My OCD Made Me Think I Was Gay

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  • @BrookieCookieBrobro
    @BrookieCookieBrobro 2 місяці тому +39

    For me it’s the opposite. I know I’m bisexual but my brain tries to convince me I’m straight.

    • @dancerchronicles
      @dancerchronicles 2 місяці тому +2

      I've had that happen too I don't know if I have OCD but every so often I get worries like "omg what if I'm straight and faking?" or "what if I'm just gay and faking?"

    • @MicWithTics
      @MicWithTics 2 місяці тому +2

      ⁠​⁠@@dancerchronicles it could be OCD, or it could just be a mini identity crisis lol. If you’re worried about it, talk to your doctor! I don’t have OCD but I get thoughts like this all the time. I’ve realized it’s more related to my fears about not having a strong sense of self identity than it is an intrusive thought.
      Also just thought I’d add: you are valid. Even if you find out later that you are actually a different identity, that doesn’t change what your identity is NOW. If you fit the criteria for a certain identity, then that is what you are. If later in life you find that you are actually something else, that doesn’t mean you weren’t the first thing, it just means you were the first thing but you aren’t anymore. It doesn’t mean you were never that thing.

    • @dancerchronicles
      @dancerchronicles 2 місяці тому +2

      @@MicWithTics it definitely could be, I do have intrusive thoughts so it's kinda hard to tell sometimes lol, and thank you my identity has changed a lot over the years but I am pretty sure that I'm bi just every so often I get those worries.

    • @the_ghost8799
      @the_ghost8799 2 місяці тому

      So you're straight but want to be BI for social points 😂

    • @MisterChief711
      @MisterChief711 Місяць тому

      i wouldn't default to ocd. there's many potential reasons​@@dancerchronicles

  • @beckheorshepls5397
    @beckheorshepls5397 2 місяці тому +22

    I'm bisexual and I'm not at all offended, I completely understand. I've heard of SO-OCD before but I wasn't sure how it can play out in someone's brain or thought process. I'm very happy to hear an expierence about it. I've also heard of people having OCD over gender identity with either having intrusive thoughts about being trans or intrusive thoughts that transitioning is a mistake. I would LOVE to hear more of your expierences withOCD!!

  • @speckledoesart4993
    @speckledoesart4993 2 місяці тому +27

    As a pansexual, this is nowhere near offensive! This video was extremely comforting for me because I suffer from really bad OCD. Listening to you describe your intrusive thoughts, I couldn’t relate more, and I’m so proud of you for staying strong and overcoming it! This is really inspiring. Thank you. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @Princessalexa2006
      @Princessalexa2006 2 місяці тому +1

      Agreed! I am also pan and I was not offended in anyway. I actually found this video very information and the way she explained and breaks down things makes it very easy to comprehend even if u don't have OCD.

  • @finkleycarrot
    @finkleycarrot 2 місяці тому +6

    lesbian here. this makes sense. your brain said "gay = bad" and your ocd said "..so something is.. bad? i'm on it." i have suffered from almost every variation of OCD out there throughout my life. OCD is a beast that loves to adapt with your attempts at shaking it. i'm sure i'd have suffered from SOOCD(or maybe i even did) but i am actually gay, so my panic in realizing that might have overshadowed any SOOCD i may have exhibited. I was not raised religious, but like your "i was taught gay = bad" explanation. thank you for your honesty in these videos

  • @P3rrineLover
    @P3rrineLover 2 місяці тому +7

    For me it was completely the opposite. I very early realized I’m a lesbian and like girls, but a few years later I had episodes of OCD and it tried to convince me I was actually straight and didn’t love my girlfriend. Unfortunately it interfered so much, we had to take a break :( but we’re okay now.

  • @CheddarCheese.
    @CheddarCheese. 2 місяці тому +15

    My OCD gives me a lot of anxiety about my trans identity. I keep being afraid that transitioning is gonna be the wrong choice for me, or that i’m not really trans even though i have no evidence for either of those claims,

    • @MicWithTics
      @MicWithTics 2 місяці тому +3

      I have the same thoughts and I don’t have OCD (at least not diagnosed. I could have a milder case though). I’m gender-fluid and I never feel like I can wear masculine clothes to fancy events like weddings and school dances. I always feel like I have to wear a dress because “what if when I’m older I realize I’m actually a girl and then I’ll be sad that I didn’t wear dresses and makeup?” It’s so dumb because even if I do end up just being a cis woman, it doesn’t change how I feel NOW. It’s okay to want to be sure before you do something, but it’s also okay to try to make your current self happy. We should be trying to balance the two.

  • @Tree-House69
    @Tree-House69 2 місяці тому +7

    Nothing offensive about this at all, while not tied into religion and the paranoia that comes with it at times, I dealt with a flipped version of that due to comphet and its impact on my obsessive compulsive thoughts

  • @MonkeyyMischief
    @MonkeyyMischief 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for sharing your story. I also have OCD and the way you explain it is so accurate. I'm glad you have the awareness now. Good luck to you!!

  • @I_love_Cookies1744
    @I_love_Cookies1744 2 місяці тому +2

    I’m aroace and I’m not offended! I would love to know more about your experiences with ocd!

  • @I_belle23
    @I_belle23 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for sharing! I have OCD and I was going through the same thing

  • @Princessalexa2006
    @Princessalexa2006 2 місяці тому

    Pansexual female here! Not offended at all and u definitley did the video justice. I have nothing but respect for you! I dont have tourettes or ocd but i do have borderline personality disorder and bipoloar / manic depressive disorder. And as someone that also deals with many mental health issues i just want to say i love your content love ur courage! And ur an inspiration 🩷

  • @whysothirstyy
    @whysothirstyy 2 місяці тому

    ok the nails matching your eyeshadow is so fucking slay

  • @THE-MUFFIN-MAN-v9s
    @THE-MUFFIN-MAN-v9s 2 місяці тому

    I have ocd, but it wasn’t until I saw a ocd and anxiety specialist that I realised my eating disorder was do to my ocd, I had horrible thoughts about ppl I love dying and stuff I would not eat or control my food intake to stop the thoughts ! OCD can look really different for different ppl, it wasn’t until I realised it was ocd that I got better from the ED. I still have ocd but at a more controllable level and not involving food anymore.

  • @lornatw
    @lornatw 2 місяці тому

    Thanks for sharing, first time I've heard someone speak about this specific thought. I've also recently learnt about TOCD (tourettic ocd) which is the combination of physical tics and ocd combination, a little bit different to full Tourette syndrome which it is also possible to have TS and OcD or the TOCD combination which is apparently commonly matched with Audhd people.

  • @kayleigh1991
    @kayleigh1991 2 місяці тому +6

    No this isn’t offensive lol I can see why OCD could manifest something like this

  • @Ur_local_shawol
    @Ur_local_shawol 2 місяці тому

    Ok kind of off topic BUT i once read a book by oliver sacks. He talks about several interesting cases having to do with various mental states/illnesses/etc. One chapter was a narrative about a surgeon who had tourettes his entire life yet NEVER ticced during operations. This story was really inspiring to me, although i have adhd and not tourettes.😊
    I love your channel, you are very informative. You're a beutiful young woman and i really admire you! Have an awesome day!❤❤❤❤

  • @Funtime_Eleni_118
    @Funtime_Eleni_118 2 місяці тому

    I knew for a fact that I was bisexual for a long time, but the other part of me regarding my preferred pronouns made it a lot harder for me to come out and accept myself for who I truly am. I didn't come out to anyone until my junior year of high school. If it wasn't for the support that I had from my friends and family, I don't know where I would be. I'm very grateful for that. ❤

  • @EsaLena1
    @EsaLena1 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for including the A. Almost nobody knows that we asexuals exist nor do they understand what asexuality is.

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    @TheShamusOfSlots Місяць тому

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  • @kiwi43373
    @kiwi43373 2 місяці тому +2

    I’m lesbian and I’m not offended at all don’t worry your good 👍 😊 I do feel bad for you though

  • @PuppyPawsGamingYT
    @PuppyPawsGamingYT 2 місяці тому +1

    i grew up catholic with my italian grandmother, she had a huge jesus painting above her bed and anything i did was 'against god' its really scary to always question everything you do as something bad.

  • @StrawberryMoonlights
    @StrawberryMoonlights Місяць тому

    Oh my god 4:00 made me realize age 5- 11ish I was always doing these little prayers in my head that I referred to in my brain as wishing that bad things don’t happen to me only good things.
    I have never been religious, even as a kid I knew my belief was agnostic, even when I didn’t know the word. The deity I would wish to was constantly changing, if something bad happened I would think of it as a betrayal or I’d forget who I am wishing too.
    I don’t remember all, so off the top of my head: god, buddha, Greek gods, fairies, mermaids, genies, leprechauns, Mother Nature, the universe, the galaxy, the void, later on I would wish to all combined entities that control my luck and then just stopped doing it. Also if talked to anyone about this I lose luck and bad things will happen so I always kept it a secret.

  • @Sofia79899
    @Sofia79899 2 місяці тому

    I have bad ocd and I gave really bad random thoughts that I’m bi or gay and it creeps me out and I get kinda uncomfortable but I have a urge to need to hint about it enough to make sure it’s a thought. It can be really scary at times

  • @naomiparsons462
    @naomiparsons462 2 місяці тому

    Hi, I know you aren't autistic, but would you consider doing a video about the similarities/differences between tics in tourette's syndrome and ASD if you know much about this topic? I don't see anyone talk about this and it would be really useful for me and many others I'm sure.

  • @chase-yf2uq
    @chase-yf2uq 2 місяці тому +2

    yay Carley has uploaded i am so happy , thanks for helping me understand my turettes . keep up the awsome work. sorrey about the bad spelling.

  • @Moonsdino
    @Moonsdino 2 місяці тому

    I have that sometimes but the opposite way round "what if I'm not actually AroAce?", "maybe it's just trauma", "what if I'm not AroAce and non binary because I'm neurodivergent?" It annoys me.

    • @naomiparsons462
      @naomiparsons462 2 місяці тому

      The irony is that neurodivergents are more likely to be LGBT. ❤

  • @rainygreene9161
    @rainygreene9161 2 місяці тому

    What happened to your merch page. I have tried to go to it a few times but I am unable to.

  • @whysothirstyy
    @whysothirstyy 2 місяці тому

    hi im gay and on behalf of all gays i want to say that this video isn't offensive in any way

  • @RainDoesArt1116
    @RainDoesArt1116 2 місяці тому

    Wow ! ❤ (Yay new video :)) )

    • @AWholeBeew
      @AWholeBeew 2 місяці тому

      Lesbian with a wife here. You're always so sweet and conscientious about not hurting other people, which is really admirable and rare on an online platform. No offense here whatsoever; you couldn't control your intrusive thoughts any more than either of us can control our sexuality. I'm only offended by the disorder-fakers on TikTok who put on their embarrassing clown shows with LGBT paraphernalia on display in the background (and there are *way* more of those than I care to see). They make us look narcissistic and crazy, and I can't even trust that they're actually part of the community and not just claiming to be to tick another square off their oppressed-minority Bingo card.

  • @natalievie9120
    @natalievie9120 2 місяці тому

    Hello, do you remember me? ( Alepeño, I go by Adrienne now though ), it’s been too long p.s this is my friend’s account

  • @SerenityWillett-r2f
    @SerenityWillett-r2f 2 місяці тому

    I kinda have OCD Also So You Are not alone and I am bisexual or virtual bi idk

  • @YargGlug
    @YargGlug Місяць тому

    I fart every time I watch your videos

  • @SerenityWillett-r2f
    @SerenityWillett-r2f 2 місяці тому

    Not offensive at all

  • @bartekgarbaczewski420
    @bartekgarbaczewski420 2 місяці тому

    What you are talking about is not Catholicism. Catholicism does not say that you go to hell for your orientation. Someone did you a terrible wrong with such talk... and pushed you towards being an ally of the multi-letter movement, which is a very bad choice in every way.