Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor-Angelina
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- Опубліковано 21 лис 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Angelina, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse in New Jersey.
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For all the insulting comments , she is my 2nd cousin . Her father is my 1st cousin and she 100% is being honest . She is 21 and so new to her trauma and this was a life moment filled with fear and anxiety for her ! This is a new journey for her where she learned and still is learning how to process this . Thank you to everyone who has and is being kind to her ! This was such a safe space for her ! Thanks so much Mark and the community !
There will always be trolls no matter the subject or content.
I pray that by telling her story, she will experience a deeper level of healing.
Some of the trolls are abusers Some of the trolls are confused victims and some just like to see what kind of chaos they can cause.
@@carolseven3802the latter being narcissistic with a sadistic core.
Thank you for speaking up
I'm so sorry 😢
@@susanriddle9408 Yes, thank you! Btw....I live in South New Jersey as well.
'You can't heal in the environment that hurt you.' That is wise insight.
Brilliant, honestly. Really hit home with me.
This is incredible I’ll remember this forever
people LOVE to ignore this!
Qué razón tienes!
Very true
Oh I am SO SORRY 😢. I was raped by my best friend’s father when I was 8. I’m 64, so it was the 1960’s. I told no one and blocked it out until it all came back in my 30’s. I did a lot of therapy (my family was also horribly dysfunctional). I’m ok, living a beautiful life now. Telling you this because through some hard work you’ll be ok, too. Never goes away, but manageable. Sending you lots of healing vibes.
Trauma Therapist here.. I'm navigating these stories daily. You are a great historian for the most pivotal moments Things causing some of your deepest core wounds. I'd do anything to walk you through this. Every time you speak it through it, you disempower its grip. Telling your own story brings revelation and the grace to rewrite the pain of any shame or guilt! You will never be this animal's victim, you're a VICTOR! Look at the power in recovering out LOUD! you're helping others ❤ Msg if you need therapeutic support
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As a trauma therapist, do you think that some of us who were molested that we show ADHD type symptoms.
Angelina please come back and see Mark when you are a little older and give us an update on your life and your healing journey. I’m rooting for you!
it is a miracle she is not fallen in the same pattern of her mum's life. I hope she continues on her path of discovery and lead a normal life.
He told you he loved you out of guilt only. Brave good girl for reporting your Dad.
As someone who went through this exact experience, starting at the same age, with an "uncle", I can tell you how absolutely real and genuine this is. The words just don't come out...they are in your head but they just don't want to come out. You have images in your mind but they don't have the right context to make sense. I'm 60 and those images from 50 years ago are still in my head but I remember them through 8, 9, 10 year old eyes. At the time, you know it's something you don't want to do, but you have no idea why. When you get older and you realize what the images mean, the sense of shame that there was something wrong with you that made it happen is indescribable. It's not even a conscious thought....more like you became something you didn't want to be before you even had a chance to become who you were meant to be. I've often wondered how my life would have been different had I been "normal". The truth is I'll never know because that choice was taken away from me without my consent. Although you'd look at me today and see me as "normal", I'm not and never will be. After burning my way through years and years of promiscuity, I finally met the man I've been married to for 30 years. I did everything in my power to push him away, but he stuck it out. I don't know why he did, but I can tell you that my husband is the only thing that ever made me believe there could be any good in the world. Being sexually abused as a young child changes you in ways that never ever go away.
this this thisssss. I remember a lot of things feeling wrong but I didn’t know why. thank you so much for taking the time to listen to my story 🤍 I am so so sorry you had to go through this as well… I hope you have an amazing day
@@angelinat_ What a sweet and strong girl you are. I'm afraid to say anything to anyone except with the blessing of anonymity. I am a Philly girl.... so I come from your neck of the woods and you remind me of myself years ago. I am so pleased that you responded to me. Your words were riveting...I kept watching you trying to get the words out and it kind of just took my breath away....oh my God, that's what I do when I try to talk about it! She's just like me! A kindred soul. It's like I could tell what was going on in your head! Just know there is someone out here who believes you, understands you, validates you. You are so worth so much more than what was done to you. ❤
May god continue to bless you. Sorry that you went through that
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Thank you for sharing some very important things that those of us who’ve never gone through this could NEVER wrap our minds around it! EVER!!
Amazed by you.
After everything you’ve endured, you still have such a beautiful soul. You should be proud of yourself. Thank you Mark for giving this woman a voice.
Angelina seems so gentle and kind. I hope she’ll find a helpful therapist can help her sort out all the crap her parents dumped on her and her siblings. She is very brave and strong to share her story… I feel like we’ve heard the tip of the iceberg. ❤☮️
Dear Angelina, you are a survivor of horrible abuse. It will take some time to unwrap the effects of the abuse on your life. I wish for you to find a therapist that is right for you and who'll guide and support you through your healing process. You are quick thinking and intelligent along with being compassionate and kind. I'm glad you are taking action now to get the right specialised help. Thank you for being so open and sharing your story. Your doing so will help other survivors of sexual abuse know they are not alone and help is out there.
As a childhood trauma survivor I’m beginning to think this sick behavior is a national pastime in most families. It’s an atrocity. Way too common sadly and tragically. I’m lifting her up in prayer.
Sorry to hear you went through something like that, but you can’t let that color how you look at life in general. I know it’s way easier said than done, but not all families are like that.
Happened to me too but it wasn’t a family member, it definitely seems to be way more common than most people think.
Same happened to me. A very sick twisted past-time. Plain nasty these perpetrators. No excuse.
You’re right, it seems more and more people are revealing stories of sexual abuse that I didn’t think existed.
@@thatguymatt5816exactly 💯
As a victim of childhood sexual abuse I’m so glad she exposed her father….. At 21 years old it takes courage to come forward to law enforcement and tell your story about your own father! …Angelina I will definitely make that drive to New Jersey to support your tattoo business… ❤
Creator Almighty bless us all. Lord have mercy
Lovely Lo
My late mother was sexually abused by her father from the age of 5 to 17 years old. Her mother was “mentally ill” and was not aware of what was going on. It affected my mother by her becoming an alcoholic and she was very promiscuous. My parents divorced when I was 7 years old. My aunt explained to me what happened to them, growing up. My father had custody of us, thank goodness. I’m 68 years old. My mom was admitted into a nursing home when she was 60 years old. I took care of her needs until she passed at 78 years old. I know she loved me but was not able to express herself in nurturing way.
Sounds like you were a good son, Gary. God bless you.
I am so, so sorry for you and your mom, and for everyone affected by those horrible acts
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Yo mama was a freak
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Angelina's strength and courage to speak out and help her siblings is so admirable. What a truly brave warrior. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ wishing you all the good in the future ❤
Poor dear woman. You've been through so much.
Thank you for your bravery in sharing this trauma with us.
Wishing you all the best.
I am so proud of you Angelina. Don't you ever stop fighting for justice and recovery. NONE of this was your fault. I am also from south jersey and my own daughter is a licensed therapist with her masters degree. She is a youth victim counselor. Please try to get services again from Camden County. You have been through alot and have turned out remarkably strong. Never give up and never turn to alcohol or drugs. You are beautiful 😢😢
The importance of sexual education is immeasurable. She couldn’t even name the trauma of what she was dealing with at the time. This woman is a truly warrior.
Sex ed is very important, but she was eight years old when it began. A seven-year-old doesn't need to be taught about sex
I remember being taught that my body was private and nobody was allowed to touch me but, I did not know what sex was and I wouldn't want my own children to know anything about sex before the age of eight or even the age of 13
@@southphillylilly I understand what you’re saying. I am not saying children should know about sexual content at 8 or so, I was just saying is important to know, even at this age, that people shouldn’t touch your body. That’s what I meant. And we can’t assume parents will always teach this kinda of stuff, sometimes they are the abusers. The idea is protect the little ones, to make sure they indentify abuses and call for help. If the name “sex education” is the problem, call it whatever you want so, but is meant to protect those who doesn’t know better yet.
Predators & grooming agent education and detection. Problem solved. We keep SEX education out of the hands of weirdo lunch lady loons, and define what it is to a child, that if anyone touches you, we throw em off a bridge! Clear? Now go play with your legos and Barbie’s
@@katiekane5247 I agree with you! But there is a thing: abusers will try to abuse children with a lot of aproaches other than touchs in genitals or so. Forcing they watch porn, roleplaying , feet fetish (like that ICarly director) and so. That’s why we need to get deeper and teach children more than anatomy, we need to make them understand that there is a lot of situations that adults (and even other children/teens!) can abuse them and they must seek help if they are passing by any of it. But still, I agree 100% on what you you’ve pointed about body knowledge, this even helps at the body positivity matter!
What is most important is using the correct terms for their body parts, not cutesy words because you don't want to say labia or vagina. Parents not giving the child the correct terms is responsible for many child rapists not being convicted. Yes, sexual education should begin before 8. It should start in preschool with body parts and safety and gradually increase with age-appropriateness. When a parent just does a big awkward sex talk too late, children and teens won't feel comfortable ever coming to you. There needs to be a foundation of open conversation on related topics built their whole life.
*THIS*..... This is what trauma looks like 😢💔..... It's imperfect (for the insults people callously post).... It's difficult to communicate.... Or remember...... Kudos to this young, gentle soul.. And her bravery ❤🙏👏... Also Kudos to Mark... For the Love and patience ❤🙏
It took a lot for her to talk about this, you can see. She has such a gentle, strong energy and will no doubt go on to help others and break the cycle 🙏 PS. CPTSD from living in a consistently traumatising household can mimic ADHD symptoms.
So true, i struggled with the same
indeed...group homes are the pits
I agree. Never realized it too much.
This comment thread for some reason is the only thing I have ever seen that made me open my eyes about this ……I just want to thank every single person who has pointed this out I’m 35 and I mean I seriously had no idea…..
@@donnahoffman1622 Tim Fletcher has some good talks about how CPTSD mimics ADHD
What a well-spoken and mature young woman. She is so grounded despite the things she witnessed and experienced in her childhood. I can relate so much to her story.
New Jersey public schools are excellent. All those taxes do get put to good use. 🙂
Such a beautiful young woman. So courageous to walk all this out then, and now. Prayers to you and your sister for healing and peace.
Beautifully said
I rarely comment tbh but the strength and courage of this young lady is absolutely breathtaking. I'm never gonna complain about my life again after listening to her!!!
So much shame is associated with SA. I didn't tell anyone until I was inpatient treatment for my heroin addiction and I finally told my mom that her dad abused me. She didn't support me she didn't bring it up after .she still adored him and I didn't understand why. It was extremely difficult to recover from the abuse and pain . Years of hard work in therapy. I still at 54 am broken 💔
I watched this video 2 times, normally for my education I only watch once. But I noticed that when Angelina was discussing normal things, of her confidence with good things she has determined in her life, if normal can be reached for her yet. At every point she speaks of her father her legs cross, sometimes tightly, She was so relaxed to talk to you at the beginning, then once she discussed very trying points of her memory, there went the leg crossing. As if she was protecting herself. If she speaks to you again, as you always do greatly, seek to bring up more about her hobbies, and how these things bring her soul back to the good in life. God bless ya, What ever power you still believe is God.
She should testify at the divorce hearing for the step mother to have full custody with supervised visitation for the pedo. Tell the judge. Look him in the eye. That can save your little sis.
Do you really think that you should tell her what to do?
She was right to hesitate about calling 911 since foster situations that kids are thrown into can also be abusive and tear up families. Sometimes there is no perfect solution to a dilemma but I'm glad she was able to give her a little sister the support that she couldn't have in the end. I'm also glad that her stepmom decided to side with her and be the adult that her biological parents weren't .
Great comment. I agree. Unfortunately, foster situations can be even worse.
The incredible courage people like her have to come on this platform and do this humbles me. And I believe every word she said. I know too many people this has happened to and they aren't protected. To say it infuriates me is beyond an understatement
Thank god I raised my kids. I know for a fact they may not have had the greatest dad but they were NEVER abused.
Congratulations on doing the bare minimum.
I’m glad she has a place to reveal her abuse . God bless her. I hope she’s getting help ongoing.
That so called Dad should be locked up!!!! 😠⛓️
@@Linda-in9ns No kidding. He is chronic abuser and definitely they should turn him in!
This is a phenomenal interview. I wish Angelina all the best. She's a very strong person.
Thank you for fighting for your justice and trying to prevent what happened to you happening again. You are brave.
Dear Angelina,
I just wanted to convey to you that you have such a sweet aura and your spirit is strong.
As a survivor of child SA that didn’t deal with the trauma until my 30’s.
Therapy will be so healing for you along with dealing with the generational family dysfunction too.
Angelina you are taking care of yourself your treading the right path to clear the way to a positive future.
❤️ peace & harmony to you and your beauty shines out and deep within.
Diana UK
Bless her heart..❤ I totally understand her, I was also abused but by my stepdad. Started when I was 6 yrs old and it went on into my early 20’s. At that point I blamed myself, but I was so traumatized, it was like when he saw me when older, my mind shut down I just blanked out so he did what he did. My mind protected me, thank goodness! I blocked out so much but I remember a lot too. My mom knew he was doing this because my best friend told her during a sleep over. She just blurted it out and said Jack was hurting Mary, she told her what he was doing..she refused to believe me and still to this day she refuses to believe it. I’m 60 now. The fear, the pain, the hurt and the trauma never really goes away. Jack passed years back, and the evening of his passing I told him I forgive him. I had to for myself.
I might add…I too have adhd, ocd, I will just say it’s been a lot! But today, I’m ok..but this is something you can never forget. I wish her the best, and her sister too. ❤
Hi Lord have mercy on us all. Many positive blessings be bestowed upon you
I’m crying for you and your sisters. That pain is burning my insides. I wish I could protect all children from this kind of abuse. Inflicting this level of harm on children is the most horrific disgusting evil that walks on this earth. I’m amazed how strong you are. Keep your head up and live your life to the fullest. Take everything that was taken from you back with your positive attitude.
I just had to create my first ever UA-cam channel to be able to comment on this video! I had too. It isn’t talked about enough how difficult it is for those of us survivors, who have to grieve for the justice we will never have. I tried more than once. Your honesty absolutely shone through, Angelina. I wish you all the growth and healing, you’re already doing it with so much courage. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ Take care xx
This girl is so so sweet. I do pray she finds good people to love her and support her.
I don’t know what I would do without this channel, thank you mark. ❤
YES! Thank you Mark for making this a better world for everyone ❤ allowing for so much healing ❤
Angelina - you seem to have your head on your shoulders and dealing with these traumas the best way possible. You have an incredibly bright future ahead of you, just keep it pushing.
You're doing the right thing by exposing your father. If you could save even one more little girl from abuse at his hands, it's all worth it. I pray for your healing, dear. 🙏🏼
Everytime she paused I knew she was reliving her trauma again & im 110% sure it was hard for her to breathe through this interview. I hate this happens to people. It ruins sp many things for them . I’m sorry you were hurt baby .
What an amazing young lady. The sweetness in her voice, she comes across so innocent and kindhearted. ❤🙏🏽
I never understand how mothers 1) aren't aware of their husbands sexually abusing their kids and/or 2) know about and CHOOSE to do nothing to protect their kids !!!!
Mom is probably doing the abusing also. It's not just men who assault their children.
Psychology gives some insight but yeah it is still pretty mind boggling
Drugs.
Some women allow it because they have no were to go with 5 kids.
mothers are the #1 cause
Very brave of this young woman, she has come far already in her healing work. This generation is light years ahead in overcoming stigma. All the best, stay strong ❤
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"You can't heal in that environment that hurts you.".
This, hits on so many levels.
You are extremely brave for sharing your story! It is so important to end the stigma of sexual abuse and end blaming the victim. You are doing so much to educate and inform others. You are beautiful inside and out and you deserved a family that protected and loved you. Good luck with your healing journey, ❤
You did a great job! This is the perfect platform for you to speak freely and share your story, what ever that might look like. I hope in time, you come back with an update! I applaud your courage. I have to say, I have watched/listened to many stories from this channel (God Bless You), and I am absolutely floored by some of the comments which show no empathy or compassion, very unusual here😩
Childhood survivor here. Don't be afraid to do the work, the hard part is finding the right therapist and group. But once you do that's when the magic happens. Be well and cry all you need to and one day all your questions will be answered.
What a sweet & courageous young lady. I’m happy she had her stepmother in her corner!! Praying she gets all the love and support she needs to succeed in life, you will do amazing things Angelina!! Xoxox
My heart goes out to her. ❤️❤️❤️I’m an empath and I can only listen to a few of these stories, as they are too painful even to listen to. Thank you Mark for shining light on these peoples life. What did I personally learn from every one of these stories, is being absolutely non judgmental and compassion on a whole new level. Love, and blessings to you all and the whole world. ❤️🌏🇺🇦🌈🕊💗☮️🙏🏻🌎💕
If you were actually an empath you’d be able to transcribe this whole interview 🎉
Angelina thank you for sharing your story. You might have not have ADHD, I experienced trauma and since then I feel like you too: forgetful, worried, unable to focus, memory is gone, overwhelmed. That’s all ptsd and side effects from being traumatized.
I am so sorry you had to go through that. I hope your biological father gets what he deserves and you find healing and learn how to cope with this new you.
Sending you love
Your soul is so pure, it radiates from you and anyone can see it. You're going to heal and help so many people. ❤
This lady is strong, hopeful, and intelligent. She may have a good life ahead of her.
Angelina, thank you so much for this! You just don’t know how important and special this was to me! Thank you!
Angelina, you were right in reporting your dad. I wish you the best. You seem to be responsible and caring. Continue with your goals.
Thank you Mark . Watching all those interviews is like journey to my own " soul " .
Angelina, you are such a beautiful, kind and gentle young woman. Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t even begin to imagine… but your story WILL help others.
The best advice I can give her is…NONE of this is your fault, none of it! Repair yourself from the inside out, write your feelings down..all of them! Writing and telling your story is the beginning of your healing journey. Peace and love darlin’
❤️ Best Advice 🦋
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And then once those parts are witnessed, heard then retrieve from that life time frame … and then bring that part with you in safe/protected place ❤
U ask why u had to suffer, U have a gift of speaking and u would be a great advocate for others that have suffered the same abuse. Turn that pain into a purpose. U are a survivor- Keep healing , u r such a beautiful young lady.
She seems like a really beautiful person. Articulate, wise, respectful, very insightful. I wish her all the best. I think therapy would really really help her to deal with and understand her past and help her in her future. Stay strong, Angelina. Setting your mind free from the trauma and learning through therapy will make you a warrior. I would love to see a follow up with her, especially after therapy.
cant believe a father can harm that much to his own blood, hope you can heal all your pain , and that this never happens to you or your family anymore. send my love
This is a nice break from the skid row people that won’t help themselves. This young lady is gorgeous and courageous! I think she will do well in life. Self awareness is a gift and a strength. Praying for Angelina ❤
How about you say, there but for the grace of God go I instead of that short- sighted judgment??! 😒
I can relate so much to her. She's 100% real and authentic
Angelina- I just now got to the party where you speak about your step mother and how much of a gift she is to you. You're absolutely right. A good way to think of things to bring peace is that your dad HAD to leave your mom for you to be blessed with her. God luck on your journey
Angelina, You are a gentle soul with great strength. Thank you for telling your history, you will inspire many.
It's crazy how your brain makes it's best to make your forget your traumatic memories, one day you wake up ready to go to college or work and you remember everything that happened word for word, scene by scene. I can't even imagine what went through your head when you were reassuring your little sister the night you saw her being assaulted. The abuse you suffered does not defines you as a person, we are all deserving of respect, compassion and dignity. We are all way more worthy than our minds make us believe. It's okay to cry, and I hope you will get the psychiatrist help you need to be able to live your life, it's not always gonna be easy, no matter how long and how hard the struggle is don't ever forget that it makes it makes each moment more liveable and enjoyable, one day at a time. Commenting because I completely saw myself in what you said, abuse, adhd, terrible relationships etc etc. I wish you the best !!
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What an incredibly smart, strong woman. No matter what life throws at her she will persevere. Wish there was some pro bono therapists available to help her.
You go girl, Report and let him know it was not okay and what you think of him that is healing. Just don't expect him to acknowledge the abuse or apologize, it is for your strength. Don't let insurance stop you from taking care of you, I did not have insurance but paid for years of good therapy out of pocket sometimes having to make payments, It's important and you are worth it. I'm 69 now and would not be in a good place at all without the help of therapists and survivor groups. You are so thoughtful, smart and savvy. Keep searching for the right person to help you. After therapy I went back and got my GED, and a bachelor's degree. Started several businesses, Do not give him the power to ruin your life. You take your power back from him just like your doing. Good On Ya!!
She's absolutely adorable. So sorry she had to go thru that 😢. She's very brave
Imagine the one who was meant to protect you was the one who was abusing you.
Unreal 😢
Many of us don't need to imagine
Poor darling, I feel your pain in your soul explaining this, people don't realise how hard it is to deta this in words to people you know let alone an entire world of strangers. Keep strong and beautiful as you are just by speaking you are helping everyone in your situation now or in their past to not feel alone much love to you... May the angels bless your life x
There has to be some kind of humanitarian award mark can be eligible to win for his tireless work and effort x x
This girl is strong and solid. She has so much potential. I hope the best for her, maintain the solidness. Wishing for joy in her life.
thank you so much what a nice comment 🤍 I hope you have an amazing week :)
I’m very excited for her to go through all the healing - get therapy and put things with her father to rest but especially for her to get her license as a tattoo artist . She’s gonna be major !
this means a lot thank you so much for listening ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day wherever you are.
It is amazing how commonplace this sort of abuse is - and always has been. Right across the board - not just in the families of drug and alcohol abusers. The human race is still such a long way from being truly civilised.
Immense respect to you for sharing your story. Sadly, your father is a horrible monster and should be locked up for the rest of his life. I hope you've found ways to heal from your trauma. Best of luck to you on your lifelong journey of healing and forgiveness.
Childhood sexual abuse of any kind is abhorrent and any perpetrators should be prosecuted in the same way they go after murderers. They will always reoffend again. BUT there is a special place in hell for the parents that do this to their children. There is no greater violation of trust. Any survivor of this trauma that breaks the cycle is a goddamn rockstar. You are literally saving countless souls by not perpetuating the pain and unleashing it on those most vulnerable. Beautiful girl, you will change lives ❤ ANGELina, may you be the blessing for those who have yet to find their voice 🙏 😇 💕
She needs to be super cautious as to who she is attracted to and who is attracted to her. You pick ppl at the level of dysfunction you come from. Please Angelina get educated on ur family dynamic as to not repeat this cycle. Protect yourself you’re worth so much more.
I commented similar. I strongly would suggest (as a childhood trauma sufferer myself) that she get herself a great therapist.
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The saddest part is you can tell she still loved her dad
It would be sad if she’d lose her love.
Her dad is my second cousin and she’s a wonderful young lady who’s Bravery and Courage will help many along her healing and recovery process
My ex brother in law was sentenced to thirty years (mandatory twenty) for messing with his own twin daughters and there was no penetration (supposedly). He had literally no criminal record either (and held a masters license in plumbing). He did confess however when he was arrested, so maybe this is the difference. I was very pleased with the sentence although I get pissed off because on his prison profile, it only says sexual battery, Nothing about his victims being children! 🤦🏻♀️perhaps this was again, because he confessed. 🤷🏻♀️
My nieces are in trauma therapy and they are thankfully getting the care they desperately need. This woman is correct, you can’t heal in the environment that you were hurt in. Thankfully my older sister was able to take them in and show them they are loved and so worth the investment!
Prayers for healing for this young woman and her siblings. ❤ Your dad won’t get away with this forever. I urge you to continue to pursue the legal system after him. Just him fondling you is criminal!
You didnr’t deserve being mistreated and abused ever. . My hope for you is too flourish without bad people, protect yourself from all drug and alcohol. Your articulate and a wise gentle strong young woman.. May God bless your many many good positive days ahead. 🙏❤️
Thank you. Please bring Angelina back and maybe she can help others see the path to healing, or else expose the shortfalls of the system. It just might save some young souls from a life of drug abuse and/or crime.
I am an incest survivor, now in therapy and EMDR, however, at the age of 73 , I still battle anxiety and depression, nervousness and rambling, it’s part of our trauma in childhood. However, we are determined people, taking Chemistry to apply to Pasadena Chiropractic College. I will die trying to thrive. Surviving is awful , poverty , working poor, besides childhood trauma. I am running out of hope lots of the time.
You are brave Angelina. Stay away from drugs and everything will be really OK. ❤
I can relate to this girl so much. It’s hard to talk about and work through trauma you can’t remember. It’s so difficult to get unstuck because of that.
What a smart and beautiful young lady. I truly hope she can get the help she needs and deserves to live a happy life. ❤
She’s going places! Very wise. I’ve been in similar trauma and this is the first stage of healing
As a therapist I can see when her body goes into the trauma before she starts speaking about it. She is a victor. She can survive!!!
Sweet girl, look into PTSD. I’ve been through very similar childhood experiences as you and have had many years of therapy. I found out I had cPTSD in my late 30s and finding the right trauma therapist can make a huge difference! Lots of love ❤️
She’s so beautiful. God bless her soul. Hope she learns to live with her trauma and that life finds a way to heal her pain. Some people are just mentally sick and can’t control their sexual impulses. It’s sad. I wish the world wasn’t like this.
Angela- Thank you for being so brave and daring to share your story. I am so sorry for everything you & your sister went through. It sounds like it was scary, heartbreaking, and really hard. You seem so wise and genuine. I heard you say that you have a large support system. That is great! May you receive all the support you need. You are so strong & courageous. Your story really made me feel so much compassion. Parts of your story reminded me of my childhood and how i grew up. Therapy has been one of the best things that has happened to me.
Angelina, as difficult as this was, be proud of yourself for sharing. You are helping other survivors to not feel so alone. BRAVO!
When she said she just remembers bits here and there but some is blank, I can relate to that. I’m in my early 60’s and never got help for a molester my aunt was married to. At times I’ve tried to remember details, thinking I could put it behind me but the brain just won’t go there. Interesting to hear someone else say it. Ugh! These cowards are too damn comfortable preying on innocent children.🤬
Lisa I am so sorry that you can relate. look into EMDR therapy, it’s supposed to help bring repressed memories to the surface. I am looking into it as well hoping to be able to remember more. I try to tell my brain that we are safe to remember it all now, but for some reason it is still hard to go back to that place. I hope you find healing and thank you so much for watching and listening to my story 🤍 have an amazing day :)
What an amazingly beautiful soul!!! 💓💓💓💓 She radiates off of this screen. I want to give her a huge hug and all the support she can take. One thing I HAVE to mention, as it sounds like she may start looking into therapy again elsewhere, FIND A THERAPIST THAT YOU CONNECT WITH!!! The others that you do not connect with, will not be able to help you completely. STAY STRONG!!!!
Such a mature young women. She’s gone through so much but by her sharing this she helping others and gives her an awareness of her own situation and in time she will get more answers. Just remember one day at a time. Prayers help let go and let God.
She’s a lovely person inside and out. Her father did not and cannot ruin her. I hope she sees that one day. She will get there.❤❤❤
What a sweet heart.I hope you all the best Princess and fly high special girl ❤ And thank you Mark, you are a special human ❤.A friend's son recommended this channel and have been so moved by the people you interview and your gentle spiritual respect. God bless.
I’m the 999th comment. I’m so thankful for this woman sharing her story. Praying God blesses her with happiness and healing in her future
I can't believe her current boyfriend is campaigning for her to give her father a free pass on his abuse, claiming karma is all the justice needed. What a total grub. Abusers don't just stop all of a sudden. Also given that both the interviewee and her sister are victims/witnesses I fail to see how the police are unable to progress any sort of investigation.
He means well he just doesn’t want me to give myself more problems than what i’m already going through. Like I said in the video choosing to take the legal route has created some more mental health obstacles for me but I chose to do it. Also, they are unable to convict him because my little sister isn’t ready to speak about what she went through yet and without any other witnesses or another complaining witness sadly there is nothing they can do until she is ready to come forward. Thanks for watching ❤
@@angelinat_But by bringing up the issue you may perhaps save someone else from experiencing the same trauma, so you're doing a good thing there. Stay strong, I wish you all the best ❤
@@C64SX you are exactly right and that was my same response and reasoning for doing it all and he understands and agrees! above all he just doesn’t want me to be hurt anymore and let down if I don’t get justice, but no matter what he supports and loves me :) Thank you for watching ❤️
@@angelinat_ Don't expect too much from the justice system, they have rules they must follow and not enough resources unfortunately so don't let any shortcomings on their behalf bring you down. Take comfort in knowing that if some other little girl is saved by your actions, it is still a win :)
@@angelinat_ Thanks for the reply Angelina. Look after yourself and best wishes for the future.