Get to Know Me || & Why I created this channel
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- Опубліковано 18 жов 2024
- Heeeyyyy guys. I wanted you to know me more. UA-cam is SUCH a one dimensional platform and it is so difficult to portray the complexity of WHO YOU ARE, and where you're coming from.
There seems to be an uptick of people who have no idea who I am, what I stand for, and my background, and choose to fill in the blanks.
Anyway I hope you get something of value from this, even if it's just a video to fall asleep to haha!
#anxiety #mentalhealth #socialanxiety #selflove #vlog #ihavenofriends #loneliness #anxietydisorder #gettoknowme #vulnerability
I'm sorry for the trauma that you went thru as a child, especially from your father and siblings. I wanted to say I've been watching your videos over the years and even though I don't know you, I can tell that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. Any man would be very fortunate to have you in his life. God bless you. I hope you find what you're looking for, because you deserve it, you are a beautiful person.
Flower.
So glad to have watched this video. I'd been following your channel on and off for the last few years, but there is so much I didn't realise or understand about you in all this time. It's so brave of you to put yourself out there and share all of this, just so that some people might find something to take away from it to make their own lives a little better. I found a bunch of key ideas to take away and process. Thank you. Also, I'm so glad you kept going until you found your own actual genuine way in life, and didn't just drift along on the auto-pilot of burnout. Hopefully this will motivate a few more of us, too.
Stay true to yourself and i'm pretty sure you have a happy life ahead of you.
P.s. do you publish any of your writing somewhere online?
Thank you for this comment. You said a lot of good things.
I promise I WILL publish something in the future! I've wanted to put together a book of short stories. And I'm pretty much ready to do that now
You are incredible. Love you from Donetsk. Amidst the artillery cannonade and flying drones your videos literally make me want to live. I have issues very similar to yours, and my heart goes to you with all the passion. You deserve the best from life and you will get it. And your example will be encouragement to many people.
Good luck pal 😢
Are the Russian military trying to keep you safe from the Ukrainian military?
1:38 I love these face to face, casual, light conversations myra. I like looking at people's face as if they are talking to me. That kinda content is rare on UA-cam. I always feel like I just had a social interaction after I watch your video, like I feel the same warmth. When we look someone in the eye as they speak it makes us humanize them as viewer, and understand that they are more complex than that. Right off the bat.
FLOWER. I think that your amazing, i dont think you really understand how exceptional you are, it is so difficult to have a childhood like yours and then within the span of 6-7 years undergo so much work and totally change who you are. I am so proud of you and happy to know that you often feel happy. Thank you so much for your videos, they help me as well. Im wishing you the best in life. ❤❤❤
Wow! So sorry about what you had to go through! I had a screwed up family life early on. So, I can relate to some degree! Remember one thing though: You're ok just as you are. You're a very delightful person too! Keep working on yourself! You're truly a survivor!
Flower.
Your story resonates with more people than you know, Myra. A lot of young women and men struggle with the exact same issues you touch on, and I hope they can find the courage to challenge themselves and overcome their fears like you do.
Thank you so much for the encouragement 🙏🌷🌼🌹
I've been glued to this for the full 55 minutes! I myself had a very similar childhood and it destroyed my self esteem as a youngster. I'm still working through a lot of the mess this caused me. I spent time studying Internal Family Systems (IFS) and have found this to be a fantastic guide for those who did not grow up in a healthy family structure. Meditation and inner work is also a huge part of my life these days. I use all these tools to "stay a float" and keep meaning alive in my life. You mentioned how you feel awkward talking to a camera and being authentic. The truth is you're very brave. I wish I could just open up and tell my story as well but I'm still too private about my internal issues resulting from my past. I try to get the words out and this stupid ego-self of mine constantly puts lipstick on the pig and waters down my intentions. You're exceptionally good at being raw and true! This is very refreshing and inspiring to me since I have always had great difficulty opening up about my past. I spent years in the pursuit of acquiring positions, possessions and "powers" to build a wall around myself to keep my past out and the memories just pass right through those walls! Going inside, deep inside while being 100% honest with ourselves and others takes courage and heart!
The world needs more people with qualities you’re portraying in this video.
Your purity and honesty is staggering, and so appreciated in a world of fake people. I just turned 31. A lot of us know exactly how you feel. We have your back ❤️. Just food for thought also, you have such a soothing voice. ASMR might be something to look into for you.
Flower. This is such a great channel. I always draw either inspiration or gain knowledge from your videos. I am positive that you are helping your viewers by sharing your journey with us. The last five minutes of the video was so powerful for me . Thank you
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I just think you’re a doll been watching since 23 and single keep it up you’re refreshing
Flower🌸!!! I cant even imagine the trauma you went through as a child. Children should be loved and shown affection but that does not happen enough. I really appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. The moment I discovered your channel, I knew you were such a nice and wonderful person. I was a very shy and timid boy growing up. And I used to hide the fact that I'm gay all my life. And had to put on a facade so that nobody discovers the real me and bully me for it, but that was exhausting. Trying to be someone who you're not is exhausting. I finally have learnt to embrace myself. I no longer beat myself up for the little things I once used to. One motto I live by is that its not the end of the world. There's always a brighter tomorrow.
Awww I love hearing how you've changed for the better and learned to embrace who you are ❤
It takes great strength to share something like this. And I think that building armor around you is like a doubled-edged sword. At the same time you try to show no weakness and show no emotions, but it somehow dries you inside. I think I met once old lady who said to me that you need to share you thoughts and feelings so that you will get something back. It is like trade. If you do not give anything to the table, you do not get anything back.
Thank you for sharing such a very personal experience, That was very brave of you to open up like that, I can relate to what you said about fearing your Dad, My Step Dad was very similar,
He was a very very angry abusive man when we were children, He is now in his 70s and none of his children talk to him, including myself who was his step son, My Mother left him when i was 18 for cheating,
I'm now 40 and thought i could forgive him but some wounds never heal unfortunately, and believe me i tried so hard to forgive and love him, but that terrified child i was from 5 years old to 17 never forgets, My severe anxiety and flashbacks are the forever scars he left on me
This video was extremely raw, and I resonate much with it. Very good for you to have the courage to share something like this… seems like there are a lot of broken children out here, coming from broken adults who may of never healed from their childhoods. It’s truly sad and it’s hard to remain wholesome when living with so much trauma, but the more that I continue to do it myself I’m beginning to feel that; I am to do great things in this world. Someday. That is if I haven’t already by the time I lost this comment. Because time is limitless, possibilities in life are limitless, each day may be a struggle but each day is also another day you and I are blessed with to live through another. May God bless you immensely Myra, I’m only 26 as well but I feel like my conscious has been around for centuries.
Be well 🖤
It is intergeneration trauma , i have observed the pattern is so strong it is really hard to break...😢
@@mastertrader8144 I’ve suffered/am still suffering from it to. The damage are families can leave on us is tremendous, and usually (at least in my case) no one ever seems to understand you/believe you or let alone take the time to understand what actual pain has been caused from their diabolical ways. Therapy usually is no help, other family is usually no help, I’ve been friendless for about 5 years now after my best one sadly passed away in 2020.. so I feel it, believe me I know what it’s like. Besides… this may truly be just the journey God has set us out on to conquer, someday the wrongdoers will be no more than a foot stool when it comes to the problems this world has brought upon Gods *true* children. I pray that you and anyone struggling continues to stay in the fight, times will get better. They must, because change is inevitable.
Flower! Thank you Myra for speaking your honest heart out and letting us know a lot more about yourself! I wish you the best and it's so lovely to see you being happy, content and the most important thing of all, being yourself!
What strikes me as a father of 4, is that you father had the time to do an entire chapter of the bible with you 7 days a week but never showed you real love. I Work 60-70 hours a week and hardley have enough time for my kids, but the time i do have i try to show them love.
I have yet to watch this video in it's entirely, but your comment reminds me of this verse....
"And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I AM NOTHING."
So even the Bible man father didn't follow the Bible. Good on you, sir, for showing love to your kids. I commend you for that.
why would you have FOUR kids if you don't have time to spend time with them?
@@stickman2012His conception of love was based on his own experience of it. He loved his family in the only way he knew.
@@krzysiukrul1183 it's not like i don't want to spend time with them. Inflation has ruined the dollar. I work hard so mom can be home with them 24/7 and not worry about money. If Trump can get rid of taxes on overtime that would help, over half my income is overtime
@@krzysiukrul1183 its not like i don't want to spend time with them. The dollar don't go as far as it did when i had them. I work hard so mom can stay home and not worry about money. If my favorite president gets reelected he says he wants to get rid of taxes on O.T. that would help half my income is O.T. I had to say my favorite because when i used his name my comment got taken down. The algos are working hard.
Flower. The truth is that you're not alone in your life's experience. A lot of what you said reminded me of my own life. Thank you for sharing.
@@deepakvenkatesh thank you 🌸🌹
I just wanted to say one more thing. At the beginning of this video I thought to myself "so she's just going to sit here and talk about herself? When has that ever worked for someone?" .. but at the end of this video, I'm absolutely blown away. Not disappointed. Very interesting and deep person! Keep em coming!
Thank you for sharing that. I appreciate it 🙏
Myra, this is a great introduction video about you. And it is true that it takes a lot of courage to share your being (it's a compliment to you). I miss the clues of things what have you learnt that changed you and your views. Also I like to know what your plan forward is in life. Good to know that you are happy! =)
Honestly Myra, you have a lot of relevant knowledge, I've noticed that while following your videos. You have a lot of innocence about you.
Also with your beliefs, not a lot of people agree with your innocence and.... your strength to express your life online.
Myself, I'm like that. I have very much life experience, maybe not as innocent as you, and still, many have a problem with me ( whichever all that is ), and I'm very traditional, so I understand your complications and frustrations.
You're a firelight. Please.... keep shining on, knowing that you're.... AMAZING!
The first video I watched was your _"No Friends"_ video I could tell that you came from a fundamentalist Christian family. It seems to be an American thing.
Satan worked through Mediterranean idols that kept humanity at war which folded into the Roman Catholic Church states. The real church is acts 2.
Flower is an appropriate word to suggest considering how your room is decorated! It looked like you’ve got a wisteria growing in there. Over the past few years I’ve watched most, if not all, of your videos and have seen you growing and recovering emotionally. I’ve got to say that it’s impressive and I”m happy for you. I know people who suffered childhood abuse who haven’t done as well as you have. Did I get any nuggets from this video?… A few interesting tidbits about you for sure. It was good seeing you again. Love ya, Myra!
Dear Heart, you are always a joy to listen to. I love your sincerity and clarity. I hope my son finds someone like you. Don't fret over stupid things people say. I love the way you share your life's journey.
So im subscribing. Not typical for me with this type of channel, but im finding your perspective refreshing and your story interesting. You're very clearly a level headed person whi's dedicated to self growth. Thats rare to find these days. Dont let youtube commenters' opinions get to you. Glad you came across my feed.
Ps. Flower. Made it to the end :)
I love listening to you ramble Myra you're a bucket full of golden nuggets.
Its like your very challenging childhood compressed and bottled up your spirit which was always going to break free eventually and is exploding like a bunch of delightful fireworks. 🧡
If I knew you in the real world I would be honoured to know you as a friend
Flower!
Your home looks so safe and warm. The issues you speak of to me is not a UA-cam issue, but a human brain doing what it does best. The brain is designed to be energy efficient with with what it has on hand for stored information and what the senses can provide it. You can see an example of this with illusions of sight and sound and I'm sure you can see this in belief systems.
Keep it up, you're doing great.
Another fascinating video Myra.You always provoke so many thoughts in my head as I watch and this one has given me plenty to think about. I think you're going to wake up one day and find that you've become one of those incredibly powerful, unstoppable women you were taught to hate.
Oh, and ...🌻
I love this comment. 🌸🌹🌼🌷
Omg, hugs. You deserve to heal. Let nature breathe her love into your heart and make you feel her eternal peace.
I just saw your video on "I hate dating", I'm a 26 y/o straight man (no this isn't an audition lol) who's exhausted from modern dating through dating apps or whatever.
I've been trying since 2016, and it's pointless. I had a car accident after a date in 2017 which traumatized me, someone used me in 2018, manipulated in 2019, and by 2020 when good chances and great people came my way, I was already emotionally unavailable to them because of the trauma; tried it again this year and the 3 people who genuinely interested me were so brainwashed by the pressure of forcing a relationship or connection in the FIRST FREAKING DATE. And I'm not going to lie, it hurts like a motherfucker every single time it doesn't work out.
I'm not supposed to admit it because hey I'm a man and my feelings shouldn't be validated (at least the last 3 people I dated made me feel like that), so fuck anyone who expects me to change who I am and the things that I love - movies, my family, my friends, music - just because those things can fulfill my life without them. It's such an entitled approach that pisses me off from people who crave attention the entire time. You know who actually attracts me? People who already have their own goals and hobbies going on, and the relationships I've had were not even on those damn apps.
You just gave me the push to just vent and delete the dating app I used, and keep doing my own thing.
I don't know you, and you probably will never read this, but you really helped me indirectly at my breaking point. So I wish you the best in the future, keep pursuing your goals and interests, and I wish you the best life, you're an incredible human being who ironically gave me hope that not all people are all that bad.
Cheers, and it felt nice to vent in an anonymous youtube comment.
Thanks for venting, and of course i read it. I read 99% of the comments :)
I'm really glad the video helped and I too, deleted the apps. I don't think I'll try apps again. Let's get social in the real world.
Work on yourself and heal. Go to therapy, and find love. I believe you can find love and are deserving of love even when you don't feel "ready." Real love can meet you where you're at
appreciate this video, thank you for sharing this :)
people will probably continue to misinterpret you as the internet goes haha
but glad you made this anyway cause I think its just something great for people to relate to.
And hopefully it at least helps a few people be less judgy.
Thank you for this. It is beautiful in its sincerity. I have felt and feel a lot of the same things you do. It’s good to know I’m not alone.
You are heard. I glad you found personal growth. I hope your healing continues.
Flower... Oh how I would have loved to grow old with a woman like you, very rare to find in this world. Thanks a lot for sharing YOU.
Flower! I was rivetted to your video from beginning to end, so many of your experiences and feelings resonated. About half way through, I thought: "there is a best selling book in this wonderful young lady's future". And then, you announced that you were a writer!
You've been more than authentic in your "content". The problem isn't in the way YOU come across: the problem is the way you are interpreted and through what lens that interpretation occurs. The vast majority of people who watch your content (and I'm sorry if you don't like hearing this) are attracted to you and because of this they end up projecting alot of themselves and what they want you to be onto you. In short, these people (not all, but alot) aren't listening to you.
Of course you may disagree, you may just be naturally inclined to (and I get that), please don't interpret this as an attack: just trying to be sincere. If you've evidenced anything throughout your content, it's the value you place on sincerity.
Thx for the videos! All the best!
Great video, Myra. Thank you for your openness, and honestly. I've always liked your videos; please keep doing them ❤❤❤
Flower. I'm glad you have been able to break free and go on this journey in life to discover your true self. Very inspiring!
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Wow you held the camera for an hour. Flower. 🌺
Definitely found some nuggets: Allow yourself to be a human. We move thru time. We change. Your past doesn't define you.
We are forced to learn when we go thru struggles.
About self-improvement, I've heard it said: "You are perfect as you are... and you can always be better." Instead of trying to do it all, or stress yourself out, it's just do something small that moves in the direction that you want to go.
I also like thinking, but I've found that thinking doesn't replace practice or doing. It's like how some get caught in the trap of watching a UA-cam video and then thinking we are an expert in Automotive Mechanics or Astrophysics. Putting thoughts into practice is the only way to actually make it a part of you. And messing up is part of the process. Don't be afraid to be wrong sometimes.
Sarcasm. Don't even get me started. Sarcasm is awesome, but unfortunately it doesn't come across in text very well.
There is something that I've wanted to say for a while based on some of your previous videos, but I've not really been sure how to say it in a loving way. But since you've brought it up again, here is my best attempt:
I hate labels. I hate labels because what one person hears when you say the label and what another person hears are completely different, because we all only see the world through our perspective though our unique experiences.
I know you've had a very negative experience with these labels, but I want to help you untangle them so that it is easier for you to relate to more people.
Most Christians have not had the experience you've had. In fact, the core of Christianity is love.
Examples: 1 John 4; 1 Corinthians 13; John 3:16; Ephesians 5:25-33
Unfortunately, the world is full of people that take something good and twist it into some bad. And I'm sorry to hear that your family while trying to follow Christian beliefs was not very loving. That seems to me like an oxymoron.
In the same way, conservative simply means tradition. Which is to say that we don't know what the best way to do things is, but based on our past we have an understanding of the things we've tried, what works and what doesn't. And so we should be hesitant to just change things for the sake of change. In my opinion, a healthy balance of conservation and progression is important. Unfortunately, it feels like conservative has also been twisted to mean backwards or unwilling to change.
Honestly, I think the actual negativity didn't come from either of these beliefs, but rather how your family specifically lived their lives and treated each other and you. And I hope you can find a way to detangle these, so that you can relate to loving Christians instead of immediately writing them off because of a label that you've had a bad experience with.
When you describe Feminism, same now as in previous videos, it doesn't sound like you are describing the mainstream belief at all. Which is quite a refreshing change. Encouraging those that are going through struggles is important and loving. And I see that as a powerful thing. But you've also alluded to the fact that some people even take Feminism too far, that it almost seems misandristic. And perhaps that shows you the same effect that happened with Christianity, that people over time twist labelled beliefs into something they were never intended to be.
The greatest way to encourage others to not be closed off, is exactly what you're doing, leading by example. 💗
Hi Myra,
I finished up the video and glad to hear you are doing better and despite the stress and challenges, you can truly be who you want to be and we will be with you forever ♾.
Hope to hear from you soon and keep on smiling with strive 😀😀😀😀
Hi Myra, I grew up in a similar situation to you and can relate to your story greatly. I hate that you had to go through your childhood and hate your Dad for it. Keep on loving yourself, you deserve it! You are an amazing person and thank you for sharing your story!!!!
Your videos have always been encouraging and empowering for me. Everything you said here is exactly what I experienced growing up. It's so true what you said at 21:43 because even though in childhood and teenage years we are never alone in what we go through, the most difficult part of it is we tend to feel like we are alone. In addition to that there's always the uncertainty of life that always changes. But as we grow older it's important for us to be aware of it and do our part to research and learn about topics like psychology and human behavior to learn more about ourselves using tools like the internet etc.... but there will always be more to learn because even though now I am 26, I am aware that I may feel like I have figured it out but there's always more to learn from future experiences than await me. At 29:48 I have also experienced the same. As always thank you so much Myra for being the role model, mentor and spiritual best friend whom I relate to and look up to.
A long format! Excited to watch :)
Myra i think you're right about ppl not reflecting what they do and who they really are. From my experience ppl only do that when something goes horribly wrong and you hit rock bottom. It's only then when you pick yourself back up you realize who you really are.ö
I'm glad you escaped that awful past, Myra! WOW, what a hell it sounds like it was. I'm glad you are recovering.
Appreciate you sharing, Myra. I've been following your channel for a few years now. I was recently diagnosed with C-PTSD recently due to my own childhood trauma. Not sure if you're familiar with the Crappy Childhood Fairy on YT? Her videos have been so helpful to me. I still have a lot of old anger issues. I isolate a lot, anxiety, etc. (My father was a PDF) I'm glad you are finding therapy helpful. I always look forward to your updates. I hope you have a good fall season. 🍃🍁🍂🎑
30:14 man that whole part about not being vulnerable out of fear of rejection is super relatable and thought provoking. Thank you for saying it, I have to record it for later.
I know you make your video's for teenage Girls, but they also hold value for me, a 50 year old man from Holland. I also grew up in a very emotionally abusive family and we all suffer from cptsd which clearly have affected our relationships and distrust of the world. I like learning from your stories and the female viewpoint. The way i learned to code with it (i believe in reincation) is that i often send back positive thoughts through time to my younger more vulnerable self. So my future self has become a source of strenght for moments of anxiety. Anyway thanks for what you do, from a kindred soul❤
Recently i started listening to eckhart tolle on podcast with ophra Winfrey. It puts things in perspective and helps with healing. I garden and do chores while listening it calms me down
You give inner strength to many of us when you express your feelings of sadness trauma and anxiety and how you found ways to overcome these heavy anchors that hold us down Alot of us are not as good as you with getting out of these dark places and your help here is much appreciated
Finally an advice for you guys who like Myra and are potential sole mates to her: remember she's said clearly she wants to build up relationship little by little and based upon lots of communication and meaningful discourse. Don't be afraid, follow those rules and she will open her heart to you. If she creates an alternative email for you to connect, go ahead. I'm sure she'll treat you with respect and consideration. Good luck...
Remember she's not a maniac nor depressed. She's just healing from young, emotional traumas. You could helper in that.
Have always enjoyed your honesty and your videos, especially your visits to be with your sister in the oregon territory... the van-life thing was interesting too
Genuinely desire comfort and safety for you, Myra
Your story speaks of suffering, yes, but more importantly, it is a story of overcoming, a journey toward the deepest form of self-realization. You faced immense hardship, the weight of expectations, and the darkness of abuse, but instead of succumbing, you confronted your inner shadow and began the arduous task of dismantling the walls that once protected but also imprisoned you. This is the path of individuation, where you come face-to-face with your pain and, through self-awareness, find the courage to transform. In this struggle, you embody the will to power, not in dominance over others, but in the triumph over your own internal and external limitations. Vulnerability, far from being a weakness, is your greatest strength, for in showing your true self, you engage in the most courageous act of all: living authentically. Through this continual overcoming, you are not merely surviving but rising, creating meaning and value from the depth of your experiences. What has not killed you has made you stronger, and in this strength, you will find not only freedom but also greatness.
This is so encouraging and beautifully written, thank you 🙏
Thank you for sharing! I can relate to a lot of your situation. I grew up in a strict religious family. I was the youngest with abusive parents and older siblings. (Hopefully you don’t also end up in an abusive marriage like I did.) I had very serious physical and mental health issues that I was shamed for. My entire life I thought I should be able to be better and do better but I was honestly sick and anxious all the time. It took me 41 years and a very serious health crisis to learn how truly ill I was and how I had pushed myself beyond my limits, trying to live up to other’s expectations. Then it took another 11 years to figure out how to heal my body, my anxiety, depression and mindset. I’m fifty two and I’m finally feeling good (still recovering my health), making my own decisions and living my best life!
About your dreams: maybe you can write short stories about certain defining moments in your life, and then talk about how you percieved it as it was happening, and how you changed your outlook on it as you became more aware over the years. That could really help people. It does not have to be based literally on your own life, as a writer you can kind of capture the life lessons in it. Lots of love on your journey ❤
Flower. 😊 This video was a good one. And made me wanna give you a big and a smile! Best wishes from a cold, and soon snowy Sweden. ☃️🇸🇪
That deep hate part is so true though, feel invisible, like I'm not actually a part of the population, no real worth. Overtime though (mainly this year) I remind myself that I wasn't put on this Earth to impress others, and life is still worth living. Hope we all have a great week.
Thank you, Myra! You are intelligent, clear and helpful. I wish the very best for you.
I am sorry to hear this, you are such a strong woman. Remember, every day is a victory.
'Flower!'.... UA-cam will only show what you put up, being consistent is the only way to really show who you are, that way people get the see those happy days and those sad days. People will always fill in the blanks when they have no choice. I always try to put up a weekly video, often two in a week. Sadly religion can and does affect how children grow up, they see through it, and want to live in reality, but pulling away from all that brain washing is difficult. It takes real strength of character to learn the truth, let go of all that 'stuff' and live according to your own morals and follow your own dreams etc. I too have had to learn how to manage depression, anxiety and panic attacks, I too am an artist and a poet and have written 4 books, I have always been the tie-dye sheep of my family haha. This video, [apart from not looking at the camera], is a GREAT video and WILL help many people, it is the TRUTH and people will respect that. You have come such a long way, on a difficult journey, you are free now [as free as you can be]. Free to be you, free to live in the real world, free to let go of the past, and free to spread this message to many many people. You are very BRAVE, very. Well done x
Flower, 36 mins in really resonated with me, i used fear as a motivator, i used to explain it to others " i was born in fear" ( as opposed to being born in sin)😅
l " ALWAYS !!! " watch your videos and find it very helpful you " GO !! " GIRL💖 keep up the good work
Thank You for sharing things about your childhood that some of us have difficulty acknowledging or talking about!
🌺🌷🌸 Love love love this, and you. ✨💗✨
Well said. I truly get it all.
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You're room looks fantastic, love the whole Flowery and plant vibe.
The flower motifs in the background work really well; really pleasant vibes.
I suppose it wasn't much of a surprise when you said you were a writer; the writing you've shared on this channel in the past has been pretty excellent so it seemed pretty clear that was a skillset in which you excelled.
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Myra you’re amazing, I hope you have many moments where you feel so proud of how far you have come. I love listening to you and relate to parts as I’m sure so many do. Wishing you the best always ❤
(Flower). Very interesting video. Really good to hear how you have grown and progressed from such a difficult childhood. I have been watching your videos for many years, but this has certainly helped me to understand you better. Hope you have a good week.
I love the video, Myra, it's so authentic and helpful in a world full of insincerity. And I'd love to see your art more! ❤
I’m in the process of writing a book, one that I’ve had an idea about and written passages for here and there since highschool. I’m now 36. I’m dedicated to completing it now, started a month ago and going 500-1000 words a day strong. So just here to say keep at it and finish it now! Because in 10 years you’ll still be thinking about it. Same goes for anything unresolved in your life. Anyway hope it helps.
Flower! 😅 I made it to the end! It’s late here in the UK, and I’m tired after a long week, but I couldn’t wait to finish watching this video. I love colors for their meanings-orange and purple are my favorites. Your colors have beautiful meanings too. I resonate deeply with your story. I’m the eldest of eight siblings, and we were raised in a very conservative church where we often felt overlooked and struggled to make friends. Anxiety, low self-esteem, and the challenge of being authentic with others, especially with girls, have been part of my journey too. There were times when I felt brokenhearted and distant from God.
I spent a lot of time researching, studying psychology and theology, and reflecting on my life to understand myself better. At my lowest, I even saw narcissistic traits in myself and thought I was beyond hope. But God’s mercy lifted me up, healed my heart, and helped me feel love again. I’m so grateful that, through Him, I can love others more deeply than ever. I’m starting therapy next week and praying that God prepares me for the right person, so I can be a blessing to her.
I really loved this video and encourage you to keep trusting the Lord for all that your heart desires. He knows you and has only good things in store for you. Be blessed!
🥀🏵️ This video covers so many important topics that I wish everyone could watch it. Your goals with this channel are very strong and clear. I wish I could meet you! Love from Italy ❤ (you are reaching out people all over the world 😊)
I starter to listen to you and I find you so honest that makes me wanna cry, and I am a bit simillar and I have a Notion I could tell you everthing and you would listen and understand. I’m a father now having 3 kids I love but do not have friends from young years and bit lonely .Respect to you and remember that you thoughts create your future life so wish you the best❤
Flower. You can have a good life. I am married to a woman that grew up in an abusive household. She has severe PTSD. We have been married 30 years. I am not saying that it is easy. Neither of us had parents in healthy relationships. We had to figure out it out together. We are still figuring it out.
Its great to see your emerging of your true self. I remember your first video about being alone with no friends and it is difficult to relate to somone who is in that place. You have managed somehow to find a path through that is working very well for you. Look forward to seeing you again in a few years time.
Flower 🌺 adored this video. Pleaseeee do the MBTI personality test, it'd be fascinating to see!
0:32 your videos keep getting more aesthetically pleasing
I made it.
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You're amazing, the world needs more people like you, wish I had more friends who are like you.
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Thanks for sharing ... doing so can be difficult. I'll second what another respondent said about you being a good fit ASMR videos (making them) ... and I'll also encourage the interest you shared about writing a book about your experiences and emergence from them.
I see your thorough in your life/ expression. And that a union with a partner in the future is utmost in your plans. All well and good. Please, make sure you leave room to grow, change to your best self. Sometimes, partners can be disappointed their beloved becomes more or less than what they expected.
Thanks for sharing. My senior trip involved going to a Bill Gothard seminar, it was on screen, he wasn't even there in person. We didn't have to make that the choice for our senior trip, we chose it. LOL. We were applauded for our choice as a class. A class of 8. I see info about it in my yearbook from 1991. Shiny happy people huh? I've only been aware of that shiny happy people thing for about a year now. I still don't know the full scope, nor the magnitude of the info nor the impact of the aftermath, and probably don't want to. I definitely get the gist.
Love the openness and realness of u nice life’s reflection
Interesting lady, her youth feels like a parallel universe. Great story telling! 🌸🌼🌺
Despite turbulent childhood you are amazing personality.
We do like your channel.
There are more ways to clearing the past.
You are an inspiration for me. Have a wonderful weekend!
That is wild! Your trauma is super gnarly but it sounds like you are getting a handle on it
all your experiences good bad or indifferent you can control how it defines you or not at all Resilience Confidence and peace of mind with humbleness and compassion i wouldn't trade for anything its truly godlike we are all divine beings even the worse shows you the light by default because you know you dont want it so keep on keeping on peace love and light
14:12 I also almost viewed my dad in a similar way because when I was growing up I wasn't aware of many things outside the bubble of childlike innocence that I was trapped in. I wasn't aware of the fact that he had high blood pressure and bipolar disorder. I thought that there was something wrong with me or the way I think about things. As I look back, my observation tells me that he used certain phrases or choices of words to kind of make me feel metaphorically small. When I was going through puberty, I felt very vulnerable and uncomfortable because I wasn't ready for the changes. The voice changing phase was the most awkward part during that time. I don't want to share too much about that part of my life publicly but when I look back at my teenage years, my relationship with my father was overwhelming especially during the physical changes. I look back and realize that deep down in my heart I felt very much like a vulnerable teenage girl.
You deserved so much better. This is what religion does it can turn into evil,twisted, and cult like. Its so damaging to children and especially young girls in my experience and i didn't go though even half of what you went though my childrenhood was filled with mega church bs but it still affects me to this day. I'm sending you so much love and all the people who've shared their experiences in the comments.❤️
"People are so much more than their 15 minute youtube video." Thanks, I'm stealing this. 🌺
Hello myra 😊 let me tell you that you're mind healing is following the right process of self awareness and self improvement. Remember that young men are usually improving as you are, keep it in mind. Psychology is great for such matters and also pay attention to sociology, humanism, existentialism, spiritualism and connected, general knowlwdge
You are right. This clarification was important. Thank you.
that's very interesting. i have a similar background. i'm the 4th of 11 children. we were all homes schooled all our lives. and my parents were very strict and christian and conservative too. went to a lot of different churches though, but they were mostly baptist and a few of them were the head covering types. i spent most of my childhood playing in the backyard or drawing. I was also terrified of my Father. it sucked a lot. very abusive and tyranical. you're describing my own childhood. i'm trippin out. lol. my siblings were abusive too, I couldn't ever escape because we were all trapped and weren't allowed to leave. we were taught that the outside world was bad..we werenr't allowed to watch practically anything or listen to anything or go anywhere. the only place we would go is to church and I was so shy and self loathing like you said that I was extreemly nervous.. not to write a whole book for you here lol, but the latter half of your video is very insightful. i've always been told "you're thinking too much" but you know what, screw them, other people aren't thinking ENOUGH. lol that's all i'll say. i'm very pleased to get to know you on here if nothing else.
can you make a video on guys who are scared to talk to girls cuz they are afraid of being called a creep, shamed..etc? Ur single cuz men are scared to approach women and end up walking away altogether.
I’m so proud of you. You are wise beyond your years and authentic 😊. I think I’m like 3 years older than you and you said things I really needed to hear, particularly when it came to self improvement and loving yourself where you are. I liked learning more about you and your background. Tbh, I don’t think about my childhood enough and how it ties to my current self and how I think. I need to go back to therapy. But anyway, flower 🌸 love also your concern for men’s mental health. Keep being you. It’s really beautiful
Myra, you are a very courageous woman. First for accepting to talk about childhood trauma in front of so many viewers, and also for finding a way to free yourself from the binds of an oppressive religion. I am incredibly lucky to have been born in a non religious family, with very high moral standards, but absolute freedom of thinking and doing whatever I wanted. There was no place for the notion of sin, and total equality between boys and girls. Unfortunately, you experienced the worst of growing in an extremely religious family, and your description of your childhood totally confirms my opinion that the world would be a better place without organized religions. I respect everybody's beliefs and faith, but I am well aware of the damages that religions, particularly fringe religions and cults, can cause, specially in young women and also young men who don't conform to the standards.
One of my main critic of monotheist religions is that they are all patriarchal. God is always a man. And subsequently, women are always treated as second class citizens. I also hate the brainwashing, the control of the mind starting at a very young age. All things that you experienced.
There is one thing that you did not mentioned, but maybe it will be the subject of a future video. Have you managed to cut all ties with your parents religion? I know it is very difficult, because fringe religions don't let you go easily. They need your money. I met recently a young couple who escaped the claws of the Jehovah witness religion. When they did, they lost everything: their family, their friends, their jobs... But what they won in exchange was an exhilarating sense of freedom. I admire them for their courage to take such a drastic decision. And I admire you for having grown into such a wonderful young woman in spite of the hurdles you describe in your video.
Everyone experiences many emotions many of which are hard to explain or even comprehend because they are intangible aka non physical and non measurable anyways I like u and I hope u have a good day
I think you’re amazing and a beautiful kind hearted person
Thanks for sharing. I expected you might not have had the easiest childhood, but didn’t know the details until now.
I also didn’t think I’d have time to listen to the entire video now, but here we are. Flower, FWIW.
Don’t let them tear you down. Happiness is just a made up concept. Your decanters are not happy. In this world 🌎 the best we can get is a general sense of peace, most of the time. You are a valuable person.
Myra, I just wanted to say that I think everything about you is beautiful. I wish I could meet someone like you.