have no doubt that everyone have some. The main thing is to learn about them and manage them.
Dumb people don’t experience psychosis. You experience psychosis because you’ve, in a way, realized you’re in the matrix (role playing an existence). It comes from thinking critically on an existencial level. If there is trauma or some sort of emotional damage, then you become a prisoner of your own mind as it’s hard to make logic of feelings. Speaking from experience.
This guy is a VETERAN. Served in the US Army. Consider that. That wasn’t described during this video but was in the check-up video posted the other day. It explains a LOT.
As he was explaining the multiple tramautic brain injuries & the PTSD, I wondered if he was a veteran . Thank you for sharing
It's more than that. If I remember correctly, he had his life-changing injury in an initial training / on-boarding session, and he couldn't go farther, and also he felt his issues are not a physical injury. This made him feel guilty about seeking help from military agencies, because he felt he didn't deserve it and that other veterans deserve it more. Then, the channel creator spoke to organizations which help veterans and they welcomed him and re-affirmed that he deserves help as much as anyone else.
Can you tell me how to contact him? Thank you
Ugh the army destroys so much, its so sad.
@@anastasiahalkias6129 It's Daniel Nepveux. He has his own UA-cam channel of the same name and some other social media most likely.
I was having so much suicidal thoughts 10 years ago as a teenage, also suffered severe anxiety and mental disorder. I got diagnosed with bipolar, spent my whole life fighting bipolar. Not until my partner recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, addiction. Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
My heart goes out to Daniel. I hope things get easier for him someday.
Me too!
Me as well he seems like such a nice and genuine guy and I just hope his life improves from where it is
God he's smart. He understands what's happening, which is absolutely impressive when you are fighting against your own brain. I wish him the best, he deserves it.
I think when you are not adjusted to the rest of society it forces you to reflect. You become aware of the differences in your ways of relating to situations and the ability to compare and contrast and to articulate these contrasts appears as intelligence.
@@mikebranch7928 True, but reflecting doesn't magically give you the ability to understand the things that are happening to you when reality and fantasy are literally indistinguishable.
@@alaskaone Oh yes you are right.
It’s honestly worse understanding it than living in ignorance.
I was taken aback by how intelligent he is
This is probably my fave interview to date. For the amount of diagnoses he has, his intelligence and introspection is incredible. If every person had this much self awareness we'd be living in a better world. This was absolutely incredible. Complete understanding of what is wrong, how he deals, and even the damage this can cause (ex. borderline and relationships). Great job on this.
Doesn’t seem real to me……It feel like Daniel is acting
Of course it seems like he's acting because he is. He's acting normal when he really would like to be bouncing off the walls
@@mattlang7162 thanks great way to put it
@@carlcoats3997 what exactly do you mean by acting? How do you think someone with his condition should act?
I mean...he's not intellectually disabled. None of his diagnoses would in any way interfere with his intelligence or introspection.
He should never feel like he is “crazy” and repeat those words to himself. He is one of the most intelligent and articulate people I’ve seen
Don't underestimate the sheer strength, guts and stamina it takes to cope with these disorders on a day to day basis. Non sufferers do not really understand the relentnesses of it. It is indeed exhausting and depressing in itself.
It absolutely is exhausting, thank you for recognizing that.
So so true, everyday feels like an up hill battle and buy then end I'm physically and mentally drained
True.
Totally agree.
You bet it is. I have major depressive disorder with the psychotic features, PTSD, ADHD, and a few others. No one understands me and no one wants to care enough about me to understand me or so it seems in my mind. The hallucinations and delusions are the worst things for me along with the depression
18:56 I've never wanted to hug another person so much. The moment he closed his eyes and said that it made a world of difference to know that somebody cares, you can almost feel his pain and make you want to take it away.
Absolutely, I felt the same...
Ppl nowadays will never understand that
I cried while watching this. My brother has schizoeffective disorder but he never articulated what he was going through in detail. I have so much gratitude to Daniel for sharing his experience and helping those of us who desperately want to understand and support people we love. I hope he knows that he has made a big, positive difference in the world by doing this interview.
My brother is unwell as well.. But I don't know what it is.. Cos the Dr simply gave him antibiotics.. But he is in a terrible state right now
Sometimes the meds we take make us less expressive. I could never have articulated what I was going through when I was in the hospital receiving treatment. Even now when I’m not psychotic I can’t remember everything and articulate them well either. Like he says. Those are flashes not memories. I just prayed for your brother for him to be cured and healed. ❤
@@sjycheryl Thank you so much for your response! My brother did seem less expressive when he was on his meds. Almost like his essence was muted. It broke my heart because he was the sweetest, smartest, most creative kid before all this happened. It sounds as though you made it through and are on the other side. Thank goodness! And bless you for praying for my family. I’m grateful. 💗
@@jamieyoung784 it could seem that way and to be honest it felt that way too. For a long time I couldn’t feel emotions because of the meds. the fear of not being able to feel joy or anything really was constant. I couldn’t even have a regular conversation to find a joke funny or to have interest in anything I used to enjoy. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be over ever but I knew I couldn’t give up hope. So it was really like believing something you can’t see can’t feel can’t know for sure with no evidence but so just keep saying to myself “god will save me”. I wasn’t a Christian back then but what really had me going was faith. Right before I was forced to the mental hospital I talked to a priest because like Daniel said, all voices are dark and they just put a lot of dark thoughts in me. The priest and other Christians made sure to me that god will saved me (and then soon I was forced to be in the hospital XD) The other thing that got me going back then was my family’s support and love. Not even for one day they ever lose faith that I will recover. They had such strong faith ( not sure why) that this was just an illness and with treatment I would definitely be recovered and live the life I used to live - never once they showed their worry or doubt in me getting better in front of me, which gave me strength to combat the voices, the fear, the delusion. So your brother is very very lucky to have you as a loving family member around. I’m sure maybe he doesn’t know how to say now but when he can he will. And he will!!!! I can relate to 90% what Daniel said. More or less the same thing had happened to me. I still have leftover syndromes but I can now work and live like everyone else. If I don’t tell no one knows I have schizophrenia. So I guess what my best suggestion is
Get treatment, always talk and work closely with your doctor on any side effect that is going on and TRUST your psychiatrist.
Family and friend support means the world.
Have faith. Dont lose hope. I’m sure god will save your brother too. ❤️
My younger cousin is going through some struggles with psychosis right now as well. I am very worried about him. He’s been in the hospital for 10 days now and they taken his phone away so he’s unable to speak to us. It’s tough. I’m worried he will go through stuff like this and it hurts. He’s a great kid, super outgoing, hardworking and he’s just always want to hangout.
I hope your brother will stay safe. It’s good you feel for him and are looking to understand further what he may be going through.
Daniel I don't know what you were like before this in high school, but I would be proud to call you my friend today. Because you are so brave, honesty and kind. Even with your daily struggles you are willing to help others. That's the epitome of a beautiful human being. Many prayers for your continued healing.
As a mother of an adult diagnosed with schizophrenia, this was incredibly enlightening. My son struggles with talking about his delusions and hallucinations.
Thank you so much for doing this. ❤️
Hopefully you are well ❤️
@@Sasha-bd2yz I am. Thank you. 😊 You're very kind.
God bless you both 🥰🥰🥰🥰
I've schizophrenia too. every sound in the surrounding sounds like someone is talking about me. Even if it's silent i hear someone talking. At first i would react to those comments and had lots of arguments with my friends and now strangers. To divert my attention and ignore those voices in my head i would put on earphones to listen to videos and music all the time from the moment of waking up. though my hearing ability got reduced slightly but now i hear voices in my head very randomly. Once a day or twice. Most of the credit goes to medication. as everyone knows medication is to be taken. sometimes i would have headaches at start but now i don't have any. Though i lost confidence in my life but i think now i can take some personality development classes to improve that.
if you want to hear my experience with the disease then just reply.
It’s mind blowing how aware he is of his situation. It’s like he mastered two worlds at once. This dude is genus to me.
I think that's the saddest part about it. He knows but he's stuck. I really hope he gets better and finds a way out
When I describe psychosis it’s exactly that. You are conscious and aware per usual, but your subconscious is fighting to be noticed (while you are awake), so you “feel” or “sense” things differently and become hyper aware of everything, and you have a third conscious trying to parse out what is the normal conscious and what is the subconscious.
In other words, our brains become over stimulated. We shut down and retreat because that’s the surest way to survive. This guy unfortunately keeps retreating and being talked to this way and likely given pills. This is where western ideologies and medicine fail us as a society.
Your a species to me.
@@thefrustratedneetaspirant7777 o ok. Interesting
Lovely human being...my heart goes out to him...
i love how the interviewer is emotionally genuine. u can tell that he cares for the people he talks to.
What emotion? He just stares at the interviewees with a blank face.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 he isnt treating them like basket cases or people who need to be babied through their existence. he treats them with the respect and love of a friend rather than an interviewer
@@screw_tape I dont see much respect or "love" when its an unmoving soulless stare, and sitting shoulders rubbing (thats intimate space).
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 then u clearly dont understand the body language that is sometimes used in a conversation about someones mental health. the physical presentation of the interviewer is very reminiscent of what i have seen over the years of my own mental health struggles. the people i have talked to that have actually cared about my wellbeing look exactly like this.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 You most likely haven't seen Daniel's update video.
Which is okay! but you should watch it before making hurtful assumptions about their interaction and interview, the update video will hopefully clarify the wrong perspective you seem to have about both of these gentlemen.
This man is an angel. He's faced so much conflict, and he's a hero for standing on his own two feet every day and keepin' on.
A former friend of mine was struggling with this and he hid it well from his family and us. He committed suicide completely unexpectedly and it was a huge shock to everyone. Seeing this helps me understand the struggle he was fighting every day
i am so sorry for your loss
That’s gotta be really hard sorry for your loss
I am so sorry.
My friend did the same thing. He was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I wish he would have told more people, but even then, you can't always help.
I am very sorry for your loss, from the bottom of my heart. I lost my mom to this horrible disease, she had schizophrenia and fought so hard, but it took her. May your friend rest in paradise.
This poor guy, he's so intelligent, and explains things so well. I hope he gets better, he deserves it.
Unfortunately that's not a reality. 🥺
@@TreeLynnT not yet, but we'll get there eventually.
@@TreeLynnT he can improve. He may not be completely better but he can always just get a little better at a time. After all, everyone has a journey and it’s seldom linear. It’s very clear that he’s aware of and hopefully getting help for his illness.
The unconscious poetry at 11:30. He doesn’t even realise how beautifully raw his words are. Stunning and honest articulation that hits you right in the gut. This is one of my favourite videos in the world.
That part shook me, so deep
Enlightened
What hit me with a ton of bricks was what he said right before that, the future doesn't exist. That was truth. And as someone also with anxiety disorder I had to stop the video and think on that for a while.
His words have a stark depth, like the poetry of Robert Frost, Seamus Heaney, or Loren Eisley.
Around minute 8:25
"I'm back hear saying, that's just 'cause he doesn't know.
He hasn't seen the letters,
and he hasn't gone through the phone.
He hasn't heard that beeping.
He hasn't felt the second ring,
that jumps on top of the first ring,
that shouldn't be there when the phone rings."
That’s so depressing
What a brave, articulate, thoughtful young man. It was selfless of him to be able to share what he’s experiencing in his life. I hope that he receives the help he needs. And kudos to his friend for letting him know that he’s not alone.
I feel so much for this man. Every one of those diagnosis can be a life sentence and he's working 10x as hard as the people around him just to exist in a given moment in time. I wish him love and support.
man I feel him too. Wishing him tons of love and happiness...
Our love and prayers are with Daniel!
Diagnosis’ are fictional. Do you think and act as if thats untrue often?
@@bunk95In my opinion diagnosis' are a label of what someone's dealing with. I'm schizoaffective like the guy in the video and I agree that it can be a life sentence. It's hard and especially with medications being difficult
Earlier this year I was in the mental hospital with this man. He was my roommate and he isn a very good man. He has good values and cares about those he holds close. It’s was great to get to know him and I’m happy to be able to say I got the chance to do so. I haven’t been able to keep in contact since then but I hope I get the chance to meet him again
I hope you are doing well too :))
isn't? is?
@@Sentarry This they meant ‘is’ by the rest of their statement… but, yes, confusing.
@@TSquare7741 it's not confusing. It's obviously "is"
he actually has a youtube channel, it's Daniel Nepveux
When I heard comments were back, I made sure to go back to this interview. I just wanted to thank you, Daniel, for sharing your story and providing a sense of hope and belonging for so many people, including me. I wish you the best. 💜
I wish the other video with him had comments on.
Same here too.
“ I fear losing what little worth I have, because I don’t have much”. Damn. Keep your head up brother. You a king.
Daniel has such a beautifully honest and introspective thought process that makes his descriptions of his experiences with this disorder much easier to understand and relate to
Yes!!! His honest, despite his pain, is admirable.
So well put. Thank you. Daniel's lovely nature shines through his terrible troubles. I hope, so much, that he feels happiness and joy every single day. His health troubles are not all of him. A wonderfully eloquent, likeable, insightful man is very evident.
I literally can’t imagine what this guy goes through and having the strength to get through the day. My heart goes out to him and I truly hope and pray for the best for him. I genuinely want to be his friend.
I bey you could imagine it. You're not giving yourself credit. Or maybe unaware of your own potential to go insane. Because you can. In fact thinking you can't go insane increases insanity and risk of psychotic break. Enjoy the show
@@gxlorp aren't you smart.
@@gxlorp salt of the earth.
He's got a UA-cam channel. I've been pretty worried about him.
@@MeadowMinxie if you don’t mind me asking, what’s his channel?
I cried with this interview. Such a nice person. So self aware. And you can feel his stress and frustration of what he is experiencing on his head, and still trying to live. He deserves love.
I’ve seen this when it first came out and never forgot him. And the part at 0:57 the way he smiles when he’s looking at his toy shows how much they help. ❤
Such a poetic guy, he has a lot to teach us
I wouldn't pick that guy as a life coach if I were you.
@@AlexFromnic never said life coach. Diverse experience is a powerful tool for wisdom.
@@reisilva2940 what you said made sense
I dont think Ive ever had so much empathy for another living thing. You clearly can see his anguish. Poor fellow. I wish something could be done for him.
@@edwelndiobel1567 I got overwhelmed with sympathy for him and I really wish I could just take his pain away. Seems like such a kind soul who deserves so much better than this.
*I fear losing what little worth I have, because I don't have much."
It really hit me when he said that and how he said that. I think it's very brave to talk about such difficult things.
I wish him the very best.
But he doesn’t have little worth
I lost everything 💔
no person should ever have to go through something as traumatic and horrible as this, Daniel's a brave man for being able to talk about his disorder, I just hope he's okay today!
You can stay in contact If you like, he runs his own channel on YT
@@Mozart4000 ty :)
@@Mozart4000 hei! sorry but i don't know where to find it... can you please help me? :) I would LOVE to see how he is doing
There are no words to describe this young man's courage.
He put his inner most self out there for the world to see in order to promote understanding and hopefully decrease the stigma that continues to shroud mental illness. If just one person relates to and garners hope from this interview it will have been worth Daniel's sacrifice of anonymity.
This interview is priceless and should be included in the training of anyone who profess works or lives with
To finish my sentence: professionally working with or living with someone who has mental health challenges. Law enforcement academies would benefit their students and the public from officers being aware of how to understand and interact with people who may exhibit such symptoms and may be in crisis.
Don't be embarrassed. We can be so hard on ourselves. This isn't your fault. Something you need to remember.
He is so amazing. He's so well-spoken. I wish I could hug him and meet him where he is.. let him know how proud I am of him.
I know; he's not bad looking either, built nice, speaks eloquently obviously intelligent and a veteran. He can jump out of an airplane - I couldn't so he's brave too. It's a damn shame he has all of this mishugena going on in his own mind which is exhausting. I wish I could hug him too, I wish 100 people could line up and hug him each week.
Because of him so handsome😅
Caitlin, he won't be your boyfriend. He is more like a grown up son for any woman
@@EdilmarFigueiredo Wasn't going to ask him, buddy. Don't assume that when a lady pays a compliment in this comment section, that she is secretly hoping to win a UA-cam boyfriend. 🙄
I'll bet you've had TONS of success in your dating life, making inane assumptions about women, the way you do.
@@EdilmarFigueiredo Also: I won't be your girlfriend. Sorry, pal.
Daniel don’t ever give up on yourself. I think your a wonderful guy honestly.
I feel I love this man.
Moreover, his intelligence and self-awareness are astonishing. I admire him with all my heart.
i literally said that from the first time he spoke, i was like wow this guy is insanely mature, and how he speaks, my goodness.
I feel the same kind of love.
I feel exactly the same. I don't even know how many times I've watched his interviews... I wish with all my being I could somehow make his life a little bit brighter. His words and actions always confort me in a very strange but warm way. Hope you're doing good, Daniel.
I enjoyed your video. TY for posting
It. You are incredibly brave!
Man, this is raw and enlightening. I can't respect our interviewee here anymore. He is brave and so in touch with his unique mind. No one is perfect. To me, this is as beautiful a person as anyone I've ever met for his transparency and open heart.
I don't have a schizophrenia diagnosis, but I have borderline personality and depression, and I can relate in some of his feelings, like when he said that the future looks like a road of nothing. I really fell apart at that moment. Thank you for sharing this Daniel, I'm feeling less lonely now and I wish the best for you. You're a great guy ❤️
I hope you are okay, Lucas. I wish you well.
You're a strong person, and I'm proud of you!
I have BPD and depression too. Hugs
go and see someone about entity removal and your Symptoms will go away
none of these disorders are disorders its not mental ilness its entity attachment their feeding off your negative emotional energy
Você é brasileiro? Eu tb tenho transtorno borderline e inclusive esquizoafetivo igual ao rapaz do vídeo.
This has to be the most intense interview you have ever done. He could feel your sincerity and you were so respectful of him with your questions. This man is so intelligent and I wish him the best in his present as well as his future
This guy just radiates good energy. Hope he finds happiness one day.
he will need someone to remove the entites that attachmet to him
then all the bs will go away he not mentally ill he possessed like they all are
the lights are on but no bodies home becuase these entities have cut them off from their connection to their consciousness
Yeah me too 🙏🏽
I don't get teary eyed too often, but this video and the follow up one got me. Daniel is such a nice dude, and I really wish him the best. He deserves help and recovery.
i’m sobbing.. my heart aches at the fact that he thinks he has little worth, he doesn’t realize how beautiful and bright his soul is. i just want to hug him. he deserves to be told and shown that he’s cared and loved for everyday
Yes, I want to hug him too.
When he talks about logically knowing it's not real but still believing it, that made perfect sense to me because I experience the same thing.
You are fine just the way you are nothing is wrong with you. This is you and people need to make time to understand you just like anyone else.
I think we all do, a little bit. Like when you hear a strange sound late at night. Logically you know it's just the cat moving, or the house creaking.
But you can't logic away your fear.
Thats the thing about fear. Sadly, sometimes fear can be irrational. But sometimes you cant control fear. In my experience, i have anxiety. And something as simple as answering the phone just makes me pace and flutter with bad thoughts. I wish I wouldnt worry so much about small things.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. I somewhat kinda relate to you. I care about you and I hope you have an amazing day 💕
Daniel, you probably won’t see this, but I wanted to say that you seem like an amazing person. Hearing you talk so candidly about your challenges in such an eloquent way is profoundly moving and inspiring. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for these. When I was a kid, a really close family member had schizophrenia, and it's so healing and helpful to be an adult and see strangers talk about it frankly. Helps me love and understand him more.
the second the interviewer finished what he said about being there for Daniel, I felt the weight of what he said, and when Daniel cried, I sobbed with him. as a schizoaffective, it feels so validating to hear such words, and I'm so happy he has a good support system.
I'm only 5 minutes into this video and I'm completely fixated on watching and listening to him. And I just have this overwhelming need to just shake his hand and tell him how much I appreciate his presence.
I have BPD and I’m so impressed with this guy. Hope it all gets easier, lot of respect for you!!
Daniel if you ever see this, know that your life has tremendous meaning, and doing things like this is incredibly helpful for people going through similar things. Even if you don’t feel joy anymore, you should feel proud for being so brave to be so open with your emotions and struggles. You have inspired me and many others.
Not for nothing, but this man is a fantastic communicator. Better than most people I interact with on a daily basis.
You have so much worth. It’s not your fault your brain is at war with yourself. :( you are a warrior 💜
This man speaks so articulately and seems to be more aware of himself than most of us. Sending uou light and love
I love you, Daniel. I've been here for a while, read your last poem "daughter" and you'll always be one of my inspirations to overcome my mental issues.
Hey, where did you read it? Thanks!
@@anavalencia7787 he has a channel here on you tube
@Genius For Jesus Daniel Nepveux :)
I am BPD w CPTSD, ADHD(I) and crippling panic disorder ❤️🥺 all my love to this man, his laugh at the beginning was so nice to hear, I hope he does get to experience happiness again
Im sad to hear that, i hope you realise your not alone in this world.😊
You deserve to be supported, sending hugs 🤗🤗🤗
BPD -bipolar disorder?
@@ValeryShegol Borderline personality disorder, one in common with Daniel.
no you arent. youre diagnosed with those disorders. important distinction to make. 🙃
Having Schizoaffective disorder myself I can identify with a lot of what is being said here. Currently in my life I am going through a depressive phase and I can relate to the down, down, down feeling of just nothing making you happy. I just told my wife and mother that I am having a difficult time holding and maintaining things together. Sometimes I feel like I use all of my energy to just be a normal productive member of society.
Sir, you’re trying your best. I’m very proud of you. I hope wonderful things will happen to you and your family. Much love.
My best wishes to You! With great respect and much love!
You are fine just the way you are nothing is wrong with you. This is you and people need to make time to understand you just like anyone else.
big hugs what you said was so deeply true and i hear you
sitting in nature for hours just listening & watching helps me. something about a tree, birds, smells & rhythm of little creatures really soothes & lifts.
God Bless you! 🙏🏼
I have BPD, its so ridiculously difficult to live with. I couldn't imagine coping eith everything else on top of also the BPD. Daniel is so strong, i really feel for him.
"90% of the time I loathe who I am" completely broke my heart. Daniel I hope today you are able to feel so much joy and know without any doubt how fearfully and wonderfully made you are 💞 God lead, guide, and protect Daniel wherver he may be in life, amen!
This guy is incredibly interesting. It's incredible how effortlessly he's able to simply articulate very complex issues.
Couldn't get through this without crying. My heart goes out to this guy.
@True Vision What?!
What an intelligent, handsome and insightful man. I hope treatment for mental illness keeps on improving so he can have a good quality of life going forward.
He is such a good person.. I want to be his friend
same!
Same 🥺
@@pet.me102 maybe that's just one of the big reasons why he need real friends, who care about him. Also he sees Chris as one of his friends, I'm pretty sure...
I want to be friends with everyone on this channel
Me too!
I stumbled upon this video and it honestly made me very emotional. I was diagnosed with bipolar psychosis when i was 14/15 and since then everything i've experienced matches almost perfectly with what he has. It makes me so happy to see people are trying to debunk the stigma on psychosis. I appreciate every single thing this channel does. Keep it up!
wow 14/15 very young. I hope you continue to grow the mental strength needed to balance your mind no matter the chaos you may be going through
This is still one of the most remarkable, insightful and heartbreaking interviews I have ever seen. I keep coming back to it. Powerful questions, and even more powerful answers. Thank you Daniel for your vulnerability and courage to share.
Absolutely riveting interview. I remained glued the entire time. His way of explaining his experiences are phenomenal.
Having the same disorders, I just wish I could tell him it all makes sense to me. Your descriptions were worded so well. Thank you.
I’m so sorry:(❤️ sending you love and just know you are extremely strong! I struggle with mental health too and I’ve found doing things for other people makes me feel a lot better, maybe that can help you too!
I (almost) have the same disorders as well. Schizoaffective, depression, borderline, PTSD and anxiety. I also used to be anorexic but I managed to get that one under control.
I still have this delusion where I think bad things will happen to my family when I eat certain things, but according to my psychiatrist, it's a symptom of my schizophrenia, not my eating disorder.
you can, go on his insta and tell him
@@Joseph-yl7ng What's his insta?
@@Tintenfischchen danonepveux
His communication skills are top notch, they way he's able to clearly explain what's happening and how he feels. I admit, my communication skills are so not good, I always repeat something many times and people still don't understand, like I have the picture but fail to speak it out. I'm working on it.
Same here. I've heard so many "what did you even just say?" Because I see the picture and think I explained it well enough but in reality I've said some gibberish words.
Ironically your message was very accurate and easy to understand
People with add/adhd also have that
He is able to paint with his tongue. He must be an amazing writer and I want the best for him.
"When you're feeling like someone is following you how can your family or friends HELP?" He looked like he'd been waiting decades to be asked that question. I'm convinced this guy is the most empathetic person I've ever come across. Bravo!!! Asking the right questions!!!!
What an incredibly brave and generous thing for you to do, Daniel. There's someone in my own life who struggles with some of the very same things you've talked about here, and I know it will help them when they watch it. Thank you ❤
The amount of help this man has done by sharing his story is so heart warming. And I’m astounded at the interview for how well versed with the situation and how well he presented him self.
What an incredibly brave and insightful person! The fact that he is going through so much turmoil and is still wanting to share this interview to help someone else shows what an amazing individual he is! I can’t imagine the strength it must have taken to share this and I hope this helps to tear down some of the stigma surrounding mental illness. I wish you all the best Daniel
Dealing with all that internal turmoil must have developed his intellect and authenticity to a super human level. Because I spend hours listening to podcasts with a large selection of people I admire every day and I don't remember being this engrossed in a conversation. I love this man
No it doesn’t affect or develop iq/ intelligence. Its quite the opposite, it makes you slower, your brain foggier. He is just an intelligent man who happens to go through a tough time.
@@RealMusicCloudomg the commenter wasn’t talking about Iq 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️ how many dense people in this comment section replying to ppl trying to catch them out.
@@RealMusicCloudu have no idea what they meant.
@@Lnyc14 i went through a schizoaffective episode in my early teens. I am speaking from experience unfortunately.
I read on another video's comment about something related to this. The person studied neuroscience and said that c-ptsd in children facilitates the development of mesocortical connections while neglecting mesolimbic connections. I'll quote the comment:
"This basically means that children with CPTSD don’t have the chance to be children, and often have to compensate for unsafe adults such as parents or caregivers. While individuals with CPTSD find it hard to regulate high salience emotions because that part of them wasn’t really allowed to exist early in life, the adaptations and extensive pathways they’ve developed as a consequence of survival enables them to be some of the wisest and considerate people you’ll ever meet."
I don't know what Daniel's childhood experiences were like, or if this applies to adulthood trauma, but I find it interesting. I have c-ptsd and I've been called an old soul. I struggle a lot with being connected to my emotions and tend to try to solve things with logic rather than with intuition.
I honor this man. He’s very good at answering these questions. Im schizophrenic and it has helped me.
He’s very great at communicating his feelings to you. But wow, it broke my heart watching this 🥺♥️
I do have borderline personality disorder, and when he started describing it, I started crying, cause it is exactly how I feel, and nobody seems to understand it...
I feel you! No one can really understand it unless they have it themselves. Borderline is so hard for me
I just realized I have had it for years it makes me almost sick. I have been feeling a lot better lately since I started getting more sober. I feel like self awareness and wanting to be better and understanding helped me a lot.
@Death Frost and you need to leave 🙄
@Death Frost you are sad
Being the victim of a bpd mother is worse.
Daniel deserves to feel pure happiness again. His strength is the reason he is my favorite guest on SBSK.
For the first time in my life, I've been able to listen to what it is like to be in my head from another perspective.
I'm sobbing. Daniel, brother, we got this. I know you probably never thought you'd hear this, but I understand every single thing you have been able to, and brave enough to not only articulate, but also put yourself out there despite being in such a vulnerable state. You have helped me tremendously in so many ways. I don't know you, but I love you, you are wonderful, and will forever remain in my heart and my prayers.
And thank you to Chris for giving him the platform to do so.