If some people knew what OCD was, they would be shocked how they used the term so loosely. Its not just being a clean freak . They should really do their homework. I am so thankful for the people that told their story in this. Ethan, you are an inspiration and so is everyone else in this podcast. For sure, you are really helping people who can relate.
Lois Laudin true. Literally it's such a fancy term for them to throw without even knowing what people actually go through with actual ocd. Specially for celebrities , like all of them have ocd and they openly say and feel good about it. These people don't understand the basic difference between perfectionism and ocd
Religious OCD is pretty nasty as well. I don't care about hygiene that much but I am a religious maniac Constant fear of hell. It's horrible. I think exposure and response prevention is the only way out but its very hard.
@Leila Radcliffe You can beat it I'm trying something everytime I get a bad thought I refuse to look it up ( reassurance) an I make faces an.make goofy sounds. Dose it help? It has gotten better but thoughts still come but I catch myself before I react with fear so it won't become ocd. I have MCDD disorder so I also get obsessed with things I like so when ocd comes around ( ocd is one of the symptoms of MCDD disorder) I constrate on the good obsessions like Superman. I try to learn a language I try to do something other then looking for reassurance. An trust me it will hurt you won't feel good you'll have anxiety up the roof but when your having it keep telling yourself (The more anxious I get means I'm doing it right) absolutely refuse to Google. Go about your life don't fear anything related to your ocd. If satanic stuff is the topic of your ocd, call the devil a wanker. Say (Hey you pointy eared bastard yaaa a wanker !!! Nananana your a wanker !! ) It's silly ik but it might work. Your ocd will then tell you The devil is angry an he will destroy your life an loved once. Say (The devil can sit on a cactus)
My OCD used to be so painful that I thought I would not bear the following minutes. I used to lie in my bed writhing in strong anxiety and dispair. But I'll tell you this: Each pain will not stay forever. Sooner or later it will stop. The more you suffer the more you are going to enjoy your life when the pain is over. I cannot say that all my obssesive thoughts are over but I can live a normal life. I believe each suffering has a purpose, a reason, even though hidden in most cases. Think of the Book of Job. My thoughts are with all of you suffering from OCD. I know how painful this could be. Stay strong.
The Most High God bless you very much with good days an blessings. I think I have ocd probably had it for awhile. I know I'll be okay though The Lord is with us all who look to him an hope n trust in Him.
@@Chunter060 I was just thinking, OCD is bondage and that is straight from the demons of the pit of hell. If a Christian, and having a personal relationship with Christ, ask aloud the Holy Spirit who indwells, to remove the shackles and chains of this binding. Jesus saves, in more ways than one.
As a grown ass man .. i am literally crying through out this documentary. As a well educated, extroverted person with a great social life, friends, girlfriends etc.. this thing literally shook my world upside down. I manage somehow to get to work and do my job but other than that it is soo so exosting to do anything else bcs of all the energy it goes during the compulsions..the depression that hits afterwords, the ongoing conflict between the sane and the insane mind.. trust me people, trust me... OCD is not a joke.
Yeah it is really not a joke one's only understand this when they suffer it really destroyed my whole life from on the top of mountain to deep inside the ocean . I cried 😭😢 and cried I screamed but nothing.............. Chaos😣😣😣😣😒😣😣😒😒😒😒😒😒
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You just said what I was going to say. I knew I had "OCD", but I had no idea that I have it so severely and debilitating. Thank you for your comment. That helps me feel not alone at all!!!
I had the perfect life up until the age of 23 when I experienced a catastrophic end to a relationship coupled with a co-worker touching me inappropriately at work that triggered SOCD and subsequently harm, relationship, suicidal and many other ocd themes. Life has been difficult but I have a beautiful family helping me through this hell!
I still remember the days before my illness..I felt pure , perspicuous and relaxed...Now I feel like I have a kinda virus in my head that cannot be removed...I wish I could go back to those days n ill truly take advantage of every little pure moment..Maybe someday we could all be normal again my fellows..Who knows,,Just keep going through your life n be sure that U R NOT ALONE...
I truly understand you... I feel like I didn't had a clue what a good and sufficient person I already was before and what chances I still had - despite of other mental struggles... But ocd is the one that completely ruined my life and my relationships
I know how tough it is. But it is definitely possible to leave this in the past. It is not a virus that you are stuck with, there's actually nothing wrong with your brain. It is just the programming that is bad and it needs some rewiring:). it is hard i know, i've been through hell with it, but it's possible to leave it all behind. If you need help or assistance with OCD/mental health I can show you what I've learned in my journey. Email me: abraham.valera001@gmail.com
I feel this, been there. I'm still OCD of course. And it's painful, a total mess. I was very ashamed of This virus it felt like a glitch. But I have learned to manage it with time. It's so hard to let go of this pureness, because you are sacred it will never return. I still hold dearly my past memories, just accept this part of yourself, let it stay. Take your time, it's a journey of healing. 🌞
Yeah man i have been suprised about how unprofessional most therapists are about OCD they really dont know shit about this condition or most of them think that OCD is only physical compultions!
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I can’t stop crying 😢 how beautiful they all are. I can relate to them all. Started when I was 13, body dysmorphia, OCD about my mom dying, the thoughts in school, the constant fixing. I love you guys... so sorry 😞
🇿🇦 South Africa Jesus Christ help us all I also relate I'm Daniel Kgaje from South Africa... Always I want to protect my family from hurting them self Actually I I'm more protective Firstly I thought I was witched by one of family member,but now it makes sense that is OCD We are not alone guy's......*ERP*
bad move. Never reply to thoughts, never think of how irrational they are, it justs makes it worse. I'm currently fighting my own battle and hopefully winning
@@right..5651right here with you. Just turned 30. Things were bearable… but not anymore. Caving and going against my values and getting on meds. Can’t take this ruminating anymore. 24/7.
@@buknaked I feel you brother, it is such a difficult mental illness to live with. It robbes one of everything you ever built in life until it ultimately comes after life itself. But I have faith still that everything will turn out alright 🙏 Hope the medication eill be of help to you. Most important is Stay faithful, Stay on it and on top of it, when the time is right, we will find rest ❤️✝️🙏
@@buknaked "Pure-O" OCD type stuff, where most things including compulsion happens in the head is a terrible for of OCD. Not taking away anything that's difficult living with any other type of OCD but it's just different the way it really goes after Your person. I feel you brother. Not easy I know but always remember that it is not you in the slightest way possible. Its the complete opposite of who you are and The more you fight it the more it will feel like it is, you'll end up geting closer and closer everytimr you try to get rid of it until eventually it will have forced you into a corner where you almost hdve tp "Accept" you have become one with this monster that lives in the head. Next to impossible to seperate yourself from thr thoughts. Your need to find a new way to relate to the thoughts and feelings and start filling Your life with the things you actually value in life. Don't avoid it, surpress it, don't fight it. All of us fail all thr times.. but eventually it becomes easier and the tension will decrease.
@@buknaked when you're not in a state of fight or flight all the time, soon as you notice a trigger, let whatever happens happen. While trying to seperate yourself from the intrusive thought, feelings, impulses or whatever shows up, do your best to let them pass naturally without engaging in the what so ever. If you feel thr urge to say do anything just say something like "now that is happening" or "that's the ocd". If you manage to just get through two of these attacks you will notice how much easier things will be. The hardest part is to not going back in... sorry my English is not thr best and quite frankly I can't thinks straight trying to deal with ocd while typing but I thought I'd try, good luck bro
I remember when I was extremely OCD in childhood. My life was so dark and painful, makes me very sad to hear others had experience this too. I want to let everyone know who are suffering that they will overcome this even if it seems impossible. I have overcome my OCD with self-control and self-discipline. Remember to keep resisting the temptations no matter how hard it is, then you will see the glimmer of hope in the dark tunnel.
i dont think ocd is because of lack of control or self discipline..its genetic and pathophysiological in nature..abnormalities in the brain. you just stigmatize the ocd with being lacking of control and self discipline. it wont help those who suffer from it and those around could misunderstood the condition.
@@iliyasrazali83they arent stigmatising the disorder just promoting the idea that you can manage it and there is hope for those suffering from this disorder which is true because i also had very very bad ocd all my life but understanding about it and doing erp helped massively and brought light to my world
You can tell the interviewer is very compassionate and skillful. We barely hear her talk at all, which shows that she lets the interviewee do the talking. And they all seem to be comfortable sharing very personal, painful stories with her. That is definitely not a given. I greatly appreciate her work and all of the interviewees for having the courage to share. Thank you all for making this video.
OCD is really a terrible illness and many people think it’s just about being very tidy and things being in order but as these wonderful people have explained it is truly a living nightmare.
I was recently diagnosed with OCD at the age of 33. I’ve had OCD since I can remember, the first compulsions I recall is from the age of 4-5. I never knew it was OCD but when I was diagnosed everything made sense. All my anxiety, intrusive thoughts, panic attacks and depression is connected to this. I’m grateful for my diagnosis, my psychiatrist and my psychologist, I’m hoping therapy and all the work I’m doing will help me live a normal life with my family.
I believed I have developed OCD,I been non-stop overthinking about Everything since October 2020.It has destroyed my life and my happiness is dead.Suicidal Thoughts,Overthinking,Guilt,Extreme Worry about Diseases,Horrible Thoughts and images that I do not like resulted in a Very poor Mental State.Stay Strong Everybody
"Because someone's going to watch this, and they're going to see you, and hear you, and they're gonna feel like they are less alone". 35:55. Here I am, diagnosed with OCD, watching her, seeing her, and feeling a little less crazy thanks to these people. To everyone that talked about their story here, thank you. I'm so proud of you for how far you've come and the incredible progress you've made. Stay strong, sending love ❤❤
I struggled with severe obsessive compulsive disorder 2016 to June 2021. I have some OCD problems now. But I improved greatly and I am much happier. I am living a much better life now. OCD is a very complex and difficult problem. One of my solutions to healing from severe OCD was to force myself to live for my happiness and peace of mind. Fear is about what if something terrible happens in the future. But the future doesn't exist right now in the present. When you're afraid, worried, and doubting, you have to resist the impulse to do compulsions/rituals, and keep going with your life. Don't do compulsions or rituals or magical thinking. It's all your imagination it's not reality. Stop living in your mind. Live in reality. Let it go. Do something important or meaningful with your time everyday. Your life has value. Follow your dreams and happiness. You are not alone and you can defeat mental illness. I hope this helps. Stay strong and keep living for your happiness and peace of mind.
I relate to all of you in the documentary and in the comments. Diagnosed with Severe OCD pure O at age 27. It started when I was 6. I kept it all for myself for over 20 years. I am now 31 and living a very successful life in Australia. I'm healthy, in a relationship, practicing mindfulness and freediving, I have full time job with strong career perspective. Escitalopram 10mg a day + therapy helped me wonderfully. All of you deserve self compassion and peace. I love you.
I didn't know what was wrong with me for about 4 years. I constantly told myself I'm a monster bc of the thoughs I had. The constant rituals I had to do otherwise I was convinced something bad would happen to me or my family. I wasn't able to eat with my hands even after cleaning them. I found out about OCD a week ago. You can't imagine how relieved I was when I found out this could be treated. Me and my mom are now looking for a therapist that could help me. It was rlly complicated to tell her about this and I even cried. But I got it off my chest and I feel much better now. Thank you sooo much for this video.
Wow... the guy in the blue collared shirt has come so far!👏 He definitely went through an awakening of some sort.. how beautiful. I really enjoyed hearing his way of explaining and understanding OCD after he had his epiphany and how he can have gratitude for it all because without those experiences he wouldn’t be where he is today. I’m so proud of him!👏
I am suffering from OCD since I was around 14. I am now 29 and I am still going through hard times. When I have an urge to do a compulsion I remind myself the quote of Albert Einstein: "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that it is insane to do compulsions, I am still struggling with that and I know how hard it is. All I say is that in order to heal and get better we must do something differently. I love you guys!
Just started my own channel and its taken a lot of guts as I have suffered all my life with OCD but your site is amazing and really encourages me and others to challenge OCD. thank you so much for spending the time to help people like me.
I'm watching, and I'm seeing and hearing these individuals. It's so comforting to hear people describe the things that I think and feel. People really don't understand what OCD is. It's so loosely thrown around in society that it's lost it seriousness. I was only diagnosed last year, and I'm 33. I've been living in hell before now since I was 19. Please seek psychiatric help if you haven't already. Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't mean you're crazy.. like I once thought.
This is so relatable I’m sure for so many other “real” OCD sufferers. It’s something that’s so hard to explain to people who don’t have it but it’s literally such a headfu*k everyday
When a gentleman defined it as "an hour or more a day" I chocked on my own spit... it's way more than an hour a day for me most days... if not all days.... God help me..
Agree, the definitions are too broad. This is why some people self-diagnose as OCD when they are probably perfectly healthy. Like sadness, it's a normal part of the human psyche. Being sad every now and then DOESN'T mean you have clinical depression. Sometimes people get paranoid, this DOSNT mean they are psychotic. I'm so sick of people saying the are "a bit OCD" just because they have some preoccupations with organisation or cleanliness... The definition should be somewhere from 4-5 hours +.
can’t thank you guys enough for bringing awareness about this. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd when i was young and even with all my parents help bringing me to therapy I was never aware of the condition. And once I moved out from their place 4 years ago i have learned quite a lot while at the same time suffered quite a lot. It was through that I realized I had never been happy and I should have been, but I was also unhappy and turning my obsessions into very unproductive things which made me feel pointless and I had no energy to keep going; I’ve gotten to a dark spot quite several times. I also recently got diagnosed with ADD on top of the OCD, but it was only when i got diagnosed with that that my parents opened up about the condition. I distanced myself so much throughout my whole life because I thought I was a horrible person for the way I acted all throughout the time I was growing up and did not want to cause any more pain. and since then have been trying to research as much as I could and officially going back to therapy this Thursday! But truly, it’s absolutely amazing and relieving to hear from other people that they have experienced the same feelings and thoughts as I have and that we have to embrace and accept this condition instead of ignoring it. Thank you!
I get irritated by people who say they have or all people have a little bit of ocd, you never know a few might but the majority do not and I never understand why they say it. OCD can be absolutely life destroying, and can lead to extremely complex ritual systems deep long lasting anxiety and depression. I started at about 10 years old and my symptoms I would hide, until later when things became so complex it was impossible to hide. I managed over time to compartmentalise some of them, but still suffer from this. Lots of love to all those suffering with this in their lives
This video with all the testimony’s help me understand more about the OCD, and how people have to deal with this Mental disorder I just hope my son wants to get help soon! Thank you for sharing God blessed all this beautiful people 🙏🏼
It's hell on Earth. I have lost all of my friends, my job, even my beloved dog, because I wasn't able to take care of her due to constant rituals... The disease has taken everything that I love. It left me homebound, unemployed and severely depressed.
@@bkirstie I couldn't pinpoint a particular trauma in my life, I've had mental health issues since my early childhood. I developed tics, a forerunner for OCD, at the age of 7 and along came bedwetting and stuttering. Various medications were tried and I've been on antidepressants for 24 years now. Yes. 24 years, basically all of my life. They do nothing for me other than help me to get through the day. Somehow. They did nothing for my OCD either and I cannot and will not tolerate the horrendous side effects of the SSRIs, they turned me into an apathetic, emotionally numb zombie and I basically didn't exist below my waistline. So I quit taking Zoloft and I'm on Trintellix now. I take Desyrel for sleep and Xanax when it gets unbearable. I also tried ERP therapy twice (inpatient setting) with only minor success. It's like having a worm in my head. I question each and every thing that I do and my brain keeps on constantly sending me error messages. I check almost everything I do and touch. Ten, twenty, thirty times in a row. I would stand in front of the gas stove and touch the knobs and I would gaze into them, sometimes for half an hour. It's pure hell.
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I suffered so long without knowing what was going on. Every day from the moment I woke up until I fell asleep was straight darkness, anxiety, fear and hopelessness. I’ve learned ways to better manage now that I’m a bit older, but I feel in so many ways I’ll never get that time back from those darkest days. It’s a constant battle, but manageable. Hang in there
I tap , I shrug my shoulders till thy hurts adding to the pain of a shoulder injury that I already have . I used to jump over the lines on the sidewalk and I couldn’t let go of it . I was super afraid of drinking contaminated water from my cousins drinking from my cup . At 18 I could not sleep because I started looking in the mirror for hours because in my mind there was a chance I did not exist . At 21 I thought I acquired a deadly disease from touching contaminated surfaces . I thought about committing suicide so I didn’t have to die of that disease . During the pandemic I had my last horrible crises . I washed my hands every time I touched something and used bleach in a spray bottle until my hands cracked and bleeding a little bit . I was literally paralyzed in my bed afraid of touching anything and then touching my eyes or my nose or my mouth . I literally screamed in desperation because of my situation . Stress blows my OCD . The other ones are cancer or anything that’s is not there. . At 12 I was afraid of the dark.i have a lot of other thoughts that are very distressing to even talk about it
I loved this and cried all the way through. It has given me some hope. Thank you. I am 52 and was diagnosed with OCD last year. I have had it all my life and it affects all areas of my life. I have not had therapy for OCD yet as in the UK our government does not recommend ERP therapy, but instead instructs clinicians to treat with CBT.
I thought I wasn't going to cry. As someone who's had OCD for a while, I was sure I've been through enough that it wasn't going to affect me. Here I am sobbing like an idiot.
At times it can be something to cry about but never give in. I know it means more suffering but dont. Deprive it by looking for a way that will work for u to fight it!
This is so incredibly helpful. The man I adore has OCD and he has not shared his experience with me beyond his diagnosis. I'm learning from you how tormenting this condition is. I'm grateful for this information.
Is this real???? I just didn't think I'd ever see something like this. I've searched so long for a video that explains OCD so insightfully in so many of its forms. This video has saved me, made me feel I'm not alone, I have the ability to give this video to the people who I care about. And give them insite to my diagnosis. Thank you so much 😭 I've worked very hard to be a good person in my community, to my friends, and my family. But the jokes and stigma is very prevalent, and it is difficult for me to feel supported. Seeing this has definitely changed that. Thank you, all of you, who took the time to interview and be interviewed. Your perspectives have changed my life.
My OCD is that my brain forces me to do things I won't normally do. And it makes me so suffering. It's like my brain's killing me with those meaningless thoughts. I know it's bad but I can't fight back. I am mentally so exhausted.
You are not alone, I totally understand what you are going through. It's hell on Earth. The disease has taken everything that I love. It left me homebound, unemployed, severely depressed. I even lost my beloved dog, because I wasn't able to take care of her due to constant rituals... I lost all of my friends.
Thanks to every One of you who shared your feelings, experiences, thoughts and heartfelt stories. Those help me understand more about OCD. I am praying for all of you, who are suffering from OCD, that God will walks with you side by side. 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️
What an incredible video. The interviewer was poised, respectful and so very right, I recently relapsed and this video helped to remind me that I am not crazy, I’m not my OCD. We are not alone, and these messages brought me immense hope to know that I can get the help I need. Thank you to everyone who shared their story!
wow when they said the only way you can get over ocd is to be okay with uncertainty and sitting in the uncomfortable thoughts…it’s so terrifying like i need to get better everything is so painful
This video has made me cry and stirred up so many feelings. I have suffered with OCD since I was about 11 years old. I was properly diagnosed about 3 years ago by a very good psychiatrist, but still haven't found a therapist. I Lived for 25 years without a correct diagnosis. I have suffered with so many symptoms, intrusive thoughts, religious OCD, health OCD, simetry and orderliness, obsessive hand washing especially during the Pandemic, so much fear, after giving birth to my kids it got worse, post partum I had horrible intrusive thoughts, I love my children so much and I was afraid of violent thoughts of others or myself hurting them, with newborn babies and children you have such limited time to practice compulsions that I feel this aggravated it and began having suicidal thoughts. I self admitted to a psychiatric facility twice after each of the birth of my kids because of how bad it got. I was misdiagnosed for about 3 years. I still struggle with this every day. It makes it especially hard when you don't have a strong support system and are misunderstood by the people you love most.
Thank you for this video. Means a lot for all that suffer OCD. We should spread more and more information about this disease, in order to people get treatment sooner. ⭐
Agreed. And learn the right way to leave this all behind us. It is difficult but definitely possible. I know what it is like to live with this but it's something we can leave in the past. If you need help or assistance with OCD/mental health I can show you what I've learned in my journey. Email me: abraham.valera001@gmail.com
Wow! It's so true that having OCD is like having a graveyard of all the things you once loved and enjoyed b/c they go bye bye 👋. It is very much a primal, unrelenting monster that destroys you and shreds your humanity. Been there and am currently in a relapse just waiting for medication to kick in and give me some relief from this mental pain I'm in.
Has me crying but feeling so seen and platformed. So good to feel I'm not alone and in fact in some pretty darn good company. I'm so proud and feel so heavily with each of these storytellers and I'm so grateful for their bravery and advocacy
Im 37 years old and have had severe ocd since age 15. I dont know if Im strong enough to fight anymore. Im so tired, angry, afraid and Very sad of how my life is. I feel like sitting on the sidelines watching people live there life, whilst Im just stuck here. Wishing love and recovery for everyone affected by this monster.
Thank you for this informative video. You all are hero. Every OCD sufferer who fights the monster , never gives up is a real hero . He/she is a survivor . Someday the sun will shine ...❤️❤️
The hardest thing for me, is when people associate ocd only with cleaning, perfectionism, and other stuff like this.. It's nothing like that (for me) and alot people... Is more like dark thoughts, anxiety, depression, strange feelings, nostalgic, dramatic.... rituals, etc Very good video, so emotional.. And yes the saddest part. Is when people around you can understand you..
Its so complicated, its mixed with depression, anxiety, obsessive paranoiac and intrusive thoughts. Its been 9 yrs , with medication everyday , I am walking with being the supporting shoulders to carry the burdens and obligations for my family, even far away from home.. !!. So far God has been good and I can feel his grace.But really I wanna get out of this. Its enough struggle 🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing!! I only wish I had seen this video even 8 days ago. My son suffered from obsessive thoughts. He took his life exactly one week ago tonight just to stop the thoughts. We had no idea how to help him. He had tried medications and traditional therapies and that seemed to make it worse and he’d quit going.
Thankyou so much for this video, I have only just started looking into OCD and learning about it and there are so many parts of it I have never told anyone, and this video made me feel so seen and validated and has given me the push I need to seek help.
For me, the compulsions don't have much relief. My obsessions just keep on going but the compulsion is more of a distraction for a moment. I used to believe we all lived this way, with constant obsessing about what could be going wrong, or what was I not paying attention to, until I realized that people just don't obsess. I obsess silently and will sometimes use daydreams to distract me from the obsession (worry). It's a never-ending ride.
I am so glad for the way you put it......it isn’t just (as some on my ocd manifests in excessive cleaning) Yet there is sooo much more to it that leaves me depressed and exhausted.
I still remember the first time I started experiencing OCD, I was ten years old and I started going over to a lady's house on my trailer park, she used to always talk about demons, and god, and how she was psychic. I remember constantly obsessing over whether I was upsetting god, or whether the devil was coming for me, I was constantly worried that demons were gonna comes for me so I'd pray and beg god to make them go away, I was constantly in panic over god and demons. Then it was health anxiety, I constantly had to be consciously breathing, I was constantly worried that my bodily functions would cease if I stopped thinking about them. It's like he said in the video, a small headache was a tumor, a cold was rabies, a fever was cancer. Now the thoughts are just constant, and disturbing, I hate myself for them
My ocd started when I was 11 after my grandma's wake. I woke up feeling this crippling fear of death, I was so scared I threw up and would constantly ask my mom what happened after we die, and ever since I've experienced some form of ocd. Its only till recently ive been able to identify it as ocd, even though ive never been diagnosed. It's so exhausting and scary, I just want to stop being scared and ashamed all the time.
I saw this comment and felt that I had to respond to you - whatever you do with it is up to you, but I have to say it. I really feel for you with your childhood, it's so difficult when you're a child and don't really understand what's happening. But I need to share with you that there is hope! There is hope that there is perfect life after death. It sounds crazy but Jesus sacrificed His life to give you, Zitalee, perfect sinless life after you die. Once and for all you can be content with knowing what happens after death. Jesus - He died, was buried, and rose again, defeating death and He did that for you. He knows everything about you, since He died to take every one of your sins away. Please, Zitalee, if you believe what He did on the cross for you, if you accept Jesus as your Saviour from Hell, then my friend, you are saved. For eternity. And nothing, can take you away from that. Again, take what you will from this message. But I really felt that I needed to write this to you today. 💗
8:30 part got my soul when she said that she was afraid of incest, i was afraid that i liked my brother and about homosexual ocd, yesterday my friend that is girl told me something nice and i got happy and thought immediately came "what if im lesbian and thats why i liked her comment" and today aswell and i was in such panic
Went out! Sat in the park for 1 hour. Tackled social anxiety. Feeling so good. I am on the path in tackling my OCD. It's a daily challenge. Exposure is the only way. It's hard but you'll thank yourself every time you do it. Control the mind, observe the thoughts (don't resist or fight it), never stay alone in home. You can do this friends!!!
While watching this I came to the realization I probably had ocd even way back as 2015 or so when I had this fear/thoughts that would linger in my mind about if I got cancer an died I have no idea how that came about but over the years the cancer thing went away but my ocd has changed into different forms such as excessive hand washing until it feels just right like I can't explain it better than that like I know an can feel when it's just right an I can go about my business. It creeps it's way in other things I do but it's mostly the hand washing now an i think it probably makes me a hypochondriac when something is wrong with me or even when nothing's wrong with me. I just don't want any of my things I use daily or my hands to be contaminated so I literally will wipe down my phone etc even my guitar neck an strings if I feel it's messed up. Sorry for so much text kinda started venting about it. I hope you are good an have peace. :)
thank you to all of these people and many more sharing their stories about OCD. we are going to get through this, we are strong. it’s ok to not have control, it’s ok to be not ok. and thanks to the interviewer. she did a great job, i loved how empathic and respectful she was.
@@afsharkaghan5534 bir psikologa gitmeni kesinlike tavsiye ediyorum. utandigini anliyorum, ozellikle Turk toplumunda psikolojik sorunlarda buyuk bir onyargi var; ama baskalarinin onyargisi senin iyilesme surecini engellemesine izin verme!
@@tugbamrymk 11 yaşındayken bir kere anlatmaya çalışmıştım bana "seni psikoloğamı götürelim, herkes sana deli der!" gibisinden bir cevap verdiler, o günden sonra bir daha kimseye anlatamadım. Ciddiye alan yok ne yazık ki.
@@afsharkaghan5534 anliyorum, gercekten anliyorum. ama kontrol senin elinde. sen gitmek istiyorsan gidebilirsin, olgun ve ozgur bireysin. kimse seni, kendini iyilestirme yolunda, engelleyemez. onlarin seni ciddiye almasini bekleme, sen kendini ciddiye almasan ne yazar?
Compulsions don't necessarily alleviate any anxiety. You just do them because you WANT them to alleviate the anxiety. Like if you always wear a seatbelt, then wearing your seatbelt may or may not keep you from being anxious about dying in a car accident, but not wearing your seatbelt is just not a possibility because it's actively dangerous. If you don't want to feel responsible for something terrible you'll do the compulsion whether it makes you feel better or not
This is the first time in my life I heard about this illness. First time I heard from Petito case, poor girl. God bless all of them fighting with this terrible illness.
I just turned 13 three days ago. Before turning 13, I suddenly developed having intrusive thoughts in the middle of the night. It was so disturbing that I came to the point to an anxiety attack. My heart was beating so fast because of the extreme anxiety of hurting my family, friends, people, or myself. This went on for two days. I was scared to eat because it might had contents of people. I was scared of myself, I was scared of everyone. I couldn't trust myself anymore, and I didn't interact with my family because of extreme anxiety and depression. I finally told my parents that my heart kept beating so fast and that I couldn't breathe or stand properly because I was weak. We then went to the hospital, and I was fine when I went there. I had no idea how it calmed down, but when we went back to the house it started beating rapidly again. It was the thoughts that came to me, I couldn't stop it, I tried so hard to get assurance. I kept singing songs in my head or kept making myself busy but its still in my head. I cried myself to sleep multiple of times because I thought I was a monster. A monster, who eats people. I didn't want to be a serial killer. I hated myself and I tried to kill myself. It was my first suicide attempt. And I wish someone helped me. I wish I never had these thoughts to begin with because it has been ruining my life. I searched stuff on why I was thinking and acting like this, and turns out I might have Harm OCD and severe anxiety. I hope to people who experience this will get better. I know it will, just slowly.
I sure hope you feel better soon. I too suffer from Harm OCD, and it's a living hell on a daily basis. I pray that this will go away, and I know with God's help it will get better. I pray the same for you.
OCD has bothered me all My life I always get thoughts always telling me that for example if I don’t make my bed 3 times after midnight then I would go fat or I would lose who I am and I still get these thoughts to this day Sending love to everyone else suffering with OCD ❤️❤️
I am not yet diagnosed but I have negative thoughts that comes in and out of my head and I HATE it. I am praying and asking God to heal me and I hope someday I will.
OCD is a silent pain Very painfull im ocd contamination sufferer I don't know the meaning of real life. But still better to live than to end your own life😢
I thought i was extremely toxic being constantly overwhelmed by negative thoughts , i felt myself dirty all the time and seemed i was getting a contagious virus in case of not washing my hands . I can't touch powder when i was a kid and cried my eyes out feeling so helpless . Although i tried to resist to compultions , the negative outcome it gonna result freaks me out . I still experience it and hated myself for being so cruel , so evil , so awful for who i am . Currently , i to some extent in control of it , but it is still distressing . I was soothing myself it is normal , but when i asked others , they weirdly looked at me . I was extremely uncomfortable . I am so thankful now i don't have such severe nightmares as i used to .
This illness is hell on earth for anyone that doesnt has it thank god that you are free from it ! This monster will attack what you love and value the most in life and will make you think that you are that ! I really cant explain the pain,the suffering and agony that this disorder contains !For everyone going through this i love you my brothers we will win this keep fighting until we find again ourselfs !
23:22 Wow, to here the story of him faking the cut to sell the story that he fell and hit his head, reminds me so much of my daughter. She’s 5, not diagnosed yet but getting assessed next month, and she washes her hands excessively. Not always because of contamination, sometimes it’s just a feeling or when anxiety comes, washing her hands until it “feels right” eases the anxiety. Well, when she gets that uneasy, anxious feeling, mostly if we’re talking about something that makes her anxious, she will deliberately get her hands visibly dirty, so she can wash them. Because she knows no one is gonna stop her, of course, because her hands are in fact dirty. Wow! I’m so glad I heard that. Now I know I’m seeing and understanding correctly. So glad she’s getting in for assessment and treatment early
As somebody who has the obssesive-compulsive version of an eating disorder (my obssesions and compultions are centered around food, exercise and sticking to timetables) I can totally relate. It is HELL, it deprives you of elasticity, every day is like going though a cecklist untill you're doing things on "autopilot". And you can't stop. Because you even though you know your behaviours are irrational, that they are huring you, you are too afraid to let go. You feel like a prisoner of your own mind. And in my case it's been almost a decade and frankly I've kinda lost hope that I'll ever get better...
Watching the video I realized that I am not alone. This is a battle never give up and remember you are strong. It’s a difficult situation that sometimes you think you will not manage it, but, you are there always, standing and fighting. Express yourself.
If some people knew what OCD was, they would be shocked how they used the term so loosely. Its not just being a clean freak . They should really do their homework. I am so thankful for the people that told their story in this. Ethan, you are an inspiration and so is everyone else in this podcast. For sure, you are really helping people who can relate.
Lois Laudin true. Literally it's such a fancy term for them to throw without even knowing what people actually go through with actual ocd. Specially for celebrities , like all of them have ocd and they openly say and feel good about it. These people don't understand the basic difference between perfectionism and ocd
Exactly
Religious OCD is pretty nasty as well. I don't care about hygiene that much but I am a religious maniac Constant fear of hell. It's horrible. I think exposure and response prevention is the only way out but its very hard.
I get mad when I hear people use the term ocd like nothing. But at the same time I think to myself it's not there fault.
@Leila Radcliffe You can beat it I'm trying something everytime I get a bad thought I refuse to look it up ( reassurance) an I make faces an.make goofy sounds. Dose it help? It has gotten better but thoughts still come but I catch myself before I react with fear so it won't become ocd. I have MCDD disorder so I also get obsessed with things I like so when ocd comes around ( ocd is one of the symptoms of MCDD disorder) I constrate on the good obsessions like Superman. I try to learn a language I try to do something other then looking for reassurance. An trust me it will hurt you won't feel good you'll have anxiety up the roof but when your having it keep telling yourself (The more anxious I get means I'm doing it right) absolutely refuse to Google. Go about your life don't fear anything related to your ocd. If satanic stuff is the topic of your ocd, call the devil a wanker. Say (Hey you pointy eared bastard yaaa a wanker !!! Nananana your a wanker !! ) It's silly ik but it might work. Your ocd will then tell you The devil is angry an he will destroy your life an loved once. Say (The devil can sit on a cactus)
My OCD used to be so painful that I thought I would not bear the following minutes. I used to lie in my bed writhing in strong anxiety and dispair. But I'll tell you this: Each pain will not stay forever. Sooner or later it will stop. The more you suffer the more you are going to enjoy your life when the pain is over. I cannot say that all my obssesive thoughts are over but I can live a normal life. I believe each suffering has a purpose, a reason, even though hidden in most cases. Think of the Book of Job.
My thoughts are with all of you suffering from OCD. I know how painful this could be. Stay strong.
The Most High God bless you very much with good days an blessings. I think I have ocd probably had it for awhile. I know I'll be okay though The Lord is with us all who look to him an hope n trust in Him.
Wow! that reference re: "book of Job" put a whole new perspective on things! Thank you for that!
The Book of Job is such a wonderful reference thank you
@@Chunter060 I was just thinking, OCD is bondage and that is straight from the demons of the pit of hell. If a Christian, and having a personal relationship with Christ, ask aloud the Holy Spirit who indwells, to remove the shackles and chains of this binding. Jesus saves, in more ways than one.
Thank you for the reference on book of Jobe, it helps a lot. May God bless you with great mental and physical health! You're not alone as well! 🙏❤️
As a grown ass man .. i am literally crying through out this documentary. As a well educated, extroverted person with a great social life, friends, girlfriends etc.. this thing literally shook my world upside down. I manage somehow to get to work and do my job but other than that it is soo so exosting to do anything else bcs of all the energy it goes during the compulsions..the depression that hits afterwords, the ongoing conflict between the sane and the insane mind.. trust me people, trust me... OCD is not a joke.
Yeah it is really not a joke one's only understand this when they suffer it really destroyed my whole life from on the top of mountain to deep inside the ocean . I cried 😭😢 and cried I screamed but nothing.............. Chaos😣😣😣😣😒😣😣😒😒😒😒😒😒
My wife has OCD and I know exactly what you are talking about. It is very difficult to see her in this condition.
Watch this video.
DIAGNOSING AND TREATING VITAMIN B-12 DEFICIENCY. It causes huge problems in the brain. It won't go away until you get it properly treated with HYDROXOCOBALAMIN or Methylcobalamine specifically. ❤️❤️❤️
You just said what I was going to say.
I knew I had "OCD", but I had no idea that I have it so severely and debilitating.
Thank you for your comment. That helps me feel not alone at all!!!
I had the perfect life up until the age of 23 when I experienced a catastrophic end to a relationship coupled with a co-worker touching me inappropriately at work that triggered SOCD and subsequently harm, relationship, suicidal and many other ocd themes. Life has been difficult but I have a beautiful family helping me through this hell!
OCD is straight from hell. But like all things that come from hell, it can be defeated.
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ocd is evil AF.
I hope so
God bless to all OCD Sufferers
Amén 🙏
Amen and thank you
Thanks
Amen
Lord have mercy on us, for we need your help
I still remember the days before my illness..I felt pure , perspicuous and relaxed...Now I feel like I have a kinda virus in my head that cannot be removed...I wish I could go back to those days n ill truly take advantage of every little pure moment..Maybe someday we could all be normal again my fellows..Who knows,,Just keep going through your life n be sure that U R NOT ALONE...
I truly understand you... I feel like I didn't had a clue what a good and sufficient person I already was before and what chances I still had - despite of other mental struggles... But ocd is the one that completely ruined my life and my relationships
The virus in your head that cannot be removed... I felt that.
I know how tough it is. But it is definitely possible to leave this in the past. It is not a virus that you are stuck with, there's actually nothing wrong with your brain. It is just the programming that is bad and it needs some rewiring:). it is hard i know, i've been through hell with it, but it's possible to leave it all behind. If you need help or assistance with OCD/mental health I can show you what I've learned in my journey. Email me: abraham.valera001@gmail.com
OCD is from VACClNE damage, it develops around 3 weeks after the shot
I feel this, been there. I'm still OCD of course. And it's painful, a total mess. I was very ashamed of This virus it felt like a glitch. But I have learned to manage it with time. It's so hard to let go of this pureness, because you are sacred it will never return. I still hold dearly my past memories, just accept this part of yourself, let it stay. Take your time, it's a journey of healing. 🌞
Finding a good OCD therapist is almost as difficult as dealing with the condition. Many haven't got a clue about OCD
Try NOCD. www.treatmyocd.com I’m working with someone I really like and is very helpful for the first time in my life!
Yeah man i have been suprised about how unprofessional most therapists are about OCD they really dont know shit about this condition or most of them think that OCD is only physical compultions!
@@1papester hi, I have a few questions about nocd. How much are the fees? How much is it costing you in total and how long have u been working with them
Me too. Its really hard to find therapist specially SENSORIMOTOR OCD 🥺😭
Oh my goodness...for real!!!
I can’t stop crying 😢 how beautiful they all are. I can relate to them all. Started when I was 13, body dysmorphia, OCD about my mom dying, the thoughts in school, the constant fixing. I love you guys... so sorry 😞
I understand you so much I love you an everyone here. We have to stay hopeful even though it's hard we have to.
what’s your trauma?
I love you as well and I can relate to this comment as well.... things will get better for all of us, we just need to accept the uncertainty
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Jesus Christ help us all
I also relate
I'm Daniel Kgaje from South Africa...
Always I want to protect my family from hurting them self
Actually I I'm more protective
Firstly I thought I was witched by one of family member,but now it makes sense that is OCD
We are not alone guy's......*ERP*
@@vodacomcars8969 I am so sorry yes we’ve gotta apply ERP and face uncertainty always. I will pray for you friend ❤️❤️ God bless you
I don’t know how many times I have said
“I know it’s not rational, but....” 🥺
i can feel your comment. stay strong, you are not alone
Right?
Me doing a math problem being good at math. "What if you lose all your math skills?" Panic.
bad move. Never reply to thoughts, never think of how irrational they are, it justs makes it worse. I'm currently fighting my own battle and hopefully winning
Same
My heart is with everyone who struggles with OCD. Please continue to fight! God bless you and know that you’re strong.
To all the people who contributed to this documentary, thank you. I’m 30 years old and have only just been diagnosed. I found this very helpful
Me too. I'm 30 and still in the process of meeting a specialist, it takes too long where im from... Hope everything works out for you brother 🙏
@@right..5651right here with you. Just turned 30. Things were bearable… but not anymore. Caving and going against my values and getting on meds. Can’t take this ruminating anymore. 24/7.
@@buknaked I feel you brother, it is such a difficult mental illness to live with. It robbes one of everything you ever built in life until it ultimately comes after life itself. But I have faith still that everything will turn out alright 🙏 Hope the medication eill be of help to you. Most important is Stay faithful, Stay on it and on top of it, when the time is right, we will find rest ❤️✝️🙏
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"Pure-O" OCD type stuff, where most things including compulsion happens in the head is a terrible for of OCD. Not taking away anything that's difficult living with any other type of OCD but it's just different the way it really goes after Your person. I feel you brother. Not easy I know but always remember that it is not you in the slightest way possible. Its the complete opposite of who you are and The more you fight it the more it will feel like it is, you'll end up geting closer and closer everytimr you try to get rid of it until eventually it will have forced you into a corner where you almost hdve tp "Accept" you have become one with this monster that lives in the head. Next to impossible to seperate yourself from thr thoughts. Your need to find a new way to relate to the thoughts and feelings and start filling Your life with the things you actually value in life. Don't avoid it, surpress it, don't fight it. All of us fail all thr times.. but eventually it becomes easier and the tension will decrease.
@@buknaked when you're not in a state of fight or flight all the time, soon as you notice a trigger, let whatever happens happen. While trying to seperate yourself from the intrusive thought, feelings, impulses or whatever shows up, do your best to let them pass naturally without engaging in the what so ever. If you feel thr urge to say do anything just say something like "now that is happening" or "that's the ocd". If you manage to just get through two of these attacks you will notice how much easier things will be. The hardest part is to not going back in... sorry my English is not thr best and quite frankly I can't thinks straight trying to deal with ocd while typing but I thought I'd try, good luck bro
I remember when I was extremely OCD in childhood. My life was so dark and painful, makes me very sad to hear others had experience this too. I want to let everyone know who are suffering that they will overcome this even if it seems impossible. I have overcome my OCD with self-control and self-discipline. Remember to keep resisting the temptations no matter how hard it is, then you will see the glimmer of hope in the dark tunnel.
why did you have it so young? abuse?
@@bkirstie I think it was genetic.
i dont think ocd is because of lack of control or self discipline..its genetic and pathophysiological in nature..abnormalities in the brain. you just stigmatize the ocd with being lacking of control and self discipline. it wont help those who suffer from it and those around could misunderstood the condition.
@@iliyasrazali83they arent stigmatising the disorder just promoting the idea that you can manage it and there is hope for those suffering from this disorder which is true because i also had very very bad ocd all my life but understanding about it and doing erp helped massively and brought light to my world
You can tell the interviewer is very compassionate and skillful. We barely hear her talk at all, which shows that she lets the interviewee do the talking. And they all seem to be comfortable sharing very personal, painful stories with her. That is definitely not a given. I greatly appreciate her work and all of the interviewees for having the courage to share. Thank you all for making this video.
OCD is really a terrible illness and many people think it’s just about being very tidy and things being in order but as these wonderful people have explained it is truly a living nightmare.
I was recently diagnosed with OCD at the age of 33.
I’ve had OCD since I can remember, the first compulsions I recall is from the age of 4-5.
I never knew it was OCD but when I was diagnosed everything made sense.
All my anxiety, intrusive thoughts, panic attacks and depression is connected to this.
I’m grateful for my diagnosis, my psychiatrist and my psychologist, I’m hoping therapy and all the work I’m doing will help me live a normal life with my family.
I’m crying my eyes out. Thank you for this from the bottom of my heart.
I have OCD, ADHD, depression & anxiety.. you can imagine the hell inside my head. Sometimes i can't believe i'm still here.
Ditto
It be like that brodi
Sorry to hear
I believed I have developed OCD,I been non-stop overthinking about Everything since October 2020.It has destroyed my life and my happiness is dead.Suicidal Thoughts,Overthinking,Guilt,Extreme Worry about Diseases,Horrible Thoughts and images that I do not like resulted in a Very poor Mental State.Stay Strong Everybody
I kinda feel same thing has happened to me. We can do this.
be careful about self-diagnosis tho. if you really think somethings wrong look for a medical professional
Me too🕊️
This is beautiful, and made me feel comfortable in my own skin. Sending love to everyone.
Couldn't word it any better myself
"Because someone's going to watch this, and they're going to see you, and hear you, and they're gonna feel like they are less alone". 35:55. Here I am, diagnosed with OCD, watching her, seeing her, and feeling a little less crazy thanks to these people. To everyone that talked about their story here, thank you. I'm so proud of you for how far you've come and the incredible progress you've made. Stay strong, sending love ❤❤
To all my fellow people that suffer from this, keep fighting that good fight. God bless.
I struggled with severe obsessive compulsive disorder 2016 to June 2021. I have some OCD problems now. But I improved greatly and I am much happier. I am living a much better life now. OCD is a very complex and difficult problem.
One of my solutions to healing from severe OCD was to force myself to live for my happiness and peace of mind. Fear is about what if something terrible happens in the future. But the future doesn't exist right now in the present. When you're afraid, worried, and doubting, you have to resist the impulse to do compulsions/rituals, and keep going with your life. Don't do compulsions or rituals or magical thinking. It's all your imagination it's not reality. Stop living in your mind. Live in reality. Let it go. Do something important or meaningful with your time everyday. Your life has value. Follow your dreams and happiness. You are not alone and you can defeat mental illness. I hope this helps. Stay strong and keep living for your happiness and peace of mind.
I relate to all of you in the documentary and in the comments. Diagnosed with Severe OCD pure O at age 27. It started when I was 6. I kept it all for myself for over 20 years. I am now 31 and living a very successful life in Australia. I'm healthy, in a relationship, practicing mindfulness and freediving, I have full time job with strong career perspective. Escitalopram 10mg a day + therapy helped me wonderfully. All of you deserve self compassion and peace. I love you.
God bless
I didn't know what was wrong with me for about 4 years. I constantly told myself I'm a monster bc of the thoughs I had. The constant rituals I had to do otherwise I was convinced something bad would happen to me or my family. I wasn't able to eat with my hands even after cleaning them. I found out about OCD a week ago. You can't imagine how relieved I was when I found out this could be treated. Me and my mom are now looking for a therapist that could help me. It was rlly complicated to tell her about this and I even cried. But I got it off my chest and I feel much better now. Thank you sooo much for this video.
Nice dude, great times ahead!
I cried this whole documentary. It’s so hard. I found a piece of myself in each person.
Wow... the guy in the blue collared shirt has come so far!👏 He definitely went through an awakening of some sort.. how beautiful. I really enjoyed hearing his way of explaining and understanding OCD after he had his epiphany and how he can have gratitude for it all because without those experiences he wouldn’t be where he is today. I’m so proud of him!👏
This made me cry!! Just from the beginning! I now know what the war inside my head is! It’s extremely crippling! I hate it!
I am suffering from OCD since I was around 14.
I am now 29 and I am still going through hard times.
When I have an urge to do a compulsion I remind myself the quote of Albert Einstein: "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results".
Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that it is insane to do compulsions, I am still struggling with that and I know how hard it is. All I say is that in order to heal and get better we must do something differently.
I love you guys!
what’s your trauma?
Just started my own channel and its taken a lot of guts as I have suffered all my life with OCD but your site is amazing and really encourages me and others to challenge OCD. thank you so much for spending the time to help people like me.
I'm watching, and I'm seeing and hearing these individuals. It's so comforting to hear people describe the things that I think and feel. People really don't understand what OCD is. It's so loosely thrown around in society that it's lost it seriousness. I was only diagnosed last year, and I'm 33. I've been living in hell before now since I was 19. Please seek psychiatric help if you haven't already. Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't mean you're crazy.. like I once thought.
This is so relatable I’m sure for so many other “real” OCD sufferers. It’s something that’s so hard to explain to people who don’t have it but it’s literally such a headfu*k everyday
Imagine if OCD not exist
How life is Beautiful
I just wondered how living without ocd b like i agree it will be wonderful n guilt free
When a gentleman defined it as "an hour or more a day" I chocked on my own spit... it's way more than an hour a day for me most days... if not all days.... God help me..
Same here - all day every day.
An hour or MORE means you need to be spending an hour each day doing it for a diagnosis.
Agree, the definitions are too broad.
This is why some people self-diagnose as OCD when they are probably perfectly healthy.
Like sadness, it's a normal part of the human psyche. Being sad every now and then DOESN'T mean you have clinical depression. Sometimes people get paranoid, this DOSNT mean they are psychotic.
I'm so sick of people saying the are "a bit OCD" just because they have some preoccupations with organisation or cleanliness...
The definition should be somewhere from 4-5 hours +.
you are all so brave to be this honest and to talk about all of this
I love the interviewer, she was so compassionate and had true empathy
Hope everyone who suffers from this challenge will overcome and live happy again.
This video is very eye opening.
_”being okay with uncertainty.”_ thank you.
can’t thank you guys enough for bringing awareness about this. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd when i was young and even with all my parents help bringing me to therapy I was never aware of the condition. And once I moved out from their place 4 years ago i have learned quite a lot while at the same time suffered quite a lot. It was through that I realized I had never been happy and I should have been, but I was also unhappy and turning my obsessions into very unproductive things which made me feel pointless and I had no energy to keep going; I’ve gotten to a dark spot quite several times. I also recently got diagnosed with ADD on top of the OCD, but it was only when i got diagnosed with that that my parents opened up about the condition. I distanced myself so much throughout my whole life because I thought I was a horrible person for the way I acted all throughout the time I was growing up and did not want to cause any more pain. and since then have been trying to research as much as I could and officially going back to therapy this Thursday! But truly, it’s absolutely amazing and relieving to hear from other people that they have experienced the same feelings and thoughts as I have and that we have to embrace and accept this condition instead of ignoring it. Thank you!
I get irritated by people who say they have or all people have a little bit of ocd, you never know a few might but the majority do not and I never understand why they say it. OCD can be absolutely life destroying, and can lead to extremely complex ritual systems deep long lasting anxiety and depression. I started at about 10 years old and my symptoms I would hide, until later when things became so complex it was impossible to hide. I managed over time to compartmentalise some of them, but still suffer from this. Lots of love to all those suffering with this in their lives
This video with all the testimony’s help me understand more about the OCD, and how people have to deal with this Mental disorder I just hope my son wants to get help soon! Thank you for sharing God blessed all this beautiful people 🙏🏼
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Praying for yall’s family.
Pray for my mind as well☺️
God is able.🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
You're being such a supportive and an understanding mom, hope your son completely recovers from therapy and medication 🙏🏻
It's hell on Earth. I have lost all of my friends, my job, even my beloved dog, because I wasn't able to take care of her due to constant rituals... The disease has taken everything that I love. It left me homebound, unemployed and severely depressed.
what’s your trauma?
I hear you and I'm so sorry!
@@bkirstie I couldn't pinpoint a particular trauma in my life, I've had mental health issues since my early childhood. I developed tics, a forerunner for OCD, at the age of 7 and along came bedwetting and stuttering. Various medications were tried and I've been on antidepressants for 24 years now. Yes. 24 years, basically all of my life. They do nothing for me other than help me to get through the day. Somehow. They did nothing for my OCD either and I cannot and will not tolerate the horrendous side effects of the SSRIs, they turned me into an apathetic, emotionally numb zombie and I basically didn't exist below my waistline. So I quit taking Zoloft and I'm on Trintellix now. I take Desyrel for sleep and Xanax when it gets unbearable. I also tried ERP therapy twice (inpatient setting) with only minor success. It's like having a worm in my head. I question each and every thing that I do and my brain keeps on constantly sending me error messages. I check almost everything I do and touch. Ten, twenty, thirty times in a row. I would stand in front of the gas stove and touch the knobs and I would gaze into them, sometimes for half an hour. It's pure hell.
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I suffered so long without knowing what was going on. Every day from the moment I woke up until I fell asleep was straight darkness, anxiety, fear and hopelessness. I’ve learned ways to better manage now that I’m a bit older, but I feel in so many ways I’ll never get that time back from those darkest days. It’s a constant battle, but manageable. Hang in there
I tap , I shrug my shoulders till thy hurts adding to the pain of a shoulder injury that I already have . I used to jump over the lines on the sidewalk and I couldn’t let go of it . I was super afraid of drinking contaminated water from my cousins drinking from my cup . At 18 I could not sleep because I started looking in the mirror for hours because in my mind there was a chance I did not exist . At 21 I thought I acquired a deadly disease from touching contaminated surfaces . I thought about committing suicide so I didn’t have to die of that disease . During the pandemic I had my last horrible crises . I washed my hands every time I touched something and used bleach in a spray bottle until my hands cracked and bleeding a little bit . I was literally paralyzed in my bed afraid of touching anything and then touching my eyes or my nose or my mouth . I literally screamed in desperation because of my situation . Stress blows my OCD . The other ones are cancer or anything that’s is not there. . At 12 I was afraid of the dark.i have a lot of other thoughts that are very distressing to even talk about it
I loved this and cried all the way through. It has given me some hope. Thank you. I am 52 and was diagnosed with OCD last year. I have had it all my life and it affects all areas of my life. I have not had therapy for OCD yet as in the UK our government does not recommend ERP therapy, but instead instructs clinicians to treat with CBT.
I thought I wasn't going to cry. As someone who's had OCD for a while, I was sure I've been through enough that it wasn't going to affect me. Here I am sobbing like an idiot.
At times it can be something to cry about but never give in. I know it means more suffering but dont. Deprive it by looking for a way that will work for u to fight it!
Same here! Ahah
This is so incredibly helpful. The man I adore has OCD and he has not shared his experience with me beyond his diagnosis. I'm learning from you how tormenting this condition is. I'm grateful for this information.
Is this real????
I just didn't think I'd ever see something like this. I've searched so long for a video that explains OCD so insightfully in so many of its forms.
This video has saved me, made me feel I'm not alone, I have the ability to give this video to the people who I care about. And give them insite to my diagnosis.
Thank you so much 😭
I've worked very hard to be a good person in my community, to my friends, and my family. But the jokes and stigma is very prevalent, and it is difficult for me to feel supported. Seeing this has definitely changed that.
Thank you, all of you, who took the time to interview and be interviewed. Your perspectives have changed my life.
It is real! We are so glad to hear it helped you!
Wow, my OCD wants to tell me I’m the one who has it the worst and this video shows me it’s wrong! My empathy just went through the roof…
My OCD is that my brain forces me to do things I won't normally do. And it makes me so suffering. It's like my brain's killing me with those meaningless thoughts. I know it's bad but I can't fight back. I am mentally so exhausted.
You are not alone, I totally understand what you are going through. It's hell on Earth. The disease has taken everything that I love. It left me homebound, unemployed, severely depressed. I even lost my beloved dog, because I wasn't able to take care of her due to constant rituals... I lost all of my friends.
But u CAN recover
Thanks to every One of you who shared your feelings, experiences, thoughts and heartfelt stories. Those help me understand more about OCD.
I am praying for all of you, who are suffering from OCD, that God will walks with you side by side. 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️
Thankyou so much for this video and for everyone who participated...
What an incredible video. The interviewer was poised, respectful and so very right, I recently relapsed and this video helped to remind me that I am not crazy, I’m not my OCD. We are not alone, and these messages brought me immense hope to know that I can get the help I need. Thank you to everyone who shared their story!
wow when they said the only way you can get over ocd is to be okay with uncertainty and sitting in the uncomfortable thoughts…it’s so terrifying like i need to get better everything is so painful
This video has made me cry and stirred up so many feelings. I have suffered with OCD since I was about 11 years old. I was properly diagnosed about 3 years ago by a very good psychiatrist, but still haven't found a therapist. I Lived for 25 years without a correct diagnosis. I have suffered with so many symptoms, intrusive thoughts, religious OCD, health OCD, simetry and orderliness, obsessive hand washing especially during the Pandemic, so much fear, after giving birth to my kids it got worse, post partum I had horrible intrusive thoughts, I love my children so much and I was afraid of violent thoughts of others or myself hurting them, with newborn babies and children you have such limited time to practice compulsions that I feel this aggravated it and began having suicidal thoughts. I self admitted to a psychiatric facility twice after each of the birth of my kids because of how bad it got. I was misdiagnosed for about 3 years. I still struggle with this every day. It makes it especially hard when you don't have a strong support system and are misunderstood by the people you love most.
Yeah I also suffers from it you can recover please check for @ali greymond UA-cam videos you will really get some help
Thank you for this video. Means a lot for all that suffer OCD. We should spread more and more information about this disease, in order to people get treatment sooner. ⭐
Agreed. And learn the right way to leave this all behind us. It is difficult but definitely possible. I know what it is like to live with this but it's something we can leave in the past. If you need help or assistance with OCD/mental health I can show you what I've learned in my journey. Email me: abraham.valera001@gmail.com
Wow! It's so true that having OCD is like having a graveyard of all the things you once loved and enjoyed b/c they go bye bye 👋. It is very much a primal, unrelenting monster that destroys you and shreds your humanity. Been there and am currently in a relapse just waiting for medication to kick in and give me some relief from this mental pain I'm in.
Has me crying but feeling so seen and platformed. So good to feel I'm not alone and in fact in some pretty darn good company. I'm so proud and feel so heavily with each of these storytellers and I'm so grateful for their bravery and advocacy
I especially love how Ethan explains it 🥹
All of y’all are appreciated!
Thank you guys 🫶🏽
So much courage from these people in this video, so much pain, it helped so much to hear their stories, thankyou.
Im 37 years old and have had severe ocd since age 15. I dont know if Im strong enough to fight anymore. Im so tired, angry, afraid and Very sad of how my life is. I feel like sitting on the sidelines watching people live there life, whilst Im just stuck here.
Wishing love and recovery for everyone affected by this monster.
Don’t give up. You are here. Never too late. Get the help duck people who don’t relate. You do you stay strong. We are in the OCD fam.
@@PanchoVilla-fe8pt Amen 🙏
Thank you for this informative video. You all are hero. Every OCD sufferer who fights the monster , never gives up is a real hero . He/she is a survivor . Someday the sun will shine ...❤️❤️
The hardest thing for me, is when people associate ocd only with cleaning, perfectionism, and other stuff like this.. It's nothing like that (for me) and alot people... Is more like dark thoughts, anxiety, depression, strange feelings, nostalgic, dramatic.... rituals, etc
Very good video, so emotional.. And yes the saddest part. Is when people around you can understand you..
Its so complicated, its mixed with depression, anxiety, obsessive paranoiac and intrusive thoughts. Its been 9 yrs , with medication everyday , I am walking with being the supporting shoulders to carry the burdens and obligations for my family, even far away from home.. !!. So far God has been good and I can feel his grace.But really I wanna get out of this. Its enough struggle 🙏🏻
All you beautiful people... I was deeply moved and learned a lot. Thank you...
Thank you for sharing!! I only wish I had seen this video even 8 days ago. My son suffered from obsessive thoughts. He took his life exactly one week ago tonight just to stop the thoughts. We had no idea how to help him. He had tried medications and traditional therapies and that seemed to make it worse and he’d quit going.
I'm so sorry about that☹️💗💗💗
ABBAH heal this family from the loss of their precious son and use their testimony to help others in Yeshua Mashiha powerful name Amen
God bless his soul
I am so sorry for your loss.💔
Thankyou so much for this video, I have only just started looking into OCD and learning about it and there are so many parts of it I have never told anyone, and this video made me feel so seen and validated and has given me the push I need to seek help.
For me, the compulsions don't have much relief. My obsessions just keep on going but the compulsion is more of a distraction for a moment. I used to believe we all lived this way, with constant obsessing about what could be going wrong, or what was I not paying attention to, until I realized that people just don't obsess. I obsess silently and will sometimes use daydreams to distract me from the obsession (worry). It's a never-ending ride.
I feel we might be very similar in this situation. I am not sure how to cope with ocd. Any tips?
I can't put into words how good this video made me feel. I'm so thankful for all the beautiful people who exposed their own stories 💖
I am so glad for the way you put it......it isn’t just (as some on my ocd manifests in excessive cleaning) Yet there is sooo much more to it that leaves me depressed and exhausted.
Guys guys guys. It gets better. I have through this. Trust me... It gets better
I still remember the first time I started experiencing OCD, I was ten years old and I started going over to a lady's house on my trailer park, she used to always talk about demons, and god, and how she was psychic. I remember constantly obsessing over whether I was upsetting god, or whether the devil was coming for me, I was constantly worried that demons were gonna comes for me so I'd pray and beg god to make them go away, I was constantly in panic over god and demons. Then it was health anxiety, I constantly had to be consciously breathing, I was constantly worried that my bodily functions would cease if I stopped thinking about them. It's like he said in the video, a small headache was a tumor, a cold was rabies, a fever was cancer. Now the thoughts are just constant, and disturbing, I hate myself for them
Ocd is treatable ' read the book brain look '
Hope it might help u
U can truely fully recover
My ocd started when I was 11 after my grandma's wake. I woke up feeling this crippling fear of death, I was so scared I threw up and would constantly ask my mom what happened after we die, and ever since I've experienced some form of ocd. Its only till recently ive been able to identify it as ocd, even though ive never been diagnosed. It's so exhausting and scary, I just want to stop being scared and ashamed all the time.
I saw this comment and felt that I had to respond to you - whatever you do with it is up to you, but I have to say it.
I really feel for you with your childhood, it's so difficult when you're a child and don't really understand what's happening. But I need to share with you that there is hope! There is hope that there is perfect life after death. It sounds crazy but Jesus sacrificed His life to give you, Zitalee, perfect sinless life after you die. Once and for all you can be content with knowing what happens after death. Jesus - He died, was buried, and rose again, defeating death and He did that for you. He knows everything about you, since He died to take every one of your sins away. Please, Zitalee, if you believe what He did on the cross for you, if you accept Jesus as your Saviour from Hell, then my friend, you are saved. For eternity. And nothing, can take you away from that.
Again, take what you will from this message. But I really felt that I needed to write this to you today. 💗
Amen ❤✝️🙏@@arnzidge
8:30 part got my soul when she said that she was afraid of incest, i was afraid that i liked my brother and about homosexual ocd, yesterday my friend that is girl told me something nice and i got happy and thought immediately came "what if im lesbian and thats why i liked her comment" and today aswell and i was in such panic
This video can help a lot of people. As an older sibling of someone who has OCD, I now feel that I have a better understand of it.
Went out! Sat in the park for 1 hour. Tackled social anxiety. Feeling so good. I am on the path in tackling my OCD. It's a daily challenge. Exposure is the only way. It's hard but you'll thank yourself every time you do it. Control the mind, observe the thoughts (don't resist or fight it), never stay alone in home. You can do this friends!!!
Great video - well done guys. John
Thank you so much. I wish I could help also others with OCD. It can affect life so badly. Be brave, you are not alone.
i still remember how my ocd started. I have come so far. I was only 14
While watching this I came to the realization I probably had ocd even way back as 2015 or so when I had this fear/thoughts that would linger in my mind about if I got cancer an died I have no idea how that came about but over the years the cancer thing went away but my ocd has changed into different forms such as excessive hand washing until it feels just right like I can't explain it better than that like I know an can feel when it's just right an I can go about my business. It creeps it's way in other things I do but it's mostly the hand washing now an i think it probably makes me a hypochondriac when something is wrong with me or even when nothing's wrong with me. I just don't want any of my things I use daily or my hands to be contaminated so I literally will wipe down my phone etc even my guitar neck an strings if I feel it's messed up. Sorry for so much text kinda started venting about it. I hope you are good an have peace. :)
thank you to all of these people and many more sharing their stories about OCD. we are going to get through this, we are strong. it’s ok to not have control, it’s ok to be not ok.
and thanks to the interviewer. she did a great job, i loved how empathic and respectful she was.
Ben de de var Okb, 23 yaşındayım ve 5 yaşımdan beri var. Hayatımı alt üst etti bu hastalık ama kimseye anlatamıyorum..
@@afsharkaghan5534 bir psikologa gitmeni kesinlike tavsiye ediyorum. utandigini anliyorum, ozellikle Turk toplumunda psikolojik sorunlarda buyuk bir onyargi var; ama baskalarinin onyargisi senin iyilesme surecini engellemesine izin verme!
@@tugbamrymk 11 yaşındayken bir kere anlatmaya çalışmıştım bana "seni psikoloğamı götürelim, herkes sana deli der!" gibisinden bir cevap verdiler, o günden sonra bir daha kimseye anlatamadım. Ciddiye alan yok ne yazık ki.
@@afsharkaghan5534 anliyorum, gercekten anliyorum. ama kontrol senin elinde. sen gitmek istiyorsan gidebilirsin, olgun ve ozgur bireysin. kimse seni, kendini iyilestirme yolunda, engelleyemez. onlarin seni ciddiye almasini bekleme, sen kendini ciddiye almasan ne yazar?
My daughter was recently diagnosed. This is a very helpful video thanks you!!
Such a positive and encouraging video! What a great example of stigma reduction through honest representation of mental illness.
This was a very beautiful video, thank you for this !
Such an Inspirational video for all the people with OCD and for people living with them in their life. Thank you! This is amazing! 💖
Thank you. I struggle from OCD and I appreciate this video.
I’m not alone. I’m not crazy. Thank you for this video that I didn’t know I needed.
Compulsions don't necessarily alleviate any anxiety. You just do them because you WANT them to alleviate the anxiety. Like if you always wear a seatbelt, then wearing your seatbelt may or may not keep you from being anxious about dying in a car accident, but not wearing your seatbelt is just not a possibility because it's actively dangerous. If you don't want to feel responsible for something terrible you'll do the compulsion whether it makes you feel better or not
Exactly!! My compulsions don't provide relief, they only provide distractions from the terrible obsession.
It’s ashame that only 100 thousand people had been brought light to this
This is the first time in my life I heard about this illness. First time I heard from Petito case, poor girl. God bless all of them fighting with this terrible illness.
I just turned 13 three days ago. Before turning 13, I suddenly developed having intrusive thoughts in the middle of the night. It was so disturbing that I came to the point to an anxiety attack. My heart was beating so fast because of the extreme anxiety of hurting my family, friends, people, or myself. This went on for two days. I was scared to eat because it might had contents of people. I was scared of myself, I was scared of everyone. I couldn't trust myself anymore, and I didn't interact with my family because of extreme anxiety and depression. I finally told my parents that my heart kept beating so fast and that I couldn't breathe or stand properly because I was weak. We then went to the hospital, and I was fine when I went there. I had no idea how it calmed down, but when we went back to the house it started beating rapidly again. It was the thoughts that came to me, I couldn't stop it, I tried so hard to get assurance. I kept singing songs in my head or kept making myself busy but its still in my head. I cried myself to sleep multiple of times because I thought I was a monster. A monster, who eats people. I didn't want to be a serial killer. I hated myself and I tried to kill myself. It was my first suicide attempt. And I wish someone helped me. I wish I never had these thoughts to begin with because it has been ruining my life. I searched stuff on why I was thinking and acting like this, and turns out I might have Harm OCD and severe anxiety. I hope to people who experience this will get better. I know it will, just slowly.
I sure hope you feel better soon. I too suffer from Harm OCD, and it's a living hell on a daily basis. I pray that this will go away, and I know with God's help it will get better. I pray the same for you.
Thank you for making this movie. Thank you to everyone who gave their own stories.
I saw this and felt not alone and not crazy, thank you all for this video. ❤
OCD has bothered me all
My life I always get thoughts always telling me that for example if I don’t make my bed 3 times after midnight then I would go fat or I would lose who I am and I still get these thoughts to this day
Sending love to everyone else suffering with OCD ❤️❤️
Sending love back.
I am not yet diagnosed but I have negative thoughts that comes in and out of my head and I HATE it. I am praying and asking God to heal me and I hope someday I will.
Thank you so much for sharing your life experiences with us. It helps a lot!
OCD is a silent pain
Very painfull im ocd contamination sufferer
I don't know the meaning of real life.
But still better to live than to end your own life😢
I thought i was extremely toxic being constantly overwhelmed by negative thoughts , i felt myself dirty all the time and seemed i was getting a contagious virus in case of not washing my hands . I can't touch powder when i was a kid and cried my eyes out feeling so helpless . Although i tried to resist to compultions , the negative outcome it gonna result freaks me out . I still experience it and hated myself for being so cruel , so evil , so awful for who i am . Currently , i to some extent in control of it , but it is still distressing . I was soothing myself it is normal , but when i asked others , they weirdly looked at me . I was extremely uncomfortable . I am so thankful now i don't have such severe nightmares as i used to .
This illness is hell on earth for anyone that doesnt has it thank god that you are free from it ! This monster will attack what you love and value the most in life and will make you think that you are that ! I really cant explain the pain,the suffering and agony that this disorder contains !For everyone going through this i love you my brothers we will win this keep fighting until we find again ourselfs !
23:22 Wow, to here the story of him faking the cut to sell the story that he fell and hit his head, reminds me so much of my daughter. She’s 5, not diagnosed yet but getting assessed next month, and she washes her hands excessively. Not always because of contamination, sometimes it’s just a feeling or when anxiety comes, washing her hands until it “feels right” eases the anxiety. Well, when she gets that uneasy, anxious feeling, mostly if we’re talking about something that makes her anxious, she will deliberately get her hands visibly dirty, so she can wash them. Because she knows no one is gonna stop her, of course, because her hands are in fact dirty. Wow! I’m so glad I heard that. Now I know I’m seeing and understanding correctly. So glad she’s getting in for assessment and treatment early
As somebody who has the obssesive-compulsive version of an eating disorder (my obssesions and compultions are centered around food, exercise and sticking to timetables) I can totally relate. It is HELL, it deprives you of elasticity, every day is like going though a cecklist untill you're doing things on "autopilot". And you can't stop. Because you even though you know your behaviours are irrational, that they are huring you, you are too afraid to let go. You feel like a prisoner of your own mind.
And in my case it's been almost a decade and frankly I've kinda lost hope that I'll ever get better...
Watching the video I realized that I am not alone. This is a battle never give up and remember you are strong. It’s a difficult situation that sometimes you think you will not manage it, but, you are there always, standing and fighting. Express yourself.