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@@smokey8865 first time I hear most of their songs they set me off because I relate to them that strongly. Some more then others. This one more then most.
Right!? I try by showing my friends lyrics that I relate to, or by singing songs to my parents that explain my feelings, I try to let them know what I'm going through. But all they ever say is: beautiful song or nice voice or idk, they don't look further than what they hear or see. They don't see that I'm crying to the lyrics of the song I sent them, they don't feel the knot in my stomach or the lump in my throat when I'm singing the words to an almost musical version of myself. They don't.
Sorry but not true all the relatability you get from the song all that emotion that you feel when you listen that's all of us listening with you all you have to do is realise that the people around you don't understand but there is still a world full of people who do understand you just don't know them yet 😊
I get discriminated against, even by teachers, because I have mental disorders like autism, adhd, ocd and more. U even got shouted at for having a mental break down because my ear defender got broke by someone else for no reason. Fuck her and everyone else who hates me for no reason
The hardest thing about deppresion is when you know that people around you love you. It holds you back from leaving this world and let's you know you can never escape the cell your trapped in even though your holding the keys
It's really difficult but I promise you you'll get there not going to bs you like most do and say itll go away cause it just wont it will come back. It's a life sentence but please remember nobody said that this life would be easy but I promise you it's worth it. I know the guilt you feel I feel it daily. But you are seen and understood by others. I just wanna come through my phone and give you a hug.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You know what's funny? That this song understands feeling more than actual people do and this song doesn't make fun of you it talks to you and tries to help
Music, the one form of speech that understand people so world wide, without making fun of anyone or bringing them down to there knees making them ask why they should push on further, it takes them by the hand and pulls them up, because it has the understand of what we feel to be able to do so, Music is a very powerful thing.
It definitely does, it represents me on a daily basis yet all of my friends still believe me when I say that I'm fine even though I'm not. Literally the only difference between me and this song is that there is so much that I want to say but I A.) don't know where to start and B.) don't know how to put anything that I need to talk about/feel into words
Yep, trusted sooo[ooooooooooooo😢 many times, it's like a beautiful dandelion that's actually GOOD , but keeps getting crushed, chopped, smashed , oh let's not forget the chemicals...but IF I trust...try to get up for LOVE , try to grow or shine, nope little dandelion....what or who would ever do this Peace Healing,Compassion , MERCY COME
I HUMBLY CRY OUT FOR PURE LOVE, can't Take much more, One hope ...I feel MORE LOST THAN EVER BEFORE 🕊🕊🕊🌻🌻💞, try to get up 23 yrs of fighting for LOVE, holding on to every precious memory where that LOVE won, broke through, past the pain. Gave me more than a sick bed , bathroom, repeat kinda pain Mercy please HEAL THE MILLIONS CRYING , I know YOU HEAR ME, and I'm not lying 😢
@@lill_sweets3271. I really wish I had done that for someone not all that long ago, I just didnt know how to at the time..... Give them time if they truly care about you they will see it and realize it.
@@mrsleeve325is Thank You ❤️... I know that sometimes you don't know how to help these people and it's hard... I just wish... That they would say more then "ah okay" or "your Stupid"...
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts my mom or dad wont let me get a therapist, while my friend today told me they are getting antidepressants and a therapist cause they scored high on the anxiety/depression quiz thing.
@@ch0c0b3arluv If those arent options for you then I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could
The lyrics being the inspiration, You should Never be ashamed of who you are. People criticize you because they only see the “bad” in you while neglecting your qualities. The problem isn’t you; it’s them who can’t see you for who you are. Embrace yourself, you’re worth it.
This song speaks volumes. I spend all of my time pretending that I'm ok to everyone. In reality, I'm waging war within myself. My head is a very dark, dangerous and scary place to be. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, because I don't want to burden others with my problems. Why? They have their own to worry about. 🖤
I know how you feel M A, trust me you are not alone, I guess that is why we love music so much, because it explains what we cannot say out loud, it knows us more than the people we have spent our whole lives with, it seems to know exactly how we feel, it explains what we cannot and music has literally saved people’s lives, music is everything and I don’t think humanity would have survived this long without it, music is so much more than sound, so much more, sorry if that didn’t make sense, I have not slept yet
Just remember if you're sitting here listening to this I'm proud of you. You made it 100% through your bad days so far. You got this I know you do. Just take care of yourself and believe you can. I love you even if you are a stranger.
And this is where the saying comes in handy In order to grow, we must put ourselves in uncomfortable situations. And sometimes that means losing a lot of people even family But trust me when I say it's all worth it in the end. Being yourself is all that matters living to impress other people. It's not a life at all and that something people need to learn really fast. I'm a 36 year old woman who literally has had no family, so I know the feeling and I. M trying to figure out how to raise my kids and not fuck them up the way my family messed me up so so much. The best decision I could have ever made was walk away from family and be true to myself. And this is the happiest I've ever been. I pray that everyone gets the courage to not be afraid to be who they really are. Because we only get one life, so live it for yourself. Not for others. There's no point in keeping other people's peace. When you're at peace is not kept you come first❤
Has someone with a lot of mental health problem and beinf appart of the furry community i just can't say anything anymore i always get judged for no reason and its annoying i just want to be happy but if you say anything "weird" you get hated by a lot of people
Glad I'm not the only one I've been so numb and jadded and it's so hard to tell people I'm not okay because they say they understand but they truly dont
Im 23 and I feel like a child when I say this but your music helps me cope so well. I put on your music and cry my eyes and just scream away the pain with your lyrics and its what keeps me going every day. Thank you for existing the whole world needs to hear you
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
"cause being who I really am, has only left me more alone" Those lyrics meant a lot because I cant be myself were I live, because I have to pretend to be what I am not.
Same here.. I know how you feel Where I live, literally everything I am feels like a sin If people knew I am a pansexual furry- I would get beaten up or worse.. So I understand how you feel But you gotta keep fighting and don't give up alright? One day you'll get away to a better place with people who will accept you 💚
Same here and it's truly painful. All I hope for is to someday soon be somewhere where I'm free to be me without the fear of my family judging me over any little thing I say or do that is against their wants out of me.
Came home from school a few hours ago and now I'm sitting here, crying like an idiot....I once wanted to say "I'm not okay." but I knew it would get ignored. So, I kept my demons deep inside myself and it's breaking me now....I'm definitely not okay. I don't want to live anymore but your music is one of those things which save me from the darkness inside of me. I keep going. Even if I don't want to....the reason is this one person out there who needs me. She told me that if I would attempt suicide, she will follow me. We're like sisters even tho we aren't sisters in real life. And I'm so glad to know her
It's people like those that shine their light on us when we're covered in darkness. Keep those people close and they'll help you through the hardest and darkest times
I know almost exactly how you feel except nobody has ever seen my pain. I have always been seen as the one everyone can rely on when they need someone to pick up the slack and it sucks. I am so happy that you have found someone to help you keep going.
Dont be like me, don't lie to anyone saying you're OK when you're not. I know I'll get through this, but if you think you need to, find someone to talk to, anyone it could be
It's ok to not be ok. It hurts to admit, more than anything, but it can really help. Humans are social creatures, sometimes you just need to cry on someone's shoulder.
I lost my wife of 16 years recently. Today was the first time hearing this song. This song resonates with me in a way no song ever has before, to say it touched my soul would be an understatement.
I am so truly sorry to hear about your loss and I can clearly hear your pain. I too lost my spouse after many years.. However, I brought that loss onto myself after almost twenty years of marriage to a very loving, thoughtful and very patient man. Because of my inability to cope appropriately with the suicide of my father, I sought solace in all the wrong places with all the wrong people and self medicated myself right into a divorce and mental and physical health issues that would take years to resolve. A divorce I very unfortunately deserved and even more, regretfully have had to accept and learn to live with. I not only betrayed, disrespected and hurt very badly and deeply my best friend, but also my (at that time) two beautiful teenage sons. Even after the divorce he continued to show concern for my well-being and helped me in times of need for several years. He stuck around so much longer than any other man I'm sure would have. Anyone else would have kicked me to the curb long before he finally turned his back. He has since remarried. Many years have gone past now and my life has been restored both mentally and physically. Miraculously and by the grace of God, I now have a loving relationship with my son's and have been forgiven. It has been a very lengthy, tough, emotional and at times unbearable road to recover my life and lost relationships. With time, as with myself you will grow stronger and with that, you will have the strength to accept what once was is now gone and the beautiful memories and time you shared together will always remain with you. You are and will remain always a part of one another and nothing will ever take that from you. I pray God will give you peace over your sadness and give you strength to move forward without the need to have answers for why and give you comfort during those quiet times of feeling lost and lonely. I pray He makes Himself and His loving presence known and imprisons any thoughts of doubt or fear you may have, reminding you that you are never alone. Our circumstances are clearly very different and for very different reasons but, having said that it's important to acknowledge that experiencing loss for whatever reason is extremely painful for everyone. I have accepted my loss and understand I am ultimately accountable. But I am able to find reasons each day to live life and move forward. I tell myself, I would much rather have had a moment of beauty than a lifetime of nothingness alone. My prayer is that you are able to do the same. For you are enough and you are worthy of a beautiful life. God bless you.
I'm sorry for your loss... My husband I would of been married for 14 years April 17... But I can't do this anymore. I'm drinking now to become numb and finish it all.
Losing my hub of 41 yrs is not ok .time is making things worse I just miss him more he told me he never met anyone as strong as me.but I used it up.i just didn't know####
I'm happy to see that you understand this. I'm only 16 years old and my parents doesn't even care about how I feel and I'm protected by a children protection thing... (Called dpj here. I'm in Quebec) Even those doesn't understand and try to help me, instead they put me in a psychiatric hospital for only being sad and being not able to go to school (I had the disease of always being tired). I'm still traumatized. And now my parents treat my like a burden. I always have to wear a mask because if I don't, they'll kill me even more. I hope to everyone not to feel this way, because this is awful and I've never felt this low before.
"When words fails, Music speaks." ~ An old poster I used to have above my bed. This is why I love you guys so damn much. I've lived in ignorance of the all problems plaguing for so long I forgot how to really explain and get them off my chest. I stopped seeing my therapist simply because I can't articulate what was going on inside my head. And yet somehow whenever I hear one of your songs, I can point to it and say 'This! This is what I'm feeling.' The lyrics always find a way to untangle the mess of negative thoughts and give me clarity as to what is causing my suffering.
I feel you.... Because I honestly feel the same. People say "Eyes are the gateway to one's soul" but I think it's the music that is. The music I usually like or listen to relates to me one way or another - perhaps my thoughts or my past or my feelings... Anything even if the tiniest bit.
I hear you. Have you ever tried the MTBI personality test? It can be a life changer, it was for me. Learning how I think and process was a huge step into being able to communicate what I had inside. But yes, these songs are a great weave of threads and words.
"I always feel like a burden, let it silence me" Damn, I felt that that one hit my core. I love this song so much; it's composed beautifully, and gives me the courage to speak up about my doubts, fears, and anxieties, it helps me get help, and I love it, and I love Citizen Soldier for this song, as well as all of the other songs they've made
Feeling this song I cried for the first times in so many years. I can't take this anymore like I really can't. I just want to end it every single second of every single day
If anyone ever needed to feel understood all they need to do is come to you guys and everyone else who's here. These songs really have changed things for me so thank you. All your guy's songs have such power and meaning behind them but I think this one is the strongest yet.
loved the "I'm not okay" in different languages at the end! the song, like any of yours, really makes me feel understood and not alone. thank you all so much!
I hear so many say that if you suffer from depression, reach out to someone because we want to help. They don't understand that depression makes it almost impossible to say something...for many reasons. That's why I always encourage people to reach out to anyone that you think may be suffering...you don't have to reach out and directly ask them about depression. Just talk to their heart, their true feelings. Earn their trust...eventually you may make it easier for them to tell you what's really going on. But most of all, you will be a friend to someone who really needs one.
It's true that some people need a support system. Though sometimes it's easier for a person to deal with their problems on their own. I needed to deal with things at my own pace , and figure out how to battle everything that was going on inside my head. I hated everyone around me, and didn't want them around me. I couldn't trust anybody. I did everything in my power to get better. I did have people reach out to me, but I told them I needed my space because they couldn't help me with what I was going through. They said they understood and gave me space. Which was the best thing they could do for me; understanding that I needed to be alone for however long it took. It took a really long time. But I'm feeling so great now. It feel amazing not feeling like a big heavy demonic boulder is clinging to me. It was amazing how light I felt and how easy it was to breathe when it was gone. Such a strange sensation. I'm still dealing with some things ,but I'm moving forward using everything I learned to not make the same mistakes. Going through everything I did opened my eyes to changes I needed to make with myself and showed me who I could rely on and who actually cared that I was living and breathing. Those people accept me for everything I am. I don't have to hide anything from them. I was being so difficult but they still stood by me. I've learned: *Not everyone is your friend. *Trust your gut. (my gut was right about a lot of things, but I didn't trust it, thinking I was mistaken.) *Be open about how you really feel/Speak up (I always smiled and pretended like I was okay because I didn't want to cause problems. I also felt like I wasn't allowed to be sad or mad about things. Because of this everyone thought I was so happy-go-lucky all the time. So my melt-down was shocking to them.) *Don't be yourself around people you aren't close with. *Even your own blood can be heartless towards you. *Only do for others that you know will do the same for you. *Stand your ground *If you can't vent to someone, then write out everything in a notebook or type it out. (I was skeptical. But I tried it out on the notepad app on my laptop to type out something I was frustrated about. And it really helped get it off my chest without me yammering someone's head off. Sometimes telling someone stressful stuff, can get them stressed out as well. So being able to write it down or type it out is a great option for some people.) *Think things through
This comment made tears full my eyes. As a person who suffers from anxiety and depression, I like to reach out to another who also deal with it. And with the best of my abilities talk, laugh even cry with them. And let them know they are not alone. That’s all we need.. Someone who understands
The lyrics, written out: Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface Any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than Just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud Another wonderful song from Citizen Soldier 🖤 If I made any mistakes with the lyrics, please let me know.
The only mistake you made that I see is that you put ''out'' instead of ''of'' in ''Any kind of proof'' ! Otherwise, good job and thanks for the lyric !
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
I was just scrolling music in a very dark place. But the moment I found this I just stopped, listened, and cried... Never has a song so perfectly captured all the things I feel I can't say out loud...
If you're reading this that means you're still here. Come back tomorrow and the next day and the next because everytime you do that's just another day you survived when you thought you wouldn't. Keep your head up and fight back :)
Last week, I drove to my parents' house in the middle of the night. I knocked on the door, my mom opened the door to let me in, and the first thing I said after sitting down was: “Mom, Dad, I'm not ok.” But as soon as I said that, I immediately regretted it. I laughed it off and said, “Oh, I was just messing with you.” Do you know what they did? They laughed too and didn't think much about it. Which made me feel more miserable and worse than I had when I was driving to their house that night. I actually had a lot of things I wanted to talk to them about, but didn't have enough courage, and they didn't pay attention or give it a second thought anyway. So why even bother? On top of all this, now I have to deal with the disappointment. I truly feel really let down and disappointed. What a pity.
Hey. I am sorry u went through this. If I could make contact with u privately I would so that u know u always have a friend to talk to. Stay strong. Thinking of u
U should have tried to open up to them.its not easy at all but me am not ok i do listen at m'y favourite songs .or just text to m'y best freind,when i Say am not ok she IS around even if i dont have thé courage to share but she Always makes me feel better at thé end with her love and care
I don't know you but I'm a mom. If you need to talk reach out to me. I'm here day ight. I'll pick up the phone, FaceTime etc. Don't feel like nobody cares please. I truly mean it ❤❤
Out of all the your songs that I have heard, this should be the one that I can relate to the most. The lyrics are just on point. I really want to tell my friends and family about my problems, but I know they won't understand. I want to be honest when they ask "are you ok?" but I know very well how they'll act. I tried once... it didn't end well. Since then, I didn't dare to tell them that I'm not okay again again. Thankfully I found Citizen Soldiers, and this community. Thank you for sharing these songs. It's one of the things that keeps me going. 😊❤️
Citizen soldier is one of the few bands I know that not only truly cares about people with relatable songs, but also that reaches out to all of their fans. I commented and within minutes they said thanks. It is amazing. Lets show them some love just like they do for us!
Sat here in tears singing this knowing these words are so true is the hardest pain anyone will ever understand feel like citizen soldiers knows me yet we never met
The hardest part of depression for me is always wearing a mask. Always saying I'm okay when inside I'm broken. Always fighting for my life only because I don't want to hurt the ones I love. Anyone who knows this feeling just know you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to I'm here with you. Seriously just reach out.
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
i feel broken all the time since my grandpa passed away in 2014 and i keep tell people im ok but im really not ok i feel so broken he was like a dad figure my actaul dad wasnt there for me at all
@@melainehutchens738 I know exactly how you feel. My grandpa was my father figure all my life cuz neither of my parents were around. He passed in 2012 and 2 days ago was the anniversary of his death. I will never forget that night and honestly I havent been ok since. But I hide it as best as I can so my grandma can move on and not worry about me...
This song is one of my favorites. It really hits home. People wonder why so many people never reach out, and its because when we do we are left feeling like a burden. Ive just turned to music to help me through it as MOST people just make it worse.
This song really hits me hard because I have been struggling so hard with my mental health lately. The depression and anxiety weigh so heavily on me and all I can do is mask how I'm feeling around my family because they don't care to understand what goes on in my head....thank you for making such relatable music!
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
I've been feeling like that lately my depression and anxiety has been bad lately and every time I tell my fiance that I'm depressed he asks what do I have to be depressed about
Robert, I'm so sorry that you had to go through losing your brother, I could never imagine going a day knowing I wouldn't get to see my little brother again. I really don't know what else to say except to do what you can to remember, because that's all we really can do.
So many people seem to go through the same darkness and have dark days. So why are we still judged by the society, even though we're so many? I never understood that. Why is it bad to be simply human, to feel pain, anger and sadness? Every emotion is valid. Why don't we reach out for each other and go together? If no one had to fight alone, the pain doesn't get too hard go near maybe... But instead they think you want attention and are just dramatic...
It's not the same darkness but others think it is they think that our darkness is the same down hill short termed struggles they've gone through and judge us based on their own experiences...
@@hikariyamini6157 exactly. They don't see the true depth of the darkness and pain that so many do suffer through... They see it as just a phase you'll grow out of. But true depression. Is not a phase and not something you will EVER "grow out of". It's something that will make every single day a fight just to wake up and get out of bed in the morning. It gnaws at your mind and spirit and beats you down so far you feel like you'll never be able to get up again...
@@xceryxdemurstra6323 truth is you're never gonna grow out of it, it's gonna get more and more dark, I'm 24 by now and each day is getting more and more dark.
My issue was I lived with my mom and any time I let the mask slip to tell people how I was feeling I just got told to quit talking stupid and quit acting like a girl, so I just shut down and didnt let anyone in at all and just kept burying my darkness on top of each other
I finally told someone I'm not ok, and it was met by understanding. As cliche as it might sound, this song made me feel like it was fine to tell someone when they asked. She didn't push, didn't pry, just listened. Thank you for this song.
“The only symptom you can see is I don’t want to be alive“ I don’t have the words to describe how hard that hits. This whole song, all the lyrics they’re just so powerful.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
listen to this other one they made.. this one SERIOUSLY hit me like a train and then... plot twist. I loved it.. i think you need to listen to it (or listen to it again if you did in the past) Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care (Official Lyric Video)
Yes. "You wanna die? Well you see everyone feels that way at some point in their life. Look at me. I went through all of those things and i too thought about ending my life but i kept myself strong. You're my child. So be strong." That's what i was told when they discovered i harmed myself multiple times "Why do you get offended by small things? You're so sensitive. I don't even remember saying that. And so what if i said that? Just forget it. Fine I'm sorry. You always target me" This was what i was told when i asked them about the things they were saying about me. The worst part is that they never denied that what they said was not true...they just tried to explain me how the things they say about me are true
Yea it hits like a truck, especially after 5 attempted suicides it hits *really* hard, but after all that I found someone that gives me ths strength to continue and that's my girlfriend she has helped me so much and through so much shit an-wow I'm rambling sorry
Hey, if you ever feel worthless, know, Butterflies can't see their wings, Flamingos all see themselves as the same as everyone else, And Beethoven never heard his work. *You matter, even if you can't see it*
okay first of all, butterflies can see the wings with mirrors, pretty much how you cant see some parts on your back. no, flamingos dont see themselves as the same as everyone else
I am not okey has been a song that really explains how a lot of us feel inside n find it hard to tell people wats really happening. I love this song it’s truly a reality song of life for most people. Thank u for creating it ❤
Honestly I'm so happy because I feel free to write my feelings here. Thank you for the opportunity to tell things happened with all of us. Thank you for support, for the opportunity to listen to others' stories and to be listened.
For those 953 ppl that said they disliked this song..... I'm glad you can hide your feelings better than all of us who like it. Thank you for this song. I'm not ok is the hardest 3 words to ever say to someone, especially when they love you.
But what if someone finds where you wrote all your feelings? What if you literally don’t know how to put some feelings into words, even on paper? What do I do then?
Lyrics : Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud :)
I was on the brink of commiting suicide when I heard this song.. I felt safe I felt like I was heard in a way that even my family won't take time to listen. All they say is its just a act and I don't really feel that way. So I stopped talking to them about my problems. Thank you for making me feel understood 💔❤️
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
You ok I’m here if you need me I’ve been through a lot I’m still here my goal is to help people understand our feelings and if they put off what we say about suicide and depression only they make us feel like no one cares about us
man im sorry that people are like that no one wants to actually make sure the people around them are actually okay anymore i wouldnt say i was close to suicide but my brother basically did the same to me just dont give up on them because they gave up on you too many folks are already doing that i hope youre alright now and live peacefully too all
"I wish I had some kind of proof that everything I feel isn't just some sad excuse" - That line hits so hard. I've been told so many times that my pain is just an excuse for being lazy. That I'm just whining when things don't go my way. That I never really mean it when I say I need help. The entire song resonates perfectly with everything I feel on a daily basis. I've always found music can express emotions so much better than regular words and this is the perfect example of that. People don't understand how hard it is to talk to someone. People think you don't mean it when you can't find the words to explain how you feel. It's honestly sad that a 16 year old has so little faith in people but here I am with a small group of friends who I would trust with my life but no faith in anyone else. I just want to say thank you for perfectly expressing the emotions I can't find the words for. Thank you for showing me that I'm not alone in these feelings and that there are people out there who understand my pain.
The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫
I've felt this for so long. I struggled everyday with these feelings. But I finally conquered my demons. Pretty much anyway. So love and hugs to who ever feels this.
I know I'm just a kid...only 15 years of age..but I have a story to tell Look at the sky, see those stars?.. they represent us humans, they shine so bright they don't care about what other stars say nor how brighter other stars are shining, they stay brightest to thier fullest potential, much like them we can shine as bright as then but we let society hold use down. Be like the stars and shine as bright as your can, till you very last moment Never be afraid of failure..be afraid of not learning "From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart" -citizen soldier
Age has no bearing on the suffering of the soul, my friend. Just take a deep breath or two and stay in the present. I am still here, I do not understand why or how, but I am. The Japanese I think it is, have a saying, get knocked down 7 times, stand up 8. In life one thing is for certain, you are going to get knocked down, we all do, it is the hard knocks school of life. But each time to stand up one more time, you grow stronger. Just remember, no matter how dark the storm may be, This too shall pass. I am rooting for you, I know you can find a way. Life still has a lot to offer.
The more often I listen to it the more I notice how it fits in so many ways. I think the line "I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface and kind of proof that everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse" I often feel like I don’t really have a reason to feel like this. My family is nice and I know that they would miss me. I currently have a best friend that is very important to me and she is great. I never really was abused or bullied. I shouldn’t feel the way I do. It’s mostly just my head and (unintentionally maybe) self destructive behavior that fuels these feelings. The fact that I had multiple best friends but they never stayed past three years and that my current best friend has been my best friend for two and a half years doesn’t help. (It feels like that part of my thoughts is at least the only justified part of all this due to my past experiences) I also sometimes feel like we might not be that good for each other because I constantly (partially unintentionally) try to distance myself and am not good at keeping contact (like on WhatsApp) while she has past bad experiences with friends ghosting her (something I kinda unintentionally do) which in return makes me feel worse. And there is a lot more of weird stuff in our friendship that I kinda enjoy but it also makes me occasionally feel even worse because I don’t know what to do and what she expects I already rambled too much about this stuff that doesn’t even interest anyone anyway. At first I even wrote more but I don’t think I should write all my trauma and all my current thoughts and problems in here Anyway still love the CS songs because they just so often hit the spot
I'm not a professional, but from what I've understood, there are two main types of depression. - The "obvious" type caused by specific events, usually temporary. i.e death of a loved one - The long lasting, returning ones with "no reason" (There is a reason, of course, but not like something you can point your finger at and say "fix that" or "just wait it out and it will go away". So don't beat yourself up over "not having a reason". * long distance hug *
I dunno if this will help anyone, but I'm 31 now and I've dealt with a lot of betrayals from friends and family, realized in my time of crisis that I couldn't count on anyone but me. A long time I wanted peoples support and never got more than a few breadcrumbs to string me along, to convince myself that they cared about me. What I've learned is that its ok, to not be ok, to sit with your grief and really feel it until you understand where it comes from and how it affects you. I learned that the pain comes from wanting connection and never receiving it, despite your efforts of reaching out or taking the initiative of your relationships. It happens and it hurts a lot. No matter the kind of loss you've taken, remember to love yourself above all, that things happen to you but they don't define who you are. That everything is temporary in life, so too is the pain and loss. Stay strong and we'll make it through this storm together
Ok can we just appreciate the emotion that is heard in his voice? Especially towards the end I could hear and believe everything you were saying and this song is just another one of your amazing songs. All of your songs are so unique and hit close to home for me and I just appreciate that there’s a band out there who knows how to speak to those who struggle with not being ok. Thank you
" if I finally break will you still stay?" That's what makes the difference in so many life's. Those simple words hits so much. I wish ya all find someone whom won't ever leave your side and most of all I wish ya all find someone who trully can understand and love you all for who you are. Stay strong everyone.
This hits me hard cause i know how it feels to say "I'm not okay" it's the cycle of judgement or embarrassment or they don't want people to get involved and i feel like this song portrays that very well. Between hiding behind a mask and hiding who you really are to people. That leads to bottling it it up to the point of breaking down and wanting someone who will understand what they are going through and support them. Citizen Soldier this song is a powerful message to people.
Thank you to the Citizen Soldier group for putting words on an atrocious suffering. You manage to name it and express it accurately... Remember that you are not alone. If Citizen Soldier managed to express this pain, it is because they felt it one day...
The lead singer actually tried to commit suicide. He failed. But that prompted him to make this band and spread awareness and give voices to the voiceless. So I think he is amazing for it. For surviving and realizing and helping others with their pain.
@@towertimesgaming4319 I totally agree with you. It’s a sign (as for the reference to his song "This is your sign"). He lived because he had things to do here, and people to save and make happy. Everyone deserves to be happy. Take care of yourself, people
As I have been diagnosed as Bipolar, boy does this song ever hit home! I am crying inside for help while my mouth spews mean and hurtful things at the ones I love!!!! This is a living hell!!!! Thank you for a song that helps to explain this mess
My brother is Bipolar. I don't wish it on anyone. I hope that you're getting the help you need. Please don't give up if the medication(s) you're given don't work the way they should. If they make you feel drugged & unable to focus, tell them they need to try something different. I watched my brother struggle for so many years. He hated how the meds made him feel, so he'd stop. Unmedicated, he could be so scary and angry. It's difficult to look beyond that to the person inside that you know & love, but we did it. Those hurtful things you spew are not you. Don't give up. Keep trying. It took several tries for them to find the right meds that worked well for my brother. Bipolar, like many things, isn't a "one size fits all" type of illness. There is a brighter side, and I hope with all my heart that you're able to get there soon.
I have drawn so much strength from your songs you cannot imagine. Thank you for making this kind of music, You have made me feel like there is a brighter side to life.
The fact that every verse of this song makes it so powerful, so relatable, so quotable. It changed my life hearing this song for the first time. I literally burst into tears in my car. But my real question is: when does it end? when can I finally not feel this wah?
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫 Its hard and it will be hard a longer time... But even when there is a storm now at the end there will be light and sometimes we must stay strong to see it...❤️
This song makes me want to cry. All of your guys' songs perfectly describe everything in my head. Everything that I never have been able to put into words. Thank you for your incredible work.
I relate to this one song more than any song out there. Even now I tear up just speaking out. All my life I've been alone, judged, abused in every way possible, and noone could ever tell you enough to get help because it's the same repeat story. It's sad how cruel this world can be, but I can see small rays of hope. I really am glad that your here citizen soldier, you have probably helped more souls than imagined. Thank you for all your songs, I can relate to every single one of them. Stay strong and stand tall.
brought me tears. love the honesty, its not easy explaining that you understand that this is life is difficult but some of us are really struggling to move forward.
To everyone that puts the sweet comments trying to help, thank you. When i feel down and listen to things like this, i always go to the comments and read your comments and tbh they always make me feel better. Again, thanks!
Thank you for this text... I Send you a Hug too... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫
Our monsters are made from our fears, anger and pain. It makes sense that they are the most emphatetic creatures. *They are scared too* Thank you so much for another incredible song 🖤
this is in my daily playlist. struggling with a lot of trauma's that I finally get help with after 18+ years. listening to you, makes me feel at least a little of feelings. Thank you man, you're helping me see a little light at the ned of the tunnel
"I wish I had a scar, had a bruise, on the surface any kind of proof that everything that I feel is more than some sad excuse" I'm littered with scars so why does it still not feel like its enough. No matter how bad it gets why does it still feel like I could be lying to everyone, maybe I'm playing it up and it's not that bad. What if I'm fakeing and don't realise. I'm not. My diagnosis and hours of therapy prove that so why does it still feel like I'm fooling myself.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
Me too. I have so many outside scars, from a head on collusion driving accident which killed my mother. I have multiple scars from that night, from top to bottom!! Bit they are nothing compares to the scars I have inside myself!! I've been told I have survivors guilt and PTSD!! Also been told to embrace my scars as they show I went thru something and survived, but when I see them, I only see that she didnt!!
Its all part of it. Part of the illness is your mind making you feel not strong enough. YOU ARE. DON'T LISTEN TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND!
It's your mind's way of trying to rationalize the way you feel because it doesn't understand what you've been diagnosed with. The human mind when faced with something it doesn't understand often tries to convince itself that it isn't real and it's all in your imagination because being that messed up inside is something the mind can't handle. It's hard to feel as if you're only making it up and fooling yourself and everyone around and the self doubt it creates is so tiring because you can never seem to just accept what you're being told and what you know is actually wrong, believe me I know. but you just have to push away your doubt and keep focusing on getting better. It's a long road ahead of you but hopefully one day you'll reach your destination.
this song speaks exactly how my life is. At one point i felt so alone and in the dark but ever since i came across this song, i have gotten through hard times
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I'm only 30 seconds in and I'm already trying to find the chords
Edit: how do you guys make such relatable songs
Wow It's just wow... Like you penned down what many of us are trying to say ❤️
te amooo 🖤😭
This band is straight up the soundtracks
to my hard days. And they did it again. 5/5 without a shred of hesitation.
Seem title as an another band's song, was it on purpose ? Anyway who cares ^^ once again you've done an amazing job with this song ^^
"The people who smile the brightest feel the deepest pain"
Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ
I smile a lot but not in pain. But I'm here for you@
Feel this a lot more then you know
@@lill_sweets3271 thank you so much I really need it. Sorry for the late reply
@@biri_o i guess we feel the same i'm also here for you anytime 🤗
the fact that so many people can relate to this is so heartbreaking :(
We're all in this together 🖤
im one of those. 😟😟
@@marloulaboc5561 me too
i have listen to this song and i just caught me off guard how accurate it is to my life
@@smokey8865 first time I hear most of their songs they set me off because I relate to them that strongly. Some more then others. This one more then most.
When you can’t explain your emotions, music like this speaks it for you. The problem is, you’re the only one listening. 💔
Songs nobody else around you would understand. When I try to explain... I'm told it's just a phase. So yes I listen to them alone.
Right!? I try by showing my friends lyrics that I relate to, or by singing songs to my parents that explain my feelings, I try to let them know what I'm going through. But all they ever say is: beautiful song or nice voice or idk, they don't look further than what they hear or see. They don't see that I'm crying to the lyrics of the song I sent them, they don't feel the knot in my stomach or the lump in my throat when I'm singing the words to an almost musical version of myself. They don't.
Sorry but not true all the relatability you get from the song all that emotion that you feel when you listen that's all of us listening with you all you have to do is realise that the people around you don't understand but there is still a world full of people who do understand you just don't know them yet 😊
@@jordbarker6154 awww that's like the sweetest thing. Thank you for saying this I really needed that 😍
I feel that
"Being who i am, has only left me more alone" describes 100% of me.
You are not alone, I'm the same way. A lot more people than anyone knows. Stay strong! ❤
Who are you?
I get discriminated against, even by teachers, because I have mental disorders like autism, adhd, ocd and more.
U even got shouted at for having a mental break down because my ear defender got broke by someone else for no reason.
Fuck her and everyone else who hates me for no reason
Same thing 😢💔
@@ambermartin7535 Are you doing o.k. today? 🤗
The hardest thing about deppresion is when you know that people around you love you. It holds you back from leaving this world and let's you know you can never escape the cell your trapped in even though your holding the keys
But the longer U stay the more it hurts-
It's really difficult but I promise you you'll get there not going to bs you like most do and say itll go away cause it just wont it will come back. It's a life sentence but please remember nobody said that this life would be easy but I promise you it's worth it. I know the guilt you feel I feel it daily. But you are seen and understood by others. I just wanna come through my phone and give you a hug.
@@kirstynhobbs4505 yes but it's so worth it. Please read my reply it applied to you too. 🙂
@@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771 thank u for sayin that, I'm aware it won't just go away but it's destroying who I once was
truest shit ever.
"Saying insults to someone are as easy as throwing a stone in a lake, but you will never know how far that stone will sink"
We hear you
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
@@lill_sweets3271 heh, yea right
It’s horrible how impactful words can be. And how easily they are carelessly throw out.
Who/what is this quote from?
You know what's funny? That this song understands feeling more than actual people do and this song doesn't make fun of you it talks to you and tries to help
Why tell me please why why why WHY
Yep
Music, the one form of speech that understand people so world wide, without making fun of anyone or bringing them down to there knees making them ask why they should push on further, it takes them by the hand and pulls them up, because it has the understand of what we feel to be able to do so, Music is a very powerful thing.
It definitely does, it represents me on a daily basis yet all of my friends still believe me when I say that I'm fine even though I'm not. Literally the only difference between me and this song is that there is so much that I want to say but I A.) don't know where to start and B.) don't know how to put anything that I need to talk about/feel into words
@@ferretflashes1721 me too I believe took room 2 set yup
“Because being who I really am, has only left me more alone.” That really sums it up
Same
Same here
Yep, trusted sooo[ooooooooooooo😢 many times, it's like a beautiful dandelion that's actually GOOD , but keeps getting crushed, chopped, smashed , oh let's not forget the chemicals...but IF I trust...try to get up for LOVE , try to grow or shine, nope little dandelion....what or who would ever do this
Peace Healing,Compassion , MERCY COME
I HUMBLY CRY OUT FOR PURE LOVE, can't Take much more, One hope ...I feel MORE LOST THAN EVER BEFORE 🕊🕊🕊🌻🌻💞, try to get up 23 yrs of fighting for LOVE, holding on to every precious memory where that LOVE won, broke through, past the pain. Gave me more than a sick bed , bathroom, repeat kinda pain
Mercy please HEAL THE MILLIONS CRYING , I know YOU HEAR ME, and I'm not lying 😢
Sometimes when I say
"I am not Okay"
I want someone to look me
in the eyes,
hug me tight, and say
"I know your not."
We hear you 🖤
I feel that
@@dbztranks6601Thank you...❤️I wish they would recognize...
@@lill_sweets3271. I really wish I had done that for someone not all that long ago, I just didnt know how to at the time..... Give them time if they truly care about you they will see it and realize it.
@@mrsleeve325is Thank You ❤️... I know that sometimes you don't know how to help these people and it's hard... I just wish... That they would say more then "ah okay" or "your Stupid"...
“Cause being who i really am has only left me more alone”
DAMN IT
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts my mom or dad wont let me get a therapist, while my friend today told me they are getting antidepressants and a therapist cause they scored high on the anxiety/depression quiz thing.
@@ch0c0b3arluv If those arent options for you then I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could
I finally found someone who likes me for who i am, just so nobody worries or whatever
Same,
The lyrics being the inspiration, You should Never be ashamed of who you are. People criticize you because they only see the “bad” in you while neglecting your qualities. The problem isn’t you; it’s them who can’t see you for who you are.
Embrace yourself, you’re worth it.
This 🖤
💔❤️💔❤️
One of the worst feelings is gaining the courage to ask for help and for the person you trusted to give up on helping you.
All to have them shut you down
that person wasn't who you thought
Yep. My best friend did that just cuz I got banned on snapchat. Now she won't even talk to me. I'm so lost.
Do you want to share with me by chance? I don't mind listening
@@stonedgoddess420 Do you want to talk to me? I'm here if you want to. 🌼
Another song that understands me more than my family
We hear you Maurice 🖤
Same...
Same
Felt hang in there ik its hard
I hear ya...
This song speaks volumes. I spend all of my time pretending that I'm ok to everyone. In reality, I'm waging war within myself. My head is a very dark, dangerous and scary place to be. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, because I don't want to burden others with my problems. Why? They have their own to worry about. 🖤
Hey it's okay to open up we all do at some point it understandable that people have there own problems but some people will help
We hear you 🖤
I know how you feel M A, trust me you are not alone, I guess that is why we love music so much, because it explains what we cannot say out loud, it knows us more than the people we have spent our whole lives with, it seems to know exactly how we feel, it explains what we cannot and music has literally saved people’s lives, music is everything and I don’t think humanity would have survived this long without it, music is so much more than sound, so much more, sorry if that didn’t make sense, I have not slept yet
I think if we were all honest with each other, we would all find out we all have a lot in common.
Same but I usually listen to heavier music so I can’t hear my own thoughts
Just remember if you're sitting here listening to this I'm proud of you. You made it 100% through your bad days so far. You got this I know you do. Just take care of yourself and believe you can. I love you even if you are a stranger.
I appreciate that! 🖤
You know... these kind of comments are the ones saving lifes, thankyou so much for doing this.
@@Stitch8199donemilio I try to do the best I can to help
Thank you so much
i love you too
“Being who I am has only left me more alone” has never felt more true. People say to be yourself and genuine but anytime you are you get judged for it
And this is where the saying comes in handy In order to grow, we must put ourselves in uncomfortable situations. And sometimes that means losing a lot of people even family But trust me when I say it's all worth it in the end. Being yourself is all that matters living to impress other people. It's not a life at all and that something people need to learn really fast. I'm a 36 year old woman who literally has had no family, so I know the feeling and I. M trying to figure out how to raise my kids and not fuck them up the way my family messed me up so so much. The best decision I could have ever made was walk away from family and be true to myself. And this is the happiest I've ever been. I pray that everyone gets the courage to not be afraid to be who they really are. Because we only get one life, so live it for yourself. Not for others. There's no point in keeping other people's peace. When you're at peace is not kept you come first❤
I know how you feel I feel worthless not good enough I just want to be happy
Has someone with a lot of mental health problem and beinf appart of the furry community i just can't say anything anymore i always get judged for no reason and its annoying i just want to be happy but if you say anything "weird" you get hated by a lot of people
Or laughed
How to start the conversation if you want to come out and need help
P
"you'll never understand how hard it is to say I'm not okay"
Preach 😞🖐️
Yep no one really understands so I fell you
I agree 💯💯💯
Yet ... when you tell them they mock you for being weak.
Glad I'm not the only one I've been so numb and jadded and it's so hard to tell people I'm not okay because they say they understand but they truly dont
@@Moochi4 nope they pretend to understand but they are fake as hell....
Im 23 and I feel like a child when I say this but your music helps me cope so well. I put on your music and cry my eyes and just scream away the pain with your lyrics and its what keeps me going every day. Thank you for existing the whole world needs to hear you
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
Dont feel like a child. I'm 25 and honestly I do the same thing. It's not childish in any way.
There is nothing childish about music that speaks to your heart and soul, especially with a topic as deep as this.
bro im 30 and i cry myself to sleep still
@Shane Harper we do that when we have too much pain and no way to release it. 😃 I've done that more than I care to recall, sometimes for hours.
Sometimes it hurts to know that some songs understand you better than anyone else does.
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
I know just what you mean. My wife and I are so misunderstood by so many just because our disabilitys.
@@flaming-dragon6849 ❤
Absolutely...
@@flaming-dragon6849 Alt least you have one another to help each other weather the storm...
THIS SONG WAS ONE OF THE REASONS MY DAD GOT HELP AND NOW HE IS DOING MUCH BETTER THANK YOU Citizen soldier you have probably save my dad from himself
That's wonderful ❤
Thanks guys
"cause being who I really am, has only left me more alone" Those lyrics meant a lot because I cant be myself were I live, because I have to pretend to be what I am not.
We hear you 🖤
Same here.. i have to change my real self.. and now i dont know who is tge real me..
Same here.. I know how you feel
Where I live, literally everything I am feels like a sin
If people knew I am a pansexual furry-
I would get beaten up or worse..
So I understand how you feel
But you gotta keep fighting and don't give up alright?
One day you'll get away to a better place with people who will accept you
💚
Same here and it's truly painful. All I hope for is to someday soon be somewhere where I'm free to be me without the fear of my family judging me over any little thing I say or do that is against their wants out of me.
I have to deal with that to😞
Came home from school a few hours ago and now I'm sitting here, crying like an idiot....I once wanted to say "I'm not okay." but I knew it would get ignored. So, I kept my demons deep inside myself and it's breaking me now....I'm definitely not okay. I don't want to live anymore but your music is one of those things which save me from the darkness inside of me. I keep going. Even if I don't want to....the reason is this one person out there who needs me. She told me that if I would attempt suicide, she will follow me. We're like sisters even tho we aren't sisters in real life. And I'm so glad to know her
Thanks for sharing this. Appreciate you! 🖤
It's people like those that shine their light on us when we're covered in darkness. Keep those people close and they'll help you through the hardest and darkest times
Hey pika I'm here if you ever want to talk
I know almost exactly how you feel except nobody has ever seen my pain. I have always been seen as the one everyone can rely on when they need someone to pick up the slack and it sucks. I am so happy that you have found someone to help you keep going.
@@Anonymous-eg3wk hey, I'm also here if you ever want to talk :)
I will forever be the one that says "I'm OK.." with tears in my eyes. This song touched me tonight!
Thanks for listening Natalie 🖤
Dont be like me, don't lie to anyone saying you're OK when you're not. I know I'll get through this, but if you think you need to, find someone to talk to, anyone it could be
It's ok to not be ok. It hurts to admit, more than anything, but it can really help. Humans are social creatures, sometimes you just need to cry on someone's shoulder.
You look just like my sister
Crying makes you strong 💪🏻
I lost my wife of 16 years recently. Today was the first time hearing this song. This song resonates with me in a way no song ever has before, to say it touched my soul would be an understatement.
I am so truly sorry to hear about your loss and I can clearly hear your pain.
I too lost my spouse after many years.. However, I brought that loss onto myself after almost twenty years of marriage to a very loving, thoughtful and very patient man.
Because of my inability to cope appropriately with the suicide of my father, I sought solace in all the wrong places with all the wrong people and self medicated myself right into a divorce and mental and physical health issues that would take years to resolve. A divorce I very unfortunately deserved and even more, regretfully have had to accept and learn to live with. I not only betrayed, disrespected and hurt very badly and deeply my best friend, but also my (at that time) two beautiful teenage sons. Even after the divorce he continued to show concern for my well-being and helped me in times of need for several years. He stuck around so much longer than any other man I'm sure would have. Anyone else would have kicked me to the curb long before he finally turned his back. He has since remarried.
Many years have gone past now and my life has been restored both mentally and physically. Miraculously and by the grace of God, I now have a loving relationship with my son's and have been forgiven.
It has been a very lengthy, tough, emotional and at times unbearable road to recover my life and lost relationships.
With time, as with myself you will grow stronger and with that, you will have the strength to accept what once was is now gone and the beautiful memories and time you shared together will always remain with you. You are and will remain always a part of one another and nothing will ever take that from you. I pray God will give you peace over your sadness and give you strength to move forward without the need to have answers for why and give you comfort during those quiet times of feeling lost and lonely. I pray He makes Himself and His loving presence known and imprisons any thoughts of doubt or fear you may have, reminding you that you are never alone.
Our circumstances are clearly very different and for very different reasons but, having said that it's important to acknowledge that experiencing loss for whatever reason is extremely painful for everyone. I have accepted my loss and understand I am ultimately accountable. But I am able to find reasons each day to live life and move forward. I tell myself, I would much rather have had a moment of beauty than a lifetime of nothingness alone. My prayer is that you are able to do the same. For you are enough and you are worthy of a beautiful life.
God bless you.
I'm sorry for your loss... My husband I would of been married for 14 years April 17... But I can't do this anymore. I'm drinking now to become numb and finish it all.
Losing my hub of 41 yrs is not ok .time is making things worse I just miss him more he told me he never met anyone as strong as me.but I used it up.i just didn't know####
I dont want to be one of those people but I've never been here this early... I so far love how it sounds.
Thanks! 🖤
Yep. Definitely love this song. *(Promptly adds to music library)*
I'm happy to see that you understand this. I'm only 16 years old and my parents doesn't even care about how I feel and I'm protected by a children protection thing... (Called dpj here. I'm in Quebec) Even those doesn't understand and try to help me, instead they put me in a psychiatric hospital for only being sad and being not able to go to school (I had the disease of always being tired). I'm still traumatized. And now my parents treat my like a burden. I always have to wear a mask because if I don't, they'll kill me even more. I hope to everyone not to feel this way, because this is awful and I've never felt this low before.
@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 i really sorry, i even don't know what to say, you don't deserve feel like this, i hope you find a moment to heal.
@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 did you have narcolepsy? That's a Hell of a thing to have at 16. Best of luck
"When words fails, Music speaks." ~ An old poster I used to have above my bed.
This is why I love you guys so damn much. I've lived in ignorance of the all problems plaguing for so long I forgot how to really explain and get them off my chest. I stopped seeing my therapist simply because I can't articulate what was going on inside my head. And yet somehow whenever I hear one of your songs, I can point to it and say 'This! This is what I'm feeling.' The lyrics always find a way to untangle the mess of negative thoughts and give me clarity as to what is causing my suffering.
Appreciate those words Chris! 🖤
I feel you.... Because I honestly feel the same. People say "Eyes are the gateway to one's soul" but I think it's the music that is. The music I usually like or listen to relates to me one way or another - perhaps my thoughts or my past or my feelings... Anything even if the tiniest bit.
I hear you. Have you ever tried the MTBI personality test? It can be a life changer, it was for me. Learning how I think and process was a huge step into being able to communicate what I had inside. But yes, these songs are a great weave of threads and words.
Incredible song, the lines are exactly what I feel right now... beautiful..
I'm feel exactly the same as you, and all of who really feel this music
"I always feel like a burden, let it silence me"
Damn, I felt that that one hit my core. I love this song so much; it's composed beautifully, and gives me the courage to speak up about my doubts, fears, and anxieties, it helps me get help, and I love it, and I love Citizen Soldier for this song, as well as all of the other songs they've made
Thanks for listening! 🖤
Feeling this song I cried for the first times in so many years. I can't take this anymore like I really can't. I just want to end it every single second of every single day
People that make music like this should be known as heroes
100%
Yes
These guys are Heroes to me. And they probably will never know the full extent of their amazing work they do.
I completely agree
Yes
If anyone ever needed to feel understood all they need to do is come to you guys and everyone else who's here. These songs really have changed things for me so thank you.
All your guy's songs have such power and meaning behind them but I think this one is the strongest yet.
Appreciate those words! 🖤
Found them yesterday and already noticed the community here is absolutely great. 😉
You can be proud, Citizen Soldier! 🖤
loved the "I'm not okay" in different languages at the end! the song, like any of yours, really makes me feel understood and not alone. thank you all so much!
Appreciate you Nic! Thanks for listening 🖤
Music speaks louder feelings than normal words could ever express
I hear so many say that if you suffer from depression, reach out to someone because we want to help. They don't understand that depression makes it almost impossible to say something...for many reasons. That's why I always encourage people to reach out to anyone that you think may be suffering...you don't have to reach out and directly ask them about depression. Just talk to their heart, their true feelings. Earn their trust...eventually you may make it easier for them to tell you what's really going on. But most of all, you will be a friend to someone who really needs one.
I turn people away because I never want to hurt them, I don’t want other to feel like it’s their problem to solve.
True ,but it's hard to open to someone
Such a good point. You clearly understand depression, unlike most people in this world
It's true that some people need a support system.
Though sometimes it's easier for a person to deal with their problems on their own.
I needed to deal with things at my own pace , and figure out how to battle everything that was going on inside my head. I hated everyone around me, and didn't want them around me. I couldn't trust anybody. I did everything in my power to get better. I did have people reach out to me, but I told them I needed my space because they couldn't help me with what I was going through. They said they understood and gave me space. Which was the best thing they could do for me; understanding that I needed to be alone for however long it took. It took a really long time. But I'm feeling so great now. It feel amazing not feeling like a big heavy demonic boulder is clinging to me. It was amazing how light I felt and how easy it was to breathe when it was gone. Such a strange sensation.
I'm still dealing with some things ,but I'm moving forward using everything I learned to not make the same mistakes. Going through everything I did opened my eyes to changes I needed to make with myself and showed me who I could rely on and who actually cared that I was living and breathing. Those people accept me for everything I am. I don't have to hide anything from them. I was being so difficult but they still stood by me.
I've learned:
*Not everyone is your friend.
*Trust your gut.
(my gut was right about a lot of things, but I didn't trust it, thinking I was mistaken.)
*Be open about how you really feel/Speak up
(I always smiled and pretended like I was okay because I didn't want to cause problems. I also felt like I wasn't allowed to be sad or mad about things. Because of this everyone thought I was so happy-go-lucky all the time. So my melt-down was shocking to them.)
*Don't be yourself around people you aren't close with.
*Even your own blood can be heartless towards you.
*Only do for others that you know will do the same for you.
*Stand your ground
*If you can't vent to someone, then write out everything in a notebook or type it out.
(I was skeptical. But I tried it out on the notepad app on my laptop to type out something I was frustrated about. And it really helped get it off my chest without me yammering someone's head off. Sometimes telling someone stressful stuff, can get them stressed out as well. So being able to write it down or type it out is a great option for some people.)
*Think things through
This comment made tears full my eyes. As a person who suffers from anxiety and depression, I like to reach out to another who also deal with it. And with the best of my abilities talk, laugh even cry with them. And let them know they are not alone. That’s all we need.. Someone who understands
The lyrics, written out:
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound
It's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
I wish I had a scar
Had a bruise on the surface
Any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than
Just some sad excuse
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'll never have the words
I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself
To myself
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
Another wonderful song from Citizen Soldier 🖤 If I made any mistakes with the lyrics, please let me know.
The only mistake you made that I see is that you put ''out'' instead of ''of'' in ''Any kind of proof'' ! Otherwise, good job and thanks for the lyric !
@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 Thank you! Fixed that just now
The only symptom you see ➡ the only symptom you CAN see ;)
Still, great job buddy, thanks!
Thanks for sharing
This is a lyric video! The lyrics are already on the screen.
That first "I always feel like a burden let it silence me" always gets me...
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
Same here
@@lill_sweets3271 Yeah like Mother Moses that waited till she was 80 years old till someone saw her worth. As MOST of us won't make it past 60. Ugh.
Me yesterday to my dad
"I'm sorry" Me
"Why?" Him
"For being a burden." Me
@@the11boom What did he say back?
I was just scrolling music in a very dark place. But the moment I found this I just stopped, listened, and cried...
Never has a song so perfectly captured all the things I feel I can't say out loud...
I'm proud of your strength! ❤
If you're reading this that means you're still here. Come back tomorrow and the next day and the next because everytime you do that's just another day you survived when you thought you wouldn't. Keep your head up and fight back :)
True! 🖤
Counting the days i'm coming Back to this song/comment:
1
Thank you ❤
@@AkizatheNacho you got this!
@@TeeJayVR26 You're welcome!
I'm a soldier. I've deployed enough that my time out of country equals my second daughters age. This song is literally my brain daily.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ...
Thank~YOU for your service!!
#IAppreciateYou 💗
Thank you so much for your service you are not forgotten and may God bless you
Thank You so much Brother for Sacraficing All You have for me collective i can't speak of but personally i can 💪💪🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲💪🙏🙏🙏
Thank you brother for your service for ex service man 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇺🇲🇺🇲
“I always feel like a burden. Let it silence me.” Yes. Exactly. 😢
😢
Same
Same
whyndo you think this way?????
😢
Last week, I drove to my parents' house in the middle of the night. I knocked on the door, my mom opened the door to let me in, and the first thing I said after sitting down was: “Mom, Dad, I'm not ok.” But as soon as I said that, I immediately regretted it. I laughed it off and said, “Oh, I was just messing with you.” Do you know what they did? They laughed too and didn't think much about it. Which made me feel more miserable and worse than I had when I was driving to their house that night. I actually had a lot of things I wanted to talk to them about, but didn't have enough courage, and they didn't pay attention or give it a second thought anyway. So why even bother? On top of all this, now I have to deal with the disappointment. I truly feel really let down and disappointed. What a pity.
Hey. I am sorry u went through this. If I could make contact with u privately I would so that u know u always have a friend to talk to. Stay strong. Thinking of u
U should have tried to open up to them.its not easy at all but me am not ok i do listen at m'y favourite songs .or just text to m'y best freind,when i Say am not ok she IS around even if i dont have thé courage to share but she Always makes me feel better at thé end with her love and care
If one day u need to talk dont hesitate i also went throught allott.
Wish I had someone to even attempt to talk to
I don't know you but I'm a mom. If you need to talk reach out to me. I'm here day
ight. I'll pick up the phone, FaceTime etc. Don't feel like nobody cares please. I truly mean it ❤❤
Out of all the your songs that I have heard, this should be the one that I can relate to the most. The lyrics are just on point.
I really want to tell my friends and family about my problems, but I know they won't understand. I want to be honest when they ask "are you ok?" but I know very well how they'll act. I tried once... it didn't end well. Since then, I didn't dare to tell them that I'm not okay again again.
Thankfully I found Citizen Soldiers, and this community. Thank you for sharing these songs. It's one of the things that keeps me going. 😊❤️
Thanks for sharing this with us and for your support! 🖤
You are loved by us friend. Share your story everyone has one. We always listen. We always read
I understand this all too well
@@urfaceburn9969 Same I was about to say the same. Exactly how I feel
Citizen soldier is one of the few bands I know that not only truly cares about people with relatable songs, but also that reaches out to all of their fans. I commented and within minutes they said thanks. It is amazing. Lets show them some love just like they do for us!
We do our best. We're a family 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier And this is why you guys are my favourite band
This just makes me wanna cry, I've never heard anything that actually describes how I feel so perfectly. No one seems to understand. But you do
We hear you. Glad to hear that 🖤
I understand you...
I hear you and I know your struggle. We are not alone.
Sat here in tears singing this knowing these words are so true is the hardest pain anyone will ever understand feel like citizen soldiers knows me yet we never met
The hardest part of depression for me is always wearing a mask. Always saying I'm okay when inside I'm broken. Always fighting for my life only because I don't want to hurt the ones I love. Anyone who knows this feeling just know you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to I'm here with you. Seriously just reach out.
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
i feel broken all the time since my grandpa passed away in 2014 and i keep tell people im ok but im really not ok i feel so broken he was like a dad figure my actaul dad wasnt there for me at all
I agree
Hey mate my name's heath I'm going through a lot of shit atm if I was to get a reply that would be greatly appreciated
@@melainehutchens738 I know exactly how you feel. My grandpa was my father figure all my life cuz neither of my parents were around. He passed in 2012 and 2 days ago was the anniversary of his death. I will never forget that night and honestly I havent been ok since. But I hide it as best as I can so my grandma can move on and not worry about me...
*" you'll never understand why it's so hard to say"*
I love it
"The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive."
HOLY FUCK CITIZEN SOLDIER YOU'RE GONNA BRING ME TO TEARS
Ikr
Yeah 👏👍
This song is one of my favorites. It really hits home. People wonder why so many people never reach out, and its because when we do we are left feeling like a burden. Ive just turned to music to help me through it as MOST people just make it worse.
“You’ll never understand how hard it is to say….I’m not okay”🥺
Damn my UA-cam recommendations knows how I feel better than all the people around me ...
why is this so true
Fr tho
Thanks for listening 🖤
Same
@@CitizenSoldier hii can you make a song For me and my girlfriend... If you like...'
This song really hits me hard because I have been struggling so hard with my mental health lately. The depression and anxiety weigh so heavily on me and all I can do is mask how I'm feeling around my family because they don't care to understand what goes on in my head....thank you for making such relatable music!
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
I've been feeling like that lately my depression and anxiety has been bad lately and every time I tell my fiance that I'm depressed he asks what do I have to be depressed about
Just a small warm hug and a sincere head pat was all i ever needed.not even words.
Me and my band played this for my brother on his funeral and I started to cry in the first section RIP PHILLIP LOVE YOU BRO
Robert, I'm so sorry that you had to go through losing your brother, I could never imagine going a day knowing I wouldn't get to see my little brother again. I really don't know what else to say except to do what you can to remember, because that's all we really can do.
Rip
So many people seem to go through the same darkness and have dark days. So why are we still judged by the society, even though we're so many? I never understood that. Why is it bad to be simply human, to feel pain, anger and sadness? Every emotion is valid. Why don't we reach out for each other and go together? If no one had to fight alone, the pain doesn't get too hard go near maybe...
But instead they think you want attention and are just dramatic...
You’re not alone friend. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻
It's not the same darkness but others think it is they think that our darkness is the same down hill short termed struggles they've gone through and judge us based on their own experiences...
@@hikariyamini6157 exactly. They don't see the true depth of the darkness and pain that so many do suffer through... They see it as just a phase you'll grow out of. But true depression. Is not a phase and not something you will EVER "grow out of". It's something that will make every single day a fight just to wake up and get out of bed in the morning. It gnaws at your mind and spirit and beats you down so far you feel like you'll never be able to get up again...
@@xceryxdemurstra6323 truth is you're never gonna grow out of it, it's gonna get more and more dark, I'm 24 by now and each day is getting more and more dark.
My issue was I lived with my mom and any time I let the mask slip to tell people how I was feeling I just got told to quit talking stupid and quit acting like a girl, so I just shut down and didnt let anyone in at all and just kept burying my darkness on top of each other
"Being who I really am has only left me more alone." I relate so much to this line, it's crazy.
Thanks for listening Phil! 🖤
Me too
Same here
I finally told someone I'm not ok, and it was met by understanding. As cliche as it might sound, this song made me feel like it was fine to tell someone when they asked. She didn't push, didn't pry, just listened. Thank you for this song.
“The only symptom you can see is I don’t want to be alive“
I don’t have the words to describe how hard that hits. This whole song, all the lyrics they’re just so powerful.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
listen to this other one they made.. this one SERIOUSLY hit me like a train and then... plot twist. I loved it.. i think you need to listen to it (or listen to it again if you did in the past)
Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care (Official Lyric Video)
Same It's like this song is a song about my life all these lyrics hit me but the only symptom line is so hard for me to not cry to.
Yes.
"You wanna die? Well you see everyone feels that way at some point in their life. Look at me. I went through all of those things and i too thought about ending my life but i kept myself strong. You're my child. So be strong."
That's what i was told when they discovered i harmed myself multiple times
"Why do you get offended by small things? You're so sensitive. I don't even remember saying that. And so what if i said that? Just forget it. Fine I'm sorry. You always target me"
This was what i was told when i asked them about the things they were saying about me.
The worst part is that they never denied that what they said was not true...they just tried to explain me how the things they say about me are true
Yea it hits like a truck, especially after 5 attempted suicides it hits *really* hard, but after all that I found someone that gives me ths strength to continue and that's my girlfriend she has helped me so much and through so much shit an-wow I'm rambling sorry
Hey, if you ever feel worthless, know, Butterflies can't see their wings,
Flamingos all see themselves as the same as everyone else,
And Beethoven never heard his work.
*You matter, even if you can't see it*
💜
This is a work of art. Thank you
tysm...🖤
okay first of all, butterflies can see the wings with mirrors, pretty much how you cant see some parts on your back.
no, flamingos dont see themselves as the same as everyone else
@@loust1264 it's a saying
Yea they never make a bad music - not gonna lie i love all of their songs
Thank you so much 🖤
Same
My question is, how?
Ikr? I think it's because they take such care to make their songs so meaningful
Because they have so much to say
I am not okey has been a song that really explains how a lot of us feel inside n find it hard to tell people wats really happening. I love this song it’s truly a reality song of life for most people. Thank u for creating it ❤
Honestly I'm so happy because I feel free to write my feelings here. Thank you for the opportunity to tell things happened with all of us. Thank you for support, for the opportunity to listen to others' stories and to be listened.
💜
For those 953 ppl that said they disliked this song..... I'm glad you can hide your feelings better than all of us who like it. Thank you for this song. I'm not ok is the hardest 3 words to ever say to someone, especially when they love you.
And those 3 words are: I'm Not Okay
Dear people, even when you are not feeling okay.. Write it down and do not forget that there's someone in the world who loves you!
Where? Where are they though.
I'VE BEEN HERE! (October 25, 2022)
@@newmansgaming7815 I love you
You are great.
But what if someone finds where you wrote all your feelings? What if you literally don’t know how to put some feelings into words, even on paper? What do I do then?
I love you no matter what you’ve done. You are precious in my eyes. - Jesus Christ. 💛
Lyrics :
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound
It's a mask it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
'Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
I wish I had a scar
Had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself
To myself
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I am not okay
I am not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay?
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
:)
Thank you!!! Very much!!!
this is a lyric video though 💀
Water is wet
@@seven8048 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@@seven8048 some people prefer it when it's written like this, and it's easier to memorize:)
I was on the brink of commiting suicide when I heard this song.. I felt safe I felt like I was heard in a way that even my family won't take time to listen. All they say is its just a act and I don't really feel that way. So I stopped talking to them about my problems. Thank you for making me feel understood 💔❤️
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
Thank you lovely. I'll start doing the same. Worthless to talk emotions or feelings to someone that is cold hearted.
You ok I’m here if you need me I’ve been through a lot I’m still here my goal is to help people understand our feelings and if they put off what we say about suicide and depression only they make us feel like no one cares about us
man im sorry that people are like that no one wants to actually make sure the people around them are actually okay anymore i wouldnt say i was close to suicide but my brother basically did the same to me just dont give up on them because they gave up on you too many folks are already doing that i hope youre alright now and live peacefully too all
I understand that feeling I have been there so many times
"I wish I had some kind of proof that everything I feel isn't just some sad excuse" - That line hits so hard. I've been told so many times that my pain is just an excuse for being lazy. That I'm just whining when things don't go my way. That I never really mean it when I say I need help. The entire song resonates perfectly with everything I feel on a daily basis. I've always found music can express emotions so much better than regular words and this is the perfect example of that. People don't understand how hard it is to talk to someone. People think you don't mean it when you can't find the words to explain how you feel. It's honestly sad that a 16 year old has so little faith in people but here I am with a small group of friends who I would trust with my life but no faith in anyone else. I just want to say thank you for perfectly expressing the emotions I can't find the words for. Thank you for showing me that I'm not alone in these feelings and that there are people out there who understand my pain.
Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... thank you for being here
The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫
This song perfectly represents why I don't share what's inside me, but at the same time the longing to someone to see that I'm not okay.
I've felt this for so long. I struggled everyday with these feelings. But I finally conquered my demons. Pretty much anyway. So love and hugs to who ever feels this.
We hear you Shelly 🖤
Send you a Hug back...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ
I know I'm just a kid...only 15 years of age..but I have a story to tell
Look at the sky, see those stars?.. they represent us humans, they shine so bright they don't care about what other stars say nor how brighter other stars are shining, they stay brightest to thier fullest potential, much like them we can shine as bright as then but we let society hold use down. Be like the stars and shine as bright as your can, till you very last moment
Never be afraid of failure..be afraid of not learning
"From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart"
-citizen soldier
Appreciate you Kaisser 🖤 Stay strong friend
This is very inspirational
Age is irrelevant!!
My thoughts for you are make your thoughts known. Also live for yourself.
Age has no bearing on the suffering of the soul, my friend. Just take a deep breath or two and stay in the present. I am still here, I do not understand why or how, but I am. The Japanese I think it is, have a saying, get knocked down 7 times, stand up 8. In life one thing is for certain, you are going to get knocked down, we all do, it is the hard knocks school of life. But each time to stand up one more time, you grow stronger. Just remember, no matter how dark the storm may be, This too shall pass. I am rooting for you, I know you can find a way. Life still has a lot to offer.
You wanna talk ? I'll post my snap of insta
The more often I listen to it the more I notice how it fits in so many ways. I think the line "I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface and kind of proof that everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse"
I often feel like I don’t really have a reason to feel like this. My family is nice and I know that they would miss me. I currently have a best friend that is very important to me and she is great. I never really was abused or bullied. I shouldn’t feel the way I do. It’s mostly just my head and (unintentionally maybe) self destructive behavior that fuels these feelings.
The fact that I had multiple best friends but they never stayed past three years and that my current best friend has been my best friend for two and a half years doesn’t help. (It feels like that part of my thoughts is at least the only justified part of all this due to my past experiences)
I also sometimes feel like we might not be that good for each other because I constantly (partially unintentionally) try to distance myself and am not good at keeping contact (like on WhatsApp) while she has past bad experiences with friends ghosting her (something I kinda unintentionally do) which in return makes me feel worse. And there is a lot more of weird stuff in our friendship that I kinda enjoy but it also makes me occasionally feel even worse because I don’t know what to do and what she expects
I already rambled too much about this stuff that doesn’t even interest anyone anyway. At first I even wrote more but I don’t think I should write all my trauma and all my current thoughts and problems in here
Anyway still love the CS songs because they just so often hit the spot
Same here. I shouldn't by all accounts feel the way I do but there it is. And some days, it's an uphill battle to get through it.
Same here, this is how I feel.
when you said the line, that lyric just came up
I'm not a professional, but from what I've understood, there are two main types of depression.
- The "obvious" type caused by specific events, usually temporary. i.e death of a loved one
- The long lasting, returning ones with "no reason" (There is a reason, of course, but not like something you can point your finger at and say "fix that" or "just wait it out and it will go away". So don't beat yourself up over "not having a reason".
* long distance hug *
like you wrote about me...
I dunno if this will help anyone, but I'm 31 now and I've dealt with a lot of betrayals from friends and family, realized in my time of crisis that I couldn't count on anyone but me.
A long time I wanted peoples support and never got more than a few breadcrumbs to string me along, to convince myself that they cared about me.
What I've learned is that its ok, to not be ok, to sit with your grief and really feel it until you understand where it comes from and how it affects you. I learned that the pain comes from wanting connection and never receiving it, despite your efforts of reaching out or taking the initiative of your relationships. It happens and it hurts a lot.
No matter the kind of loss you've taken, remember to love yourself above all, that things happen to you but they don't define who you are. That everything is temporary in life, so too is the pain and loss.
Stay strong and we'll make it through this storm together
Ok can we just appreciate the emotion that is heard in his voice? Especially towards the end I could hear and believe everything you were saying and this song is just another one of your amazing songs. All of your songs are so unique and hit close to home for me and I just appreciate that there’s a band out there who knows how to speak to those who struggle with not being ok. Thank you
Really appreciate that! Thanks for listening 🖤
It's that deep when the words in this song can understand you more than anyone else can. I think I have this song on replay 1000x a day.
" if I finally break will you still stay?" That's what makes the difference in so many life's. Those simple words hits so much. I wish ya all find someone whom won't ever leave your side and most of all I wish ya all find someone who trully can understand and love you all for who you are. Stay strong everyone.
Thanks for sharing that! 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier thank you for the song!
I've never cried so much hearing someone how I feel. Thank you
"I'm either judged or have to hide " that hits hard
It really does. Kind of what I go through on almost a daily basis
@Emily C you will overcome your pain. I promise you! God will help you if you let him
@@pinkie123ist Yaa I feel you, you are not alone .
Yea it hits hard. It describes me.
Citizen Soldier are the only people who i don't skip the adds on.
Thanks Andrew! 🖤
This hits me hard cause i know how it feels to say "I'm not okay" it's the cycle of judgement or embarrassment or they don't want people to get involved and i feel like this song portrays that very well. Between hiding behind a mask and hiding who you really are to people. That leads to bottling it it up to the point of breaking down and wanting someone who will understand what they are going through and support them. Citizen Soldier this song is a powerful message to people.
Thanks for listening! 🖤 We hear you
@@CitizenSoldier brilliant
I heard this song for the first time today, and its exactly how I feel most of the time.
Thank you to the Citizen Soldier group for putting words on an atrocious suffering.
You manage to name it and express it accurately...
Remember that you are not alone.
If Citizen Soldier managed to express this pain, it is because they felt it one day...
The lead singer actually tried to commit suicide. He failed. But that prompted him to make this band and spread awareness and give voices to the voiceless. So I think he is amazing for it. For surviving and realizing and helping others with their pain.
@@towertimesgaming4319 I totally agree with you. It’s a sign (as for the reference to his song "This is your sign"). He lived because he had things to do here, and people to save and make happy.
Everyone deserves to be happy.
Take care of yourself, people
@@towertimesgaming4319 I didn’t know that, just means it’s one more person who gets me. I want to see their band in person some day
As I have been diagnosed as Bipolar, boy does this song ever hit home! I am crying inside for help while my mouth spews mean and hurtful things at the ones I love!!!! This is a living hell!!!! Thank you for a song that helps to explain this mess
My brother is Bipolar. I don't wish it on anyone. I hope that you're getting the help you need. Please don't give up if the medication(s) you're given don't work the way they should. If they make you feel drugged & unable to focus, tell them they need to try something different. I watched my brother struggle for so many years. He hated how the meds made him feel, so he'd stop. Unmedicated, he could be so scary and angry. It's difficult to look beyond that to the person inside that you know & love, but we did it. Those hurtful things you spew are not you. Don't give up. Keep trying. It took several tries for them to find the right meds that worked well for my brother. Bipolar, like many things, isn't a "one size fits all" type of illness. There is a brighter side, and I hope with all my heart that you're able to get there soon.
“I have so much to say, and no one to hear it” I felt that one in my soul guys
🖤🙏🏻
Same
I have drawn so much strength from your songs you cannot imagine.
Thank you for making this kind of music, You have made me feel like there is a brighter side to life.
The fact that every verse of this song makes it so powerful, so relatable, so quotable. It changed my life hearing this song for the first time. I literally burst into tears in my car. But my real question is: when does it end? when can I finally not feel this wah?
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
Its hard and it will be hard a longer time... But even when there is a storm now at the end there will be light and sometimes we must stay strong to see it...❤️
This song hits me deeply... Telling people "I'm ok" or "I'm good" if they ask how I'm doing, has been a habit of mine for as long as I can remember.
We hear you 🖤
This song makes me want to cry. All of your guys' songs perfectly describe everything in my head. Everything that I never have been able to put into words. Thank you for your incredible work.
thank you for listening 🖤
Wow , great message.I am a 67 year old with Bi polar who is also in the Pain Clinic.Your music speaks to me in a powerful way.
Songs like this make me feel not so alone. Thank you for putting yourself out there and sharing it with us
I relate to this one song more than any song out there. Even now I tear up just speaking out. All my life I've been alone, judged, abused in every way possible, and noone could ever tell you enough to get help because it's the same repeat story. It's sad how cruel this world can be, but I can see small rays of hope. I really am glad that your here citizen soldier, you have probably helped more souls than imagined. Thank you for all your songs, I can relate to every single one of them. Stay strong and stand tall.
Appreciate you Alicia 🖤
Was looking for "I'm not okay" by My Chemical Romance. Came across this instead... lets just say I'm not disappointed
Glad to hear that 🖤
Same here and im so glad i found them. I wish everyday i didnt relate to this song as much as i do.
@@CitizenSoldier I've heard of you but never listened. So glad I took the time to hear your words. Keep it up you will help more people than you know.
Same
brought me tears. love the honesty,
its not easy explaining that you understand that this is life is difficult but some of us are really struggling to move forward.
“Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud” hits me like nothing before
Thanks for listening Lindsey 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier always
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
I get it 100%
To everyone that puts the sweet comments trying to help, thank you. When i feel down and listen to things like this, i always go to the comments and read your comments and tbh they always make me feel better. Again, thanks!
Thank you for this text... I Send you a Hug too... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫
Our monsters are made from our fears, anger and pain. It makes sense that they are the most emphatetic creatures.
*They are scared too*
Thank you so much for another incredible song 🖤
Thank you so much for listening 🖤
this is in my daily playlist. struggling with a lot of trauma's that I finally get help with after 18+ years.
listening to you, makes me feel at least a little of feelings.
Thank you man, you're helping me see a little light at the ned of the tunnel
this song made me realize im not alone and i couldn’t be more grateful.
Me to thanks for being alive
"I wish I had a scar, had a bruise, on the surface any kind of proof that everything that I feel is more than some sad excuse"
I'm littered with scars so why does it still not feel like its enough. No matter how bad it gets why does it still feel like I could be lying to everyone, maybe I'm playing it up and it's not that bad. What if I'm fakeing and don't realise. I'm not. My diagnosis and hours of therapy prove that so why does it still feel like I'm fooling myself.
Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...
No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...
You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫
Me too. I have so many outside scars, from a head on collusion driving accident which killed my mother. I have multiple scars from that night, from top to bottom!! Bit they are nothing compares to the scars I have inside myself!! I've been told I have survivors guilt and PTSD!! Also been told to embrace my scars as they show I went thru something and survived, but when I see them, I only see that she didnt!!
Its all part of it. Part of the illness is your mind making you feel not strong enough. YOU ARE. DON'T LISTEN TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND!
It's your mind's way of trying to rationalize the way you feel because it doesn't understand what you've been diagnosed with. The human mind when faced with something it doesn't understand often tries to convince itself that it isn't real and it's all in your imagination because being that messed up inside is something the mind can't handle. It's hard to feel as if you're only making it up and fooling yourself and everyone around and the self doubt it creates is so tiring because you can never seem to just accept what you're being told and what you know is actually wrong, believe me I know. but you just have to push away your doubt and keep focusing on getting better. It's a long road ahead of you but hopefully one day you'll reach your destination.
Your comment just understood me more than anyone has ever did in my life
this song speaks exactly how my life is. At one point i felt so alone and in the dark but ever since i came across this song, i have gotten through hard times